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Carew Ellington Coming Out?
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- Опубликовано: 6 май 2024
- I've never talked about this before... In this episode, I discuss word curses, identity and agreement with the enemy. Talking about my journey with Jesus and sexuality.
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This is gonna be deep. I know a lot of men including myself struggling in this area. Cheers to freedom! Go after it, Carew. Jesus is using you BIG TIME.
Jesus Christ Loves You and died for you and rose three days later after conquering hell! God bless you and your families!
Yes me too i am struggling with hocd
How about creating a group to encourage one another cause it's not easy, really. A work at a pizza shop and a man just tried to touch. A married man 😔
Struggling with what exactly? Your sexuality? As long as you're not attracted to animals or children who cannot consent then I don't see why sexuality should be a struggle.
@@user-mb9qo1il7ztruly seek God , surrender everything to him, pray to be delivered from ocd, read mark 11:24
Ooof so looking forward to this! As a girl, I sometimes struggle with same sex attraction. It’s something I’ve never openly talked about with brothers and sisters in Christ because saying it out loud feels so wrong like I’m afraid of being judged cause I’m Christian. I’ve only talked about it with God. He’s helped me to say no to temptations. I think churches / the Christian community shys away from this topic. Which is what the enemy wants.
Praying the you find a community of people who fearlessly and lovingly walk with you.
There’s nothing wrong with being attracted to the same sex. I promise the Lord would love you no less for following your heart. You were made that way for a reason. Praying for you to love who you are.
I’m proud of you! God is faithful to deliver you from every desire that is not from him❤I’m sure He has an amazing, Godly man picked out for you!!
@@whitneymorrisphotography9292 Idk about you but I go by Gods word aka the holy bible. If it says homosexuality is wrong then it’s wrong. I’m not mad or upset about it. I choose to not live that lifestyle. I’m sticking by that 🤷🏽♀️
@@whitneymorrisphotography9292so so so so real friend
I've been through this too. Jesus came to save my identity and my life. Now I thank Him for the femininity He gave me back. He freed me from the chains of lies. Something very similar to you happened to me, Carew. Thank you for your living testimony. Never stop, Jesus is with you! ❤
I thought I was a lesbian from age 15-22 despite not having prior feelings for women, but then looking back and analyzing things from when I was younger and “connecting the dots” so I convinced myself. What really happened was I had crushes on boys, but wasn’t boy crazy like my friends, my crushes were innocent bc I wasn’t exposed to anything “more adult” until later, I got rejected a few times when I was younger and just started pushing my feelings for guys down. And, the first romantic feelings I received from someone else was a girl (ended up being my first gf, horrible toxic relationship). I hung out w boys (brothers, neighbors and my dad) so was a tomboy and grew up hearing that.
Then right into college, I fell into a crowd with a bunch of LGBT people and it started becoming so normal and that even heterosexuality was abnormal. My dad died when I was 19 and that threw me for a loop, I had no idea who I was which caused me to lean into that identity even more and completely reject the part of me that liked men. I also was not religious and didn’t know Jesus. I moved away from those people two years ago, I deleted social media a bit after, started creating my own identity not based on the trends and society, and I got exposed to Christianity again by my mom. My heart started changing, I still struggled with homosexuality, but it slowly started lessening. I started wanting to dress more feminine and girly, which I rejected prior, and just letting myself be.
About two months ago the stronghold of homosexuality was completely broken off me out of nowhere. I was contemplating getting back with my last ex girlfriend (she cheated on me) and really struggling with it, then one moment it all just stopped. I had relief, freedom, and peace because that identity stronghold was broken off of me after deeply struggling (feeling conviction) the last 4ish months. I still have thoughts sometimes because it’s so habitual to think them, but they are not my thoughts anymore. My identity is now in Jesus and that I am a Christian, not about my sexuality or anything else, He is first. Because I have love from Him and God, love from anyone else is just a bonus.
I know this is long, but if anyone read this because they’re also struggling with it, JESUS LOVES YOU and He will change your heart, you just have to spend time with Him, read the Bible, focus on growing your faith and your identity in Him. I pray that anyone struggling with homosexuality is released from that in Jesus name. BIG LOVE❤️
@Adrienne18 I will pray for you 🤍
Thanks for sharing!! God bless
what a testimony!! amen sister ❤
Beautiful testimony
This is literally just called bisexuality lmao
CAREWWWWWW LORDDD...I Knew I felt such a connection with you and THIS IS WHY. So many of us are struggling with this in the dark but God is a deliverer and he is delivering me. Thank you for stepping out in boldness and sharing your story this just showed how in tune with the sprint you are because God knew this needed to be said for so many of us. AMEN!!
The delusion goes hard
my testimony is so similar to yours bro, thank u for this bro. this helped me so much. i’ve been saved for a month now and he’s delivered my from the same stuff and upbringings. i love u bro, so proud of you for this! in jesus name!
I’m so blessed that I found Carew in my darkest moments, the Holy Spirit spoke through him so strongly. During early 2023 I was struggling with addiction and came across his page and he planted the seed in my heart I never knew I needed. Ever since then I’ve been growing closer to Jesus everyday. It’s so amazing how God can work on you so quickly. I’m so exited for this episode!! 🎉 🫶🫶🫶
Brother Carew, I just discovered you this morning through Bryce Crawford. And I've only known of Bryce for a short while. God is bringing young men like you into my life. You are a blessing! God is using you in a mighty way! Continue to submit yourself to Him! He loves you, brother, and so do I!
Carew, THANK YOU for your vulnerability and for allowing the Lord to speak through you. Your podcast is probably one of the best examples of "iron sharpening iron", helping others on the narrow road with Jesus. You aren't afraid to speak on the hard topics that allow the Holy Spirit to bring conviction to our hearts and inspire us to grow and go still further in our journeys. Praise God! ❤
Carew, God bless you. I had a similar childhood though I'm a woman. Had a scary childhood and was exposed to sinful things so so early. The devil really played on me. I fell in with lost people at school and thought i was like them. I was lost. But Jesus saved my life so miraculously when I was 15, and im 18 now. Im so so thankful and grateful. But the enemy keeps coming back to bring up my past, and convince me to believe bad things about myself. He has tried so hard to steal my identity and God has taught me what He has clearly taught you: the enemy is using identity to get to our generation. I love you Carew and praise God for this. We need to normalize talking about this in the church because its getting bad. God bless you.
Struggled with bullying all of highschool because i wasnt “masculine “ enough, got to the point i believed them and gave into it, the Lord eventually pulled me out and gave me a wife, but the enemy still definitely tries to tempt me with my past, so excited for this episode!
Hi! Does your wife know of it all? I mean I know it is a part of your testimony but how did she take it?
I'm only asking because my husband went through something similar and I wasn't aware until about 2 weeks ago. I know God is working in him daily but I did feel some type of way honestly. I started over thinking and questioning our relationship and why we lack in certain areas.
I'm sorry I'm just curious. I
@@jocyaye4214 So let me start off by saying me and my wife were not saved when we got together, we started off our relationship in the new age practices and ended up getting pregnant, it was then she found out because I still very much struggled with who I thought I was attracted to, so when God started working on both of us he has healed those broken areas, id be lying if i said that that old jason didnt linger because thats what the enemy does is hold stuff over your head. I believe that you just finding out two weeks ago was probably God working in your relationship, maybe that was a sore subject for your husband to touch snd telling you was God pushing Him? I believe now that thats out in the open God can start healing the open wounds He has and you guys can move on in your relationship without that part of his life holding him back, does that help?
Hi Carew!!! I really hope you see this because your most recent post about Jesus healing us really touched me. ❤️ I’m 15 years old, I was diagnosed with SEVERE anemia, meaning that the iron in my body is very low and my body couldn’t make blood. My iron was so low that the doctors couldn’t even find it in my body. I should’ve been dead. Most people with that case of severity don’t survive. My faith in God kept me alive. I’m so grateful
Amen!!!
IN JESUS NAMEE
As a Christian man that is single, I‘ve had many conversations with other Christian single men & sexual identity is rarely talked about publicly. Excited to hear your story Carew & believe it will inspire more men to speak on the topic❤️
Speaking truth, brother! I'm so happy to see a new generation of people leaving the LGBTQ and discovering the truth of their identities. I've been praying for revival among the LGBTQ. And it's happening. My mission is to prepare the church for properly discipling the ones coming out from it.
Carew! I feel that this message will be something I need to hear. God is moving in all of our lives, thank you for being a messenger! ❤ Your ability to spread wisdom and love has truly helped me as a person and as a soul. Keep doing what you’re doing. I love you, brother. ❤
‘He is the environment He created you to live in.’👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
I’m literally crying right now. God bless you sir. I feel like I just had like a sit down with an older brother I never had. I’ve struggled with my identity due to an abusive childhood, and that prayer just felt like a load of rocks was taken off of me. Please continue to follow God and honor his word, I truly see the lord is working through you and I can’t thank you enough for having the courage to honor him the way you do ❤️
Man when is religion going to stop seeing being gay as a sin. I feel for all you religious folks. Y'all are battling with stuff, I hope you all come to terms with your sexuality. Being brainwashed by the church. I'm gay and proud.
I have been Fallowing your path for YEARS. Carew, we all love you and you have been so special to my story. you have kept me pushing in my faith and I know tgis video is going to be so good. God is using you!
I was raised Christian with very strict parents. I came out at 23 and it’s definitely not a choice for me. It’s something I cannot control. I’m physically and emotionally attracted to men innately. You do remind me of myself and I can intuitively see indicators when I watch you. I hope whatever way you choose to live will be truly authentic to how you feel :)
If you're gay it's because the government controlled schools told you to be and made it a trend. This wasn't common before in our history. You know what the Bible says is right.
Why are you giving sin power over you, my friend? The holy spirit gives us Christ-followers power to overcome anything. Whatever you’re trying to speak over Carew is untrue and the power of the Lord is stronger than any worldly temptations. AMEN 🙏🏾 May the Lord free you from the the chains of sin and the enemy.
Life isn’t about feelings. Feelings will lead you down a dark path and I just pray that Jesus frees you soon. 🙏🏾 The enemy tries to force you to believe things about yourself but I know that God is stronger and there is a reason you watched this video.
Also, there is a big difference between being raised Christian and having a genuine relationship with Jesus Christ. When you actually realize what our Lord and Savior has done for all of us, how could you ever want to sin against Him? The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy because he doesn’t want you to know the TRUE FREEDOM of not being a slave to sin.
This is something everyone in this generation needs to hear! Thank you, Carew, for bringing light onto this topic. You are such a powerful tool of the Lord, and I thank you for your incredible testimony. Never stop! ❤
I'm so glad God showed me this episode into my life. I am a young girl and I have been struggling in this area lately and this video helped me so much. I really never want to tell anyone about what I struggle with and I probably never will, but thank you for making this video. Good bless ❤❤
I thinky ou really should give it a try and tell someone, a Christian person or adult you trust! I went through similar things and was very ashamed of myself until I confessed it all to not only God but to someone I trusted and I was heavily freed from so many ideas and shame that was bringing em into deep depression. I thought the person I told would see me differently, but it's the lastthing that happened, and he told me all the similar things she went through. The Bible says to love eachother and confess our sins to one another. Not because it's a rule or God will be angry, but because it's so freeing. ❤❤May God bless you continuously
Thank you so much for making this video , I've been trying my best to get closer to the Lord but I kept feeling so unworthy because I feel so unclean because of my evil desires and I kept asking the Lord to take it away from me but nothing happens but I know that His thoughts are greater than our thoughts, his ways far greater than ours so I will put my trust and hope in him because ever since I stared following the Lord my life has drastically changed , and I was freed from an addiction to pornography too and honestly if anything the fact that I saw this video is the greatest sign that the Lord is hearing the cries of not only me but all his children and so i end this with praise and thanks to our Lord and saviour Jesus christ who has never failed me and so my heart rejoices and my soul magnifies his love . Praise be to God!!!!❤❤❤❤
I'm excited for this Carew! Tell your truth and put the enemy to shame.
Bless you for sharing your story so vulnerably and insightfully. I truly think God is going to change lives with this video.
I went through this too and Jesus set me free. I had a testimony similar to this and I know that it is difficult because it takes you out of your comfort zone, and speaking it not only denotes our obedience to the Lord but also our love for others. You are the man.
God is revealing so many things to me through this that he couldn't tell right now.
Keep fighting.
You went through what? Being gay?
Dear Carew, thanks for sharing your story, I found it helpful. I've been a Christian for a while now with these desires and I've never really heard about these things.
I’m so excited to see what you will inspire me with next. I love you Carew Ellington. ❤
I am a woman who loves a woman. I spent my entire life running from God because I wanted him to change me and when I didn’t change I felt like I was made to be condemned. I ran and ran and ran from God. But I came back to Jesus and my entire life changed. I was stuck in so much sin and addicted to so many things. And everything changed in my life except for me being gay and loving a woman. I love my wife so much, my sexuality is not my identity. I just love a woman. But he fixed me and saved me from so many things. One thing he saved me and changed in me was thinking that I was transgender. I thought I wanted to be a man but once I gave my life to Jesus I realized I love being a woman and all the things I get to do as a woman. My relationship with my wife healed. I thought I’d be convicted to leave and end things but the Lord turned my toxic relationship into a saved relationship under the Lord. Idk how to explain it. And I get so much negativity and hate from others for it.
❤
Are you still a gay?
Yeah, get some help. You cannot love a woman and say that is okay. God can heal you from your sin.
@@sarahwalker2531Are you even a Christian? I do not agree with LGBTQ+, but the Bible has said that no sin is worse than another. You are being hateful as a Christian, does that mean that God doesn’t love you or that you cannot possibly be saved or loved by God? No, it does not. Yes, we should strive to be as sinless as possible, but no sin is unforgivable, except for the one sin that we, in theory, cannot even commit.
I am a Christian. Yes, all sin is equal and will be punished equally, but Christians should not be living in sin or desiring it. God is just and will not leave the sinner unpunished. We need to strive after Jesus. The Word says God vomits the lukewarm out of His mouth!!
Bisexuality is a thing that exists!
Yes it is
I believe these “ex gays” are really just bisexual people that had the option of suppressing apart of themselves
Peaple in my class called me gay when I was 8 and I cried and watching this makes me feel better I’m straight I’ve never liked men thanku so so so so so much
I’m going to be a bit vulnerable here, but I also struggled with something similar. I dealt with some trauma involving men, and it made me believe I was a lesbian. I also hated being feminine. After going through some very intense therapy, I realized I wasn’t gay. I had felt trapped behind my label, but broke free from it. I’ve also come to love being a woman, and me and Jesus are 🤞He met me right where I was, and has completely changed me for the better. It’s not easy to share your story, but I thank you Carew. Your love for Jesus shows, and it’s contagious. I look forward to watching your podcast. God bless you my friend. 🫶🏻
Wow so happy for you sister! I know that was for Carew to read but that’s amazing I’m glad you’re happy now and it’s only gonna get better from here! 🙏🏼🩵
praise God sister! praying for your journey
You speak from my soul, I have been struggling with homosexuality for a long time and now I realize that I am looking for a fatherly, male relationship in my life. It is not the sexual search for the same sex. please pray for me
Massively courageous testimony by the Grace of God! You could have been 90% honest, but you were 100% truthful and open in your testimony. This courage comes from the firmness of your conviction in Christ Jesus. Carew, your discipleship is an inspirational example to young people today.
waited so long for the episode soooooooooo excited and only 10 minutes?! CAREW WE WANT MORE I LOVE u
Carew you had no idea how much I needed this. I’ve been struggling so much with lies in my head about the “gay” and it’s over and over again and I just been struggling with taking them captive but just reading these comments and know that I’m not the only one and I’ve cried out to God and begged God to heal me and i just wish church’s would talk about this and trauma issues too.
Theres no need to use the f-word. If you preach love and respect then actually follow your words.
I really needed this. I didn't know how bad until we prayed together, I could feel the love of God so strongly in that moment. I have had such bad body image issues my whole life and I have struggled with lust before in my past and my identity even now so I can completely relate to what you were saying. I haven't seen one of your RUclips videos before but I watch your stories on snapchat. That's how I seen this video and you just have no idea how grateful I am that I came across it. God bless you and what you're doing ❤️
Literally been goin through my own challenges and epiphanies with this exact topic , can’t wait to see this vid 🤍
Thank you so much for speaking about this Carew. I've struggled with porn addiction and same sex attraction since I was 10. And it honestly shocked me as I got older to see how addictive and self harming it is in my everyday life. I've honestly felt like a prisoner to Satan because of this addiction but after finding God and inviting Him in into my life I've seen how much He is working in my life to deliver me from my addictions. He is so amazing and so gracious to us. And everything you talked about touched my heart in a very personal way so I thank you so much for speaking out about this. Thank you Lord for leading me to this video. I'm sorry if this was hard to talk about but I know God is so incredibly proud of you and so am I! Thank you!
The insane thing is growing up I was always called gay bc ig I was more zesty than other guys and that led to me being super insecure and eventually I bought into it and I fell into a gay pornography addiction at the age of 11 and I’ve never mentioned it to anyone but God so no one ik has a clue. I’m now turning 16 in like two weeks and I’m still in this addiction. I accepted Jesus into my life like a week before my 15th birthday and since then Jesus has fixed a lot of things in my life. I’m no longer depressed and don’t have suicidal thought anymore. He’s also helped me a lot with my terrible social anxiety and insecurities. I also don’t have panic attacks anymore. So I’ve definitely seen a lot of progress but I somehow still deal with doubt. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do next. Hope someone can pray for me and help me get through this. Thank you and may God bless you.
I've been through something very similar to you. God brought me out of it. I know he can do the same for you. Always depend on him. You cannot be delivered through your own strength. It's by his Spirit. Never feel as though there isn't hope, especially in those dark times when you feel as though you'll never make it out. Deliverance is His children's bread. You are not a victim of sin in Christ. You are an overcomer. I'd recommend you read and meditate on Romans 6. I'll be praying for you.
Romans 15:13
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Hey, I’ve been in this same predicament and I feel called to share this with you. When I was 8 I was exposed to gay corn* in the 3rd grade. I never saw naked women or anything until much later. But that one instance planted a seed of deceit for years. When I was first able to masturbate I watch gay corn. I began so addicted I watched every day and even still struggle to this day after being saved. My addiction was so bad I started watching very violent sub sections of gay corn* that while typing this terrifies me of thinking about it.
A lot of this stimulated from early as a child in a multitude of reasons.
1. going to a school where it was predominantly white (no shade and I don’t see myself as a victim) and sometimes being one of the only kids of color in the class and being picked on for not being the stereotypical black guy (I went to an all boys school for context). I was never athletic or the athletic type, I was always creative and expressive with my personality and that didn’t mesh well with a lot of guys and I was never really included. I one time did get lucky in 6th grade and was the most popular kid in the class for the entire year because I became the class clown and went from being a straight A student / teacher pet to the most funniest but hated kid by teachers in the class. I was so drawn to being popular and finally liked after many years of not having friends or being invited that I didn’t care who i was or who i had to be to maintain it. When 6 grade ended it became coed in 7th grade and the bullying got worse. I was told by all the girls I was gay even though I never saw guys like that, but I also just wasn’t into girls like that / being hyper sexual with them. But eventually those words kicked in and in 7th grade I had lost “my virginity” to a guy in my class who also didn’t know if he was gay. We got caught by my mom and long story short she didn’t talk to me for a month and a half which hurt me a lost.
2. I never got approval from my father for who I was. I had a little brother that was 10x more athletic than me/naturally athletic and he got most of my father’s attention. So whenever a play or something creative came up it was second or he never showed interest in the things I cared for. Naturally I gravitated to my mother more and still never had that male bond I desperately wanted.
3. Losing my “virginity” so early and to a guy confused me. And to keep it as least graphic as possible - it hurt and still hurt every-time I did it with a guy. I thought it was supposed to hurt or I was supposed to be hurting and allow a guy to love me by hurting me like that in a twisted way because the only love I ever knew was pain. Pain from being bullied by other guys, pain from not being included with friends, and pain from not being loved by my own dad. Whenever my dad showed me attention it was when he punished me physically cuz I would lash out to get his attention. And so that’s where that hardcore side of gay corn and relations with guys stimulated from.
I say all this because the enemy had used all my pain to warp my idea of soft gentle love into complex systems of lies and pain. Instead, I should’ve realized I was never meant to be apart of those groups of guys or constantly seek approval from my earthly father (who was and still is manipulative of my emotions). Instead, like it says in the Bible, Deuteronomy 14:2 - You have been set apart as holy to the LORD your God, and he has chosen you from all the nations of the earth to be his own special treasure.
I’m slowly starting to see the way I live my life does not conform anywhere near the statues of the world. In the last 5 years I got saved again and learned about Jesus have being a Catholic for most of my life (no longer a Catholic). The Lord has brought me out of so many godless friendships, toxic relationships, and thoughts of homosexuality. He has softened my heart and shown me it’s okay to be vulnerable and be myself and to be content with standing apart. I still have temptations and urges but it mostly stimulates from fear.
I’m 25 and never been with a girl romantically or sexually but I know I want to be with one romantically and have kids some day. This world teaches us about sex and pleasure before romance marriage and knowing a person for a reason. Sex and pleasure are cheap instant thrills that once fulfilled dissipate and leave us empty and wanting more.
If I can give you advice man is to be patient, I’m only 10 years older than you but the Lord is still working on my patience. Also remember it’s okay to be who you are and have your personality on display. You are unique and made in the image of God for a reason. If people don’t accept that, move on and remember God will always provide you with the right community in due time. Read your Bible even if it doesn’t make sense at the time. When it become time for conviction if you mess up those seeds will be planted in your head and you will be able to fight the enemy with the truths of the word of God.
You’ve got this and the Lord got you!
@@swampmonsta87 Thank you so much for your advice and testimony. It’s really helpful and gives me hope that one day I will be free also. Can’t wait bc I don’t even know what that feels like anymore, without constantly fearing of being exposed for the things I’ve done and watched. Constantly filled with anxiety and stress. But praying and reading my Bible definitely helps and I will continue to do so. May God bless you and thank you for taking the time to share this with me.
@@tyresedaijaun4098 Tbh I lacked all hope until I started reading my Bible daily and that really helped especially since I specific verses that spoke to me and gave me hope. Thank you for your encouragement and advice. May God bless you.
There’s nothing wrong with you, it’s religion that’s messed up. I hope you can learn to love and accept yourself as you are.
We literally have the same story.. so blessed by this. Love you bro!
This is the type of thing the younger ( primarily) generation needs to see. Thank you for being awesome Carew. I hope you know this helping and saving lives through Christ every day
The lies are everywhere today and the enemy is always on the prowl. Your messages are always inspiring and uplifting, Carew! When I found you I didn't know what to think to be honest, but like your grandma said I got great joy from just your videos and presence. Keep it up 🙌 Praise the Lord and may God continue to bless you and your ministry =) Our identity is in Jesus!
Powerful! Thank you for being so raw, sharing your testimony, and pointing this weighty topic back to the Word. This is going to set someone free! 🔥
This is pretty much the same thing I went through and it’s definitely something I’m still healing from. Thanks be to God that He’s a good and loving father!!
Hi Caleb! I’m sorry you feel like you need to “heal” from feelings of love you don’t have control over. I’m sorry you have been told all your life, just like me, that loving is wrong. God does not judge and he made you this way for a reason. I hope you learn to be kinder, tender, and more understanding with yourself. Follow what your heart wants, not what others want for you. ❤️
Look into a man known as Seraphim Rose. He was Christian monk who went through these kinds of struggles, a true saint who was victorious against such passions and who's spirituality is a leading example of godliness. His life and works have lead so many into the Faith.
yo thank you for sharing this. the biggest Amen for this deliverance!!!!
I love your podcast I genuinely feel like it’s brought me more understand of the Lord thank you! So excited to hear this podcast
Christianity is wild, I feel so sorry for all of you who feel as though being LGBT is wrong and I hope you all can learn to love and accept yourselves as you are. The irony is you already knew your identity before the church told you it was wrong.
Tell that to God. He calls it an abomination
Which it is
@@OfficialRuskyTursky no, the men who wrote the Bible called men who lie with boys an abomination, referencing p3dophila. Then it was mistranslated in 1946 to, “man who lies with man is an abomination.”
@@OfficialRuskyTurskyBible ruins lives
It never was my identity and it never will be. It's just one of the problems I face and hope to overcome. When I'm addicted to smoking, I also don't place my whole identity in being a smoker.
Also I knew that my same sex attraction was wrong and I shouldn't act on it and instead should do something to overcome it about two or three years before I even knew that Christianity says anything against it.
I'm 24 years old. Been called gay countless times from primary school to high school. At some point I entertained the idea and actually dated.. currently still struggling with same sex attraction.But, still holding on to christ and his promise. It's not easy but ay 🙌🏽
Carew thank you!! I think there are a lot of people struggling with this. It’s really not talked about enough!
This was so incredibly powerful! I connect with this so much! Your word on simply wanting a fatherly and brotherly love was eye opening 😮
What an uplifting and wonderful testimony... It's good to see what Jesus did in your life, may He bless you more and more 💝🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷
I struggle with same sex attraction. I lived as an out gay man from 17-23. Then i lived as an asexual man since because I wasnt physically attracted to men but i still didnt think i felt anything towards women. Its rough but now i just vibe in my identity as a son and realize that regardless of who i like if im not married in the biblical sense it doesnt matter.
Excited for you to here this episode❤️
Be persistent in prayer it has worked for me
nothing was ever wrong with you for feeling gay or asexual, it's all part of your journey. there's nothing wrong with being straight either but you don't NEED to live heterosexual to live a life that matters. hope you get the help you need to realise this. I'm not telling you how to feel but finding out what you're attracted to is a journey and it's okay to come out of it all, being a non-straight guy.
I thought you supported the LGBT+ community. This video has obviously proved me wrong.
There is something Freudian and disturbing about the message being projected onto impressionable audiences here. Whether you are of faith or not, you must realise that questioning sexuality is part of growing up, and for some people it leads them to who they really are. Not being heterosexual is not a bad thing. There is nothing wrong with being gay, bi, lesbian, queer, trans etc.
Being something other than straight is not ‘biting the apple’; it is who you are, and that is ok.
The first humans made by God were Adam and Eve , not Adam and Steve . In Jesus and God only you can find your identity. Saying this with love and respect
Why do we give so much allowance to me me me! By focusing on Jesus you will find yourself! You focus on me me you’ll lose yourself. Luke 17:33 “Whosoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it.”
@@kadavera748the first humans came after many millions of years of evolution. Go to a museum, read a text book, get your head out of fairytales.
@@ScoobyandShaggy5554I don’t. If being gay gives yourself “too much value”, being straight does too. Sexuality is sexuality. If God loves everyone and expects you to treat others as you want to be treated, you’re doing it wrong. I’m sure God is very disappointed in “Christians” like you.
I've dealt with this, being young having access and knowledge to the things of the enemy caused years of struggles. when i was 10, i was attacked with thoughts of the spirit of homosexuality. i knew they weren't true, and eventually after a bit they somewhat left me alone, when i was 12 i gave into some of these thoughts, even though i knew they were wrong. i dealt with this for years, coming to agreement knowingly and unknowingly with the enemy. Now I'm 14, almost 15. I've stopped those things and for a bit I've been struggling with thoughts that the Lord would never love me fully like he did before these things happened, but I know thats a lie from the enemy. Carew, thank you so much for sharing this. you have no idea how much this means. I still sometimes struggle with thoughts that tell me i can never fully be delivered from that, but i rebuke them. thank you so much Carew, I love you and God bless you.
Hi Corrine! When I was a pre teen, I found out that I was gay. I always knew but felt ashamed of because my own brothers and sisters in the church that I used to go with my parents + the catholic school i attended to were judgmental about it. using jesus name in vain most of the time. Years down the line after crying myself to sleep for having these feelings, I realized that there is nothing wrong with me and god made me this way for a reason! As soon as I realized that I was so much happier. I found the right people in my life. I made the right career moves, and served my community in ways I didn’t know I could because I was so depressed before. I’m sorry you feel like you need to “heal” from feelings of love you don’t have control over. I’m sorry you have been told all your life, just like me, that loving is wrong. God does not judge and never will for being the way you are. I hope you learn to be kinder, tender, and more understanding with yourself. Follow what your heart wants, not what others want for you.
Never tell yourself that! God loves you truly and I’m sure he would be proud to know that your trying to change for him and yourself we are human and all sin the best we can do is stay in prayer and remember that no one said the walk with God was easy but he loves us and he will help us overcome these sins! If no one has told you they are proud of you I will IM VERY PROUD OF YOU for finding time for God and trying to make a change 🩵🙏🏼God Bless
@@swaggermclovin950 there is not changing, and there is no sins. now, you can pretend you’re “changed” and live all your life miserably trying to convince yourself that those feelings don’t exist, and that you’re not gay, but you’ll be missing opportunities and most importantly, missing of that part of yourself that makes you YOU. Being gay, is not wrong neither a sin. You are born this way and it’s not something you can change. Stop using the name of God in vain.
@@juancasanova6353 Ok first of all am I talking to you NO! Second it’s funny how you’re saying I’m using Gods name in vain when you are! 🤣interesting and second you aren’t born gay idk who told you that cause last time I checked nowhere did it say that! Also “coming out” doesn’t make your life better do you know how many people that our miserable and sad who are apart of the LGBTQ community MULTIPLE!! Even ones who turned to god and said they came out but still felt miserable so your point is NOTHING! stop trying to force someone to become something they aren’t and worry about yourself😁
@@swaggermclovin950 i love how you come on here saying “MULTIPLE people that are part of the LGBTQ are miserable and sad” without facts to prove your point. You’re so full of sh!t and hate that let me guarantee you that you have a saved spot in hell reserved just for YOU babe! I am not trying to force anybody, that is YOU. YOU are the one forcing people to turn christian and making them feel awful using gods name saying that is a sin when IT’S NOT. I went to catholic school for 10 years + church every saturday in a small town in venezuela and I knew I was gay by 10, I’m 21 now, successful, with people I love, happier than I ever was now that i’m not living a life to please others. Making more money than you 100% and living in one the best cities in the world as an rising star wedding photographer. the only miserable here is you invalidating other people saying that there is not such thing as being happier when coming out. Keep being the way you are and you’re guaranteed a paved path to hell. Keep being miserable getting your information from this closeted gay guy on youtube, I’m sure you’ll learn a lot. He clearly hates himself. Go worry about a job application because I know you’re unemployed. You’re born the way you are, with the feelings that you have. I’m not pursuing a conversation with you so don’t worry about answering 😘
Keep being bold for Christ! Proud of you brother! "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it." John 1:5
Carew look up Becket Cook. His testimony is also amazing. May God continue to help you
Wow Carew 🥹 this was so powerful. I went through so much you talked about as well constantly being called names like gay for no reason. It was so painful to me because I knew I wasn’t and I was a Christian but the rumor got so bad and no one wanted to date me and it made me wonder as a young girl what is wrong with me. Then it began to be popular to become gay and I watched all the people who tried to force me to believing I was gay become gay themselves. I thank God for being with me through it all❤ thank you for sharing such a powerful message and prayer🙏🏿
I love you Carew. I am a devout Christian woman with no LGBT+ family members but calling that satans agenda was extremely off putting to me. So many amazing people in my youth group and a few have struggled with their identity. Our goal in life is not to procreate but only to love the lord and live in his light. I don’t believe men should be with men and women should be with women but for those people to not is living in a lie everyday.
These comments are so sad :( I wish yall knew how beautiful of a feeling it is to love who you know in your heart you’re meant to love, regardless of what text says. I’m so sorry for anyone who’s been made to feel like they need to fight their sexuality.
This.
@@morganmurphy9110it’s so nice to see another person who understands.
@@whitneymorrisphotography9292 I’m part of the LGBTQ community and to see people feel like what they’re feeling is an addiction or sin is just so beyond heartbreaking. It’s okay to love the same gender, it’s okay to love the opposite gender, there is nothing wrong with loving who you want to love
It is a sin.
@@thierryhenoud359 shut up and go read about not eating shellfish, being circumcised to enter the gates of heaven, and stoning people lol
Genuine question with no bad intention behind it:
how can Love for another human being be wrong, no matter the gender?
I’m actually “struggling” with this exact topic right now, or to say it better, I know about my attraction towards women (I am a woman) since I was a kid and I have come to terms with it.
There are no negative thoughts behind that coming from me tho, like I’m not after s€x or intimacy in any way. Like there are genuine feelings behind that, I don’t care about the intimacy, I don’t have the desire to act on the human desire. But my feelings are simply not towards men, they never were, and I believe they never will be.
So what I’m asking you Carew, how can genuine Love without any ulterior intentions or any sinful thoughts behind it, be wrong in the eyes of human and the eyes of God?
God made us to love romantically to the opposite gender. You can love everyone. But when it comes to sleeping with someone that is ruining Gods design for man and women.
@@KN_builds yeah but that doesn’t change my feelings towards a man and my feelings towards a woman. I can not imagine a life with a man by my side, with a woman yes. and I don’t mean s*xual intimacy, I am talking about actual Love-feelings
@@iamsavage31 well don’t rest in that identity. Being with a women is wrong even if you don’t see yourself with a man. And by not s*xual but feelings what do you mean?
It is not wrong to love. Jesus loved everyone so much and we are called to love others like Jesus did. It’s a different kind of love though.
Like I have girl friends from church whom I love a lot and we have a deep relationship because of our connection in Christ- and I have no guy like that. But it’s not a relationship kind of love, but a Christ-like love for them. I know God will provide a man in the future and I will only have eyes for him in the romantic sense. Just because I don’t have someone like that right now doesn’t make me someone who likes girls though.
@@corrinehope yes
Been a long time struggling back to back for years, but I'm ready to lay this all down forever because Jesus is the only answer ❤✝️
I don't know what to think about this. I know guys like this and they all just end up going to gay bars secretly and hooking up and they are usually the ones who are there specifically for that reason.
Carew, thank you for sharing your experience with us. I have seen your videos in the past and I can tell you are very passionate about your beliefs. As a gay man who grew up in a religious household in a small country in the Caribbean, I know how difficult it is to struggle with one’s identity and bullying. Nonetheless, ever since I came out to my mother, I have been able to experience truth and honesty with myself and the world. Although many may doubt this, I have a very strong relationship with God. In my case, I know he created me this way: a man who is full of love, patience and empathy and will spread those beautiful emotions with another man. Trust me when I tell you that, in a world of greater falsehood, evil, selfishness and disobedience, homosexuality is God’s smallest concern. It is a great mistake that religious people make when emphasizing that God does not love others due to a sexual preference. As a very spiritual being, I try to stick to the word of God in the areas that matter: spreading love, protecting my soul, detachment from materialism, chastity, and many others. For those who may be seeing this and have been deceived by the idea that you cannot have a loving relationship with God if you are not straight, they are wrong. You can have a solid relationship with God as long as your heart remains kind and your actions reflect God’s will and love. Do not direct your contempt towards God, for he loves you and created you this way with a purpose. If I can feel this peace in soul, knowing and embracing my identity, I know you can too, especially if you begin to remind yourself that you must strive every day to become a devote representative of God’s will on earth. The Bible is a beautiful, precious book; focus more on the verses that fulfill you with strength and love, not the ones condemning you for your sexuality. Most importantly, realize that sexual orientation is but a part of your identity (a small part)-you are much more than just your sexual preference. I wish you all nothing but the best. The journey to honesty may be harsh, but, at the end of it, we will all see how the heavens are filled with rainbow flags.
I pray that you see the true unbiased love of Jesus. I’m afraid you have let others teach you fear and judgment. Love yourself for who you are because you are special and unique. It’s not always satan or a demon coming for you but instead just life that God gave us to live. Be happy ❤️
fr i feel so bad for the comment section and him, and I hope they get the help they need to stop thinking like this
Carew, our stories are so similar on sexuality, it’s wild. Once I went to college, I fell asleep and gave in to what was spoken over me for years. Last year, God woke me up and I see now that is not my identity. It’s was a lie that I accepted as truth. Thank you for sharing your testimony!
for the past two years i’ve identified as an athiest, on top of that I always thought i liked guys, noe i’m realizing, i never had a father figure in life so it makes sense that i’m craving attention from a guy, this video has really opened my eyes carew thank you so much!
looking foward to this!!
Before I even knew fully what gay was, my older siblings told me the same thing. They even had a bet that I would come out before I graduated highschool. Other family members have also assumed this about me. Strangers do by the way I dress (a jean jacket apparently). I always thought that there was a part of me that could have been gay. I now have gay friends and have talked to them about how they came to that decision. I realize that I indeed am very straight and all of those comments came from the enemy to take that identity away from me. It’s nice to hear that this is more of a common thing in our generation. There’s so much pressure surrounding our sexual identities now and it can be confusing and hard when your ears are open to the world and not Jesus.
I’m sorry you feel like you had to come out because of pressure, I was there once and it ruined me was a teenager. The difference is I was really gay, but the church and the community around me shamed me for it so I was in denial for a lot of years until High School. One thing I wanted to correct you from your comment is that there is no “coming to a decision” when it comes to coming out, you just know. You are born the way you are. You are born with those feelings. And you are born with that love to love who you want. No social media, or “exposure” plays a part on your journey through sexuality. I wasn’t exposed to anything in my small town, and I always knew I was gay. I hope this help ❤️
@@juancasanova6353 maybe you feel like exposure to something did not influence your same sex attraction, but it does not mean thats true for everybody. Trying to push that is weird, I know many people that experienced struggles within their sexuality because of dealing with SA (as children). So if people can feel freed in that sense I don't think it should offend you.
When I was younger I always thought it was weird that people would deem others gay when they would act a certain way. Somebody could be less masculine and people would say they are clearly gay, without them ever saying that. As I got older I would look at people and think they are gay, because thats what they would say gay people look/act like. I do believe certain people have been pushed into a box like you could have been.
@@cici6724 i do not “feel”, i know it didn’t get influenced because i wasn’t exposed to anything. And sure, some people are exposed to knowing more about their sexuality by living in bigger cities or having access to the internet, but that does NOT change the fact that you are born the way you are. Whether that’s straight, gay, bi, pan, etc. I don’t know how you read what I wrote and all you can say is that “I’m offended”?
@@cici6724 Sure, I was pushed into a box at a very young age but that doesn’t change the fact that I was gay as a kid and gay as 22 year old. If people call you names and you know you’re not that, you brush it off?! I’m not gay because people pushed me into a box, I’m gay because I was born that way.
That’s not how sexuality works… if you are watching gay porn and finding men attractive, you are into men… regardless of if you want to admit it or not. Growing and maturing as a human is being honest with yourself and loving yourself as you are.
this actually really helped a lot especially since it's so normal now to watch and do things that aren't christ like. I'm also not very close with my father the way I see it because I'm usually just alone in my room all the time and I got used to it so the whole looking for a male figure to show love is relateable but it was never a "I'm gay" type of thing I knew that but you helped me realize God is my father figure and that he truly loves me
I struggled badly in my teenage years with bisexuality and lust. I can relate in so many ways. I really appreciate your vulnerability and wisdom, it is comforting knowing I wasn’t alone in my struggles, if that makes any sense. God bless you!!
Hearing this is crazy. Hearing your story is like hearing my own. I'm not trying to take away from your testimony but my family also constantly called me "gay" etc I never had my dad around. I just... Really felt like this was hearing my own story. Thank you so much for sharing.
An important message, and I can relate to it a lot. I struggle with same sex attraction, and I also think my childhood had a big impact on it.
When I was about 4 years, my parents got divorced, and not in a nice way. Although they tried to keep us, me and my sister, out of it, we often noticed something's off, or even heared their arguments. I didn't really have too much contact with my father in my early childhood, and I don't remember having a strong bond with him as a child. Now, I'm not saying this to blame my parents for anything, I'm sure they did the best they can and always loved me.
Fast forward to school, for some reason I was always a pretty reclusive child. I never really had any close friends, also didn't desire to have any. I just wasn't interested, or at least that's what I thought. Looking back, the problem might have been deeper.
Then, at the age of about 14, the trouble started to kick off. I somehow got sucked into p*rn, and by the age of 15, I was addicted. This was also when my SSA got pretty clear, although it took me some time to interpret it. At this time, I became pretty depressed. The realization of having SSA, difficulties to connect with other people, porn addiction, all this stuff. Soon enough, I discovered alcohol (it is legal to drink at the age of 16 where I live). At first, it seemed to get better. I was going out more, partying, becoming more sociable, and for the first time, I had two best friends.
The SSA however, would still come over my thoughts sometimes and mess me up. This got worse over the years, and currently, it's probably at its peak. From the two friends I had, I fell out with one, and the other has become rather difficult too, so I'm lonlier again, and while it didn't bother me earlier, I cannot bear it now. I have resorted to porn and drinking, sometimes doing both things daily for periods of a month. I luckily managed to cut down at least the drinking a bit, but currently it's my SSA with upsets me the most. I'm afraid I won't be able to resist much longer. Also people start to become suspicious, probably already thinking I'm gay, and I hate this thought. But I don't even care enough to do something about it.
Last anecdote, it's June again, and strangely, since the beginning of this month I've had nightmares every single night, which is unusal for me (although I have nightmares regularly). I'm pretty scared to do something I shouldn't in the next time, honestly. It feels like I've been fleeing this temptation for years, but now my legs are breaking down and I can feel the devil's breath in my neck. If anybody can, please pray for me.
How am I only the second one who has notifications turned on for this. Turn notifications on guys! ❤ Jesus loves you
Hey Carew, I feel you in terms of being labled as gay and feeling as if I am bisexual, gay, pan etcetera. It never felt right but with me it was peer pressure for two of my firneds who where dating, I too just wanted to feel and be loved by a male figure, thank you for sharing your testimony of deliverance. As of now, I do get the temptations to watch porn and sext or act upon the desires of the flesh, I have had a few times where I could have lost my virginity but I prayed for deliverence and God provided, I am 18 this CHristmas eve and am thankful that I have given my life to God and am saving myself for marriage. I now know that as a Child of God I am equipped by Grace through faith to have the authority to say no and rebuke the lies people speak into my life. I have and am learning to Love God for he is Love and that his ways are out of love and protection. Through Christ I have found my identity and he fuffills my desire to have that role model, may God continue speaking through you and may he bless your ministering.
WOW! Carew this is an amazing testimony that I believe this generation needs to hear! I struggled with sexuality and pornography at a very young age. It seemed impossible to ever get out of such a dark place. Once I gave my life to Jesus everything changed! Now I am 9 months free from every lie and bondage. I praise God everyday knowing I was once lost but now I am found. I’m so excited to see what God continues to do in your life and the influence you have for this generation! 💖
Thank you so much for sharing this. Truly touched as it sounds like you took the story from me. The only difference, literally, was that I developed the habit much earlier. I needed to hear this cause I've been struggling and coming to the same conclusion lately. Appreciate the prayer and your own vulnerability.
I watched!! I never exactly struggled in that area of my life but I did struggle a lot with people saying that I was something that im not so this video was still a lot of encouragement. Thank you! God is so great and has shown so much deliverance in my life!
This is so good Bro!! Thanks for being vulnerable and open !!!
So good! Hallelujah to the deliverance from this video 🙌🏾
Okay but why do me and you go through the same stuff like sometimes I feel like we are the same person😭
Wow thank you for sharing this, you WILL reap a grand harvest for this. The Lord is calling for hard conversations in this hour on identity and you speaking on it is the obedience God has been looking for from us. May we all be emboldened by this testimony sharing of Carew today to do the same in our lives with our voices!!✝️🙏🏼🙏🏼
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I can’t say that I am addicted to pornography but I guess I am watching it once or twice a week and I am feeling so bad for myself every time I finish watching it, shame and guilt swallowing me. I really hate the feeling. Until I explored all the genres of pornography and it made it worst that I also start wondering if what is my sexuality. But I say to myself this is just a lie of the enemy. My true identity is what it is written in the Bible it is in Jesus. Your testimony inspires me to keep fighting with the help of Prayer and fasting. HOLY SPIRT please help me🙏.
Jesus bless! I'm praying for you! So excited to hear what you have to say I've been enjoying listening to your stuff!
We pray for this generation. Lord, hear our prayer.
Thank you for your testimony! It’s going to help so many…
God took my out of that lifestyle too, Glory to God for us being saved by Jesus 🤍✅
So good!🙂 I feel like I should put here one tought on multiplying: in NT the focus is put more on spiritual multiplying= making desciples😇
Thank you so much for sharing your testimony, I wish I could talk to you and share my experience and thoughts! I’m trying to fight over my sinful thoughts and things that I’ve done! I really need to stay motivated to walk with Jesus, I lost the relationship with Him and came back to sin! I really hope that I can still come back and God can still forgive me that I left and got addicted to pornography again and doing things as I did before I knew Jesus! Please pray for me to stay closer to Jesus and have a better and stronger relationship with Him! Thank you so much!
What a beautiful testimony, Carew. Thank you for sharing with us. Praying for you always. 🙏🏻
Poor confused kid. 😢
u literally have said u hate gay people. now ur saying ur one of us?! no.
God bless you and thank you 🙏🏽
OMGoodness IM SO HAPPY YOU MADE THIS VIDEO CAREW! I struggle with this too!
ur not struggling with what you think you are struggling with. if you have thoughts about same sex attraction, it is not something you need to "stop" thinking about. love who you want to love, there's no being that is forcing you or tempting you to do something bad. having thoughts about non-heterosexual attraction is not wrong and is will never be wrong as long as it's not hurting anyone, is legal, and consensual.
@@VishFishok buddy
@@Hahah70911 god i hope you get the help you need. stay delusional like the guy making this video but okay
I still struggle heavilyyyyy with same sex attraction but i trust the Lord. This is something that needs to be talked about more. Also men need to start understanding that affection isn’t “gay”. God says to love each other, but not sexually
It’s nothing to struggle with. There’s nothing wrong with same sex attraction! You’re not harming anyone. Be who you are
I woke up to this. Can't wait. Thank you for being open with us always Carew