The phone call I wasn’t prepared for.
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- Опубликовано: 21 авг 2024
- I received a call at work telling me my mam had passed away last Thursday. Nothing prepared me for that and I keep replaying that call over and over again in my head.
It haunts me.
I never got to say goodbye to her and il always regret that but I think she came to say goodbye to me that morning in the kitchen. Il take comfort in that.
Please go and tell your loved ones you love them now after this as you never know what’s around the corner and you might now get that chance again.
I will be back online properly soon, just have lots to sort out right now with my family.
Take care everyone!!
Zoom zoom!
Lauren
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In 2008 I had watched many of your beautiful eye makeup tutorials. Today I thought of you and searched for your channel.... finally found and subscribed😊 .. so sorry for your loss.. take care of yourself 😇
I’m so sorry Lauren. Grieving is a process. There’s different stages of it, go easy on yourselves as ya go. My Da passed a year and a half ago now and well remember this beginning stage. We all love ya dear, take good care of YOU as ya go now.
My grandma died on Christmas Eve three years ago. It is a pain I will never forget. I am so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace. I lost my mom 25 years ago, the pain lessens with time, but never really goes away. You just learn to live with. My condolences. ❤️
There is so much I can say-wish I could just chat with you. My mom went the same way…I think you know in your heart that that was her with you and that will tell you how much she will always be with you. I’d tell you my story but it would take too long here-just hold onto your sisters-I have two and we did it all together. It took awhile but we did laugh and we keep her tradition of baking Christmas cookies together. It does get better and as a mum yourself, you know that you would never want Jordan to be sad forever-you would want him to be happy and your mum would want the same for you. Be patient-it will come in time. Cry when you need to and laugh when you can…it’s part of life. Sending you a big long hug❤️
My mom is in her 70s and lost her own mother a few years ago. She still grieves for her. There's no loss quite like it. So much love to you Lauren. You are grieving now but always remember the love and laughs the two of you shared. It'll help you heal. Cry as much as you need to and don't apologize for it. My mom always says that you need to get your emotions and feelings out at times like this.
Lauren, I am so beyond sorry for your loss. I lost my mum in February. Lost my dad back in 2010. I call them mum and dad but i was actually raised by my grandparent since i was 1 month old due to my parents being addicts. Anyways- losing my dad from cancer we were all together and it was a much slower process. losing mum was sudden she caught covid from my aunt and i hadn't seen her for over a month trying to protect her from making her sick since her lung health was so bad before this happened. I've felt more anger than anything over her death and every day is a challenge being without them. The only thing that helped in anyway was finding a great supportive community through a church even though i didnt know my belief. Finding support anywhere you can makes a huge difference. You are loved even if you can't see it. Much love to you and your family
So sorry for your loss Lauren. I lost my mum in 2020, during the height of lockdown and I remember the first few weeks and months walking around like a zombie. It still hurts now but day by day it does get easier I promise x
Ive watched your videos since i was 18. Im now 32. Your mum must have been an incredible person having a daughter like you. Im sending you all my love and light and im deeply sorry for your loss. Xxx
Godspeed to your mom, Lauren. There is no loss comparable to the loss of one's mother. But, you are exactly where you should be. Grief is not linear; it jumps up, slides down, sidles up next to you, ambushes you from the side, leaps onto you and squashes you from above. Let the tears come. Let the memories loose. Welcome the chaotic thoughts, you'll find there are gems of memories contained therein. Grieving has only one schedule, and that's yours. Yours alone. Your sisters will grieve differently than you, more than likely. Which has nothing to do with the right way, or the wrong way. Instead, it has everything to do with how an individual processes loss. I hope it won't be too long before a smile appears before a tear when you think of your mum. I wish you, and your family, gentle days ahead.
Lauren, I'm so sorry! The same thing happened to me nearly 3 years ago. My mom was fine one day and died the next. As the oldest, I had to take care of everything and had nightmares every night of my mom asking me to help her. I truly recommend therapy of some kind. I could not get over the grief without my therapist, and I am still not over it. It lessens because you know she would want you to be ok, but it never really goes away. Sending you love and good thoughts
Oh my heart is breaking for you. I couldn't even watch the hole video sorry. I lost my dad last year and the pain. Please be kind to yourself and your mam is never gone. Her spirit is always with you.
I am so sorry Lauren. That is never the call we are prepared for. Sending you hugs.
Lauren I'm so sorry for your loss, for all your family. What a shock.
I'm very close to my sisters and mum. I'm the oldest, so I feel the same way about my sisters - being strong for them, etc. I wouldn't know what to do when my mum passes, she's such a big deal for me. My youngest sister would say "she's got to live forever so I don't have to lose her". They are closest.
Your mum will always be with you. And don't beat yourself up for not always having time for speaking to her, she would understand.
Lauren, I am soooo sorry that this happened! I also just lost my dad on 10/7/22 as well, very suddenly. My condolences to you and your family at this time.
I know how your feeling. My mum died suddenly in January, she was my best friend and miss her. I understand just how your feeling. Sending hugs xx
So sorry my sweet. Bless your heart. Love, hugs, and prayers.
Sending all my love Lauren. I lost my beautiful Mum in January and I know how you are feeling and it's perfectly natural. Please look after yourself and take each day as it comes. Big hugs, Jane xx❤️
Take care of yourself Lauren. My love to you and your sisters. May your mammy rest in perfect peace. 💗🕊 Also your the spitting image of your mam. Wow. Just beautiful 😍
Gone but not forgotten love, go easy on yourself for you are loving, giving, but most of all you are grieving. Please know that you are not judged nor are you alone.
May her memory forever be a blessing. 💚 thinking of you xx
All losses are so hard....sudden, unexpected losses like this are very difficult. My best friend's mother died of the same. A moment of pain, but an eternity of heaven and happiness. All such times come with "riding the waves" of grief too. All I can offer here from California is my heart-felt sympathies and prayers. God bless to you and your entire family.
Hello Lauren, it will take time. I have suffered many losses. Each one has been different. Dad, sister. Husband, Mom.
Still feel my Sister the most
24 years ago.
My husband I went to therapy for . Glad I did.
As you grow stronger. You will feel it. Love Gina from Minnesota USA
I feel your hurt. I have so many regrets after losing my Mum. I lost her when I was 10. I'm now 41, these feelings of hurt and regret haven't changed. If I could just tell her how much I love her and appreciated her. I hope you are doing okay, thinking of you. ❤️
Dearest Lauren, I'm so deeply sorry for the loss of your mam. It's a profound thing to experience, and it really rocks you to the core. Please know that what the heart has held, it cannot lose. You mam is just 'in the next room'. I know it's a near-impossible task, but let go of the guilt about saying 'goodbye'. Your lifetime of interactions with your mam are what counts, not the very last visit. She knows how deeply you love her. Know that you're not alone, and that there's so much love for you and yours.Take comfort in those around you
I'm so sorry you have to go through this, it's horrid. My Dad died of sudden death, I'd called to see him a couple of day prior and though he wasn't in. I knocked on the door, looked through the window, presumed he was out. A neighbour missed seeing him and used his key to go in and found him there. He was already passed when I called but I didn't have a key. It takes a long time to come to terms with it all. It still hits years later at odd moments. Take care.
I am so sorry to hear this has happened to you and your family.
I haven't used this RUclips account in such a long time so I have missed a lot. I stopped watching RUclips because it became a problem for me but I saw this video albeit a month+ old and I started to watch it. I had to stop it just over halfway through because it brought back a lot of memories from when my mum passed away in December 2015.
The only advice I'd ever give to anyone going through a loss like this is your grief is personal and do not feel guilty if you don't go through what others tell you will happen. I carried so much shame and guilt because I didn't feel what I was told I would by well-meaning family and friends.
One lesson I came away with was tomorrow isn't promised. This goes for everyone. Share the love you feel and grab every opportunity in life.
My mum was 67 which is no age but she had been ill for a long time. We've never had the closest of relationships, to say the least, but I wouldn't have wished her illness on anyone. I prayed that she either makes a full recovery or she's released from this life, either way, she would be free from pain and obviously I was heard.
The process that comes after is clinical but I found it therapeutic. I am the youngest of 4 and I was put in the position of being the emotional holder for everyone. My point is this time can make or break a family and I am so glad your family seems strong enough to come out the other side stronger and closer. Mine did not.
Any way, I am sorry I have put so much but I think it is always worth sharing these experiences so others don't feel so alone xxxx
Oh love.... I'm so sorry! My heart breaks for you! I just can't imagine what you are feeling. I'll put your family in my prayers. May God grant you comfort in this time of grief.
Sending you hugs from the US.❤️❤️❤️❤️ I'm so unbelievably sorry.
I'm thinking and praying for you.❤️
My thoughts are with you Lauren. My heart is heavy watching your video. I cried with you. It is so hard when our moms are no longer with us. My mom passed in June. My heart is broken. I feel so alone without her here. Just take it one day at time. It's good you have your family close to support each other. Take good care of yourself. Hugs
Bless you Lauren I’m so so sorry I do know what you’re going through as I had lost both of my parents within 5 years. It will get easier ❤❤❤❤xxxxxxx
I wish I could hug you and take your pain away. I lost my mom 15 years when I was 23. The pain of losing a loved is not something I wish on anyone to experience. ~hugs~
Baby. Sending you love. So sorry for your loss and your pain. I’ve been there and 20 years later if I think about it the pain is still there. But not as raw. Love to you and your beautiful family
I’m so sorry for your loss. I have lost both of my parents and I know that pain well. I am sending lots of love and prayers for you and your family. My heart breaks for you
I wish i could give you a big hug so badly. So much love from Canada. We love you so much
Sorry for your loss Lauren! May she rest in eternal memory.
Lauren so sorry for the loss of your mother and the loss to you entire family.
So sorry to hear. Sending all my love to you. Loosing a parent at any age is horrible. I’m 27 now I lost my mum last year April 28th 2021 suddenly infront of me just slipping away trying to save her but god come to take her pain away luckily my mum passed away at home aswell in a place she was comfortable and safe 😞😢 I miss her so much everyday, the grief never stops. It’s so hard. Our mums will always be with us we just can’t see xx
My dear, sweet friend, I’m so very sorry for your loss. 💔
I’m so sorry for your loss Lauren.i can’t begin to imagine what that would feel like.it’s the most difficult thing to go through in life.
God give you all the love and strength at this time.
May your mum rest in peace and heavenly eternal light 🙏xxxx
Praying to Lord to give you strength in this hard time of yours. May God let your mother rest among the angels.
I’m so sorry for your loss Lauren
There are simply no words I can put here so I’m just gonna say I’m sending all my love and best wishes please take care and be gentle with yourself much love xxxxxx
Your beautiful mom will rest in peace xxxxxx
Love and healing Michelle xxxx
I’m so sorry for your loss and may she Rest In Peace. Sending thoughts and prayers to you all so that you may have strength. Now I see where you get your beauty…gorgeous! 🥀🙏🏻🕊
I’m so sorry for you and your family.
Losing someone so close to you is a weird experience, unreal might be a better word.
Your life is put on hold but everything else goes on, so bizarre.
Sending you healing vibes and take care of yourself in the coming months 💓
Lauren, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.
My deepest condolences 💐 May your mom be at peace. Condolences to your sisters as well 💕🕊
Oh Lauren, so saddened to hear this. No words just letting you know I am thinking of you and your family at this awful time xx
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Sending love and prayers to you and your family. Just take it one day at a time. Cry when you want to cry,.......smile when you can, it really helps. ✨🙏✨🙏✨🙏✨
I lost my brother in January my only brother I’ve no sisters we were so close 🌷I feel your pain / what annoys me is people saying is there anything I can do let me know- you just do it you don’t ask - I didn’t say goodbye to my brother either - don’t feel guilty god took her she’s with him now and she’ll look after you 🙏❤️ grief comes in waves -she’s at peace 🌷
Oh Lauren i’m so sorry, heartbroken for you xxx sending you a massive virtual hug xxx
Oh Lauren, I went through this 12 years ago when my mum died suddenly in her sleep. You will feel out of it for a while, take your time though. Everything will be fine in time. It's ok to laugh, your life has to go on. xx
I'm So Sorry for your loss. My Prayers are with you & your family.💛🕊💛
Sorry for ur loss. My grandmother died b4 the weekend and we had to wait until the Monday for autopsy report to come back. She died suddenly with heart issues too. 💔
My heart is breaking for you. Sending love and healing
I’m so, so sorry for your loss, Lauren. Please be patient and compassionate with yourself and your feelings - grief isn’t a linear thing, it comes up and down like waves, and the waves are biggest at the beginning. And the emotions can be random - laughing or crying, there’s no wrong emotion; it’s just your brain trying to process it all. Things won’t ever be exactly the same, but with time you’ll feel better. Your mum knew how much you love her, for sure. Much love to you and your family ❤️
Good advice! 💖
Lauren I’m so sorry for your loss of your Mam that’s heartbreaking stay strong she Is with you and that was her that morning 😇
my mum died so heartbreaking so sorry Lauren you will always have my support on here with everything you do stay strong. prayers go out to you all I no I dont no you in real life but still.
I know how you feel hun 😭💔. I lost my nan in 96..... I was in such shock and so numb... Then grandpa,... Then in 2020.. i lost my sweet cat Milo...And 6 months later, my old man Max cat 😭😭😭😔😔😔. It takes time.. but the heart will heal xxxxz. Dunno what else to say, but condolences and big hug from Norway xxx. Take your time ❤️❤️
Blessings my lovely, saddened by your news,my condolences to you and your family,take care and be strong Xx
Hi Lauren. I've just started following you on Facebook and you are a breath of fresh air! I just came over to You Tube to follow you on here too and I have just seen this video. I am so, so sorry for your loss, it is heartbreaking for you all . Your mum would be so proud of you ❤. Keep those happy memories of her alive with your lovely sisters. Sending lots of love to you all xx
Awe thank you for the lovely message and for following me on social media. I really appreciate it and your kind words. You have made my night xx
@panacea81 you deserve all the success in the world. It's so lovely to see someone being themself on social media these days. That's why you have so many followers ❤xx
I'm so sorry for your loss darling girl. Take care of yourself xx
So sorry Lauren this is heartbreaking sending you love xxx
I am so sincerely sorry for your loss, Lauren.
Oh my goodness, I’m so sorry! My condolences 💐
No one is prepared for that, I can't imagine what your going through right now, just know that we are all thinking of you and that we love you, your breaking my heart Lauren, I hate seeing you like this. My condolences. ❤to you and yours.
I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I'm so so sorry for your loss Lauren! I lost my father eight years ago, and it's so hard! You and your family will be in my prayers.
I am so sorry Lau. Take care dear Lauren. Give yourself time ♡ big hug.
I am so sorry. Prayers for you and your family from Kansas 🦋. I lost my mom in 2016. Not an easy journey. One day, one hour, one minute at a time is all you can do some days. There is never a good time to say goodbye to your mom. I am so sorry 😞.
I am so sorry Lauren me duck. We lost our Mum 15yrs ago, the pain eases, but never really goes away. Sending love to you all. Les xx
I'm so so sorry for your loss Lauren. What a terrible time for you, please take care of yourself. Just take one day at a time, that's all you can do. Sending love and hugs to you 💕 x
I am very sorry for your loss 😐 My deepest condolences to you and to your family 😐
I'm so sorry, Lauren. It's so hard. Please know that you're in my thoughts. Be kind to yourself. You will be okay, even though you don't feel like it now.
Oh I’m so sorry Lauren. Praying for you 🙏🏼
I send my sincerest condolences to you and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss Lauren. Thinking of you all in these incredibly difficult times x
WOW how beautiful is she! She looks like Priscilla Presley in your thumbnail. I honestly can’t imagine how are you feeling, but please keep talking (I don’t mean on here I mean to your friends, family, bereavement support). You’re not a burden so shouldn’t feel you’re ‘putting too much on people’. Your friends and family love you and when they say “if you need anything, just ask” I’m sure they mean it. Xxx
Praying for you and your family Lauren. 💜 love you
Deepest sympathies Lauren 💕
I lost my beloved Dad to suicide 16 weeks ago and that shock and pain you speak of is unbearable at times. Nothing can prepare you for it. 💔
Thankfully you and your sisters are there for each other - your Mam would be so happy for that. ✨🙏🏻✨
I am sending you all my love ✨🦋✨xxx
Lost my dad the same way just over 2 years ago. It will get better, I promise ❤️Sending you a hug!
@@nellyzen1096 thank you so much for your reassuring comment. It’s hard to feel that at the moment - it’s such an awful, raw ache. 😔 I feel like I want to rip my skin off at times. I’m still haunted by that day - I had just FaceTime’d him 1hr before he did it. We were so so close. It’s just so devastating. It still
feels like a terrible dream.
But again….thank you for reaching out. It does help to know other people have got through it ✨🦋💕✨
I understand. Have you tried to connect with him through. Guided meditation? I communicate with my dad regularly through meditation.
@@siobhancahill2131 I just replied to your comment but forgot to tag you
I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. 💔
Big hug from me to you - I'm so sorry for your loss.
Take all the time you need. I cannot imagine what you are going through but I'm sending a lot of love your way x
My condolences to you and your family. Give yourself time. Everyone grieves in their own time. You'll feel like yourself eventually. Again i am so sorry.
I am so sorry for yous loss, Lauren. 😢💔❤
Sending love and peace. Prayers for you and your family.
I'm so very sorry for your loss Lauren. You're right, nothing prepares you for it. I lost my amazing Mum in April 2021 after a very sudden, unexpected & short hospital stay. I honestly still can't believe it. I have no brothers or sisters & had to deal with all the admin by myself. No one tells you about this & nothing prepares you for everything that you have to do for your loved one. Grief is a very long process and there are many stages, but one thing I have learnt is that you must take care of yourself. I promise that you will eventually remember the good times and the awful images will eventually fade over time. There is no right or wrong way to go through grief, you take your time and much love. ❤❤
I’m so sorry for your sudden loss. I hope for the best and that happy memories can help you feel better. 💜
Oh Lauren, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Your mother was, absolutely beautiful and you look exactly like her... Peace be with you sweetheart... You are so loved by so many. ❤️
I am so sorry 🥺😢❤️. My dad past away suddenly last year. I miss him so much 😩💔.
So sorry for you Lauren. Sending big hugs ♥️♥️
My condolences, Lauren ❤️❤️. Xxx
I’m so sorry hun. I’m keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
Thank you for sharing this Lauren. I lost my dad in 2001 and my mam is 82 and my best mate. I am going now for a cuppa and cuddle. Much love to you and your family. Take your time and notice the feelings but know they are not you. Not the guilt, not the sadness not the pain. But the feelings are with you for now. Grief hurts. It sucks.
Lots of healing sent your way. ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) 💔
I’m so sorry Lauren. Sending you love
I'm so sorry for your loss 😢💛 much love to you and your family
So sorry for your loss!💔 sending so much love to you🤍
I'm so very sorry for your loss! I lost my Mom 5 years ago and I know exactly how you feel. Hugs and kisses and a warm blanket of love to wrap around your heart in your difficult time.
Sending all the love Lauren x
I’m so sorry for your loss. The first year or two has the most intense pain, the pain gets less and when it does get less you can remember more of the good times and it’s like they’re back with you. May her memory be a blessing. Hugs.
Crying with you my darling friend. Always here. Never feel like you can’t talk & talk & talk to me, I’m here for you. Let’s go for those chunky chips you love. Thinking of you all. Love you loads xxx