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I don't have the money to be apart of this. Yet why I go at things alone. I live and do within my means as a poor man. Yet I may be poor but I'm still the richest happiest man I know in my position
I absolutely love the way you can communicate and connect with your audience. This was beautiful and so true. I have a lot of negative experiences in my past, a lot of bad decisions made. I feel I’m ready to own up and admit them so I can transmute and transcend them.
3:26 "Where is the answer, where's the technique?" You say there are no techniques in life and no answers to questions, but sometimes I wonder if there might be. Thank you for showing me your certitude about how there are no answers and no techniques. My humility affords me yog(a) which some say is a technology. I have an eye on my divinely royal avatara. It is only natural considering my divine American culture (ref. to Declaration of Independence and its inclusion of the word "divine.")
@@AstralApple what are you trying to learn my friend. I know thousands of ways to build or destroy self be specific my friend. Depending on what you're wanting to learn I'll give you a simplified way to achieve it. So be wise on what you want to incorporate into self.
Without your demons you cannot grow they are the teacher. You don’t learn from comfort or sitting in Love feelings constantly. That is why we come down here! Thank You and Bless You from all of me.
Big facts, just because I have defined myself as spiritual does not mean I have conquered all my demons let's not get it twisted. Even if I mastered them doesn't change the fact they still exist
The biggest false awakening traps are: Higher self, Ascension road, ascended Masters realm, Kundalini, Chakras. All of them total Trap into 8th sphere of Lower Astral Underworld. By that surrending the Energies to the Matrix and demiurge. 💙✊🏽💎
I sure wish washing out the darkness didnt take this long... ten years and still at it. Five years isolated to a degree, a long season, still going, growing and suffering and going.... awakening is just the beginning
Integrate a daily practice~ Train your 'internal locus of control' to stay focused on the main goal. 🙌🙏💛 Your locus of control refers to the amount of control you believe you have over your life.
@@tinathegreat88 becoming aware of Awareness, aligning with that which you are intrinsically, and honoring that which you are not. ~or~ 'Awakening' as some prefer, but remember, this is not a single event but an everlasting recovery and discovery.
That’s not true. I have overcome some very dark stuff. Raped at 15, give a saline abortion at 7 months. Horrendous ! Sister murdered. Mom abandoned me, at 7. I have moved the mountain! I am so free I’m lost. Let it go!
@@TheColdHarshTruth I have overcome, the darkness. I was abandoned as a child. I changed core beliefs. I moved the mountain. It’s not a shadow any longer. It does not have to be a life sentence. It’s called change.
The biggest false awakening traps are: Higher self, Ascension road, ascended Masters realm, Kundalini, Chakras. All of them total Trap into 8th sphere of Lower Astral Underworld. By that surrending the Energies to the Matrix and demiurge. 💙✊🏽💎
The thing is that so many are mentally immature that if some of us did share our darkness with the collective, many would go with the programming of “you’re mentally ill or you’re sick” & personally I don’t have the energy to even explain to them the universal & cosmic nature of how healing works. You can’t heal something you don’t go through or don’t feel. Some of us literally incarnated just to heal many traumatic wounds that humanity has been going through time after time. But yes other than that, I’m very comfortable with sharing my darkness/shadow with other “like minded” beings. Being 100% real & authentic in a programmed society is draining a lot of the times within itself.
Share it here if you like… maybe i can learn something from it or maybe you will feel better maybe we both grow or maybe more people will learn from it we don’t know So why not share it…😊
Yes!! I’m constantly being criticized by family and friends for self isolation as if I’m doing it as a form of self harm or intentionally and maliciously ignoring them to hurt them or something which couldn’t be farther from the truth. Truth is, I was addicted to opiates for almost a decade back in 2020, went through extreme back to back trauma after my best friend and her boyfriend were murdered on my street, and my little brother died in a traumatic accident 5 months later. I needed that isolation time to do a lot of shadow work and soul searching, and the level of progress I’ve done alone compared to the 5 or 6 different therapists I’ve tried is astounding. I now feel an immense gratitude for the darkness, as it’s made me someone I finally can look in the mirror and say I truly love and respect and know my worth for the first time in 32 years. Cheers friends 💖 life is beautiful when you face the darkness head on
I Own my Darkness, I know it well, I know what Evil I have within me and I keep it if I need it, but I prefer the Beauty Path!! Being Honest with ourselves is Freedom 💯!!
I’ve come to accept that there’s nothing I can do to stop my darkness, it’s just a part of being human , and accepting that I may never fully be 100% sober in this life, I’ve never had the courage to say this even in 12 step rooms,so here goes: I’ve no control over my addictive behaviors driven by fear,anger, anxiety,etc… but you know what? It’s ok , I’m judging myself less and realizing like this gentleman said so succinctly; I was lying to myself and trying to magic away the darkness.But now I realize we all have the same darkness and so I’m not so hard on myself for not being perfect or spiritually or pure. And most of all I’m not alone ! No one is , it’s just part of the show and we’re all in this together folks! Much love to all y’all! Here’s to keeping it real with ourselves and with others!
I feel that way, now I know I can't change how I feel although I can control what I think being aware, but it doesn't change nothing about me, and I was leading to think that if could stop something, then that means I was changing, and it's not that simple. It's really stressful trying to control how you react or judge something. Some people like to lie to themselves.
Depressed adolescent> saught praise, acknowledgement, validation from family&friends> smoking weed and drinking with friends to socialize (14-19yrs old)> graduated school and then blow after blow graduated high school with votech degree in tool & die/precision machining, first job was a BIG competing local company and was excited 😆.... 3 mo later laid off with no intent of callback 😭 (2008 recession starts)> 3 relationships that straight up TORE & DECIMATED my heart... Then I got free. 24 yrs old and then get my first true addiction.... K2... Move forward about 3 yrs FINALLY KICKED IT. That was because of
Hey brother. It's not about your addictions. It's about loving yourself. And it takes so much log experience to get to a point where you truly actually feel such a strong sense of self to where you legitimately can tap into the power of loving yourself and feeling okay with that, and then feeling okay with feeling bad. Because you'll never be okay 100% of the time. Ever. Life is all a series of being broken down, put back together, broken down again, put back together again, endlessly... It never stops. For me, I learned that we are all on a frequency.. And when I used substances it lowered me. It's like a cork floating in the ocean. And the substance I was using kept me submerged. It lowered my ability to tune into better things. The substance itself is what is making you feel like you need it. I also got to a point in life where I simply stopped caring about what I thought was important, and it took the pressure off of me, and I decided I wanted to not need anything at all, and I wanted to be okay with my life no matter how shitty or amazing it is. All these thoughts and experiences have led me to realize that I just can't connect with anything or anyone good if im using. It just lowers the abiltiy for me to connect to the things beyond this dark world. So all that justade me use less. Sometimes I still turn back to it, but I can tell I'm changing. Be kind and nurturing to yourself. You are your first child and you're also your own parent. Relate to yourself in the kindest of ways brother.
@@smokingcrab2290........thank you for sharing and also rossbrockway too. I can totally relate to both of you and what great advice brother! Learn to love ourselves more and resist those urges to wallow in "not being good enough", especially after we screw up! I've had some amazing days after the fact and that was choosing to let go and love, knowing I was also loved. You guys are amazing human beings! Much love.
I watched so many spiritual gurus, did so much meditation, listened to healing frequencies, all to get rid of that crummy feeling after ejaculations. Nofap isn't hard for me because of the urges. It's hard because it's gotten me super irritable. I start thinking how far behind I am in comparison to friends who have more success than me. I think of how selfish I was. Talking to multiple girls at the same time, etc. And then sweeping it all under the rug, like I've never performed a bad deed in my life. The stuff I spent spiritually bypassing for the better part of a decade. You're like the only person on RUclips who tells us it's okay to feel this way. It's a part of the process. The journey is meant to be hard. I only wish I knew this years ago instead of being sugarcoated with only the benefits. Thanks, Yash 🙏
Try Mantak Chia books. He gives actual physical techniques to help conserve that energy. I can vouch they work as I had a male friend who had very good success with this. The micro-cosmic orbit exercise is a good place to start, but his book “Cultivating Male S**uality” is the one he used, and it has more specific techniques. That.. in addition to what this wise man is saying in this vid, you will have results:)
Man at 1st I thought you were Woody Harrelson with a wig no shit or offense intended... but yeah you're spot on my man...we have to surrender to God & know we are sinners but shedding the primal via awareness is the path to divine enlightenment & yeah I've hit bottom & there is no other greater teacher. No one gets out of purgatory without some purging. Glad the algorithm brought me to your channel brother
The whole point, I believe, is to go within yourself and find the answers and do the work there. The spiritual community should be just for support and to let you know you're not alone, but we must each carry our own cross.
I got in a motor cycle accident 19 years ago and the subsequent head trauma resulted in occasional seizures. this as you can imagine can get very inconvenient. I recently have begun to own this darker side of my health. I think my ego was trying to hide the fact that I wasn't perfect. I've taken serious control over my life experience, things have turned around for me as soon as I did. I love you guys, hang in there, tough it out, its happening for you not to you. we will grow through what we go through. seek the help of those around you. they want to help you!
from an early age taught by parents we grow up being lied to and finding out about it then lying to our family and friends and co workers and partners and even to ourselves so it's no surprise the world runs on bullsh!t and plenty of BS artists make fortunes out of words only no actions...it's partly because life is a type of dream so anything goes in this world of make-believe...if you can conceive it you can actually bring it about..you can turns lies accepted truth or truth into accepted lies...it's all happening
It’s funny how what you discussed is exactly what I’ve been experiencing. From wanting to leave this reality to immense gratitude for life. It’s all apart of the process
I came here through your other channel beyond alchemy. I have no doubt that you are a medium god is communicating to me through. You are the only voice that i resonate with the most. Thank you forever for doing what you are doing
“Where is everyone” it’s funny because I say the same. We’re all at home doing shadow work and staying away from narcissists and fear people wondering around with masks on bumping into things. Unfortunately I think we’re also now stuck in a digital concentration camp.
The necessity of darkness can also be explained with the analogy of photography and film. With too much light saturation, and not enough contrast, pictures and video simply cannot exist. And life is like third dimensional video. I just learned this analogy recently while struggling to justify darkness itself. Also the further the oscillation between two opposites, the more experience and growth. Duality is simply an accelerated evolutionary system. Thank you for your service.
integrating darkness/negativity and finding freedom from it makes us realize that freedom from positive is also needed ❤ … that’s why a lot of “spiritual” people, including us for a while, and communities are holding on to just concepts of positivity and are not alive and fresh, not flowing, not enjoyable. In the dark the light makes sense and only in the dark the light is powerful
As a 25 year old who is trying hard to climb out of the hole I fell down into I needed this video. Thank you sir. I really have been struggling with understanding my own darkness and why it was, And I was trying to ignore it and like you were saying. I was engaged in low frequency behavior. God help me, I can't find work right now because of my previous attitude no matter how hard I tried to work I rubbed people the wrong way.
Without you there is no light nor darkness without you both don’t exist When you are in deep sleep where is light where is dark where is the universe the world where are you in deep dreamless sleep? Think about it it maybe will make you realise something big
I am going to record my next song here within the next month: Light & Dark “We all have a light side and a dark side, and each side has its uses in this life, essentially. A positive, and a negative, a north and south pole, and what appears to be opposing energies Reality is made as a result of this, energy dancing within this isolated system Uncanny how we have the skill and the ability to gather plasma, and like miasma, it’s impossible to list them These lyrics are impossible to miss like seeing morning mist, it isn’t possible to miss them You get the gist then, let it bring you bliss then, do the inner work and let the result just whisk in If opposites attract, that is the light and dark of any two forces when they collide isn’t that a kiss then? I am a soldier not a victim, certainly I can assist in the journey but then you’ll have to use your wisdom” You have motivated me to place this one out soon as I finish this first one.
Thanks Yash! 🙏☀️ I had a dream that revealed my deepest pain. I lost my father at the age of 14 and never got to say goodbye. Now I can begin to heal. ❤
Wow! This really hit it on the nose, I’ve realized the more I avoid the desire to sin and instead choose to meditate and pray, the more self-aware I become . Thus making me realize that there is a darkness in us as humans, but when we search for the truth and path to enlightenment we can rise above everything else.
I was brought up Catholic and never realised how deeply rooted it was. Even after 15 years of my awakening journey, I still get thoughts that this spiritual path is evil or corrupting, especially recently as Catholicism really tries to latch on. It can really mess with me. It’s tough sometimes; I must be clearing a lot of ancestral karma/trauma. Great video 😀🩷
Sister, the bible and this teaching go hand in hand. I'm a christian, non denominational, and like his speaches, even tho he uses new age terms. I come from a pretty catholic country but grew up secular protestant, I hated christianity a few years ago, I tried to find any other religion/spiritual teaching, I isolated myself learned about who I was and thought about anything and everything with a rational mind. I went through,(germanic/celtic) paganism, hinduism, buddhism, satanism, esoteris belief, alchemic/hermetic belief, new age, psychedelics, and a few other things. I know about them and I researched them deeply. Hermeticism is without a doubt the most logical and rational teaching out of them all(i would advise you to read the Kybalion, on YT The Master Key Society). Hermetic believe is ancient and so important to everything around us. But, the works of many hermetic teachings pointed to something in particular. The pure and holy. The alchemic gold, that we have to strive for. That we have to purify into. This gold is Jesus Christ, the man that didn't do sin but became sin to save his sheep from the fires of the depths. He literally is the son of god, the pure, the holy. Because of works like 'Out from the Heart by James Allen' I started to read the bible myself since I never understood, or even card to understand the gospel back at church. But let me tell you, he is the truth the way and the life. Everything needs sacrefice and he did it for us. He washes us clean, with his blood. Please believe me, the catholich church especially the vatican is satanic, they don't worship jesus but the sun god, sol invictus/mithras/nimrod. The prioritze however the worship to the mothergodess, ave maria that is a counterfit for ishtar/ashteroth. Where I live, in the old citys, everywhere only idols of mary, every second holy place or place in generall is named after mary nothing to do with the messiah. Look it up, the symbol of ishtar is the 8 pointed star and lying crescent moon. So many ancient staues of mary show her standing on a crescent moon and wearing 8 pointed stars on her robe it is insane actually. I could go on and on about the depths of the cat-holic church but I have to draw a line at some point. Please don't depart from the good sheperd. The Lord gave his only begotten son, so that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life. You have to love him with your heart and confess with your mouth that he is lord, this is what gets you into heaven, not any deeds. You go into heaven because of gods work, not your own, he gives you mercy as a free gift if you trust in him. If you want to go into heaven through your own works you will be judged by your own works. But the thing you were told as a kid is false, you don't need to confess your sins to a priest, you don't baptize babys, you shouldn't pray with many words(loud like in a church), but pray alone at a quite place to your only father. The pope isn't your father, the lord clearly said call no one father besides me, the pope claimes to be the literal vicar of christ. Don't pray to saints, only pray to jesus, he is the way, not mary, john, peter,... But you have to be born again through a baptization, not by water but by the fire of the holy spirit, this happen when you let him inside your heart so he purifys you like the water the ink. The water batism is useless if you don't already got baptized by the holy spirit. I just can advise you to read the new testament, and have trust in jesus, it isn't about a religion but a relationship with the one true god. We have a periode of massive darkness ahead of us, maybe he will come back, I believe we are in the endtimes and there are many prophecys that happend and happen rn. Either way, have a blessed day🕊️ Sorry for the long response :)
wow. real talk about spiritual communities + people. real talk brotha. Words of Wisdom. And Peace, Sending Peace and Love from a shattered soul who still strides in both light and darkness. Asé
I dont think it was an accident that this video showed up for me today. I feel like Ive been stuck in sn endless loop for my entire life and I cant get out of it. I would so appreciate any suggestions from this community. My darkest moments are triggered when I try to connect with other humans and feel rejected or invisible. I feel a great connection and oneness with the universe when alone in a natural setting This time brings me my greatest joy and peace. Yet I feel that it must be part of my life's work to be able to conect with people and overcome feelings of "not belonging" with most people. So I push myself to try to connect with people, but it always leads to this downward spiral. I am 59 years old and still cant seem to find my way through the anger and darkness triggered by trying to connect. I cant tell if I am meant to work through this, or if I am just meant to be a joyful hermit.....
Yessss, downloads! That's exactly what it feels like. It's amazing how it happens. When u get them u really really know. Thank u for posting this, I needed to hear this.💞🙂🐾🐾
There is no one around me that i can share about anything im going through. This makes me go more within and actually accelerates my growth Even those high lvl ppl if i find they’ll just be in the way so theres really no reason to tell anyone anything. Ur vids are enough for me
Yes!! I’m constantly being criticized by family and friends for self isolation as if I’m doing it as a form of self harm or intentionally and maliciously ignoring them to hurt them or something which couldn’t be farther from the truth. Truth is, I was addicted to opiates for almost a decade back in 2020, went through extreme back to back trauma after my best friend and her boyfriend were murdered on my street, and my little brother died in a traumatic accident 5 months later. I needed that isolation time to do a lot of shadow work and soul searching, and the level of progress I’ve done alone compared to the 5 or 6 different therapists I’ve tried is astounding. I now feel an immense gratitude for the darkness, as it’s made me someone I finally can look in the mirror and say I truly love and respect and know my worth for the first time in 32 years. Cheers friends 💖 life is beautiful when you face the darkness head on
Hello, I rarely share anything on YT but I suddenly felt like doing it (and I even paused rolling a joint for this). So, what I feel like telling you (if you may read this, Josh, idk) is that your words sparked a memory of mine I had experienced 2-3 days ago on my vacation in the Prague, in the Czech Republic. I was overlooking the city at night. People all around me were dancing to live music, drinking, enjoying life and having fun. But I felt lonely, among all of this. Hell, I even wrote a poem for myself about it, yesterday. And I keep believing, that it is solace that I am experiencing, that I do not belong in this or that place, group etc. I think, it has to do with the people around me, but then these feelings are within myself and I can not run from them. Even when I am alone, the loneliness I still there and I can not seem to transcend it, yet ... Anyway, thanks for reading. Really love your channel
I have great spiritual awareness of who I am and yet I deal with daily food addiction. Its crazy how I am creating deep health problems and still I can't overcome it. I feel so aware during the day and at night I can't control this impulse to go and eat. I know I am running from deep anxiety inside myself but I am afraid it will kill me before I can overcome it.
Pray. This will pass. You’ll look back on it. No matter what, you’ll look back on it. Where you are when you’re looking back depends on you. You may look back from a place deeper in the shit from your choices. Or you can look back and see that you avoided the shit you were driving yourself into. God is with you even when you don’t think he is. Love You. And my prayers go out for you.
I’ve never actually struggled with being overweight, I’ve always been skinny. But I did struggle with overeating. I would stuff my face and belly. Once I stuffed myself soooo much that it felt like the food was all the way filled up to the bottom of my esophagus. Now i don’t even think about it. It’s not an issue. Shit, I got other issues now😅. Way worse. But anyway, that’s me. PRAYING 4u!
Firstly, I am an alcoholic and addict. Secondly, I’ve lost 120lbs. I’d recommend rehab (it’s what saved me) BUT what you’re up against is so difficult. How do you recover from something you need everyday to survive. When I was in rehab a lot of the women also had eating disorders. Not a single counselor was able to help with that side of addiction, they weren’t even allowed to; that’s how sensitive that specific addiction is. I’d start focusing on what you can do to burn the excess calories instead of suppressing the cravings. One of the things I would do is put food/sugary drinks in the basement. That way I’d at least be burning calories going to get them. Take multiple trips when bringing in groceries, park as far away from the store as possible, eat standing up. Get creative, and ask god for help!
I run away from my darkness into the gym. Am aware what am doing. So I suppose it’s a good thing that I understand what am doing. Then I come back and sit in silence and feel inside what’s going on. Am getting there slowly and enjoying the process.😊
Stumbled on your channel yesterday and I got to say your content is some real prime stuff, brother! Used to be very into spirituality but moved away from it after a few bad trips doing acid. Suffice to say I was addicted to the experience, but now God has set a new path for me going back to the basics it seems! This time without all the LSD and bad characters haha! Thanks for the wise words man earned my sub 👍
When I'm in high frequency I don't know what to do. I feel lost. I have a strong impulse to call out bs and it feels like I can lose any sense of security, friendship, job, place to live, food, income, at any moment if I'm true to myself
Observe your given environment without judgement or attachment of any kind.. You can be in the physical realm without it becoming of You, hold your Me closely hand in hand and walk yourself straight to serenity. 🤍🌊
When that happens to me, I like to see things in a comedic or humorous way. Like, yeah it's all bs but it's pretty funny, not something that I need to fix or change, just laugh at it
Seu video veio até mim quando eu estava refletindo sobre a frase: "Quando você não sentir mais medo do escuro, as trevas já não poderá mais existir". Agora já sei o que fazer: desapegar e abrir mão de todos os pensamentos de riquezas e medos. Obrigado!
Thank you so much for making this video, this was divine timing and you truly channeled for us. I'm intensely spiritual and live in a very hippie town and have always felt my body and mind repelling away from some of the spiritualists here, and you described the reason exactly: they shun and repress their darkness (and therefore their humanity) in favor of glamourizing their introspection and decorating their minds. It never felt authentic to me. I joined the AA program about 5 months ago and feel more seen, more connected, more in tune with my fellow alcoholics than I ever have with most spiritual people. I'm also on my fourth step right now (taking my moral inventory and embracing the dark and hurtful parts of me) so it was just really friggin cool to hear you talk about everything that's been on my mind lately. Thank you again, your words and thoughts are so valued.
When you believe it you can achieve it for awhile ~ When you cherish it you can nourish it continuously ~ When you know it you can grow it forever ~ 🤍♾️💟 🌬️🌊Flow~wolF🐺
Yep. L👀king at my foolish/stupid/ignorant shadow self, though painful, times, the IS still protected me. Even in the times when I attempted to explain or stop going long to get long, I found the gifted energy to go forward with truth/grace. period. period. JOY TO THE WORLD🎶🌸
You were born at the perfect time bc you are here to BE those people who you admired and looked up to ! ITS YOUR DESTINY ! 🎉 keep going bc we are going into times where people will need your energy and work! ❤
Man I swear you always release these at the right times with whatever my thoughts are going to I've been really owning my nasty little manipulating games I play with people and released how scared I am of the truth
Sri Anandamayi Ma 1896-1982 Thanks for mentioning this divine being who walked our earth in human form. I listen to one of her meditations almost daily as part of my conscious contact session. Beautiful. Much gratitude, Yash
S.communitues .....are ruddeled with Spiritual bypasser's. I avoid them. Daily life will teach you everything if your present to yourself. I am aware of what l am capable of. She makes me laugh...a real pioneer women, tough. I rein her in and let her met my better choices. It was myself l feared the most. I let me down consistently with addictions. Root...l was sad. Repressed grief that needed my care. Knowing me, l like me more ...than most people honestly.
Listening to you explain the twelve-step and how it affected you in your journey, I see how and why I avoided it. It is so practical to use in many if not all aspects of life. Good stuff. Gracias Hermano!
Yash, the alignment! I let some stuff come up last night. The other day I made a game plan of how to not avoid & distract myself (breathe, watch my thoughts, answer my mind, stretch, yoga, workout, walk in nature barefoot, vipassana, affirmations, etc). I know I'm going through the ego death & transformation. Learning to feel isolated parts of my body. Any yearning, desire or attachment that comes up, I'm figuring out how to fulfill that need within, filling up from God's powers daily, protecting my energy, alerts to remind myself throughout the day to breathe & stay present in the moment. Thank you!
You never conquer your demons. You don't finally "arrive" to all good. You learn to live with WHAT IS, and the tendency to resist What is will continue. because that is What is.
Sometimes I feel like demons can see the darkness in my heart, and it be too dark for even them. But at the same time I can love like no other. I can pick up and relocate insects instead of killing them, and at the same time wish death upon certain rotten humans. It really messes with me sometimes.
Enjoyed the talk man, thankyou. It really puts things in perspective, and makes me understand why, at 62, I'm not interested in being ''successful'' anymore (not that I really ever was!) , cos life is short, and it's this stuff your talking about that needs focusing on, and dealing with. Cheers bro, will be taking in some more of your vids for sure.
Please write a book if you haven’t already. This is the first video I’m seeing of yours and I absolutely admire your transparency. You are a chosen one. I am too and I feel I have finally found someone who relates to what I’ve been feeling. Thank you for this beautiful message.
i’ve always said that I didn’t like 12 step because I didn’t want to admit that I was powerless. Now I’m rethinking it, but I still don’t like the word powerless. I have become conscious of my bad behaviors. I see myself doing wrong things in real time. I have been beating myself up over addiction. it took a long time for me to screw everything up real good and I imagine it will take a long time to undo it. I like your video.🖖
I just love you Yash. I am 25 and I was a intravenous meth addict at 16. It was easy to quit cause I did other things like alcohol and weed. I use to really hate myself and self harm and really struggle and ended up in hospitals and jails. I look back and think damn, I get it. Can’t imagine what life would be like for me at 40 with the wisdom I have and don’t have 😉
I’m really grateful to have come across this video. I’ve been dealing with the darkness and really felt shame behind it. However, listening to let me know that it’s okay. It’s just one step on a journey towards self-actualization. Thank you!
Tough for me to go into those "spiritual circles" after my own diving deep in numerous plant medicine ceremonies, I've learned discernment. I started to think everyone was the same. I can see right thru the bullshit. I love being alone unless it's one on one with someone. I love very much being in nature. Humans start sounding all the same to me. They have to be so special almost quiet for me to be engaged lol
Equanimity & staying in the present with a bit of gratitude & good intention really helps too. Owning your darkness is a long sacral clearing body and mind purification, getting out of the pattern of craving & desire.
I may try the 12 steps again but I found the meetings in my town weird, I've followed several teachers and tried many things but I'm really struggling, so I may try meetings again.
I am still out here in the woods trying for a rebirthing, it is very difficult but am succeeding, there is a lot of knowing the body, reactions, a lot of medical jargon. I have lost about 10 pounds so far but am going all the way. I have found that there are some evils that you can get rid of but others that you just have to live with until it is time to expel them, I am fine with that because while I can hear them I am on such a high vibration that is all they can do. Know when to give up the bad and just accept that you will have bad the whole ride out, it is only the power that you have to worry about keeping.
If the people you mention have gone then there is someone already here- they cannot be on the stage but rest assured he is here- keep raising the frequency and awareness 😊
My religious karma is so deep to judge things in my dark as an abomination in fear that Id be condemned n sent to a physical hell… deep programming and conditioning…. That judgement program has caused so much separation within my life…
Repair Your world not 'theirs' ~ Hold yourself accountable without beating yourself up ⚖️ R ightfully E ffectively P reparing A ttention I ntention R etention 🙌🙏💛
As a member of a few different 12 step fellowships, for over a decade I thank you for your content. I was taking the reigns again thinking I could rid myself of the character defects. I needed to hear this exact message, it's up to a Higher Power. Thankyou algorithm for giving me this beautiful souls message from om the aether. Thankyou. Bless. 🙏
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I don't have the money to be apart of this. Yet why I go at things alone. I live and do within my means as a poor man. Yet I may be poor but I'm still the richest happiest man I know in my position
I absolutely love the way you can communicate and connect with your audience. This was beautiful and so true. I have a lot of negative experiences in my past, a lot of bad decisions made. I feel I’m ready to own up and admit them so I can transmute and transcend them.
3:26 "Where is the answer, where's the technique?"
You say there are no techniques in life and no answers to questions, but sometimes I wonder if there might be. Thank you for showing me your certitude about how there are no answers and no techniques. My humility affords me yog(a) which some say is a technology. I have an eye on my divinely royal avatara. It is only natural considering my divine American culture (ref. to Declaration of Independence and its inclusion of the word "divine.")
@@AstralApple what are you trying to learn my friend. I know thousands of ways to build or destroy self be specific my friend. Depending on what you're wanting to learn I'll give you a simplified way to achieve it. So be wise on what you want to incorporate into self.
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Without your demons you cannot grow they are the teacher. You don’t learn from comfort or sitting in Love feelings constantly. That is why we come down here! Thank You and Bless You from all of me.
Big facts, just because I have defined myself as spiritual does not mean I have conquered all my demons let's not get it twisted. Even if I mastered them doesn't change the fact they still exist
Yes this whole reality is shadow work
@@TheVoiceInYourHeaddtruth!
Yes
The biggest false awakening traps are: Higher self, Ascension road, ascended Masters realm, Kundalini, Chakras. All of them total Trap into 8th sphere of Lower Astral Underworld. By that surrending the Energies to the Matrix and demiurge. 💙✊🏽💎
I sure wish washing out the darkness didnt take this long... ten years and still at it. Five years isolated to a degree, a long season, still going, growing and suffering and going.... awakening is just the beginning
It takes lifetimes
The isolation is really hard ❤
Integrate a daily practice~
Train your 'internal locus of control' to stay focused on the main goal. 🙌🙏💛
Your locus of control refers to the amount of control you believe you have over your life.
@@jjrecon3024 what’s the main goal
@@tinathegreat88 becoming aware of Awareness, aligning with that which you are intrinsically, and honoring that which you are not.
~or~
'Awakening' as some prefer, but remember, this is not a single event but an everlasting recovery and discovery.
You can never get rid of your darkness. You just learn to accept it, make peace with it, and control it.
That’s not true. I have overcome some very dark stuff. Raped at 15, give a saline abortion at 7 months. Horrendous !
Sister murdered. Mom abandoned me, at 7. I have moved the mountain!
I am so free I’m lost. Let it go!
That’s not true
@@Thatsbannanas-d8c - I believe it is.
I agree, I suppose darkness could also be called sinfulness and we are all sinners to some degree.
@@TheColdHarshTruth I have overcome, the darkness. I was abandoned as a child. I changed core beliefs. I moved the mountain. It’s not a shadow any longer. It does not have to be a life sentence. It’s called change.
The lack of accountability & vulnerability makes it hard to connect with others in the spiritual community
Know of any accountability communities?
@@SlingingHashSlasher Not a community, but Mark Bajerski...
....very true! Connection in love, humility & transparency is KEY!
When i find one, you'll be the first to know @SlingingHashSlasher 🙃
The biggest false awakening traps are: Higher self, Ascension road, ascended Masters realm, Kundalini, Chakras. All of them total Trap into 8th sphere of Lower Astral Underworld. By that surrending the Energies to the Matrix and demiurge. 💙✊🏽💎
The thing is that so many are mentally immature that if some of us did share our darkness with the collective, many would go with the programming of “you’re mentally ill or you’re sick” & personally I don’t have the energy to even explain to them the universal & cosmic nature of how healing works. You can’t heal something you don’t go through or don’t feel. Some of us literally incarnated just to heal many traumatic wounds that humanity has been going through time after time. But yes other than that, I’m very comfortable with sharing my darkness/shadow with other “like minded” beings. Being 100% real & authentic in a programmed society is draining a lot of the times within itself.
Share it here if you like… maybe i can learn something from it or maybe you will feel better maybe we both grow or maybe more people will learn from it we don’t know
So why not share it…😊
Yes I agree. Also wanted to acknowledge your coo s/n 😉🙂
Agreed. I find it so liberating when I come across people who are open to talking about their shadows too. Our inner children feel seen and heard.
@@Cookiedesigns254 sometimes a monster within me tries to take me over
Its incredible hard not to be taken over
Yes!! I’m constantly being criticized by family and friends for self isolation as if I’m doing it as a form of self harm or intentionally and maliciously ignoring them to hurt them or something which couldn’t be farther from the truth. Truth is, I was addicted to opiates for almost a decade back in 2020, went through extreme back to back trauma after my best friend and her boyfriend were murdered on my street, and my little brother died in a traumatic accident 5 months later. I needed that isolation time to do a lot of shadow work and soul searching, and the level of progress I’ve done alone compared to the 5 or 6 different therapists I’ve tried is astounding. I now feel an immense gratitude for the darkness, as it’s made me someone I finally can look in the mirror and say I truly love and respect and know my worth for the first time in 32 years. Cheers friends 💖 life is beautiful when you face the darkness head on
im so sorry for what you went through. really im proud of you for staying strong
sending peace, love and blessings.
You wernt born too late you were born on time to carry on the torch
I Own my Darkness, I know it well, I know what Evil I have within me and I keep it if I need it, but I prefer the Beauty Path!!
Being Honest with ourselves is Freedom 💯!!
Lightwork aint lightweight!
I think you're really cool, anyone hanging out here is cool in my book!
Cheers
I’ve come to accept that there’s nothing I can do to stop my darkness, it’s just a part of being human , and accepting that I may never fully be 100% sober in this life, I’ve never had the courage to say this even in 12 step rooms,so here goes: I’ve no control over my addictive behaviors driven by fear,anger, anxiety,etc… but you know what? It’s ok , I’m judging myself less and realizing like this gentleman said so succinctly; I was lying to myself and trying to magic away the darkness.But now I realize we all have the same darkness and so I’m not so hard on myself for not being perfect or spiritually or pure. And most of all I’m not alone ! No one is , it’s just part of the show and we’re all in this together folks! Much love to all y’all! Here’s to keeping it real with ourselves and with others!
I feel that way, now I know I can't change how I feel although I can control what I think being aware, but it doesn't change nothing about me, and I was leading to think that if could stop something, then that means I was changing, and it's not that simple. It's really stressful trying to control how you react or judge something. Some people like to lie to themselves.
Depressed adolescent> saught praise, acknowledgement, validation from family&friends> smoking weed and drinking with friends to socialize (14-19yrs old)> graduated school and then blow after blow graduated high school with votech degree in tool & die/precision machining, first job was a BIG competing local company and was excited 😆....
3 mo later laid off with no intent of callback 😭 (2008 recession starts)> 3 relationships that straight up TORE & DECIMATED my heart... Then I got free. 24 yrs old and then get my first true addiction.... K2... Move forward about 3 yrs FINALLY KICKED IT. That was because of
Hey brother. It's not about your addictions. It's about loving yourself. And it takes so much log experience to get to a point where you truly actually feel such a strong sense of self to where you legitimately can tap into the power of loving yourself and feeling okay with that, and then feeling okay with feeling bad. Because you'll never be okay 100% of the time. Ever.
Life is all a series of being broken down, put back together, broken down again, put back together again, endlessly... It never stops.
For me, I learned that we are all on a frequency.. And when I used substances it lowered me. It's like a cork floating in the ocean. And the substance I was using kept me submerged. It lowered my ability to tune into better things. The substance itself is what is making you feel like you need it.
I also got to a point in life where I simply stopped caring about what I thought was important, and it took the pressure off of me, and I decided I wanted to not need anything at all, and I wanted to be okay with my life no matter how shitty or amazing it is.
All these thoughts and experiences have led me to realize that I just can't connect with anything or anyone good if im using. It just lowers the abiltiy for me to connect to the things beyond this dark world. So all that justade me use less. Sometimes I still turn back to it, but I can tell I'm changing.
Be kind and nurturing to yourself. You are your first child and you're also your own parent. Relate to yourself in the kindest of ways brother.
@@smokingcrab2290........thank you for sharing and also rossbrockway too.
I can totally relate to both of you and what great advice brother! Learn to love ourselves more and resist those urges to wallow in "not being good enough", especially after we screw up! I've had some amazing days after the fact and that was choosing to let go and love, knowing I was also loved.
You guys are amazing human beings! Much love.
I watched so many spiritual gurus, did so much meditation, listened to healing frequencies, all to get rid of that crummy feeling after ejaculations. Nofap isn't hard for me because of the urges. It's hard because it's gotten me super irritable. I start thinking how far behind I am in comparison to friends who have more success than me. I think of how selfish I was. Talking to multiple girls at the same time, etc. And then sweeping it all under the rug, like I've never performed a bad deed in my life. The stuff I spent spiritually bypassing for the better part of a decade. You're like the only person on RUclips who tells us it's okay to feel this way. It's a part of the process. The journey is meant to be hard. I only wish I knew this years ago instead of being sugarcoated with only the benefits. Thanks, Yash 🙏
Good. The video did it’s job!
Try Mantak Chia books. He gives actual physical techniques to help conserve that energy. I can vouch they work as I had a male friend who had very good success with this. The micro-cosmic orbit exercise is a good place to start, but his book “Cultivating Male S**uality” is the one he used, and it has more specific techniques.
That.. in addition to what this wise man is saying in this vid, you will have results:)
Talking to Girls is not to bad 😊
Man at 1st I thought you were Woody Harrelson with a wig no shit or offense intended...
but yeah you're spot on my man...we have to surrender to God & know we are sinners but shedding the primal via awareness is the path to divine enlightenment & yeah I've hit bottom & there is no other greater teacher. No one gets out of purgatory without some purging. Glad the algorithm brought me to your channel brother
The whole point, I believe, is to go within yourself and find the answers and do the work there. The spiritual community should be just for support and to let you know you're not alone, but we must each carry our own cross.
I got in a motor cycle accident 19 years ago and the subsequent head trauma resulted in occasional seizures. this as you can imagine can get very inconvenient. I recently have begun to own this darker side of my health. I think my ego was trying to hide the fact that I wasn't perfect. I've taken serious control over my life experience, things have turned around for me as soon as I did. I love you guys, hang in there, tough it out, its happening for you not to you. we will grow through what we go through. seek the help of those around you. they want to help you!
"....People just walk around lying to each other " ....yea and lying to themselves too.
Thats true and not
from an early age taught by parents we grow up being lied to and finding out about it then lying to our family and friends and co workers and partners and even to ourselves so it's no surprise the world runs on bullsh!t and plenty of BS artists make fortunes out of words only no actions...it's partly because life is a type of dream so anything goes in this world of make-believe...if you can conceive it you can actually bring it about..you can turns lies accepted truth or truth into accepted lies...it's all happening
Amen. Especially the lying to themselves is the dangerous thing.
Your aura matches your eyes man, its beautiful.
It's 100% about shadow work for sure. The universe mirrors this, too. Powerful and very time sensitive message for many of us:) Much love, bro.
Life is coming from you not at you.
He doesn’t reply anymore does he?
It’s funny how what you discussed is exactly what I’ve been experiencing. From wanting to leave this reality to immense gratitude for life. It’s all apart of the process
Same bro. That paradox is wild
I came here through your other channel beyond alchemy. I have no doubt that you are a medium god is communicating to me through. You are the only voice that i resonate with the most. Thank you forever for doing what you are doing
“Where is everyone” it’s funny because I say the same. We’re all at home doing shadow work and staying away from narcissists and fear people wondering around with masks on bumping into things. Unfortunately I think we’re also now stuck in a digital concentration camp.
Facts!!!!! I'm like where are the fam in alignment with this 🫣
@@Listen2BAware at home 🙃
Let AI be your guide and therapist.
The necessity of darkness can also be explained with the analogy of photography and film.
With too much light saturation, and not enough contrast, pictures and video simply cannot exist. And life is like third dimensional video.
I just learned this analogy recently while struggling to justify darkness itself.
Also the further the oscillation between two opposites, the more experience and growth. Duality is simply an accelerated evolutionary system.
Thank you for your service.
integrating darkness/negativity and finding freedom from it makes us realize that freedom from positive is also needed ❤ … that’s why a lot of “spiritual” people, including us for a while, and communities are holding on to just concepts of positivity and are not alive and fresh, not flowing, not enjoyable.
In the dark the light makes sense and only in the dark the light is powerful
🙌Gr8ness ~
Contrast is invaluable
You’re all lost thats a compliment
Absolutely love this tree behind you, the beauty of the rhythm of the leaves.
As a 25 year old who is trying hard to climb out of the hole I fell down into I needed this video. Thank you sir. I really have been struggling with understanding my own darkness and why it was, And I was trying to ignore it and like you were saying. I was engaged in low frequency behavior. God help me, I can't find work right now because of my previous attitude no matter how hard I tried to work I rubbed people the wrong way.
It feels so much better to just own the darkness, accept it as perfectly divine too. 💙 Thanks Yash for another great video!
Without you there is no light nor darkness without you both don’t exist
When you are in deep sleep where is light where is dark where is the universe the world where are you in deep dreamless sleep?
Think about it it maybe will make you realise something big
I am going to record my next song here within the next month:
Light & Dark
“We all have a light side and a dark side, and each side has its uses in this life, essentially.
A positive, and a negative, a north and south pole, and what appears to be opposing energies
Reality is made as a result of this, energy dancing within this isolated system
Uncanny how we have the skill and the ability to gather plasma, and like miasma, it’s impossible to list them
These lyrics are impossible to miss like seeing morning mist, it isn’t possible to miss them
You get the gist then, let it bring you bliss then, do the inner work and let the result just whisk in
If opposites attract, that is the light and dark of any two forces when they collide isn’t that a kiss then?
I am a soldier not a victim, certainly I can assist in the journey but then you’ll have to use your wisdom”
You have motivated me to place this one out soon as I finish this first one.
Thanks Yash! 🙏☀️ I had a dream that revealed my deepest pain. I lost my father at the age of 14 and never got to say goodbye. Now I can begin to heal. ❤
Wow! This really hit it on the nose, I’ve realized the more I avoid the desire to sin and instead choose to meditate and pray, the more self-aware I become . Thus making me realize that there is a darkness in us as humans, but when we search for the truth and path to enlightenment we can rise above everything else.
I noticed around age 30 that I projected my own nitpickiness onto others; Now I realize that there's a part of me that's also nitpicky!
nitpicking other peoples' nitpickiness lol
@@imageword5576 Yup!
I was brought up Catholic and never realised how deeply rooted it was. Even after 15 years of my awakening journey, I still get thoughts that this spiritual path is evil or corrupting, especially recently as Catholicism really tries to latch on. It can really mess with me. It’s tough sometimes; I must be clearing a lot of ancestral karma/trauma. Great video 😀🩷
Sister, the bible and this teaching go hand in hand. I'm a christian, non denominational, and like his speaches, even tho he uses new age terms. I come from a pretty catholic country but grew up secular protestant, I hated christianity a few years ago, I tried to find any other religion/spiritual teaching, I isolated myself learned about who I was and thought about anything and everything with a rational mind.
I went through,(germanic/celtic) paganism, hinduism, buddhism, satanism, esoteris belief, alchemic/hermetic belief, new age, psychedelics, and a few other things. I know about them and I researched them deeply. Hermeticism is without a doubt the most logical and rational teaching out of them all(i would advise you to read the Kybalion, on YT The Master Key Society). Hermetic believe is ancient and so important to everything around us. But, the works of many hermetic teachings pointed to something in particular. The pure and holy. The alchemic gold, that we have to strive for. That we have to purify into.
This gold is Jesus Christ, the man that didn't do sin but became sin to save his sheep from the fires of the depths. He literally is the son of god, the pure, the holy.
Because of works like 'Out from the Heart by James Allen' I started to read the bible myself since I never understood, or even card to understand the gospel back at church. But let me tell you, he is the truth the way and the life.
Everything needs sacrefice and he did it for us. He washes us clean, with his blood.
Please believe me, the catholich church especially the vatican is satanic, they don't worship jesus but the sun god, sol invictus/mithras/nimrod. The prioritze however the worship to the mothergodess, ave maria that is a counterfit for ishtar/ashteroth. Where I live, in the old citys, everywhere only idols of mary, every second holy place or place in generall is named after mary nothing to do with the messiah.
Look it up, the symbol of ishtar is the 8 pointed star and lying crescent moon. So many ancient staues of mary show her standing on a crescent moon and wearing 8 pointed stars on her robe it is insane actually. I could go on and on about the depths of the cat-holic church but I have to draw a line at some point.
Please don't depart from the good sheperd. The Lord gave his only begotten son, so that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life. You have to love him with your heart and confess with your mouth that he is lord, this is what gets you into heaven, not any deeds. You go into heaven because of gods work, not your own, he gives you mercy as a free gift if you trust in him. If you want to go into heaven through your own works you will be judged by your own works.
But the thing you were told as a kid is false, you don't need to confess your sins to a priest, you don't baptize babys, you shouldn't pray with many words(loud like in a church), but pray alone at a quite place to your only father. The pope isn't your father, the lord clearly said call no one father besides me, the pope claimes to be the literal vicar of christ. Don't pray to saints, only pray to jesus, he is the way, not mary, john, peter,...
But you have to be born again through a baptization, not by water but by the fire of the holy spirit, this happen when you let him inside your heart so he purifys you like the water the ink. The water batism is useless if you don't already got baptized by the holy spirit.
I just can advise you to read the new testament, and have trust in jesus, it isn't about a religion but a relationship with the one true god. We have a periode of massive darkness ahead of us, maybe he will come back, I believe we are in the endtimes and there are many prophecys that happend and happen rn.
Either way, have a blessed day🕊️
Sorry for the long response :)
wow. real talk about spiritual communities + people. real talk brotha. Words of Wisdom. And Peace, Sending Peace and Love from a shattered soul who still strides in both light and darkness. Asé
I dont think it was an accident that this video showed up for me today. I feel like Ive been stuck in sn endless loop for my entire life and I cant get out of it. I would so appreciate any suggestions from this community. My darkest moments are triggered when I try to connect with other humans and feel rejected or invisible. I feel a great connection and oneness with the universe when alone in a natural setting This time brings me my greatest joy and peace. Yet I feel that it must be part of my life's work to be able to conect with people and overcome feelings of "not belonging" with most people. So I push myself to try to connect with people, but it always leads to this downward spiral. I am 59 years old and still cant seem to find my way through the anger and darkness triggered by trying to connect. I cant tell if I am meant to work through this, or if I am just meant to be a joyful hermit.....
Be the hermit but do it with style
@@Brandon-nr8fn I love your reply
Yessss, downloads! That's exactly what it feels like. It's amazing how it happens. When u get them u really really know. Thank u for posting this, I needed to hear this.💞🙂🐾🐾
There is no one around me that i can share about anything im going through. This makes me go more within and actually accelerates my growth
Even those high lvl ppl if i find they’ll just be in the way so theres really no reason to tell anyone anything. Ur vids are enough for me
Best comment, for me. 👊
Same!
Yup.
Same herev🧘🏾♀️❤️🪷🌞🙏🏿
Yes!! I’m constantly being criticized by family and friends for self isolation as if I’m doing it as a form of self harm or intentionally and maliciously ignoring them to hurt them or something which couldn’t be farther from the truth. Truth is, I was addicted to opiates for almost a decade back in 2020, went through extreme back to back trauma after my best friend and her boyfriend were murdered on my street, and my little brother died in a traumatic accident 5 months later. I needed that isolation time to do a lot of shadow work and soul searching, and the level of progress I’ve done alone compared to the 5 or 6 different therapists I’ve tried is astounding. I now feel an immense gratitude for the darkness, as it’s made me someone I finally can look in the mirror and say I truly love and respect and know my worth for the first time in 32 years. Cheers friends 💖 life is beautiful when you face the darkness head on
Thank you again Sir. I begin to see/feel it more and more. This world is such a comic show for the ego.
Hello, I rarely share anything on YT but I suddenly felt like doing it (and I even paused rolling a joint for this). So, what I feel like telling you (if you may read this, Josh, idk) is that your words sparked a memory of mine I had experienced 2-3 days ago on my vacation in the Prague, in the Czech Republic. I was overlooking the city at night. People all around me were dancing to live music, drinking, enjoying life and having fun. But I felt lonely, among all of this. Hell, I even wrote a poem for myself about it, yesterday. And I keep believing, that it is solace that I am experiencing, that I do not belong in this or that place, group etc. I think, it has to do with the people around me, but then these feelings are within myself and I can not run from them. Even when I am alone, the loneliness I still there and I can not seem to transcend it, yet ... Anyway, thanks for reading. Really love your channel
The illusion of separation. You watch the dancing crowd in Prague but you are looking at yourself
We're here to enjoy life.We are nature creatures.We have the power to do anything.The Divine is in us.
I have great spiritual awareness of who I am and yet I deal with daily food addiction. Its crazy how I am creating deep health problems and still I can't overcome it. I feel so aware during the day and at night I can't control this impulse to go and eat. I know I am running from deep anxiety inside myself but I am afraid it will kill me before I can overcome it.
Pray. This will pass. You’ll look back on it. No matter what, you’ll look back on it. Where you are when you’re looking back depends on you. You may look back from a place deeper in the shit from your choices. Or you can look back and see that you avoided the shit you were driving yourself into.
God is with you even when you don’t think he is. Love You. And my prayers go out for you.
I’ve never actually struggled with being overweight, I’ve always been skinny. But I did struggle with overeating. I would stuff my face and belly. Once I stuffed myself soooo much that it felt like the food was all the way filled up to the bottom of my esophagus.
Now i don’t even think about it. It’s not an issue. Shit, I got other issues now😅. Way worse. But anyway, that’s me. PRAYING 4u!
Prayer is the lock at night 🔒 and the key in the morning 🔑… keep this in mind, things will improve
Firstly, I am an alcoholic and addict. Secondly, I’ve lost 120lbs.
I’d recommend rehab (it’s what saved me) BUT what you’re up against is so difficult. How do you recover from something you need everyday to survive. When I was in rehab a lot of the women also had eating disorders. Not a single counselor was able to help with that side of addiction, they weren’t even allowed to; that’s how sensitive that specific addiction is. I’d start focusing on what you can do to burn the excess calories instead of suppressing the cravings. One of the things I would do is put food/sugary drinks in the basement. That way I’d at least be burning calories going to get them. Take multiple trips when bringing in groceries, park as far away from the store as possible, eat standing up. Get creative, and ask god for help!
I run away from my darkness into the gym. Am aware what am doing. So I suppose it’s a good thing that I understand what am doing.
Then I come back and sit in silence and feel inside what’s going on.
Am getting there slowly and enjoying the process.😊
I laughed so much when you whispered to the camera “he’s staring at me, intruders” 🤣 Oh and Fluffy fluffs! Love your humour and your message 😀🫶
lol...:)
Stumbled on your channel yesterday and I got to say your content is some real prime stuff, brother! Used to be very into spirituality but moved away from it after a few bad trips doing acid. Suffice to say I was addicted to the experience, but now God has set a new path for me going back to the basics it seems! This time without all the LSD and bad characters haha! Thanks for the wise words man earned my sub 👍
Good evolution you shared!
I was the same.
God bless you brother!
Thanks Yash! The only way through is head on!
... and mask off 🙂🙌🙏
Thank You for this deep piece of wisdom shared. Great Soul 🙏
When I'm in high frequency I don't know what to do. I feel lost. I have a strong impulse to call out bs and it feels like I can lose any sense of security, friendship, job, place to live, food, income, at any moment if I'm true to myself
I’m the same
Observe your given environment without judgement or attachment of any kind..
You can be in the physical realm without it becoming of You, hold your Me closely hand in hand and walk yourself straight to serenity.
🤍🌊
When that happens to me, I like to see things in a comedic or humorous way. Like, yeah it's all bs but it's pretty funny, not something that I need to fix or change, just laugh at it
@@imageword5576 laugh or go off… it’s all emotional release, right
Seu video veio até mim quando eu estava refletindo sobre a frase: "Quando você não sentir mais medo do escuro, as trevas já não poderá mais existir".
Agora já sei o que fazer: desapegar e abrir mão de todos os pensamentos de riquezas e medos.
Obrigado!
I just say I believe in the providence of a benevolent God. And I take comfort in that.
Sir u are always on point , gotta accept our darkness
Thank you so much for making this video, this was divine timing and you truly channeled for us. I'm intensely spiritual and live in a very hippie town and have always felt my body and mind repelling away from some of the spiritualists here, and you described the reason exactly: they shun and repress their darkness (and therefore their humanity) in favor of glamourizing their introspection and decorating their minds. It never felt authentic to me. I joined the AA program about 5 months ago and feel more seen, more connected, more in tune with my fellow alcoholics than I ever have with most spiritual people. I'm also on my fourth step right now (taking my moral inventory and embracing the dark and hurtful parts of me) so it was just really friggin cool to hear you talk about everything that's been on my mind lately. Thank you again, your words and thoughts are so valued.
I look forward to delving into some of your other videos. You really were speaking in this. Thank you.
When you believe it you can achieve it for awhile ~
When you cherish it you can nourish it continuously ~
When you know it you can grow it forever ~ 🤍♾️💟
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This is extremely informative ! Thank you for sharing your wisdom 👁️🗨️
Yep. L👀king at my
foolish/stupid/ignorant
shadow self, though painful,
times, the IS still protected me.
Even in the times when I attempted to explain or stop going long to get long, I found the gifted energy to go forward
with truth/grace. period. period.
JOY TO THE WORLD🎶🌸
You were born at the perfect time bc you are here to BE those people who you admired and looked up to ! ITS YOUR DESTINY ! 🎉 keep going bc we are going into times where people will need your energy and work! ❤
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Man I swear you always release these at the right times with whatever my thoughts are going to
I've been really owning my nasty little manipulating games I play with people and released how scared I am of the truth
Life is slow 🤯 seems obvious but this genuinely put things into perspective
Sri Anandamayi Ma
1896-1982
Thanks for mentioning this divine being who walked our earth in human form.
I listen to one of her meditations almost daily as part of my conscious contact session.
Beautiful.
Much gratitude, Yash
S.communitues .....are ruddeled with Spiritual bypasser's. I avoid them. Daily life will teach you everything if your present to yourself. I am aware of what l am capable of. She makes me laugh...a real pioneer women, tough. I rein her in and let her met my better choices. It was myself l feared the most. I let me down consistently with addictions. Root...l was sad. Repressed grief that needed my care. Knowing me, l like me more ...than most people honestly.
Listening to you explain the twelve-step and how it affected you in your journey, I see how and why I avoided it. It is so practical to use in many if not all aspects of life. Good stuff. Gracias Hermano!
Yash, the alignment! I let some stuff come up last night. The other day I made a game plan of how to not avoid & distract myself (breathe, watch my thoughts, answer my mind, stretch, yoga, workout, walk in nature barefoot, vipassana, affirmations, etc). I know I'm going through the ego death & transformation. Learning to feel isolated parts of my body. Any yearning, desire or attachment that comes up, I'm figuring out how to fulfill that need within, filling up from God's powers daily, protecting my energy, alerts to remind myself throughout the day to breathe & stay present in the moment. Thank you!
You never conquer your demons. You don't finally "arrive" to all good. You learn to live with WHAT IS, and the tendency to resist What is will continue. because that is What is.
Thank you. Great message and very true. Have a great day sir!🏜🐎🏜
Great video well done mate
Sometimes I feel like demons can see the darkness in my heart, and it be too dark for even them. But at the same time I can love like no other. I can pick up and relocate insects instead of killing them, and at the same time wish death upon certain rotten humans. It really messes with me sometimes.
Enjoyed the talk man, thankyou. It really puts things in perspective, and makes me understand why, at 62, I'm not interested in being ''successful'' anymore (not that I really ever was!) , cos life is short, and it's this stuff your talking about that needs focusing on, and dealing with. Cheers bro, will be taking in some more of your vids for sure.
Someone recently just told me “you don’t age” I said physically I’m 50 but spiritually I’m 500! Hahahaha let me out!
Please write a book if you haven’t already. This is the first video I’m seeing of yours and I absolutely admire your transparency. You are a chosen one. I am too and I feel I have finally found someone who relates to what I’ve been feeling. Thank you for this beautiful message.
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Amen, brother. So happy to hear someone else who understands this.
Aw yeah that ending slapped. God is good!!!
i’ve always said that I didn’t like 12 step because I didn’t want to admit that I was powerless. Now I’m rethinking it, but I still don’t like the word powerless. I have become conscious of my bad behaviors. I see myself doing wrong things in real time. I have been beating myself up over addiction. it took a long time for me to screw everything up real good and I imagine it will take a long time to undo it. I like your video.🖖
so dont use the word “powerless”.
I just love you Yash. I am 25 and I was a intravenous meth addict at 16. It was easy to quit cause I did other things like alcohol and weed. I use to really hate myself and self harm and really struggle and ended up in hospitals and jails. I look back and think damn, I get it. Can’t imagine what life would be like for me at 40 with the wisdom I have and don’t have 😉
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beautiful Wisdom brother 💠❤️🔥 Love
You are cool :) I had to step away from the communities...everyone was the same it seemed... I love being in nature, the winds, stormy days all of it.
I’m really grateful to have come across this video. I’ve been dealing with the darkness and really felt shame behind it. However, listening to let me know that it’s okay. It’s just one step on a journey towards self-actualization. Thank you!
Have come to same conclusion with 12 step. Its very wise and highly applicable for the Path. Alcohol or not.
Tough for me to go into those "spiritual circles" after my own diving deep in numerous plant medicine ceremonies, I've learned discernment. I started to think everyone was the same. I can see right thru the bullshit. I love being alone unless it's one on one with someone. I love very much being in nature. Humans start sounding all the same to me. They have to be so special almost quiet for me to be engaged lol
That lack of a muffler,was a spiritual bypass.
Lol
Everybody talks about Bali, but it's never felt like a draw for me. Now I know why. Thanks.
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Thank you for this.
I hear you and I thank you! ❤
Equanimity & staying in the present with a bit of gratitude & good intention really helps too. Owning your darkness is a long sacral clearing body and mind purification, getting out of the pattern of craving & desire.
I allow SOURCE to help me in ways I have not yet helped myself 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾
Good stuff. Greetings from England. 🇬🇧
I may try the 12 steps again but I found the meetings in my town weird, I've followed several teachers and tried many things but I'm really struggling, so I may try meetings again.
Im done with fluffy people lol yeah brother expose the darkness and it loses its power.
God bless you all be of good cheer
What's a fluffy person?
I am still out here in the woods trying for a rebirthing, it is very difficult but am succeeding, there is a lot of knowing the body, reactions, a lot of medical jargon. I have lost about 10 pounds so far but am going all the way. I have found that there are some evils that you can get rid of but others that you just have to live with until it is time to expel them, I am fine with that because while I can hear them I am on such a high vibration that is all they can do. Know when to give up the bad and just accept that you will have bad the whole ride out, it is only the power that you have to worry about keeping.
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If the people you mention have gone then there is someone already here- they cannot be on the stage but rest assured he is here- keep raising the frequency and awareness 😊
...thank you brother for your time!
You're an amazing human being!❤
My religious karma is so deep to judge things in my dark as an abomination in fear that Id be condemned n sent to a physical hell… deep programming and conditioning…. That judgement program has caused so much separation within my life…
Repair Your world not 'theirs' ~
Hold yourself accountable without beating yourself up ⚖️
R ightfully
E ffectively
P reparing
A ttention
I ntention
R etention
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12 step 100%. I really agree!
Beautifully said😊, and the tree you're under adds a wonderful touch
As a member of a few different 12 step fellowships, for over a decade I thank you for your content.
I was taking the reigns again thinking I could rid myself of the character defects. I needed to hear this exact message, it's up to a Higher Power.
Thankyou algorithm for giving me this beautiful souls message from om the aether.
Thankyou.
Bless. 🙏
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Thank you for meeting in the space 5:14
Thank you,thank you! So well explained ❤… you’re so real…needed this..
Hey teacher this my first day here.
Wow teacher, very amazing key notes and a way to look at it, I feel awakened.
Comparison and ego go hand in hand
Awesome words brother
I hurt, and I struggle. But I feel the ease.
Beautiful message once again!! Thank you Yash 🤍🫶