Okay, now this is what I am talking about. Adam doing some out of the box work! Keep it up! Btw, it would be great if we had some footage of this. I'd like to see less talking and more you outside just doing cool stuff altho I know it's a niche area in terms of ideas. I think it would be a great direction for the channel. Previously you were at shambala giving us some of the festival experience. It was great.
Good to see you still posting adam, it's been awhile since we talked. I hope you're doing well. Funny enough we have an Ayahuasca church here in portland, and my boss builds Church furniture and he made them a ceremonial centerpiece for the church, they just took it to Mexico to have it beaded.
damn adam thats crazy. i had a shroom trip a few weeks ago and my message at the end was EXACTLY the same. Im way to hard on myself. All my success I look at how it should have been better. man, i swear we are the same person sometimes. love u dawg
@@griziol Pretty sure the only person damaging this dude's life is the one who can't manage to stay clean and keep fucking his family over. Meanwhile continuing to post videos of him doing drugs. Great role model tho, broski.
You are the only one on RUclips that I could listen to for hours and hours without even for one second being distracted or bored. The way you talk is very engaging. You are a born story-teller! Plus you are the most honest one I know, it feels so good listening to you. Thank you for all your videos.
(Brazilian here.) I had ayahuasca a few months back and I had no visuals at all. I just had many thoughts about myself, and I spent the whole trip looking at a candle that was lit. I puked in the end, probably because of an old gastritis. But I also didn't enjoy the experience (which was done in a group as well) that much. I rather use my shrooms tea than ayahuasca, but it still was an enlightening experience. One of the thoughts I remember having during the nausea was: "Yeah, this shit sucks, right? The taste of shit of the ayahuasca, you hate it, don't you? But why do you still accept and swallow all the shit people throw at you? For how long will you continue accepting all the bad things people do to you? Will you swallow it? Or will you puke?" And then I puked.
@@pjf2193 I am an overthinker as well, but, in some sense, ayahuasca (just like mushrooms) give me a non-anxious line of thought that, in other situations, I would probably not think about. Also, small things become of greater importance - maybe giving you the "be more present" sensation.
@@pjf2193 Yeah, that's probably a turn off. Ayahuasca has a terrible taste and is pretty heavy on the stomach. Fortunately I only puked once, by the end of the ritual. Other people (like my mom) puked twice - once for each dose we had.
@@Baallerith once probably wouldn't bother me too much, we're there people at the ceremony who puked constantly or was it usually just once or twice max ?
it’s really comforting hearing someone with your level of experience speak about body discomfort even when you are having a good trip mentally because i experience that often with psychedelics and sometimes i’ll feel like such a burden when i experience it and i’m tripping with others but it’s nice to know that it’s normal even with people more experienced
I recently had an AMAZING mushroom trip (3.5 grams) however maybe around the 3-4 hour mark i just started to feel like uncomfortable in any position laying down standing up, walking i just didn’t feel like right like i wanted to keep adjusting how I was sitting. How do you combat this with your trips? I haven’t been able to find many other people with this issue!
It happens to me as well on some of my trips. Both shrooms and acid have given me these effects which i can only describe as restlessness and cramping. Seems to come on further in the trip like around the start of coming down
After 16 ceremonies with Shipibo, Ecuadorian, Austrailian, Brazilian, and American ayahuasqueros I've found that mother AYA never gives me more than I can handle and gives me what I need. Night time ceremonies are drastically different from the Brazilian day time ceremonies. Much more interesting when you get to see everybody going through their healing and how their experience is integral to your own experience.
I'm curious as to what he went to. Was it from Colombian background (yage?= which, by the way, is completely different Ayahuasca than most other)? Or was it an Umbandaime ceremony with Afro-Brazilian elements in it? Was it a Santo Daime based workshop - oriented for westeners, wihtout too much of the religious aspects such as the catholic prayers that are common in Santo Daime? Or was it indigenous based such as from representatives of tribes like the Shipibo of Peru, Yawanawa/Huni Kuin/ Pujinawa from Brazil; etc.?
@@gilk7688 Those are good questions. When he mentioned some of the participants were on mushrooms and that the retreat only lasted 9 hours with bodies on top of bodies... Idk, I began to doubt that they were following any particular lineage or modality including the most important aspects of ceremony such as dieta prior to the medicine and at least 12 hours post medicine for integration. Taking the medicine is the easy part... the hardest work is creating space for intention and then how you apply what you learned to your daily life after the fact. I do believe the medicine will find you when it's your time to work with it though. If someone asked me which lineage is best or most effective... I would say it's not the quality of the car it's the quality of the driver that will get you where you need to get safely.
Felt the last part, being hard on yourself. Not appreciate what you already accomplished but always just seeing what still left to do. I am grateful for what I did and where I am now and thanks to myself for pulling through ✨
One of my anxieties is lots of people crammed in one place so the moment you mentioned how packed it was alarm bells went off and just like you I have my own rituals and I'm not willing to forsake these for the sake of ayuascha- not just it. I need a maximum of 3 or 4 people at the max. Thank you for sharing your experience none the less.
Well there's a few things to note. Number 1, this is why it IS recommended to keep the plants separate, so that not only can you accurately weigh out your dosages, but you can also pre-dose the Harmalas/MAO-A inhibition and consume the DMT when gut MAO-A is fully inhibited, ensuring you don't take more of either ingredient than you need to, and ensuring it actually fully works from the get go. Number 2, this is why it's a good idea to just do things for yourself, i for one wouldn't want to go to a place that's crammed with people, plus i like to do my own thing, listen to my own music or what not, and imo it's better to do what feels right for you while on it than to have someone else run the show, it's a good thing to be able to make your own little process out of it. And also, Harmalas are not just MAO-A inhibitors, they're not just there to orally active DMT, they have their own effects, they have other properties besides MAO-A inhibition, and technically speaking the Harmalas are the Ayahuasca, the DMT is a secondary/additional admixture ingredient. Harmalas can be uncomfortable and have some side-effects as the dosage goes up, which doesn't mean it should be avoided because there's effects/benefits you get from higher/heavier dosages that you won't get from lower dosages, ime, but it does mean you should try to be a bit more accurate in your dosing, which brings me to my next point, overdosing. It's not uncommon with "traditional Ayahuasca", particularly ceremonies with all in one teas, to be overdosed not only on Harmalas but also on DMT, as Adam said overdose in this case doesn't imply anything harmful, just you've taken more than you needed to and hence can have a worse time. In ceremonies with all in one teas, it's not uncommon for people their first few times to not have anything happen, hence why they offer additional cups for those who need them, and then when they take too much it becomes too much lol. That's why people are terrified of Aya and why people believe it should only be used in ceremony with a shaman, but at least for me personally even at my highest dosages of Harmalas and DMT, it's never really been anything i couldn't handle on my own, but with that said, it's far better and more consistent to dose and time things properly so you don't overdo it and it actually fully works. Lastly, the bodily discomfort that can come not only from the Harmalas but also the oral DMT, ime can be reduced, even completely, by the addition of Lemon Balm tea (3 to 4.5 grams of dried leaf made into a tea) which will remove the Harmala bodyload/discomfort (aside from any nausea/vomiting which may occur) and will reduce or can eliminate the intensity of the DMT's come up, providing a more relaxed and smoother come up that's nowhere near as hectic, even with higher/heavier doses of Aya. Lemon Balm isn't the only potential admixture plant that can be mixed with this stuff though, many different plants or supplements can be mixed with Aya to alter it in various ways, either to enhance it positively or to reduce negative or undesirable effects.
Also another way to smooth out the intense oral DMT come up is to sip on the DMT-containing tea (so long as the plants are separate and you can do that) for 10 to 15 minutes, which will help the DMT kick in more gently/smoothly. And, if Lemon Balm tea and the DMT-containing tea dose are mixed together and both are sipped for 10 to 15 minutes, it's even smoother. Makes me wonder how sipping on just an Aya all in one tea dose would do, if it'd kick in any more efficiently having things kick in more slowly compared to just downing it all quickly, might even spare some of the DMT that way by allow MAO-A to be inhibited by the sipping. Overall though, best to keep the Harmalas and DMT separate and pre-dose the Harmalas to ensure full oral DMT activation.
@@consciouscactus - One of Lemon Balm's main properties seems to be as a GABA Transaminase inhibitor which raises GABA levels which seems to add relaxative properties, anti-anxiety/stress properties, and reduces the psychological and physical intensity, while also counteracting the GABA-A inverse agonism of the Harmalas, and even though it's a GABAergic, it can still provide very positive, very mystical experiences (all of my mystical/spiritual and healing experiences were with Lemon Balm in the mix) and still allows for access to higher states of consciousness, clarity, and clear perception. So it's a mild relaxant/calming agent, that becomes a pretty powerful plant ally when it comes to Psychedelics, ime. It's worth noting though that apparently at least one of the main actives in Lemon Balm, Rosmarinic Acid (which seems to be the source of GABA Transaminase inhibition, i think), is also in other plants as well, like Rosemary for example, and awhile back there was a woman on my facebook list who preferred to take Rosemary with her Aya, said it provided pretty much the same effects but a little different, i still haven't yet tried it though but got plenty of Rosemary and at some point i'll give it a go. But it is also in other plants so plants that contain it could have the same or similar properties, although each plant is different due to the different chemical compositions, so it adds some various "flavors" to try out, imo lol. Whereas things like benzodiazepines or alcohol are GABA-A Positive Allosteric Modulators which bind to sub-units of the GABA-A receptor. So in essence, Lemon Balm is a mild GABAergic but strong enough to pair very nicely with Psychedelics, including mushrooms, and Psilohuasca, haven't tried it with LSD yet though but it should help as well imo. Another GABAergic would be Muscimol from the Amanita Muscaria mushroom, which apparently binds directly to the GABA-A receptor itself (rather than it's sub-units like benzos/alcohol, or via inhibiting it's metabolization through GABA Transaminase), so technically Muscimol/Amanita could be useful for this purpose as well, although i'm sure there could be some differences between all the GABAergics and Lemon Balm may be the least intrusive option, meaning at least ime it doesn't seem to dull anything down, i don't know how Muscimol would do though. There are some other mild GABAergic herbs which may well be useful to try out, like Passion Flower or Skullcap (which iirc, like benzos, seem to bind to sub-units of the GABA-A receptor), although again, surely to be some difference between sub-unit binding and GABA Transaminase inhibition. The thing about these GABAergic plants at least, is that on their own they are mild, although do have some noticeable effects ime especially after some Cannabis i really notice it, but in combination with Psychedelics they really do become quite noticeable and surprisingly help a lot, although i can only personally speak for Lemon Balm as i haven't yet tried the others, although i will say Passion Flower is a nice addition to one's Changa blend/mix lol. There are of course various herbs and supplements that could be mixed with Psychedelics imo/ime, that have all kinds of different actions, but can impact/alter/enhance/flavor the overall experience/Psychedelic, and it's something i feel like more people should try out because most people just take a Psychedelic and that's that, but one can take said Psychedelic and "flavor" it in various ways, especially Aya because both Harmalas and DMT can be very easily influenced by what's in the mix ime, but works just as well with mushrooms too ime, and so that can help people get more out of these Psychedelics, as well as customize things moreso to their liking/body chemistry instead of thinking a Psychedelic is just what it is, imo it's a very interesting thought to have many flavors of these Psychedelics.
Interesting. I´ve been to a ceremonie once, were I consumed the Aya in two seperate drinks. The first night almost nothing happened, the second was extremely intense, traumatising and im still very much dealing with it now, 4 months later. The effects kicked in maybe 10mins after breathing and half an hour later my ego was dying rapedly (and then fought for its life). Although I dont regret doing it and I also believe that this experience will do a lot of good when I furhter integretated it, it seems like the experience could have been quite different if the dose would be lower, or I used the "sipping" method you described.
@@Sabnock1990 Thanks for the extensive explanation, including the mechanisms of actions and all! I will definitely give lemon balm tea a shot next time I try something :)
I found myself recalling a moment back in like 2000, when I was rolling so hard I was plastered and becoming one with the floor. Lol. Someone was kind and put me on a bed. Then a few girls I didn’t know at all surrounded me like attendants. Worshipping almost. They stroked my hair and a different girl took each of my hands. They did some hand voodoo on me. Never felt more love and soothing from the universe to me. They were just conduits. And when I was blissed out they just slipped away. Thank the universe and the Creator for experiences such as that.
I would love to hear Jasmine's telling of this story. Imagine a re-cut of this video, with audio by Jasmine, telling us how things went down from her perspective. Could be highly entertaining and educational. Thanks for sharing
I went to Iquitos, Peru, and did black Ayahuasca for the first time. I only had one cup, and I visited other worlds (I was 100% in the crystal palace and 0% on earth). It started with patterns before my eyes, and then suddenly it hit like a sledgehammer in the back of my head. I ceased to exist and was gone beyond time-space. Then I discovered myself and went through several different stages. I was born again through my mouth I became different persons and interacted with alien creatures. I met Ayahuasca, and she was always in the corner of my eye, getting excited when I didn't get what she tried to show me, and when I got it, she laughed and clapped her hands in joy. And there was more. I have also experienced the waiting room, and I have seen the machine elves. I never tried DMT, but most of the strange things I hear about I have experienced during Ayahuasca. But the most important have been the visions, expanded consciousness, and overall knowledge beyond words. Today I have done Ayahuasca 16 times, but DMT is still on my to-do list. PS/Mother Ayahuasca will put you through as much as you can take, but not more or less.
@@cryb0rg No Shit Sherlock 😲, well then there's no point in smoking DMT when the exactly same thing will happen for many hours instead of 45 minutes when taking Ayahuasca. Well, then I expect smoking DMT to have all the various and different experiences Aya has. But I have never heard a trip report about it. And all the brothers I met at the retreat who said smoking DMT was something totally different were actual liars. Damn, I feel stupid for trusting them. 🤔
I could feeeeeel the control levels of your initial experience 😂 Not resisting the discomfort has been a huge part of my Aya journeyed, and then life, and life’s asking me to really be with discomfort at the moment so thanks for that reminder 👌🏼🙏🏼
Had my first Ayahuasca ceremony last month (in fact it was my first psychedelic experience) and man... What a life-changing experience. Btw I'm from Brazil, so the ceremony was very "indigenous based". Best 9h of my life, for sure
I do believe that the main thing that spiraled you into an unpleasant experience is this: Some people never vomit. Almost no matter how nauseous they get they’re body refuses to vomit. And if you never vomit/shit you won’t get that amazing relief of having the nausea removed. Which in order will spiral you into a sea of unbounded unpleasantness. That’s my theory x)
I puked so much on ayahuasca, and didn’t get that nausea relief until the come down. So I don’t know if your theory is correct. I’ve don’t it twice, and that was my experience both times. Huge discomfort in the body, and nausea. Honestly feels like first trimester of pregnancy which I’m currently experiencing and now have zero desires for ayahuasca ceremony ever again haha !!!
Damn man at 22:00, just realise how much lookalike we are. We progress at our own pace. Your pace is not determined by other people or social norms; rather, it is determined by yourself. Do good to yourself, your surroundings, and your environment, and that is sufficient. It took me a few bad trips (even mild ones) or short panic attacks to realize "damn bro, slow down, your journey is a bliss, it's impressive, considering how far you've come." I wouldn't say "wow, compared to others, you've accomplished so much more" because it perpetuates the toxic comparative mindset that society is attempting to instill in you. But in stead, I would give a tap on my shoulder and say : "easy, enjoy what you've done, I am proud of you and let's keep going baby". Now I get more self realisation without psychedelics and just do psychedlics once every 3 or 4 months, I would rather microdose some LSD from time to time, but that's it. Anyway, blessings to you, my friend, I love your channel, I enjoy watching videos occasionally, and I felt like leaving a genuine comment. Today is Saturday, it's the weekend. Hope my english was understandable enough lol. "god damn bro, easy, you nailed it, let's keep moving" Cheers mate AHAHAH
I got serotonin syndrome a few years back. It was complete and utter terror. Lasted for a year. Worst experience I’ve ever been through, and I’ve had my fair share of bad trips.
When he talked about dying from serotonin syndrome I got a rush of anxiety. I thought I was going to die everyday. That’s the closest to “hell” I ever want to be.
It's also worth noting that a compound's effects on one person can change over time. Recently I started using mushrooms again after about 20 years of not using them. When I was younger they always make me feel euphoric and extremely happy. This year though I started using them again and 2 out of the 4 trips I had were what people would call a bad trip. I had none of the euphoria and a whole lot of anxiety and terror. The other 2 trips were fun but there wasn't much euphoria. Just thought I'd mention this. Your Body's reaction to compound's can change over time. Just because a compound has a positive effect on you a few years ago does not mean it will still have the same effect on you today.
"Psychedelic church concert" , I'm inclined to believe "church" was originally psychedelic ceremonies to begin with. Eleusus and many other discoveries suggest so, also I think most psychonauts could see how the 2 could correlate in general.
Thanks for sharing with us Adam🙏🙂 Ayahuasca is very powerful & the amount of discomfort experienced is the amount of healing happening with ourselves in my opinion🙏😇
I've been there with the hands and nausea without release. They should have given you Hapé. I get that feeling every time I drink, and as soon as it starts I ask for the Hapé and it immediately disappears.
With ayahuasca, "You can't always get what you want . . . but you get what you need", to quote the Rolling Stones. Sounds like it wasn't so fun but you got some healing anyways. Also, every time you do it, it can be very different. It can be hell, purgatory and heaven and everything in between. Not for recreation, it's healing medicine, but needs to be done with the right people in the right situation.
I recommend going into the jungle and taking ayahuasca with the native people. Find a place with less than 10 people! The shamans Icarus are where the healing is. They know the medicine and know how to direct it to the energy blocks you have in your body and mind. There is just something about being in the jungle and drinking the Medicine that you can’t top
This is one of the best of Adam's videos that I've seen. No glorification of his experience, just brutal honesty. He's a very good communicator when he's not wasted.
How’s it going Adam? Thank you for sharing your experience. I really appreciate it. I heard you talking about being hard on yourself, and not being happy with where you’re at in life. I’m 49 and am extremely hard on myself, it’s tough forgiving yourself for wasting years of your life and you could have been so much further in life and maybe already be where you would like to be. It caused me years of depression.I grew up in Woodstock, NY. I still live in the area. Of course I had experiences with lsd, mushrooms, ecstasy. Most were great experiences except one time on mushrooms, everything was going good until a person changed the mood , then I had my now wife pick me up, she wasn’t aware I had taken mushrooms and I had never done them around her. There was no hiding it and she was good about it but at that point I just didn’t want to be tripping and had taken an 1/8 of really strong shrooms and would be tripping for several hours. It’s mental warfare, when your fighting an the effects of a drug you know you took and know roughly how long it will be until it goes away. Looking back I know it could have been alot worse. It was a really good learning experience, although I was uncomfortable I was fully aware and in control. That was the last time I took any kind of hallucinogen for many years. It’s only in recent years I tried mushrooms again. I took alot of thought into it and knew I had to be in a good state of mind, be in a good place with people I’m comfortable with. I had been having issues with depression for too long, it was seriously effecting my life. I had been reading about how Canada legalized it, and how it was being used to treat depression. I never considered it as a medical type treatment when taking it as s teenager and young adult but as an adult suffering with depression it seems a better alternative than being on medication for years and years that causes its own problems. I’m no doctor and I’m well aware that people being treated for depression are done so under medical supervision and conditions. I’m no expert in any form so I don’t recommend anyone take anything from my experience. All I can say is I tried it again with the understanding that there are medical benefits and there’s s possibility it could help reset something in my brain. I’ve been on medication for depression I’ve tried them all and they end up causing blood pressure problems and don’t work. If you’ve dealt with it long enough you do some research and look into alternative treatments. I spoke with my therapist about it , she was aware of people having success with using mushrooms to treat depression as well as Ketamine in small doses over a period of time done by a licensed physician. I inquired about it and it’s not covered by insurance and is extremely expensive. It’s thousands of dollars out of pocket up front. Money I don’t have. I read about micro dosing. Taking small amounts over days. Not enough to feel any effects. I had s as friend who had been doing it with success. The first time I took a couple grams of small round white caps and a couple little stems. It was the first time in s long time I laughed so hard and had such a great time. I slept great and woke up feeling great. For years I feared ever doing them again and never imagined one day they would help me. For whatever reason, it seemed to work. I’m not saying my life has magically turned around and everything is perfect but I definitely don’t feel stuck in a dark place where you don’t want to leave your house or even get out of bed. I haven’t had the urge or want to continue using mushrooms. I haven’t thought about it or made any plans. I’m thankful that they helped me feel better and be able to function and be able to get things done and live life. Mainstream medicine doesn’t have all the answers. Hopefully they will open up to what works and not what’s going to make money. There’s so many treatments that are helping so many people that aren’t excepted by mainstream medicine because of politics and red tape. If you do proper research you can find plenty of safe alternatives for many things treated with harmful substances. I still am hard on myself ,but trying every day to better myself and get where I’d like to be . Have some happiness for me and my family ,and give myself a break. It’s a work in progress but getting better. Thanks for sharing your experience and honesty!
I would say ayahuasca is the most uncomfortable entheogen to experience physically. The nausea is the worst to deal with! I wonder if the nausea that was stuck around your "chest" area was ayahuasca working her magic on releasing some dense energies around that area? But the visuals usually start kicking in hard right after that big purge!
I feel like all the puking distracted me from lessons or visuals. I had very short periods of visuals then back to puking my guts out o felt horrible and like I was drunk. I haven’t drank in such a long time so I didn’t enjoy that drunk feeling at all. I’ve done it again since with a woman shaman who had been working with it for 28 years and was training her daughter that ceremony was much more pleasant I only liked once but again super mild visuals and messages. I feel like perhaps it’s just not for me, I’ve sat with peyote several times, and feel the same about that. Mushrooms have chosen me, and that’s what I’ve benefited from the most. They hit me hard, and I get crisp visions with messages that are clear.
I’m guessing you’ve never done ibogaine or datura. Those were sooooo much worse for me, and most people I’ve talked to. There’s nothing uncomfortable about properly dosed aya. Even 10x salvia was way worse than it
Wow Adam to bad you didn’t purge. Hape always helps me purge and boy what a healing that comes after. It might be difficult but so so beautiful. I love ayahuasca she has been so healing for me. I hope you will try it again and find a better ceremony for you. Santo diame has been my favorite way to sit with grandmother. Usually they do two nights back to back. The first night is laundry night and boy does it clear you out. The second night has always been bliss for me. So many lessons learned. I no longer suffer from depression Hope you try it again. Can actually bring you and jasmine closer
Adam, thank you for making the content you do and taking us on your adventures with you. You’re awesome and we appreciate you for sharing your experiences with us!!😂❤
That extreme body discomfort without the visuals is how my husband felt the last we took mushrooms. They were outdoor grown vs. indoor which is what he's used to. Not sure why that mattered but it was interesting. He had a hard time telling me how he was feeling but so much of what you said describes perfectly how he felt. I've always been curious about ayahuasca but man, sounds intense asf and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. I appreciate your videos so much!
I've had different batches that would have no visuals at all but you were high. Nothing worse than flopping around like a fish for 4 hr's but no trippy trippy.
I don’t do psychedelics anymore because bipolar and psychosis but did a ton in the past and home grown fresh not dried always gave the most pure high and visual affects
It didn’t matter. Unless they were grown near pesticides and pollution, outdoor shrooms have no different effects than indoor. The thing that matters is potency and compound ratio. That’s purely genetics and quality of environment, which can be either great or shit regardless of being inside or outside.
for mushrooms it's "AAAHHHH I NEED TO IMPROVE AS A PERSON" and with acid it's "oh, this dark room is pretty and there's nothing wrong with this hehe beautiful"
Damn a high dose of cannabis and listening to you describe what you went through had me cringing to goosebumps followed up with some tears. Big hugs dude. Thank you.
Sativa strains can actually be quite emotionally overwhelming for me as well. Last night I was watching a violent TV show on an edible, and I was talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety load. I got up to take a hot shower lol.
My Ayahuasca trip was kind of the same. No real visual tripping, extremely discomforting, but the lessons learned from it were one of the best ones. Even after 7 years, I hold them very dear.
@@isabellawasson 1. That my greatest addiction was media. I have to be very careful with that. It destroyed my brain. Removed most social media after that. Don't read the news anymore. 2. That I had to focus on being a good dad: silent but firm, stoic but playful. I found out a week later my girlfriend was pregnant. 3. That I had to work on my body. I was too weak. Went to the gym shortly after, still going after 7 years. And also some visions that 'life' is *not* something sacred and beautiful, like we think of Gaia, a just being. It's an extreme force that just cares about making new life. It does not care about balance, justice, death, it's just an overwhelming flood of all living things, cockroaches, snakes, and a worms included. :) It's powerful, but kind of dark too.
The whole story sounds like a hommage to the basic set and setting rule but i dont mind you taking this special opportunity and you should be greatful for the alien lady as she must be a very special person :) for future suggestion i would say just share your live with us so maybe do some vlogging as im just super entertained by your wholesome character
Now I understand what I have heard in regards that the ritual aspect of the medicine got lost when given outside the amazon jungle, obvious but I consider it an important part of the experience and also how it affects the Taitas and the traditions of the communities where the ayahuasca is obtained, here it is becoming a business. the Medicine/Ayahuasca is not given in the ceremonial ways as here in south america /amazon jungle. People interacting which each other , not a chaman/taita that has contact with the traditions of the plants, large groups, other substances plants present during the ceremony, absence of a wood fire , absence of contact with nature and the post ceremony rituals that contribute to the whole experience. I understand that it is not always possible to have all this rituals in place. Just bringing awareness not blaming anyone
I usually do really well on all psychedelics. It has been close to 25 years since last having shrooms, LSD or LSA. I would like to try DMT eventually and I would love to have LSD again. I’m on regular ketamine treatments from my doctor and it is really helping with my depression issues. My depression is still debilitating, but I feel much less suicidal. I feel hopeful for the first time in years.
The big difference between mushroom visuals and threshold DMT visuals for me is this Amber/Orange hue or glow everything seems to have. Also my vision tends to get pretty blurry on mushrooms and on DMT the visuals are very clearly defined and sharp
Eh, psilocybin visuals are only less focused and detailed in the first few hours. The second half has very sharp, hyperreal and defined tryptamine visions.
Ayahuasca was awful for me too. It was 12 hours of horror, and it's soooo different from DMT, which is quick and done and you're back to life. It's always one of those things that make me feel like i'll be stuck like that.
That sounds like a ridiculous situation 😅 bravo for surviving!!! I wouldn't be able to handle a room filled with humans while experiencing. Sheshh. Idk where u went, but sounds like a huge energy harvest
I love plant medicine specially ayahuasca and San Pedro..just Love them and so greatful that are existing for their great healing power..Everything is energy.. the energy stucked inside needs to be released at all costs in order to let go of those feelings and start feeling better 💖
Thanks for sharing this, I'm so sorry for your claw hands trouble. I haven't experienced Ayahuasca, but the nausea sounds so similar to mushrooms for me. I'm hoping to increase interoceptive skills and to inquire about this on next shroom trip. Happy Holidays to you and the family!
Thank you Adam for sharing this..I cant trip these days due to intense body discomfort and then panic attack but listening to your experience has made me feel like i am together tripping with you. And the part where you told yourself that u have been hard on yourself really me hit hard as well...Thank you for sharing.. Take care and cant wait for your next experience.
13:30 I would say for me, vaping DMITRI is the most terrifying. Approaching a break through always feels like death, like I will permanently detach from everything I’ve ever experienced, known, hated, or loved. Every sensory input I’ve experienced since as far back as I have neurons for is brought forth all at once and then ripped away from me. Due to it’s intensity and triggering of my fight or flight response, I forget that I’m on Dmitri and that I will return home. I love the visuals, but the pull of a break through is filled with far too much sorrow to allow.
That was awesome and really made me laugh. And also happy to see you have that merciful message to yourself. Just made it through a tough one myself. Cheers brother! Well done!
Was there any preparation before the ceremony ? Ive read that you should go for a certan plant based diet, and more ''Alive foods'' if i remember correctly your diet can greatly impact your experience with ayahuasca. however as you said, the experience is different form everyone. Great video!
Im sorry to hear you had such an uncomfortable trip. I was surprised it sounds like you only drank 1 night. When/ where i did it 2 nights was standard. The second was where the real breakthroughs happened. You mentioned you enjoy the kind of trip you can control, this may have something to do with your experience.
I was privileged to participate in my first ceremony this past August. It's a honor to journey into yourself and these spaces. Set, setting, and the community in these spaces is everything. Surrendering to the medicine and letting it guide you is important
Unfortunately for me, my anxiety disorder and hypervigilance has made it hard to experiment the unknown anymore. I wish it was different, like you said, fear would cripple my experience I think. I stick to my Ketamine and MDMA only now, but hearing your experiences are amazing.
Brother I’m worried about you. You just said you were getting clean and avoiding drugs. Now that you are no longer with your family you have turned back to all these substances that you were trying your best to avoid. Please be careful. I understand addiction and this just all seems a bit off.
The Patreon is Lit! I'm always happy to support. Everyone show some love. even just 1-2 dollars. We got 2.55 million of us. Lets get him to at least 2k subs on patreon!
Can anyone tell me what your bad trip was like, cause mine felt like a panic attack times 100, I wanna know if that's normal because I've had a few trips after that and they were all perfect trips so I'm not sure If it was a bad trip or a heart attack, it was like my body went into panic mode and I couldn't do anything but scream in terror cause I thought I was dying, only lasted like 30 seconds and I felt fine when it was over, let me know if you've had a similar experience
You probably won't see this but you talking about how you are too hard on yourself is what I needed to hear. I have so much that I want to get done after getting out of rehab a year ago. Alcohol sucks.
1. i have learned so much from your videos ❤️ loving them 2. they help me fall asleep every single time i have a problem with falling asleep ._. you have such a nice way if talking that i can just let go and drift away
Beautifully worded, man. I'm so hard on myself as well. And appreciate how much that resonated with me. Keep up the content. Great show!! And hug yourself more ☺️
This reminds me of the time I took too much ketamine. Like I knew immediately I was in trouble as I started to fade away like these hands were pulling me down and down and I can't feel my body. All I can hear is my wife reading me the Google results of what to expect from a ketamine overdose and like every key word I felt in ways I couldn't imagine like she was the narrator of what was to happen to me and whatever she said happened over and over for what seemed like eternity.
Oh no lol wtf! Lol why in bloody hell would u have your wife read out loud what to expect from a K overdose?😆😆 That would be the worst man! Fuck I'm happy to hear you lived thru your experience
Omg reading your comment brings me back to a similar experience, basically got caught in a loop. Scariest experience ever but when I came out of it, I felt reborn 🤣
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Okay, now this is what I am talking about. Adam doing some out of the box work! Keep it up! Btw, it would be great if we had some footage of this. I'd like to see less talking and more you outside just doing cool stuff altho I know it's a niche area in terms of ideas. I think it would be a great direction for the channel. Previously you were at shambala giving us some of the festival experience. It was great.
Adam you seriously need to take a step back. Years of this over and over you're stuck in a loop.
Good to see you still posting adam, it's been awhile since we talked. I hope you're doing well. Funny enough we have an Ayahuasca church here in portland, and my boss builds Church furniture and he made them a ceremonial centerpiece for the church, they just took it to Mexico to have it beaded.
i will if you make DMT a patreon reward ☺
damn adam thats crazy. i had a shroom trip a few weeks ago and my message at the end was EXACTLY the same. Im way to hard on myself. All my success I look at how it should have been better. man, i swear we are the same person sometimes. love u dawg
Now we need Jasmin talking about her experience. That would be super interesting how she felt and how she witnessed you.
You know they broke up right?
@@jenocide632they broke up again? Havent been on the channel since they got back together, if so, thats so sad:/
@@jenocide632 you guys who keep saying this didn't even watch the entire video. I said we worked it out in the SAME video I mentioned this in.
@@jenocide632 do your research before you spread damiging information like that and putting Adam down.
@@griziol Pretty sure the only person damaging this dude's life is the one who can't manage to stay clean and keep fucking his family over. Meanwhile continuing to post videos of him doing drugs. Great role model tho, broski.
Bro, this is going to sound weird but you always have the coziest clothing EVER!
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Bro I think this comment made my gaydar wake up 📡📡📡. This is a joke. So don't get all abcdefg crazy on me.
@@chicagoui9299 Not an alphabet person but it’s just a very dumb joke
FACTS! Lol
Not as cozy as his muscular arms.
You are the only one on RUclips that I could listen to for hours and hours without even for one second being distracted or bored. The way you talk is very engaging. You are a born story-teller! Plus you are the most honest one I know, it feels so good listening to you. Thank you for all your videos.
this dude is just awesome
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@@charlespancamo9771true dat.
(Brazilian here.) I had ayahuasca a few months back and I had no visuals at all. I just had many thoughts about myself, and I spent the whole trip looking at a candle that was lit. I puked in the end, probably because of an old gastritis. But I also didn't enjoy the experience (which was done in a group as well) that much. I rather use my shrooms tea than ayahuasca, but it still was an enlightening experience.
One of the thoughts I remember having during the nausea was: "Yeah, this shit sucks, right? The taste of shit of the ayahuasca, you hate it, don't you? But why do you still accept and swallow all the shit people throw at you? For how long will you continue accepting all the bad things people do to you? Will you swallow it? Or will you puke?"
And then I puked.
I've always been a day dreamer/over-thinker, so that would be the last thing I would need. I need to be more present, not lost in thoughts.
@@pjf2193 I am an overthinker as well, but, in some sense, ayahuasca (just like mushrooms) give me a non-anxious line of thought that, in other situations, I would probably not think about. Also, small things become of greater importance - maybe giving you the "be more present" sensation.
@@Baallerith I have a sensitive stomach so I'd probably end up puking all night, which I hate. Never had any such issues with mushrooms though.
@@pjf2193 Yeah, that's probably a turn off. Ayahuasca has a terrible taste and is pretty heavy on the stomach. Fortunately I only puked once, by the end of the ritual. Other people (like my mom) puked twice - once for each dose we had.
@@Baallerith once probably wouldn't bother me too much, we're there people at the ceremony who puked constantly or was it usually just once or twice max ?
it’s really comforting hearing someone with your level of experience speak about body discomfort even when you are having a good trip mentally because i experience that often with psychedelics and sometimes i’ll feel like such a burden when i experience it and i’m tripping with others but it’s nice to know that it’s normal even with people more experienced
Thats the only reason i dont like tripping by myself
I recently had an AMAZING mushroom trip (3.5 grams) however maybe around the 3-4 hour mark i just started to feel like uncomfortable in any position laying down standing up, walking i just didn’t feel like right like i wanted to keep adjusting how I was sitting. How do you combat this with your trips? I haven’t been able to find many other people with this issue!
It happens to me as well on some of my trips. Both shrooms and acid have given me these effects which i can only describe as restlessness and cramping. Seems to come on further in the trip like around the start of coming down
@@dylxn9007 happened to me too
Take sea sickness tablets 1-2 hours prior and possible 1 mid trip and you will have no body load what so ever?
After 16 ceremonies with Shipibo, Ecuadorian, Austrailian, Brazilian, and American ayahuasqueros I've found that mother AYA never gives me more than I can handle and gives me what I need. Night time ceremonies are drastically different from the Brazilian day time ceremonies. Much more interesting when you get to see everybody going through their healing and how their experience is integral to your own experience.
I'm curious as to what he went to. Was it from Colombian background (yage?= which, by the way, is completely different Ayahuasca than most other)? Or was it an Umbandaime ceremony with Afro-Brazilian elements in it? Was it a Santo Daime based workshop - oriented for westeners, wihtout too much of the religious aspects such as the catholic prayers that are common in Santo Daime? Or was it indigenous based such as from representatives of tribes like the Shipibo of Peru, Yawanawa/Huni Kuin/ Pujinawa from Brazil; etc.?
@@gilk7688 Those are good questions. When he mentioned some of the participants were on mushrooms and that the retreat only lasted 9 hours with bodies on top of bodies... Idk, I began to doubt that they were following any particular lineage or modality including the most important aspects of ceremony such as dieta prior to the medicine and at least 12 hours post medicine for integration. Taking the medicine is the easy part... the hardest work is creating space for intention and then how you apply what you learned to your daily life after the fact. I do believe the medicine will find you when it's your time to work with it though. If someone asked me which lineage is best or most effective... I would say it's not the quality of the car it's the quality of the driver that will get you where you need to get safely.
Shout out to “Alien hand lady” respect. 😂
Felt the last part, being hard on yourself. Not appreciate what you already accomplished but always just seeing what still left to do. I am grateful for what I did and where I am now and thanks to myself for pulling through ✨
One of my anxieties is lots of people crammed in one place so the moment you mentioned how packed it was alarm bells went off and just like you I have my own rituals and I'm not willing to forsake these for the sake of ayuascha- not just it. I need a maximum of 3 or 4 people at the max. Thank you for sharing your experience none the less.
Well there's a few things to note. Number 1, this is why it IS recommended to keep the plants separate, so that not only can you accurately weigh out your dosages, but you can also pre-dose the Harmalas/MAO-A inhibition and consume the DMT when gut MAO-A is fully inhibited, ensuring you don't take more of either ingredient than you need to, and ensuring it actually fully works from the get go. Number 2, this is why it's a good idea to just do things for yourself, i for one wouldn't want to go to a place that's crammed with people, plus i like to do my own thing, listen to my own music or what not, and imo it's better to do what feels right for you while on it than to have someone else run the show, it's a good thing to be able to make your own little process out of it.
And also, Harmalas are not just MAO-A inhibitors, they're not just there to orally active DMT, they have their own effects, they have other properties besides MAO-A inhibition, and technically speaking the Harmalas are the Ayahuasca, the DMT is a secondary/additional admixture ingredient. Harmalas can be uncomfortable and have some side-effects as the dosage goes up, which doesn't mean it should be avoided because there's effects/benefits you get from higher/heavier dosages that you won't get from lower dosages, ime, but it does mean you should try to be a bit more accurate in your dosing, which brings me to my next point, overdosing.
It's not uncommon with "traditional Ayahuasca", particularly ceremonies with all in one teas, to be overdosed not only on Harmalas but also on DMT, as Adam said overdose in this case doesn't imply anything harmful, just you've taken more than you needed to and hence can have a worse time. In ceremonies with all in one teas, it's not uncommon for people their first few times to not have anything happen, hence why they offer additional cups for those who need them, and then when they take too much it becomes too much lol. That's why people are terrified of Aya and why people believe it should only be used in ceremony with a shaman, but at least for me personally even at my highest dosages of Harmalas and DMT, it's never really been anything i couldn't handle on my own, but with that said, it's far better and more consistent to dose and time things properly so you don't overdo it and it actually fully works.
Lastly, the bodily discomfort that can come not only from the Harmalas but also the oral DMT, ime can be reduced, even completely, by the addition of Lemon Balm tea (3 to 4.5 grams of dried leaf made into a tea) which will remove the Harmala bodyload/discomfort (aside from any nausea/vomiting which may occur) and will reduce or can eliminate the intensity of the DMT's come up, providing a more relaxed and smoother come up that's nowhere near as hectic, even with higher/heavier doses of Aya. Lemon Balm isn't the only potential admixture plant that can be mixed with this stuff though, many different plants or supplements can be mixed with Aya to alter it in various ways, either to enhance it positively or to reduce negative or undesirable effects.
Also another way to smooth out the intense oral DMT come up is to sip on the DMT-containing tea (so long as the plants are separate and you can do that) for 10 to 15 minutes, which will help the DMT kick in more gently/smoothly. And, if Lemon Balm tea and the DMT-containing tea dose are mixed together and both are sipped for 10 to 15 minutes, it's even smoother.
Makes me wonder how sipping on just an Aya all in one tea dose would do, if it'd kick in any more efficiently having things kick in more slowly compared to just downing it all quickly, might even spare some of the DMT that way by allow MAO-A to be inhibited by the sipping. Overall though, best to keep the Harmalas and DMT separate and pre-dose the Harmalas to ensure full oral DMT activation.
What other things besides lemon balm do you know of that can help reduce the body load. and do you by change know why they work?
@@consciouscactus - One of Lemon Balm's main properties seems to be as a GABA Transaminase inhibitor which raises GABA levels which seems to add relaxative properties, anti-anxiety/stress properties, and reduces the psychological and physical intensity, while also counteracting the GABA-A inverse agonism of the Harmalas, and even though it's a GABAergic, it can still provide very positive, very mystical experiences (all of my mystical/spiritual and healing experiences were with Lemon Balm in the mix) and still allows for access to higher states of consciousness, clarity, and clear perception. So it's a mild relaxant/calming agent, that becomes a pretty powerful plant ally when it comes to Psychedelics, ime.
It's worth noting though that apparently at least one of the main actives in Lemon Balm, Rosmarinic Acid (which seems to be the source of GABA Transaminase inhibition, i think), is also in other plants as well, like Rosemary for example, and awhile back there was a woman on my facebook list who preferred to take Rosemary with her Aya, said it provided pretty much the same effects but a little different, i still haven't yet tried it though but got plenty of Rosemary and at some point i'll give it a go. But it is also in other plants so plants that contain it could have the same or similar properties, although each plant is different due to the different chemical compositions, so it adds some various "flavors" to try out, imo lol.
Whereas things like benzodiazepines or alcohol are GABA-A Positive Allosteric Modulators which bind to sub-units of the GABA-A receptor. So in essence, Lemon Balm is a mild GABAergic but strong enough to pair very nicely with Psychedelics, including mushrooms, and Psilohuasca, haven't tried it with LSD yet though but it should help as well imo.
Another GABAergic would be Muscimol from the Amanita Muscaria mushroom, which apparently binds directly to the GABA-A receptor itself (rather than it's sub-units like benzos/alcohol, or via inhibiting it's metabolization through GABA Transaminase), so technically Muscimol/Amanita could be useful for this purpose as well, although i'm sure there could be some differences between all the GABAergics and Lemon Balm may be the least intrusive option, meaning at least ime it doesn't seem to dull anything down, i don't know how Muscimol would do though.
There are some other mild GABAergic herbs which may well be useful to try out, like Passion Flower or Skullcap (which iirc, like benzos, seem to bind to sub-units of the GABA-A receptor), although again, surely to be some difference between sub-unit binding and GABA Transaminase inhibition.
The thing about these GABAergic plants at least, is that on their own they are mild, although do have some noticeable effects ime especially after some Cannabis i really notice it, but in combination with Psychedelics they really do become quite noticeable and surprisingly help a lot, although i can only personally speak for Lemon Balm as i haven't yet tried the others, although i will say Passion Flower is a nice addition to one's Changa blend/mix lol.
There are of course various herbs and supplements that could be mixed with Psychedelics imo/ime, that have all kinds of different actions, but can impact/alter/enhance/flavor the overall experience/Psychedelic, and it's something i feel like more people should try out because most people just take a Psychedelic and that's that, but one can take said Psychedelic and "flavor" it in various ways, especially Aya because both Harmalas and DMT can be very easily influenced by what's in the mix ime, but works just as well with mushrooms too ime, and so that can help people get more out of these Psychedelics, as well as customize things moreso to their liking/body chemistry instead of thinking a Psychedelic is just what it is, imo it's a very interesting thought to have many flavors of these Psychedelics.
Interesting. I´ve been to a ceremonie once, were I consumed the Aya in two seperate drinks. The first night almost nothing happened, the second was extremely intense, traumatising and im still very much dealing with it now, 4 months later. The effects kicked in maybe 10mins after breathing and half an hour later my ego was dying rapedly (and then fought for its life). Although I dont regret doing it and I also believe that this experience will do a lot of good when I furhter integretated it, it seems like the experience could have been quite different if the dose would be lower, or I used the "sipping" method you described.
@@Sabnock1990 Thanks for the extensive explanation, including the mechanisms of actions and all!
I will definitely give lemon balm tea a shot next time I try something :)
The «thank god for alien hand-lady» had me dead laughing
I found myself recalling a moment back in like 2000, when I was rolling so hard I was plastered and becoming one with the floor. Lol. Someone was kind and put me on a bed. Then a few girls I didn’t know at all surrounded me like attendants. Worshipping almost. They stroked my hair and a different girl took each of my hands. They did some hand voodoo on me. Never felt more love and soothing from the universe to me. They were just conduits. And when I was blissed out they just slipped away. Thank the universe and the Creator for experiences such as that.
I'd love to hear about Jasmine's experience. Did she have a good time?
+1
I would love to hear Jasmine's telling of this story. Imagine a re-cut of this video, with audio by Jasmine, telling us how things went down from her perspective. Could be highly entertaining and educational.
Thanks for sharing
That Allien Insect lady part. It sounds like she performed Reiki on you. Sensing missaligned energy and pulling it out.
I went to Iquitos, Peru, and did black Ayahuasca for the first time. I only had one cup, and I visited other worlds (I was 100% in the crystal palace and 0% on earth). It started with patterns before my eyes, and then suddenly it hit like a sledgehammer in the back of my head. I ceased to exist and was gone beyond time-space. Then I discovered myself and went through several different stages. I was born again through my mouth I became different persons and interacted with alien creatures. I met Ayahuasca, and she was always in the corner of my eye, getting excited when I didn't get what she tried to show me, and when I got it, she laughed and clapped her hands in joy.
And there was more. I have also experienced the waiting room, and I have seen the machine elves.
I never tried DMT, but most of the strange things I hear about I have experienced during Ayahuasca. But the most important have been the visions, expanded consciousness, and overall knowledge beyond words.
Today I have done Ayahuasca 16 times, but DMT is still on my to-do list.
PS/Mother Ayahuasca will put you through as much as you can take, but not more or less.
What locations you been doing them at?
@@Tvj_films8452 The Amaru Spirit
Hate to break it to you, but Ayahuasca is DMT.
@@cryb0rg No Shit Sherlock 😲, well then there's no point in smoking DMT when the exactly same thing will happen for many hours instead of 45 minutes when taking Ayahuasca. Well, then I expect smoking DMT to have all the various and different experiences Aya has. But I have never heard a trip report about it.
And all the brothers I met at the retreat who said smoking DMT was something totally different were actual liars. Damn, I feel stupid for trusting them. 🤔
@@thomasschon Why you being such a bad vibe, bro?
that sweater is the SAUCE
I could feeeeeel the control levels of your initial experience 😂
Not resisting the discomfort has been a huge part of my Aya journeyed, and then life, and life’s asking me to really be with discomfort at the moment so thanks for that reminder 👌🏼🙏🏼
Had my first Ayahuasca ceremony last month (in fact it was my first psychedelic experience) and man... What a life-changing experience. Btw I'm from Brazil, so the ceremony was very "indigenous based". Best 9h of my life, for sure
I am the acid guy, too. On acid, I feel like the best version of myself. Acid is fun. Shrooms are a lesson.
I do believe that the main thing that spiraled you into an unpleasant experience is this:
Some people never vomit. Almost no matter how nauseous they get they’re body refuses to vomit. And if you never vomit/shit you won’t get that amazing relief of having the nausea removed. Which in order will spiral you into a sea of unbounded unpleasantness.
That’s my theory x)
I puked so much on ayahuasca, and didn’t get that nausea relief until the come down. So I don’t know if your theory is correct. I’ve don’t it twice, and that was my experience both times. Huge discomfort in the body, and nausea. Honestly feels like first trimester of pregnancy which I’m currently experiencing and now have zero desires for ayahuasca ceremony ever again haha !!!
Damn man at 22:00, just realise how much lookalike we are.
We progress at our own pace. Your pace is not determined by other people or social norms; rather, it is determined by yourself. Do good to yourself, your surroundings, and your environment, and that is sufficient.
It took me a few bad trips (even mild ones) or short panic attacks to realize "damn bro, slow down, your journey is a bliss, it's impressive, considering how far you've come."
I wouldn't say "wow, compared to others, you've accomplished so much more" because it perpetuates the toxic comparative mindset that society is attempting to instill in you. But in stead, I would give a tap on my shoulder and say : "easy, enjoy what you've done, I am proud of you and let's keep going baby".
Now I get more self realisation without psychedelics and just do psychedlics once every 3 or 4 months, I would rather microdose some LSD from time to time, but that's it.
Anyway, blessings to you, my friend, I love your channel, I enjoy watching videos occasionally, and I felt like leaving a genuine comment. Today is Saturday, it's the weekend.
Hope my english was understandable enough lol. "god damn bro, easy, you nailed it, let's keep moving"
Cheers mate AHAHAH
I got serotonin syndrome a few years back. It was complete and utter terror. Lasted for a year. Worst experience I’ve ever been through, and I’ve had my fair share of bad trips.
When he talked about dying from serotonin syndrome I got a rush of anxiety. I thought I was going to die everyday. That’s the closest to “hell” I ever want to be.
Mushrooms makes me feel so tense and full on cringe like nails on a chalkboard feeling until I stop tripping. I hate how it makes me feel.
It's also worth noting that a compound's effects on one person can change over time. Recently I started using mushrooms again after about 20 years of not using them. When I was younger they always make me feel euphoric and extremely happy. This year though I started using them again and 2 out of the 4 trips I had were what people would call a bad trip. I had none of the euphoria and a whole lot of anxiety and terror. The other 2 trips were fun but there wasn't much euphoria. Just thought I'd mention this. Your Body's reaction to compound's can change over time. Just because a compound has a positive effect on you a few years ago does not mean it will still have the same effect on you today.
"Psychedelic church concert" , I'm inclined to believe "church" was originally psychedelic ceremonies to begin with. Eleusus and many other discoveries suggest so, also I think most psychonauts could see how the 2 could correlate in general.
This is one I’ve been waiting on.😭 I wanna try it but idk if I’m ready.
I'd skip it and go to toad venom instead
Just your description of the environment felt overwhelming.
I wouldn’t be anywhere near the psychonaut’s version of a holiness church!
Thanks for sharing with us Adam🙏🙂 Ayahuasca is very powerful & the amount of discomfort experienced is the amount of healing happening with ourselves in my opinion🙏😇
I've been there with the hands and nausea without release. They should have given you Hapé. I get that feeling every time I drink, and as soon as it starts I ask for the Hapé and it immediately disappears.
“Thank God for Alien hand lady” 😂
"feeling like you're going to puke but you can't" sounds like a nightmare
With ayahuasca, "You can't always get what you want . . . but you get what you need", to quote the Rolling Stones. Sounds like it wasn't so fun but you got some healing anyways. Also, every time you do it, it can be very different. It can be hell, purgatory and heaven and everything in between. Not for recreation, it's healing medicine, but needs to be done with the right people in the right situation.
I recommend going into the jungle and taking ayahuasca with the native people. Find a place with less than 10 people! The shamans Icarus are where the healing is. They know the medicine and know how to direct it to the energy blocks you have in your body and mind. There is just something about being in the jungle and drinking the Medicine that you can’t top
The shamans also told me it’s a process it’s an “entity” that gets to know you and you get to know her
This is one of the best of Adam's videos that I've seen. No glorification of his experience, just brutal honesty. He's a very good communicator when he's not wasted.
My aya journeys have never been pleasant, but so so so healing afterwards. The only thing it takes is the deepest amount of trust and surrender
Magic hand lady coming in clutch
How’s it going Adam? Thank you for sharing your experience. I really appreciate it. I heard you talking about being hard on yourself, and not being happy with where you’re at in life. I’m 49 and am extremely hard on myself, it’s tough forgiving yourself for wasting years of your life and you could have been so much further in life and maybe already be where you would like to be. It caused me years of depression.I grew up in Woodstock, NY. I still live in the area. Of course I had experiences with lsd, mushrooms, ecstasy. Most were great experiences except one time on mushrooms, everything was going good until a person changed the mood , then I had my now wife pick me up, she wasn’t aware I had taken mushrooms and I had never done them around her. There was no hiding it and she was good about it but at that point I just didn’t want to be tripping and had taken an 1/8 of really strong shrooms and would be tripping for several hours. It’s mental warfare, when your fighting an the effects of a drug you know you took and know roughly how long it will be until it goes away. Looking back I know it could have been alot worse. It was a really good learning experience, although I was uncomfortable I was fully aware and in control. That was the last time I took any kind of hallucinogen for many years. It’s only in recent years I tried mushrooms again. I took alot of thought into it and knew I had to be in a good state of mind, be in a good place with people I’m comfortable with. I had been having issues with depression for too long, it was seriously effecting my life. I had been reading about how Canada legalized it, and how it was being used to treat depression. I never considered it as a medical type treatment when taking it as s teenager and young adult but as an adult suffering with depression it seems a better alternative than being on medication for years and years that causes its own problems. I’m no doctor and I’m well aware that people being treated for depression are done so under medical supervision and conditions. I’m no expert in any form so I don’t recommend anyone take anything from my experience. All I can say is I tried it again with the understanding that there are medical benefits and there’s s possibility it could help reset something in my brain. I’ve been on medication for depression I’ve tried them all and they end up causing blood pressure problems and don’t work. If you’ve dealt with it long enough you do some research and look into alternative treatments. I spoke with my therapist about it , she was aware of people having success with using mushrooms to treat depression as well as Ketamine in small doses over a period of time done by a licensed physician. I inquired about it and it’s not covered by insurance and is extremely expensive. It’s thousands of dollars out of pocket up front. Money I don’t have. I read about micro dosing. Taking small amounts over days. Not enough to feel any effects. I had s as friend who had been doing it with success. The first time I took a couple grams of small round white caps and a couple little stems. It was the first time in s long time I laughed so hard and had such a great time. I slept great and woke up feeling great. For years I feared ever doing them again and never imagined one day they would help me. For whatever reason, it seemed to work. I’m not saying my life has magically turned around and everything is perfect but I definitely don’t feel stuck in a dark place where you don’t want to leave your house or even get out of bed. I haven’t had the urge or want to continue using mushrooms. I haven’t thought about it or made any plans. I’m thankful that they helped me feel better and be able to function and be able to get things done and live life. Mainstream medicine doesn’t have all the answers. Hopefully they will open up to what works and not what’s going to make money. There’s so many treatments that are helping so many people that aren’t excepted by mainstream medicine because of politics and red tape. If you do proper research you can find plenty of safe alternatives for many things treated with harmful substances. I still am hard on myself ,but trying every day to better myself and get where I’d like to be . Have some happiness for me and my family ,and give myself a break. It’s a work in progress but getting better. Thanks for sharing your experience and honesty!
I would say ayahuasca is the most uncomfortable entheogen to experience physically. The nausea is the worst to deal with! I wonder if the nausea that was stuck around your "chest" area was ayahuasca working her magic on releasing some dense energies around that area? But the visuals usually start kicking in hard right after that big purge!
It's third, behind 5-MeO-DMT and 2C-E. Imho ofc. They say bufotenin is the worst of all bodyloads, but that one is also toxic so I haven't tried it.
I feel like all the puking distracted me from lessons or visuals. I had very short periods of visuals then back to puking my guts out o felt horrible and like I was drunk. I haven’t drank in such a long time so I didn’t enjoy that drunk feeling at all. I’ve done it again since with a woman shaman who had been working with it for 28 years and was training her daughter that ceremony was much more pleasant I only liked once but again super mild visuals and messages. I feel like perhaps it’s just not for me, I’ve sat with peyote several times, and feel the same about that. Mushrooms have chosen me, and that’s what I’ve benefited from the most. They hit me hard, and I get crisp visions with messages that are clear.
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@@andjelkovicjasmin2954 dats MAD bruv 😂😂😂😂 seriously tho stay away from lady datura
I’m guessing you’ve never done ibogaine or datura. Those were sooooo much worse for me, and most people I’ve talked to. There’s nothing uncomfortable about properly dosed aya. Even 10x salvia was way worse than it
Wow Adam to bad you didn’t purge. Hape always helps me purge and boy what a healing that comes after. It might be difficult but so so beautiful. I love ayahuasca she has been so healing for me. I hope you will try it again and find a better ceremony for you. Santo diame has been my favorite way to sit with grandmother. Usually they do two nights back to back. The first night is laundry night and boy does it clear you out. The second night has always been bliss for me. So many lessons learned. I no longer suffer from depression Hope you try it again. Can actually bring you and jasmine closer
Adam, thank you for making the content you do and taking us on your adventures with you. You’re awesome and we appreciate you for sharing your experiences with us!!😂❤
Biggest takeaway from all this: Give yourself a damn hug, You’re doing good.
That extreme body discomfort without the visuals is how my husband felt the last we took mushrooms. They were outdoor grown vs. indoor which is what he's used to. Not sure why that mattered but it was interesting. He had a hard time telling me how he was feeling but so much of what you said describes perfectly how he felt.
I've always been curious about ayahuasca but man, sounds intense asf and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. I appreciate your videos so much!
I've had different batches that would have no visuals at all but you were high. Nothing worse than flopping around like a fish for 4 hr's but no trippy trippy.
I don’t do psychedelics anymore because bipolar and psychosis but did a ton in the past and home grown fresh not dried always gave the most pure high and visual affects
It didn’t matter. Unless they were grown near pesticides and pollution, outdoor shrooms have no different effects than indoor. The thing that matters is potency and compound ratio. That’s purely genetics and quality of environment, which can be either great or shit regardless of being inside or outside.
That woman who you said made you feel better. She did reiki healing on you😁
for mushrooms it's "AAAHHHH I NEED TO IMPROVE AS A PERSON" and with acid it's "oh, this dark room is pretty and there's nothing wrong with this hehe beautiful"
Damn a high dose of cannabis and listening to you describe what you went through had me cringing to goosebumps followed up with some tears. Big hugs dude. Thank you.
Same here.
Sativa strains can actually be quite emotionally overwhelming for me as well. Last night I was watching a violent TV show on an edible, and I was talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety load. I got up to take a hot shower lol.
i HATE tripping but it always helped me
My Ayahuasca trip was kind of the same. No real visual tripping, extremely discomforting, but the lessons learned from it were one of the best ones. Even after 7 years, I hold them very dear.
YES, same here.
What lesson did you learn?
@@isabellawasson every lesson is personal to the experiencer!
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1. That my greatest addiction was media. I have to be very careful with that. It destroyed my brain. Removed most social media after that. Don't read the news anymore.
2. That I had to focus on being a good dad: silent but firm, stoic but playful. I found out a week later my girlfriend was pregnant.
3. That I had to work on my body. I was too weak. Went to the gym shortly after, still going after 7 years.
And also some visions that 'life' is *not* something sacred and beautiful, like we think of Gaia, a just being. It's an extreme force that just cares about making new life. It does not care about balance, justice, death, it's just an overwhelming flood of all living things, cockroaches, snakes, and a worms included. :) It's powerful, but kind of dark too.
Would love to see you do videos on lucid dreaming herbs. Mugwort, blue lotus, etc.
It’s so true that drinking gross things are such a breeze after you used to drink kratom daily 😂
The whole story sounds like a hommage to the basic set and setting rule but i dont mind you taking this special opportunity and you should be greatful for the alien lady as she must be a very special person :) for future suggestion i would say just share your live with us so maybe do some vlogging as im just super entertained by your wholesome character
Now I understand what I have heard in regards that the ritual aspect of the medicine got lost when given outside the amazon jungle, obvious but I consider it an important part of the experience and also how it affects the Taitas and the traditions of the communities where the ayahuasca is obtained, here it is becoming a business. the Medicine/Ayahuasca is not given in the ceremonial ways as here in south america /amazon jungle. People interacting which each other , not a chaman/taita that has contact with the traditions of the plants, large groups, other substances plants present during the ceremony, absence of a wood fire , absence of contact with nature and the post ceremony rituals that contribute to the whole experience. I understand that it is not always possible to have all this rituals in place. Just bringing awareness not blaming anyone
I usually do really well on all psychedelics. It has been close to 25 years since last having shrooms, LSD or LSA. I would like to try DMT eventually and I would love to have LSD again. I’m on regular ketamine treatments from my doctor and it is really helping with my depression issues. My depression is still debilitating, but I feel much less suicidal. I feel hopeful for the first time in years.
Hope things are working out for you mate.
The big difference between mushroom visuals and threshold DMT visuals for me is this Amber/Orange hue or glow everything seems to have. Also my vision tends to get pretty blurry on mushrooms and on DMT the visuals are very clearly defined and sharp
Eh, psilocybin visuals are only less focused and detailed in the first few hours. The second half has very sharp, hyperreal and defined tryptamine visions.
Pans have super sharp visuals.
@@Ryan88881 Truth, take enough and the second half of the experience can be very DMT-like. 10g dry lib caps got me there last year!
@@DanPlayingGames 10 grams is a mad man dose especially with strong shrooms 😂😂😂try lemon teaching like 5-7 n you’ll probably have stronger trip
@@Ryan88881 man a peak on 3.5gs 😵💫😵💫
man, i could really use an Alien Hand Lady in my life...
Ayahuasca was awful for me too. It was 12 hours of horror, and it's soooo different from DMT, which is quick and done and you're back to life. It's always one of those things that make me feel like i'll be stuck like that.
That sounds like a ridiculous situation 😅 bravo for surviving!!! I wouldn't be able to handle a room filled with humans while experiencing. Sheshh. Idk where u went, but sounds like a huge energy harvest
I love plant medicine specially ayahuasca and San Pedro..just Love them and so greatful that are existing for their great healing power..Everything is energy.. the energy stucked inside needs to be released at all costs in order to let go of those feelings and start feeling better 💖
Thanks for sharing this, I'm so sorry for your claw hands trouble. I haven't experienced Ayahuasca, but the nausea sounds so similar to mushrooms for me. I'm hoping to increase interoceptive skills and to inquire about this on next shroom trip. Happy Holidays to you and the family!
I'd like to hear Jasmines experience as well!
Ayahuasca sounds pretty interesting. Sounds a little like the mescaline (micro dots) we used to do back in the 90's.
Mantis came to the temple to rescue Adam 🤣🤣
U r a great story teller my brotha !!!
Love ur channel!!!
much love to you
Thank you Adam for sharing this..I cant trip these days due to intense body discomfort and then panic attack but listening to your experience has made me feel like i am together tripping with you. And the part where you told yourself that u have been hard on yourself really me hit hard as well...Thank you for sharing.. Take care and cant wait for your next experience.
Brorher your left shoulder and side are higher or more raised than your right. Don't let it hurt your back
Mushrooms. Are a tryptamine. So understandable you get similar visuals with Dmt.
13:30 I would say for me, vaping DMITRI is the most terrifying. Approaching a break through always feels like death, like I will permanently detach from everything I’ve ever experienced, known, hated, or loved. Every sensory input I’ve experienced since as far back as I have neurons for is brought forth all at once and then ripped away from me. Due to it’s intensity and triggering of my fight or flight response, I forget that I’m on Dmitri and that I will return home. I love the visuals, but the pull of a break through is filled with far too much sorrow to allow.
I love the message at end! ❤️ stop bein so hard on yourself thanks Adam !
That was awesome and really made me laugh. And also happy to see you have that merciful message to yourself. Just made it through a tough one myself. Cheers brother! Well done!
Was there any preparation before the ceremony ? Ive read that you should go for a certan plant based diet, and more ''Alive foods'' if i remember correctly your diet can greatly impact your experience with ayahuasca. however as you said, the experience is different form everyone.
Great video!
The gods have blessed us, thank you Adam
Great video Adam, I’m very thankful I found your channel. The stories you tell and the advice you give hits close to home. Hope the channel thrives
Always a good day when daddy posts
Im sorry to hear you had such an uncomfortable trip. I was surprised it sounds like you only drank 1 night. When/ where i did it 2 nights was standard. The second was where the real breakthroughs happened.
You mentioned you enjoy the kind of trip you can control, this may have something to do with your experience.
I was privileged to participate in my first ceremony this past August. It's a honor to journey into yourself and these spaces. Set, setting, and the community in these spaces is everything. Surrendering to the medicine and letting it guide you is important
It's ESSENTIAL*
Unfortunately for me, my anxiety disorder and hypervigilance has made it hard to experiment the unknown anymore. I wish it was different, like you said, fear would cripple my experience I think. I stick to my Ketamine and MDMA only now, but hearing your experiences are amazing.
Hey Adam, i'd love to see a video where you talk about activities to do whilst tripping, like things that are interesting and easy to do. Big Love
alien hand lady 🤣🤣
Brother I’m worried about you. You just said you were getting clean and avoiding drugs. Now that you are no longer with your family you have turned back to all these substances that you were trying your best to avoid. Please be careful. I understand addiction and this just all seems a bit off.
That was a joke. 😂
The Patreon is Lit! I'm always happy to support. Everyone show some love. even just 1-2 dollars. We got 2.55 million of us. Lets get him to at least 2k subs on patreon!
Your nausea experience gave me sympathetic nausea 😂
Can anyone tell me what your bad trip was like, cause mine felt like a panic attack times 100, I wanna know if that's normal because I've had a few trips after that and they were all perfect trips so I'm not sure If it was a bad trip or a heart attack, it was like my body went into panic mode and I couldn't do anything but scream in terror cause I thought I was dying, only lasted like 30 seconds and I felt fine when it was over, let me know if you've had a similar experience
You probably won't see this but you talking about how you are too hard on yourself is what I needed to hear. I have so much that I want to get done after getting out of rehab a year ago. Alcohol sucks.
Can we hear about Jasmine and her experience?
1. i have learned so much from your videos ❤️ loving them
2. they help me fall asleep every single time i have a problem with falling asleep ._. you have such a nice way if talking that i can just let go and drift away
What helps the purge during ceremony is a good shot of hope’ up the nose! Instant purge!
Is there any chance u would do it again ? It was a hard experience but u had bad times on shrooms etc too. I'm just wondering
Amazing story Adam! Thanks for sharing🙏🏻
Shoutout to Jasmin for assisting in this experience 😂💞 love you both!!!
Beautifully worded, man. I'm so hard on myself as well. And appreciate how much that resonated with me. Keep up the content. Great show!! And hug yourself more ☺️
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Why is your voice deeper
Thank you for taking the time to make the repot :)
Sounds like a real blast!!!
Caapi is a very strong maoi, and in my experience it works when it’s brewed together, unlike rue seeds I have to drink before the dmt
This reminds me of the time I took too much ketamine. Like I knew immediately I was in trouble as I started to fade away like these hands were pulling me down and down and I can't feel my body. All I can hear is my wife reading me the Google results of what to expect from a ketamine overdose and like every key word I felt in ways I couldn't imagine like she was the narrator of what was to happen to me and whatever she said happened over and over for what seemed like eternity.
Oh no lol wtf! Lol why in bloody hell would u have your wife read out loud what to expect from a K overdose?😆😆 That would be the worst man! Fuck I'm happy to hear you lived thru your experience
@@jesscelaya I couldn't speak or move, I could hear though. I was down a k hole lol Yeah it really sucked!
Omg reading your comment brings me back to a similar experience, basically got caught in a loop. Scariest experience ever but when I came out of it, I felt reborn 🤣
Thank you for sharing. Thought it was so funny when you went full canadian on that "sorry" to Jasmin hahaha, bless
see i been around healers, being a little one my self , the alien hand lady , i so belive it and love that part
Thanks Adam for sharing your story. I had the same experience minus the claw hands. Hearing your story made me realize its not just me...haha
Can we have a follow up video of jasmines trip please? 😁
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Pretty intense story. But the claw hands made me laugh 😅