anyone notice? young vacations - 0:00 - "everything will be ok" twin cabins - swing lynn 3:10 - "you're too strong to give up now" radiohead - no surprises 8:32 - "you just need to let go" bo burnham - goodbye 12:19 - "everything that you felt is okay"
nah bro its impossible for no one to care about you, because at the end of the day you still have.. yourself, as long as you have you, you are okay. take care of yourself fellow strugglers, and I damn near know ill see you all there someday.
You know whats nice? You feel like it finally ended. A good couple of weeks pass without you feeling anything bad. You just live life for a bit. And then it hits. Again and again and again and again. 🙂👍
@ihaveabunda don't do what I think your gonna do, most people don't want to di3 and I know you just want there to be peace but ending your life won't bring you peace. If there's only one reason for you to live, live for hope, hope that it'll get better, that when your older or when things get atleast a little better you'll get away from the place making you sad. That you'll make all your dreams come true even if it's just one, that you'll be happy to be happy just by yourself because then that'll be enough. Because you'll truly be in a happy place to be happy. So please, please don't do it and let this be a sign that with hope and will you can and will get out of it. I know because when things hit rock rock bottom for me and hope was all I could feed myself to feel atleast a little bit happy it did get better, even if it took a long while it gets better. Everyday do a little something more than yesterday, it could be throwing away one piece of trash or eating some food, it could be a short walk or a long one. Just everyday, one step at a time, do something to get your mind off the sadness and hurt. It could be anything, drawing too. I hope my words meant something to you and I hope you'll atleast be comforted by a strangers word because I Love You and always will because no one truly deserves to be hurt or sad. Everyone deserves Love big or small🩵 so I Love You❤️
“My child is fine!” Yeah fine, they make up scenarios to escape from the world and stay in there room all day and when they come out there gloomy and don’t speak to anyone. Parents need to realize that just because you say your fine doesn’t mean your fine and when you get emotional over small things it’s not because your a baby it’s because you’re going through something it hurts when no one even thinks to ask if your going through something and need comfort. Hope anyone that sees this has an amazing life.✨
@@BatmanrealG lol, thanks I hope your life is going well and if it isn’t just remember that no matter what your problems aren’t a burden to anyone feel free to use this comment as a shelter. :)
@@miahjohnson3178 thanks. i'm tired of people telling me i'm not what i call myself. whenever i tell someone what's really going on and how i feel about myself, they always say "that's wrong" or "that's not true". i wish they'd just try to understand me instead of giving me an easy lie. anyways, verbalase is live and ima join his stream. i'll reply to ur replies when i get the chance.
The one thing I want to tell my sister, mom and dad (not my brother, he's to young...) " I want to end it... end it all... all of it... before I fully go insane...." ( I have mental problems and no one knows except my mom but she won't spend the money so I can get it all treated and I just kinda stopped asking when I'm going in to see if I need the treatment which I know for a fact I do.) My favorite quote: every kid needs a parent but not every parent needs a kid....
It's scary that I'm starting to release my anger and my needs. I realised how selfish i am becoming and how childish i was acting. I can't really talk about it to anyone, i tried but it seems that I'm the problem all the time that i was inconsiderate and overreacting... it's scary that I'm thinking no one or even family can listen to me, I'm so sorry that i used this amazing video's comment section to vent. Thanks, the playlist helps me calm down.
That's how i feel exactly right now...Currently in a dispute with a few close friends and it seems no matter I say or do I'm in the wrong and everything I've done before is apparently wrong and hunted them so badly but they don't even consider the things they say or have done has hurt me as well it may sound selfish but I'm tired of this im tired of fighting just to lose One part of me wants to work through this but the other half wants to give up because what's the point? Sorry for just dumping that out :")
@@tireddxenowhile yes. Things are bad now. Giving up isn't an answer. Hell that's just giving them what they want. So why not keep fighting on? Even if it's just outta spite ^^ (I am not saying to do things to be mean or rude. Just keep going on for the people who do care.)
@@tireddxenoSome people feel bad about what we do or what we say without even trying to understand why we are acting a certain way and when they hurt us they don't care or don't feel empathy enough to do something about it or to understand that they did hurt us too. It's like everything is our fault no matter what but I believe there's people that tries to do their best. Sometimes we don't get along even if it's friends or family, sometimes it gets better but sometimes we just need to take a break for ourselves, we do need to be a little selfish but it's to be able to think of what we really want and if our relationships should be this way or not, it affects us a lot and we should not give up because we should live for ourselves and for the littles things we can enjoy
I changed because of school. I made good friends but it emotionally killed me when my friends became friends with bullies. They started to turn on me, (some) but they manage to act like their my favorite friends. But they thought that we were just friends. But I let my wrath overcome me on the last days of school. I changed into a whole different person and wanted justice. As soon as my friends started picking on me, I try to push him to the ground. But he doesn't do shit ignoring me. I watch him as he just talks: "Woah! who pushed me!" "I think it was a FAG." I looked at everyone else who bullied me, and started ordering them to give me a apology. I watched as staff walked in, and then escorted me out. They thought I was the problem but they were. Good ending, The bullies stopped being asshats and ordered him to give me a apology. He soonly did and we became friends again.
I wanted to start a game to see how much time they will realise that I don't feel well and it's not like me to be depressive. It's been 4 years. Even my bff didn't notice that I need help to open to someone
That's really sad. I'm sorry no one has noticed how much suffering you are in. I hope you are able to get therapy and be happy :) You can do it. You can get happy again. I wish you the best with prayers 💜💕💗(≡^∇^≡)
maybe the only way for them to realize is for you to SHOW them, or tell them. Some people are kind of stupid, and don't often realize when stuff is going on. Or maybe you're good at pretending you're okay, then they obviously won't realize anything. Maybe you have tried to make it obvious, but people can't read minds. Some people can't read faces. You can't just expect people to immediately know somethings wrong. You have to tell them. You have to show them. As hard as that may be, but you have to. If you want help, that is.
First it was depression.. then I realised I had autism and ADHD.. then my family stopped trying to keep me safe, started just.. attacking me emotionally for the smallest things. Now all my friends tell me they're busy when I want to hang out with them.. yet they're actively hanging out with other people... I suck at making new friends and I just feel.. completely exhausted.. fed up with waking up every day.. as I get older meeting people has gotten harder and harder.. everyone my age is either an asshole or busy with work.. no one makes any time for me.. it just keeps getting worse but no one cares.. I sit on the edge of my roof now.. every night, just.. looking over the edge as the sun sets..
we may not know each other but i can be your friend never EVER let what anyone else has to say get to you if you think what your doing is correct then trust and if you want to make friends even though it may be hard try but like i said even though we dont know each other i will be your friend😸
My parents see that im not ok. They saw that for all these years. Ive tried to commit suicide for 9 years, 10 in making. They do not. Give. A. Shit. And whenever i dont understand something they blame me. I dont know if i have an attention deficit but i cant focus. Its just hard
Honestly I'm just so tired. Literally. I could sleep all day and night. I just.... I feel fed up with the way my my friends getting annoyed with me. The way I feel feel like there's a hole in my chest when I realise I am alone. I always will be. I bottle things up till I feel like it's overflowing. Im honestly kinda surprised I'm writing this. I wanna be skinny and pretty and happy. ..... But I cant. And it hurts. I wanna sleep. Feel the comfort of someone holding me as I drift into a realm where I don't feel the hole in my heart.
It gets easier to live with as time goes by... I'm sorry but we just get better at hiding our emotions... So from stranger to stranger... Be safe please
I to just want to fell a hug and feel good whid my body, Im gonna be real...I feel jealos( I think I write It wrong) of other's, to how they body look and how they are loved by many, IT makes me angry, sad and all fucked up.
honestly my friends think I'm annoying, but I don't really care all i know is that there is something better down the road so stay strong and wait for a blessing to come into your life just ignore all the haters they just want to bring you down with them.
To all the friends who told me "let's hang out during the summer" thanks for making me think you liked me. Now all i have is a toxic relationship and no friends, right when I need them.
I may be a stranger but i will be your friend i will listen to anything and everything you have to say and if you feel lonely if you play video games we can play even if not we can talk or do anything but i ask that you trust me when i say i will be your friend
@@Beautifulworld928 man never get an answer, i hope this person (the one who put the comment) dont answer you cuz idk, things, but not what i am thinking
Keep going please. Look at how far you've come, don't stop now. You aren't a bad person. Sometimes you just have a hard time fighting your issues, and that's okay! It's okay to be upset, but what's not okay is letting those feelings control you. I believe in you. I see something special in you. A spark, a small spark. It's small, but it's there. And that spark? It's hope. Hope that maybe sometime, somehow, someway, everything will be just fine. You are loved. You are cared about. Don't listen to the people who try to bring you down. I love you, and I'm proud of you for continuing despite how hard things are. Trust me, it really does get better. I've gone through some things myself. It may take awhile for things to get better, but you'll make it. I believe in you. Not everyone has someone to be there to pick them up from things that knock them down, and that's okay, because I'll be there for them. There for you so you can have a helping hand to bring you back up. Everyone's special, and their problems don't make them any less human than anyone else. Thank you for reading. Now get some rest.
I don't know what to say, I've never had anyone to talk to that would listen, or anyone who cares as much as some stranger on the internet. Thank you so much for writing this, I wish you the best life. -Some stranger who loves you
I wish someone would help me but I won't reach out. I feel selfish for wasting time on my silly little issues. Even if its hurting me to hide all of what I've have and are going through.
I must admit, the emptiness and the tight feeling in my chest never dissapears, and instead gets even worse each day. My friends are getting more and more distant and are not even scared to plan their own plans withouteven asking me if i want to go since they know I'm free all day and have nothing to do. My other best friend has gotten fed up with my classroom group that she's getting jealous, talking shit about them. We barely talk to each other, but when she comes over, I'm happy but still can't help but want her to go away. These people are the only friends I have, but it feels like I don't fit in anymore. My best friend has different personality and likes different things, while also having completely different opinions on stuff, and in my friend group, it's mainly series, actors, movies, or social medias I don't know. My thinking is different, and I'm not scared to say I've reached a way higher mental age than my biological age.. My different way of thinking is destroying all I value, and I've been rejected by a crush I liked for some time now.. Sorry for using this comment section for venting..
I know i may be a stranger but i will be your friend so please i ask that you put your trust in me and i will listen to anything and everything you have to say
Don't be sorry for venting, it's normal, especially during this age. I've been rejected by a crush before, so I can relate to you, hell I've been through a lot of the same shit, but don't lose out on hope just yet. I may be lost, but I won't allow you to be lost as I am. Hang in there stranger. And don't worry about me. I'll be alright, we all will.
In this generation, people romanticize mental illnesses, they also influence the children… The world is complicated, and that’s okay. You can take your time to understand it
atleast romanticizing it turns it into a kind of "good" thing, i'd much rather see it as some desirable fun "quirky" thing that well- being mentally fucked up and miserable with no way to ever fix it because this world doesn't care for mental health at all, lying to yourself is honestly a good way to get by, why not romanticize everything that's wrong, there's nothing else to like honestly
@@twistedreality997 that's your opinion, but it affects those learning and still growing. Would you want those younger than you to think having social anxiety is good and something they should force them to have?
i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
i need this, that is what love should be... partners friends etc.. but it wears thin when its not believed etc and they dont return it and hurt u consistently on top of it.. and u feel terrible u couldnt keep up
I'm proud of you for waking up. I'm proud of you for brushing your hair. I'm proud of you for breathing. I'm proud of you for making your bed. I'm proud of you for eating. I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat. I'm proud of you for drinking water, I'm proud of you for being here. I'm proud of you for being you. I'm proud of you for smiling. I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for blinking. I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth. I'm proud of you for standing up. I'm proud of you for sitting down. I'm proud of you for defending yourself. I'm proud of you for believing in yourself. I'm proud of you for simply trying. I'm proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU.
I am currently laying in my bed, barley awake and my eyes filled with tears, I have so much to live up to in my family, my oldest brother went to collage for his favorite sport, baseball, and my other brother has won worlds fittest 15 year old, 16 year old, and 17 year old in the crossfit games. my father has a very very high paying job because hes a heart doctor. And im just a 14 year old kid sitting in his bed, watching anime, not doing anything. Sure I play volleyball, but only my mom shows up to my tournaments, and the only reason she goes is because I couldn't find a ride to take me up there. I am the family disappointment. My oldest brother is good with kids and has a job tis summer at kanakuk kamps, he is a great person and has so many friends. My other brother is the crossfit guy he is very spiritually invested in what he does and he has all the positive personality traits you can think of. Meanwhile im a little freshman with anger issues, am rude even though I dont mean to be. My girlfriend broke up with me about 4 months ago, I just started talking to her again, trying to be friends with her again. But she chronically ghosts me for days. I have 0 close friends that I can talk to about my mental health issues. Back about a year and a month ago i was on a vacation to Florida with one of my friends. in the middle of the night I went and stepped up on the balcony off of the 3rd floor. seconds after I sent my goodbye text to my only close friend back then she called me and talked me out of killing myself, sometimes I regret not jumping but I try to think positively, But its so god damn hard when I have all of these expectations to live up to. I just want to take a warm bath and disappear and get erased from reality. But sadly things like that haven't been invented yet. And I haven't even talked grades yet. Im by far the dumbest sibling, while Im tied with my middle brother in iq and the oldest is 2 points below me they are far far more smart than me. My oldest brother is learning architecture and my middle brother is learning and studying the bible, both of them have straight a's in all classes, but I score A-'s and b's And my mom scolds me because Ive decided to give up on this outdated and retarded school system that Im supposed to learn from. My life has turned to shit. I was doing good for about 3 months, but then it all came back to me. I haven't told any family members any of my problems because my brothers would make fun of me or use it as ammo in conversations. and my parents would either tell me to shake it off or think its a joke and that im not actually struggling. all my friends in my life are starting to get jobs and im stuck here writing my sad life story on a computer with tears blurring my vision at 1:21 AM. I just want to die already. my "friends" I've known for 10+ years at this point have turned their backs on me and have started doing stuff without me. I get a pain in my chest when I see on their story's them hanging out playing minigolf or whatever they do. I obviously wouldn't know what they would do because im never invited. I mean for gods sake one of them arranged a spikeball tournament with 40+ people my age. He barely even talks to half the people he invited, he didn't even check if i was open or anything. It hurt so much because when school was in session my friends would be like "im so excited for the tournament today!" right Infront of my face. Then I ask them questions and they always say "you aren't in the gc?" no, no im not, because nobody notices me anymore. I've become invisible to half the people that I see now. I just want to end it all already. I just really want to go to heaven already. Its gotta be better than it is here right?
heaven will be better for you, but not now... when the time comes, only then, but not now. i know, because i suffer with these things, but i hold back my tears, and try to look straight, though i know i'll fail again, and fail again. then i get in my bed, crying in myself, though im trying to keep it in myself, but it is impossible, and then i say to myself: "i hate myself, im useless as shitty ass, am going to commit suicide, im going to borrow a glock or something, so i wont even feel the pain". then i fall asleep. i wake up with a clean head, everything is alright. then i try things again, and fail and fail again. im in a loophole, where i cannot escape. and i actually tried to commit suicide, i cannot keep it as a secret, i tried to cut my veins and then my throat, but i was only able to cut my veins, because it was painful to cut it anyways, and i couldn't continue it. see? everyone is in a shitty loophole, like me, a school dumbass fucker, who get blamed, because it exists, and does something. and guess what? im still living my worthless life. and im still trying to just unalive myself, untill i actually succesfuly do it. i dunno man... your time to be dead isnt here..
I read it whole and cried You don't have to be what someone else want You to be I know looking into the future might be hard right now for You, but someday you will meet the right people they will make You happier than you ever was help other in emotional need, try to be how kind You can to them and some of them will make You want to wake up You will probably get closer with people You know now too You will meet many more people in new schools or jobs and some of them will be amazing friends You have to show the world how good You really are You shouldn't compare yourself to brothers who had more time to achieve things and especially your father who had whole life more You are You One person achieve things earlier, one can bloom only later There are people who want You alive for sure, but just don't know You need to hear that Thank You, that you are still on this world and You don't have to have many friends, it is better to have a couple but good ones You aren't failure in any way too, even now, not many people can say they were in volleyball tournament! One thing I can assure You is that it is better that you are on this world than if you weren't You won't know what You will achieve and what amazing people You will meet, without seeing it with your own eyes You are amazing : )
Thank you, friend... I never wanted to be like this...I didn't want to limp, I didn't want to stare off into space, wake up in panic at night, or be unable to smile...I just wanted love, rest, family...What life gave me is beatings, bloodlust, inability to sleep or focus, and people who just gloss over everything that happens to me and then blame me for being hurt when I can't hold it in anymore. The only girl that understood is now gone. I loved that woman like she was my daughter, and I'm 20...she was there for me, supporting me even when everyone else cast me out as insane. She calmed me...I was finally able to focus, even the pain in my leg was slowly fading. I wanted to be stronger and better, for her. Cause she wasn't a fighter, like I am. She didn't even kill insects ffs. But now that she's gone...what's the point? I'm not needed anymore, nobody gives a shit, and when they do, it's because they wanna guilt trip you into doing their job for them. Nobody gives a damn about you falling apart unless they need you for a job, and then they blame you for not being indestructible. Home never felt like home...the hospital felt more like home...at least there the people pretended to care.
Piece by piece we all have to get our hearts back, If not for ourselves... Then for others, smile like it doesn't hurt. Grit your teeth through tears and swallow your screams in pain that wants to burst from your chest but don't loose yourself fighting the pain. If it gets to heavy, set down the weight of the world and hold yourself up for a day... stay safe
Hey bro, I'll remember you. I know it's difficult to tell someone "I love you" when we just met, but I genuinely hope you're doing okay. You've got this.
Ever listened to Father And Son by Cat Stevens? I know that feeling / situation well, it took years to feel anywhere close to ok. Even now, eight years later, I'm still not ok, but it's getting better
Nobody listens to me. I've turned into a ghost, it feels like everyone looks past or through me, never even taking a glance at me. Not even my parents pay attention to me anymore. All the time I feel like I'm just a disappointment. Here I am now, venting to more people that likely won't care. I'm a mistake. I shouldn't be here. I don't deserve to be on this earth. 17 years have I had this bottled up inside, I'm done. I'm done with everything. I'm done with life. Edit: Just talked with someone that actually did listen to me for once, I'm a bit better now.
Sometimes i feel like crying. Even if im not sad. I just want to. I dont want people to help me either because they dont understand. To whoever is reading this, enjoy life and love yourself as much as you can.❤
I understand you I'm here for you please don't make yourself sad. You are very and understand the little things in it. You precious and loved by everyone. Don't cry over small things and live life appreciate small things.
I'm God's loneliest man, medicines don't work and therapy doesn't make your problems go away, gym also doesn't make the loneliness fade... What awaits in front of me ? The pain in my chest crawls everyday, sometimes I don't even know why tears fall on my face. Having an old mental age is both a curse but also a blessing, thank her for still loving this misery guy.
Your not alone on that. Living the way i do is shitty, not feelings towards anything regardless of what it is… it sucks to have. I’m only in my 20’s and I’m wanting it to get better everyday, but not much is done at all for me personally besides keeping others happy
@@refreshingnoodle8118 Ay, it's been 6 months since I commented on this video and I saw your comment today. I know things are rough and difficult, even my status right now is not... much better. We have no other choice but more than living our best until our efforts are rewarded. Wishing you the best, stranger.
Life is hard.. But you are a warrior.. Look how many things you overcame from..don't give up..I know we are strangers but know that i care if that matters..you'll be okay.. I promise.
TW venting Rn I'm literally going through hell and I told my bestie what happened and she just ignored me and laughed with her sister. If something like this were to happen to her I'd be there for her. The reason why I'm going through hell is just so I can go to her birthday party. So yeah. But I still love her. I'll still love her till I die.
She looks like she's a little toxic, but if you love her, what can I say? It's a good thing if you will love her until you die, but I hope it will be in a very long time...
I'm so sorry your friend didn't seem to care about what you were going through. You sound like such a good friend and I hope you are doing better. Just know that you deserve good in this world.
i can totally feel it my man cuz i have experienced the same.Its bad for me to see someone go through it,the feelings of trying for nothing,all the things that we've done for her meant nothing. Sometimes we realise how pointless it is but we still going for it,and we don't even know why
When your struggling and hurting, nobody notices. They only seem to notice after you’ve gone insane or lost it. Because apparently that’s the only time it matters. They ignore your struggling and don’t seem to help you until you’ve struggled enough.
Gee, how lucky. Most of us men have never even had that much. I'm going to die alone without ever knowing the feeling of a comforting word or a loving touch.
wondering why you always see black when searching vent audios? It's because being depressed is physically being colorblind, no one knows when we will see how colorful the world is.
Honestly this perfectly captivated my inner turmoil. I use to want to grow up fast when I was younger but now that I’m older and is now struggling with all my responsibilities. The weight of it all on my own is hard and can be tiring. I had a stable job for awhile but things got worst this year so I’ve been struggling for a bit and I’ve been trying to think of things in a good way. But at times it can be hella suffocating and i start to dissociate these problems I have and sometimes my thoughts can be dark. This playlist help bring out how I felt so thank you.
To all my lads, gals, pals, and everyone in between suffering and in pain, to the people whose friends are fake and distant, whose parents neglect and abuse them, to those who are alone, making up scenarios to escape reality, those that haven't had a single friendly interaction in months, to you, that feels as if you aren't, never where and never will be anyone in this world because of the wounds and the pain and everything else: Live. Keep going, if only by spite, to tell those people that hurt you they're worth less than the air they breathe. Keep going, fellas. If nothing else, you'll get to make them fight to bring you down. That's my message to you, from someone whose indignation and spite kept them alive until now, despite everything. Carry on friends. Carry on.
It’s it getting worse it’s only getting better for me. I enjoy these songs and taking long drives listening to them. I’m in the Marine Corpse I don’t have any family left but I make the best of things. Hope y’all are having a great day. Someone cares for you.
i am just here. tired of life like any other guy needing some therapy like people always say i do i just am starting to feel like my body is tired of not caring about what others think. feeling like im getting more angry every day i get bullied or people making jokes about me sometimes i feel like people asking me if im ok are just jokingly doing that so i just say "yeah" and move on to starring at walls while listening to music or looking in some way depressive that make people ask me. i completely dont know what the hell i mean with all of the above but thats how i feel
i get that, i really do, and im so sorry you're going through that, no one should have to experience that, you especially. is there anything i can do? if you need to vent, i'll listen. if you need advice, i'll do my best to provide some. if you just need a friend, i'll be here❤i also hope you know that your feelings matter and they should never be pushed aside or invalidated or joked about bc it's really unhealthy. it's heartbreaking how much i see grades being prioritized over mental health nowadays, or just people being completely oblivious to some people that feel like they're dying on the inside and just need someone to care.
Friend: "How are you doing?" *Everyday seems to get worse, I don't even know whats wrong with me. My life really isn't that bad, but my mental health only seems to decline. I have friends yet I still feel crushed by overwhelming loneliness. Sometimes when I have the day off I'll just lay around in my home all day crying, I'm not even sure what about. Some days like today I don't even want to be alive. I feel so disconnected from people, like no one understands what I'm going through. Everyone else seems so happy. Maybe this is just a phase I need to get through, but it doesn't seem to be changing. I'm still young but I can sense that pattern of my life start to form. As you get older you start to change less and less. I'm probably going to feel like this the rest of my life. I don't even know if I can bare to feel like this tomorrow. I often think about how little difference it would make in peoples lives if I disappeared. I hold out hope that one day things will be better, that life will be worth living. That's the only reason I've stuck around. But that feels less and less like its going to happen. Sometimes I have a good day, enjoying the company of friends. Days like that remind me that there are still good things left. But it only makes it worse when I finally go back home alone. Nothing makes me realize just how lonely I am like hanging out with other people. I feel a pain in my chest often, but I know there is nothing medically wrong with me. That being said my constant anxiety and loneliness is probably going to shorten my lifespan significantly. Often it seems like its nothing at all that brings this pain on. I'll be doing just fine and then it flips like a switch. I overwork myself to try to distract from the pain, and also because I can't make ends meet with my shitty retail job unless I work a lot. Sometimes I have a few days off and that feels unbearable. When I have a free day I try to busy myself to avoid having to face the existentialist crisis waiting for me. I don't sleep enough, and I'm really not sure I can keep this up* Me: "I'm doing alright"
@@butterfly-lw2cy I mean a lotta days I'll feel pretty shitty, but then I'll talk to someone at the bar or something, and they'll give me a little encouragement. Today I met my manager there, and he told me I was doing good in my job, and a few people complimented my guitar playing. Really it doesn't take much to make me feel a bit better. But those things are so few and far between. But enough about me. How are you?
the title is so real like all of my friends are venting and stuff and i respond to them and my other friends respond to them and tell them its okay and help them out i always listen to their problems and stop them from unaliving theirselves but then when i go and vent NOBODY responds and they always ignore it and just vent right after me they don't even give a shit about me im starting to feel like they hate me more than i thought before like i always had this little urge that they all hate me i’ve had it since like last year but im scared to open up about it to them because i feel like they might just make fun of me right to my face or behind my back bc they probably already do talk shit about me when im not listening like they always hang out with each other but never ask me to come im always the last choice im left out all the time nobody even cares about me anymore and i cant tell my parents either bc they won’t believe me or they might send me to a mental hospital and to be honest im only 13 i don't wanna go there at least not yet i don't even have a therapist i most likely have autism and depression but if i say anything about it ill probably get lectured and i just wanna die sometimes like i physically and mentally cant take it anymore but i cant leave my friends bc they are like the only people i have and if i do they’ll probably say something about me i didn’t even do and get everyone i know to hate my guts even more than they probably do. damn i really just let that all out in a yt comment section.
I may be a stranger on the internet but I personally don’t hate you. I’ve read through your comment and from what I gathered you aren’t a terrible person. You sound hurt and hesitant to trust others because of how they treat you. I don’t know if things will get better for you in the future but I hope you find friends that will treat you right and pick you first. It’s also alright to not want to seek a therapist at a young age because honestly it isn’t for everyone. I don’t want to dig to far but if you ever need to talk I’m around even if I’m an old.
i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. have a great day :D
Thank you for writing this. It’s helped more people in more ways than you’d expect. Keep on keeping on friend, and remember the words you’ve said when times get tough. You got this. We all do 👍👍
It feels like no one appreciates me or the things I do. I do extra work, my family undermines it and tells me to do better. I act kind, I am taken advantage of and never treated the same. I wait for them to come back, I am left behind. I love someone, that love goes to waste. I try to hold a conversation, they get bored and interrupt me with their own subject. I'm done trying. No one wants to care? Fine. They'll get the same treatment.
i read everyone’s comments while repeating this playlist multiple times. I loved to read everyone’s vents. I hope everyone gets better. And even if you think no one cares,there’s always some who you have never even met,or probably won’t that care about you a lot. ❤️❤️
ur too scared to comfort it but its not embarrasing. U need to let it all out before its too late. ur so brave and strong.U made it to all of ur problems. U have to keep trying.
It’s funny because the way are parents or teachers don’t even care about are mental health and sometimes even are physical but when we’re alone it just feels better to think about what you want. And can imagine what it would feel like to go back to how we was when we were younger ( happy,kind, loving,never sad, never stressed and everything was Easy)
Sometimes I wish I jumped, sometimes I don't. Life's like a hill, you can't get ontop of one which reaches closer to the skies without going down the one you're standing on.
To be honest i think it took me so long to realize i have depression because i was never unhygienic And one of the big things people always say it they could brush there teeth ect but i simply never had a issue with that since being “unclean” always bothered me so i would keep clean.
in my opinion that is amazing that means you take care of yourself which many others don't you have the motivation to do, and you do so don't be sad be happy knowing that your here and many others gave up for reasons like yours yet you still go on and be great😸
I used to be like that. As of this writing, it's been a month since I've bathed. No motivation to do anything, while problems keep piling up. It's like drowning, slowly.
Okay, just incase anybody needed to hear this... i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love you even if you have insecurities i love your accomplishments i love you even if you have failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you even on sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stressed i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you act i love you even if you cry i love you when you're kind i love you even if you you're mean i love you even if you're alone i love you even if you can't feel i love you even if you feel too much i love you even if you can't take life anymore i love you even if you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you even if you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you even if you don't believe in yourself i love you even if you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you even if you have problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you even if you're in pain i love you even if you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love you even if you have wounds i love you even if you have scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you even if you lie i love you even if you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you even if you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you even if you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you even if you have headache i love you even if you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you're mature i love you even if you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you even if life isn't bright i love you when you're responsible i love you even if you're irresponsible i love you even if you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love even if your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
I had a time when I would vent to my bsf a lot of the nights i texted them, and now i’ve stopped as it’s getting worse, because i don’t want them to worry, they also have a bad life, tho if they noticed i would really need a conversation about this, but if i started i’d feel im doing it for attention.
Just got back on antidepressants and adhd meds a few days ago after forgetting to get another prescription. I was in a kinda minor depressive episode during that window of time. It still feels like it hasn't ended. I thought things would get better. A friend told me to give myself a few weeks for my brain to stabilize again. I cannot wait. It is still so difficult to take care of myself and my college assignments. It is only the beginning of the semester.
everything comes to an end. even if its been going for a few years, it will end. and when it ends something else will come. but that will end too. everything truly ends at death. live life to its fullest. because life ends as well. you have a lifetime to fix these problems. but will that take up too much time to enjoy life? life is weird. life is meaningless. but that doesnt stop people from enjoy it. i love you ❤
the last 4 years of my life have just been one big blur, only random memories scattered here and there. my memory is like a camera roll with no dates and everything is strewn out of order. nothing is making sense anymore. people will tell me they remember me, and tell me what i did to meet them, and how kind or caring i was, and i can only go based off of that. i dont remember them? who are they? i have no clue. i cant even remember my own name anymore, things are so far out of place it feels like nothing is real anymore. remembering old memories makes me sick. my stomach twists into a knot and i feel like im going to throw up. the silence is slowly killing me. i cant remember a time without it. what the ***hell*** have i gotten myself into?
Dear,...No one cares... what am i here for, hey family... no one actually cares or loves me, im always reading fanfiction about fictional characters comforting me.. the depressed, suicidal, manic, psychotic, delulu, yandere, silent, to myself kind of person and even then sometimes they dont care... what do i do anymore, do i finally do it and succeed, or do i keep myself alive for the pleasure of others bullying me, judging me, harrassing me, r@p1ng me, abusing me, why.. why should i stay i have no reason to. These playlists are the only thing that give me the motivation to get up so i can listen to them and read fanfic i barely even leave my room to eat, oh yeah did i mention my anorexia? no i didnt, i mean whats the point in living if not pretty and skinny with the. perfect. hourglass. body.? im constantly pointed out for my arms and legs or my wrists and neck getting nicknamed "the kid with scars over there." its pointless to stay... if you read this know i love you stranger.
i may not know you but i will be your friend please dont EVER give up don't let anyone that doesn't care about you get to you, the fact that your still here proves that you still believe there is more than giving up so even though i am a stranger i want you to put your trust in me i will listen to anything and everything you have to say
I’m so tired of life, I’ve sat here for so long wondering why I have to put up with all of this, I sit in bed every night wondering why my life is like this, I have trouble sleeping at night and I’m to afraid to tell anyone about my problems, I only sit there, isolated from my family, and they ask what is wrong, and I say I’m fine, I know they care but then they talk about me, they say I need to “get out of this introvertive stuff” eventually and they say that I need to be more productive but that’s because they don’t know what I feel, my friends understand me more then my own family, and honestly… I don’t think I can take this much more, I don’t think anyone really cares anymore, my own family basically hates me, and all of my friends are slowly drifting away, there are only a few people who have stayed, and to them I say thank you.
I feel left out of the grupo. they always used me for something if i ask they ignore me and sometimes i feel i want to cry rn at school .and i keep overthinking something.and i always feel like im back again like it was 6years ago. When i was 5 and 4 years old agirl name bingki and emari they are older then me were neirbors and they always bully me i did nothing to them and i cry and cry bc of them. im always alone i only play with my self bc theres no kid what to be my friend bc i will never fit in.and im shocked that i said this . And i what to be perfect pretty smart pupulor and top 1 and honor i want that but that will never happend
I'm so scared! I'm am scared to let my anger issues grow.i had hurt a lots of people.most of them where my friends.and now I don't even have my sister to talk with. I miss here so much. I wanna be back a kid. It's been already 5 years since we didn't get to see each other. We live our lives but for me, love is needed really much.
anyone else here cause they just love melancholy and dreamy music and not cause they are sad? sometimes you just need to listen to this stuff to relax, with the rain drops on the side of your window with a good book and some hot chocolate maybe.
I remember my times but im finally being freed but unfortunately some people still suffer, some even never experienced freedom or such more. Its hard to understand each other but you'll eventually understand them and everything Im not really free yet but i feel it
that's amazing that you managed to improve yourself many others cant but if you still feel something you want to get off your chest i will listen and if you want i can be a friend
I care and don't you ever flipping forget that! Do you hear me! Now go drink some water, hydration is key! Do Not Underestimate Me Because those that abandoned you are dumb! And this isn't me projecting! I Will Not Let You Give The Heck Up! Have a lovely day and make friends, because there are people who love you out there! I will die forgotten and I know that You won't So pick yourself up and move on, because as Physics has taught me There is nothing without movement and energy So go be the best you! If you need support, remember, countless people love you, even if you don't know it! Now, who's with me!!!
For around 4 years I’ve been depressed, people always say i’m a bad influence on people, and I, myself agree. I slit my wrists there and then and told nobody, nobody at all, my online friends, parents and my rl friends. For 2 years i’ve had a porn addiction, around 3 weeks ago i’ve been successful to stop that addiction. Now all I need to do is overcome depression, I don’t talk to anybody about this, I only work out and carry on. Even when something traumatic happens, I just move on and think about it sometimes. But all I do is drown it out with the thoughts of me finally being happy, but no, I can’t even be happy because i’m addicted to my phone. I argue alot online and real life, I even fight sometimes. But online is different, nobody can see me, see my age, my gender, the pain I go through, anything. I usually just go online to fight people, I don’t know why. I have some friends that have the same problem as me but alot less serious, I help them go through it and endure the pain. I make them happy and make them laugh, 4 weeks ago I helped one of my friends get over her mom’s death. But usually a week later they unfriend me and forget me. But I always remember that I helped them, it doesn’t help that much but atleast it helps. You know what, I’ll even do it right now, I’ll help you. Whatever you’re going through, I will help you. Always remember that you are loved, cared for and acknowledged. You will never be forgotten, no matter what. Whatever you’re going through, I’m sure it’s alot more serious than my problem. I will help you with whatever you’re going through, I will care for you.
I know this is late, but it’s okay to want help too. You’re respectable for helping people even when you’re barely holding it together. You’re problems are just as important as mine or anyone else’s and you don’t need to feel bad about ranting because it can be difficult to get feelings across. I’m just a stranger on the internet but I if you ever see this you’re doing a good job improving yourself and that’s all that matters. If you ever need someone to talk to as well I’m around since I’m criminally online as well lol.
Oh- Hiya hun! Didn't see ya there. How have you been? Like, really. Not how you want to be or force yourself to seem. You, and your true feelings. I want to hear about em, because you know what? I'm here for you, especially if your having a rough time. I love you. I know I'm just some stranger on the internet, but I genuinely care for you. I care for you, your life, how your doing. I see you, and your struggles. Your tears, your forced smiles, your scars and way your eyes drift to the floor when you finally have a moment to put your mask down. I hear you. Your sobs, the thoughts and whispers in your head, your sad sighs and your silent cries for help. I may not be able to understand exactly, but I can empathise with you. And I'm sure you will find, my friend, that we have more in common than you know. I don't have to be a friend or a therapist, but I am still here as an open ear. A person who will listen to you and anything you need to say. Use your voice, and if you cant muster one up, I will give you mine. Feel more than welcome to vent in the comments if you feel you want or need to! If not, here are some activities or things ya could do if you need to get your mind of things- or even just to chill! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ❤Binge watch a show!- If you have Netflix, click the 'Play Something' shuffle button and it'll find you a random show or movie to watch :0 Give a new film or series a go. If its not your jam, click the button again! If you haven't got Netflix but something like Prime, Plex, Disney+ etc, maybe watch Moana :D Its rando, I know, but it always seems to make me feel a lil happier. If not Moana, they'll be a light-weigh comedy out there hun! ❤Read a book!- If your a book-worm, this will be especially fun! Settle into a book, whether new, already read, or half-read. If your not a fan of books, maybe a Magazine or Newspaper would be a lil better? Talking about newspapers.... ❤Make a collage!- You will need: Scissors (Doesn't have to be too sharp! Blunt scissors work as well), a newspaper or magazine, a A4 sheet of anything (Paper, magazine page, etc) and a glue stick or PVA! Cut out some funky dunky patterns, animals, objects or words from your chosen media and stick them onto your sheet base to make a beautifully layered masterpiece :) ❤Play a game! - Whether a puzzle or a video game, games are a fun and engaging way of keeping ya mind busy and entertained! Get comfy, get a drink, sit back and play a game! I find Minecraft especially relaxing, and there's some cool free games on Steam if you need game ideas! P.S. Playing with others can be equally as enjoyable. Invite a buddy or a family member to join ya :D Now hun, I'm going to go. But you best remember: You are amazing, you are strong. You have made it this far which is FANTASTIC may I just say. I am so deeply proud of you hun. I'm here for you. Bai bais!
I used to have a bff and then she manipulated me and told me to kill ms 2 years ago and 3 months ago she made fun of me for not having a mom because she died, i just have the best life don't i 😊
NEVER EVER let anything anyone else has to say get to you, she is not a good person and i may be a stranger but we can be friends if there is anything else you want to talk about i will listen
The last one... My mom died earlier this year, I have been keeping my feelings bottled up because I have a little brother and I have to stay strong for him...
please don't bottle it up, it only hurts and makes it worse in the long run. at the very least, write down or even type out how you feel, listen to loud music, just something to help you release those emotions.
I just want to be enough for people but I’m just a disappointment, Haven’t I given enough? Or am I not enough? Or do you need more from me? Because I can try to give more but everyone has pushed me too much, like a leach sucking all of the blood out of a fish. I’ve pushed myself too far trying to look good, for people to like me, for people to compliment me, for people to stop physically/mentally draining me, so I could stop crying myself till it feels like my cuts are open again, so I could feel happy. Its been 9 years since I’ve actually felt genuine happiness. Ever since I’ve started school, Ive been the ugly duckling, and I’ve been trying to evolve into the beautiful swan, but it looks like I’ve stopped growing. Looks like I’ve just have to give up.
I just would like to say that you have gone through he'll and I'd like to say I can understand but that is a shitty response and i would say "shit gets better" but sometimes it doesn't and that's the hard part and I've been at a point in my life where I was just like "should I just give up?" But I didn't because making people happy makes me happy. So please try your hardest to stay and i hope to God that this message gets through to you and that you are home safe, have a good rest of your day.
To all the fellas in this comment section, i was like you once. I thought reality was never going to be fun and I lived in scenarios made in my head. But guess what? It gets better, eventually. How? I don't know, dude, you are the one who should. Just keep living, keep seeking the answers and never stop maturing. Eventually, you will work things out. Don't worry you will make it someday.
The Duality of man... Without him I never would've been happy and would've died of cancer without a single happy moment, but if I never met him I wouldn't already feel dead right now. Godspeed to those still out there surviving.
its scary irl but ik you got this and am proud of u you got this your smart and so cool you can do it even if u think u cant u can and am proud of u even if it hurts right now and if your not in a safe state to be with others i get that and u can be yourself and tell someone u trust or find someone your amazing and SO kind and your not getting the right treatment if your like this but its ok am always here for u
Every day I smile and laugh like it's normal. But the truth is, because I'm bipolar 1 I constantly feel afraid of myself. Because the switch between genuine happiness, and planning my own death can be a matter of a few seconds. Coming down from a psychotic episode and feeling the horror set in that I acted so irrationally. People who love me don't care because I don't release my anger or take these feelings out on others, but the thing is, I'm afraid someday, I'll have a moodswing like that... and do the ultimate thing to hurt someone. Forcing my mother to bury her only child. I'm scared of myself and I'm scared of every single other person. Scared knowing that sometimes I lose my grip on reality or on what matters. Sometimes I wonder if I even feel anything or if Im copying emotions and responses to trauma from movies or books. Because it's honestly so fucked up in my head that it feels theatrical, like I'm acting instead of genuinely feeling anything, like... nobody's life can possibly be this bad. Nothing from the past can possibly hurt this much. Nobody is this damaged because of what happened to them as a child. I feel like I have nobody to talk to about the intensity of all of this because I don't want to scare people. But then when I talk about good things I feel like I'm bragging and making my friends jealous Thank you for taking some time to listen to a stranger.
Im the same way my family sees me as a silly boy always making jokes and smiling being goofy but im not the same little guy i once was everyday i wake up to the same loop over and over and so i sleep somtimes to distract myself and when i have a good dream i cherish it while i can and wake up feeling nothing as that happy dream slipped away from me and so i take cold showers and burst emotion randomly somtimes im happy because im sad or im sad because im happy i feel lonly and as if everyone sees me with a mask i dont feel like accomplishing school work because its all bullshit im 13 years old my mentel age is that of a young adult and i see things in a different perspective than others if not afraid of talking about self harm topics im usualy happy when bad things happen i dont know why i take it all so lightly i know its bad but i feel like iv seen it for millions of times already its useless to me all my emotion has been spent and her i lay on my bed at 11.56 pm with n9n of my school work done waiting for this damn loop to restart and the next day guess what my friend its the same thing i wont give you a happy messege at the end of this decussion because iv jeard it too meny times my brains gon numb from it all this world is breaking the youth is being corrupted by saten we dont care for our planet we show no remorse for the starving and war torn countrys we only consume and give all the benifits to ourselfs and only a few not even a handfull of us who see the world as it is not hidden by sunshine and happy smiles fall to the void of it and the ones who do survive we are seen a lunatics and crazy peiple needing a mentel health docter to help us its all fake my friend i onow how it feels and im still feelung im only 13 years of age and i see it u see you and every9ne else whos rotting 8nsude belive me if i see you in real life id give you a big hug not for you but for me and alittle for you i feel the emotions you do all in a matter of seconds it changes im happy now i want to kill im sad and now im grinning like the joker i understand to a point were i stop all connectiob from the outside and take long showers were im at peace hearing the drops fall il leave you with this my friend i believe thrirs a answer to it all not suicide thats the short way out and you wont go to pqradise thats for sure so take it all k owing your not the only one being pursecuted by this filthy world il carry on whith this paun inside of my chest you too so dont give me upand niether will if i lose it all slip and fall i will never give it up till i die.
Okay, I give this playlist an 8.5 out of 10 because all the songs were really good. But a lot of these don't really have anything to do with the title which is why I took away 1.5. The comments are also corny as hell, bugt what can you even expect? it's a vent playlist afterall.
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love you even if you have insecurities i love your accomplishments i love you even if you have failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you even on sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you act i love you even if you cry i love you when you're kind i love you even if you you're mean i love you even if you're alone i love you even if you can't feel i love you even if you feel too much i love you even if you can't take life anymore i love you even if you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you even if you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you even if you don't believe in yourself i love you even if you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you even if you have problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you even if you're in pain i love you even if you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love you even if you have wounds i love you even if you have scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you even if you lie i love you even if you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you even if you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you even if you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you even if you have headache i love you even if you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you're mature i love you even if you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you even if life isn't bright i love you when you're responsible i love you even if you're irresponsible i love you even if you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love even if your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. No need to be happy, no need to be thankful, and especially no need to be sad! Everyone has bad times and memories. Just remember: dont hurt yourself because of what *they* think, if you need to, vent here! i promise to protect and comfort anyone the max i can
I dont know when, but ive given up. Tried Therapy, didnt get me anywhere but frustrated. Tried forcing myself to socialise, kind of worked. The people i know never saw what i really am. I tried to show them but something is keeping me from opening up. Im pretty sure i still have the mental scares of opening up from years earlier. I feel miserable every day but i still go to work like everyone. I still go out sometimes, like everyone but i still feel miserable. The times where i felt happy were so short. My hope is that i one day find love but seeing everyone already finding their 3. or 4. girlfriend isnt keeping my hope high. One day i will lose my last hope, im no longer scared of that day. Every time i write my emotions down, im telling myself that this is the normal state of living, that im overreacting but i just dont want to feel this way anymore, even though i hardly know life to feel any different. I just dont know what to do so i just keep going day after day after day after day. I have failed myself, there is nothing i can do anymore to fix it without faking myself again. Im sorry u had to read my vent
if your reading this message, you'll find happiness and closure. your cursed now, you will find yourself. just keep trying. (is it a curse if its positive?)
You are an incredible person, and I understand that it can be hard to push yourself to open up. It's okay, I know I can't really be saying this, but try and find someone you're really comfortable with, open up with them. Stay safe, I hope you have an amazing life.
After playing this playlist so many times I realize that each song has an encouraging phrase, I am grateful a thousand times for finding this playlist, I hope that anyone who is going through difficult times can also find the ray of sunshine that guides them to a better place.
Try. Keep trying, not matter what, keep on trying. We know when we stop trying, life got worse. So please, lets keep on trying. - my mantra. I forget my orignal saying, however i wanted to share this here. Keep trying even if it hurts, take time to have a break, then try again, when you get stronger, try your best, itnmay not be like others best but its yours. Have faith in your perserverance. Adapt, change, it will suck but thats the way of life, and maybe youll gain persepctive and have a deeper appreciating for what life has to offer. Take care, i will be here with my own life trying my best, even though im still tired.
I used to have awful depression, now I’m mostly just an indifferent nihilist that sees no point to anything in the real world. If it wasn’t for books, music, games and animals, I don’t think I would have anything at all.
the title sure is relatable. my (only) friend doesn't see anything wrong with me or how I stay silent most of the day my sister hits me and nobody notices, if someone did, they didn't do anything to stop her my parents are starting to involve me in things I don't want to be involved in (arguments, fights, competitions for something I'm really bad at) my brother gets mad at me for something I didn't do my little brother keeps saying I'm a terrible and self centered person (although I'm not) my teachers scold me for doodling although Kurt gets to do it without getting scolded I always think I'm the reason why people are negative (fighting, sad, angry, etc.) what did I even do..?
this reminds me on Buddhism because I been through all of this and still am as it never leaves your life but I learned to be able to walk through the pain and it's effects are becoming less and less. So never give up and you can achieve anything you want even if everyone pushes you down. You have full control but it's painful AF to use. Trust me, you're strong enough to get through anything.
timecodes for really:
young vacations 0:00-3:10
twin cabins - swing lynn 3:10-8:32
radiohead - no surprises 8:32-12:19
bo burnham - goodbye 12:19-16:29
❤ awesome 💯😎👍 sauce 😊❤❤❤😢😅😊
anyone notice?
young vacations - 0:00 - "everything will be ok"
twin cabins - swing lynn 3:10 - "you're too strong to give up now"
radiohead - no surprises 8:32 - "you just need to let go"
bo burnham - goodbye 12:19 - "everything that you felt is okay"
I fuckin love Swing Lynn, thanks for including them
It was in a tough spot and when I read the top it of twin cabin swing lynn it felt good
nah bro its impossible for no one to care about you, because at the end of the day you still have.. yourself, as long as you have you, you are okay. take care of yourself fellow strugglers, and I damn near know ill see you all there someday.
You know you're going through it when someone asks "Are you alright?" And you don't know how to answer but you say yes anyways.
Are you sure your ok i may be a stranger but i ask you put your trust in me i will listen to anything and everything you have to say
i just berak down into tears
Exactly
@@ValinaBee ikr
I wish someone whold ask me if im alright
You know whats nice? You feel like it finally ended. A good couple of weeks pass without you feeling anything bad. You just live life for a bit. And then it hits. Again and again and again and again. 🙂👍
Don’t let it get to you, just wait for the moment when you feel at peace again :)) sending virtual hugs
Wait you get breaks 😐
@@lucaslyng2875 not anymore. Nope. Not anymore. I think i might just do it. You know? I dont matter at all infact im making everything worse
@@lucaslyng2875 WE ARE THE SAME. I STABBED MYSELF WITH A PEN WHEN I WAS 5 AND FROM THEN ON I ONLY FELT LIKE KILLING MYSELF
@ihaveabunda don't do what I think your gonna do, most people don't want to di3 and I know you just want there to be peace but ending your life won't bring you peace. If there's only one reason for you to live, live for hope, hope that it'll get better, that when your older or when things get atleast a little better you'll get away from the place making you sad. That you'll make all your dreams come true even if it's just one, that you'll be happy to be happy just by yourself because then that'll be enough. Because you'll truly be in a happy place to be happy. So please, please don't do it and let this be a sign that with hope and will you can and will get out of it. I know because when things hit rock rock bottom for me and hope was all I could feed myself to feel atleast a little bit happy it did get better, even if it took a long while it gets better. Everyday do a little something more than yesterday, it could be throwing away one piece of trash or eating some food, it could be a short walk or a long one. Just everyday, one step at a time, do something to get your mind off the sadness and hurt. It could be anything, drawing too. I hope my words meant something to you and I hope you'll atleast be comforted by a strangers word because I Love You and always will because no one truly deserves to be hurt or sad. Everyone deserves Love big or small🩵 so
I Love You❤️
“My child is fine!” Yeah fine, they make up scenarios to escape from the world and stay in there room all day and when they come out there gloomy and don’t speak to anyone. Parents need to realize that just because you say your fine doesn’t mean your fine and when you get emotional over small things it’s not because your a baby it’s because you’re going through something it hurts when no one even thinks to ask if your going through something and need comfort. Hope anyone that sees this has an amazing life.✨
never thought that a skeleton who's currently getting his soul ripped out could give such great advice..
@@BatmanrealG lol, thanks I hope your life is going well and if it isn’t just remember that no matter what your problems aren’t a burden to anyone feel free to use this comment as a shelter. :)
@@miahjohnson3178 thanks. i'm tired of people telling me i'm not what i call myself. whenever i tell someone what's really going on and how i feel about myself, they always say "that's wrong" or "that's not true". i wish they'd just try to understand me instead of giving me an easy lie. anyways, verbalase is live and ima join his stream. i'll reply to ur replies when i get the chance.
they dont realize ever i remember when my parents found my sh cuts they yelled at me which made me do it more
The one thing I want to tell my sister, mom and dad (not my brother, he's to young...) " I want to end it... end it all... all of it... before I fully go insane...." ( I have mental problems and no one knows except my mom but she won't spend the money so I can get it all treated and I just kinda stopped asking when I'm going in to see if I need the treatment which I know for a fact I do.) My favorite quote: every kid needs a parent but not every parent needs a kid....
It's scary that I'm starting to release my anger and my needs. I realised how selfish i am becoming and how childish i was acting. I can't really talk about it to anyone, i tried but it seems that I'm the problem all the time that i was inconsiderate and overreacting... it's scary that I'm thinking no one or even family can listen to me, I'm so sorry that i used this amazing video's comment section to vent. Thanks, the playlist helps me calm down.
That's how i feel exactly right now...Currently in a dispute with a few close friends and it seems no matter I say or do I'm in the wrong and everything I've done before is apparently wrong and hunted them so badly but they don't even consider the things they say or have done has hurt me as well it may sound selfish but I'm tired of this im tired of fighting just to lose One part of me wants to work through this but the other half wants to give up because what's the point?
Sorry for just dumping that out :")
@@tireddxenowhile yes. Things are bad now. Giving up isn't an answer. Hell that's just giving them what they want. So why not keep fighting on? Even if it's just outta spite ^^
(I am not saying to do things to be mean or rude. Just keep going on for the people who do care.)
@@tireddxenoSome people feel bad about what we do or what we say without even trying to understand why we are acting a certain way and when they hurt us they don't care or don't feel empathy enough to do something about it or to understand that they did hurt us too. It's like everything is our fault no matter what but I believe there's people that tries to do their best. Sometimes we don't get along even if it's friends or family, sometimes it gets better but sometimes we just need to take a break for ourselves, we do need to be a little selfish but it's to be able to think of what we really want and if our relationships should be this way or not, it affects us a lot and we should not give up because we should live for ourselves and for the littles things we can enjoy
I changed because of school. I made good friends but it emotionally killed me when my friends became friends with bullies. They started to turn on me, (some) but they manage to act like their my favorite friends. But they thought that we were just friends. But I let my wrath overcome me on the last days of school. I changed into a whole different person and wanted justice. As soon as my friends started picking on me, I try to push him to the ground. But he doesn't do shit ignoring me. I watch him as he just talks: "Woah! who pushed me!" "I think it was a FAG." I looked at everyone else who bullied me, and started ordering them to give me a apology. I watched as staff walked in, and then escorted me out. They thought I was the problem but they were. Good ending, The bullies stopped being asshats and ordered him to give me a apology. He soonly did and we became friends again.
I feel the same way, like I'm the problem. I feel like people only hang around bc they feel bad for me. I don't know anymore
I wanted to start a game to see how much time they will realise that I don't feel well and it's not like me to be depressive. It's been 4 years. Even my bff didn't notice that I need help to open to someone
That's really sad. I'm sorry no one has noticed how much suffering you are in. I hope you are able to get therapy and be happy :)
You can do it. You can get happy again. I wish you the best with prayers 💜💕💗(≡^∇^≡)
maybe the only way for them to realize is for you to SHOW them, or tell them. Some people are kind of stupid, and don't often realize when stuff is going on. Or maybe you're good at pretending you're okay, then they obviously won't realize anything. Maybe you have tried to make it obvious, but people can't read minds. Some people can't read faces. You can't just expect people to immediately know somethings wrong. You have to tell them. You have to show them. As hard as that may be, but you have to. If you want help, that is.
The funny thing is my bff knows and told me to kms 😂 it’s funny isn’t it
@@Cherry.0. maybe she thinks you are not serious
@@aaaXD263 They know. At least in my case, they know. They just don't want to deal with it
First it was depression.. then I realised I had autism and ADHD.. then my family stopped trying to keep me safe, started just.. attacking me emotionally for the smallest things.
Now all my friends tell me they're busy when I want to hang out with them.. yet they're actively hanging out with other people...
I suck at making new friends and I just feel.. completely exhausted..
fed up with waking up every day..
as I get older meeting people has gotten harder and harder.. everyone my age is either an asshole or busy with work..
no one makes any time for me.. it just keeps getting worse but no one cares..
I sit on the edge of my roof now.. every night, just.. looking over the edge as the sun sets..
we may not know each other but i can be your friend never EVER let what anyone else has to say get to you if you think what your doing is correct then trust and if you want to make friends even though it may be hard try but like i said even though we dont know each other i will be your friend😸
everything will be okay i believe in you you are amazing even after all that you are still standing you can make it
My parents see that im not ok. They saw that for all these years. Ive tried to commit suicide for 9 years, 10 in making. They do not. Give. A. Shit. And whenever i dont understand something they blame me. I dont know if i have an attention deficit but i cant focus. Its just hard
This stuff just feels like it happens. We just deal with it somehow yknow
if you need a freind i can be one for you if you want one.
Honestly I'm just so tired. Literally. I could sleep all day and night. I just....
I feel fed up with the way my my friends getting annoyed with me.
The way I feel feel like there's a hole in my chest when I realise I am alone. I always will be. I bottle things up till I feel like it's overflowing. Im honestly kinda surprised I'm writing this. I wanna be skinny and pretty and happy. ..... But I cant. And it hurts. I wanna sleep. Feel the comfort of someone holding me as I drift into a realm where I don't feel the hole in my heart.
It gets easier to live with as time goes by... I'm sorry but we just get better at hiding our emotions... So from stranger to stranger... Be safe please
Me too.
I to just want to fell a hug and feel good whid my body, Im gonna be real...I feel jealos( I think I write It wrong) of other's, to how they body look and how they are loved by many, IT makes me angry, sad and all fucked up.
honestly my friends think I'm annoying, but I don't really care all i know is that there is something better down the road so stay strong and wait for a blessing to come into your life just ignore all the haters they just want to bring you down with them.
I wish I could give you a hug because I've experienced that before, Anyways hope you get better soon
The feeling of not being physically alone but lonely inside always gets me
Are you ok?
@@themangle-laggle I am, just missed being with friends that are away from where I live. Thnx for checking up on me tho :)
@@skuji1118 you can still contact em though, right?
"I don't mind being alone, it's the being lonely part that gets me."
@@RemiliasRealHusband how are you?
To all the friends who told me "let's hang out during the summer" thanks for making me think you liked me. Now all i have is a toxic relationship and no friends, right when I need them.
I may be a stranger but i will be your friend i will listen to anything and everything you have to say and if you feel lonely if you play video games we can play even if not we can talk or do anything but i ask that you trust me when i say i will be your friend
@@Beautifulworld928 man never get an answer, i hope this person (the one who put the comment) dont answer you cuz idk, things, but not what i am thinking
Keep going please. Look at how far you've come, don't stop now.
You aren't a bad person. Sometimes you just have a hard time fighting your issues, and that's okay! It's okay to be upset, but what's not okay is letting those feelings control you. I believe in you. I see something special in you. A spark, a small spark. It's small, but it's there. And that spark? It's hope. Hope that maybe sometime, somehow, someway, everything will be just fine. You are loved. You are cared about. Don't listen to the people who try to bring you down. I love you, and I'm proud of you for continuing despite how hard things are. Trust me, it really does get better. I've gone through some things myself. It may take awhile for things to get better, but you'll make it. I believe in you. Not everyone has someone to be there to pick them up from things that knock them down, and that's okay, because I'll be there for them. There for you so you can have a helping hand to bring you back up. Everyone's special, and their problems don't make them any less human than anyone else.
Thank you for reading.
Now get some rest.
Thank you for writing this
I dont wanna cry but this made my night while listening to this thank you
I don't know what to say, I've never had anyone to talk to that would listen, or anyone who cares as much as some stranger on the internet. Thank you so much for writing this, I wish you the best life.
-Some stranger who loves you
@@lexismith389 Ofc, anytime! I hope everything goes great for you as well :)
@@saydii_ Thank you!
I wish someone would help me but I won't reach out.
I feel selfish for wasting time on my silly little issues.
Even if its hurting me to hide all of what I've have and are going through.
I wish you a good luck
same
I must admit, the emptiness and the tight feeling in my chest never dissapears, and instead gets even worse each day. My friends are getting more and more distant and are not even scared to plan their own plans withouteven asking me if i want to go since they know I'm free all day and have nothing to do. My other best friend has gotten fed up with my classroom group that she's getting jealous, talking shit about them. We barely talk to each other, but when she comes over, I'm happy but still can't help but want her to go away. These people are the only friends I have, but it feels like I don't fit in anymore. My best friend has different personality and likes different things, while also having completely different opinions on stuff, and in my friend group, it's mainly series, actors, movies, or social medias I don't know. My thinking is different, and I'm not scared to say I've reached a way higher mental age than my biological age..
My different way of thinking is destroying all I value, and I've been rejected by a crush I liked for some time now..
Sorry for using this comment section for venting..
I know i may be a stranger but i will be your friend so please i ask that you put your trust in me and i will listen to anything and everything you have to say
its gonna be alright ....(honestly im starting to doubt that) shit goes on never ending
Don't be sorry for venting, it's normal, especially during this age. I've been rejected by a crush before, so I can relate to you, hell I've been through a lot of the same shit, but don't lose out on hope just yet. I may be lost, but I won't allow you to be lost as I am. Hang in there stranger. And don't worry about me. I'll be alright, we all will.
In this generation, people romanticize mental illnesses, they also influence the children…
The world is complicated, and that’s okay. You can take your time to understand it
thank you for taking time to make others feel better god bless and or let Allah be with you 😸
I'm stealing this comment
@@Pholoxo 🤨
atleast romanticizing it turns it into a kind of "good" thing, i'd much rather see it as some desirable fun "quirky" thing that well- being mentally fucked up and miserable with no way to ever fix it because this world doesn't care for mental health at all, lying to yourself is honestly a good way to get by, why not romanticize everything that's wrong, there's nothing else to like honestly
@@twistedreality997 that's your opinion, but it affects those learning and still growing. Would you want those younger than you to think having social anxiety is good and something they should force them to have?
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
I wish I could love
i need this, that is what love should be... partners friends etc.. but it wears thin when its not believed etc and they dont return it and hurt u consistently on top of it.. and u feel terrible u couldnt keep up
I'm proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water,
I'm proud of you for being here.
I'm proud of you for being you.
I'm proud of you for smiling.
I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU.
We are proud of you too
You are really a good person
I think its nice seeing these comments even thiugh they dont help me out, its still nice
thank you
Thank you so much for this comment, I needed it!
okay but why did this literally make me tear up?
I am currently laying in my bed, barley awake and my eyes filled with tears, I have so much to live up to in my family, my oldest brother went to collage for his favorite sport, baseball, and my other brother has won worlds fittest 15 year old, 16 year old, and 17 year old in the crossfit games. my father has a very very high paying job because hes a heart doctor. And im just a 14 year old kid sitting in his bed, watching anime, not doing anything. Sure I play volleyball, but only my mom shows up to my tournaments, and the only reason she goes is because I couldn't find a ride to take me up there. I am the family disappointment. My oldest brother is good with kids and has a job tis summer at kanakuk kamps, he is a great person and has so many friends. My other brother is the crossfit guy he is very spiritually invested in what he does and he has all the positive personality traits you can think of. Meanwhile im a little freshman with anger issues, am rude even though I dont mean to be. My girlfriend broke up with me about 4 months ago, I just started talking to her again, trying to be friends with her again. But she chronically ghosts me for days. I have 0 close friends that I can talk to about my mental health issues. Back about a year and a month ago i was on a vacation to Florida with one of my friends. in the middle of the night I went and stepped up on the balcony off of the 3rd floor. seconds after I sent my goodbye text to my only close friend back then she called me and talked me out of killing myself, sometimes I regret not jumping but I try to think positively, But its so god damn hard when I have all of these expectations to live up to. I just want to take a warm bath and disappear and get erased from reality. But sadly things like that haven't been invented yet. And I haven't even talked grades yet. Im by far the dumbest sibling, while Im tied with my middle brother in iq and the oldest is 2 points below me they are far far more smart than me. My oldest brother is learning architecture and my middle brother is learning and studying the bible, both of them have straight a's in all classes, but I score A-'s and b's And my mom scolds me because Ive decided to give up on this outdated and retarded school system that Im supposed to learn from. My life has turned to shit. I was doing good for about 3 months, but then it all came back to me. I haven't told any family members any of my problems because my brothers would make fun of me or use it as ammo in conversations. and my parents would either tell me to shake it off or think its a joke and that im not actually struggling. all my friends in my life are starting to get jobs and im stuck here writing my sad life story on a computer with tears blurring my vision at 1:21 AM. I just want to die already. my "friends" I've known for 10+ years at this point have turned their backs on me and have started doing stuff without me. I get a pain in my chest when I see on their story's them hanging out playing minigolf or whatever they do. I obviously wouldn't know what they would do because im never invited. I mean for gods sake one of them arranged a spikeball tournament with 40+ people my age. He barely even talks to half the people he invited, he didn't even check if i was open or anything. It hurt so much because when school was in session my friends would be like "im so excited for the tournament today!" right Infront of my face. Then I ask them questions and they always say "you aren't in the gc?" no, no im not, because nobody notices me anymore. I've become invisible to half the people that I see now. I just want to end it all already. I just really want to go to heaven already. Its gotta be better than it is here right?
I read everything that you wrote, and that is my conclusion:
Yes, it will be better, one day
It'll all be okay. I'm here if you need to talk
heaven will be better for you, but not now... when the time comes, only then, but not now. i know, because i suffer with these things, but i hold back my tears, and try to look straight, though i know i'll fail again, and fail again. then i get in my bed, crying in myself, though im trying to keep it in myself, but it is impossible, and then i say to myself: "i hate myself, im useless as shitty ass, am going to commit suicide, im going to borrow a glock or something, so i wont even feel the pain". then i fall asleep. i wake up with a clean head, everything is alright. then i try things again, and fail and fail again. im in a loophole, where i cannot escape. and i actually tried to commit suicide, i cannot keep it as a secret, i tried to cut my veins and then my throat, but i was only able to cut my veins, because it was painful to cut it anyways, and i couldn't continue it. see? everyone is in a shitty loophole, like me, a school dumbass fucker, who get blamed, because it exists, and does something. and guess what? im still living my worthless life. and im still trying to just unalive myself, untill i actually succesfuly do it. i dunno man... your time to be dead isnt here..
Rooting for you
I read it whole and cried
You don't have to be what someone else want You to be
I know looking into the future might be hard right now for You, but
someday you will meet the right people
they will make You happier than you ever was
help other in emotional need, try to be how kind You can to them and some of them will make You want to wake up
You will probably get closer with people You know now too
You will meet many more people in new schools or jobs and some of them will be amazing friends
You have to show the world how good You really are
You shouldn't compare yourself to brothers who had more time to achieve things and especially your father who had whole life more
You are You
One person achieve things earlier, one can bloom only later
There are people who want You alive for sure, but just don't know You need to hear that
Thank You, that you are still on this world
and You don't have to have many friends, it is better to have a couple but good ones
You aren't failure in any way too, even now, not many people can say they were in volleyball tournament!
One thing I can assure You is that it is better that you are on this world than if you weren't
You won't know what You will achieve and what amazing people You will meet, without seeing it with your own eyes
You are amazing : )
Thank you, friend...
I never wanted to be like this...I didn't want to limp, I didn't want to stare off into space, wake up in panic at night, or be unable to smile...I just wanted love, rest, family...What life gave me is beatings, bloodlust, inability to sleep or focus, and people who just gloss over everything that happens to me and then blame me for being hurt when I can't hold it in anymore. The only girl that understood is now gone. I loved that woman like she was my daughter, and I'm 20...she was there for me, supporting me even when everyone else cast me out as insane. She calmed me...I was finally able to focus, even the pain in my leg was slowly fading. I wanted to be stronger and better, for her. Cause she wasn't a fighter, like I am. She didn't even kill insects ffs. But now that she's gone...what's the point? I'm not needed anymore, nobody gives a shit, and when they do, it's because they wanna guilt trip you into doing their job for them. Nobody gives a damn about you falling apart unless they need you for a job, and then they blame you for not being indestructible. Home never felt like home...the hospital felt more like home...at least there the people pretended to care.
Piece by piece we all have to get our hearts back, If not for ourselves... Then for others, smile like it doesn't hurt. Grit your teeth through tears and swallow your screams in pain that wants to burst from your chest but don't loose yourself fighting the pain. If it gets to heavy, set down the weight of the world and hold yourself up for a day... stay safe
I'm somewhere at the point where if my dad tells me "I love you" I'm starting to cry
im somewhere at the point where i cant cry anymore
Hey bro, I'll remember you. I know it's difficult to tell someone "I love you" when we just met, but I genuinely hope you're doing okay. You've got this.
I'm in the point that i can't see humanity on my family and an "i love you" just makes me even more sad somehow
Ever listened to Father And Son by Cat Stevens? I know that feeling / situation well, it took years to feel anywhere close to ok. Even now, eight years later, I'm still not ok, but it's getting better
There are so many people here I want to give a hug to.
Nobody listens to me. I've turned into a ghost, it feels like everyone looks past or through me, never even taking a glance at me.
Not even my parents pay attention to me anymore. All the time I feel like I'm just a disappointment. Here I am now, venting to more people that likely won't care. I'm a mistake. I shouldn't be here. I don't deserve to be on this earth.
17 years have I had this bottled up inside, I'm done. I'm done with everything. I'm done with life.
Edit: Just talked with someone that actually did listen to me for once, I'm a bit better now.
Hope you the best dude
Nobody deserves to go through what you are, I wish you the best..
throw all you money in a option contract
Hi
I hope you are feeling much better now. Just remember that you are never alone and there is always someone who likes you and wants to help
Noone should deserv this ILY
Remember, keep going for the ones who care about you, even if it's just you. 🙂
you ok?
Sometimes i feel like crying. Even if im not sad. I just want to. I dont want people to help me either because they dont understand.
To whoever is reading this, enjoy life and love yourself as much as you can.❤
I understand you I'm here for you please don't make yourself sad. You are very and understand the little things in it. You precious and loved by everyone. Don't cry over small things and live life appreciate small things.
I'm God's loneliest man, medicines don't work and therapy doesn't make your problems go away, gym also doesn't make the loneliness fade... What awaits in front of me ? The pain in my chest crawls everyday, sometimes I don't even know why tears fall on my face. Having an old mental age is both a curse but also a blessing, thank her for still loving this misery guy.
Your not alone on that. Living the way i do is shitty, not feelings towards anything regardless of what it is… it sucks to have. I’m only in my 20’s and I’m wanting it to get better everyday, but not much is done at all for me personally besides keeping others happy
@@refreshingnoodle8118 Ay, it's been 6 months since I commented on this video and I saw your comment today. I know things are rough and difficult, even my status right now is not... much better. We have no other choice but more than living our best until our efforts are rewarded. Wishing you the best, stranger.
@@brandnewhope1807 Wishing you the same, stranger. Hoping life gets better for both us, and all that seen this video as well
I just wanna sleep forever...
Life is hard.. But you are a warrior.. Look how many things you overcame from..don't give up..I know we are strangers but know that i care if that matters..you'll be okay.. I promise.
TW venting
Rn I'm literally going through hell and I told my bestie what happened and she just ignored me and laughed with her sister. If something like this were to happen to her I'd be there for her. The reason why I'm going through hell is just so I can go to her birthday party. So yeah. But I still love her. I'll still love her till I die.
She looks like she's a little toxic, but if you love her, what can I say?
It's a good thing if you will love her until you die, but I hope it will be in a very long time...
I'm so sorry your friend didn't seem to care about what you were going through. You sound like such a good friend and I hope you are doing better. Just know that you deserve good in this world.
Look whatever you are going through just know some people have it worse and it will get better soon
You'll get over it eventually dw
i can totally feel it my man cuz i have experienced the same.Its bad for me to see someone go through it,the feelings of trying for nothing,all the things that we've done for her meant nothing.
Sometimes we realise how pointless it is but we still going for it,and we don't even know why
I hate it when you can’t feel and then sadness turns to anger, but you don’t know until you snap
When your struggling and hurting, nobody notices. They only seem to notice after you’ve gone insane or lost it. Because apparently that’s the only time it matters. They ignore your struggling and don’t seem to help you until you’ve struggled enough.
you ok?
@@themangle-laggle I’m fine thank you for asking just trying to raise awareness😁
@@TheFandomGirlCreations hi
@@themangle-laggle hi
@@TheFandomGirlCreations how are you feeling?
you think your in love with them but your not , your in love with the memories and you cant forget about the good memories you had with them..
You ok?
Gee, how lucky. Most of us men have never even had that much. I'm going to die alone without ever knowing the feeling of a comforting word or a loving touch.
@@combativeThinker how are you?
wondering why you always see black when searching vent audios? It's because being depressed is physically being colorblind, no one knows when we will see how colorful the world is.
Honestly this perfectly captivated my inner turmoil. I use to want to grow up fast when I was younger but now that I’m older and is now struggling with all my responsibilities. The weight of it all on my own is hard and can be tiring. I had a stable job for awhile but things got worst this year so I’ve been struggling for a bit and I’ve been trying to think of things in a good way. But at times it can be hella suffocating and i start to dissociate these problems I have and sometimes my thoughts can be dark. This playlist help bring out how I felt so thank you.
To all my lads, gals, pals, and everyone in between suffering and in pain, to the people whose friends are fake and distant, whose parents neglect and abuse them, to those who are alone, making up scenarios to escape reality, those that haven't had a single friendly interaction in months, to you, that feels as if you aren't, never where and never will be anyone in this world because of the wounds and the pain and everything else: Live. Keep going, if only by spite, to tell those people that hurt you they're worth less than the air they breathe. Keep going, fellas. If nothing else, you'll get to make them fight to bring you down. That's my message to you, from someone whose indignation and spite kept them alive until now, despite everything.
Carry on friends. Carry on.
It’s it getting worse it’s only getting better for me. I enjoy these songs and taking long drives listening to them. I’m in the Marine Corpse I don’t have any family left but I make the best of things. Hope y’all are having a great day. Someone cares for you.
Are you ok?
i am just here. tired of life like any other guy needing some therapy like people always say i do
i just am starting to feel like my body is tired of not caring about what others think. feeling like im getting more angry every day i get bullied or people making jokes about me
sometimes i feel like people asking me if im ok are just jokingly doing that so i just say "yeah" and move on to starring at walls while listening to music or looking in some way depressive that make people ask me.
i completely dont know what the hell i mean with all of the above but thats how i feel
i get that, i really do, and im so sorry you're going through that, no one should have to experience that, you especially. is there anything i can do? if you need to vent, i'll listen. if you need advice, i'll do my best to provide some. if you just need a friend, i'll be here❤i also hope you know that your feelings matter and they should never be pushed aside or invalidated or joked about bc it's really unhealthy. it's heartbreaking how much i see grades being prioritized over mental health nowadays, or just people being completely oblivious to some people that feel like they're dying on the inside and just need someone to care.
you ok?
Friend: "How are you doing?"
*Everyday seems to get worse, I don't even know whats wrong with me. My life really isn't that bad, but my mental health only seems to decline. I have friends yet I still feel crushed by overwhelming loneliness. Sometimes when I have the day off I'll just lay around in my home all day crying, I'm not even sure what about. Some days like today I don't even want to be alive. I feel so disconnected from people, like no one understands what I'm going through. Everyone else seems so happy. Maybe this is just a phase I need to get through, but it doesn't seem to be changing. I'm still young but I can sense that pattern of my life start to form. As you get older you start to change less and less. I'm probably going to feel like this the rest of my life. I don't even know if I can bare to feel like this tomorrow. I often think about how little difference it would make in peoples lives if I disappeared. I hold out hope that one day things will be better, that life will be worth living. That's the only reason I've stuck around. But that feels less and less like its going to happen. Sometimes I have a good day, enjoying the company of friends. Days like that remind me that there are still good things left. But it only makes it worse when I finally go back home alone. Nothing makes me realize just how lonely I am like hanging out with other people. I feel a pain in my chest often, but I know there is nothing medically wrong with me. That being said my constant anxiety and loneliness is probably going to shorten my lifespan significantly. Often it seems like its nothing at all that brings this pain on. I'll be doing just fine and then it flips like a switch. I overwork myself to try to distract from the pain, and also because I can't make ends meet with my shitty retail job unless I work a lot. Sometimes I have a few days off and that feels unbearable. When I have a free day I try to busy myself to avoid having to face the existentialist crisis waiting for me. I don't sleep enough, and I'm really not sure I can keep this up*
Me: "I'm doing alright"
you ok?
@@butterfly-lw2cy I'm doing alright
@@NoOne-bj1ys you sure?
@@butterfly-lw2cy I mean a lotta days I'll feel pretty shitty, but then I'll talk to someone at the bar or something, and they'll give me a little encouragement. Today I met my manager there, and he told me I was doing good in my job, and a few people complimented my guitar playing. Really it doesn't take much to make me feel a bit better. But those things are so few and far between. But enough about me. How are you?
@@NoOne-bj1ys good, sorry for late answer
the title is so real like all of my friends are venting and stuff and i respond to them and my other friends respond to them and tell them its okay and help them out i always listen to their problems and stop them from unaliving theirselves but then when i go and vent NOBODY responds and they always ignore it and just vent right after me they don't even give a shit about me im starting to feel like they hate me more than i thought before like i always had this little urge that they all hate me i’ve had it since like last year but im scared to open up about it to them because i feel like they might just make fun of me right to my face or behind my back bc they probably already do talk shit about me when im not listening like they always hang out with each other but never ask me to come im always the last choice im left out all the time nobody even cares about me anymore and i cant tell my parents either bc they won’t believe me or they might send me to a mental hospital and to be honest im only 13 i don't wanna go there at least not yet i don't even have a therapist i most likely have autism and depression but if i say anything about it ill probably get lectured and i just wanna die sometimes like i physically and mentally cant take it anymore but i cant leave my friends bc they are like the only people i have and if i do they’ll probably say something about me i didn’t even do and get everyone i know to hate my guts even more than they probably do.
damn i really just let that all out in a yt comment section.
I may be a stranger on the internet but I personally don’t hate you. I’ve read through your comment and from what I gathered you aren’t a terrible person. You sound hurt and hesitant to trust others because of how they treat you. I don’t know if things will get better for you in the future but I hope you find friends that will treat you right and pick you first. It’s also alright to not want to seek a therapist at a young age because honestly it isn’t for everyone. I don’t want to dig to far but if you ever need to talk I’m around even if I’m an old.
you ok?
how are you?@@Sinb527
underrated playlist 👍
i dreamt of you the other night, it took me days to recover. i hope you are well.
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
have a great day :D
Thank you for writing this. It’s helped more people in more ways than you’d expect. Keep on keeping on friend, and remember the words you’ve said when times get tough. You got this. We all do 👍👍
no you dont
How can I believe in something like this?
Dang. I dont hear this much. I wish I did tbh
I literally cried after reading this and I don't know why tbh
It feels like no one appreciates me or the things I do.
I do extra work, my family undermines it and tells me to do better.
I act kind, I am taken advantage of and never treated the same.
I wait for them to come back, I am left behind.
I love someone, that love goes to waste.
I try to hold a conversation, they get bored and interrupt me with their own subject.
I'm done trying. No one wants to care? Fine. They'll get the same treatment.
The fact that so many of these playlists exists really does remind me of how many people there are having existential crisis at this very moment.
You ok?
i read everyone’s comments while repeating this playlist multiple times. I loved to read everyone’s vents. I hope everyone gets better. And even if you think no one cares,there’s always some who you have never even met,or probably won’t that care about you a lot.
❤️❤️
Hey are you ok?
ur too scared to comfort it but its not embarrasing. U need to let it all out before its too late. ur so brave and strong.U made it to all of ur problems. U have to keep trying.
god is with u guys remeber the pain makes u only stronger so use that strength and become the best version of urself
i love acting like everything is okay when inside of me is hurting😂🙂
hey you ok?
same 🗿
@@NurseryDBD you ok?
@@justanaroacefella I don't think so. Thanks for asking. Are you good?
@@NurseryDBD yes but what's wrong?
When i get into this headspace i shove everyone away from me to see who will stay and no one does, ever.
you ok?
Yeah, I have people in my life that are helping me through this thanks for asking tho. You're a good person
It’s funny because the way are parents or teachers don’t even care about are mental health and sometimes even are physical but when we’re alone it just feels better to think about what you want. And can imagine what it would feel like to go back to how we was when we were younger ( happy,kind, loving,never sad, never stressed and everything was Easy)
you ok?
those times were basically heaven on earth. always happy for no reason. innocence is a gift i wish i had not wasted already.
Sometimes I wish I jumped, sometimes I don't. Life's like a hill, you can't get ontop of one which reaches closer to the skies without going down the one you're standing on.
To be honest i think it took me so long to realize i have depression because i was never unhygienic
And one of the big things people always say it they could brush there teeth ect but i simply never had a issue with that since being “unclean” always bothered me so i would keep clean.
*could not brush there teeth
in my opinion that is amazing that means you take care of yourself which many others don't you have the motivation to do, and you do so don't be sad be happy knowing that your here and many others gave up for reasons like yours yet you still go on and be great😸
I used to be like that. As of this writing, it's been a month since I've bathed. No motivation to do anything, while problems keep piling up. It's like drowning, slowly.
Okay, just incase anybody needed to hear this...
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love you even if you have insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love you even if you have failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you even on sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stressed
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you act
i love you even if you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you even if you you're mean
i love you even if you're alone
i love you even if you can't feel
i love you even if you feel too much
i love you even if you can't take life anymore
i love you even if you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you even if you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you even if you don't believe in yourself
i love you even if you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you even if you have problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you even if you're in pain
i love you even if you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love you even if you have wounds
i love you even if you have scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you even if you lie
i love you even if you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you even if you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you even if you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you even if you have headache
i love you even if you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you're mature
i love you even if you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you even if life isn't bright
i love you when you're responsible
i love you even if you're irresponsible
i love you even if you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love even if your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
❤
@@user-ky2rk8tp5g you ok?
Shit. Thanks stranger. I need that right now
We are love you too
Thank you
@@trappedindarkness779 how are you?
I don’t even know what I’m sad about anymore
I feel more alive when I'm depressed then when I'm not
I had a time when I would vent to my bsf a lot of the nights i texted them, and now i’ve stopped as it’s getting worse, because i don’t want them to worry, they also have a bad life, tho if they noticed i would really need a conversation about this, but if i started i’d feel im doing it for attention.
Just got back on antidepressants and adhd meds a few days ago after forgetting to get another prescription. I was in a kinda minor depressive episode during that window of time. It still feels like it hasn't ended. I thought things would get better. A friend told me to give myself a few weeks for my brain to stabilize again. I cannot wait. It is still so difficult to take care of myself and my college assignments. It is only the beginning of the semester.
you ok?
nah fock being sad, the sisyphean spirit that lives inside of me pushes me on and i ain't sadding
pop off king
@@justa_normalperson9412 same goes to you👑👑
you ok?
everything comes to an end.
even if its been going for a few years, it will end. and when it ends something else will come. but that will end too.
everything truly ends at death.
live life to its fullest.
because life ends as well.
you have a lifetime to fix these problems.
but will that take up too much time to enjoy life?
life is weird.
life is meaningless.
but that doesnt stop people from enjoy it.
i love you ❤
the last 4 years of my life have just been one big blur, only random memories scattered here and there.
my memory is like a camera roll with no dates and everything is strewn out of order.
nothing is making sense anymore.
people will tell me they remember me, and tell me what i did to meet them, and how kind or caring i was, and i can only go based off of that. i dont remember them? who are they? i have no clue.
i cant even remember my own name anymore, things are so far out of place it feels like nothing is real anymore.
remembering old memories makes me sick. my stomach twists into a knot and i feel like im going to throw up.
the silence is slowly killing me. i cant remember a time without it.
what the ***hell*** have i gotten myself into?
i have that problem
too many people would care that its not good
i dont deserve this people in my life
i dont want them to worry
Love this playlist, thank you for making it :D
you ok?
Dear,...No one cares...
what am i here for, hey family... no one actually cares or loves me, im always reading fanfiction about fictional characters comforting me.. the depressed, suicidal, manic, psychotic, delulu, yandere, silent, to myself kind of person and even then sometimes they dont care... what do i do anymore, do i finally do it and succeed, or do i keep myself alive for the pleasure of others bullying me, judging me, harrassing me, r@p1ng me, abusing me, why.. why should i stay i have no reason to. These playlists are the only thing that give me the motivation to get up so i can listen to them and read fanfic i barely even leave my room to eat, oh yeah did i mention my anorexia? no i didnt, i mean whats the point in living if not pretty and skinny with the. perfect. hourglass. body.? im constantly pointed out for my arms and legs or my wrists and neck getting nicknamed "the kid with scars over there." its pointless to stay...
if you read this know i love you stranger.
i may not know you but i will be your friend please dont EVER give up don't let anyone that doesn't care about you get to you, the fact that your still here proves that you still believe there is more than giving up so even though i am a stranger i want you to put your trust in me i will listen to anything and everything you have to say
I’m so tired of life, I’ve sat here for so long wondering why I have to put up with all of this, I sit in bed every night wondering why my life is like this, I have trouble sleeping at night and I’m to afraid to tell anyone about my problems, I only sit there, isolated from my family, and they ask what is wrong, and I say I’m fine, I know they care but then they talk about me, they say I need to “get out of this introvertive stuff” eventually and they say that I need to be more productive but that’s because they don’t know what I feel, my friends understand me more then my own family, and honestly… I don’t think I can take this much more, I don’t think anyone really cares anymore, my own family basically hates me, and all of my friends are slowly drifting away, there are only a few people who have stayed, and to them I say thank you.
The little words of affirmation for each track are very comforting
Hey are you ok?
I feel left out of the grupo. they always used me for something if i ask they ignore me and sometimes i feel i want to cry rn at school .and i keep overthinking something.and i always feel like im back again like it was 6years ago. When i was 5 and 4 years old agirl name bingki and emari they are older then me were neirbors and they always bully me i did nothing to them and i cry and cry bc of them. im always alone i only play with my self bc theres no kid what to be my friend bc i will never fit in.and im shocked that i said this . And i what to be perfect pretty smart pupulor and top 1 and honor i want that but that will never happend
I'm so scared! I'm am scared to let my anger issues grow.i had hurt a lots of people.most of them where my friends.and now I don't even have my sister to talk with. I miss here so much. I wanna be back a kid. It's been already 5 years since we didn't get to see each other. We live our lives but for me, love is needed really much.
when they say it will get better it just gets worsts🤣🤣🤣🙂🙂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😂😂😂🤣🤣
^
We just get stronger and better at acting... Please stay safe.
i find the best thing to do is to talk to strangers so if anyone wants to talk ill listen😸
anyone else here cause they just love melancholy and dreamy music and not cause they are sad? sometimes you just need to listen to this stuff to relax, with the rain drops on the side of your window with a good book and some hot chocolate maybe.
I remember my times but im finally being freed but unfortunately some people still suffer, some even never experienced freedom or such more.
Its hard to understand each other but you'll eventually understand them and everything
Im not really free yet but i feel it
that's amazing that you managed to improve yourself many others cant but if you still feel something you want to get off your chest i will listen and if you want i can be a friend
I care and don't you ever flipping forget that!
Do you hear me!
Now go drink some water, hydration is key!
Do
Not
Underestimate
Me
Because those that abandoned you are dumb!
And this isn't me projecting!
I
Will
Not
Let
You
Give
The
Heck
Up!
Have a lovely day and make friends, because there are people who love you out there!
I will die forgotten and I know that
You won't
So pick yourself up and move on, because as Physics has taught me
There is nothing without movement and energy
So go be the best you!
If you need support, remember, countless people love you, even if you don't know it!
Now, who's with me!!!
thank you. they may seem like just words but they really help.
Even when people care it feels hard to make yourself care. I feel like I should care more but I can't.
Hey are you ok?
For around 4 years I’ve been depressed, people always say i’m a bad influence on people, and I, myself agree. I slit my wrists there and then and told nobody, nobody at all, my online friends, parents and my rl friends. For 2 years i’ve had a porn addiction, around 3 weeks ago i’ve been successful to stop that addiction. Now all I need to do is overcome depression, I don’t talk to anybody about this, I only work out and carry on. Even when something traumatic happens, I just move on and think about it sometimes. But all I do is drown it out with the thoughts of me finally being happy, but no, I can’t even be happy because i’m addicted to my phone. I argue alot online and real life, I even fight sometimes. But online is different, nobody can see me, see my age, my gender, the pain I go through, anything. I usually just go online to fight people, I don’t know why. I have some friends that have the same problem as me but alot less serious, I help them go through it and endure the pain. I make them happy and make them laugh, 4 weeks ago I helped one of my friends get over her mom’s death. But usually a week later they unfriend me and forget me. But I always remember that I helped them, it doesn’t help that much but atleast it helps. You know what, I’ll even do it right now, I’ll help you. Whatever you’re going through, I will help you. Always remember that you are loved, cared for and acknowledged. You will never be forgotten, no matter what. Whatever you’re going through, I’m sure it’s alot more serious than my problem. I will help you with whatever you’re going through, I will care for you.
Yes, I know this is really long, I REALLY vented.
I know this is late, but it’s okay to want help too. You’re respectable for helping people even when you’re barely holding it together. You’re problems are just as important as mine or anyone else’s and you don’t need to feel bad about ranting because it can be difficult to get feelings across. I’m just a stranger on the internet but I if you ever see this you’re doing a good job improving yourself and that’s all that matters. If you ever need someone to talk to as well I’m around since I’m criminally online as well lol.
Oh- Hiya hun! Didn't see ya there. How have you been? Like, really. Not how you want to be or force yourself to seem. You, and your true feelings. I want to hear about em, because you know what? I'm here for you, especially if your having a rough time. I love you. I know I'm just some stranger on the internet, but I genuinely care for you. I care for you, your life, how your doing.
I see you, and your struggles. Your tears, your forced smiles, your scars and way your eyes drift to the floor when you finally have a moment to put your mask down.
I hear you. Your sobs, the thoughts and whispers in your head, your sad sighs and your silent cries for help.
I may not be able to understand exactly, but I can empathise with you. And I'm sure you will find, my friend, that we have more in common than you know. I don't have to be a friend or a therapist, but I am still here as an open ear. A person who will listen to you and anything you need to say. Use your voice, and if you cant muster one up, I will give you mine. Feel more than welcome to vent in the comments if you feel you want or need to!
If not, here are some activities or things ya could do if you need to get your mind of things- or even just to chill!
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❤Binge watch a show!- If you have Netflix, click the 'Play Something' shuffle button and it'll find you a random show or movie to watch :0 Give a new film or series a go. If its not your jam, click the button again! If you haven't got Netflix but something like Prime, Plex, Disney+ etc, maybe watch Moana :D Its rando, I know, but it always seems to make me feel a lil happier. If not Moana, they'll be a light-weigh comedy out there hun!
❤Read a book!- If your a book-worm, this will be especially fun! Settle into a book, whether new, already read, or half-read. If your not a fan of books, maybe a Magazine or Newspaper would be a lil better? Talking about newspapers....
❤Make a collage!- You will need: Scissors (Doesn't have to be too sharp! Blunt scissors work as well), a newspaper or magazine, a A4 sheet of anything (Paper, magazine page, etc) and a glue stick or PVA! Cut out some funky dunky patterns, animals, objects or words from your chosen media and stick them onto your sheet base to make a beautifully layered masterpiece :)
❤Play a game! - Whether a puzzle or a video game, games are a fun and engaging way of keeping ya mind busy and entertained! Get comfy, get a drink, sit back and play a game! I find Minecraft especially relaxing, and there's some cool free games on Steam if you need game ideas! P.S. Playing with others can be equally as enjoyable. Invite a buddy or a family member to join ya :D
Now hun, I'm going to go. But you best remember:
You are amazing, you are strong. You have made it this far which is FANTASTIC may I just say. I am so deeply proud of you hun. I'm here for you. Bai bais!
I used to have a bff and then she manipulated me and told me to kill ms 2 years ago and 3 months ago she made fun of me for not having a mom because she died, i just have the best life don't i 😊
NEVER EVER let anything anyone else has to say get to you, she is not a good person and i may be a stranger but we can be friends if there is anything else you want to talk about i will listen
The last one... My mom died earlier this year, I have been keeping my feelings bottled up because I have a little brother and I have to stay strong for him...
please don't bottle it up, it only hurts and makes it worse in the long run. at the very least, write down or even type out how you feel, listen to loud music, just something to help you release those emotions.
Are you ok?
Hi
Thank u for this. Really needed the "reminder"😊
You ok?
How's y'alls days hope it was nice and i hope you make it tomorrow. ^^
Feel free to vent to me
I just want to be enough for people but I’m just a disappointment, Haven’t I given enough? Or am I not enough? Or do you need more from me? Because I can try to give more but everyone has pushed me too much, like a leach sucking all of the blood out of a fish. I’ve pushed myself too far trying to look good, for people to like me, for people to compliment me, for people to stop physically/mentally draining me, so I could stop crying myself till it feels like my cuts are open again, so I could feel happy. Its been 9 years since I’ve actually felt genuine happiness. Ever since I’ve started school, Ive been the ugly duckling, and I’ve been trying to evolve into the beautiful swan, but it looks like I’ve stopped growing. Looks like I’ve just have to give up.
I just would like to say that you have gone through he'll and I'd like to say I can understand but that is a shitty response and i would say "shit gets better" but sometimes it doesn't and that's the hard part and I've been at a point in my life where I was just like "should I just give up?" But I didn't because making people happy makes me happy. So please try your hardest to stay and i hope to God that this message gets through to you and that you are home safe, have a good rest of your day.
Same old, same old...
Where is the art from?
To all the fellas in this comment section, i was like you once. I thought reality was never going to be fun and I lived in scenarios made in my head.
But guess what?
It gets better, eventually.
How? I don't know, dude, you are the one who should. Just keep living, keep seeking the answers and never stop maturing. Eventually, you will work things out. Don't worry you will make it someday.
I'm sitting crying In my room knowing that I let one person ruin my whole perspective of my
self for 5 years not knowing how to end it
you ok?
TY
No one cares, all they do its call me attention seeker, cringe,kiddo and other stuff and saying that other have worse problems🤷🏽♀️
Thank you, these songs helped me at a complicated time in my life.
You ok?
The Duality of man... Without him I never would've been happy and would've died of cancer without a single happy moment, but if I never met him I wouldn't already feel dead right now. Godspeed to those still out there surviving.
how are you?
Who is artist of the picture?
deez nuts hah got eem
Are you ok?
@@themangle-laggle mdd
@@Porkzyma what do you mean?
its scary irl but ik you got this and am proud of u you got this your smart and so cool you can do it even if u think u cant u can and am proud of u even if it hurts right now and if your not in a safe state to be with others i get that and u can be yourself and tell someone u trust or find someone your amazing and SO kind and your not getting the right treatment if your like this but its ok am always here for u
Every day I smile and laugh like it's normal. But the truth is, because I'm bipolar 1 I constantly feel afraid of myself. Because the switch between genuine happiness, and planning my own death can be a matter of a few seconds. Coming down from a psychotic episode and feeling the horror set in that I acted so irrationally. People who love me don't care because I don't release my anger or take these feelings out on others, but the thing is, I'm afraid someday, I'll have a moodswing like that... and do the ultimate thing to hurt someone. Forcing my mother to bury her only child.
I'm scared of myself and I'm scared of every single other person. Scared knowing that sometimes I lose my grip on reality or on what matters.
Sometimes I wonder if I even feel anything or if Im copying emotions and responses to trauma from movies or books. Because it's honestly so fucked up in my head that it feels theatrical, like I'm acting instead of genuinely feeling anything, like... nobody's life can possibly be this bad. Nothing from the past can possibly hurt this much. Nobody is this damaged because of what happened to them as a child.
I feel like I have nobody to talk to about the intensity of all of this because I don't want to scare people. But then when I talk about good things I feel like I'm bragging and making my friends jealous
Thank you for taking some time to listen to a stranger.
You ok?
Im the same way my family sees me as a silly boy always making jokes and smiling being goofy but im not the same little guy i once was everyday i wake up to the same loop over and over and so i sleep somtimes to distract myself and when i have a good dream i cherish it while i can and wake up feeling nothing as that happy dream slipped away from me and so i take cold showers and burst emotion randomly somtimes im happy because im sad or im sad because im happy i feel lonly and as if everyone sees me with a mask i dont feel like accomplishing school work because its all bullshit im 13 years old my mentel age is that of a young adult and i see things in a different perspective than others if not afraid of talking about self harm topics im usualy happy when bad things happen i dont know why i take it all so lightly i know its bad but i feel like iv seen it for millions of times already its useless to me all my emotion has been spent and her i lay on my bed at 11.56 pm with n9n of my school work done waiting for this damn loop to restart and the next day guess what my friend its the same thing i wont give you a happy messege at the end of this decussion because iv jeard it too meny times my brains gon numb from it all this world is breaking the youth is being corrupted by saten we dont care for our planet we show no remorse for the starving and war torn countrys we only consume and give all the benifits to ourselfs and only a few not even a handfull of us who see the world as it is not hidden by sunshine and happy smiles fall to the void of it and the ones who do survive we are seen a lunatics and crazy peiple needing a mentel health docter to help us its all fake my friend i onow how it feels and im still feelung im only 13 years of age and i see it u see you and every9ne else whos rotting 8nsude belive me if i see you in real life id give you a big hug not for you but for me and alittle for you i feel the emotions you do all in a matter of seconds it changes im happy now i want to kill im sad and now im grinning like the joker i understand to a point were i stop all connectiob from the outside and take long showers were im at peace hearing the drops fall il leave you with this my friend i believe thrirs a answer to it all not suicide thats the short way out and you wont go to pqradise thats for sure so take it all k owing your not the only one being pursecuted by this filthy world il carry on whith this paun inside of my chest you too so dont give me upand niether will if i lose it all slip and fall i will never give it up till i die.
Okay, I give this playlist an 8.5 out of 10 because all the songs were really good. But a lot of these don't really have anything to do with the title which is why I took away 1.5. The comments are also corny as hell, bugt what can you even expect? it's a vent playlist afterall.
mf what
@@d0lLfvngss Can I ask what you mean by that?
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love you even if you have insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love you even if you have failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you even on sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you act
i love you even if you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you even if you you're mean
i love you even if you're alone
i love you even if you can't feel
i love you even if you feel too much
i love you even if you can't take life anymore
i love you even if you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you even if you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you even if you don't believe in yourself
i love you even if you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you even if you have problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you even if you're in pain
i love you even if you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love you even if you have wounds
i love you even if you have scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you even if you lie
i love you even if you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you even if you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you even if you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you even if you have headache
i love you even if you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you're mature
i love you even if you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you even if life isn't bright
i love you when you're responsible
i love you even if you're irresponsible
i love you even if you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love even if your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
No need to be happy, no need to be thankful, and especially no need to be sad!
Everyone has bad times and memories. Just remember:
dont hurt yourself because of what *they* think, if you need to, vent here! i promise to protect and comfort anyone the max i can
Thanks. Pls don't tho, or I'll end up pushing you away like I always do with everyone who even just slightly cares about me XD
@@HippieInHeart how are you?
@@themangle-laggle Pretty much same as always, so, alright I guess. Thanks for asking. How are you?
@@HippieInHeart good thanks
I dont know when, but ive given up. Tried Therapy, didnt get me anywhere but frustrated. Tried forcing myself to socialise, kind of worked. The people i know never saw what i really am. I tried to show them but something is keeping me from opening up. Im pretty sure i still have the mental scares of opening up from years earlier. I feel miserable every day but i still go to work like everyone. I still go out sometimes, like everyone but i still feel miserable. The times where i felt happy were so short. My hope is that i one day find love but seeing everyone already finding their 3. or 4. girlfriend isnt keeping my hope high. One day i will lose my last hope, im no longer scared of that day. Every time i write my emotions down, im telling myself that this is the normal state of living, that im overreacting but i just dont want to feel this way anymore, even though i hardly know life to feel any different. I just dont know what to do so i just keep going day after day after day after day. I have failed myself, there is nothing i can do anymore to fix it without faking myself again. Im sorry u had to read my vent
if your reading this message, you'll find happiness and closure. your cursed now, you will find yourself. just keep trying. (is it a curse if its positive?)
You are an incredible person, and I understand that it can be hard to push yourself to open up. It's okay, I know I can't really be saying this, but try and find someone you're really comfortable with, open up with them. Stay safe, I hope you have an amazing life.
@@spindedicated1535 how are you?
you ok?
i know its getting worse but i cant stop it because it started when i was born and i cant let myself die
*ЖОСКО НОЮ ПОД ВИДОСОМ*
???
After playing this playlist so many times I realize that each song has an encouraging phrase, I am grateful a thousand times for finding this playlist, I hope that anyone who is going through difficult times can also find the ray of sunshine that guides them to a better place.
You ok?
I feel better
@@kevinmixproductions9661 i'm glad but if you ever need to talk though, we can
Pls read full thing this came straight from my heart
Try. Keep trying, not matter what, keep on trying. We know when we stop trying, life got worse. So please, lets keep on trying. - my mantra.
I forget my orignal saying, however i wanted to share this here. Keep trying even if it hurts, take time to have a break, then try again, when you get stronger, try your best, itnmay not be like others best but its yours. Have faith in your perserverance. Adapt, change, it will suck but thats the way of life, and maybe youll gain persepctive and have a deeper appreciating for what life has to offer.
Take care, i will be here with my own life trying my best, even though im still tired.
this brings me some good memories, thank you
How are you?
doing good, why?@@themangle-laggle
well this vid is pretty sad@@Kanye3D
@@themangle-laggle well it's kind of sad that my childhood memories are gone, but I'm glad that I've lide them
I used to have awful depression, now I’m mostly just an indifferent nihilist that sees no point to anything in the real world. If it wasn’t for books, music, games and animals, I don’t think I would have anything at all.
You ok?
I no longer choose words to describe my pain. I just live with it.
Hey are you ok?
the title sure is relatable.
my (only) friend doesn't see anything wrong with me or how I stay silent most of the day
my sister hits me and nobody notices, if someone did, they didn't do anything to stop her
my parents are starting to involve me in things I don't want to be involved in (arguments, fights, competitions for something I'm really bad at)
my brother gets mad at me for something I didn't do
my little brother keeps saying I'm a terrible and self centered person (although I'm not)
my teachers scold me for doodling although Kurt gets to do it without getting scolded
I always think I'm the reason why people are negative (fighting, sad, angry, etc.)
what did I even do..?
Hey how are you
this reminds me on Buddhism because I been through all of this and still am as it never leaves your life but I learned to be able to walk through the pain and it's effects are becoming less and less. So never give up and you can achieve anything you want even if everyone pushes you down. You have full control but it's painful AF to use. Trust me, you're strong enough to get through anything.
Are you ok?