KOTD - Hollohan - My Lost Love & Addiction (RIP Bruce B)

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  • Опубликовано: 25 окт 2024
  • @HollohanakaGOD Produced By @SolidMas
    hollohanakagod.... Downloadable link of song. All money going towards my professional videos coming soon. Thankyou for the support!
    Link to Lyrics- rapgenius.com/H...
    This was not recorded previously in a Studio. It's a one take drop to the camera with the beat laid over top after.
    Contact Hollohan at jeff_hollohan@hotmail.com for whatever
    www.bigshotmusicinc.com for video bookings @bigshotmusicinc
    Produced by Solid Mas. If you looking for crazy beats contact him at @Solidmas

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  • @HOLLOHAN
    @HOLLOHAN 7 лет назад +629

    Hit a million. Thankyou all.

    • @adamjohnston6642
      @adamjohnston6642 7 лет назад +9

      Hope Ganik hit you with some royalties. Lol riiiight.

    • @andrewboyle3770
      @andrewboyle3770 6 лет назад +13

      No, thank you Brother for being so Real and Honest.

    • @OBSGAMING-li8qd
      @OBSGAMING-li8qd 6 лет назад +4

      When are you going to put out some new new tunes

    • @jasonlopez5913
      @jasonlopez5913 6 лет назад +4

      jake smith look at his channel his new song is straight Fire 🔥💯

    • @luckyjer360
      @luckyjer360 6 лет назад +6

      Hope your still sober bro, the hardest things are the most rewarding

  • @upstate315er2
    @upstate315er2 2 года назад +126

    Every couple years I come back to this and play it a few times, Hollohan was really in his bag on this one. Timeless art right here

    • @marcusleavitt4536
      @marcusleavitt4536 Год назад +4

      Same here this is the realest most relatable piece he put together

    • @famezo12FUHQ
      @famezo12FUHQ Год назад +2

      Same!

    • @kingmoreorless2810
      @kingmoreorless2810 Год назад

      Even though he was a racist piece of sh!t this goes hard I can't lie.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +5

      Thank you so much! I'm finally working extremely hard. I'm creating a lot of amazing things! I promise! Respect!!

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      Respect!@@famezo12FUHQ

  • @dallasbagley
    @dallasbagley 9 лет назад +108

    This track is painful in the best way possible. It is powerful.

  • @quincyseis813
    @quincyseis813 5 лет назад +45

    Almost relapsed on H tonight until I came across this video. Especially the line "I was a needle or two away from being with you." Thank you Hollohan.

  • @KM316-m1b
    @KM316-m1b 2 года назад +28

    We need something like this for Pat Stay as well

    • @Napanochfarther
      @Napanochfarther Год назад +3

      💯%🙏🙏

    • @jackie1761_
      @jackie1761_ Год назад +2

      YES

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +5

      It's coming! It's been difficult to write to be fully honest with you.

  • @Tristinmckinstry
    @Tristinmckinstry 7 лет назад +46

    This is about the millionth time I've heard this song and it still gives me goosebumps.

    • @airborneazza8266
      @airborneazza8266 7 лет назад +1

      Tristin McKinstry same! Looking forward to his new stuff! :D

    • @TOMEGUN1983
      @TOMEGUN1983 7 лет назад +1

      Your comment is on point

  • @MrCeeOhDee
    @MrCeeOhDee 2 года назад +5

    I still come back here after all these years 😞
    Thanks Jeff FOR REAL

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      ThankYOU too my brother! Respect!

  • @sherminator1617
    @sherminator1617 Год назад +11

    This was so pure and real. What a rapper, this is a genius.

  • @222JJJKKK1
    @222JJJKKK1 8 лет назад +53

    "I was in that same weak place so I couldn't fight for you, at your memorial high on the same shit that took your life from you"
    Damn that was heavy

    • @grownman1017
      @grownman1017 6 лет назад

      Midgaard that was his pussy ass way of saying "I'm sorry I got you hooked on this" it was his fault Bruce died....

    • @Writeous0ne
      @Writeous0ne 4 года назад +4

      @@grownman1017 we all make our own choices bro. you aint gonna live long blaming others but youll live long if you take responsibility.

    • @patstaysuckafreeboss8006
      @patstaysuckafreeboss8006 2 года назад

      @@grownman1017 Say that to his face

  • @Helldog6
    @Helldog6 9 лет назад +24

    3 years later and this is still one of the most real and powerful songs in hip-hop. Period.

    • @elviswhite245
      @elviswhite245 9 лет назад

      No, real shits being made everyday by a lot of underground cats.
      One life - the last emperor
      Metranome - que theory
      My uncle - ILL BILL

    • @2lowkey100
      @2lowkey100 8 лет назад +3

      +Elvis White how could this not be "real"?

  • @ChadV13
    @ChadV13 Год назад +28

    Lost my wife to my addiction and it's the reason I got clean but I'll always regret losing her and won't give up earn her back ...thanks man this song really helps .I'm 103 days clean today

    • @Monstersalo
      @Monstersalo Год назад +2

      How many days today bro?

    • @KRYPTOKINGGAMING
      @KRYPTOKINGGAMING Год назад +4

      I hope your still sober bro, I am THIS close to losing my wife. I don't know if shell be here when I come out.

    • @ChadV13
      @ChadV13 Год назад +3

      I am and I got 9 months in 2 weeks and man hopefully it works out for you and your wife I haven't given up on mine and stay clean no matter what getting high won't make anything better and don't stop till the miracle happens

    • @michaelanspach8194
      @michaelanspach8194 Год назад +2

      Im sorry to hear this.
      But at the same time I'm so proud of you for beeing sober for so long.
      I wish i could say that.
      Youre worth the world brother!
      Much love from rotterdam, holland.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      I love you brother! How are you doing?

  • @Fevir
    @Fevir 9 лет назад +43

    Crazy to think this is over 2 years old. Doesn't feel that old since it's so current in my head.. real shit is timeless.

  • @ninja3201
    @ninja3201 8 лет назад +22

    this is the realist purest form of rap pure bars and telling the story of some hard times respect to hollo.

  • @max.aura10k
    @max.aura10k 10 лет назад +24

    This song has helped me through some dark times. Thank you for this, Hollohan.

  • @richardg1403
    @richardg1403 8 лет назад +154

    Listening to this track is like he took the story of my life and put it in to words , 6 years clean on November 18th

    • @louisbennett6006
      @louisbennett6006 8 лет назад +2

      Richard G congrats on those 6 years bro

    • @richardg1403
      @richardg1403 8 лет назад

      Louis Bennett thanks man

    • @jasonlopez5913
      @jasonlopez5913 7 лет назад +1

      Richard G Good shit man keep it up brother

    • @westcoastlife3607
      @westcoastlife3607 7 лет назад +4

      I got 2 and 1/2 years from Oxys and heroin bro..stay strong fam

    • @CHICANO4RMTHEBAY
      @CHICANO4RMTHEBAY 7 лет назад

      Richard G Very good, Brother!! You should be VERY VERY proud of yourself for that. God Bless

  • @saywaugottasay
    @saywaugottasay 9 лет назад +51

    this will never get old

  • @westcoastlife3607
    @westcoastlife3607 8 лет назад +83

    Shouts out to me clean from Oxys and dope for 2 yrs in May..music like this get me thru my days..salute hollohan 💉💉

    • @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN
      @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN 8 лет назад +4

      Hope you relapse on 💊 and move up to 💉 😘

    • @westcoastlife3607
      @westcoastlife3607 8 лет назад +1

      +HappyHustler haha my nigga

    • @Ggv19128
      @Ggv19128 8 лет назад

      +Dope Rapper Wit Dope Music Video's Channel whack

    • @chightown4203
      @chightown4203 8 лет назад

      happy 2 yrs bruthaaa

    • @chightown4203
      @chightown4203 8 лет назад +1

      ^ Lol truuuuuu. fuckn lame piece of shit

  • @DU0ZA
    @DU0ZA 9 лет назад +15

    "I know if you never met me, bruce; you'd still be alive" only a real man can say this....real shit

    • @chinren707
      @chinren707 7 лет назад +1

      DU0ZA that's real AF bro

  • @klabouch900
    @klabouch900 10 лет назад +46

    Every time I listen to this there is a new line\verse that really hits home

    • @joeoaks1940
      @joeoaks1940 6 лет назад

      Captain Canuck top left. Real shit

    • @breadngravy3860
      @breadngravy3860 5 лет назад +1

      so fucking true man. when I was younger and listened to this, a lot of it was relatable and I always loved it, but a lot of shit just wasn't anything I'd experienced so some was a stretch to relate.
      sadly, now, 6 years later... I can say nearly every line hits. hard. life's a trip, man.

  • @MrCFBad
    @MrCFBad 2 года назад +5

    Man, watched when it released and 10 years later..crazy goosebumps

  • @PaynePresents
    @PaynePresents 3 года назад +8

    This track still hits so hard. This guys story telling is on another level

  • @ArrtusMusic
    @ArrtusMusic 2 года назад +8

    This is a timeless work of art.

  • @NedTheDread
    @NedTheDread 10 лет назад +21

    Holy fucking shit, that was beyond amazing.
    So real, so raw, I'm at a loss for words...

  • @doncf1
    @doncf1 3 года назад +4

    So raw and real

  • @jessehester496
    @jessehester496 2 года назад +8

    Still listening in 2021 almost 2022. Want to talk about an amazing story all put into a piece of your soul. Shits too cold I get chills every-time.

  • @coreymichael1880
    @coreymichael1880 3 года назад +4

    I heard this the day it was uploaded and still hits me now like it did back then. Every single person I have showed this song to (believe me there’s been a lot over the years) always give the same reaction and that is being absolutely speechless.. Every single time. That’s power of music. Love from the UK Hollohan, we need more music from you bro.

    • @williamgill5286
      @williamgill5286 3 года назад +3

      same i used to listen to this alot cant believe its been almost a decade wowww. Little did i know at the time that this song would end up being much more real to me in the future smh

  • @InbredPancake
    @InbredPancake 9 лет назад +7

    I remember listening to this when it was first posted and having goosebumps all up and down my arm. Two years later and I still come back to feel the same way. Powerful shit.

    • @InbredPancake
      @InbredPancake 5 лет назад

      Found this comment. Still come back here 4 years later man

  • @MestizoMentality
    @MestizoMentality 2 года назад +8

    It’s time Hollohan comes out of retirement and write something for Pat! @hollohan 🙏

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +5

      It's coming brother!

    • @kevinobrien479
      @kevinobrien479 6 месяцев назад

      Looking forward to your verse, prayer 🙏 up

  • @redline201
    @redline201 4 года назад +3

    So many years later and this song still breaks my heart.

  • @lynsiekuehn
    @lynsiekuehn 11 лет назад +4

    Man.. this song bleeds with real emotions. You went through some hard times Jeff but your fans appreciate you sharing that pain in straight verses!!

  • @chelsea8729
    @chelsea8729 4 года назад +4

    I haven’t heard this in years yet I still remember it word for word 👌🏻

  • @siddnadeem1
    @siddnadeem1 3 года назад +5

    This is real hip hop story's

  • @Bodhisatwa1
    @Bodhisatwa1 2 года назад +5

    a bit over10 years later and its still one of the most powerful songs out there.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      Thankyou!!! I'm finally able to rap my stories again VERYY soon!!

    • @Bodhisatwa1
      @Bodhisatwa1 Год назад +1

      @@HOLLOHAN Hey man I can't wait! You have such powerful stories and youre such a high level lyricist!!

  • @gainstage4497
    @gainstage4497 5 лет назад +5

    One of the best expressions of truth I have ever known. Been listening to this for years, yet never sent it to a friend, because I don’t have much of them nowadays

  • @samhangi5120
    @samhangi5120 8 лет назад +39

    This instrument is perfect, and the lyrics make it 10x better. Best song from any battle rapper

    • @grownman1017
      @grownman1017 6 лет назад +1

      Samhangi you are gassing like no other.....this piece of shit song has absolutely nothing on ANY of the other REAL battle rappers songs.....you may want to research shit before saying dumb shit like this .....this pussy is a fuckin disgrace

    • @seanc5317
      @seanc5317 6 лет назад +1

      @@grownman1017 Someone has their period

    • @johnstone3928
      @johnstone3928 4 года назад +1

      fax

    • @patstaysuckafreeboss8006
      @patstaysuckafreeboss8006 2 года назад

      @@grownman1017 You are soulless bro

  • @josephsmith2294
    @josephsmith2294 2 года назад +3

    Been listening for about 10 years....you and pat got me hooked but you against Cortez is my all time fav....this song hit home on so many levels....hope you're doing well bro....thanx for the music!!!!

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      Respect brother Thankyou!!

  • @TheTurdEye
    @TheTurdEye Год назад +3

    I still come back from time to time, fucking goosebumps each time.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      Means the world to me

  • @VolatileAhnuv
    @VolatileAhnuv 10 лет назад +13

    .....Thank you for this. I'm going through withdrawals, and this song made me cry for the first time in what feels like years.

    • @RynossGamingmusic
      @RynossGamingmusic 6 лет назад

      Kori Gilliam
      I hope you are happy an living the life you want now!!!

  • @blindside19872
    @blindside19872 11 лет назад +5

    Hollohan.....there's a difference between lost rappers and found rappers. You....my friend....are a found rapper. Found rappers BLEED THEIR HEART INTO THE MIC AND THE PAIN THEY SUSTAINED, IT MIGHT CHANGE A LIFE!!!!! Well Done......Very Well Done.

  • @Dorian.living
    @Dorian.living 2 года назад +3

    I remember messaging you when I was still active in my addiction you really helped me out with some kind words I’m now 3 years sober from meth and heroin much love Jeff my heart goes out to you right now stay strong brother ❤

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      Amazing! And we just spoke today! Love you brother!

    • @Dorian.living
      @Dorian.living Год назад

      @@HOLLOHAN much love bro

  • @redline201
    @redline201 10 лет назад +17

    This song hits so fucking close to home it hurts to listen to. I'm lucky I didn't lose my wife but I did lose my boy to a suicidal overdose. I tried so hard to help him but it didn't work. There's so much I wish I got to say before he died. His brother blames me cause we used to party together but I cleaned up and he didn't. So I wasn't welcome at his funeral service. Never go to say good bye. Been 6 months and I can't let go. Rest in peace Chris. Love u always

    • @Flowerz__
      @Flowerz__ 5 лет назад +1

      Hey hope you doing better mate.

    • @gemmaworkman3961
      @gemmaworkman3961 5 лет назад +1

      Addiction is a horrible thing. Good on you for getting clean, sorry for your loss. I hope you have support around you to keep you clean through it ❤️

  • @jeffreysanders7392
    @jeffreysanders7392 9 месяцев назад +1

    This is one of the most emotional rap songs out there and gald you got over that addiction

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN 8 месяцев назад +1

      Thankyou brother!

    • @jeffreysanders7392
      @jeffreysanders7392 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@HOLLOHAN Of course! We just want to see more music from you

  • @MackABD
    @MackABD 2 года назад +9

    R.I.P. Pat Stay 🖤

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      LONG LIVE PAT STAY!

  • @ricardoalam1167
    @ricardoalam1167 10 лет назад +12

    I'm living something quite equal, but in a less scale envolving no job oportunities and a growing depression. I feel each sentence you preach, this is true music made from the heart, words spoken from the soul. I wish from all my heart everything is ok with you Hollohan. Now i gotta find a way out from this dark scenario i'm living. From everyone here that is in the same boat somehow i deserve nothing but peace and sucess.

    • @psv4lf
      @psv4lf 10 лет назад

      good luck man! believe in yourself!

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN 10 лет назад +8

      Things have started to come together again for me lately. The new video is out too. Hit my Channel. You do deserve happiness man. We all do. Stay strong

    • @dylanfriend5174
      @dylanfriend5174 9 лет назад

      hollohan It's been a minute since I've heard this track but it still gives me chills! real music - Big ups Hollohan!

    • @lucasbrawl6560
      @lucasbrawl6560 3 года назад +1

      We Will won and everthing Will gonna be ok❤️

    • @ricardoalam1167
      @ricardoalam1167 3 года назад

      @@lucasbrawl6560 hey! Hi all and thanks for the likes! Six years later and after this pandemic stuff, Imay say that im doing quite well today! Its a long hard road, belive me - with days that you prefer to die, but the prize in the end is worth. I moved to the countryside to avoid rent and left my life basically there. Had to borrow money and sell unused stuff but finally i work from home and im paying my debts. I wanna thank Hollohan for this masterpiece and all of you that comes to read this

  • @corbokilla9790
    @corbokilla9790 8 лет назад +2

    Mad me cry man your music touched me

  • @ラッセル9728
    @ラッセル9728 Год назад +3

    Now he has has to do this for Pat. Unreal. And the crazy shit is that Bruce B and Pat looked almost identical.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      It will be completed extremely soon!

  • @dynogunbattle
    @dynogunbattle 10 лет назад +4

    This is beyond good, seriously. Genuine emotion, brutally honest lyrics. The way i made me feel like I was there when it all went down...

  • @dennyrose3689
    @dennyrose3689 Год назад +1

    Been listening to this on and off for 10 years. One of the realest and most hardest tracks. Raw emotions can only imagine what these guys went through they were just in there 20s...dam..now RIP Pat Stay

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      Fuck this means more then you know

  • @SauceGPT
    @SauceGPT 5 лет назад +5

    [Intro]
    You know, recently, man
    I hit the lowest point of my fuckin' life
    I became consumed entirely
    And went completely fuckin' insane
    So, I figured: what else to do but to write about it?
    Let it inspire me a bit
    So, that's what I did
    And now I got something to say
    [Verse 1]
    This is my real life, straight verses, no fuckin' chorus
    So come explore it, love me for it, or judge me for it
    I layed in bed, flickin' smokes in an open piss bottle
    I dropped like twenty pounds in a week
    Goin' through withdrawals
    I always said addiction's a flaw of the weak
    Obviously; my addiction, it was stronger than me
    'Cause man, I hit rock bottom heavy, fuckin' hard
    My mother said she found me convulsing
    And held me in her arms
    My love left me at my worst point, bailed when I fell
    Last words to me, I should be ashamed of myself
    That last week of my demise
    The damn needles I took a thousand
    Would you have come to my funeral and put me down then?
    I almost died multiple times in a week
    So how can you live with yourself
    When you're tryin' to sleep?
    To know I could be so close to dyin', lyin' in peace
    Would you still just think of yourself if I was deceased?
    And yeah, I got aggressive in my blackout state
    And I ain't sayin' now that that's okay
    We were so in love, romancin'
    You refused to give me another chance then
    What happened to your best quality, bein' understandin'?
    I love you… you're hatin' me
    It crushed me, then it bugged you
    People judged you for datin' me
    Now it's no forgiveness for a past side I've shown to women
    With you, you know its different
    You should stick to your own opinion
    Our only time together on house arrest, hate this shit
    There's supposed to be so much more to this relationship
    Can't even look in a fuckin' mirror to see my face in it
    I've sat in the dark with a knife to my throat; craziness
    And still, you would try to mess with me
    You really wanna push it, with my suicidal tendencies?
    If I died, would you cry? Why are you and I enemies?
    I press my palms into my eyes
    And picture you beside me endlessly
    You hated my females fans, so you were jealous, fuck it
    You're the first I ever trusted, therefore fell in love with
    You're perfect, I was just addicted to this hellish substance
    You are correct though, I am completely self-destructive
    And I'm sorry, it'd never happen again
    My mind's gone for that span of time
    Don't know what was happenin' then
    If I was that crazy baby, I'd be glad I was dead
    I'm sorry you said you felt like
    You'd never see your family again
    And I don't blame you, you were great, you should be proud
    What I was goin' through, it's insane you could put me down
    Exes that I've groomed and crushed
    Have called to see I'm movin' up
    When you ain't even asked me how I'm fuckin' doin' once
    And I hear what you're sayin', close ear to the ground
    When I needed you most, you nowhere to be found
    If you really were my girl you would've been supportive
    With true love it's true love, you shouldn't have to force it
    'Cause I believed in you, my heart fuckin' bleeds for you
    Where the fuck is your precense
    When I really fuckin' needed you?
    Towards the end, drugs removed my soul
    I am embarrassed you were there to see me lose control
    So, where you the love of my life, or just some stupid ho?
    I guess now you're just somebody that I used to know
    [Interlude]
    For now, but I will be back
    And I am across the country, bettering my life
    I transferred my conditions here
    And you know I'm bettering my life
    And don't let people get inside your head
    And convince you 'cause I'm such a fuckin' terrible person
    That I must have been terrible to you, and tricked you
    You know me as an amazing man
    'Cause that's exactly what I was to you, straight up
    I love you, I miss you
    And now the whole world knows I'm sorry
    And this one's for my dawg, man
    [Verse 2]
    As an ex addict, Bruce, when I met you
    You was clean as a judge, no reason for drugs
    And surrounded yourself with people you loved
    When we first started to click, yeah, we partied a bit
    Who knew we'd reach that point
    Where it'd be harder and harder to quit?
    The first night I met your brother keeps replayin' with me
    The character I embodied was smooth, I was dangerous, see
    The "Genius On Drugs," so cool you was hangin' with me
    He didn't know that I influenced you negatively
    So when he seen us chillin', we was kings, he was proud
    It breaks my heart to think of
    What he probably thinks of me now
    So with this I'm just reflectin', I'm constantly recollectin'
    I got a younger brother too, Bruce, but you never met him
    And he seen my darkness, said I don't got any good left
    But even then he still wanna be followin' in my footsteps
    And I betrayed 'em all, people who loved me to my core
    My sister's always had my back-she doesn't anymore
    So I look at my arm and the marks of needle penetration
    'Cause the people who fuckin' love me
    It leave 'em devastated
    I guess we both got worse when you was outta control
    But then I was sittin' in prison, bro, so how could I know?
    And goin' through withdrawls in a prison cell, livin' hell
    I know that feeling of pain
    When you really wish you could kill yourself
    I accepted it happened, be there a long time
    They say every dog gets its day, I guess I got mine
    I hit my house arrest, bail-lucky, I know
    When we spoke some time later, it's been crushin' my soul
    "I love you, Hollo," "Bruce, I always got love for you, bro."
    That was the last thing I said as I fuckin' hung up the phone
    Found out the next day, enraged, smashin' walls
    Twenty-five, too young for a fuckin' man to fall
    I wish I said somethin' more when you hadda called
    A fuckin' hour later and you were dead in a bathroom stall
    Why do we just enjoy it? Why do we love the posion?
    You should've went out on a throne, bro, not a fuckin' toilet
    My blood is boilin' at the thought of it, Bruce
    You give yourself too much credit for how your tolerance grew? When you feelin' low on life
    And needed that confidence boost
    I'll take lines in your name
    If they say it's what you wanted to do
    And I never understood, but as of recent I knew
    'Cause I was a needle or two away from bein' with you
    And I'm sorry for the times that I was freakin' out
    When you were with me, especially that time
    I lost my mind while drivin' through the city
    I wanted to honor your memory
    And swear off, shootin' quickly
    A year past, I'm still doin' the same shit-Bruce, forgive me!
    I almost had my body into soft dirt
    I swore I'd get better, but homie, it got a lot worse
    And I was in that same weak place
    So I couldn't fight for you; at your memorial
    High on the same shit that took your life from you
    I guess your father blamed me to people at the bar
    I didn't hear it directly, it's like I seen it from a far
    I told Whatevski there was somethin'
    That I needed from his car
    I cried for you, brother, and stuck another needle in my arm
    I know, I know, it's fucked up, ain't it?
    Friends don't know how to help, so that subject changes
    "My parents is embarrassed" is an understatement
    It's just amazin' I can function with all the drugs I've taken
    But yo, I'm gonna stop though, Bruce
    I ain't ready to die yet, G
    Through your friendship and your death, it's inspired me
    I need to wake the fuck up now, man
    Find my dreams, conquer goals
    And become everything we said we'd try to be
    The tat of your names on the ribs on my side
    So to know I'll keep you close to my heart
    That fills me with pride
    And I know I'm not responsible, but I'm guilty inside
    'Cause I know if you'd never met me
    Bruce, you'd still be alive

  • @calehoe
    @calehoe 10 лет назад +9

    this is so powerful

  • @Mystrym
    @Mystrym 12 лет назад

    I love listening to music with passion put into it, something mainstream music tends to lack

  • @redactedcomment709
    @redactedcomment709 10 лет назад +3

    This is so deep. Such an amazing song

  • @amanSpawn00
    @amanSpawn00 8 лет назад +16

    Shit, this is that shit that gets you through those horrible times when you think no one can possibly understand exactly what you feel. Such a powerful 2 verses, yet still not 1 mil? So many people NEED to hear this.

    • @ampzf1719
      @ampzf1719 8 лет назад

      Kalamite I hear u bro

  • @frankymc3094
    @frankymc3094 Год назад +2

    Found this after the Pat Stay event. I’ve been sleeping on Hollohan & bender. RIP to these fallen geniuses.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      Respect brother!

  • @joannepeyatt1004
    @joannepeyatt1004 8 лет назад +4

    seeing how long a lot of y'all have been clean gives me hope... I pray I can do this.. I pray I can get clean...

    • @chinren707
      @chinren707 7 лет назад

      JoAnne Peyatt you got this .. Its been a year. you clean?

  • @jakethesnake1023
    @jakethesnake1023 10 лет назад +24

    the only battle MC to make me feel something when he spits. incredible shit right here

    • @TheJunkieBox
      @TheJunkieBox 6 лет назад

      I recommend By the Throat and A Murder of Memories by Eyedea & Abilities.

    • @grownman1017
      @grownman1017 6 лет назад

      Jake Matthews yea, cuz you're white and can relate to this pussy. FUCK him FUCK this song he is a piece of shit ...who lies and does not own up to his shit

    • @Jp-do9ny
      @Jp-do9ny 4 года назад +1

      @@grownman1017 ok, tough guy.

  • @anythingwatsoever
    @anythingwatsoever 11 лет назад

    the realness to first look at yourself and not hold any punches, to admit all these things to yourself. and then on top of that to deliver the message in such a rhythmic and lyrical way, its really amazing! great job!

  • @ARedFiretruck
    @ARedFiretruck 10 лет назад +6

    I'm in fucking awe from this song this is amazing, sad but amazing

  • @macsdelight8345
    @macsdelight8345 3 года назад +3

    This track will live forever.

  • @itzslumz
    @itzslumz 11 лет назад

    to hear a song is one thing, to feel and see the emotion when its being spoken is mad deep. respect hollohan.

  • @BlackMetalGraffiti
    @BlackMetalGraffiti 3 года назад +5

    I’ll always wonder, did you ever get your girl back? All these years later do you still even want her back? Me and my girl broke up about 6 months ago and I still think about it, I understand you posted this almost a decade ago which is why I’m curious. By the way I wanted to thank you, I’m sure you’ll never see my comment now but you commented on my comment years and years ago when I talked about my struggle with methadone etc, no one helped me with addiction but myself in the end but your words were definitely an inspiration and I hope this song does the same for people since I know you can’t comment on every single person who writes to you. I’m just curious if you still miss your girl, cuz I feel that’s the biggest addiction there is brother. Anyway good luck on your journey whatever path you take in the future. You’ll probably never see this like I said but I don’t really care, that 1% chance is worth it. Be safe man and thank you, seriously.

  • @TonyTMusicc
    @TonyTMusicc 8 лет назад +15

    Been clean from Xanax for 2 years. After i had crashed and wrecked my BRAND NEW Ford Fusion from falling asleep behind the wheel due to xanax, i have been sober ever since. This song is so relate-able due to me losing my job, car, got kicked out,
    lost the love of my life and losing all trust and respect from my family due to my addiction.
    This song inspired me to stay clean, and even write my own version to this beat.
    I listen to this song AT LEAST 5 times a week ever since it came out. Hollohan, thank you.

    • @thatpart
      @thatpart 6 лет назад +1

      TonyT Good God man, my story, down to each loss (car, job, spouse). Well over a year now. I hope you’re still good. Thank you so much for sharing this.

  • @connermoss6844
    @connermoss6844 9 лет назад

    This never gets old, has to be one of the realest verses ever. Pure real rap and why rap is an art, pure real expression in its most natural form.

  • @DonGrimzGambino
    @DonGrimzGambino 9 лет назад +163

    Can't belive organik threatend to remove this, punk.

    • @blank6043
      @blank6043 9 лет назад +2

      The Grimm When?

    • @jeffwillett6228
      @jeffwillett6228 9 лет назад +4

      Blank its on youtube look up hollohan says fuck organic

    • @blank6043
      @blank6043 9 лет назад

      Jeff Willett
      k thanks

    • @Icecoldfoxx
      @Icecoldfoxx 9 лет назад +6

      +The Grimm respect brother, Hollohan is lyrical beast

    • @jeffwillett6228
      @jeffwillett6228 9 лет назад +2

      +Trenton Joseph agreed

  • @xDjinHD
    @xDjinHD 10 лет назад +47

    Why have I only just saw this. o_0

    • @Gooknukem
      @Gooknukem 10 лет назад +17

      you been missin out lad

    • @ashleytremblay7036
      @ashleytremblay7036 10 лет назад

      Gooknukem i see you commenting on all of hollohans stuff :) big ups to you for realizing good music when you hear it!😘😘

    • @420BOC4LIFE
      @420BOC4LIFE 10 лет назад

      noob

  • @rasmushjelm8372
    @rasmushjelm8372 11 лет назад

    This is one of the strongest, sadest and still best songs i´ve heard, straight up. keep up the good work hollo and dont let anny one step on you.
    R.I.P Bruce B !

  • @POPsDONtRUn
    @POPsDONtRUn 8 лет назад +3

    The Genesis Off Drugs! BIG UPS and love to your struggle, Jeff. 10yrs clean...I feel you bro.

    • @twomorestars
      @twomorestars 8 лет назад +2

      what? his nickname was G.O.D - genius on drugs.

    • @basedgod449
      @basedgod449 8 лет назад

      ya hes says genius lol

  • @krisk5478
    @krisk5478 11 лет назад +17

    lost my friend this morning, used for 4 years, we both did, never thought it would happen to him, we both went on methadone, but he couldnt stay away from the fent. r.i.p chris, i pray for your moms heart when she tried to wake u up this morning

  • @ericnevitt637
    @ericnevitt637 8 лет назад +36

    Dont mind me, just listening to this for the 100th time.

  • @keef902
    @keef902 10 лет назад +3

    Just came to check this song again after i checked your new video. Jesus mann, been a while since i heard this its so fucking deep im at work tryna hold it together. stay up bro

  • @987xzy
    @987xzy Год назад +2

    This helped to through tough times when it first came out!

  • @whatsgood703
    @whatsgood703 8 лет назад +5

    as an ex heroin addict of 7 years been clean for 6 months its a struggle everyday but i love this song i heard it when i was using while back a year or 2 ago and been searchin ever since tonight i found and i will be stronger.

  • @trenyte6763
    @trenyte6763 8 лет назад +17

    yo I dno if I like this because I can relate so much. my homie died inside the ugm on hastings and I was shooting dope at the funeral. how come i survived my tolerance grew , i was shootin the finest coke and china white u can buy in van. then one day 5 years into a million broken dreams god threw me a bone.. met somebody who treated me like a regular dude not a junkie and he gave me my pride back. a clean slate , last year today i was stressin about gettin high and wich shelter to stay at. today i pay rent and eat well. life is a trip

    • @markmoore168
      @markmoore168 7 лет назад +1

      good on ya bro ,,,,, not many get to escape hastings

    • @sherylwidiner7266
      @sherylwidiner7266 6 лет назад +1

      YO MAN IS UR NAME TREVOR? YOU BEEN TO THE DOOR?

    • @EazytheNDAcaptain
      @EazytheNDAcaptain 6 лет назад

      Tre Nyte congrats bro keep it up I’m trying to get completely sober now. So hard and I commend you for fighting this damn demon

  • @Ca800se
    @Ca800se 12 лет назад +1

    Rap is supposed to be a form of poetry but these days it isn't, it is great to hear something like this so meaningful coming straight from someone's heart, true poetry right here

  • @thebluntchefosh6135
    @thebluntchefosh6135 Год назад +3

    2023 and I still come back to listen to this. Your a legend G. R.I.P Bruce B 🕊️

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      Thankyou so much for real

  • @Desigodfather
    @Desigodfather 10 лет назад +41

    Ya'll cat's just watching this, this shit got me through high school. Motivates you.

    • @ExploitMage
      @ExploitMage 9 лет назад +4

      Desigodfather lol not to put down your trials, but thats a long shot from what alot of the people who this video truly applies to and effects.. school isnt life and death, opiate addiction often is eventual death. simple as that.
      Unless of course you were doing heroin every day during school, then i apoligize... keep on keeping on.

    • @xYeye80x
      @xYeye80x 9 лет назад

      True, high school is full of lost love & losing friends.

    • @ExploitMage
      @ExploitMage 9 лет назад

      those are regular real life courses of action people take, just like getting your career, line of work, etc. these things aren't negative things that need to be motivated, where as, using heroin or another potent & physically addictive downer, some super unhealthy stimulants, every day for years... and then quitting, and the cold turkey withdrawal effects associated with that. THAT, is a negative trial, something this song is liked by many a drug consumer (myself included) for exactly the reason of. Some in the situation due to personal greed catching up with them, others in it from a natural cause. That & losing someone to drugs/relationship are more directly what this shit really hits home for, those people unfortunate enough who experienced those things.
      Stop hating school, its as good as life gets, if you're healthy and young there are simply no odds stacked against you but eventually life runs its course and naturally stacks odds against your ability's to do things... the other avenues aren't more enjoyable lives, even being a renegade top drug dealer who makes hundreds of thousands daily selling large quantity of drugs to middlemen, that shit still is way harder & more stressful.. better to just get accustomed to the school and learn to love it, then have your life in order by the end of it due to having your priority's sorted from early on (short version: learn to enjoy school=life becomes easy, for education in general)

    • @crypticraps
      @crypticraps 9 лет назад +2

      You're collective judging everyone else that viewed this. Why?

  • @rideshortys
    @rideshortys Год назад +1

    Relate to this on another level and I’m still here.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN 11 месяцев назад

      Respect!

  • @tlis1037
    @tlis1037 10 лет назад +15

    i cant fucking believe this hasnt received the audience it deserves...

    • @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN
      @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN 10 лет назад +3

      i know im crying to this right now, this is my life in a song.

    • @brandonrichey8420
      @brandonrichey8420 10 лет назад +1

      Tenise Taylorrr this shit has brought me to tears too. I lost my girl over this shit all of my feiends even family and friends have died too

  • @clay_freespirit
    @clay_freespirit 4 года назад +4

    woahh the second part (the Bruse verses) starts EXACTLY halfway through the video!!!

  • @texasvet2729
    @texasvet2729 11 лет назад

    This always touches a nerve, but still gives hope. Knowing someone else has been through the same shit and came out better helps more than people even know

  • @JohnELinden
    @JohnELinden 10 лет назад +5

    RIP to my man Chuck B.... .Happy Birthday Chuck I love you my man!!! 9/27/79-11/11/10

  • @benskillan9137
    @benskillan9137 8 лет назад +5

    hollohan is dope man, forget all that drug shit. Dude got skills. It takes a lot of balls to talk about this type of shit. Not many can do it.

  • @xgrhymes-2175
    @xgrhymes-2175 2 года назад +2

    still gives me chills

  • @blahtoausername
    @blahtoausername 10 лет назад +10

    So deep, even Adele couldn't roll in it.

  • @Darkest_Soul_187
    @Darkest_Soul_187 10 лет назад +23

    Canada has some good rappers I must admit.

    • @7dream7scape7
      @7dream7scape7 10 лет назад +3

      Except drake

    • @Darkest_Soul_187
      @Darkest_Soul_187 10 лет назад +2

      † DRED † Drake is not a rapper but more of a RNB-POP singer. He has few good songs though.

    • @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN
      @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN 9 лет назад +4

      yea hollohan & pat stay are dope

    • @josevelazco9796
      @josevelazco9796 9 лет назад

      +Jimmy Darmody isn't kid cudi from there ?

    • @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN
      @ASAPCOCKYUPTOWN 9 лет назад

      jose velazco nah kid cudi is from cleveland ohio

  • @rebeccabenitez7107
    @rebeccabenitez7107 9 лет назад +1

    This song definitely hits home....thank u for making this!!!!

  • @quaidgates6383
    @quaidgates6383 2 года назад +5

    Fuck man we need a pat stay tribute song... RIP

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      LONG LIVE PAT STAY! Respect!!

  • @brandonmelito4034
    @brandonmelito4034 4 месяца назад +3

    This song is still not getting the love it deserves 😢 love you man hit me up please

  • @UNHOLYROCKER123
    @UNHOLYROCKER123 2 года назад +2

    I love it. So much talent

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад +1

      Thankyou so much!

  • @NOLAbrookz
    @NOLAbrookz 10 лет назад +27

    "i was a needle or two from fuckin bein with you"

    • @nomnzlnd
      @nomnzlnd 9 лет назад

      Yall both wrong this shits wack,,U don't brag about doing more drugs and shit after his death all that does is say yeah my friend died but still I want the spot light wether knowingly or subconsciously not knowing by saying he died but I still did drugs ain't that fucked up..I know!!,lololol. The whole songs about him

    • @nomnzlnd
      @nomnzlnd 9 лет назад +1

      12years sick 10 years now sober..nice try though..if your friends dies from drugs do you think his mother wants to hear songs about needles in arms and getting fucked up..or I love Ya brotha I wish we neva did the things we did..you don't have to brag to get your point across and I don't of are how well you polish his dick he's bragging about being a crazy drug addict,,and if he wasn't he would just say like I said I wish we didn't do them things ..but he doesn't he paints a picture for you of his drug use that same use that killed his friend ..now if your an idiot and also think talking about sticking needles in your arms helps Ya friends that are still doing it,it don't..it makes them say damn I need more...there's only one person who can fix addiction and that's you.your probably one of the idiots that thinks pot should be legal..im a full fledged smoker but im not a full fledged scumbag that thinks drugs should be legal..80 % of smokers can't smoke and control themselves go into work stinking,smoke infront of others,can't drive,all addicts are the same..fulla shit and I can say it cause I was there..OC,Vic's,perks,upsers,downers,lad,mushrooms,Special K plate scraping,opium,hash,gel tabs,mescuiln,herion,coke,you name Ive done it.so know Ya shit before you support a scumbag because trufully it looks like you do know about addiction.so either you need to get cleaned up or work harder on picking Yaself up..

    • @kevinbaker7754
      @kevinbaker7754 9 лет назад +3

      Marty Behsman hes telling his story, so ya he is painting a picture, he even says through Bruces death it has inspired him to be a better person in this song. Its not a song telling people not to do it, its his story on how his life fell apart with drugs and his friends death. Listen to what it really says.

    • @kevinbaker7754
      @kevinbaker7754 9 лет назад +1

      Marty Behsman oh and yes im a drug addict aswell, 14yrs clean, i now wear a pacemaker due to constant speed use. And if this song is an inspiration for me to stay clean im sure there's others like me aswell.

    • @ryzen89
      @ryzen89 8 лет назад

      +NOLAbrookz
      "But friends don't know how to help.. so that subject changes"
      .. he admits it dude

  • @QdottP
    @QdottP 2 года назад +5

    Pains me to say this but RIP PAT STAY SUCKA FREE BOSS.

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN Год назад

      LONG LIVE PAT STAY!!!!

  • @newtrackmasters7402
    @newtrackmasters7402 11 лет назад

    Hollohan bro whenever I feel sad or something like depressed, I turn this song on and remember it could have been a lot worse. God bless you bro.

  • @kylespratt4072
    @kylespratt4072 2 года назад +4

    We need a part 2 for RIP pat stay

  • @GeminiEye1314
    @GeminiEye1314 8 лет назад +4

    Fuck me this shit is real. I'm stuck on the shit right now. Had 1.3 years clean and fucked up. Been going hard for like 7 months. Going to get on done next week though.

  • @b1ackic3
    @b1ackic3 7 лет назад

    Man I cannot believe how much time has passed since this song. This is one of the best hip hop songs out there, it shits on a lot of songs.

  • @melissapagan7121
    @melissapagan7121 10 лет назад +5

    This song is hot!! Is my life

  • @lucasjohnstone6419
    @lucasjohnstone6419 3 года назад +3

    We all know a Bruce
    For me his names brogan he took a dark path and idk if i can get my friend back

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN 6 месяцев назад

      How did he turn out brother

  • @superaquatic2853
    @superaquatic2853 9 месяцев назад +2

    Second verse was pure real brilliance. It was as though you had a paintbrush and you were painting the most Brutally honest picture for us. Can you remind me of the dance with the devil by immortal technique except for the fact that your story is your life and that's the difference. That's what makes it so authentic. I Don't think you'll ever be able to spend a verse as that's better than that 1. I do think that you can spit 1 just as great but the thing is that verse was perfect so the only thing you can do is probably match it. That's the highest compliment I give you as an MC. You haven't released a lot of material but you put out one of the best material I've heard

    • @HOLLOHAN
      @HOLLOHAN 8 месяцев назад

      Much love man. Lost Love and Murder is probably equally as disturbing if not more

  • @ImAngelicious24
    @ImAngelicious24 4 года назад +4

    still fire in 2020!

  • @GotPurp805
    @GotPurp805 6 лет назад +5

    five years ago i found this song..the day my brother died. Such a strange coincidence. I was literally listening to it or had just listened to it when i got the worst phone call of my life from my dad. I could hear the horrific sounds through the phone of my mom screaming, asking god why he took her son. Still scars me to this day. I always listen to this when im feeling some type of way because its so fuckin similar to what ive gone through. I guess alot of us probably feel the same way. Now im dealing with losing the love of my life, or maybe just some stupid hoe. idk which one yet...all i know is i end up back here..always.