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I'm reading it too! Halfway through

It feels like everyone is moving this summer. I’m moving next week.

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Yeah shit I'm going to viewings too, have to move, sucks. And I've been in quieter environments for quite a while just with people who I am close with so I haven't been masking as much. Yeah I notice it too, I really am not sure how I come across. It's such a stressful situation of needing to move and I don't want to seem too emotional which I am emotional about it. Like I got the impression the potential future landlord was concerned about us moving out soon after moving in and I said trust me I hate moving, I never want to move again. I don't think it came across right, idk how to talk to people shit

😅I also pace when brushing my teeth.

Thank you Paune for being so transparent. I too sucked my fingers and related to so many of yours. Well done for all the self reflection and work you've done on yourself. You are very self aware. I wish I'd known earlier, I'm nearly 60 and still acknowledging and processing this all. 😊

I used to relate all my problems to trauma as well. It was very disappointing to me when I worked through a lot of trauma that I still had so many problems. I have other mental health problems so I then attributed everything to them. But I worked a lot on mental health problems and I eventually reached a place where I was no longer making much progress. I was becoming hopeless. Then I had a case manager who pushed me to get an autism diagnosis. So I now am figuring things out from sn autism perspective. I was diagnosed a year and 4 months ago. I am 49.

I totally understand this situation. I have recently gone no contact with my grandmother because of the gaslighting she has done to me for a long time. I didn’t even realize it until my father passed (he was her son and he was narcissistic). My grandmother tries to gaslight my mom and plays the victim card all the damn time, but thankfully my mom doesn’t fall for this kind of bs and she shuts it all down. It took me a long time to be able to recognize my grandmother’s toxicity and i am so glad i blocked her from my life. I hope you are able to feel some peace after blocking your mother, toxic family members just make life more miserable and you so incredibly strong for making the decisions you have! ❤

O dear, yeah I would b stressed just like that too, so many questions and then not wanting to b a pain to the person so not wanting to ask

Yes! I like detailed instructions as well!

If instructions for anything are ambiguous to me I just get stuck and progress just ceases.

#relatable

Are you French ?

Drunken harassment really doesn’t say, “I’m open and ready to talk” I’m sorry she did this, it sounds very distressing. Intentional or not, that was very manipulative behavior.

Patrick Teahan is a RUclipsr that recently put out a video called something like “how parents react to no contact,” and it really helped me interpret and understand my partner’s mom’s behavior. I highly recommend watching it when you’re in a safe enough headspace. It explained a lot for me.

I thought that said specific introductions at first I was like same because I’m so disoriented when my favorite asmr creator just changes their intro to the video randomly unless they specifically set a precedent for not having the same intro all the time and in that case I’m mentally prepared for it to be different 😭 I don’t usually comment because obviously it’s not my channel at the end of the day, but there are still some channels that changed their introduction years ago and I STILL haven’t adjusted 😭 idk what to do about it 😭😂 if you made it this far thank you for reading this off topic comment and I definitely agree that I need specific introductions too!! The back of cooking/ baking boxes are particularly taxing because there is no one I can ask for clarification if the instructions aren’t specific enough 😭💔

Hi, Im from the US so i'm not really interested in getting evaluated because it's so expensive so I dont have a diagnosis. however, I always had an inkling that I could be autistic, and people would also tell me I could be and to get tested. I can relate to what youre saying! I can still find comfort in someone who shares same experiences, even if I dont have the diagnosis. I can relate so well with looking at the clock to find patterns! I used to do homework, and look at the clock on the stove. it could be like 4:22 and I would be like "omg 4-2=2" or its 6:23 and I would think "thats a good time because 6/2=3" I always trying to solves math problem so to relate the numbers to each other. anywho, im glad i found your channel and I cant wait to watch more!

This 3 part video is so relatable. I had the same experience with speaking up in class. My French teachers in high school were the only ones in my life who understood my fear of speaking up, and they would do everything to accommodate me. It’s so interesting because I am now a French teacher, and it’s really the only place where I can do public speaking without feeling so scared. Those teachers (who i still keep in contact with) were the best part of my childhood. They helped me so much (i also went through abuse during those years). I have never related more to someone who i only know from youtube! ❤

I definitely did feel myself outgrow my toys, but I still felt deeply connected to my toys even though it wasn’t exciting to play with them like it used to be. I would still pick them up and arrange them and connect with them from time to time, and when my cousin came over and I had an excuse to pull them out, it was nice.

I've been watching the video and are ticking a lot of your list as I was shy, withdrawn child and told by my mother at the age of 5 "you need to grow up as I have to look after your sister and brother". Rejected by her and rejection at school. It was horrible.

What a massive list to get through. This was really helpful for helping me think back to my childhood, too. You’ve made me curious about my childhood medical records. I highly recommend the Gresham college lecture by Francesca Happé. It talks about boys lining toys up (which looks “unusual”) vs girls lining toys up (aw, so tidy!”), and is otherwise just a really great lecture.

I felt invisible and wished I’d break a bone, too. I really feel for our child selves.

Thanks for the videos! I will use certain points in this list for my assessment when it comes!

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This sounds very much like what I was like as a child. it is super relatable.

I want to point out that, whilst doing therapeutic exercises like going through the Unmasking Autism book are great things to do, it is work. It's okay if you find it overwhelming and need to take breaks. Remember that pushing yourself to work during burn is exhausting, listen to your body and only do what you feel comfortable with x

I'm in the process of "Realization" right now where I've been researching and investigating, questioning my family members I still talk to and comparing behaviors with my autistic family members. I'm not sure if I'll be able to get a medical diagnosis - I live in the states and our access to affordable medical care is getting worse and worse by the year - so all I can do is seek out other autistics for reference. With that in mind, thank you kindly for sharing these parts of your life with us. It means a lot to those of us who don't have the resources and support we need, if for no other reason than to see parts of ourselves in medically diagnosed people.

Thank you for sharing all of this. It's really powerful.

There's a lot of gut related pseudoscience because talking about food and diet can't be interpreted as giving medical advice, so these people don't risk getting in trouble for illegally practicing medicine plus they get to try to draw in a huge audience that consists of people with any illness, whether physical or mental. I came across this so many times when I was trying to figure out some non-specific symptoms I had (turned out to be autistic burnout).

I love your owl hoody😍. Thanks for sharing so much with us. 😊 Do you know what lead to your burnout? Was it all the diagnosis things you went through?? What usually brings on burnouts for you?? My burnout was from my dad having cancer for 5 years and then him passing away last year, it was such an exhausting time physically and emotionally, trying to help but watching him go through such awful things. I have since then struggled to cope with as much and have a lot less energy.