May I just say, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for this video and all the others that you create. I couldn’t help but relate so intensely to everything you spoke of. It let me know I’m not alone and that there are others out there that understand so well what I feel daily (even though I know I have an amazing support system). Because of your openness and kindness, you have helped me realize and act on getting myself some help to understand my feelings of this past year, the toughest I’ve ever been through. I only recently found your channel but it has been a great gift to have discovered you. I can ramble on forever but I’ll just leave you by saying thank you for being you and have a truly happy new year. -A.S
It makes me so incredibly happy that you and Conner are in a relationship that is full of growth, development and helping each other!! I feel like my boyfriend pushes me to be better and it’s always crazy to have someone who sees the potential in you. I can tell Conner sees your outstanding potential and it makes me so happy 🥰
Oh my gosh I was so awful for taking my medication! I would go days without it and then think: “huh, why do I feel awful?” One of your goals is to make people happy, and let me tell you, you have succeeded over and over again. When I get a notification that you have posted, I instantly have a smile on my face and get excited to see what the video will be. I’ve recently found your channel, but I am so glad that I did. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but there’s something so calming about you and so lovely that it makes me feel like I’m catching up with an old friend over a cup of tea. Thank you so much for everything that you do. Wishing you all of the best in 2020
Oh my gosh it describes my feelings so well! There are so many people out there feeling lonely with same issues! That’s why it’s so important to talk about it, show our vulnerability, express our insecurities and anxieties - sometimes just one good deep conversation can help so much!
i find miso soup a helpful option whenever making a meal feels overwhelming. more nutricious than tea but just as quick to make. i always have a jar in my fridge. and often find myself pimpin the cuppa up into a legit lunch with some garnishes.
What you said about food and how "its annoying to have to eat, I wish I didn't have to eat".. Ive said that so many times and to know someone else feels that way really made me feel better! Ive never know anyone else who has that kind of relationship with food.. just know you're not alone and together we'll get through it!
I think we get so caught up in counting the new or “big” things we do as accomplishments but just the fact that you are maintaining your art and continuing this journey is so astounding in of itself and that’s an EVERYDAY battle... so props to you and everyone for continuing to do the good that they’ve been already doing! ❤️
to use some taz quotes, loosely - choose joy, keep your arms outstretched, and you’re going to be AMAZING. self compassion is brutal to learn and hard to continue - I struggle with it too. but you’re so capable and your candor with where you are really does make people (myself included) feel as though we’re not alone in all this. much love to you, and to connor.
Self care is never as easy or effortless as like, those cutesy encouraging self care posts on social media lead us to believe : ') it takes work to start taking care of yourself! Here's to a year with more self-compassion!!!
It’s so fun looking at your bookshelf and being able to recognize some of the books just by their spines. I hope this next year treats you well, take care!
this was so wholesome and refreshing ahhhhhhh. also I really relate to some of your bad habits, I too find that I tend to be self-destructive and it's so awful. like the finding food annoying just because i'm trying to subconsciously avoid eating??? THAT HIT SO HARD. ughhhhh but thank you for such an enlightening video. I wish you success and happiness going into this new year and decade!! I look forward to how your resolutions come along ^^ I too need to remember to make goals that are practical and uplifting, let's keep our heads up in 2020.
"You gotta make sure you're well rested before you can save the world". This is honestly such a beautiful quote, I would love this as some kind of shirt or sticker. Thank you so much for this wonderful video, I enjoy hearing others plans, especially when it's so genuine. Have a wonderful year and don't beat yourself up if you do x
I think one more to add to your list is "consistently post videos on RUclips that make people feel great" I loved every one of your videos I watched in 2019 and they cheered me up on many a depressive day, so thank you
Hello there~! 😊 I just wanna tell you I discovered your channel like a month ago and I love it already, you seems very authentic, cheerful and warm person, your videos make me smile always, to hear about your projects or the things that your therapist said to you always inspire me to be better 🌸🎆 I wish you a great 2020 and I send you a huge hug and kisses to Sophie 💜🎊
Keeping busy not to confront the feelings whirling inside, yup did that for years. It's scary to let go of that behaviour, because it will probably lead to a little crisis, but the sun on the other side shines so brightly. I also feel that existential dread over bad shit. But that has improved a lot since I started following positive news. Traditional news tends to focus on negatives and that sucks out my soul.
It really showed how at some points throughout the video how much you struggled with your vulnerability and I just want to say thank you for talking about things that are hard nonetheless. I really related to some parts, especially since I recently started to live on my own and am still in the process of uncovering those self-sabotaging behaviors you talked about. Wishing you all the best for this year, Ill continue watching your videos!
I don't normally comment on videos, but it feels really important to tell you how much comfort and joy you brought to me this year. Finally living by myself was a lot lonelier than I expected and so for about a month straight I played your vlogs in the background while I did my washing and cooking and it just made me feel less alone. You are so loved by so many
Thank you for this video! I was really depressed cause I'm alone for New Year's and I've been scared to open videos because I'm sure I'd see a video of people at parties...but anyway, thanks for being vulnerable with us! It helped me a lot :D
Cheyenne, thank you so much for making this video. I can relate so much to being self-employed and home all day by yourself, trying to keep yourself accountable and not get distracted by tiny things or social media. I tend to tell myself I’m being productive when if I’m honest with myself I know I’m not. Wishing you all the best this year, you got this girl!!
honestly, thank you for sharing. The self-sabotage part I can relate to so much. I feel myself letting my anxiety push me to ruin my flow. And i catch myself after the fact and I ask myself "why the hell did i do that?" and i guess it is my fear of getting things done and moving forward to bigger things. Thank you for being true and real I appreciate it when I can connect to others, and I want to tell you YOU ARE NOT ALONE TOO 💕 💝
I am someone who really really looks up to you. Your goals and what you have achieved are my dream goals. The fact that you share your struggles, shows me that I don’t have to be perfect to be a good person. And when I feel down, your videos always cheer me up. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
This video, I have to say, was one of the BEST ways to start off the year. My parents were self employed artists, so I've always had the heebeegeebees about it. I've managed to keep my day job (for now), but I've always felt like I'm not doing what a "creative" would do. And my brain doesn't stop. This video will help me set some baby-step goals (like restarting making things and designing) and also the self compassion. I totally get the "why is food such a hassle" feeling. I beat myself up a lot and feel like an impostor. I let stress rule the day. It feels good knowing I'm not alone in these struggles and also that someone so cool (and relatable) is kind of on the same page in some ways. Ironically, one of my goals is to make more and watch less mindless RUclips, but I'm -so- thankful I found your channel and your art and even just your way of thinking. It feels like a warm blanket or cup of tea, mentally, so thank you. :)
what you said about the current state of affairs meaning we have to do the maximum amount of good in our community and trying to make people really resonated with me. like so many people, i really find it hard to stay motivated and inspired when all these shit things are happening. but i really feel that putting love and positivity out into our communities is a way to regain control of situations that we often feel powerless to help
Cheyenne, your videos are an oasis in a world often deserted of compassion, empathy, and humanity. they always make me feel so much better no matter what is happening in my life. thank you so much! may you and everyone else reading have a great 2020 filled with self care and love. 🥰
i’m so glad i found your art in 2019, your videos always bring me joy when i need to find the light in life. thank you for getting me back into drinking tea, and for being honest and open with your audience. i cannot wait to see everything you do next, stay brilliant love! 💖
“You gotta make sure you’re well rested before you can save the world.” Holding onto that one, Cheyenne. Thank you so so very much for all that you do. Sending you hugs and love for this new year!
Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. It's a strange world this day and age for the internet and being so forthright about yourself in a public manor is so so so hard. You're journey is 100% is the most important part of becoming the person you want to be. I think it's probably more important than the end result. I wish for you a sweet success and many hit miles stones
Dude being mean to yourself is the worst 😭 You are such a brave soul cheyenne! Thank you so much for being so honest in this video and letting others realize that they are not alone. I get so happy whenever I see a new post from you on whatever platform. I love your art and you inspire me to work towards art as a career in some form and to not let mental health keep me down. I hope you have an amazing 2020 and accomplish everything you wish for!
There are 3 quotes that really inspired me in this video.... 1. "It's about spreading your arms as wide as you can, and doing the maximum good that you can in your community." 2. "You gotta make sure you're well rested before you can save the world." 3. "I want to be better. I want to be good."
Thank you for being so brave to talk about disordered eating and medication, it's a thing I struggle with too and it's nice to hear that we're not alone. I appreciate how you want to put a lot of good into the world. Your channel has definitely helped me in many ways as well as your art. Thank you :)
My therapist sent me this ted talk on self-compassion and it was really helpful, think its called 'the Space Between Self-Esteem and Self Compassion: Kristin Neff' it was really helpful for me by like helping me be able to talk to myself in a nice way! Happy new year yalll!
I am currently in treatment for and eating disorder. I was in residential for weeks and now I graduated to partial hospitalization, yay! I consider my self an artist as well and have been reflecting on what I want to achieve this year. I really resonate with you and this video. I super appreciate you're ability to articulate you feelings and you're self awareness is amazing. Thank you for this video, it has been very therapeutic to me.
Duuude that's not a short list! Sometimes it's ok to like what you're doing, want to do more of it. I'm impressed, always am. I so appreciate you. I so resonate w ur being & energy. I took a lunch break to watch your video, also:) I am a work -from -homer writer and I feel you so hard on alllll of these things. Thank you for existing, I feel your powerrrrr :))
i related so much to so much of what you said here. anxiety about the world, self-sabotaging behaviour & difficulty having a 'productive' schedule when i have no external commitments like college or work (this happened to me in the summer and it wasn't fun). therapy, my bf and introspection were really helpful with it, but i want to work on it more this year. your resolutions are amazing and i have many of the same - not impacting the planet in a bad way & making people happy with my art. i am so ready to do that with my short films & my videos this year. you & connor are right, we can fight & we can make things better - we just don't have to succumb to desperation & negativity. thank you so much for this video, it's a great first video of the year that i really needed to watch & hear. we stan self-love in 2020! wishing you all the best 💖
I'm so proud of you for recognizing those thoughts of disordered eating and seeking help. I struggle with the exact same thoughts and also want to face my self-sabotaging tendencies. I started going to therapy because I knew they were getting out of hand and I would have panic attacks before I "had" to eat and I would scarf my food down because I "didn't want to deal with it anymore". So I'm really glad you put this video out, because I we all can see how hard it was but how necessary it was too. (Much like growth). LOVE YOU AND YOUR CHANNEL. (OH and I used your Christmas stickers to help wrap Christmas presents this past year, they were very well received. Thank you!)
I love your channel because you are so real, with the good and the bad and never try to fake anything. None of us are perfect. And I also love the fact that Connor supports you so much and brings out the best of you and helps you try to reach your highest self. You are one lucky girl. ❤
Thank you so much for being willing to share your struggles publicly. I relate so much to what you’re going through and it’s nice to be reminded that you aren’t alone and that even the people you look up to may have similar challenges. Admitting areas that need growth takes so much strength. You are amazing and I adore watching your videos.
Thank you for your authentic chat with us! Any video of yours always make me feel cozy like I'm sitting down with a friend 🥰 This year I got to travel lots and I'm really happy that I kept practicing art throughout the year! I hope we can all take care of ourselves like you said! It's super important! Lots of love from Tokyo! ❤️
Sometimes you may not think it but are so strong! Remember that it's ok if you break down sometimes, or you forget to take care of yourself. The important thing is that you always seem to bounce back on your feet. Wishing you all the best
Cheyenne, I may not actually know you but I know you are a wonderful human being and I am forever grateful for the good you put out into the world. You are such an inspiration and motivation for me to be a kinder, more loving person both to myself and others and you constantly remind me that even if I can't fix the things that are wrong with the world, just putting my kindness out there is helping to change things. I love you so much and offer you all the support I can from my little corner of the world.
also you have definetly made so many people happy and you have 100% made me so so happy, your videos and other art make such an imense positive impact on me and i have gotten so much, and so much Love from this channel
i just want to say that this year whenever i felt anxious or super down watching your videos just helped me feel relaxed and like the world isn't as shitty and out to get me as i sometimes can think. thank you.
"Can I do the same old same old, but more of it?" is a mood! I gave the artist's way a try and it was kind of okay, but it was a bit too spiritual for me. I did like the morning pages and artist's date stuff (and some other things!) If you do decide to do it, I hope it works out for you! Happy new year to you and Connor and Soph ( and everyone else watching this video :D )
This video came at such an important point for me. It was only once you spoke about deliberately forgetting your meds that I realised I do the same and it’s been too many days. My partner helps me with that too. Being a student I think makes structure hard for me to maintain in the way you do too. Thank you for your honesty
I feel it’s necessary to say thank you, thank you so much for opening up (because I know it’s hard) I have had that very same eating issue/pattern for a long time. I will go without eating because I can’t be bothered, or I don’t realize it’s essential or necessary to. I seem more likely to binge on snack like things instead like candy, chocolate or popcorn/chips...it really depends. Also touching on the self sabotage hit close to home as well because I started to get help early this year and just because the particular medication I was given wasn’t helping I gave up. You have inspired me to get back out there to getting help again. So thank you Cheyenne from the bottom of my heart, you’re making more of a difference than you realize. 💛🌙
I always love coming to your channel. The energy in your videos always propels me to do better in different aspects of my life. I particularly loved that you mentioned that in this new year we should do the hard work needed to practice self-compassion. I wish you the best in all your business and creative endevours. Thank you for bringing so much light into our lives. I am forever grateful for all that you share with us. 💕
What a lovely video and what a lovely person you are. And yes, in order to give good back to the world, you must first take care of yourself. It's a life-long learning curve, but seems like you've got much clearer on the basics. "Put your own oxygen mask on first before helping someone with theirs." Good and gentle vibes for you in 2020.
Just went and found that blog post of Rebecca's you mentioned and I LOVED it! I already sketch a lot but I don't do the sketch your day thing - going to give it a try - may add it to one of my vlogs - would make a good one! Hope you share yours!
Happy new year, Cheyenne! I forgot to post this earlier, but I just wanted to say your experiences re: eating and forgetting medication mirror my own. It's funny, I finally got on good medication in the last few months of 2019 after forever of being on stuff that just wasn't working well, and even though they make things so much better now, it's still hard to remember to take em when I'm supposed to! But hey, I say new year, new decade, new meds means a new start too. 2020 is going to be a special year, I can feel it. Anyway, thank you for sharing, it means a lot to those of us out here, muddling along on our own little lower roads. :)
I always love watching your videos!! As a fellow creative human, it sometimes feels like the world isn’t really designed for us structurally but you inspire me to break the mould!! It’s all about growth and development 😊 keep doing what you’re doing!! Happy new year! x
thank you for sharing! i'm glad that you are in a great place right now, and that this video emits so much gentle positive energy for 2020. it makes me feel a lot better having watched this
Really thank you for this video from the bottom of my heart, Cheyenne. I'm struggling with eating and sleep/getting out of bed and worrying too much as well. All the things you've been saying in this video were things I really needed to hear. In 2020 I'll try to remember to spread my wings and just do the most good I can do 🤗💕
I wish i can give you a big warm hug and say thankyou directly because you are one of my inspiration for keep going and keep do my art and my college design, thank you for being you and thankyou for always inspiring and make me happy cheyenne 😊🙏
Hace unos meses que empece a verte y de verdad me sorprende mucho la calma que me aportas a mi vida, tengo muhos proyectos que deseo empezar / terminar en el 2020 y ver como hablas del año me entusiasma, vengo saliendo de rodillas de una depresion que aborreci todo el 2019, pero voy entendiendo que a veces tenemos que pasar algunas cosas terribles para valorarnos y empujarnos a exito, gracias! me encanta escucharte!
I have never wanted to be someone’s friend so badly, your personality is so warm and I’m glad you are surrounded by people who choose to emit the same light as you do
Aww Cheyenne, I totally relate with you when you talked about not taking your meds. I’ve been taking mine for around 6 years now and I am encouraged by your journey. :) I’m cheering you on always, Cheyenne! :’)
Happy new year Cheyenne 💕 your reflections on art direction, self improvement and the world reflect so much with me, thanks so much for sharing because it makes me feel less alone! All I want to say is be kind to yourself this year and don't pressure yourself to be a perfect person 💖 you are loved as you are ✨
Thank you for saying everything you did about being the good in the world and champion of love. Thats something I know I need to be reminded of and I am after watching different youtubers, you are included on that list. Thank you for being real and some of the good in the world ❤
I don’t usually comment on videos, but after watching this, I just had a lot to say. I haven’t felt like myself in a very long time, but your videos spark my creativity. I like to play your videos when I journal and when I’m not feeling too great. You are someone I very much admire as you work hard to make sure you take care of yourself and working hard to achieve what you want. I relate a lot to what you said about making goals that seem too high to reach because I do that too. I’m getting better though. Thank you for everything you taught me in 2019, I hope 2020 is kinder to you.
Just discovered your channel from this video :) I did the artist's way last year and am planning to do it again this year! It's not as scary as you made it out to seem haha. To me, it was a way to let my inner child come out and play and explore my inner artist and let go of self-criticisms and was such a beautiful and freeing experience!! It will definitely force you to confront some of your inner battles but it's all done in such a loving way! I did it in a book club with a couple other friends where we just met up online once a week and talked through it which was really nice! also, we took around 15+ weeks to do it, rather than 12, so you can take it as fast or slow as you want!
I discovered your channel sometime before christmas and I gotta say, I'm in love with your work and your personality. I too struggle with self sabotage and being mean to myself from time to time. I can relate so much. I would love to be an independent artist and I have the opportunity to invest time into creating but working from home is SO HARD. I admire you so much for doing what you do. Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm going to look into "the artist's way" and visual journaling, it seems like it would help me get out of this rut. Happy New Year! Wishing you a speedy recovery from the root canal
Thank you for opening up about your eating habits, it made me feel less alone as I'm in the same boat. I eat one solid meal a day and snacks around that but find it so hard to make myself eat more; I just don't have the appetite. I'm trying really hard to work on it this year also. Best of luck with your journey to better health, you will get to where you want to be
I discovered your channel in October and you are the reason I starting painting with water coolers. For the first time ever. Thank you for inspiring me and for making this video which I can identify with in terms of so many aspects. Love from Germany and have a fantastic 2020.
im like two weeks late to this video oops but i just want to say that your videos genuinely make me so much happier and motivate me so much ??? also you and conner are absolutely adorable and im so glad you've found someone who makes you so happy !! your relationship is so wholesome !! idk im just rambling at this point but you're sososo awesome and you make me feel so loved and i just wanted to give that love back
I discovered you in November, and since then I can’t stop rewatching your content, you are a lovely human being and a huge inspiration to this aspiring artist. Your videos and your personality makes me feel so safe and content and I wish you all the best for the new year
I feel ya on the self-sabotage. I do it to myself all the time. That is something I need to change. But hey, the best thing we can do is to be kind to ourselves, we are not perfect. Anyways, Thank you for sharing. Happy New Year! You are truly inspiring and might I say lovely! :)
I used to have really bad eating habits until I went keto. My depression and anxiety have gone way down. To the point where I stopped taking one of my meds cold turkey with no issues and I’m titrating off of the other right now. I’m still taking my ADHD med, but being able to come off 2 of my current 4 is amazing to me. I don’t overeat anymore and I also don’t starve myself. Before, some weeks I would just eat ichaban. Now I eat way healthier and I'm satiated. I wish you the best Cheyenne. Happy New Year 🥳
I love that this video is called "keep moving forward" because it comes from my favorite Walt Disney quote: “Around here, however, we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we're curious...and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” -- may curiosity and imagination lead you to exciting new places and down exciting paths, Cheyenne. Thanks for this video!! Happy New Year!!
Hi Cheyenne, I found your channel late this year, and I come back to RUclips every day to look at your art, listen to all your thoughts because it brings joy! I can’t draw much anymore because of my job, so watching you talk about your art just makes me happy (and squeal and cry over all your merchandise). I just bought Conner and your book, I’m super excited to read it! I hope you have a great beginning of the new year and wish you the best! 💕
This is the most accurate video ever. Relatable on everyyyy level. I just moved to Idaho after living in California (literally Orange County to Idaho) my whole life so that I can break my habits and flourish. This is our year!!!!
I relate to your thoughts super strongly. I find myself in a place where I kind of know what my dreams are but I haven't done anything to achieve them. And it's so scary, especially since I'm turning 30 and it seems like other people have their life already figured out and I'm just thinking, not doing. So in 2020 I try to do stuff, but also try to introduce new habits and things gradually over the year - health-wise there's probably 7 things I should be doing, but I won't succeed if I take them all on at once. So I have goals for each month, baby steps, and hopefully by January 2021 I have taken on those 7 habits and some other things that I would like to work on. And I try to rememver that bigger goals like learning a new art or language skill is going to take years, so I try to break the steps of those goals very small for 2020 to keep myself... well, not overwhelmed. I hope this helps, thanks for the video once again!
Also, think there has been research on how many hours a person can work and still be productive, and if I remember correctly, it's about 4-6 hours. So don't beat yourself up if it's hard to work from 9-6 since your brain gets tired way before 6 in that schedule. As a freelancer, I work on my assignments for 5 hours and do less demanding work for 1-3 on top of that depending on the day, and I highly recommend it. 👍
I literally relate on every level except the teeth issues honestly. I skip my meds though I know I need them and "forget" to have them. I have the worst level of disordered eating patterns that have just gotten that far out of control. I brutally self sabotage. I think that your level of rawness and relatability is one of the largest draws for me to your channel. Your art is beautiful and fills me with joy every time I receive it through the mail, but knowing that you've gone through the same struggles makes me want to support you even more. You'll be okay despite what is occurring in our world. Take it day by day, listen to your therapist and enjoy every moment in the present. Last year I was having constant panic attacks about existence and lackthereof, but in 2019 I embarked on self love and self compassion. I still am by no means good at it but it's made a profound impact despite my current struggles. I think one book that you would benefit from for your work is Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. A lot of what you spoke about trying to work on is covered in her book and is rather helpful. Happy New Year Chey, Soph and Connor. I wish you abundance, love, prosperity and good.
P.S. I recently invested in a Switch because I've been craving the games you guys play like Breath of the Wild and recently picked up Pokemon Sword! I'm not sure how to use the card thingy you mentioned though. ^_^
Thank you. In your video, I found several answers to questions and thoughts that have been hounting me recently, the last year mostly. I know it's not definite - like the things just keep turning up again and again, but when I remember things you said here I believe I'll be able to cope with it better. So thank you for sharing this with me (us). (yes I watched this video only now. And yes, I never commented on your video before, because I'm following you only shortly.)
i love this update chey! i can relate so hard to your self-sabotaging habits/old damaged beliefs/goal for self-compassion going forward. we are worth taking care of!! wishing you a 2020 filled with exciting growth and radical self-love. (also, totally unrelated, but the end of this video is replaying silently while i write this comment and some of your mannerisms and expressions remind me of antoni from queer eye lol)
May I just say, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for this video and all the others that you create. I couldn’t help but relate so intensely to everything you spoke of. It let me know I’m not alone and that there are others out there that understand so well what I feel daily (even though I know I have an amazing support system). Because of your openness and kindness, you have helped me realize and act on getting myself some help to understand my feelings of this past year, the toughest I’ve ever been through. I only recently found your channel but it has been a great gift to have discovered you. I can ramble on forever but I’ll just leave you by saying thank you for being you and have a truly happy new year.
-A.S
Adriana Serna I second this wholeheartedly!
you know i love ur videos when i stop watching a bon appetit video for you lol
absolute mood lol
oh my god i'm literally watching a gourmet makes right now, i'm so honored
gourmet makes is the b e s t
It makes me so incredibly happy that you and Conner are in a relationship that is full of growth, development and helping each other!! I feel like my boyfriend pushes me to be better and it’s always crazy to have someone who sees the potential in you. I can tell Conner sees your outstanding potential and it makes me so happy 🥰
sof gray their relationship is what I hope to have with someone one day 😭🥺
Oh my gosh I was so awful for taking my medication! I would go days without it and then think: “huh, why do I feel awful?” One of your goals is to make people happy, and let me tell you, you have succeeded over and over again. When I get a notification that you have posted, I instantly have a smile on my face and get excited to see what the video will be. I’ve recently found your channel, but I am so glad that I did. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but there’s something so calming about you and so lovely that it makes me feel like I’m catching up with an old friend over a cup of tea. Thank you so much for everything that you do. Wishing you all of the best in 2020
Gabrielle Branchaud yes, Cheyenne makes my world a happier place with her art and her words ❤️
"You set all of these unachievable goals for yourself, so then you inevitably fail."
meeeeeeeeeeee tooooooooo
I carved ‘you gotta make sure you are well rested before you save the world’ in my desk, I’ll never forget it.
i love your videos so much! you seem like such a warm hearted person
Oh my gosh it describes my feelings so well! There are so many people out there feeling lonely with same issues! That’s why it’s so important to talk about it, show our vulnerability, express our insecurities and anxieties - sometimes just one good deep conversation can help so much!
i find miso soup a helpful option whenever making a meal feels overwhelming. more nutricious than tea but just as quick to make. i always have a jar in my fridge. and often find myself pimpin the cuppa up into a legit lunch with some garnishes.
What you said about food and how "its annoying to have to eat, I wish I didn't have to eat".. Ive said that so many times and to know someone else feels that way really made me feel better! Ive never know anyone else who has that kind of relationship with food.. just know you're not alone and together we'll get through it!
I think we get so caught up in counting the new or “big” things we do as accomplishments but just the fact that you are maintaining your art and continuing this journey is so astounding in of itself and that’s an EVERYDAY battle... so props to you and everyone for continuing to do the good that they’ve been already doing! ❤️
to use some taz quotes, loosely - choose joy, keep your arms outstretched, and you’re going to be AMAZING. self compassion is brutal to learn and hard to continue - I struggle with it too. but you’re so capable and your candor with where you are really does make people (myself included) feel as though we’re not alone in all this. much love to you, and to connor.
you are one of those people that constantly reminds me of humanity’s beauty
Self care is never as easy or effortless as like, those cutesy encouraging self care posts on social media lead us to believe : ') it takes work to start taking care of yourself! Here's to a year with more self-compassion!!!
It’s so fun looking at your bookshelf and being able to recognize some of the books just by their spines. I hope this next year treats you well, take care!
this was so wholesome and refreshing ahhhhhhh.
also I really relate to some of your bad habits, I too find that I tend to be self-destructive and it's so awful. like the finding food annoying just because i'm trying to subconsciously avoid eating??? THAT HIT SO HARD. ughhhhh but thank you for such an enlightening video. I wish you success and happiness going into this new year and decade!! I look forward to how your resolutions come along ^^ I too need to remember to make goals that are practical and uplifting, let's keep our heads up in 2020.
You're so lovely Cheyenne!! You're such a powerful woman already I'm so excited to see you in 2020!! You have inspired myself and so many more. :-)
"You gotta make sure you're well rested before you can save the world". This is honestly such a beautiful quote, I would love this as some kind of shirt or sticker. Thank you so much for this wonderful video, I enjoy hearing others plans, especially when it's so genuine. Have a wonderful year and don't beat yourself up if you do x
I think one more to add to your list is "consistently post videos on RUclips that make people feel great" I loved every one of your videos I watched in 2019 and they cheered me up on many a depressive day, so thank you
Hello there~! 😊 I just wanna tell you I discovered your channel like a month ago and I love it already, you seems very authentic, cheerful and warm person, your videos make me smile always, to hear about your projects or the things that your therapist said to you always inspire me to be better 🌸🎆 I wish you a great 2020 and I send you a huge hug and kisses to Sophie 💜🎊
Keeping busy not to confront the feelings whirling inside, yup did that for years. It's scary to let go of that behaviour, because it will probably lead to a little crisis, but the sun on the other side shines so brightly.
I also feel that existential dread over bad shit. But that has improved a lot since I started following positive news. Traditional news tends to focus on negatives and that sucks out my soul.
You deserve the whole damn world chey 🌟 thank you for everything you are !
It really showed how at some points throughout the video how much you struggled with your vulnerability and I just want to say thank you for talking about things that are hard nonetheless. I really related to some parts, especially since I recently started to live on my own and am still in the process of uncovering those self-sabotaging behaviors you talked about. Wishing you all the best for this year, Ill continue watching your videos!
I don't normally comment on videos, but it feels really important to tell you how much comfort and joy you brought to me this year. Finally living by myself was a lot lonelier than I expected and so for about a month straight I played your vlogs in the background while I did my washing and cooking and it just made me feel less alone. You are so loved by so many
Thank you for this video! I was really depressed cause I'm alone for New Year's and I've been scared to open videos because I'm sure I'd see a video of people at parties...but anyway, thanks for being vulnerable with us! It helped me a lot :D
CanonCrockpot connor is currently asleep on me on the couch and i’m playing fire emblem, a quiet new years is a wonderful thing
hi CanonCrockpot, I am alone this new year too. I didn't celebrate at all. I just sleep the night away.
Cheyenne, thank you so much for making this video. I can relate so much to being self-employed and home all day by yourself, trying to keep yourself accountable and not get distracted by tiny things or social media. I tend to tell myself I’m being productive when if I’m honest with myself I know I’m not. Wishing you all the best this year, you got this girl!!
honestly, thank you for sharing. The self-sabotage part I can relate to so much. I feel myself letting my anxiety push me to ruin my flow. And i catch myself after the fact and I ask myself "why the hell did i do that?" and i guess it is my fear of getting things done and moving forward to bigger things. Thank you for being true and real I appreciate it when I can connect to others, and I want to tell you YOU ARE NOT ALONE TOO 💕 💝
I am someone who really really looks up to you. Your goals and what you have achieved are my dream goals. The fact that you share your struggles, shows me that I don’t have to be perfect to be a good person. And when I feel down, your videos always cheer me up. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
This video, I have to say, was one of the BEST ways to start off the year. My parents were self employed artists, so I've always had the heebeegeebees about it. I've managed to keep my day job (for now), but I've always felt like I'm not doing what a "creative" would do. And my brain doesn't stop. This video will help me set some baby-step goals (like restarting making things and designing) and also the self compassion. I totally get the "why is food such a hassle" feeling. I beat myself up a lot and feel like an impostor. I let stress rule the day. It feels good knowing I'm not alone in these struggles and also that someone so cool (and relatable) is kind of on the same page in some ways. Ironically, one of my goals is to make more and watch less mindless RUclips, but I'm -so- thankful I found your channel and your art and even just your way of thinking. It feels like a warm blanket or cup of tea, mentally, so thank you. :)
what you said about the current state of affairs meaning we have to do the maximum amount of good in our community and trying to make people really resonated with me. like so many people, i really find it hard to stay motivated and inspired when all these shit things are happening. but i really feel that putting love and positivity out into our communities is a way to regain control of situations that we often feel powerless to help
Cheyenne, your videos are an oasis in a world often deserted of compassion, empathy, and humanity. they always make me feel so much better no matter what is happening in my life. thank you so much! may you and everyone else reading have a great 2020 filled with self care and love. 🥰
i’m so glad i found your art in 2019, your videos always bring me joy when i need to find the light in life. thank you for getting me back into drinking tea, and for being honest and open with your audience. i cannot wait to see everything you do next, stay brilliant love! 💖
“You gotta make sure you’re well rested before you can save the world.” Holding onto that one, Cheyenne. Thank you so so very much for all that you do. Sending you hugs and love for this new year!
Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. It's a strange world this day and age for the internet and being so forthright about yourself in a public manor is so so so hard. You're journey is 100% is the most important part of becoming the person you want to be. I think it's probably more important than the end result. I wish for you a sweet success and many hit miles stones
Dude being mean to yourself is the worst 😭 You are such a brave soul cheyenne! Thank you so much for being so honest in this video and letting others realize that they are not alone. I get so happy whenever I see a new post from you on whatever platform. I love your art and you inspire me to work towards art as a career in some form and to not let mental health keep me down.
I hope you have an amazing 2020 and accomplish everything you wish for!
There are 3 quotes that really inspired me in this video....
1. "It's about spreading your arms as wide as you can, and doing the maximum good that you can in your community."
2. "You gotta make sure you're well rested before you can save the world."
3. "I want to be better. I want to be good."
Thank you for being so brave to talk about disordered eating and medication, it's a thing I struggle with too and it's nice to hear that we're not alone. I appreciate how you want to put a lot of good into the world. Your channel has definitely helped me in many ways as well as your art. Thank you :)
My therapist sent me this ted talk on self-compassion and it was really helpful, think its called 'the Space Between Self-Esteem and Self Compassion: Kristin Neff' it was really helpful for me by like helping me be able to talk to myself in a nice way!
Happy new year yalll!
I am currently in treatment for and eating disorder. I was in residential for weeks and now I graduated to partial hospitalization, yay! I consider my self an artist as well and have been reflecting on what I want to achieve this year. I really resonate with you and this video. I super appreciate you're ability to articulate you feelings and you're self awareness is amazing. Thank you for this video, it has been very therapeutic to me.
Duuude that's not a short list! Sometimes it's ok to like what you're doing, want to do more of it. I'm impressed, always am. I so appreciate you. I so resonate w ur being & energy. I took a lunch break to watch your video, also:) I am a work -from -homer writer and I feel you so hard on alllll of these things. Thank you for existing, I feel your powerrrrr :))
i related so much to so much of what you said here. anxiety about the world, self-sabotaging behaviour & difficulty having a 'productive' schedule when i have no external commitments like college or work (this happened to me in the summer and it wasn't fun). therapy, my bf and introspection were really helpful with it, but i want to work on it more this year.
your resolutions are amazing and i have many of the same - not impacting the planet in a bad way & making people happy with my art. i am so ready to do that with my short films & my videos this year. you & connor are right, we can fight & we can make things better - we just don't have to succumb to desperation & negativity.
thank you so much for this video, it's a great first video of the year that i really needed to watch & hear. we stan self-love in 2020! wishing you all the best 💖
I always think your videos are the coziest, but you have now taken it to the next level. Cmon, Sophie, hop up there already.
I'm so proud of you for recognizing those thoughts of disordered eating and seeking help. I struggle with the exact same thoughts and also want to face my self-sabotaging tendencies. I started going to therapy because I knew they were getting out of hand and I would have panic attacks before I "had" to eat and I would scarf my food down because I "didn't want to deal with it anymore". So I'm really glad you put this video out, because I we all can see how hard it was but how necessary it was too. (Much like growth). LOVE YOU AND YOUR CHANNEL. (OH and I used your Christmas stickers to help wrap Christmas presents this past year, they were very well received. Thank you!)
I love your channel because you are so real, with the good and the bad and never try to fake anything. None of us are perfect. And I also love the fact that Connor supports you so much and brings out the best of you and helps you try to reach your highest self. You are one lucky girl. ❤
You have so much heart. So so much heart. And it’s very audible in the way you talk and what you talk about. Thank you for sharing :)
your videos have made me happy this year! thank you
Thank you so much for being willing to share your struggles publicly. I relate so much to what you’re going through and it’s nice to be reminded that you aren’t alone and that even the people you look up to may have similar challenges.
Admitting areas that need growth takes so much strength. You are amazing and I adore watching your videos.
Thank you for your authentic chat with us! Any video of yours always make me feel cozy like I'm sitting down with a friend 🥰 This year I got to travel lots and I'm really happy that I kept practicing art throughout the year! I hope we can all take care of ourselves like you said! It's super important! Lots of love from Tokyo! ❤️
Sometimes you may not think it but are so strong! Remember that it's ok if you break down sometimes, or you forget to take care of yourself. The important thing is that you always seem to bounce back on your feet. Wishing you all the best
Love you! It is going to be okay! We are all in this crazy life together.
Happy New Year! 🎆
you’ve definitely brought happiness to lots of people. cheesy, but my day gets a little brighter when you upload a new video. happy new year 🎊☺️💞
Cheyenne, I may not actually know you but I know you are a wonderful human being and I am forever grateful for the good you put out into the world. You are such an inspiration and motivation for me to be a kinder, more loving person both to myself and others and you constantly remind me that even if I can't fix the things that are wrong with the world, just putting my kindness out there is helping to change things. I love you so much and offer you all the support I can from my little corner of the world.
also you have definetly made so many people happy and you have 100% made me so so happy, your videos and other art make such an imense positive impact on me and i have gotten so much, and so much Love from this channel
lets get through this year together, cheyenne! we got this :)
i just want to say that this year whenever i felt anxious or super down watching your videos just helped me feel relaxed and like the world isn't as shitty and out to get me as i sometimes can think. thank you.
"Can I do the same old same old, but more of it?" is a mood! I gave the artist's way a try and it was kind of okay, but it was a bit too spiritual for me. I did like the morning pages and artist's date stuff (and some other things!) If you do decide to do it, I hope it works out for you! Happy new year to you and Connor and Soph ( and everyone else watching this video :D )
This video came at such an important point for me. It was only once you spoke about deliberately forgetting your meds that I realised I do the same and it’s been too many days.
My partner helps me with that too. Being a student I think makes structure hard for me to maintain in the way you do too. Thank you for your honesty
I feel it’s necessary to say thank you, thank you so much for opening up (because I know it’s hard) I have had that very same eating issue/pattern for a long time. I will go without eating because I can’t be bothered, or I don’t realize it’s essential or necessary to. I seem more likely to binge on snack like things instead like candy, chocolate or popcorn/chips...it really depends. Also touching on the self sabotage hit close to home as well because I started to get help early this year and just because the particular medication I was given wasn’t helping I gave up. You have inspired me to get back out there to getting help again. So thank you Cheyenne from the bottom of my heart, you’re making more of a difference than you realize. 💛🌙
I always love coming to your channel. The energy in your videos always propels me to do better in different aspects of my life.
I particularly loved that you mentioned that in this new year we should do the hard work needed to practice self-compassion.
I wish you the best in all your business and creative endevours. Thank you for bringing so much light into our lives.
I am forever grateful for all that you share with us. 💕
Wow. This became my favourite channel ever. I love that the videos are long, original, artsy and have a cozy feeling
What a lovely video and what a lovely person you are. And yes, in order to give good back to the world, you must first take care of yourself. It's a life-long learning curve, but seems like you've got much clearer on the basics. "Put your own oxygen mask on first before helping someone with theirs." Good and gentle vibes for you in 2020.
Just went and found that blog post of Rebecca's you mentioned and I LOVED it! I already sketch a lot but I don't do the sketch your day thing - going to give it a try - may add it to one of my vlogs - would make a good one! Hope you share yours!
Happy new year, Cheyenne! I forgot to post this earlier, but I just wanted to say your experiences re: eating and forgetting medication mirror my own. It's funny, I finally got on good medication in the last few months of 2019 after forever of being on stuff that just wasn't working well, and even though they make things so much better now, it's still hard to remember to take em when I'm supposed to! But hey, I say new year, new decade, new meds means a new start too. 2020 is going to be a special year, I can feel it. Anyway, thank you for sharing, it means a lot to those of us out here, muddling along on our own little lower roads. :)
I always love watching your videos!! As a fellow creative human, it sometimes feels like the world isn’t really designed for us structurally but you inspire me to break the mould!! It’s all about growth and development 😊 keep doing what you’re doing!! Happy new year! x
thank you for sharing! i'm glad that you are in a great place right now, and that this video emits so much gentle positive energy for 2020. it makes me feel a lot better having watched this
Really thank you for this video from the bottom of my heart, Cheyenne. I'm struggling with eating and sleep/getting out of bed and worrying too much as well. All the things you've been saying in this video were things I really needed to hear. In 2020 I'll try to remember to spread my wings and just do the most good I can do 🤗💕
I wish i can give you a big warm hug and say thankyou directly because you are one of my inspiration for keep going and keep do my art and my college design, thank you for being you and thankyou for always inspiring and make me happy cheyenne 😊🙏
We need some self-compassion merch!!!
Hace unos meses que empece a verte y de verdad me sorprende mucho la calma que me aportas a mi vida, tengo muhos proyectos que deseo empezar / terminar en el 2020 y ver como hablas del año me entusiasma, vengo saliendo de rodillas de una depresion que aborreci todo el 2019, pero voy entendiendo que a veces tenemos que pasar algunas cosas terribles para valorarnos y empujarnos a exito, gracias! me encanta escucharte!
I have never wanted to be someone’s friend so badly, your personality is so warm and I’m glad you are surrounded by people who choose to emit the same light as you do
Aww Cheyenne, I totally relate with you when you talked about not taking your meds. I’ve been taking mine for around 6 years now and I am encouraged by your journey. :) I’m cheering you on always, Cheyenne! :’)
what will make me happy is you taking care of yourself and you feeling happy and content!! all the love
Happy new year Cheyenne 💕 your reflections on art direction, self improvement and the world reflect so much with me, thanks so much for sharing because it makes me feel less alone! All I want to say is be kind to yourself this year and don't pressure yourself to be a perfect person 💖 you are loved as you are ✨
Thank you for saying everything you did about being the good in the world and champion of love. Thats something I know I need to be reminded of and I am after watching different youtubers, you are included on that list. Thank you for being real and some of the good in the world ❤
I can fully relate to your food behaviours... I have had them for years (since I was like 11 or so, and I am 27 now), we can do this!
I don’t usually comment on videos, but after watching this, I just had a lot to say. I haven’t felt like myself in a very long time, but your videos spark my creativity. I like to play your videos when I journal and when I’m not feeling too great. You are someone I very much admire as you work hard to make sure you take care of yourself and working hard to achieve what you want. I relate a lot to what you said about making goals that seem too high to reach because I do that too. I’m getting better though. Thank you for everything you taught me in 2019, I hope 2020 is kinder to you.
Just discovered your channel from this video :) I did the artist's way last year and am planning to do it again this year! It's not as scary as you made it out to seem haha. To me, it was a way to let my inner child come out and play and explore my inner artist and let go of self-criticisms and was such a beautiful and freeing experience!! It will definitely force you to confront some of your inner battles but it's all done in such a loving way! I did it in a book club with a couple other friends where we just met up online once a week and talked through it which was really nice! also, we took around 15+ weeks to do it, rather than 12, so you can take it as fast or slow as you want!
I discovered your channel sometime before christmas and I gotta say, I'm in love with your work and your personality.
I too struggle with self sabotage and being mean to myself from time to time. I can relate so much. I would love to be an independent artist and I have the opportunity to invest time into creating but working from home is SO HARD. I admire you so much for doing what you do.
Thank you for sharing your journey. I'm going to look into "the artist's way" and visual journaling, it seems like it would help me get out of this rut.
Happy New Year! Wishing you a speedy recovery from the root canal
Thank you for opening up about your eating habits, it made me feel less alone as I'm in the same boat. I eat one solid meal a day and snacks around that but find it so hard to make myself eat more; I just don't have the appetite. I'm trying really hard to work on it this year also. Best of luck with your journey to better health, you will get to where you want to be
This did so much good for me today. Thank you so very much for being real and honest with us. I feel so much less alone now.
I discovered your channel in October and you are the reason I starting painting with water coolers. For the first time ever. Thank you for inspiring me and for making this video which I can identify with in terms of so many aspects. Love from Germany and have a fantastic 2020.
im like two weeks late to this video oops but i just want to say that your videos genuinely make me so much happier and motivate me so much ??? also you and conner are absolutely adorable and im so glad you've found someone who makes you so happy !! your relationship is so wholesome !! idk im just rambling at this point but you're sososo awesome and you make me feel so loved and i just wanted to give that love back
I discovered you in November, and since then I can’t stop rewatching your content, you are a lovely human being and a huge inspiration to this aspiring artist. Your videos and your personality makes me feel so safe and content and I wish you all the best for the new year
a short list??? that all sounds so impressive good for you! you had such a productive year
I feel ya on the self-sabotage. I do it to myself all the time. That is something I need to change. But hey, the best thing we can do is to be kind to ourselves, we are not perfect. Anyways, Thank you for sharing. Happy New Year! You are truly inspiring and might I say lovely! :)
You are such an incredibly well spoken and intuitive human ❤️ I adore you and your work. This year is yours my dear. Be well.
You are a wonderful human and you inspire me with your videos!! 2020 is a new year and we can promote our therapy lessons!
I used to have really bad eating habits until I went keto. My depression and anxiety have gone way down. To the point where I stopped taking one of my meds cold turkey with no issues and I’m titrating off of the other right now. I’m still taking my ADHD med, but being able to come off 2 of my current 4 is amazing to me. I don’t overeat anymore and I also don’t starve myself. Before, some weeks I would just eat ichaban. Now I eat way healthier and I'm satiated. I wish you the best Cheyenne. Happy New Year 🥳
I love that this video is called "keep moving forward" because it comes from my favorite Walt Disney quote: “Around here, however, we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we're curious...and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” -- may curiosity and imagination lead you to exciting new places and down exciting paths, Cheyenne. Thanks for this video!! Happy New Year!!
Hi Cheyenne, I found your channel late this year, and I come back to RUclips every day to look at your art, listen to all your thoughts because it brings joy! I can’t draw much anymore because of my job, so watching you talk about your art just makes me happy (and squeal and cry over all your merchandise). I just bought Conner and your book, I’m super excited to read it! I hope you have a great beginning of the new year and wish you the best! 💕
I discovered this channel and your artwork this year, and I can affirm that you gave me something great! thank you for you
Despite all the darkness, you've created this bright and comforting little corner. So grateful for that! Thank you and happy new year to you all! 🌟
We love you🤎
Happy New Year.
Keep taking meds, loving Sophie and Connor, resting eating and kicking ass in 2020!
This is the most accurate video ever. Relatable on everyyyy level. I just moved to Idaho after living in California (literally Orange County to Idaho) my whole life so that I can break my habits and flourish. This is our year!!!!
Thank you for opening up and sharing. I appreciate your vulnerability and every time I see a video from you, I smile. Best wishes in 2020!
I relate to your thoughts super strongly. I find myself in a place where I kind of know what my dreams are but I haven't done anything to achieve them. And it's so scary, especially since I'm turning 30 and it seems like other people have their life already figured out and I'm just thinking, not doing. So in 2020 I try to do stuff, but also try to introduce new habits and things gradually over the year - health-wise there's probably 7 things I should be doing, but I won't succeed if I take them all on at once. So I have goals for each month, baby steps, and hopefully by January 2021 I have taken on those 7 habits and some other things that I would like to work on. And I try to rememver that bigger goals like learning a new art or language skill is going to take years, so I try to break the steps of those goals very small for 2020 to keep myself... well, not overwhelmed. I hope this helps, thanks for the video once again!
Also, think there has been research on how many hours a person can work and still be productive, and if I remember correctly, it's about 4-6 hours. So don't beat yourself up if it's hard to work from 9-6 since your brain gets tired way before 6 in that schedule. As a freelancer, I work on my assignments for 5 hours and do less demanding work for 1-3 on top of that depending on the day, and I highly recommend it. 👍
I literally relate on every level except the teeth issues honestly. I skip my meds though I know I need them and "forget" to have them. I have the worst level of disordered eating patterns that have just gotten that far out of control. I brutally self sabotage. I think that your level of rawness and relatability is one of the largest draws for me to your channel. Your art is beautiful and fills me with joy every time I receive it through the mail, but knowing that you've gone through the same struggles makes me want to support you even more. You'll be okay despite what is occurring in our world. Take it day by day, listen to your therapist and enjoy every moment in the present. Last year I was having constant panic attacks about existence and lackthereof, but in 2019 I embarked on self love and self compassion. I still am by no means good at it but it's made a profound impact despite my current struggles. I think one book that you would benefit from for your work is Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. A lot of what you spoke about trying to work on is covered in her book and is rather helpful. Happy New Year Chey, Soph and Connor. I wish you abundance, love, prosperity and good.
P.S. I recently invested in a Switch because I've been craving the games you guys play like Breath of the Wild and recently picked up Pokemon Sword! I'm not sure how to use the card thingy you mentioned though. ^_^
this video made me cry. thank you so much for all you do
Thank you. In your video, I found several answers to questions and thoughts that have been hounting me recently, the last year mostly. I know it's not definite - like the things just keep turning up again and again, but when I remember things you said here I believe I'll be able to cope with it better. So thank you for sharing this with me (us).
(yes I watched this video only now. And yes, I never commented on your video before, because I'm following you only shortly.)
i love this update chey! i can relate so hard to your self-sabotaging habits/old damaged beliefs/goal for self-compassion going forward. we are worth taking care of!! wishing you a 2020 filled with exciting growth and radical self-love. (also, totally unrelated, but the end of this video is replaying silently while i write this comment and some of your mannerisms and expressions remind me of antoni from queer eye lol)