3.4.21- One Year into my

3.4.21
1 year later:
For the first time in my life I’m having a hard time writing or talking about something...
... I’ve spent my entire life, especially Over the last 10-12 years, and for the majority of the last 3 years, selling and spinning a lie. Ive spun a false narrative & sold a Bill of Goods to every person I’ve ever met in the hope that if I spun enough plates, if I smiled hard enough, made people laugh, or think, or care, that I could hide the person behind the curtain, my true self.
The truth is, only a very small group of people, my family and my “family,” have gotten glimpses into my truth, the person behind the mask... The real me.
I’ve crafted and worn a series of masks to cover up a person full of fear and self doubt. A person with serious depression, anxiety, and PTSD as a result of too many minute mental “paper cuts” to mention. A person who ran as far as he could from the truth for as fast as I could until I fell off a cliff.
But as of today, I’m ready to be honest and open about the person behind those masks. I’m ready to take my next step on a journey that began on deaths door step in 2019 and has brought me to this precipice...
It’s time to jump of a cliff:
My name is Daniel John O’Mara, I am an ALCOHOLIC, and as of TODAY, I have been in recovery for ONE YEAR.
DANNY O: The sad clown & The legacy of feeling like an utter failure.
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