To Those Who Failed To Live Up To Your Dreams - Or Had To Let Them Go
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- Опубликовано: 22 мар 2020
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These art talks discuss topics that cover the more psychological sides of artistic production, such as overcoming artist block, self-doubt, procrastination and the many other thoughts and feelings that can come between us and our true potential. 
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Haha indeed! But Adam helped me to overcome the shame of my creation by his example. I'm a Law of Attraction and Manifestation student. Never watching the news and avoiding negative stuff all the time. However, my favorite genre is Neo-Noir (I work in the entertainment industry). So my production is pretty dark as well. Again, he's amazing!
balance in all things
As always you give me this amazing confidence boost. Thank you.
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Same here. I couldnt do art because someone told me i cant. I ended up with depression so i came back to art. The moral of this story? Fuck them - do art anyways.
"You don't have to throw away your life in order to fulfill your dreams, and you don't have to throw away your dreams in order to live."
I forget where I first read that quote, but it's stuck with me ever since.
I'm am 48 and fighting tooth and nail to resurrect my career in art. I am too scared to watch this video how ridiculous is that?
have you watched the video yet?
@@Najebanski No, lol
Is it safe?
Bro, it's safe if you think you can grow and be inspired by the experiences that he's willingly sharing in this video. You shouldn't be afraid of watching it, if only the title alone resonated that much to you in this moment of your life.
Once a wise man said: "The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek." So, in my opinion, totally go ahead and be yourself man! Wish you the best!!!
And it isn't ridiculous to have fears, we all have them. You just need to find a way to overcome what's blocking you (even though it's easier said than done) so you can finally build a path towards the things you love.
@@czypauly07 Definitely watch it.
I am 31 years old and the thought of a teenager feeling like they have "missed the train" is making me cringe so hard -yet I feel exactly the same way they do. I guess it is all a matter of perspective?
Honestly I've been feeling "too old" ever since I turned 21 (27 now and getting worse), it's very hard to evaluate imo.
As a 17 year old I just want to let everyone know that no matter your age, it is always nice to know that people are interested in art. And in my opinion, I don't think that there is nor ever will be a "too old" to learn something as long as you want to learn it.
Just wanted to put that out there. :)
Try 43. :/
@@viktor_dives I feel you. All we can do is keep fighting the good fight.
I don't feel like I missed the train. I got there on time, bags packed and train tickets in hand. But my GPS led me to the airport. Now I might as well camp out here, pretending I'm on the train, while I study the only map I could find (helpfully labeled in Cantonese) trying to figure out where the hell the train station is.
Im a 25 year old with a degree in Game Art an Design that I completed last year and this video specifically really touched on something for me, honestly it had me brought to tears.
I completed my degree last year and have picked up my pen to draw sincerely maybe once or twice since.
I have this overwhleming love for art, for fantasy and world building, for characters and stories that are more then what we see in the every day. I go to bed thinking about ideas and every spare moment where Im not doing anything in particular, im developing one of the stories in my head.
I'm now working in a call center as I couldnt secure other work after college and my motivation to draw continues to slip away from me. I feel like im stagnating, like im not progressing and I look at talented younger artists pouring their soul into their work, class mates of mine who are now working for Games companies as environment and concept artists, and it just leaves me completely dejected.
I've never been a standout artist but I dont consider myself a bad artist either, the problem is that I feel like I cant progress. I sit down at my cintiq for 2 hours and the ideas just wont come out.
Listening to this made me realize that I don't want to give up. I don't want to be someone that loses their love and inspiration of art, wasting away in a 40 hour week shift job.
I need to overcome my fear of failure, accept that my art is going to take time to progress and keep at it.
Thank you for your wonderful insights and thoughts Adam, for continuing to inspire and comfort
very inspirational...... I got the same story as yours
bachelor in economics, 25 years - ive always liked things more or less art related - but i was always scared of this unknow mastery - i thought it was kinda for the chosen ones - so baby steps style i ve entered more or less art job and know i listen to Adam while drawing shit) AND MASTERING software - and yes - its still hard and frustrating to see young people achieving things that u are so far away from - so i m not really the one who can report about art transformation - but why not? why not give it a try and work towards the goal that warms your heart - gl in your journey for everyone listening
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For me its such a reverse problem. I want to draw. I want to create, entertain and inspire through art and illustration. But picking up my tablet pen I just stop myself, I dont know why.
I have been using RUclips since it's conception. In all these years I have never once read a more relatable comment than this one.
I work at a call center as well, and your story is like you took the words out of my mouth.
Keep at it brother, I believe we can pull through this together. You may be a complete stranger over the internet, but just know that there is someone else out there that is going through your exact pain.
Never stop dreaming. Never stop creating.
We'll see the fruits of our labour and laugh as we look back at our previous notions and fears.
We can do this!
Claude Monet didn't start painting until his 40's :)
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Excuse me? He painted from a very young age.
He was very young when he started painting.
he started earnestly painting with 40. He was already successful at drawing.
I shouldnt have listened to this while at work. Started to cry after 5 minutes. You could say your words touched me deeply.
Thanks for the video.
I´m 27 years old. I´m active artist for 15 years with a dream of being a proffessional but still didn´t get a single chance even I tried very hard. I still achieved nothing.
This video made me cry several times in a row cause it felt like it was actually me, the person who texted you an email about their feeling about being worthless nothing but hobby artist.
I wish to get a chance one day. Not just wasting my time and sanity on some random job just to be able to stay alive thinking about drawing every single minute and then just fell asleep out of depression and exhaustion from work.
Thank you for talking to us.
Thank you for that. Been in a abusive relationship for 16 years and by the end of that realized I haven't even picked up my pencil for 15 years. And art is my life I can't even imagine what my life would be without me doing art.
Been so depressed because I felt I wasted 16 years of life in a relationship when all that time I could be drawing. Now 46 years old thought I will never get it back. But I am trying just hard to see the level I was and to where I am now. I'm never going to let anyone take my art from me again. Thank you for this video. Now as soon as I stop crying I'm going back to my drawing lol
how are you now? did you get back to your art?
I'm going to be 30 in less than a year, and I can't stop feeling like it's too late for me to get my life together. I needed this right now. Thank you.
Thanks Adam, you’re such a Gem.
I am turning 39 this summer, I am a welder by profession and have been for most of my life - leaving it all to pursue my creative side of me by going to art school in August! I am so excited about finally doing something I want to do, not what the rest of the world wants me to do. Really looking forward to combining welding with my creative side as this school is very much about trying out stuff - not only drawing and painting.
Adam, you tipped the scale for me to apply to the school. Thank you for that!
Omg dude, that Welding experience is going to be a huge leg-up. You'll find a lot of your knowledge and expertise about "Construction" will translate very well to Art! One of the most profound bits of wisdom I've heard again and again in my artistic journey is "The Strength of a Drawing, is in the Truth of it's Construction". And it's really resonated with me. I'm sure as a welder, you'll have an excellent mind and skillset for whatever artistic discipline your decide to tackle! Good luck Daniel
Bravo and good luck!
Zarzak Thank you so much for that! I really appriciate it and I honestly think you’re right! I know I will have an advantage with the artsy welding since I know pretty much everything about welding. I take great pride in my work and my knowledge about it. Was a tutor for a couple of years aswell - which was actually more demanding than the actual job. It sank me down totally. I am so excited about doing this though, one year of focusing on me! There is another course at that school where you really prone into your desired art form which I plan to take as well after that first year. I just hope that all this Corona stuff is out of the way by then.
That quote is fantastic mate! Foundations & fundamentals! :D
borna1231 Thank you mate!
Good luck Daniel!
Stop making me cry bro lol. Ive been trying for almost 20 years but never found my way through a door. The way I feel now is exactly on the nose what you are saying. Thats why I subscribe to your channel. Thank you very much for explaining this, I know im not alone.
This feeling is very familiar to me.
I'm a writer who, at age 19, was torn between the decision of following writing or something else that would be more useful or provide more money.
Many times I tried going back into writing but it has never worked for some reason or another. It hurt every time and, recently, I have spiraled into what may be seen as burnout. However, there is always progress to be seen in attempts.
Trying something gives you insight into it and what you can do and, if you have the availability, go for it. You never know what you might learn from just a single attempt.
That said, you might also have to prioritize other things in your life but never forget it's not too late to try.
I always wanted an art degree but I let others persuade me otherwise. I floundered through life with various jobs. When I finally took the courage to pick up a brush and start a side business, I finally felt like I had found myself. Five years later I found myself in an unwanted divorce and knew I would never be happy in a “regular job.” Therefore, at the age of 42, I returned to college to finally pursue an art degree to become an art teacher. I truly feel I’ve found who I was meant to be, but locked that person away for years. Great talk Adam! This totally hits home.
I am an architect by profession, I always looked at it with an artistic eye 'til I realized the business and practical reality of it. It's very draining especially in the country I live in and it doesn't get the respect it deserve. Yet my license has expired and it's due in 2 months as per this writing, I grew back to where I truly belong, drawing and art and I felt so complete as my digital pen grazed the surface of the pad that it is meant for. Never felt so alive again. I have the time for now as our country is under quarantine and am thinking to use my art to help in paying for the bills as I'm jobless, for now. It's not too late, I am 31 and re-learning my art roots, it has been part of my DNA. Don't ever let it go, art will always be a part of you. A part of your legacy. The coal and fire that keeps your soul going. Much love!
I’m 28 this year. Started this journey 4 years ago. I’m at the point where I’m trying to look for a job and it just hasn’t been working out. I feel like an idiot, like maybe I picked a path that wasn’t meant for me.
I love art so much and really wanted to make it my career. I made a lot of progress but I just don’t think it was enough to break into the industry.
Now I’m living with the fear of figuring out if I should keep going or drop my passion.
I almost pursued the science field, but my creative side got so deprived from the workload at uni alone, that I got severely mentally ill. Thankfully I still had two years left worth of student loans that I could take, and decided to learn 2D animation and go to a lovely art school with lovely people, and I can confidently say it saved my life.
HOWEVER, with all that being said, I don't plan on being able to support myself as a full time artist all the time, especially in the beginning. Not only do I want to be responsible and pay my rent, but I ALSO need; a change of scenery, a motivation to get out of bed and out of my home in order to get my day started, and I need to socialize, because on top of being an artist, I'm also a human being.
This all came to me when I worked full time as a substitute teacher, and did some freelancing in my spare time. I realized that it's not only a good idea to work in a non-creative field for your economy, but also your mental health. Especially if you're like me and need a constant change of scenery in order to not go bananas. And that it was dumb of me to think I was a bad artist for not being able to support myself purely on my art. In the future, I plan on working at a really monotonous job on the side, and do art maybe 75-80%, just to safely stay afloat while also being an artist.
basically, I think a lot of the fear that artists face, that stops them from pursuing art, is that they think they have to be able to support themselves solely on their art, or else they're failures. When the reality is that you SHOULD work another job too. Whether that is part time or full time, permanently or temporarily, it is responsible to have something else to do, both for your economy and mental health. And that it's never too late.
While I'm aware that human experiences can be similar, am amazed that you've also gone into food service and call center service. I have to at certain points to earn cash for university. To be honest, I enjoyed doing chores and washing the dishes.
Reality often hits us, and it's never kind. But you are sir, and definitely appreciate it. While am not doing art for financial stuff. I like having both a day job and drawing after or during any free time I have. I've never really liked calling myself an artist. But this video made me realize that I am one... bit teary eyed now. But thank you once again.
I also really like your mom btw, she sounds amazing! And hey she started the whole graphic design trend. That's freaking awesome.
Thank you for the compassion. I'm here at 34 with a BFA and no full time art career, it's still a journey for me.
Had a rocky start with the art university and some difficulties when I gradulated
.... then the rock bottom when I couldn't fin any job and nobody reply my e-mails.
Started working in a stacking job.
And now I'm here. Crying while listening this video...
This helped change the way I frame my approach with art it has always been a chore to do. due to other priorities but I would lose sleep at night just staring at my sketchbooks. putting pen to paper and worrying if I do make anything it has to directly build towards this weird fantasy of being some big-name artist. This idea that of not directly being defined by what I do but also what I see myself as has helped.
Thank you Adam. I am a 58 yr old empty nester, who has recently been diagnosed with mental health issues. One of the things my therapy includes is returning to art. I’ve never completely abandoned it, just expressed it in many different ways. From the traditional sketch pad and pencil / canvas and brush, to designing and making hats, clothes, jewelry or planting herbs. Now returning to sketching and painting, has lead me to iPad and digital. For me it’s never been about a dream, it’s just who I am. Right now it’s a way to cope, learn, and heal. Thank you for your gift.
I, too, stepped away from art but because of a childish reason (jealousy). I was a traditional portrait artist when I stopped. I left all FB groups about art and unfollowed some artist I look up to. For a few days, it was a dreadful experience not having a pencil beside me. I became addicted to RUclips and stumbled upon this channel and Art Cafe. Then it made me realize that it was a stupid reason leaving art just because others are better. Before I temporarily stopped doing art, I didn't know anything proper about anatomy, values, how color works, etc. Now I know how to make poses of my own, now know how to use values and colors, composition, etc. that portrait artists uncommonly do, and even met a lot of very inspiring people and their behind-the-scenes success stories. I am very glad I stepped out of art and found a new path that I could really be happy.
Man... I'm 24 years old, months away from my 25th and having a mid-life crisis about having to pursue a "real" career that will almost definitely take me away from my passions, lest i suffer homelessness again.
I really needed this almost as much as i need job experience. Thank you.
Literally me rn, hope everything is going well for you. Don't give up.
@@Rafael081296 tbh, everything IS going well. I kept at it with my drawing, bring a small sketchbook with me everywhere I go to practice with any waiting time I have.
I also have a new, better paying job working as a Behavioral Health Tech (highly suggest researching good contracting company's like Robert Half for good temp and temp-to-perm positions; just work on your resume and speak often with your service rep on your needs and wants).
It's not only getting me out of sales and retail, I now have a LOT of free time to draw. Now, I'm studying light anatomy and clothing design, and eventually I'll be creating character turn-around sheets for 3D modeling...
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I have a lot of ideas driving me insane. But, I'm here to say it *does* get better.
Also to say look into certifications related to the field you want to enter, *whatever* it is and build a strong creative portfolio with fake client ideas, if applicable (idea generator sites).
@@r15835how you doing now?
11:59 Yes yes yes yes! You've touched it with a needle.
I think the panic young people go through about "missing their shot" comes less from a place of "If I don't have the skills I need now, I never will," and more from a place of "Studios will only hire young people or people who started when they were young -- regardless of their skills."
For example, my goal is to be a storyboard artist, but when I started following storyboard artists from my favorite cartoons (on instagram or youtube), I saw that they're all in their early or mid 20's -- the age I am now. It could be a coincidence, or maybe that only the younger artists have public social media accounts, but these kinds of anxieties can't always be eased by logic. I've pretty much made peace with it though: even if I can't control what happens to me, I can at least control my personal accomplishments.
When I was 18, I went through a similar kind of panic when I noticed how many of the artists I liked were CalArts graduates, so I can definitely see how a 17 year old kid might be afraid they've "missed their shot" if they didn't get into the right school.
Sometimes, I put so much pressure on myself, to be an better artist, to be more creative, more efficient, improve my skills, and I get to a point where just try to create something made me feel anxious,and afraid.
This video has reminded me that what really matter is not how good you are in a technical way, but the message you're passing. Even a stick figure can be a masterpiece if that's makes people feel something, and the creator as well.
So, my tip is, if you're feeling like me, try to get away from all artistic things you know, get rid of your social accounts,even stop drawing for a while if needs to. Go outside, read something, do other things to keep your mind busy and inspired.
And do something for you, based on your feelings, not just for likes or to compare yourself to others. Do something because is YOU doing, and no one can do it like you, that's your mark, that's what art means
I am 20. Becoming a military pilot was my childhood dream. I was hardworking, I was strong, dedicated. My first failure was when I tried to enter military aviation high school back in 2015, when I as just 14... That was HARSH, DOOMING, SAD and every other negative emotion, list goes on to suicidal thoughts too... What was damning of that experience was the fact that it was not my failure, I was wrongly reported as having an unable body, it was the system that was filled with an organisation which later tried to Coup Détat in my country (Turkey). When I learned this fact, me having been left out on purpose by that organisation, I received my motivation to try again. I was in a civilian high school then, hardworking and still dedicated. I was running, working my body, reading, A+'ing my exams and everything. I had everything you would seek from a military academy candidate. It was in 2019 when I won the exam for the Military Academy. Passing the sport test, my future was in the hands of the generals, it was time for interview. I was only a step away from achieving my dream. But they rejected me... It was embarrassing. It was a very huge depression. All I had been thinking was the fact that this time, it was me, no organisation behind to hack the interview, nothing... But I didn't quit. I worked harder and I was also more focused because no school to worry about that time. Now it was time again. 2020, passed all exams again, Air Force Academy here I come... Or I thought so... I was more experienced this time, more confident in the interview. I did answer all questions without hesitation, without any wrong answers, with a confident speech... Well, some stories don't end all good and nice. I failed this time again :).
Since I started dreaming about my goal, it has been 12 years. My whole childhood... The kid inside me and that kids dreams. I failed him :).
Failure caused me to drop any career options related to aviation or anything related to being an engineer or such. I am left with nothing to be passionate about. One thing left in me is the love for languages, which is why I am studying Translation and Interpretation in a very well known university in my country.
The feeling of failure gets to me sometimes. I cry time to time, lay in my bed all week because of depression, watching planes gives me a taste while poisoning my heart now. Can't stand the idea of living with this failure all my life...
This is why I am aiming for future failures! :)
New adventures, new failures, everything that will shadow my previous failures :)
As I said, I am a dedicated man, I grew a soldier boy in me. I can't give up :)
If someone was to ask me, what is going to be my aim now, it would be easy to answer.
My aim for now is, looking for new passions and goals :)
Don't mind me, just quietly sobbing in the corner at my day job. Thank You! I needed this message so very much!!
Beautiful words. I'm in a technical job, against what I actually studied and have always invested my time in, art. Art has given me a different way to look at things and I can still use my creativity in my job thanks to that. More importantly, my job has enabled me to not have the burden of having my passion, my mean of escape, my hobby, as my mean of surviving and having food on the table. I look at my boring desk job as something that enables me to create art, free of obligations, timelines, constraints... and at this point in life (mid 30's) I'm thankful for it. It enables me to go to workshops and classes with amazing artists (stuff that doesn't come cheap). It lets me do whatever I want with my art, as I don't have to please anyone with it but myself and that can be hard enough. Doing something professionally is always a grind, no matter how much you love it. There's no shame in making a living out of something you don't love, especially if it actually let's you love the things you love, even more...
💕Great talk. ❤️You can't forget you're an artist no matter what. Everything I did in work was to survive in life, studied art academically at what we call TAFE, moved on to work, got a uni. degree, (mind you with vis. Art major, worked full time studied part time)still got crap pay, but got a house, and I did art in my spare time. Now, at a much older age and having been chucked on the scrap heap in my mid 50s a couple of years ago I suddenly woke up and went Well F--k me, now I got nothing to do, EXCEPT ART. This is GREAT, and have been brushing up old skills ever since, still posted very very little of it online, but everyone, just you wait.
In my kitchen almost in tears listening to this after working full time since I was 15 sometimes at 2 jobs while going to school and art having to take a back burner while I just tried to survive at 26 im finally at a point were I can focus on my art and even got a job doing artistic work. I just needed to hear this right now and needed this validation.
Hey. This is the first video I've watched from you. I'm 16. I know I'm young, but every time I post a drawing online and see the low amount of people who seem to notice it, and see other people my age doing better, I feel like a fraud. I feel like I should have achieved more.
This video helped me a lot. Thank you
Im a 23 yrs old guy who quit his job to pursue art as a self dependable career, but had to let go of my 'dreams' and go to the dark side just so I could pay my bills.
BUT its all good! The foundation I have will also benefit my dreams in the future! and while slowly paying bills, will give me a breather to draw what I Truly want!
Thanks ADAM for the reminder that It is okay for me to let go of my dreams for a while.
oh man. Thank you!!! All of this is so relatable. Gave up art for decades to survive in soul-sucking jobs for money (call center for a while too. ugh. getting cussed out because the tow truck was helping others.) I always wanted to draw. To write stories. To do both. I finally am. And you are SO right. It's hard to not feel useless when told so by those who don't understand art. Thank you for the validation that artist is who I am. I'm older than you now and fight the feeling of being too old and it being too late to do anything meaningful with my art. At the moment I'm trying to learn and improve and maybe help people a little by giving them respite from the world.
i am a mechanical engineer and at 26 have decided to come back to art...i totally agree.art never leaves. its been almost 10 years since i drew but i still got it.i know it in my bones.i dont have the techniques like other instagram artists but I am ME. i love it. i draw for me.quarentine has given me an opportunity and i have started posting on instagram. under an art name and a different account. .... i had to become an engineer so that i could feed myself. I always am and was , an artist
Thank you Adam! I got a BFA in computer graphics in 1993 and left it to be a wife and mother. Now at 62 (yeah I had to wait for computers to catch up with my desire for the magic of painting with light) I have been afraid I missed the boat, but very recently I've picked up the digital stylus again to rediscover that magic I had left behind. Thank you for your video that makes me realize I'm not alone in rediscovering what I had to put aside for way too long. Bless you always!
i left a (rather despairing) comment on one of your videos a day or two ago, not realizing that you had already answered my question with this video. i have to admit that i was a little bit anxious when i clicked on this, worrying that it would somehow confirm my fears that i HAVE missed my chance and i'll never be an artist. i should have known better. thank you so much for these words, it felt like you were speaking directly to me because i feel exactly like that individual who emailed you. after five years of letting my creative spirit sit on the backburner, sometimes without that burner even lit, i'm discovering my passion again and i'm going to try to seize it as a positive force and let it drive me to a more fulfilling life, instead of letting it be clouded by fear. thank you again.
Anthony Jones formulated something similar, that became my mantra sort of: If you are painting everyday, you are an artist, and before long, you can be sure to be good enough to make a good living. Today i would add that you have to make sure to actually learn and improve at the fastest pace possible. But just putting in the hours was enough for me to get hired and get stuff in production.
This made me cry so hard. I've felt empty for a few years now but couldn't figure out why i felt that way. Until i realized that it is bc i stopped drawing, creating. I felt so lost of who i am and got depressed. im thankful to discover this video and im going back to drawing. Now i know what i wanted to do with my life So thank you
Ok, so I'll share a bit... 30 year old Electronics Engineer here, coming from a 3rd world country. The going gets tough here, even for me who has had relative success in my current career path. BUT... I have not given up, nor I ever will give up art. It's here to stay, and it is very much a part of me as if it's as breathing. And you're right mate, every single individual's circumstances are different, and we are often faced with life choices that will have a lifetime impact, so we should always be mindful and responsible in our decisions, given one's own unique circumstances.
With that said, being an artist is not simply taking art as a career, being an artist is to live, experience and express our lives artistically. The reward is in the act of doing the art itself, something I'm sure everyone who's artistically minded would agree.
Cheers to everyone on the path! :)
Nothing shy of delightful. Your view truly helps me shift
I watch a lot of your videos and really enjoy them. I recently got my first fulltime concept artist job for a studio at 35 years old. I was the typical kid who drew every day, but stopped at 15 to pursue other things due to life. I felt something missing in my life so I picked back up my pens and paints (digital and traditional) at 30, and really really got the passion back for it. I was determined to make it a career, 3 kids, wife at home, all the usual stuff. But I didnt let the stress of all that stop me, I used it to motivate me. The past 2 years I devoted 40-50 hours a week minimum to drawing and painting self taught 1whilst getting the odd small freelance jobs here and there. It half killed me having barely any sleep but I was determined. Then after posting things frequently on Instagram and artstation building up a decent following I started to get random job offers from different places, especially in the last 6 months. It was surreal and nerve inducing too, I was like "is this really happening" but it was, so I came to an agreement with a company and now work 8 hours a day for them 5 days a week. It's a strange feeling to put so much effort into something, to really believe it will happen and then to watch it happen. You know I remember the comments from people "hey yeah your drawings are great but wheres the money from it?" And I used just say to those people, you'll see, because I knew deep down that making money from art truly was possible. I then got the ultimate satisfaction of showing the doubters first hand that it did pay off. I now earn a good wage working from the comfort of my own home doing what I love, drawing and painting. I'm connected with the team and the art director on slack and it's just like being in a studio but online. I look back a couple of years and think to myself "wow, I actually did it" because back then I was in and out of minimum wage jobs and 50/50 about pursuing art or giving up and getting a normal job forever. I'm glad I stuck to art. I have also learnt so much in the past few weeks from work, being directed by someone, seeing the other artists work, having constant feedback even when harsh, it all helps so much. My landscapes and architecture drawings/paintings got me the job but I'm working on prop designs currently and really enjoying it. Anyway, just thought I'd post this to let other people who are a little older remember that anything is possible. One minute I was 23 planning my future and the next minute I was 30 and thinking wow where has time gone. As long as you have your health and motivation, in my experience so far age means very little, your designs and brain is all art directors care about. Concept art is completely different than how most people see it, they see all these fancy paintings and renders, but you hardly ever see the real concept art, the sketches and the ideas which is what the art directors truly care about. Theres so much work out there for people, just stay determined and keep putting out work and once you get to a decent level people will ask you to work for them :)
Wow i'm 22 and i finally decided to start learning drawing, and sometimes i feel like i'm too old. Thanks for your motivational story!
@@griffadoresthepooper3316 no problem :) I actually got a job at a bigger studio earlier this year too, now I am working as a background artist for a new upcoming netflix show, so staying determined really does pay off, I'm 37 now but there's no stopping yet :) haha
@@SyGardner congratulations ^^
Im a 38 yo illustrator. Sometimes I sale commisions, sometimes I don´t. But after a very deep depression, because quitting to draw for more than a decade to have a regular job, I decided that it was enough. I quit my job who drained all my time and energy, look for one who let me have the freedom to draw, and I am happy and fullfilled. I don't have any luxury, but I understood that if I'm not drawing, creating, is like dying slowly. Now I can´t stop, and I'm very proud of it.
Thank you for this... It had me in tears by the end. My life has fallen apart since graduating art school and the past year has been a gradual descent with it freefalling at 2020.
I took a risk moving to LA. My 30k savings was drained, my credit cards got maxed trying to survive, I bet on a job that never came and lost everything even my 2 year relationship.
Then when I finally caught a break as a temp in a commercial real estate investment firm I caught the flu right before coronavirus happened and was told to stay home. I'm self isolating like everyone else.
I feel strangely at peace having the ability to just exist without having to justify my worth.
I'm 30 years old and a 7 year vet. My entire life I've always climbed up. This is the biggest bump in my life so far and i know it's bound to get better at some point or another.
Two days from now I will be of 27 years of age. I gave up on being both artist and writer due to the corruption of the art industry, The ridicule of my so called "works", how useless my true abilities are in the modern world due to being talented in a worthless skill such as creativity. Yet again, your resolve is shining upon the path that is even brighter than a thousand suns, shining on the way that all of us were meant to take!
Which is why I'll pull myself up and press on forward because of one reason and one reason only; *I E.L. Morris, III have a dream!*
I stumbled upon this video through an artist friend of mine. I'm in my 30s and trying to learn this art thing whilst working a full-time job (translator) and feeling wholly unfulfilled with my life. But hey, need to pay the bills and pay off the student loans, right? This video was so intensely relatable, you had me in tears.
Thank you for the warm and kind message. I needed that today.
I don’t have a long, deep comment to write but I just wanted to say a sincere thank you at the very least. Keep well.
Your compassion always touches my heart, Adam. I saw many comments from older people in this comment session. People who never had the chance to create as they're meant to do. It makes me sad, and grateful at the same time. I was born in a poor family and in a poor country, although America gave me the chance to walk the path of art. I had to sacrifice a lot of important things because of that, but what about those people? They sacrificed their soul to support their families when they had no choice. Still, they think they're a failure. Guys, as Adam said, you're artists. Artists and heroes. Never forget it.
‘Artists are a lonely people, because the creative way they see the world has no room for the splicing of other ideas and influences. And when it comes to sitting down and actually creating, the mind must be uninterruptedly let loose onto the canvas, and this is easiest done when no one else is around.’
I just love how you think and talk man. What you said in this Video (and many others :D) resonated very strongly with me.
I have my personal quote to this... If you feel passionate on whathever you Are doing... You will succed at it... Allways
I'm in this stage and u dropped this.
Thank you.
From the bottom of my heart.
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"have some compassion for yourself"
All through my teens and early twenties, I felt like I was already playing catch up. I'd never be able to build an art career because I was wayyyyy behind everyone else and where I needed to be. It's only been since turning 30 that I've been able to step back, realize I have a lot of time to figure out where I want to go and who I want to be, and just enjoy the art process for what it is. I stopped trying to sell sell sell and am just creating whatever inspires me (which I was mostly creating before, but there was always a feeling of urgency to list it online, create merch, finish asap and start new pieces, etc).
This got me so emotional. Been struggling with health issues and its so hard to stay on creating art. There's moments where I would rather be a goat herder or scubadiving instructor. Part of me things I'm throwing away my artistic potential if I would do something else for a living. This message is so important... It's not about what you do, its about who you are.
Seriously, i cant thank you enough for speaking about this topic. I needed this advice so much right now at my point in life as a artist myself. Thank you Adam.
It's a hard truth that it's way easier to make a living as an average plumber or engineer than as a really skilled artist or writer. I used to love drawing when I was younger, but when I saw how much time it takes to become a skilled artist and that you need to be able to draw for others really fast and really well to make a career of it, I went into something else. I like my job and don't regret my decision, you can do a job that pays the bills and just keep art as a hobby and then you only need to draw for yourself.
You can also combine a love of art with other things. If you love photography, most of the money is in doing wedding, baby, party and modeling shoots. If you like painting, you can pay the bills as a house painter and do murals on the side for extra scratch.
This talk about how as an artist you see the world and think differently has me very worried. What if it's not really there within me, that I'm just fooling myself. This training and practice I do is pointless because I'm not an artist at my core like you said. If it's possible to have this in your core, it's possible to not have this in your core.
You are great Adam, never stop. What you do, your insights is of great value to many of us.
I have been struggling with this for over a decade now and I wanted to say thank you for this message. I live in a family of accounts and contractors, so being an artist was out of the question. But I tried it anyway, I loved it. Still do but my family never saw the value in it. I was put to work at 6 years old digging irrigation systems, framing walls, doing taxes. The only exposure I had to being artistic was at school where I was able to sit down and doodle and draw, until even then I wasn't allowed to. One day, I was about 10, my teacher saw I was drawing in her class and she grabbed it and crumpled it up without saying anything. Stopped me from drawing till I was 20. I then decided to go to an art school, I was truly happy being able to draw again. I could keep going but the short end to this is that I am 26 and working in a job that has me coming home bruised and often bleeding by the end of the day, and I have been feeling absolutely worthless, like I had missed my chance to get out of being a grunt for the rest of my life. Thank you for this talk. It is one of the few avenues in which I interact with the artistic community. Again Thanks for being there.
Life has a way of pushing us around..Giving us challenges that test us, and grow us stronger. I have no doubt that you'd be an excellent artist if you're able to take those sorts of punches. Drawing is one of the greatest freedoms of all, even if you just doodle, it's a powerful expression that no "teacher" should ever take away. Keep fighting, dude. Sounds like you're getting some thick skin...
When I'm feeling down with my art I always look at your videos. Thank you so much for helping keep going and knowing I'm not alone with my feelings with art.
Gosh, this video was a rollercoaster of emotions for me - and a great reminder of just how wise you are, Adam. Thank you.
I watch your videos not to learn to imitate your art, which in fact is wonderful, that is secondary...
what I'm really looking for in your videos is your wisdom, thanks for teaching me a little with each video.
I haven't cried for a very long time. This touched me on a personal level. I really needed this. Thank you.
I stopped pursuing art when I started high school. Before that, I had been drawing constantly, a lot of people had said I was very talented. Sadly, during high school, I didn't have time to draw at all, I thought I will never do that again, and that it's over. Now I'm in college, and I'm slowly getting back to art. It's scary, but your videos really help.
I am 18 years old and 2 months ago i dropped out of college after my first semester having been in 2 majors in that time, first biology and then videogame development and i ended up quitting cuz it just made me feel like crap being in either.
I've had a love for arts since childhood, specially music and story writing, i feel complete when i'm writing or singing or drawing, but I grew up surrounded by people who don't understand the emotional side of things like I do, my family says i can talk to them about stuff but i feel like there's just a giant distance between the way we think.
I feel like I've lost the train to do anything meaningful with my life because i always pushed myselt to study science instead of something i actually liked because my family always told me that was the way to go.
I've never really thought of myself an artist because i never really knew what art is the one for me but I've known for a while I think like an artist.
Next year I'm going back to college but i still have no idea what major to pick. I just feel like it's too late to pick anything i can actually finish without dropping out because of the choices i made in high school (because of the way education is in my country).
In Christmas my dad gave me a graphics tablet and from what I've used it I've had fun drawing, i even made an icon for my discord server, but most of the time i can't find the will to pick it up and do something.
I guess up till i watched this video i just never considered myself an artist and it still feels weird taking that label since i don't really do anything artistic often but that does make me feel like at least I'm not alone with these feelings
While working I was listening to this and my tears just started to fall. Thank you for posting this.
Listening to you feels like home to me. Never thought I'd find this feeling on RUclips. Thank you for working so hard to get to where you are; everything about your channel is truly special.
I had to study other thing cause there was no way for me to pay art school, not specialized places to study and no jobs ,I gave up to my dreams for years but since I quit my job as a graphic designer 3 years ago I've been happier, I found another job that allows me to have time for art and I realized...even at 28 years old, is not late to find your way. Everything I learned helped me as an adult , I had to sacrifice so many years to be able to survive, but now I have finally a chance to make art and I plan on never letting it slip away of my hands , this video helped me so much today, thank you.
Thank you. I`m a conservation of art specialist and in a month PhD in history of Arts, but I work in Game Art, because in my country I can`t get a a good salary in my field. I was afraid of changing my LinkedIn account for over 2 years because I had a feeling that I betrayed my life long goal, I am really thankful for what you are saying, it really gives the support to continue working.
A delicious helping of genuine positivity, much needed on this planet, thank you. Also shoutout to the philosophers, musicians, writers, poets and artistic big picture thinkers in technical projects; the artistic perspective extends into almost every category of human exceptionalism.
thank you so much for these words Adam
Man you are amazing, every one of your videos feels so personal and bring me to the edge of tears
I feel this so much! Im studying mediadesign and ive felt disconected from myself and didnt value myself or my art. I also think its because i started to look at what others where doing more and waiting for grades to come in and getting disepointed after getting a grade. Now besides my school assignments im streaming and working on my art skills that make me happier, so i can get my confidence back and my sence of self.
You have managed to give voice what I am feeling and have brought me peace and self-assurance. Thank you.
I'm crying listening to this
reads title: Ah me, myself, and I.
I think this video is really what I needed to hear right now. For the longest time I wanted to be “an artist” and recently I’ve been very hard on myself for not improving and not doing art to the point where I was thinking it just wasn’t meant to be. But with this video, it made me feel like that isn’t true. Because I constantly have ideas and feelings that I need to create. It’s just when I go to do it, I find it near impossible to do so. I think what I’m trying to get at is : thanks for showing me that I haven’t failed myself.
A huge thank for this video which I really take in account for my personal life. The things you're talking about are the kind of things I feel deeply in me - about difficulty with managing on the one side money, personal and social life, and on the other, trying to beginning a career as an artist - and that I never heard about in other RUclips content dedicated to art. All what I hear is "you are what you do" but well circumstances may affect what you do, and you're not always able to do what you want but sometimes only what you can.
Again thank you for this video :)
I dont consider myself to be an artist. But, for some reason, hearing you say "my audience is artists" touched my heart in some way. I wonder why.
Thank you, Adam. You are wonderful human being
This is such an important message to me right now... I always wanted to be a prolific artist. But bills come due... Tamping down the artistic side is temporary... I needed that reminder.
I´m 25, and I had learn to be more paitence with the way I approche my career, but since I found your channel I have feel more peace of mind that I have felt before, I knew that I needed to take a different route to make my career prosper, but listening to you has help me so much in finding the confident in taking a little more time in the things that I make.
Theres so much more that I would like to share in how your videos have help me, but I havent found the words to expressed everything yet. Still, thank you for all the advices you share in your videos.
Hi Adam, this is an amazing video! I work as an electrical engineer in Canada and the person who emailed you, word for word expressed the same feelings that I have. This is truly motivational for me because even though I work with schematics all day, I value the time I use to create art because like you mentioned, its something that allows me to express myself and bring self-joy. Thanks again for all your videos, they are amazing and your talks are about the best thing I've found online regarding art and a good perspective on it.
ye, I didn't get a chance to study in an art school and i look at those who had that chance with envy, my parents never supported me doing art and i have always drawn and paint in stolen time when they are not watching. Not until I actualy proved art can financially help me did they allow me to draw openly. But yeah, I've never stopped, I just love doing art, even if i can't call myself a professional artist that knows the trade. At the end of the day, it is a safe haven I make for myself.
This is really something I needed to hear- having suffered with chronic wrist pain that has held me back mentally as much as physically from art for 2 years. When you aren't creating art like you used to- it's nice to hear that you can still identify as an artist. What I wasn't really prepared to deal with in this injury- is the mental exhaustion of talking about it. Whenever I talk to anyone about my injury honestly- I feel this heavy feeling of pity and disappointment that I didn't feel before. I just want to be an artist, create good work I'm proud of and just exist without all that crap holding me back. Tldr; Injured artist here. This was a heck of a pick-me-up.
Thank you for offering me your perspective. It's worth a lot, and it helps me make decisions from time to time.
Thank you... I really needed to hear this.
This is a really good message and thank you for sharing it. I've had to step away from art a few times in my life, some for longer than others. A lot of people want to say that when you do this it's because you don't care. But I think you're right, I think being an artist is something you carry with you no matter what.
Your words were just the right thing for me to hear right now. Thank you.
Thank you so much for this. Didn’t realize it was something I really needed to hear!
I’ve KNOWN I’m an artist for the same reason you do; my mother is and always has been very artistic and an entrepreneur.
Being a truly artistic person put into the box that is the non-artistic outside world has always been so stifling and jarring to me and I’ve always wanted to escape it - considering day jobs as simply time making money. Over time, I began adjusting and comparing myself to the outside world, but like you said, in doing so, it has been like a slow drip of toxicity and it fills you up over time. Thank you for helping and encouraging me to re-center and embrace my true nature. 💛
Just found your channel and am getting much from it. Having retired last October I find myself with all the time I had hoped for to spend on my art (watercolor and acrylic) but have been beset by doubts and fears that have nothing to do with making art. It's been a real awakening and surprise really to find I have other agendas besides making art blended into making art. I'm working on reframing my purpose of art making into self discovery and improvement of my skills. Leaving all the self judgement crap behind is a full time job I find :-)
Your words have helped clarify this for me even more.
thank you.
I struggle with doing things, like actually starting anything. The way you spoke of how being an artist is the way of perceiving and analysing the world made me a bit less angry at myself, thank you.
I was listening to this while doing my very first digital painting, I was a traditional artist an am now trying to open to new things. It’s currently 5 am and these talks are really relaxing to me, dare I say comforting in a sense. Thanks for that
Adam, your philosophy is amazing. And it is exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.
Your videos are like therapy, thank you for making me cry (in the best way).
This unlocked a lot of realisations and was so comforting, I'm really glad I found your channel. Thank you
I've always felt lost but I never knew why untill I watched your video. I can't really explain how much this has helped me so thank you
This one really hits home.
I am currently in that situation of having to work a tiring and less fulfilling art job to pay rent and improve skills, before I can continue work on personal art, or creativity of any kind.
In a way, I had to let go of my dream when it was almost within reach.
So thank you for this one, and reinforcing the idea that we can stay artists and creatives, even if we have to do other things to survive and continue.
We are more than our jobs or skillsets, and those external categories are not the real thing that define us as creative people.
Hi Adam. Thank you for talking about this. I'm not really a victim of this kind of situation, though I'm studying a different course academically but i still manage to chase my artistic dream everyday. But i have many friends that have the same problem. Your videos are a piece of gem. Thank you
There are a lot of older people in the comments saying its cringe for younger people to say they've missed the train, but as a 16 year old i wanted to explain to you my perspective because I've been struggling a lot with that exact problem. For the last 4-5 years I've been struggling a lot with that feeling, like i'm worse than my peers. I had to make the choice to not go to art school, and had to go to a general studies school, now looking on social media and checking up with my friends, looking at their art and really understanding that they're learning things i don't know and haven't got a clue what they mean really just pressures me and makes me think how the fact i missed that opportunity set me back and denied me that choice to pursue art as a career. Every day when i log on to whatever social media i see their art, people my age and even younger creating pieces i wont be able to get near to for years more, and honestly it really does make you sad, this video shared some light onto the situation but i will still need a lot more time to think about everything.
Well I have an 18 year old daughter in her second year of illustration in college - and rest assured I’m VERY aware how ambitious, hard working and self-critical she is
Social media can put an insane amount of pressure to perform on you, and 16 year olds are in the epicentre of that pressure
But, don’t let it consume you. Never forget what a huge part of your identity art is, so ignore those distractions when you’re aiming for growth
Wow very very true what you say. It exactly described who I am but couldn't explain! Thank you so much Adam!