False Memory OCD - What is looks like!
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False Memory OCD is not a well known subtype of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). In fact it affects a lot of people around the world and causes them significant problems and anxiety. It is called “false memory OCD”, as there would be no actual evidence that something has happened. Those who suffer from this condition tell stories that they have done something very wrong, such as murder or rape, but there is a complete lack of evidence that they had committed such an act. Also, they would be hesitant to let these memories go, believing that, despite the lack of evidence, there is a chance that they did something bad, even feeling guilty about it and demanding to know the absolute truth.
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I've been dealing with this a lot lately and it sucks; it sucks to know that your own mind is so unreliable, and it sucks to think that you can't trust your own memories- it makes so much of life harder when you're terrified that you've already said or done something to solidify the very thing you're afraid of.
I feel for you! It's got to be so frustrating! I hope you can find some relief soon! Treatment really can help with this. 😊
@@ocdandanxiety thank u for the support! I'm definitely just taking things one day at a time, but content like yours is so helpful because it's a reminder that I'm not alone and that I can work through this
@@ΒαγιαΙακωβακη-γ5τ unfortunately no; but it varies from day to day and a lot of the time it is manageable
Has it got better?
@@DogMommy. I don't know that I'd say better per say; it's more like managing a chronic illness. There are periods of time when it's more manageable than others 💜
This is one of the worst parts of my OCD ... And it's exhausting. What's worse is that I know it's in my head, but then I start to panic about things I know I didn't do and become consumed with guilt, anxiety, and frustration.
I totally agree ,the worst part is that we don’t know the details ,so it opens up possibilities for the worst things ,and that sucks
@@sashwatyo1293 same happens with me.My brain is in such bad situation that it sensationalise normal things of Past by fabricating them and I struggle whole day with guilt
@@Himachaltimes2024 it does to me too.... A lot.... I feel so guilty snd worthless after that
I also suffer of OCD , but I don’t know which one is it
@@alandscape9783 same here guyssss
I feel like as long as I will live, this monster is going to feed on my happiness and freedom.
I realise I've been giving into my compulsions a lot lately, ruminating and mentally checking. The hardest thing is my obsessions centre around harm ocd and POCD. Lately my mind threw out an insidious theory, "what if you molested your little brother when you were younger?" which is a very hard thing to 'accept' (even in ocd terms) and let slide. I also have a job that provides me ample time for working alone/ruminating. Just when I am on the edge of leaving the thought alone, ocd keeps changing the goalposts. When I say," well even if it happened, I was a child too" then my ocd challenges me with something like 'you wouldn't accept it if you were 18/19 tho...' it's so exhausting. I feel horrible about something I didn't even do. I find myself looking up sex offenders in the news or planning for some unforeseen doomsday when I'll be thrown in jail. Its not even a real life memory that's been distorted, just a vague what if fear that's cemented in my mind as reality. I honestly don't know how to go on rn.
I can _so_ relate to this. My OCD symptoms were largely under control until Covid-19 hit. With so much time alone, the ruminations came back in spades -- and things I hadn't worried about in literally years popped up with fierce urgency. You are definitely not alone.
All I can say is, hang in there hun. OCD is one of the worst things I've ever dealt with, it's no joke.
@@mattnhormann Shit , Me too and I'm talking 10 plus years ago .
@@keithfarrell107 6 or so for me. Hang in there.
Bro I’m going through the exact same thing.
The most terrible thing is thinking you did something horrendous or you skipped doing something important like taking medicine etc. It's hell. People sleep on mental issues but pure ocd is a literal nightmare the anxiety is unbearable.
Love you man for the ease with which you explain this demon called false memory OCD. Thank you for the excellent video. The suggestions are spot on !
This means a lot! Thanks so much!
This was from a couple weeks ago, but I had this thought one day because I saw a girl in the same bus I took to college, and I recognised her and remembered that we used to hang out and at times just mess around and play fight like kids do. However, I was reminiscing and thought "what if I touched her inappropriately and wanted it, done that and just forgotten it?" I remember how bad that affected me that day and for a couple weeks before I realised how ridiculous of me it would've been. I know I wouldn't do such a thing, but I thought "what if I did, she remembers and told people." I got very anxious and extremely paranoid. I didn't want to be seen in public and just wanted to hide. I couldn't eat properly nor concentrate. I wanted to ask her something like "when we used to mess around before, have I ever made you feel uncomfortable?" I wanted to ask (never did) because I was desperate for the closure and to make sure I'm a good person. It's a bastard when the memory you remember had happened and you know it did, but then OCD warps it and puts an extra memory in to fuck with my head. It made me want to commit suicide, but now I'm getting help. I've been suffering with this for years and it has gotten to the point where I am now bed bound, not eating, not sleeping and staying at home when I should be in college. But, no. My own fucking mind just ruins me. Now, I'm getting the help I need and so grateful.
Bro you are not alone. I am dealing with a similar thing
@@Eezkiel Cool profile pic XD
I have dealt with this to an extreme extent ever since a drunken/blurry night out that led to me and my friend getting jumped. I constantly worry about what i might have done that night to the point where it has caused me EXTREME depression and anxiety and messed up my life in so many ways.
I can’t tell if it’s real or fake I’m going insane. I’m having suicidal thoughts too.
Same
Don’t kill yourself, there is a solution to every problem.
Do any of you ever kind of get this almost numb/dead/zombie like feeling where no matter how intrusive the thoughts are they don’t seem to bother you as much because of how worn out you are? That’s happened to me the last day or 2. It could be because the last 3-4 days were really hard, or because I got my Covid vaccination on 2 days ago. Either way I’ve totally felt dead and emotionless today. All I could think about was suicide today.
@@lukesigmon9601 this happens to me a bit too
@@KingNoor2007 it’s nice to know I wasn’t the only one. I thought I was losing my mind. Literally the only thing I’ve had on my mind since Sunday was suicide and yet it didn’t bother me at all and I don’t know why. I almost picked up a knife last night and I ran into my room before I could do it. And then at the store today I almost bought a bottle of NyQuil to chug along with whiskey but I stopped myself. And yet I wasn’t really phased by it. I didn’t cry or get crippling anxiety.
Idk if I have OCD or not, but I have a lot of the symptoms and I’ve been look for a therapist for it. The thing is, I have this memory that has been coming in and out and I always believed it was real and was deeply guilty for it because it felt so real and it has details but at the same time when I think of it I can’t think of how it happened, and millions of images and possibilities flow into my head and I don’t know which one is real or which scenario is real and when I try to think of the least worse scenario my brain tells me it’s fake and I’m denial of being a bad person. Anyway, I looked into this and it makes sense, I’ve been having compulsion of confessing or confirming if it was wrong or right or different or something. But it feels so real that I’m now, as I write this that it was real, it felt very real but I don’t know how it happened specifically, it’s like I have some pieces of a puzzle and the other ones are missing. It’s very confusing and makes me really question.
Edit: I think since I didn’t know what false memory was I just accepted that it was real and never said a “what if” but then again what if I’m just in denial? I don’t really know I feel like I may be going insane.
Same. I even got confirmation that it didn't happen and that I'm being weird but I'm still not convinced it didn't happen.
Relatable
I'm so glad I'm not the only one going through this. It's like just weeks ago i knew the truth but then my mind started going what if and now I'm stuck and can't stop thinking about it. It's so hard 😭😭
I have symptoms of ROCD, and I constantly get to thinking about my past. In the beginning of our relationship I was very distance, he knows this, but at the time I made countless mistakes. I’ve confessed to many, some big some small, but now I keep finding little mistakes of “flirting” or “cheating” and creating/reminiscing false memories. My boyfriend and I are trying to work together to restore our relationship, but every other day it’s something new popping up in my head. Please help. What do I do?
I can relate to this a lot. It is frustrating because you think of the thought and feel terrible bringing it up and upsetting them when you feel it isn't even true, but keeping it in makes it worse. If you have found ways of coping I would love to hear
This is my exact situation omg.
@@emilyf4055 exactly. I'm going to talk to my therapist first before confessing anything. I feel so crazy.
Has it gotten better? I would love to talk to you about it as I feel so lost and guilty and shameful the past 2 weeks
Thank you so much. I really appreciate your videos you made my life a bit better
Thank u for your videos!!! I am watching almost whole day! Really appreciate💙
Of course!
I finally pushed my false memory aside wow! I can’t believe how far my mind pushed me into believing this
Wow congratulations 🎉 mine is slowly getting better
How..
How? 😢
very very powerful video. thank you.
Is it possible with false memory ocd to worry you’ve done something bad in your sleep and you just have no recollection of it?
Absolutely it is.....I have thought that often....like killing people in my sleep when I see a news story about someone being killed....how do I know it wasn't me if I can't remember?
Hey nathan do you think false memory ocd can be like “ was i abused in my childhood because i have this faint memory that might be a dream idk”?
I'm experiencing the same thing rn
Even after I recorded what I'm doing I'm not getting the certainity of that event happened or not 😭..
He didn't cover it but does this apply to dreams as well? Cause I've had days where I wake up completely unable to remember a dream I just had In which I feel intense guilt for supposedly murdering someone but I remember none of the details; not the victim; not the place; not the method; not the time, disposal, nothing it can consume an entire morning or the dream can have a recurrence years later witch can spiral into panic attacks.
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I don’t know if I experience this or not, I can’t tell 😖
Everytime I ruminate, my brain adds details or new thoughts/feelings that I never actually had, but I go into panic mode because the thoughts/feelings are terrifying. I always end up thinking "I feel guilty, so I must be guilty" it's so debilitating
Do you also get images? Of you doing something
my problem is those OCD latches on things that im already ocd about, like today i played with the AC control and i i legit have a thought now that i fucked my AC up, now that ocd made me think i will have trouble breathing until i change the AC unit completely, fuck this shit, im not gonna buy another AC again, fuck fuck fuck i just got rid of false memory ocd about phyiscal diseases and this comes, i cannot just livvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
@@DogMommy. yes unfortunately I do
This is so relatable, my OCD constantly changes the story to make it worse and more distressing and even though I know it makes no sense it just feels so real sometimes which makes it pretty impossible to not obsess over
YOU LITERALLY MIGHT HAVE JUST SAVED MY FUCKING LIFE WITH THIS!
Thank you dude. Seriously.
You're awesome! 👍🏻
Same
Yeh False Memory OCD is possibly the most f'd up type of OCD. I once change the diapers of my son and as soon as I left the room I had this image in mind that I fondled him. Somehow I knew it wasn't true but I knew my OCD would torture me with that. I can't get this image out of my head, even though I'm doing ERP on it. Like how can you accept that you possibly molested your own child??
Thanks for sharing! There is a difference between "accepting" and "ACCEPTING" -- accepting in the OCD sense means you're just agreeing with the thoughts taking all power and value away from them. Say, "sure, cool, I guess if you are telling me this happened than great!" It's not resisting or trying to figure it out. This is the key. 😃
OCD and Anxiety yes I know, it's soo painful though - because I accept the thought and it also disappears often. But then I'm like "BUT WHAT IF YOU ACTUALLY DID IT?" - also I did so many compulsions on it, that I fear I can never get distance to this thought
callie pearl I'm much better, like 90% better - thanks to good therapy and Escitalopram
this ocd is painful.. and if you ever have to many drinks and u blackout ocd will make sure it tells u lies wherever possible!
Yes it’s hard, idk I have this memory of scaring my little sister while she was in the shower. But I never remembered it until I started having intrusive thoughts. Like it wasn’t even in my brain. But then it got me thinking what if you wanted to look at her, what if you wanted to see her. And I’ve never had the thoughts, intentions, or desires to do so. But I’m like what if you did. And I asked her about it and she say she doesn’t even remember. But it didn’t even happen a long time ago. So I’m so worried. I care too much about my sister so it’s even worse. But like I’ve never intentionally done anything to hurt her like that. But still. What if I did but I didn’t know it.
I have false memory OCD for about three years. I always wonder that whether I said something disgusting and offensive to others. If I am not alone, in which case there are some people around me, I can ask them to make sure I didn’t say something inappropriate. However, when I was alone or in the public place where surrounded by unknown people, this feeling would be very strong. The urge to try to remember everything is very terrible. And I always try to find some details to prove that I did nothing wrong, like a detective.As long as I find some evidence to prove my innocence, the situation will be largely relieved. However, if there is no evidence, I will feel very frustrating. Thanks for your videos, this can rise the advocacy of this disease. I want all of the people who suffered from OCD can receive empathy and love from other people.
Thanks for sharing your experiences! It sounds very painful. I hope you can feel some relief soon! 😀
Trust me man I actually have studied law now because of my OCD and the need to “know” about If I will go in prison
Years ago I had this kinda saying inappropriate words OCD, but now it has grown to a very weird one, when I go outside alone the OCD says "did you kill a person? did you blablabla?" The bad thing is I don't have someone to ask and it's very frustrating. The only way I can do is remember and believe but I have OCD so you know...
Try to do as we always do with intrusive thoughts. We I don't know and I don't need to know
I have this and it’s terrifying my brain would sometimes create traumatic memories that never happened. For example- I have this memory of almost falling of a building but I can’t tell if it actually happened or not.
Yeah, I have those too
Omg me to 😭
I'm currently going through it right now, and it's rough. My False Memory OCD is connected to POCD, and it's scary for me along with Real Event OCD. I know deep down it's a false memory, but it still scares me, and I kept thinking "What if it's real?" And it still freaks me out. I had three meltdowns recently on Friday, Saturday, and today, and it's just frustrating. But whatever happens, I will fight.
i feel you! sending you lots of love & energy, we got this. at least through these videos we know that we aren't alone. cause sometimes that's what makes it so exhausting for me; not to be able to really explain to my people what I am going through... not even my therapist gets it...
“What if it’s real?”, well “maybe it is, maybe it’s not”. Live with the uncertainty and thoughts are just thoughts, don’t let it change you or hold you back. Wish you a good day man.
For those who are not facing with False Memory OCD...
You are all lucky!
They are the luckiest people in the world... I was never diagnosed with OCD, but what I have been experiencing lately, are the exact symptoms of OCD. I didn’t tell this to my mom, because I don’t want sound like a crazy person. I just hope it will pass. No to this day knows that I might have OCD. But I will manege it somehow, it’s ok.
@@JL-zx2ul no tell her it will get worst I did you need medication
@@JL-zx2ul get help cuz you will have a breakdown
Lucky in that regard, you mean. You have no way of knowing what all the rest of us might be dealing with.
I'm going insane 😭
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@@niladribiswas498 stay well and strong hope ur ok xx
it's ok breathe you got this x stay well and strong hope your well cx
@@jordanhaynes9728 thank you
stay well and strong friend zx
Thank you so much for this. I have been extremely obsessed over memories that I am not sure what really happened and some of it feels like no, there is no way I did that but why do I remember some parts and I remember parts of the same memory in different ways. Then I feel like i manufacture my memories and I feel even worse.
Same
Me too I feel like while I was having a good time ocd kicked and wanted to make it seem bad
Me to I feel like I'm loosing my mind
Same!
I wish I had a button that would just allow me to go back to a certain event to verify what I remember.
even that wouldnt help with this disease
I am at work right now crying my eyes out. This is horrible....I am really working on not being perfect. I create false scenarios to where I believe it's true, and that it actually happened when I know deep down it's false. I recheck things as well...it's horrible. Perfectionism is my main cause of this mental illness.
Omg this is happening to me to . It's like im looking for a memory that don't exist . I just keep thinking and thinking about the same thing
Its so hard because your brain makes you believe that in your case it's not OCD, in your case it COULD be real! It's terrifying because I live in fear my false memories will turn out to be true even though I have absolutely no evidence for them. I have no clue what my previous motives were even if I know I'm a good person now, it scares me to not be able to recollect how I felt when I was younger. I have memories of feeling extremely guilty but don't recall about what so my mind guesses really dark conclusions :(
I never even knew this was ocd.....
@@aloalo3727 maybe its not I don't know, do you struggle with this or you just don't think mine sounds like OCD?
@@emmawhitfield6921 I have struggled with this completely. I seriously suffered mentally because of this. I understand u completely.
@@aloalo3727 I'm glad you relate, i'm so sorry you're going through this too, its horrible. My GP prescribed me with ssris and I can't tell you how much it helps, maybe something to consider ?
@@emmawhitfield6921 I did take ssri for a short while. I realized that I would just have to accept the fact of my thoughts also. I rejected the thoughts over and over again and they decreased greatly. Now I just wonder about why I was thinking those thoughts.....was I crazy? Of course only crazy people ask if their crazy 🤣🤣🤣 it goes on and on
Does anyone else ever get so tired of dealing with it that they get to like a “breaking point” where fir a few days they just feel numb and dead inside? Like no emotions, blank stares kinda thing? Like no matter how bad the thoughts are they just feel to tired or numb to deal with it? I hope I’m not the only one. And do any of you ever question your answers? Like when I say something like “I regret these thoughts” or, “I regret things that I’ve done in my past” my brain is split 50/50. One part says that “I obviously I do”, and the other part says “but do I really though?” It’s scary dealing with it.
the 50/50 part is so accurate, sometimes i feel like my brain is split in half. like my morals and my actual memories i know of and then the other part is the complete opposite of my morals, my intrusive thoughts and false memories
I am exhausted.
Sorry to hear man , how are you doing now ?
I've been facing the same situations repeatedly from last 2 months. I'm tired now, today when I was sitting in the classroom I kept wondering about a sentence I mistakenly said to my best friend, one side of me kept feeling guilty and pressurised and the other side of brain was like it's not your fault your friend must be more understanding and be free and all .I broke out of these thoughts and tears started falling out of my eyes and idk what sudden numbness like emotional numbness no feelings for anyone and constantly proving me wrong and a voice was playing in my mind automatically if you didn't prove yourself wrong then I'll prove your best friend wrong and I'm afraid to lose my best friend so I kept listening it whatever the cruel thoughts kept saying about me,it even made me feel regret for the mistakes I never did and also for my good and pure intentional deeds by saying that you are all fake and the worst person your friend loves you so much and you do this or that to that person ( but in reality by God's sake I never ever did anything wrong to my best friend 😔 I always have a pure intention for that person 😔 . And these thoughts kind of trying to take me away from my friend and I love that person so much and I just feel like dying but I can't bcs my friend has no other person rather than me to talk of heart 😔 I allow these thoughts to make me feel bad about myself for the things I never did with any wrong intentions so that they don't make me feel bad about my best friend 😔. everything was just fine around 6-7 months ago suddenly I don't know what this happened to me 😔. please God heal me for my best friend 😔. And there is lot more happening in my daily life ( fake scenarios,harm ocd , unwanted thoughts, guilt, sometimes I'm able to come out of this icd cycle but for not more than 1-2 days but again it all starts by becoming even more hard and pressurising. I'm just 16 and it's a lot for me and just can't handle it). Sometimes I can't even cry to take out my pain just bcs of numbness.
@@rudrak.j.2936 unfortunately still struggling and dealing with severe depression and anxiety. It suckd. And been trying so hard to find friends but with little to no luck unfortunately which also stings real bad. How are you doing?
Love that you shine a light on this.
I struggle with this at the moment. Had a memory popping up about me in a situation, was scared but came to the conclusion it wasn't a horrible act. But then OCD questions my intentions. And it proposes I had the wrong intentions and it feels so real. Like I wanna confess to it. But it goes against my beliefs and what I want in life, normally I wouldn't pursue what the mind is telling me I did. It's hell. I keep confessing to myself to see how it feels.
I also had the other type where the memories aren't based on a real event. They were easier to let go off.
I have this where I keep reflecting on past events and am terrified I have done something horrible or made some awful mistake, like have I cheated on my boyfriend or have I molested someone and not remembered. It so exhausting and scary and I cannot distinguish what is real which brings on this massive wave of crushing guilt. No amount of reassurance helps and I feel like I need to know everything. It's like I can logically say it out loud but it never changes the fear and guilt I feel. It gets to the point where I don't want to be here anymore bc I feel so much fear and pain. It's like I'm going insane bc one minute I'll be absolutely okay and the next I will "remember" and it will spiral. Or an event I do have recollection of suddenly becomes terrifying because I suddenly feel like I did something wrong when previously I had no worry about it at all like a detail will come up I previously didn't think of and now it feels really really real. I'm just so tired. How can I fix this bc these thoughts go against everything I stand for and all my morals and so I terrifies me there may be a possibility I've done something awful.
I'm going through the same & i tried all possible ways of reassurance including Regression Therapy. But it didn't really help much. Because I myself can't differentiate what's true & what's my imagination because the visualisation and every detail looks so very real that I can't deny at all. I keep digging into it to get more details and what comes up scares me. I wake up in the middle of the night either scared and shivering or sweating. It literally kills me. I have almost lost hopes in life & i strongly believe i don't deserve the love I'm getting from my family.
Wow 🥺
I completely in every way relate to this and have been struggling so badly with it at the moment to the point I have been suicidal I just pray you’re doing better now and if not then I hope both of us can make it through this and live good lives
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Ive had false ocd for a long time but have been able to live ok for a year or so. I find there’s something that triggers it or it just comes back to me every couple years. This maybe a couple weeks ago I had gotten a pretty bad intrusive thought that I worried I did something thing wrong and I obsessed over it for about a whole day, just agonizing whether it was true. Maybe the next day I woke up, went to work and was still think and obsessing over it when I got an even worse intrusive thought in my head that eventually triggers some of my past false memories I used to deal with. I feel completely at my lowest, and I have no idea who I am right now. I have no one to confide in, no one to help me and it’s painful to hear that I just have to accept uncertainty. What if I’m secretly just in denial and i actually did do the things my mind says I did? I can’t live like this, I can’t
I’m really struggling here. I don’t even know anymore ☹️ sometimes it feels real and sometimes it feels like it was a dream but whatever it is it’s slowly killing me 🥲
same..
I don’t know what to do
@@trashhooperstevenperalta1710 stay well and strong xx it will be ok hope your well x
@@navla2952 stay well and strong it will be ok hope your well xx
stay strong and well xx it will be ok hope your well xx or ok
Jesus loves you , he can heal you , call upon the name of the Lord Jesus
this was amazing honestly the best advice because treating my OCD with humour has been a scary process but one i needed :)
I'm so glad it helped you my friend! 👍🏻
@@ocdandanxiety I had a panic attack and haven't been able to forget about it for 3 days. It wasnt a big deal at all but it caused a 2nd panic attack the next day and I have been super nervous with elevated heart rate and tension in my shoulders trying to elevate something I know was stupid. I drink, and cant lie I'd be considered an alcoholic. I think the alcohol is creating the emotional circular thinking I'm experiencing. I dont get this occurrence. I was smooth sailing just until the other day. I think you can help me. Right, the going back and back to try and figure it out. I think the alcohol is the issue? I dont care and want to gp back to Friday
This video is literally a lifesaver. Time to time I watch it when my OCD is taking control, and it is 1000% helpful to watch. Thank you so much🙏🏻
So grateful I found this video! I've struggled with OCD, intrusive thoughts and false memories for a while now. Just recently I thought about a memory, got intrusive thoughts about it and convinced myself I did something awful. I've thought about it 24-7 and I'm going crazy. I know I didn't do anything wrong but I still feel guilty for it. So thanks for this video! It hit spot on. I'm going to try your tips! Thanks again!!!
Thank you so much for your kind words. This means a lot to me. I am so glad that the video was able to help you. I hope that you can feel some relief soon!
Me rn
@@Eezkiel same!!glad to know im not alone :)
@Ashton Beaman
Same here :)
I'm hearing this a lot in the comment section, and I must ask as well- what happens if your ocd makes you unsure as to whether or not you did something bad or not? How can you just let this stuff go, or how can you learn how to deal with the uncertainty?
I'm struggling with this to. I can't stop thinking bout it all though I Kno it's all in my head
This is probably one of the toughest things I’ve ever dealt with in my life because it’s hard to tell what the truth is. I feel like deep down I know I didn’t do what my mind makes me think I did, but I fear that maybe I’m just in denial and don’t know how to deal with it. This is one of the most difficult times of my life, I would never wish ocd on anyone
Good for some memories but hard when it comes to sexual molestation. How do you just put it aside and say there is no way to know for sure?
Ugh yes I keep thinking I got drunk and molested someone but I would never ! But my. Mind told me I did all this horrible stuff without evidence. I keep waiting for the police to find me
@@ItzWinterDoll yes I try to move on but I feel like someone recorded me and as soon as I prove one thought is absolutely not true my mind is like but WHAT if the police are now coming? One day at a time I’m having help from my
Family. Stay strong ❤️
So the core message is “ Live with that uncertainty” Let the chips fall where they may so to speak. But this entails an encounter with all kinds of negative feelings. I guess the goal is to experience all those feelings rather than doing compulsions that would make us feel better.
that's a great way to explain it. it takes a lot of practice. Do not seek for the answers.
I just feel like I can't live with the uncertainty 🥺 I'm driving my boyfriend crazy about it and I feel so bad . It's like there no evidence I did this thing but my mind keeps thinking what if
@@DogMommy. I feel you. But always remember that the "what if" that seems to trouble you so much is a mere excuse for the painful feelings to come up. Ride them out as if you had chosen them. Experience your pain and live your life through it. You will get better !
Never lose faith
@@SKRithvik thank you so much ❤️❤️ means alot
This is silly. You can choose to be uncertain but the idea keeps coming back. If you’re choosing to be uncertain but the idea keeps coming back there is no point in being uncertain because nothing I being fixed
I had desperately bad false memories before going for CBT some years back. And by desperate I mean the most disgusting, taboo, demented type of ideas. It was great when I learned to realize what they were with CBT. It does get better!
Your username, custardgannet, made me laugh! ... I like custard too! 👍😋🤣
I don’t know if I have false memory or Real event memory, because I know something happened but I kept ruminating about details that kept changing a bit and now I’m scared that the whole memory might be false or that main facts changed, the memory is about my false ocd arousal that happened few times and it was very traumatic 😭
Same but for something worse
Did it get better? I have the same thing
This is very helpful.
Ive always had very intrusive ocd thoughts as well as anorexia but in the last year Im getting terrible False Memory OCD, some memories completely made up and then some memories from the past completely changed from true and what actually happened into false memories around the event even though at the time I never had these false memories at all, and I have spent so much time checking and seeking reassurance I am.making things worse and the false memories are becoming more ingrained.
I have also started having a bit of real event OCD about things I actually did decades ago that I never dwelled on before, so now I am dealing with Real event OCD, anorexia and False memory OCD with so many compulsions, I feel so very tired.
Thank you for making these videos so I feel less alone and a little hopeful
@SOPHIE my heart goes out to you, its very hard.
Im going for counselling soon, please God it will help.
Ill let you know if it is.
Keep fighting this awful illness
@SOPHIEpraying the counselling helps you get some relief
I’m so happy to find this video, I have been suffering from false memory OCD for awhile now. I thought I was crazy, I didn’t want to talk to anyone about it. It consumes me and my life. It is so hard to turn it off, but sometimes I feel like I’m drowning. I am so happy to have subscribed.
How r u doing now because I feel like I'm loosing it 😭
@@DogMommy. how are u Doing now cuz im losing it SO BAD
@@1000bpmcan you share your story maybe I could relate
ohh god it's so hard :(
how to know if it's real event of just a false memory?
it's sucks totaallyy sucks
I'm not diagnosed with OCD , but this has been happening since yearss with me . At this point , i don't even know what memory possessed by me is actually true :(
Same 😭😭
False memory OCD and POCD is the worst combination
Hey man I struggle with OCD too maybe we can talk about it?
@@emilyamparo7975 Yes friend! What’s up??
Ehy man, very good video. I find myself a lot in this video. I know that I didn't harm anyone in the past but my brain wants to convince me that I did from the question "what if". So I started thinking and thinking again and I created images in my mind and it's like by brain believes them and that's terrible for me. It's like the brain created a movie. It makes me feel that I am a bad person, when I'm not. This happens also when I think "what if someone did harm to me, for example when I sleep?" and the brain creates images again. I feel terribly guilty. I let them go but sometimes they come again with great power and the brain believes them, that's crazy. They seem real, like a memory, but they're not because I created them from a fear, so... And I know that I didn't do anything but my brain wants to convince me with that terrible thoughts that change everyday. Thank you so much for what you do. Blessings
I need help. My mind is messing up all my memories into horrifying things. It's telling me that I did things that I know I didn't do. I've not been diagnosed with anything because mental health is not a thing over here.
I'm so tired
I know I didn't do these things but now I don't know
I had similar problems myself and it's OK to ask for help. Don't be sceard of what other people will think.
@@heavenlyanimationstudio2257 hii, thank you, I'll ask around . But how are you managing yours right now?
I just stop paying attention to it. It was hard to ignore it at first but once I started to ignore it my OCD just started getting weaker and weaker. It was hard and I never completely got rid of my OCD but it's so weak now that I can hardly hear it now. Please ask for help and newer give up. If I defited my OCD so can you defite your's. It won't be easy but please for your good ask for help and never give up and youl be OK just like I am now. You can defite your OCD. I believe in you. 🙂
@@heavenlyanimationstudio2257 😊😊😊😊😊you're the best
Thank you so much for all of this
I'll do my best
I'll heed your advice 🥰🥰
All the best to you as well❤❤
Good lucky 😊 You're not fighting this monster alone. I defited it. And you will as weall. 😀😀😀😀😀
This type of OCD tortures me. Funny thing is alot of the time I drink to escape it but in the long run drinking and false memory OCD is not a good mix. I hate this mental illness. You can't run from your own brain
You’re not alone, I hope you find some relief.
@@KC-dx4qt cheers mate that comment means alot 🙂
Sums up my thoughts perfectly
its really hard to convice yourself like "i know i didnt said that but it feels like i did said that." it makes me sooo paranoid like i feel like someones going to betray me.
ive been struggling depression and severe anxiety before this(ocd) strike. im so streesed out and its controlling my life and everything. im so tired and scared everyday. help me
You are just like me
Hey, I understand. I was in that place once. about 2 years ago I was doing hundreds if not over a thousand rituals a day. there was no me left. I was hopeless, depressed, & constantly suicidal. I’m not reply with that to say “it’s always going to be that way”- I actually want to tell you the opposite. I know it may be hard to believe now, but it will get better. With a LOT of treatment & choice & growth I went from literally constantly doing rituals, sleeping 12+ hours, sometimes a whole day, hitting my head 100 times in a row several times a day. Like I said there wasn’t any me left. My parents would say “We just want to old Claire back.” It’s not that there was a time where I didn’t have OCD, but until I was 11-12 it was my normal. I thought every body thought & felt the same & “played” the “silly games” i did. And, at the time, the OCD was allowing me to “cope effectively” with life. Then a couple of years later OCD began controlling me more than I was controlling it. I was using it to cope anymore, It was using me to destroy. My point is I went from my lowest place that I described above to a place I never thought would be possible. It still doesn’t feel real sometimes. In recent months OCD hasn’t been as huge of a piece of my life. On really good days/weeks I may only give in to a handful of rituals. And even on bad days/weeks now I know how to use my tools & I truly believe that there is life beyond OCD. That I had the choice to say no. To do the thing afraid. It will get better, it may take a while, it may feel like nothing will ever change. But remember those are FEELINGS. Feelings can be valid AND still not be truth. I see your comment was almost a year ago. I hope you are doing well. If you haven’t already, and have the means to do so, I would highly suggest connecting with an OCD therapist who does ERP. There are also intensive programs that accelerate progress and have more support. Facing OCD is scary as heck- one of the scariest things I’ve ever had to do- BUT it will be worth it. You will be able to cope. You will feel better & be happy. You will find hope. It will not overcome you, as long as you choose to get up each day to fight it. Your best is all that is needed. If I didn’t choose to fight OCD it would have ended me, but it didn’t. Again, I hope you’re well & have sought out help. You’re never ever alone!!
I’m going through this right now 😞
Jaja moto same here.I am struggling every day.I was a brilliant student and now I am nothing but a loser.I have lost interest in everything at 22 yrs of age.i had depression in teenage and as a result this ocd developed.Filthy thoughts which are not true crosses my brain daily and I am helpless...Someone plz help me if they know how to manage it
michael sheldon
I've been struggling with this but for me it's the worst kind of thoughts - I'm terrified that I may have sexually abused my younger brother and/or had sexual thoughts and fantasies involving him. I don't remember any of these things actually happening but the fact that the thoughts about what I think happened are so specific makes me wonder if they did. I also worry that I'm just telling myself they're false memories because they're actually true and I don't want to accept it
I also dealt with false memories and it was so hard!!!! I had one that scared the fuck outta me bc if it was true I would be in serious trouble but I thought very deep about it and realized that it's so unlikely that this has very happened. If it happened I wouldn't have forgotten that since I was 12/13. I still get scared sometimes but I know that they're false memories
You can try to think about it deeper to see if they're realistic. Mine werent
@@unknownuser4879 mine is the exact same as yours. I want to say that it was very unlikely it happened which I really hope it was and I am not using this as an excuse. It's really difficult for me to try and get a answer. I know somewhere I didn't do it
@@Eezkiel I seeked reassurance and eveyone told me that I did NOTHING wrong. I had false memory and contacted a friend who I didn't even have contact to. She couldn't remember anything and I feel bad for asking her out of nowhere. It scares me. I'm scared I might have said manipulating things. But I'm better now. Better than two months ago bc I've accepted that it's OCD. Some days are hard some are better. You've got this
I’m going through this right now but instead I got drunk and everyone told me I didn’t leave the apartment but my mind tells me I escaped through the window to go molest someone
Ok I feel so scared sharing this but it’s literally torturing me and I’m talking to a therapist but I still don’t have relief and I’m hoping the medication I got prescribed to will help..... A little over a week ago I was changing my nephews diaper and while I was taking off his diaper I accidentally pulled his private area through his diaper and when I realized I was pulling him I let go and told him I was sorry but immediately after that happened my mind to me “you wanted that to happen” and “you did that on purpose” and I said out loud “no I did not” but after I was done all these intrusive thoughts I was having when I was changing his diaper just started weighing on me and caused me so much fear making me think I possibly acted on them and now mind mind is convincing me that I just said ok to my thoughts and I just acted on them now there is a scenario/thought in my head of me grabbing him on purpose and it’s not only the thought that’s bothering me but it’s me actually feeling like that happened and it feels like the truth but I know who I am as a person and I will never want to hurt my nephew and I’m trying to compare to how I reacted when I realized I was pulling him and I just doesn’t match with that thought and my conscious would’ve stopped me because I know that is wrong but I’m also asking myself “ do you just not want to admit the truth” and more fear comes but a very little part of my knows that’s not the truth that’s why I keep arguing with my thoughts I just need to know if this thought is true or not or if I’m just trying not to admit it this ocd stuff is really messing with my emotions.... so does anyone have advice or can relate or something so it can relieve some of my anxiety
Exact thing happened to me also...I was 12 and babysitting for a family friend. Little boy like 12 months old. I changed his diaper and didn't know exactly how to or what to do with his privates so I moved it to the side so the diaper would close. No problems........that is for a normal minded person...... of course I started thinking "you didn't have to move it u wanted to move it....u wanted to touch it" I was horrified by these thoughts. I am 35 now and just now found out this is ocd....I never knew
This is the worst ocd breakdown I’ve ever had, I was so scared to watch anything to do ocd because I think what if I don’t relate, but what if I’m different.
I’m convinced I’ve done something terrible when I was drunk and I didn’t remember. But this has calmed me down for now x I just am so scared to live the uncertainty of it all, I’m scared to be that disgusting horrible person that would do such terrible things.
you know what these comments are quite enough evidence to make me convinced that I really have OCD, and this confirms for me that's my thoughts are not real, I guess it's time to be satisfied
You said exactly what I had been experiencing recently. I couldn’t figure it out for a whole year what it was until I heard about it then researched the issue. I had come across your video and wanted to thank you for pointing it out. I also appreciate how you explain it in a good way and put in many examples about it, because it helped me to understand more about it, since my brain takes a while to understand topics. I’m now seeking help because the issue had been bothersome for a while. I like watching the videos since it’s giving me an exact understanding of the issues I had been dealing with.
I have pure o, and recently I recalled a memory about me being alone with a girlfriend in a bathroon while she was throwing up because she was drunk, I remeber kissing her after she finished(we had kissed before she threw up, and even made out a few months before that) I have to say this worrying feeling started more than a year AFTER that took place, I felt so bad about kissing a drunk girl, then my mind started putting these thoughts about me rapping her with my fingers and breast grabbing, it got so intense I could not control it at all, so I started asking for forgiveness to her like 5 times everytime I came up with a new thought, this video really helped me my brother, you were born to save lives and that's the only fact in my memory that I will never doubt.
Hey know you are not a bad person, bad people don't feel guilt and remorse to their actions. I am not saying if this is true. But I am glad you are on the steps to recovery 😊
Hi Nathan! Your videos have really helped me to gain a little perspective on my situation. I have real event/false memory OCD, among many other themes of OCD but currently this is my most troubling. My OCD was triggered by a nightmare and then I began to obsessively search for any proof of its realness. When I couldn’t find anything concrete I began to ruminate on a real event (a huge mistake I made at the age of 12). My anxiety on the whole topic spiraled out of control to the point where I had so many false memories and tainted real memories I became convinced that I could be living a double life unconsciously and it’s definitely been the scariest time of my entire life feeling so unsure of myself/my past. Thank you for sharing this incredibly helpful information, I look forward to more especially around this topic.
hey hope things are going better for you!!
this is the worst thing that could happen to me, moments that i know o havent done something bad to people. But my brain keeps telling me that i did and i try to fight and find every detail. But cant, have even one memory from when i was kid. Thanks to you I've learn how to handle it, and with my psykolog.
When you leave a memory I panic because I go “but I don’t want to have done that, what happens if I did?” And it makes me feel really uncomfortable, how do I combat that.
a good way to combat this is to think " okay and so what if I did that, could I handle the outcome?" most likely you can handle the bad thing!
@@opalamaria when i couldn’t 😐
This is my brother! He’s schizophrenic and is constantly remembering horrible things that he never did. He’s turned himself in to the police so many times. If I tell him it never happened, he thinks I’m lying to him.
My OCD makes me have "memories" of me doing some super weird and gross things with my friend, and any time I see him, I immediately think of the "memories" and begin wondering if I should ask him if it happened. My problem is the fear of him saying yes, and remembering all of it. What's worse is that the "memories" all feel so real, as real as if they happened yesterday. Can any of you guys relate to any of this, and what do you guys think?
Yes I can relate.....I have blocked people on my cell phone because I just knew they were going to tell me whatever it was I did...... cheating on husband.... girl on girl..... having whorish intentions..... committing the unpardonable sin..... whatever it is yes
Don't ask them if it happened. U will embarrass yourself..... trust me I know and when u come to your senses u will realize how terrifying this disease really is
@@aloalo3727 are you a Christian?
@@Eezkiel I believe in God and Jesus. Christianity has been americanized and so far from reality I couldn't follow. I read the bible and that is what I believe
I had a dream last night that I asked my friend if it happened, and my worst fears became a reality... in that dream. It was the worst feeling I've ever felt in a very long time, and now I'm even more scared than before...
We should do a huge event where every single person in the world struggling with ocd
, anxiety and depression can assist.. We would definitely feel better supporting each other!!!
Thank you for making this video! I am definitely going to share this with my family and friends. Sometimes they are being curious and want to know more about OCD and what it is like which can be really difficult to explain... Especially when I have a tendency to be a bit sneaky and get some reassurance while explaining.
I'm glad it was able to help you. I hope your family can understand you better. You may show them the "sneaky compulsions" video as well. 😃
dIid you ever hear of someone that gets confused if they saw something or not and it really bothers them., and even seeing words that may or not be there. then they have this struggle of if they did see what they thought they saw they feel the need to fix it, do something about it, etc.
This is all from the fear and anxiety. It’s like when you want to remember a situation with every little detail, but you cannot remember everything so detailed, and then you get this intrusive thought, that you might have done something horrible that day, but you are not sure if you really did that or you are just confusing something. The problem is that, you yourself are not sure if you really did that or not. You say to yourself, “what if I did that, but it slipped out of my mind, and now I don’t remember it.” Just the fear that you might have done something like that, gives you images of you doing that thing, ( even if you didn’t do it in real life ) I am not a crazy person, trust me, but I know that I sound like a crazy person. So my question to you is, how to remember an event, exactly and really how it occurred. I wasn’t always like this, I don’t when I started behaving this way, but I am 1,000,000% sure that I wasn’t always like this. Please give me answers.
i have the same problem!i understand you!
@@andreea8245 yea. What do you think we can do.
I understand you. The more I ruminate I can't remember more. And it become so uncertain
@@JL-zx2ul I think people who have really done harm are not even concerned for a moment about these things
how long and how exactly did you start worrying about that?
i can told you how i start this
i had a nightmare and after i start to worry about the posibility that the nightmare was reality or something happend in the past ,something like that
@@Eezkiel yea, rumonating makes everything so confusing
I have disturbing thoughts from an event years ago. If I apply this technique will I eventually in the long run get a 100% certainty answer?
No. That's the opposite of what we want. The more you look for certainty the longer you get stuck.
@@ocdandanxiety Well a disturbing event did happen two years ago and it wasn't done by me tho shortly after thoughts derived from if that it may have been me, so since I replayed it enough it seems so real and I doubt if it truly was not me. This causes anxiety so what's the true way to get over it? I've been trying to resist going into the compulsions again and the anxiety is building up
I've been worrying I killed my 105 year old great aunt. I know I had thoughts of maybe giving her a cold because she wanted to die and was struggling so I thought I should Give her a cold to ebd her suffering. Now I think I'm responsible for her death and I also have a thought that maybe I gave her a cold maliciously because I didnt want to visit her anymore and I know I thought that at the time. This is really stressing me
You probably didn’t do that
@@samarayoung1101 the uncertainty is the hardest part
i know i shouldn’t be seeking reassurance as much as i am but these comments are really helping me
same!
Thank you for this video. I know that the solution is stopping ruminating about it but how can You just live with the thought that you could have hurt someone and just don’t care. I mean I know we’ll never get the answer but it’s just so hard to live with the uncertainty that you could be a monster. I can’t overcome this point...
I had to overcome this possibility and I didn't know it was ocd....I just had to accept the fact that I most likely was a monster
@@aloalo3727 I feel you bro
Yes! THIS!!! I think “will I be an evil person if I can just not care that I could have hurt someone? Like evil people don’t care, so if I don’t care I must be evil. Will that mean I don’t have a conscience. And if I -choose- to not care I must be super evil because there are probably some evil people that don’t have consciences and at least they have an excuse, but I’m making a choice. I don’t want to be evil. But I must be. What if evil people have this type of ocd. I don’t want to be like them.” Like this illness is not a cakewalk.
A lot of religious dogmas not block but create problems
I really feel I might have done it but there is a slight possibility that I might have not done it 🤕
Yes it feels like deep down I didn't do it but the constant thoughts keep make me feel as if I am submerged under the water
@@Eezkiel hey I’ve been seeing your comments everywhere? How are you doing now?
Man OCD is messed up I keep having a false memory of my father molesting me I know he wouldn’t do anything like that and the memory doesn’t seem real but it’s like whit if thanks.
I hate this, I want to get rid of this as soon as possible, and I don’t want anyone to know that I am experiencing OCD. I don’t want people to think that I am crazy. How get rid of this ? Please, write what I can do. Right now this seems like the only place where I can freely express my thoughts, and no one will judge for that. It’s like, “what if I did this, but I don’t remember” Please help. 😢
I get that. Ask yourself if it would be realistic if that happened. Checked the convos you had at that time . That helped me
Hi.. ive been dealing with this for the last 7years... I have had really really really good coping mechanisms for the last 6months and I've had these thoughts and been able to bat them away until last night and tonight. It's crippling me.. my partner within the last week was nearly admitted to a MH Facility so I've been so busy helping him through things and now he seems like he's doing well, I'm taking a step back and now I'm struggling.. is this normal when I have tons of things going off? Also I've been on anti depressants, anti anxiety medication for the last 7years, the gp has wanted to take me off them, I weaned down and this is my 3rd or 4th day without any? Also is this possible to have a set back? Many thanks in advance.. amazing video!!! X
I had this going on over a decade ago and it completely went away for years until recently. I was drinking energy drinks (monster) . I think that's why I have it back , Feel like I'm going crazy all over again. I'm going to give up caffiene and see how it goes😣🤞
Is it possible that something you thought you did was false all along? I have proof that I didn’t do anything but the memory feels so real so my ocd doesn’t care about proof and still makes me feel guilty
Yup, it happens.
But How Do I know I'm Not Blaming The Memory On False Memomry Ocd This is so annoying
Bro im beatboxer I've vibin im rap and beatboxing parties and addicted to this amd I feel very bad btwn normal entertainment ,I want euphoria ?and now this lead lead to ocd? adhd ,lost intrest in life . Before I was the person who alway syay cool ,no fear ,even in strange condition I just chill but now I want to harm my self
I once woke up crying because I thought I killed someone. I tried to search my memory and the worst thing is, even though I can't recall any memory, the doubt just goes stronger.
same. this is me. I tried to remember the situation and memories. but I can't find anything..it makes my thoughts getting worst
Does it get better?
I usually get some flashes from my past and if I don't remember everything that happened in it I must think it through all the way, and then I can get relief and move on. It's daily thing to me and its really frustrating.
I dont knoq if i have false memory ocd but I cant recall clearly the moment my cat died and my mind tells me that I may killed him...
I am going through this and idk what to do :(
ive been dealing with this constantly. except a much more severe and terrible thoughts. I know its all in my head but sometimes the brain can trick us into guilt when nothing even happened. thank you so much
Ikr
I don't think I have this exact OCD but I do suffer from various different types of other OCDs but the way you explain is so good that I feel I can actually understand the mindset of someone who is actually suffering from false memory OCD.
Thing is I've watched your other videos r regarding the OCDs I suffer from, and you explain so well! Thanks!!!
I struggle with POCD and false memory ocd(i think) where i’m scared that i’m into children’s mannerisms? and feeling like i’ve liked it before i knew i had OCD. For example there’s times we’re my sister does a mannerism and i feel like i actually enjoy it and then i get anxious about potentially feeling the same way before the anxiety and just shrugged it off
many months ago in the middle of the night I woke up half sleepy and I got this intrusive thought/image to hurt someone I love that was beside me. I was so concerned about the thought and tucked my hands underneath me and told myself not to reach out to them. I was scared of my thinking process but I just remember going back to sleep. Now the thought/image has come back ten times worse convincing me I actually hurt this person. I replay the event over and over to see if things change. My brain keeps telling me I did this thing and you are just trying to find an excuse. I’m so scared. Any help?
I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. That sounds so painful. Exposure and response prevention can really help with something like this. I hope you can find a therapist near you at iocdf.org --
@@ocdandanxiety thank you so much
Hello, I have this with racial slurs. I know I didn’t said them but it feels like it and it became so bad that I don’t wanna swallow anymore or speak at all because I am afraid I will say it. Does this count?
Take a look at this to see if it sounds more familiar. ruclips.net/video/Nt84fE13rx4/видео.html
@@ocdandanxiety ah i have already seen this, but thank you!! I also deal with intrusive thoughts but I was wondering if this (with the racial slurs ) also counts as false memory...
I've been struggling with something like this for a while and its such a relief to know im not alone in this.
I feel so bad for those people who turn themselves in.
I’m going insane it feels real i feel convinced it’s real because it feels familiar I’m so scared how do I know if it’s a real memory or a false memory I don’t know I’m scared really scared
About a 2 weeks ago I started having really bad OCD out of no where And it scares me because I have almost every form of it but your videos really helped me understand what it is and how it really works and how to deal with it
Sir I have a question, I don’t question the memory, but I question the details of it and what was my intention.....
Same
Me too
I was sitting here contemplating if I even should go on and I came across your youtube. It first started when I made a right turn with a bicycle behind me. I wanted to exit out of the highway and I don’t even know how close or how far the bicyclist was behind me or if there were cars infront or behind me but somehow I am convinced that after I made a abrubt turn, it caused a crash and everyone died behind and infront of me. I don’t even know if there was a crash after I exited. I was dwelling on this for a day or so and then I started to get vivid imaginations about harming people and am confused about if I really did kill people or not. It gets worse when I am about to sleep and when I wake up. I out cameras all over to record when people leave and enter the house to keep a record of if I left over the night and came back to bed. Now I am questioning if I could have deleted the tapes of when I left. And now I am thinking I am a murderer who is trying to frame it on ocd or that I made myself forget. I really think the police should come and see all the tapes they have in the apartment lobby and see if I left at night and ask the entire building if there had been murders. I also think I should be locked up now before anything can happen. I think with the new meds and my extreme fear, if something hasn’t already happen it could because I started taking luvox 4 days ago and it could maybe make me do something or maybe I will think fuck this I have so much fear of killing maybe I should kill and I will be done with all this fear. I am terrified. I feel like I need to be locked up, put on drugs, institutionalized, in jail, or electric chaired. I love my family and I feel like my life is over. I am now even questioning if I love my family now. I need help. I am in so much pain. I am so miserable. I don’t know how much longer I can endure this. I’m getting invasive imaginations so often throughout the day and am starting to believe all of them have happened. It all involves me murdering. I am so scared please help me.
I’ve been having an intrusive thought that I cheated on my fiancé sometime in the past 3 years without remembering. It got to the point where I reached out to literally EVERY guy in my past and asked them if that happened, and they all said no, but I can’t believe them for some reason. It’s so terrifying. It got to the point where I almost broke up with my fiancé bc I was convinced I cheated on him. This video is so close to what I’ve actually experienced and it makes me feel a little less alone.
If I have ADHD, so I miss things and forget about little things, could it be that I really did do something that could get me in trouble and I just forgot about it??
I suffer with this every day and its worst when your brain starts to ruminate about a thought from before. But gotta stay strong, remember what matters is the here and now - the present. As Tommy Shelby once said, "The past is in the past. The past is not my concern."