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I am very sorry that these women were so desperately hurt by those family members. I too was raised in horrible abuse and neglect. A whole host of mental illness running through the genes there. I’m nearly 70 and acknowledge having done psychotherapy for most of my adult life. I chose to never be F’d up like the rest of them. It was scary at first and I feared diving in to the abyss would cause me to totally lose my mind. Surprise surprise, it has been hard work but I actually found that I have a very good mind, heart and soul. We are definitely worth investing in to. Blaming the past without choosing to step out of it is not healing. Thank you for this channel. Very good work!!!
Mercy’s story really resonates with me. I worked in nursing for years, and it you have CPTSD, it is so triggering. It’s an abusive job, highly misogynistic and toxic. I would suggest she leave this career, use it as a stepping stone to a more stable and supportive career. I hope she can learn self-compassion and self-worth because she deserves to be happy with her life.
Mercy, borrowing lyrics from a song by Peter Himmelman, "You are a woman with the strength of ten thousand men." I am so, so proud of the progress you've made and I believe and know that you will get through this. Much love to you.
Sonia, wherever you are, I see you and hear you. Your story is so similar. I cry. I'm also frozen. In my 50s, going thru the same. You're not alone. You are an amazing person who is a wonderful writer who is able to put things clearly and concisely into words. I wish you well in your healing and in finding your path to contributing to the world. May you find your purpose and happiness. I'm grateful for your letter. Because now it gives me hope that perhaps I can unfreeze and find my way too!
I'm 54 and can also relate . Wow. I just don't want to stay in victims. Mode...I want to rise up and beyond my experiences. Hhhmmmm. I get it....there are no victims here, we have to remember love over fear. ❤❤❤
The stories read here were very much like my life. In fact two of them I wondered how it could be so close to my own experience.I'm 67 and am glad I found the CCF. Glad they are younger and have more time to heal and live. Much love.
I am homeless and since my divorce 5 years ago, I also feel aimless and like I'm floating... Until after 5 years of "chin-up, one foot in front of the other", it has really started to pay off. I'm still homeless, writing this outside of a library in the rain, AND I'm starting to gain control over my feelings, starting to be able to self-regulate, starting to be able to predict how triggers will affect me and prepare for them better. I'm homeless, 41, divorced, with lots of trauma wounds, AND I'm a college student, a bright light to my community, full of strong values that continue to develop regardless of my circumstances. Life is hard, we didn't ask for these wounds, AND "chin-up", "it's the small things", and "one step at a time", are powerful voices in my head. Even when they come out as a whisper.
Once again - I relate to a lot of what this writer says. I’m 53 and can relate to how “they write your dad off as a nutter,” but your mom’s charming exterior fooled so many - and they wouldn’t believe you. Gonna listen to Anna’s response. I hear you, get it and hang in there.
Just because you feel like a nobody doesn’t make you one. You are a somebody. You just have to heal & search for Missy. You’ll find her. I’ve been there. It took a lot of work, but finally picking up a pencil & to start drawing. As I drew I began to realize how I felt about my life & how I feel towards myself. I’m not completely there yet, but I want you to have hope. You put in the work & you’ll stop feeling like a nobody. Now it doesn’t have to be art, it could be music, writing, poetry, etc. 🙏🏼❤️🩹
I once was like that ! But thankfully since I realized what I was going through I fought it and am still fighting against it ! I realised that only myself I am enough bcz whenever I tried to find identity in someone else or too much complaining box of traumas It became even worse because I already became independent since I was a child! I got too much physical pain that made me forget about my emotional and mental pain 😊!!! I got many people that cared about me for that but it didn't heal till I got tired of complaining about it bcz nobody could take me out of that kind of pain, Except only my creator 😊. This channel also has helped me a lot 🙂❤ Thank you!
Even if parents see this and validate this in their children. There are traumatizing teachers and others. Who do not and our babies need to be healed from this as well in my Understanding this is not only created by the parents
Fellow healthcare professional here. She’s telling the truth abut the traumatizing nature of the profession and especially in government funded nursing homes. A LOT of toxic abuse from staff and residents occurring. This writer is early 20’s? This writer has plenty of time if she were to pivot and find a creative pursuit. So many people burn out in healthcare and then, themselves, join the crowd and lead with hostility. Not saying she’s ding that, but the self harm cycle seems apparent. Prayers for insight to occur so this writer can see she’s not stuck in this profession should she choose another path. I’m about to write a tell all book about all That HIPAA laws conceal.
Omg. That is so much like my story. My parents gave me to an aunt and my sister took me back. Every time my mother went to hospital, I was sent to my aunts. I always felt invisible and had no identity, hence I became a people pleaser.
Money makes life more comfortable…but it doesn’t fix your head and mindset…I know. My life is similar to this…but much more violent. And my father was a big part of that, too. So many inept, unloving parents. Making babies and completely ignorant of raising a happy, creative human being.
I identified the most with Sonya's story. I am the same age. I have been functionally frozen and will check out Irene Lyon's videos. I have never known who I am or what I wanted. I used to give my husband his way because I had no idea what my way even was and someone should get their way. I use the secular sign-off on the DP and am focused on seeking that "clear vision". When I was married, I was subsumed in the marriage. As a widow, I am determined to know who I am and what I want. But I have to be regulated to do it. Thank goodness my shrink recommended the Fairy.
I hear you. The Daily Practice is a good tool to help sort out things like this. You can try it here if you’re interested: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice It's a free course. Nika@TeamFairy
Og yeah, thats one of the biggest issues i am struggling with. I feel lost, detached to the outside world, i din‘t know about my Interesses and how to find a fulfilling job. I habe some Interesses i can really dive deep into but it feels so nerdy and alien, like nobody else shares them with me. I habe huge difficulties to learn stuff i am not interested in. It seems i miss the skill to recognize my passion or abilities i am good in and use it with creativity to make a living out if it. This emptiness really disturbs me because i had not find any good advice to solve this issue myself. To be dependent on social care because of it feels not good and sometimes it triggers angsiety. Also to value my skills make some bucks out of it do not feeks right because helping other is something mich more valuable for me then taking money. Deep inside myself i like to be a good person and spread some love but the outside world seems to appreciate mich more productive people with elbows that like to take the challenge and fight all those unfair und silly games just to make a cash grab. Thats not me and i hate to comply to such behavior just to be able to feed myself. At least since i retired i have enough time to work on myself and how i react to all those challenges but some helpful advices how to find myself would be great. Maybe you can create a compilation with such advices or give some practicle tips ❤️
Very sad story😢 ❤ both of them need the love ❤️ i wish I could share some love with them ❤ I've been through abuse by dad....but i believe in love 💖 & love can heal if you would let it.
I was the throw away child in my family. I wanted to do a lot of things with my life, but when I got pregnant at 16 I became very lost. My biggest goal after having a child was to get out of that house & get my child out of insane asylum I grew up in. Now I thank GOD I still have some of my senses left. Therapy helped me a lot, but giving my life to CHRIST was the best thing I've ever done. JESUS told me that he sees me & I belong to him. That was the 1st time I ever felt like I belonged to anyone! I've been very little contact with any of my fam for decades. I don't feel I owe them anything. They tell my lies about me & smear my name. As long as I feel GOD'S love I don't worry about what my fam says about me!!!
Being single can help you can find out who you really are and be independent. I didn’t feel comfortable in my own skin until my early 50s. Therapy and the right medication’s for me at least
The lady in this letter has had a similar life story. She had a baby brother that was given all the attention & I felt non existent. Her were very similar to mine. I today at the age of 60 still am trying to find my identity.
Me with a baby sister, 1 yr and 2 months younger. I was no longer in the picture and felt it all through my childhood, teen years m, young adult and still at 53! I'm the oldest of 3.
❤my mate sister ❤went to be a nurse and now has her own business an promotion on skin health she also went on the cruise ships to pay her entire education fees for sure look into being more productive in things you’re ❤amazing any how ❤
Sonya, I’m sorry for what you went through. Good for you for setting boundaries & standing up for yourself. CCF is right. You’re a great writer. 🙏🏼❤️🩹 please take her advice as well as being a writer of some kind. You’re very good at it. Regardless of why your mom & dad treated you the way they did it was wrong. Doesn’t matter why. You deserved better. Period.
You can grab some acting classes and maybe start writing. This is going to teach your daughter no matter what happens or what time is in life we can always start fresh! What a blessing!❤❤❤
Forgiveness is the key to happiness. First forgive thise that hurt you, then forgive yourself. With that, move on and get on with your life. If you let people hirt you snd it stays in your head, then they have won. All of this other stuff is just psycho-babble. ❤
Until today they still called me names . things that happened since I was a kid but I reply with a smile and tell them that I am what they think I am . And if they don't pay attention I will become what they're calling me and then eat them alive 😂😂. Or I keep silence and make them feel like fools 😌 So ,for myself I know who I am . that's it and I try not to become bitter just bcz of bad people's manipulative behaviours.
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I am very sorry that these women were so desperately hurt by those family members. I too was raised in horrible abuse and neglect. A whole host of mental illness running through the genes there. I’m nearly 70 and acknowledge having done psychotherapy for most of my adult life. I chose to never be F’d up like the rest of them. It was scary at first and I feared diving in to the abyss would cause me to totally lose my mind. Surprise surprise, it has been hard work but I actually found that I have a very good mind, heart and soul. We are definitely worth investing in to. Blaming the past without choosing to step out of it is not healing. Thank you for this channel. Very good work!!!
Sometimes it’s not about choice 😢
Does Sonia chic needs to stay away from these people, they are very negative and not encouraging! Please shake them loose!
Nice, Kihm!!
The only way I feel good/worthwhile is because animals like me and are loving towards me.
So much in common with the strong woman in the first letter. I am 57 and struggling to find my identity today. Thankyou for sharing this.
Thank you for sharing I understand ❤️🩹
Mercy’s story really resonates with me. I worked in nursing for years, and it you have CPTSD, it is so triggering. It’s an abusive job, highly misogynistic and toxic. I would suggest she leave this career, use it as a stepping stone to a more stable and supportive career. I hope she can learn self-compassion and self-worth because she deserves to be happy with her life.
I can identify.
Mercy, borrowing lyrics from a song by Peter Himmelman, "You are a woman with the strength of ten thousand men." I am so, so proud of the progress you've made and I believe and know that you will get through this. Much love to you.
Me too, just drifting through life aimlessly.
Just turned 70, and I’ve drifted myself. Long,strange trip it’s been.
Sonia, wherever you are, I see you and hear you. Your story is so similar. I cry. I'm also frozen. In my 50s, going thru the same. You're not alone. You are an amazing person who is a wonderful writer who is able to put things clearly and concisely into words. I wish you well in your healing and in finding your path to contributing to the world. May you find your purpose and happiness. I'm grateful for your letter. Because now it gives me hope that perhaps I can unfreeze and find my way too!
I'm 54 and can also relate . Wow. I just don't want to stay in victims. Mode...I want to rise up and beyond my experiences. Hhhmmmm. I get it....there are no victims here, we have to remember love over fear. ❤❤❤
We're so glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
The stories read here were very much like my life. In fact two of them I wondered how it could be so close to my own experience.I'm 67 and am glad I found the CCF. Glad they are younger and have more time to heal and live. Much love.
I am homeless and since my divorce 5 years ago, I also feel aimless and like I'm floating... Until after 5 years of "chin-up, one foot in front of the other", it has really started to pay off. I'm still homeless, writing this outside of a library in the rain, AND I'm starting to gain control over my feelings, starting to be able to self-regulate, starting to be able to predict how triggers will affect me and prepare for them better. I'm homeless, 41, divorced, with lots of trauma wounds, AND I'm a college student, a bright light to my community, full of strong values that continue to develop regardless of my circumstances. Life is hard, we didn't ask for these wounds, AND "chin-up", "it's the small things", and "one step at a time", are powerful voices in my head. Even when they come out as a whisper.
@tytyty-l1x That's very hard to hear. I'm sorry.
You exist and your DNA is unique. That's already more than enough.
Once again - I relate to a lot of what this writer says. I’m
53 and can relate to how “they write your dad off as a nutter,” but your mom’s charming exterior fooled so many - and they wouldn’t believe you. Gonna listen to Anna’s response. I hear you, get it and hang in there.
I am not my trauma... I am a good person that had Traumatic things happen to him...
I feel like nobody.
It's worse when you're told you're nobody or worse a monster or some slur.
@keip4568 this isn't a competence tho.
Missy, you were created unique and loving. Make it your mission to show love to others and you will see yourself in a new and beautiful light. :)
Just because you feel like a nobody doesn’t make you one. You are a somebody. You just have to heal & search for Missy. You’ll find her. I’ve been there. It took a lot of work, but finally picking up a pencil & to start drawing. As I drew I began to realize how I felt about my life & how I feel towards myself. I’m not completely there yet, but I want you to have hope. You put in the work & you’ll stop feeling like a nobody. Now it doesn’t have to be art, it could be music, writing, poetry, etc. 🙏🏼❤️🩹
@@triplejmom7826 Thank you for the lovely message of hope. I appreciate you. You ARE somebody!
I once was like that !
But thankfully since I realized what I was going through I fought it and am still fighting against it !
I realised that only myself I am enough bcz whenever I tried to find identity in someone else or too much complaining box of traumas
It became even worse because I already became independent since I was a child!
I got too much physical pain that made me forget about my emotional and mental pain 😊!!!
I got many people that cared about me for that but it didn't heal till I got tired of complaining about it bcz nobody could take me out of that kind of pain,
Except only my creator 😊.
This channel also has helped me a lot 🙂❤
Thank you!
Prayers sent to the letter writers that they find peace in their lives... I believe we all deserve that... Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays...
You can do this Mercy. You are a beautiful soul. Keep living, heal, everything will fe fine.
Even if parents see this and validate this in their children. There are traumatizing teachers and others. Who do not and our babies need to be healed from this as well in my
Understanding this is not only created by the parents
Fellow healthcare professional here. She’s telling the truth abut the traumatizing nature of the profession and especially in government funded nursing homes. A LOT of toxic abuse from staff and residents occurring. This writer is early 20’s? This writer has plenty of time if she were to pivot and find a creative pursuit. So many people burn out in healthcare and then, themselves, join the crowd and lead with hostility. Not saying she’s ding that, but the self harm cycle seems apparent. Prayers for insight to occur so this writer can see she’s not stuck in this profession should she choose another path. I’m about to write a tell all book about all
That HIPAA laws conceal.
My heart goes out to all these women.
Omg. That is so much like my story. My parents gave me to an aunt and my sister took me back. Every time my mother went to hospital, I was sent to my aunts. I always felt invisible and had no identity, hence I became a people pleaser.
Money makes life more comfortable…but it doesn’t fix your head and mindset…I know. My life is similar to this…but much more violent. And my father was a big part of that, too. So many inept, unloving parents. Making babies and completely ignorant of raising a happy, creative human being.
I identified the most with Sonya's story. I am the same age. I have been functionally frozen and will check out Irene Lyon's videos. I have never known who I am or what I wanted. I used to give my husband his way because I had no idea what my way even was and someone should get their way. I use the secular sign-off on the DP and am focused on seeking that "clear vision". When I was married, I was subsumed in the marriage. As a widow, I am determined to know who I am and what I want. But I have to be regulated to do it. Thank goodness my shrink recommended the Fairy.
😢 wow this actually reminds me of lots of my childhood ...
Well written and I'm so sorry. But you are the hero !
Hugs ❤
Me too . . . 54 no identify except the one I think others give me . . . no friends, no life time connections
I hear you. The Daily Practice is a good tool to help sort out things like this. You can try it here if you’re interested: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice It's a free course.
Nika@TeamFairy
Og yeah, thats one of the biggest issues i am struggling with. I feel lost, detached to the outside world, i din‘t know about my Interesses and how to find a fulfilling job. I habe some Interesses i can really dive deep into but it feels so nerdy and alien, like nobody else shares them with me. I habe huge difficulties to learn stuff i am not interested in. It seems i miss the skill to recognize my passion or abilities i am good in and use it with creativity to make a living out if it. This emptiness really disturbs me because i had not find any good advice to solve this issue myself. To be dependent on social care because of it feels not good and sometimes it triggers angsiety. Also to value my skills make some bucks out of it do not feeks right because helping other is something mich more valuable for me then taking money. Deep inside myself i like to be a good person and spread some love but the outside world seems to appreciate mich more productive people with elbows that like to take the challenge and fight all those unfair und silly games just to make a cash grab. Thats not me and i hate to comply to such behavior just to be able to feed myself. At least since i retired i have enough time to work on myself and how i react to all those challenges but some helpful advices how to find myself would be great. Maybe you can create a compilation with such advices or give some practicle tips ❤️
We love you Mercy ❤
Very sad story😢 ❤ both of them need the love ❤️ i wish I could share some love with them ❤ I've been through abuse by dad....but i believe in love 💖 & love can heal if you would let it.
Thanks for posting this video.
Glad you're here! -Calista@TeamFairy
I was the throw away child in my family. I wanted to do a lot of things with my life, but when I got pregnant at 16 I became very lost. My biggest goal after having a child was to get out of that house & get my child out of insane asylum I grew up in. Now I thank GOD I still have some of my senses left. Therapy helped me a lot, but giving my life to CHRIST was the best thing I've ever done. JESUS told me that he sees me & I belong to him. That was the 1st time I ever felt like I belonged to anyone! I've been very little contact with any of my fam for decades. I don't feel I owe them anything. They tell my lies about me & smear my name. As long as I feel GOD'S love I don't worry about what my fam says about me!!!
same
Praise God ❤ !
This is so true in my past life, and it's so the same in my life today,I can't get validated because my parents have passed
Being single can help you can find out who you really are and be independent. I didn’t feel comfortable in my own skin until my early 50s. Therapy and the right medication’s for me at least
Really glad I heard what I heard. Now I am the changed agent. Injury - not identity.
Yes! :)
Nika@TeamFairy
Wow. I can relate❤
This is awesome. Thank you 😊
"such a tender age"❤❤❤
How about some self compassion and and self care❤ maybe a meeting of adult children? Some kind of support 😮😅
That’s me.
The lady in this letter has had a similar life story. She had a baby brother that was given all the attention & I felt non existent. Her were very similar to mine. I today at the age of 60 still am trying to find my identity.
Me with a baby sister, 1 yr and 2 months younger. I was no longer in the picture and felt it all through my childhood, teen years m, young adult and still at 53! I'm the oldest of 3.
I totally agree with everything the women who wrote the letter. I often pray that god will take my soul.
Do you mean heal your soul?
In my entire life, I only got one phone call from my father.
My mom? Maybe a few.
Hang in there!
Nika@TeamFairy
❤my mate sister ❤went to be a nurse and now has her own business an promotion on skin health she also went on the cruise ships to pay her entire education fees for sure look into being more productive in things you’re ❤amazing any how ❤
Mersy god bless you I send love and understanding to you ,I see you ,you are so strong and amazing thank you for sharing love from Australia ❤️🩹🙏😥
Thanks for sharing this :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Thanks
Similar to Mercy, but much worse. I'm not going to talk about it.
What was Dr. Lyon's full name and website?
Irene Lyon
This is all 8 of us children,I am 64 and I feal I have no life at all very num
1:25 this is me 😢😢
God bless you ❤❤❤
You're in the right place :) -Calista@TeamFairy
🙏🏼💗😘💗🤗🙏🏼
Please write here this Lyon lady full name.
@IreneLyon
Sonya, I’m sorry for what you went through. Good for you for setting boundaries & standing up for yourself. CCF is right. You’re a great writer. 🙏🏼❤️🩹 please take her advice as well as being a writer of some kind. You’re very good at it. Regardless of why your mom & dad treated you the way they did it was wrong. Doesn’t matter why. You deserved better. Period.
Thanks for sharing this :) -Calista@TeamFairy
You can grab some acting classes and maybe start writing. This is going to teach your daughter no matter what happens or what time is in life we can always start fresh! What a blessing!❤❤❤
💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I thought I was a nobody. 😐
You're not alone. Glad you are here!
Nika@TeamFairy
Forgiveness is the key to happiness. First forgive thise that hurt you, then forgive yourself.
With that, move on and get on with your life. If you let people hirt you snd it stays in your head, then they have won.
All of this other stuff is just psycho-babble. ❤
😂
They always said I was a chameleon, as if it was a bad thing.
Until today they still called me names . things that happened since I was a kid but I reply with a smile and tell them that I am what they think I am . And if they don't pay attention I will become what they're calling me and then eat them alive 😂😂. Or I keep silence and make them feel like fools 😌
So ,for myself I know who I am .
that's it and I try not to become bitter just bcz of bad people's manipulative behaviours.
It's a protection. I do it too, too try to fit in anywhere.