you dont want to pretend anymore || {a vent playlist}
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- Опубликовано: 6 янв 2024
- hi, im T1red. i dont know what your going through but stay strong, eventualy it will be okay, you will be fine
i do not own any of these songs, the songs and the creators are mentioned below:
Prom Queen - Beach Bunny
Young - Vacation
Christmas kids- Roar
Alien Blues - Vundabar
Dark Red - Steve Lacy
I Cant Handle Change - Roar
Ykwim? - Yot Club
Jealous - Eyedress
No Suprises - Radio Head
21:51 24:06 Prom Queen - Beach Bunny
16:30 - 19:36 Young - Vacation
19:37 - 21:51 Christmas kids- Roar
13:54 - 16:29 Alien Blues - Vundabar
11:00 - 13:50 Dark Red - Steve Lacy
03:52 - 07:09 I Cant Handle Change - Roar
07:10 - 10:59 Ykwim? - Yot Club
02:01 - 03:51 Jealous - Eyedress
00:00 - 02:00 No Suprises - Radio Head
pov: your supposed to be that happy friend that makes everyone smile
im assuming if youre listening to this youre probably not okay.. ive been reading the comments and im sorry i hope you can get through this
i'm not depressed i just like listening to these playlists
thank you Ventlist, i hope we will be all okay, i wish i could help them be happy
thanks.
Thank you.
@@homeboy12_ Samee, it's calming in a sort of way ◡̈
POV: ur that one friend that’s always supposed to be funny and happy all the time the one who can’t take things seriously but ur getting tired of it all.. and still can’t let out ur feelings
real.
Me fr
me
I'm getting tired of being tired, I'm a good lier so when people ask me if I'm in okay they never think otherwise. I hate it. I hate myself.
@@redacted8222 your not the only one I'm going through the same thing. Just pls get some help I'm planning to get some today so pls talk to a friend or family member.
*_”bruises that won’t heal”_*
POV: you’re sad but not not sad enough to count as “mentally ill”
Its crazy because I actually used to be happy but now I'm trying to find a reason to stay alive its like the world is slowly caving in on me nd I have nothing to run to but music I wish things were different
I wish I could comfort you but I'm the same
Same love
I felt the same way for years and I still feel that way but everything is slowly clearing up. The thick fog is slowly lifting and what I see hidden in the fog is so beautiful. People who have suffered for a long time see the world differently. Without the difficult times that I have been through and will certainly still have, life and the little things made me appreciate it. The small flowers on the side of the road, the constantly changing sunset and sunrise. How the fog slowly and carefully creeps up the street. The cheap tea I always drink and tastes different every time. I hope you get through this difficult time at some point and can appreciate your life again. You'll be happy again, otherwise you can come and give me a headbutt :)
Same
2 years clean and I still seem to look at scissors in the same way..
Im 3 months clean. Cant look at sharpeners the same way as i did before
I gave you everything; your free will, independence, consciousness, ability to choose your own path
Why did you do this to me? I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING I HAD AND NOW I must watch you suffer? What have I done... I trusted you I BELIEVED IN YOU AND THIS IS THE BEST THERE IS? I GAVE YOU MY VERY ESSENCE I GAVE YOU ALL I HAD THE SAME AS ANYONE AND THIS...THIS. MY POWER MY LIFE IS IN YOU MY EVERYTHING THERE IS AND EVER WILL BE
I am so sorry my child... I am so sorry
same here, can't look at knives or pen the same way.
I'm like a few hours clean-
I don't know if I'll ever look at sharp objects the same again..
couple weeks free of cutting, steak knives dont look like their made for eating still
I wish I could go back in time...
Wasn't weird
Not wanting a partner.
Never needed someone.
No insecurities.
No hatred to me or others.
Didn't mind looks.
Let my mom dress me.
Wake up and get school over with.
Work done.
Actually had quality time and played outside.
Knew I was pretty just the way I was.
Never felt anxiety or embarrassment.
Never cared about my features.
Could smile.
Could wear my hair up.
Could sleep.
Could argue without a problem to think about.
No horrible/nasty thoughts.
Didn't think weirdly.
Didn't care if people were staring.
Could run without thinking I look weird.
Could eat in school without feeling like a slob.
Happy 24/7.
Where I could be myself.
Be mad without thinking its causing someone else to be.
Less worry.
Less tears.
Less closed up sadness.
I wish I wasn't so quiet and could talk to people loud and clearly.
Didn't care, and enjoyed my young life I wish I still could have.
damn, you really described me back then.
I wish I could too.
To real
I wanna be dead, I wanna leave so I don’t handle this anymore. With school, my family, all of it. Even the hospital couldn’t fix me. I’m not worthy of love, I shouldn’t be here. I can’t be fixed..
you can be fixed. Like a Kintsugi bowl. Even more wonderful, beautiful and individual than before. You are a beautiful person and you will do this!
@@witch_in_church bro u gonna make me cry. Tysm you are too 💜😭
@@Blackcoffeeplaylists you'r perfect and never even dare to forget that darling! 💜
You are worthy of love!❤ You just have to find the right people who will give it to you! It may take a while, but I'll be here with you for the journey😊
It’s funny, I’m literally called the “funny friend” and the “suicidal friend” which is really sad, when your friends even know, meaning your struggling to hide your emotions more and more and eventually, I’m not even hiding anything.
You're human! Its valid and okay to have feelings, js remember that i appreciate you and you can talk to me !
honestly thats the mix of most genuine class clowns who aren't just those wierd discord mod looking kids
I just feel like a whole victim on the outside and pretending its normal but on my inside its not. And I just felt like alone too. Like no one does not care about me.
even though i feel the same.. theres something that keeps me alive and strong and it is ''time heals nothing, you just get used to the pain'', you will eventually stop feeling like this, stay strong
Pov: Yall broke up and you have to pretend it didn't effect you at all but deep down you will always love him
this but we didn't even date
@@user-fb2dx6hd2j SO REAL OMG
Her for me but real
for me it was her
Her for me but yeah seems about what happened
I’m the “therapist friend” but for some reason I’m the one who needs the most therapy.. but no one Ever will care to listen as apparently I’m just “dramatic” and a “pick me” I’m also supposed to be always happy but it’s just tiring now..
Thanks for hearting my comment in my mind even the smallest actions mean a lot to me goodnight everyone reading this also here is a quote for my people who struggle with SH “enjoy life, there is plenty of time to be dead”
some people say that all good things have bad endings. but the only reason all good things have bad endings is because we never consider good things as endings. and it really depends on if you can still enjoy a story even though it’s over. because what’s the point to life other than getting to try everything? feeling sad or happy is such a fucking rare experience in this endless universe where life is a rare thing. and personally, it comforts me to know that we all don’t matter but people somehow still care about people and about us.
thank you
Can I pleeeease use this in the story in making?? It's so good, and so, so true. It also really fits the plot.
@@swaggyfatima4254 yeah sure, go ahead! I don’t mind
I am a writer (not a good one) and this would be a really good story
it's slowly winning.
I believe in you.
Same
Know that I will stand with you
Pov: Your the class clown.
If yk then yk.
ik know one really wants to know but...
im always listen to these and it makes me feel better that its not just me as i am in hospital right now with stage 2 lung cancer from my parents smoking near my face and inside the house and the only thing i have regreted is leaving my 7 and 4 year old sibilings with them as i am a oldest child
ik prob know one cares but its nice knowing strangers know me better than my own family!
i'm so sorry to hear that, hope you'll get better and ur parents literally don't deserve y'all.
I am so sorry and of course someone wants to know, sometimes you just feel vulnerable and you need to tell someone. Do not feel guilty for sharing this and just know that many people out here care. I'm so sorry about your diagnosis, you take care of yourself and your parents actually are dickwads. You have a day, not a nice one because that seems impossible but i hope you have a definitely not bad day.
Stay strong, I love you man.
i rarely reply to comments but i hope u get better and recover quickly
Don't say nobody cares, I care
Ive always been the therapist in my family and friend groups it gets exhausting listening to people's problems without anyone to listen to yours but if my parents taught me anything it was to put others first its just so difficult sometimes.....
Way to relatable
yeah, i am too scared to talk about my problems in fear of losing a friend or breaking them, or making them sad
@@tenshi-no7902 this is a safe place
oh-@@dark_whispervid
I don't know who I am. I never have and never will. My life is a performance and those and the people in my life are just the passing audience.
OI YOU- Yes you, I though i'd tell you something.....
I love your smile
I love your laugh
I love your personality
I love your hair (or lack thereof)
I love your insecurities
I love your accomplishments
I love your failures
I love your eyes
I love your beauty
I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
I love the way you dance
I love you on your happy days
I love you on your sad days
I love you on the days you feel lonely
I love you on the days you feel helpless
I love you on the days you feel like no one cares
I love you on the days you feel forgotten
I love you on the days you feel unmotivated
I love you on the days you feel loved
I love you on the days you feel sick
I love you on the days you feel motivated
I love you on the days you feel depressed
I love you on the days you feel stresses
I love you on the days you feel crazy
I love you on the days you feel hopeful
I love you on the days you feel cuddly
I love you on the days you feel clingy
I love you on the days you feel amazing
I love you on the days you feel beautiful
I love you on the days you feel like a failure
I love you on the days you feel angry
I love you on the days you feel aggressive
I love you on the days you feel horrible
I love you on the days you feel safe
I love you on the days you feel unsafe
I love you on the days you feel vulnerable
I love you on the days you feel weird
I love you on the days you feel ok
I love you when you're healthy
I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
I love your taste in music
I love your taste in movies
I love your taste in tv shows
I love the way you move
I love the way you act
I love you when you cry
I love you when you're kind
I love you when you're mean
I love you when you're alone
I love you when you can't feel
I love you when you feel too much
I love you when you can't take life anymore
I love you when you feel like it's too much
I love you when you're asleep
I love you when you have nightmares
I love you when you have dreams
I love how you believe
I love you when you believe in yourself
I love you when you don't believe in yourself
I love you when you hate yourself
I love you when you love yourself
I love the way you think
I love you problems
I love your solutions
I love how you support
I love you when you're in pain
I love you when you're hurt
I love your promises
I love your secrets
I love your attitude
I love you sass
I love your creativity
I love your voice (or lack thereof)
I love you hand gestures
I love your stories
I love your wounds
I love your scars
I love your face
I love your past
I love your future
I love your present
I love your outfits
I love your style
I love your art
I love your honesty
I love you when you lie
I love you when you're tired
I love you when you're energetic
I love how you look
I love how you cook
I love you when you're adventurous
I love you when you're scared
I love your imperfections
I love your perfections
I love you when you worry
I love you when you talk (or communicate)
I love your opinions
I love you when you have a headache
I love you when you have a stomach ache
I love you when you help others
I love you when you need help
I love you when you're mature
I love you when you're immature
I love you in the hard times
I love you in the easy times
I love you when life is meh
I love you when you're responsible
I love you when you're irresponsible
I love you when you fight
I love you in your darkest moments
I love you in your brightest moments
I love your heart
I love you in the day
I love you in the night
I love you at midnight
I love you at 3 am
I love you at all times
I love you at your best
I love you at your worst
I love the little things you do
I love all of you
I love you when you're you
I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
(THIS ISNT MINE BUT PLEASE PASS IT AROUND :DD)
honestly this made me tear up a lil bc I feel like I just want to end everything and nobody cares.
Thank you you are a good human being
*loved
Same
hey there i dont know you but..
i love you hair.
i love your nose.
i love your mouth.
i love your acne.
i love your face.
i love your eyes.
i love your smile.
i love your laugh.
i love your teeth.
i love your legs.
i love your personality.
i love your character.
i love your style.
i love your weight.
i love your insecurities.
i love your accomplishments.
i love your failures.
i love the way you dance.
i love the way you act.
love your taste in music.
i love your taste in movies.
i love your taste in tv shows.
i love the way you think.
i love your creativity.
i love your voice.
i love you hand gestures.
i love your scars.
i love your past.
i love your art.
i love your honesty.
i love the way you look.
i love you in the day.
i love you in the night.
i love you at midnight.
love the little things you do.
i love everything about you.
you are not the problem.
you are not ugly.
you are not fat.
you are not too skinny.
you don't have a ugly smile.
you don't have ugly teeth.
you don't have an ugly face.
you scars are not ugly ( they make you strong 💕).
you are not useless.
you are not dumb.
you are not annoying.
you are not worthless.
you are not foolish.
you are not ridiculous.
you are not absurd.
you are not a fool.
you are not a mistake.
you are not clingy.
you are not crazy.
you are not demented.
you are not nasty.
you are not awkward.
you are not embarrassing.
you are not unattractive ( they just not your type ).
you are not unsightly.
you are not unlovely.
you are not repulsive.
I'm proud of you for waking up.
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair.
I'm proud of you for breathing.
I'm proud of you for making your bed.
I'm proud of you for eating.
I'm proud of you for trying to eat.
I'm proud of you for drinking water.
I'm proud of you for being here.
I'm proud of you for being you.
I'm proud of you for smiling.
I'm proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for blinking.
I'm proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I'm proud of you for standing up.
I'm proud of you for sitting down.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself.
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself.
I'm proud of you for simply trying.
I'm proud of you for being alive.
i love you, you are beautiful, I'm proud of you, you deserve better don't think so bad about yourself, you are beautiful and you will always be beautiful ❤!! if you want to talk my insta is "_0mgalice" feel free to text me I'm not going to judge. also feel free to replie and vent ❤
so youll stop being pround when i stopped breathing?
HEY YOU- Yes you, I thought I'd tell you something.....
I love your smile.
I love your laugh.
I love your personality.
I love your hair (or lack thereof)
I love your insecurities.
I love your accomplishments.
I love your failures.
I love your eyes.
I love your beauty.
I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
I love the way you dance.
I love you on your happy days.
I love you on your sad days.
I love you on the days you feel lonely.
I love you on the days you feel helpless.
I love you on the days you feel like no one cares.
I love you on the days you feel forgotten.
I love you on the days you feel unmotivated.
I love you on the days you feel loved.
I love you on the days you feel sick.
I love you on the days you feel motivated.
I love you on the days you feel depressed.
I love you on the days you feel stresses.
I love you on the days you feel crazy.
I love you on the days you feel hopeful.
I love you on the days you feel cuddly.
I love you on the days you feel clingy.
I love you on the days you feel amazing.
I love you on the days you feel beautiful.
I love you on the days you feel like a failure.
I love you on the days you feel angry.
I love you on the days you feel aggressive.
I love you on the days you feel horrible.
I love you on the days you feel safe.
I love you on the days you feel unsafe.
I love you on the days you feel vulnerable.
I love you on the days you feel weird.
I love you on the days you feel ok.
I love you when you're healthy.
I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
I love your taste in music.
I love your taste in movies.
I love your taste in tv shows.
I love the way you move.
I love the way you act.
I love you when you cry.
I love you when you're kind.
I love you when you're mean.
I love you when you're alone.
I love you when you can't feel.
I love you when you feel too much.
I love you when you can't take life anymore.
I love you when you feel like it's too much.
I love you when you're asleep .
I love you when you have nightmares.
I love you when you have dreams.
I love how you believe.
I love you when you believe in yourself.
I love you when you don't believe in yourself.
I love you when you hate yourself.
I love you when you love yourself.
I love the way you think.
I love you problems.
I love your solutions.
I love how you support.
I love you when you're in pain.
I love you when you're hurt.
I love your promises.
I love your secrets.
I love your attitude.
I love you sass.
I love your creativity.
I love your voice (or lack thereof)
I love you hand gestures.
I love your stories.
I love your wounds.
I love your scars.
I love your face.
I love your past.
I love your future.
I love your present.
I love your outfits.
I love your style.
I love your art.
I love your honesty.
I love you when you lie.
I love you when you're tired.
I love you when you're energetic.
I love how you look.
I love how you cook.
I love you when you're adventurous.
I love you when you're scared.
I love your imperfections.
I love your perfections.
I love you when you worry.
I love you when you talk (or communicate)
I love your opinions.
I love you when you have a headache.
I love you when you have a stomach ache.
I love you when you help others.
I love you when you need help.
I love you when you're mature.
I love you when you're immature.
I love you in the hard times.
I love you in the easy times.
I love you when life is meh.
I love you when you're responsible.
I love you when you're irresponsible.
I love you when you fight.
I love you in your darkest moments.
I love you in your brightest moments.
I love your heart.
I love you in the day.
I love you in the night.
I love you at midnight.
I love you at 3 am.
I love you at all times.
I love you at your best.
I love you at your worst .
I love the little things you do.
I love all of you.
I love you when you're you.
I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
(THIS ISNT MINE BUT PLEASE PASS IT AROUND :DD)
I cant fake it anymore. Its become me
Pov: you overthink... But your over thinking was right..
was it ??
i'm rethinking my thinking to be sure i'm right, i feel wrong all the time
Trust yourself
should i ?@@Pheobeprine-nj6nf
there are day's when i cry out loud in the shower until i can't breath...but some days i smile while i get that choked up feeling in the back of my throat but i smile through the pain....with a picture perfect smile that hides my pain, a person behind a mask, i hardly recognize me anymore...i'm nothing more then a shell of what i used to be i don't feel like me...i feel like someone else and the real me is just sitting in the background quietly.
POV me: I'm that one friend that keeps us together the “therapist friend” the friend that's supposed to always be happy and ok but they don't know that every night I cry myself to sleep and get these horrible headaches not even my parents know..
I wish I could just go back to when I was a kid everything was so easy and cheerful. My parents now ask me what I am going to be when I grow up I'm only 12. My father and his brother own a business and I feel like my father is making me take over the business for when I grow up but… I don't want to.
Remember that u have a purpose in life and that I will always love u for who u are.
You are beautiful remember that. Stay healthy take a break from school or work and be free think what u think is best for u.❤
I'm so tired of acting a certain way for people to like me. They only like me when I'm quiet, but I can't ever keep my mouth shut. Yes I'm autistic, have a tic disorder, with adhd but that doesn't make me dumb or funny just because I'm autistic. I don't always understand certain social cues or jokes buy I'm still human. I wish I had a true friend, and not be someone that once they find someone they like better and leave. I'm sorry I can't act normal, I'm sorry I talk so much, I'm sorry I'm a terrible friend, I'm sorry I couldn't help you anymore. I'm so tired...but it's selfish of me to want to hang out with you when you rather be with him. It's okay, I'll be here if you need me. But I know you'll leave me eventually, everyone does. I won't blame you.
you seem so sweet and kind. its okay to be tired ml, okay? its okay to cry. you can always vent, although im a stranger, im here
We can be friends :) I’m not autistic, but I don’t have a lot of friends either (you can vent if you want, I’m always here ❤)
I'm tired of pretending that I'm loved. I want to feel loved.
Pov: 2 years of friendship just went to waste bc she began to turn toxic and change like you never thought she could.
2 years down the drain cuz they made 1 new friend that happened to be toxic.
1 year for me, but i lost a whole group of friends, i was talking too much, and mostly abt adhd, and i copied some of the works of my classmate in the group and i had a lil crush on her, and i was too depressed, even tho i tried not to act to dark...
I'm always supposed to be the silly happy friend but I'm getting sick of it.. Hope I leave this world soon ☺
This helped me cause I broke up with my gf today and her friend likes me now and I had a panic attack and no one noticed anything but my best freand lexi and I thank her because I'm alive because of her because she's the only one who cares about me
im sorry to hear that, i hope everything works out
Everything has been going terriblely wrong ever since last October, first. My most biggest crush, a guy I genuinely loved went for my ex bsf, then I hated her, my bsf. I thought it was her fault and still somewhat do, I'm just confused. So much drama between me and her but later I lost full contact with my crush, I can never stop thinking of him. Later, my old friend came back into my life. We were good for a while and she even couraged me to block my ex bsf bc of everything she did and in that process me and my old friend decided to restart our social media lives and unfriend everyone we knew besides each other. Fast forward to around 2 weeks ago to today, my friend friended everyone back and got newer friends, after that she and I started arguing alot, she started all of them either over a game or from me suggesting something, I always tried my best to stop the argument because me and my ex bsf fought alot and it led to something bigger. But I'd usually just stop talking to anyone i didn't want to talk to after a argument or something. This continued almost everyday but ive had enough, enough of people leaving me, enough of being bullied by people, it's gotten so bad to the point I can barely be happy anymore. Sometimes I become paralyzed in my bed after having a breakdown, trying to move but barley manage to move my hand. I almost drowned once because I couldn't move while taking a bath (I was just in thoughts while taking a bath yk). I'm headed toward my 1 year streak from being clean of sh but I nearly broke that streak yesterday night, and I feel like doing it now. Tryna resist by letting it out here. I just wish I never added my crush to a group chat with my ex bsf, I wish I didn't accept my old friend into my life again, I wish I was worthy enough to keep the important people, the ones I'm most attached to in my life. Most importantly I wish I didn't have attachment issues. The attachment issues are slowly fading but in a terrible way meaning I'm pushing people away or plan on pushing people who are important to me away to prevent being hurt badly again.
Also in October I tried committing and was hospitalized for over a week, soon later my grandpa passed away and found out in December my grandma is having issues with her heart and might not live long either. Tbh idk what I'd do when my grandma passes.
It will be ok you just have to get over it and start loving your self and don't care what people think ❤
My whole life I’ve bin trying to convince myself that my parents just want what’s best best for me but it’s bin hard when all do is follow there instructions yet I’m still a disappointment.
“Caring friends”
Something we need so much more.
“Comfort”
Something we get from the internet more than our parents.
“Depression”
Something most of us have.
“Fake friends”
Something we have to many of.
“Freedom”
Something most of us barely have any of.
“Love”
Something we don’t feel like we’re getting.
“Being ourself”
Something hard to do.
“Fitting in”
Something most of us try to do but can’t accomplish.
“Being happy”
Something we have a hard time doing. Something that’s hard to be.
“Friends”
Something we have to many fake of.
i was literally called the angry one when i'm literally struggling to keep myself together.
when even ur best friends thinks ur happiest alive:
Literally been the funny friend for so long that when i tried opening up for the first time they thought it was a joke!
how do you gain enough courage for that also sorry for you
@@JusticeZammert well ive known them for a couple of years and i was doing it kinda subtly so
This is the first vent playlist I really listened to it feels good to cry I’m just so used to hiding it
Pov: your a people pleaser to the point it's effecting your mentality to an unhealthy point
I dont respond to every comment but this is something i could relate to.. i cant express my thoughts thinking someone might get hurt from my words
sometimes. I just want to disappear without anyone caring.
SAME😭
Don't give up
EXACT SAME I WANT TO BE INVISIBLE
REAL
I don’t want to pretend anymore, but It just comes naturally. When I try to tell someone I just don’t feel
Like it.
yep then they get mad
If you want to here’s a little quirky comment to read
i feel like i have been holding it all in, for years now, my sibling she’s great and all but she constantly talks to me about everything that makes her want to get hurt, leaving me dealing like if anything happens it’s going to be my fault, then as soon as she gets mad she yells about how i never listen to her and im always just talking, all i do is listen, then ooo boys i know i shouldn’t be beat up over a boy but this guy is so sweet i can literally tell him anything but he likes another, i haven’t slept in a couple days, i’ve been having a lot of suicidal thoughts in a day, and it’s scaring me, but if i tell anyone about it i might be sent to a mental hospital
It depends on the hospitals in your area, Its good to research things about the ones in your area, so you know which ones to talk to with a gaurdian or parent, Then you can be safely get better in one
@@Your_Local_Camp_Medic Thank you 🙏
blasting this rn because my granma wont shut the fuck up. she called me a useless and heartless child because i ddint want my cat inside my room today. currently i hear her voices viberation just a little bit, but i dont understand what shes saying. i dont want to know what she has to say more. last time i did try to find out what she said, i didnt recover. i wont anytime soon.
i get you, my parents would talk badly of me and i would go and try listenning, it was so bad i would cry in the toilet in front....
@@tenshi-no7902 im so sorry :(
@@Sfoppie oh thank you ^^ now i'm okay, i hope your doing fine
@@Sfoppie i am so sorry abt everything that happened to you
@@tenshi-no7902 tysm
when you wanna vant but dont know how to say it
trying is better then giving up just try because you can do it trust me x
For anyone who needs to hear this:
I love your hair or lack of
I love your forehead
I love your eyebrows or lack of
I love your eyelashes or lack of
I love your eyes
I love your ears
I love your nose
I love your cheeks
I love your mouth
I love your laugh
I love your teeth or lack of
I love your chin
I love your neck
I love your shoulders
I love your chest
I love your arms
I love your hands
I love your tummy
I love your hips
I love your thighs
I love your knees
I love your shins
I love your feet (not in that way.)
I love your moles/marks
I love your scars
I love your voice
I love what you do
I love your personality
I love you on your good days
I love you on your bad days
I love you when you when you wear makeup
I love you when you don’t wear makeup.
I love your skin
I love you when you’re sad
I love you when you’re mad
I love you when you’re happy
I love you when you hate me
I love you when you love me
I love you when you forget me
I’m proud of you for getting some sleep
I’m proud of you for trying to sleep
I’m proud of you for waking up
I’m proud of you for getting up
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth
I proud of you for tending toward your braces
I’m proud of you for doing your hair
I’m proud of you for washing your face
I’m proud of you for doing skin care
I love you for doing your makeup (if you wear it)
I’m proud of you that you got out of your room
I’m proud of you for getting dressed
I’m proud of you TRYING to eat breakfast.
I’m proud of you for being clean
I’m proud of you for trying to be clean
I’m proud of you for being alive
I’m proud of you for being a good friend
I’m proud of you for trying to be I good friend
I won’t judge you for your looks
I won’t judge you from your race
I won’t judge you for your life
I won’t judge you for your family
I won’t judge you for your past/childhood
I won’t judge you for your body
I won’t judge you for your tears
I wont judge you for your age
I won’t judge you for your sexual orientation
I wont judge you for your gender
I wont judge you for your money
I won’t judge you for where you come from
I won’t judge you for your language
You aren’t ugly
You aren’t too fat
You aren’t too skinny
You aren’t annoying
You aren’t mean
You aren’t evil
You aren’t crazy
You aren’t weird
You aren’t worthless
You aren’t scary
You aren’t selfish
You aren’t too feminine
You aren’t too masculine
You aren’t too young
You aren’t too old
You aren’t disgusting
You aren’t a doormat
You aren’t a toy
You aren’t a monster
You are beautiful
You are pretty
You are handsome
You are kind
You are cool
You are everything you want to be
You aren’t perfect, nobody is, but you are perfect in my eyes
I wont judge you for anything
Im so proud of you
I love you.
Wish I could live in a void for the rest of my life.
same
i just started becoming spiritual in the sense of reusing souls and such. because i’ve learned my intuition is actually not just the “gut feelings”. i recently found a soulmate from another life at work and it’s a very difficult situation. i know in another life we knew each other. and i swear there was more than platonic in that lifetime. in this one, i met him and we both have our people. when i first met him and made eye contact, i just felt this feeling deep inside that i couldn’t explain. not like love, but like i found him. we’re work besties and he had expressed that he did have a minor attraction to me although he has someone. he isn’t spiritual, so he wouldn’t understand what im saying fully. it just was meant to be only platonic this lifetime.
cute
It's really hard to pretend that everything is Okey, especially since last week, I had an argument with one of my friends, who I really had good contact. We always got along, and it didn't seem like she had a problem with me. We were suppose to hung out on weekend with some of other friends from my class, but when I came there she suddenly has a problem with me, for absolutely no reason, when I didn't even do anything to her. At least my one other friend defended me, and we both left and went somewhere else, she helped me calm down and I felt a bit better. When I got back home, for some reason I just felt so scared to go back to school, I don't know why myself. Instead of being my happy self and talking with others, I stayed more silent and didn't really talk as much as I usually did, I was so scared she is gonna say something mean to me if I do, or do something(cause that friend that helped me didn't want to severe the contact between her and me). The three last days of the week went smoothly, because I tried to talk with my friend (the one that helped me) and I wasn't so stressed, but still a bit. But now, I will have to go tomorrow back to school again, and try to survive there, trying to act as if everything is fine again, so no one will think I am weak, or start bullying me. I am scared to go back there, and too tired. I just wish I never went to hung out with them, and maybe everything would last a bit longer... I wish I wasn't such a coward... I just don't want my friends to leave me alone...
It’s all going to be okay
Your strong you can overcome this and I just know it
You know it’s bad when I’ve prayed day and night to be terminally ill….
My dad sees me as a pretty perfect princess but that's not who I am deep down I'm a teenager who has bad grades and cries every day and cant find someone to love her. My mom sees me as her but a better her Thats not who I am.Both my parents think they know what I want and who I am but no they are wrong.
Wanna talk about it? How are you doing now? Also same my parents don't know half the stuff i think about or wanna do to myself... They just think I'm happy and that when they yell or upset at me that isn't making me more depressed...
I know how to feels to have your parents legit admire you for some reason when you feel like all your shit is falling apart and you emotions have gone threw hell and back- but hey, your just a kid man. don’t push yourself, take some breaks, have some laughs, your parents sure as hell umderstand how to feels to have a life that is falling apart. sometimes we feel like our parents are so distant from us but it helps trying to connect with them and even vent to them or let them vent. either way man, stay strong for the randos on the interwebs who love ya.
i wish my dad would see me at all.
he doesnt even adknowlage im a human. screamed at me for so long and i broke down in tears, and he said over text messages, not even face to face “sorry for screaming, love you” like that would magically solve me crying my eyes out.
WHY CAN'T YOU JUST
- es sorprendente. cuando estoy triste y quiero llorar, vengo aquí. no puedo llorar delante de mis amigos...
I'm basically the "punchline" of my friend group.
They always make fun of me, even if I'm suffering.
They know.
They make weird jokes that make me uncomfortable.
I can't bring myself to leave them though..
I don't know why..
POV: your the funny friend but your insecure and you are to tired to actually be able to have happiness
I stay in my dreams for days, I eat and drink so I can stay alive an access my dreams, my dreams keeps my mentality at a low, but ok percentage. My family then friends traumatized me, when I was around the ages of 9 and 10. The dream contains a dark green room, there's some trees and some nature, a laptop containing my favorite dreams, such as my first successful plant, a calico cat, and a sketchpad. I eat, take showers, go to my job on every one week on, one week off. It gives me enough money. Enough to feed me. Love y'all, and DON'T kill yourself, you're valuable, don't think you're worth nothing, you're worth a lot. Don't give up.
For me, it’s when you can’t pretend anymore
I'm not happy... I'm not ok...
I just learned to pretend that everything is fine
Life has put me through the worst recently, yet all I can do around others is act like it’s okay, because if I break my act and ask for help or get emotional I’m asking for too much and a “over dramatic attention seeker” it’s exhausting and I’m slowly losing all of myself and I don’t know what to do anymore, I just want someone to allow me to stop acting even for a few short minutes
“Animal.”
thats when it all started. i just wanted to do quadrobics and wear gear at school…
We gotta respect our pillows,
For catching our tears
Being there to catch them when nobody would.
What pillow?
I'm not ok and I don't think I ever will be but I keep living for the few people who actually care
throwing a rock into a lake is like hurting someone
because you dont know how deep it is😔
Yk that one feeling when you write a text too your friend about “why we could take a break” and the friend desperately trying too talk it out..and then after a friend break..you start missing too talk too her…and miss too talk about your silly characters..it’s been almost 4 months now..i literally cannot take this anymore..i know how much it was wrong too be friends with her…but she was someone that i knew..then i would talk too..
I need advice..please i don’t know what too do and im scared too talk all of the sudden too her((ive tried that and she doesn’t even look at my messages..please can someone give me advice..what do i do..))
I am supposed to be happy but it has all been a lie and a story I made up hoping that someone would see through this lie but never did and they always assumed my smile was real
I'm not sad, just using this to get in the mood of what I'm writing. Just a reminder to all those in the comments (since y'all are going through it), there's always something good about life. It could be the weather, it could be your soft clothes, hell it could be purely that you're still alive. Don't throw away your life because of this. It hurts, trust me I know, but it's not going to suck forever. It may suck for a while, I'm not going to tell you that it won't, but it isn't worth it. You got this! I believe in you. Your family/friends will be happy to see you tomorrow. If you don't have those, then hit me up damn it. I'll be your friend. I'll be glad to see you tomorrow.
i’ve been like this all my life
POV you’re the therapist friend but you feel like a filing cabinet :(
Vent:
I hate being mentally ill so fcking much. I can't do basic stuff. I used to be a straight a's student but this year I went to a new school. And I love it but I'm becoming worse with every passing day and my grades are slowly going down. Also I had a very bad episode and bc of it I skipped a lot and now I might get kicked out of this school bc of my attendence. I hate it and I hate myself for being such a piece of garbage. If I picked myself up and attended my classes none of this would've happened. I just don't know what to do. The only solution I can think of is suislide but I can't do that bc my dad's and bff's birthdays are this month and I can't do this to them. Everyone just tells me that things will be okay and that I won't be expelled but I can't believe that. They don't know me like I do. And well the subject that I can get expelled bc of is PE. I suck at sports more than anyone. If I don't pass my exam tmrw I can say goodbye to my new school. And it hurts bc I love the place and the people and I don't wanna be this disappointment who got expelled bc of PE. It's too much. All the exams and my grades are killing me. I'm in constant stress and all I can think of is how I'll fail and how I can hurt myself to at least feel a bit better.
why are all these songs my favorite “cry my fucking eyes out” songs?
I guess our music taste matches
WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH WHENEVER I
U still have so much time left
pov:your tired of being the therapist friend.
You know... It was all good, until he came into my life. I had high expectations for this year, thinking i would actually be happy, i would be better, i woud be good to others and myself. But now,look at me, sitting here, hearing this song overthinking again. I can't sleep correctly, always when i try he appears there, in my mind always with his stupid voice, his jokes, and when i try to forget about it it just gets worse and WORSE EVERY TIME, I JUST WANT TO BE FREE I DON'T WANT TO SEE HIM EVERYDAY AND EVERYDAY AGAIN AND AGAIN, i just wanted to be happy again, to be understood. Last year at least only my psychological deteriorated, now this torture is phisical and mental. I want to, i try to, but at what cost? They won't hear me anyways. Everytime i try to get better and i finally achieve it he sucks all of it from me taking me back to the start.its so hard to be like this ...
me knowing that my friend group hates me and i know that bc they leave me out if there’s a group i would be the first option if there’s more than the people in the group for PE, and i try talking but i get spoken over and ignored i hate it so much and i feel useless because no one cares about me and i realise how stupid i am for believing some one actaully cares, by the time you see this i’ll probably be gone.
Me just looking up: "pretending to be a cat playlist" and finding this 😭 very yummy playlist tho.
Yummy?? Man don’t eat my songs I’m tryna listen to those 😭😭
@@DigitizedGalaxyAlt mb, I'll stop eating em
One of my friends said i changed a lot. I just smiled at him tired and said: i just stopped pretending being ok, being normal, being human. He started crying and i wanted to but i couldn't.
When you know you are annoying them by being clingy
im only clingy because their all i have tho.
@@AriBeHappy same..
To the stranger who finds themselves reading this, I want you to be aware that it will get better this is an incredibly difficult time for you believe me I know a thing or two about tough things and I just want you to know that I love you and I mean it. I hope that you may truly find happiness and comfort in your life someday because I love you and I’ll say it again and again over and over because I mean it I love you. So please, wipe those tears away and let me shower you with kind words and love. From one fragile soul to another I love you so very much and I wish that reading this message has brought you even an ounce of comfort.
So go and sip some water, it’s okay if you can’t finish the whole bottle or if you can’t sleep, take your time, there’s no rush just remember to take care of yourself and to simply relax if possible. Go talk to a friend or someone who fills your heart with joy and cares about you because trust me those people will get you through so many things.
Although I am a mere stranger online I wish to comfort those in need because I know how it feels, I know how much it hurts and how lonely it can be how painful it is but please bear with me and continue living no matter how difficult it is.
(You can vent in the replies if you'd like I love to try to comfort ppl who go through these type of things)
Vent! Tbh, I tend to be happy around everyone in my opinion. But I feel like that's all I am really, just the comic relief. Some of my friends call me a "meme", which is somewhat a compliment because they think I'm funny, but then they say that they cant see me doing like actual serious things, like maybe dating or stuff. And its like "is that all I really am?". I feel like I'm constantly putting on a smile and laughing with people, its gotten to the point that I sometimes do it when im alone, but then I realize that I don't need to and I go back to being straight-faced. I feel like people just don't take me seriously, like I'm just a kid to them because I'm funny. No one texts me first either, it's always me, I always text first, so tbh I'm not even really friends with a lot of people anymore because I got tired of texting first. Does anyone really care about me? I mean, I know they do, I have friends and family who love me, I just don't think they love me for who I really am. Which is partly my fault as I don't vent that much, in like 3 years, I've only vented twice, and it wasn't even big. Half of the time I find myself smiling, and then I realizing I'm not really that happy enough to smile. I feel like I'm always happy all the time, so whenever I lay my head down or don't talk as much one of my friends always asks "if I'm ok?" or "what's wrong?"(Props to her, I fucking love her) I just want to sleep, I'm always tired, I don't want to sleep forever, I just actually want to feel well rested. My grades are slipping, my only social life is school, I can't text my friends, I cant talk to anybody, but at the same time, I don't want to vent to anyone. Hell, tbh, I don't even know why Im doing this now, this is really dramatic and unnecessary, but I am. I'm just tired. I'm just the funny friend, I wish someone would just text me and ask how I am, just talk to me. Instead I'm stuck inside, doing the same thing everyday, wake up, school, homework, chores, sleep, sure there might be little happy sections in-between, but nothing that changes anything. I don't know anymore. :/
Sorry for the whole paragraph, Jesus Christ lmao
i probably shouldn't tell the world that informative actually
I’ve lost everything to being so damn kind..
I thought people wouldn’t do this to me. I help them and am there for them but they are never there for me.
And when I try to express that they get offended.
But I’ve lost every friend I had now.
My trust is shattered because of them.
They move on easily and happily while I suffer.
I let people in because I hate seeing them suffer like me.
But nobody realizes what I do for people is because I want someone to do that for me. But it’s hopeless.
I’ll never be important to anyone.
I’m nothing but a toy that people can use up however they like.
Because that’s all in good for.
I don’t know why I live.
I keep hoping that I’ll find someone who’ll care.
But I’m starting to understand it’s over for me once my dad dies.
When he’s gone I’m ending it.
And nobody will be able to save me because nobody ever tried to even just care about me just a little bit.
They never proved they wouldn’t just leave me at my worst.
But that’s life.
At least I can die knowing I saved everyone but myself.
Hey please don't be so hard on yourself I can't say I truly understand your situation but if it helps.
I've sometimes thought of giving up because I just couldn't bare the pain anymore so then I decided what if I try making online friends. Some of them fell out but there was this one, he was so sweet and we both help each other out with 'situations'.
Why don't you try finding a good online buddy to speak with? Who knows maybe they may just change how you view things if you'd like idm giving you my insta to talk about anything :).
Hopefully one day you become the happiest person alive ❤
I feel like my suffering isn't bad enough to get help for it. I don't want people to spend valuable resources on me when they could be helping someone who has it worse than me.
I don't know how to express my emotions so I just keep bottling them up, but I'm just so fucking tired of pretending that everythings fine. Everythings not fine. I am tired of being the "funny friend". I just want people to know how I really feel.
I'm tired of pretending
i dont wanna have friends anymore, i wanna make them have fun but they just fuck with me daily, this shit it getting to me and i can't do anything about it, i just wanna make people happy but appearently their way of enjoying themselves is making fun of others, is this what this world has come to? shaming other people to get a momentary dopamine reaction?
For everyone here, I know you're tired of all this, but... in the end... do you remember when you smiled naturally? When you took care of yourself, when you had hope, you thought it was necessary to be patient for good happened. ?
Well, I think you might have it again, only the difference is this time you have more scars, and they made you grow, okay?
(Hope one day you can feel you live this life,i care of you)
I just like writing my thoughts down so..:
Yesterday was great.i thought it finally got better. But I was wrong. Now I’m in despair again. I thought I’m just dramatic or overreacting. But I’ve been feeling hopeless and it has been affecting my health and daily work. I always blame is my fault. Always said sorry. I had a friend who made me laugh and smile. He made me feel safe. But..my other friends said he liked me. I don’t believe them. I didn’t want to. He denied that he doesn’t liked me. But today. One of my friend overheard his convo with someone. He said he maybe liked me. I’m not sure if my friend was lying. But that made me feel so upset. I don’t know how to handle this situation. And now from all that sadness in me I felt sick and I had to present something with him as my partner. I failed I was to anxious and scared. I kept overthinking. It was overwhelming me..after that happen..he looked..sad..I thought it was my fault. I felt so guilty I left him alone since I thought I wasn’t a good enough friend for him..now..I feel depressed..just like always..
pov: you always bullied and yelled and not trusted..
I fake smile so much that at this point it always looks like I'm smiling its not even real even when I'm crying it looks like I'm smiling I can't do it anymore I want to get rid of it
I want to cry so hard man but the tears won't come
its just noise for me at this point
@@AriBeHappy I'm sorry man
Same..
I relapsed
Nah i'm fine🥲
Sorry I wrote a lot.
I think im struggling with gender disphoria but there are very minimal trans people in my erea. My 'therapist' dropped me before I could talk about it because the school wouldn't help me if I have a 'therapist'. I have no awareness about it because it isn't taught or expressed at all.
I just really want to be a girl, mens clothing have always been so uncomfortable and I was happier the one time I wore women's clothing.
Everything is wrong. My shoulders are too broad, my voice is too deep, im too tall, I can't get rid of facial or leg hair and most of all I despise my name.
But it could just be my hormones, slight autism or social anxiety. Deep down I doubt it's any of thoes things.
It started getting really bad around 4 months ago and it just won't go away.
Again, sorry for typing so much.
No
Hey man, I’ve never experienced gender dysphoria but I have with my body and I know how it fuckin feels to barely be comfortable in your own skin and with no one to talk about it to. Just stay strong for the randos on the interwebs who would cry if they saw any more messed up shit happen to you.
you can't know how good i understood you. i know the way how it feels extremely uncomfortable... it sucks.
pov you just trying to keep on acting like you dont know your being replaced and used even though you very much are
I have a bf and I started losing feelings and I'm really scared to tell him to break up because I don't want to make him feel bad...
I'm always acting like im doing ok when im not and I feel like my girlfriend doesn't love me anymore and I'm always wondering what's the point in living at times my mother and father hate the fact that I'm bisexual and refuse to accept it and I don't care about my self regardless of how much I want to feel loved
I'm 17 My mom died in 2019 July 25 10:00pm my house burned down back in 2022 on December 23 no one was hurt thankfully but just two days ago the house were living in we just got kick out of so now I'm homeless my physical health is going down while others are living there best lives I'm grateful for what I got but Im tired of staying strong I want to give up I'm tired of keeping positive
the difference inbetween people like me is that they can do something with there life I can’t I’m trapped inside my house it’s been 2 yrs and it’s been 14 since I was genrualy happy I wish some times I would go to sleep and wake up in a field yet I knouh that day is far ahead of me
It's getting worse. Why should i live my life this way? I could just end it all here can i? Maybe it's the best solution to this never ending pain