Soooo happy to hear this!!!! Was just going to say, her light is soooooo bright and all this darkness is exactly that…. The enemy doing anything and everything to keep her from seeking TRUTH and discovering what a force she is… even here in the pits of addiction etc she is more powerful and a threat to darkness… IMAGINE the day she’s truly saved 🫶🏻🙏🏻🕊️😇 I PRAY she’s already there!!!! #chosen ❤️🔥🥷🏼
@@VioletJoy She is so young. Although she is now seasoned, she is still vulnerable and has a highly probable chance of not surviving these streets without serious intervention.
Drugs aren’t a gateway drug; trauma is. The people go through this, do not get the credit for being able to survive all the bullshit they go through. Some since the beginning of conception. I pray and hope someone knocks on her tent just to help her eat, offer her a pair of sneakers, buy an outfit or just get her a room to stay at. Love and prayers sent to her 💕🫂💕🫂
Yup. I used to feel like I was born into trauma. Not long before I was born my aunt Peggy "Whom I'm named after was murdered "stabbed to death in Hawaii. The killer was never caught. My father committed suicide, "shot himself" when I was 6. I didn't handle it well and was put in mental institution. I was raised in a nudist colony and molested by men when I was very little. One of my boyfriends was stabbed to death. The guy who did it was caught and made a deal for 19yrs. My sister in law died of a drug overdose at the age of 36. Leaving behind my brother and my 9yr old niece. Now I'm addicted to Gabapentin. Is this amount of trauma normal for one person?
thank you for writing this. Gabor Mate;s school correct? Mark and many people here have no clue about trauma and what it is ...I am worried those people get so invalidated by questions like " was there abuse in your home" when they do not know what abuse means( other then sexual or physical)
"My mom and my dad got married in rahab, I was the flower girl." That struck me as deeply poetic. These stories are so interesting & you really can see a connection with how people were brought up and where their lives end up going. I hope this woman gets the help she needs.
@@greidtv Ever read T.S. Eliot's "The Wasteland"? It's got hyacinth girl vibes. Not all poetry is about love and romance. Some is dark, brooding, and painful, even the classical stuff.
@@G0rd0nHealth nahh I haven’t read it. I had a mother who was a substance abuser. She died when I was 12 on the way to come see me after she finally became sober. I guess that’s poetic to you as well. To me it’s tragic. Nothing poetic at all but I see where you are going
I admire her honesty, but she is not there yet. Even with everything she's been through, I think she may still see some glimmer in the hustling. It's like a high in and of itself, one that so far has successfully fed the greater beast within. She's been hurt, unimaginably so.. but she's been riding that high of successfully hustling some dudes that haven't turned on her yet like others. Bless her 🙏
@@rachelmartin5865 I hope she gets so high off the stuff and just takes a 1 way Uber to a la over pass and does her self in what a waste of a space lol this account has been hacked by Russian meth crack cocaine cult
My Father was a crack addict, I resonate so much with her story. My mom was the one working 3 jobs so she was barely ever home, still to this day I tell her things that she's just finding out about. My dad locking me and my brothers out of the house in the summertime and he would not let us in to get a drink, because he was in there partying smoking crack with friends. He sold our stuff, pawned it. I got hooked on heroin when I was 20 then was on heroin and crack by the age of 22. I have been clean for four years now and the happiest I've ever been my whole life. If I can get clean I know she can. Prayers for her. I'm rooting for her. ❤️
This girl is 22. She’s already had 3 years clean at one point. She can turn her life around a lot easier now than in 20 years. I pray she finds a way. We can and do recover!
This girl is straight up. So self aware and intelligent, curious about life and the affect she has on people around her. I hope she can use those skills in a way that really fulfills her. She’s the type of person to really be resilient and she can use that in many facets of life.
Keep looking for God's light and soon you will find it. If you believe in Him without faltering you will be brought out of that life and into a life where you could share your experiences and faith with others and help be a guide to them out of a dark life of addiction. Many blessings and prayers 🙏
Wow! She looks like any other girl you’d see at Starbucks, the grocery store, the mall! Never judge a book by its cover! As a cancer patient who “doesn’t look sick” it’s so important as a reminder that we all have a story and you can NEVER truly see a person only by looking at them. thank you for your videos, Mark! 😊 These are incredible stories. Things like these can happen to any of us. We are all in this together.
Yes I was just gona say the same thing I'd never have guessed she was a crack addict, wow, she looks fantastic, I really hope she can get out of this situation, she at least should be a high class escort or on onlyfans, she could then get into a better situation, with a home, and belongings, and more financial security than on the streets which is so unsafe.
I'm pretty sure the population is interspersed more greatly within society than most of us realize. I'm pretty sure I've seen one of my trader Joe's (grocery) checkers meeting up with a "date" late at night more than once. She seems to be working full time and not an addict, but who knows?
The fact that she didn’t shed one tear let’s you know her heart had hardened to steel. She truly believes that being an addict is her destiny. How do you come back from that? So sad!
She's a smart young lady yes she is kind of hard but she has to be..she lives on skidrow... I personally think she would be one heck of a business owner.. if she got clean and sober.. there is something about her that you can't ignore..she has what it takes to run her own business..I really believe that..but I also think she needs to be sober for a period of time..I think once she finds what she's good at she would be successful...
Yeah bad times builds strong people...she sheds tears but you'll never see it..it's a character shes playing a mask she wears, I know this because I wear a similar mask. I guarantee that a major loss of a loved one/heartbreak made her this way, it made me hardened, less trusting and more aware of who I am, I look at past mistakes I've made and know what lead me to making those mistakes..stay strong Samantha,I feel that pain and been in that darkness, just know everything is temporary and we're all going to make it.
@@jamescleary1122 it’s all her fault if she didn’t do what she did then she would be fine I don’t feel bad for people because no 1 ever felt bad when I was down it’s better to bring urself up and get urself out of ur own troubles no 1 can tell you or help you or guide you only you can
This young woman has lived so much life in her 22 years. What a bright, intelligent human.. still connected to her light . Hoping that warm spot grows in her heart.
@@reactaerospace7689 ok well I am not impressed with your utter ignorance! Obviously you haven’t had childhood trauma so you should feel blessed! Sit down now clown!
I have watched many MANY of your interviews and this one right here, is by far the most true and accurate account (from experience) of a trauma induced drug addiction. I truly feel there is hope for Savannah! I was an intravenous meth addict who lost my first daughter to child protection. I now have a 2 year old daughter, ZERO CPS involvement, I am kicking major ass as a sober mother. My heart breaks for her. I have been her.
I felt your presence well done I've experienced all these problems..now my son's mum lost her children through the same problems.. lucky her mum got custody so I still see my little boy .. keep strong ❤️
She was frickin' just rambling about this and that. Hard to follow. She had no financial support whatsoever? So how was she able to fly across the country and go to some private (and most likely expensive) private rehab?
Savannah, don’t join your father. I suspect nothing would make him happier than seeing you break the cycle. I think you’ll be a kick-ass advocate in the years to come. You have a lot to offer others who are struggling.
She seems like a strong woman,as she would have to be in her situation,but to be such a beautiful woman,and so young to be out on the streets,it makes me sad to see!
@@undefinedd1147 I've seen you comment shit like this before, you are sick and better get help. Because all your stalker questions are all over these comments as proof.
As someone who's yet again hit rock bottom right now with bipolar anxiety and depression, these interviews actually seem to help. Mainly because it shows me that people who have been dealt a much harder hand than I have are surviving and maybe even starting to improve. Great channel
@@birdette79 Thank you so much for saying that. It's good to be reminded that there are so many good people in the world. And that's the majority, for real
They make me feel better I have Bipolar and Borderline personality because I know I didn't turn to drugs. I went into the military, then became a police officer and for 16 years now I guard the most sensitive and destructive force man has created. How is it I can accomplish all this with severe mental disorders? A troubled and uncaring family...Because I wanted it.
Savannah, I hope you read this. You are not what you've done, you're what you will do! You are beautiful and smart and you have so much to live for, even if it doesnt seem that way. You ARE worth it! Sending you love and light and so much encouragement to work through your pain on a clean level. It is possible sweetie💜💜🤗
She’s so young, so beautiful and so smart. She is wise beyond her years. She deserves so much more than the life she is settling for. I hope she finds the strength and courage to turn her life around. She has so much to offer the world and so much living to do.
You see the bright side, I wish I could. I really do. All I see is a lost soul on a dark path that if she keeps treading down it, there is no coming back.
She did find a way out, then chose to go back. For some people, life on the street is more thrilling and liberating than a 9 to 5 job. With a 9 to 5 job, one has actual responsibilities.
@@marylougeorge9890 Obviously, escaping into drugs is a bad choice long term. It might be a relief in the short term to quit one's job, quit paying bills, and just do whatever you want, but long term that is not going to work well. She even admits that her choices are selfish. She is more concerned about getting her next high, than she is about her Mom.
I like the backdrop in these interviews. It kind of reminds me of high school photos on picture day. It's a perfectly neutral background that takes all the focus off of everything, and this channel is just like a portrait of humanity. I love seeing interviews of the "average person". Or even what some people might call less than average. REAL people, with REAL problems. Let's stop making celebrities our idols guys! Let's stop treating only their deaths like it's the end of the world. HUMAN life is precious, no matter who it is.
I was thinking the same thing.. like some messed up yearbook. Especially with all the follow up interviews & you can kind of track how their life is going.. so.. idk.. grounding.
These videos give insight into a world i know nothing about. At 20 years old, I remember browsing ebay looking for old transformer action figures i always wanted as a child, and playing playstation. I cant imagine dealing with even half the things these people have gone through at any age. Let alone so young. Its easy for us to browse instagram and feel down about our own lives because we arent on a yacht popping champagne, but these videos bring reality back into perspective. My life really isnt that bad at all. Thank you for sharing!
The way she describes the people on skid row that’s how people were the moment I surrendered and went to AA and had an open mind.. the gift of desperation. Addicts are very special people and recovered addicts are the luckiest most shining humans you can meet. Wish her all the love and protection.
It's not luck, it's very hard work. As a child of a 12 step family, recovery is a team effort..she needs a sponsor, so as to be confronted with her own failings, and learning to STAY sober.
@@josephgriffin2388 you may have misunderstood what I meant. I didn’t mean they get recovered because of luck. Im a recovered alcoholic and I know that isn’t how it works. I meant that most of us feel grateful having recovered knowing that MOST people that fall down that hole simply do not. Period.
I don't know how she can do that financially. Even people who studied hard, worked hard all their lives and did everything responsibly are struggling for survival now.
I hope the best for her, she deserves a good life. She is still clear and here with us, she can make it out. She's very self aware, smart and beautiful. Thinking of you Savannah, as another girl in her early 20s. You got this.
@@aaronmurdoch7362 we can't help the hand we're dealt in life. However the decisions we make has some effect. She decided to do drugs. We all go through struggles. I feel like because she's pretty, everyone has more sympathy for her.
@@Monzta There is a saying that admitting or recognizing a wrong is the 1st step to healing and reconciliation. I’m more bothered by the wrongdoers that are oblivious to their wrongdoings and addiction literally takes over your better judgments. There are straight men that became addicts and have sucked a Johnson in a desperate moment to get monies for access to more drugs. There are women addicts selling sex not because they are depraved nymphomaniacs, but to get more access to drugs. Nancy Reagan said it best, “Just Say No.”, but unfortunately life happens and everyone isn’t born into a stable loving environment and everyone at varying times in their lives may not necessarily possess the best coping skills when faced with difficult or painful circumstances so they turn to self medicating. Drug abuse is like a merry go round that’s going fast and your only hope to save yourself is to jump off…but you fear the fall.
When you have a parent that you need to be a parent to, it is so painful. Sometimes you have to let them go and make them make the decision to save themselves so that you can take care of yourself. ❤️
I AM THE RECOVERING PARENT WHO PUT MY SON IN THE PARENTAL ROLE. I see that now and I also see where that was done to me as a child ( up until present day). I didn't see or refused to acknowledge this at the time. It was just an unhealthy cycle, repeating itself, but being made to feel obligated, which slowly turns to resentment. Although I've changed, the damage has already been done. But we're slowly repairing our relationship with each other and ourselves.
@@kitashawillis118 I'm glad your relationship is turning around. Keep in mind there are more relationships like yours with parents who never acknowledge this truth and nothing changes. Give yourself Lots of credit for acknowledging And working to heal the relationship. You'll need to help you through the difficult tims.❤️❤️❤️
I hate these comments. I get this all the time from ppl I know. Yes my life would be amazing on my own. But do I really put my mom in line to be homeless? Is it worth it? I don't think so
I believe people are acknowledging that this young woman needs help. She is young and should be focused on her future. Her mother can reach out to Dept. of Aging in her County. I am a retired disabled senior helping my daughter with a disability. My car broke down, and I got help through my County. I took a van for disabled people. The key is to reach out. Yes - it is hard. Yes, life can be scary. We don’t have to do life alone. There are still good people in this world. Praying for this young lady and her mom.
She is so mature for her age. She is RAW & HONEST I love it! You go girl♥️ She has so much potential, praying she is able to escape this lifestyle. If she doesn’t please stay safe 💕
This episode really resonated with me. I celebrated 15 yrs clean 3/15/22 and my drug of choice was crack. The look on her face when she said she doesn't really want to stop hurt to hear. Keep up the great work, Mark. I hope she can eventually decide she's had enough.
What was your method to stay clean for 15 years with cravings? Meetings? 12 step program? Meds? I'm 47, tried crack at around 21 years old. Moved to Oregon in 2016 and developed a 8 month steady meth addiction. Came back to Ohio in 2019 and fell back to crack. If I have a debit card with money in the bank, I'm spending more than I like on dope.
Her honesty is so refreshing, although her story just breaks my heart. Her love for her parents even though it’s obvious she’s an addict because of them is touching and so human. She’s so young, beautifully likable and well spoken. I hope she can turn this around. She deserves it and is so worth it. I hope in 3-5 years she’s a paralegal, and not with her dad 🙏❤️
She just seems like she’s tired of life and needs freaking break. But she’s a boss she’ll get her shit together again can’t believe shes 22 ! Rooting for you savannah 💪🏻
I've watched many of these interviews and one thing that repeatedly amazes me is how appreciative many of these folks are for the positive things from their early lives. This despite so much adversity and negativity that many of them faced as kids. To acknowledge love and support, or other positive elements of their upbringing, despite addiction or having been caught up in other very harsh circumstances, takes takes incredible humility and self awareness.
I know this sounds ridiculous, but she could walk into another life and no one would be any the wiser... She carries herself with a lot of poise and self awareness...
I am a recovering addict and many people are shocked when they find out that I am intelligent, articulate and like this girl self aware. There is a stigma attached to addicts , most squares think we must be dumb and,or bad people
@@k_xxo Yes, she seems intelligent. But she looks older than she is. I'm sure she's damaged and rightfully have issues. But sooner or later, you have to be accountable for your decisions and actions. I don't want to be an ass hole, but it is what it is. Hope she makes it.
She contradicts herself a few times especially when she is first describing her parents, to later in the interview. I am not saying she is dishonest maybe she isn't even aware herself. Seems like she is trying to play the interviewer a little for whetever reason. That's just my opinion.
She’s endearing and beautiful. Intelligent, well spoken with a lot of heart and substance. She can accomplish whatever she decides to. Can make a great paralegal or lawyer. I wish her nothing but the best. A breakthrough. A way to be with her father and us at the same time. She’s so worth it.
Wow! When she said 22 I was blown away. She seems very mature- clearly trauma and not having any type of sheltered life but also a genuine insight that most have when they are older.
Wow.... "I still have faith in humanity." That statement, from someone so young who has endured so much, really strikes me. She deserves so much better and I pray she finds it.
Savannah - if you ever read these comments: We see you and we need you here! You are a wonderful human being. Don´t even consider being with your dad in a few years. You were put here to survive. Strangely, I could never see this for myself, but listening to yours and other people´s stories here, this becomes so clear for me. And I feel like those who have the most struggles in life are the most beautiful souls on this planet. You are amzing!
Yes because I used to be on meth real bad, and even when I was using I was still a praying person, but I was ashamed. But my Mama prayed for me as well as my dad I'm sure that"please Lord take the addiction away from my daughter and let her get away from the man that she is with now and doing it with"... More specifically my mom actually said "take the desire to want to do that drug out of her". And I tell you what prayers are very powerful especially if you're a woman of Faith or a man of faith. I still got some demons ie alcohol, pot, and Xanax pills. My mom doesn't pray nightly every day but when she does she prays for the Lord to take the desire away from me to do the pills, cigarettes, alcohol. My mom likes her alcohol beers and I pray for God to take the desire away from her and my fiance to quit smoking cigarettes, and she actually has slowed down on smoking cigarettes praise God. God bless you and your family young lady I believe if you believe in yourself that you can conquer the crack addiction. In Jesus name I pray and claim amen.
Savannah my mom dealt with substance abuse and I was ANGRY at 22 right after I lost her. It’s been 9 years and the anger fueled me, but also haunted me. I understand feeling numb, and having to support more dysfunction, but remember you still deserve good things. Try and channel that anger. Do you like art? CREATE. do you like sales? CREATE. Like finances? TRADING FIRMS. Like helping others like you? BE A COUNSELOR. I lost amazing people and relationships over my anger and even opportunities. You got this. P.S. give yourself grace though cause I’m 32 now and still deal with the anger you smart you got this
I've been hurt horribly by every man in my life, and I really understand Savanahs mindset. A well spoken interview from someone who has had to take care of a lot of stuff from a young age.
“The only thing that can save me might be God”. SHE NAILED IT!!!🙏🏽May she turns to God soon and use this rough season as a lesson to help others in the future when she gets sober🙏🏽
WOW. What a well spoken, intelligent, and WISE 22 year old. Hearing her whole story adds so much depth to the situation she’s in. I really* hope she stays safe and gets sober, I think she could accomplish great things.
Far more well spoken than the interviewer. Slow down your pace when asking her a question. No emotional connection from him and asking very pointed and personal questions. Very unlistenable like he has a tic .
This girl should be running her own business somewhere or a CEO at a corporation. So intelligent and articulate. Beautiful young lady. I bet she is super talented at many different things. Just never been allowed to unlock it. Best of luck to you sweetheart. I'm praying for your transformation. May God Bless you love.
Yeah, we should all be CEOs nowadays! You see someone who you like or feel pity? She should be CEO! How about having a decent job so you can provide for youself? I am sure she would like that. So much vanity..
Watching her self soothe with her hands makes me want to just hold her hand and tell her she’s gonna be ok. She has it in her to be the change for her life. I hope she makes it.
I KNEW it! I took one look at her and thought: nonprofit, maybe with a specialty in marketing. Come ON Savannah, you are NOT a crackhead on skid row. You are, for now, apparantly addicted to to a substance which has taken enough from you that you are at a particularly low point. But you have physically and emotionally come out so well, despite this! Flag down the first established nonprofit with a good reputation that's out there trying to get people out of the life ( or find them). Tell them you want to work with them, let them help you find shelter and get clean. Intern with their admin department (for that, you won't need the degree in social work). It's sooo rewarding to work with a good LOCAL organization because you see the immediate fruits of your labor. It can even pay well if you rise high enough in the ranks. I'm not in CA but am happy to answer questions. Make your HIGH and need for excitement work FOR you in the service of OTHERS :-))))
Its like she is telling the story of someone else...she is not identified with it...she clearly managed to save a sacred part of herself, which will lead her way out of this. This is not the life she is ment to live. She seems incredibly strong, although she might be broken a million times she is not falling apart. Im positive she will change the script.
Hi Bohemia, I am 6 mins in and feel like yourself and listening to the command and control of her voice, what on earth is Savannah doing here ?. But why not, when you hear her background. I will listen to the rest of Mark's interview.
The work that you do is so incredibly important, Mark. Humanizing these people and individualizing them as faces and names and not addicts or homeless is so needed. The self awareness of so many of the. Makes it so much more painful and compelling.
I bet this girl feels like she is old, because of all she has been through. It’s hard to see ourselves as others do. I wish she would take this wisdom and change lives in a positive way. She is so pretty and has much potential.
Girl girl girl, I recognize that sense of hopelessness and inability to escape "the demons of your dad" so so so much. For years I've been telling myself I'm gonna "turn into a junkie" just like my dad (was), which actually ended up fueling the addictive cycle. Even if it feels like you are destined to be like him, you are NOT YOUR DAD. Maybe he was not able to heal form his pain and break the generational trauma, but as long as you still draw breath, you can. I have never believed in anyone more than I believe in you Savannah. Don't lose faith in yourself.
Anyone who judges another person for doing drugs or being an addict needs to live through the trauma they've been through before they say anything. The kind of pain that's been in her life is immense.. I wish you all the best Savannah, please stay safe
In todays society, judging is wrong. Can't judge unless you become a crack addict. The Bible judges....and condemns her to hell. God says she is condemned to eternal damnation. Take it up with God. Tell God He needs to become a crack head before, He a Holy God can judge us. And because of His word I can judge. I can say this woman will be in hell is she dies in this state.
@@Manbunmen65 idk about you but I think that entire comment would mortify God. Who are you to speak for god with such conviction 🤨 to say things with such a malicious intent using his name 🤨 you should be ashamed. The purpose of that comment was to shame and belittle. That's not godly.
She has to process her pain and address her wounds in order to stay clean. I think she genuinely wants to be sober but maybe not more than she wants to not feel. Praying for her healing and sobriety. Also… cute shoes.
No. Let's keep it real. She's fucked up and her mother is the same. She doesn't understand what love is. I don't want to an as or a troll, but alot of her stuff is BS. Her mother and father were fucked up people. Just toxic! Hope she finds her way
@@williamkang1986 and you do? Wow I don't think it's your place and you know her well enough to pass such harsh judgment nor have the right to be so mean. If you haven't got anything nice, to say, it's best not to say anything at all. Real enough for you? Your comment is what’s toxic.
@@williamkang1986 wow willy thanks for your irrelevant useless input speaking on people you don't even know, seems to me you're the one who's toxic yuck
@@clairelicciardo6198 All some people have inside is anger & contempt for their fellow humans....sometimes it comes from their own damage....it too is a coping mechanism. Try to forgive those who can't or for emotional reasons ...refuse to forgive. Not that you shouldn't point it out to them.....but please don't allow negative renege to sour you....I think we're all damaged in this world 🌎.
@@brettrobinson2901 I don’t let it sour me. I think it’s disrespectful to the subject of the video, and as a reflex I stood up for her. I have a tendency to stand up for people that’s all, not that she couldn’t stand up for herself.
I am so rooting for this girl. Shes young, she's beautiful and incredibly smart. I know exactly what she's talking about, looking on the floorboards for crack. I've been addicted to crack and opiates, specifically heroin for about 20 years and at this time I have 3 months clean and I feel incredibly fragile. Incredibly good but incredibly fragile. So my point is that I have empathy for Savannah, and I also know that the strength that she exhibits here, the intellect that she possesses can hopefully get her out of the hell that she is living right now. As addicts we are very very good at manipulation and that includes manipulating ourselves into deep denial. I really think Savannah has an incredible future as an addiction recovery counselor or as a life coach considering all she's been through. Please be safe beautiful girl 💞
I’ve been on and off with opiates for many years- the whole time I’ve been an RN making 6 figures but having to escort on my nights off to fund my habit. I was at my lowest point before I put myself in treatment. I see so many similarities between us- when I was deep In it. She is so beautiful and smart….imagine what she could do sober. We’re all behind you Savannah!💗
For a crack addict or even a sober person she communicates so well and clear. She also so gorgeous and her wings are on point! I can’t stop starting at her eyes ..they are so big but you can see so much pain.
Perhaps one day she will realize her parents are the main reason she is where she is. The love she has for them is admirable yet heartbreaking at the same time.
Ikr, but she did say she's just been there 2 mos on SR. If she stays on this path, she won't look this healthy in another year.....her teeth, face, etc will start showing the signs. Sure hope not.
@@chicnoir29 The crack of the 80's had a better grade of cocaine. Back then women weren't able to keep their "looks" and weight intact. Now the cocaine and the additives to it physically dont devastate the body with rapid weight loss. Also it depends on drug usage and how often the drug is used.
“at night it might get scary, but the morning is always beautiful”…..that made me want to cry. The fact that she’s allegedly cold enough to be so awful to someone who loves her like that guy does, but then speak about the world and humanity is such a way. Her insides are in turmoil 😞. And the fact that she still has so much love for her parents after everything they didn’t do for her well-being as a child….she’s pretty magical 🥲
wow i’m 22, have a masters & have started my first good paying job. i wish she was my friend, i wish she had better people in her life. i’ve gone through so much suffering, even because of my parents, but my parents are the reason i’m successful today. her parents ruined her life.
You never know what people are going through. If you passed her in the sidewalk you’d never know she was an addict. I fell in love with a girl that hid her addiction from me once. It was the both the best and worst time I’ve ever had with a person.
I had a good friend who hid his heroin addiction from me from quite some time. I only found out after he OD’d and passed away 4 years ago. Granted, I didn’t see him as much during the last year of his life, because he moved out of state, a couple hours away, with his then girlfriend, so i only really physically saw him once (maybe twice) a month. You really never know.
@@MattKittredge2112 Sorry about your loss. Extra sad when it's an od. That's what happened to my ex. We'd broken up so he moved away. I don't know if it was accidental as he had started to face how badly he'd treated loved ones. Could have been fentanyl.
I see so much of myself in this woman. I truly hope that one day she gets sober again & sees how beautiful and well spoken she is. Savannah, if you ever see this … you’re never alone! You’re words, attitude & being are worth beyond what you see. Mark, I’m so glad you choose to shed light on traumatized people. Hearing others stories helps me through a lot of my own trauma. My heart goes out to this woman.
She definitely has a personal relationship with God. The whole time she talked about hardship and addiction she seemed broken. She seemed battered and aged beyond her years. And in those last couple of minutes when she talked about God you could gradually see the youth return to her face, and at last a burst of laughter with a smile to end it off. Warmed my heart. Praying for you girl. You have so much potential. You've got this.
@@_pandart6435 sure buddy. go find attention somewhere else. wait til mark starts interviewing internet trolls. THAT will be some complicated psychological stuff
@@J_Alrighty not even trolling. Only 2 outcomes. She has abandoned God by continuing her ways till the end; God abandoned her when she takes her own life because she's sick of the life she continues to live. Be realistic with ur optimistic bull, lol
The realness of your interviews is crazy. I feel for each and everyone of the people you interview. I've struggled in life but to see what these people are going thru is mind blowing. I hope for the best for all them
somehow this one made me cry the most, we way we are close in age yet grew up in opposite households, but i see myself in her..she has a strong, wise, BEAUTIFUL heart.. so self aware. her higher awakened state will save her. i don't believe in god but i pray for her and all others in her position. thank you mark for letting these people speak.
Jesus when she said she was 22 I honestly shed a tear. Some of her stories I would expect from someone 35-40, not 22. I really hope this girl somehow finds a way out of this. Just thr fact this women has faith in humanity while going through all this speaks volumes. I know someone who was raped years ago and it still scars her. I couldn't imagine what being raped by 4 pos( their not men, men don't hurt women much less sexually assault them). This is one of the saddest interviews I have seen on this channel and man is that saying something
Very interesting! No matter what profession we do, we as humans have our bad days. We disassociate ourselves from particular situations but we shall continue to keep working 'knowing' it's really not ok. She is so honest. You can see through her eyes. Take care darling.
"I have people in my life that love me and want to see me in a better place, but I don't think they understand that like... I kind of find peace down here." Word Savannah. I feel you. What an accurate depiction of what it can feel like using substances to cope.
10 1/2 years into recovery this story makes me so grateful my wife divorced me to save the children’s lives. The part where she described being pimped out gave me reflection that I’m one of the lucky ones. The depression she speaks of is the part where you’re depressed because you use and you use because you’re depressed. It’s a lonely, desperate space up inside your head. The relapses are so brutally painful to those you love. What I hear from her is the self-loathing and you despise yourself and you’d rather die than live. Even after having had a long period of recovery the rumination of the past is never far away. And family forgives you but they still remember.
I alway alway alway appreciate raw honesty. Hurt people hurt people. The less you hurt people now savannah … the less you will have to clean up later. Do yourself a favor and avoid that pitfall because it brings a lot of shame when you do get sober! I’ll pray for you! 🙏🏼
Praying for your salvation Savannah. If you ever read this just know you have a beautiful soul inside and out and you can get better and be the best version of yourself. You’re so smart. You can do it. You’ve picked yourself up multiple times. You can do it again and stick with it and live your best life. Stay safe.
She is pretty intelligent she has the ability to turn her life in the right path she can do that it might be hard but positivity and guidence god is the answer
I find it humorous that we alcoholics and addicts think we are controlling everything little part of their life but in reality, our life is out of control.
As someone with an alcohol problem I agree. I am at the point where I realize this and yet I keep drinking. Knowing better but not DOING better is what I'm doing. And I feel defeated.
@@kristineplummer7607 You’re not defeated. As corny as it sounds you’re not defeated till you’re dead. I was heavily addicted to opiates for about 12 years. Since the age of 18 after a motorcycle accident. My doctor was giving me enough for literally 8 months for a regular person every 2 weeks. When he retired my new doctor was beyond shocked. He said he’s never in his lifetime seen anyone take so much medication. I should’ve been dead many many times. He helped me get clean and it was the most horrific thing I’ve ever gone through. I didn’t feel right for over 4 months trying to get off everything. I did it on my own while basically laying on my couch. I thought I was never going to make it. Now I’ve been clean for 10 years and have a beautiful wife and 6 year old boy and have never been happier. If I can do all that while feeling as if I have nothing left, you can for sure get some help and quit drinking. I admittedly did it in about the dumbest way a person could but the life that’s on the other side of all this this garbage is so much better and healthier than any of us can imagine while in the middle of it. Sorry for the rant but I felt that I needed to say it.
@@kristineplummer7607 go to AA, start a program. I went to rehab and it changed my life. Keep doing the next right thing. I believe in you! One day at a time.
She has so much potential and out of anyone you have interviewed I think this young woman will find her way out of the darkness. You got this Savannah!
Bless her heart. I just celebrated 10 years of sobriety from opiates, addiction and mental health usually go hand and hand. Lots of people think that choosing drugs as a vice is ultimately a choice but I guarantee you that if there was ever a choice between having a supportive, healthy life with an outlet to vent that most addicts would choose that over using drugs. I'm rooting for you sweet girl 🤎
Man. She’s so smart, healthy looking and beautiful. She did what she had to do. I would never judge her. She’s a total survivor. Full credit my dear and I hope you come through. I’d be happy to have a person like you in my life and I don’t mean just romantically. You’re awesome. Never forget it
Disclaimer: I'm a middle aged autistic man and I gave up on being socially "normal" a long time ago. I tell the truth in a way that makes people cringe sometimes. Initially I scrolled past your video because my first thought was "she's gorgeous." I didn't want that clouding how I perceived your story. Anyway, just a few videos later, your follow up appeared. I scrolled all the way back up to listen to your story. I'm glad I did.
She is now sober & clean 101 days. Praise God.
Soooo happy to hear this!!!! Was just going to say, her light is soooooo bright and all this darkness is exactly that…. The enemy doing anything and everything to keep her from seeking TRUTH and discovering what a force she is… even here in the pits of addiction etc she is more powerful and a threat to darkness… IMAGINE the day she’s truly saved 🫶🏻🙏🏻🕊️😇 I PRAY she’s already there!!!! #chosen ❤️🔥🥷🏼
This whole interview speaks volumes. She’s not completely lost. I pray she gets back on the right path and stay there she’s got a lifetime to live.
She spoke very clearly. There's still hope.
@@VioletJoy She is so young. Although she is now seasoned, she is still vulnerable and has a highly probable chance of not surviving these streets without serious intervention.
@@loosescrews8106 Definitely. It's a sad and strong trap to live in. 💔
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⬆️ Overdosing on fetnyol in Prison
😂 😆 it’s too funny!!
@@postmalonesbff4634 dude wtf!!
Drugs aren’t a gateway drug; trauma is.
The people go through this, do not get the credit for being able to survive all the bullshit they go through. Some since the beginning of conception.
I pray and hope someone knocks on her tent just to help her eat, offer her a pair of sneakers, buy an outfit or just get her a room to stay at.
Love and prayers sent to her 💕🫂💕🫂
Trauma causes addicts. Curiosity can also want you to do drugs.
Yup. I used to feel like I was born into trauma. Not long before I was born my aunt Peggy "Whom I'm named after was murdered "stabbed to death in Hawaii. The killer was never caught. My father committed suicide, "shot himself" when I was 6. I didn't handle it well and was put in mental institution. I was raised in a nudist colony and molested by men when I was very little.
One of my boyfriends was stabbed to death. The guy who did it was caught and made a deal for 19yrs. My sister in law died of a drug overdose at the age of 36. Leaving behind my brother and my 9yr old niece.
Now I'm addicted to Gabapentin. Is this amount of trauma normal for one person?
Affordable Healthcare should be more readily available.
thank you for writing this. Gabor Mate;s school correct? Mark and many people here have no clue about trauma and what it is ...I am worried those people get so invalidated by questions like " was there abuse in your home" when they do not know what abuse means( other then sexual or physical)
@@TB12710 Yeah because she's an addict...
"My mom and my dad got married in rahab, I was the flower girl." That struck me as deeply poetic. These stories are so interesting & you really can see a connection with how people were brought up and where their lives end up going. I hope this woman gets the help she needs.
Poetic huh? Lol y’all are all delusional
@@greidtv Ever read T.S. Eliot's "The Wasteland"? It's got hyacinth girl vibes. Not all poetry is about love and romance. Some is dark, brooding, and painful, even the classical stuff.
@@G0rd0nHealth nahh I haven’t read it. I had a mother who was a substance abuser. She died when I was 12 on the way to come see me after she finally became sober. I guess that’s poetic to you as well. To me it’s tragic. Nothing poetic at all but I see where you are going
@@greidtv i don’t think they mean poetic in a good way, i think they mean it in a sorrowful way; like hit them deeply.
@@greidtv that’s a tragedy, which is also a literary category.
She is so brutally honest with herself. I pray you find your way out of this nightmare. You deserve so much more than this!
@@imanrusmana8114Lmaooo thirst bucket 😂😂
I admire her honesty, but she is not there yet. Even with everything she's been through, I think she may still see some glimmer in the hustling. It's like a high in and of itself, one that so far has successfully fed the greater beast within. She's been hurt, unimaginably so.. but she's been riding that high of successfully hustling some dudes that haven't turned on her yet like others. Bless her 🙏
@@rachelmartin5865 I hope she gets so high off the stuff and just takes a 1 way Uber to a la over pass and does her self in what a waste of a space lol this account has been hacked by Russian meth crack cocaine cult
@@This-account-is-hacked You are pure evil.
@@kathyo5971 I got cheese stuck up my belly with c o c k . Snoty meth smoke crystal dripping down my pants 👖
My Father was a crack addict, I resonate so much with her story. My mom was the one working 3 jobs so she was barely ever home, still to this day I tell her things that she's just finding out about. My dad locking me and my brothers out of the house in the summertime and he would not let us in to get a drink, because he was in there partying smoking crack with friends. He sold our stuff, pawned it. I got hooked on heroin when I was 20 then was on heroin and crack by the age of 22. I have been clean for four years now and the happiest I've ever been my whole life. If I can get clean I know she can. Prayers for her. I'm rooting for her. ❤️
Yay, good for you stay clean and blessed 💟
@@70787 Thank you love ❤️
@The Marquis De Quigley Thanks love, means alot.
Yes... May ur happiness endure on your journey through life ..lessons love and life
It takes a strong person to get clean & stay clean. I wish you all the best.
This girl is 22. She’s already had 3 years clean at one point. She can turn her life around a lot easier now than in 20 years. I pray she finds a way. We can and do recover!
Oooooook stacy
She is a hard 22...I wonder if she is still alive, I hope so...
@@lancekuhpow8489 why are u being negative?
Ya. Recovery is possible.
She is not 22. She said she was 19, kept herself clean for 3 yrs then started hooking again. I’d say she’s 27ish. Maybe 30
This girl is straight up. So self aware and intelligent, curious about life and the affect she has on people around her. I hope she can use those skills in a way that really fulfills her. She’s the type of person to really be resilient and she can use that in many facets of life.
You’re as delusional as she is. 😂
Keep looking for God's light and soon you will find it. If you believe in Him without faltering you will be brought out of that life and into a life where you could share your experiences and faith with others and help be a guide to them out of a dark life of addiction. Many blessings and prayers 🙏
She's a junkie. You people admire the worst kind of person.
She's literally a psychopath.
She is a used whore. thats the truth
Her compassion for her parents is beautiful…what a resilient soul
👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
She’s amazing
Damn looking at her I would never though she was on crack that crazy
Us
It’s called therapy….
Wow! She looks like any other girl you’d see at Starbucks, the grocery store, the mall! Never judge a book by its cover! As a cancer patient who “doesn’t look sick” it’s so important as a reminder that we all have a story and you can NEVER truly see a person only by looking at them. thank you for your videos, Mark! 😊 These are incredible stories. Things like these can happen to any of us. We are all in this together.
Yes I was just gona say the same thing I'd never have guessed she was a crack addict, wow, she looks fantastic, I really hope she can get out of this situation, she at least should be a high class escort or on onlyfans, she could then get into a better situation, with a home, and belongings, and more financial security than on the streets which is so unsafe.
I've never seen anyone say we are all in this together but it's 👍.
I'm pretty sure the population is interspersed more greatly within society than most of us realize. I'm pretty sure I've seen one of my trader Joe's (grocery) checkers meeting up with a "date" late at night more than once. She seems to be working full time and not an addict, but who knows?
I’m one of those people. You’d never know my past. I look like a normal guy.
So true ❤❤❤❤
The fact that she didn’t shed one tear let’s you know her heart had hardened to steel. She truly believes that being an addict is her destiny. How do you come back from that? So sad!
omg right. She's smart, her world has hardened her, out of necessity
She's a smart young lady yes she is kind of hard but she has to be..she lives on skidrow...
I personally think she would be one heck of a business owner.. if she got clean and sober.. there is something about her that you can't ignore..she has what it takes to run her own business..I really believe that..but I also think she needs to be sober for a period of time..I think once she finds what she's good at she would be successful...
It's her way of protecting herself-emotional shutdown- can you judge her for that?
Yeah bad times builds strong people...she sheds tears but you'll never see it..it's a character shes playing a mask she wears, I know this because I wear a similar mask. I guarantee that a major loss of a loved one/heartbreak made her this way, it made me hardened, less trusting and more aware of who I am, I look at past mistakes I've made and know what lead me to making those mistakes..stay strong Samantha,I feel that pain and been in that darkness, just know everything is temporary and we're all going to make it.
@@jamescleary1122 it’s all her fault if she didn’t do what she did then she would be fine I don’t feel bad for people because no 1 ever felt bad when I was down it’s better to bring urself up and get urself out of ur own troubles no 1 can tell you or help you or guide you only you can
This young woman has lived so much life in her 22 years. What a bright, intelligent human.. still connected to her light . Hoping that warm spot grows in her heart.
❤️
Childhood trauma is the #1 gateway drug...
BASED!!!
And those who continue with a victim mentality will stay drug addicted
@@KK-mm8ms I think yur ¾ fulla $hit
@@reactaerospace7689 it does make sense to a point ! when your childhood is fkkd you are an open door to numbing drugs!
@@reactaerospace7689 ok well I am not impressed with your utter ignorance! Obviously you haven’t had childhood trauma so you should feel blessed! Sit down now clown!
I have watched many MANY of your interviews and this one right here, is by far the most true and accurate account (from experience) of a trauma induced drug addiction. I truly feel there is hope for Savannah! I was an intravenous meth addict who lost my first daughter to child protection. I now have a 2 year old daughter, ZERO CPS involvement, I am kicking major ass as a sober mother. My heart breaks for her. I have been her.
Good for you..
Live Clean..
Good for you. You should be so proud of yourself
I felt your presence well done I've experienced all these problems..now my son's mum lost her children through the same problems.. lucky her mum got custody so I still see my little boy .. keep strong ❤️
You keep doing the right thing Momma! You are awesome.
What a super mom !!! 👏🏾 can't wait to hear from your family and yourself ❤ thanks for sharing 🙏🏾
You are a genuine soul. Don't lose that "warm spot" in your heart, Savannah. Wishing you all the best. Your life is just beginning. ❤
100%
This is most perfect comment 😍😍
@ActSmart BeSmart so glad God doesn’t judge us the way you judged her.
@ActSmart BeSmart we should be praying for her and all lost souls not tearing them down. She has had a rough life and still growing.
@@ms.mcfatty2368 true that!!
I really appreciate that you let people tell their story without interruption.
He’s stearing hard
She was frickin' just rambling about this and that. Hard to follow. She had no financial support whatsoever? So how was she able to fly across the country and go to some private (and most likely expensive) private rehab?
@@Essays4College love you’re judgment
Savannah, don’t join your father. I suspect nothing would make him happier than seeing you break the cycle. I think you’ll be a kick-ass advocate in the years to come. You have a lot to offer others who are struggling.
this!!
Does anyone know where she stays at or is around? No reason just curious
@@seanomalleygoatmmafighter2182 go away, creep!
She seems like a strong woman,as she would have to be in her situation,but to be such a beautiful woman,and so young to be out on the streets,it makes me sad to see!
@@undefinedd1147 I've seen you comment shit like this before, you are sick and better get help. Because all your stalker questions are all over these comments as proof.
As someone who's yet again hit rock bottom right now with bipolar anxiety and depression, these interviews actually seem to help. Mainly because it shows me that people who have been dealt a much harder hand than I have are surviving and maybe even starting to improve. Great channel
So true dude
I hope you also know that now people you don't even know are thinking about YOU and truly hoping you're doing okay 🤗💜
@@birdette79 Thank you so much for saying that. It's good to be reminded that there are so many good people in the world. And that's the majority, for real
I'm wishing you the very best.
They make me feel better I have Bipolar and Borderline personality because I know I didn't turn to drugs. I went into the military, then became a police officer and for 16 years now I guard the most sensitive and destructive force man has created. How is it I can accomplish all this with severe mental disorders? A troubled and uncaring family...Because I wanted it.
Savannah, I hope you read this. You are not what you've done, you're what you will do! You are beautiful and smart and you have so much to live for, even if it doesnt seem that way. You ARE worth it! Sending you love and light and so much encouragement to work through your pain on a clean level. It is possible sweetie💜💜🤗
@@imanrusmana8114 Thank you 💚 that is very kind of you to say
@@freakydeakydorkable I got a crack pipe on my stove want to smoke up with me and my buddie and wrangler a dog to have. A pity bull fight on meth
She’s so young, so beautiful and so smart. She is wise beyond her years. She deserves so much more than the life she is settling for. I hope she finds the strength and courage to turn her life around. She has so much to offer the world and so much living to do.
100 %
She's traumatized and lost.
You see the bright side, I wish I could. I really do. All I see is a lost soul on a dark path that if she keeps treading down it, there is no coming back.
This girl is so beautiful and if I met her in passing, I'd never imagine the battle she lives in. I hope she finds a way out of this 💌🌹
She did find a way out, then chose to go back. For some people, life on the street is more thrilling and liberating than a 9 to 5 job. With a 9 to 5 job, one has actual responsibilities.
@@deanalbertson7203 Sometimes just living can be too much so people feel their only option is escape.
@@marylougeorge9890 Obviously, escaping into drugs is a bad choice long term. It might be a relief in the short term to quit one's job, quit paying bills, and just do whatever you want, but long term that is not going to work well. She even admits that her choices are selfish. She is more concerned about getting her next high, than she is about her Mom.
@@deanalbertson7203 Research PTSD and CPTSD.
@@deanalbertson7203 both of her parents were addicts, A huge part of this is hereditary.
I like the backdrop in these interviews. It kind of reminds me of high school photos on picture day. It's a perfectly neutral background that takes all the focus off of everything, and this channel is just like a portrait of humanity. I love seeing interviews of the "average person". Or even what some people might call less than average. REAL people, with REAL problems. Let's stop making celebrities our idols guys! Let's stop treating only their deaths like it's the end of the world. HUMAN life is precious, no matter who it is.
I was thinking the same thing.. like some messed up yearbook. Especially with all the follow up interviews & you can kind of track how their life is going.. so.. idk.. grounding.
These videos give insight into a world i know nothing about. At 20 years old, I remember browsing ebay looking for old transformer action figures i always wanted as a child, and playing playstation. I cant imagine dealing with even half the things these people have gone through at any age. Let alone so young. Its easy for us to browse instagram and feel down about our own lives because we arent on a yacht popping champagne, but these videos bring reality back into perspective. My life really isnt that bad at all. Thank you for sharing!
Thank you for opening up to a side of the world you could choose to ignore.♥️♥️♥️
@@Michael_J_M14 Fyi: It goes deeper than just say no.
Optimus Prime)
@@Michael_J_M14 My thing is chocolate, not drugs.
@@Michael_J_M14 Good quality dark chocolate!😋😍
The way she describes the people on skid row that’s how people were the moment I surrendered and went to AA and had an open mind.. the gift of desperation. Addicts are very special people and recovered addicts are the luckiest most shining humans you can meet. Wish her all the love and protection.
It's not luck, it's very hard work. As a child of a 12 step family, recovery is a team effort..she needs a sponsor, so as to be confronted with her own failings, and learning to STAY sober.
@@josephgriffin2388 you may have misunderstood what I meant. I didn’t mean they get recovered because of luck. Im a recovered alcoholic and I know that isn’t how it works. I meant that most of us feel grateful having recovered knowing that MOST people that fall down that hole simply do not. Period.
@starmane8840 I’ve met some recovering addicts and they were still total pieces of entitled garbage. Just saying that so you be careful.
When she gets out of all this, she will help a lot of people. She went to the heart of the darkness and she is gathering strength to come out.
If she does, yes. I hope so. 🤞
"if" she gets out
@@joez3706 *When
@@Hajithepoet lol, 🙄
I don't know how she can do that financially. Even people who studied hard, worked hard all their lives and did everything responsibly are struggling for survival now.
I hope the best for her, she deserves a good life. She is still clear and here with us, she can make it out. She's very self aware, smart and beautiful. Thinking of you Savannah, as another girl in her early 20s. You got this.
Amen to everything you said
But she admitted to scamming people, and everyone is saying she's such a good person.
@@Monzta get a degree in addiction health and you might understand. There’s that….or compassion
@@aaronmurdoch7362 we can't help the hand we're dealt in life. However the decisions we make has some effect. She decided to do drugs. We all go through struggles. I feel like because she's pretty, everyone has more sympathy for her.
@@Monzta There is a saying that admitting or recognizing a wrong is the 1st step to healing and reconciliation. I’m more bothered by the wrongdoers that are oblivious to their wrongdoings and addiction literally takes over your better judgments. There are straight men that became addicts and have sucked a Johnson in a desperate moment to get monies for access to more drugs. There are women addicts selling sex not because they are depraved nymphomaniacs, but to get more access to drugs. Nancy Reagan said it best, “Just Say No.”, but unfortunately life happens and everyone isn’t born into a stable loving environment and everyone at varying times in their lives may not necessarily possess the best coping skills when faced with difficult or painful circumstances so they turn to self medicating. Drug abuse is like a merry go round that’s going fast and your only hope to save yourself is to jump off…but you fear the fall.
When you have a parent that you need to be a parent to, it is so painful. Sometimes you have to let them go and make them make the decision to save themselves so that you can take care of yourself. ❤️
Heartbreaking but true.😓💔
I AM THE RECOVERING PARENT WHO PUT MY SON IN THE PARENTAL ROLE. I see that now and I also see where that was done to me as a child ( up until present day). I didn't see or refused to acknowledge this at the time. It was just an unhealthy cycle, repeating itself, but being made to feel obligated, which slowly turns to resentment. Although I've changed, the damage has already been done. But we're slowly repairing our relationship with each other and ourselves.
@@kitashawillis118 I'm glad your relationship is turning around. Keep in mind there are more relationships like yours with parents who never acknowledge this truth and nothing changes. Give yourself Lots of credit for acknowledging And working to heal the relationship. You'll need to help you through the difficult tims.❤️❤️❤️
I hate these comments. I get this all the time from ppl I know. Yes my life would be amazing on my own. But do I really put my mom in line to be homeless? Is it worth it? I don't think so
I believe people are acknowledging that this young woman needs help. She is young and should be focused on her future. Her mother can reach out to Dept. of Aging in her County. I am a retired disabled senior helping my daughter with a disability. My car broke down, and I got help through my County. I took a van for disabled people. The key is to reach out. Yes - it is hard. Yes, life can be scary. We don’t have to do life alone. There are still good people in this world. Praying for this young lady and her mom.
She is so mature for her age. She is RAW & HONEST I love it! You go girl♥️ She has so much potential, praying she is able to escape this lifestyle. If she doesn’t please stay safe 💕
Yeah she takes it raw
She's 22.... she's supposed to be mature.
She’s not mature but she’s trying
This episode really resonated with me. I celebrated 15 yrs clean 3/15/22 and my drug of choice was crack. The look on her face when she said she doesn't really want to stop hurt to hear. Keep up the great work, Mark. I hope she can eventually decide she's had enough.
@@iminyourcity4001 why don’t you Google it instead of asking a recovering crack addict to relive the drug for you.
What was your method to stay clean for 15 years with cravings? Meetings? 12 step program? Meds? I'm 47, tried crack at around 21 years old. Moved to Oregon in 2016 and developed a 8 month steady meth addiction. Came back to Ohio in 2019 and fell back to crack. If I have a debit card with money in the bank, I'm spending more than I like on dope.
Her honesty is so refreshing, although her story just breaks my heart. Her love for her parents even though it’s obvious she’s an addict because of them is touching and so human. She’s so young, beautifully likable and well spoken. I hope she can turn this around. She deserves it and is so worth it. I hope in 3-5 years she’s a paralegal, and not with her dad 🙏❤️
She’s an addict because she’s an addict
She a crack baby crack baby 😂🥴😂😭on serious note she too pretty for that lifestyle I hope she fight her addiction
She just seems like she’s tired of life and needs freaking break. But she’s a boss she’ll get her shit together again can’t believe shes 22 ! Rooting for you savannah 💪🏻
ditto, she is a strong girl who has seen waaaay to much already
Yea. I thought she was in her 30s. I was definitely getting 30s vibes.
Women lie about her age all the time. Guarantee she is in her 30s
@@DNALI not me
She needs to be on Howard stern back in the 90's
The self awareness & wisdom she has at such a young age. I hope she can get past this, she can really change a lot of lives.
I've watched many of these interviews and one thing that repeatedly amazes me is how appreciative many of these folks are for the positive things from their early lives. This despite so much adversity and negativity that many of them faced as kids. To acknowledge love and support, or other positive elements of their upbringing, despite addiction or having been caught up in other very harsh circumstances, takes takes incredible humility and self awareness.
I know this sounds ridiculous, but she could walk into another life and no one would be any the wiser... She carries herself with a lot of poise and self awareness...
Honestly though right, she doesn't look like the life she's talking about. So sad.
She definitely doesn’t look like she’s been up all night smoking crack anyway.
I am a recovering addict and many people are shocked when they find out that I am intelligent, articulate and like this girl self aware. There is a stigma attached to addicts , most squares think we must be dumb and,or bad people
Savannah is intelligent, self aware and very honest.. I so hope she can turn her life around and live her best life.
I can’t believe she’s 22! Very intelligent.
@@k_xxo Yes, she seems intelligent. But she looks older than she is. I'm sure she's damaged and rightfully have issues. But sooner or later, you have to be accountable for your decisions and actions. I don't want to be an ass hole, but it is what it is. Hope she makes it.
She contradicts herself a few times especially when she is first describing her parents, to later in the interview. I am not saying she is dishonest maybe she isn't even aware herself. Seems like she is trying to play the interviewer a little for whetever reason. That's just my opinion.
@@NeiveVeve That’s what I was thinking. She’s almost got an arrogance to her, like “yeah I do some bad stuff but I’m good at it” kind of attitude.
Right? Must be because she is attractive.
22. . Goodness. . She’s such a Lovely Soul. I Hope She Finds her Way 🥲
Holy shit. What the hell were you watching? This is a narcissistic demon.
She’s endearing and beautiful. Intelligent, well spoken with a lot of heart and substance. She can accomplish whatever she decides to. Can make a great paralegal or lawyer. I wish her nothing but the best. A breakthrough. A way to be with her father and us at the same time. She’s so worth it.
Wow! When she said 22 I was blown away. She seems very mature- clearly trauma and not having any type of sheltered life but also a genuine insight that most have when they are older.
Same
Wow.... "I still have faith in humanity." That statement, from someone so young who has endured so much, really strikes me. She deserves so much better and I pray she finds it.
Savannah - if you ever read these comments: We see you and we need you here! You are a wonderful human being. Don´t even consider being with your dad in a few years. You were put here to survive. Strangely, I could never see this for myself, but listening to yours and other people´s stories here, this becomes so clear for me. And I feel like those who have the most struggles in life are the most beautiful souls on this planet. You are amzing!
I feel bad for her trying to support her messed up mother... Drugs kill your spirit and ruin your life and the lives of those around you 😥
Yes because I used to be on meth real bad, and even when I was using I was still a praying person, but I was ashamed. But my Mama prayed for me as well as my dad I'm sure that"please Lord take the addiction away from my daughter and let her get away from the man that she is with now and doing it with"... More specifically my mom actually said "take the desire to want to do that drug out of her". And I tell you what prayers are very powerful especially if you're a woman of Faith or a man of faith. I still got some demons ie alcohol, pot, and Xanax pills. My mom doesn't pray nightly every day but when she does she prays for the Lord to take the desire away from me to do the pills, cigarettes, alcohol. My mom likes her alcohol beers and I pray for God to take the desire away from her and my fiance to quit smoking cigarettes, and she actually has slowed down on smoking cigarettes praise God. God bless you and your family young lady I believe if you believe in yourself that you can conquer the crack addiction. In Jesus name I pray and claim amen.
@@serenamoody6622 🙏 Amen
@@serenamoody6622 Amen.❤️🙏
Too many kids are left to fix their parents. NOT KOOL!!. Shit isn't right
Well said 🙏🏽💯💯
Savannah my mom dealt with substance abuse and I was ANGRY at 22 right after I lost her. It’s been 9 years and the anger fueled me, but also haunted me. I understand feeling numb, and having to support more dysfunction, but remember you still deserve good things. Try and channel that anger. Do you like art? CREATE. do you like sales? CREATE. Like finances? TRADING FIRMS. Like helping others like you? BE A COUNSELOR. I lost amazing people and relationships over my anger and even opportunities. You got this. P.S. give yourself grace though cause I’m 32 now and still deal with the anger you smart you got this
I've been hurt horribly by every man in my life, and I really understand Savanahs mindset. A well spoken interview from someone who has had to take care of a lot of stuff from a young age.
Just search for the different type of man that you usually had
Usually men and women are attracted to the spousal versions of their parents. Don't do that unless you had good parents/
All those previous events have no bearing on any possible future events
The law of physics mathematically proven to 99.99%
LMAO it’s not that easy
“The only thing that can save me might be God”. SHE NAILED IT!!!🙏🏽May she turns to God soon and use this rough season as a lesson to help others in the future when she gets sober🙏🏽
WOW. What a well spoken, intelligent, and WISE 22 year old. Hearing her whole story adds so much depth to the situation she’s in. I really* hope she stays safe and gets sober, I think she could accomplish great things.
Far more well spoken than the interviewer. Slow down your pace when asking her a question. No emotional connection from him and asking very pointed and personal questions. Very unlistenable like he has a tic .
You must be new here.
Main world could if drugs were not invented
Did you said “wise”????????? Well spoken yes but
Wise lol. Did you hear her?
This girl should be running her own business somewhere or a CEO at a corporation. So intelligent and articulate. Beautiful young lady. I bet she is super talented at many different things. Just never been allowed to unlock it. Best of luck to you sweetheart. I'm praying for your transformation. May God Bless you love.
Yeah, we should all be CEOs nowadays! You see someone who you like or feel pity? She should be CEO! How about having a decent job so you can provide for youself? I am sure she would like that. So much vanity..
Hey i think Hope can we give us a real transformation, support and good a real people make the difference
A crackhead prostitute as a ceo… what could possibly go wrong lol
Watching her self soothe with her hands makes me want to just hold her hand and tell her she’s gonna be ok. She has it in her to be the change for her life. I hope she makes it.
what is she holding?
What a beautiful girl inside and out, I hope she finds peace. She deserves better. May God help her find her way like she says at the end.
I KNEW it! I took one look at her and thought: nonprofit, maybe with a specialty in marketing. Come ON Savannah, you are NOT a crackhead on skid row. You are, for now, apparantly addicted to to a substance which has taken enough from you that you are at a particularly low point. But you have physically and emotionally come out so well, despite this! Flag down the first established nonprofit with a good reputation that's out there trying to get people out of the life ( or find them). Tell them you want to work with them, let them help you find shelter and get clean. Intern with their admin department (for that, you won't need the degree in social work). It's sooo rewarding to work with a good LOCAL organization because you see the immediate fruits of your labor. It can even pay well if you rise high enough in the ranks. I'm not in CA but am happy to answer questions. Make your HIGH and need for excitement work FOR you in the service of OTHERS :-))))
Yup
amen 🙏🏽 🙌🏼
Amen 🙏
so encouraging!!!😍
This!!! I can 100% see this journey for her. I hope she somehow sees your comment. When she gets out of this addiction her come up is going to be big!
Its like she is telling the story of someone else...she is not identified with it...she clearly managed to save a sacred part of herself, which will lead her way out of this. This is not the life she is ment to live. She seems incredibly strong, although she might be broken a million times she is not falling apart. Im positive she will change the script.
I hope you are correct
You slow af
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You're immiture af
@@wesleyalan9179 Thanks. Im not even sure what he is saying...
Hi Bohemia, I am 6 mins in and feel like yourself and listening to the command and control of her voice, what on earth is Savannah doing here ?. But why not, when you hear her background. I will listen to the rest of Mark's interview.
I sincerely hope she finds a way out of her addiction and pain. She has so much potential.
The work that you do is so incredibly important, Mark. Humanizing these people and individualizing them as faces and names and not addicts or homeless is so needed. The self awareness of so many of the. Makes it so much more painful and compelling.
Gonna need a follow up with this one! She has such a great mind she has a chance! Get it girl! I believe in you
There is a follow up video just out today.
Does anyone know where she stays at on skid row?? No reason just curious
@@seanomalleygoatmmafighter2182 Don't be weird dude
There's hope for her, hopefully she wakes up one day and sees how precious her life is... sending love, hugs and positivity from CT
I bet this girl feels like she is old, because of all she has been through. It’s hard to see ourselves as others do. I wish she would take this wisdom and change lives in a positive way. She is so pretty and has much potential.
There is still hope for her. Savannah if you’re reading this you are worth getting clean and you deserve to be clean and happy. Best of luck to you!
Girl girl girl, I recognize that sense of hopelessness and inability to escape "the demons of your dad" so so so much. For years I've been telling myself I'm gonna "turn into a junkie" just like my dad (was), which actually ended up fueling the addictive cycle. Even if it feels like you are destined to be like him, you are NOT YOUR DAD. Maybe he was not able to heal form his pain and break the generational trauma, but as long as you still draw breath, you can. I have never believed in anyone more than I believe in you Savannah. Don't lose faith in yourself.
Anyone who judges another person for doing drugs or being an addict needs to live through the trauma they've been through before they say anything. The kind of pain that's been in her life is immense.. I wish you all the best Savannah, please stay safe
"And they say slavery is over! get over it! Like there is not trauma associated with it"
In todays society, judging is wrong. Can't judge unless you become a crack addict. The Bible judges....and condemns her to hell. God says she is condemned to eternal damnation. Take it up with God. Tell God He needs to become a crack head before, He a Holy God can judge us. And because of His word I can judge. I can say this woman will be in hell is she dies in this state.
@@Manbunmen65 idk about you but I think that entire comment would mortify God. Who are you to speak for god with such conviction 🤨 to say things with such a malicious intent using his name 🤨 you should be ashamed. The purpose of that comment was to shame and belittle. That's not godly.
I have and I'm 39 and do zero drugs smoke or drink..my dad died of alcoholism ..bye with the excuses
@@eleawood4083 okay good for you nobody cares.
She has to process her pain and address her wounds in order to stay clean. I think she genuinely wants to be sober but maybe not more than she wants to not feel. Praying for her healing and sobriety. Also… cute shoes.
Amen.🙏
So badly want to just give her a hug and say she can do it…she’s not a lost cause by any stretch, her story isn’t over!
She’s really pretty, and seems like a chill person. You got this girl!
No. Let's keep it real. She's fucked up and her mother is the same. She doesn't understand what love is. I don't want to an as or a troll, but alot of her stuff is BS. Her mother and father were fucked up people. Just toxic! Hope she finds her way
@@williamkang1986 and you do? Wow I don't think it's your place and you know her well enough to pass such harsh judgment nor have the right to be so mean. If you haven't got anything nice, to say, it's best not to say anything at all. Real enough for you? Your comment is what’s toxic.
@@williamkang1986 wow willy thanks for your irrelevant useless input speaking on people you don't even know, seems to me you're the one who's toxic yuck
@@clairelicciardo6198 All some people have inside is anger & contempt for their fellow humans....sometimes it comes from their own damage....it too is a coping mechanism. Try to forgive those who can't or for emotional reasons ...refuse to forgive. Not that you shouldn't point it out to them.....but please don't allow negative renege to sour you....I think we're all damaged in this world 🌎.
@@brettrobinson2901 I don’t let it sour me. I think it’s disrespectful to the subject of the video, and as a reflex I stood up for her. I have a tendency to stand up for people that’s all, not that she couldn’t stand up for herself.
This is mesmerizing … in every level. How much insight we get on people living on the streets. She is a smart enough to make a different life.
I am so rooting for this girl. Shes young, she's beautiful and incredibly smart. I know exactly what she's talking about, looking on the floorboards for crack. I've been addicted to crack and opiates, specifically heroin for about 20 years and at this time I have 3 months clean and I feel incredibly fragile. Incredibly good but incredibly fragile. So my point is that I have empathy for Savannah, and I also know that the strength that she exhibits here, the intellect that she possesses can hopefully get her out of the hell that she is living right now. As addicts we are very very good at manipulation and that includes manipulating ourselves into deep denial. I really think Savannah has an incredible future as an addiction recovery counselor or as a life coach considering all she's been through. Please be safe beautiful girl 💞
I am rooting for you too!!! Congrats on the 3 months
Keep going! Please keep going! You’re fragility is huge strength
how are you doing dude? even if it’s not good, we just want an update! we’re rooting for you, getting off heroin it’s like fist-fighting the devil
I’ve been on and off with opiates for many years- the whole time I’ve been an RN making 6 figures but having to escort on my nights off to fund my habit. I was at my lowest point before I put myself in treatment. I see so many similarities between us- when I was deep
In it. She is so beautiful and smart….imagine what she could do sober. We’re all behind you Savannah!💗
i hope she stays a crack head. i want to see how her life goes even more downhill, i want her to become a twitchy homeless freak so i can laugh
Such honesty, acceptance, ownership and rigorous honesty. You deserve to find your way home little sister.
I love how she speaks about her parents, you can tell she loves them and respects them. That is amazing to hear.
Her anger is palpable. I hope she takes that energy and moves in a direction that feeds her spiritually.
For a crack addict or even a sober person she communicates so well and clear. She also so gorgeous and her wings are on point!
I can’t stop starting at her eyes ..they are so big but you can see so much pain.
i keep watching interviews and i keep learning from all of these people, thank you Savannah and Mark
I kept expecting her to cry, she probably cried all her tears already. I really hope the best for her life. You can do it
From personal experience, staying angry keeps you from crying.
You're so young, all your dreams can come true. Even ones you haven't had yet. I've lived many lives since 22.......
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I love this comment
Is 30 young?
@@juliettezea9507 Yes. You still have the energy to accomplish whatever you choose.
I am rooting for her so much. I feel for her so deeply. This channel really shows that’s we’re all one decision away from being on skid row.
Perhaps one day she will realize her parents are the main reason she is where she is. The love she has for them is admirable yet heartbreaking at the same time.
Duh
@@victoriamorgan2261rudeness is not an admirable trait.
grow up@@victoriamorgan2261
Agree don't put people down. Scroll
The honesty of these girls being interviewed makes me cry !!! Sometimes these girls teach me to be honest in everything. Thank you ALL Girls !!
She looks so healthy for a crack addict! She’s beautiful too; I wish her all the best - she can clearly do so much better,
Ikr, but she did say she's just been there 2 mos on SR. If she stays on this path, she won't look this healthy in another year.....her teeth, face, etc will start showing the signs. Sure hope not.
@Kimberly Kees: Crack today ain't the crack of the 80's.
@@terrenceliburd8655 sometimes it takes a little time I see little smalls traits
@@terrenceliburd8655 - Explain please.
@@chicnoir29 The crack of the 80's had a better grade of cocaine. Back then women weren't able to keep their "looks" and weight intact. Now the cocaine and the additives to it physically dont devastate the body with rapid weight loss. Also it depends on drug usage and how often the drug is used.
She is so smart and well spoken. And gosh she seems so much older than 22yrs old!! She has so much to offer. I hope she finds peace and sobriety 💗
She looks like 25
“at night it might get scary, but the morning is always beautiful”…..that made me want to cry. The fact that she’s allegedly cold enough to be so awful to someone who loves her like that guy does, but then speak about the world and humanity is such a way. Her insides are in turmoil 😞. And the fact that she still has so much love for her parents after everything they didn’t do for her well-being as a child….she’s pretty magical 🥲
wow i’m 22, have a masters & have started my first good paying job. i wish she was my friend, i wish she had better people in her life. i’ve gone through so much suffering, even because of my parents, but my parents are the reason i’m successful today. her parents ruined her life.
Good on ya dude. Keep on keeping on.
She is actually amazing. She has such incredible strength, and if she can face the pain she is running from, she will get better.
You never know what people are going through. If you passed her in the sidewalk you’d never know she was an addict. I fell in love with a girl that hid her addiction from me once. It was the both the best and worst time I’ve ever had with a person.
Been there. The love of my life was a junkie. He hid it from me.
I had a good friend who hid his heroin addiction from me from quite some time. I only found out after he OD’d and passed away 4 years ago. Granted, I didn’t see him as much during the last year of his life, because he moved out of state, a couple hours away, with his then girlfriend, so i only really physically saw him once (maybe twice) a month.
You really never know.
Been threw the exact same thing
@@MattKittredge2112 Sorry about your loss. Extra sad when it's an od. That's what happened to my ex. We'd broken up so he moved away. I don't know if it was accidental as he had started to face how badly he'd treated loved ones. Could have been fentanyl.
I see so much of myself in this woman. I truly hope that one day she gets sober again & sees how beautiful and well spoken she is. Savannah, if you ever see this … you’re never alone! You’re words, attitude & being are worth beyond what you see. Mark, I’m so glad you choose to shed light on traumatized people. Hearing others stories helps me through a lot of my own trauma. My heart goes out to this woman.
She definitely has a personal relationship with God. The whole time she talked about hardship and addiction she seemed broken. She seemed battered and aged beyond her years. And in those last couple of minutes when she talked about God you could gradually see the youth return to her face, and at last a burst of laughter with a smile to end it off. Warmed my heart. Praying for you girl. You have so much potential. You've got this.
33:12 this moment gives me so much hope for her
God has left her
@@_pandart6435 sure buddy. go find attention somewhere else. wait til mark starts interviewing internet trolls. THAT will be some complicated psychological stuff
@@J_Alrighty not even trolling. Only 2 outcomes. She has abandoned God by continuing her ways till the end; God abandoned her when she takes her own life because she's sick of the life she continues to live. Be realistic with ur optimistic bull, lol
@@_pandart6435 its going to be ok bud. hang in there. ❤there is life outside of comment sections. you've got this.
She is shaking, she is so nervous about the interview- and so honest...so much hurt and anger. Bless her heart.
I'd say that her body wanting drugs.
@@traderbychoice7560lol she already got them that's what crack does
The realness of your interviews is crazy. I feel for each and everyone of the people you interview. I've struggled in life but to see what these people are going thru is mind blowing. I hope for the best for all them
I love her. She is so bright and could do so much in this world. I wish she knew that.
somehow this one made me cry the most, we way we are close in age yet grew up in opposite households, but i see myself in her..she has a strong, wise, BEAUTIFUL heart.. so self aware. her higher awakened state will save her. i don't believe in god but i pray for her and all others in her position. thank you mark for letting these people speak.
Jesus when she said she was 22 I honestly shed a tear. Some of her stories I would expect from someone 35-40, not 22. I really hope this girl somehow finds a way out of this. Just thr fact this women has faith in humanity while going through all this speaks volumes. I know someone who was raped years ago and it still scars her. I couldn't imagine what being raped by 4 pos( their not men, men don't hurt women much less sexually assault them). This is one of the saddest interviews I have seen on this channel and man is that saying something
Bro no way she's 22
Jesus. . Seriously 😳
@@jamesdeaton4467 explain
@@jamesdeaton4467 Gabby Jesus
Waves at another Manc on the Internet 👋
Very interesting!
No matter what profession we do, we as humans have our bad days. We disassociate ourselves from particular situations but we shall continue to keep working 'knowing' it's really not ok.
She is so honest.
You can see through her eyes.
Take care darling.
"I have people in my life that love me and want to see me in a better place, but I don't think they understand that like... I kind of find peace down here." Word Savannah. I feel you. What an accurate depiction of what it can feel like using substances to cope.
Amazing interview, One of my favorite ones so far. I love her personality. No BS, Just straight up facts. Would love to see more of her!!
10 1/2 years into recovery this story makes me so grateful my wife divorced me to save the children’s lives. The part where she described being pimped out gave me reflection that I’m one of the lucky ones. The depression she speaks of is the part where you’re depressed because you use and you use because you’re depressed. It’s a lonely, desperate space up inside your head. The relapses are so brutally painful to those you love. What I hear from her is the self-loathing and you despise yourself and you’d rather die than live. Even after having had a long period of recovery the rumination of the past is never far away. And family forgives you but they still remember.
I alway alway alway appreciate raw honesty. Hurt people hurt people. The less you hurt people now savannah … the less you will have to clean up later. Do yourself a favor and avoid that pitfall because it brings a lot of shame when you do get sober! I’ll pray for you! 🙏🏼
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Praying for your salvation Savannah. If you ever read this just know you have a beautiful soul inside and out and you can get better and be the best version of yourself. You’re so smart. You can do it. You’ve picked yourself up multiple times. You can do it again and stick with it and live your best life. Stay safe.
I see a lot of hope in her, as she tells stories of what she admired, her parents. She knows right from wrong, but drugs are a gateway from TRAUMA
Trauma is the gateway for drugs.
@@timmywitty1432 and it's always been true both ways. When they take drugs they temporarily leave from the trauma.
She is pretty intelligent she has the ability to turn her life in the right path she can do that it might be hard but positivity and guidence god is the answer
I find it humorous that we alcoholics and addicts think we are controlling everything little part of their life but in reality, our life is out of control.
As someone with an alcohol problem I agree. I am at the point where I realize this and yet I keep drinking. Knowing better but not DOING better is what I'm doing. And I feel defeated.
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You’re not defeated. As corny as it sounds you’re not defeated till you’re dead. I was heavily addicted to opiates for about 12 years. Since the age of 18 after a motorcycle accident. My doctor was giving me enough for literally 8 months for a regular person every 2 weeks. When he retired my new doctor was beyond shocked. He said he’s never in his lifetime seen anyone take so much medication. I should’ve been dead many many times. He helped me get clean and it was the most horrific thing I’ve ever gone through. I didn’t feel right for over 4 months trying to get off everything. I did it on my own while basically laying on my couch. I thought I was never going to make it. Now I’ve been clean for 10 years and have a beautiful wife and 6 year old boy and have never been happier. If I can do all that while feeling as if I have nothing left, you can for sure get some help and quit drinking. I admittedly did it in about the dumbest way a person could but the life that’s on the other side of all this this garbage is so much better and healthier than any of us can imagine while in the middle of it. Sorry for the rant but I felt that I needed to say it.
@@Jay-hp6pu Congratulations. Well done.😀👏👏👏❤️
@@kristineplummer7607 go to AA, start a program. I went to rehab and it changed my life. Keep doing the next right thing. I believe in you! One day at a time.
@@madisonross6377 one day at a time, one choice at a time.
22... Man. She has time to have a great life. I really hope she finds that.
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Me too
She has so much potential and out of anyone you have interviewed I think this young woman will find her way out of the darkness. You got this Savannah!
Bless her heart. I just celebrated 10 years of sobriety from opiates, addiction and mental health usually go hand and hand. Lots of people think that choosing drugs as a vice is ultimately a choice but I guarantee you that if there was ever a choice between having a supportive, healthy life with an outlet to vent that most addicts would choose that over using drugs. I'm rooting for you sweet girl 🤎
I’m proud of you. I wish you the best of everything in life
@@flowerchild7820 bless your heart and life with positivity and light, my friend !
Bless You, You are Amazing & Strong......One day at a time Sweetheart!!! 👍👏💞✌🏼
@@carolbruster3777 thank you so much Carol, sending light & positivity your way sister !
Man. She’s so smart, healthy looking and beautiful. She did what she had to do. I would never judge her. She’s a total survivor.
Full credit my dear and I hope you come through. I’d be happy to have a person like you in my life and I don’t mean just romantically. You’re awesome. Never forget it
She is so articulate and beautiful!
I hope she can turn around her life.
Disclaimer: I'm a middle aged autistic man and I gave up on being socially "normal" a long time ago. I tell the truth in a way that makes people cringe sometimes.
Initially I scrolled past your video because my first thought was "she's gorgeous." I didn't want that clouding how I perceived your story. Anyway, just a few videos later, your follow up appeared. I scrolled all the way back up to listen to your story. I'm glad I did.