The beauty of music is it can mean many different things to everyone. To me the 1st song is a symbol of lust "a pheromone cult"..."pressure inside..". She is someone or something he believes would sate his desires make him whole. His anger being aimed at something he can't have "she isn't real" almost spoken like a mantra to himself. In vermillion part 2 it's like he comes to terms perfection was never attainable being whole was never possible. In the 1st the very idea of it held him back, made him anxious that he was broken. With part being his realisation and letting go of the unattainable ideal
This song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her. The feeling he felt grew inside him, that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him.
Corey Taylor really writes a lot of his songs straight from a psychological and personal stand point. Which makes these kinds of analyses so interesting. Can't wait to check that one out.
“She isn’t real” has helped me realize that the person that I imagined them to be isn’t who they actually are but a fantasy that I created out of a person within my own mind. This is the best way that I can explain how I understand the lyric.
Or, he needed to be rid of the thought of her, and the only way for him to do so was to try and convince himself she was never real. Or, never for him.
For me this song reminds me of when you're crushing on somebody. The thing is when you crush on somebody you are crushing on who you think they are and not who they really are. That person you have a crush on isn't real. You ask them out and get to know them you find out who they are. If there's disappointment because they don't live up to your fantasy you can't let that build up inside of you. It isn't their fault you built a fantasy partner in your head.
Exactly how I always thought about it. The fear that convinces you to not interact because "she probably doesn't like me anyway", "I probably made it all up".
The first one is about him stalking her, the second one is after he killed her. He somehow makes murder seem beautiful. And Corey hates Rick Rubin said they payed him alot of money and he would show up like an hour a week and leave.
@@stephenhaynes3460They sounded good, but I have seen a lot of stuff about how Rubin was working on a bunch of people's records all at once, and some stuff about Corey not liking the vocal takes he used. A lot of ppl complain that Corey isnt screaming his lungs out and crying in anguish on every song like Iowa but I like the deeper, more subdued tones of his voice on Vol. 3, and he screams a bunch too. There's a little more melody but he sounds good. The band sounds good. It's not as raw but it's more musical and its more or less defined their sound, where they can go from grindcore to grunge to acoustic to thrash or groove metal in the space of a couple tracks.
@mediumvillain that and also the fact that at the time they recorded Vol. 3 Corey was slowly getting sober. Whether throughout the whole IOWA era he was drinking 3 bottles of Jack Daniels a day, and not using any technique for his screams, But rather just yelling and "ripping" his vocal chords.
Personally, I think it's really good of you to use your platform/channel to help people with their internalized issues. It shows that you are a good human being and a blessing to those of us out here in the internet ether just making it through another day. Thank you, seriously. Hope you have a great day. 👍🇺🇸
not too many people understand just how genius they really are. That’s why I love Slipknot. One of the deepest bands I have ever listened to, and not too many people understand that they misinterpret the music. I’m glad I have friends that I sit and have conversations about their music with.
I remember when this album was released, Vermilion pt1 and pt2 really stood out for me. At the time I was living with 2 friends - a guy I went to school with, and a girl who I did love at one point but we had grown apart. Even though we were living together, I didn't see much of her because of my work hours, and i did miss her. One night I got home about 11 o'clock at night and a little while later I heard her leave the house. I had these two songs on repeat and I was thinking of how I missed spending time with her. She never came home. She took her own life that night. I still get a bit teary listening to these songs sometimes even 20 years on
From AliceBlue: @andrewwalker5164 My heart really sinks and I feel your words and those feelings so deeply. I lost someone I love deeply in the same way and somehow I believe they are in the earth around us and with us. We carry them in our hearts Sending you love x
From twixremix: @andrewwalker5164 hey, thank you for opening up about your friend’s suicide and the feelings you hold about that night. i’m so sorry. please know that you aren’t alone and even after 20 years, grief has no set time length. thank you again for being here and sharing this difficult time in your life.
From Listening2Day: @andrewwalker5164 What a poignant story you share here. Music has such a powerful way of touching emotions and memories. I hope this music also helps to bring you some peace as well.
From Micro: @andrewwalker5164 I hope the tears, however consequent or not, brought a little bit of rest to your heart, even if happens to be just by the possibillity to breathe a little more deeply. It's heartbreaking to lose someone you loved in such a sudden, unexpected and brutal way. At one moment there is life that is shared, conversations, moments of joy and memories created. There is sound, there is life. Then the moment you learn about what happenes, it feels like a button has been pressed, as if reality couldn't be trusted anymore. For it is too hard to compose with it, and too difficult to wrap our mind around the void that loss creates. I'm sorry that this person took their life that night. I can't begin to imagine the amount of pain they must have felt, and on your end, how much you certainly tried to rewrite the story in your mind - thinking of what could have been said or done differently to, maybe, change the narrative. It makes sense to still feel affected by it and get teary when you are reminded of her. Even through her absence, she keeps having a presence in your life, in your own story - she left a mark, one that was met with love and was highly meaningful for you. It's hard to feel like two trajectories can be shifted away so brutally, to feel like opportunities of life have been lost, while dealing with the reality of being part of those who keep having the possibility to grow, laugh, live. I hope that, through these 20 years you've been holding on to the truth that any sense of guilt you may have carried on your shoulders never belonged to you. That it's okay to release that away from your heart and mind. Because it's human to think about all the what if's, it's also okay to offer ourselves the kindness and grace we need at the same time, especially when we grieve. We can love, care, be loyal, and at the same time even the people closest to us can decide to not be seen despite being in front of our eyes. It's an expression of pain, but not any individual's fault. You have been a significant ally in her life. :heart:
Snuff, dead memories, till we die and killpop are all songs id love to see you listen to, it’s been really refreshing to see someone who looks and acts like they wouldn’t listen to metal, not only enjoy it but dive deeper and see what we see, it makes a lot of us feel really seen and I definitely appreciate it a lot.
This is the CD that got me in to this band. The local rock station was playing Duality left and right at the time, then both Vermilion songs came out and that was all it took, became a huge fan. Enjoy your analysis of this music, it gives a perspective that I didn't understand at the time, I was just the typical rocker banging his head. lol
It feels like a lifetime ago. I had just worked myself past serious suicidal plans. But my mind was fixated on a woman. A woman that I couldnt have and that I didnt need. The vermilion songs shined a light on my unhealthy obsession for me. And I moved past that issue. I grew up thinking love was neglect, abuse and pain. Especially from women. I didnt know what to do with myself. Everyone else made me feel like I needed a wife or girlfriend to be happy. But I dont. My happiness is inside and I can be in control of my emotions. No one else can ever be the solution. So your interpretation of this song is exactly how I received it back when I heard it. On a different note Id love to see you listen to some Hatebreed songs. Basically any of them. Hard heavy sound but the lyrics have incredible meaning and messages. They literally saved my life. They told me I have the power in myself, so I tried to make it one more day. And here we are 20 years later. Happy, fulfilled, and trying to listen and mentor some of the other guys that need some compassion and to be heard.
Amazing how from walking through really heavy and dark times, you are now standing up while being a voice of inspiration for others. What a journey! And what a beautiful testimony of growth/healing. You can be proud of yourself for not giving up on yourself and for gaining such profound insight on the battles you've been facing. I myself grew up in an abusive environment, so it's been - and somehow keep being - a lifelong process to dissociate that type of pain from genuine love. It leaves you with this void inside and the belief that you would only feel complete through others (or external substitutes). Instead, it's been such a meaningful journey it to learn to meet myself at an emotional level, and to be the one who builds a strong backbone for my life. Interestingly as you mention mentoring, at Heartsupport we have an online mentorship program (for which of course we always need more people willing to step in and volunteer). If that would be of any interest for you, here's the link to our website with more information: www.heartsupport.com/bts-volunteer - You have a strong story to tell and without a doubt a heart for this. Would love to count you in! - Marie-Anne
The song that I listen to every time I am drinking my coffee in the morning before going to school. Realizing that I have nobody and they're just inside my head.
This song has been my long time favorite of my favorite band and helped me thru the many years of battling suicide attempts and depression and mental breakdown. Literally both parts helped me realize how much I internalize all my feelings. I’m so glad I found this channel. ❤
I'm on the verge, my friends. I can't anymore. Peace be with everyone. I hope no one ever feels that loss ever. I wish love and peace and happiness on everyone who see's this.
Did you all notice the first time she opens her eyes throughout the whole video Is when Corey said she isn’t real Been listening to slipknot for 15 years now❤
You’ve found the words that I’d never found but felt. I have a tattoo on my chest with these words: “I won’t let this build up inside of me” because 5 years ago I was lost. I was profoundly frustrated because of many of “impossible to resolve” problems. I had a depression. And the only meaning and piece of a human happiness to me was my girlfriend that later cheated on me and I had to stop our relationships. And when I was at the bottom of my life I heard both these songs and main words and it helped me and now I’m doing well. That’s why I tattooed it on my chest as a symbol and the reminder about to what it could lead if you let all these stuff build up inside of you. Thank you for such a great reaction and explanation of meanings of these two songs from your professional experience. You are amazing! God bless you!
This song saved me from myself in my darkest times thank you for your evaluation I never understood why it resonated with me in such a strong way now it seems to make more sense
Same here man. I grew up alone. I seemed companionship at a young age and still ended up alone. Betrayed by people again and again. This song as many others to this day built up a lot of sadness in my life and helped me express my sadness and frustration in life. I guess that’s why men become so isolated socially in modern society. Regardless the amount of relationships I had felt suffocating but without felt lonely and cold… Regardless of our past traumas we should have more therapeutic songs like this. This art is exactly how music should be. Every story every lyric should be of a story a message.
I kinda think that the first one was about an obsession whereas the second one is the realization that the perfect person is just a figment of our imagination but at the end when her eyes open and she sees the sun it's about seeing the light after the storm is done !!
I love these reactions and i especially love your interpretations and your take on the songs! Please keep being awesome! You are helping me while jamming out! And I love it! 🤘🤘❤
Bought this album when it dropped. Only speakers in the house were on my brothers computer in his room. Im in there listening to this when him and then wife. Ex wife to him now but not my story. She asked me who it was and couldn't believe it was slipknot. Didnt ask me why i was listening loud and tears behind a smile. That goes back to old drama in my life.
HOOOOOOOOOOOO (unsuspecting train meme) lol seriously though, Vermillion 1 and 2 are some of my favorite Slipknot songs (and songs in general). Not just for the composition. But the underlying psychological story that plays out. I know the singer and bandmates all have very rough lives and terrible times in their lives. You can only peak in through the lens of their creative outlet to see a fraction of their inner turmoil. Its also so relatable. Like who hasn't felt that intense need for someone else to make their life right only to find out that it wasn't necessity. But you find its just infatuation and now you don't know what do to. Great video. Great analysis. Subbed!
That song (and phrase: I won't let this build up inside of me) is so powerful to me, that I have a tattoo on my left arm s2 I live it like a mantra, and it feels good
Parts 1 and 2 were great to watch… I love metal music and hard rock music, and Slipknot is easily in my top 10 favorites… all of that said your analysis of their lyrics has really helped add a new layer of appreciation for them (my appreciation was always for the level of talent that all possess to make such incredible songs). All of that said this has also helped me with my own therapy, and your reactions have helped me to dig deeper into my self and feelings between sessions, your reactions are hopefully doing the same for others. I can’t express enough even to strangers (which is why I’m not ashamed to say) MENTAL HEALTH IS SO IMPORTANT TO LIFE, and you reactions are great in helping to provide that… thank you, and keep doing awesome things for people
I love this song and music video so much. I imagine it as a narration of his love. This woman that he loves. It's BASED on a woman, but the woman he built up in his mind isn't the person he thought it was. He's tormenting himself by trying to breathe life into the woman he thinks he loves, but all that's happening is she's floating around in this morbid, animated but still lifeless way. Basically this woman was dead before she was ever alive, and the process the character is going through is actually mourning this person who was never alive. He's giving in and allowing himself to feel grief. He's allowed this toxic hope to build up so much inside of him, that this imaginary person needs to be legitimately grieved in order for him to move on. The last verse to me is like a tragic catharsis, finally telling himself the hard truths and reassuring him in between every sentence. She isn't real (i won't let this build up inside of me) i can't make her real (it's okay man, you can't let it build up)
this song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her the feeling he felt was growing inside him that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him in part one he hadn't killed her yet and he was trying to contain himself, already in part 2 because he couldn't keep it inside himself
A good psychological torment album with Corey Taylor is Stone Sour’s House of Gold and Bones parts 1 & 2 lyrically it’s a mental whirlwind. Even has accompanying comics. I’d love to hear a therapist’s reaction to those.
This song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her. The feeling he felt grew inside him, that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him.
PLEASE react and explain ‘Bother’ - the song by Corey Taylor’s side project - Stone Sour! Love your reactions, you’re putting all the inner thoughts and feelings from these songs into words just amazingly!
This song reminds me of my ex-wife. We spent many years apart because of the military, desperately loved each other, but never really spent much time together. After we got married, we quickly realized that each of us had built this idea of the other person, which wasn’t accurate. It fell apart, quickly and in flames. Took me years to get over her. Whenever she is, I hope she’s happy and prosperous.
Before I found out the what the song was actually about I thought it was about dealing with bipolar as a man and the struggle with the rage and anger mixed with deep sadness and shame and struggling with identity and who I was. It still hits me like that to this day
I would like to say, Welcome Maggot! Corey Taylor is a Lyrcial Genous! The dude (& the 9 in general) are amazing. Personally speaking, they have saved my life. #maggot4lyfe
What you said at the end about interpreting music as you hear it yourself is important. I love hearing the way other people interpret, but using your own thoughts is also important
“I won’t this build up inside of me” Having become somewhat infatuated with a woman I used to work with but being unable to be with her, when that realisation sunk in I emotionally “shut down” towards this individual in an attempt to stop feeling an attachment to her. Just my thoughts on how parts 1 & 2 tie together for me
I've been watching your videos for the last hour. Im a metal singer myself and its awesome to watch someone react to some of the deep tool, korn, and slipknot songs without negative judgemet. I've tried to get counseling my whole life and have always been met with a reaction that my pain through childhood abuse, and my mental status from such is a result of my own sins. I dont believe in therapy or counseling anymore because through all of the judgement I'm also smart enough to know that most counselors have never experienced any real horrors in their lives and are making assumptions based on text books. I wish I had different experiences. I'd love to have someone listen to me the way you do these artists. My lyrics are a reflection of me, but never tell the whole story. You are doing something wonderful, and even though I'll never see another therapist, you give me hope that maybe after I'm gone someone may hear what I've been screaming and take the time to understandit without judgement. Thank you for what you do. @heartsupport
Some of Slipknots tracks honestly moved me to tears before just from the message in it and the relatability to how Corey is saying that message. Some of the tracks like this one have such an emotional response to me. Slipknot is definitely not just all scream yell devil curse gore gross. By far they have been my favorite band for some time and I will always cherish these songs for what they are.
Actually if we pay attention to the visuals, Vermillion part 2 was the prequel to the whole storyline of Vermillion which was an amazing approach. It started as an unrequited admiration that turned into an unhealthy obsession (part1).
This pair of songs always makes me think of the stages of bipolar syndrome. Pt.1 is Mania, Pt. 2 is Depression. First he wants her at all costs, second he believes he can NEVER have her.
@heartsupport To me, the songs are about being in a relationship with someone who you've put on a pedastal and worship. The first song is the anger and rage felt immediately losing that person, while part 2 is about the sadness felt over that loss and realization that they are gone. The she isn't real part is realizing that the person you loved was not who they really were. It was merely an image that you built in your own head of who they were. After my divorce, when people asked why we weren't together anymore, I told them it was because I was in love with someone who didn't exist. Both of these songs, along with other Slipknot songs, helped me get through some rough times.
Please react to Disturbed - A reason to fight [Official Live Video], it's the most powerful live performance I know with a great message. Greetings from Germany 😊 love your reactions and thoughts
In my opinion, this song is about Purity - another Slipknot song that they had to remove from their debut commercial album. I can't remember if Corey heard the story from someone else, or read it himself, but it was a myth/scary story type story about a girl buried in a box, and a boy would being her food in exchange for her telling me scary stories. Slipknot included a section of the story just before Frail Limb Nursery, and Corey wrote a song called Purity but they had to recall the Slipknot album and delete Purity due to a copywrite claim from the original story writer. From what i heard, someone about that story really affected Corey and he thought about it a lot. Here are a few of the lines why i think Vermillion relates to Purity, in no particular order. "She's a myth that i have to believe in" "All i need to make it real is one more reason" (Apparently Corey thought that it was a real event that actually happened). "She isn't real, I can't make her real" "A song that no one sings" "I won't let this build up inside of me" (Again, i heard that this story really affected Corey at one point) This is all my own personal opinion and I've never heard anyone else say anything like this. But to me, it makes sense.
I needed to hear this today. I haven't had the chance to let things go because I'm always so stuck on outside sources to help my internal problems. @heartsupport
Nice reaction and interesting thoughts. Vermillion Pt 1 & 2 really got me in to Slipknot (the Vol. 3 album is my favourite). If you like the contrast between both parts try Hyper Music and Hyper Chondriac Music by Muse - certainly more rock than metal, yet similar in the former being more aggressive while the latter is mellow (both are essentially the same break-up song).
I've gone through a boatload of your content tonight, and I love it. If you want some more mental health-centric music(as you spoke alot of with Slipknot and BMTH), I'd highly recommend Falling in Reverse. Old or new, doesn't matter. Anything from The Drug in Me is You, all the way up to Watch the World Burn, and everything in-between
As a widower, this song cuts me to my core. Seven months ago, my wife ended her life. I struggle every day with it. I know it's more about an unrequited love, but it also speaks to the grief of losing your love to death, to me at least. "I don't know what to do when she makes me sad." To me, is the gut-wrenching pain of having lost my wife. I don't know where to go with all of this pain that she makes me feel. She isn't around to talk about it anymore. "But I won't let this build up inside of me." To me, is the grief of losing her. Recognizing that it's like a poison within me, drowning me from the inside out. "She isn't real. I can't make her real." To me, is the realization that I cannot will her back to life, no matter what I do.
From twixremix: @Self-Delusion thank you for being here and for your vulnerability with your wife’s suicide. i can absolutely see how this song can connect so deeply with your pain and grief. i can feel your despair through the words of your comment… please know that you are seen, understood, and so incredibly valued. sending you so much love and comfort as you continue to heal and grieve.
From Listening2Day: @Self-Delusion What you said was so touching. So sorry you face this; but your understanding is filled with wisdom. I wish you for continued strength in your journey.
From Micro: @Self-Delusion Thank you so much for sharing about your story, about the loss of your wife, and how this song resonates with your personally. There are so many layers to grief that make is such a deep and violent experience yet something so subtle, delicate and troubling at the same time. You've painted some of those layers in such a honest, vulnerable and accurate manner. Thank you for allowing us to see you, to hear your voice and to understand how it's been for your heart during the last seven months. I heard once someone saying this quote, that grief is about all the love that don't have any place to go to anymore. It's like having this deep energy, this call for love and connection that gets interrupted by a wall of silence each time it tries to go out. This entire world that we shared with someone suddenly got divided, and we're left carrying this world for two. Under different circumstances, I've felt this myself so many times through the sudden loss of someone dear to my heart, and words are definitely not enough to express the brutality of this reality that is imposed at you, over and over and over. There's this song of M.Shinoda that conveys it so well: "Sometimes you don't say goodbye once, you say goodbye over and over and over again...". Because that reality keeps hitting you like waves, and you can only do your best to ride them each time. On one side there's the beauty of this legacy of love and the very fat that it exists, of all that it means and implies, of all the good memories and the chance to have created them with someone so unique. While on the other side there's all the silences, the feeling of carrying a void within and being stuck in time. The world keeps turning ardoun you, but inside there is something that has been frozen and immobilized. It's hard to keep on keeping on when it feels like your heart is pulled in opposite directions. It's hard to not feel guilty for breathing when we mourn the ones who don't. I know words fall short when it's about the pain of losing someone so close to your heart, and so important in your life. In the end, a lot of people can say a lot of things that don't serve much anything. For what it's worth, I see you, I hear you, and I wish for you to find one day a sense of peace within. Which is not forgetting, denying, or betraying. Only finding a sense of balance between honoring the memory of your wife, of letting it be a part of your life and present in a way that feels meaningful for you, at your own pace. Sending hugs and thoughts your way today. :heart:
Please do any of TEN.56s songs. I just discovered your videos with slipknot and literally cry at three of them. I suffer from PTSD and depression and this band is very therapeutic for me so I’m very curious to hear your views on them. Thanks for doing what you do and listening
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This song feels like the realization that there is no hope. And I can't listen to it without crying. 😭
Yeah. Well said.
The beauty of music is it can mean many different things to everyone. To me the 1st song is a symbol of lust "a pheromone cult"..."pressure inside..". She is someone or something he believes would sate his desires make him whole. His anger being aimed at something he can't have "she isn't real" almost spoken like a mantra to himself. In vermillion part 2 it's like he comes to terms perfection was never attainable being whole was never possible. In the 1st the very idea of it held him back, made him anxious that he was broken. With part being his realisation and letting go of the unattainable ideal
This song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her. The feeling he felt grew inside him, that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him.
Now we need Snuff, that’s a golden song
She needs to listen to the live version
Corey Taylor really writes a lot of his songs straight from a psychological and personal stand point. Which makes these kinds of analyses so interesting. Can't wait to check that one out.
Corey is absolutely like a lot of us, and absolutely brilliant at articulating. Thinking about him lately with his current struggles
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@@holycegaming4367 listen to this man
“She isn’t real” has helped me realize that the person that I imagined them to be isn’t who they actually are but a fantasy that I created out of a person within my own mind. This is the best way that I can explain how I understand the lyric.
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From Pt 1 when he says "I am a slave and I am a master" is good because it shows he is the one causing it yet at the same time being controlled by it.
Or, he needed to be rid of the thought of her, and the only way for him to do so was to try and convince himself she was never real. Or, never for him.
For me this song reminds me of when you're crushing on somebody. The thing is when you crush on somebody you are crushing on who you think they are and not who they really are. That person you have a crush on isn't real. You ask them out and get to know them you find out who they are. If there's disappointment because they don't live up to your fantasy you can't let that build up inside of you. It isn't their fault you built a fantasy partner in your head.
Exactly how I always thought about it. The fear that convinces you to not interact because "she probably doesn't like me anyway", "I probably made it all up".
I tried to get a girl to realize I like her through music and I legit cired for weeks on end when she said she sees me as a friend and nothing more
Try Left Behind from Iowa album.
Yeah I'd love to see that one.
Yea, because they're very similar. You jadrools.
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The first one is about him stalking her, the second one is after he killed her. He somehow makes murder seem beautiful. And Corey hates Rick Rubin said they payed him alot of money and he would show up like an hour a week and leave.
Can't imagine Rick Rubin and Slipknot in a room together. Lot of real big egos
Yeah no way Corey and Rick's ego fits into a studio, that album did have a different sound then all there others so I guess Rick did something on it.
@@stephenhaynes3460They sounded good, but I have seen a lot of stuff about how Rubin was working on a bunch of people's records all at once, and some stuff about Corey not liking the vocal takes he used.
A lot of ppl complain that Corey isnt screaming his lungs out and crying in anguish on every song like Iowa but I like the deeper, more subdued tones of his voice on Vol. 3, and he screams a bunch too. There's a little more melody but he sounds good. The band sounds good. It's not as raw but it's more musical and its more or less defined their sound, where they can go from grindcore to grunge to acoustic to thrash or groove metal in the space of a couple tracks.
@mediumvillain None of us last forever. He’s getting worn out. I saw a suggested video of him talking about it
@mediumvillain that and also the fact that at the time they recorded Vol. 3 Corey was slowly getting sober.
Whether throughout the whole IOWA era he was drinking 3 bottles of Jack Daniels a day, and not using any technique for his screams, But rather just yelling and "ripping" his vocal chords.
Personally, I think it's really good of you to use your platform/channel to help people with their internalized issues. It shows that you are a good human being and a blessing to those of us out here in the internet ether just making it through another day. Thank you, seriously. Hope you have a great day. 👍🇺🇸
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Literally been my fav slipknot song since I was in high school when it came out.
not too many people understand just how genius they really are. That’s why I love Slipknot. One of the deepest bands I have ever listened to, and not too many people understand that they misinterpret the music. I’m glad I have friends that I sit and have conversations about their music with.
Now you see why Corey is something special. He pulls you through on many many songs.
I remember when this album was released, Vermilion pt1 and pt2 really stood out for me. At the time I was living with 2 friends - a guy I went to school with, and a girl who I did love at one point but we had grown apart. Even though we were living together, I didn't see much of her because of my work hours, and i did miss her. One night I got home about 11 o'clock at night and a little while later I heard her leave the house. I had these two songs on repeat and I was thinking of how I missed spending time with her. She never came home. She took her own life that night. I still get a bit teary listening to these songs sometimes even 20 years on
From AliceBlue: @andrewwalker5164 My heart really sinks and I feel your words and those feelings so deeply. I lost someone I love deeply in the same way and somehow I believe they are in the earth around us and with us. We carry them in our hearts
Sending you love x
From twixremix: @andrewwalker5164 hey, thank you for opening up about your friend’s suicide and the feelings you hold about that night. i’m so sorry. please know that you aren’t alone and even after 20 years, grief has no set time length. thank you again for being here and sharing this difficult time in your life.
From Listening2Day: @andrewwalker5164 What a poignant story you share here. Music has such a powerful way of touching emotions and memories. I hope this music also helps to bring you some peace as well.
From Micro: @andrewwalker5164 I hope the tears, however consequent or not, brought a little bit of rest to your heart, even if happens to be just by the possibillity to breathe a little more deeply. It's heartbreaking to lose someone you loved in such a sudden, unexpected and brutal way. At one moment there is life that is shared, conversations, moments of joy and memories created. There is sound, there is life. Then the moment you learn about what happenes, it feels like a button has been pressed, as if reality couldn't be trusted anymore. For it is too hard to compose with it, and too difficult to wrap our mind around the void that loss creates.
I'm sorry that this person took their life that night. I can't begin to imagine the amount of pain they must have felt, and on your end, how much you certainly tried to rewrite the story in your mind - thinking of what could have been said or done differently to, maybe, change the narrative. It makes sense to still feel affected by it and get teary when you are reminded of her. Even through her absence, she keeps having a presence in your life, in your own story - she left a mark, one that was met with love and was highly meaningful for you. It's hard to feel like two trajectories can be shifted away so brutally, to feel like opportunities of life have been lost, while dealing with the reality of being part of those who keep having the possibility to grow, laugh, live.
I hope that, through these 20 years you've been holding on to the truth that any sense of guilt you may have carried on your shoulders never belonged to you. That it's okay to release that away from your heart and mind. Because it's human to think about all the what if's, it's also okay to offer ourselves the kindness and grace we need at the same time, especially when we grieve. We can love, care, be loyal, and at the same time even the people closest to us can decide to not be seen despite being in front of our eyes. It's an expression of pain, but not any individual's fault. You have been a significant ally in her life. :heart:
I can relate to that feeling, I think I remember listening to this song when my grandad died, even though I learnt the news around a few hours later.
I knew you'd be shook 😂 And the steam train wooo had me laughing 😂
LISTEN TO SNUFF SONG BY SLIPKNOT! THIS SONG HAD ME CRYING! COREY TAYLOR AND JIM ROOT PLAYED THIS SONG FOR ME BEFORE THE PUBLIC HEARD IT!
Sidenote, I do use Slipknot music as therapy not just Slipknot either but mostly Slipknot helps me process music is medicine
Snuff, dead memories, till we die and killpop are all songs id love to see you listen to, it’s been really refreshing to see someone who looks and acts like they wouldn’t listen to metal, not only enjoy it but dive deeper and see what we see, it makes a lot of us feel really seen and I definitely appreciate it a lot.
This woman is such a vibe.
This is the CD that got me in to this band. The local rock station was playing Duality left and right at the time, then both Vermilion songs came out and that was all it took, became a huge fan. Enjoy your analysis of this music, it gives a perspective that I didn't understand at the time, I was just the typical rocker banging his head. lol
literally the little ''jumpscare" at 0:17 was the first thing to make me smile today, and its past 10pm
Love is the most beautiful thing and the most torturous and vulnerable thing in existence simultaneously.
It feels like a lifetime ago. I had just worked myself past serious suicidal plans. But my mind was fixated on a woman. A woman that I couldnt have and that I didnt need. The vermilion songs shined a light on my unhealthy obsession for me. And I moved past that issue. I grew up thinking love was neglect, abuse and pain. Especially from women. I didnt know what to do with myself. Everyone else made me feel like I needed a wife or girlfriend to be happy. But I dont. My happiness is inside and I can be in control of my emotions. No one else can ever be the solution. So your interpretation of this song is exactly how I received it back when I heard it. On a different note Id love to see you listen to some Hatebreed songs. Basically any of them. Hard heavy sound but the lyrics have incredible meaning and messages. They literally saved my life. They told me I have the power in myself, so I tried to make it one more day. And here we are 20 years later. Happy, fulfilled, and trying to listen and mentor some of the other guys that need some compassion and to be heard.
Amazing how from walking through really heavy and dark times, you are now standing up while being a voice of inspiration for others. What a journey! And what a beautiful testimony of growth/healing. You can be proud of yourself for not giving up on yourself and for gaining such profound insight on the battles you've been facing. I myself grew up in an abusive environment, so it's been - and somehow keep being - a lifelong process to dissociate that type of pain from genuine love. It leaves you with this void inside and the belief that you would only feel complete through others (or external substitutes). Instead, it's been such a meaningful journey it to learn to meet myself at an emotional level, and to be the one who builds a strong backbone for my life.
Interestingly as you mention mentoring, at Heartsupport we have an online mentorship program (for which of course we always need more people willing to step in and volunteer). If that would be of any interest for you, here's the link to our website with more information: www.heartsupport.com/bts-volunteer - You have a strong story to tell and without a doubt a heart for this. Would love to count you in!
- Marie-Anne
We all want what isn't real
You're interpretation of this song is incredible, i am definitely subscribed.
Metal music has always been my therapy . Thank you
Another song series that is pretty cool is Metallica - Unforgiven I, II and III.
Another great song series: Tool - Disposition, Reflection, Triad
The song that I listen to every time I am drinking my coffee in the morning before going to school. Realizing that I have nobody and they're just inside my head.
I love your input on Slipknot songs….. I wish you were here to us all decades ago
This song has been my long time favorite of my favorite band and helped me thru the many years of battling suicide attempts and depression and mental breakdown. Literally both parts helped me realize how much I internalize all my feelings. I’m so glad I found this channel. ❤
I love the way you analize the lyrics, best regards from Brazil : )
My Plague by Slipknot was my favorite of the Iowa album
Slipknot is one of my favourite Bands and this Song is one of my favourites
Vermillion 1 and 2 always reminded me of watching my friends deal with and try to overcome addiction.
I'm on the verge, my friends. I can't anymore. Peace be with everyone. I hope no one ever feels that loss ever. I wish love and peace and happiness on everyone who see's this.
The deluxe version of all hope is gone album has another version of vermilion pt2 it’s awesome
Please react to Ren - Hi Ren. It captures mental health struggles beautifully. The video is done in one take (3rd attempt). ❤ Your reactions 😊
Did you all notice the first time she opens her eyes throughout the whole video
Is when Corey said she isn’t real
Been listening to slipknot for 15 years now❤
I recommend you “The Virus of Lifes” from Subliminal Verses too. Please this song is very interesting 👌🏻
You’ve found the words that I’d never found but felt. I have a tattoo on my chest with these words: “I won’t let this build up inside of me” because 5 years ago I was lost. I was profoundly frustrated because of many of “impossible to resolve” problems. I had a depression. And the only meaning and piece of a human happiness to me was my girlfriend that later cheated on me and I had to stop our relationships. And when I was at the bottom of my life I heard both these songs and main words and it helped me and now I’m doing well. That’s why I tattooed it on my chest as a symbol and the reminder about to what it could lead if you let all these stuff build up inside of you. Thank you for such a great reaction and explanation of meanings of these two songs from your professional experience. You are amazing! God bless you!
This song saved me from myself in my darkest times thank you for your evaluation I never understood why it resonated with me in such a strong way now it seems to make more sense
Same here man. I grew up alone. I seemed companionship at a young age and still ended up alone. Betrayed by people again and again. This song as many others to this day built up a lot of sadness in my life and helped me express my sadness and frustration in life. I guess that’s why men become so isolated socially in modern society. Regardless the amount of relationships I had felt suffocating but without felt lonely and cold…
Regardless of our past traumas we should have more therapeutic songs like this. This art is exactly how music should be. Every story every lyric should be of a story a message.
I kinda think that the first one was about an obsession whereas the second one is the realization that the perfect person is just a figment of our imagination but at the end when her eyes open and she sees the sun it's about seeing the light after the storm is done !!
You are so incredibly awesome! Thank you for what you do!
Best reaction to this music video
And just like that you lifted all the weight off my shoulders. Th and you 😊
One of the best vocal performances of all-time in my opinion.
My favorite love song
I love these reactions and i especially love your interpretations and your take on the songs! Please keep being awesome! You are helping me while jamming out! And I love it! 🤘🤘❤
A lot of people have Slipknot totally wrong, if you decifer the lyrics, there's a lot of deep stuff in them.
Definitely my #1 band 🤘
You REALY need to hear/see Korn - Falling Away from Me
Bought this album when it dropped. Only speakers in the house were on my brothers computer in his room. Im in there listening to this when him and then wife. Ex wife to him now but not my story. She asked me who it was and couldn't believe it was slipknot. Didnt ask me why i was listening loud and tears behind a smile. That goes back to old drama in my life.
HOOOOOOOOOOOO (unsuspecting train meme) lol
seriously though, Vermillion 1 and 2 are some of my favorite Slipknot songs (and songs in general). Not just for the composition. But the underlying psychological story that plays out. I know the singer and bandmates all have very rough lives and terrible times in their lives. You can only peak in through the lens of their creative outlet to see a fraction of their inner turmoil. Its also so relatable. Like who hasn't felt that intense need for someone else to make their life right only to find out that it wasn't necessity. But you find its just infatuation and now you don't know what do to.
Great video. Great analysis. Subbed!
Bro... I listen to this song since it came out. I've got so emotional with this video. Damn
and now the masterpiece THE NEGATIVE ONE.
That song (and phrase: I won't let this build up inside of me) is so powerful to me, that I have a tattoo on my left arm s2 I live it like a mantra, and it feels good
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I like your reactions, I also laugh at your craziness ☺️
Parts 1 and 2 were great to watch… I love metal music and hard rock music, and Slipknot is easily in my top 10 favorites… all of that said your analysis of their lyrics has really helped add a new layer of appreciation for them (my appreciation was always for the level of talent that all possess to make such incredible songs). All of that said this has also helped me with my own therapy, and your reactions have helped me to dig deeper into my self and feelings between sessions, your reactions are hopefully doing the same for others. I can’t express enough even to strangers (which is why I’m not ashamed to say) MENTAL HEALTH IS SO IMPORTANT TO LIFE, and you reactions are great in helping to provide that… thank you, and keep doing awesome things for people
I love this song and music video so much. I imagine it as a narration of his love. This woman that he loves. It's BASED on a woman, but the woman he built up in his mind isn't the person he thought it was. He's tormenting himself by trying to breathe life into the woman he thinks he loves, but all that's happening is she's floating around in this morbid, animated but still lifeless way. Basically this woman was dead before she was ever alive, and the process the character is going through is actually mourning this person who was never alive. He's giving in and allowing himself to feel grief. He's allowed this toxic hope to build up so much inside of him, that this imaginary person needs to be legitimately grieved in order for him to move on. The last verse to me is like a tragic catharsis, finally telling himself the hard truths and reassuring him in between every sentence. She isn't real (i won't let this build up inside of me) i can't make her real (it's okay man, you can't let it build up)
this song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her the feeling he felt was growing inside him that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him in part one he hadn't killed her yet and he was trying to contain himself, already in part 2 because he couldn't keep it inside himself
A good psychological torment album with Corey Taylor is Stone Sour’s House of Gold and Bones parts 1 & 2 lyrically it’s a mental whirlwind. Even has accompanying comics. I’d love to hear a therapist’s reaction to those.
She is the representation of happiness that he knows he can never have
This song is actually by a psychotic man who felt frustrated by her and decided to kill her. The feeling he felt grew inside him, that's why he said he couldn't let it grow inside him.
@@Investigador532 She isn't real
PLEASE react and explain ‘Bother’ - the song by Corey Taylor’s side project - Stone Sour!
Love your reactions, you’re putting all the inner thoughts and feelings from these songs into words just amazingly!
That train picture 🤣🤣🤣
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YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES ^^ my favorite sing along song by Slipknot
This song reminds me of my ex-wife. We spent many years apart because of the military, desperately loved each other, but never really spent much time together.
After we got married, we quickly realized that each of us had built this idea of the other person, which wasn’t accurate. It fell apart, quickly and in flames.
Took me years to get over her.
Whenever she is, I hope she’s happy and prosperous.
Before I found out the what the song was actually about I thought it was about dealing with bipolar as a man and the struggle with the rage and anger mixed with deep sadness and shame and struggling with identity and who I was. It still hits me like that to this day
I love your interpretation of Vermillion 1 and 2. The only video you haven't Watched was Thoughtless
I would like to say, Welcome Maggot! Corey Taylor is a Lyrcial Genous! The dude (& the 9 in general) are amazing. Personally speaking, they have saved my life. #maggot4lyfe
I love this song. It's been there when iv had to move on after heartbreak. I love the reaction
What you said at the end about interpreting music as you hear it yourself is important. I love hearing the way other people interpret, but using your own thoughts is also important
“I won’t this build up inside of me”
Having become somewhat infatuated with a woman I used to work with but being unable to be with her, when that realisation sunk in I emotionally “shut down” towards this individual in an attempt to stop feeling an attachment to her. Just my thoughts on how parts 1 & 2 tie together for me
This song helped me through a decade long break up
I needede to hear this words, so thx and respect to your knowledge and viewing angle 🫰🏻
I miss you, Kayla. Forever. My heart. Forever.
Liste to "Nero forte", my favorite slipknot song ❤
Finally some one mentions Nero Forte.
I've been watching your videos for the last hour. Im a metal singer myself and its awesome to watch someone react to some of the deep tool, korn, and slipknot songs without negative judgemet. I've tried to get counseling my whole life and have always been met with a reaction that my pain through childhood abuse, and my mental status from such is a result of my own sins. I dont believe in therapy or counseling anymore because through all of the judgement I'm also smart enough to know that most counselors have never experienced any real horrors in their lives and are making assumptions based on text books. I wish I had different experiences. I'd love to have someone listen to me the way you do these artists. My lyrics are a reflection of me, but never tell the whole story. You are doing something wonderful, and even though I'll never see another therapist, you give me hope that maybe after I'm gone someone may hear what I've been screaming and take the time to understandit without judgement. Thank you for what you do. @heartsupport
Thank you for helping me understand my feelings. Thank you!
Some of Slipknots tracks honestly moved me to tears before just from the message in it and the relatability to how Corey is saying that message. Some of the tracks like this one have such an emotional response to me. Slipknot is definitely not just all scream yell devil curse gore gross. By far they have been my favorite band for some time and I will always cherish these songs for what they are.
Actually if we pay attention to the visuals, Vermillion part 2 was the prequel to the whole storyline of Vermillion which was an amazing approach. It started as an unrequited admiration that turned into an unhealthy obsession (part1).
"This song is low key beeeeeeautiful"...
-He murdered her
This pair of songs always makes me think of the stages of bipolar syndrome. Pt.1 is Mania, Pt. 2 is Depression. First he wants her at all costs, second he believes he can NEVER have her.
Great generalized points.
Wish we could see the reaction to what the commonly held beliefs of the true meanings are for both of these songs.
I never heard anyone put it into words like this its amazing
She reminds me of the butterfly in part 1 that also laid to rest at the end.
@heartsupport
To me, the songs are about being in a relationship with someone who you've put on a pedastal and worship. The first song is the anger and rage felt immediately losing that person, while part 2 is about the sadness felt over that loss and realization that they are gone. The she isn't real part is realizing that the person you loved was not who they really were. It was merely an image that you built in your own head of who they were.
After my divorce, when people asked why we weren't together anymore, I told them it was because I was in love with someone who didn't exist. Both of these songs, along with other Slipknot songs, helped me get through some rough times.
Please react to Disturbed - A reason to fight [Official Live Video], it's the most powerful live performance I know with a great message. Greetings from Germany 😊 love your reactions and thoughts
In my opinion, this song is about Purity - another Slipknot song that they had to remove from their debut commercial album.
I can't remember if Corey heard the story from someone else, or read it himself, but it was a myth/scary story type story about a girl buried in a box, and a boy would being her food in exchange for her telling me scary stories.
Slipknot included a section of the story just before Frail Limb Nursery, and Corey wrote a song called Purity but they had to recall the Slipknot album and delete Purity due to a copywrite claim from the original story writer.
From what i heard, someone about that story really affected Corey and he thought about it a lot. Here are a few of the lines why i think Vermillion relates to Purity, in no particular order.
"She's a myth that i have to believe in"
"All i need to make it real is one more reason" (Apparently Corey thought that it was a real event that actually happened).
"She isn't real, I can't make her real"
"A song that no one sings"
"I won't let this build up inside of me" (Again, i heard that this story really affected Corey at one point)
This is all my own personal opinion and I've never heard anyone else say anything like this. But to me, it makes sense.
Check out Stone Sour - Hesitate (live/accoustic) (same singer, different band, similar song)
I needed to hear this today. I haven't had the chance to let things go because I'm always so stuck on outside sources to help my internal problems. @heartsupport
I loove this song!!!
@heartsupport Omg I love both the versions of this song .. but your breakdown hit so hard thankyou - I get it ❤
I wanna see what you think about the song "circle" by slipknot. Its a genius work of art!
Ok, the song you NEED to hear is “Finale”. Probably the next most or THE most beautiful Slipknot song.
try some of the tool songs in particular schism, parabol, parabola and lateralus
Or 46&2 😊
I think she hit it on point
Nice reaction and interesting thoughts. Vermillion Pt 1 & 2 really got me in to Slipknot (the Vol. 3 album is my favourite). If you like the contrast between both parts try Hyper Music and Hyper Chondriac Music by Muse - certainly more rock than metal, yet similar in the former being more aggressive while the latter is mellow (both are essentially the same break-up song).
Part 2 is about over coming depression and the darkness within, and renewing ones self.
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You should listen to The Arms of Sorrow by KillswitchEngage. Beautiful song that is also very heavy.
perfect
I've gone through a boatload of your content tonight, and I love it. If you want some more mental health-centric music(as you spoke alot of with Slipknot and BMTH), I'd highly recommend Falling in Reverse. Old or new, doesn't matter. Anything from The Drug in Me is You, all the way up to Watch the World Burn, and everything in-between
As a widower, this song cuts me to my core. Seven months ago, my wife ended her life. I struggle every day with it.
I know it's more about an unrequited love, but it also speaks to the grief of losing your love to death, to me at least.
"I don't know what to do when she makes me sad." To me, is the gut-wrenching pain of having lost my wife. I don't know where to go with all of this pain that she makes me feel. She isn't around to talk about it anymore.
"But I won't let this build up inside of me." To me, is the grief of losing her. Recognizing that it's like a poison within me, drowning me from the inside out.
"She isn't real. I can't make her real." To me, is the realization that I cannot will her back to life, no matter what I do.
From twixremix: @Self-Delusion thank you for being here and for your vulnerability with your wife’s suicide. i can absolutely see how this song can connect so deeply with your pain and grief. i can feel your despair through the words of your comment… please know that you are seen, understood, and so incredibly valued. sending you so much love and comfort as you continue to heal and grieve.
From Listening2Day: @Self-Delusion What you said was so touching. So sorry you face this; but your understanding is filled with wisdom. I wish you for continued strength in your journey.
From Micro: @Self-Delusion Thank you so much for sharing about your story, about the loss of your wife, and how this song resonates with your personally. There are so many layers to grief that make is such a deep and violent experience yet something so subtle, delicate and troubling at the same time. You've painted some of those layers in such a honest, vulnerable and accurate manner. Thank you for allowing us to see you, to hear your voice and to understand how it's been for your heart during the last seven months.
I heard once someone saying this quote, that grief is about all the love that don't have any place to go to anymore. It's like having this deep energy, this call for love and connection that gets interrupted by a wall of silence each time it tries to go out. This entire world that we shared with someone suddenly got divided, and we're left carrying this world for two. Under different circumstances, I've felt this myself so many times through the sudden loss of someone dear to my heart, and words are definitely not enough to express the brutality of this reality that is imposed at you, over and over and over.
There's this song of M.Shinoda that conveys it so well: "Sometimes you don't say goodbye once, you say goodbye over and over and over again...". Because that reality keeps hitting you like waves, and you can only do your best to ride them each time. On one side there's the beauty of this legacy of love and the very fat that it exists, of all that it means and implies, of all the good memories and the chance to have created them with someone so unique. While on the other side there's all the silences, the feeling of carrying a void within and being stuck in time. The world keeps turning ardoun you, but inside there is something that has been frozen and immobilized. It's hard to keep on keeping on when it feels like your heart is pulled in opposite directions. It's hard to not feel guilty for breathing when we mourn the ones who don't.
I know words fall short when it's about the pain of losing someone so close to your heart, and so important in your life. In the end, a lot of people can say a lot of things that don't serve much anything. For what it's worth, I see you, I hear you, and I wish for you to find one day a sense of peace within. Which is not forgetting, denying, or betraying. Only finding a sense of balance between honoring the memory of your wife, of letting it be a part of your life and present in a way that feels meaningful for you, at your own pace.
Sending hugs and thoughts your way today. :heart:
I like slipknot songs about obssesion for somebody. Same as Prosthetics.
Please do any of TEN.56s songs. I just discovered your videos with slipknot and literally cry at three of them. I suffer from PTSD and depression and this band is very therapeutic for me so I’m very curious to hear your views on them.
Thanks for doing what you do and listening
As someone who lost my first love and love of my life to a car crash this song tears me the fuck apart.