Rebecca-July 2024
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- Опубликовано: 5 сен 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Rebecca, a transgender woman on Skid Row.
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Ngl, my intuition tells me Rebecca probably recently got attacked horribly in some way. I've never seen Rebecca dressed like a male and wearing glasses...almost like trying to become invisible or hide. Bruised face, teary eyes, unable to speak... something very serious happened to Rebecca. I hope it's not what I think it is. Sending you so much healing, Rebecca.
There were pictures of him as a child wearing glasses. I think someone is helping him, since there are years of him not wearing the glasses. He is getting help I want to think.. he also looks clean here even though Mark says he could use the shower.. there are miracles though!
i agree it looks like she was trying to hide herself to feel safe.
i pray that you have the compassion in your heart to listen to people when they are talking about something you have no experience with.
@@MCF1943 her*
I'd agree if Rebecca didn't already have an attack violently and sexually where the appearance didn't look like this.
This is the hardest Rebecca interview to watch yet
Excruciating
My heart hurts 😔
I don't like seeing Rebecca like this. Something is off😢
Meh.
Rebecca is internally holding onto something that is draining the life out of here.Her pain is not just about needing another high.It's been years she could be at the top had she gotten help years ago.😢
Rebecca is absolutely screaming silently that she is not happy and I think that hug helped
He doesnt even try to present as a woman.
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projecting helps no one
Uhh what..weird comment
I'm so happy and relieved Mark offered a hug...I was thinking that right before he stood up...NEVER LOOSING HOPE ON YOU REBECCA 🫶🏽...NEVER 🌹✨
Mark - I’m so sorry that anyone said anything about what you do or don’t for Rebecca. I’ve watched for years the roller coaster she takes you - all of us, on. I applaud and thank you for your beautiful heart.
She is clearly extremely traumatized, she's fighting back the tears the entire time. It's breaking my heart, I've been rooting for Rebecca for a long time. I hope you heal, Rebecca.
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@@WrappedInFoilthere's always one of you 😂
@@WrappedInFoilYou're the dirt under my shoe.
This isn't about pronouns, it's about a human being suffering.
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The look on Rebecca's face when Mark gives the hug...the way Rebecca says "I love you, Mark." The sincerity, the friendship, the worry and sadness...it's palpable. I've never witnessed anything like their story and it's something I think about often. I'm rooting for you, Rebecca.
There was a finality in that I love you, I hope it isn’t!
@@adrianrosado2223me too 🙈but Rebecca is quite resilient 🥹 and we’ve seen her like this b4. I too pray she finds her way 🫶🏼
Same. I wish the best for her and pray for a success story for her.
@@LettiesLife I don’t ever think I’ve ever seen her quite this damaged before though, do you?
Thank you so much Mark
My brother was Rebecca. I almost went bankrupt trying to fix him. I almost lost my mind wondering every night where is he, is he safe, fed, housed, what can I do to save him. I lost family members and friends because I would always help my brother. I almost lost my home because he was staying with me and just about burned to the ground or was selling, using drugs at my home. I almost lost my life when he tried to stab me in my sleep in his drug induced state. I wanted to fix him, help him, love him, protect him. In the end, he died, overdosed, alone, next to a dumpster, filthy. His death put me in therapy, lots of therapy. Why couldn't I save him? Why? Because, my brother didn't want to be saved, he was ill, addicted, out of his mind. He is at peace now, at rest and finally, so am I. RIP my baby brother, see you on the other side.
Wow. Take care of yourself. The world is a better place because of your love. Feeling your pain.
Lots of love to you ❤
I am so sorry. That’s a horrendous thing to go through for the both of you. My heart and thoughts go out to you, if I could hug you I would. Love and peace to you ❤️
You did everything you could. You went above & beyond what most people would do…even though you probably feel that you could have done ‘something else’. You couldn’t have.
Let your heart heal knowing that- and that he is no longer tortured by this terrible affliction. Watching loved ones go through this destroys people. Don’t let it destroy you because you are on this earth for a special reason. Much love & hugs❤️
@@uplatenite8in loving a drug addict is toxic. Exiling them from your life can save your own.
rewatching this after the most recent video makes me so sad. cannot even imagine how rough this was for rebecca.
Same
Yes it has me in tears .
I don’t know how someone can say Mark has done nothing for Rebecca. He is one of the only consistent people (that we know of) in her life.
Her?
He wants to be called her. And as much as I wish nothing but the absolute best for him, I won't be roped into calling him a her.
He’s filmed Rebecca non stop and threw money here and there . But look at this new video ? Does it look like anything mark did really helped?
@@Killstar708 judgmental much? You have no idea what’s gone on there, at all.
@@missycitty9478then just use Rebecca
Today, Rebecca looks like someone who is processing a traumatic event. She doesn’t look like she’s doing ok at all.
Withdrawal alone is a tragic event. Over and over and over. Unfortunately we've seen the many lies of Rebecca. Give him a bump and he perks right up
I thought the same
She?
I thought so too , who knows what happens to her out on the streets😢
all the drama he has or makes for him self on the streets will only bring him more hardship so wat do u expect sadly my good man.
Rebecca looks absolutely traumatised and fragile. Mark thank you for giving her that hug. She needed that so very much. Her arms went straight out for you. That's the main thing you give her is love. Love you Rebecca. I'm so scared for her, she's looking so vulnerable and broken.
Aghhh, this comment made me cry.😢😢😢
@@TeresaJohnston-qx6xs Ay, me too😪😪
Love...to death.
@winkiepop I think she is love starved. Seriously needs a family with 24/7 supervison like a child. I'm curious if nurturing would make a difference? You drink or drug to mask the pain of the abuse/neglect. Give her a controlled environment with lots of love and reassurance/ nurturing. I truly feel she would do great. She is a person who will always need a guardian with her the rest of her life.
She is a disabled child in a grown man's body. I'm rambling. I just care about Rebecca.
Is Rebecca a guy or girl?
If only she knew there are 1000’s of hugs waiting for her. Come on Rebecca. We’re all still rooting for you ❤
It's like watching an abused 7 year old, just too young to take it all in but trying to be polite.
Wow! What type of 7 yr Olds are you watching over?
@@pcharm3711 Stupid comment
I have seen interviews of abused children. most do not talk. but when they do it is like Rebecca here.
@@pcharm3711 ever thought that maybe some people work with abused kids trying to help them? or did i just explode your mind
@@pcharm3711watching how many people pass around my exes like life’s a pog riddle in double vision. Michael’s always popular, but Adam rarely appears anywhere; but who are all these people and businesses quoting all their names…I thought it was king Midas who turned to gold everything he touched.
Omg,Rebecca has obviously had something very traumatic happen. Dressing like a man,unable to talk,the labored breathing and the inability to even talk to Mark is just heartbreaking.
Its called doing a shit ton of meth for years
@@r7kelley553there’s literally a knot on his head…something had to have happened
The drug man beat her down
@@mysettingsmysettings2997 how would you know ?
@@mysettingsmysettings2997 Don't be rude!
She was fighting back tears the whole interview. I think that’s why she was so quiet. So hurt she can’t speak 💔 that hug was just the thing. Thanks, Mark.
She? That’s a man
Exactly. I really wish mark could help her, but you can’t help a people who use drugs. They have to want it, but when there’s a underlying mental illness with the person using drugs, it’s even harder for them to truly get the help they need. I just want to hug her. 😢
@@brendabarraza4915 Baloney
Why doesn't he want a better life.
Maybe this is what it will take to get her to straighten out her life.
I think anyone who has watched your interaction KNOWS how involved you have been and how much you have offered and provided. Thank you, Mark
Your videos changed my approach when caring for patients as a nurse. It's another mental level of empathy.
Thank you for your kindness, thank you for growing and learning. Your work is vital 💜
That is so good to hear. I have been discriminated by nurses and doctors over the years as a drug addict. I was turned away at a women's hospital, accused of trying to scam pain killers when i had an ectopic pregnancy when i was 19 years old and am very reluctant to seek medical help due to my experiences. Thanks for keeping an open heart when dealing with your patients
Bless you ❤
i couldn’t agree more with this
His interviews have softened my heart for the addicted and mentally ill. I’m so thankful for that.
The way Rebecca reached up for a hug like a little kid. Im bawling. I want to see Rebecca well so much
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We all do - praying for her ❤
I think about her a lot 😔 ❤❤❤
@@granmasmagicalwhispersnursery me too, like every day
Agreed
Sometimes, a hug helps more than a lot of folks realize. You are a good guy Mark!
Totally agree!!
I was actually thinking like wow a hug might help and Mark went over as if reading our minds.
So true he seemed so sad. I think if he started crying he might not of stopped. I feel like he was holding something deep inside him. He had a swollen spot on his forehead it breaks my heart to think of someone hurting him. Mark you are a wonderful man you listening to peoples stories helps them to move on. Maybe not right away but sooner than later
Hugs are free, promises at this point are lies. Rebecca loves the street life.
I was thinking the same thing. I found out that at Disney World, the actors are told to let the kids hug you until they walk away, because you don't know how much they need that hug. A hug from Mickey might totally change their day/week/month, you just don't know.
I am praying for this person. Such a tragic situation. Rebecca looks so defeated and drowning in sadness.
I had almost sworn off Rebecca videos. I hesitantly clicked. And my heart was broken. You are worth it Rebecca ♡
Same here. I actually did stop watching. For months. Today I thought about her and here I am 😢❤
I don't know why but this feels like the most heartbreaking Rebecca interview yet. It almost feels like she's given up on herself.
Its a dude not "her" - she was born a man treat him as such.
I was thinking the same. I felt very sad watching this. Mark does help a lot, but the drugs are killing her mind and soul.
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Same. We’ve seen a lot of sides to Rebecca but this is different
Someone hurt her. I know exactly that look. When she said different things she meant other things happened. The change in clothes and everything indicates someone hurt her. Youre vulnerable to sexual attacks whwn youre homeless.
You don’t have to explain yourself Mark. People that follow this story know that you have offered her every opportunity under the sun. No one can force anyone to accept the help they need.
thank you!!
Agreed 💯 I hate that anyone comes after him for anything, they literally have NO EFFING IDEA about who he is & what he does. Fills me with rage to think about
What did he do exactly, why is everyone on their knees sucking off this mark guy@@9sheri9
You are so right about him!
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Mark's gentle and loving tone brings me to tears. He's showing us a master class on how to be empathetic and love unconditionally. I have learnt a lot from Mark watching these interactions between them two. Like Mark said... all these keyboard warriors attack him about things but don't show an ounce of support for Rebecca in person like Mark is doing. He is doing the best he can under the circumstances and just being there for and loving Rebecca. LAY OFF HIS CASE PEOPLE!!!
So much heaviness in this video. It felt like Rebecca wanted to say something but couldn’t. I hope Rebecca is safe ❤️
Mark, “everybody” is not thinking you’re not doing enough. I think most of us see you are her only connection to hope. You’ve given her SO much. Thank you for all you do!
I totally agree with you. Mark goes the extra mile for Rebecca. Mark is a caring and wonderful man. I can't imagine people making accusations that he's not doing enough. From what I've noticed, Mark has practically done cartwheels trying to help and has contributed much on a financial basis. (Mark, you're one in a million!)
I thought Mark quit supporting Rebecca and the family from Odd, WV. Been gone awhile....what's happened ?? Could be that this is Rebecca's way of getting Mark to "support" her again.
Mark is not the best human. He can be exploitative and abusive.
She's friends with the Queen of Melrose now which is cool, and is welcome in all of his stores. Rebecca has some friends in high places.
I could not agree more with you.
The heavy breathing trying not to cry- can relate. It’s okay to not be okay Rebecca. So many people love you.
It’s called withdrawal & all she can think about is wanting to feel better. Not “high”, at this stage, it’s not for the high, it’s to feel normal. Normal, as in how we feel on a regular basis without any substance. Just, normal.
It’s the pain & sickness from the withdrawals & that’s all it is. There’s no “cravings” it’s knowing that only one thing will stop their pain instantly. It’s hard for some people to comprehend that addicts don’t wake up excited & happy to do drugs, contrary to the belief, but they have to. Otherwise, they’re unable to function. Depending on the drug, It’s the equivalent to needing oxygen to breathe, every time they wake up.
The sickness is equivalent to the Flu x5 + Food Poisoning x3, instantaneously & consistently until their receptor gets what it needs or their body rids the toxins after 2-3weeks depending on what they use. Unless a person has commercial insurance or paying cash, those “recovery centers” don’t provide the adequate resources or time that people really need to recover.
State-funded rehabs provide the bare minimum and as previously stated if the facilities aren’t going to help treat the withdrawals to make recovery bearable then we’ll continue to have a revolving door of addicts suffering from a disease! When people actually try to get help, they’re forced into a room alone with a bucket & given ibuprofen & a nausea pill every 4-6hrs. No therapy, no group, none of the lies told in their brochure. Just an attitude, judgement & some water. Imagine the sickest you’ve ever been, multiply it by 5 & then imagine going through that for 7-14days straight, no breaks and then try to understand & empathize why we have so many Rebecca’s.
Rehabs are a new get rich scheme. Anytime there’s a procedure that can rid the body within 72hrs while you’re medically induced priced at $25,000…. So basically only for the wealthy when the statistical addict is considered impoverished ! This procedure would be The DREAM PROCEDURE & addiction would be at an all-time low if it was AFFORDABLE but apparently we don’t want that to happen all while we’re still screaming “WAR ON DRUGS” 🤦🏽♀️
Rebecca is withdrawing from drugs. Not having an emotional breakdown.
@@MorteAlla_Francia_ItaliaAnelavery well said!
This REALLY MADE ME CRY like a baby!! I've never cried like this for Rebecca until tonight. She's hurting BADLY! It killed me watching her hold back tears, her eyes are bloodshot and watery as if she's been crying for days. And the facial expressions holding back bursting into a full blown cry!! It's very heartbreaking being a mom and watching a kind, intelligent human hurting so badly. It breaks my ever loving heart. ~ I feel so touched & thankful that he has Mark as a mentor in his life. Someone that looks deep into Rebecca's under layers and understand underneath it all there's an amazing, kind, smart human that deserves love, kindness and someone to have to talk to. ~ Thank you Mark for having such a big heart!! 🩷
I pray for Rebecca often. 🙏
I've cried huge tears for Rebecca
Definitely not a male prison for a woman, who is good looking, she will be SA'd daily, and locking up doesnt cure addiction. I would of thought mark would know better.
Rebecca might read your comment, she said once that she did read the comments. I loved what you wrote. I am not a mom but I feel the heartbreak too. Let´s try to respect her and use the pronounce that she prefers. Please, I am not hating on you, I don´t want to have a virtual fight or anything like that. Peace.
This was the loudest non-verbal interview i have ever heard. She wants to cry sooo badly but won't break down no matter what. This is gut renching to watch . Rebecca's poor sweet soul is screaming for help . How I wish I could hug her tightly and make everything bad go away . Please let her know that we love her and that there's hope at the end of rehab if she would try . She would have therapy for all the pain she's carrying. Sometimes, you just have to lay your burdens down ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
He's very high, can't speak
@@angelicaloya7006no, that's not it. We have seen that version of Rebecca. This is way different.
@@angelicaloya7006 i think its lack of being high. Total withdrawals. His brain is feeling all the lack of dopamine and balance
I agree. She looks like she's really holding back tears. Maybe because its been so long since Mark interviewed her and they've been estranged?
She looks so uncomfortable too. Like she is only trying to get through the interview so she can get the money to get high. Which, is completely understandable. I'd feel so judged sitting there.
That’s a dude.
Let me say, I'm a 12 year Sergeant on the Sheriff's Office in my state. I've met hundreds and hundreds of Rebeccas throughout my career. I've watched some of them turn their lives around and I've watched some of them let their addiction take their life. Mark, what you're doing for Rebecca is beautiful and I support you, and her, 100%. You've been consistent in your compassion and I'm proud of you for it. All we can do is love them through it. Not enable, not entertain, just be that rock for them and show them love. And hug them when they need it. Thank you for what you do, Mark. Rebecca, I'm cheering for you, sis ❤
Beautiful written.
I Agree❣️❣️❣️Beautifully written!!!
Thank you for being a good apple yourself. And for your service to the community and for treating the houseless like humans as they are. Just hurt.
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Amen to that 🙏
Rebecca just melted into Marks arms you can see Rebecca feels safe, protected, respected and loved by Mark.
Thank you Mark for being that person, never change
It’s a fine line, rebeca doesn’t want help even tho they have the world in front of them
He called her a "rat"
No, he said you're choosing to live your life like a rat. That's completely different @@truth-hurts3089
@@truth-hurts3089he didn’t though, he said she was living like one
@@Foxiticom I have 2 pet rats. I can tell you they are very tidy and organised. Their favourite thing is I hand them torn up kitchen roll. They take it away to make their nest cosy. They are also litter trained.
He was trying to gaslight and use it as an insult. Although it makes no sense as rats are very clean.
Molly or ecstasy is a powerful depleter of dopamine and having no dopamine is an insane feeling. It’s indescribable. Rebekah is moving and twitching because feeling nothing is so extremely uncomfortable. When she responds to Mark by saying, I guess I don’t know she means it because she literally has no idea how she feels because the lack of dopamine makes her unable to rationalize the meaning or importance of anything
She’s tweaking super hard on meth man. Look at her jaw eyes body language. I used to do meth and I can almost feel that feeling by looking at her. Heart pounding so twitchy you’re physically almost in pain.
She may also have permanent TD from substance use unfortunately.
This interview had me in tears. Seeing her sit there like that and just..suffer silently. Thank you for hugging her Mark. Thank you for all the help you offer and the help you give. Sending Rebecca a lotta love.
Seeing her reach up to Mark for a hug....😢 authentic compassion and heartbreaking reality of loving an adult with mental illness and/or addiction issues. Many protective prayers over all the Rebecca's in the world and their loved ones.
This breaks my heart. Of all her videos to date, this is the hardest to watch, I am so deeply worried for her and sad to see this. Something has happened, I just feel so sad for her.
Thank you for continuing to care for Rebecca, she deserves it.
I pray for her too. Hoping it's not for attention
Whether positive or negative
It's still attention. Either way her soul is extremely strong and endearing
Rebecca’s breathing is labored. Could be heart issue. 😔
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Is this not a man?
@lavienestpasunlongfleuvetr2559 She is a woman
Thank you for all your help! I appreciate what you are doing. I lost my son 7 months ago after 14 yrs of bipolar, alcohol & drug abuse. we helped him as much as we could, 14 rehabs, endless $ . Even had to post pone another one of my kids college start by a yr- it’s so much. I miss my son every day & I know he is in his best place & no more pain. Me I’m where I need to be. Thank you for all you do for people who are not your child! I appreciate what u do.
Every new video that pops up, I'm sooooo waiting for the interview where Rebecca completely turns things around and becomes the person we all can see they can be
You need to love her as is
@@ld2478 what's wrong with wanting peace and mental heath for someone. Loving someone often means wanting better for them and encouraging them.
The way Rebecca reached out to Mark, broke my heart, but was also so very touching.
She was on the verge of bursting into tears the whole interview. I feel something terrible happened to her. Poor soul, so troubled and so lonely. That was heartbreaking.
Drugs ate his brains already
No shes not! This is what a comedown from a bender while in psychosis looks like
@badsmutt Wow. Evil much? Rebecca Is a MALE. Born a male, he will die a male. Deal with it.
Wishing fatality on another person will not change that.
You're just sick. And in denial..
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Words have no meaning anymore
That’s a man not a woman you weirdo he must suffer his consequences for going against the morals of God
This is one of the most visually stunning and impactful thumbnails I think I have ever seen posted.
Mark, your talent for capturing someone's soul- whether tortured, alight or at ease at that time- is truly unparalleled.
You are a gift to this world Mark, you shine a light on people who may otherwise be shadowed and open our hearts to people in a way few could.
I thought the same. Stunning photo in the still.
it's a very arresting photo. almost makes your heart stand still from the pain in her eyes. I love Mark and Rebecca and am glad she at least seems to have a few consistent people in her life, including Mark. that hug was everything.
The hug felt around the world. Thank you, Mark
My thoughts exactly..❤️
Just lost a great friend to suicide on Friday. He was struggling.
Please *try* to be there for people. We're all in this together
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🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I'm so sorry. 🫂
So sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved friend💙
I’ve been a silent follower for years and as much as i’ve seen on this page i’ve never seen such a huge change in character than i have in this video. Rebecca seems deeply down and traumatised, dodging certain questions in such a quiet and demure way when she’s usually so expressive. I truly hope, as much as one can, that she gets some rest and peace. sending warm hugs to her, hope she feels them.
He is a lost soul, because he is using drugs and clearly confused because of all the people going along with this delusional nonsense that HE is or could ever be a woman. I don’t care how much you fantasize or want to change your sex. Only God has the say in what your gender is. And God doesn’t make mistakes. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. And we are made in the image of God. I don’t know what happened to Ismael when he was growing up. But he clearly has some sort of trauma that he needs help with. But all of you people that keep going along with this delusion that he is a she are NOT helping him with his confusion. Feelings aren’t facts. The most loving thing to do is tell the truth. Not lie to him. Geez
Every time she said “different things going on” made me want to sob. Her lack of eye contact. He trying to not cry. Something happened to her, something she hasnt been able to process or not ready to share. Rebecca we love you.
He's probably tired from being drained by Rebecca and other people he helps without any gratitude @@shannab.8328
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Very good observation soo true!! I didn’t even notice but your right , with not the typical choice of clothing.
That hug was the best thing you could have offered to her. Sometimes that is what is most needed at a particular moment.
The best thing would be to present the gospel. I’m praying he hears how to have a personal relationship with Christ. That’s when real, permanent change begins.
At 14.40 you say that his story is a beautiful story?! Only if he’s redeemed! Otherwise it’s an important story, a warning to flee from bad influences and to practice self control so that you don’t turn out like him! Nothing beautiful in his current state, only horror and misery.
The way Rebecca looked up when you came over to hug her lets me know that feeling unconditionally loved is what she needs.❤
100!!!!
@@Kindred_37 💜
She needs and deserves unconditional love and I think Mark is the only person who does anything but try to help. An absolute Saint! But she needs a lot of help, which we all know. I think it's Mental Illness and Addiction which is tough for someone who is capable of thinking they want to get better... It's just a horrible combination for her, or anyone. I can't see how this can end well as much as we all want it to..
Poor thing 😔
HIM!
HIM!
Anyone who doubts your intentions or that you’re offering all the help you possibly can, obviously doesn’t know what they’re talking about. You’re absolutely right: you cannot force someone to accept help and love and support, if they’re not ready.
Wishing Rebecca the very best and I hope that she’ll find the strength to accept help. We all want her to find peace and happiness.
I have watched Rebecca so many times, today was very difficult. Her voice sounded sad, very tired, lost and in pain. I hope Rebecca turns her life around.
Mark you are a very special person, don't you ever doubt that.
She can’t breathe and I can’t breathe watching 😔 her skin is yellow and she has a knot on her head 😓
H e and h i m
Male side today? He is begging in his head for money for a fix is all that matters in his world! So sad 😢
it's a man...you people make him sicker playing into these games!
Agreed @jani775
This simply brought me to tears. I've followed Rebecca since the start, and I've never seen her in so much pain. It's obvious she's been traumatized, and this assault must have been really awful. I love you, Rebecca. I pray you are able to heal and become the person I know you truly are inside.
It's a meth comedown, it causes an inability to carry a conversation.
@@gossamer9966yeah he’s definitely not loaded in this interview. Hopefully he figures himself out.
Rebecca DOESN'T need to apologize to us!? We dont want her better for us, we want her better for REBECCA, not us. 💔
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She’s very depressed, I can see she doesn’t want to talk. Mark can surely see that, she’s not ok.
We can want all that but it means nothing until she wants it. At this point, i personally don’t care who she does it for. As long as she does it!
@@WendyHannan-pt7ez she is also drugged at this moment, hence her behavior of not speaking
She has talked about suicidal ideation in the past and I hope she can get through this. 😢
Mark - thank you for doing this very important work and highlighting for everyone the importance of "seeing" people without judgment, especially those who are marginalized in our society. Although heartbreaking, emotionally taxing, and difficult, what you do is important and appreciated.
the way she perked up when she realized you were coming to give her a hug broke my heart.
That's silent scream was deafening. Having Followed Rebecca in all of her guises over the interviews, this was by far, the hardest to watch. Rebecca, you have such a beautiful soul, and are very lucky to have Mark watching over you. I'm sure I speak for many by saying that if we could all give you a hug to show you how much love there is in the world, we would. Keep fighting those demons and I hope you find the inner strength to overcome everything x much love from GB x ❤
Silent scream is such an eerily accurate descriptor 💔
I Agree … painful ….. the worse I have ever seen her
I agree!!! Her soul definitely needed that hug!!!!💜💜💜
Don't ask why the addiction, ask why the pain.
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Mark always tries to point this out to her.
He was repeatedly raped as a toddler and boy, by his father and other older men. You see it a lot in middle eastern cultures, Islam is pretty fucked, way worse for that sort of thing than Catholicism has ever been. His name is Ismail Seoudi, son of a very wealthy Egyptian family. He spent time in France as a younger man, I think his "French name" was Sasha. He's a bright, kind guy and its an incredibly sad story.
Gabor Mate says that all the time. Love his work.
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This one physically hurt my stomach to watch. Hoping for a miracle for this wonderful soul
I can feel it too
Every one of your videos makes me cry. My husband had a psychotic break during lockdown. He’s never been the same. He could end up out there somewhere, it terrifies me. All these people need is hugs, love, and a place to be safe!!! Our country is so cruel to the less fortunate! Breaks my heart.
I had a breakdown back in 2009. It took about 5 years before i felt back to some sembance of normal. Im proud to say im BETTER THAN I EVER WAS. That experience gave me strength i never knew i had.
Prayers to you & your husband. And thank you for not giving up on him. Its times like that when you find out who really cares about you. ❤
@@Parrotgirl-tattoo people, even my own family wanted me to leave. We are 3 years in and finally he’s getting better. Not the same, but he’s smiling and joking. It burned his life down. So hard to overcome. But after 30 years together, I’m not going any where. I Love Him. He is my person. How could anyone throw another person away. I’m so happy to hear how well you’re doing. Thanks for the reply!❤️
This was a tough one to watch. Thanks for continuing to share Mark.
I agree 😢
@@carmen_sandiagoyou all need to look into mark just sayin
Rebecca seems to be in so much mental pain 💔 it's hard to watch
Rebecca has this sad/quiet/down phase that pops up every now and then.. Next time you see her she's hyped up and manic!
Agreed…..the pain is so deep!
@jojobee42 cause he's withdrawing, then he gets paid for the interview, takes the money buys drugs and gets high (acting manic)😢
Sleep deprivation, coupled with the drugs, and likely dental & foot pain/issues, poor diet, poor hygiene, dehydration, and underlying mental health issues. Incredibly debilitating combo.
The hug❤... thank you~ that IS beautiful the expression of humanity ~🙌
He’s the little boy that was severely traumatised in this video.
Yeah super sad :(
I feel that people sometimes need to remember how SCARY the thought of being sober is to an (ab)user - being sober is the thing that was so incredibly painful that you started to do drugs to get away from it.
It's *Not* an easy choice to make.
100% FACT. As someone in recovery.
This is such a real perspective
It’s even harder to be sober after using drugs for an extended period of time…the initial problems have been compounded exponentially. It’s like trying to dig yourself out of a deep hole with a spoon. Most people aren’t able to do it. Reality is even harder to accept when you know firsthand that escapism is an option.
Very true. I've been struggling for over 20 years now with only about a week sober the whole time.
Thankyou!!
This is what she feels like when she’s off of drugs, anxiety builds up and emotions. This is why she does drugs, poor Rebecca. I hope you go into treatment and get some counseling. Your life is worth more than what you’re putting it through. We love you
He
This is what it looks like when you been up for a very long time. Look at the really red eyes
@@fu9793feel better?
@@fu9793what are you gaining out of saying “he”? is it just rage bait because you have nothing better to do? it’s so embarrassing for you, seriously.
exactly
At the end of the day Rebecca, there is one solid fact. Mark will always have water, an unconditional hug, trust and support.
You deserve to thrive, Rebecca. We all love you.
Mark is using her. Don’t be naive.
@@_Elizabeth_theMaidtwo things can be true at once. Mark is to this style of video as Adam22 is to NoJumper style. Theyre both exploitive at the end of the day. Also we love Rebecca and wish for her to succeed.
The government has hospitals and trained doctors
I like you comment. But I was not ready nor liked seeing Rebecca like this. Fact is, I am disappointed in her. People are here to be used, not misused and abused.
@@_Elizabeth_theMaidmark is using her but he's seeking mental health care because of trying to help her any way possible 😂
Mark, thank God that you care enough to shine a light on these poor tortured and lost souls. Literally brings tears to my eyes. What is America doing to help? Where are the social services to assist those who can not assist themselves? Beyond sad 😢
I wanted to hug her through this whole video. I sighed in relief when you finally did. Thank you, Mark.
This brought me to tears more than any other update of hers. She looks so fragile. So low. So tired. I hope she knows that she still has capacity for vibrancy, joy and safety. She just needs to choose that route for herself - we are all rooting for her so deeply. She doesn't need to be on her own anymore 💚
same
Seems like she’s coming down to me. One of the only times we see what happens when the drugs run out. This is why people use addictively, because they’re broken and in a lot of pain. Drugs are a way to numb the pain. When you come down you most definitely cry, sometimes uncontrollably until you get your fix again.
As much as I adore Rebecca, the pain in her eyes this time Just screams Pain and sadness.... and I have watched every one of her videos... I wish I was there, to give her a GIANT hug!!! Thank you Mark, she needed that.
HIM!
@@autumnnoelle5221womp womp
Rebecca doesn't need anything from Mark. Why do you guys all stand by as Mark enables Rebecca? Hotel & money for drugs so she can overdose comfortably?
@@autumnnoelle5221Yeah, because that’s the important thing here. Poor petty you.
@@autumnnoelle5221Obsessive delusional bigot.
Rebecca is the ONLY one who can improve her situation. If she is not willing to get clean, no one in the entire World can change that. It's that simple. Written by a mother of a recovered addict. I had a Rebecca so I speak from hardcore experience. She Is The Only One Who Can Help Herself.
And thanks Mark for the update. There are alot of us that do appreciate it.
Thank you for hugging Rebecca, Mark. Sometimes people just need to know that they are not alone and that someone cares.
Yeah and he pretty much followed it up with you stink. That's Mark with his back handed compliments.
Rebecca’s boring video is Mark’s best hit in weeks. 700k. Who’s hugging whom? You go girl! #rebeccaisalive
@@pghPATRICK If these posters would LISITEN, Mark says Rebecca benefits and I benefit. Rebecca would benefit if she/he was put on a hold for being a danger to herself and others. Get him detoxed, diagnosed and medicated with intense in house therapy. THEN let him make his decision IF he hasn't permanently damaged his brain. Almost EVERY therapist knows that they will NOT go willingly and that's what the COMPLAINTS to Mark were all about. Mark is a hindrance to Rebecca by continuing his delusion of a benefit to her.
havent even finished the ep and thats all i could think, just needs a warm hug. mark is an incredbile human being
@@goldseraph7051 🙄
I want to say that simply not using drugs doesn't fix mental illness and sadness. Even without substance use, some people can't live in the real world and get a job and support themselves. Help is needed, safety is needed.
Absolutely. Mental/psychological issues are mostly the reason people abuse drugs… not the other way around. And if they’re clean the underlying triggers can just show themselves better
every being needs purpose.
Also, I agree with you- the world has become too difficult for everyone to fit in and make it. We need to create 'worlds' scenarios and environments where those who don't fit in can find purpose, a way to contribute, and be happy while clean.
Actually, substances are how many can cope with their painful reality. I WISH and SEND and PRAY for absolutely beautiful energy for Rebecca and every other soul in such pain.
@@hannahw.3315 this is so very true
From the looks of this interview you can tell that she has been through something horrible that she can't get herself to talk about. Her eyes tell us so much. Mark, thank you for being there for her and for giving her that much needed hug.
This is exaclty how i acted after i was rxped. I cut all my hair off with kitchen scissors i just didnt want to look like me. I just didnt want to be here. Rebeccas been through something very traumatic and the laboured breathing is her trying to stop a panic attack and thats when she knows she safe with Mark. Its so sad. I pray she finds her way shes such a lost soul and its heartbreaking. She needed that hug.
She cut off her hair 6+ months ago because she got lice 😞
The labored breathing is because she’s coming down from a long amphetamine bender.
Nah I dont think its that deep. Its a drug induced psychosis,
Sending you love and support Ruth ❤
Ruth, I pray that you are doing better and taking care of yourself. Always remember that you deserve to be happy and are worthy of a good life❤❤❤
Oh Rebecca! This made me cry! I hope your breakthrough comes sooner than later. Mark, no good deed goes unnoticed! Thank you for being consistent and not giving up on Rebecca!
My baby was fighting tears this whole interview. Truly breaks my heart. That hug was needed.
Definitely not
@@RadRedhead222 um wat?
Who’s your baby? 🤔
More like high on crack and stuck like chuck
The absolute pain radiating off of Rebecca in this interview is hard to watch. And that hug was most definitely needed. The “I love you mark” was the most sincere one I’ve ever heard come out of her mouth.
She/he is only one decision away from happiness and a life of fulfillment.
Still rooting for you sweetie ❤
I've never clicked faster on anything before... Been waiting for updates about Rebecca, Mark thank you 💕
same!
Be honest same here
Omg! Same.
Me too, even though none of us know Rebecca personally she is a part of our lives
@@andrej.trepanier6185 exactly!
Thank you for still showing us updates on Rebecca.
I hope after the camera turned off, rebecca opened up and talked to mark about what happened because clearly something traumatic happened recently
Or Rebecca doesn’t want to be interviewed anymore
This is beyond high. She’s been through something major. This is heartbreaking.
It’s like he’s trying to tell himself to remember to breathe.
You say only recently?....
Why do you think that? We’ve seen them like this
Mark you are absolutely correct! Rebecca is resistant to change. The greatest gift Rebecca has is YOU and the love and friendship you give to her unconditionally. God Bless you and thank you for being so kind to so many ppl in need
I am so glad you hugged him, he grabbed on - tears here and I think Rebecca was holding back the tears. Sometimes it's all we humans need is someone to 'be there' and hug goes a longggggg way. Much love Rebecca you are loved from the east coast my friend. Awesome portrait of Rebecca...that face just says so much. If I could help I would. Something about Rebecca ..... 💔
Mark, I’m a 23 year old , started watching your videos when i was 19 my friend told me about you. I love and appreciate your content so much. So much insight to why people are the way they are. instead of shaming you really help to understand perspective. I wish i could help people the way you do. One day when I’m established in whatever i plan to do, I won’t forget these videos. I want to help people too. I’m not going to forget this
If that’s what you want to do, you will. Serving others less fortunate is this world’s greatest gift you can give.
@@Liahs333 I was a child protective social worker for 30 years. Indeed, it is gift to serve others. No regrets.
@@RayThomas-fl7fo Wow, I could not even imagine the suffering you saw and I’m sure felt. Those jobs are for extraordinary people. Well done and thank you for your service 🩷
My nephew is getting out of rehab on Friday from years of battling with meth addiction. I went and visited him last weekend and couldn’t believe the amazing difference. I just pray he can stay that way.
🙏
I want to send love and support from England 🇬🇧
@@osirism8161 i hope your nephew can recover from his addiction. God bless him and your family
At this point Rebecca is responsible for her life. You can’t force someone to get better
EXACTLY! This hot mess hasn't done 1 damn thing to change his circumstances. It's the same ole same ole. He's so extreme bc he knows it gets attention. All he cares about is his next fix & unprotected sex otherwise he'd change it. He knows exactly what he's doing. Mark has gone above & beyond to the point it's affected his mental health & Whatever this guy refers to himself as, JUST DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT! You can't keep trying to help someone who WON'T HELP THEMSELVES & HE WON'T HELP HIMSELF! Mark has provided all the resources humanly possible to NO avail. So I hope Mark can move on & help someone else who really wants help!
I’ll tell you right now…. She’s under forced care in this video, hence her outfit, severe personality change and unwillingness to talk.
I’ll tell you right now…. She’s under forced care in this video, hence her outfit, severe personality change and unwillingness to talk.
We’ve seen this Rebecca many times. This is what coming down off the drugs looks like. You cant always be high and when stimulants start to wear off there is high anxiety (even the breathing) until she sleeps it off and it starts all over. Im glad to see Rebecca is still alive.
That and if I recall correctly, Rebecca also has Bipolar 1. This is a good example of what a "low" looks like, combined with coming down off of drugs.
100%
I am too. I'm so glad she's still alive. I love Rebecca wish I could give her a hug ❤️
You may be right but ime, this is when you’ve been up for 2 weeks straight getting high. You’re sleep deprived & the meth makes it 10x more scary. Coming down off the drugs looks like crashing (sleeping) for 5 days straight after a long bender. Again, just my opinion and experience
Yeah, it’s hell, especially when you’re addicted and your body can’t function properly without a substance. I’m so glad she’s alive, too. I hope she is alive and well, both, someday. ❤
thanks for that hug mark. it’s just what i wanted to reach through the screen and do.
Thank you Mark for not caring what others think and continuing on this passion! I’ve been over the lifestyle for 20 years. This really helps me see a perspective I couldn’t at that time. Take care!!!
11:20 God please intervene
Thank you Mark! For continuing to offer Rebecca support. I know how frustrating it can be to want better for someone and they just don’t want it bad enough for themselves or even believe they’re worth it. Praying she will be ready soon & we get to see her recovery journey!
@@danielleburke87and yet you’re still here! I hope u do stick around to when this young man gets clean and makes it out, providing all of us wrong. Only God can judge! God forgive us 😢
My mother watches these to educate herself and to understand addiction and alcoholism. I, am a recovering alcoholic and addict and i am so grateful to you Mark! Keep going!!
I’m proud of your recovery! You got this!!
🖐🏻 A fellow addict in recovery. It's really lovely to hear your mum wants to educate herself on addiction. That's really special and great to have support 😊 although I'm a stranger, I know how hard recovery is and I'm proud of you and all who are in the same boat. All the best 😊
Were you in recovery when your mom started watching these videos. I want to share these with the alcoholic in my life but they get angry knowing I go to Alanon.😥 I pray for their sobriety🙏🙏🙏
Its nice to hear about someone trying to understand how these things work rather than just passing judgement or hand-waving it away like its an intentional choice they're making.
I am, too! Mark, your journalistic work is of great benefit to society. It’s clear that you’ve made every effort to help people you work with, especially Rebecca. ❤
I watched the latest video so I know something happened but still even watching it my eyes are teary ! I’ve never loved a stranger soooo much !! Rebecca we love you ♌️♌️♌️🎉🎉🎉🎉 I had a birthday 8/6 I just can’t wait to see you be the wonderful human that you are to your greatest potential
From the look on Rebecca's face I'm thinking something really bad has happened to her. We've seen her sort of sober and not talking much but this was different. There was pain in her eyes. Mark, that hug meant the world to Rebecca. Thank you!
Him
He's been like this a bunch, this isn't a new form of Rebecca.
I truly felt like Rebecca wanted to cry. This breaks my heart. Can’t imagine what trauma Rebecca has endured.
She’s so young and can’t cry .. that cuts deep 😢
Or what trauma he's caused to others through his actions.
@@TenaciousMegan I don’t think Rebecca is a vicious person.
Oh Rebecca, I just want to give you the biggest, biggest cuddle & to let you know that you are a beautiful individual who deserves so much happiness.
I feel your pain my darling and wish you all the love in the world 😢I do hope you will accept some support from Mark soon ! it may ease the trauma if only a little XxXxX
I see so much pain poor baby
My dad passed away last year and struggled with an addiction to Meth, your videos help me work through what he might have been feeling and help me to feel less alone about being a child of someone who struggled with addiction. Please keep doing what you're doing.
I too was a child of addicts. It’s incredibly isolating. I’m sending you love. 🩷
@@hannahspencer2782 I'm truly so very sorry that you lost your dad!!! Sending you much love today!!!
Isn't it Rebecca's birthday today? I miss her.
This is easily my favorite portrait of Rebecca. It stopped me in my tracks. What a beautiful looking person. I pray for their healing!
The pain in Rebecca’s eyes in this video 💔. Always lifting you up in prayers, Rebecca.
This update absolutely breaks my heart 🥺💔…. Seeing Rebecca hold everything back while on the verge of breaking down. You can see the tears welling in her eyes as she chokes them back…. Clearly yet another traumatic event has set this poor human back. 😓 I wanted so badly to jump through the screen and embrace her in a giant hug. THANK YOU MARK for all you continue to do for her while still protecting your own peace. I’m thankful for these continued updates as I often wonder how Rebecca is doing…. and I am always glad to see she is still with us. A sign there is still hope… 🙏🏼🤞🏻
Probably got SA’d 😢 poor thing.
Quit saying her ....this is a man!
Quit saying her...this is a man!
@@autumnnoelle5221maybe you’d be less offended if you minded your own business? her pronouns have nothing to do with you.
@@jennsluis6125 H I M....take your pronouns & kiss my.....
I don't know why I'm so emotionally invested in Rebecca. I cry for her. I laugh with her. I root for her. I pray that she one day will understand the potential she has. Thank you Mark for hugging her. She needed that. Also thank you Mark for everything you do for her. Thank you for being positive and real with her. God bless you
I feel the same way ❤ I’m always rooting for Rebecca to just be okay 😢
Thanks Mark. Personally, I have never thought or written that you are not doing enough for Rebecca. I can imagine how painful it must be to want the best for her and constantly see her fall. I admire your continuing hope for Rebecca's happiness and recovery.
I AGREE! Couldn’t have said it better! Thank you, Mark. You have a heart of gold.
I have watched every single interview with Rebecca and those who do watch them, like me, know how often she has been offered. Having loved someone with addiction I understand so deeply how you have to wait for them to help themselves. This interview was gentle and authentic.
❤ Rebecca also knows to go to Mark. Healing love to you, Rebecca.
Maybe the help comes with strings or is it's own set of dangers or manipulation. Not saying this is or isn't so. But.. 'Help' is vague. 'Rehab' is vague.