Anyone saying shes a liar and manipulator, ive had such a similar life. Beautiful, bpd, and with a fentanyl and crack addiction as well as sex work and stripping. Just because it sounds so crazy to you and its something that is so far fetched because your life is different and it could never happen to you doesnt mean its a lie. You have no clue who she is. Shut up if you dont like it dont watch
hypersexuality, a need to self-medicate to the point of addiction, and a general lack of guile that leads to falling into misadventure are textbook BPD.. even if some specifics aren't real or facts exaggerated, the core still rings true. I don't think I've seen this degree of hostility towards one of Mark's interviewees as we are with this one.
Yes, there’s a lot more to all of us…inner beauty and strengths. These are not easy disorders to deal with. Beauty does not mean you live a charmed life. My psychiatrist said, basically, the same thing Mark did. “You don’t want to do these things. You just do them.” I have cried a lot when I came out of mania or depression and realized what I did. Thoughts are not beliefs. Beliefs represent who we truly are and guide who we are and work to be. Thoughts are just things you have to struggle with or they become behaviors we’re not consciously aware of in mania or psychosis, no matter how self-aware we are, as people. I can choose my behaviors today, most of the time. We have to fight for that. It’s not a matter of simple choices, like it is for healthy people. I don’t feel bad for myself because I’m glad I can see who people really are, even when they are ill. It was a counselor just like that who helped me, so now I know I can help people not everyone is able to relate to. It’s meaningful. Many healthy people search for meaning, so I am grateful for my experiences. It’s great that there are others who see those strengths, today. Judgment speaks volumes about character. My biggest regrets were the times I judged others or didn’t help someone, when I think I could have. People who judge and brag that they “don’t have any sympathy” aren’t in better shape than us, even if they don’t know it. That just means they “lack self-awareness and insight,” like most pre-diagnosis people with mental illness see on their charts. I have seen it on mine, back in the day. I thought it was an insult but it just means a person needs help and education. Mental illness and mental health services need to be normalized. Most people who brag about being normal could really use some help…and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I know something could happen where I need more help again. The brain is just a part of the body. Things can go wrong in the body at any time and need treatment. It’s okay to not be okay. Okay? P.S. I know I’m preaching to the choir and I totally agree with you! Thanks for sharing your perspective.
Thank you. Calling me delusional when they are diagnosing me via a RUclips video with all These things, with zero knowledge in mental disorders, is actually what is delusional 😹 biting my Tongue through all of these comments is probably harder then my entire life story lol
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Life can be that crazy. As a dancer in the 80s, I woke up in different cities, partied with rockers, thousands of $. Crazy stories. I believe her. She could be my daughter lol. Alcohol, too. It took decades, and many relapses, but I'm 12 years sober, dealt with my trauma. Keep trying. Never stop trying. I wish you the best, Savannah.
@@GettothegoneShow me an addict and I will show you childhood trauma. It's easy to say when you haven't experienced it. I agree, it shouldn't be a lifetime crutch. But when you don't have a frame of reference because your childhood was abusive and neglectful it takes some time to learn how to behave normally! People usually struggle in their 20's and finally figure it out later but a minority stays set on self destruct. I managed a strip club and I am a woman. If I told you the things some if the young women did or stories they shared with me you would not believe me. But most are true. So many kids grow up in horrendous situations and you don't just "catch up" to everyone.
When mark said her behavior is not her fault because she is borderline and bipolar, she smiled. She actually said...its a copout...people are actually responsible for their behavior. Yes, its challenging. We are all still ultimately responsible for our behavior and making the effort to learn, grow, get help. ❤
Honestly struggling with certain mental disorders are very challenging especially when you’re not being medicated. That’s like saying someone with schizophrenia has a mental breakdown because of the voices or visual effects, that it’s their fault and they should have reacted differently.
@@offwitmelkychrms I don't think it's hate. It's anxiety and concern. Borderline have a difficult time with identity and manipulation is one of their survival skills to get needs met. This causes problems for others and therefore, they stay away once discovered. Not easy for all. Hypnotherapy, emdr..good therapies for healing trauma. 💖
@@offwitmelkychrms have you gone to therapy with them? If one person in the family has problems, everyone does...and problems aren't just the burden of one person. I didn't understand until much later in life that I would have been much better off moving far away from my family at a much younger age. It's not easy though. Not at all. I pray for peace for you and understanding.
Why is this interesting content? So low to be spending this much time with this loser, glorifying all the trashy shit she did with her life. This interview er repeating she's"every guy's dream" is so cringe!!
I hope to see her return for another interview and I hope she is still sober. I see a lot of myself in her. When she talks about having to lose her friends because they didn’t necessarily do anything wrong, but weren’t good for her sobriety, that really hit home. Did the same thing a couple years ago, it’s hard but it drastically changed my life. When she talked about her darkness and being attracted to dark things, I resonated with this as well.
Some people have a need to experience things, to understand them. It’s a sign of intelligence, often, yet people say we’re stupid. We can experience, learn what we need to know, grow and move on, as long as we are living. I love to hear people relating to folks other point fingers and shake their heads at. That’s not a healthy impulse either.
You’ll slow and settle down when you’re ready. My mom had BPD and bipolar and started counseling when I was born. She was also a beautiful party girl in Los Angeles and from a small town in Illinois. She was the best mother in the world and stayed with my dad almost 30 years. The counseling really helped her
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your story. My name is Savannah, I also have BPD and I am a recovering addict. I’ve been sober from meth and fent for 5 years as of April. I think one of the wisest things I’ve learned is that “Peace looks a lot like boredom to a person accustomed to chaos.” We both know that our restlessness, irrational thoughts, and issues with trust will never completely go away.. but I promise you the more you believe in the good things, the more doors will open to bring them to you. One day at a time, one moment at a time even 💗 no matter how much you numb it, there will always be a time where you wake up to face your true self, she’s who deserves your love. Protect her when no one else will.
@@jp3mcphersonmy thoughts exactly lmao. just a bunch of fucking rambling, all over the place. & I have both Borderline & Bipolar & it ain’t from those. he only had her do this cause of her looks.
Dialectical Behavior Therapy is the best treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder . She seems strong and I hope she finds a network of loving people to sit with her in her pain and healing journey. I hope people stop taking advantage of her!
Listening to her story has been really intense, and I gotta say just as a sidenote, I notice her hypervigilance with the sudden noises throughout the video. The pauses to check it's safe is such a real thing. I'm the same with any unexpected noise in my environment. For any survivor of trauma it's a constant battle being on alert for signs of danger. Wishing all the best for her.
I saw in the comments that she said the comments have been more triggering than her life events... Which really shows how cruel people are... I'm so proud of her she's 11 days sober and pray she keeps going I love listening to her
Just seemed to me that the noises were distracting because she doesn’t like being cut off or interrupted when she’s talking. Makes you lose your train of thought and because there’s so much in your head you don’t want to miss anything.
I thought the same thing. I'm easily startled, it's really bad. It's from being consistently abused as a baby and a toddler. Her running and seeking chaos is because of the same thing. Her mother and my mother sound like the same nightmare.
She reminds me of myself, I have ADHD. From the forgetting what she was saying, to the jumping ahead of herself, to the stimulants making her feel calm to the chasing serotonin.
I have been clean for years now, and nothing has made me as anxious as listening to her story. Like her, some of my time ripping and running were the funnest times of my life, but most of it were really the saddest parts of my life. I hope you can stay clean and sober. You have your entire life ahead.
@@GhoosierI got way too personal Witt my comment, so I’m going to delete it. But basically despite my username I sincerely wish you both well. There is a reason that world class athletes, medical doctors, high end business leaders, lawyers have all said, their sincerity is the toughest things they’ve ever done. I envy those wearing rose colored glasses, thinking it’s easy. That don’t understand, the only experience similar to withdrawal is holding your breath under water for 2-3 minutes, with zero preparation. That your body, and your mind begin to identify that particular substance as a necessity to life. ( Hence why without it, your organs can fail. You’ll trade food/water for it. Hell your body will even begin rejecting water, even if you haven’t had any for two days. And for the mental without it, it’s hard to find any purpose to live, you -know- like the sky is blue, that you need it ( even though you don’t.) I just really commend you two. I hope you keep it up. I sincerely do.
@@notsoberoveranalyzer8264 appreciate it very much. I have heard the lead singer of Pantera, Phil Anselmo, explain withdrawal like mentally falling off a building over and over in sheer panic and terror in your mind. I can definitely relate and wouldn’t wish the feeling on my worst enemy but that gate must be walked through to get to the other side of peace and serenity. Peace to you friend and best of luck always
I'm 60 now. Lived my life with borderline. It is crazy the behaviours it brings out. It is an absolute roller-coaster. It's so true that other people even family, have no idea of what your capabile of. Really good to watch this interview. 😢
I'm proud of her , the hateful comments piss me off cuz it just is going to make her not want to get interviewed again and it's hard on someone's mental health to get ridiculed like she did Idk why people are so cruel to her ??? They don't feel bad cuz she's beautiful or something lol like what ? She isn't the only person with a wild story on here ...
@@MissSweetieShortie Because she's pretty and not sad and bashful enough. People think her nervous laugh is boastful. It's a "them" problem, not a "her" problem but it points out how little sympathy average people have for beautiful women, thinking they have it all given to them and hating them for it. It's really sad, no arguing with these men (and pickmeishas trying to back them up for attention 🤭). If it's not a function of misogyny and lookism then I don't know what is.
they remind me a lot of myself. I have a lot of crazy stories. had a narcissist dad, had sugar daddies later in life, went to crazy parties and met celebrities, had abusive relationships with narcissists. almost died from a random rare skin disease at 18. was basically an alcoholic at 16 and did so many drugs to numb myself bc of my parents fighting constantly. I def feel all these people. i’m very rebellious and love speaking my mind. very open minded and i’m not ashamed to be who I am. i’d love to talk on something like this but i’m way too shy though haha 😅😂
Look how powerful beauty is. Even Mark is smitten by her. You hear it in his voice and he can’t stop telling her how attractive she is. She’s batshit crazy but she can have anything she wants from virtually anyone.
But the normal happy people have better lives in the end. I’m 60 I know I was pretty like this and knew many women like this. It’s better to be normal than pretty!😢
@@livingintheforest3963 agreed. It hurts not to be desired or liked so much. But I imagine it hurts worse to have everyone around you jealous of you or hating you and men lusting after you and not really caring for you.
Such an intelligent and eloquent woman. However, I felt kinda disappointed by Mark’s comments, I think he often missed the mark and added a creepy and awkward undertone and yet she always remained so collected despite them not adding to the conversation and just adding that weird feeling. I gotta say I hadn’t ever felt so icky about him till now. & this is coming from a person that listens for hours in queue. She truly carried the interview. I hope you may continue to heal and hit your goals Savannah! I think you are so incredibly smart and special, you would touch a lot of people with your perspective and experiences. I hope to someday see you achieve that influence in yourself and others! All the love girl 💕
I got wrapped up with a woman like this for about 2 years. Holy sh*t. Some of the very best and absolute worst times of my life. It's not their fault, but people like this are SO incredibly dangerous. They are the rocks that you will dash yourself against. They are impervious to everything. The sooner you figure it out, the sooner you need to run!
All goddamn women are like this TO A POINT. Jimmy Soul said it best BUT the General Rule of thumb is: The Hotter they are; The More trouble they WILL be.
I hope she’s still sober, she deserves some peace in her life. She’s absolutely beautiful, I hope she sees that she’s worth all the good things in life.
I know you said that you didn’t want to take psychiatric medication because you “didn’t want to be a zombie”. I’m bipolar and started lamictal which is technically an anti-epilepsy drug but works as a mood stabilizer. For me, it evened me out and made me feel sane for the first time in my life. I remember saying early on that I never knew what being sane felt like. I missed the high emotions sometimes because I could feel happiness so intensely, but the stability was worth the exchange
I am bipolar and I take lamictal and I feel so much better. I also take Effexor XR and I’m not a zombie. I function just like everyone else. You would never know if I didn’t tell you. It can take a long time to get the right combination of meds but it’s worth it. I hope she changes her mind about meds ❤
After 15 years of having ups and downs, I was fortunate enough to find Prozac, and it has made life great. I have seroquel as well, but I stopped using it, although I heard that it evens you out more so that your highs aren't as high, but neither are your lows.
A true addict. We are always chasing that first feeling. Spinning our wheels destroying our lives. One drink, pill and fix at a time. My hope is that you find recovery and start repairing the inside. That emptiness that you shared with us will eventually go away. My prayer for you is that you start to feel beautiful on the inside. You are allready beautiful on the outside. Thank you for sharing your story.
Sincerely not trying to cut anyone down...but i can honestly say watching videos like this, especially of someone who has dealt with trauma as well, I am so damn proud of myself for being able to deal with all the pain I've dealt with on top of anxiety disorders, cptsd, and only ever choose constructive healthy paths as means of coping, art, martials arts, poetry, etc.... I'm really proud of myself for how strong I'm realizing I am! But I understood everyone is wired differently. It's really something to listen to people's stories on this channel, and truly touching, disheartening and inspiring at the same time❤
@AO-qv5hl speaking from experience, martial arts and poetry is one powerful combination. There's very little people who could pull off what you have pulled off. You should be proud of yourself. In my opinion, handling adversity/trauma in a productive way is one of the most impressive qualities a person can have. Keep doing what you are doing, my friend. It might not always feel like it, but you are defying the odds and you should be proud!!
I have had a lot of problems with mental illness some of which you named especially after being assaulted and blinded. Thank God I never had any addiction. I furthered my college studies, did volunteer work, got more into a healthy lifestyle and started going to church and groups there. Horrible situations were constantly being thrown at me but for some reason I kept a healthy lifestyle.
Mann, I wish I was brave enough to share my story. I've been watching this channel for years. I have thought about writing a book about my life but.. takes bravery to share ..
Fingers crossed she can make it. I’m rooting for her, cheering for her… hoping she convinces herself to go back to her shrink, get on meds to help, joins a group recovery…all of it. The whole world will embrace her! And she IS BEAUTIFUL ‼️
Its really a fascinating thing, reading peoples reactions to this girl. I'm utterly fascinated. How quickly the behavior switches when an aesthetically pleasing image is in front of us. She's pleasing physically to look at. People are comfortable looking at her and therefore it directs their reactions to her behavior. I find that really captivating. Put an image that makes you uncomfortable in front of you and watch how your reaction is different. Imagine if all of the abuse that she had physically taking on herself manifested in her actual appearance. Distorted the aesthetic part of her body, and then watch how the reactions and comments would change. They would. I assure you, the reactions would change. We are a fascinating species. I do not understand human beings. I'll be honest. And the older I get the worse it gets. People absolutely confuse me.
Absolutely agree. People like this young woman, often experience total mental breakdown if they live long enough to get to an age where their looks fade, because they their entire existence is built on what they look like. The whole thing is awful and tragic, and very symptomatic of modern Western civilisation.
It's sad for anyone no matter their looks, but imagine an unattractive prostitute sitting their talking about having 6 abortions in the same upbeat way as this girl. She would have been torn up.
Yes if she had been less attractive and got a compliment from Mark no one would've noticed bc I've seen him be nice to everyone he interviews such hateful people out there and petty
Truly hope her sobriety continues… one day at a time… one minute at a time. She has a lot to offer as a motivational speaker not only for those with addiction but with mental health trials as well. God speed Savannah ❤
I worked in human services (mental illness and developmental disability) for over 26 years. Mental illness isn't "beautiful", "kind", "brave" or any of the other adjectives used in the comments. Mental illness is a disability. It is sad and it is tragic.
I could personally listen to her talk for hours. I have almost 2 years clean. She and i are around the same age and i pray she can stay clean and sober.
I'm a psychiatrist and I deeply appreciate this channel. I work for a large, non-profit, university hospital in a big city. I've seen a lot of men and women like Savannah. It's never a slam dunk to diagnose a patient from a video but, because of my experience, I can get fairly close. I agree that Savannah is almost certainly bipolar (likely bipolar 1) and borderline. I'm pretty confident that she's also on a stimulant. It's probably not meth. unless it's a small amount of she smoked it many hours ago. It presents more like a heavy dose of Adderall. I wish Savannah nothing but the best in turning her life around. If she saw a psychiatrist and stayed on certain medications, she'd have a much better chance of turning her life around. Mental health meds. often get a bad reputation because, of course, they're not perfect and many take time and some discomfort in order to work. Good luck, Savannah!!
LOL I’ve been told since I was a kid I have “scatter brained” energy. Adderal makes me calm & collected and I sleep on it. Thanks for the compliment though :) and for everyone else diagnosing me thru a screen honestly perish I could give a fuck
@@mattving61 To truly bond with someone, something one needs to accept eventual pain and hurt that would - and usually will - come from failure, rejection, loss of interest. It's easier and less emotionally devastating to say "I didn't care anyway" and walk away when that sentence was at least partially true. Many very traumatised people prioritise not getting hurt again as one of main goals in interpersonal relationships,and the same is the case with people with borderline whose emotions vary radically - but rejection is always *the* trigger.
@@margodphdGreat comment! On the flip side of walking away and not caring…Would it also be true to say that people with borderline try to make everyone happy at ALL costs? And therefore they themselves are protected from rejection. I think I experience this.
I just recently found soft white underbelly channel through TikTok. I’m addicted to these videos. I listen to the videos in my car as if they were a podcast. These videos are inspiring and sad to see how one thing happened in someone’s life and changed the dynamics for their future. I hope Savannah stays sober, she has a lot to offer this world. You can tell she’s intelligent and has a big, kind heart. You can also tell that she lives with regret with some choices but also understands they were her choices and she has to deal with the consequences. Savannah is definitely someone I would be friends with just because she radiants so much positivity and happiness. Especially with her beautiful smile. I love how direct she is and how honest she is with everything she has done and all the drugs she has taken- being true to yourself first is a big step in staying sober. ( I think anyways) I started to watch Savannah’s follow up , ended up pausing it and finding her first two part videos and listened to them tonight on my way home from work and while I pulled my weeds in my yard. I hope for her sake, she can beat her addiction, beauty isn’t everything and you can tell she has a good head on her shoulders and that she’s intelligent. I truly wish her the best… I know will start to listen to her follow up. Good luck with everything, Savannah. I hope you always have that smile and glow!
I don’t understand how you can be having fun when you don’t remember half of what happened, you don’t know who you were with and you don’t know where you are when you wake up.
WOWWWW!!!! This chick’s life story would make SUCH a fascinating movie!! What a ride!! It would be cool as hell if she can hang on to recovery, and have a camera crew follow her around for a year to see what she decides to do with all that potential, and at least put out a badass docu-series. She is captivating, cool, down to Earth, and so charismatic, and now we for sure need a follow up!!! Best of luck to you, Savannah ❤
Wishing this woman well on her path to healing from her early childhood abuse and neglect. I hope she will find it within herself to stop abusing and neglecting herself now. Her childhood is running her life right now.
Best wishes, Savannah. I hope you stay sober and keep getting mental health treatment, especially for trauma. You will be a tremendous motivational speaker!
BPD makes you promiscous, we have no control, no limits. I can totally relate with this girl, when people see me they see a beautiful girl but i am an alcoholic. I get away with stuff because I’m pretty. I can relate to her. Being sober 17 days. YOU CAN DO IT WE CAN DO IT!
@@NaNa-re3wc It's a symptom, I go to the psychiatrist he diagnosed me with it, it doesn't mean you are crazy, in my case i just lack self control, in everybody it's different, i tend to be impulsive and very manipulative. You cannot say I don't have it , i feel you are an ignorant, in every person it's different i wish you could educate yourself. Well and regarding what you said "even if it's hard to regulate, that doesn't mean someone lacks control entirely" ok first of all, persons that have BPD tend to be very vulnerable to addictions, if you abuse of a substance like alcohol you fucking loose self control entirely that's why black outs happen. So dumb and infuriating, GO AND DO SOME RESEARCH.
Dear Savannah, As an addict myself, I can tell you with 100% certainty, you will not be able to stay sober by yourself. I strongly urge you to join either Alcoholics or Narcotics Anonymous. Go to weekly meetings (or more often). You will have to face the underlying pain that you need to dull with alcohol. The goup will help you do this with zero judgement. It can be life changing. It is for me. Good luck and I hope to see you 3 months or more sober.
My sister's ex wife has bpd. She is also an alcoholic and bulimic. She lied constantly and would take on different personalities. I couldn't trust anything she said. She was so pretty on the outside but then her teeth started falling out. She stopped bathing. Her hair was falling out. My sister sent her to a private rehabilitation center but she didn’t stop. It was the last chance. My sister divorced her because it became just too much. She has a sugar daddy now who pays for everything. She's still a lying alcoholic who binges and purges everything. It's very hard to have a meaningful relationship with someone like that. I hope Savannah pulls it together. Being so stereotypically beautiful and well spoken will actually make it harder. Everyone wants to enable you when you're pretty.
I fret theres a legit level of delusion and denial in our girl Savannah here. If her dad was such a rock he wouldnt have told his teenage daughter that shes a "survivor" which lead her to "survival" mode . In survival mode we make the most horrible choices. All he had to do was tell her to come home. Also, ive been diagnosed with both of these conditions which never lead me, personally to make such poor decisions in life. These were her choices. the definition of insanity is making the same decisions expecting different results. 🤷♀️ 🤷♀️ 🤷♀️
respectfully, disagree. she is an adult and needs to survive on her own. her dad does not need to overparent or treat her like a child. overparenting is not parenting.
I believe behind her stories, her dad had asked her million times why she was going to the wrong way. In the end he said, "you chose this way, I see that you are survivor and I let you do what you want". How can I tell you these things because I know a girl who’s totally like Savana with bipolar borderline and her father is very confused and cant protect her because she's always prefer chaos.
Her father didn’t take responsibility and take custody. She is completely suicidal, delusional as in denial. She is a lost 3 year old. I feel so sorry for her. 😢
I don't hate you. I know what its like & right now, I'm in the middle of "women hating other women b/c they hate themselves" land. It sucks to know that there are so many women who still feel that way about themselves. And so they project their self hatred towards women they're jealous of. But it seems you're fairly grounded in that awareness & your self awareness is impressive. I celebrate your sobriety & encourage you to stay strong on that mission. Its so worth it to experience life sober. You are beautiful & you will go far if you can stabilize in sobriety. Sending much love & good vibes!
Thank you for sharing your story, Savanna. All these crazy and painful things that happened to you, it’s unbelievable seeing you sitting there, alive, beautiful, smiling and with a positive attitude towards your future. This is really awesome! I wish you all the best to keep your determination focused on a bright and healthy future for yourself ! Also all the best to your dad !
She seems uncommonly smart and incredibly well spoken. People like her would be good at anything they put their mind to. Great speaking style, too..... I think she'd be an amazing motivational speaker.
I hope Savanah and her dad encourage each other through sobriety. They need each other now more than ever. I love that she finally made the decision to quit, that's the best time to recover because you want to be done with that life. Proud of you.
I wish her the best, but I have no high hopes. Maybe the promised check-up in three months here on this channel will motivate her. But she clearly self-medicates herself with alcohol and every other drugs in existence, while refusing BPD medication. Classic.
@@JanFWehIt’s not at all easy to be unwild, unspontainous or unadventurous when you’re Bipolar with Borderline. It’s just not in your blood to be calm unless you live where there’s Real winter and you’re affect by the seasons.
@@JanFWeh I know a bipolar person. They take medications for it. They choose to self medicate with marijuana. Idk if doing so is beneficial for the diagnosis? I'm going to read more about the diagnosis. It can't be easy having mental health issues. I hope Savannah's able to stay clean.
@@JanFWeh “BPD medication” as if there’s a drug you can take that “treats” BPD. You can’t, that’s all marketing. BPD comes from trauma so until you deal with the trauma you are not actually treating it.
@@penyarol83 I didn't state there was a drug that magically treats BPD. That's your wrongful interpretation. By BPD medication I was referring to medications that _may_ help with *symptoms or co-occurring problems* such as depression, impulsiveness, aggression or anxiety. Their occurrence make the therapeutic treatment much harder. The therapeutic process is much harder without mood stabilizers, anti-depressants and anti-psychotics. She needs therapy no doubt about that. I don't know whether she's in therapy or not. She didn't comment on it either way, so I didn't comment on it.
I hope Savannah comes back and lets us share her journey. She is very a cheerful, charming, and charismatic woman, even while suffering from the symptoms of BPD, substance abuse, and a traumatic childhood. She is honest and genuine, and I wish her the best. I hope Savanah sees the connection between her risky behaviors, her need to self-medicate, and her BPD diagnosis. Living a regular life might be boring, but Savannah can find a healthy and fulfilling life because she is so magnetic and captivating. 💖💖 Please don't drink Savannah. You're doing great. 💖💖💖💖
How a person treats anyone is how a person treats everyone. The charm is a mask and much of what she is saying in not the truth. Even her relationship with her father. Look at how she charming talks about how badly she has treated people. They are all this way.... her room mates would have a very different take on her. When they are on the dark side all you want to do is run... THAT is why she is still alone. Think about it. Really think. I've been where you are and they prey on that.
I love her!! I get authentic vibes from her, no shame in her game i just love this about her. Shes stuningly beautiful and 100% real in my opinion. Rock on Savannah ❤ thanks for sharing your story and Mark as always thank you for you dedication and hard work!!
Absolutely, you’ve pointed out her biggest strength! Authenticity. So many negative remarks about her and mark though on here, I don’t think most people have the mental capacity to process out of the box personalities.
I hope you continue to prioritize your sobriety. You have so much life left to live and it doesn’t have to be miserable. My best friend is 10 months sober off alcohol, meth and pills(and anything she could get her hands on but those are her main things) She’s reminds me of you so much. She’s diagnosed BPD as well. She’s still the same person now just healthy and I love knowing I’m not going to get a phone call that’s she’s gone because idk how I would get through that and I hated feeling like I was going to get that phone call everyday. Anyway, your heart is so beautiful and I hope the best for you. Keep putting your sobriety above everything else. It’s okay to keep your circle small and temptation free. It’s not judgementmental, it’s what’s you need right now. You can do it girly🩷🩵
When I watch her speak and how her personality is, it makes me visualize memories of myself from my past experiences. Im from Ohio as well. It's kinda nice to be able to relate to her without judgement... 💗 I hope she figures out what makes her happy and she lives a beautiful life.
You would be an amazing motivational speaker! You’re so naturally good with your communication and I find your testimony so interesting. It’s crazy to think you actually did all that shit because you come off so normal and drugs haven’t aged you one bit! Really hope you recover from everything you’ve been through because I think you have so much to offer sober💗
Omg Mark 😮 I love this interview ❤ I could listen to her all day long. I’m older but can relate in so many ways. Please bring her back in a few months.
She’s actually really refreshing. She takes responsibility for herself. She doesn’t pathologically condemn herself. You have a very interesting story. I wish you tremendous luck and I think you have a good base to keep sobriety, Savannah!
Hang in there sis you have the world at your feet! Some days will be the hardest you’ve seen yet when facing our realities, but just keep swimming. Thank you for sharing your story, we all have our paths. I hope to see a follow up with your beautiful face ❤🎉 so so soooooo proud of you already! Your worth it I promise!
As someone who was with someone for years, who had bpd, I must say that 95% of the people making comments here are def under the spell of a narcissist’s charm here. She knows how to get all of you on her side, but there’s a LOT more here than meets the eye. That’s not to say that I don’t have hope for her and wish her the best, but I’m more concerned for all the people in the world that can unknowingly/ easily be seduced by attractive females with bpd, only to find their empathetic traits maxed out and ultimately their life completely derailed after years of trying to save their partner / friend/ family member.
You know all too well as you have been drained by one of these energy vampires. Your probably an empathetic good dude that got sucked in like many of us out here have. People like her will shatter you as a person, self confidence, and doubt your own reality.
Savannah, you have it in you, I believe in your ability to get sober. I hope you get to surround yourself with a safety net of people who’s kindness isn’t transactional. I can’t imagine how traumatizing some of your experiences must’ve been and I admire you for putting your experiences into words. I wish you all the best!!
She said how her last relapse was bc being around a tweeker she had anxiety and that feeling is bc she is sensing the demonic realm attached to those people, feeding off of him and that is her inner guidance saying, stay away from that realm. I wish her the best of luck on the journey ahead and though it will be much different than her past sojourns I hope she stays the course bc it will be longevity and wisdom that will give her the ability to help others through her story. Stay strong, trust your instincts.
Wow, such a strong woman, so grounded and what a heart is needed to be done this sobriety step. All I want to say is: Go for it girl, you can get anything you want ❤
I absolutely love listening to real people’s life stories, I find them fascinating. I wish Savannah all the best for the future as she really has potential to do anything she puts her mind to. I hope she manages to curb her addiction but I can understand how difficult it may be . I have a couple friends who are addicts and I feel absolutely helpless, I have no idea how to help them other than being there on the end of the phone. My friends don’t seem to be in a place where they know they need help and I really worry about them. Thank you for your story Savannah x
When I was an addict, I had a surgical abortion as well and it has caused so much trauma, flashbacks, and nightmares. It sounds like she may have had a similar experience. I know have 6 years clean by the grace of god, but surgical abortions should not be practiced anymore. When you are awake and they go through the procedure, it is the most horrendous experience and cruel. I wish I had gone the medication route instead. However, I just want to make it clear, the ability to have an abortion saved my quality of life and the child would’ve came into a really bad situation so I had to do what I had to do.
Savannah - I just want to say thank you. I've known I am an un-diagnosed Borderline since I was 20. I didn't get diagnosed, in the UK, I was SO terrified after my 1st experience with the mental health system that I ran away, and did everything I could not to go back to that shit. I avoided and denied my mental health until recent years. But hearing your story of crazy impulsiveness, addiction (esp alcohol) and random fucked up shit, so similar to my own 20's, makes me feel less alone. I feel more able to accept myself and my past, from hearing your unfiltered story. That feeling of having no fixed sense of self is such a daily fucker. It's like being truly seen and heard just by listening to you. because no one I know really knows what this shit feels like, It's fucking lonely. I'm lucky to be alive, and I'm still working on the trauma at 43 (and despite years of body dysmorphia I now feel beautiful !) I wish you the very best with your sobriety journey and well being, from the bottom of my shattered heart - Thank you for being so fucking honest. And I think you have superpower potential to be a motivational speaker and support for other Borderlines. My experience is - that with self awareness and learning - borderline gets less intense as I get older. And you have much self awareness. With love Lynx xXx
Another really great interview and subject. I've got a few friends like her, going all the way back to my band days 20 years ago. Really crazy stories from that crew, to the point where nothing is shocking anymore; I know for certain that they're not lying either. It's nuts to think about, but there are people out there living these wild and crazy lives. She's young still and can turn it all around. Hopefully she'll stay mostly sober. It'd be cool to see an interview with her dad, or with her and her dad together. Thanks Mark and Savannah
Savannah is a fighter and a survivor, her story is so powerful and she is so well spoken and clear headed when she's sober. I truly wish the best for her because this young woman has so much potential, especially with how she is able to assess her actions and why she does things. That will help her go far. Good luck, Savannah, I'm rooting for you.
Savannah, thank you for sharing so much about your life! It is so sad that you went through so much trauma as a child. I am sure that it is that trauma that took you on this path to addiction and self-destructive behaviour. I wish you all the best on the journey to sobriety and healing! You are beautiful inside and out!
I’m so lost. I’m starting to think she’s lying about everything. She literally just said she’s still doing drugs after saying she was clean last video. It seems like she’s in the middle of a manic episode. It’s scary to watch.
Savanah, as a former beautiful party girl let me tell you this.....nothing has been more fun, fulfilling, beautiful, awe inspiring than being a mama and having a "boring" life, lol. The key is that you have to be ready....you have to be so sick of the endless groundhog day that partying brings you that you can't really stand the scene, people, hangovers, forgotten nights, random lovers, any of it for one more day. Develop some healthy, silly, fun hobbies and the put together friends will follow! Good luck on your sobriety and I pray you find a life that feeds your soul.
This! My life has been very different from Savannah’s, when I was her age I already had 3 almost 4 kids and had been married for 8 years. I was a party girl in high school and early in my 20’s I often felt like I had missed out on that stage of life but looking back I wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s the greatest joy.
I love this sooo much! I was never beautiful..but I was enough to get insane amounts of attention. The worst being the negative attention from other women...who eventually grew to love me when they realized my priority was my children and husband. I constantly had to prove myself..like I wasn't after their husband's..the absolute farthest thing from my mind. Even being passably pretty, but thin and confident..inspired a hatred I could not comprehend. We know the true beauty in life and it's our family
This interview took so much from me I've been trying to bury a lot of memories and listening to her brought back wood for the last seven years I've been trying to forget. I didn't find out I was bipolar until later in life I always knew there was something wrong but I buried the feelings. I it's like when I had a hotel in Vegas turning a chair upside down in hiding say 10K in the springs of the chair. Or being so afraid obbink ought to have to bury money under a dog house. Only to fly back home and unburied it and lose that too. I was cursed with compulsive addictive gambling. We're 28 years being a contractor I gambled away down payment so I gambled away pretty much everything I ever had. When her heart fell when the dude cracked the safe I know that feeling five times over. When the house caught fire while gone I even gambled away the insurance check. Now I always try to find someone worse off 2 take away the loneliness please anyone out there this gambling stop you can never win. And if your bipolar it's much worse. Money does not satisfy I wish this lady the best
Considering the shit loads of drugs and alcohol Savannah has consumed, I'm amazed at how articulate and clear-headed she is. Me, I'd be drooling in a corner, being fed soft food. Write a book, Savannah...if you can sit still long enough 😁 I hope you can stay off the shit... your dad will need you. Good luck, girl, from Australia.
Men seem to like poor girls and that is not normal. I feel sorry for her especially when she laughs about real dark things. On the other side, men are not attracted to "good" girls, I mean girls that respect themselves and are not self harming. Crazy world. I wish her the best
I watched this in pieces & couldn't wait to get back each time! Loved her story & her humor. Life does get crazy when you're trying to outrun your trauma. It sounded very familiar to me (on a much smaller scale 😂). Can't wait to hear more from Savannah and maybe her dad. Wishing her the best!❤❤❤
She has a strong personality and is fun to listen to. I loved the excitement when I was younger. Fortunately, I never got into drugs or became an alcoholic but I had a fun time meeting people and going to clubs. Now Im boring but happy. Good luck to you. I hope you find your path, stay happy, healthy and safe.
You have something about you in your attitude and approach to life that elevates you high above your history and problems, I believe you will make something of yourself that you will be very proud of. Your honesty and integrity in this day and age is testimony to that. Best of luck for your bright future
I just, there is so much to unpack. She is a walking contradiction and there is no way to know what's true and what isn't. She is the perfect example of those living in LA with everything paid for, but judges middle class people in Ohio "in a box". "I can be so vicious." But also says people can be so mean.....
Middle Class people in the Midwest are MEAN as HELL! They are jealous and conniving liars. They are more dangerous because of their covert nature. They would tear her to pieces. They are entitled creeps, crabs in a bucket. If I have a choice to order online from a vendor from the Midwest or California I choose California every time. I called around about the price and availability of an item I needed. Texas quoted me $5000 and California was grounded and charming and didn’t upsell the hell out of me and I we were able to COMMUNICATE CLEARLY and I was able to get what I really needed for $3000 instead. Same item a bit smaller, but it worked. We were able to negotiate. I was not manipulated or rushed. And as I was talking to the manager he decided on the fly to pay half the shipping and threw in a 10% discount even though the item I was buying was technically not on the sale they were running. The also offer a service to come out and help tend to these expensive items once they are in your home. You NEVER GET that type of service in the Midwest. They just about spit in your face as you are handing them your money in the Midwest. I try to give them as little of my business as I possibly can. People in California have always bitched a lot about things, but in reality would never want to live anywhere else. This is part of the culture. ❤🎉❤
@@margodphd She’s charming and sexy, but she’s most certainly a pretty little liar. Being able to discern between honesty and embellishment gets blurred very easily with those traits. It’s an open door to feel sympathetic, and by that point you’re trapped in their world
In part 1 she told she broke with the homeless crack guy, because she did not trust him for he might steal some stuff from her. Which was the reason she never let him in her house. In part 2, she tells that same guy was the guy who broke into the safe in her house and stole her 100k. Sounds like two different stories to me.
She didn't let him in the house before but the one time she did when she was breaking up with him he got mad and stole her shit she should of trusted her gut
I'm watching this post a few days late so I hope Savannah is still sober. The most important thing I want to say... please Savannah... please, please be safe! There are a lot of predators out there that have nothing but evil thoughts. Hope to see you on Mark's channel in the future.
What a stunning woman! I’ve enjoyed hearing her story. My daughter is named Savannah as well, and she also has borderline personality disorder. It’s so hard to deal with. Luckily she hasn’t turned to drugs or alcohol. I wish this woman the best, and really hope she finds peace, and continues in her sobriety. ❤
If you love your daughter stop labeling her with a diagnosis that has very unfavorable connotations in our society & get her some help for trauma and abuse.
@@m007mmI did carnivore for years. Yes, it helps with many issues initially, but you will just end up with new gut issues. My autoimmune/ gut issues became worse. You bozos need to stop telling people this diet is a cure-all. If someone has PTSD or a dysregulated nervous system, no food is going to fix that.
I think she is incredibly strong and self aware, and I really hope she can remain sober, and can find out what amazing things she is capable of. Because I reckon she is capable of really great things. Bless her.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbellyI think she's beautiful and mentally unwell and a possibly a pathological liar but hey, she owns it and states more than once she's a bit off her rocker. It's kinda endearing, even if one can pick holes in her story. I'd still party with her 🤷♂️ Not sure what your excuse in this is, though. Acting like a creepy ass simp, poor Savannah. Nobody is jealous of you in this instance. Big cringe
Anyone saying shes a liar and manipulator, ive had such a similar life. Beautiful, bpd, and with a fentanyl and crack addiction as well as sex work and stripping. Just because it sounds so crazy to you and its something that is so far fetched because your life is different and it could never happen to you doesnt mean its a lie. You have no clue who she is. Shut up if you dont like it dont watch
Sounds like every decent looking white girl. You all live life on tutorial mode.
hypersexuality, a need to self-medicate to the point of addiction, and a general lack of guile that leads to falling into misadventure are textbook BPD.. even if some specifics aren't real or facts exaggerated, the core still rings true. I don't think I've seen this degree of hostility towards one of Mark's interviewees as we are with this one.
Yes, there’s a lot more to all of us…inner beauty and strengths. These are not easy disorders to deal with. Beauty does not mean you live a charmed life. My psychiatrist said, basically, the same thing Mark did. “You don’t want to do these things. You just do them.” I have cried a lot when I came out of mania or depression and realized what I did. Thoughts are not beliefs. Beliefs represent who we truly are and guide who we are and work to be. Thoughts are just things you have to struggle with or they become behaviors we’re not consciously aware of in mania or psychosis, no matter how self-aware we are, as people. I can choose my behaviors today, most of the time. We have to fight for that. It’s not a matter of simple choices, like it is for healthy people. I don’t feel bad for myself because I’m glad I can see who people really are, even when they are ill. It was a counselor just like that who helped me, so now I know I can help people not everyone is able to relate to. It’s meaningful. Many healthy people search for meaning, so I am grateful for my experiences. It’s great that there are others who see those strengths, today. Judgment speaks volumes about character. My biggest regrets were the times I judged others or didn’t help someone, when I think I could have. People who judge and brag that they “don’t have any sympathy” aren’t in better shape than us, even if they don’t know it. That just means they “lack self-awareness and insight,” like most pre-diagnosis people with mental illness see on their charts. I have seen it on mine, back in the day. I thought it was an insult but it just means a person needs help and education. Mental illness and mental health services need to be normalized. Most people who brag about being normal could really use some help…and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I know something could happen where I need more help again. The brain is just a part of the body. Things can go wrong in the body at any time and need treatment. It’s okay to not be okay. Okay?
P.S. I know I’m preaching to the choir and I totally agree with you! Thanks for sharing your perspective.
Hmu Savannah
Thank you. Calling me delusional when they are diagnosing me via a RUclips video with all
These things, with zero knowledge in mental disorders, is actually what is delusional 😹 biting my
Tongue through all of these comments is probably harder then my entire life story lol
Mark!! Please get the dad to do an interview!! 🙏🏻 I would love to hear his story!
Great idea. The story of the Fortress to a BPD/MD daughter...an old fortress in its struggle not to become a ruin. Blessings to him and to Savannah.
This needs more likes so he can see it!
Me, too!!!
Yes!
Best ideea ever!
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin
is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
Life can be that crazy. As a dancer in the 80s, I woke up in different cities, partied with rockers, thousands of $. Crazy stories. I believe her. She could be my daughter lol. Alcohol, too. It took decades, and many relapses, but I'm 12 years sober, dealt with my trauma. Keep trying. Never stop trying. I wish you the best, Savannah.
Aesome
You’re trauma isn’t a crutch. Too many want their behavior excused by “my childhood”
@@sue5158 #awwsosweet
@@GettothegoneShow me an addict and I will show you childhood trauma. It's easy to say when you haven't experienced it. I agree, it shouldn't be a lifetime crutch. But when you don't have a frame of reference because your childhood was abusive and neglectful it takes some time to learn how to behave normally! People usually struggle in their 20's and finally figure it out later but a minority stays set on self destruct.
I managed a strip club and I am a woman. If I told you the things some if the young women did or stories they shared with me you would not believe me. But most are true. So many kids grow up in horrendous situations and you don't just "catch up" to everyone.
When mark said her behavior is not her fault because she is borderline and bipolar, she smiled. She actually said...its a copout...people are actually responsible for their behavior. Yes, its challenging. We are all still ultimately responsible for our behavior and making the effort to learn, grow, get help. ❤
She said that she thought like that about people with personality disorders, ADHD before now.
Honestly struggling with certain mental disorders are very challenging especially when you’re not being medicated. That’s like saying someone with schizophrenia has a mental breakdown because of the voices or visual effects, that it’s their fault and they should have reacted differently.
@@offwitmelkychrms I don't think it's hate. It's anxiety and concern. Borderline have a difficult time with identity and manipulation is one of their survival skills to get needs met. This causes problems for others and therefore, they stay away once discovered. Not easy for all. Hypnotherapy, emdr..good therapies for healing trauma. 💖
@@offwitmelkychrms have you gone to therapy with them? If one person in the family has problems, everyone does...and problems aren't just the burden of one person. I didn't understand until much later in life that I would have been much better off moving far away from my family at a much younger age. It's not easy though. Not at all. I pray for peace for you and understanding.
Why is this interesting content? So low to be spending this much time with this loser, glorifying all the trashy shit she did with her life. This interview er repeating she's"every guy's dream" is so cringe!!
I hope to see her return for another interview and I hope she is still sober. I see a lot of myself in her. When she talks about having to lose her friends because they didn’t necessarily do anything wrong, but weren’t good for her sobriety, that really hit home. Did the same thing a couple years ago, it’s hard but it drastically changed my life. When she talked about her darkness and being attracted to dark things, I resonated with this as well.
Some people have a need to experience things, to understand them. It’s a sign of intelligence, often, yet people say we’re stupid. We can experience, learn what we need to know, grow and move on, as long as we are living. I love to hear people relating to folks other point fingers and shake their heads at. That’s not a healthy impulse either.
Would definitely love to see updates with Savannah.
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🙏🙏🙏🥺 the comments are being so cruel to her
Thank you for saying this 💯
@@sciencenotstigma9534💯🙏
You’ll slow and settle down when you’re ready. My mom had BPD and bipolar and started counseling when I was born. She was also a beautiful party girl in Los Angeles and from a small town in Illinois. She was the best mother in the world and stayed with my dad almost 30 years. The counseling really helped her
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your story. My name is Savannah, I also have BPD and I am a recovering addict. I’ve been sober from meth and fent for 5 years as of April. I think one of the wisest things I’ve learned is that “Peace looks a lot like boredom to a person accustomed to chaos.” We both know that our restlessness, irrational thoughts, and issues with trust will never completely go away.. but I promise you the more you believe in the good things, the more doors will open to bring them to you. One day at a time, one moment at a time even 💗 no matter how much you numb it, there will always be a time where you wake up to face your true self, she’s who deserves your love. Protect her when no one else will.
Just a fabulous comment ❤️❤️❤️🙋♀️
I cried reading this comment
Absolute truth. Sober 6 years and now I wouldn’t swap the peace at any cost for the chaos. But it took a long time. The chaos is addictive in itself.
That end two sentences are beautiful. ❤
Beautiful advice/comment. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
She’s very charismatic, very good story teller as well, what a crazy life and only 28, I hope her a beautiful future
She's got that "I'm an escort, not a hoe!" face.
You got that " I have an only fans and don't ask for free pics" face
@@chunkk5426 Yeah, but not necessarily the attitude. I’m taking her as an individual…she doesn’t really seem like a snob. Js.
Good storyteller? She’s bouncing around from story to story completely random. You’re diluted. 😂
@@jp3mcphersonmy thoughts exactly lmao. just a bunch of fucking rambling, all over the place. & I have both Borderline & Bipolar & it ain’t from those. he only had her do this cause of her looks.
Dialectical Behavior Therapy is the best treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder . She seems strong and I hope she finds a network of loving people to sit with her in her pain and healing journey. I hope people stop taking advantage of her!
Been there, done that it changed my life!!!!
Listening to her story has been really intense, and I gotta say just as a sidenote, I notice her hypervigilance with the sudden noises throughout the video. The pauses to check it's safe is such a real thing. I'm the same with any unexpected noise in my environment. For any survivor of trauma it's a constant battle being on alert for signs of danger. Wishing all the best for her.
I saw in the comments that she said the comments have been more triggering than her life events... Which really shows how cruel people are... I'm so proud of her she's 11 days sober and pray she keeps going I love listening to her
Just seemed to me that the noises were distracting because she doesn’t like being cut off or interrupted when she’s talking. Makes you lose your train of thought and because there’s so much in your head you don’t want to miss anything.
I thought the same thing. I'm easily startled, it's really bad. It's from being consistently abused as a baby and a toddler. Her running and seeking chaos is because of the same thing. Her mother and my mother sound like the same nightmare.
She reminds me of myself, I have ADHD. From the forgetting what she was saying, to the jumping ahead of herself, to the stimulants making her feel calm to the chasing serotonin.
I have been clean for years now, and nothing has made me as anxious as listening to her story. Like her, some of my time ripping and running were the funnest times of my life, but most of it were really the saddest parts of my life. I hope you can stay clean and sober. You have your entire life ahead.
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Same, years under my belt but it only takes a second of stinking thinking or bad company to go back to that crap
@@GhoosierI got way too personal Witt my comment, so I’m going to delete it.
But basically despite my username I sincerely wish you both well.
There is a reason that world class athletes, medical doctors, high end business leaders, lawyers have all said, their sincerity is the toughest things they’ve ever done.
I envy those wearing rose colored glasses, thinking it’s easy.
That don’t understand, the only experience similar to withdrawal is holding your breath under water for 2-3 minutes, with zero preparation.
That your body, and your mind begin to identify that particular substance as a necessity to life.
( Hence why without it, your organs can fail. You’ll trade food/water for it. Hell your body will even begin rejecting water, even if you haven’t had any for two days. And for the mental without it, it’s hard to find any purpose to live, you -know- like the sky is blue, that you need it ( even though you don’t.)
I just really commend you two. I hope you keep it up. I sincerely do.
@@notsoberoveranalyzer8264 appreciate it very much. I have heard the lead singer of Pantera, Phil Anselmo, explain withdrawal like mentally falling off a building over and over in sheer panic and terror in your mind. I can definitely relate and wouldn’t wish the feeling on my worst enemy but that gate must be walked through to get to the other side of peace and serenity. Peace to you friend and best of luck always
I'm 60 now. Lived my life with borderline. It is crazy the behaviours it brings out. It is an absolute roller-coaster. It's so true that other people even family, have no idea of what your capabile of. Really good to watch this interview. 😢
I havent ever really seen anyone over the age of maybe 30 talk about living with bpd, hopefully ill be that strong!
Rare to hear someone so honest. Wish her and her Dad the best.
So honest? How do you know that?
I'm not even sure she's sober during that interview.
Lol
I'm proud of her , the hateful comments piss me off cuz it just is going to make her not want to get interviewed again and it's hard on someone's mental health to get ridiculed like she did
Idk why people are so cruel to her ??? They don't feel bad cuz she's beautiful or something lol like what ? She isn't the only person with a wild story on here ...
@@MissSweetieShortie Because she's pretty and not sad and bashful enough. People think her nervous laugh is boastful. It's a "them" problem, not a "her" problem but it points out how little sympathy average people have for beautiful women, thinking they have it all given to them and hating them for it. It's really sad, no arguing with these men (and pickmeishas trying to back them up for attention 🤭). If it's not a function of misogyny and lookism then I don't know what is.
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Your guests are so brutally honest. They are an example to all of us to not be afraid of who we are. Refreshing.
they remind me a lot of myself. I have a lot of crazy stories. had a narcissist dad, had sugar daddies later in life, went to crazy parties and met celebrities, had abusive relationships with narcissists.
almost died from a random rare skin disease at 18. was basically an alcoholic at 16 and did so many drugs to numb myself bc of my parents fighting constantly. I def feel all these people. i’m very rebellious and love speaking my mind. very open minded and i’m not ashamed to be who I am. i’d love to talk on something like this but i’m way too shy though haha 😅😂
I can't believe I listened to the whole story and I couldn't even pause it. What a life man... I love that channel!
A treasure trove of Hollywood experiences. I wish her and her dad good health and to be happy and sober.
Look how powerful beauty is. Even Mark is smitten by her. You hear it in his voice and he can’t stop telling her how attractive she is. She’s batshit crazy but she can have anything she wants from virtually anyone.
I feel the same way. Sucks for average women or women not conventionally thought as beautiful. Life is crazy and definitely not fair or just.
True 💯😂
But the normal happy people have better lives in the end. I’m 60 I know I was pretty like this and knew many women like this. It’s better to be normal than pretty!😢
@@livingintheforest3963 agreed. It hurts not to be desired or liked so much. But I imagine it hurts worse to have everyone around you jealous of you or hating you and men lusting after you and not really caring for you.
hahahhaha. I hear that alittle in his voice too. This girl is fresh from this stuff tho. 11 days sober don't mean much though I hope she makes it.
Such an intelligent and eloquent woman.
However, I felt kinda disappointed by Mark’s comments, I think he often missed the mark and added a creepy and awkward undertone and yet she always remained so collected despite them not adding to the conversation and just adding that weird feeling. I gotta say I hadn’t ever felt so icky about him till now.
& this is coming from a person that listens for hours in queue.
She truly carried the interview. I hope you may continue to heal and hit your goals Savannah!
I think you are so incredibly smart and special, you would touch a lot of people with your perspective and experiences.
I hope to someday see you achieve that influence in yourself and others!
All the love girl 💕
I got wrapped up with a woman like this for about 2 years. Holy sh*t. Some of the very best and absolute worst times of my life. It's not their fault, but people like this are SO incredibly dangerous. They are the rocks that you will dash yourself against. They are impervious to everything. The sooner you figure it out, the sooner you need to run!
You're comment is both equal parts disgusting and extremely ableist.
Same
All goddamn women are like this TO A POINT. Jimmy Soul said it best BUT the General Rule of thumb is: The Hotter they are; The More trouble they WILL be.
@@makaveli087no
Ditto! Like riding a rollercoaster! I'm so glad I am away from that!!!
I hope she’s still sober, she deserves some peace in her life. She’s absolutely beautiful, I hope she sees that she’s worth all the good things in life.
I know you said that you didn’t want to take psychiatric medication because you “didn’t want to be a zombie”. I’m bipolar and started lamictal which is technically an anti-epilepsy drug but works as a mood stabilizer. For me, it evened me out and made me feel sane for the first time in my life. I remember saying early on that I never knew what being sane felt like. I missed the high emotions sometimes because I could feel happiness so intensely, but the stability was worth the exchange
Thank you, I am bipolar. I needed this advice today.
Seroquel, Lamotrigine, and Xanax work for me.
I am bipolar and I take lamictal and I feel so much better. I also take Effexor XR and I’m not a zombie. I function just like everyone else. You would never know if I didn’t tell you. It can take a long time to get the right combination of meds but it’s worth it. I hope she changes her mind about meds ❤
After 15 years of having ups and downs, I was fortunate enough to find Prozac, and it has made life great. I have seroquel as well, but I stopped using it, although I heard that it evens you out more so that your highs aren't as high, but neither are your lows.
I could listen to her talk all day. she is such a good speaker.
I wish u the best!
A true addict. We are always chasing that first feeling. Spinning our wheels destroying our lives. One drink, pill and fix at a time. My hope is that you find recovery and start repairing the inside. That emptiness that you shared with us will eventually go away. My prayer for you is that you start to feel beautiful on the inside. You are allready beautiful on the outside. Thank you for sharing your story.
Sincerely not trying to cut anyone down...but i can honestly say watching videos like this, especially of someone who has dealt with trauma as well, I am so damn proud of myself for being able to deal with all the pain I've dealt with on top of anxiety disorders, cptsd, and only ever choose constructive healthy paths as means of coping, art, martials arts, poetry, etc.... I'm really proud of myself for how strong I'm realizing I am! But I understood everyone is wired differently. It's really something to listen to people's stories on this channel, and truly touching, disheartening and inspiring at the same time❤
@AO-qv5hl speaking from experience, martial arts and poetry is one powerful combination. There's very little people who could pull off what you have pulled off. You should be proud of yourself. In my opinion, handling adversity/trauma in a productive way is one of the most impressive qualities a person can have. Keep doing what you are doing, my friend. It might not always feel like it, but you are defying the odds and you should be proud!!
@carlberentzen699 thank you so much for your kind words, I appreciate that! Well wishes to you!
I have had a lot of problems with mental illness some of which you named especially after being assaulted and blinded. Thank God I never had any addiction. I furthered my college studies, did volunteer work, got more into a healthy lifestyle and started going to church and groups there. Horrible situations were constantly being thrown at me but for some reason I kept a healthy lifestyle.
Mann, I wish I was brave enough to share my story. I've been watching this channel for years. I have thought about writing a book about my life but.. takes bravery to share ..
What story?
Just Do It!
Share to us in this comment thread. I think we'd love to hear and you have a compassionate audience here!
Share to us in this comment thread. I think we'd love to hear and you have a compassionate audience here!
Fingers crossed she can make it. I’m rooting for her, cheering for her… hoping she convinces herself to go back to her shrink, get on meds to help, joins a group recovery…all of it. The whole world will embrace her! And she IS BEAUTIFUL ‼️
Its really a fascinating thing, reading peoples reactions to this girl. I'm utterly fascinated.
How quickly the behavior switches when an aesthetically pleasing image is in front of us.
She's pleasing physically to look at. People are comfortable looking at her and therefore it directs their reactions to her behavior. I find that really captivating. Put an image that makes you uncomfortable in front of you and watch how your reaction is different. Imagine if all of the abuse that she had physically taking on herself manifested in her actual appearance. Distorted the aesthetic part of her body, and then watch how the reactions and comments would change. They would. I assure you, the reactions would change.
We are a fascinating species. I do not understand human beings. I'll be honest. And the older I get the worse it gets. People absolutely confuse me.
we people are sooooooo fucking weird , if aliens watch us we'r like the best tv show for them. a whole planet of all kinds
Halo effect
Absolutely agree. People like this young woman, often experience total mental breakdown if they live long enough to get to an age where their looks fade, because they their entire existence is built on what they look like. The whole thing is awful and tragic, and very symptomatic of modern Western civilisation.
It's sad for anyone no matter their looks, but imagine an unattractive prostitute sitting their talking about having 6 abortions in the same upbeat way as this girl. She would have been torn up.
Yes if she had been less attractive and got a compliment from Mark no one would've noticed bc I've seen him be nice to everyone he interviews such hateful people out there and petty
Truly hope her sobriety continues… one day at a time… one minute at a time. She has a lot to offer as a motivational speaker not only for those with addiction but with mental health trials as well. God speed Savannah ❤
She’s totally not sober. She is high in her videos. People are really gullible. This is coming from somebody who has been sober for 14 years.
Motivational speaker on mental health?
To not take BPD medication and instead try every drug known to man to self-medicate?
I worked in human services (mental illness and developmental disability) for over 26 years. Mental illness isn't "beautiful", "kind", "brave" or any of the other adjectives used in the comments. Mental illness is a disability. It is sad and it is tragic.
I could personally listen to her talk for hours. I have almost 2 years clean. She and i are around the same age and i pray she can stay clean and sober.
I'm a psychiatrist and I deeply appreciate this channel. I work for a large, non-profit, university hospital in a big city. I've seen a lot of men and women like Savannah. It's never a slam dunk to diagnose a patient from a video but, because of my experience, I can get fairly close. I agree that Savannah is almost certainly bipolar (likely bipolar 1) and borderline. I'm pretty confident that she's also on a stimulant. It's probably not meth. unless it's a small amount of she smoked it many hours ago. It presents more like a heavy dose of Adderall. I wish Savannah nothing but the best in turning her life around. If she saw a psychiatrist and stayed on certain medications, she'd have a much better chance of turning her life around. Mental health meds. often get a bad reputation because, of course, they're not perfect and many take time and some discomfort in order to work. Good luck, Savannah!!
I agree, I was also sensing histrionic with the overly embellished stories and "baby doll" presentation. I hope she finds some help 😔
I also sense borderline with mix of histrionic… the money and appearance part of it is definetly histrionic, but I see borderline traits too.
Whatever
@@djmandylandugh. 😮
LOL I’ve been told since I was a kid I have “scatter brained” energy. Adderal makes me calm & collected and I sleep on it. Thanks for the compliment though :) and for everyone else diagnosing me thru a screen honestly perish I could give a fuck
It’s very difficult to form a bond with someone who’s extremely desensitized. She’s 100% desensitized.
She had no choice ,she was traumatised as a little child. Until that heals,all you build on broken foundation won't be right..
Same. We can’t “attach” to anything or anyone. No matter how hard we try,
How so?
@@mattving61 To truly bond with someone, something one needs to accept eventual pain and hurt that would - and usually will - come from failure, rejection, loss of interest. It's easier and less emotionally devastating to say "I didn't care anyway" and walk away when that sentence was at least partially true. Many very traumatised people prioritise not getting hurt again as one of main goals in interpersonal relationships,and the same is the case with people with borderline whose emotions vary radically - but rejection is always *the* trigger.
@@margodphdGreat comment! On the flip side of walking away and not caring…Would it also be true to say that people with borderline try to make everyone happy at ALL costs? And therefore they themselves are protected from rejection. I think I experience this.
I just recently found soft white underbelly channel through TikTok. I’m addicted to these videos. I listen to the videos in my car as if they were a podcast. These videos are inspiring and sad to see how one thing happened in someone’s life and changed the dynamics for their future.
I hope Savannah stays sober, she has a lot to offer this world. You can tell she’s intelligent and has a big, kind heart. You can also tell that she lives with regret with some choices but also understands they were her choices and she has to deal with the consequences.
Savannah is definitely someone I would be friends with just because she radiants so much positivity and happiness. Especially with her beautiful smile. I love how direct she is and how honest she is with everything she has done and all the drugs she has taken- being true to yourself first is a big step in staying sober. ( I think anyways)
I started to watch Savannah’s follow up , ended up pausing it and finding her first two part videos and listened to them tonight on my way home from work and while I pulled my weeds in my yard. I hope for her sake, she can beat her addiction, beauty isn’t everything and you can tell she has a good head on her shoulders and that she’s intelligent. I truly wish her the best…
I know will start to listen to her follow up.
Good luck with everything, Savannah. I hope you always have that smile and glow!
I don’t understand how you can be having fun when you don’t remember half of what happened, you don’t know who you were with and you don’t know where you are when you wake up.
I don't think she cares who she was with. She's only pissed they didn't pay.
@@JanFWeh Good point. Being unconscious is not good for business.
personally I have found myself in a lot of situations but to wake up in another town & not know where or why would be my Twilight Zone.
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@r😅obertlevasseur6843
I love how shes so open and raw about her issues. She understands her diagnosis. Knowledge is power!
WOWWWW!!!! This chick’s life story would make SUCH a fascinating movie!! What a ride!! It would be cool as hell if she can hang on to recovery, and have a camera crew follow her around for a year to see what she decides to do with all that potential, and at least put out a badass docu-series. She is captivating, cool, down to Earth, and so charismatic, and now we for sure need a follow up!!! Best of luck to you, Savannah ❤
@@tr7b410us leo women are the best ❤🎉
Wishing this woman well on her path to healing from her early childhood abuse and neglect. I hope she will find it within herself to stop abusing and neglecting herself now.
Her childhood is running her life right now.
Best wishes, Savannah. I hope you stay sober and keep getting mental health treatment, especially for trauma. You will be a tremendous motivational speaker!
Seven months later, I hope she's clean and sober and living a productive life. I admire her desire to abstain and find purpose in her life.
Tell me you speak to Jesus without telling me
You have a lot of people rooting for you girllll !!! Sobriety is a journey that will pull you everywhere STAY STRONG SENDING LOVE AND PRAYERS
She is far from innocent if she has bpd
BPD makes you promiscous, we have no control, no limits. I can totally relate with this girl, when people see me they see a beautiful girl but i am an alcoholic. I get away with stuff because I’m pretty. I can relate to her. Being sober 17 days. YOU CAN DO IT WE CAN DO IT!
✊🏻 How are you doing today? Best of everything to you Valeria!
No it doesn’t. I have it and I’ve never been promiscuous. Even if it’s hard to self regulate, that doesn’t mean someone lacks self control entirely.
@@NaNa-re3wc It's a symptom, I go to the psychiatrist he diagnosed me with it, it doesn't mean you are crazy, in my case i just lack self control, in everybody it's different, i tend to be impulsive and very manipulative. You cannot say I don't have it , i feel you are an ignorant, in every person it's different i wish you could educate yourself. Well and regarding what you said "even if it's hard to regulate, that doesn't mean someone lacks control entirely" ok first of all, persons that have BPD tend to be very vulnerable to addictions, if you abuse of a substance like alcohol you fucking loose self control entirely that's why black outs happen. So dumb and infuriating, GO AND DO SOME RESEARCH.
@@NaNa-re3wcit can and it often does. not in every person of course! but it's quite common.
Being promiscuous is only a negative in man's mind. Having sex with lots of people is great! Screw everyone you can! It's god's gift to us.
Dear Savannah, As an addict myself, I can tell you with 100% certainty, you will not be able to stay sober by yourself. I strongly urge you to join either Alcoholics or Narcotics Anonymous. Go to weekly meetings (or more often). You will have to face the underlying pain that you need to dull with alcohol. The goup will help you do this with zero judgement. It can be life changing. It is for me. Good luck and I hope to see you 3 months or more sober.
Cult be culting
My sister's ex wife has bpd. She is also an alcoholic and bulimic. She lied constantly and would take on different personalities. I couldn't trust anything she said. She was so pretty on the outside but then her teeth started falling out. She stopped bathing. Her hair was falling out. My sister sent her to a private rehabilitation center but she didn’t stop. It was the last chance. My sister divorced her because it became just too much. She has a sugar daddy now who pays for everything. She's still a lying alcoholic who binges and purges everything. It's very hard to have a meaningful relationship with someone like that. I hope Savannah pulls it together. Being so stereotypically beautiful and well spoken will actually make it harder. Everyone wants to enable you when you're pretty.
Yup..I get it. I had to cut ties with my grown bpd daughter
What an intelligent, articulate young woman.
You're stronger than people may think! Keep going toward health and healing!
Intelligent? Waking up on strange boats makes you intelligent? Sounds like some of the dumbest shit I've ever heard.
Yes! She’s got a lot going for her. She can learn to manage her conditions and have a happy, healthy life. She deserves a lot of help and support!
I fret theres a legit level of delusion and denial in our girl Savannah here.
If her dad was such a rock he wouldnt have told his teenage daughter that shes a "survivor" which lead her to "survival" mode .
In survival mode we make the most horrible choices.
All he had to do was tell her to come home. Also, ive been diagnosed with both of these conditions which never lead me, personally to make such poor decisions in life.
These were her choices.
the definition of insanity is making the same decisions expecting different results. 🤷♀️ 🤷♀️ 🤷♀️
respectfully, disagree. she is an adult and needs to survive on her own. her dad does not need to overparent or treat her like a child. overparenting is not parenting.
100%. Dad is sketchy as hell.
I believe behind her stories, her dad had asked her million times why she was going to the wrong way. In the end he said, "you chose this way, I see that you are survivor and I let you do what you want". How can I tell you these things because I know a girl who’s totally like Savana with bipolar borderline and her father is very confused and cant protect her because she's always prefer chaos.
You’ve got this, girl! Praying you stay on the path of sobriety and use your story to help others. Your honesty is so refreshing.
Her father didn’t take responsibility and take custody. She is completely suicidal, delusional as in denial. She is a lost 3 year old. I feel so sorry for her. 😢
I don't hate you. I know what its like & right now, I'm in the middle of "women hating other women b/c they hate themselves" land. It sucks to know that there are so many women who still feel that way about themselves. And so they project their self hatred towards women they're jealous of. But it seems you're fairly grounded in that awareness & your self awareness is impressive. I celebrate your sobriety & encourage you to stay strong on that mission. Its so worth it to experience life sober. You are beautiful & you will go far if you can stabilize in sobriety. Sending much love & good vibes!
A beautiful woman with sadness in her eyes. I hope she finds her happiness and her life transforms into it.✨✨
Thank you for sharing your story, Savanna. All these crazy and painful things that happened to you, it’s unbelievable seeing you sitting there, alive, beautiful, smiling and with a positive attitude towards your future. This is really awesome! I wish you all the best to keep your determination focused on a bright and healthy future for yourself ! Also all the best to your dad !
She seems uncommonly smart and incredibly well spoken. People like her would be good at anything they put their mind to. Great speaking style, too..... I think she'd be an amazing motivational speaker.
She is not smart at all.
I hope Savanah and her dad encourage each other through sobriety. They need each other now more than ever. I love that she finally made the decision to quit, that's the best time to recover because you want to be done with that life. Proud of you.
I wish her the best, but I have no high hopes.
Maybe the promised check-up in three months here on this channel will motivate her.
But she clearly self-medicates herself with alcohol and every other drugs in existence, while refusing BPD medication. Classic.
@@JanFWehIt’s not at all easy to be unwild, unspontainous or unadventurous when you’re Bipolar with Borderline. It’s just not in your blood to be calm unless you live where there’s Real winter and you’re affect by the seasons.
@@JanFWeh I know a bipolar person. They take medications for it. They choose to self medicate with marijuana. Idk if doing so is beneficial for the diagnosis? I'm going to read more about the diagnosis. It can't be easy having mental health issues. I hope Savannah's able to stay clean.
@@JanFWeh “BPD medication” as if there’s a drug you can take that “treats” BPD. You can’t, that’s all marketing. BPD comes from trauma so until you deal with the trauma you are not actually treating it.
@@penyarol83 I didn't state there was a drug that magically treats BPD. That's your wrongful interpretation.
By BPD medication I was referring to medications that _may_ help with *symptoms or co-occurring problems* such as depression, impulsiveness, aggression or anxiety. Their occurrence make the therapeutic treatment much harder.
The therapeutic process is much harder without mood stabilizers, anti-depressants and anti-psychotics.
She needs therapy no doubt about that.
I don't know whether she's in therapy or not. She didn't comment on it either way, so I didn't comment on it.
I hope Savannah comes back and lets us share her journey. She is very a cheerful, charming, and charismatic woman, even while suffering from the symptoms of BPD, substance abuse, and a traumatic childhood. She is honest and genuine, and I wish her the best. I hope Savanah sees the connection between her risky behaviors, her need to self-medicate, and her BPD diagnosis. Living a regular life might be boring, but Savannah can find a healthy and fulfilling life because she is so magnetic and captivating. 💖💖 Please don't drink Savannah. You're doing great. 💖💖💖💖
How a person treats anyone is how a person treats everyone. The charm is a mask and much of what she is saying in not the truth. Even her relationship with her father. Look at how she charming talks about how badly she has treated people. They are all this way.... her room mates would have a very different take on her. When they are on the dark side all you want to do is run... THAT is why she is still alone. Think about it. Really think. I've been where you are and they prey on that.
She FAKE!!!! Call out tp OHIO get facts
Thank you Savannah for being so brave and strong in telling your story!! This is such an amazing interview, i learned a lot!!
I love her!! I get authentic vibes from her, no shame in her game i just love this about her. Shes stuningly beautiful and 100% real in my opinion. Rock on Savannah ❤ thanks for sharing your story and Mark as always thank you for you dedication and hard work!!
Absolutely, you’ve pointed out her biggest strength! Authenticity. So many negative remarks about her and mark though on here, I don’t think most people have the mental capacity to process out of the box personalities.
I hope you continue to prioritize your sobriety. You have so much life left to live and it doesn’t have to be miserable. My best friend is 10 months sober off alcohol, meth and pills(and anything she could get her hands on but those are her main things) She’s reminds me of you so much. She’s diagnosed BPD as well. She’s still the same person now just healthy and I love knowing I’m not going to get a phone call that’s she’s gone because idk how I would get through that and I hated feeling like I was going to get that phone call everyday.
Anyway, your heart is so beautiful and I hope the best for you. Keep putting your sobriety above everything else. It’s okay to keep your circle small and temptation free. It’s not judgementmental, it’s what’s you need right now. You can do it girly🩷🩵
When I watch her speak and how her personality is, it makes me visualize memories of myself from my past experiences. Im from Ohio as well. It's kinda nice to be able to relate to her without judgement... 💗 I hope she figures out what makes her happy and she lives a beautiful life.
You would be an amazing motivational speaker! You’re so naturally good with your communication and I find your testimony so interesting. It’s crazy to think you actually did all that shit because you come off so normal and drugs haven’t aged you one bit! Really hope you recover from everything you’ve been through because I think you have so much to offer sober💗
Her looks would be a man’s dream girl but who she is would be a man’s nightmare.
Please keep in mind in this interview she's only 11 days DAYS sober.
filler , veneers helped her stay pretty
Lol
Omg Mark 😮 I love this interview ❤ I could listen to her all day long. I’m older but can relate in so many ways. Please bring her back in a few months.
Her child hood stories are a lie!!! Reach out to Ohio for the TRUTH!!! Smh lies and more lies!!!
She’s actually really refreshing. She takes responsibility for herself. She doesn’t pathologically condemn herself. You have a very interesting story. I wish you tremendous luck and I think you have a good base to keep sobriety, Savannah!
Hang in there sis you have the world at your feet! Some days will be the hardest you’ve seen yet when facing our realities, but just keep swimming. Thank you for sharing your story, we all have our paths. I hope to see a follow up with your beautiful face ❤🎉 so so soooooo proud of you already! Your worth it I promise!
so real, really refreshing to hear someone speak about their life openly. speaking about yourself helps many others! thanks for sharing!
I hope she makes it being sober. I appreciated her stories. She's been through so much, and still is extremely self aware. And a great communicator. ❤
Great chat, this young lady has loads of talent, insight and potential. Perhaps a future author is the way her storytelling can touch many lives.
As someone who was with someone for years, who had bpd, I must say that 95% of the people making comments here are def under the spell of a narcissist’s charm here. She knows how to get all of you on her side, but there’s a LOT more here than meets the eye. That’s not to say that I don’t have hope for her and wish her the best, but I’m more concerned for all the people in the world that can unknowingly/ easily be seduced by attractive females with bpd, only to find their empathetic traits maxed out and ultimately their life completely derailed after years of trying to save their partner / friend/ family member.
Yes and yes. People can be blinded with mirrors…
You know all too well as you have been drained by one of these energy vampires. Your probably an empathetic good dude that got sucked in like many of us out here have. People like her will shatter you as a person, self confidence, and doubt your own reality.
could you elaborate on what you have written? I want to know in what way I am under a spell.
I agree Steve. Under the spell of mind control program
I have to agree with you. I couldn’t get to the end of part 1! I’m usually able to listen all the way through.
Savannah, you have it in you, I believe in your ability to get sober. I hope you get to surround yourself with a safety net of people who’s kindness isn’t transactional. I can’t imagine how traumatizing some of your experiences must’ve been and I admire you for putting your experiences into words. I wish you all the best!!
She said how her last relapse was bc being around a tweeker she had anxiety and that feeling is bc she is sensing the demonic realm attached to those people, feeding off of him and that is her inner guidance saying, stay away from that realm.
I wish her the best of luck on the journey ahead and though it will be much different than her past sojourns I hope she stays the course bc it will be longevity and wisdom that will give her the ability to help others through her story.
Stay strong, trust your instincts.
And then she ends the interview saying her last relapse was because of a client...lol this girl is full of shit. must be a BPD thing.
Wow, such a strong woman, so grounded and what a heart is needed to be done this sobriety step. All I want to say is: Go for it girl, you can get anything you want ❤
I absolutely love listening to real people’s life stories, I find them fascinating. I wish Savannah all the best for the future as she really has potential to do anything she puts her mind to. I hope she manages to curb her addiction but I can understand how difficult it may be . I have a couple friends who are addicts and I feel absolutely helpless, I have no idea how to help them other than being there on the end of the phone. My friends don’t seem to be in a place where they know they need help and I really worry about them. Thank you for your story Savannah x
Oh Savannah my heart breaks for you. Keep fighting and telling your story because you will HELP others and your life is SO worth it!❤❤❤
Good luck with your sobriety Savannah. I wish you all the good things in life!
When I was an addict, I had a surgical abortion as well and it has caused so much trauma, flashbacks, and nightmares. It sounds like she may have had a similar experience. I know have 6 years clean by the grace of god, but surgical abortions should not be practiced anymore. When you are awake and they go through the procedure, it is the most horrendous experience and cruel. I wish I had gone the medication route instead. However, I just want to make it clear, the ability to have an abortion saved my quality of life and the child would’ve came into a really bad situation so I had to do what I had to do.
Savannah - I just want to say thank you. I've known I am an un-diagnosed Borderline since I was 20. I didn't get diagnosed, in the UK, I was SO terrified after my 1st experience with the mental health system that I ran away, and did everything I could not to go back to that shit. I avoided and denied my mental health until recent years. But hearing your story of crazy impulsiveness, addiction (esp alcohol) and random fucked up shit, so similar to my own 20's, makes me feel less alone. I feel more able to accept myself and my past, from hearing your unfiltered story. That feeling of having no fixed sense of self is such a daily fucker. It's like being truly seen and heard just by listening to you. because no one I know really knows what this shit feels like, It's fucking lonely. I'm lucky to be alive, and I'm still working on the trauma at 43 (and despite years of body dysmorphia I now feel beautiful !) I wish you the very best with your sobriety journey and well being, from the bottom of my shattered heart - Thank you for being so fucking honest. And I think you have superpower potential to be a motivational speaker and support for other Borderlines. My experience is - that with self awareness and learning - borderline gets less intense as I get older. And you have much self awareness. With love Lynx xXx
People may not like her but I love her transparency. I hope she comes back and pray that if she does she's doing great
I loved her too. I think the negative comments I'm seeing is outta jealously. I think she's mad cool and I love her personality too 😊
@@rachelrae860 *If anyone questions her life choices it must be out of jealousy, because she is mad cool!!!!*
*sarcasm
This society is doomed. 🤗
@JanFWeh no you have it twisted
I agree if she wasn’t pretty I wonder if people would be more empathetic.
@@jenbrender3815 yes. Half these comments wouldn't be here. It's sad people hate on others for looks.
Another really great interview and subject. I've got a few friends like her, going all the way back to my band days 20 years ago. Really crazy stories from that crew, to the point where nothing is shocking anymore; I know for certain that they're not lying either. It's nuts to think about, but there are people out there living these wild and crazy lives. She's young still and can turn it all around. Hopefully she'll stay mostly sober. It'd be cool to see an interview with her dad, or with her and her dad together. Thanks Mark and Savannah
This young lady has a genuine sweetness about her that is quite endearing.
Savannah is a fighter and a survivor, her story is so powerful and she is so well spoken and clear headed when she's sober. I truly wish the best for her because this young woman has so much potential, especially with how she is able to assess her actions and why she does things. That will help her go far. Good luck, Savannah, I'm rooting for you.
Ive worked with people like this, you just listen to them for 10 min and know they are completely out of there mind.
I think shes a bit of a storyteller. Anyone else get that?
She’s weaving some thick webs here, she’s smart and can be semi convincing during this long ass interview but it’s all bullshit
10% true. 90 % self serving fiction.
That's a polite way of putting it. People who don't smell the bs can't be very bright.
Yeah her story has switched up quite a few times
Savannah, thank you for sharing so much about your life! It is so sad that you went through so much trauma as a child. I am sure that it is that trauma that took you on this path to addiction and self-destructive behaviour. I wish you all the best on the journey to sobriety and healing! You are beautiful inside and out!
Love her charismatic energy - it shines of optimism despite all the dark incidents.
I’m so lost. I’m starting to think she’s lying about everything. She literally just said she’s still doing drugs after saying she was clean last video. It seems like she’s in the middle of a manic episode. It’s scary to watch.
where did she say that ?
You def misunderstood then bc she said sober 11 days
She is definitely lying.
Savanah, as a former beautiful party girl let me tell you this.....nothing has been more fun, fulfilling, beautiful, awe inspiring than being a mama and having a "boring" life, lol. The key is that you have to be ready....you have to be so sick of the endless groundhog day that partying brings you that you can't really stand the scene, people, hangovers, forgotten nights, random lovers, any of it for one more day. Develop some healthy, silly, fun hobbies and the put together friends will follow! Good luck on your sobriety and I pray you find a life that feeds your soul.
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This! My life has been very different from Savannah’s, when I was her age I already had 3 almost 4 kids and had been married for 8 years. I was a party girl in high school and early in my 20’s I often felt like I had missed out on that stage of life but looking back I wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s the greatest joy.
@@corinneskitchenwhat is a psyop? I know what they are, I know a lot. But what u referring too???????
I love this sooo much! I was never beautiful..but I was enough to get insane amounts of attention. The worst being the negative attention from other women...who eventually grew to love me when they realized my priority was my children and husband. I constantly had to prove myself..like I wasn't after their husband's..the absolute farthest thing from my mind.
Even being passably pretty, but thin and confident..inspired a hatred I could not comprehend.
We know the true beauty in life and it's our family
This interview took so much from me I've been trying to bury a lot of memories and listening to her brought back wood for the last seven years I've been trying to forget. I didn't find out I was bipolar until later in life I always knew there was something wrong but I buried the feelings. I it's like when I had a hotel in Vegas turning a chair upside down in hiding say 10K in the springs of the chair. Or being so afraid obbink ought to have to bury money under a dog house. Only to fly back home and unburied it and lose that too. I was cursed with compulsive addictive gambling. We're 28 years being a contractor I gambled away down payment so I gambled away pretty much everything I ever had. When her heart fell when the dude cracked the safe I know that feeling five times over. When the house caught fire while gone I even gambled away the insurance check. Now I always try to find someone worse off 2 take away the loneliness please anyone out there this gambling stop you can never win. And if your bipolar it's much worse. Money does not satisfy I wish this lady the best
My husbands beloved sister was like this woman. I just wish she could have made it. We will never stop thinking of her.
Can't wait for the follow-up 5 years from now
Two days ago … actually.
Considering the shit loads of drugs and alcohol Savannah has consumed, I'm amazed at how articulate and clear-headed she is. Me, I'd be drooling in a corner, being fed soft food.
Write a book, Savannah...if you can sit still long enough 😁 I hope you can stay off the shit... your dad will need you. Good luck, girl, from Australia.
The duality of people who are infatuated with this woman and the people who loath her is hilarious.
Yeah, you basically described it. She is alluring yet dangerous. Like a siren.
she looks just like every other person in scandinavia tbh, but still beautiful, I am sure she dont see herself that way as well
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Men seem to like poor girls and that is not normal. I feel sorry for her especially when she laughs about real dark things. On the other side, men are not attracted to "good" girls, I mean girls that respect themselves and are not self harming. Crazy world. I wish her the best
I watched this in pieces & couldn't wait to get back each time! Loved her story & her humor. Life does get crazy when you're trying to outrun your trauma. It sounded very familiar to me (on a much smaller scale 😂). Can't wait to hear more from Savannah and maybe her dad. Wishing her the best!❤❤❤
She has a strong personality and is fun to listen to. I loved the excitement when I was younger. Fortunately, I never got into drugs or became an alcoholic but I had a fun time meeting people and going to clubs. Now Im boring but happy. Good luck to you. I hope you find your path, stay happy, healthy and safe.
Here’s to boring but happy! That is my goal.
"I've never tweeked out in my life" - meanwhile she's consistently waking up in random places not knowing how she got there
And the 23 over doses from part one
that’s not tweaking out that’s blacking out lmao
You have something about you in your attitude and approach to life that elevates you high above your history and problems, I believe you will make something of yourself that you will be very proud of. Your honesty and integrity in this day and age is testimony to that. Best of luck for your bright future
I just, there is so much to unpack. She is a walking contradiction and there is no way to know what's true and what isn't. She is the perfect example of those living in LA with everything paid for, but judges middle class people in Ohio "in a box". "I can be so vicious." But also says people can be so mean.....
An insight into the lasagna of lies that is Narcissism- based on most comments here, the masses have been charmed.
Middle Class people in the Midwest are MEAN as HELL! They are jealous and conniving liars. They are more dangerous because of their covert nature. They would tear her to pieces. They are entitled creeps, crabs in a bucket. If I have a choice to order online from a vendor from the Midwest or California I choose California every time. I called around about the price and availability of an item I needed. Texas quoted me $5000 and California was grounded and charming and didn’t upsell the hell out of me and I we were able to COMMUNICATE CLEARLY and I was able to get what I really needed for $3000 instead. Same item a bit smaller, but it worked. We were able to negotiate. I was not manipulated or rushed. And as I was talking to the manager he decided on the fly to pay half the shipping and threw in a 10% discount even though the item I was buying was technically not on the sale they were running. The also offer a service to come out and help tend to these expensive items once they are in your home. You NEVER GET that type of service in the Midwest. They just about spit in your face as you are handing them your money in the Midwest. I try to give them as little of my business as I possibly can.
People in California have always bitched a lot about things, but in reality would never want to live anywhere else. This is part of the culture. ❤🎉❤
She's way,way too honest to be a narcissist.
@@thematriarchy2075 Narcs love to weave elaborate stories of their alter egos in an effort to grab immediate attention.
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She’s charming and sexy, but she’s most certainly a pretty little liar. Being able to discern between honesty and embellishment gets blurred very easily with those traits.
It’s an open door to feel sympathetic, and by that point you’re trapped in their world
In part 1 she told she broke with the homeless crack guy, because she did not trust him for he might steal some stuff from her. Which was the reason she never let him in her house. In part 2, she tells that same guy was the guy who broke into the safe in her house and stole her 100k. Sounds like two different stories to me.
She didn't let him in the house before but the one time she did when she was breaking up with him he got mad and stole her shit she should of trusted her gut
She lied about not letting him into her house and when she admitted she did, had to play it off like no one would pick up on it.
She also said he stole 100k but the reason she had the 100k in the safe was because she put 50k in the bank n the IRS flagged her ?
my last drink was March 1995. No regrets. You can do it. Stay away from that crowd and those situations for a few years.
I'm watching this post a few days late so I hope Savannah is still sober. The most important thing I want to say... please Savannah... please, please be safe! There are a lot of predators out there that have nothing but evil thoughts. Hope to see you on Mark's channel in the future.
She's a predator and user too, so what's the difference?
Do you honestly think your post will save her? You'd be an easy mark for someone like her
You sound like a serial masterbaitor
What a stunning woman! I’ve enjoyed hearing her story. My daughter is named Savannah as well, and she also has borderline personality disorder. It’s so hard to deal with. Luckily she hasn’t turned to drugs or alcohol. I wish this woman the best, and really hope she finds peace, and continues in her sobriety. ❤
Look into Amber O'Hearn.
You can get rid of it with the carnivore diet ✨
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If you love your daughter stop labeling her with a diagnosis that has very unfavorable connotations in our society & get her some help for trauma and abuse.
@@m007mmI did carnivore for years. Yes, it helps with many issues initially, but you will just end up with new gut issues. My autoimmune/ gut issues became worse. You bozos need to stop telling people this diet is a cure-all. If someone has PTSD or a dysregulated nervous system, no food is going to fix that.
I think she is incredibly strong and self aware, and I really hope she can remain sober, and can find out what amazing things she is capable of. Because I reckon she is capable of really great things. Bless her.
I know it’s hard to believe.. but not everyone with negative feedback is jealous
…but the majority are.
The reason for negative feedback is that some listeners have good bullshit detectors
@@SoftWhiteUnderbellyI think she's beautiful and mentally unwell and a possibly a pathological liar but hey, she owns it and states more than once she's a bit off her rocker. It's kinda endearing, even if one can pick holes in her story. I'd still party with her 🤷♂️
Not sure what your excuse in this is, though. Acting like a creepy ass simp, poor Savannah. Nobody is jealous of you in this instance. Big cringe
I commented much earlier that she’s pretty. But, after listening longer…She a pretty little liar.
@Sof 8:02 8:02 8:02 You you really believe that? I think I detect a crush.😂tWhiteUnderbelly