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OMG. I have thought about some of these. It didn't include all of these. Thank you for the cheerleading. 🌼

I experience something like this and sometimes seem to go in and out of it. Something I call zooming because it's like a telephoto lens, that is trying to focus. Everything turns grey and people seem very far away and then it goes back and forth being ok and then not ok. Is this derealisation?

Thank you Dr Mike 😊

I’m a first-year psychology student in Poland but i study in english, I’m on bachelors degree module and what actually inspired me to study psychology was my interest in DID, I would love to finish my masters outside of Poland, my question is: Where exactly should I study to get the best knowledge and what masters degree should I choose so that the knowledge i gain will be most useful for me in the future working with individuals with DID?

Oh Mike, this is so helpful! It explains why trigger reactions might feel/ look chaotic... I've wondered why they come across as so unhelpful - I've been treating them like one big, odd response when the reality is that there are multiple responses going on.

I don’t have DID, „only” diagnosed cptsd but strongly suspect p-DID soooo could you do more videos about this disorder? There’s not much educational content as it’s quite new diagnosis. Maybe sth about how intrusions work in p-DID? They are listed in ICD-11 as “cognitive, affective, perceptual, motor, or behavioural” but maybe more information how they present would be helpful for people like me. Also are there any good scientific articles about how p-DID is formed, is it (like in DID) only during first years of life or maybe could be like till 12-13 years old? I’d love to See or read more resources about it.

I just had this issues. I’ve walked away from two therapist in two months. I’m taking a break now.

My boyfriend and my system were out at a Walmart a year ago. As we were leaving, we saw a man who reminded us of one of our abusers. We made it to the car. The body started crying, then numbed out. Soon after a little fronted and bit my boyfriend’s arm. The host came back. Our boyfriend told us what we did. This was one of the moments that led us to look into DID. We thought before it was just dissociation, but it obviously wasn’t.

I'm autistic and I have DID. Derealization is a very common experience for me, so common that is not always something difficult for me. Thank you for your videos

I'm not diagnosed with D.I.D. but I suffer from dissociation. Anytime I go to anything very stressful such as a therapy session or a job interview, I have to bring a notebook and write everything down otherwise I will get brain fog afterwards and forget what we spoke about.

My biggest fear is asking a therapist if I have D.I.D. and being accused of faking or automatically dismissed if I'm the first one to consider it. I truly don't know what's wrong with me, I have been diagnosed with anxiety, major depression, and PTSD. But I feel as though these diagnosis don't encompass my symptoms. I suffer a lot from dissociation. The first time I experienced dissociation was during a s.a. in my childhood. Then in highschool I unknowingly began to dissociate by choice. If I was on the bus I would be imagining myself in a different world with my imaginary family or when I was at home I would sit in my room for hours imagining myself in another world talking to a man named Thomas. I am not a very imaginative person, I never enjoyed imaginary games as a child such as dress up or house. I noticed that as an adult I was unable to handle an entire work shift, I would spend hours in my head with my imaginary family as my body worked. I have also experienced feeling like my voice isnt normal, it would sometimes be too deep or be child like. It felt uncomfortable and I didn't know how to turn it off. I hope I can afford therapy soon and get to the bottom of this.

My girlfriend has 7 alters. One loves me romantically, 2 others view me as a best friend, 3 have no real feelings either way, and one dislikes me immensely. Why is there such a dramatic difference between the alters on how they feel about me? Could you please explain why this would be? It's very confusing.

My response to perceived "threats or triggers" is to hide. To isolate myself from everyone and everything....maybe that is the flight response, I don't know. But being alone, isolated, and emotionally turned off to the world around me, is the only way we can all feel safe. Then I punish myself with negative thoughts and actions...The fact of the matter is, those of us with DID, are damaged beyond repair, and the fight to "learn and understand and accept DID" is extremely hard and difficult...especially when my/our parts are in constant conflict with the reality of the world. I am only speaking for myself, and my DID only. It is so hard getting over "feeling like a freak" in society....The best place for me is to isolate, cut myself off from everything and everybody and keep my mouth, my thoughts, my fears my insecurities and my self-hate to myself. Learning and understanding the level of abuse in my life, being cut off from family because I spoke up about the severe abuse I endured and being called a liar, trying to navigate 8 personalities, is a monumental task, and I have no one to talk to...DID=loneliness.

This was very well spoken on Mike. DID is so complex and so complicated that not having a deep understand of it or understanding the brain itself, can be quite confusing. But once you really put the work into it and find a very caring dr or therapist. It can be like starting over into a whole new life, but as a whole human. The first thing i noticed, is loving myself and everything that is a support on my end. Thank you so much for sharing Mike.

The way you described them makes it sound like you’re suddenly transported into the world of Silent Hill or some horror movie/game with a scene where everything is foggy but is changing and such and like in those games/movies, it!s quite hard to get out of, much less navigate through Hope this made sense

Thank you for this. I understand the term fawn now, it's not confusing anymore. I did that my whole life....i fawned so much, i have DID. I did the other responses too, but they got me nowhere.

Can you make a video on what happens when someone is abused as a child by a parent, moves away from the trauma with the other parent and it's like it never even happened, and then later as an adult they return to live with the parent and everything comes up again?

Is it “normal” for a five year old to know of their abuse, but be completely detached from it because it was acted out as a game, between child and perpetrator, and have absolutely no feelings of the abuse?

Wow , that’s the first time I’ve heard this.

Wonderful information as always! 💙 I was wondering if you could do a video on the reemergence of traumatic memories, particularly ones that are physical sensations, as one proceeds further into trauma processing therapy? We've been doing somatic experiencing therapy for the past few months with an awesome new therapist who specializes in CPTSD, and these kinds of sensations are surfacing, sometimes forcefully, as we start processing trauma.

Just at the end you state 'learn to do it right'. So we are doing it wrong. The attitude of doing something wrong is upsetting

not wanting to exist

OMG, this JUST happened to me. One perceived abandonment potential. The little is "We're gonna die!" The other is "F**k that, Im outta here!" The other is "I will never have a safe life...I suck" etc. All of their emotions swimming around at once. Then i had to call a time-out and fugure out what was really going on. So exhausting.

Thank you! 💖

I’m gradually learning to pause my instincts to automatically switch, and take time to evaluate the threat. Even though I’m not always successful I’ve made good progress.

Great video! Having different and sometimes opposite reactions internally can be a confusing experience. In the future, would you be willing to do a video about EMDR and DID (as in special considerations when doing EMDR)? Thanks so much, your channel is incredibly helpful!

Thank you for the clarity of this video. After a life with this compartmentalisation, I have some issues with being overwhelmed with emotions and memories when I meet a "trigger". I understand I am not in danger, but still feel uncomfortable. I have to do things in slowmotion, almost, to be able to take in what is happening in a situation. When I'm not sucessful, I usually find myself having lost my watch. It is as if I try to control time that way, as though that "triggering" thing never happened. Is this issue with time related to having DID? It follows with amnesia, I usually never find my watch again, and is forced to buy a new one. Perhaps they are all hidden on the same place so I will find them one day. (I wish, but most likely they are not)

Thank you for another video! Is it possible for there to be action systems that play out longer patterns? So maybe there’s the initial one to seeing the person in the supermarket, but then it continues into reactions and responses to people in your life over the next few days because of emotions or something that got triggered as well? Not sure if I’m using the right words to explain… I know you can’t comment specifically. As I’m trying to notice what goes on for me, it seems there are definite behaviour patterns - not sure which parts what - but it’s not as easy an example. And it’s quite a larger, longer response? Only starting to see it after the fact. So had a psychiatrist appointment, many reasons it didn’t go great, but the dr pulled out a certain reference book at one point in order to write a script. My father used this book. There was a clocking of it at the time, but only in retrospect am I looking at it thinking it was the kick off? Because I thought I was fine. Innocuous thing really. There was no instant reaction, I thought, except the definite clocking of it and an uncomfortable feeling? But following that, over the next week, played out responses and reactions to people around me. Not chosen responses. Almost all in a haze. Definitely relational. And only weeks later as things calmed down do I see the ‘oh it’s happened again’. It’s hard to explain without many details, or try and put it in a more generalised way to explain… I guess, can the action system responses to a thing be a complex behavioural response that plays out over days or weeks? Or are they more instant and then done? Or maybe is it both, depending on the individual? And if this is too specific to answer or comment on, that’s ok. lol I didn’t do well of explaining! Thank you for the videos and sharing the information.

If we are also suffering from autistic symptoms, then does the whole system has autism or only some parts?

Thank you for this video!

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Thank you very much. This explains much of what I've experienced with her. The freeze response led me to both protect/intervene and avoid triggering it at all costs. I avoided anything I perceived as potentially triggering. This meant I couldn't address or move towards emotional intimacy. Also, in our dissolution agreement, she put a no contact clause. To protect myself, I insisted it be applied unilaterally. I once saw her and she had a fawn response. I was terrified and fled. It's quite confusing for me as alters are contacting me-part of her trauma was being spied upon by her mother. They're good friends, occasional lovers (emotionally), and erstwhile caretakers [I've a history of emotional neglect]. So, I'm wondering: What I can do to provide an ideal condition should I happen to see her again in person? I don't believe she's currently aware of her condition. I feel obligated to assist her with being diagnosed. I've sort of put my life on hold to remain in the same city far from family/friends

Thanks Dr. Mike. Cannot seem to settle myself. At some point can you speak about demonization and its severe detriment to progress and healing ??? 💙👊

Specific triggers activate specific sections of my brain. Different sections of my brain are where my different parts live. How I react relies on which part of my brain gets activated and which part lives there.

Mixed feeling, is my normal state. Took work to know this. Great info 🙏. 👁️👁️

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Thank you for not shying away from having us see your vulnerability. 💜 That voice crack was palpable and I felt it in my own throat. For this video's topic they serve as great examples for how grief, as well as trauma, can't be measured, rated or weighed against each other. It would be easy for some people to say that [naturally, objectively, morally, sociologically or whatever identifier they wanna put here] it should be clear which one is "worse"... But that's the thing: it is NOT objective, it's NOT a morality issue, it's NOT another person's right to judge either way. One person's attachment or trauma or grief or "moral grounds" is not to be confused to another's. That's why I really don't like identifiers like "severe" concerning the event or experience itself; the emphasis should be on the repercussions and long term issues a person has from it, not in what happened itself. I've spent decades invalidating my own feelings because "others have had it worse", and that's incredibky unhealthy. When it is aimed at you from other people and even professionals it's harmful.

So, "Body Memories"... Would that be like, say, Phantom Limb Syndrome, in some way? I have DID with Somatiform Symptomd, with Comorbid Features. I have been in the hospital over a hundred times, with thr same outcomes. It feels, abd shows like in having a heart attack. My blood pressure is usually around 205/115 or higher eirh other duagnostic c testing showing real issues, pain resisting to key arm, narrowing vision, confusion, slurred speech, etc, only to have then go away, basically without a trace. Di testing DIES does show it! I haven't had that particular issue happen as nuch, since my environment has changed, but there safe ither issues. Thank you for educating us with this. In the end, just knowing there is a reason for the unexplainable things, helps a lot

Chronic pain diagnosed in late teens, followed by FND and nonepileptic seizures have brought me to realise how much of these physical symptoms are connected to trauma. I didn’t realise that my lack of understanding of when I’m hungry, whether I’m hot/cold or not and whether I’m tired or not are also related.

I’m right at the beginning of this journey. My husband and I watched a documentary about DID and I could literally feel the internal battle in my head. Almost hyperventilating and trying to keep it all inside so he didn’t ask questions. Then another voice saying, nope we’re not doing this, we got a BPD diagnosis and that’s what we’re sticking with. Then another voice saying, nope, we’re doing this. At least research. So I researched, and keep researching. The more I find, the more hits home and I just can’t deal with it. All the blank spaces of time, all the times I felt I was watching myself and couldn’t stop my body from doing or saying the most crazy embarrassing things. My child part that I have no control over. I could go on. I don’t feel ready to deal with any of this but it’s like someone else inside me is like, nope it’s time and we’re doing it. Thank you so much for creating this channel. Now I just need to work out how and what to tell my husband. I’m terrified he’ll think I’m even more crazy and he’ll just up and leave. He didn’t sign up for this, I wish I was normal.

For me it feels like I have a “ self” that manages the parts but the parts run the body. Sometimes with co-consciousness but other times it feels like the “ self” is just an observing from the back and can collect clues that a part is forward and what part is forward but isn’t able to influence decision making. The “self” is put in the back when I am triggered or if a new part comes forward. I thought I had achieved full integration of parts but just learned of another part I had some awareness of but no access too. That part was triggered forward a few weeks ago and since then I have been losing so much time and feel like I’m in the back more often than the front. It’s been difficult feeling like I have had such a large regression in such a short amount of time.

Heck yeah. Great video about something that's very hard to describe to people, and something almost everyone who doesn't experience it doesn't understand.

Dr. Colin Ross talked about "partial DiD" in some of his research.

diagnosed twice with DID via clinical symptoms and The MID but P-DID is really accurate to our experience

I prefer to working with physical reactions. At the moment the threats are real, we are being threatened with war again, our leaders are letting us know we are in a pre war stage. If war hits in our region it will be disasterous for the whole world. I prefer to work with reactions to make sure they are healthy and very natural responses. I prefer to work with processing the emotions to make sure they are healthy. The problem with the thoughts responding, its causing imbalance and processing problems, because people need to get off their behinds and deal with what needs to be dealt with. In other words, its time for actions and thoughts need to come to rest, because its over done. Why people are having so much trouble its the inaction to the inevitable. Had people just deal with things while these things remain a threat, we would all be better off until its too late. So while the world focuses on themselves and the middle east and Ukraine and Russia, our focus is China and the south. So for us its a time, to get fit, healthy and well and make sure we are functioning. What we have to deal with is the world's constant messages we don't care about you.

When people describe being distressed by DP/DR, I am a bit confused because that's just been my reality for as long as I can remember. Most times, I find it comforting, and other times it can be quite annoying if I'm trying to get something done but DP/DR is hindering my ability to do so. It can also make it hard to connect with others, but I would never describe it as "scary" or "distressing". That's just my normal. Is the presence of distress regarding the symptoms necessary to diagnose, or can the symptoms having a negative effect on personal/social/occupational relations in itself make a disorder diagnosable?

Thank you for another great explanation ☺️ "trippy" is the wording I use when I feel all of this. Although this does seem to be becoming less now, I feel I'm starting to see our world with much clearer eyes, not so trippy 😉

Can you make a video that different parts have different reactions (even biological) when triggered? Thanks for the good work 🌷

It’s now considered clinically appropriate to also use identity first language for Autistic people. This is accepted even in peer reviewed literature. Some clinicians are old school but they need educating. There is no need to change your terminology. There is plenty of academic literature to support this should you be criticised for this. From an autism researcher