Fentanyl Addict interview-Jessica
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- Опубликовано: 9 мар 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Jessica, a fentanyl addict in Los Angeles.
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Her getting her babies back after they were out in the system
SAYS EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT HER. SHE SAID MY BABIES ARE NOT BEING IN FOSTER CARE & SHE ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!
MY HATS OFF TO YOU , JESSICA!!
STAY STRONG SISTER!!!
Amen!
I’m sorry…this is an insanely stupid comment. You think Kid’s are safe with a fentanyl addict? An addict who dates other addicts & brings them around their children, shitty mom and shitty mom’s multitude of men…oh & brings a deadly opioid into the same home as her kids. FYI, I don’t believe much of what she’s staying especially regarding her kids. Did you hear the part about her leaving her kids with a boyfriend for DAYS? This chick is popping out kids like a Pez dispenser and doing drugs. I only have 2 & can’t imagine how she finds the time.
You wanna give her props? She shoulda never got in that situation in the first place.
@@thelotus8285 She just told you her whole childhood trauma and said she had a child, woke up, and the child was gone but you didn't miss a beat to judge. You must be perfect and make all the perfect choices even when upset, angry, disappointed, or abandoned. How do you do it? Please tell the world how you figured out how not to neglect or abuse anyone including yourself in anyway? You must learn something called empathy because the false perfectionist you put forward is just a clear sign of a narc that has thier own stuff but feels they are above this woman. You are not better because you feel your poor choices are not as extreme. It also could be projection if you had a difficult relationship with your mother. You are triggered by her story for some reason which makes you attack her not care for her even though she gave you a gift. She gave you her life and the ability to hear why that life went the way it did so you can learn insight from it to help family, friends, strangers, your children, and yourself. You could be proactive to stop someone from going down this path once the early signs are there but instead you choose to judge them after. The type to manipulate someone to throw an egg at someones head then judge that person for doing it. Fix your stuff the lotus before you completely wilt away.
My friend: Silencie is Golden!🤫👉✨👌✌️😍👍
"The only thing I knew how to do was clean."
No, you know how to SURVIVE.
jessica, i’ve never left a comment on here before. your story moved me. you got this, girl. you are a goddamn shining star. 10,000 hugs for you.
This is one of the first interviews where I’m just speechless. Her vulnerability and authenticity is heart warming and refreshing. I can feel her pain, her struggle and her beautiful heart. She’s worth fighting for.
Perfectly said, Amber. Your description is just right.
I felt the same, I can feel her pain.
It is so easy to FOOL you guy's with a sob story . Use context clues and critical thinking she's a liar this is why she has lost All her family.... EVERYTHING 😢
@@rond5379 dishonest people see liars everywhere...if it was a man talking you would probably be sobbing
@@weedblossom77 there's a science to language and honesty. Your statement sounds like a 14y old.
I love how Jessica laid out her story in chronological order. It really demonstrates how things can get turned upside down with a traumatic event. She has experienced so many. This is one of your best interviews Mark. Jessica, you are an amazing woman warrior. Sending you love because you are worthy!
my favorite so far this one felt real
Jessica you are inspiration of hope to the next person. Please believe in yourself, keep moving forward because that's you, deserve the best believe that. 🙏❤ 👍🙌💙
Agree!
Agreed, Jessica you are so much stronger than you know. My heart breaks for you, that you have had to endure so much in this life. Your story brought me to tears. You are not only strong, but beautiful and a good person. Sending you love, respect and strength.
I was also thinking this is the best ive seen of Marks works, and I have watched many. This woman is beautiful with a huge heart. Please get clean and treat your kids like you would want to be treated. Your strong and can do it. Just do it.
She wants what every person on this planet wants, to be loved, to been seen, to be told it’s all going to be ok, and that you are not alone. Drug addict or no. We all want/need this.
Unconditional love and acceptance is the only cure for drug addiction
@@davidledford3522 Absolutely
I would love to see an update on her. And maybe one with her and her daughter. She seems to be a fighter for her children. No matter if you feel they have given up on you, don't give up on them.
Jessica took us on a visual journey. I could envision all those moments she described. She is a warrior.
A warrior, liar and somebody who embellishes and stretches the truth.
@@jennross6466 Glad I wasn't the only one with that opinion.
@@jennross6466 why you say that ?
Literally felt like i was there with her through it all the entire time. Its amazing how people can do that with storytelling.
Exactly 👍
I have massive respect for this lady. It can’t be easy to put yourself out here for everyone to comment on, like a museum display. Good luck to you, and I hope you can get through all that trauma and make a better way for your children and family. Much love from the East Coast!!!
Why does society say we care about what other think, and it does say that! We can choose to not read comments.
(More of a comment than a question)
@Dhardy YES. I understood what ya saying Dhardy. Sad how many people in society cares hw they "are portrayed in public ". SAD 😔 INDEED. Thnxs for pointing this out. 👍✌️😷🇨🇦
@@Dhardy316
It’s not just what society says. It’s an insecurity thing. People are always worried about what others think because most want to be liked. I agree that it’s a flaw but it’s the truth.
...and from kansas.
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I know when this lady gets sober and regular counseling, she’ll move mountains in her life. She’s a survivor. I hope the very best for her…and she’s right, the words we speak to ourselves matter so I hope she speaks pure positivity until that’s all her life is about. She can do this. ❤️🩹
Yes! She will be unstoppable!
I agree 💜
/when/
She is a mountain
Right she's going to help so many women get through what she went through even just by watching this
She's smart, lucid, she doesn't seem like she's on drugs. I think this woman doesn't and hasn't known her own worth. If she hadn't been surrounded by such shit people... and still, a heart of gold. I actually have hope for this woman. She really does deserve some good trauma therapy, antidepressants, and a community of support.
I am sure there are many people in skid row that you refer to as shit people that are decent yet addicted to drugs because of similar trauma
@melodylover2825 That is true, but there are also shit people as well. Some may have been decent at one time but are too far gone to return to decency and are permanent degenerates.
Great interview, I think that 45 minutes of her just talking is probably some of the best stress relief she has had in years. Jessica you are a very beautiful woman inside and out and I really hope you can find the strength to come out of this addiction and get your kids back.
DANG 1.1k likes! Thanks everyone! WE MADE IT MOM! 😂🤡 This is probably the first anyone has ever really ly asked her about her life and actually cared enough to listen. You can see the relief at the end of this interview, here’s to hoping she doesn’t give up and finds a way out. You are a national treasure mark! Thanks for doing what you do! ✌️ from Austin Texas.
Is that you Rogan?? I know this is one of your burner accounts...
@@GrahamPablo no, it’s me the Juan and only!
@@juanzamarripa3133 its okay daddy Rogan. I won’t blow your cover
@@juanzamarripa3133 The Juan and only!!! Love it!!!🤣🤣🤣
love u joe
“A phone call just to see if I’m ok “ that party hit me right in the chest.
I’m sorry brother. My brother lost his battle to drug addiction December 27th 2021, and when he passed away i kept his phone. No one, no one text him, no one called him. The only person that contacted him was his dealer. I’m sorry brother i miss you every day.
I'm so sorry for your loss 💜. My husband lost his battle w/ addiction on October 30th. He was only 41 years old (would've been 42 12/17). I saw this quote yesterday and it reminded me so much of my husband's family and it's also true for so many others...
"When you die, people cry and beg for you to come back, but when you're here, they don't even show they care about you."
I dealt w/ my husband's addiction struggles for 12 years and it always broke my heart to see him reach out to his sister or other family members that never answered or returned his calls. I'm one of the first to understand just how difficult it is to deal w/ someone in active addiction, yet I also know what a difference one person can make for someone who's struggling. My husband loved and respected his sister more than anything in the world. Every single time his phone calls or texts were met w/ silence, I saw his heart break a little more. I don't blame anyone (he made his own choices), but I just wish they had cared a little more while he was still alive. Sadly, I was the one who stood by him through all of it, yet they somehow still blamed me in the end. Finding out how they felt completely blindsided me because I spent 12 years doing everything in my power to try and get him to see there was a better life meant for us. Those I'm closest to seem to think that they just needed someone to blame, which sounds about right 🤷🏻♀️. I hope you're doing okay ❤. The grieving process when losing a loved one is difficult to navigate no matter what, but it's an entirely different ballgame when the circumstances surrounding the death were preventable 💔.
@@findingmywaybacktome9312 thank you for sharing your story with me. I tried to take my brother to rehab, but he didn’t want to go. He used my parents for safety manipulated them into thinking that he would stop. I stopped talking to my brother as a way to see that i wanted the best for him, but i missed him i missed my parents so i began to talk to him in the summer. He looked healthier i asked him if he was using and he said he was only doing pills (prior he was doing heroin) . I told him i loved him and that he was an adult and wasn’t going to judge him or try to change him.
Anytime i saw him he was so happy to see my kids and i. He would text me tiktok videos, all day and yeah sometimes i would be too busy at work to reply and i would forget, but i would always answer his calls.
The last time i saw him was Christmas, my parents had spent the night at my house Christmas Eve, and my brother picked them up
Christmas day. He said “Good bye brother, i love you. You take care of yourself”. I said the same and he pulled me in for a hug.
December 27th my sister in law called me she said “I’m sorry to be the one to tell you, but brother is dead “ i screamed through the phone”i told fucking told you guys this would happen!” I blacked out the next thing i remember my boss was holding me because i throwing tables and chairs.
My parents found him face down in his bed, my wife saw my brothers body and she didn’t let me go in his room his face was blue from being face down so long. The coroners covered his face and laid him on the floor i fell on my knees and i said I’m sorry brother I’m so sorry i kissed his forehead and they took him away. He had just turned 40 on November 14th.
My brother suffered from anxiety and depression. He did a lot of self medicating due to him being shot in the head. That’s where the heroin addiction came about. He had a .38 slug in his brain. He was in constant pain.
:( this makes me sad.
@@noevazquez4184 😪💔🙏
Oh..... man I lost my sister in December too smh . Fake ass pills, god I miss her
I would love an update on her.
I like her she kinda reminds me of myself 😍💯😘💫❤️🩹
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Me too, please.
I like this woman. She is a surviver and a bwautiful person inside !
Same
she said it best at the end “can’t plan it, just do it.” You are adequate as is, I promise you that. Love yourself beautiful person.
-someone who has 3 years off fentanyl and is not going back.
Out of all the Soft Underbelly interviews I've watched, this one has touched me the most. This girl is so real and honest about her pain amd the reasons she uses, yet she takes full accountability for her actions. She doesn't want anyone's pity, she just desperately wants to be seen, and heard, and most of all, loved.
Getting off drugs when you're living in your car, all alone with no support system or true friend to help you thru detox is a mighty challenge, I pray that Mark has given her some resources that will help her get closer to her goal. I've never seen any other addict on here that truly wants to get off the drugs & my heart breaks for her. I wonder if he's maybe set up a Go FundMe for her, she is a diamond in the rough with beautiful heart and I really want to help her. I'm praying hard for you Sis, I know you're using to numb your pain, but you're right - you need to rip off the bandage and deal with all the $hit you've been through so you can begin a new and better life. Sending you so much love and respect, you are a beautiful woman inside and out, and you did not deserve the pain and suffering that was brought upon you 💔
Yea she touched me the most too.
She speaks right from her heart hope she finds a better path in life.
Same out of all the ones I watched this one really hit me!
I have watched many of these videos and I feel the same way. She is crying for help. She is crying for love. She is trying so hard not to give up on herself... I pray that she can be blessed with love and help. I know what it's like to lose children from cps, or divorce. It's a feeling a mother has a hard time understanding. I have done some sketchy $hit in my time trying to cover the pain. I woke up one day and said no more. I have been repairing my relationship with my son since 2007. To me, it will never be perfect but if it gets close, that's OK with me. She will get there too. She just has to keep her faith and believe in herself. God bless her soul. 🙏
I so agree. I've never commented on interviews, but this one is special. It's so easy to judge addicts, especially addicts who are women with children. Trust me; she tears herself down enough; no one else needs to. Those who don't understand the disease are lucky to have never had to experience the cycle of trauma and addiction. Not sure if she will ever read this, but I wanted to say what a beautiful person is and not just looks. Your time is coming. I can feel it.
Thank 😊🙏you
I'm sorry for this lady's trauma....she seems like a very sweet person. I hope she finds the strength to leave the drugs behind
I can’t imagine the amount of relief she had just speaking to someone who would listen. I really hope she turns her life around she has what it takes.
One of my favorite stories; my heart breaks for her. “Nobody calls me.” 😢 I hope she can get sober.
For your 12 year old son to be your savior is so heartbreaking. Stay strong girl 🤎
She’s been through so much. She is in constant pain. The death of her fourth child completely broke her. She has been through literal hell. I wish a better future for her and her children.
My favorite interview so far. She has been through so much, and still shines so bright. I needed this 🙌
She’s so beautiful and I love her style. The cards she’s been dealt with I could never handle, my heart breaks. I’ve got faith she’ll turn it all around and her businesses will flourish to the biggest capacity ❤️
I would be her friend if I lived there closer by her...I would call her and just go have coffee and lunch and let her know she wasnt alone! Im going on 4 yrs clean myself and her story just really touched me especially the part about feeling lonely...Jessica babe..keep your head up and I really hope one day you make it back to getting clean and sober...YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY I 💗 Ya
Bless you!!🥺🙏🏼
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Congratulations on your sobriety and recovery 💜 you’re amazing. I pray she finds sobriety and happiness and absolute peace 😔
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This woman doesn't need a handout, she needs a hand UP. Please help her get into rehab Mark, she CAN get clean, she wants it. I am financially in the shitter myself but I can donate $10. Come on guys, let's help this momma get back on her feet. She wants it, she just needs a hand up. As one who has struggled with addiction off and on throughout my life Id like to think I can see ppl, if you know what I mean. I can see her. Let's do this!!! 🙏💜😎💪🤗
I'm on board
Perfectly said. I want to help too, where can we donate to get her out of that car ? I wonder if she would like to have a FB page for people who watched this who could stay im touch with her daily and remind her of her worth, and befriend her so she knows she is cared about and doesn't have to go thru thus alone. Loneliness is a killer, and I so desperately want to cheer her on!
@@joybarker7906 What a wonderful idea Joy! I even thought yesterday that she would be a friend of mine if she was my neighbor. I think Mark does have a GoFundMe where we can donate to individual people, I would just make sure to put that it's for her and the date of interview, just Incase there's another interview with someone who has the same name. 🙏💜
I will help too. Lost my ex, the father of my older children and I know the pain it carries as well as the pain the children carry with them.
I'd help if there is away to
Please, Mark. Find out how she is.
Oh my 😢 I hope this lady has brighter days ahead for her and her precious children 🥺💕 there’s a life beyond the use, sister x
I can literally feel this woman’s pain. You can see it in her eyes when she’s telling her story. She is strong . Hoping she gets clean for herself and her children especially.💕✨
You may be an "Empath". Do You find that you absorb peoples feelings or Energy very easy? Or do "Emotional Vampires seem to gravitate towards You? I'm being Sincere. Not trying to be a troll. You might want to research the term.
@@danielmeuler2877 I’m very aware that I’m an empath and I absorb and project the feelings of those around me so I meditate and self prioritize constantly. Thank you so much for your advice! Sending love & light your way!✨🌻
@@Jojobeanz3 Meditation and Boundaries! Something I wish I would of learned a long time ago. And Rite back at Ya Sister💞💥. I just learned about what a Empath is and am pretty excited that I'm not Crazy. Take care Young Lady🙂
@@danielmeuler2877 I love it! It’s never to late to learn more of ourselves! Godspeed my dear and thank you. Take care as well!💕✨
This moved me to tears ....
These interviews are always so humbling. Most people are so quick to complain about their lives but every time I just expect to watch 10 minutes of these interviews I always end up watching the entire thing. You never know what people are going through and the little blessings of having a place to stay and your health become gentle reminders that not everyone is as fortunate
Khalilah D i know i don't know you hope it OK to comment on yours. I love watching these interviews im literally the same i say ill have a quick watch just watch few mins in and go off the video to watch my programs i need to catch up on my telly programs but once i start watching these im glued to them like paper and glue is me with these interviews can't stop watching them. Not for the life of me do i ever stop it a few minutes in i watch the whole interview then go onto another one. If you have not already seen the interview with a Girl sari and her partner Dakota they where swingers then went onto do other random stuff kinky and that but watch what the girl says about their lifes and how they live it see what you think its a Good/Interesting/Weird/Little bit upsetting 😭😰 one to watch. You will know what i mean if you watch it but i just text to say this if you like his interviews watch that one. I was shocked but angry put it that way .. 😞😡😱👊 x
Jessica is so different. I get a different feeling listening to her story. I feel like she will make it and her kids will forgive her. She has something genuine and pure about her. She’s got this.
This made me feel more open to share my story. I've never felt more connected to a story, it's not similar to mine but her vulnerability has helped me see that I can let go and shed some layers. I can talk about it without being a bad person. I've built up so much shit and trauma for all my life....I need people who are ok with sadness and depression.
These interviews make me feel that way too. Make it comfortable to talk about past trauma. I’m grateful for that. And I think sharing our story can be a really good thing; not negative like I had always thought, so I kept it hidden. Best of luck to u
Wow! 10 years !! You can do it again!! For you and your kids!!!
"I can't help it wasn't born ugly" 💋 and she wasn't. She is a beautiful soul. I hated to see the episode end. I hope to see a follow up soon. Trying to start a business, alone, depressed, using, living in her car? She can most definitely do anything she sets her mind to do. I wish I could be like that! And I haven't went thru a 10th of what she has in life. Jessica, you're amazing. I can't wait to see that you are accomplishing your goals ❤️
I have always felt like I should be on this channel and tell my story because it is so similar to many. Also I sent 10 years homeless and might soon be again. I’m not even on drugs. I barely even drink. Substances are not always how people end up lost.
If you don’t know someone personally you never know what is behind their bad lives.
I listen to these stories and I cry sometimes at many. People react to the same terrible situation in vastly different ways in life. Sometimes a person needs a miracle or someone to come into their lives and change it fix it and help them and it happens so seldom that someone actually saves someone.
I don't see ugly. First thing I noticed about her is that she's really pretty.
@@AKayfabe ruclips.net/video/InarZF75pCc/видео.html
What kind of man puts a hand on a woman, especially your wife? I'm a husband,a father,in our 15 years of marriage I've never ever even put a finger on my wife. If I get angry,I would rather smash my phone or smash anything that's near me then to hit my wife. Only cowards ands human garbages hit their woman.
This!
You people do not function in the real world. In today's society men and women are seen as equals. It can start out with a woman hitting a man, then it escalates and he hits her back. Its a terrible cycle. Society should have zero tolerance for any kind of physical violence.
Our laws are equal now, no matter who is hitting their must be consequences. Children seeing their father getting hit feel as helpless as those who see their mother getting hit.
In Islam men are required to first talk to their wives, and if it continues then a man is obligated to hit his wife. It is clear in the Quran that it is a mans duty to apply force to his wife is she disobeys.
"Men are in charge of women by [right of] what Allah has given one over the other and what they spend [for maintenance] from their wealth. So righteous women are devoutly obedient, guarding in [the husband's] absence what Allah would have them guard. But those [wives] from whom you fear arrogance - [first] advise them; [then if they persist], forsake them in bed; and [finally], strike them. "
@@canaryinacoalmine7267 bro, shut up.
Please do more interviews about mothers with birth trauma. It changes us and we don't always recover. Especially now, people need to understand what pregnancy really means.
Maybe you could be the person interviewed. Share your story. Hope you’re doing ok. Sending you love wherever you are. ❤
She's the most genuine, beautiful, honest, and level headed person he's interviewed on these series.
This story got me. This woman is so beautiful and so strong. The trauma she had to go through is not fair.
Wait. She’s beautiful???? She’s strong???
Wow.
@@michaelcavallacci2945 You need to stop continuously commenting negative things in response to others’ kind comments and go find something more productive to do.
My heart breaks for this woman. What she has endured is beyond anything a person should have to in life. I am so sorry for your loss, for those who let you down and for the situations you were in.
I respect her so much for how she openly owns her choices and mistakes in life and for how hard she’s fought.
Sending you love and hugs 💐
Jessica, please know I believe in you and what you are capable of. I think you are incredibly strong and resilient. Please take care of yourself first and foremost x
This is one of my top favourite people. She’s genuine. She needs to protect herself as she is vulnerable from user and abusers. She needs to rebuild her self worth. really believe she deserves help and will get back on top. 💚
Jessica, that fact that you are still alive and trying to be a great mom says EVERYTHING. You didn't have the examples or support that you should have. I'm sorry for the trauma you suffered at such a young age, having to figure out life on your own. You are STRONG and brave and smart. If anyone can find a way out of the addict life, it is YOU. Best of luck to you!
My first baby swallowed meconium, too. They never told me the baby could die from it, or how serious it was. He survived. I'm so sorry that this happened to her, among so many other tragedies. I believe she can turn it around.
That’s so scary! I’m so sorry to hear this. Is your son okay?
My cousin did and almost didn't make it. However this was 1986
@@SomethingFunny454 that can absolutely happen to anyone. My Aunt never even smoked a cigarette and she almost lost her baby. The baby simply poops early
@@SomethingFunny454 you’re definitely…something…”funny”. First do a Google search, armchair doctor!
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Astounding! Each new story I watch adds a blanket of humanity on me. Words cannot express how moving it is to peek a glimpse into someone's most private areas in their life. The level of vulnerability is humbling, thank you!
yes
Spot on.
What’s astounding is how many people shower the woman with praise and grace that she absolutely does not deserve in any way shape or form. She is a homeless ,drug addicted ,violent , promiscuous drain on society. How many meals did buying those drugs set her kids back? How much rent could she have paid if she didn’t spend a fortune covering herself with disgusting low class tattoos.
God bless the child she lost but that would have been four kids from four different “ baby daddies “. How much has she cost Mexico north ( California) in tax dollars for incarceration, drug rehabilitation, and the fortune her kids will cost in the future with no parents to take care of them.
No offense but stop the bleeding heart bullshit.
@@michaelcavallacci2945 You can take your judgment elsewhere. This channel doesn’t want it and Mark has stated that many times. I hope people don’t hold all of your mistakes and wrong doings against you, especially strangers that can’t even fully comprehend.
@@michaelcavallacci2945 It’s also disgusting how you label someone less than because of their mental health issues, label them violent with no basis, and then talk about them so inhumanly like they aren’t even worth helping. You sound like a miserable and ignorant person who’s had an easy life.
I have a very similar story. Jessica: You are seen, you are heard, you are loved, and you are not being judged. You are worthy of sobriety, and being with someone who appreciates and respects you. I am sending good vibes, lots of love, and healing vibes.
Man...I feel her story. When she said she wished she could be more. Heartbreaking. She's so beautiful. She just needs someone positive that is willing to help her.
Jessica,you are such a warm-hearted and pure soul and this hardly exists these days. I have the biggest respect and love for you. Family -Reunion,see you all hopefully soon. Stay blessed.
Damn she’s been through so much pain I pray she heals mentally emotionally spiritually..rekindles her relationship with her kids n get out of and away from toxic environments😢
Early childhood trauma seems to be a common denominator.....leading to PTSD or PSD like symptoms......substance abuse.....on going physical, mental and emotional abuse.................poor choices again and again and again. Bless her. I hope she finds her way back to sobriety so she can think straight and make better life choices.
In my personal experience,...I have found that once I reached a certain age, I started noticing that it was getting harder & harder to feel the 'high". It's was just something that I one day started noticing. So I started paying attention and talking to other older women that were also using, like myself at that time. What we found was that it "seems" to be a "thing" that happens to a lot of women that have had long stretches of using time. It can make it to where you just NEVER feel high no matter how much you do. So if there's no high there's no escape. It's like being in a perpetual state of psychological withdrawal with no relief insight. You see, when drug use is your only coping mechanism, your suddenly left with all those raw unprocessed cold prickly feelings & traumas.
That's when that "Life Style" that many younger girls claim is Fun and where it's at, quickly turns into this video.
Anyway though, it took me decades to figure out why I would chase a compulsion without the benefit of reward (the high) when I was clearly an "instant gratification" type of person. That's when you learn that addiction has very little to do with drugs.
Well said. I'm in that "noticing" stage but still spiraling downwards not fully realizing the negative impact its affecting in my life. Sad tbh
I'm at that stage currently. I was just thinking about this before I decided to watch SWU. I went out last night and once again, it wasn't fun and nothing I did relieved me of emotional pain. I was left asking myself what's the point, and how am I going to feel the high/escape/happiness/etc that I used to. I can relate so much to your comment.
@@centeguahan3760 I get it...I really do.
We're all just grasping at straws... desperate too feel better.
In my personal opinion, this is where true recovery can actually, happen...and maybe, take a foothold. Because when your young it's still way too much fun and your youth & beauty is still way, way to much of commodity for any kind of long term recovery to happen.
Cuz as long as Peep's can run back to the blade for quick $$$ that's where they'll run into the drugs..
Thank you for writing this! I feel the same way at 43yrs old. No high or fun anymore.
I understand! Alcohol wasn’t problem it was my Solution. I had to AA and work steps. I had to fill the hole
Soul.💙🙏.
Wow this lady deserves a medal not a drug she played the hardest game and still survived, I don’t know how she can even tell the story, let alone live through it.
Man, the story about her following her son in the dark to safety really broke my heart. Jessica seems to have done her best, a fighter for sure. I hope they all find peace. You can do it Jessica, you can get right again, I believe in you.
Jessica, I’m pulling for you so hard. You’ve had a very chaotic life and have already fought some hard battles. You’ve got a few more to fight, but I know you can do it. Stay strong and just focus on you. Do the good things you need to do for yourself and don’t drag a man into the picture. You don’t need a bf, you just need you. Dig deep and I know you can come out of this. ❤️
Yes. I think that is the hard truth. No men diluting the picture, watering down the focus. Just her doing what needs to be done to heal. Searching for validation, but she needs to find herself.
What a well spoken and beautiful woman. I feel her pain. She is so honest, real and genuine. Substance abuse disorder is a real problem in our world today and I am so impressed to see hear her say she's not giving up! I hope she knows that she is worthy of a happy healthy life and she is enough. I hope she knows she can be successful and be happy without a man in her life and she is a wonderful person and She will overcome the substances if she keeps her mind to it. I am so glad you share these videos and I love the fact you take time to listen to these folks. I highly doubt anyone asks her how she is doing and how she's coping with life. You are doing a great service with these interviews.
Jesse is a bit different. She did fight and get her kids back, twice. And, she truly grieves them. I have faith in her and the children will forgive.
I really believe in her. Some I don't.
I've seen many interviews and this one makes me wish I could find Jessica and give her a hug and tell her she's going to be ok. She clearly loves her kids and that alone is a step in the right direction.
In no rude way, but like mark has said many times, there’s a Jessica in our city close to us that needs help/ a hug ect 💕
I love her! Her story is so touching and troubling. I recognized myself in her in more than one way... I hope she finally gets to break away from the drugs... And that she finds a special someone for her loneliness. She seems like a very courageous person with good values despite the hardships.
OMG- my heart goes out to this young lady! Her story about her daughter passing away :( made me so sad! My son also ingested is own meconium, and I had emergency surgery, but although they said emergency, I didn't realize that some couldn't make it! I pray for her recovery and the best life for her and her kids!
Mark is the only person I know of, that can ask two simple questions and an entire riveting story unravels. ‘Where are you from?’ ‘How was your childhood.’ The next thing he says is, ‘Alright. Thank you for being here.’ He is an angel to the soul of the lost and forgotten. 🕊🕊
Wonderful comment 👍
@@MEL2theJ I agree too
I’ve never heard an interview where mark said so few words! Man I feel for her and I felt his compassion for her too
Been saying this my self , literally he probably only spoken 6 times....
What makes her different, especially from other interviewees, is her boundaries and so her self respect for how she makes a living and her knowledge of the function of having something to do with her time. And these two together make a very admirable person, so good job to you 👏
You've been through so much, starting from such a young age Jessica. I really hope you make it through this season to a much more stable place, you deserve it.
Jessica IS going to JessKlean herself up! I see how strong and smart she is. There truly are better psychiatric chemicals to help with the depression, so you don’t feel so desperate. Much love to Jessica and this great in depth heartfelt channel
She’s so pretty! And she Carrie’s such intense pain. Somehow I think she is going to be okay…because she is a strong woman. Mark is an amazing interviewer. He has such empathy and people feel that compassion when they are with him. He’s a blessing to society!
My first born son was a meconium baby as well, and they suctioned his lungs and he went to the NICU for a few hours to be monitored and he was fine, but this made me realize how very serious that could have been. I’m so sorry about your baby. I see that you are very strong, you want your life to be better, addiction is hard, I’ve been there too.. you can do it, babe! I believe in you! I see that you have the drive to do what it takes. Like you said YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS ❤
There are some people on SWU that I think it’s too late for them but not for Jessica. Now is the time. Jessica, if you see this, please start fighting your way back . Drugs will drag you so much lower than you are right now. Praying for you.
I love her. My heart breaks for her lonely childhood and loss of her child.
Come on Jessica. You know what needs to be done.
I'm sure it's very hard but you did it before.
You can do it.
You deserve a lot more than what you have gone through.
Take the first step. You have a lot to offer.
Praying for you. Love from Ireland. 💚
Well said
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Excellent, I hope she makes it. There’s a lot of pain here.
Idk how I found this channel but wow these stories are something that more ppl need to hear . As a nurse that works with mental health patients and have worked with addiction this is a channel more ppl need to hear about.how can we help her ?
Out of all the interviews I've watched of yours, this one made me cry.
I'm heart goes out to this mother ... I can't even begin to imagine the pain of losing my baby.... I wish her all the best in life ...
Don't worry, she'll pop out another one.
@@stanislouse4168 wow, aren’t you just the positive type. Just another dick most likely.
I've known several mothers who have lost babies in this way.Its like a freak accident.No particular reason. She's had a hard life and not a good start. A better beginning, oh shit, let's just say a better mother, the things to follow might not have been so bad. Gotta learn from your mistakes and make better decisions sooner or later.If you want your kids keep off of the drugs.
@@debbiemohekey1509 this almost happened to 2 of my pregnancies, it's scary and it's not like the doctors know .... and it has zero to with drugs...
@@trinahughes1230 I know
My god it’s like anytime she finds love or joy the universe pulls it away from her .. I’d be afraid to open my heart to anyone or anything if I was her. My heart breaks for her, but her strength is apparent.. if only she could see her through our eyes.
I’d like to see an update on her. I truly hope she can kick her habit and just be happy. She really deserves it. If she looks at any of these comments, and wants someone to just talk to….reach out. I’m more than happy, I’m 3 years sober myself now and would love to be an ear to listen if she needs it.
Good lady. Shame not very many people that she came across recognized it.
Don't lose hope,Mark's right. Eye on the prize .You know what needs to be done. Takes time ,then it makes sense ,in hindsight.
RIP Danny,Roxanna and Roger. 🌹🌷🌻💐🌼
She seems like such a good person. It's such a shame that no one else in her life was. I hope she reads these comments, because she needs to know that not everyone in this world is a POS. I sincerely hope she recovers and finds someone who appreciates her for the beautiful soul that she is.
Your strong girl you got this and give us a update on her 😭🙏🏻💕 we are rooting for you
My heart just breaks for her. I cried along with her. The pain can be felt through her words. I pray for her recovery.
Wow, I listen to Mark’s interviews, and then I look at my boring, simple life, and I thank God.
same. I feel like it's actually helped me see a lot of things differently in my own life. Especially my upbringing!
please help her, she is so sweet and genuine. my heart breaks for her situation. living out of a car as a female or male must be very scary. She is worthy of some love. ❤️
It's amazing.... I watch/listen to a lot of RUclips videos, and generally see so much hate. The comments are usually flooded with it.
But these interviews.... People who are worn out, left behind, at rock bottom... and all I see is love, support, community.
This is a MOVEMENT. Keep it going. This can change the world.
She seems so genuine, I can relate to her, feeling let down by others close to her.
I really hope she kicks her addictions and unleashes her potential.
Your not alone, you have people hoping for you to do better and get well..
I always believed in the work Mark is doing. Thank you Jessica for being brave enough to share your story.
I am so sorry for your loss Jessica, my wife and I lossed our daughter due to a stillbirth as well. We weren't able to figure out why she passed, but we know she's truly in a better place. The pain never gets easier. Prayers to you and your family.
As someone that battles depression, i understand deeply how dark it can get.. You got this girl!!! You can do it,.
Moved me to tears I could physically feel her pain…she amazing and resilient…
This poor girl I feel so deeply for, she reminds me of myself when I was messed up . Now it feels like I've lived 2 lives one where I was all messed up , and one now where I'm living like a normal person. It truly feels like it was a lifetime ago. I pray this woman can find the strength within herself once again. She has so much to give if she could just see passed the drugs and pain.
Hey don't make this about you. We are learning about this girl and her troubles. She is the one in the video being interviewed, Not you.
@@user-pq6mr6op3p The person who commented was relating her own experiences to the woman in the video and then saying positive things about her. Clearly you misinterpreted, because she wasn’t making it about her. If you wanted to listen to this woman’s story as that’s what it was about, watch it and leave without putting others down.
she's wearing a giant black baby diaper
@@user-pq6mr6op3p alot of people relate to these stories.. thats what the comments are for , so people can express their feelings about said clip, whatever that may be
@@izzydeadyet7336 Wrong.....She was trying to get attention. I Watched Batman this weekend during the movie I didn't tell people that I am a black belt in Karate and myself have a Butler.
I would take care of her and treat her like a queen! I have been taken advantage of so many times it's really hard to trust anyone these days. But she seems like a breath of fresh air coming from this channel.
She truly seems like a beautiful soul! Those of us w/ the biggest hearts are most often the ones that end up broken and used. I've been there and I am there myself. Different circumstances, but I can feel her pain at my core. She's been put through the wringer and just needs a hand up in life. My ❤️ truly hurts for her. I actually really hope she sees everyone's positive comments on here and it helps give her the push that she needs to get help! 💕
I broke down & cried the whole time with her, I can't even explain other than I can just feel her pain through this screen.the similarities....man I just want to hug her. You will be blessed Jessica,you're a beautiful Warrior 100% I will never forget this & I will be praying for you & your children.🙏🏽
Nice to read your beautiful thoughts.
I hope you can do an update with her. She really has it in her to change her life. Go Jessica! We’re cheering for you!
You got this Jessica, we love you and we’re rooting for you 💗
Wow. This lady has been through hell. She ,hopefully, will come out of this and realize what a survivor she is. Life certainly isn't fair and she has been dealt a shitty hand but I bet she comes out of this shining like a queen. Much respect to her. I hope we see an update soon. ❤
Your story is amazing. Your kids are lucky to have you as their mum. I hope they see this so they can understand the trauma and pain you’ve been through. We hope this will be the beginning of a new chapter for you and them. Thank you for sharing 🌟
This woman is just so powerful, beautiful and loving. My heart breaks for the tragedy she has endured. I hope she can get herself clean again because she just has so much to offer. Sending so much love ❤
You can tell she wants to be clean. It’s so hard to do things on your own for the benefit of yourself sometimes. Especially when you’re not use to being alone. She has a ton of great ideas and I believe once she learns how awesome she is on her own, she will be a great testimony, she already is. She needs to trust herself partly, and trust people that can actually help her.
Jessica~ I think rehab would do you a world of good. I believe your addiction is a symptom of your traumas. Rehab can start you on a path of confronting your traumas, then working through them and eventually learning how to cope without using drugs. I believe in you Jessica, YOU believe in you, and I guarantee you would find so much support, true friendship and loving people who will also believe in you through rehab. Many prayers and MUCH LOVE to you💚
Longterm rehab, maybe living at a long care healing center will give you hope, a new start. Healing yourself will take time, but , it ll be worth it! THEN, after you've healed, Lord willing, I think your relationship with your children will heal!
I'm moved to tears hearing your story. Thank you for sharing as it gives me hope through what I am going through today. You deserve peace. You have endured enough and I believe it's your time. Love ya girl!
Tara, I pray that whatever you’re going through gets better sweetheart. 🙏🏼♥️
Tara stay strong baby!! You got this!
“Everyone has something to say…”what beautiful wisdom sweetheart. Once you turn toward your grief, not only your three deaths but even back to your loneliness in childhood, you’ll feel so much lighter and better. You deserve everything you wish for, and you can do it. Recovery and sobriety are not the same. Take it one day at a time Darlin, and don’t compromise your healing for no one no more. Someone once told me that I needed to love myself. But if I didn’t know how to live myself, then love myself like I love my children. The more I practice, the easier it gets, and facing my trauma with therapy has helped me see I deserve pure loving kindness, nothing less from no one. And though healing relationships take time, as you continue to work on yourself you’ll also become more resilient when something difficult comes along…anyway, Thankyou for sharing your story. I’ll be praying for you.
Amazing lady! What a shame that people used and abused her in ways that never let her be her true self. Until they didn't need her or until she really needed them, they left her literally high and dry. She can do anything she sets her mind to. Go get it girl!!
Jessica you are stronger than you realize. I am rooting for you, show the ENTIRE world how amazing you are. You got this girl!❤️🙏🏼
This one really got to me. She wants so badly to be better. My heart and soul go out to her. Loneliness and depression are like quicksand. I truly hope she keeps fighting.
This interview moved me so much. I think there is just too much trauma in her life. Sometimes it’s just too much to handle. I think she will come out of it again. She is so beautiful.
You can tell she's a very smart person if she leaves the drug alone she'll be okay