I’ve just started my all in journey, for food freedom, to feel less guilt when I eat and it’s great to hear about other peoples journey too! So thank you for making this video x
I was smiling so much to hear you talking. How good you feel, confident, room for life, sport, enjoying life and not thinking about food all the time. Love this video. Thank you so much.
You look amazing - glowing. I’ve not watched any of your other videos and without any clue of your background I would never have guessed you were in ED recovery 👍
What you have accomplished is so Amazing. Everyrhing you are saying in this video makes sence. I hope you make another video, but only if you want to. it's really amazing to see your growth
This is so inspiring. I too have struggled with bulimia for many years. I tried to go all in a few times …. But the full feeling and being so uncomfortable and judging myself always led me to purge and run right back to tracking macros, tracking cardio amounts, water intake, etc. being so type A has not helped me at all as you can see. Any advice on how you dealt with being so full coming from a bulimic past?
Honestly, just repeat repeat repeat. It is going to be uncomfortable until your body truly learns to digest properly again. And distract yourself after meals, go on a walk, watch something funny, try to have plans after meals. Day at a time :)
Saw this with 999 views. "The angel number 999 represents a cycle of completion, just like the angel number 79. It also indicates that your physical, emotional, and mental states are working harmoniously together." This makes so much sense to me being recovered for over a year! I recognise so much of what you're describing and I'm so happy for you and your progress. 💞 Thank you for sharing!
This was so good to watch. I have literally just started this 'all in' journey after 16 years of various ED struggles. I am at my biggest now than ever (and I have the same insecurities about my face!) so it feels terrifying but watching videos like this is so encouraging! Thank you 😊
If it's not to intimate or inappropriate could you tell what was your first very first move the second you decided going all in? And how did you kept doing in it like for example the next morning? I don't feel "exited" to eat. I suppose I like the taste and everything but when it's me who prepares my meal or I'm alone I stop at the strict necessary of my meal plan. Otherwise I feel really really depressed when I do things against my eating disorder or try to go all in
My very first move was having a slice of cake for breakfast :) I hadn’t allowed food for so long- that everything tasted amazing. Just take it one meal at a time, and truly honor your cravings. Just because you are alone, doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to eat, feed yourself like you would feed someone you love. You would want them to have good meals ♥️
When my face went back to normal it was such an emotional experience. I cried. I felt like a stranger in my body for several months. Love that you documented your journey❤️ so very helpful!
@@stephaniwinzeler25 My swelling was very severe because I had really bad edema from no longer purging. It lasted almost a year for me but I think my case was more extreme than the typical swelling most people get. But, it will get better I promise, as long as you don't try to interfere. It sucks but if you let your body do its thing it will absolutely go away.
Thank you so much! I’m at my highest weight i believe (i was already overweight to begin with due to dieting and restricting) then gained a lot more when i stopped restricting. I’m hoping things can slow down a bit now, definitely feeling a little more energy than before. Though It hurts to stand up for too long, so lots of breaks. It’s hard, but videos like yours are super encouraging! I am so happy to have found your channel and thank you again for sharing your story! 💖
@sarahbeautyfit Saraketo more energy for sure! And I think weight has plateaued at 40lb weight gain (from already being overweight) I don’t have a lot of hunger though especially in the mornings 😕 I’ve been eating intuitively for sure and not restricting anything just eating what sounds good.
How does All in just not turn into a binge. I don’t actually have any cravings outside of my binge urges. After a binge, I don’t crave any of that stuff ( chocolate mainly) until the next binge urge
For me a binge would happen when I had not allowed things and so I craved them even more. Now that I allow everything whenever I want it, I haven’t had a binge in almost a year!
Do not do this. Eat healthy don’t go all in. I was anorexic exercise addiction for 35 years I’m still Eating crap after 2 years of all in. Going into recovery was that worst thing I ever did.
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I’ve just started my all in journey, for food freedom, to feel less guilt when I eat and it’s great to hear about other peoples journey too! So thank you for making this video x
Thanks for making this video Esti! Videos like yours are helping me with my recovery😊
I was smiling so much to hear you talking. How good you feel, confident, room for life, sport, enjoying life and not thinking about food all the time. Love this video. Thank you so much.
You rock. Hearing you talk about it, seeing you so sunny and grounded is so uplifting. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🧡💙💜❤️💕
thank you friend ♥️♥️♥️
You look amazing - glowing. I’ve not watched any of your other videos and without any clue of your background I would never have guessed you were in ED recovery 👍
What you have accomplished is so Amazing. Everyrhing you are saying in this video makes sence. I hope you make another video, but only if you want to. it's really amazing to see your growth
This is so inspiring. I too have struggled with bulimia for many years. I tried to go all in a few times …. But the full feeling and being so uncomfortable and judging myself always led me to purge and run right back to tracking macros, tracking cardio amounts, water intake, etc. being so type A has not helped me at all as you can see.
Any advice on how you dealt with being so full coming from a bulimic past?
Honestly, just repeat repeat repeat. It is going to be uncomfortable until your body truly learns to digest properly again. And distract yourself after meals, go on a walk, watch something funny, try to have plans after meals. Day at a time :)
Saw this with 999 views. "The angel number 999 represents a cycle of completion, just like the angel number 79. It also indicates that your physical, emotional, and mental states are working harmoniously together." This makes so much sense to me being recovered for over a year! I recognise so much of what you're describing and I'm so happy for you and your progress. 💞 Thank you for sharing!
This was so good to watch. I have literally just started this 'all in' journey after 16 years of various ED struggles. I am at my biggest now than ever (and I have the same insecurities about my face!) so it feels terrifying but watching videos like this is so encouraging! Thank you 😊
If it's not to intimate or inappropriate could you tell what was your first very first move the second you decided going all in? And how did you kept doing in it like for example the next morning? I don't feel "exited" to eat. I suppose I like the taste and everything but when it's me who prepares my meal or I'm alone I stop at the strict necessary of my meal plan. Otherwise I feel really really depressed when I do things against my eating disorder or try to go all in
My very first move was having a slice of cake for breakfast :) I hadn’t allowed food for so long- that everything tasted amazing. Just take it one meal at a time, and truly honor your cravings. Just because you are alone, doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to eat, feed yourself like you would feed someone you love. You would want them to have good meals ♥️
👏👏👏 You go, girl!
When my face went back to normal it was such an emotional experience. I cried. I felt like a stranger in my body for several months.
Love that you documented your journey❤️ so very helpful!
when did you first start to notice your swelling go down, im about a month in and my face is so puffy
@@stephaniwinzeler25 My swelling was very severe because I had really bad edema from no longer purging. It lasted almost a year for me but I think my case was more extreme than the typical swelling most people get. But, it will get better I promise, as long as you don't try to interfere.
It sucks but if you let your body do its thing it will absolutely go away.
@@victoriaevans2442 i’m happy that it redistributed. so for edema it’s basically when you gain weight but it’s not actually weight it’s just water?
How are you doing now ? Could you please make another video ? You help me a lot.
yes! I will explain my sudden silence and all :)
This was very inspiring thank you😌
Hi Esti, thanks for sharing! Did you experience exhaustion? I am 5 months in, can’t tell what is me resting vs being lazy 😕
I definitely did! But I always made sure to incorporate a walk into my day as I just feel better with some movement. Well done on being 5 months in!
Thank you so much! I’m at my highest weight i believe (i was already overweight to begin with due to dieting and restricting) then gained a lot more when i stopped restricting. I’m hoping things can slow down a bit now, definitely feeling a little more energy than before. Though It hurts to stand up for too long, so lots of breaks. It’s hard, but videos like yours are super encouraging! I am so happy to have found your channel and thank you again for sharing your story! 💖
It gets easier, I promise. One day at a time ♥️
@sarahbeautyfit Saraketo more energy for sure! And I think weight has plateaued at 40lb weight gain (from already being overweight) I don’t have a lot of hunger though especially in the mornings 😕 I’ve been eating intuitively for sure and not restricting anything just eating what sounds good.
@@claudiahoffmeister7363hello how are you now?
How long did you eat "all in" before you started exercise?
I am bingeing sweets all day for 3 werks :/
Did your swelling get better over time and did your weight slowly redistribute??
yes and yes :)
How does All in just not turn into a binge. I don’t actually have any cravings outside of my binge urges. After a binge, I don’t crave any of that stuff ( chocolate mainly) until the next binge urge
For me a binge would happen when I had not allowed things and so I craved them even more. Now that I allow everything whenever I want it, I haven’t had a binge in almost a year!
@@estijosephine2029 I get it. I’m 5 weeks All in and no binging whatsoever.
Do not do this. Eat healthy don’t go all in. I was anorexic exercise addiction for 35 years I’m still
Eating crap after 2 years of all in. Going into recovery was that worst thing I ever did.
Hey how are you doing now?