Through the entire insanity of all of these stories, she said one of the most profound statements I've heard around drug addiction. "I don't even know how to be me, that's why I use." If you know, you know. I am a recovered addict btw.
Wow. You picked that sliver of straight truth and cry 😢 for help / out of all that delusional madness 💀. You are very sharp 🤔. That one statement said a lot 😢
My bestfriend was addicted to meth (she has 11 months clean right now) and the day before she went into detox she sent the cops to my house to do a wellness check and told them I was being held hostage and she thinks in China because every time she asked for my address (to tell the cops which I had no clue why she kept asking for my address over and over again) I was apparently sending her different places in China (even though she gave the cops my address and came over to my house later in the day). She also told them that I hadn’t answers her texts or calls in a week even though I had talked to her about 10 times on the phone that day. She also truly believed that I was in her attic and would call me begging me to come out and to stop screaming at her in her attic. Many more things, but if you watch this channel and this video you get that I could go on forever lol. Very sad. But she’s doing AMAZING now and so strong in her sobriety I’m praying it sticks but I’m gonna love her where she’s at and right now she’s sober so I’m thankful ❤
What an absolutely amazing story. Thank you. I don't know anyone on drugs. Im old old. To think a person would think you were in their attic yelling at them and calling them on the phone to come down is just so heart breaking
My flatmate, a friend was likely with some conditions also would have psychosis and delusions...I loved and cared for her so much and did everything I could but she just ended up telling people I raped her and that I tortured her..when we go on a trip, she would be convinced that I will get her killed...it really affected my mental health so much in the end but now she just disappeared and I miss and worry about her.
I've watched many of Mark's interviews and this one made me cry. I dealt with this intimately with someone I loved with every fiber of my being, she's gone now. To all those who are making fun of her or just see her as just another "old speed whore" I ask you to just close your eyes for a few moments. See a little girl, so small, so vulnerable. Eyes full of wonder and hope. Wearing maybe a cute sundress with a bow in her hair and pretty pink sandals. So excited about her first day of school or hoping that she may get that new Barbie Doll she saw another little girl playing with. Looking at those who brought her into this world for love, protection, reassurance that she's good and means something to them and this world. Now imagine that little girl bruised, beaten, sexually, emotionally abused told she's worthless, dirty and there is no hope for her. Who does that little girl turn too? She can't even comprehend what is happening to her. She accepts it, begins to hate herself and her existence. All wonder and hope is lost. Now open your eyes. Do you still just see "an old speed whore"?
People who feel that way about human beings who are struggling in any way or any reason can’t be changed. This world is cold and calloused unfortunately. Just like you, though, there are wonderful, caring people all around. 🫶🏼
Thank you. My daughter is four and I frequently grow my empathy and compassion for others through picturing their face when they were a child. It really helps. It worked wonders when people are being mean and hateful; hurt people hurt people. Love is the remedy🖤
She had me in the first half or so. But it became pretty clear that most of it is delusions to to drug induced psychosis or schizophrenia. There is likely some truth to the story at the bottom of all that, but who knows what's what. It's just sad to see what the subjective reality of these lost souls are. Looks like she really believs her words. It must be torture.
When ppl are on meth they don’t sleep or dream and that can cause hallucinations and delusional thinking. To her these fantasies are real. I’m sure the reality of her situation is bad enough tho. :-(
Absolutely agree. The dragging a baby down the road by it's umbilical cord is some of the most horrific shit I have ever heard on this channel. That is the moment I said nope, she is hallucinating and delusional.
@anthonyloconte7835 my moment was after the land owner and oil on her land, Then The Publishers Clearing House..THAT did it for me... She's in awful shape..hard to watch any human suffering...💙🌎
"I am a land owner.. they took that.. I struck oil.. they took that.. I won Publishers Clearing House.. they took that...... someone is probably in my room as we speak raping my son .. " WTF 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱.. GOD HELP HER
I feel so grateful for everyday videos you provide for us Mark!! Never stop making this quality stories. Watching your videos and your patience in interviews are making me a better woman! Love from Belgrade, Serbia!!❤
They have had that effect on me too…and a lot of us, I think. It’s humbling to see. It’s such a positive venue. ❤. My Grandma was from Croatia. She named my dad Monte, after Montenegro. Much love 💞 from the U.S.
Oh no. No no no. My heart goes out to her, i don't even know what to say about this yet, kinda speechless. I hope, with all my heart,she gets the help she so desperately needs. Thanks Mark, for showing us reality, even when its uncomfortable to witness. Please let her be protected.
A true meth interview. Very tough to keep any track of the story. I hope the best for her. I’m not sure if she is coherent enough to get out of her current situation. But I wish better things for her
I can't even begin to imagine the dark prison that her paranoid thoughts keep her chained to. Her facial grimaces are contorted into such pain, sadness & torture that it feels like she should be in a psychiatric hospital. How she began the interview appearing somewhat normal then descended into such wild stories was horrifying. She reminds me of a dog that wholeheartedly howls at the moon in some primordial response to lunacy.
Thank you, Mark. This one was tough. You did a great job, as always. Because of Cindy's long-term meth use, she likely has Methamphetamine Psychosis. I hope she is getting help for this.
It’s crazy what that drug does to you. The majority is the lack of sleep. The psychosis you get from that is nuts. You truly feel these things are happening to you.
@@Luna7-v1peah Im in recovery for poly drug addiction (primarily crack/fentanyl and meth also in the past few years) and I've experienced some serious sleep deprivation induced psychosis. Back in 2012 I went through something really traumatic and developed serious PTSD and that combined with my hardcore cocaine use caused me to suffer from hallucinations, I was only sleeping 2-3 hours a week for several months. When I would sleep I would have terrible night terrors and when I would wake up I'd be extremely suicidal. It got so bad that I would constantly hallucinate that there were dead bodies around every corner... Eventually I started to abuse oxycotin to help me be able to pass out and it was also a relief from the mental anguish but this led to a serious opiate addiction that led to heroin and eventually fentanyl. In 2021 I overdosed on fentanyl after being up for days smoking crack and meth and when I od'd I had a gun on me.. it ended up saving my life because I got arrested for the gun and spent the next 5 months in jail which allowed me to actually get sober for the first time in almost 20 years ( since I was 16 and got hooked on coke) when I Initially bailed out and was put on house arrest with an ankle monitor at a relatives house. I also started counseling for my PTSD, depression and anxiety etc and it's played a major role in my success in getting sober. Ive only used 4-5 times in the last year and only once in the past 6months which is an unbelievable accomplishment for me. I can honestly say that in 2021 before I got arrested I was positive I'd end up dead from my drug abuse. If anyone is reading this and thinking to themselves it's impossible to get off dope know that it is possible because if I could get to where I am now anyone can. And that's not to say I'm out of the woods yet. I believe drug addiction and mental illness are things that you cant escape from but it is possible to manage and learn to cope with.
Also in my experience I find that the meth that's on the streets these days is much stronger and causes greater psychological damage than the meth from a few years ago even. It was never my drug of choice and tbh I found it would actually make me feel tired for some reason no joke. I was a really hardcore crack user and was also selling all sorts of drugs to support myself and sometimes when I'd been up for days and the crack wasn't keeping me up anymore I'd switch to meth to keep me going and it wouldn't even keep me awake... I've been doing in recovery for the last 2 years and I've managed to only use a few times in the past year. The last time I smoked meth was during a brief relapse at Christmas time when I picked up some fentanyl and the street dealer gave me a couple points of meth as a sample. I don't know if it was because I hadn't been using in a while or what but that meth really messed me up. I only did about a point (100 milligrams or ⅒ of a gram) and I was severely twisted for several days, couldn't sleep even though I was doing fentanyl too and I was babbling/serious verbigeration at one point. It actually scared the shit out of me and I swore I'd never use meth again and I haven't since and have no plans to lol
@@jungjeru3348congrats on your recovery. my husband was clean and sober for almost two years, and fet killed him as soon as he relapsed. Using even once is too dangerous, which is also why the meth makes people fall asleep because it's got fet in it too.
@@bugazi88yes really, almost every single person on here has absent or questionable parents. He’s not saying that kids with good parents can’t go wrong.
@@bugazi88ok? But what the original commentator said still is true. MOST people (statistically speaking) in jail, or fighting addiction typically don’t have a father in their home. Not saying what ur stating isn’t less true, but BOTH are true at the same time.
Damn. This girl is wayyyy deep in meth psychosis. Her brain has taken a nasty hit. I hope she can find a way to climb out of the very dark hole she is in. She is completely OUT of reality……freestyling straight off the dome! Mark…..I don’t know HOW you sat so patiently through this one. Respect. This poor woman needs to be in patient in a psych hospital for an extended stay. Hopefully her brain is not damaged beyond repair……🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 I am worried about this one’s immediate future……
People, whether you are a single parent, raising sons and/or daughters, please teach them self worth. Teach them happiness comes from within. Provide unconditional love. This is the basic tool box for success.
@@mc2043 they need to be taught what is appropriate and what is not. More importantly, they can come to you unconditionally if they are not sure or feel uncomfortable around certain people or places. Children want to talk, you have to be prepared to respond with support! Then take action. Young people need validation.
I think sometimes just before the interview the guest is nervous so they smoke … it hits about 10 min into the interview. Just a thought. Because we have seen this often
They should show Mark’s videos in schools. These are real life stories everyone should hear, from an early age. I’m sure these videos would matter to many kids…
Exactly! The horrible “Just Say No” campaign on the 80’s was bullsh!t. Real people baring their souls, telling real stories are ultimately what can combat the youth from going down the same road 🤷♀️
I appreciate your intentions with helping the kids to reject living a dark life by showing them the darkest corners of humanity.. but on the flip side I can't help but think how overexposed children already are to drugs, violence, sex & everything else that's breaking down our communities. If opportunities were made available in all communities for every child to participate in, kids might have a better chance at having a more fulfilling life ahead. For example, in lower income neighborhoods.. besides having a coulple shady little parks on a corner filled with drugs, gangs or violence, most neighborhoods have absolutely nothing available for these children to do. So they fall victim to their circumstances. It's sad but true. Is it possible to change this senerio? Absolutely it is! But not easy at all. It will take everyone to first educate ourselves with what is really happening & the deep seeded issues that create such despair. Marks channel is an amazing educational platform to help us understand why & how these beautiful souls got to where they are today. After educating ourselves.. we, NOT just the government, but "we the people", can then brainstorm ideas how we can implement some positive change into every community. Then take action. Again, it definitely would not be an easy feat.. but it is possible.
They’re already banning books… you think they’d allow these videos to be shown to kids in schools? Either way, kids are mostly morons. I’ve seen how middle school (and even a few high school kids) react to these videos. My brother has shown his daughters a few of them. Without proper guidance, seeing this shit doesn’t deter them from making terrible decisions. It’s up to the parents to show them the way.
One of my closest friends started using meth and soon after almost everything that came out of his mouth was a lie. It was such a betrayal of trust.... I had to end the friendship. Meth is the devil in disguise!
I don't know if there is an award for interview shows but if there is Mark deserves the top honor.These interviews should make anyone who is Not suffering abuse,addiction or mental illness more grateful and most of all more empathetic towards those who are afflicted with such destructive situations.May God Bless these lost souls 🙏🙏🙏
For those who have the beautiful privilege to judge her, im so thankful (as you should be) that you have never had to experience neglect-compounded with severe trauma-compounded with drug addiction-compounded with mental illness. It is not for the weak hearted, and although im glad you dont have to witness anything like this in your own life, i do wonder why you cant just learn to have a small amount of empathy and/or sympathy towards others suffering. If youre not born with it, it absolutely can be learned. ✌🏼&🩵 from California USA
I wholeheartedly agree with and thoroughly enjoyed your comment! I know all too well the sinister nature of addiction. Though I managed to escape and have been clean for 2years I wouldn't wish it on any human. The people who aren't addicts, have never been addicted and have no genetic predisposition to addiction don't realize how lucky they are. It's all too easy for people to forget and internally rationalize all of their own sins and shortcomings while listening to someone they believe to be too far gone down the rabbit hole. I hope this woman someday gets the help and resources that she deserves.
Look .. I am NOT.. NOT.. judging anyone.. Everyone has a story.. everyone has past pain... But I just can't or don't know what to believe from the story she tells. I pray God will protect her and she finds peace..
My husband introduced me to crystal meth. He taught me how to smoke. Sounds lovely! You can clearly see the drug induced psychosis. Put down the drugs!
Cindy may you reach a point of being tired and sick of being tired. I dated someone who binged heavy drugs for years, let them go and still suffered remnants of the effects on the mind and mood. Please detox. Any account of not knowing why family and friends dont talk to you any longer is a red flag. Choose life and connection because its the only antidote to pain.
I'm not saying this is psychosis, but it is fascinating to hear all these peoples beliefs. I've probably watched 50 of these episodes and can relate to almost all of them. I'm diagnosed schizoaffective, and im also a former homeless dug addict. and abuse survivor. I have been clean 3 years now, and have very mild psychotic episodes. I consider myself very lucky to have some relief, and sobriety. I wish i could hug these people and show them there is hope. The child abuse and addiction (especially to meth) seem to destroy lives the quickest. There is hope. I'm living proof. I hope to become a councilor and help people that have suffered the way i have. My heart goes out to them all❤
I am in nursing school and just completed my mental health rotation at a mental hospital and came across many patients with schizoaffective. Almost all of them have history of trauma or abuse and I just want to hug them all. Seeing the condition of those patients, and knowing that you are okay now and doing well is so inspiring. You are amazing and I’m so proud of you. ❤
The torture she must live in inside her head everyday . I pray God protects and keeps her safe out there. Hopefully she gets some serious help so she begin to heal
This went left really quick, I was really into her story and believing her!! How Mark keeps a straight face through some of these interviews… when she said her kids were eating oatmeal and quick dry cement, I’m sorry but that got me😂😂!! Bless her heart, she needs some serious help!!!
What got me was when she said he beat her until her eyeball was hanging and her baby was dragging behind her by it’s umbilical cord. Then I was like ok. This must be a dream. I’m sure she does get abused in the street but, it gets mixed w fantasies in her mind.
Meth induced psychosis is real, and it comes at levels from mild to extreme. The troubled thought process comes first, and it makes it difficult for those listening to keep track. This goes from vocal to mental, until you even begin to write in this chaotic form. You can't even read without an inner monologue outside of your internal reading voice going at the same time you hear a soundtrack in the background of some song you can't put out of your mind. It's like being a prisoner to sensory overload the longer you imbibe. And it only gets more severe from there. And only takes days of use for the distorted patterns and processes to begin. The darnedest thing about the stuff is that it releases endorphins and other feel good, confidence hormones and such and you begin to forget how you got up and ever did anything without it. A few days in and without it your system is depleted so it must rest, and your body cons your initial onset of addiction into thinking you really can't get by without it. When your brain runs out of these chemicals, the drug continues to mimic it. Synapses are firing and you think you're nothing without it bc you're beyond exhausted but the drug keeps.you truckin'. She completely passed over and gussied up her childhood. Her lack of a father figure obviously affected her. I'd liken this woman as the atypical meth user. She very likely had a "put together" image and took care of herself through her years of use. Even sitting here, you can see the care put into what she has left to dress up and present herself the best she can. The soccer mom user so to speak. You'd never suspect it at times, unless you're close to them. She is aging, but she still cares how she looks. The worst thing someone prone to depression can ever do is mess with amphetamines. Steer clear. Coming from someone who's been there, done that and bought the t-shirt. Stick to what grows in the ground and therapy, bc those prone to feeling down are predisposed to love finally feeling up.
Yup that's what I heard too...also she could throw her hanging dangling eye ball,with night vision, around the corner from her to see if anyone was there....umm. whaatttt??
@@jacobus57I promise you there was abuse. She referred to being raped in her room. Most adults don’t say “their room”. She was most likely raped as a little girl.
Being a recovered alchoholic and addict i cant keep a dry eye. When we recover Its easy to forget the insanity. I crave the insanity just as if its a drug. Although i was never on the giving side of insanity and hurting people i was always on the periphial and backing someone elses play. When I would see a person such as her i would try to get them to be responsible with the drug use. Thank God I learned abstinence is the only way. Im now singin my swan songsong with end stage renal failure. Im grateful i am sober and get to live now but still fight with the same demons i see killing others. Keep up the good work
Your betrayal still showed her inner beauty despite terrible flashbacks, nightmares, psychosis, drug abuse, and what happens when trauma does not heal.
A lot of people will write her story off as meth addiction. If you pay a little more attention and look a little deeper, and separate bits and pieces, there is a prolonged and prolific pattern of deception and abuse. The abusers and users will avoid detection by hiding behind her drug use. This is a very common situation.
Dragging 11 at once with one still attached by the umbilical cord, all while having nails sticking out of her head and her eyeball hanging out. Seems pretty legit
Drugs aren't the only issue with the mind. It sounds like life has gotten to her mind and she believes in what she's saying most likely. Some might even say Schizophrenia. Trauma, no doubt.
This is what happens when women don’t have any sense of self worth/love they will go from one bad guy to someone worse. And completely ruin their lives. I pray she makes it out and realize she is worth so much more!
One of my friends mom is a homeless drug addict on skid row and I always wonder if one of the real far gone ones is her mom…. I don’t know her name and who knows if she’d go by it. Sad, though. These people are someone’s mother/father in most cases. Ruined my friends life. My dads an alcoholic but at least he was able to keep a roof over his head. I couldn’t even imagine.
No offence all these Crystal Meth stories are all the same - like a rerun of the same episode of The Munsters. Please provide more enlightening interviews of people who have overcome adversity rather than given up. NOI.
I always love an interview when they can put a face on the Shadow People. I hate how the poor Shadow People get blamed for everything, when they are probably innocent.
This lady is very very sick and needs help. This is the worst story I think I've heard so far. I pray she can find the help she needs and is able to understand what is real in her life and what is psychosis. 🇨🇦
Oh, that was a difficult interview to watch. So very sad how delusional this lady has become. But to her, the pain is real. I sincerely hope she gets off the drugs and finds some peace before it’s too late.
These videos are very helpful. I am working through my past Trauma and remembering the Trauma I caused others because of my past addictions. Celebrate Recovery was the only thing that got me brave enough to face myself and finally stay clean. I got 10 consecutive years so far. These videos keep me humble.
All of this is because people have a kid when they are in no shape to have one. What is so hard about having a kid only if you got your shit together financially and emotionally?
Be free, love to get high/tipsy AND love the freshness of sobriety…don’t be a prisoner of either. Then you have choice. It’s realistic. Enjoy natural joy.
That meth psychosis is really something else...I remember experiencing it second hand from a good friend since middle school. Told me her boyfriend was really her dad, was really a king pin. Thought that I was trying to poison her. All the while looking like something straight out of a zombie movie. Sad
The meth psychosis stories are always too much for me. Listened to this kinda psycho babble 10x a day for years from my former best friend. It's just too much. So much for the drug war....
This was a really sad one to watch. I did have to laugh when she said her 84 year old mama was out prostituting because it caught me so of guard how she just slide that in at the end.
My goodness, drugs have her tied in knots mentally. I pray that help comes to her in some way. She is so unstable ( although she sure can make up a tall tale😮). God speed. Walnut Ridge Arkansas
Her daughter is a something related to vet school or vet tech and she is located minutes away from little Toyko, so again, I’m sure there is some basis to that story.
This is traumatizing… I am genuinely concerned for this lady and her remaining children’s safety… If she or her children is genuinely being repeatedly molested or attacked and her other relatives are being abducted I’d like to see a follow up on her to make sure she’s alright. I wish there was more that could be done because this is beyond tragic - No one should have to live in such fear for their life over possessions that are rightfully theirs! Above all things…
Someone should definitely be checking up on her, and I'm sure she has gone through repeated abuse on the streets Most likely there are no children in danger or inheritance to speak of.
I had a roommate in rehab and he would swear at night. Protections would come in and mess with them. And do all these things to him? And he ended up diagnosed with schizophrenia. This is like him all over . It was a sad situation
Through the entire insanity of all of these stories, she said one of the most profound statements I've heard around drug addiction. "I don't even know how to be me, that's why I use." If you know, you know. I am a recovered addict btw.
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Good catch! ❤. I felt that.
Wow. You picked that sliver of straight truth and cry 😢 for help / out of all that delusional madness 💀. You are very sharp 🤔. That one statement said a lot 😢
Hello my name is runswithwonder all I want to do is help
So if you're recovered you must know who you are. Well done getting clean. I totally understand what she said.
My bestfriend was addicted to meth (she has 11 months clean right now) and the day before she went into detox she sent the cops to my house to do a wellness check and told them I was being held hostage and she thinks in China because every time she asked for my address (to tell the cops which I had no clue why she kept asking for my address over and over again) I was apparently sending her different places in China (even though she gave the cops my address and came over to my house later in the day). She also told them that I hadn’t answers her texts or calls in a week even though I had talked to her about 10 times on the phone that day. She also truly believed that I was in her attic and would call me begging me to come out and to stop screaming at her in her attic. Many more things, but if you watch this channel and this video you get that I could go on forever lol. Very sad. But she’s doing AMAZING now and so strong in her sobriety I’m praying it sticks but I’m gonna love her where she’s at and right now she’s sober so I’m thankful ❤
Jesus 😮 how thrilled were the cops when they came to your door? Prob thought your a user so let’s check it out
What an absolutely amazing story. Thank you. I don't know anyone on drugs. Im old old. To think a person would think you were in their attic yelling at them and calling them on the phone to come down is just so heart breaking
She was def in the comatose stage
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My flatmate, a friend was likely with some conditions also would have psychosis and delusions...I loved and cared for her so much and did everything I could but she just ended up telling people I raped her and that I tortured her..when we go on a trip, she would be convinced that I will get her killed...it really affected my mental health so much in the end but now she just disappeared and I miss and worry about her.
She went from making sense to completely a different person in 5 minutes. I pray she gets better ❤
Thats exactly what I thought. This has to be drug induced hallucinations.
What doesn't make sense?
@@jungjeru3348 read my comment again…..slowly.
When in that second state you can see when actually starts talking about her childhood. Sending blessings xx
Trauma
People on Crystal Meth have such elaborate stories. So weird how each drug has a specific essence.
I've watched many of Mark's interviews and this one made me cry. I dealt with this intimately with someone I loved with every fiber of my being, she's gone now. To all those who are making fun of her or just see her as just another "old speed whore" I ask you to just close your eyes for a few moments. See a little girl, so small, so vulnerable. Eyes full of wonder and hope. Wearing maybe a cute sundress with a bow in her hair and pretty pink sandals. So excited about her first day of school or hoping that she may get that new Barbie Doll she saw another little girl playing with. Looking at those who brought her into this world for love, protection, reassurance that she's good and means something to them and this world. Now imagine that little girl bruised, beaten, sexually, emotionally abused told she's worthless, dirty and there is no hope for her. Who does that little girl turn too? She can't even comprehend what is happening to her. She accepts it, begins to hate herself and her existence. All wonder and hope is lost. Now open your eyes. Do you still just see "an old speed whore"?
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People who feel that way about human beings who are struggling in any way or any reason can’t be changed. This world is cold and calloused unfortunately. Just like you, though, there are wonderful, caring people all around. 🫶🏼
Thank you. My daughter is four and I frequently grow my empathy and compassion for others through picturing their face when they were a child. It really helps. It worked wonders when people are being mean and hateful; hurt people hurt people. Love is the remedy🖤
I was so confused watching this… Thank you
Oh my what a profound and heartbreaking visual 😢
She had me in the first half or so. But it became pretty clear that most of it is delusions to to drug induced psychosis or schizophrenia. There is likely some truth to the story at the bottom of all that, but who knows what's what. It's just sad to see what the subjective reality of these lost souls are. Looks like she really believs her words. It must be torture.
When ppl are on meth they don’t sleep or dream and that can cause hallucinations and delusional thinking. To her these fantasies are real. I’m sure the reality of her situation is bad enough tho. :-(
Absolutely agree. The dragging a baby down the road by it's umbilical cord is some of the most horrific shit I have ever heard on this channel. That is the moment I said nope, she is hallucinating and delusional.
@anthonyloconte7835 my moment was after the land owner and oil on her land, Then The Publishers Clearing House..THAT did it for me...
She's in awful shape..hard to watch any human suffering...💙🌎
@@conniehanses Agreed. I hope she gets the help she needs.
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I started off so proud of her three kids’ success…
"I am a land owner.. they took that.. I struck oil.. they took that.. I won Publishers Clearing House.. they took that...... someone is probably in my room as we speak raping my son .. " WTF 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱.. GOD HELP HER
i am very confused what is going on
Yes. This is meth psychosis. Her brain is scrambled.
@@aurinkobay7118 Severe mental illness and meth.
A true testament to what drugs do to your mind. She went from coherent to all over the place in a matter of minutes. I hope she gets help.
Yeah she started really confusing me I had no idea what she was talking about and I don't think she does either this drug just destroys the mind! 🥺🙏
I feel so grateful for everyday videos you provide for us Mark!!
Never stop making this quality stories.
Watching your videos and your patience in interviews are making me a better woman!
Love from Belgrade, Serbia!!❤
I love this comment, so much, and i feel the same way.
💛 & ✌🏼 to you from California, USA
Love from Tampa Florida USA!!! ❤😊
They have had that effect on me too…and a lot of us, I think. It’s humbling to see. It’s such a positive venue. ❤. My Grandma was from Croatia. She named my dad Monte, after Montenegro. Much love 💞 from the U.S.
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Oh no. No no no. My heart goes out to her, i don't even know what to say about this yet, kinda speechless. I hope, with all my heart,she gets the help she so desperately needs. Thanks Mark, for showing us reality, even when its uncomfortable to witness. Please let her be protected.
I’m so with you. God bless her. May she find a path back to sanity.
A true meth interview. Very tough to keep any track of the story.
I hope the best for her. I’m not sure if she is coherent enough to get out of her current situation.
But I wish better things for her
One thing about meth is that it destroys the brain like no other drug.
That is one drug takes person inside away so quickly.
That answers my question... thank you
I could not follow...
Shes in good shape for someone who has had 14 kids.
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I can't even begin to imagine the dark prison that her paranoid thoughts keep her chained to. Her facial grimaces are contorted into such pain, sadness & torture that it feels like she should be in a psychiatric hospital.
How she began the interview appearing somewhat normal then descended into such wild stories was horrifying. She reminds me of a dog that wholeheartedly howls at the moon in some primordial response to lunacy.
Thank you, Mark. This one was tough. You did a great job, as always. Because of Cindy's long-term meth use, she likely has Methamphetamine Psychosis. I hope she is getting help for this.
You can get that just from one long run or a strong batch, too.
It’s crazy what that drug does to you. The majority is the lack of sleep. The psychosis you get from that is nuts. You truly feel these things are happening to you.
I pray to God that ill never do the drugs that are mentioned in all of these videos would recommend any to my worst enemy
@@Luna7-v1peah Im in recovery for poly drug addiction (primarily crack/fentanyl and meth also in the past few years) and I've experienced some serious sleep deprivation induced psychosis. Back in 2012 I went through something really traumatic and developed serious PTSD and that combined with my hardcore cocaine use caused me to suffer from hallucinations, I was only sleeping 2-3 hours a week for several months. When I would sleep I would have terrible night terrors and when I would wake up I'd be extremely suicidal. It got so bad that I would constantly hallucinate that there were dead bodies around every corner... Eventually I started to abuse oxycotin to help me be able to pass out and it was also a relief from the mental anguish but this led to a serious opiate addiction that led to heroin and eventually fentanyl. In 2021 I overdosed on fentanyl after being up for days smoking crack and meth and when I od'd I had a gun on me.. it ended up saving my life because I got arrested for the gun and spent the next 5 months in jail which allowed me to actually get sober for the first time in almost 20 years ( since I was 16 and got hooked on coke) when I Initially bailed out and was put on house arrest with an ankle monitor at a relatives house. I also started counseling for my PTSD, depression and anxiety etc and it's played a major role in my success in getting sober. Ive only used 4-5 times in the last year and only once in the past 6months which is an unbelievable accomplishment for me. I can honestly say that in 2021 before I got arrested I was positive I'd end up dead from my drug abuse. If anyone is reading this and thinking to themselves it's impossible to get off dope know that it is possible because if I could get to where I am now anyone can. And that's not to say I'm out of the woods yet. I believe drug addiction and mental illness are things that you cant escape from but it is possible to manage and learn to cope with.
Also in my experience I find that the meth that's on the streets these days is much stronger and causes greater psychological damage than the meth from a few years ago even. It was never my drug of choice and tbh I found it would actually make me feel tired for some reason no joke. I was a really hardcore crack user and was also selling all sorts of drugs to support myself and sometimes when I'd been up for days and the crack wasn't keeping me up anymore I'd switch to meth to keep me going and it wouldn't even keep me awake... I've been doing in recovery for the last 2 years and I've managed to only use a few times in the past year. The last time I smoked meth was during a brief relapse at Christmas time when I picked up some fentanyl and the street dealer gave me a couple points of meth as a sample. I don't know if it was because I hadn't been using in a while or what but that meth really messed me up. I only did about a point (100 milligrams or ⅒ of a gram) and I was severely twisted for several days, couldn't sleep even though I was doing fentanyl too and I was babbling/serious verbigeration at one point. It actually scared the shit out of me and I swore I'd never use meth again and I haven't since and have no plans to lol
@@jungjeru3348 congratulations on getting to where you are! Inspiring. Keep it up.
@@jungjeru3348congrats on your recovery. my husband was clean and sober for almost two years, and fet killed him as soon as he relapsed. Using even once is too dangerous, which is also why the meth makes people fall asleep because it's got fet in it too.
Wow. This went from a tragic story to a delusional nightmare real quick. And this is why people should be careful believing anyone on drugs.
So many of these start out their story with an absent parent. Or two absent parents. Always heartbreaking.
not really ..i know alot of em had 2 parents college degreese, decent jobs but chose addiction..its a mentality thing.
@@bugazi88yes really, almost every single person on here has absent or questionable parents. He’s not saying that kids with good parents can’t go wrong.
@@bugazi88ok? But what the original commentator said still is true. MOST people (statistically speaking) in jail, or fighting addiction typically don’t have a father in their home. Not saying what ur stating isn’t less true, but BOTH are true at the same time.
@@nateclipps we on the same page👍
@@bugazi88 that’s great to hear!
Damn. This girl is wayyyy deep in meth psychosis. Her brain has taken a nasty hit. I hope she can find a way to climb out of the very dark hole she is in. She is completely OUT of reality……freestyling straight off the dome! Mark…..I don’t know HOW you sat so patiently through this one. Respect. This poor woman needs to be in patient in a psych hospital for an extended stay. Hopefully her brain is not damaged beyond repair……🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 I am worried about this one’s immediate future……
How do you know Mark isn’t crazy along with them? LOL!
Crazy is reading some of these out of touch bubble people comments, with the fake concern masking the most vicious prejudice!
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@@sheilaboland6285we’re all a bit mad here🖤
How sad,
Drugs sure aren’t numbing her pain, they are creating it.
This ^
People, whether you are a single parent, raising sons and/or daughters, please teach them self worth. Teach them happiness comes from within. Provide unconditional love. This is the basic tool box for success.
More like protect them from pedofiles so they won’t hate themselves when they’re older.
@@mc2043 they need to be taught what is appropriate and what is not. More importantly, they can come to you unconditionally if they are not sure or feel uncomfortable around certain people or places. Children want to talk, you have to be prepared to respond with support! Then take action. Young people need validation.
I spit the coffee out of my mouth when she said. "He stepped on my eye now I have night vision". OMFG
Right when I read this comment that part came on. I was like "no fcking way"
I went downhill when she said she struck oil. 🛢
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Cindy Lou has a delusional disorder, she clearly needs help.
I hope that she’s OK out there because she’s extremely vulnerable.
You must be an amazing MD.
Yes, you hope she is OK, like magically help will drop out of the sky because we all wished it to be by thinking good thoughts.
“I ate shit straight from his asshole” I really hope that part isn’t real 💀
What just happened? It was going pretty normal until she completely lost it.?.? Meth psychosis is real!!!!!!!
I think sometimes just before the interview the guest is nervous so they smoke … it hits about 10 min into the interview.
Just a thought.
Because we have seen this often
They should show Mark’s videos in schools. These are real life stories everyone should hear, from an early age. I’m sure these videos would matter to many kids…
lololol. these comments just keep getting better
Absolutely agree. If I watched these as a teenager I would not have touched drugs or alcohol
Exactly! The horrible “Just Say No” campaign on the 80’s was bullsh!t. Real people baring their souls, telling real stories are ultimately what can combat the youth from going down the same road 🤷♀️
I appreciate your intentions with helping the kids to reject living a dark life by showing them the darkest corners of humanity.. but on the flip side I can't help but think how overexposed children already are to drugs, violence, sex & everything else that's breaking down our communities.
If opportunities were made available in all communities for every child to participate in, kids might have a better chance at having a more fulfilling life ahead.
For example, in lower income neighborhoods.. besides having a coulple shady little parks on a corner filled with drugs, gangs or violence, most neighborhoods have absolutely nothing available for these children to do. So they fall victim to their circumstances. It's sad but true.
Is it possible to change this senerio? Absolutely it is!
But not easy at all. It will take everyone to first educate ourselves with what is really happening & the deep seeded issues that create such despair.
Marks channel is an amazing educational platform to help us understand why & how these beautiful souls got to where they are today.
After educating ourselves.. we, NOT just the government, but "we the people", can then brainstorm ideas how we can implement some positive change into every community.
Then take action.
Again, it definitely would not be an easy feat.. but it is possible.
They’re already banning books… you think they’d allow these videos to be shown to kids in schools?
Either way, kids are mostly morons. I’ve seen how middle school (and even a few high school kids) react to these videos. My brother has shown his daughters a few of them. Without proper guidance, seeing this shit doesn’t deter them from making terrible decisions. It’s up to the parents to show them the way.
One of my closest friends started using meth and soon after almost everything that came out of his mouth was a lie. It was such a betrayal of trust.... I had to end the friendship. Meth is the devil in disguise!
Very sad. It takes people you have known for years or your whole life and makes them become someone you don't know at all...
I don't know if there is an award for interview shows but if there is Mark deserves the top honor.These interviews should make anyone who is Not suffering abuse,addiction or mental illness more grateful and most of all more empathetic towards those who are afflicted with such destructive situations.May God Bless these lost souls 🙏🙏🙏
Amen. ❤
Amen
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lol@ these dick riding comments about mark
For those who have the beautiful privilege to judge her, im so thankful (as you should be) that you have never had to experience neglect-compounded with severe trauma-compounded with drug addiction-compounded with mental illness. It is not for the weak hearted, and although im glad you dont have to witness anything like this in your own life, i do wonder why you cant just learn to have a small amount of empathy and/or sympathy towards others suffering. If youre not born with it, it absolutely can be learned.
✌🏼&🩵 from California USA
I wholeheartedly agree with and thoroughly enjoyed your comment! I know all too well the sinister nature of addiction. Though I managed to escape and have been clean for 2years I wouldn't wish it on any human. The people who aren't addicts, have never been addicted and have no genetic predisposition to addiction don't realize how lucky they are. It's all too easy for people to forget and internally rationalize all of their own sins and shortcomings while listening to someone they believe to be too far gone down the rabbit hole. I hope this woman someday gets the help and resources that she deserves.
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Who are You to dictate to others how they should think? You seem to be very self-righteous.
@@akitalady An empathetic individual who cares about people to the point of standing up to defend them. 👏👏👏❤️
Because there are no manners nor civility on the internet. Sigh.
Look .. I am NOT.. NOT.. judging anyone.. Everyone has a story.. everyone has past pain... But I just can't or don't know what to believe from the story she tells. I pray God will protect her and she finds peace..
After the first 5 minutes, it’s probably all in her head
Mark, thank you. This poor lady really needs help. I hope help comes her way ❤
When are all you fools going to realize that you can't help these people
This poor woman. I was crying right along with her. I couldnt imagine the level of paranoia she experiences on a daily basis.
“I won publishers clearinghouse” I bet the younger generation has no idea what that is lol.
This story took a hundred different turns!
My husband introduced me to crystal meth. He taught me how to smoke. Sounds lovely! You can clearly see the drug induced psychosis. Put down the drugs!
If it were just that easy…..
@@kelliethimmes5362 very true
PTSD, missing her kids and trauma. What I got from her psychosis stories sad. Hope she gets help.
Cindy may you reach a point of being tired and sick of being tired. I dated someone who binged heavy drugs for years, let them go and still suffered remnants of the effects on the mind and mood. Please detox. Any account of not knowing why family and friends dont talk to you any longer is a red flag. Choose life and connection because its the only antidote to pain.
This is so sad. Her mind is gone and she don't even know it. I pray that she gets help cause she really needs it. My heart goes out for her.
Why do you watch these videos? Just to make crude comments?
@@sheilaboland6285 Her comment wasn't crude at all. Please go somewhere else if you're feeling froggy.
@@wyattlightning Please write in American.
@@sheilaboland6285 American? Care to explain your idiotic reply?
@@sheilaboland6285 Why do YOU watch these videos? Just to make nonsensical comments to other commenters? LOL Play nice😜
Meth is one hell of a drug. The eyeball story. Goodness. I pray she finds sobriety.
I'm not saying this is psychosis, but it is fascinating to hear all these peoples beliefs. I've probably watched 50 of these episodes and can relate to almost all of them. I'm diagnosed schizoaffective, and im also a former homeless dug addict. and abuse survivor. I have been clean 3 years now, and have very mild psychotic episodes. I consider myself very lucky to have some relief, and sobriety. I wish i could hug these people and show them there is hope. The child abuse and addiction (especially to meth) seem to destroy lives the quickest. There is hope. I'm living proof. I hope to become a councilor and help people that have suffered the way i have. My heart goes out to them all❤
I am in nursing school and just completed my mental health rotation at a mental hospital and came across many patients with schizoaffective. Almost all of them have history of trauma or abuse and I just want to hug them all. Seeing the condition of those patients, and knowing that you are okay now and doing well is so inspiring. You are amazing and I’m so proud of you. ❤
@@hannahrenee93 thank you. It’s still scary and hard, but I’m slowly building a functional life again.🙂
May the Lord continue to bless you
The torture she must live in inside her head everyday . I pray God protects and keeps her safe out there. Hopefully she gets some serious help so she begin to heal
Good Morning Ya'll. I hope we all have a great and blessed day. Thank you Mark for all that you do.
The moral of this story is….Stay in school, kids and don’t do drugs!! Tuning in from Country Victoria, Australia 🇦🇺 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺
She is really messed up. I hope she can get clean and sober. I fear for her safety. Very sick person. So very hearbreaking💔
This went left really quick, I was really into her story and believing her!! How Mark keeps a straight face through some of these interviews… when she said her kids were eating oatmeal and quick dry cement, I’m sorry but that got me😂😂!! Bless her heart, she needs some serious help!!!
😂 ikr
Yeah, Meth addicts say some of the damndest things.😭
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What got me was when she said he beat her until her eyeball was hanging and her baby was dragging behind her by it’s umbilical cord. Then I was like ok. This must be a dream. I’m sure she does get abused in the street but, it gets mixed w fantasies in her mind.
Pulling 14 Kids out of her. I don’t know if I Heard that Right
I cannot 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽
She had me at 1st ..... lol
Until she got to11 babies and one hanging from the umbilical cord...
Same!!!
I was thinking the same thing lol
Same 😂😂
Literally stopped watching the video after she said that
Yeah its usually these type of stories start somewhat believable then at some point it becomes clear its all a big psychotic delusion.
She definitely created a world in her head… Meth psychosis
That's what I thought
Wrong. God is speaking through her.
Meth induced psychosis is real, and it comes at levels from mild to extreme. The troubled thought process comes first, and it makes it difficult for those listening to keep track. This goes from vocal to mental, until you even begin to write in this chaotic form. You can't even read without an inner monologue outside of your internal reading voice going at the same time you hear a soundtrack in the background of some song you can't put out of your mind. It's like being a prisoner to sensory overload the longer you imbibe. And it only gets more severe from there. And only takes days of use for the distorted patterns and processes to begin. The darnedest thing about the stuff is that it releases endorphins and other feel good, confidence hormones and such and you begin to forget how you got up and ever did anything without it. A few days in and without it your system is depleted so it must rest, and your body cons your initial onset of addiction into thinking you really can't get by without it. When your brain runs out of these chemicals, the drug continues to mimic it. Synapses are firing and you think you're nothing without it bc you're beyond exhausted but the drug keeps.you truckin'.
She completely passed over and gussied up her childhood. Her lack of a father figure obviously affected her. I'd liken this woman as the atypical meth user. She very likely had a "put together" image and took care of herself through her years of use. Even sitting here, you can see the care put into what she has left to dress up and present herself the best she can. The soccer mom user so to speak. You'd never suspect it at times, unless you're close to them. She is aging, but she still cares how she looks.
The worst thing someone prone to depression can ever do is mess with amphetamines. Steer clear. Coming from someone who's been there, done that and bought the t-shirt. Stick to what grows in the ground and therapy, bc those prone to feeling down are predisposed to love finally feeling up.
💔 She's a human being. How heartbreaking. You can hear the hurt in her soul.
I pray Cindy Lou gets the help she needs
Mark you have the patience of a saint.
My heart breaks for her. This is her reality, all this scary stuff is true for her. 💔
That's what people don't get. Even if none of it happened...it's true for her.
@@melissalambert8222 agreed. 🩷
Her buddy stepped on her hanging eye ball? Then she got super night vision?? 26:50
Yup that's what I heard too...also she could throw her hanging dangling eye ball,with night vision, around the corner from her to see if anyone was there....umm. whaatttt??
So sad. She completely believes this story is her reality. I hope she can get help with the drugs and her mental health.
Her mother was in an out of prison and she stated her mother made her the person she is today💔
Mommy Dearest and Fearest! 👀
Her mother is also a victim of sex trafficking at 84.
@@jacobus57I promise you there was abuse. She referred to being raped in her room. Most adults don’t say “their room”. She was most likely raped as a little girl.
@@JeffHole-wc1tcher mom probably trafficked her is more like it
She became completely detached from reality. Hard to know if it’s drugs or mental health. Shouldn’t matter. She needs help.
It's hard to tell what is happening in her story. If this is her reality every day, she is truly a tortured soul. I hope she gets the help she needs
Being a recovered alchoholic and addict i cant keep a dry eye. When we recover Its easy to forget the insanity. I crave the insanity just as if its a drug. Although i was never on the giving side of insanity and hurting people i was always on the periphial and backing someone elses play. When I would see a person such as her i would try to get them to be responsible with the drug use. Thank God I learned abstinence is the only way. Im now singin my swan songsong with end stage renal failure. Im grateful i am sober and get to live now but still fight with the same demons i see killing others. Keep up the good work
Your betrayal still showed her inner beauty despite terrible flashbacks, nightmares, psychosis, drug abuse, and what happens when trauma does not heal.
My gut feeling tells me that there are truths in her story. I believe that her and her children have been horrifically abused by an evil entourage.
What a tortured soul. Very sad and scary. I pray there is still hope for her to get well somehow.
47 minutes under water. New subscriber. This as real as it gets. Thank you for sharing. It is helping me understand the other side.
she must hold a world record
Oofffff.....extreme situation...difficult to watch...don't know how she lives day to day....human suffering and such Pain...💙🌎
A lot of people will write her story off as meth addiction. If you pay a little more attention and look a little deeper, and separate bits and pieces, there is a prolonged and prolific pattern of deception and abuse. The abusers and users will avoid detection by hiding behind her drug use. This is a very common situation.
Wth? 47 minutes under water? I really hope she gets help. Her manic rambling stories sound like scene's from movies
Wait for she went from three kids, to 11, now 14? Yeah she’s totally believable.
It was the night vision eyeball that she could throw around corners for me 😂
Dragging 11 at once with one still attached by the umbilical cord, all while having nails sticking out of her head and her eyeball hanging out. Seems pretty legit
I feel like we heard small bits of reality. There is no telling what she has gone througg
Drugs aren't the only issue with the mind. It sounds like life has gotten to her mind and she believes in what she's saying most likely. Some might even say Schizophrenia. Trauma, no doubt.
This is what happens when women don’t have any sense of self worth/love they will go from one bad guy to someone worse. And completely ruin their lives. I pray she makes it out and realize she is worth so much more!
Good example why you should not do drugs!!
People need to listen to these stories.
People should know better. Drugs are a way out!
@@Linda-in9ns Some people turn to drugs out of desperation and depression, it’s not an excuse, but it does happen.
One of my friends mom is a homeless drug addict on skid row and I always wonder if one of the real far gone ones is her mom…. I don’t know her name and who knows if she’d go by it. Sad, though. These people are someone’s mother/father in most cases. Ruined my friends life. My dads an alcoholic but at least he was able to keep a roof over his head.
I couldn’t even imagine.
Very hard to follow after a bit. I hope she gets the help she needs. She will be in my thoughts ❤
What about prayers
No offence all these Crystal Meth stories are all the same - like a rerun of the same episode of The Munsters. Please provide more enlightening interviews of people who have overcome adversity rather than given up. NOI.
Everyone saying she's delusional are delusional themselves. This poor lady has been through hell
Me every morning when I turn Marks videos on before he even starts talking: "alriiight, (name). (Name) where are you from, where'd you grow up?"😂
I always love an interview when they can put a face on the Shadow People. I hate how the poor Shadow People get blamed for everything, when they are probably innocent.
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This lady is very very sick and needs help. This is the worst story I think I've heard so far. I pray she can find the help she needs and is able to understand what is real in her life and what is psychosis. 🇨🇦
Oh, that was a difficult interview to watch. So very sad how delusional this lady has become. But to her, the pain is real. I sincerely hope she gets off the drugs and finds some peace before it’s too late.
These videos are very helpful. I am working through my past Trauma and remembering the Trauma I caused others because of my past addictions. Celebrate Recovery was the only thing that got me brave enough to face myself and finally stay clean. I got 10 consecutive years so far. These videos keep me humble.
All of this is because people have a kid when they are in no shape to have one. What is so hard about having a kid only if you got your shit together financially and emotionally?
They should show this video in schools around the world!
Agreed. She is so inspiring and brilliant
@@jjonez787 children need to see just how inspiring and brilliant drugs make you, and how glamorous this life can be, totally agree
Be free, love to get high/tipsy AND love the freshness of sobriety…don’t be a prisoner of either. Then you have choice. It’s realistic. Enjoy natural joy.
That meth psychosis is really something else...I remember experiencing it second hand from a good friend since middle school. Told me her boyfriend was really her dad, was really a king pin. Thought that I was trying to poison her. All the while looking like something straight out of a zombie movie. Sad
Did she just say She popped her eye out and had night vision😂😂😂She is the funniest ever!!!! Keep your head up mami Im a fan!!❤❤❤
The meth psychosis stories are always too much for me. Listened to this kinda psycho babble 10x a day for years from my former best friend. It's just too much. So much for the drug war....
Well said. I’ve followed mark for years and I try to at least listen because I value him and his work.
This was a really sad one to watch. I did have to laugh when she said her 84 year old mama was out prostituting because it caught me so of guard how she just slide that in at the end.
This is your life on drugs....thank God for grace and mercy because it can be either one of us.
It always starts off so convincing
My goodness, drugs have her tied in knots mentally. I pray that help comes to her in some way. She is so unstable ( although she sure can make up a tall tale😮). God speed.
Walnut Ridge Arkansas
She almost as believable as Savannah Sheets (recently interviewed, pretty blonde).
It seems like crystal meth has everyone destroyed
Wow. She went from having 3 kids in the beginning to saying she has 14 in the end. Meth is a horrible drug.
WOW! The last time I tried that hard to keep up was when Juliana was a pet detective in little Tokyo😉
Her daughter is a something related to vet school or vet tech and she is located minutes away from little Toyko, so again, I’m sure there is some basis to that story.
☮️❤️✨ I wish you all the best Miss Cindy Lou.
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Poor thing , my heart broke listening to this sad heartbreaking story…. God save them all.
This is traumatizing… I am genuinely concerned for this lady and her remaining children’s safety… If she or her children is genuinely being repeatedly molested or attacked and her other relatives are being abducted I’d like to see a follow up on her to make sure she’s alright. I wish there was more that could be done because this is beyond tragic - No one should have to live in such fear for their life over possessions that are rightfully theirs! Above all things…
Someone should definitely be checking up on her, and I'm sure she has gone through repeated abuse on the streets
Most likely there are no children in danger or inheritance to speak of.
She needs deliverance.
I had a roommate in rehab and he would swear at night. Protections would come in and mess with them. And do all these things to him? And he ended up diagnosed with schizophrenia. This is like him all over . It was a sad situation
The lesson here is how the lack of self awareness and responsibility determines one's fate.
You got this pretty lady! Hang in there and get off the hard drugs
Cindy's had a real tough life and I feel for the poor woman, although there is quite a lot of exaggeration (45 minutes underwater???).
It’s started giving me John wick flashbacks. Bowling balls on her head.