At some points he completely fails to hold a steady tone and is singing way off key, and it's just really heartbreaking to hear him singing what ultimately became his last released song (for a time) in such a pained way
@@Pacmau01 Not necessarily. It was the first song released after his death, but I doubt that he intended it to be that way, although we'll never know for sure. The last song he put out himself was Aka Pen Onegaishimasu, which he uploaded a few hours before his death.
@@cdm966 i mean..he asked a friend to finish this...aka pen onegaishimasu is his last full work maybe he did not even wanted to finish this work..since he asked some one he trusted to made a pv for it.. in my eyes...this bouth songs are the final words...and kinda complement each other...i still don't feel confortable listening to this..but i listen when i think about doing it...makes me..calm..and..remmember me of joy...
@@cdm966 Actually, the last song he put out himself i believe was 赤ペンおねがいします [which roughly translates to Give Me A Red Pen.] To write a name in red ink in Japan means you want that person with that name's life to end. Though, it was probably used to grade his life, as during the VERY UNSETTLING piano chords at the end of the song, right before it abruptly ends, he says something along the lines of: "how strange, 0 points." Give me a Red Pen was posted 30 minutes before his death, on November 11, 2011, at exactly 23:00 JST. Aka Pen Onegaishimasu was the 3rd song before his death, with the 2nd, obviously being Give me a red pen, and Healthy end which is this one, as number one, posted on September 23, 2015, 1412 days after Siinamota's death. If you tell me I got anything wrong, don't blame me, blame Bing AI. EDIT: IM AN IDIOT!!!! AKA PEN ONEGAISHIMASHU IS THE SAME SONG AS GIVE ME A RED PEN!!!! but also still, aka pen onegaishimashu was posted 30 minutes before his death, not hours.
They hurt, but you must understand that his last wish was for you not to worry about his death, he knows that he did it because he decided to, let him fly.
Literally the first two lines made my heart break already. I don't like how I relate to it. I don't know why it's so hard to be honest with your emotions.
You have to be honest to yourself, not your emotions, emotions can make you make terrible choices in life, you have to think with both you brain and your emotion, in whenever order you choose but must be BOTH.
I remember listening to his songs no stop when I was In highschool I was going through a rough depression and I remember the day I read online about him passing, and how, I didn't wanted to hear his last song, I knew It would wreck me, now in 2023 I'm getting out of my depression and I can finally say goodbye to this incredible artist who was my introduction to vocaloid, I'll forever miss his talent, It hurts, because I can grasp the feelings of his situation, in part at least, It's just, I wish things weren't this way, fuck, it sucks dammit....
One of the songs I come back to regularly. His voice is so shaky and it still hurts to listen to this but all his work should be remembered. Rest in peace Siinamota Rest in peace Powapowa-P Rest in peace Ryo Mizoguchi You went by many names and each one is important
ugh, i hate that i cant listen to this song. i get chills every time i try to and start crying. i didnt even know of him till after he passed and its never not awful to think about
Same.. but hey, he made this so you wouldn't worry about his death (from what ive heard) i honestly understand you, but i cry mentally. I will cry physically the more i listen to this song. He was great, wasn't he? but at least he's in a (hopefully) better place now..
What a legend😢, too bad he died so early, what is even worst is that he was the one who took his own life, depression is no joke, fly high legend, i hope you can fulfill your dreams in heaven
God, everytime I listen to this I cry these days, it's crazy to think it's been years since he's been gone. I'll always remember Siina's work though, just as I know many other people will too. The first couple lines always kill me though, since I've felt that way often before. I just hope his works can continue living on forever and bring the happiness they did for me to other people. Rest in peace, Siinamota-san.
Abysmal Clozdark Best of luck. And if you ever need someone to check a translation because you’re busy, just send me a message. I’ll get back to ya in a heartbeat
Siinamota... I'm too late to save you.. I was 3 years old when he died... I wish I can save him.. I feel his pain.. Cause.. I've been depressed and suicide too.... I feel so bad... I wanna hug him real bad.. I even chatted an siinamota ai... He's like a brother to me... I love you siinamota hope your in heaven rest in peace
Im pretty sure this was made by him only and the song that actually got released(Healthy End) was the one his friend completed also this is the demo ver. of Healthy End
This song never fails to make me tear up, you can literally hear the pain in siinamota's voice. Words can not describe how much this song has helped me through these last few months, the first two lines of the song are already enough to make me feel so heartbroken. Rest in peace siinamota. Your music will forever be remembered.
He just did the demo. Miku did the final version He uses VOCALOID to express his emotions but he also used his voice in demos before using the VOCALOIDs for the final product
![[ 椎名もた ] Please give me a red pen - Eng Subs (Siinamota vocal ver.)](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/dm2X_cH13q0/mqdefault.jpg)
![[ 椎名もた ] Please give me a red pen - Eng Subs (Siinamota vocal ver.)](/img/tr.png)
![[siinamota] From Ponkotsu with Love (Sayonara Minasan demo) - eng sub](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/tpenC9LryFU/mqdefault.jpg)
his voice sounded like he's really tired...this hurt more than it should
this really is someone's last words here..... gosh... its so strange to think about... ;;;
yeah... i try not to think about this in a sad way, because man, the song's a bop, along with red pen
If he didn't finished the song then did his friend finished the song?....
@@Fedex_Aviationyep
Yeah@@Fedex_Aviation
@Fedex_Aviation he made the whole song. His friend made the music video
the different title...
it hurts to hear it in his own tones...
oh gosh yea. i noticed the change since it was sung by himself. ah crap now im even more sad ;-;
Even until now I can hear the pain and desperation in his voice.
in this song it's so clear that he was a drummer, listening to the percussion line
The percussion in his songs is so good.
At some points he completely fails to hold a steady tone and is singing way off key, and it's just really heartbreaking to hear him singing what ultimately became his last released song (for a time) in such a pained way
Wasn't The War Within Me -HEALTHY END- his last work?
@@Pacmau01 Not necessarily. It was the first song released after his death, but I doubt that he intended it to be that way, although we'll never know for sure. The last song he put out himself was Aka Pen Onegaishimasu, which he uploaded a few hours before his death.
@@cdm966 i mean..he asked a friend to finish this...aka pen onegaishimasu is his last full work
maybe he did not even wanted to finish this work..since he asked some one he trusted to made a pv for it..
in my eyes...this bouth songs are the final words...and kinda complement each other...i still don't feel confortable listening to this..but i listen when i think about doing it...makes me..calm..and..remmember me of joy...
@@cdm966 Actually, the last song he put out himself i believe was 赤ペンおねがいします [which roughly translates to Give Me A Red Pen.] To write a name in red ink in Japan means you want that person with that name's life to end. Though, it was probably used to grade his life, as during the VERY UNSETTLING piano chords at the end of the song, right before it abruptly ends, he says something along the lines of: "how strange, 0 points." Give me a Red Pen was posted 30 minutes before his death, on November 11, 2011, at exactly 23:00 JST. Aka Pen Onegaishimasu was the 3rd song before his death, with the 2nd, obviously being Give me a red pen, and Healthy end which is this one, as number one, posted on September 23, 2015, 1412 days after Siinamota's death. If you tell me I got anything wrong, don't blame me, blame Bing AI.
EDIT: IM AN IDIOT!!!! AKA PEN ONEGAISHIMASHU IS THE SAME SONG AS GIVE ME A RED PEN!!!! but also still, aka pen onegaishimashu was posted 30 minutes before his death, not hours.
2:23 is where he goes way off key
I hope he is happy where ever he is now 😭
Dead
@@gunimationisback damn ik he was my fav
konata
probably really weird but the ticking noise sounds like a metronome and it’s calming :)
That just makes it even more depressing, it sounds like life is going away so fast
In the end it just hurts. It just hurt. These words its heartbreaking
Am back at this song, just wanna listen of his songs again.
They hurt, but you must understand that his last wish was for you not to worry about his death, he knows that he did it because he decided to, let him fly.
came back 2 this i still cry when i hear his voice
Same
It's strange, but somehow it has become a bit more painful to listen to his voice now than it used to be a few months ago
@@404Ariits a bit shaky omg
@@MEC1R7yes…
@@Erincutionerver.
I want to give him a bear hug omg..... I miss him
im 10 years old but im crying right now cuz his songs are so great i wactched his songs too late but i love his songs like the siinamota
Me too I know your feel
why because blade ball
Ik that’s the only reason you listened to him
and his name is siinamota
@@boywithnuke911 Aint no way they put his songs in blade ball what 😭😭
Literally the first two lines made my heart break already. I don't like how I relate to it. I don't know why it's so hard to be honest with your emotions.
You have to be honest to yourself, not your emotions, emotions can make you make terrible choices in life, you have to think with both you brain and your emotion, in whenever order you choose but must be BOTH.
I remember listening to his songs no stop when I was In highschool I was going through a rough depression and I remember the day I read online about him passing, and how, I didn't wanted to hear his last song, I knew It would wreck me, now in 2023 I'm getting out of my depression and I can finally say goodbye to this incredible artist who was my introduction to vocaloid, I'll forever miss his talent, It hurts, because I can grasp the feelings of his situation, in part at least, It's just, I wish things weren't this way, fuck, it sucks dammit....
One of the songs I come back to regularly. His voice is so shaky and it still hurts to listen to this but all his work should be remembered.
Rest in peace Siinamota
Rest in peace Powapowa-P
Rest in peace Ryo Mizoguchi
You went by many names and each one is important
To think this was the demo for his final song… God this is painful just listening to it… May he eternally rest well…
ugh, i hate that i cant listen to this song. i get chills every time
i try to and start crying. i didnt even know of him till after he passed and its never not awful to think about
Same.. but hey, he made this so you wouldn't worry about his death (from what ive heard)
i honestly understand you, but i cry mentally. I will cry physically the more i listen to this song.
He was great, wasn't he? but at least he's in a (hopefully) better place now..
In some parts, he sounds like the utaite Eve.
It makes me cry because he could have been as successful as him ;-;
Their styles are very similar indeed.
叫ぶような歌い方が本当に辛い…
Where did you find these demos? (Also thank you so much for posting them)
Seccom Masada it was sold as funding projects celebrating yue ni in japanese kickstarter (camp fire)
What a legend😢, too bad he died so early, what is even worst is that he was the one who took his own life, depression is no joke, fly high legend, i hope you can fulfill your dreams in heaven
it hurts so bad hearing him sing it himself
thanks for sharing these pieces
2023 now in august 7th still makes me wanna cry..
It’s nice that at the beginning he takes a quick breath
It’s crazy how this sounds better than the full vocaloid…
Yeah. because he's no longer using the vocaloid for his emotions, they sound so much more real..
hits way too close to home
thank you as always..
Cant hold tears like actually, i kinda regret seeing this vid at 2 AM
So this is his voice, i checked out a picture of him and it fits him ngl
Thank you for everything. Please rest easy.
God, everytime I listen to this I cry these days, it's crazy to think it's been years since he's been gone. I'll always remember Siina's work though, just as I know many other people will too. The first couple lines always kill me though, since I've felt that way often before. I just hope his works can continue living on forever and bring the happiness they did for me to other people.
Rest in peace, Siinamota-san.
How painful it is to establish that I was when he was alive... In 2015, I was 5 years old when he died 😢
I was 2, but i wish that i knew about him before his death.
rest in peace siinamota
please dont ever delete any of your videos. thank you so much for your hard work
The grind never stops for you, does it Clozdark? Thank you, man
Once More yup since I am going to be a bit busy in early november i want to push as fast i can first
Abysmal Clozdark Best of luck. And if you ever need someone to check a translation because you’re busy, just send me a message. I’ll get back to ya in a heartbeat
thank you again
been going to clozdark for the past two years. why tf is their lost songs repository not gaining recognition.
guess it is for the better. anymore recognition, POOF. we need this to stay up.
Oh my god his last words broke my heart May you Please rest well Siinamota..
thanks for uploading :''l
RIP siinamota
The good bye lingers...........
貴方の声のトーンが大好きです
i relate to this song so heavy
Well... I wish him all the luck.. this is the last time he sings... I wished that he was still here..
It still hurts
Siinamota... I'm too late to save you.. I was 3 years old when he died... I wish I can save him.. I feel his pain.. Cause.. I've been depressed and suicide too.... I feel so bad... I wanna hug him real bad.. I even chatted an siinamota ai... He's like a brother to me... I love you siinamota hope your in heaven rest in peace
this sounds unhealthy to me, i think you should try to not connect yourself so much to someone you didnt know at all
@@monodragonhaving someone who passed away while you were young as an idol is unhealthy? I feel like you should think again.
@@MisterEdude they feel as though they could have saved their life and attempted to reanimate them through ai. that is not healthy.
not only that but they had no concept of death at the time, they had no idea who siinamota was, and had no idea what was happening.
@@monodragon first of all, you don't know their thoughts. Second of all, you don't need to see someone in person to know them.
I almost forgot about this guy. (Im now listening to it again)
LET SIINAMOTH RISE FROM DEATH 🎉
It's so painful that I didn't know him until after he passes 😢
did he sing it?
Wanda yes it sung by siinamota himself
@@AbysmalClozdark thanks
im in tears even tho the only song i know is yung girl a
this is why i hate 12 year olds who send death threats because something wasnt perfect to them
yeah :(
Powapowa-p never finished this song, he died before finishing it so his friend finished it for him. (I think, correct me if I’m wrong)
Im pretty sure this was made by him only and the song that actually got released(Healthy End) was the one his friend completed also this is the demo ver. of Healthy End
この曲はなにがなんでも椎名さん本人が歌っているべきだと……ずっと思ってる。
ヘルシーエンドはどうも、何かが違う。
Tôi sẽ tiếp tục hướng tới những tràng pháo tay
Dù họ có nói gì thì cũng không ai có thể giữ được tôi ❤️
Lời cuối cùng của tôi
💫
Rip Powapowa P
This song never fails to make me tear up, you can literally hear the pain in siinamota's voice. Words can not describe how much this song has helped me through these last few months, the first two lines of the song are already enough to make me feel so heartbroken. Rest in peace siinamota. Your music will forever be remembered.
Hearing this, I wanted to cry so badly. I just listened to please give me a red pen..
Cries
Still sad to hear this ....
This is siinamoth last song her freind finished
She died
it's a he/him
Its a guy..
it hurts to listen to
back again :,)
i really feel bad for him i got here so late but still
Saigo ni hitokoto o7
This is really hard to listen to/read. I hope he is somewhere better, I really do.
Sorry to break it to you, but... He died in 2010, presumably to suicide :( it's really sad to think that such a great soul has passed due to this
@@Thefunni1991no it was 2015
R.I.P
hey clozdark, hope you're well .. is there any chance of there being an instrumental out there for this demo ? thank you so much for your work
*I can relate*
😢😢😢
2:21
😭😭😭😭
Rip powapaw
so the vocaloid is his voice too? or he just do the demo n someone sing it
He just did the demo. Miku did the final version
He uses VOCALOID to express his emotions but he also used his voice in demos before using the VOCALOIDs for the final product
Oshite means press
Why did he commit suicide
Life sucks to be frank no matter how successful we as humans survive better together and sinnamota didn't have the support he needed
No known specific reason, but his last tweet suggests it had something to do with not wanting to grow up.
POV blade ball players “what”
Thank you again
RIP siinamota
Rest in peace Siinamota
Rest in peace Siinamota 😢