The Horror House-Senne
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- Опубликовано: 8 июн 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Senne, a Hawaii woman who survived a traumatic childhood.
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People who weren’t abused don’t understand how it permeates your life, your relationships, your choice in partners and mistrust affecting how many friends you make. It makes your world really small. I wish you all the best. Keep fighting the good fight.
It’s difficult to imagine how one can grow up in a constant state of fear and deprivation for 18 years. Fear of rage, physical and mental abuse, starvation, freezing - with no one and no place to go for comfort and safety. Abuse leaves one with a hidden disability. The victim has a very difficult time with relationships as one is unable to trust. The world and others are seen thru the lens of distrust and automatic defensive thoughts kick in. I too was a victim of abuse but not nearly as extreme as Senne experienced. My heart goes out to her. She’s clearly getting the help she needs and has a keen understanding of what happened to her. She’s a beautiful young woman (inside and out.) I wish her the very best.
Sooner or later that abuse kills you.
so very true
I couldn’t agree with you more. My mother was unbalanced to say it kindly. Growing up was tough. I am now 74 years old and still have nightmares. It has affected every part of my soul. This young lady is so brave I have nothing but envy for her strength.
THIS!!!!
Her voice might be soft and demure, but this girl is a straight up warrior. Amazing resilience and strength to endure what she has. She’s beautiful inside and out and I hope she’s treating herself so kindly in this second part of her life. She is so worthy 🦋
Her voice is like that because she was told she didn’t matter by everyone in her life.
Go back to booktok and stop fetishising trauma you gooner
It's a guy, not a woman
@@亨特这你it's a guy
@@randymarsh9488 you’re not funny, you guys will say this to any woman who’s obviously a person of color. She has ethnic features. And she doesn’t even look trans.
This is so heart wrenching. She never had a minute of peace, no safe space, no guardian, just predators.
I know right, ughhh.
I had a very similar childhood it’s horrible and takes huge toll on your mental health
@@eydra1452 I am so very sorry. Every child deserves security, happiness and love. It always makes me so very sad and so outraged to hear such stories.
@@eydra1452I hope you are doing better now. Or as “better” as you can be. ❤❤❤ I’m sure you’re a very strong person. I’m sorry you had to go through that 😢
When she said that her mom left her with family members because she didn’t trust strangers?!??! The way Senne said it just broke my heart.
My parents abused me mercilessly. Physical, sexual, emotional. All of it. I haven’t seen them in nearly 10 years but even now if you asked my husband he’d tell you that at least twice a month I wake up drenched in sweat screaming because of nightmares about them. I’ve had sooooooo much therapy but I think when you experience that type of trauma in your formative years it changes who you are or who you would’ve otherwise been. That is the biggest thing I can’t forgive them for. Changing my life so irreparably. I feel like they broke me and turned my personality into a twisted mess. I have trust issues. I don’t believe anyone that says anything positive about me. Love is difficult for me. I want it but once I have it I want to sabotage it so that they’ll get leaving me over with because I can’t trust that anyone would seriously like me. I feel like everyone is just playing games with me. On some level i have enough awareness to know that this is not at all true but even knowing that I can’t stop myself from reacting in a way that validates those thoughts. I’m a lot better now but as a teen and early 20 something I really struggled. I’m 26 but even now thinking about meeting them i’m terrified.
It’s startling how similar our experiences with trauma are. From the way our mom’s and family were to the ways our parents neglected us. I’m happy this girl is getting the help she deserves and I wish her all the happiness she deserves for the rest of her life.
I am a therapist and I am wondering if you have done any EMDR? Or a therapy called accelerated resolution therapy? Often times with this type of trauma we need to reprocess the brain because trauma causes your brain to store these memories in a fragmented way. When we use a certain Eye movement it helps our brain process the trauma and help us heal. I hope you get freedom from your trauma. I am sorry you had to endure this during your life.
I'm sorry any of that happened to you. A pain many of us will never be able to comprehend. May God bless the rest of your life with healing and love! The pain can stop with you and there is so much good you can do for others to help heal you.
@@codyoconnor6976 thank you honey. I appreciate it.
I am so sorry 😞 you deserve love x
@@christas2863I’ve had a lot of DBT based therapy to tackle some of the maladaptive coping skills resulting from my trauma but I think therapy for the trauma specifically might be pretty helpful. I’m on a waitlist for an EMDR focused therapist. The waitlist is just long lol.
Most important thing I learned from “soft white underbelly” is that everyone has a story and each is interesting and you will learn something. Thanks for opening my mind to this point of view.
Mixed in with a whole bunch of scammers, bs artists and self promoters
Also, watching these horrific stories shows me how awesome and wonderful my situation is. Comparatively I am blessed beyond belief!!
Truth
@@bruce274always got that one
I mean what could a person with zero background in psychology possibly learn from this. It’s just drama you enjoy drama and that’s ok. It’s like that family he used to have on here, people just gawk and pretend to be intellectuals who are learning. You want to actually learn take a course
Looking back at high school in the 80’s, I ache now for the kids who we considered “weird” or different somehow. Now I know that some of them had miserable, abusive home lives. We never could have imagined what they were going through then. I wish healing and peace for Senne. 🙏
Same! Or the children you were t to school with that became drug addicts or alcoholics, even the addicts/alcoholics who came from what seems to have been a great home life. Maybe that home life wasnt great after all.
@@jrahn66exactly 💯
I remember a kid in my grade showed me the cigarette burns on her arms and a scar where she was burned by an iron. Coming from an abusive household myself, I remember thinking oh she has it worse than I do. It wasn’t until I was much older that I realized I should have done something to help her. I still wonder became of her.
Same for the 90s too. I remember in like 3rd grade, this set of twins moved to our school and they were extremely aggressive towards ALL the other kids. Like a level that I couldnt comprehend at that age. I was terrified of them. I think back now in my thirties and wonder what kind of home they must have experienced up until that point to be so aggressive as such young kids. Breaks my heart.
U read my mind. Thats exactly how i think remembering those kids from my class and i just hate it that i was not mature enough to try to get close to them and figure out whats wrong with them. Too late, now. ((
Her listing off the family members that assaulted her made me…. Nauseous. I’m gonna end up being a crazy mom, literally never leaving my kid alone because of stories like these omg.
Never!! I’m polite to people but I always viewed everyone as a possible perpetrator given the opportunity, no matter how nice they are. I didn’t give anyone a chance to prove they weren’t.
I never leave my kids with anyone but Grandparents. I will not let my child be abused!
They should be brought up on criminal charges
9/10 SA is normally committed by family members. An also family friends x
Grandparents abuse too. Boy have I got stories...@@terraphleb
This girl looks younger than my daughter.. all I want to do is protect her. She has been let down her whole life. Some people don’t deserve children.
She said her mother left her with family because she didn't trust strangers yet the family turned out to be worse. She would've been better off with a (normal) babysitter. What a warped family! I hope this girl can find some sort of healing and peace from all the horrific trauma.
Sadly it is their culture, I am pretty sure I know which religion, but other religions of the sub continent have similar vile standards. What a cruel existence you had Senne, nobody deserves such treatment.
I was thinking the same thing and how there's no anger towards her mom.
God bless this child 🙏
well we trust our families
@@michelemiletich7540 in this case, that was a big mistake
My dad remembers when he was 2 and he was separated from his brother in foster care..my dad is 62 and remembers that vividly 😢 I'm just glad he met my mom and made the family he always wanted
I remember things from a very early age ! My mom asks me all the time how do I remember certain things,she use to think someone told me, until I told her something that happened and only me and her was present and she never told anyone!!
funny i am 62 and my family came to nz frm uk i remember images frm before 3 and one memory frm as a baby so absolutely he remembers.glad you come frm a happy family
When your only evidence in your own memory it really doesn't mean much. People tend to think they have accurate memories because they can picture it in their mind and they assume it's like a recording the brain saved to be looked at anytime. But that's not how it works at all. It's proven beyond doubt that memories are manipulated through our entire life by our own brain. Not only that but outside forces can actually change how one remembers things. In reality our memories are not recordings but what your current mind has put together with a lifetime of fragmented memories and experiences.
@@tokivikerness8863that’s true
@@tokivikerness8863 Have you ever been abused in any way?
Snakker du norsk?
You can tell she's in therapy. She's making sense of what's wrong and right. I'm so happy she's talking about it. It's the only way to heal. What a sweet soul whose lived 30 lives before I was even born and I'm 44. Bravo for graduating college too. I love this girl.
This man should not be interviewing her though he does not know how to react to trauma. Opening up to anyone and they react wrong can be traumatic in and of itself
@@barbqueue-v8v they're not forced to give interviews. I think he acted fine. She knows this guy isn't a therapist.
I just want to hold this girl's hand. Give her space and safety.
I feel these interviews are just for entertainment and provocation. Interviewer seems blunt and rude. What is his responsibility when he after he asks these people to share their stories? None. Unethical.
This is not fair, her story broke my heart. Her voice so delicate and her trembling so innocent but so damaged that she did not choose. I hope she thrives and breaks her tragedy. She is so beautiful and brave and courageous. Thank you for letting her tell her story. I hope she felt any amount of relief and simply just cared about. I care.
agree, and I care too.
Her story makes me feel so ill. I wish someone would've saved her in any way, but I suspect her culture didn't allow for her to speak to teachers, (if she even went to school), friends parent's (if she EVEN was allowed friends)...oh dear we are doomed, just based on this childs experience. Knowing millions of children endure this makes me wish for nuclear decimation of ONLY the human species...never happen, but I can still wonder if it might be better...beyond horrific. Juko is in heaven, understanding you, child.
Sadly, it happens to many of us.
It doesn’t matter how young she was, her body remembers. The body holds the trauma.
This is very true. It also speaks to her memory as early as 2 years old. She can’t recall the details but when her body feels the same threat she recalls the experience.
That’s made up BS
A lot of people have memories from that young but mark feels the need to voice his doubt and invalidate people every opportunity he gets
I have memories from the first couple years my councellor was shocked but it just sticks in your head for some unknown reason, for me, no emotion towards it. Like it wasn’t me. Odd. I understand why she remembers I don’t think he disbelieves her just was shocked at the age she remembers
I can clearly remember warmth, love, woman other than my mother cooking and other kids laying. We were one and a half years old, certainly not more than two. Next, quite complex memory is from home and the way to hospital when brother was born. Both are very positive, quite a bit darker times came later..
Senne's story is a testament to the human spirit. To go through so much negativity, so much pain, so much abuse, yet come out on the other side wanting to live, wanting to contribute, wanting to make things better is inspirational. I wish her all the best.
She is lying!!! There is no true emotion here. How can you people not see this? She is for sure here to promote her OF or something....
SAME COMMENTSEVERYTIME .MOST OF THESE PPL ARE LYING LIKE A RUG . FOR ATTENTION AND MARKS MONEY .TF
@@travisanderson8771That's because 95% of the people Mark interviews have been abused in childhood, what tf is wrong with you? Don't you have any empathy? 🙄
@@travisanderson8771 I understand. Sometimes it does become repetitive. But it's because each person like Senne is equally amazing. If you've watched SWU for any length of time, you know some of the most damaged of society are mired in drug and alcohol abuse, homelessness, and s@x work/p0rn. Senne, and others like her, rose above seemingly impossible obstacles, not only surviving circumstances that would break most people, but coming out whole, willing to be in the world, working in it, making it better. And each are, in my humble opinion, worthy of admiration.
@@travisanderson8771 You were not there! Please stop judging. Blessings x🙏♥️
So powerful to hear her say that the mental abuse was worse than the physical abuse. My heart goes out to this young lady because I know her pain. I had to stuff my feelings down for my mentally abusive/narcissistic mother, and it still affects me to this day.
Myself also. And I’m in my 50’s
@@TheAnngirlI'm 48...it seems to just get worse, the pain😢
Senne went through all of that horrendous abuse and she stills wants to give. Senne, you are a sweetheart. ❤
I know people are saying just spit it out but for some people they're reliving the trauma all over in there head and they struggle to articulate.
Exactly, and when you try to talk about it the stress responses are activated (fight/flight/freeze) and as they become activated the language center of the brain starts shutting down. When this happens for me I end up talking in really strange patterns with big gaps between words, I’ll keep repeating the same word over and over because I can’t work out what word I’m trying to find that’s supposed to come next in the sentence, and I start to stutter as well (when I don’t stutter at all normally). All I can say is, I feel for her because I know I get so frustrated and I WISH I could just spit the words out, but it’s not possible…
Exactly! Plus when Mark does interviews with people who struggle to speak like her, I just turn the playback speed up faster. I heard her interview in a way that it was faster than most. Not because I didn’t like her way of speaking. But because it’s hard to find the time to watch an almost hour & a half long video.
I think she's dissociating as she tells what happened.
Spot on and I'm glad you clarified that for those that don't understand trauma and how it appears. 🙏
Yes…she speaks in a child like voice because as you said, she is emotionally stunted. She is verbally stunted too because of the emotional damage done to her. She speaks at about the age when the majority of the damage was done to her. That’s my humble opinion. It’s almost like an alter.
The silence between her words is the most silent silence, I 've ever heard...
Horrible, to have to live through all of this. I'm so glad, she is so incredibly strong to be here and talk about this.
Yes, it’s very hard to follow. Poor girl, she can barely get the words out
@@lisamichels1825....that....or she's just earning English and thinks trauma is how America's youth bond. And when there is no abuse, just make up some. I bet she's not a familiar face on skid row.
Thts such a brutual thing to say to someone whos been through a lot. Reflect on urself.@@landofthelivingskies3318
@@landofthelivingskies3318you think she’s lying?
@@landofthelivingskies3318she grew up in America so she’s fluent
She is such a sweet and beautiful person. I feel so sorry. I am 70 years old and went through a very dramatic childhood. I just want to tell her: never ever give up! You are a sweetheart and you don’t deserve what they did to you. I would never ever have told everything so free as you did. You are very brave! Sending love to you from far away!
Glad you've made it & are still with us. Much love your way ❤
I'm the same age as you Senne, and also grew up in an Asian household. It's strange growing up and realizing how toxic your parents were (and in some cases still are), when our culture teaches us to respect them despite how they treat us. I'm also still learning to deal with the mental trauma my mom inflicted on me. I too am learning to rewire my brain as an adult. I'm learning to feel proud of myself, to let myself feel emotions and to cope with them healthily, to love myself, etc. I hope you are doing well each day. You deserve so much love and happiness.
I'm a retired therapist and she presents as the most intelligent and resilient person I have ever seen to have been through more hell than most people will face in a lifetime. All her relatives, especially the mother, don't have a clue as to how much damage they have caused her. Her family is a lost cause and she should never trust them. She is a beautiful precious young woman who has overcome so much! Please don't kill your beautiful life! If family aren't for you walk away. You don't know your own strength until you stand on your own strength! Bless her heart! She has affected me so strongly and just keep putting one foot in front of the other! God bless you 🙏
facts. Can someone do a video about me and my family? It was literally exactly what this woman is describing. The answer is no. No one gives a fuck and its so sad. All of my family members who abused us are fine, not in jail, and not paying consequences. This unfortunately happens to a lot of people.
specially the mother? sorry but her male relatives and cousin literally r*ped her as a child...
For some reason when I saw the thumbnail and title, I thought she was going to be discussing her job as a haunted house actor.
Glad I wasn't rhe only one
OMG Me too . But I thought more like a haunted house fetish type situation ... lol
My exact thoughts. Three minutes in and I’m already worried for what’s about to happen
Same
Same
As someone born and raised in Hawai'i. Her able to make it through so much trama, she'd really fit in with alot of the great locals of the islands. There's alot of people that would bring her in as family and treat her with the respect she deserves. Much love and aloha to this brave young lady ❤️
There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you!! You are so strong and a survivor!! You’re amazing!!
My god this girls voice cuts into my soul. She sounds so fragile but her words are indestructible
She sounds very intelligent too. I hope she’s doing well
same. i am having a really hard time listening to the story. i keep uttering “scum bags wtf they at”. i have so many questions!
I think it’s because of the trauma she went through at such a young age
Hearing her voice break in between words😢
Her voice is reminiscent of a young child, but yet somehow holds the power of all the ancestors cheering her victory in unison.
her voice is like a little girls so much pain and vulnerability, so much trauma in her family. she has so much potential and has a sweet heart. i pray for her to have her best life
The little girls voice is very common in women that were abused at a very, very young age.. as soon as I heard her voice, I knew there was a lot of sexual abuse in her past. It’s a telltale sign.
Not necessarily true. It's quite common in Asian cultures to have that juvenile voice late into adulthood. Let's not play RUclips psychologist over every little detail.
@@youdyed go look it up… It’s a thing.. As soon as I heard her voice, I knew there were sexual abuse in her past.. and well I wasn’t wrong was I? Does that mean everyone with a little girl voice was sexually abused? Of course not but it is a telltale sign.
Oh i was wondering about this...@@Solitaire427
This does happen. But It’s quite possible also that she is like 5’0” tall.
My bio mother disappeared when I was a little under two, and I have many memories of her. People my whole life told me I was probably just using my imagination and thinking it was real but when I finally met her again as an adult I asked her and each one she confirmed was a memory, good and bad. I also remember when she disappeared, I remember the fear and the pain I felt then and for years. I remember her showing me a map while sitting on her lap and her showing me where I was and where she was going (other side of the country) and I remember crying, and her telling me it wouldn’t be for a long long time and not to worry… she was gone the next morning. So yeah, trauma DOES sear memories into your head, even at 1-2 years old. Anyone saying it’s impossible should be grateful they didn’t have a trauma at that young of an age. It affects you your entire life.
This just made me cry. Wow
I'm so sorry. How do you feel about her now?
If I'm crying after reading your comment, I can only imagine (and do a poor job at that) how deeply that must've hurt you.
I hope you're doing better now!
Thanks for sharing this. You made me think back. I remember many things from my first 2 years of life. I remember the whole layout of the house, the pets and the overwhelming smell of cleaning products. I remember being in my baby body feeling helpless and unable to coordinate my movements. I just stared at my fluffy pink carpet from my crib and waited for my Mom to come back. It triggers me when others say I was too little to remember. Even counselors couldn't really take me seriously when I got to be an older child talking about my earliest memories.
I’m in actual tears. Her explaining the abuse from her dad brings me so many flashbacks.
Everything that happened to you was not your fault or your brothers. Your parents should be in prison for what they put you through.Anyone that touched you as a child should be punished. You're a beautiful young woman, and I am so proud of you for telling your story. I'm so sorry for all you have been through. I wish you the best in life. God bless you.🦋
"God bless you"
Best comment yet thank you so much for saying this to this brave beautiful soul. Sienne, I’m so very immensely sorry for the abuse you went through. You are a survivor thank you for your bravery and your story and for raising awareness for victims of abuse. You are very strong and brave. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. Hoping you are in a better place now. I send you my Love and Compassion. Lauren. (((HuGs))))~*~*Blessings to you and may your life be blessed and way better moving forward I hope you find the love, validation and support you need and deserve. May you find peace. 🕊️
Agreed
Beautifully put
My heart goes out😢❤
You hear one thing she says and you think “it can’t get worst”….. yet it does. I wish this young woman nothing but the best and a future filled with endless brightness.
When I look at this girl I saw a warrior on the outside and a hurting child on the inside. Her timid voice, studdered and hesitant speaking, almost like she's still scared.
I can't imagine her childhood. But to see she's turned out to be a beautiful, strong, resilient woman, so proud of her! She deserves all the happiness this life has to offer. ❤
I just want to wrap my arms around this young girl and tell her how much she’s loved.
This is one of the hardest interviews to sit through. The human race is so vile, abusive, and depraved, and it honestly makes me wonder how there is any good that happens in this world. Abuse of animals and children should result in corporal punishment. I pray that you continue to be resilient and focused on healing from your trauma, Senne.
Yes and the mother said "dont talk about it." she need to talk about it!!
We’ve been doing corporal punishment for thousands of years and things are still as fucked as ever. Maybe it’s time to try something new.
Most people aren't vile, abusive or depraved. As in the vast majority of the human race is not like that. You just don't hear the everyday good news stories that abound because that doesn't sell. Don't lose your faith in humanity. There is a lot of good to be found if you just look. Peace ✌🏼
"Corporal punishment"?
Did you mean capital punishment?
That doesn't fix generations of trauma and abuse.
Understanding where the trauma comes from and how it repeats breaks the cycles of abuse.
Most paedophiles and abusive people were also horribly abused themselves as children. That's why they are like they are.
Harsher punishment is not a deterrent.
@gimmedimmy6533
They mean spanking. That is called corporal punishment. And they are saying it hasn't helped in thousands of years so maybe we should stop. 😊
So the moral of the story is: don’t leave your kids alone with anyone EVER.
100 percent. There are sick individuals out there!
I didn't. Sleepovers only at my home. One trusted babysitter and very few trusted immediate relatives. Once my son was old enough to have a girlfriend, I was shocked at how many parents dropped their 15 year old daughters at my house never even meeting us.
@@mrs.beasley1979u sound like my mom. She was so protective yet it happened. She trusted no one except her parents. Well her dad touched me
So sorry to hear that:(
Sadly - nor your grandparents
I have never wanted to hug someone more than Senne. I am pray that you have the best that life can offer in Hawaii. Keep speaking your truth
This young woman is so brave and so full of grit as she learns how to recover and move forward. Never give up!
This poor girl is deeply struggling and so overwhelmed 😢 ❤
Absolutely but I can't help but wonder if maybe she would be better served to deal with her trauma in private therapy and come to terms with it a bit further before sharing it all publicly in an effort to help others.
As the saying goes, you've got to save yourself before you can save other people. .
@doomrat I hear what you're saying ... but everyone is different... anyone who talks to Mark actually might be taking the 1st step before they can be enclosed in an Office with a Therapist ... it could actually work both ways.
Being brave enough to speak out on ANY platform I think is in the ' First Step ' phase of liberating, Coping, and Healing.
Can you imagine how much progress she's made to be even able to discuss it like this.. let alone to have fully digested it all.. we're talking years and years of constant therapy and working on herself .. now idk if youtube is the best place but she did an incredible job I was in tears not even because of how sick these people were to her but at how strong she was to be vocal about it.
If you listened to the entire interview, you'd have learned that she did do therapy.
@doomrat I've been thinking that the entire interview. I think she needs a LOT of support, and loys if unconditional love, and encouragement and validation....this poor baby....my heart is just broken for her. How does a child process such complex emotions all while being told not to feel. She is stronger than she knows.
remember; horrible horrible people walk among us. they are your friends, your coworkers and your relatives.
Monsters are human
@@loririley4354human are monsters
Maybe you too
Your neighbors too, and even your partner.
You are also a monster
Thank you for being patient with her and allowing her to tell her story. My heart goes out to her. It takes so much courage to share something so personal and traumatic. And her level of self awareness tells me that there is so much hope of her being able to continue to heal and work through all the traumas and create a much better life for herself as an adult than the one that was forced on her as a child. I believe in you, Senne!
My heart breaks for her. How can you be so soft spoken through all that trauma? Unconditional love from London. Praying for a brighter future and a great partner for her.
She has such a soft and beautiful voice. I’m glad she is able to use her voice to share her story. I wish her the best.
Senne - I grew up with an abusive Asian mother and I agree with you that the mental abuse is worse than the rest. It feels like your real brain has been hijacked by the rewiring that occurred before you even knew it was happening. I understand, and I’m so so sorry you’re living with this. Please read or listen to “What My Bones Know” by Stephanie Foo if you haven’t yet. I’m still struggling, but it did help. I love you sister, and I really wish you the best in your quest to recover your real self back from your personal tyrant. Please remember: don’t let people tell you there’s nothing wrong with you. There is, but it really and truly is not your fault.
Thank you for posting this book/podcast. Oh My how valuable for those of us who have gone through trauma.
This. The Asian daughters of this generation are going to break the curse for good. Stay strong sisters ❤
Sending blessings ur way fam. We on this road to healing together. I tend to forget often that we are not alone that's why I watch these videos to remind myself
The body keeps the score ,is also good 😢😢
@@TaylorLee you’ve given me more energy to keep healing. Thank you.
Wow. I feel her. She’s so beautiful. I hope she lives out the rest of her life happily. She deserves it.
Gabor Maté is a physician who believes illnesses are manifested trauma. Prayers to Senne for healing in mind, body, & spirit.
She's like a broken bird, but the bird is an eagle, there is strength and resilience despite the broken wings. I wish nothing but happiness and goodness for the rest of her life❤
🫶🏻 beautifully said Holly. ❤
lol shut up 😂😂😂
@heatherb9588 best part of you dripped down the Crack of your mommy's ass
@@heatherb9588BOOOOOOO 👎👎👎
Omg how lame
My story is very similar to your story. I wasade a 5150 when I was 30 yrs old from a suicide attempt. I wrote a poem when I was 16 called Only when I cry. It goes- I look at life without feelings, time just passing by. Life is like an untold story with my feelings stuffed inside. I cant express my feelings, I don't know why I even try. The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry. Is life really worth living, most days I want to die. The only time I have reason to live is only when I cry. I was hospitalized 4 times. In my 40s I dated a narcissist and my life got so much worse. To include being choked unconscious, body slammed on the floor etc. The police had to kick my door in to arrest him. Guns drawn and police dogs. But in that time I finally learned how to love myself. Now I'm 52 and finally have peace in my life and 2 small dogs that I love dearly. Thank you for sharing your story ❤
"The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry" wow... This line cuts to the bone. I'm so sorry for what you went through, friend. I'm glad you're still here. 🌻
And thank you for sharing yours. It's incredible how much pain people can endure and especially for how long.
I am so happy that you are doing well these days. You deserve to enjoy every day for the rest of your life, and even better to have dogs as your family showing you so much love. Be well.
Survivors are a remarkable type of species!
Thank you 🙏🏼 ❤ beautiful poem! And…I understand.
She’s adorable, she deserves some good fortune and happiness … she’ll be a great teacher!
She’s so beautiful, sweet and broken. I’m not an expert but as soon as she opened her mouth I just knew it. I know how broken people talk and I’m very sorry. I hope she can keep fighting because she deserves all the best in life.
I know this isn’t realistic but I wish there was a test to confirm parents were fit to bring a child into the world and could do regular check ins for the first few years to confirm health, safety and proper housing. Maybe even continued parenting classes. Wishful thinking. 😢 thank you for having the courage to share Senne.
A solid mental evaluation wouldn’t hurt and financial stability for that matter
I always found it strange you need a license to go fishing but no kind of checks necessary to be a parent
You tell em Golden child. You Hypocriter you.
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Spoken like a true taxpayer and a well balanced hard working 50+ hr working patriot. Parents still married and dad opens the doors for mom kinda of guy. Mom brings dad his slippers and paper and calls him yes dear.
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Sounds like you are all Corporate. May you carry wipes and always remember to wash those hands.
As a social worker I really appreciate these videos. This is the kind of trauma I hear everyday from my clients. Trauma affects almost everyone in this world. My heart goes out to every child who has experienced a traumatic event. I hope the girl in the video, and any child who has experienced such hell on this earth thrives as an adult and is able to heal and not continue the cycle. No child deserves this! ☹️
Hello, I am a clinical psychologist and wanted to reach out to you as another professional in the field. I definitely believe without doubt that this woman has been through terrible abuse in her life, however, I wondered if you picked up on some embellishment or a few things that didn’t add up while listening to her story? Obviously, these can be symptoms of her diagnosed BPD. Either way, it is great that she is under good care now but I genuinely just wanted your take on this. Thank you.
@@elisabettamoretti-mx5hkAbsolutely. There are a few I have watched where the stories don’t add up. I respect you for the work you do! ❤
@@Datbishh33 same to you!
Yikes-I’m a LCSW that specializes in trauma and I’m really grossed out at the stigma and ignorance in these comments from yall as professionals. Anyone with a basic understanding of trauma knows that survivor narratives are not cohesive-stigmatizing this as a feature of BPD, which it is not (there is no symptom criteria that reflects lying or embellishment), is really disturbing, considering the majority of those with BPD have a significant trauma history. Yikes.
I went to grad school for clinical psychology. Left the program after 4.5 years towards PhD. My experience was that psychologists were the most stigmatizing towards mental illness. I enjoy learning about psychology and human behavior but it wasnt for me.
After hearing these type of stories, I appreciate my parents more every day. I’ve never experienced sexual abuse & had a good childhood. I cannot comprehend these things happening to children. God bless Senne. 🙏
Me too. It makes me wonder where my life would have gone if my parents hadn’t given me the childhood they did. I never ever want to take it for granted
Me too! My mom was very protective of my sister and I. After my parents divorced, she never remarried, because she said she didn’t want to have another man in the house, she couldn’t trust anyone enough. My grandparents used to watch us after school, and they were wonderful to us. I can never imagine growing up in abuse. I now have 2 kids and I’m very protective of my kids as well, it’s out job as parents.
Very very extremely blessed ❤
I used to think like this. "Im so lucky I grew up with decent parents. Yeah my dad is kind of an asshole and cold to me but sometimes he's great! All my friends have horrible parents but I got lucky!" Turns out I had a repressed memory of my dad molesting my sister and I at ages 4 and 6. He's gone and my childhood is ruined. Bye bye 'normal parents'
You are going to change, save and support the lives of soooooo many children. Your pain had a purpose. 🙏🏾
Having the fortitude to tell your story to the entire world is something to be admired. This girl is a warrior.
She has done well to stay sober having suffered so much trauma. I hope she finds love and prosperity ❤. Thanks Mark.
I can't get over this lady's story and horrific life experiences. No one should have to go through this. Im lost for words......
I'm in awe at her courage, resilience and maturity and sincerely wish her all the best with the fresh start and the journey of healing she has embarked on.
She deserves inner peace and joy in her life.
A few words to describe this young woman. Resilant, strong, warrior, beautiful, hopful, scarred, encouraging, heartbroken, courageous. Sending positive vibes to you and hugs from Brooklyn, NY
What a sick family .They all need to be arrested
She's a BPD. All BPDs claim to have had a toxic family, when in reality THEY were the toxic one!
Shøt.
Many more sick families out there like this.
Before we arrest the world, let's hear from the family too. This lady definitely looks in need of help, granted.
I only see a few lose screws...🤣😂🤣😂
People are brave enough to share harrowing experiences that may help other victims, and people in the comments are "her voice..I cant..spit it out" etc. This attitude is why abuse still exists. People only want to listen or take her seriously if she presents in a way they approve of. Idiots
Right these people are disgusting and have no manners
Facts I thought the same
Thanks for spelling out what must of us are thinking
Poor girl. This is so horrible
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Thank you for sharing your story Senne. I’m so glad you’re still here with us and existing as you are. I think of my sister and cousins who are like my sisters and it infuriates me to even imagine something like this happening to them. You’re not alone and while this may not even matter any more now, there are those of us in the community who would protect you if we knew.
Thank you for your transparency but even bigger thank you for working with children. They NEED you!!!!
Despite the brutality and abuse and neglect, she grew up with, she’s grown to to be a lovely and sweet young woman. ❤
The way you make your guests feel safe to talk and don't force them to stay on traumatic topics if they feel uncomfortable, is heartwarming.
Sometimes I think im crazy for the way I watch over my daughter but then I see videos likes this 😢 you are such a strong woman, thank you for sharing your story ❤
What an eloquently told story, so difficult to tell. Thanks Senne for sharing this - you are an amazingly strong woman and I'm so glad you have found the self compassion you deserve. They will be lucky kids to have you having their back. Any experience can be used for positive - you will have so much to offer due to your own experiences
Dear Father in heaven, this sweet soul didn’t deserve any of this trauma, may she heal.
Dear Father in heaven, you could have prevented it.
Amen
You Christians are something else 😂
You're the one in control of your life.
@@easypeasy837 Thank god there's no god! There's only good and bad people and everything good and bad is only human's actions.
He knows... thats why Jesus had to come, take into His body all the sins that happened to her, you, me...everybody. He was perfect and gave it to us. He knew her trauma and tragedy still decided to come for her. Thank you LORD.
Such a gentle timid soul my heart goes out to her
I made it more than 30 minutes into this interview until finally breaking down.
I can relate to this young lady, her story, and all the feelings that come along with it.
It’s so hard for me to talk about my past, but I’m struggling so badly today because of it. I’ve spent some time crying tonight, but this one’s really got me. Shaking as I’m typing this. As hard as it is, I have so much hope for the future.
Senne, I hope you can feel that too.
I wish I could hug you Senne and tell you how incredible we all believe you are
Thank you Mark! These interviews are very healing for me and would like to hear more. Being Asian, I understand her trauma and have also rejected my ethnic background completely. Thank you for letting her speak at her pace. A lot of us have a hard time verbalizing because we were taught not to feel. I am very proud of Senne and wish the best for her!
Kudos to Mark for giving her the time she wanted and needed. She had intent and wasn't going to be rushed along. This woman has been through a lot, and what comes out the other side of it will be amazing.
This one really stuck with me and had me in tears. I really hope she receives all the love, luck, and peace in this world because no one deserves to feel that neglected and unloved. When she brought up not even knowing what trauma was, that was what really got me because as a kid going through some of the worst feelings a kid could go through I had no idea what it was either. It had my heart aching and I know how isolating it is and how you feel like something is seriously wrong with you and no one else gets it or wants to hear about it. I wish I could give her a hug and just talk to her for hours.
I have been drawn to have empathy for many of SWU guests, but Senne has taken my compassion to such a heightened level that my heart actually aches for this undeniably strong and beautiful young woman. I pray her brokenness is behind her and that nothing but joy. success and fulfillment cover the path in front of her.
May God Bless You and All Your Efforts, Senne.
Senne's resilience is incredible. I hope she knows how many are rooting for her to continue and thrive in her healing journey. To go through all of that and to clearly still be so kind is a testament to her strength.
Brave young woman. Senne you did not deserve so much harm, your strength is incredible. Surrounding you with love. ❤️
I want to give her a hug!
This lady has been through so much. As someone who's also had a rough childhood, my hear goes out to her.... What really blows my mind though is the fact that there are millions of people alive right now who have it so much worse. What a world
The context of her explaining her culture and where she’s from notates that she’s Hmong. Unfortunately, there are some concepts of our culture that we are still struggling with. Whether it’s generational trauma from the War into immigrating into our country, there is no excuse for sexual abuse. Finally, these things in our culture are being spoken about. Go you Senne, thank you being strong and being able to speak to on behalf of your own ability. Txoj quaj os mos, peb hmoob tseem hlub koj os.
Thank you Senne for telling your story. I love how you lit up at the end talking about the children you're helping. You have found your calling and have the experiences to help better understand these kids. Thank you Thank you for helping others!
Yes it’s possible to remember something in that age … I was 2,5 years old when my mom left me forever with a bunch of dolls to play… that moment when I realized that I was alone … I am 52 today … i remember everything in that room, everything 😢😢😢
Interesting, I too have a similar memory at the same age, being left alone in a strawberry patch while I watched my parents walk to the car. It was the realization that i was not within 3 feet of my mother anymore, and it is seared in my mind.
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I & my younger brother ( 4 & 2 yrs old) were left w relatives, all I remember was my days were filled with
such a loneliness, empty, devastating, scarcity.
Im still struggling with insecurities & abandonment issues in my old age...Mom's response until this day is, I should be grateful that she didnt threw me away instead...I have no words.
I know that Japanese mothers will lock out children from their homes as a form of punishment. I’ve seen in it Japan and it happened to me in BFE, Ohio. It wasn’t uncommon for my mom’s gen to be punished by moxibustion…a hot burning poultice that left 1 inch burn marks on my beautiful mom’s back. She is 76, from Hiroshima, her war trauma and old-school Japanese discipline raised this woman (me, an only child) to be fiercely independent, taught me to fiercely hate myself, blah blah blah…it took a pandemic for us to sort things out…she battles hoarding, albeit a very organized one who could feed an army with her food stocks…and it passed down to me. But I fight it and I am changing it. Soon to be 55 and I feel like the pandemic helped me come to life. Shifting paradigms…it’s mighty frightening, but it’s hella worth it.
Senne, thanks for sharing your story. Your voice may sound weak, but it’s only perceived as such by those who cannot listen. Fight the good fight, live and love with all your might!
I’m sorry 🫂
Thank you for sharing Senne, this is one of the most impactful swu vids I’ve seen. It is so terrible how common child sexual abuse is and devastating how much it affects our lives/choices afterwards. I know you will help so many children and even adults with your story and light despite what you could’ve let it turn you into, again just thank you for sharing.
Black and white photo doesn't do her justice. She is gorgeous. Seems sweet. Wish i could hear more of things that make her happy. The moving to Hawaii sounds happy.
I hope the right person see’s this and guides Senne into a counseling role. She is amazing and could help so many others out including herself. What a beautiful person…
Considering how she grew up being forced to parent her brothers, idk if that's something she'd want to do. I think she should be supported throughout life and I hope she finds her life passion 🙏
Right? Sometimes it's enough to just get through retelling it 😢@@kreissthekeeper
Dismissing her memories from when she was that young is wild. My very first memory is from when I was about 8 months old. I didn’t walk yet. It wasn’t an abusive memory, but I did have a traumatic childhood so maybe kids that went through severe trauma have that ability to go way back. As someone said, the body remembers.
i caught that tone with him too
Yeah he pissed me off with that. My oldest memory is sitting at the wheel of an old car with a tan leather steering wheel and seeing a bright flash. I told my dad about it as a teenager and he pulled out an old photo album and showed me a picture of me as a baby, about 8 months old, standing on his lap behind the wheel of his car, and the bright light I saw was actually the flash from a Polaroid camera.
@@Aroachimaaru that’s so cool
True! I'm autistic and a lot of autistic ppl have very early memories. My first memory is from when I was only 14 months old. Every brain works differently, and some people just indeed have very early memories. To dismiss that, especially with such traumatic memories, is just stupid & cold.
So happy you have found a way to live your life and move forward. You have a great attitude and are a strong young woman. Your job sounds like a great way to help kids and make a difference with these children lives. Much love.
I am so sorry you had to go through all that evil. You have a kind heart and are so beautiful. Stay strong! Sending prayers for complete healing 🙏🏻💖
I’m sitting here crying ..
My heart is breaking for this woman. Protect your children 😢
I'm protecting the shit outta my kids
You dont have to protect them, that is other extreme. Just to pay attention is enough.
@@YardaFreeman so what… you think paying attention is all that’s needed? After after you see, hear, & feel what you do, then what lol
There’s action.
Parents must absolutely be their children’s protection. Their defenders. Their advocates.
I’m not saying fight all your kids battles for them, that’s the extreme you’re talking about.
A parent who does not make efforts to protect their child, from any and all potential harm/threats; including the negative impacts of their own actions, behaviors, and mental health, is failing. Point blank.
Yes. Pay attention. Guide within reason. Don’t be overbearing. Let the child experience failure.
And protect them from all the “bad” you can.
Senne is so so brave. She deserves all the happiness in the world. Thank you for being so respectful when interviewing her. Your style of interview is incredibly unique and makes for vulnerable people to feel comfortable to open up.
I agree thank you mark for your kindness
She’s a precious soul and I want to give her a big mama bear hug. She deserved so much better than she got. I wish her so much joy and peace 🩵🩵
What a sweet sweet soul. And even sweeter for helping children.
Very endearing woman, sweetheart. Takes a lot of bravery to share her story. You deserved better. I hope you find peace, stability and support from people who truly care about you. ❤
The fact that she found a way out after all these terrible experiences is a testament to how strong she is. and how ironic that she sabotages herself by feeling powerless.
The healing process takes time🌸 I hope she continues to be a light for herself and those around her.
Precious being! It's truly horrific what this girl went through. And these are people she was supposed to trust! Beyond heartbreaking!
My stomach started to hurt early in the video. I will have to come back to this later, and watch in stages. The level of abuse radiates from this exquisite young woman's eyes and posture, and I feel heart-wrenched in advance. She needs someone to be there for her who deserves her trust and won't betray it. I so hope she finds that. She needs the right life-long hand to hold.
OMG Senne , The light of your soul shines extremely bright, you are way stronger person than you will ever realise. Your story is such an inspiration to each and every one of us.
i am soo happy to hear you are finding some recovery from your trauma.
you come across as such a kind soul.......
God Bless you and i wish you all the happiness the world has to offer x
Heartbreaking. I wish this amazing woman the very best as she continues the process of healing from the trauma these very damaged family members inflicted on her.
it's so relieving to hear that she's healing and in a much better place now
My kids and i struggled but we were never lacking in love. How can people be so cruel.
Amen.... Same 💕
Where's your husband, and the kids dad. 🤔
@@bentheredonethat-lx6nh my kids are grown now and he was never involved.
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Right
My parents were poor but thank God we were never abused.
Remember this is not your fault, Senne. I wish you all the strength, peace and calmness to find your own way in your life.
Dearest Senne. I'm so sorry that you have had these terrible experiences. I would love to give you a big hug and send you lots of love and best wishes for fully healing and a wonderful future.
Dear young woman. Your resilience is your asset. Your childhood is one of the worst. And you will find your way. I wish you well. You are admired from afar.
How can she be so sweet after everything that she has been through? I went through some of this but not even close to the hell she has endured. I am so jaded and guarded. Bless her heart!!! 💞