"The reason why the Narc decided to leave you is because they couldnt control you" So true. They didnt "reject" you nor that you were not "good enough" You were too strong for them. Be proud.
1) They perceive sex differently 2) They need to be idealized by you 3) They are right and you are wrong 4) They believe that they know you better than you know yourself 5) They don't want to communicate about sex 6) Your needs and emotions don't matter 7) There is something wrong with you 8) You will get devalued, ghosted or ignored 9) They want to be in control at all times 10) They will lie 11) They are not kind people 12) They will never apologize 13) You won't connect with them emotionally
❤🎉 You are so right! My narcissist used to say " I'm sorry. I love you" when we were arguing and he was losing😮 My reply was always "I know you're sorry you love me" But that was just my imagination. He didn't love me at all! And he proved it over and over
Dealing with a narc is so draining, one minute everything is great and they telling you they love you . The next minute your being ignored 🤦🏽♀️ I hate it here ‼️
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It's spiritual warfare. They're trying to keep you from using the gift God gave you to do His will here on earth. Don't they seem like an alien hybrid that's demonic at the core?
@@mariotibbrine1 So, do you fear your house burning down with you in it?! Or do you think the smoke detectors will alert you, and the fire department will put out the fire? Every human being alive places a certain amount of trust into the people, and institutions around them. If you can't trust your partner to help maintain the safety of your children and yourself then what do you have?
From the narcissists I've known they appear to me as people who never really matured in emotional feelings and in relationships with others. They are controlled by their own insecurities.
PERFECTLY Said. MY OPINION Completey same !!! My mom is one and as her parents abandoned her at her Grandparents who Obviously did not Care to Raise her with Love and Teach them GOOD values and all=NON, I believe she started HATING from young age and bc of the Emotional Trauma may have been VERY hard she NEVER has Matured and is now just passed 70 !!! And she abandoned me when I was 12 with my Stephfather who used to spank us, when Mom wanted him to...
This video absolutely nails it. It’s unbelievable. I broke up with my girlfriend yesterday after she withdrew intimately, physically and mentally. It’s been one of the most painful months of my life. Everything was going completely fine then wham…the light shut off. She didn’t have time to see me, didn’t want to talk over the phone and her text messages were limited to ‘morning’ and ‘good night’. This is someone who ripped my clothes multiple times a day for the first six months then pulled it all away gradually. Now I’m the one to blame. On a positive note, I’ve found God again. It made me realize that I need to build the foundations of my life on rock vs sand. To feel unconditional love and acceptance and can’t seem to find anywhere else. Tears were shed but I felt whole. I felt loved. Thank God.
@@bsraeder Same. To be avoided at all cost. They are waste of time and life. They have no empathy. They are nice only if they can achieve from us time, attention and energy breaking our borders, enjoying breaking our boundaries and their power. When we set up our boundaries and demand the same amount of time, attention and energy from them, they fight damaging us or just dissapear. They are parasites. For my next relationship I will demand respect and exactly the same amount of investment as I do. Amen.
I'm sorry for what you went through! It's hell on earth. I'm still in it! It's many years for me. Congrats on your courage! You already inspired me! I pray your in peace...and have joy...🤗
@@ao2864 You can do it girl! And the worst thing to do is keep in contact and if you have to just nice and short conversations! If you need anything you let me know! I am so proud of you and I know you can do it!
@@francinacapers5491 I pray in the name of Jesus that he guides you and pray before every move, when you talk to him he listens and then you have to listen as well! If you need anything you let me know as well! Much love sister! God is good!
@@wendyn3531 thank you! I really appreciate that. It's a blessing to be around folks that are going thru very similar things. Meaning the traits of a Narc, are the same. Most don't understand, or say then leave... I'm proud of you. Sending love 🤎 hugs
What I couldn’t figure out is why he thought it was a turn on for me…when he put his hand down his own pants 😂…I’m sorry but that’s not a turn on for me..he also tried telling me that if I wanted sex, it made him feel bad because he felt his ex had sexually abused him by acting like he hurt her…ummm…ok? So no wanting sex…got it…now I just avoid it all lol..I’m single and it’s so.much less confusing and destructive
They will use you kind empathetic heart in a way that they will make you feel sorry for them even when you know they did you wrong. They will twist it around using other toxic people who will also manipulate you to believe that the 3rd party disrespect and his behavior was your fault. Toxic and manipulative but trust me their comes a time when you must say enough is enough and walk away for good.
They get you with the lovebombing and you are always trying to chase that, always trying to get back how they used to be.....it never comes back except in crumb form. It's so twisted. The only way you will ever rid yourself of them is if you block them on everything so you can move on & heal. If you do not do that...they will come back over and over and the whole vicious cycle happens again, without the lovebombing/golden period. Trust your intuition, you know when someone isn't good for you. Disengage from them and do not ever look back. I promise you, you will heal and get better if you do.
The Lord has restored me I finally caught the courage to tell him to leave for good after 20 years of marriage. It's been so much. But I know God has my back. God bless you.
@@junkyjoe11 You can and you will....the more you go back and find YOURSELF....The person you really truly are....they less hold she will have on you.Much success to you.👍🏾👏🏾
That's what happened to me. My kindness and compassion is what got me trapped. I never imagined a female could be so heartless and cruel, It's still a hard pill to swallow that there's millions of them out there.
@@7x779 don't do what some of us have and go back to these people after they do the love bombing again. I now completely understand the psychopathy. But unfortunately he trapped me once more and it's now a battle. Threatening my livelihood and where we live together. Always a third party or a triangulation. I don't understand why he would have to have a gaggle of men around him constantly but he does. I believe these people are demons or are possessed.
@@petraselah7152 I appreciate the response and support. I wish I had known these things from the beginning. I did succumb to the fake repentance, Love bombing and good deeds. It has grown to an entangled mess and and going to be difficult.
I was in trauma bonding cycle for 12 years. It was very hard for me to leave. I was love addicted, and lonely for most of that 12 years. Luckily I was able to leave and escape unscaved. The reason for this whole ordeal was childhood trauma and growing up with a narcissist. I am free quite few years and my life is so much better. I am healing and I am thankfull to be alone.
A narc will make you feel safe and get you to open up about your past and then later on, use it against you. Somehow. You’re right. Leave the past behind and move forward.
Yes this is actually quite a common feeling after having sex with narcissists, as woman we store a lot of emotions in our pelvises and these emotions get released during sex, when we have sex we are our most vulnerable with someone and to not feel safe in this space and no true emotional connecting can trigger lots of feelings of despair, sadness, anxiety, we can feel very alone and lost in those moments.
Alice C 🌺, 🥺🖤 I'm sorry you had to go through that... thanks for sharing. I don't think I've ever talked about that to anyone... same - I took it as if there was something broken in me, and they gladly went with that because they don't have the capacity to safely look at their dark side.... It all stems from trauma. literally every high npd trait I've personally encountered- in me or in another- could directly be traced back to traumatizing abuse that person suffered as a child. almost everyone in my family on both sides have various high narcissistic traits, passed down from generations, like genes 🧬... how is it for your family , if you don't mind me asking ?
@@lilithjesus7718 I have the tendency to attract abusive narcissistic people. People pleaser since I was little because I was raised to be a good girl and I would suffer before expressing any discomfort I was feeling. Working hard every day to change this.
A really good breakdown of what it's like being in a relationship and having sex with a narcissist.They will use sex as a control weapon against you, ie I didn't like how you behaved this weekend, so I didn't have sex with you. The love bombing also accompanies the sex. Beware the rush to intimacy and premature talk of love, marriage, moving in right away, soul mates, promises to buy you stuff. The trauma bond is tough to break. Treat it like an addiction.
Yeah, I feel like I'm in the middle of this rush right now. So confusing. We've known for two months and he wanted to get engaged, move in, telling me I'm his first ever love for the first sight and so on. I noticed he has brought all of his stuff here and said we should slow down, because I can't go on this fast and get panicked. I have had very traumatised relationships before, so I want to be careful and go on step by step... So for few weeks he's been very cold for me since I told this. Although I told it very gentle and kind way so that I wouldn't hurt his feelings. So let's see how this goes... He says he still loves me and want to be with me, but his actions are sooooo cold. And he said he gets cold when he has to use the breaks now 🤷🏼♀️. I don't feel loved or cared anymore anyway. Ahhh, so confusing, so confusing... 🤦🏼♀️
@@fitsu3 They do seem to withdraw and get distant quickly when you try to slow things down. She would press me on if I loved her, talked about marriage and moving in within 3-4 months of dating and when I would say I need more time, I have strong feelings but this all seems too fast, she would push back for some type of guarantee and/or withdraw for days at a time. I think an emotionally mature and stable person would respect your decision and boundary while still being there for you and available. To me, it seems like they rush things to both feed their need for control and security, once they have you trauma bonded or locked into a joint living situation, then the abuse and manipulation intensifies. Be careful.
@@kennethsilvestri5874 Yes, I feel like now I have to protect myself and be careful. I also told him if I got my things to your place and you told me to slow down, I would say oh I'm sorry and I didn't mean to push you. And I would show him that despite of his wish to slow down I still loved him 🤷🏼♀️. Of course it would be easier to control when living together, I guess. I will be careful and be kind of aware... Thanks 🙏
I happened into the interaction as impromptu sex work, we were making a film, then after one she decided no film just rehearsal. the only time she was able to behave rationally is when it was like that, good behavior first then payment. that dynamic accidentally supplies what the narcopath (who is sexual in an object/property kind of way) is looking for. the problem is that they experience a falloff of the reward chemistry, so they have to up the stakes. they have to start pissing you off, using threats or similar, etc, in order to keep it up. they cannot be content in a stable ongoing sexual relationship. the weird thing too is that they warn you you don't want them as a person. they tell you you only wanted the pretend person the stripper and later hold it against you like you were a bad person for wanting a sex worker to be your exclusive sexual partner. it was weird. I was never able to reinstate the working schedule / pacing structure despite believing it could have worked if she would see that I would never ever allow any other form of contact due to the toxic behavior
My son’s father is a narcissist and I was with him for 8 years. After chasing something so unattainable for so long you lose yourself. It took a lot to free myself and I’m still recovering every day.
Knowledge comes from the experience. You could watch a hundred videos on RUclips, yet still go out & make the same mistake. But the information can put your experience into context.
I was an empath who wanted to help others and was vulnerable after my divorce as a single mother looking for love. I was a narc magnet for years and it's hurt me so much that I'm alone at 40 years old now .
Exactly. It's pretty sad. It has taken me 7 years, but I'm getting out finally. I lost my first spouse to cancer and end up marrying into this nightmare which was the total opposite of my late spouse who was the love of my life!! 😭
@Ilir Cami He was very gentle, respectful, honorable, compassionate, and patient with me . He didn't try to change to me to fit his mold or what he thought I should be. He helped to shape me and only added value to my life. He didn't criticize me and put me down. He didn't try to compete with me, but celebrated me. I was the same with him. We just fit well together with no force. Within a couple of months meeting him I knew he was the one. I felt it in my soul! However, it was short lived. 5 years wasn't enough. We were not perfect by any stretch, but we bonded very well. We had so many plans, but as it goes with life interruptions happen. I'm grateful for the time spent with him. Now I am in the process of truly healing and living for me as that is what he would want me to do.
I was with someone who stopped saying I love you, stopped talking about us only about work. He only ever was talking about work. Never about us. No more dates. No more salutations except to the kids we shared. Had a business, bought a house, never married me. It was all about him and his life and his outlook. I was just a passenger in HIS journey.
Four years of chasing the carrot on a stick, only to be rejected, cheated on, shoved out of the relationship and our home, and rather than showing any empathy for the massive hurt that she caused she then tried to assassinate my character where we both worked, filed court orders against me without cause, filed charges against me, sought to have me fired and jailed, and was almost successful. And it took me 14-years to finally come to grips with who she was and what she was.
Wow, you are not alone.....you described my life. I fell deeply for the love bombing, the extreme sex, the no feeling after sex, then the devaluing, threats every year to leave me, and finally discarded me.....moved out. Told me it was always her plan after 14 years together. Now, I have been dragged to court, being lied about, character dragged out in social media for 2 years. When does it stop? You think you are in this relationship for life, until 1 day they leave, threaten you, call you names, and assasinate your character!!! Its like a whole different person appears.....or is it just the same person and you didnt let yourself realise it? Its great to hear this is not a new thing....only happening to me. Its not great it happens to other people but at least we all can hear that we are not alone.
Same!! I anointed her the nickname of "light switch"... I'm over the dating, relationship GAME! It's a weird feeling looking at the rest of my future being a loner. But I'm not even going to chance this crap again, ever!
I’m 65 and have spent the last 18* yrs with a NPD individual!! I am a high level Empath and did not know about any of this until I got away from it and his older brother and his wife (adore them both) brought it to my attention! The last 4 months have been the most enlightened for me & the absolute worst for him! I have been freed!! Thank You, Jesus!
I wanted to tell you that that I am almost 70, and until about a year ago, I still blamed myself because I was unknowingly rejected by a narcassist who fooled me into thinking our relationship was ruined by me, and I didn,t know what it was. And because I was honest and insecure I didn,t even ask him what it was. I was totally confused and keep trying to get that really nice loving feeling back. it didn,t work and left me emotionally scared. Finally, I realized, it wasn,t anything I said or did, it was his fear of emotional Intimacy. It took me almost 40 years to finally realize this. Good for both of us, lets just keep getting more peaceful and happy!!
1. They perceive sex differently--it is a conquest/control. 2. They need to be idealized and adored by you--best you've ever had, etc. 3. They are absolutely right, and you are absolutely wrong. Your point-of-view does not matter. (My parents) 4. They believe that they know you better than you know yourself. Tells you what you are, what you think. (My Mom) 5. They won't want to communicate about sex. No two-way communication. 6. Your needs and emotions do not matter. (My husband) 7. There's something wrong with you. (They will have you committed, too.) They are top dog. 8 You will be devalued, invalidated, and ignored. (And ghosted) They are not getting the same high from you as before, and so they distance themselves......draw you in and drop you. 9. They want to be in control all the time. They will drop you permanently when they see that they cannot control you. 10. They will lie. 11. They are not kind. They do not care about pleasing you. They will distance themselves after sex. True intimacy is not possible for them. 12. They do not apologize. Their apologies will feel insincere. 13. You won't truly connect with them emotionally, no true intimate emotional connection. 1) You might become addicted to them. 2) Trauma bonding has a role to play--most often seen in individuals who have experienced abuse or neglect during childhood. 3) They do not change. We all have some narcissistic traits. 4) A codependent needs to be needed. Negative emotions are never negative. They are warning you to get away. (This is why I have disengaged from my sisters, daughter, and parents).
The same happened to me. Exactly the same. I have felt so unloved for years. I am in a sexless marriage 😞he punished me because l still don’t want to have children with him yet, so he decided that we were not going to have sex at all UNLESS l wanted to try to have children. It’s horrible. It backfired on him because now l don’t even want him near me. We sleep in separe rooms and l don’t want anything to do with him anymore. I am considering divorce, and planning on moving out soon. Can’t take this anymore.
@@ASE_Avenue l am glad she is your “ex”. It is all abuse and manipulation. I didn’t know what l was dealing with. Don’t go back to that. It’s so toxic and dysfunctional. It kind of makes you feel “crazy” too. I developed sever depression and anxiety. I just want out. Take care and stay out of it for your sanity.
Things to do. Number 1. Love them from a distance. Number 2. Walk away ,Block and Delete them. Continue working on yourself and let go of what didn't serve you. Amen. God Bless you all. Stay strong. God is with you all.
@@odosamamweniyenoma8871😅 i love this one, cause my ex/my son's father has been my neighbour (within walking distance) for 2,5 years now. Because he decided to move close by. I should really pray and actively try to move away now, even though i love the neighborhood. Life can really be liked a scripted movie.
Watch for pushing your sexual boundaries early on. The last Narc I was with was constantly asking me for sexual things that were insanely inappropriate within weeks of knowing him. I never once felt close to him. Also watch for how quickly they move away from you or turn their back on you after the deed is done. They are lazy, demanding and mechanical. He was all over dating apps the moment I couldn’t offer complete focus on his needs. He was completely empty inside.
Married 10 years, divorced now. There was never a birthday gift, or Christmas gift, Nothing celebrating valentines day. Or our anniversary. He never once said I love you. He would be asleep within a minute after sex at night, never did he coddle, hold my hand, or hug. So so glad that nightmare is over
"Don't feel bad if you crave their attention and affection." Thank you for explaing what neurotransmitters are released and how it affects the mind and body. I wondered what was wrong with me, but as it turns out, this is completely normal. Now I feel empowered to continue to learn the healing process.
I always felt bad for craving my ex's attention and love, always. He made me feel like there was something wrong with me for wanting his affection and love. I was so in love with him, that of course I wanted his love reciprocated! But he only wanted to give and receive love on his terms.
I briefly got back with my ex. I realized he was a narc. As a young woman I didn’t know but as a middle aged woman, I saw the signs clearly. Talked about himself, didn’t want to hear my POV, sexually selfish and was rude. Talking to him went nowhere, so I stopped talking to him, period. No regrets.
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Lee, my ex, (whom I discarded) was very selfish about sex. Only wanted his needs met. He was AWFUL, but I didn't care anymore. The damage was already done.
Best advice for codependents, after first time intimacy and u noticing they are a narcissist, RUN and NEVER go back otherwise known as no contact ! Their egoes will be crushed and you will be saved from a lifetime of HORRIFIC TRAUMA!! FREAKING NEVER EVERRRRRRR CHASE THEM, heck never even ask them for explanation or try to find you're value with them !!! YOU'RE WORTH IT !! You deserve to be treated with respect and love ! Anyone who doesn't understand this is not worth you're presence, not the other way around !
I’m beginning to understand that self love will not attract a narcissist because self love puts up boundaries you won’t cross for them because you love yourself. They can’t be in that situation because they need every fiber of your being to be on them.
This makes me happy and sad. When I first met my narc, I was a practicing Christian. We dated but I wouldn't sleep with him. After 2 months, he just stopped answering my calls. It drove me crazy, I was obsessed with finding out what happened for months. Then I found out he got back with his ex & figured that was the reason. But he dropped me because he couldn't get to me thru sex. Cut to 10 years later, he's going thru a divorce and I am not longer a Christian, no boundaries. We reconnect and he dives in head first. He saw what a bad place I was in and started his process. Makes me sad to think I got suckered in all because I had no boundaries.
If you are trying to express your opinion which is always wrong.... you're accused of starting something and even instigating. It's a reality check when a 50 year old tells you that you started it first by trying to start something by expressing how you feel...not allowed
PAY ATTENTION to these signs!!! This pretty much sums up my last relationship! I had no idea what narcissism was. In the end I ended up feeling completely devalued, unwanted and dejected by the whole experience
I'm going threw that now he left on a bad time everything went to crap sex stoped kissing stoped holding hands everything and now I stayed for to long he left bad and I'm hurt angry disappointed I want to scream I don't no I'm angry to 😢
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So after 23 years of living with a narcissist, my soon to be ex-husband and having a small child with him, I have realized within the past few years what has actually been going on this entire relationship. So much emotional abuse, cheating, the micro affairs with younger women who stroke his ego, the gaslighting, blame shifting and stonewalling. It is like waking up from one nightmare into another, and I started thinking about sex, and how that has always been something that has been a very strange topic with us and also some thing we are never able to really discuss. I realized a lot earlier on in our relationship sex was different, but it slowly changed. He is attentive in bed and will make sure that I am satisfied but as soon as it is over, he is gone. He leaves the room. He goes out to watch TV or play video games. He needs to almost detach from what just happened. There is no cuddling there is no snuggling there’s no spooning no kissing no sweet talk pillow talk nothing at all. There is absolutely no emotion and it’s almost like a robot. I always thought that I was lucky because he paid attention to me but then afterwords I would always feel empty like something was just not right and now I’m realizing that this is what has been going on and I don’t feel so alone anymore.
there something about narcs and physical thouch i was friends with a narc female she told me once she hates physical thouch she even once told me her friend who gave birth was acting weird because she was kissing her baby too much
I could have written this comment myself- almost word for word. In bed, he was very attentive, but I had such a starnge feeling of being alienated. I realize now that is really was all about him feeling good about himself pleasing me- it wasn't about intimacy, bonding, or caring how I personally felt. The lying, the cheating, the office emotional affairs, gaslighting, stone walling, and relentless smear campaigns. He isolated me from everyone, including his entire family by picking fights over nothing just before we were supposed to go to a family event. Just found out he told them I wasn't interested. I feel so broken from this. I gave everything I had, and after 20 years, he abandoned me and told me to go to a shelter. Now he is running after a new supply, and pushing intimacy prematurely as he always does. With all the talk about being his "soul mate"and idealizing me, especially in bed in the early days, I really thought sex was a mutually bonding experience. But it really is about getting satisfaction in themselves as being a great lover. That's a powerful thing for them, but there is no emotional bonding at all.
@@nikiyoussef55 yes! And I’m an empath, apparently (several therapists have mentioned that) and my love language is touch. I think that’s why it’s doubly saddening and frustrating because he will say “I don’t know what more you want from me” and I will say well what about foreplay and he acts like it’s this huge chore. It’s really awful.
This is exactly why I will never have sex before marriage again! Had my heart ripped out. If I had gotten to know him, before being so intimate, I would have saved myself a world of pain. Sex creates powerful bonds that are not easy to break. Perfect for keeping a health marriage together during difficult times, but an absolute disaster when it bonds you to someone who doesn’t love.
marriage is yet again only a word that can be filled diffrently and can even be a hook cause it´s something especially women are raised to see as an echievment. so it can be part of the gaslighting tools to lock u up. i am glad i have no will to marry whatsoever cause i feel like i dont need a label for my relationship. love is not less cause u dont follow social labels. my narc played that proposing-card when shit got already rough n i was about to leave. future faking didnt work with me. but getting married was nothing tht was part of my dreams he or anybody can "fullfill". n he never understood. cause he thought: but a "real" woman wants that. u get what i want to say
I got the distinct feeling that he was simply going through the motions with his glib charm and manners on the first couple dates. I was correct because 2 months later he’d outright ignore questions I’d ask straight to his face, like I was invisible. I keep chasing him until one day I realized, I didn’t actually like him at all. He was really fucking mean and cold.
I've been done with narcissists for about 8 years now. I'm no contact with my narcissistic parents and quit my job as a security guard since I kept getting one after another narcissistic managers who were usually ex cops. My body couldn't tolerate the toxicity anymore. After 8 years of no contact I've healed in so many ways it's beyond what I could have imagined.
Wow it seems the industry attracts the controlling overt type Narcs. I too had 2 Narc parents and was in an abusive marriage for almost 23 yrs. Take 1 guess what I'm currently doing for a living? Campus Safety Officer. Also worked in contract and federal security and you're right about the narc management situation. I'm miserable in my current post because of this and am looking to leave the industry. Security Protection Services definitely attracts that personality disorder.
They do affect your body. Had PTSD after 7 years with an evil pedo ex. Also grew up with narc mother. These people have trained us well. I'm finally realizing I have to put up stronger boundaries and protect my soul.
Everything your saying is true. I was with a narcissist for 5 years. I had low self esteem. I thought I was in love because like you said at the beginning of our relationship he was overly lovable. Then after a while he started mentally & emotionally abusing me. He did what ever he wanted & I was not allowed to. He did almost everything to be & I thought that if I leave him I wouldn’t have any friends because he was so nice to other people. Even when I told my best friend she couldn’t believe it. I finally fell out of love with him & had had it & I just walked away. I hope people notice this because it’s just a waste of time. 5 years wasted. There’s a lot more to it. Every kind of abuse with this person. Hope this helps someone.
I once expressed to my ex that I wasn't feeling good enough for her. I tried to be open about how I was feeling. She burst into tears and proceeded to change the topic to about how she was feeling. Saying things like "that means I'm not doing good enough for you. I'm not doing a good enough job" At first I thought I struck a nerve and tried to comfort her and assure that she was. Felt incredibly guilty for masking her cry. But I didn't realise what was happening. We went to sleep after. And I never even had my feelings acknowledged. This nearly happend every time I tried to express how I was feeling. About anything. They copy what you are saying and feeling in order to completely distract from the topic in the first place. I was to kind and to thoughtful. My biggest warning is, do not fall for the tears. They are incredible actors. When it came to sex I rarely felt any connection. And was most of the time uncomfortable. Towards the end of our relationship I couldn't even be in the same bed as her and had to sleep in other bedrooms of the house. I am Still recovering from an ugly relationship after 7 months. Don't beat yourself up on the things you should of said or could of said. There are no right or wrong when it comes to somthing like this. A healthy couple should be able to rationalise and consult with one another with a great amount of trust. Find someone you can do that with. Love you. Sending peace fellow soldier.
the pain is so real the tears when conflicts Arise mine punched herself in the face when I spoke about not feeling safe in the relationship 7 months in and I have more PTSD then I have from a relationship then a very bad Afghanistan war I hope time has brought you peace my friend 🤗
Yes! Every time I tried to tell my ex boyfriend about something he did that upset me I always ended up having to explain something that had nothing to do with the original topic. He always flipped it around
People, I had to learn the hard way learn from my mistakes. This video is so comprehensive, take notes. At age 48, I was “love bombed”, “Idealized”, “future faked” (Sure, we built our dream, $1 million dollar home, but 70% was my money), Buy me the $10,000 engagement ring, had a sweet wedding, had family gatherings. Two weeks after the Honey moon, he verbally abuse me in a grocery parking lot and demanded the wedding ring back. That was the beginning of “sorrows”. After that he continually devalued with me for seven years. Then I found all these videos on narcissism, and I was able to put the pieces of the puzzle together. When I stopped the validation, and set boundaries to stop the verbal abuse, he decided he needed a Wife that was more agreeable, less “militant”. He started looking at RUclips videos and found that women in the Philippines are “easily dominated”. So he bought an airline ticket for his birthday and is heading to the Philippines tomorrow. He wants me to drive him to the airport, to search for his new wife there. I know for sure he has three connections there already. Yes…it’s heartbreaking, but I know God is taking him out of my life for a reason. I have let go. I’m anxious but grateful for him to be gone now. I’m in the process of filing for divorce of course. But it’s still incredibly painful. Heed the warning signs, I never knew about this disorder, and it almost destroyed me. “But there go I, but by the grace of God”. I am 61 now & can’t run fast enough.
You sound very strong I applaud you! I'm 58 and had never heard or understood narcissism either. I get mad sometimes because if you talk about it with the younger gens they say "everyone is a narcissist these days" eye roll. Sadly they are not listening and dont seem to understand WHY this is so. Narcissism is rampant because our culture in this country is a huge mess. Broken families, neglected and abused children that is now multi generational. Narcissists are thought to be born of trauma, a dysfunctional behavior associated with an inability to cope with abuse and neglect. Its certainly true in my ex who tortured me for 5 years. 2 of which I spent trying to get out. I guess no one will see the flags until they themselves get burned while those of us who escaped but suffer from the trauma scream WATCH FOR RED FLAGS AND RUN IF YOU SEE ANY. DONT GET OVERINVOLVED WITH SOMEONE LOVE BOMBING YOU. TAKE YOUR TIME TO SEE HOW THEY REALLY TREAT YOU WHEN THE HONEYMOON PHASE IS OVER. If you keep your independence the narc will pass you buy, they are looking for an empath who doesnt have healthy boundaries. They are vampires who will suck you dry and drag you down until you are drowning in dispair. And once you are there it is so hard to get up and get away from them. They dominate and control with lies, abuse and manipulation. And worste of all they dont know HOW to love so they will not and cannot fulfill your dreams.
Yes. My experience followed a similar course. Good for you for ending it. I’m still there but knowing the reality saves your sanity. Narcs are scary people - they hide it so well until they seal the deal.
The ones they let go are the ones they know they can’t control anymore! How wonderfully said by the Dr. It is the truest statement and the first person I’ve heard say it! Thank you Dr.
To be fair, in some situations sometimes you do. There's a particular privilege of being able to observe your friends or loved ones from outside their head. When me and my best friend in high school were at out closest I did often genuinely know her better than she knew her self. I knew what typically scared her in a new situation, I knew what might worry her. I knew what would bother her if it wasn't addressed. She would consistently ask me for advice which I'd give and then she'd proceed to do the exact opposite and come back to me and admit she should've just done what I advised her to do. Is that necessarily the case always? No. The only reason I got to a point where I could know her as well as I did was because I always observed her closely for how she would physically react to everything in order to master an understanding of her mannerisms, and how they linked to her headspace. That takes a lot of time, experience and genuine inquiry. It is possible for someone to know you better, or just as well as yourself, but getting there is a long trip requiring a lot of input and long night chats.
Constant adoration is what I had to give my father. I can't even fathom how many times I had to say "wow" or "thank you" to him for what he just did for me that I neither needed or wanted or could even barely tolerate anymore. Thank you for the awareness.
Absolutely reckognize your remark, my 'mother' so often told me 'You (me/brother) could be a bit more gratefull for all I do" and with dinner she would always say; "Is it tasty?" "You have to tell me more then once". She actually wanted us to say it several times. Always found that bizar. She was often angry and with those remarks, indeed, she wanted constant adoration. She was a true monster...
so im not trying to be dismissive nor minimize your experience... it's just... the topic in this video and your comment may not be like... the best combination...
@@radiocontrolledshopireland it’s very difficult when it comes to family court matter as parenting capacity assessments often aren’t carried out sadly and even if they are narcissism might not always be detected.
Most important line in this entire video: Narcissists never change. And if you can get a narcissist into therapy, the therapist will usually tell the narcissist, "sorry, I can't help you." If that doesn't say it all, then nothing else ever could.
Yeah, but apart from that, narcissism is *never* healthy in adults. That's a modern (capitalist) myth, mindlessly perpetuated by some professionals. Narcissism is ONLY healthy in infants. Part of the healthy human development is to overcome the primary narcissism (with the help of attentive and kind parents) in childhood. Secondary narcissism is always a pathology and never healthy. It's true that most or almost all human beings can have some narcissistic traits if they're not living consciously or mindfully, but that's _not_ something to embrace, it's something that has to be challenged by every individual within themselves in order to *become* healthy and decent human beings.
Yeah none of these things that anybody's talking about in these threads necessarily apply to narcissism. Sounds to me like a therapist that just fails to be a good therapist wants an excuse to blame the patient.
@@Astrochronicyou are quite mistaken i have a therapist friend who refuses to counsel NPDs because they cannot take any accountability you cannot work with someone who has no conscience or only blames other people - they waste your time in therapy sessions and its a revolving door and will drain you mentally - even therapists need to monitor their well being and stress
@@overcomerbtboj right you have friends who make excuses for why they are failures as psychologists. And then they project onto their patients. It sounds like your friends are probably as narcissistic as anyone.
@@Astrochronic ok you try to sit down with a narcissist and counsel them while they refuse any accountability “ well here’s why nothing is ever my fault” - get back to us when you’ve successfully treated a narcissist
Remarkable how long one’s arms can stretch when keeping a distance from these people. Too much time and energy invested, our humanity, gentleness, and soulful growth ebbs away. Images and symbols replace beliefs and action. Spectator replaces engagement. I nurture myself back to love with a walk in the woods, eyes set on trees, the sky, and water. Helps regain balance.
okay, after all the comments I read, your almost poetic one made me cry. I can fully relate to you sister. Patching up the wholes in my heart, dignity and self worth. Finding love and nurture in nature. As my soul is still whole even after all his attempts to tear it apart. Even after he disappeared. He couldn't reach it, couldn't find it, as he hasn't any.
35 years of marriage and he started denying me sex after 1 week of marriage and then I spent 35 years begging for sex. He said he didn't want sex because he was worried about poor preformance so it was easier not to do it because he didn't want to take a chance he might fail. I did know he cheated and questioned why he wasn't worried about failure or performance with them but still I always forgave and tried harder to please him. Oh how I Wish I had seen this video years ago. I left 19 months ago when it was no longer safe for me to stay. Leaving was the most incredibly painful thing I have ever done. I thought sure I wouldn't survive and yet now not even 2 years and what healing God has done in me and what peace fills my mind and life.
I lived the same exact life you described x 15 years. Early days, finally parted recently. Difficult days for me, truly low point for me. I hold on to hope that peace will come. Thank you for sharing.
A good mental twist that I´ve learned is to understand that you percieve intimacy with a narcissist, you don´t recieve intimacy. There´s a difference between those two.
@@voguehaven5154 can't run, no where to go. He is punishing me since I told him no more sex. I just ignore his rages, and get on with my life. Never felt better !He is just a child.
@@sadie45 I wish you all the best on your way and really hope, you stay safe. Please be careful, since their rage can raise with such rejection. Much love and energy
Having sex with a narcissist was the most lonely experience ever. Love bombing phase ended quickly and then it became a sexless marriage. When I was 5 months pregnant, he said “You are not attractive to me anymore.”
4 mos after I had my baby we went to a Xmas party. When dancing my husband said “ you don’t feel like my wife anymore. This after I was pumped up on fertility drugs to have our daughter.
I was married to a woman who has narcissistic personality disorder. When she was pregnant, I told her, “You are profoundly beautiful when you are pregnant.” She didn’t believe me.
@Sara Martinez HD Tudor provides free yt videos. He's helped me past 2 Months You have to separate emotional thinking vs logical thinking.. "well they abused me why do I care about them.. Let them go" "yeah but.. HOWW can they be sooo nice and amazing to me and then.. Maybe it's soemthing I personally did.. What did I do wrong.." You may make excuses for them. Bad day, frustrated, I'm clingy etc. The fact is, anyone who abused or abuses you, could and can't even truly love you. You're sold an illusion covered in honey and sugar to become addicted to them so YOU won't leave THEM. You're both afraid of abandonment, but u may become boring and stale. Better for YOU to hurt than them. This is why typically THEY leave YOU. Withdrawn into a stranger as if you're mearly 2 people sitting across each other in a lobby for the first time.. It's very eerie and HD Tudor talks about it on his channel. Might want to have a look as he lists EVERYTHING that will help you. It definitely is getting me by.
I was with a narcissist for 36 years and married for 33 of them. I’m much much better now than I was before. There were good times of course, especially since I stayed so long, but the bad ones were heartbreaking and lonely. If you meet a narcissist or with one now, run don’t walk and get away while you still can!!!!!!
They hook you real you in to the bedroom and then you find out you mean nothing. It will be very sudden out of the blue and very confusing. They won’t have any explanation. The love addition confusion will be very painful.
Having sex with a Narc was the most unclimatic and simply the worst experience I have ever had.. it started me thinking about who this creature really was. IT WAS THAT BAD!
After I realised that she really didn't love me and was just using me for sex, it made me feel like a prostitute and I hated it. But I carried on because I didn't want to leave my children in her sole care. The total lack of any emotional connection was obvious every single time.
@peaceofmindofpeace1650 I don't think that's a narcissist, that made merely a person who's just using you for sex. A narcissist will never give you dull sex, it's detrimental to their success at being narcissistic. Now if you get great sex you have an okay time afterward hanging out and then they leave and just disappear that's a different story. Sadly that's the way life is, not everybody is seeking long-term, and not everybody is super compassionate. Being cold after sex is not a narcissist's forte after the person leaves yes but not right after. You just dated a lame duck, a person who got what they wanted and showed it right away. Narcissist has an agenda, it's in their best interest to give you everything you want at the time they want to give it it's why they're there.
I was married to a narcissist for 13 years and it was hell!! To the point where I wanted to kill myself luckily he went to prison for 10 yrs and I was freed. He got released 3 years ago and tried to use the kids to get me to go back to him but he no longer had control over me and I am so happy alone I’ve gotten to know me and work on myself. Never again!!!!
Yea I know how you feel I been dealing with him 6 year's now we have a baby together n treated me wrong n he stay living in the past n I told stuff happening to me as well he told all my business n I felt like just ending my life because I don't Open up n tell anyone my business n I did with him now im trying get out n it's not easy @ all so I feel you on end your life because I was at that point I wanted give up on everything n I have other kids too ... I keep playing inside my head is it worth it doe ... I thought he was my soulmate n also twin flame throw that shit into the trash ...
Great video. When you realize you’re an accoutrement, maybe a trophy or prize, you realize there is no “relationship” and they can’t help you realize your dreams and potential.
Why didn't I have RUclips 30 years ago! I spent 30 years with a Narcissistic and was abused physically and emotionally! In the first 2 years of marriage I tried to commit suicide 4 times because he devalued Me so badly. I'm on the healing journey now and he is far away from Me now. I will never trust anyone again! Its going to take the rest of My life to get over this. Thank you for the valuable information. 🙏 ❤ 🙌 Praise God for opening My eyes to the abuse and getting Me out!
I've had narcissist apologize but I could feel it wasn't genuine and the same behavior would be repeated again as if it was never discussed in the first place and It was almost like I had to beg for an apology. Just another draining technique used by them..
Yes some do apologize and seem very sincere. I knew one who would also cry with “regret”. The smart ones indeed use apologies as another manipulation technique.
17:14 - I had a love addiction with a narcissist and you are right, they won't ever love you like at the beginning but rather draw you in, drop you and so on. The reason is they like inflicting pain on others so drawing you in is like loading a pain shot to be fired when they drop you. See? You nailed the video - excellent information.
Sad, but true. Sex only happens when they want, one only sees them when they want. When one suggests an encounter be it sexual or leisure they’re never available. They withhold sex consciously or unconsciously, not realizing we both have needs. Becoming addicted to a narcissist NOW makes sense as the attention, love and/or pleasure they give is actually great. To then, realize it is all a facade, and that this won’t happen again for another week, two weeks or a month. At first it is very confusing and having this person one thought is amazing ignore you for a month makes you wonder if you did something wrong. Wow! Mind boggling but all true.
@@paolaarletty6525 Yup - ALL true. Strange how different people across the world can have such similar traits to be able to identify it like a disease - like measles or cholera where the number of symptoms basically tell what it is. It's amazing and I realize how I am not alone - that others went through the exact same thing. Where you said "makes you wonder if you did something wrong" -specifically with me she WOULD make me think I was doing things wrong and gaslighted, exaggerated and outright lied to make me think so, too. This is a facade that both feeds their manipulation/control need AND holds their reputation in tact so they can keep deceiving. Thanks for your response - good luck to you.
@@sstritmatter2158 i feel so UGLY ....that is how he makes me FEEL.....I wish I could find a guy who would think I am beautiful and make me feel that way too.....he always leaves me feeling inadiquit and ugly and disgusting.....he never would have sex when I wanted it only when he wanted it...and treated me horrible the rest of the time...
It’s been 3.5 years... It’s true they don’t change and the patterns/cycles are harmful. I didn’t know what I was in and I thought I was going crazy. Thank you for the video.. This is spot on and I wish I had known sooner to save me from so much pain, disappointment... I have spent so much time, energy and money on this person. Today is the day I break free.
There are many different signs. These include spending time on phone that was not spent previously, withholding sex from you, withdrawing in communication with you, agitation or anger over Petty stuff or making up situations to get angry or agitated over, lying, being secretive in any way, randomly spending more time caring for and pampering oneself such as putting on makeup or wearing cologne or coloring hair etc. Any type of changed behavior that is not aimed at pleasing or benefiting your relationship. With all of that though, follow your gut. your gut is telling you that something isn't right and it's telling you that this could or is happening, therefore listen to it. Just Free yourself from all of it! Run and don't look back. Go 100% no contact. The mental and emotional abuse is not okay at all! Do not bring anything up to her. Don't try to rationalize or have a conversation about anything. Don't let her know that you know she's in narcissist. All of that can cause a narcissistic rage. If you have not yet witnessed one of those just trust me that you don't want to! A narcissistic rage is beyond any rage I have ever seen or witnessed in my entire life. I am an army combat veteran and served front lines for a year and afghanistan. I have abuse going back from as long as I can remember, the first time in my personal memory is 2 years old. With everything I have been involved in, and my rape, other sexual abuse, their physical abuse, etc in narcissistic rage is by far the worst! If you need to contact your local police department and start a new contact order. No one can protect you like you can! free yourself from it all and move forward in your life. The minute you run and go no contact is the minute your life begins again. If need be seek out professional help. Therapy is the best thing I did for myself. The best gift I gave to me! The abuse is so deep and overwhelming that having a professional guide you through the steps of the healing process is extremely beneficial! Just remember, there is great strength in asking for help. There is great lack and strength or no strength at all in putting on a mask and hiding behind the opinions of society and pretending that you are okay! As human beings we all witness A Time In our lives where we are not okay! Those that heal, move past, and move forward, and have a brighter future are those who ask for help and do the work that is needed through the help! I'm so sorry you are going through this and I wish you the very best! Good luck! Always remember that you are stronger than you believe you are, you are worthy and deserving of better and always, and you are enough just the way you are and who you are today! Take this time for you! Get yourself again. Fix that meal that you're all time favorite, rent that movie you've been wanting to see, have a guys night out with your best friends, remodel a room in your home, go purchase that item you've been wanting to for so long, just do for yourself! Self-acceptance, self-love, and being able to forgive yourself is far more important than what anyone else can give to you! Believe in who you are! You deserve nothing less than that! You're not alone! Feel free to tag me in any other questions that you have! I'll help if I can. Additionally you can hire a cyber expert to help you get remote access to their phone so you can track them and monitor all of their activities without them knowing. You may locate the top cyber specialists locally at Digitalinvestigate@gmail. com, where you can engage a well-trained professional to assist you..........
I was addicted to a narcissist. I thought were in monogamous relationship, but we were in a situationship of 2.5 intense years. Trauma bond. Yes. When I was discarded my identity fell apart, but it was a blessing in disguise. Now I have a chance to build it all anew and better.
Your identity is yours. You are still you. Nobody can take that from you except maybe brain damage. you were defeated but you are still alive. If you must walk away from all your material possessions to be free then just do it. Your happiness isn't worth giving in to your fear. You can make it on your own. The idea that you can't was implanted by your abuser. It's not true. You are still yourself. Bruised and bloody but wiser by far. Chin up hummingbird, live your best life and never look back
@@MediaEnslavedNation Thank you! So true. This is the issue of self-identity. I realised I had no identity. Had no boundaries. That was one of the reasons, I let it happen. Now I have a much better understanding of who I am, what is my worth and what I am seeking in relationship. I am thankful to this guy, actually.
@@hummingbirdoffical4082 I hear your words reflected in my own experience, but I have trouble giving the narc bastard the credit. The best I can give him his long distance pity. You don't thank the shark for eating your leg, even if some happy thing occurs afterward because you're missing a leg. You used to have two legs (or trust) and now you don't. He stole x number of years of your life that you can never get back and he soiled your innocent faith in humanity. Thank yourself for being strong enough to survive, thank the family/friends who refused to be driven away by the narc (or at least came back when you called for help). Or even this wonderful online community of survivors that stand with you and validate your experience, but don't give gratitude to an abuser.
Same here - completely addicted to him. I thought he felt the same until that first discard. He said he'd "never spent so much time with someone before." Mind you, he initiated all of our time together. Go figure!🤷🏾♀️For the fist time in 6 years, I found the strength to discard him. It's only been about a month of no contact but my battered, broken heart beats again.💕
Finally someone who actually says theyre bad sexually. It was always a superselfish act only on his terms. Ive honestly never had such a bad lover. :/ Also true we attract them.
@@marleyex2695 ..Making love is more of outside of sex..Sex was truly created to reproduce children and the bonding as One..Love is action and correction on one accord=Making Love.
This is amazing. Lol. My ex would get mad if I wanted to talk about sex. He’s used to women throwing themselves at him so when I didn’t, it must be something wrong with me. I’ve tried to tell him what I liked but he’d just get upset. Take it as I’m not attracted to him. Angry is nothing. He’d literally blow up yelling at me. I’d even try to make him understand how his attitude and and “temper tantrum’s “ as I called them, we’re a turn off. He still didn’t get it! There’s nothing wrong with telling your partner what YOU like sexually. However, he’d take it personal and become offended. He would also just lay back on the bed and wait on me to mount him. That’s definitely what it felt like. Sex became a chore for me. Give him sex so he won’t get angry. God, I’m so glad I’m done with him!
Same here I did all the work in bed while he received and believed he was the greatest lover??? Always avoided discussing feelings would get mad or silent no feed back
Everything you say resonates. Went through all 12 signs for 5 long years...finally broke free. Yes it's an addiction. Never again will I put myself through it. Thank you for sharing.
Here is the deal. We all put ourselves in the position to be hurt. Yes, that includes me. I did it more than once. You can run away but until we work on ourselves and quit blaming them we will continue to attract the same type. This is helpful info to recognize what is going on so we can walk away and work on ourselves.
Yep, it all goes back to why I said yes in the first place. I blame myself for all of it. I repented for idealizing the person who is listed as my father on my documents. I repented for unknowingly appeasing the Jezebel Spirit.
@@becajaz I agree. There can be no predators without victims. Each plays a part. Without victims there can be no predators. End victim hood and there will be no predators to victimize. Without food the lion dies,
Yes that's a crucial point to make, because most of us who keep falling into those kind of abusive, life sucking, draining relationships obviously were raised in environments that did not teach us to EXPECT to be treated with love, respect, equality, fairness, or to EXPECT to be able to fully trust another person. From the get go (as teenagers usually) things start going awry & most will start to realize that we somehow have never known what we should be expecting or requiring in a mutually healthy love relationship, because we never witnessed that kind of a relationship. If all you saw all your life was abherrant, selfish, cruel, deceitful and inconsiderate behavior, if your home was abusive in any way or you were raised in a home where neglectful cold relationships were all atound you, then (until you figure out how much you've been affected by that) you dont even understand that your barometer is off from the get go. You probably think that depite your lacking, dysfunctional upbringing that you're not going to make the same mistakes your parents did, because you feel you are smarter, wiser, kinder, more able to judge people's character so you can't imagine that you'd ever fall in love with an abusive psycho. But you don't know how to pick a suitable person to be in love with, your upbringing has aused you to set the bar way too low already, because you think, "Well. they don't do _____ or ____ like my parents did so they are a much better person than my parents were.". What we overlook, what young people from abusive , dysfunctional homes too often fail to realize is; that their parents, when they were young, before marriage, kids, life's many problems, mental issues, addictions, physical problems & financial strains & failures happened, THEY didn't act the way YOU knew them, back when they met and married either, no, they grew to became the people you knew in middle age. So you may not even recognize toxic manipulative, gas lighting behaviors when they're right in front of you because you are just trying to avoid people who exhibit the undesirable traits of your parents that you did not like. You don't realize, your parent, at 18, 22, 26 may have acted just like the person you pick. Odds are you'll be attracted to some who will end up being very muxh like the parent you don't want to follow in's footsteps, if only beause their personality will feel comfortable to you. The need for affection, validation, attention, love is felt more intensely if you haven't had that as a child..That severely cripples our judgement when it comes to love & knowing how to pick a good mate. It's important to work on why we didn't see it, or if we did see it, but forged ahead with that person anyway, red flags screaming at us the whole time, to find out WHY we didn't listen to our own intuition & instincts and protect ourselves immediately. We have to work on valuing our own selves enough to protect ourelves & work on loving ourselves, so that we're not so vulnerable & wont accept crappy hurtful relationships or lives.
13 points; top score! Tears enough to flood the sea. Thanks a million for your most needed advice and help how to cope with such a person. After 33 yrs of marriage, I’ve learned to smile and wave; just like a queen. Children don’t STAY LITTLE and they quickly cotton on to what happens in the house and they made very sure that they don’t step in those footsteps with their partners. God is faithful and true and keeps me grounded; I’m truely happy and lucky to have raised wise and sincere, compassionate children. Blessed beyond believe and wish you only blessings and great success with your career.🙏💕
Gut feelings are so very important and paying close attention to those feelings ... the narcissist will cause pain while pretending to care ... covert malignant are the worst ... though they are all bad news for having joy in ones life
@@mahoganyshanae6116 my mother was too ... the emotional and psychological pain she inflicted on me in one particular point in time in my youth is beyond words to actually describe here .. it was the clearest red flag of pure evil narcissism she ever displayed ... of course no one was there to witness
My experience with my ex female covert/fragile Narc has taught me that one of the worse things a person can do is try and allow them back into your life for any reason whatsoever. She showed me the same exact behaviors over and over again and as I let her back in she would get colder and colder. I’ve never felt so alone while being in the arms of someone I thought I loved and who I wanted to believe loved me. She never once communicated anything other than her lies and her manipulation.
No conscience, no shame, no integrity. Worthless individuals. It’s only after you’re finally free of their chaos and you take stock of the whole relationshit, that you realise every aspect, including the sex, was emotionless, shallow and fake. They’re just abusers who groom their victims. Never ignore your gut instinct.
I was married to a covert narcissist for 21 years, divorce for 2 years and couldn't, for the life of me, understand why I could not let her go! She treated me horribly! Then a very close friend of mine suggested that perhaps I would benefit from watching a video. WOW! Someone actually put into words, the way I felt! It all came crashing down on me like a ton of bricks! Dr., this video describes my relationship with her about 98%! Thank you very much for sharing this with me! -D
Hi, your entire video resonates with me because "everything" you've mentioned, or at least 95% is exactly what I have experienced thus far with my ex-covert narc. It all began from the love-bombing to devaluing with silent treatments through the feeling of addiction. This relationship lasted on/off for 2 1/2 years. We broke up so many times that I cannot even count. Mainly because I had no idea what NPD or a Narc is. Through research, I learned what NPD is and what are the signs of a Narc by educating myself through watching videos and reading articles, etc. I was confused because there were characteristics that he did not possess; per my research, hence the confusion. For instance, among many other things he did that were not part of the trait of a Narc such as he would cuddle, and we would conversate after amazing sex in which he always took care of me first (although now I know why he did that, it was a way to get me addicted). I am experiencing the following conditions: trauma bonding, addiction-like feelings (body, mental and physical pain), uncontrollable tears, confusion, lost sense of self, frozen unable to think or comprehend, feeling stuck, and loss of confidence and I isolate myself because no one understands unless they have gone through this themselves. This has been the hardest thing I have ever done, nonetheless, the worst thing that I have ever dealt with in my life. Per his antics, he continually expressed that our breakups were all my fault. That I am childish, and due to that I do not know how to make the relationship work. That his reactions are because I am the root of the problem. That I am crazy, that I am a jealous woman therefore he cannot trust me. He taught me not to ask him questions, to walk on eggshells, and to know how and when I could ask or speak, as he kept me under his control with his conditioning and manipulation. He also insisted that therapy will never fix me because I am broken and I will never change. Lastly among so many more, he feels sorry for my therapist because he will make so much money out of me. After all, I am unfixable. Would you believe even after all that I have mentioned---I still went back to him? Until one day I said I'd had enough--No More! I was unrecognizable. I felt unworthy, unloved, alone, and stuck with no voice. Please know that he has been blocked out of all my social media, emails, texts, etc. He hasn't reached out because apparently, he has moved on while I am still picking up the pieces of my life. The reason I wrote all this is to bring awareness. People use the word NARC so loosely these days, and truthfully speaking a Narc is no joke. My ex-covert Narc does things subtly and tenderly that you won't know until it's too late---that's how it happened to me. I hope that my words can help someone as well as bring awareness because this is real. Please educate yourself, be careful and notice the red flags immediately, and don't forget--trust your gut before it's too late.
🙏🏽🙏🏽 i witnessed someone I love go through this & i ended up being scapegoated because she chose the narcissistic guy who literally drover her crazy & started treating me like he was treating her… So yeah, I also have experienced feeling this way…. I thought I was crazy too & just… worthless…. Idk.. I totally understand where you’re coming from & so do so many others.. .. i feel validated after watching this video & know I’m not the problem (not completely anyway or the root) I hope you know you’re not the problem either… & what he did to you isn’t your fault
I don't want to reply because he will find out some how some way but I want to say thank you I'm stuck I can't get away I've gotten in so deep before I would believe it was what it was.i wish we could talk but just having the words that you shared I appreciate knowing that it's just not me I'm sorry you went through what you did but I'm thankful you shared
Sorry to read about your experiences. Just remember if some lies you don't have to accept it. You can say no thanks, you keep your gift and they're the ones left holding it. All the best
@@carrieroff2562 I don't know what you mean by that you've "gotten in so deep", but let me tell you this, I had 5 kids, so I too felt utterly trapped with him, but I still left once I realized that my kids were getting scarred horribly by my late husband, I always thought he loved them, he certainy acted like he did, in many ways. But the sad truth is; a narc loves themselves WAY MORE than anyone, even their kids, so the kids too end up being put through hell, told lies (probably about you, in fact) & they end up scarred for life, if not by being directly abused by them somehow,, then they still are scarred by watching their mother be treated like crap for years, by seeing her 'take it'....you may be taking it to some degree thinking you're making THEIR life, your family's life better, pretnding all is fine ....because it's all you've been able todo so far to deal with it... but what the kids see is you not valuing your own self * mind, him getting his way, him never beig sorry for hurting others, and fear....they live with unnameable fear. Kids grow up and all too often end up emulating & imitating their parents, whether they plan to do that or not, because that is what was programmed into them by their daily life for 16 to 22 years all of the formative years of their personalities, strengths & weakneses....they are being taught that HE is the norm because it'sn all they'll ever see , hear & learn about how to have a relationship. I passed on MANY lessons this way that I never realized I was teaching them, I thought if I told them what to not accept in their lives, that was enough ,to educate them, but NOTHING overrides the childhood through young adulthood years they are watching you 2. , Whatever you KNOW about your narc, about his relationship with any children involved, it's NOTHING compared to ALL you don't know that he does & says behind your back, to your kids. You thnk they'll tell you if he ever treats them horribly ....I thought that too, but they can't tell you because he orders them not to. They know you or they ot all of you would only suffer more you see...and they know you apparently won't leace and stop him from retribution if tey tell on him, to you.... Please seek some help to plan a safe and doable way out, for your own sake, your right to happiness & respect but even more so for any chidren's sake, you see, you are the only one that CAN protect them from him. You are much stronger than you remember, so much wiser, so much more capable, just remember that onve you probably were happy & knew your own value....you can be happy again. You were fine when he came into yuor life....at least you were better off before a person decided to make you the dumping ground for all his toxic emotions. Give them back to him and walk away, if at all possible, but plan first, seek info and help.
Thanks so much, I have had a few narcissists come in to my clinic but it would have felt so wrong for me to let them keep coming back each week to give me money, it would feel like theft as I knew they weren’t listening to a word I was saying, well maybe they were listening but they weren’t respecting what I was saying.
You women will call us narcs if the sex blows your mind Well I walk on water. I levitate in perform a baptism in your holy water, leave you in a coma and levitate out! I guess I’m a narcissist because I’m confident and sex is insane. What’s my diagnosis?
@@jhonwayne1003 Your good in bed? Doesn’t make you a descent person. It depends on how long your girlfriend will keep dealing with your shit. Mine was fantastic in bed and you couldn’t pay me to be with him again. NO THANKS. You can levitate out of here now 👋
@@shellyg5705 I’m kicked her to the curb she was cheating, harem garage narcissist. I’m just always told I’m a narcissist because I’m super confident in my abilities and they feel as if I sucked their soul out of them during. Loyalty and consistency is key with me. 95 percent of women can’t do either. How dare you lol, don’t get scared because I want to bless you with my presence!
My wife has all of this. We went to a therapist to decide whether she could help us have a better relationship. When the therapist asked my wife "So what have you done wrong in this relationship?" My wife went red in the face and did not reply. After the interview my wife said she would not work with that therapist. Nowadays she prefers to have secret sex with women and blame me for why we are not having sex, amongst other things. Yes it can really be this bad with a narcissist.
the depths of their depravity is astounding. my wife slept with a bestfriend of mine from HS. The day after his wife gave birth. He said he would split a blunt with her if he could have her in his back seat because his wifes p***** was "busted"... Or the time she "accidentally" texted me pictures (of her with another man) and incredibly explicit messages instead of her boyfriend. Orrrrrrr the night she slept with between 5-10 guys one night. A visiting college sports team. Unporotected. But she did all of this because I hadn't invited her to my mothers funeral. ... ... .. because obviously you get invited to your mother in laws funeral...
@@davidhosni2655 There can be many reasons. Amidst all the bad things one is enduring through, the narcissist and the whole situation can still be extremely interesting. Like studying a broken device to understand how it functions, even when constantly getting cuts and burns while doing it.
Condescending 💯 by pretending to know you, telling you what you should do how to direct you life💯💯 giving you “guidance” that’s really what is in their best selfish interest
It’s odd how these relationships are incredibly horrible and yet also incredibly addicting. I could totally relate to the narc being the only one who can “make it all better “. I guess in order to really heal we have to address the problems within ourselves.
On point there, our problems & how other people treat us, is all about who we are, we need to sort ourselves first before me even find ourselves on another frequency. Due to too many short circuit in our frequency, we allow bad people to ruin our beautiful gift of living.
Exactly. You are not in full control of what life has thrown at you. You have only several small moments, like each breath you take to slowly steer yourself out of the situation.
Every time you didn't say no to the Narcissist because you felt weak and probably had low self-esteem. Every time you allowed them to walk on you and be condescending without holding them accountable. Every time they manipulated you and you took it because you knew you were in an inferior position! Every time your gut told you to run but you didn't. Every time you felt you are doing all the hard lifting and went to them and they dismissed and ignored you as if you are a crazy person! Every time they lied to you and made you feel crazy and weird and you let them get away with it. Every time you let your happiness depend on someone or something outside you! The good news is that it's never too late to walk away from anything and anyone toxic, You are valid, worthy, and beautiful keep telling yourself that, and don't look for people's validation. All you need to do is to work on yourself and be thankful, and grateful for going through this because it should teach you a lesson so as not to fall into the same trap again. Good luck sister.
For anyone who has gone to bed early curled up extemely sad , crying, in mental anguish looking at your phone waiting for a reply message for days, hours on end it's time to leave. Trust me once you get the 'heroin' out, life is better on the other side. Now I look at him as I would a bad addiction I kicked, how did I ever get into that in the first place, it was disgusting.
Go easy on yourself. When we go through trauma from the narcissist and then we make up, our brain releases chemicals that we can actually get addicted to. It's kind of like what long distance runners describe as runner's high. So it's a literal addiction, it's just that most people don't understand that's what's going on. So don't beat up on yourself.
So glad people, YOU, are putting this information out there. Wish I had this info so readily available 20 years ago. Could have saved me a lot of heartbreak. Thanks so much for your work!
Lots of highly sociopathic people are born from narcissists due to not getting any form of real love or affection. They just don’t develop the correct processing skills for feelings like love and attachment- because it was something they seriously lacked. A sociopath in my opinion is not a bad person- and can actually want to have these feelings and recognise something is missing. They want to feel that way and they could try to feel that way. Because they really do want to- they just can’t or struggle to process emotions which they seriously lacked. They are not bad people really, they just lack the ability to process emotional response. It does not mean they do not want to have those feelings, because I believe often they do.
Thank you for making this video, just experienced in the last situationship. My needs were not met nor respected. He became angered when I asked for my needs to be met. He also blamed me for his anger. He ignored my wants and desires. And at that moment I knew I can’t continue being involve with a narcissist.
You basically described my dad and almost every man I have ever known in my life time. It took me 33 years to finally end my relationship with my parents. I am 35 now and still suffer from PTSD and C-PTSD because of the abuse I suffered from my parent all these years plus the abuse I suffered from almost any man I ever knew and some that I did not even know.. Trauma bond is very real! I've been trying so hard to brake the cycle but nothing I do seems to work. I always find myself back in the cycle of abuse. Now days I want nothing to do with people anymore. I barely talk to people and barely leave my house. I feel like I hate humans and it's because of all the abuse and trauma I endured through out my life. I am diagnosed with severe case of PTSD and C-PTSD. Don't know if anyone will ever read this or respond but I just wanted to share.
It takes a lot of time and conscious effort but I promise you’ll come out.🌼 You don’t need to love other people, you only need to love yourself really. And given that you were such a magnet to such and so many of these monsters, you surely have quite a lot of loveable things about you.
One thing I've noticed and isn't publicly brought up alot with sex with a narcissist so thanku for touching on that. It always feels empty, no matter how hard I tried for years. There's no connection. Making love is not possible. Just selfish sex . Of course casual or fun sex as long as safe consensual is totally fine but, there's never real connection during the act
Yep, so empty and robotic in nature, no care or consideration. Two orgasms in three years, and both were weak crap ones WTF. This new guy I'm seeing gave me about six in one night, so I know the issue isn't me LOL. But OK, it's not about the sex completely it's about building a connection and feeling good with someone. There is intimacy and it's so nice after years of being treated like trash.
Sex for them is to get off. You are there to serve them. They don’t care about your needs and definitely don’t care about connection or emotional intimacy.
The only healthy relationship with a narcissist is no relationship. Zero contact.
Thank you for your comment
No contact period
@@Gemini-sb8mv 💯
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This is true
"The reason why the Narc decided to leave you is because they couldnt control you"
So true. They didnt "reject" you nor that you were not "good enough" You were too strong for them. Be proud.
Kudos to us.
Yup
@@pares7 lkoo
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This
1) They perceive sex differently
2) They need to be idealized by you
3) They are right and you are wrong
4) They believe that they know you better than you know yourself
5) They don't want to communicate about sex
6) Your needs and emotions don't matter
7) There is something wrong with you
8) You will get devalued, ghosted or ignored
9) They want to be in control at all times
10) They will lie
11) They are not kind people
12) They will never apologize
13) You won't connect with them emotionally
Thank you for sharing
100% correct
@@latinaalma1947 👍👍👍
Spot on
All of them in my ex only 4 sexual dates and I run 🏃♀️ from him so crazy
They don't discard you they set you free.....
Amen ♥️
❤🎉 You are so right! My narcissist used to say " I'm sorry. I love you" when we were arguing and he was losing😮
My reply was always "I know you're sorry you love me" But that was just my imagination. He didn't love me at all! And he proved it over and over
Best comment ❤
I love the way you said that
Say it again!!
Dealing with a narc is so draining, one minute everything is great and they telling you they love you . The next minute your being ignored 🤦🏽♀️ I hate it here ‼️
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Wow, same thing I went through.
It's spiritual warfare. They're trying to keep you from using the gift God gave you to do His will here on earth. Don't they seem like an alien hybrid that's demonic at the core?
A narc pretends to love you but they don,t & raise potential red flags
@@ecaddy73 yes exactly what I mean
Narcissists don't make you feel safe.
Thank you for your comment
If only I'd trusted my gut feelings all along xx
Why would another person need to make you feel safe the only person truly responsible for your safety is yourself.
@@mariotibbrine1 facts
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So, do you fear your house burning down with you in it?! Or do you think the smoke detectors will alert you, and the fire department will put out the fire?
Every human being alive places a certain amount of trust into the people, and institutions around them. If you can't trust your partner to help maintain the safety of your children and yourself then what do you have?
From the narcissists I've known they appear to me as people who never really matured in emotional feelings and in relationships with others. They are controlled by their own insecurities.
PERFECTLY Said. MY OPINION Completey same !!! My mom is one and as her parents abandoned her at her Grandparents who Obviously did not Care to Raise her with Love and Teach them GOOD values and all=NON, I believe she started HATING from young age and bc of the Emotional Trauma may have been VERY hard she NEVER has Matured and is now just passed 70 !!! And she abandoned me when I was 12 with my Stephfather who used to spank us, when Mom wanted him to...
Exactly. Behave like jealous toddler forever
Perfectly said
You are sooooo CORRECT..
There's an actual understanding about them, that that is the case.
"arrested development."
This video absolutely nails it. It’s unbelievable. I broke up with my girlfriend yesterday after she withdrew intimately, physically and mentally. It’s been one of the most painful months of my life. Everything was going completely fine then wham…the light shut off. She didn’t have time to see me, didn’t want to talk over the phone and her text messages were limited to ‘morning’ and ‘good night’. This is someone who ripped my clothes multiple times a day for the first six months then pulled it all away gradually. Now I’m the one to blame.
On a positive note, I’ve found God again. It made me realize that I need to build the foundations of my life on rock vs sand. To feel unconditional love and acceptance and can’t seem to find anywhere else. Tears were shed but I felt whole. I felt loved. Thank God.
You got this, man. Same thing happened to me.
@cbeers21 Thank you for sharing this. I noticed how the narcissist pulls us away from God.
@@bsraeder Same. To be avoided at all cost. They are waste of time and life. They have no empathy. They are nice only if they can achieve from us time, attention and energy breaking our borders, enjoying breaking our boundaries and their power. When we set up our boundaries and demand the same amount of time, attention and energy from them, they fight damaging us or just dissapear. They are parasites. For my next relationship I will demand respect and exactly the same amount of investment as I do. Amen.
Things will get better God is always the answer and God has got your back amen
Abstinence before marriage seems to weed out all the narcissists I've met and it's the way God intended for our protection
I swear you just described my entire marriage from day one!!!!22 years of misery and all sorts of abuse but I’m divorced 6 months now!!!
I'm sorry for what you went through! It's hell on earth. I'm still in it! It's many years for me.
Congrats on your courage! You already inspired me!
I pray your in peace...and have joy...🤗
21 years... filing for divorce next week, Lord’s willing... he’s a Pastor
@@ao2864 You can do it girl! And the worst thing to do is keep in contact and if you have to just nice and short conversations! If you need anything you let me know! I am so proud of you and I know you can do it!
@@francinacapers5491 I pray in the name of Jesus that he guides you and pray before every move, when you talk to him he listens and then you have to listen as well! If you need anything you let me know as well! Much love sister! God is good!
@@wendyn3531 thank you! I really appreciate that. It's a blessing to be around folks that are going thru very similar things. Meaning the traits of a Narc, are the same. Most don't understand, or say then leave...
I'm proud of you.
Sending love 🤎 hugs
If all their exes are crazy and they always seem to be the victim, RUN!!! You’ll be next😢
Happened to me.
4 divorces and none were her fault. No accountability and never wrong.
Yes, my husband told me he mother of his child was crazy, then later on I was as crazy as the mother of his child
Yes! I was the red flags, still got me hooked 😢💔
people like you suffocate some of the realest victims ever with your psychobabble bs
My narcissist partner was a wonderful lover. To himself.
To me, was the worst I ever had.
This 😂👍🏻
Too funny 😂🤣😅 they do believe that
What I couldn’t figure out is why he thought it was a turn on for me…when he put his hand down his own pants 😂…I’m sorry but that’s not a turn on for me..he also tried telling me that if I wanted sex, it made him feel bad because he felt his ex had sexually abused him by acting like he hurt her…ummm…ok? So no wanting sex…got it…now I just avoid it all lol..I’m single and it’s so.much less confusing and destructive
That is funny 😂 (and sadly true) 🤨.
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Narcissists are charismatic manipulative trainwrecks...thanks lovely lady!
If you are a nice kind person who cares about others, you are bait for these types
Such a messed up world.
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They will use you kind empathetic heart in a way that they will make you feel sorry for them even when you know they did you wrong. They will twist it around using other toxic people who will also manipulate you to believe that the 3rd party disrespect and his behavior was your fault. Toxic and manipulative but trust me their comes a time when you must say enough is enough and walk away for good.
YES great comment .
STOP making excuses for abuse .
STOP forgiving the unforgivable .
@@astroemerald3175 absolutely
They get you with the lovebombing and you are always trying to chase that, always trying to get back how they used to be.....it never comes back except in crumb form. It's so twisted. The only way you will ever rid yourself of them is if you block them on everything so you can move on & heal. If you do not do that...they will come back over and over and the whole vicious cycle happens again, without the lovebombing/golden period. Trust your intuition, you know when someone isn't good for you. Disengage from them and do not ever look back. I promise you, you will heal and get better if you do.
Thank you for sharing
Zebras do not change their Stripes...
Only the Power of God can bring Deliverance only if the seek it, which is very rare....
I went through this for 8 years,, a vicious cycle,,,
Trust your gut. It is leading you right.
I think I recently met one. He stumps me. Im going to run away
They want you to be submissive to them . Or to humiliate you. Or control you .
Run away . Fast please!
Thank you for sharing
Agreed
Thank you.
Truth.
Majority of men are like this 🤓
So true and thank you for this reminder
Working on self love is worth every second. I was abused for over a year by a narcissist. Never again. Most painful period of my entire life
The Lord has restored me I finally caught the courage to tell him to leave for good after 20 years of marriage. It's been so much. But I know God has my back. God bless you.
28 years here.
Its been 16 yrs for me of abuse
I hope you're out now.@@suewalker4903
I been with female narcissists worst time of my life adore me only to discarded me as if I never existed sex mad and money mad for men
Trauma bonding is actually a spell from hell.
So True.
Agreed. I found out that I'm trauma bonded with my current gf snd I am desperately trying to cut the cord
@@junkyjoe11 praying that you will 🙏🙏
Legit spawns of Satan
@@junkyjoe11 You can and you will....the more you go back and find YOURSELF....The person you really truly are....they less hold she will have on you.Much success to you.👍🏾👏🏾
No empathy, No humility, Not able to take ownership for their behavior and consequently not willing to do the real work.🙏
So true.
Amen 🙏
BOOM- nailed it
Facts
Anyone who is kind and giving is bait for the narcissist. RUN don't walk away.
Thank you for sharing
That's what happened to me. My kindness and compassion is what got me trapped. I never imagined a female could be so heartless and cruel, It's still a hard pill to swallow that there's millions of them out there.
@@7x779 don't do what some of us have and go back to these people after they do the love bombing again. I now completely understand the psychopathy. But unfortunately he trapped me once more and it's now a battle. Threatening my livelihood and where we live together. Always a third party or a triangulation. I don't understand why he would have to have a gaggle of men around him constantly but he does. I believe these people are demons or are possessed.
@@7x779 Male lol. I don't know why it typed female
@@petraselah7152 I appreciate the response and support. I wish I had known these things from the beginning. I did succumb to the fake repentance, Love bombing and good deeds. It has grown to an entangled mess and and going to be difficult.
I was in trauma bonding cycle for 12 years. It was very hard for me to leave. I was love addicted, and lonely for most of that 12 years. Luckily I was able to leave and escape unscaved. The reason for this whole ordeal was childhood trauma and growing up with a narcissist. I am free quite few years and my life is so much better. I am healing and I am thankfull to be alone.
Never tell anyone about your past, it's behind you. I only look forward.
A narc will make you feel safe and get you to open up about your past and then later on, use it against you. Somehow.
You’re right. Leave the past behind and move forward.
💯 % correct!!! They will use & do everything you told them. I speak from experience. Never again!!!
@@odettelyne1911 Remember what you've learned from experience to create a healthy future.
I used to have the impulse to cry right after sex, for "no reason". I had no idea this was a common thing with people in narcissistic relationships.
Yes this is actually quite a common feeling after having sex with narcissists, as woman we store a lot of emotions in our pelvises and these emotions get released during sex, when we have sex we are our most vulnerable with someone and to not feel safe in this space and no true emotional connecting can trigger lots of feelings of despair, sadness, anxiety, we can feel very alone and lost in those moments.
Alice C 🌺, 🥺🖤 I'm sorry you had to go through that... thanks for sharing. I don't think I've ever talked about that to anyone... same - I took it as if there was something broken in me, and they gladly went with that because they don't have the capacity to safely look at their dark side.... It all stems from trauma. literally every high npd trait I've personally encountered- in me or in another- could directly be traced back to traumatizing abuse that person suffered as a child. almost everyone in my family on both sides have various high narcissistic traits, passed down from generations, like genes 🧬... how is it for your family , if you don't mind me asking ?
@@lilithjesus7718 I have the tendency to attract abusive narcissistic people. People pleaser since I was little because I was raised to be a good girl and I would suffer before expressing any discomfort I was feeling. Working hard every day to change this.
Interesting, so you knew he was a bad boy but had to sleep with him anyway? I have seen that syndrome in many women.
Damn....and all this time I thought I was tearing that ass up!!...well....lesson learned...Stay Safe
A really good breakdown of what it's like being in a relationship and having sex with a narcissist.They will use sex as a control weapon against you, ie I didn't like how you behaved this weekend, so I didn't have sex with you. The love bombing also accompanies the sex. Beware the rush to intimacy and premature talk of love, marriage, moving in right away, soul mates, promises to buy you stuff. The trauma bond is tough to break. Treat it like an addiction.
Yeah, I feel like I'm in the middle of this rush right now. So confusing. We've known for two months and he wanted to get engaged, move in, telling me I'm his first ever love for the first sight and so on.
I noticed he has brought all of his stuff here and said we should slow down, because I can't go on this fast and get panicked.
I have had very traumatised relationships before, so I want to be careful and go on step by step... So for few weeks he's been very cold for me since I told this. Although I told it very gentle and kind way so that I wouldn't hurt his feelings.
So let's see how this goes... He says he still loves me and want to be with me, but his actions are sooooo cold. And he said he gets cold when he has to use the breaks now 🤷🏼♀️. I don't feel loved or cared anymore anyway. Ahhh, so confusing, so confusing... 🤦🏼♀️
I talked about coldness 👇and here was talked adout distance. That's the same thing, I guess... Might be that I experience it coldness then... 🤔
@@fitsu3 They do seem to withdraw and get distant quickly when you try to slow things down. She would press me on if I loved her, talked about marriage and moving in within 3-4 months of dating and when I would say I need more time, I have strong feelings but this all seems too fast, she would push back for some type of guarantee and/or withdraw for days at a time.
I think an emotionally mature and stable person would respect your decision and boundary while still being there for you and available.
To me, it seems like they rush things to both feed their need for control and security, once they have you trauma bonded or locked into a joint living situation, then the abuse and manipulation intensifies. Be careful.
@@kennethsilvestri5874 Yes, I feel like now I have to protect myself and be careful.
I also told him if I got my things to your place and you told me to slow down, I would say oh I'm sorry and I didn't mean to push you. And I would show him that despite of his wish to slow down I still loved him 🤷🏼♀️.
Of course it would be easier to control when living together, I guess.
I will be careful and be kind of aware... Thanks 🙏
I happened into the interaction as impromptu sex work, we were making a film, then after one she decided no film just rehearsal. the only time she was able to behave rationally is when it was like that, good behavior first then payment. that dynamic accidentally supplies what the narcopath (who is sexual in an object/property kind of way) is looking for. the problem is that they experience a falloff of the reward chemistry, so they have to up the stakes. they have to start pissing you off, using threats or similar, etc, in order to keep it up. they cannot be content in a stable ongoing sexual relationship. the weird thing too is that they warn you you don't want them as a person. they tell you you only wanted the pretend person the stripper and later hold it against you like you were a bad person for wanting a sex worker to be your exclusive sexual partner. it was weird. I was never able to reinstate the working schedule / pacing structure despite believing it could have worked if she would see that I would never ever allow any other form of contact due to the toxic behavior
My son’s father is a narcissist and I was with him for 8 years. After chasing something so unattainable for so long you lose yourself. It took a lot to free myself and I’m still recovering every day.
Same here
It's gets BETTER WITHOUT THEM, I PROMISE!!!
I think I was with a narcissist the relationship well it was like a game of cat and mouse it was terrible!!
My early life would have been so different, if I’d had this knowledge. I was a narc magnet.
Knowledge comes from the experience. You could watch a hundred videos on RUclips, yet still go out & make the same mistake.
But the information can put your experience into context.
I was an empath who wanted to help others and was vulnerable after my divorce as a single mother looking for love. I was a narc magnet for years and it's hurt me so much that I'm alone at 40 years old now .
Thanks Rachel!! Thought it was just me! Sorry you went through it too! We are strong though!! Moving on!
Princess it just wasn’t time yet ,now you have the knowledge God has blessed you trust his timing.
Healthy vs abusive relationships needs to be taught in school right along with health class
They get validation by seeing you hurt..... They know they hurt but don't care....
They feed off of that; it's fuel for them.
Exactly. It's pretty sad. It has taken me 7 years, but I'm getting out finally. I lost my first spouse to cancer and end up marrying into this nightmare which was the total opposite of my late spouse who was the love of my life!! 😭
@@Mea_DS That's heartbreaking. The only regret in leaving a narcissist is not doing it sooner. Wishing you well. 🤍
@Ilir Cami He was very gentle, respectful, honorable, compassionate, and patient with me . He didn't try to change to me to fit his mold or what he thought I should be. He helped to shape me and only added value to my life. He didn't criticize me and put me down. He didn't try to compete with me, but celebrated me. I was the same with him. We just fit well together with no force. Within a couple of months meeting him I knew he was the one. I felt it in my soul! However, it was short lived. 5 years wasn't enough. We were not perfect by any stretch, but we bonded very well. We had so many plans, but as it goes with life interruptions happen. I'm grateful for the time spent with him. Now I am in the process of truly healing and living for me as that is what he would want me to do.
@@VioletJoy you are absolutely right!! Having a child in the middle of it all definitely make it harder to fully break away.
I was with someone who stopped saying I love you, stopped talking about us only about work. He only ever was talking about work. Never about us. No more dates. No more salutations except to the kids we shared. Had a business, bought a house, never married me. It was all about him and his life and his outlook. I was just a passenger in HIS journey.
I felt same... It's all about them.. my views, priority, choices, pleasure nothing matters
What does it mean when someone tries but no matter the effort it is never good enough
Yup its a severe mental illness
My ex gf was the exact same.
That last sentence
Four years of chasing the carrot on a stick, only to be rejected, cheated on, shoved out of the relationship and our home, and rather than showing any empathy for the massive hurt that she caused she then tried to assassinate my character where we both worked, filed court orders against me without cause, filed charges against me, sought to have me fired and jailed, and was almost successful. And it took me 14-years to finally come to grips with who she was and what she was.
Wow, you are not alone.....you described my life. I fell deeply for the love bombing, the extreme sex, the no feeling after sex, then the devaluing, threats every year to leave me, and finally discarded me.....moved out. Told me it was always her plan after 14 years together. Now, I have been dragged to court, being lied about, character dragged out in social media for 2 years. When does it stop? You think you are in this relationship for life, until 1 day they leave, threaten you, call you names, and assasinate your character!!! Its like a whole different person appears.....or is it just the same person and you didnt let yourself realise it? Its great to hear this is not a new thing....only happening to me. Its not great it happens to other people but at least we all can hear that we are not alone.
5 years for me dude you’re not alone
I’m really sorry you had to go through all that and I’m happy for you that you got free…
Same!! I anointed her the nickname of "light switch"... I'm over the dating, relationship GAME! It's a weird feeling looking at the rest of my future being a loner. But I'm not even going to chance this crap again, ever!
5 years also, I have a child with the person walking away has been awful.
At 66 years old and having seen phychologists, this is the first time that I understand what had been happening to me and why. Thank you so much.
@A M most narcissist I know are women
I’m 65 and have spent the last 18* yrs with a NPD individual!! I am a high level Empath and did not know about any of this until I got away from it and his older brother and his wife (adore them both) brought it to my attention! The last 4 months have been the most enlightened for me & the absolute worst for him! I have been freed!! Thank You, Jesus!
I wanted to tell you that that I am almost 70, and until about a year ago, I still blamed myself because I was unknowingly rejected by a narcassist who fooled me into thinking our relationship was ruined by me, and I didn,t know what it was. And because I was honest and insecure I didn,t even ask him what it was. I was totally confused and keep trying to get that really nice loving feeling back. it didn,t work and left me emotionally scared. Finally, I realized, it wasn,t anything I said or did, it was his fear of emotional Intimacy. It took me almost 40 years to finally realize this. Good for both of us, lets just keep getting more peaceful and happy!!
@A M And women can never be narcissists, only men with large penises can be, right?🤔🙄
Much 💕 love.. me tooooo
1. They perceive sex differently--it is a conquest/control. 2. They need to be idealized and adored by you--best you've ever had, etc. 3. They are absolutely right, and you are absolutely wrong. Your point-of-view does not matter. (My parents) 4. They believe that they know you better than you know yourself. Tells you what you are, what you think. (My Mom) 5. They won't want to communicate about sex. No two-way communication. 6. Your needs and emotions do not matter. (My husband) 7. There's something wrong with you. (They will have you committed, too.) They are top dog. 8 You will be devalued, invalidated, and ignored. (And ghosted) They are not getting the same high from you as before, and so they distance themselves......draw you in and drop you. 9. They want to be in control all the time. They will drop you permanently when they see that they cannot control you. 10. They will lie. 11. They are not kind. They do not care about pleasing you. They will distance themselves after sex. True intimacy is not possible for them. 12. They do not apologize. Their apologies will feel insincere. 13. You won't truly connect with them emotionally, no true intimate emotional connection.
1) You might become addicted to them. 2) Trauma bonding has a role to play--most often seen in individuals who have experienced abuse or neglect during childhood. 3) They do not change.
We all have some narcissistic traits.
4) A codependent needs to be needed.
Negative emotions are never negative. They are warning you to get away. (This is why I have disengaged from my sisters, daughter, and parents).
Thank you!
OMG your summary of this video is so awesome, 🙏🏽 thank you!
Factd
Thank you!
Thank you for saving me some time!
Sex is a weapon to them. My ex partner has withheld it from me to punish me. I've felt so unloved for so many years.
Same
The same happened to me. Exactly the same. I have felt so unloved for years. I am in a sexless marriage 😞he punished me because l still don’t want to have children with him yet, so he decided that we were not going to have sex at all UNLESS l wanted to try to have children. It’s horrible. It backfired on him because now l don’t even want him near me. We sleep in separe rooms and l don’t want anything to do with him anymore. I am considering divorce, and planning on moving out soon. Can’t take this anymore.
@@MR-mv6hd my ex gf did me the same way
@@ASE_Avenue l am glad she is your “ex”. It is all abuse and manipulation. I didn’t know what l was dealing with. Don’t go back to that. It’s so toxic and dysfunctional. It kind of makes you feel “crazy” too. I developed sever depression and anxiety. I just want out. Take care and stay out of it for your sanity.
@@MR-mv6hd if you need a friend contact me. God bless you sweetheart. Please I beg you to get out.
Things to do. Number 1. Love them from a distance. Number 2. Walk away ,Block and Delete them. Continue working on yourself and let go of what didn't serve you. Amen. God Bless you all. Stay strong. God is with you all.
Best advice!! ❤🙏
Don’t look back!
What if they’re your neighbor
Thank you 🙏🙏🙏Amen God bless you too 💖✨️🕊
@@odosamamweniyenoma8871😅 i love this one, cause my ex/my son's father has been my neighbour (within walking distance) for 2,5 years now. Because he decided to move close by. I should really pray and actively try to move away now, even though i love the neighborhood. Life can really be liked a scripted movie.
Watch for pushing your sexual boundaries early on. The last Narc I was with was constantly asking me for sexual things that were insanely inappropriate within weeks of knowing him. I never once felt close to him. Also watch for how quickly they move away from you or turn their back on you after the deed is done. They are lazy, demanding and mechanical. He was all over dating apps the moment I couldn’t offer complete focus on his needs. He was completely empty inside.
They demand sexual favors They themselves are not doing
Married 10 years, divorced now. There was never a birthday gift, or Christmas gift, Nothing celebrating valentines day. Or our anniversary. He never once said I love you. He would be asleep within a minute after sex at night, never did he coddle, hold my hand, or hug. So so glad that nightmare is over
Was his name Jamie?
@@hopefully2224 no, Rory.
@@missminti sorry you went through it. They're demons
"Don't feel bad if you crave their attention and affection."
Thank you for explaing what neurotransmitters are released and how it affects the mind and body. I wondered what was wrong with me, but as it turns out, this is completely normal. Now I feel empowered to continue to learn the healing process.
Thank you for sharing
I always felt bad for craving my ex's attention and love, always. He made me feel like there was something wrong with me for wanting his affection and love. I was so in love with him, that of course I wanted his love reciprocated! But he only wanted to give and receive love on his terms.
Seriously I was feeling pathetic
@@mariahsisneros7572 I'm in this situation now and I need to get away from hime asap
I just had to turn him down today and it was soooo difficult. I told him that I can't get over him if I'm under him.
I briefly got back with my ex. I realized he was a narc. As a young woman I didn’t know but as a middle aged woman, I saw the signs clearly. Talked about himself, didn’t want to hear my POV, sexually selfish and was rude. Talking to him went nowhere, so I stopped talking to him, period. No regrets.
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Same
Good 4 u👍
Lee, my ex, (whom I discarded) was very selfish about sex. Only wanted his needs met. He was AWFUL, but I didn't care anymore. The damage was already done.
Best advice for codependents, after first time intimacy and u noticing they are a narcissist, RUN and NEVER go back otherwise known as no contact !
Their egoes will be crushed and you will be saved from a lifetime of HORRIFIC TRAUMA!!
FREAKING NEVER EVERRRRRRR CHASE THEM, heck never even ask them for explanation or try to find you're value with them !!!
YOU'RE WORTH IT !! You deserve to be treated with respect and love ! Anyone who doesn't understand this is not worth you're presence, not the other way around !
I’m beginning to understand that self love will not attract a narcissist because self love puts up boundaries you won’t cross for them because you love yourself. They can’t be in that situation because they need every fiber of your being to be on them.
Thank you for sharing
This makes me happy and sad.
When I first met my narc, I was a practicing Christian. We dated but I wouldn't sleep with him. After 2 months, he just stopped answering my calls. It drove me crazy, I was obsessed with finding out what happened for months.
Then I found out he got back with his ex & figured that was the reason. But he dropped me because he couldn't get to me thru sex.
Cut to 10 years later, he's going thru a divorce and I am not longer a Christian, no boundaries. We reconnect and he dives in head first. He saw what a bad place I was in and started his process.
Makes me sad to think I got suckered in all because I had no boundaries.
Yup. Which is the exact reason my ex loved toxic women. Most of the time, toxic people are unable to love themselves properly.
@@Ciupanezu1923 Lol! Says the narcissist who doesn't understand normal people.
If you are trying to express your opinion which is always wrong.... you're accused of starting something and even instigating. It's a reality check when a 50 year old tells you that you started it first by trying to start something by expressing how you feel...not allowed
PAY ATTENTION to these signs!!! This pretty much sums up my last relationship! I had no idea what narcissism was. In the end I ended up feeling completely devalued, unwanted and dejected by the whole experience
I'm going threw that now he left on a bad time everything went to crap sex stoped kissing stoped holding hands everything and now I stayed for to long he left bad and I'm hurt angry disappointed I want to scream I don't no I'm angry to 😢
@@kaydencegauthier3857 no nu NJ
Very accurate video! This is my current marriage
I recommend taking a sociology class in deviant behavior early in life.
Engaging with a narc when you don't realise they are a narc is like walking into a minefield thinking it's a meadow
They leave you feeling alone and disconected
No kind of intimacy just emptiness
Run for your life !
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So after 23 years of living with a narcissist, my soon to be ex-husband and having a small child with him, I have realized within the past few years what has actually been going on this entire relationship. So much emotional abuse, cheating, the micro affairs with younger women who stroke his ego, the gaslighting, blame shifting and stonewalling. It is like waking up from one nightmare into another, and I started thinking about sex, and how that has always been something that has been a very strange topic with us and also some thing we are never able to really discuss. I realized a lot earlier on in our relationship sex was different, but it slowly changed. He is attentive in bed and will make sure that I am satisfied but as soon as it is over, he is gone. He leaves the room. He goes out to watch TV or play video games. He needs to almost detach from what just happened. There is no cuddling there is no snuggling there’s no spooning no kissing no sweet talk pillow talk nothing at all. There is absolutely no emotion and it’s almost like a robot. I always thought that I was lucky because he paid attention to me but then afterwords I would always feel empty like something was just not right and now I’m realizing that this is what has been going on and I don’t feel so alone anymore.
there something about narcs and physical thouch i was friends with a narc female she told me once she hates physical thouch she even once told me her friend who gave birth was acting weird because she was kissing her baby too much
micro affairs? shut up!
I could have written this comment myself- almost word for word. In bed, he was very attentive, but I had such a starnge feeling of being alienated. I realize now that is really was all about him feeling good about himself pleasing me- it wasn't about intimacy, bonding, or caring how I personally felt. The lying, the cheating, the office emotional affairs, gaslighting, stone walling, and relentless smear campaigns. He isolated me from everyone, including his entire family by picking fights over nothing just before we were supposed to go to a family event. Just found out he told them I wasn't interested. I feel so broken from this. I gave everything I had, and after 20 years, he abandoned me and told me to go to a shelter. Now he is running after a new supply, and pushing intimacy prematurely as he always does.
With all the talk about being his "soul mate"and idealizing me, especially in bed in the early days, I really thought sex was a mutually bonding experience. But it really is about getting satisfaction in themselves as being a great lover. That's a powerful thing for them, but there is no emotional bonding at all.
@@nikiyoussef55 yes! And I’m an empath, apparently (several therapists have mentioned that) and my love language is touch. I think that’s why it’s doubly saddening and frustrating because he will say “I don’t know what more you want from me” and I will say well what about foreplay and he acts like it’s this huge chore. It’s really awful.
You just described my ex wife..
This is exactly why I will never have sex before marriage again! Had my heart ripped out. If I had gotten to know him, before being so intimate, I would have saved myself a world of pain. Sex creates powerful bonds that are not easy to break. Perfect for keeping a health marriage together during difficult times, but an absolute disaster when it bonds you to someone who doesn’t love.
This is how I feel as well!!
Hear hear. In Britain our culture (I'm generalising, here) is 3rd or 5th date. Too soon. Too soon.
Don't believe you would have found out before marriage. It was a couple years into the marriage when the transformation took place.
Isnt Marriage already exposed? Why is beeing married stil viewed as some kinda safety? Why are so many divorce then? ( sry for my bad english)
marriage is yet again only a word that can be filled diffrently and can even be a hook cause it´s something especially women are raised to see as an echievment. so it can be part of the gaslighting tools to lock u up. i am glad i have no will to marry whatsoever cause i feel like i dont need a label for my relationship. love is not less cause u dont follow social labels. my narc played that proposing-card when shit got already rough n i was about to leave. future faking didnt work with me. but getting married was nothing tht was part of my dreams he or anybody can "fullfill". n he never understood. cause he thought: but a "real" woman wants that. u get what i want to say
31:48 yeah that uneasy uncomfortable feeling is exhausting they just constantly judge and critique you
Looks like he messed up to me pretty gal dumb shit
Spot on 👍
I got the distinct feeling that he was simply going through the motions with his glib charm and manners on the first couple dates. I was correct because 2 months later he’d outright ignore questions I’d ask straight to his face, like I was invisible. I keep chasing him until one day I realized, I didn’t actually like him at all. He was really fucking mean and cold.
I felt like I was being tested and judged
So sad Sweet Heart..you should meet up with someone 4 coffee 😊😁😊😎
How about they want you to satisfy them and they don't care if you're satisfied or not is that one of the signs
That’s definitely a sign.
My life....
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Unfortunately that's just a sign he's a man.
I think we need to look at what is a real man not a male but a man and a man do not do that
I've been done with narcissists for about 8 years now. I'm no contact with my narcissistic parents and quit my job as a security guard since I kept getting one after another narcissistic managers who were usually ex cops. My body couldn't tolerate the toxicity anymore. After 8 years of no contact I've healed in so many ways it's beyond what I could have imagined.
Ex cop coworker. Yeah. I had to file sexual harassment charges against one. Luckily, he quit soon after.
Wow it seems the industry attracts the controlling overt type Narcs. I too had 2 Narc parents and was in an abusive marriage for almost 23 yrs. Take 1 guess what I'm currently doing for a living? Campus Safety Officer. Also worked in contract and federal security and you're right about the narc management situation. I'm miserable in my current post because of this and am looking to leave the industry. Security Protection Services definitely attracts that personality disorder.
They do affect your body. Had PTSD after 7 years with an evil pedo ex. Also grew up with narc mother. These people have trained us well. I'm finally realizing I have to put up stronger boundaries and protect my soul.
The guy I’m “seeing “ now that I suspect has some narcissistic tendencies was a cop and DEA agent. It must go along with the job.
That's crazy wow
Everything your saying is true. I was with a narcissist for 5 years. I had low self esteem. I thought I was in love because like you said at the beginning of our relationship he was overly lovable. Then after a while he started mentally & emotionally abusing me. He did what ever he wanted & I was not allowed to. He did almost everything to be & I thought that if I leave him I wouldn’t have any friends because he was so nice to other people. Even when I told my best friend she couldn’t believe it. I finally fell out of love with him & had had it & I just walked away. I hope people notice this because it’s just a waste of time. 5 years wasted. There’s a lot more to it. Every kind of abuse with this person. Hope this helps someone.
I like u
Really
I love u
I m alone 👧👧👧👧😍😍😍😍❤❤❤❤🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🙋🙋🙋
I once expressed to my ex that I wasn't feeling good enough for her. I tried to be open about how I was feeling.
She burst into tears and proceeded to change the topic to about how she was feeling. Saying things like "that means I'm not doing good enough for you. I'm not doing a good enough job"
At first I thought I struck a nerve and tried to comfort her and assure that she was. Felt incredibly guilty for masking her cry. But I didn't realise what was happening.
We went to sleep after.
And I never even had my feelings acknowledged.
This nearly happend every time I tried to express how I was feeling. About anything.
They copy what you are saying and feeling in order to completely distract from the topic in the first place.
I was to kind and to thoughtful.
My biggest warning is, do not fall for the tears. They are incredible actors.
When it came to sex I rarely felt any connection. And was most of the time uncomfortable. Towards the end of our relationship I couldn't even be in the same bed as her and had to sleep in other bedrooms of the house.
I am Still recovering from an ugly relationship after 7 months.
Don't beat yourself up on the things you should of said or could of said.
There are no right or wrong when it comes to somthing like this.
A healthy couple should be able to rationalise and consult with one another with a great amount of trust. Find someone you can do that with. Love you. Sending peace fellow soldier.
Thank you for sharing
Stay safe 🌹
Are you dating now? It can be DEVASTING ...you are SMART N STRONG!!👍👍
the pain is so real the tears when conflicts Arise mine punched herself in the face when I spoke about not feeling safe in the relationship 7 months in and I have more PTSD then I have from a relationship then a very bad Afghanistan war I hope time has brought you peace my friend 🤗
Yes! Every time I tried to tell my ex boyfriend about something he did that upset me I always ended up having to explain something that had nothing to do with the original topic. He always flipped it around
Moral of the story is : narcisst has childhood trauma that he/she shall never get over 👍✨
Thank you for your comment
That's what it seems like!
Excuse
Seems to ring true with the last one I met.
That translates into a narcissist has childhood trauma that YOU won’t ever get over, if you stay.
33 years married to a narcissist? Now nearly divorced? Cannot believe it took so long to realise?? Now on my own enjoying my quiet life it's amazing
I feel the same way after 30 years.
Same here over 30 years with a narc. marriage was the saddest time of my life. So peaceful now and thankful for no more chaos.
I need friends that can talk to me to continue fighting and healing.
My 40th wedding anniversary is in September. I’m just realizing it. I wish I couldn’t say that I have you beat.
I have been there! I get it!
People, I had to learn the hard way learn from my mistakes. This video is so comprehensive, take notes. At age 48, I was “love bombed”, “Idealized”, “future faked” (Sure, we built our dream, $1 million dollar home, but 70% was my money), Buy me the $10,000 engagement ring, had a sweet wedding, had family gatherings. Two weeks after the Honey moon, he verbally abuse me in a grocery parking lot and demanded the wedding ring back. That was the beginning of “sorrows”. After that he continually devalued with me for seven years. Then I found all these videos on narcissism, and I was able to put the pieces of the puzzle together. When I stopped the validation, and set boundaries to stop the verbal abuse, he decided he needed a Wife that was more agreeable, less “militant”. He started looking at RUclips videos and found that women in the Philippines are “easily dominated”. So he bought an airline ticket for his birthday and is heading to the Philippines tomorrow. He wants me to drive him to the airport, to search for his new wife there. I know for sure he has three connections there already. Yes…it’s heartbreaking, but I know God is taking him out of my life for a reason. I have let go. I’m anxious but grateful for him to be gone now. I’m in the process of filing for divorce of course. But it’s still incredibly painful. Heed the warning signs, I never knew about this disorder, and it almost destroyed me. “But there go I, but by the grace of God”. I am 61 now & can’t run fast enough.
May the good Lord make you stronger,you are a strong lady and a winner for letting go of the narc.
You sound very strong I applaud you! I'm 58 and had never heard or understood narcissism either. I get mad sometimes because if you talk about it with the younger gens they say "everyone is a narcissist these days" eye roll. Sadly they are not listening and dont seem to understand WHY this is so. Narcissism is rampant because our culture in this country is a huge mess. Broken families, neglected and abused children that is now multi generational. Narcissists are thought to be born of trauma, a dysfunctional behavior associated with an inability to cope with abuse and neglect. Its certainly true in my ex who tortured me for 5 years. 2 of which I spent trying to get out. I guess no one will see the flags until they themselves get burned while those of us who escaped but suffer from the trauma scream WATCH FOR RED FLAGS AND RUN IF YOU SEE ANY. DONT GET OVERINVOLVED WITH SOMEONE LOVE BOMBING YOU. TAKE YOUR TIME TO SEE HOW THEY REALLY TREAT YOU WHEN THE HONEYMOON PHASE IS OVER.
If you keep your independence the narc will pass you buy, they are looking for an empath who doesnt have healthy boundaries. They are vampires who will suck you dry and drag you down until you are drowning in dispair. And once you are there it is so hard to get up and get away from them. They dominate and control with lies, abuse and manipulation. And worste of all they dont know HOW to love so they will not and cannot fulfill your dreams.
You go, Girl! Stay strong!
Yes. My experience followed a similar course. Good for you for ending it. I’m still there but knowing the reality saves your sanity. Narcs are scary people - they hide it so well until they seal the deal.
God bless you, sending prayers in Yeshua's Name
The ones they let go are the ones they know they can’t control anymore! How wonderfully said by the Dr. It is the truest statement and the first person I’ve heard say it! Thank you Dr.
My ex would say that! "I know you better than you know yourself ". Who says that? Who thinks like that? How horrible and controlling.
My husband!
My ex too, and the worst part is I believed all his bull masked as romanticism.
To be fair, in some situations sometimes you do. There's a particular privilege of being able to observe your friends or loved ones from outside their head. When me and my best friend in high school were at out closest I did often genuinely know her better than she knew her self. I knew what typically scared her in a new situation, I knew what might worry her. I knew what would bother her if it wasn't addressed. She would consistently ask me for advice which I'd give and then she'd proceed to do the exact opposite and come back to me and admit she should've just done what I advised her to do.
Is that necessarily the case always? No. The only reason I got to a point where I could know her as well as I did was because I always observed her closely for how she would physically react to everything in order to master an understanding of her mannerisms, and how they linked to her headspace. That takes a lot of time, experience and genuine inquiry. It is possible for someone to know you better, or just as well as yourself, but getting there is a long trip requiring a lot of input and long night chats.
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Yes! Now I know I am not alone.
Constant adoration is what I had to give my father. I can't even fathom how many times I had to say "wow" or "thank you" to him for what he just did for me that I neither needed or wanted or could even barely tolerate anymore. Thank you for the awareness.
Absolutely reckognize your remark, my 'mother' so often told me 'You (me/brother) could be a bit more gratefull for all I do" and with dinner she would always say; "Is it tasty?" "You have to tell me more then once". She actually wanted us to say it several times. Always found that bizar. She was often angry and with those remarks, indeed, she wanted constant adoration. She was a true monster...
so im not trying to be dismissive nor minimize your experience... it's just... the topic in this video and your comment may not be like... the best combination...
Devalued, ghosted and ignored= right on point. This is the most hurtful ❤
Thank you for watching
Not to me. I wish my narc would ghost me instead of harassing, stalking, and threatening me
Feeling really sick while listening to this, its over but looking back I was blind.
Gosh that’s really nice nice, sorry to hear that David. Becky
@@dr.beckyspelman Wow thank you Dr.Becky for your personal reply. It would be great if this was recognised in a court to protect children.
@@radiocontrolledshopireland it’s very difficult when it comes to family court matter as parenting capacity assessments often aren’t carried out sadly and even if they are narcissism might not always be detected.
@@dr.beckyspelman that's because it's more of a money racket than it is about justice.
Same!!🤦♀️
Most important line in this entire video: Narcissists never change. And if you can get a narcissist into therapy, the therapist will usually tell the narcissist, "sorry, I can't help you." If that doesn't say it all, then nothing else ever could.
Yeah, but apart from that, narcissism is *never* healthy in adults. That's a modern (capitalist) myth, mindlessly perpetuated by some professionals. Narcissism is ONLY healthy in infants. Part of the healthy human development is to overcome the primary narcissism (with the help of attentive and kind parents) in childhood. Secondary narcissism is always a pathology and never healthy.
It's true that most or almost all human beings can have some narcissistic traits if they're not living consciously or mindfully, but that's _not_ something to embrace, it's something that has to be challenged by every individual within themselves in order to *become* healthy and decent human beings.
Yeah none of these things that anybody's talking about in these threads necessarily apply to narcissism. Sounds to me like a therapist that just fails to be a good therapist wants an excuse to blame the patient.
@@Astrochronicyou are quite mistaken i have a therapist friend who refuses to counsel NPDs because they cannot take any accountability you cannot work with someone who has no conscience or only blames other people - they waste your time in therapy sessions and its a revolving door and will drain you mentally - even therapists need to monitor their well being and stress
@@overcomerbtboj right you have friends who make excuses for why they are failures as psychologists. And then they project onto their patients. It sounds like your friends are probably as narcissistic as anyone.
@@Astrochronic ok you try to sit down with a narcissist and counsel them while they refuse any accountability “ well here’s why nothing is ever my fault” - get back to us when you’ve successfully treated a narcissist
Remarkable how long one’s arms can stretch when keeping a distance from these people. Too much time and energy invested, our humanity, gentleness, and soulful growth ebbs away. Images and symbols replace beliefs and action. Spectator replaces engagement. I nurture myself back to love with a walk in the woods, eyes set on trees, the sky, and water. Helps regain balance.
okay, after all the comments I read, your almost poetic one made me cry. I can fully relate to you sister. Patching up the wholes in my heart, dignity and self worth. Finding love and nurture in nature. As my soul is still whole even after all his attempts to tear it apart. Even after he disappeared. He couldn't reach it, couldn't find it, as he hasn't any.
Is this anyone else's favourite past time? Watching these vids? I love it better than netflix lol
Wow that’s so kind of you to say thanks so much. Becky
Yes!
Yep!! I needed it though! I was missing a lot of information somehow!
Yes!
Yes, a bit too much. Addicting, & I find something new.
35 years of marriage and he started denying me sex after 1 week of marriage and then I spent 35 years begging for sex. He said he didn't want sex because he was worried about poor preformance so it was easier not to do it because he didn't want to take a chance he might fail. I did know he cheated and questioned why he wasn't worried about failure or performance with them but still I always forgave and tried harder to please him. Oh how I Wish I had seen this video years ago. I left 19 months ago when it was no longer safe for me to stay. Leaving was the most incredibly painful thing I have ever done. I thought sure I wouldn't survive and yet now not even 2 years and what healing God has done in me and what peace fills my mind and life.
Hi Heidi, , how's your day going with you?
I lived the same exact life you described x 15 years.
Early days, finally parted recently. Difficult days for me, truly low point for me. I hold on to hope that peace will come. Thank you for sharing.
Sort of weird I cut narcissist off lmao 😂😂😂😂
Yes. I can’t understand how a man can find pleasure in denying you sex? Surely a healthy man would want to enjoy regular sex
My experience is that we all allow these people within our lives, so take responsibility. Set boundaries, with all of relationships.
Sadly.
Agreed🌹🌹🌹♥️♥️
correct. Boundaries
Don't blame the victimized
And heal childhood trama
PEACE IS PRICELESS
A good mental twist that I´ve learned is to understand that you percieve intimacy with a narcissist, you don´t recieve intimacy. There´s a difference between those two.
Yes!
Thank you for sharing
Very good point!
Absolutely! 💯
This was SO spot on. I cant believe it. Thank you. 6 days free after 5 years in it. Pray for me.
sort yourself out girl. grow up princess.#
What about when they verbally abuse you, don't apologise to you, and then expect sex.
Oh my god this!!!
and pretend they didn't say anything wrong
run
@@voguehaven5154 can't run, no where to go. He is punishing me since I told him no more sex. I just ignore his rages, and get on with my life. Never felt better !He is just a child.
@@sadie45 I wish you all the best on your way and really hope, you stay safe. Please be careful, since their rage can raise with such rejection. Much love and energy
Having sex with a narcissist was the most lonely experience ever. Love bombing phase ended quickly and then it became a sexless marriage. When I was 5 months pregnant, he said “You are not attractive to me anymore.”
It’s happening the same with me…
Yup. Mu ex hit on a friend of mine while I was in the hospital having our baby. Because I was out of commission.
4 mos after I had my baby we went to a Xmas party. When dancing my husband said “ you don’t feel like my wife anymore. This after I was pumped up on fertility drugs to have our daughter.
What a pos. Women deserve better
I was married to a woman who has narcissistic personality disorder. When she was pregnant, I told her, “You are profoundly beautiful when you are pregnant.” She didn’t believe me.
Trauma bond is the worst addiction I've felt. And I think it's worse for anyone has addictive behaviour
I can attest to this. Been almost 5 months since it ended and still mentally healing.
Absolutely
Yup!
I'm in recovery from addiction ad this isthe WORST addiction I've ever had 😰
@Sara Martinez HD Tudor provides free yt videos. He's helped me past 2 Months
You have to separate emotional thinking vs logical thinking..
"well they abused me why do I care about them.. Let them go"
"yeah but.. HOWW can they be sooo nice and amazing to me and then.. Maybe it's soemthing I personally did.. What did I do wrong.."
You may make excuses for them. Bad day, frustrated, I'm clingy etc.
The fact is, anyone who abused or abuses you, could and can't even truly love you. You're sold an illusion covered in honey and sugar to become addicted to them so YOU won't leave THEM. You're both afraid of abandonment, but u may become boring and stale. Better for YOU to hurt than them. This is why typically THEY leave YOU. Withdrawn into a stranger as if you're mearly 2 people sitting across each other in a lobby for the first time.. It's very eerie and HD Tudor talks about it on his channel. Might want to have a look as he lists EVERYTHING that will help you. It definitely is getting me by.
I was with a narcissist for 36 years and married for 33 of them. I’m much much better now than I was before. There were good times of course, especially since I stayed so long, but the bad ones were heartbreaking and lonely. If you meet a narcissist or with one now, run don’t walk and get away while you still can!!!!!!
They hook you real you in to the bedroom and then you find out you mean nothing. It will be very sudden out of the blue and very confusing. They won’t have any explanation. The love addition confusion will be very painful.
Yes
Yes ,I just got fooled by a Virgo. He now says what am I a dog. For Real dude.
U started this s*** now it's a problem .. NEXT. I WILL BE OK.
This is perfectly put! Exactly right!
Denise, this is the heartbreaking reality of giving yourself to a narcissist.
Denise Clifford,Your lovely smile 😊 can make the news!!
Having sex with a Narc was the most unclimatic and simply the worst experience I have ever had.. it started me thinking about who this creature really was. IT WAS THAT BAD!
Same, totally robotic & empty
@@cyberninjasworld and they are very selfish and make you feel alone next to them in bed.
Coldness.
Agree!
After I realised that she really didn't love me and was just using me for sex, it made me feel like a prostitute and I hated it. But I carried on because I didn't want to leave my children in her sole care. The total lack of any emotional connection was obvious every single time.
@peaceofmindofpeace1650 I don't think that's a narcissist, that made merely a person who's just using you for sex.
A narcissist will never give you dull sex, it's detrimental to their success at being narcissistic.
Now if you get great sex you have an okay time afterward hanging out and then they leave and just disappear that's a different story.
Sadly that's the way life is, not everybody is seeking long-term, and not everybody is super compassionate.
Being cold after sex is not a narcissist's forte after the person leaves yes but not right after.
You just dated a lame duck, a person who got what they wanted and showed it right away.
Narcissist has an agenda, it's in their best interest to give you everything you want at the time they want to give it it's why they're there.
I was married to a narcissist for 13 years and it was hell!! To the point where I wanted to kill myself luckily he went to prison for 10 yrs and I was freed. He got released 3 years ago and tried to use the kids to get me to go back to him but he no longer had control over me and I am so happy alone I’ve gotten to know me and work on myself. Never again!!!!
Thank you for sharing
Amen. I'm glad you got out alive.
Yea I know how you feel I been dealing with him 6 year's now we have a baby together n treated me wrong n he stay living in the past n I told stuff happening to me as well he told all my business n I felt like just ending my life because I don't Open up n tell anyone my business n I did with him now im trying get out n it's not easy @ all so I feel you on end your life because I was at that point I wanted give up on everything n I have other kids too ... I keep playing inside my head is it worth it doe ... I thought he was my soulmate n also twin flame throw that shit into the trash ...
Happy you're safer now
I understand . Same as me . Trying to finally leave now after filing for divorce on three separate occasions . So scary
Another easy way is
1.Described as difficult person
2. Antagonistic
They antagonize to gain fuel. Be it good or bad. Fuel is fuel. Excellent video!!
In private, yes. In public? Prince Charming.
@@justwantwings7128 Also Angel 😇 on the street, Devil 👿 behind closed doors.
Great video. When you realize you’re an accoutrement, maybe a trophy or prize, you realize there is no “relationship” and they can’t help you realize your dreams and potential.
Thank you for sharing, pleased you enjoyed the video
Why didn't I have RUclips 30 years ago! I spent 30 years with a Narcissistic and was abused physically and emotionally! In the first 2 years of marriage I tried to commit suicide 4 times because he devalued Me so badly. I'm on the healing journey now and he is far away from Me now. I will never trust anyone again! Its going to take the rest of My life to get over this. Thank you for the valuable information. 🙏 ❤ 🙌 Praise God for opening My eyes to the abuse and getting Me out!
I've had narcissist apologize but I could feel it wasn't genuine and the same behavior would be repeated again as if it was never discussed in the first place and It was almost like I had to beg for an apology. Just another draining technique used by them..
Thank you for sharing
Yes! This!!
Yes some do apologize and seem very sincere. I knew one who would also cry with “regret”. The smart ones indeed use apologies as another manipulation technique.
Wow.. my same problem. I have to explain how I feel hurted and the wrong it has done to me and eg for an apology.
I’ve had one apologize helplessly, like they knew they’d do the same thing again and had no power to stop it. It was kinda sad tbh
17:14 - I had a love addiction with a narcissist and you are right, they won't ever love you like at the beginning but rather draw you in, drop you and so on. The reason is they like inflicting pain on others so drawing you in is like loading a pain shot to be fired when they drop you. See? You nailed the video - excellent information.
Sad, but true. Sex only happens when they want, one only sees them when they want. When one suggests an encounter be it sexual or leisure they’re never available. They withhold sex consciously or unconsciously, not realizing we both have needs. Becoming addicted to a narcissist NOW makes sense as the attention, love and/or pleasure they give is actually great. To then, realize it is all a facade, and that this won’t happen again for another week, two weeks or a month. At first it is very confusing and having this person one thought is amazing ignore you for a month makes you wonder if you did something wrong. Wow! Mind boggling but all true.
@@paolaarletty6525 Yup - ALL true. Strange how different people across the world can have such similar traits to be able to identify it like a disease - like measles or cholera where the number of symptoms basically tell what it is. It's amazing and I realize how I am not alone - that others went through the exact same thing. Where you said "makes you wonder if you did something wrong" -specifically with me she WOULD make me think I was doing things wrong and gaslighted, exaggerated and outright lied to make me think so, too. This is a facade that both feeds their manipulation/control need AND holds their reputation in tact so they can keep deceiving. Thanks for your response - good luck to you.
@@sstritmatter2158 thank you so much for sharing this and absolutely, I’m in total agreement with you. The similarities are uncanny
Wow.....I had no ideal this is what I've been dealing with. Very Painful to be done this way. W/H Attention and Affection. !!!
@@sstritmatter2158 i feel so UGLY ....that is how he makes me FEEL.....I wish I could find a guy who would think I am beautiful and make me feel that way too.....he always leaves me feeling inadiquit and ugly and disgusting.....he never would have sex when I wanted it only when he wanted it...and treated me horrible the rest of the time...
It’s been 3.5 years... It’s true they don’t change and the patterns/cycles are harmful. I didn’t know what I was in and I thought I was going crazy. Thank you for the video.. This is spot on and I wish I had known sooner to save me from so much pain, disappointment... I have spent so much time, energy and money on this person. Today is the day I break free.
They sometimes drugg ya too or worse
Ya should look in documentary of what it actually defines scary concept or other
Read the book “Psychopath Free” it’s amazing. I didn’t know what was happening and this book explained it all.
@@sabrinaflipse7732 will look into this book, thank you 🙂
Thanks for sharing!
There are many different signs. These include spending time on phone that was not spent previously, withholding sex from you, withdrawing in communication with you, agitation or anger over Petty stuff or making up situations to get angry or agitated over, lying, being secretive in any way, randomly spending more time caring for and pampering oneself such as putting on makeup or wearing cologne or coloring hair etc. Any type of changed behavior that is not aimed at pleasing or benefiting your relationship. With all of that though, follow your gut. your gut is telling you that something isn't right and it's telling you that this could or is happening, therefore listen to it. Just Free yourself from all of it! Run and don't look back. Go 100% no contact. The mental and emotional abuse is not okay at all! Do not bring anything up to her. Don't try to rationalize or have a conversation about anything. Don't let her know that you know she's in narcissist. All of that can cause a narcissistic rage. If you have not yet witnessed one of those just trust me that you don't want to! A narcissistic rage is beyond any rage I have ever seen or witnessed in my entire life. I am an army combat veteran and served front lines for a year and afghanistan. I have abuse going back from as long as I can remember, the first time in my personal memory is 2 years old. With everything I have been involved in, and my rape, other sexual abuse, their physical abuse, etc in narcissistic rage is by far the worst! If you need to contact your local police department and start a new contact order. No one can protect you like you can! free yourself from it all and move forward in your life. The minute you run and go no contact is the minute your life begins again. If need be seek out professional help. Therapy is the best thing I did for myself. The best gift I gave to me! The abuse is so deep and overwhelming that having a professional guide you through the steps of the healing process is extremely beneficial! Just remember, there is great strength in asking for help. There is great lack and strength or no strength at all in putting on a mask and hiding behind the opinions of society and pretending that you are okay! As human beings we all witness A Time In our lives where we are not okay! Those that heal, move past, and move forward, and have a brighter future are those who ask for help and do the work that is needed through the help! I'm so sorry you are going through this and I wish you the very best! Good luck! Always remember that you are stronger than you believe you are, you are worthy and deserving of better and always, and you are enough just the way you are and who you are today! Take this time for you! Get yourself again. Fix that meal that you're all time favorite, rent that movie you've been wanting to see, have a guys night out with your best friends, remodel a room in your home, go purchase that item you've been wanting to for so long, just do for yourself! Self-acceptance, self-love, and being able to forgive yourself is far more important than what anyone else can give to you! Believe in who you are! You deserve nothing less than that! You're not alone! Feel free to tag me in any other questions that you have! I'll help if I can. Additionally you can hire a cyber expert to help you get remote access to their phone so you can track them and monitor all of their activities without them knowing. You may locate the top cyber specialists locally at Digitalinvestigate@gmail. com, where you can engage a well-trained professional to assist you..........
Can you actually track movements on phone/who they talk too? It seems like it’s necessary in order to prove my suspicions
I'm the girl with a narc man and I know I have to get away, but it has to be planned so he cannot find me, ever!!
Hello , thank u so much for all u kind support , much needed at this time !
God bless 🙌 🙏 ❤️
Wow hope u get out of this safely 🙏🏽@@AlanaBradley-m3t
These people are all scammers please don't fall for it. It's also illegal
I was addicted to a narcissist. I thought were in monogamous relationship, but we were in a situationship of 2.5 intense years. Trauma bond. Yes. When I was discarded my identity fell apart, but it was a blessing in disguise. Now I have a chance to build it all anew and better.
Thank you for sharing and sorry to hear about this experience
Your identity is yours. You are still you. Nobody can take that from you except maybe brain damage. you were defeated but you are still alive. If you must walk away from all your material possessions to be free then just do it. Your happiness isn't worth giving in to your fear. You can make it on your own. The idea that you can't was implanted by your abuser. It's not true.
You are still yourself. Bruised and bloody but wiser by far. Chin up hummingbird, live your best life and never look back
@@MediaEnslavedNation Thank you! So true. This is the issue of self-identity. I realised I had no identity. Had no boundaries. That was one of the reasons, I let it happen. Now I have a much better understanding of who I am, what is my worth and what I am seeking in relationship. I am thankful to this guy, actually.
@@hummingbirdoffical4082 I hear your words reflected in my own experience, but I have trouble giving the narc bastard the credit. The best I can give him his long distance pity. You don't thank the shark for eating your leg, even if some happy thing occurs afterward because you're missing a leg. You used to have two legs (or trust) and now you don't. He stole x number of years of your life that you can never get back and he soiled your innocent faith in humanity. Thank yourself for being strong enough to survive, thank the family/friends who refused to be driven away by the narc (or at least came back when you called for help). Or even this wonderful online community of survivors that stand with you and validate your experience, but don't give gratitude to an abuser.
Same here - completely addicted to him. I thought he felt the same until that first discard. He said he'd "never spent so much time with someone before." Mind you, he initiated all of our time together. Go figure!🤷🏾♀️For the fist time in 6 years, I found the strength to discard him. It's only been about a month of no contact but my battered, broken heart beats again.💕
Finally someone who actually says theyre bad sexually. It was always a superselfish act only on his terms. Ive honestly never had such a bad lover. :/ Also true we attract them.
Mine too,he loved himself,sex with him was a degrading experience
@@marleyex2695 ..Making love is more of outside of sex..Sex was truly created to reproduce children and the bonding as One..Love is action and correction on one accord=Making Love.
Is it just me or do they all think they're very skilled at sex, like sex gods or something 🤔
No.lovers,just sexually driven totally self serving
Selfish. How could I even had been so addicted to him. Sex....unmemorable.
This is amazing. Lol. My ex would get mad if I wanted to talk about sex. He’s used to women throwing themselves at him so when I didn’t, it must be something wrong with me. I’ve tried to tell him what I liked but he’d just get upset. Take it as I’m not attracted to him. Angry is nothing. He’d literally blow up yelling at me. I’d even try to make him understand how his attitude and and “temper tantrum’s “ as I called them, we’re a turn off. He still didn’t get it! There’s nothing wrong with telling your partner what YOU like sexually. However, he’d take it personal and become offended. He would also just lay back on the bed and wait on me to mount him. That’s definitely what it felt like. Sex became a chore for me. Give him sex so he won’t get angry. God, I’m so glad I’m done with him!
A chore, and give it to him so he’s not angry...oh yes 😔 never again! 🙅🏽♀️
Thank you for sharing!
God such a narcissist, thanks for disclosing your experience, such an ordeal to be caught up in and well done for breaking free.
@@dr.beckyspelman That’s not all of it either. Lol. I’m so glad, too. Thank you! I really appreciate these videos. It’s definitely opened my eyes.
Same here I did all the work in bed while he received and believed he was the greatest lover???
Always avoided discussing feelings would get mad or silent no feed back
Everything you say resonates. Went through all 12 signs for 5 long years...finally broke free. Yes it's an addiction. Never again will I put myself through it. Thank you for sharing.
Here is the deal. We all put ourselves in the position to be hurt. Yes, that includes me. I did it more than once. You can run away but until we work on ourselves and quit blaming them we will continue to attract the same type. This is helpful info to recognize what is going on so we can walk away and work on ourselves.
Yep, it all goes back to why I said yes in the first place. I blame myself for all of it. I repented for idealizing the person who is listed as my father on my documents. I repented for unknowingly appeasing the Jezebel Spirit.
@@becajaz I agree. There can be no predators without victims. Each plays a part. Without victims there can be no predators. End victim hood and there will be no predators to victimize. Without food the lion dies,
@@becajaz I am not belittling the hurt it caused. I understand as I have experienced it more than once.
Yes that's a crucial point to make, because most of us who keep falling into those kind of abusive, life sucking, draining relationships obviously were raised in environments that did not teach us to EXPECT to be treated with love, respect, equality, fairness, or to EXPECT to be able to fully trust another person. From the get go (as teenagers usually) things start going awry & most will start to realize that we somehow have never known what we should be expecting or requiring in a mutually healthy love relationship, because we never witnessed that kind of a relationship.
If all you saw all your life was abherrant, selfish, cruel, deceitful and inconsiderate behavior, if your home was abusive in any way or you were raised in a home where neglectful cold relationships were all atound you, then (until you figure out how much you've been affected by that) you dont even understand that your barometer is off from the get go. You probably think that depite your lacking, dysfunctional upbringing that you're not going to make the same mistakes your parents did, because you feel you are smarter, wiser, kinder, more able to judge people's character so you can't imagine that you'd ever fall in love with an abusive psycho.
But you don't know how to pick a suitable person to be in love with, your upbringing has aused you to set the bar way too low already, because you think, "Well. they don't do _____ or ____ like my parents did so they are a much better person than my parents were.".
What we overlook, what young people from abusive , dysfunctional homes too often fail to realize is;
that their parents, when they were young, before marriage, kids, life's many problems, mental issues, addictions, physical problems & financial strains & failures happened, THEY didn't act the way YOU knew them, back when they met and married either, no, they grew to became the people you knew in middle age. So you may not even recognize toxic manipulative, gas lighting behaviors when they're right in front of you because you are just trying to avoid people who exhibit the undesirable traits of your parents that you did not like. You don't realize, your parent, at 18, 22, 26 may have acted just like the person you pick. Odds are you'll be attracted to some who will end up being very muxh like the parent you don't want to follow in's footsteps, if only beause their personality will feel comfortable to you.
The need for affection, validation, attention, love is felt more intensely if you haven't had that as a child..That severely cripples our judgement when it comes to love & knowing how to pick a good mate. It's important to work on why we didn't see it, or if we did see it, but forged ahead with that person anyway, red flags screaming at us the whole time, to find out WHY we didn't listen to our own intuition & instincts and protect ourselves immediately. We have to work on valuing our own selves enough to protect ourelves & work on loving ourselves, so that we're not so vulnerable & wont accept crappy hurtful relationships or lives.
@@KathyHussey063 Very insightful. Most people can't get past blame and the pain which they have co-created.
Trauma bonds are very weird. I had one. You have an insane craving and loyalty to a person who damaged you. It is kinda insane. No contact 200%
Thank you for sharing
13 points; top score! Tears enough to flood the sea. Thanks a million for your most needed advice and help how to cope with such a person. After 33 yrs of marriage, I’ve learned to smile and wave; just like a queen. Children don’t STAY LITTLE and they quickly cotton on to what happens in the house and they made very sure that they don’t step in those footsteps with their partners.
God is faithful and true and keeps me grounded; I’m truely happy and lucky to have raised wise and sincere, compassionate children. Blessed beyond believe and wish you only blessings and great success with your career.🙏💕
Thanks so much. Well done for smiling and waving and raising nice compassionate children despite the tough situation 😊
Gut feelings are so very important and paying close attention to those feelings ... the narcissist will cause pain while pretending to care ... covert malignant are the worst ... though they are all bad news for having joy in ones life
Very true.
Yes! My mother is like this.
@@mahoganyshanae6116 my mother was too ... the emotional and psychological pain she inflicted on me in one particular point in time in my youth is beyond words to actually describe here .. it was the clearest red flag of pure evil narcissism she ever displayed ... of course no one was there to witness
My experience with my ex female covert/fragile Narc has taught me that one of the worse things a person can do is try and allow them back into your life for any reason whatsoever. She showed me the same exact behaviors over and over again and as I let her back in she would get colder and colder. I’ve never felt so alone while being in the arms of someone I thought I loved and who I wanted to believe loved me. She never once communicated anything other than her lies and her manipulation.
Thank you for sharing
Same Same
No conscience, no shame, no integrity. Worthless individuals. It’s only after you’re finally free of their chaos and you take stock of the whole relationshit, that you realise every aspect, including the sex, was emotionless, shallow and fake. They’re just abusers who groom their victims.
Never ignore your gut instinct.
My same experience bro. It’s sad
@@WarrenThorne well said and spot on.
I was married to a covert narcissist for 21 years, divorce for 2 years and couldn't, for the life of me, understand why I could not let her go! She treated me horribly! Then a very close friend of mine suggested that perhaps I would benefit from watching a video. WOW! Someone actually put into words, the way I felt! It all came crashing down on me like a ton of bricks! Dr., this video describes my relationship with her about 98%! Thank you very much for sharing this with me!
-D
Im so sorry to hear that you went through all that.
Hi, your entire video resonates with me because "everything" you've mentioned, or at least 95% is exactly what I have experienced thus far with my ex-covert narc. It all began from the love-bombing to devaluing with silent treatments through the feeling of addiction. This relationship lasted on/off for 2 1/2 years. We broke up so many times that I cannot even count. Mainly because I had no idea what NPD or a Narc is. Through research, I learned what NPD is and what are the signs of a Narc by educating myself through watching videos and reading articles, etc. I was confused because there were characteristics that he did not possess; per my research, hence the confusion. For instance, among many other things he did that were not part of the trait of a Narc such as he would cuddle, and we would conversate after amazing sex in which he always took care of me first (although now I know why he did that, it was a way to get me addicted). I am experiencing the following conditions: trauma bonding, addiction-like feelings (body, mental and physical pain), uncontrollable tears, confusion, lost sense of self, frozen unable to think or comprehend, feeling stuck, and loss of confidence and I isolate myself because no one understands unless they have gone through this themselves. This has been the hardest thing I have ever done, nonetheless, the worst thing that I have ever dealt with in my life. Per his antics, he continually expressed that our breakups were all my fault. That I am childish, and due to that I do not know how to make the relationship work. That his reactions are because I am the root of the problem. That I am crazy, that I am a jealous woman therefore he cannot trust me. He taught me not to ask him questions, to walk on eggshells, and to know how and when I could ask or speak, as he kept me under his control with his conditioning and manipulation. He also insisted that therapy will never fix me because I am broken and I will never change. Lastly among so many more, he feels sorry for my therapist because he will make so much money out of me. After all, I am unfixable. Would you believe even after all that I have mentioned---I still went back to him? Until one day I said I'd had enough--No More! I was unrecognizable. I felt unworthy, unloved, alone, and stuck with no voice. Please know that he has been blocked out of all my social media, emails, texts, etc. He hasn't reached out because apparently, he has moved on while I am still picking up the pieces of my life. The reason I wrote all this is to bring awareness. People use the word NARC so loosely these days, and truthfully speaking a Narc is no joke. My ex-covert Narc does things subtly and tenderly that you won't know until it's too late---that's how it happened to me. I hope that my words can help someone as well as bring awareness because this is real. Please educate yourself, be careful and notice the red flags immediately, and don't forget--trust your gut before it's too late.
🙏🏽🙏🏽 i witnessed someone I love go through this & i ended up being scapegoated because she chose the narcissistic guy who literally drover her crazy & started treating me like he was treating her… So yeah, I also have experienced feeling this way…. I thought I was crazy too & just… worthless…. Idk.. I totally understand where you’re coming from & so do so many others.. .. i feel validated after watching this video & know I’m not the problem (not completely anyway or the root) I hope you know you’re not the problem either… & what he did to you isn’t your fault
Amen. Thanks for sharing.
I don't want to reply because he will find out some how some way but I want to say thank you I'm stuck I can't get away I've gotten in so deep before I would believe it was what it was.i wish we could talk but just having the words that you shared I appreciate knowing that it's just not me I'm sorry you went through what you did but I'm thankful you shared
Sorry to read about your experiences. Just remember if some lies you don't have to accept it. You can say no thanks, you keep your gift and they're the ones left holding it. All the best
@@carrieroff2562 I don't know what you mean by that you've "gotten in so deep", but let me tell you this, I had 5 kids, so I too felt utterly trapped with him, but I still left once I realized that my kids were getting scarred horribly by my late husband, I always thought he loved them, he certainy acted like he did, in many ways. But the sad truth is; a narc loves themselves WAY MORE than anyone, even their kids, so the kids too end up being put through hell, told lies (probably about you, in fact) & they end up scarred for life, if not by being directly abused by them somehow,, then they still are scarred by watching their mother be treated like crap for years, by seeing her 'take it'....you may be taking it to some degree thinking you're making THEIR life, your family's life better, pretnding all is fine ....because it's all you've been able todo so far to deal with it... but what the kids see is you not valuing your own self * mind, him getting his way, him never beig sorry for hurting others, and fear....they live with unnameable fear. Kids grow up and all too often end up emulating & imitating their parents, whether they plan to do that or not, because that is what was programmed into them by their daily life for 16 to 22 years all of the formative years of their personalities, strengths & weakneses....they are being taught that HE is the norm because it'sn all they'll ever see , hear & learn about how to have a relationship.
I passed on MANY lessons this way that I never realized I was teaching them, I thought if I told them what to not accept in their lives, that was enough ,to educate them, but NOTHING overrides the childhood through young adulthood years they are watching you 2. ,
Whatever you KNOW about your narc, about his relationship with any children involved, it's NOTHING compared to ALL you don't know that he does & says behind your back, to your kids. You thnk they'll tell you if he ever treats them horribly ....I thought that too, but they can't tell you because he orders them not to. They know you or they ot all of you would only suffer more you see...and they know you apparently won't leace and stop him from retribution if tey tell on him, to you....
Please seek some help to plan a safe and doable way out, for your own sake, your right to happiness & respect but even more so for any chidren's sake, you see, you are the only one that CAN protect them from him.
You are much stronger than you remember, so much wiser, so much more capable, just remember that onve you probably were happy & knew your own value....you can be happy again. You were fine when he came into yuor life....at least you were better off before a person decided to make you the dumping ground for all his toxic emotions. Give them back to him and walk away, if at all possible, but plan first, seek info and help.
I love that you say situationship cause I never felt intimacy with him and after a short while it was mechanical and self centered on him part.
Thank you for sharing
When she said a good therapist will tell the narcissist I can't help you is when it really hit home
Thanks so much, I have had a few narcissists come in to my clinic but it would have felt so wrong for me to let them keep coming back each week to give me money, it would feel like theft as I knew they weren’t listening to a word I was saying, well maybe they were listening but they weren’t respecting what I was saying.
You women will call us narcs if the sex blows your mind Well I walk on water. I levitate in perform a baptism in your holy water, leave you in a coma and levitate out! I guess I’m a narcissist because I’m confident and sex is insane. What’s my diagnosis?
@@jhonwayne1003
Psychotic ...
@@jhonwayne1003 Your good in bed? Doesn’t make you a descent person. It depends on how long your girlfriend will keep dealing with your shit. Mine was fantastic in bed and you couldn’t pay me to be with him again. NO THANKS. You can levitate out of here now 👋
@@shellyg5705 I’m kicked her to the curb she was cheating, harem garage narcissist. I’m just always told I’m a narcissist because I’m super confident in my abilities and they feel as if I sucked their soul out of them during. Loyalty and consistency is key with me. 95 percent of women can’t do either. How dare you lol, don’t get scared because I want to bless you with my presence!
My wife has all of this. We went to a therapist to decide whether she could help us have a better relationship. When the therapist asked my wife "So what have you done wrong in this relationship?" My wife went red in the face and did not reply. After the interview my wife said she would not work with that therapist. Nowadays she prefers to have secret sex with women and blame me for why we are not having sex, amongst other things. Yes it can really be this bad with a narcissist.
And you are still hanging around to see what will happen next !!!
@@davidhosni2655
Booom! Truth bomb
the depths of their depravity is astounding. my wife slept with a bestfriend of mine from HS. The day after his wife gave birth. He said he would split a blunt with her if he could have her in his back seat because his wifes p***** was "busted"... Or the time she "accidentally" texted me pictures (of her with another man) and incredibly explicit messages instead of her boyfriend. Orrrrrrr the night she slept with between 5-10 guys one night. A visiting college sports team. Unporotected. But she did all of this because I hadn't invited her to my mothers funeral. ... ... .. because obviously you get invited to your mother in laws funeral...
@@davidhosni2655 There can be many reasons. Amidst all the bad things one is enduring through, the narcissist and the whole situation can still be extremely interesting. Like studying a broken device to understand how it functions, even when constantly getting cuts and burns while doing it.
@@davidhosni2655that's not really fair, these people are very hard to get away from especially if you have children or assets with them.
Condescending 💯 by pretending to know you, telling you what you should do how to direct you life💯💯 giving you “guidance” that’s really what is in their best selfish interest
It’s odd how these relationships are incredibly horrible and yet also incredibly addicting. I could totally relate to the narc being the only one who can “make it all better “. I guess in order to really heal we have to address the problems within ourselves.
Thank you for your comment
Learn to self love!
It's very odd that every man (3) I Have had a relationship with were narcissist's
On point there, our problems & how other people treat us, is all about who we are, we need to sort ourselves first before me even find ourselves on another frequency. Due to too many short circuit in our frequency, we allow bad people to ruin our beautiful gift of living.
I really dunno how I got myself into a situation like this .
Well said
Exactly. You are not in full control of what life has thrown at you. You have only several small moments, like each breath you take to slowly steer yourself out of the situation.
me to
Every time you didn't say no to the Narcissist because you felt weak and probably had low self-esteem.
Every time you allowed them to walk on you and be condescending without holding them accountable. Every time they manipulated you and you took it because you knew you were in an inferior position! Every time your gut told you to run but you didn't.
Every time you felt you are doing all the hard lifting and went to them and they dismissed and ignored you as if you are a crazy person!
Every time they lied to you and made you feel crazy and weird and you let them get away with it.
Every time you let your happiness depend on someone or something outside you!
The good news is that it's never too late to walk away from anything and anyone toxic, You are valid, worthy, and beautiful keep telling yourself that, and don't look for people's validation.
All you need to do is to work on yourself and be thankful, and grateful for going through this because it should teach you a lesson so as not to fall into the same trap again.
Good luck sister.
For anyone who has gone to bed early curled up extemely sad , crying, in mental anguish looking at your phone waiting for a reply message for days, hours on end it's time to leave. Trust me once you get the 'heroin' out, life is better on the other side. Now I look at him as I would a bad addiction I kicked, how did I ever get into that in the first place, it was disgusting.
Go easy on yourself. When we go through trauma from the narcissist and then we make up, our brain releases chemicals that we can actually get addicted to. It's kind of like what long distance runners describe as runner's high. So it's a literal addiction, it's just that most people don't understand that's what's going on. So don't beat up on yourself.
So glad people, YOU, are putting this information out there. Wish I had this info so readily available 20 years ago. Could have saved me a lot of heartbreak. Thanks so much for your work!
Empaths seem to attract narcissist. We have to learn to not just care about others but ourselves. Freedom comes when we respect and love ourselves.
Lots of highly sociopathic people are born from narcissists due to not getting any form of real love or affection. They just don’t develop the correct processing skills for feelings like love and attachment- because it was something they seriously lacked. A sociopath in my opinion is not a bad person- and can actually want to have these feelings and recognise something is missing. They want to feel that way and they could try to feel that way. Because they really do want to- they just can’t or struggle to process emotions which they seriously lacked. They are not bad people really, they just lack the ability to process emotional response. It does not mean they do not want to have those feelings, because I believe often they do.
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Thank you for making this video, just experienced in the last situationship. My needs were not met nor respected. He became angered when I asked for my needs to be met. He also blamed me for his anger. He ignored my wants and desires. And at that moment I knew I can’t continue being involve with a narcissist.
Everything we own is his ,mine never ours . He always says . His his his .
You basically described my dad and almost every man I have ever known in my life time. It took me 33 years to finally end my relationship with my parents. I am 35 now and still suffer from PTSD and C-PTSD because of the abuse I suffered from my parent all these years plus the abuse I suffered from almost any man I ever knew and some that I did not even know..
Trauma bond is very real!
I've been trying so hard to brake the cycle but nothing I do seems to work. I always find myself back in the cycle of abuse.
Now days I want nothing to do with people anymore. I barely talk to people and barely leave my house. I feel like I hate humans and it's because of all the abuse and trauma I endured through out my life.
I am diagnosed with severe case of PTSD and C-PTSD.
Don't know if anyone will ever read this or respond but I just wanted to share.
You will come threw this ,it takes a bit of time to unlearn this behaviour but you have a wonderful life In front of your trust me
It takes a lot of time and conscious effort but I promise you’ll come out.🌼 You don’t need to love other people, you only need to love yourself really. And given that you were such a magnet to such and so many of these monsters, you surely have quite a lot of loveable things about you.
Same here. I gave up on it all. Single for life
You just need to find a nice person out there. A lot of men are invisible to women or don't meet their standards.
Keep your head up. Keep your heart strong.
Most people are okay.
One thing I've noticed and isn't publicly brought up alot with sex with a narcissist so thanku for touching on that. It always feels empty, no matter how hard I tried for years. There's no connection. Making love is not possible. Just selfish sex . Of course casual or fun sex as long as safe consensual is totally fine but, there's never real connection during the act
I want to meet u really
I like u
I love u
I need u
Merry me 👧👧😍😍❤❤💍💍🌷🌷
I m alone 💑💑💑💗💗💗🌹🌹🌹🙋🙋🙋🙋
Yep, so empty and robotic in nature, no care or consideration. Two orgasms in three years, and both were weak crap ones WTF. This new guy I'm seeing gave me about six in one night, so I know the issue isn't me LOL.
But OK, it's not about the sex completely it's about building a connection and feeling good with someone. There is intimacy and it's so nice after years of being treated like trash.
@@nataliem9667 Hi ❤❤
Sex for them is to get off. You are there to serve them. They don’t care about your needs and definitely don’t care about connection or emotional intimacy.
I'm in the same boat