Stephanie, I know how you feel. I was an IV opioid addict for 17 years. I wanted to get clean for so long. I went to jail, prison, and more treatment centers than I can remember to count. I finally got clean in 2019. I am now a supervisor at a treatment center, and I just celebrated 4 years free from all substances. I know your pain. I know how strange sobriety feels after using for so long. I hope one day you can find a reason to not use anymore. I know it doesn't seem like it at first, but life is so much better in recovery. You don't have to live like that. You have people who love you, and that would be devastated if you weren't here. It's too dangerous out there. You are beautiful and have a beautiful heart. You can do anything you want in this world..still. It's never too late.
“They hated each other so much that they hated their own children.” that is so well said and so relatable!! this woman is so well spoken despite how difficult things are for her, what an incredible testament to her own strength
Sounds just like my parents too. Her story mirrors mine in a devastating amount of ways. Same age, same drug of choice, analogous family history, loss of parental sanity and any semblance of structure after the divorce. I really feel her pain at a visceral level.
She has so much humility and compassion. Watching her interview made me smile and cry at the same time. She is one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen.
This hits kind of different as I am sitting here, not far from where you record in LA, at 3 AM smoking a dirty 30 loading up a video about an opioid addict. Maybe this is my sign to get clean once and for all.
This lady is so full of spirit, it’s a shame her environment hasn’t been anything but poisonous; from her family, to her friends who pressured her into heroin. I hope this woman finds that support she so deserves.
@@thematriarchy2075so far 24 people agree with that comment. So what does that say? Not one like on yours. That tells me the commenter just might be right
I'm an avid fan I watch this program religiously everyday and I'm so glad that you got someone real I mean this lady is really real I don't think even one lie I came out of her mouth!
Stephanie, this video touched me. You seem so smart, self-aware, self-reflective, wise, and honest. I admire you for being so brave. Thanks for this video, I even wrote down several phrases because it felt like I should keep them in mind to tell my kids. Virtual hug for you!
Stephanie my girl...I'm 42 and I completely understand what you mean by heroin getting a part of your soul. I'm clean, part 2, for 2 years now. My soul will never be the same. But, the restlessness, it will subside. It does subside. But you realize it's not a restlessness for drugs, but for filling something within you that's empty. Usually trauma. You can beat it, but you have to want to find and complete your void with someone more fulfilling than the drug. It's hard. It's exhausting. But it's worth it. You are worth it. Much love. 🖤
@Iam...--- I love this, and agree. Security, safety, two close cousins and quote important in my healing. I notice when either of those start to bend even slightly, I have a very hard time. I do hope that you using the past tense means youre in recovery, and congratulations for winning if so. It's such a fucking outstanding accomplishment 🖤
Appreciate the real and honest account of her life and feelings.She hit the nail on the head when she said 'when you're young you think you'll always be a teenager'.
For someone that does not talk about their emotions very often you did such a beautiful job. I can see your light shining through no matter how dark it seems to you. I truly believe in you. I'm glad you found a good man who treats you well 🙂
The same story over and over again - never felt loved or cared for at home - finds opioids and there's that warm hug you've been longing for your whole life. It doesn't matter if you're poor or rich it's the same story for all who grow up without feeling loved. Or feeling that something is missing. Opioids replace all of those feelings that are eating you up inside. Edit:This was absolutely not critism. It was me trying to keep it short for once. I have the deepest emphaty for people like her who's been growing up under such horrible conditions. My point was that this is almost the story of every addict out there and that's absolutely heartbreaking. Their so called parents destroyed their children for life. I always wonder why these people get children in the first place when all they do is drink, use drugs and be violet. Wouldn't it have been better to be free of children? I'll never understand.
So what’s your point? Mark shouldn’t keep making these interviews? lol. These are old anyway. He said he has thousands of interviews he hasn’t uploaded yet. But yea, always similar stories. If you haven’t suffered, you wouldn’t understand. You’ll only know what you see. And even then, you won’t fully know why these peoples stories are what they are.
@@ihave0followers389absolutely. I am really moved my this woman’s story. It’s awful how children can be treated. She is a person who will probably be on methadone the rest of her life, is that so terrible? If it helps her, it’s worth it. She came from a shit life her parents gave her. I really feel for her. I hope she has a nice rest of her life
@@elisaschulman2356 I hope she’s not on methadone the rest of her life. I also am on methadone because I thought I was taking Percocet on the streets, but I found out it was fentanyl. When I figured that out, I struggled for about a month trying to get myself off of it and had to get into a methadone clinic. I wasn’t expecting to be classified as a junkie. I just thought I was enjoying a few pain pills. Not the deadliest drug there is. I hate myself for it daily. I have never experienced things like heroin or shooting drugs up in my veins, or anything like that. But I can imagine it takes a toll on you after awhile. Fentanyl withdrawals are the worst
The struggle is real. I feel for her. My parents divorced when I was 3 and it went down hill from there. They both died from addictions. I graduated with a bachelor’s degree with out any financial support from them or anyone else. Had to work a lot of hours and be in school full time. Because I wasn’t given any love growing up I made the mistake of marrying someone who emotionally and financially abused me for decades. Leaving was the best decision I ever made. I’ve never done any drugs or alcohol. It’s only by the grace of God
Stephanie is such a beautiful soul! She has definitely been through hell, and I relate to her alot, although, my demon was alcohol. Stephanie doesn't seem like your typical addict, she has a conscious, and a heart. I pray she gets help, she definitely needs help with her depression. I completely understand when she says she doesn't want to be around anyone any more. When all the people in your life who are supposed to love you, hurt you, you can't trust anyone anymore. Stay strong Stephanie, I believe in you❣️
I love her too. Her demeanor is so very kind. Such a soft spoken genuine lady. I so wish she could get sober & have the life that she wants. This interview brought tears to my eyes & tugged at my heart. Hang in there, sweetie. Bless her🙏🙏❤️
I personally know Stephanie and let me tell you she is a beautiful person me and her used to run for a while and she is a good person. That’s all I can really say she’s got a beautiful heart. She’s a good friend you could judge her, but she’ll never judge you, that’s all I could really say she’s very good person and her fiancé. Matt is a good dude also.
were you in the kensington area? I know so many people from that scene back in the late 2000s/2010s, I would love to know the fate of some of them. It's a small world
I'm a recovering person, 30 yrs...many ppl who end up in the hospital have a warrant out for their arrest...if a person killed a loved one (under the influence) & it was released they had actually been in the hospital & let go?!!! Too much liability for the hospital. Why shelter in the hospital? The system is broken no doubt, I am not in support of enabling.
@@lindaboo123 no sorry I don’t agree with it. Addicts have a hard enough time getting their life together or just getting through the day… threat of arrest when seeking emergency treatment is inhumane.
@@lindaboo123 It's none of the hospitals business. They are there to provide health care. How would they be liable anyway? A hospital cannot be responsible for every person that comes through the door.
There’s something so special about Stephanie and she has a great personality. I hope she can get clean because she DESERVES love and happiness! No more shame.
Mark! Help her! Please! You’re so good at this and she genuinely wants to be clean but she just doesn’t know how or where to start! I’ve been her! YOU GOT THIS GIRL! DONT GIVE UP! Please give us an update on her when possible ❤
Such a sweet gentle woman. Stephanie thank you for sharing. I hope you and your birds and your man can have a peaceful life you deserve. Thank you for sharing you're story really touched me and made me see myself in you. I'm rooting for you.
Proud of any progress..I am also on methadone maintenance and its saved my life. You have alot of the same past as far as our upbringing..keep your head up. Stay focused and you can make it for the long haul. So proud on you! #123days
These stories are perfect for the people who say oh you can just quit it gives insight on the struggles of the people with addiction and what they go through not an easy process thank you for your bravery.
For being a long term addict, she looks incredibly young. Sadly it's a facade. She also seems really together for an addict. It's horrifying that she's on Methadone AND fentanyl because of how strong they both are. I worry she'll overdose and not come back. What a horribly sad life she has lived. I hope she can turn things around and get sober. Having her mindset of not thinking she'll ever be sober is sad. I lost a friend whose last words to me were "maybe I'll be one of those people who never gets clean." He died in his rehab bed of an overdose several months later. I hope the same thing doesn't happen to her. She's too bright to be lost to drugs forever! I wish she realized that she has value and something to contribute to the world. Stephanie, please give yourself the love and grace you give your birds! You are so worthy of it!
I'm glad I don't know how in the world people get their hands on so many drugs. My little sister/best friend accidentally od'd on her pain Rx/alcohol mix. I'll never get over it. Fentanyl is so strong - how do people titrate that stuff?! I don't even know what form it's in on the streets, but it's dangerous as hell!😨 I'm terrified for her; she reminds me of my friends and family.😢
I don’t usually comment on these but theres something special about Stephany. Something real desperate to express itself through the addiction and hell that life has obviously been. Some goodness deep down. Stephany, I’m so glad you’ve found your good man and your birds. I wish your life could have been different. I wish your parents could have been better people and you’d found meaning in something other than opiates before they gave you what you needed. If only they hadn’t been the answer, you’d have had all the qualities you have now but without needing to take the pain away. You’d have been free and I wish you could have had that.
your post made me cry. it's like i was able to actually hear how someone had recently described me and i blew it off, yet i remembered it for a reason. reading you say this about another help me to finally try to believe it about myself. you really never know how deeply your words can reach into a person's soul and speak to their higher self. thank you❤️
@@lrbanks2584 I’m really happy that however it happened, you had a moment of believing something good about yourself in the deepest parts of yourself. My guess is that the feeling didn’t stay for all that long but at least you felt the truth of yourself for the time you had with it. I hope you get many many more moments of truth like that. It’s the way we become free, to see ourselves in reality instead of through the biases we’ve been beaten into and finally come to believe. They aren’t real. The reality is that beautiful feeling you touched and that touched you yesterday. If you could live with that in your heart 24/7 that would be true freedom.
@@andylane7142 you're absolutely right it didn't last long, however i can revisit that feeling and access that truth about myself now anytime i want to because i genuinely received it. your kind words meant so much to me. i love you so much for that❤️
@@lrbanks2584 Well I love you too for being able to be in a place where something made you feel whole for a short time. Thats real human connection and although we don’t know one another and never will and it was only words on a screen, there was meaningful human connection and understanding that we can both remember forever. I feel emotional that you have found an opening in your obvious trauma. I hope that opening grows and grows for you.
She’s been through the wringer, she looks GREAT for 39!.. I lost my spouse to heroin, I have no where experienced what you have. If you need to stay on methadone or Suboxone forever. *maybe* just maybe, you’ll eventually be off heroin / fentanyl. You are articulate and strong. Thanks for being brave enough to share 🤍🙏
Hi I’m her daughter actually. This interview is insane to me. Yes of course it’s upsetting what she went through in her life. But she’s not even close to how she makes herself out to be. Everyone believe what she wants. But last time I checks a women who calls her child an “ungrateful c*nt” because I didn’t answer her text. Mind you she hasn’t been in my life for 18 years before I had started talking to her.
I believe you, can see right through her. She’s full of excuses. Leave her to her parrot. I hope your grandparents are kind. You’re lucky to have responsible adults to raise you. I’m sure your mum doesn’t mean to be rude but she’s going to be mentally deranged from what she’s gone through and the drugs from a young age.
There's something special about this girl. I live in NJ and i have a daughter named Stephanie. This hits really close to home! Where can I find her? How can i help? I'd love to see her get into a really great rehabilitation center and heal completely. What can I do?
Sweet girl...I personally understand so so much! Im working through ny stuff, still on Methadone after 5 years...but, I thankful to be where I am, air in my lungs. Keep pushing, beautiful ♥️ Youre not alone
Hi Miss Stephanie, You have a beautiful soul. You could write a best selling book. You have a comforting voice and rhythm in which you speak, the knowledge from your life could make a successful and possible rewarding and healing career. Reiki practice,AODA life coach/councelor ,motivational speaker. Please keep updating, thank you Mark for your interviews, I’ve learned a lot watching.
I too grew up neglected, molested, abandoned, abused. Poor. Daughter of a raging alcoholic, absent father, held up by shotgun in 3rd grade and so much more. But you don’t have to choose this route. Today, also aged 39 I am Senior VP at a global cloud software company. I hold an MBA. I’m up preparing my presentation to the Board to propose entering the South American market. I love my spouse. I raised my kids. We are a team. I fear that so many people who watch these videos will say, see that’s “us”, these are the reasons we do what we do. Feel sorry for us. Help us. We’re broken. Pray for us. Well, not every broken human has to join their “us”. It boils down to choice. The path we choose to take for ourselves. Either we remain victims of our past by continuing to abuse ourselves or we choose to liberate ourselves from remaining a victim for the entirety of our lives.
Tell us about your bad side. The verbal abuse you subject your wife and kids too. The neglect they suffered by you chasing your goals in that field. You type away pretending to be perfect. WE know you’re not.
Sadly, it's not always a choice. Generational trauma, poverty, s&x abuse, not having a stable family, illness and living a marginalized existence takes more than just determination to conquer. Aging out of abusive foster homes to living on the streets. Some people are honestly f*cked at birth. Kudo's to your success!
I am relieved to hear she has regrets. Too often, when Mark asks this question you get the "I have no regrets, because it's made me who I am today" reply. Like, really?? You don't regret giving up your kids, or robbing ppl, or hurting your family? Good for Stephanie for being self aware.
So, you're saying everything you've been through, made you who u are today? And you're proud of that person?? I doubt that. You seem sad, and I'm rooting for you. I'm conflicted though. My mom was basically you. You guys leave victims. Innocent kids. I just want to shake you and scream, TRY HARDER! The only comments you're replying to are the negative ones. Why? There are sooo many positive ones! I hope you get well and happy. ✌️
I’m on opioid 5mg because of my rheumatoid arthritis. However I goto a pain management specialist that can only prescribe it, and they closely regulate your medication usage, which I love. It’s so hard for patients, whose suffering in pain to get access to opioids now because of people abusing it 😞.
Stephanie never give up. You are more than your addiction. You have given more to this world than most…giving a child life and a family who adopts is the greatest blessing….this is the most selfless act a person can commit. Thank you for choosing life you are a beautiful human being.
Stephanie , your awesome for your honesty. Dealing with my own demons currently and hearing your honesty and compassion hit home. I'll pray for you! Keep shining, and maybe even go back to school! You can do it! Love to you!
I came out the other end of this. But sadly returned. But it can be done. I got clean at 35 and stayed clean for almost 3 years. My brain snapped back and I felt genuine joy. Neuroplasticity is an amazing thing. It can be done. I believe I’ll manage sobriety again soon.
The fear of withdrawal is a thousand times worse than it actually is. I used it as an excuse for years, I honestly just didn’t want to quit. Methadone treatment plays on that fear and locks people in for a life dependance. You either get strong, lose everything or overdose. I lost everything, I wish someone would have told me this because it wasn’t necessary. Don’t let life decide for you, if you are using opiates everyday and you want to quit you absolutely can. It just takes a little work, unfortunately a dirty word in this country today 😂
She also said that when she was young she knew she was going to be a heroin addict. I did as well, long before I had ever used an opiate. Honestly, when I heard Nirvanas “Nevermind” album and it changed my life. When I found out he was a heroin addict I knew I was gonna give it a try. And it’s almost impossible to just give heroin “a try”.
As bad as withdrawal gets, at least you know you won’t die! And even though in the beginning, each day gets worse, it’s really getting better. I say embrace the pain, own that pain, become one with the pain. Because truth is you’re already used to pain.
@@DJM3991 it's a huge head trip isn't it? You have to commit to doing it and that makes it easier bc when you have one foot in you just keep thinking about that one thing that will make it better. Then after the intense physical withdrawal its all mental, which to me has always been the most difficult part. The depression, anxiety and fatigue makes kicking look like a cake walk .
I relate to her on so many levels I too was a heroin addict at 16. The one thing that was different is my mom did give a shit I lost my dad to suicide at 16 spiraling me out of control. I became hard to handle and hard to love. Well I got right before my mom passed by me going to prison and me getting out and doing right she passed away from detoxing off of pills and alcohol in 2017 I was 27 at the time that too was a rough one to deal with. After she passed I had to be homeless for about 3 yrs with 2 kids . It was the 1st time I didn't have a place to call home . But I now have a apartment for the last 2yrs now not happy with were I live but it's a place for my kids
Reall genuine woman, but she has buried herself in pain, the past and sadness. It´s never too late. Dig deep and find the strength to create a different you and a new path for yourself. Best of luck. Stay strong and fight for yourself. Don´t give up.
Stephanie If anyone can make it then it’s You for sure. Teach your world Just like you taught and changed your sweet birds. Be the mother who now teaches you How to bring about change in your life I can’t wait for the amazing results waiting just yearning to be born out of you!!! You have more than ALL that it takes❤❤
Stephanie looks pretty good for having been over here @ K & A , and for her 39 years . If she tries to be clean clean she will see just how good she CAN feel soon enough . Great interview .
You are a beautiful girl! I pray that Gods grace comes upon you and that you get clean. God can transform anyone. I am 9 years clean from a 12 year heroin addiction. All gory be to God..❤️🙏
I don't normally like people but I sure do like Stephanie. I'm sorry she's in so much pain. It's terrible how life throws shit at good people who think they aren't worthy of love because of their own damn parents. If you read this, Stephanie, please know that there are people out here who connect with you on a deeper level than the surface. I do wish you the best and I pray and hope that you can beat the addiction. Even though you think you can't or don't want to. I hope you find your true self and I hope you love her like she deserves.
I moved to philly to go to school there at 18, and it changed my life. I think a lot of people go there and have the same story of ending up strung out. I think i would have ended up getting into drugs regardless, but philly and kensington are a hell hole. Got my college degree and a decade long opiate addiction to go w it. I got out of there at the end of 2021, it gets easier but its a daily battle. Her accent makes me miss Philly and Kenzo though, i still struggle with it all seeming romantic in some way sometimes.
I am also 39, and I was an opiate addict for over a decade. It take about a year, almost two until u start to feel actually normal but I still use Suboxone so I already know it wouldn’t have even taken as long as it did. But the person inside u has been numb for so long, it also takes that time in a way to come back to the person u were. It feels like u lost a part of you but when it comes to u you finally realize that you’ve been there all along, you were just waaaaay to numb from the opiates to even realize what u did. Don’t feel like the true u is gone forever cuz it most certainly isn’t no matter what anyone says, it just takes time to find ur way back
Stephanie is so likeable. Her story is so very sad, though. She's another example of why I get so angry at our government for allowing drugs to pour into our country. If they wanted it to stop, it would be stopped. I don't think they care. They want people addicted and controlled. It's heartbreaking to see all these people suffering. I hope Stephanie finds the peace she deserves.
Where there is demand, supply will *always* follow. If you appreciate having basic constitutional rights as a US citizen (the 4th amendment to the US Constitution is kinda important for maintaining a free society), the drugs will not be going anywhere. If we were smart, we'd go back to the prescribed opioids policy of the 90s and early 2000s, when 8,000 fatal overdoses annually was considered a devastating number. By comparison, in 2020, we had 100,000 fatal overdoses annually, and that will continue unabated until people wake up and have a good hard look at the empirically obvious and proven solution.
My birth mom hated my birth dad so much because he rejected her. They were both married to other people with kids when I was conceived. He wouldn’t leave his wife for her which she wasn’t used to. She was beautiful outside and rotten inside. That’s my theory as to why she abused me so much worse than the other kids. So I can really relate to that. It took her nearly killing me for me to be taken from her for good when I was 3. I have 3rd degree burn scars on almost half my body because of her. So I know what you mean when you say they hated each other so much that they hated their kids.
Omg my heart goes out to you. Godbless! My father doesn’t like me neither because my mom left him when I was a baby, due to his infidelities. He has always treated me different than the rest of his children.
This young woman feels very sweet snd genuine. I think she would benefit by having one good girlfriend.I also am not a real social person. I do ok in social situations but dont feel the need to collect friends, but i do have one girlfriend of 67 years, yes YEARS. We know each other closer than sisters. One friend is a godsend.
Stephane l was in active addiction 27 years and thought that would be my life too. But I’ve been clean 4 years on methadone at 53. . I’m down to 4 ml from 120 ml. There is still hope. I still don’t know how l am! I just decided one day lm not going to pick up today. Then the next day ect. I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m holding hope for you. Your a beautiful soul❤
Letting go of your internalized shame is the key to getting clean. If you can find a path to that relinquishing of shame which works for you, take it. You CAN change your life, but it begins in your own mind, you have to change the way you perceive yourself and how you relate to the world around you. Methadone is great IF you're working a program and putting in your absolute best effort. Otherwise it's a temporary emergency fix and nothing else. If you taper slowly from the methadone while working a comprehensive program geared towards the relinquishing of internalized shame, you'll be able to have the life you deserve. Good luck Stephanie.
I'm a opioid addict on methadone I'm been so strong now to get better n the methadone takes the edge of and I'm great full be proud of yourself love n kisses from Brooklyn NY ❤❤❤❤
I'm pretty impressed with her. She's honest in saying she'll probably be addicted for the duration. That's ok if she can manage it, and seems like the methadone is helping. Buprenorphine has worked for many people too, and luckily it's getting easier to administer via telemedicine and the price has come down. I wish her the best, she is really honest and considering all she's been through, seems like a quite well-adjusted person! a portrait in strength and courage.
I'll never understand why someone would cage a bird of flight. And then claim to love it. Pretty ironic that a human being who's been imprisoned would be oblivious to the plight of her poor birds. Selfish.
This lady has such a deep down nice way about her. In another life I see her being the cool middle school art teacher that all the students adore. Makes me want to shake her parents.
Stephanie I understand everything you sre saying it does take a part of your soul you loose something i am 6 months sober its not been easy but its what I want please dont ever give up❤
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Stephanie, I know how you feel. I was an IV opioid addict for 17 years. I wanted to get clean for so long. I went to jail, prison, and more treatment centers than I can remember to count. I finally got clean in 2019. I am now a supervisor at a treatment center, and I just celebrated 4 years free from all substances.
I know your pain. I know how strange sobriety feels after using for so long. I hope one day you can find a reason to not use anymore. I know it doesn't seem like it at first, but life is so much better in recovery. You don't have to live like that. You have people who love you, and that would be devastated if you weren't here. It's too dangerous out there. You are beautiful and have a beautiful heart. You can do anything you want in this world..still. It's never too late.
It's never too late as long as there is still life
🙏🏾❤️
Yeah bro my life is so much better without drugs and alcohal and that's the truth
I am 6 months sober after 15 yrs of running I finally surrenderd never give up ❤❤
Keep fighting the good fight, sir!
“They hated each other so much that they hated their own children.” that is so well said and so relatable!! this woman is so well spoken despite how difficult things are for her, what an incredible testament to her own strength
You’re right. She speaks very eloquently. Being intelligent and being educated aren’t the same. This lady is very smart.
Sounds just like my parents too. Her story mirrors mine in a devastating amount of ways. Same age, same drug of choice, analogous family history, loss of parental sanity and any semblance of structure after the divorce. I really feel her pain at a visceral level.
So profound
She looks so young for 39. I hope she gets the right help. It IS possible.
She has so much humility and compassion. Watching her interview made me smile and cry at the same time. She is one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen.
Doesn't seem very compassionate to me to feed your fetus with heroin.
I completely agree
This hits kind of different as I am sitting here, not far from where you record in LA, at 3 AM smoking a dirty 30 loading up a video about an opioid addict. Maybe this is my sign to get clean once and for all.
I'm working
All the best
What's a dirty 30?
@@leneo1731 a dirty 30.
@@leneo1731Percocet 30 pill
This lady is so full of spirit, it’s a shame her environment hasn’t been anything but poisonous; from her family, to her friends who pressured her into heroin. I hope this woman finds that support she so deserves.
Few women realize they’re aren’t motherly, I give her credit for not wanting to make her baby live the life she lived growing up.
@@BobbySchafferWrong topic, get help.
What? There are a whole lot of women in this world, so how could you possibly know this?
@@thematriarchy2075so far 24 people agree with that comment. So what does that say? Not one like on yours. That tells me the commenter just might be right
@@thematriarchy2075 I’m talking about women with drug addiction who make poor decisions such as drug usage.
@@ritamccomas9271 😂
The way her faces lights up when she speaks about her birds. I’m glad she’s found a little piece of happiness
What about her kids LMFAO
I'm an avid fan I watch this program religiously everyday and I'm so glad that you got someone real I mean this lady is really real I don't think even one lie I came out of her mouth!
Stephanie, this video touched me. You seem so smart, self-aware, self-reflective, wise, and honest. I admire you for being so brave. Thanks for this video, I even wrote down several phrases because it felt like I should keep them in mind to tell my kids. Virtual hug for you!
Stephanie my girl...I'm 42 and I completely understand what you mean by heroin getting a part of your soul. I'm clean, part 2, for 2 years now. My soul will never be the same. But, the restlessness, it will subside. It does subside. But you realize it's not a restlessness for drugs, but for filling something within you that's empty. Usually trauma. You can beat it, but you have to want to find and complete your void with someone more fulfilling than the drug. It's hard. It's exhausting. But it's worth it. You are worth it. Much love. 🖤
@Iam...--- I love this, and agree. Security, safety, two close cousins and quote important in my healing. I notice when either of those start to bend even slightly, I have a very hard time. I do hope that you using the past tense means youre in recovery, and congratulations for winning if so. It's such a fucking outstanding accomplishment 🖤
Appreciate the real and honest account of her life and feelings.She hit the nail on the head when she said 'when you're young you think you'll always be a teenager'.
For someone that does not talk about their emotions very often you did such a beautiful job. I can see your light shining through no matter how dark it seems to you. I truly believe in you. I'm glad you found a good man who treats you well 🙂
The same story over and over again - never felt loved or cared for at home - finds opioids and there's that warm hug you've been longing for your whole life.
It doesn't matter if you're poor or rich it's the same story for all who grow up without feeling loved.
Or feeling that something is missing.
Opioids replace all of those feelings that are eating you up inside.
Edit:This was absolutely not critism.
It was me trying to keep it short for once.
I have the deepest emphaty for people like her who's been growing up under such horrible conditions.
My point was that this is almost the story of every addict out there and that's absolutely heartbreaking.
Their so called parents destroyed their children for life.
I always wonder why these people get children in the first place when all they do is drink, use drugs and be violet.
Wouldn't it have been better to be free of children? I'll never understand.
@@dorazamora9456 what is so funny?
So what’s your point? Mark shouldn’t keep making these interviews? lol. These are old anyway. He said he has thousands of interviews he hasn’t uploaded yet. But yea, always similar stories. If you haven’t suffered, you wouldn’t understand. You’ll only know what you see. And even then, you won’t fully know why these peoples stories are what they are.
@@dorazamora9456like that little princess you got. Give it 10 years. Fentanyl will still be a thing. Along with whatever new drugs come out by then.
@@ihave0followers389absolutely. I am really moved my this woman’s story. It’s awful how children can be treated. She is a person who will probably be on methadone the rest of her life, is that so terrible? If it helps her, it’s worth it. She came from a shit life her parents gave her. I really feel for her. I hope she has a nice rest of her life
@@elisaschulman2356 I hope she’s not on methadone the rest of her life. I also am on methadone because I thought I was taking Percocet on the streets, but I found out it was fentanyl. When I figured that out, I struggled for about a month trying to get myself off of it and had to get into a methadone clinic. I wasn’t expecting to be classified as a junkie. I just thought I was enjoying a few pain pills. Not the deadliest drug there is. I hate myself for it daily. I have never experienced things like heroin or shooting drugs up in my veins, or anything like that. But I can imagine it takes a toll on you after awhile. Fentanyl withdrawals are the worst
Former opiate addict here! I was addicted for 5 years. It's a long story, but I've been clean and sober for 15 years.
Best wishes for continuing recovery! 💜
@StephieGsrEvolution thank you so much!
I’ve bin addicted for 20 years
I believe every word she said and I pray for her
Thank you I think out of all is interviews I was the most truthful
The struggle is real. I feel for her. My parents divorced when I was 3 and it went down hill from there. They both died from addictions. I graduated with a bachelor’s degree with out any financial support from them or anyone else. Had to work a lot of hours and be in school full time. Because I wasn’t given any love growing up I made the mistake of marrying someone who emotionally and financially abused me for decades. Leaving was the best decision I ever made. I’ve never done any drugs or alcohol. It’s only by the grace of God
Stephanie is such a beautiful soul! She has definitely been through hell, and I relate to her alot, although, my demon was alcohol. Stephanie doesn't seem like your typical addict, she has a conscious, and a heart. I pray she gets help, she definitely needs help with her depression. I completely understand when she says she doesn't want to be around anyone any more. When all the people in your life who are supposed to love you, hurt you, you can't trust anyone anymore. Stay strong Stephanie, I believe in you❣️
I love this girl. She's so sweet. Where can we donate to her for care for her bird if she needs it??
I love her too. Her demeanor is so very kind. Such a soft spoken genuine lady. I so wish she could get sober & have the life that she wants. This interview brought tears to my eyes & tugged at my heart. Hang in there, sweetie. Bless her🙏🙏❤️
I personally know Stephanie and let me tell you she is a beautiful person me and her used to run for a while and she is a good person. That’s all I can really say she’s got a beautiful heart. She’s a good friend you could judge her, but she’ll never judge you, that’s all I could really say she’s very good person and her fiancé. Matt is a good dude also.
I thunk everything you said about shines through and can be seen😊
were you in the kensington area? I know so many people from that scene back in the late 2000s/2010s, I would love to know the fate of some of them. It's a small world
No, I was down in the toms River area, Beachwood when I met her.
No she’s not
BEAUTIFUL AND SO ARE YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO WRITE THIS. 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
I have a lot of respect for Stephanie. She has been truly honest here. She is straight up. I wish her the best in the future.
Arresting people with warrants at a hospital just goes to show how incompassionate the American health system is… that would never happen in the UK
I'm a recovering person, 30 yrs...many ppl who end up in the hospital have a warrant out for their arrest...if a person killed a loved one (under the influence) & it was released they had actually been in the hospital & let go?!!! Too much liability for the hospital. Why shelter in the hospital?
The system is broken no doubt, I am not in support of enabling.
@@lindaboo123 no sorry I don’t agree with it. Addicts have a hard enough time getting their life together or just getting through the day… threat of arrest when seeking emergency treatment is inhumane.
It would never happen in Australia either.
@@lindaboo123 It's none of the hospitals business. They are there to provide health care. How would they be liable anyway? A hospital cannot be responsible for every person that comes through the door.
@@oddly5598I agree with you. The other person's comment makes no sense.
What a lovely person, she seems so centered and open and wise. I bet she's a fantastic bird-parent.
Wow she’s so good at taking care of birds! She’s also great at leaving her kids and treating them like shit!
There’s something so special about Stephanie and she has a great personality. I hope she can get clean because she DESERVES love and happiness! No more shame.
Mark! Help her! Please! You’re so good at this and she genuinely wants to be clean but she just doesn’t know how or where to start! I’ve been her!
YOU GOT THIS GIRL! DONT GIVE UP!
Please give us an update on her when possible ❤
What do you think Mark can do for her? She's already in a program. She's choosing not to be clean and use. Mark can't do a damn thing to help her.
Such a sweet gentle woman. Stephanie thank you for sharing. I hope you and your birds and your man can have a peaceful life you deserve. Thank you for sharing you're story really touched me and made me see myself in you. I'm rooting for you.
Proud of any progress..I am also on methadone maintenance and its saved my life. You have alot of the same past as far as our upbringing..keep your head up. Stay focused and you can make it for the long haul. So proud on you! #123days
Congratulations! You can do this!
10 minutes in and she seems like a very self aware woman. I hope she finds her way.
These stories are perfect for the people who say oh you can just quit it gives insight on the struggles of the people with addiction and what they go through not an easy process thank you for your bravery.
For being a long term addict, she looks incredibly young. Sadly it's a facade. She also seems really together for an addict. It's horrifying that she's on Methadone AND fentanyl because of how strong they both are. I worry she'll overdose and not come back. What a horribly sad life she has lived. I hope she can turn things around and get sober. Having her mindset of not thinking she'll ever be sober is sad. I lost a friend whose last words to me were "maybe I'll be one of those people who never gets clean." He died in his rehab bed of an overdose several months later. I hope the same thing doesn't happen to her. She's too bright to be lost to drugs forever! I wish she realized that she has value and something to contribute to the world. Stephanie, please give yourself the love and grace you give your birds! You are so worthy of it!
I'm glad I don't know how in the world people get their hands on so many drugs. My little sister/best friend accidentally od'd on her pain Rx/alcohol mix. I'll never get over it. Fentanyl is so strong - how do people titrate that stuff?! I don't even know what form it's in on the streets, but it's dangerous as hell!😨 I'm terrified for her; she reminds me of my friends and family.😢
I don’t usually comment on these but theres something special about Stephany. Something real desperate to express itself through the addiction and hell that life has obviously been. Some goodness deep down. Stephany, I’m so glad you’ve found your good man and your birds. I wish your life could have been different. I wish your parents could have been better people and you’d found meaning in something other than opiates before they gave you what you needed. If only they hadn’t been the answer, you’d have had all the qualities you have now but without needing to take the pain away. You’d have been free and I wish you could have had that.
your post made me cry. it's like i was able to actually hear how someone had recently described me and i blew it off, yet i remembered it for a reason. reading you say this about another help me to finally try to believe it about myself. you really never know how deeply your words can reach into a person's soul and speak to their higher self. thank you❤️
@@lrbanks2584 I’m really happy that however it happened, you had a moment of believing something good about yourself in the deepest parts of yourself. My guess is that the feeling didn’t stay for all that long but at least you felt the truth of yourself for the time you had with it. I hope you get many many more moments of truth like that. It’s the way we become free, to see ourselves in reality instead of through the biases we’ve been beaten into and finally come to believe. They aren’t real. The reality is that beautiful feeling you touched and that touched you yesterday. If you could live with that in your heart 24/7 that would be true freedom.
❤
@@andylane7142 you're absolutely right it didn't last long, however i can revisit that feeling and access that truth about myself now anytime i want to because i genuinely received it. your kind words meant so much to me. i love you so much for that❤️
@@lrbanks2584 Well I love you too for being able to be in a place where something made you feel whole for a short time. Thats real human connection and although we don’t know one another and never will and it was only words on a screen, there was meaningful human connection and understanding that we can both remember forever. I feel emotional that you have found an opening in your obvious trauma. I hope that opening grows and grows for you.
Kinda seemed like an abrupt end. I love how honest she is with herself
She’s been through the wringer, she looks GREAT for 39!.. I lost my spouse to heroin, I have no where experienced what you have. If you need to stay on methadone or Suboxone forever. *maybe* just maybe, you’ll eventually be off heroin / fentanyl. You are articulate and strong. Thanks for being brave enough to share 🤍🙏
Hi I’m her daughter actually. This interview is insane to me. Yes of course it’s upsetting what she went through in her life. But she’s not even close to how she makes herself out to be. Everyone believe what she wants. But last time I checks a women who calls her child an “ungrateful c*nt” because I didn’t answer her text. Mind you she hasn’t been in my life for 18 years before I had started talking to her.
Not only that she got my age and the place I live wrong.
I believe you, can see right through her. She’s full of excuses. Leave her to her parrot. I hope your grandparents are kind. You’re lucky to have responsible adults to raise you. I’m sure your mum
doesn’t mean to be rude but she’s going to be mentally deranged from what she’s gone through and the drugs from a young age.
Aliyah save the bullshit only your father would say such ignorance it reallyshows you are just like your father ❤u 😂
I wasn't going tp put all you shit out there so i only spoke about it a little
@@bukabukathecrazyparrot2591 this is exactly what I mean lol
I love her interview she was very open and honest
Stephanie, your light shines so bright. We are all rooting for you! Thank you for sharing your story.
her love of her birds really warms my heart
That’s crazy bc she loves her birds more then her ligit child but yea
There's something special about this girl. I live in NJ and i have a daughter named Stephanie. This hits really close to home! Where can I find her? How can i help? I'd love to see her get into a really great rehabilitation center and heal completely. What can I do?
hi ❤
Stephanie is a beautiful pure soul ❤
I’m stefanie
i wish you all the best and more. you deserve it. i hope to see more updates from you!
I felt every part of your story, you are a wonderful person.
Sweet girl...I personally understand so so much! Im working through ny stuff, still on Methadone after 5 years...but, I thankful to be where I am, air in my lungs. Keep pushing, beautiful ♥️ Youre not alone
Hi Miss Stephanie,
You have a beautiful soul. You could write a best selling book. You have a comforting voice and rhythm in which you speak, the knowledge from your life could make a successful and possible rewarding and healing career. Reiki practice,AODA life coach/councelor ,motivational speaker.
Please keep updating, thank you Mark for your interviews, I’ve learned a lot watching.
❤
This lady drew me in from the start and kept me glued to the screen! I would LOVE to see more of her and hear more of her story!!
Really weird how Mark ended this one.
Was just coming to say the same thing!
Thank you for sharing your story 🙏🏽 Everyone deserves love ❤
I've said this before .... parents out there, love your children. You are ALL they have
She’s looks good for being on hard drugs her whole life and being 39 . She can still turn it around
I know I was thinking the same thing.
Love you Steph! It's amazing to see you talk about ur story and still hear hope! We all hope you keep on a better path..🙏
I too grew up neglected, molested, abandoned, abused. Poor. Daughter of a raging alcoholic, absent father, held up by shotgun in 3rd grade and so much more.
But you don’t have to choose this route. Today, also aged 39 I am Senior VP at a global cloud software company. I hold an MBA. I’m up preparing my presentation to the Board to propose entering the South American market. I love my spouse. I raised my kids. We are a team.
I fear that so many people who watch these videos will say, see that’s “us”, these are the reasons we do what we do. Feel sorry for us. Help us. We’re broken. Pray for us. Well, not every broken human has to join their “us”. It boils down to choice. The path we choose to take for ourselves. Either we remain victims of our past by continuing to abuse ourselves or we choose to liberate ourselves from remaining a victim for the entirety of our lives.
Tell us about your bad side. The verbal abuse you subject your wife and kids too. The neglect they suffered by you chasing your goals in that field. You type away pretending to be perfect. WE know you’re not.
Sadly, it's not always a choice. Generational trauma, poverty, s&x abuse, not having a stable family, illness and living a marginalized existence takes more than just determination to conquer. Aging out of abusive foster homes to living on the streets. Some people are honestly f*cked at birth. Kudo's to your success!
I am relieved to hear she has regrets. Too often, when Mark asks this question you get the "I have no regrets, because it's made me who I am today" reply. Like, really?? You don't regret giving up your kids, or robbing ppl, or hurting your family? Good for Stephanie for being self aware.
Oof.I spoke too soon. Right after I wrote this, she said it. lol
All I said was everything I’ve bin through made me who I’m today never said I had a regret you misunderstood the message
So, you're saying everything you've been through, made you who u are today? And you're proud of that person?? I doubt that. You seem sad, and I'm rooting for you. I'm conflicted though. My mom was basically you. You guys leave victims. Innocent kids. I just want to shake you and scream, TRY HARDER! The only comments you're replying to are the negative ones. Why? There are sooo many positive ones! I hope you get well and happy. ✌️
Oof
It made me who I’m today what i mean is it made me self aware that’s what I meant
I’m on opioid 5mg because of my rheumatoid arthritis. However I goto a pain management specialist that can only prescribe it, and they closely regulate your medication usage, which I love. It’s so hard for patients, whose suffering in pain to get access to opioids now because of people abusing it 😞.
Stephanie never give up. You are more than your addiction. You have given more to this world than most…giving a child life and a family who adopts is the greatest blessing….this is the most selfless act a person can commit. Thank you for choosing life you are a beautiful human being.
What a soft woman! I have faith in her that she will turn her life around, I really do.
Stephanie , your awesome for your honesty. Dealing with my own demons currently and hearing your honesty and compassion hit home. I'll pray for you! Keep shining, and maybe even go back to school! You can do it! Love to you!
Thankyou Stephanie for telling your story. All the best and be careful and may God Bless & Protect You.
She's beautiful and real and I love her. It may have taken something from her but she's more human than most people out there.
Thank you for the interview Stephanie and SWU
Awe sweet lady. I hope life gives you nothing but great things in your future. You have been through enough. 💕
What a kind person she seems.
She’s such a beautiful person. I hope she finds the peace and comfort she deserves in this lifetime. Keep going❤️
I came out the other end of this. But sadly returned. But it can be done. I got clean at 35 and stayed clean for almost 3 years. My brain snapped back and I felt genuine joy. Neuroplasticity is an amazing thing. It can be done. I believe I’ll manage sobriety again soon.
Stephanie, your a beautiful person. I pray good things for you. Peace, comfort and joy. God bless you Stephanie.
The fear of withdrawal is a thousand times worse than it actually is. I used it as an excuse for years, I honestly just didn’t want to quit. Methadone treatment plays on that fear and locks people in for a life dependance.
You either get strong, lose everything or overdose. I lost everything, I wish someone would have told me this because it wasn’t necessary.
Don’t let life decide for you, if you are using opiates everyday and you want to quit you absolutely can. It just takes a little work, unfortunately a dirty word in this country today 😂
She also said that when she was young she knew she was going to be a heroin addict. I did as well, long before I had ever used an opiate.
Honestly, when I heard Nirvanas “Nevermind” album and it changed my life. When I found out he was a heroin addict I knew I was gonna give it a try. And it’s almost impossible to just give heroin “a try”.
As bad as withdrawal gets, at least you know you won’t die! And even though in the beginning, each day gets worse, it’s really getting better. I say embrace the pain, own that pain, become one with the pain. Because truth is you’re already used to pain.
@@DJM3991 brilliant and correct.
@@DJM3991 I had an earache once that I would have gladly traded for weeks of withdrawal.😂
@@DJM3991 it's a huge head trip isn't it? You have to commit to doing it and that makes it easier bc when you have one foot in you just keep thinking about that one thing that will make it better. Then after the intense physical withdrawal its all mental, which to me has always been the most difficult part. The depression, anxiety and fatigue makes kicking look like a cake walk .
I relate to her on so many levels I too was a heroin addict at 16. The one thing that was different is my mom did give a shit I lost my dad to suicide at 16 spiraling me out of control. I became hard to handle and hard to love. Well I got right before my mom passed by me going to prison and me getting out and doing right she passed away from detoxing off of pills and alcohol in 2017 I was 27 at the time that too was a rough one to deal with. After she passed I had to be homeless for about 3 yrs with 2 kids . It was the 1st time I didn't have a place to call home . But I now have a apartment for the last 2yrs now not happy with were I live but it's a place for my kids
She has such a gentle and sweet personality. And so intelligent, and mature. I genuinely, genuinely wish her well.
I really liked this story.She is honest in every way .l hope one day to get clean and help others she is very smart girl god bless you ❤❤❤❤❤
Reall genuine woman, but she has buried herself in pain, the past and sadness. It´s never too late. Dig deep and find the strength to create a different you and a new path for yourself. Best of luck. Stay strong and fight for yourself. Don´t give up.
Stephanie
If anyone can make it then it’s You for sure.
Teach your world
Just like you taught and changed your sweet birds.
Be the mother who now teaches you
How to bring about change in your life
I can’t wait for the amazing results waiting just yearning to be born out of you!!!
You have more than ALL that it takes❤❤
Stephanie looks pretty good for having been over here @ K & A , and for her 39 years . If she tries to be clean clean she will see just how good she CAN feel soon enough . Great interview .
You are worthy. I hope someday you realize that. Thank you for sharing so much of the heartbreak in your life. Wishing you sobriety...💙🌎
You are a beautiful girl! I pray that Gods grace comes upon you and that you get clean. God can transform anyone. I am 9 years clean from a 12 year heroin addiction. All gory be to God..❤️🙏
I don't normally like people but I sure do like Stephanie. I'm sorry she's in so much pain. It's terrible how life throws shit at good people who think they aren't worthy of love because of their own damn parents.
If you read this, Stephanie, please know that there are people out here who connect with you on a deeper level than the surface. I do wish you the best and I pray and hope that you can beat the addiction. Even though you think you can't or don't want to. I hope you find your true self and I hope you love her like she deserves.
Stephanie's life has been really tough. Thankyou Mark for giving her a platform where she could speak her truth.
What an awesome chick, great attitude
I hope she gets better
Stephanie, just keep taking it day by day, caring for your birds first. You're on the way home. 💐
I moved to philly to go to school there at 18, and it changed my life. I think a lot of people go there and have the same story of ending up strung out. I think i would have ended up getting into drugs regardless, but philly and kensington are a hell hole. Got my college degree and a decade long opiate addiction to go w it. I got out of there at the end of 2021, it gets easier but its a daily battle. Her accent makes me miss Philly and Kenzo though, i still struggle with it all seeming romantic in some way sometimes.
I am also 39, and I was an opiate addict for over a decade. It take about a year, almost two until u start to feel actually normal but I still use Suboxone so I already know it wouldn’t have even taken as long as it did. But the person inside u has been numb for so long, it also takes that time in a way to come back to the person u were. It feels like u lost a part of you but when it comes to u you finally realize that you’ve been there all along, you were just waaaaay to numb from the opiates to even realize what u did. Don’t feel like the true u is gone forever cuz it most certainly isn’t no matter what anyone says, it just takes time to find ur way back
I'm so proud of you for this!
I love you Stef and I'm so very proud of you don't you ever forget that! ❤️
I like Stephanie. She seems real, very hurt and sad though. I hope the very best for her and her siblings. Thank you for interviewing her. ❤
Stephanie is so likeable. Her story is so very sad, though. She's another example of why I get so angry at our government for allowing drugs to pour into our country. If they wanted it to stop, it would be stopped. I don't think they care. They want people addicted and controlled. It's heartbreaking to see all these people suffering. I hope Stephanie finds the peace she deserves.
Where there is demand, supply will *always* follow. If you appreciate having basic constitutional rights as a US citizen (the 4th amendment to the US Constitution is kinda important for maintaining a free society), the drugs will not be going anywhere. If we were smart, we'd go back to the prescribed opioids policy of the 90s and early 2000s, when 8,000 fatal overdoses annually was considered a devastating number. By comparison, in 2020, we had 100,000 fatal overdoses annually, and that will continue unabated until people wake up and have a good hard look at the empirically obvious and proven solution.
Such a good interview.
My birth mom hated my birth dad so much because he rejected her. They were both married to other people with kids when I was conceived. He wouldn’t leave his wife for her which she wasn’t used to. She was beautiful outside and rotten inside. That’s my theory as to why she abused me so much worse than the other kids. So I can really relate to that. It took her nearly killing me for me to be taken from her for good when I was 3. I have 3rd degree burn scars on almost half my body because of her. So I know what you mean when you say they hated each other so much that they hated their kids.
So sorry that happened to you. I had a momster and it's soul crushing. Hugs to you! 💗
Omg my heart goes out to you. Godbless! My father doesn’t like me neither because my mom left him when I was a baby, due to his infidelities. He has always treated me different than the rest of his children.
@@Ms_Neffie 💜💜💜
@@StephieGsrEvolution hugs & kisses to you sistah ❤️❤️❤️.
@@Ms_Neffie back to you, sistah! 😘🫂💗💗💗💯
This young woman feels very sweet snd genuine. I think she would benefit by having one good girlfriend.I also am not a real social person. I do ok in social situations but dont feel the need to collect friends, but i do have one girlfriend of 67 years, yes YEARS. We know each other closer than sisters.
One friend is a godsend.
You never hear anyone say, “ I’m the only one that’s responsible for me being an addict.”
Watch the entire video it was my fault I was a addict I don't blame Noone but me
Stephane l was in active addiction 27 years and thought that would be my life too. But I’ve been clean 4 years on methadone at 53. . I’m down to 4 ml from 120 ml. There is still hope. I still don’t know how l am! I just decided one day lm not going to pick up today. Then the next day ect. I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m holding hope for you. Your a beautiful soul❤
Letting go of your internalized shame is the key to getting clean. If you can find a path to that relinquishing of shame which works for you, take it. You CAN change your life, but it begins in your own mind, you have to change the way you perceive yourself and how you relate to the world around you. Methadone is great IF you're working a program and putting in your absolute best effort. Otherwise it's a temporary emergency fix and nothing else. If you taper slowly from the methadone while working a comprehensive program geared towards the relinquishing of internalized shame, you'll be able to have the life you deserve. Good luck Stephanie.
That was a powerful statement when Stephanie said, her parents hated each other so much that they hated their children.
I'm a opioid addict on methadone I'm been so strong now to get better n the methadone takes the edge of and I'm great full be proud of yourself love n kisses from Brooklyn NY ❤❤❤❤
I'm pretty impressed with her. She's honest in saying she'll probably be addicted for the duration. That's ok if she can manage it, and seems like the methadone is helping. Buprenorphine has worked for many people too, and luckily it's getting easier to administer via telemedicine and the price has come down. I wish her the best, she is really honest and considering all she's been through, seems like a quite well-adjusted person! a portrait in strength and courage.
It's a terrible thing that no one should go thru she's a strong woman for talking about it
A brave young lady, best to her. Drugs never work out in the long run.
Your story is heart breaking, take care of you. I have also a cute little canari and 4 cats. Animals help a lot, good luck to you ❤
I'll never understand why someone would cage a bird of flight. And then claim to love it. Pretty ironic that a human being who's been imprisoned would be oblivious to the plight of her poor birds. Selfish.
I don't cage my birds I free fly them thats why I got them because they were caged
Lady you are a idiot
Stephanie you are smart, thank you for your story
This lady has such a deep down nice way about her. In another life I see her being the cool middle school art teacher that all the students adore. Makes me want to shake her parents.
Stephanie I understand everything you sre saying it does take a part of your soul you loose something i am 6 months sober its not been easy but its what I want please dont ever give up❤
Best of luck on your journey Stephany
She has a lovely heart.. I wish her every success... James.. England
She deserves to be helped