Annie, I read some of the comments and they have a lot of wisdom in the words. I am 65 and my whole world changed in 2018. The past, gosh 5 years!, have been a rollercoaster of change, feeling stuck, feeling as though I am in over my head etc. This is a new part of my life as I learn to live as a crone, grandmother, wise woman etc. There are many things I have yet to learn yet much I have to give to my family as they run into their own difficulties and challenges. You, Annie, have given me light in the darkness of change. Your calm voice, your honesty, your knowledge always come to me at times when I need it most. May the Goddess bless you on this path and help you to understand the lesson of being stuck, to give yourself the patience, the love that you would give to others that find themselves in times of challenges. Blessed Be!
I just made a comment about the maiden to mother transition haha 😂. Guess it’s gonna happen again 🥲. But for now the wind is around me and I’m back on the move (if a little uneasy about the direction.) I just love the parallel comment.
I prefer to say I'm in a holding pattern then to think of me as stuck. I'm sorry you feel that way Miss Annie, you are in your own beautiful creation. You've built a family of your own and we've been given glimpses of how your path has intertwined with ours. Your journey will be long with short dashes of fun and long runs of love and life. Both a burden and a gift. Just breathe young woman
I saw much of myself in your message to Annie. I have just completed my 63rd year and I’m just now accepting the witch that I am. I would very much like to have a friend near my age who is also discovering her own magickal-ness. So mote it be!
There's a quote that goes something like 'if you travel to avoid your problems, you'll have the same problems just in a different place.' I think it's easy to think that major change, like moving, is the solution to feeling trapped or stuck in a rut, but it's not necessarily. I don't have any advice but I do find it helps to try 'smaller' new things like a new coffee shop or a slightly varied routine. Or just pick up a book I wouldn't normally. Anything to feel like I'm making change without actually uprooting myself!
The key, dear sister, is to find joy, peace, and magic in the rut. Get stuck, stay stuck. Explore it. Question it. Get very very angry or sad or frustrated. But stay there. BE there. Feel there. I was the same at your age. I am still the same now. I long for a place I have never even been. But it is only through sitting in the stuck that we grow and ascend to higher consciousness. In that is real true magic.
Mmm. Stuckness - it’s a real thing. AND It’s also part of the spiral and part of the “cycle.” I’ve learned it’s not about finding joy or happiness in something you can do or somewhere you can be, but about finding within yourself acceptance and compassion for the present moment - whatever that might look like... Even when it’s uncomfortable. Even when it’s downright shitty. And one thing I’ve noted in your videos over the past few years, is that while you often shame yourself for not being as present as you think you could or should be, you are actually AMAZING at showing up here, being honest and authentic about those moments of feeling off or stuck or unhappy, you reflect on that space in a very accepting and empowering way, and you create beautiful and nurturing spaces to allow your journey with that discomfort to heal and inspire those around you. So YES - it’s ok that right now feels stuck, and there’s nothing you need to do or change to shift out of it. You are transforming, again. And while the transitioning process is slow and can be very painful, you are moving through it gracefully and inspiring so many in the process. You are exactly where you need to be. And I, for one, am very grateful for your presence and your vulnerability. You absolutely inspire me. Thank you. ❤
This came at such a timely moment for me as I’ve been feeling much the same. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us all and for showing us how strong we all can be.
I am 51 and have Autism, so change is the thing I hate most. But in my life I’ve learned the only constant IS change. No matter how hard we hold on to things or times they always eventually change. Now asan older man I’ve been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease and am once again dealing with this change, the inability to stop shaking and knowing it will eventually kill me. In the end change is all we have and i have realized that I’m ok with that. As long as I’m changing that means I’m still alive. So Annie when you get discouraged and down remember that change can be your worst or your greatest ally. I wish you peace. 😊😊😊😊
I’m stuck too but I wonder if I need to feel gratitude for it. There’s a certain peace in routine. There’s calmness in not experiencing craziness. There’s blessing in being in a position to sit here without worry.
I was touched by your entry here. I am a 57 year old male. You remind me very much of my daughters. I wanted to say this to you. I feel so many of us are dealing with similitude's and to be completely honest... I cannot blame it all on the current astrological cycles as so many do. I know it plays into things but I also feel there are ancestral cycles that also follow us and the more in tune with ourselves we become the more we realize that there is to know about who and what we are and why we are here. There is both thrill and dissatisfaction in this quest. I feel your spirit's somber moment in your voice hun. One thing I am learning more and more with each passing cycle of my life is this... when I feel there is something missing (no matter what they may mean for each of us) I have learned to ask. Ask the powers. Ask the universe. Ask the creators, our protectors. The spirits and ancestral line. In asking, so far to this point, I have never been let down. I ask and some how, some way I always receive an answer. We so often go without and I am reminded that we have not because we ask not. I hope you find what it is you are still looking for. May light shine on your path and peace be your guide 💖
Change is the one constant in life so embrace change. Just like the seasons and plants come and go, live and die off so does the ups and downs of our own lives.
Suffering from multiple mental illnesses myself, this video resonates with me to a T. I never feel happy or even content. I'm constantly looking for change or betterment. I've moved several times and changed numerous things, and nothing ever helps. I'm frustrated with myself, which only makes my depression worse. I don't know how to break this cycle.
I've asked myself so often: Why can't I ever be just content? And it seems the solution is not the answer to the question, but what Annabel does in this video too: acceptance. For me it helps to sit with the feeling and allow it to exist, to sit with my "depression monster" and allow it to exist, trying to be softer to it, maybe in time start to care for it lovingly. (And not beating myself up over the failure of accepting it either. This is hard and takes so much patience, but maybe it's worth a try for you too.)
I'm having the best year I've had in a decade. Ive lost 113 pounds since March 4th I've bought a bunch of tools and shelves for my workbench. Ive started gardening. This is my second day in bed. I may even have unopened packages for projects outside on the porch. I have no intention of getting out of bed today. When it hits it hits hard and fast, and it comes out of nowhere.
I don’t know if this is wrong to mention, but I’m 28. I’ve gone through these exact same feelings my whole life. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and now that I’m finally on the right cocktail of medication it has helped me a lot better enjoy each stage of life. Instead of constant swirls of hyperfixation and chasing that high or peak of joy, I can better live in whatever mood or feelings I have. I know everyone has said beautiful things that are inspiring but some things are just chemical and need a little outside help. I am not implying that you have some kind of mental condition of course, but I think everyone could benefit from a deep dive into their own mental state sometimes. Thank you for being open about your struggles, sending love and hope that things start making sense for you soon
I don't think it's wrong for you to pass on your positive story. You have found what works for you and you want others to be happy, that's a lovely thing to do. I'm happy for you xx keep going ☺️
That took courage. Thanks for going there. The stigma around mental health needs to be dissolved so we can all find wellbeing individually and collectively. Peace be with you. Blessings
I often get stuck. People think I'm so happy and loving all the time. But I struggle with myself often. And I forget to love me as I put the weight of the world on my shoulders. I'm so quick to help others while I'm screaming for help on the inside. Change keeps the mind occupied for a bit, and I can thrive there, but I won't last there. Sooner or later, it all comes to the surface again. Some of us just have a relationship with pain and sorrow. I often think my disability has much to do with it. I'm epileptic. It strains my lust for life and adventure. But it's not always so visible. So I can run away with the thought that I'm normal for a bit, till I'm humbled and set back in line. I think the best I can say is to learn to love yourself and in all the dark places. The more inner work I do. The more love I give myself. The more time I devote to living in the moment, I survive yet another 'stuck' situation. Having a supportive partner really has helped me thrive but doesn't "fix" my problems cause my issue is with me. I'm so comfortable in sadness. But we can not stay there. Feel for the moment, but learn to let it go. You don't have to stay stuck. And often, we just need to clear the energy surrounding us. Most of the time I feel spirits around me and have to collect my thoughts and see if it's my feelings I'm feeling, or a past or spirits. Energy surrounds us. In the forest, there is an abundance of spirit and energy. So just be kind and patient with yourself. Gratitude had helped me a lot. But know it's also ok to feel sad or stuck or what have you. This, too, shall pass. Be inspired by yourself and the life you've paved. You are worth so much. And much is headed to you. I send you love and light. May peace be with you tonight. ✨️ ❤ - from a friend also in the forest 😊🌲
I identified with this video so much. I feel very stuck. Things I thought would be temporary have seemed to swallow my life, but I feel like there is shadow work that I need to embrace to figure out why I seem to hit milestones yet loop back into feeling stuck. Thank you for being honest, it helped me feel not so alone in this.😌
Plants, you may not see much green growth, but the roots, those are getting stronger. Building a better foundation from all that the green growth has experienced. Blessings 🌸
Every thunderstorm has a rainbow at the end. Live in the moment rather than pushing it away. Every feeling has a lesson, even the hard ones. You will find your peace, sweet lil green witch! ❤
I’m 60 and feel stuck in my life at the moment. I had to give up what was familiar to me and that I love and move across the country. Thank you for your words of wisdom. You are wiser than your years.
“Not everything has to end beautifully for them to continue.” Oh, this. Very much. As always, thank you for sharing your thoughts and moments, even if they don’t feel beautiful or perfect. Wishing you peace. ❤️
It kinda makes you go a little crazy when you’re stuck for so long. I’ve also been kinda stuck, just drifting around, trying to find my place here in Florida for about three years now. That time has been filled with pain, heartbreak, but most of all this crushing scene of numbness. It’s been so hard for me to try to connect with the nature around me that I love so much when I can’t even connect with myself. So I look forward to the little things. Moments like when I wake up and my cat is still quietly snoring next to me, moments that help me find peace. Sometimes it’s ok to feel stuck. 💜
"rhythms of my life". This is a quote from an artist who is a favorite of mine. And it sounds like what your experiencing. I'm guessing your rhythm is a bit off today? Finding a place that speaks to your heart is a tough thing to do but not so tough that it can't be done. Your in a place that's familiar, a place that you rent perhaps and would never own yourself, and you feel stuck, like you want to try a new pair of shoes but can't afford it. There are a great multitude of people who believe in you, who follow you and wish you well and that energy reaches out to you every time you post a video. Oddly enough, your one of the bright ones, the glowing childs of the world, and we fly to you and yours to be closer to that light, and feel your pain when you have it and your joy. Light be with you always.
I'm stuck as well. Sitting with it is hard. I'm awaiting therapy and it's difficult. Wishing I'd gotten treatment as a teen but alas. Now I just have to wait and do my best to take care of myself as I wait. The little things do matter.
Annabel, Aftrer 75 years two things to keep me going even when I get stuck. #1 Always be very specific about what you want as a goal. I mean doubly specific!!! In clear detail! I've coached and achieved my greatest successes in life by simply, clearly and concisely defining exactly what I wanted. Second: I've found being happy is overrated, (Yes I said that!) but by always seeking serenity I'm rarely unhappy. Serenity comes with complete acceptance of where you are currently yet never taking your eyes off your tangible defined goal(s). You are a beautiful, sensitive and highly creative being who like all humans must experience times of doldrums, but persevere and you will find your sails fill again for the next horizon!
It's so hard to face being stuck. I think a lot of us are in the same boat. I'm really feeling the summer melancholy, as i feel too stuck and too much pressure to enjoy it. In a way, it's nice to see this representstion in your video, because it just shows me that im not alone.
The answers that you seek are within you. Moving only changes the environment not yourself, take time to embrace who you are. Being still and connecting with yourself. Keep being strong 🙂
Love this comment “moving only changes the environment, not yourself.” When I was in my early 20s I moved from place to place to escape my feelings of loneliness and past unresolved emotions, it wasn’t until Covid hit that I had to settle down and actually face them. It was hard but much needed, and I’m doing much better now for it. Sending lots of love your way!❤️
No matter where you are and no matter whether or not you're "happy" you are always with yourself and if you can be content with yourself you've learned the greatest lesson that can be learned
Wherever you go, there you are. It’s a hard pill to swallow when it feels like the solution to the restlessness and anxiety is to move forward, move away, start anew. But wherever you go, you’ll still be you and that feeling of being stuck in your own body will have to be addressed. Fleeing from yourself will never find you peace in the long run. Being still in discomfort and trying to move forward inside your own mind, rather than the outer world, will. Just like you already figured out. But it’s hard, I know. Someone mentioned mental health issues, and while no one can diagnose anyone from a RUclips channel (which they didn’t claim to do!) I think they’re onto something. The feeling of restlessness and being stuck may be a state of the soul, but it may also be a state of the body and brain, and if so it’ll be very hard to get better without addressing those problems too. Take care, Annie. I wish you peace of mind and happiness, wherever you are.
You are most definitely not alone in this feeling. So many of my clients come to me and feel stuck and are trying to get themselves out of the rut they've found themselves in. It can be done, but you need patience and total honesty with yourself. By being honest and expanding yourself awareness over what's actually keeping you in the rut, you will find the right path for your future and be able to take the steps towards it. I hope you find your peace that you need x
This! I was stuck in a rut for a very long time and finally admitted to myself what the problem was - hanging on to a familiar old way of being and old dreams and desires. They just didn’t fit me anymore and I needed to let them go in order to move on. And let me tell you, it was not easy letting go of what I thought was a huge part of my identity. Worth it in retrospect, but it was one of the most difficult times of my life.
I grew up in Britain and have lived in New Zealand for 17 years. I am now 41 and I've been seriously contemplating moving back to England. A lot of your words really resonated. Really. Especially the part about the old homeland becoming like a stranger, a love lost. And the idea that changing the scenery will be the 'solution' to the rut. I don't have a copy yet but will soon be borrowing a book titled 'wherever you go, there you are' which even as a standalone statement, feels very poignant right now. Thank you for being so honest with yourself and with us, here.
All I can gather from these comments and my own feelings is some reassurance in knowing what we are feeling isn't just a solitary struggle. We can be quite a support group together 😘 keep talking, keep sharing xx
What would you change about your life? How would your life look different? And what can you do today to make that first small change until you are able to make the bigger ones?
One cannot fully recognize how wonderful it feels to not be stuck, if one does not occasionally feel stuck. When I feel unstuck, I often reflect on how I will feel stuck again someday. Then, when I am stuck, I can say "see, we always knew we'd be back here - guess what, we will also be unstuck again!"
I can so much relate to your feelings. Feeling stuck feels so shtty and I spent years trying to evade that feeling by moving or keeping myself constantly busy. But what really made a difference, was, what you also mentioned - being honest with yourself. and stay with the heavy feelings and situations that I once refused to accept. Those feelings will chance once you sit with them for a while and suddenly, when you realise that you can hold this, you gain so much more trust that somehow you find yourself in a changed situation, see things more clearly, find a solution or know what the next steps are. I totally feel, that those stuck & lost phases always occur before a personal development takes place. And I know now, that I do not have to run away from that but to embrace it :-) be kind to yourself :)
Crying! This is such a painfully relatable video. Thank you for being vulnerable and not pretending that everything is flowing smoothy. It's okay to be stuck.
There is something about us wistful, free spirits. We are always on the lookout for the next thing, the next grand adventure, the next path to "happiness." It is so hard to be in the moment, when the great, wide world is out there waiting for us! Truly an air sign trait, if I've ever seen one. I don't have much advice, but I empathize, and hope we can all be okay with not being okay sometimes, and grow comfortable in the endless yearning.
We all go through being stuck at many points in our lives. And we navigate through this life the best we know how at the time. The best we can in the moment. Being stuck sometimes is what we need to know what to do next. And no matter where you go, you always take us with you and we love watching your journey ! Can’t wait to get your book in just a few (4) short months !
I've just discovered I have ADHD induced depression. Not sure what you have, but understanding our own brain. Wow how I could have lived my life differently. I found you 3 years ago you were comforting in my grief stricken state I was in. Now Ifind it a little hard as it takes me back to that time... an angel once told me this life is suffering, you are a healer...
You are where you are supposed to be at this moment. Take the lessons life is giving you now and use them as tools to enable you to move forward. You will feel it when the right time comes. Best wishes to and for you.
You're not alone, and you're handling being stuck much better than many people I know. I lost my father earlier this year, and am just now crawling out from under some of the resultant paperwork (my mother's a smart woman but not at all good with computers, the web, email, etc.) -- and have come to the realization that, now that four years of dealing 24x7 with the hellish experience of my father's descent into dementia is over (with the "pandemimonium" being icing on the cupcake), I'm exactly where I was before the situation degenerated and have almost no idea of how to change that. It's as if the "why" has become transparent stained glass and the "how" has become smoke & mist... and I can hear the universe's clock ticking louder than ever because I'm in my mid-60s. I hope you can take heart in the knowledge that you *do* still have enough time to become unstuck, and that you have many thousands of people both giving you strength to do what you need to and taking hope from your open, honest sharing.
Getting used to my new chronic illness, I needed to hear this. I keep planning for the future even though I don't know if I'll be able to actually do those things.
I.... I really REALLY needed to hear this today..... I'm also stuck..... but..... now that I realize it's ok to be stuck..... maybe.. I can move forward...
Thank you SO much for sharing so eloquently what many of us are feeling. It’s nice to know we’re not alone in what we feel; we’re not as isolated as we feel. Bless you to embrace the next step in your life. Get all the living in that you can; it may not all make sense until you approach the Crone stage of life. Just file away all of those marvelous experiences and, as you mature, the picture will begin to fall into place. I am only now accepting and embracing my calling as a witch; at 63, I have a lot to learn and a lot of catching up to do. Blessed be ! 🎉💕💞
Thank you for this beautiful and honest video. Accepting the feeling of being stuck, helped me too, quite ofthen actually. Slowing down and standing purposefully still in that feeling let me see some details that I would have missed otherwise. I imagine it a little like when you're stuck in a train waiting for a tree being removed from the tracks or something like it. The landscape out of the window changes, one can see the details close by, blades of grass, tiny flowers, a blue butterfly sitting on the other tracks, beautifully combining it's fleeting colour with their stagnant rust brown. Anyway, watching your video it came to me that maybe it's also worth leaning into that need for change. Maybe a nomadic lifestyle could be a solution. This of course is quite difficult and not always possible. I considered myself a bit of a nomad, and had to admit that it was, while possible, also detrimental to my mental health. It could be different for you though and maybe worth exploring. I wish you all the best and thank you again for your inspirational and insightful videos.
I feel really trapped these past few years. I worry Im running out of time to find my ideal life. But maybe my destiny isnt finding whatever it is I think is ideal. Maybe its to create a space of peace right where I am.
Thank you so much Annie for this. I so relate to your stuck sentiment. I’ve been struggling with feeling stuck and so frustrated and defeated at times. I found the only escape I had was to go inward, because I felt so trapped in my outer world. It’s been hard to find myself in that place. But there was so much healing to be found, and I met my rage there. Learning to love the darker aspects of myself and my shadow, and introduce them to the world in a way that allowed me to live more authentically. I know we’re all doing that, and I wish you and everyone so much love and acceptance in our places of stuckness. 🖤
Thank you for this. I appreciate you making something so beautiful with / within your stuckness. As a creative, I can feel so impatient with being where I am, and yet that’s the place from which all things grow. And it’s easy to forget that there’s a gift in *being with what is*, rather than trying to distract myself until “what is” has transformed into something more palatable. Sometimes, when I’m lucky, I remember that boredom and stuckness and even frustration, if I am able to be present with it, are fertile ground for everything I love about creativity. The “harvest” of creative achievement isn’t really why I’m drawn to creativity, and the harvest isn’t even available to me unless I cultivate and cherish all the other stuff that comes up in the other 99% of time, because unless I take time to notice and enjoy how I “got there”, achievement just feels anticlimactic, and like something else for me to rush past in search of the next thing. I really appreciate the care you put into making this video expressing the feeling of being stuck. I think it is reminding me of something I needed to see about how stuckness and achievement might be two sides of the same coin. Sometimes I’m not willing to go as deep and get as still as my creativity would like me to. But I think that stillness and acceptance of where I am might be the key, for me, to surviving both feelings of stuckness and moments of achievement. Thank you so much for showing up as you do.
Thank you so much. I needed this today. I often run from the feeling of being stuck, too. I can't seem to sit with that feeling, and always need to be doing something to avoid it. May this be a restorative period for you. ❤
Everytime I feel stuck, I draw the hanged man card in Tarot. He always reminds me that sometimes it is nessecary to be stuck and that new things already await on the horizon, but that I am not quite there yet and I have to wait a little longer. He has always been right.
I can't help but respond to your video and your feelings of being stuck at the moment and being drawn to change to settle your yearning for something new. I can so relate to what you are saying as so many others have here. I'm 67 and have done similar things, moving, feeling the need to learn or do something new. For me, it has never gone away. It's just who I am I guess and I have learned to love the feelings that come up and embrace them as they themselves are new for that moment. I live in Washington too. Some days can be naturally gloomy for sure, but honestly, I kind of like these days, too. I hope you too can embrace the feelings, they make you, you❤ Love your channel.
Today was a 're-set' day for me. Time to take down, clean up and start all over. Not quite a 'stuck' day but a starting all over day. And that's OK. Annie, thank you for sharing your honesty and yes, it's OK to have days when we feel 'stuck' or feel we are not getting anywhere. Because, just like plants, growth isn't always what we see above the ground. Days when we feel 'stuck' are often the days of our deepest growth, so deep we can't see it. Annie, I deeply appreciate your videos.
I feel you so much. Being stuck can feel so painful. The ever aching pain reminds you of everything you used to have. Of who you used to be. Who are you, now? What are your passions, wants, and needs at THIS moment in your life? It's okay if they're different than they used to be - it's okay if you don't know yet. Your old self might not fit in to your new life experience. There's a new version of you waiting to be heard.
What strength you have. I’m in awe of your vulnerability as we witness your courage to face that which haunts you. May all your brothers and sister’s loving light illuminate your heart in this moment of need. Rise and free this anchor, set sail to that home which calls you by your name, Annie. Unfold your heart and let it guide you. Peace be with you my brave sister.
I feel a bit stuck myself. But if you think about it, you’ve actually come a long way by reflecting so much. You are able to process the past, truly. And in that you are capable of moving forward without deep seeded wounds rising up, you can approach the future with a clear heart and a nurtured mind🤎
I feel you have a true nomadic spirit. A wanderers' heart and a aura that craves adventure, with new energies in the air. I hope you're able to find your true place of peace in the future. ❤
Thank you for being so honest about your feelings in these videos. This is something I am personally trying to work on and you give me such inspiration. Sending healing your way. 💖💖
Thank you so much for sharing this. All too often we are presented with people sharing their perfect lives and rarely do they allow themselves to be vulnerable. So many of us identify with your words and hopefully together we can offer support.
I was a runner until I had children, but face it now before you even consider motherhood. I’ve done a lot of healing but my children did not have the best of me, sometimes. Prayers. Life isn’t easy but worth it.
Thank you for acknowledging this truth and sharing it with us. We can never escape ourselves, and there is a peace that dawns when we can embrace who and how we are in the moment without trying to change it or fix it. Being in full presence with it. I find it helps me when I can approach myself and my life this way. I don't always remember to do it, but when I do, it makes the world of a difference 💛 love and peace to you all
I teared up watching this, it resonated something in me that I didn't know was there and needed to be addressed. Thank you so much for sharing and for your vulnerability, you are not alone 💚🤎🤍
I have noticed in your last few videos that you seem lost. Even though you tell us you are fine and have so many things planned. Yet the enthusiasm just isn’t in your voice. I truly do not feel that you have found your home yet. That you hear a voice calling you but you don’t know where it’s from. Listen to it. Keep searching. Don’t get bogged down in what you think others want. Do what Annie wants. Even if it means moving to England or Ireland or Scotland. You are young. Search your heart for what you want and then go do it. Do not accept this as where you are and you just have to deal with. I wish you much luck and pray you find yourself.
I’m so proud of you Annabel! You bring so much joy to so many people. Use your magical tools you make every day to uplift your spirit and like you said, it’s ok to not be ok all the time. This too shall pass. You inspired someone today💜🌻🌸🌼
Hi Annie, it's hard at times to know the road to follow, at times like this you must listen to your hart, no one can give the answer I'm afraid but you will find that road , you have to dig deep within yourself, a total change of direction may help, take a few deep breaths and look inside yourself, I wish you good luck and good fortune, sending warm blessings and love from my English wood land❤xx
I love your honesty here, and vulnerability. I think your plant medicine has much to offer - we often feel "stuck" but maybe we are simply still, with oil covering us, extracting the medicine for later? Wishing you comfort and wisdom during your time of stillness - you are your own medicine and you are beautiful!
I can relate a lot, maybe the below helps. Almost two decades ago I moved away from everyone I knew and started my life. Alone in a city. And I really detest cities, but thats what you get when you only have a few hours to secure a place to lay down your head. It was an intense journey. I got stuck too. A few times actually. Work consumed my every waking hour and it took an embarrassingly long time for me to figure out I was wasting my life and to steel myself completely to force the changes to dig out of the rut. I hope the issue is in the things you can change type, and not things one must accept. The latter is much harder, but to me more rewarding. I lost out on a dream of mine because I got injured the first time. I was young, had it all figured out till the Fates laughed and said nope. It wasnt fair, it really sucked and I drifted like a dead boat because I had no objective, hell I was in some form of death it crushed me so hard. That is until the universe put a foot up my rear when I got hurt again. Seems if you arent on the path the Fates have for you, they will nudge or kick you until you fix that. Best I can tell must accept types of problems are like running with sandbags, it really sucks, but if you keep at it you get far stronger than you could without the burden. I figure the universe needed me to toughen up mentally and physically for what they had in store. In hindsight that might have been the healthiest way to process what was happening to me. Seems like you are realizing the issue and are somewhere between figuring out what your true desire is and doing the work to get there. Maybe a working to help find or set your intention on a desired path out of the rut. I didnt pick up the craft till later, but now days I'd obtain a well used compass or other direction finding tool of navigation. Spend enough time bonding with it while meditating on what purpose you want in your life that results in your happiness. The tool has already been helping people find their way, I'm sure you can work out the rest of the working. Place the tool in a place where you will see it and be reminded of your working, or preferably, just take it with you everywhere. Work with it every day. Before going to bed ask yourself have you done just one step towards advancing to your objective, if you havent its not bed time yet. Its a grind, hard work, and many days you will be frustrated, but life changes in an instant. Your one baby step a day will add up, it will reveal and open hidden doors and it will create momentum that will make things easier. You are not alone, and I promise you have the stuff inside to achieve great things. You already have a few good sized platforms already right? You arent starting from nothing. I suspect you are on the cusp of something amazing.
In Christianity sometimes we say that there is a feeling of being homesick... of knowing we aren't "of" the world and being able to feel it in our bones. I relate to your beautiful words through my faith for sure. He has really been the only thing that has given me lasting comfort or a "peace that surpasses all understanding". The human experience has so many similarities, yet different lenses. I also started pouring myself into community when I feel this way. Inviting people over, serving them in some way, being around people a lot, even when I feel/felt tired or like that wasn't the problem. When you observe people who live in community - that novelty I crave seems to come from hearing their experiences, being a part of their lives, interacting consistently and regularly within a circle of storybook characters. We seem to have lost this skill and priority in American culture especially, though you still see it being practiced (and the fruits of it) with people like the Amish. Anyway - this is a girl from Kentucky sending so much love your way. What an honest video.
Sometimes when the feeling of "stuck" is there we need to create movement from that point but with it, not away from it, in other words we may be overlooking we are where we need to be we are just not learning, working, doing or using that place for what we need. You keep returning because you need too, stuck/remaining it's all in what you do with it. You're the only one who will figure it out and sometimes reflexing too much on the past brings about "stuck" and less about just remaining settled and moving forward. Just my thought, you will have your's and that's what it's all about, everyones own journey.
Coming to the point of understanding that your problems travel with you and don’t automatically clear up when you’re in a different place is growth. You can’t outrun problems. What do you mean by “stuck” and “rut”? Do you mean you are feeling unmotivated? Like you have no energy to create? To me, summer is actually a one of the resting seasons (the other is winter). Summer is a time to reflect. The planting is done yet we await the harvest. Perhaps the work we do in summer is reflect on what doesn’t give us joy so we can begin weeding it out or fine tuning our goals, waiting until fall to let parts of our lives die, come the harvest. I find summer to be a slower time for me as well in terms of creating and giving of myself. Please also know that it’s not sustainable to make and create all the time. This is unbalanced. You can’t give if you don’t first allow the energy to come to you. How are you doing with receiving the abundance around you? Are you sure you’re receiving what is offered? It sounds like you need some wonder in your life. Like, your blocked there with the receiving, do you know that you are worthy simply because you exist? Take up space. What sparks joy? Find something in nature that brings you joy and just sit with it, admire it and receive unconditionally the joy it’s giving you. Try to see how awesome and wonderfully it is that it’s here in this universe and that you get to sit with it. Simply repay it with gratitude. I also find gratitude practices helpful for these moments. Sometimes we get too stuck in our own heads and stop seeing the big picture of how connected everything is-then we feel cut off from abundance and joy.
I feel the same way, always chasing the dopamine high of something new, a new place to explore, a new business to start, I am learning I am neurodiverse and this is part of me, I am learning a different way to be, it’s weird because I haven’t realised it before and getting comfortable with just being in this place and time feels alien to me, thank you for sharing your thoughts and all the people commenting because it is so helpful
Maybe instead of desperately searching for a way out, explore the rut, and what you don't like about it. Maybe try and make that what you experience as the rut a new path to challenge yourself. I personally believe in the Old Germanic Gods, and they often set me challenges to work through. You yourself said throughout the last years you experienced this rut you find yourself in, maybe yor Gods too want you to work this out, rather than finding temporary, but brief solutions, and then finding yourself back in the same position. I hope you can work your issues out, you have my spiritual support. In Frith.
I am 62 and just embarking on this journey- I’m confused all the time and have been stuck my whole life lol-trying to figure out what I wanted, maybe my purpose- I dont know. I too think about what I want to do or where I want to be instead of enjoying what is- and I also don’t know why. Maybe what you said is correct. We are here and should live this moment in joy. Everything that happens holds a lesson we are meant to learn. And maybe the lesson for those like us is to learn to love the now- whatever that may be. I hope we all find what we’re looking for! ❤
To put it plainly, picking up over, and over while trying to fill the void doesn't resolve the issue. What that is, to be honest only you know Annie. But when we become constructive with something we are passionate about. That is when yes things can become revealed, and the revelation can become at times both a gift, and a truth. Lots of times we try to run from which we do not want to face. Either because it is too frightening, or too strenuous on us. But once we have faced it, then do we truly begin the healing process from all of this.
What Id give to have ur age n life now at 53...I am now starting to come out of SURVIVAL mode ive been in all my life....positive changes are brewing for me and a new life awaits me next Spring and I cant wait but in the mean time I am making the most of what im living with now and with gratitude n positivity I am getting through my days in peace...ANNIE you are in the moment to observe and feel what YOU want not what others want for you, and then go after it with no time frame....just plan it out and give yourself the time, space and gentleness you need to get there and also to trust & enjoy the process and leave room for any oops ❤
I think when we truly accept and surrender and feel it’s ok to be where we are right now and embrace the moment good or bad - that’s when a break through happens. That’s when miracles occur. Thank you for sharing I can so relate.
this really struck a chord for my internal world. i feel so chaotic yet stagnant, stuck. and that is ok. change is our only constant so it's wise to allow ourselves to embrace the feeling of being stuck, i see that now. to truly float along the stream of life. thank you for the openness
Annie, I read some of the comments and they have a lot of wisdom in the words. I am 65 and my whole world changed in 2018. The past, gosh 5 years!, have been a rollercoaster of change, feeling stuck, feeling as though I am in over my head etc. This is a new part of my life as I learn to live as a crone, grandmother, wise woman etc. There are many things I have yet to learn yet much I have to give to my family as they run into their own difficulties and challenges. You, Annie, have given me light in the darkness of change. Your calm voice, your honesty, your knowledge always come to me at times when I need it most. May the Goddess bless you on this path and help you to understand the lesson of being stuck, to give yourself the patience, the love that you would give to others that find themselves in times of challenges. Blessed Be!
100 agreed! Hang in there Annie 🩵🪴
I just made a comment about the maiden to mother transition haha 😂. Guess it’s gonna happen again 🥲. But for now the wind is around me and I’m back on the move (if a little uneasy about the direction.) I just love the parallel comment.
🌲🍀🐾🦉I've said it many times, Annabel is the Light🌞☀️😉🦉🐾🍀🌲.
I prefer to say I'm in a holding pattern then to think of me as stuck. I'm sorry you feel that way Miss Annie, you are in your own beautiful creation. You've built a family of your own and we've been given glimpses of how your path has intertwined with ours. Your journey will be long with short dashes of fun and long runs of love and life. Both a burden and a gift. Just breathe young woman
I saw much of myself in your message to Annie. I have just completed my 63rd year and I’m just now accepting the witch that I am. I would very much like to have a friend near my age who is also discovering her own magickal-ness. So mote it be!
change, ruts, returns, reflection. they're all living. you're still you. as long as you're alive you're living.
There's a quote that goes something like 'if you travel to avoid your problems, you'll have the same problems just in a different place.' I think it's easy to think that major change, like moving, is the solution to feeling trapped or stuck in a rut, but it's not necessarily. I don't have any advice but I do find it helps to try 'smaller' new things like a new coffee shop or a slightly varied routine. Or just pick up a book I wouldn't normally. Anything to feel like I'm making change without actually uprooting myself!
Thanks 🙏 are you a Taurus in astrology
Yes! "No matter where you go, there you are" Embrace the Non sequitur, if it rains, go wash the car!
The key, dear sister, is to find joy, peace, and magic in the rut. Get stuck, stay stuck. Explore it. Question it. Get very very angry or sad or frustrated. But stay there. BE there. Feel there. I was the same at your age. I am still the same now. I long for a place I have never even been. But it is only through sitting in the stuck that we grow and ascend to higher consciousness. In that is real true magic.
Mmm. Stuckness - it’s a real thing.
AND It’s also part of the spiral and part of the “cycle.”
I’ve learned it’s not about finding joy or happiness in something you can do or somewhere you can be, but about finding within yourself acceptance and compassion for the present moment - whatever that might look like... Even when it’s uncomfortable. Even when it’s downright shitty.
And one thing I’ve noted in your videos over the past few years, is that while you often shame yourself for not being as present as you think you could or should be, you are actually AMAZING at showing up here, being honest and authentic about those moments of feeling off or stuck or unhappy, you reflect on that space in a very accepting and empowering way, and you create beautiful and nurturing spaces to allow your journey with that discomfort to heal and inspire those around you.
So YES - it’s ok that right now feels stuck, and there’s nothing you need to do or change to shift out of it.
You are transforming, again. And while the transitioning process is slow and can be very painful, you are moving through it gracefully and inspiring so many in the process.
You are exactly where you need to be. And I, for one, am very grateful for your presence and your vulnerability.
You absolutely inspire me.
Thank you.
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Sending only love and compassion.
This came at such a timely moment for me as I’ve been feeling much the same. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us all and for showing us how strong we all can be.
I am 51 and have Autism, so change is the thing I hate most. But in my life I’ve learned the only constant IS change. No matter how hard we hold on to things or times they always eventually change. Now asan older man I’ve been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease and am once again dealing with this change, the inability to stop shaking and knowing it will eventually kill me. In the end change is all we have and i have realized that I’m ok with that. As long as I’m changing that means I’m still alive. So Annie when you get discouraged and down remember that change can be your worst or your greatest ally. I wish you peace.
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Perfectly ok is a state we all strive for but never quite make it.
My jaw dropped when I heard your words. 30 mins before I was saying the same thing to someone. You're not alone. Blessings 🙏
I’m stuck too but I wonder if I need to feel gratitude for it. There’s a certain peace in routine. There’s calmness in not experiencing craziness. There’s blessing in being in a position to sit here without worry.
I was touched by your entry here. I am a 57 year old male. You remind me very much of my daughters. I wanted to say this to you. I feel so many of us are dealing with similitude's and to be completely honest... I cannot blame it all on the current astrological cycles as so many do. I know it plays into things but I also feel there are ancestral cycles that also follow us and the more in tune with ourselves we become the more we realize that there is to know about who and what we are and why we are here. There is both thrill and dissatisfaction in this quest. I feel your spirit's somber moment in your voice hun. One thing I am learning more and more with each passing cycle of my life is this... when I feel there is something missing (no matter what they may mean for each of us) I have learned to ask. Ask the powers. Ask the universe. Ask the creators, our protectors. The spirits and ancestral line. In asking, so far to this point, I have never been let down. I ask and some how, some way I always receive an answer. We so often go without and I am reminded that we have not because we ask not. I hope you find what it is you are still looking for. May light shine on your path and peace be your guide 💖
Change is the one constant in life so embrace change. Just like the seasons and plants come and go, live and die off so does the ups and downs of our own lives.
Suffering from multiple mental illnesses myself, this video resonates with me to a T. I never feel happy or even content. I'm constantly looking for change or betterment. I've moved several times and changed numerous things, and nothing ever helps. I'm frustrated with myself, which only makes my depression worse. I don't know how to break this cycle.
Extra exercise is key to reduce depression 😊walk walk walk and you’ll be amazed at the improvement just start with 15 mins x
I've asked myself so often: Why can't I ever be just content? And it seems the solution is not the answer to the question, but what Annabel does in this video too: acceptance. For me it helps to sit with the feeling and allow it to exist, to sit with my "depression monster" and allow it to exist, trying to be softer to it, maybe in time start to care for it lovingly. (And not beating myself up over the failure of accepting it either. This is hard and takes so much patience, but maybe it's worth a try for you too.)
Acceptance ❤
I'm having the best year I've had in a decade.
Ive lost 113 pounds since March 4th
I've bought a bunch of tools and shelves for my workbench.
Ive started gardening.
This is my second day in bed. I may even have unopened packages for projects outside on the porch.
I have no intention of getting out of bed today.
When it hits it hits hard and fast, and it comes out of nowhere.
I don’t know if this is wrong to mention, but I’m 28. I’ve gone through these exact same feelings my whole life. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and now that I’m finally on the right cocktail of medication it has helped me a lot better enjoy each stage of life. Instead of constant swirls of hyperfixation and chasing that high or peak of joy, I can better live in whatever mood or feelings I have. I know everyone has said beautiful things that are inspiring but some things are just chemical and need a little outside help. I am not implying that you have some kind of mental condition of course, but I think everyone could benefit from a deep dive into their own mental state sometimes. Thank you for being open about your struggles, sending love and hope that things start making sense for you soon
I don't think it's wrong for you to pass on your positive story. You have found what works for you and you want others to be happy, that's a lovely thing to do. I'm happy for you xx keep going ☺️
I think you're on to something here . Some things are just chemical . Glad you're doing better 🌻
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That took courage. Thanks for going there. The stigma around mental health needs to be dissolved so we can all find wellbeing individually and collectively. Peace be with you. Blessings
I often get stuck. People think I'm so happy and loving all the time. But I struggle with myself often. And I forget to love me as I put the weight of the world on my shoulders. I'm so quick to help others while I'm screaming for help on the inside. Change keeps the mind occupied for a bit, and I can thrive there, but I won't last there. Sooner or later, it all comes to the surface again. Some of us just have a relationship with pain and sorrow. I often think my disability has much to do with it. I'm epileptic. It strains my lust for life and adventure. But it's not always so visible. So I can run away with the thought that I'm normal for a bit, till I'm humbled and set back in line. I think the best I can say is to learn to love yourself and in all the dark places. The more inner work I do. The more love I give myself. The more time I devote to living in the moment, I survive yet another 'stuck' situation. Having a supportive partner really has helped me thrive but doesn't "fix" my problems cause my issue is with me. I'm so comfortable in sadness. But we can not stay there. Feel for the moment, but learn to let it go. You don't have to stay stuck. And often, we just need to clear the energy surrounding us. Most of the time I feel spirits around me and have to collect my thoughts and see if it's my feelings I'm feeling, or a past or spirits. Energy surrounds us. In the forest, there is an abundance of spirit and energy. So just be kind and patient with yourself. Gratitude had helped me a lot. But know it's also ok to feel sad or stuck or what have you. This, too, shall pass. Be inspired by yourself and the life you've paved. You are worth so much. And much is headed to you. I send you love and light. May peace be with you tonight. ✨️ ❤
- from a friend also in the forest 😊🌲
I identified with this video so much. I feel very stuck. Things I thought would be temporary have seemed to swallow my life, but I feel like there is shadow work that I need to embrace to figure out why I seem to hit milestones yet loop back into feeling stuck. Thank you for being honest, it helped me feel not so alone in this.😌
Plants, you may not see much green growth, but the roots, those are getting stronger. Building a better foundation from all that the green growth has experienced. Blessings 🌸
Every thunderstorm has a rainbow at the end. Live in the moment rather than pushing it away. Every feeling has a lesson, even the hard ones. You will find your peace, sweet lil green witch! ❤
Sounds like she's got a hurricane that wont go away but every now and again she gets into the calm eye.
I’m 60 and feel stuck in my life at the moment. I had to give up what was familiar to me and that I love and move across the country. Thank you for your words of wisdom. You are wiser than your years.
I’ve been through the same thing - moving across the country is not easy (especially when you loved the life you had).
I am turning 60 in a couple of weeks. I too feel stuck without a way out. But I will keep looking
“Not everything has to end beautifully for them to continue.”
Oh, this. Very much. As always, thank you for sharing your thoughts and moments, even if they don’t feel beautiful or perfect. Wishing you peace. ❤️
It kinda makes you go a little crazy when you’re stuck for so long. I’ve also been kinda stuck, just drifting around, trying to find my place here in Florida for about three years now. That time has been filled with pain, heartbreak, but most of all this crushing scene of numbness. It’s been so hard for me to try to connect with the nature around me that I love so much when I can’t even connect with myself. So I look forward to the little things. Moments like when I wake up and my cat is still quietly snoring next to me, moments that help me find peace. Sometimes it’s ok to feel stuck.
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I saw this video exactly when I needed to... Thank you for your beautiful insight and perspective.
"rhythms of my life". This is a quote from an artist who is a favorite of mine. And it sounds like what your experiencing. I'm guessing your rhythm is a bit off today? Finding a place that speaks to your heart is a tough thing to do but not so tough that it can't be done. Your in a place that's familiar, a place that you rent perhaps and would never own yourself, and you feel stuck, like you want to try a new pair of shoes but can't afford it. There are a great multitude of people who believe in you, who follow you and wish you well and that energy reaches out to you every time you post a video. Oddly enough, your one of the bright ones, the glowing childs of the world, and we fly to you and yours to be closer to that light, and feel your pain when you have it and your joy. Light be with you always.
I'm stuck as well. Sitting with it is hard. I'm awaiting therapy and it's difficult. Wishing I'd gotten treatment as a teen but alas. Now I just have to wait and do my best to take care of myself as I wait. The little things do matter.
When you’re stuck, and you’ve reached an impasse, the only thing left to do is wait. The world turns regardless of how much we spin our wheels.
Annabel, Aftrer 75 years two things to keep me going even when I get stuck. #1 Always be very specific about what you want as a goal. I mean doubly specific!!! In clear detail! I've coached and achieved my greatest successes in life by simply, clearly and concisely defining exactly what I wanted. Second: I've found being happy is overrated, (Yes I said that!) but by always seeking serenity I'm rarely unhappy. Serenity comes with complete acceptance of where you are currently yet never taking your eyes off your tangible defined goal(s). You are a beautiful, sensitive and highly creative being who like all humans must experience times of doldrums, but persevere and you will find your sails fill again for the next horizon!
gosh, i love this, thank you. it reminds me of something i read in my journal the other day "contentment can gather amidst dullness of mood"
Wherever I go, there I am 🥰
It's so hard to face being stuck. I think a lot of us are in the same boat.
I'm really feeling the summer melancholy, as i feel too stuck and too much pressure to enjoy it.
In a way, it's nice to see this representstion in your video, because it just shows me that im not alone.
The answers that you seek are within you. Moving only changes the environment not yourself, take time to embrace who you are. Being still and connecting with yourself. Keep being strong 🙂
Love this comment “moving only changes the environment, not yourself.” When I was in my early 20s I moved from place to place to escape my feelings of loneliness and past unresolved emotions, it wasn’t until Covid hit that I had to settle down and actually face them. It was hard but much needed, and I’m doing much better now for it. Sending lots of love your way!❤️
Thank you for being vulnerable and open about your journey. It's ok to be stuck sometimes! Sending my love💓
No matter where you are and no matter whether or not you're "happy" you are always with yourself and if you can be content with yourself you've learned the greatest lesson that can be learned
This realization is in itself growth!
Wherever you go, there you are.
It’s a hard pill to swallow when it feels like the solution to the restlessness and anxiety is to move forward, move away, start anew. But wherever you go, you’ll still be you and that feeling of being stuck in your own body will have to be addressed. Fleeing from yourself will never find you peace in the long run. Being still in discomfort and trying to move forward inside your own mind, rather than the outer world, will. Just like you already figured out. But it’s hard, I know.
Someone mentioned mental health issues, and while no one can diagnose anyone from a RUclips channel (which they didn’t claim to do!) I think they’re onto something. The feeling of restlessness and being stuck may be a state of the soul, but it may also be a state of the body and brain, and if so it’ll be very hard to get better without addressing those problems too.
Take care, Annie. I wish you peace of mind and happiness, wherever you are.
I feel you and what freaking BREATH TAKING scenery as always 🖤
You are most definitely not alone in this feeling. So many of my clients come to me and feel stuck and are trying to get themselves out of the rut they've found themselves in. It can be done, but you need patience and total honesty with yourself. By being honest and expanding yourself awareness over what's actually keeping you in the rut, you will find the right path for your future and be able to take the steps towards it. I hope you find your peace that you need x
This! I was stuck in a rut for a very long time and finally admitted to myself what the problem was - hanging on to a familiar old way of being and old dreams and desires. They just didn’t fit me anymore and I needed to let them go in order to move on. And let me tell you, it was not easy letting go of what I thought was a huge part of my identity. Worth it in retrospect, but it was one of the most difficult times of my life.
I grew up in Britain and have lived in New Zealand for 17 years. I am now 41 and I've been seriously contemplating moving back to England. A lot of your words really resonated. Really. Especially the part about the old homeland becoming like a stranger, a love lost. And the idea that changing the scenery will be the 'solution' to the rut. I don't have a copy yet but will soon be borrowing a book titled 'wherever you go, there you are' which even as a standalone statement, feels very poignant right now. Thank you for being so honest with yourself and with us, here.
All I can gather from these comments and my own feelings is some reassurance in knowing what we are feeling isn't just a solitary struggle. We can be quite a support group together 😘 keep talking, keep sharing xx
What would you change about your life? How would your life look different? And what can you do today to make that first small change until you are able to make the bigger ones?
Understood. acknowledged. and appreciate....
One cannot fully recognize how wonderful it feels to not be stuck, if one does not occasionally feel stuck.
When I feel unstuck, I often reflect on how I will feel stuck again someday. Then, when I am stuck, I can say "see, we always knew we'd be back here - guess what, we will also be unstuck again!"
oh i really love this comment, thank you
I can so much relate to your feelings. Feeling stuck feels so shtty and I spent years trying to evade that feeling by moving or keeping myself constantly busy. But what really made a difference, was, what you also mentioned - being honest with yourself. and stay with the heavy feelings and situations that I once refused to accept. Those feelings will chance once you sit with them for a while and suddenly, when you realise that you can hold this, you gain so much more trust that somehow you find yourself in a changed situation, see things more clearly, find a solution or know what the next steps are. I totally feel, that those stuck & lost phases always occur before a personal development takes place. And I know now, that I do not have to run away from that but to embrace it :-) be kind to yourself :)
Crying! This is such a painfully relatable video. Thank you for being vulnerable and not pretending that everything is flowing smoothy. It's okay to be stuck.
There is something about us wistful, free spirits. We are always on the lookout for the next thing, the next grand adventure, the next path to "happiness." It is so hard to be in the moment, when the great, wide world is out there waiting for us! Truly an air sign trait, if I've ever seen one. I don't have much advice, but I empathize, and hope we can all be okay with not being okay sometimes, and grow comfortable in the endless yearning.
We all go through being stuck at many points in our lives. And we navigate through this life the best we know how at the time. The best we can in the moment. Being stuck sometimes is what we need to know what to do next. And no matter where you go, you always take us with you and we love watching your journey ! Can’t wait to get your book in just a few (4) short months !
I've just discovered I have ADHD induced depression. Not sure what you have, but understanding our own brain. Wow how I could have lived my life differently. I found you 3 years ago you were comforting in my grief stricken state I was in. Now Ifind it a little hard as it takes me back to that time... an angel once told me this life is suffering, you are a healer...
Sending hugs from across the pond ❤️🇬🇧
You are where you are supposed to be at this moment. Take the lessons life is giving you now and use them as tools to enable you to move forward. You will feel it when the right time comes.
Best wishes to and for you.
You're not alone, and you're handling being stuck much better than many people I know. I lost my father earlier this year, and am just now crawling out from under some of the resultant paperwork (my mother's a smart woman but not at all good with computers, the web, email, etc.) -- and have come to the realization that, now that four years of dealing 24x7 with the hellish experience of my father's descent into dementia is over (with the "pandemimonium" being icing on the cupcake), I'm exactly where I was before the situation degenerated and have almost no idea of how to change that. It's as if the "why" has become transparent stained glass and the "how" has become smoke & mist... and I can hear the universe's clock ticking louder than ever because I'm in my mid-60s. I hope you can take heart in the knowledge that you *do* still have enough time to become unstuck, and that you have many thousands of people both giving you strength to do what you need to and taking hope from your open, honest sharing.
THIS IS so REAL 🫂 thank you for being vulnerable! We ALL have been there ❤U ARE so special 🥰🫂
Getting used to my new chronic illness, I needed to hear this. I keep planning for the future even though I don't know if I'll be able to actually do those things.
I.... I really REALLY needed to hear this today..... I'm also stuck..... but..... now that I realize it's ok to be stuck..... maybe.. I can move forward...
Thank you SO much for sharing so eloquently what many of us are feeling. It’s nice to know we’re not alone in what we feel; we’re not as isolated as we feel. Bless you to embrace the next step in your life. Get all the living in that you can; it may not all make sense until you approach the Crone stage of life. Just file away all of those marvelous experiences and, as you mature, the picture will begin to fall into place. I am only now accepting and embracing my calling as a witch; at 63, I have a lot to learn and a lot of catching up to do. Blessed be ! 🎉💕💞
I'm stuck with you - and that's ok. What a relief to accept things the way they are, and not need "better".
I definitely understand that feeling…you’re not alone ❤❤
Thank you for this beautiful and honest video. Accepting the feeling of being stuck, helped me too, quite ofthen actually. Slowing down and standing purposefully still in that feeling let me see some details that I would have missed otherwise. I imagine it a little like when you're stuck in a train waiting for a tree being removed from the tracks or something like it. The landscape out of the window changes, one can see the details close by, blades of grass, tiny flowers, a blue butterfly sitting on the other tracks, beautifully combining it's fleeting colour with their stagnant rust brown.
Anyway, watching your video it came to me that maybe it's also worth leaning into that need for change. Maybe a nomadic lifestyle could be a solution. This of course is quite difficult and not always possible. I considered myself a bit of a nomad, and had to admit that it was, while possible, also detrimental to my mental health. It could be different for you though and maybe worth exploring. I wish you all the best and thank you again for your inspirational and insightful videos.
Awesome and fantastic.. Wonderful plants.. Amazing thoughts.. Just outstanding performance👍👍 🌸
Love you!! Youll get unstuck soon enough. You always do 💚
I really appreciate this compassionate space you’re offering yourself up to be honest with yourself. Its powerful and we need more of it
Oef, I feel you on this. Thank you for sharing and the inspiration to welcome in this feeling (instead of pushing it away or denying it exists)
I feel really trapped these past few years. I worry Im running out of time to find my ideal life. But maybe my destiny isnt finding whatever it is I think is ideal. Maybe its to create a space of peace right where I am.
I too revert to old habits, knowing that we are already what we search for ☮️
Thank you so much Annie for this. I so relate to your stuck sentiment. I’ve been struggling with feeling stuck and so frustrated and defeated at times. I found the only escape I had was to go inward, because I felt so trapped in my outer world. It’s been hard to find myself in that place. But there was so much healing to be found, and I met my rage there. Learning to love the darker aspects of myself and my shadow, and introduce them to the world in a way that allowed me to live more authentically. I know we’re all doing that, and I wish you and everyone so much love and acceptance in our places of stuckness. 🖤
Thank you for this. I appreciate you making something so beautiful with / within your stuckness. As a creative, I can feel so impatient with being where I am, and yet that’s the place from which all things grow. And it’s easy to forget that there’s a gift in *being with what is*, rather than trying to distract myself until “what is” has transformed into something more palatable. Sometimes, when I’m lucky, I remember that boredom and stuckness and even frustration, if I am able to be present with it, are fertile ground for everything I love about creativity. The “harvest” of creative achievement isn’t really why I’m drawn to creativity, and the harvest isn’t even available to me unless I cultivate and cherish all the other stuff that comes up in the other 99% of time, because unless I take time to notice and enjoy how I “got there”, achievement just feels anticlimactic, and like something else for me to rush past in search of the next thing. I really appreciate the care you put into making this video expressing the feeling of being stuck. I think it is reminding me of something I needed to see about how stuckness and achievement might be two sides of the same coin. Sometimes I’m not willing to go as deep and get as still as my creativity would like me to. But I think that stillness and acceptance of where I am might be the key, for me, to surviving both feelings of stuckness and moments of achievement. Thank you so much for showing up as you do.
Thank you so much. I needed this today. I often run from the feeling of being stuck, too. I can't seem to sit with that feeling, and always need to be doing something to avoid it.
May this be a restorative period for you. ❤
Everytime I feel stuck, I draw the hanged man card in Tarot. He always reminds me that sometimes it is nessecary to be stuck and that new things already await on the horizon, but that I am not quite there yet and I have to wait a little longer. He has always been right.
I can't help but respond to your video and your feelings of being stuck at the moment and being drawn to change to settle your yearning for something new. I can so relate to what you are saying as so many others have here. I'm 67 and have done similar things, moving, feeling the need to learn or do something new. For me, it has never gone away. It's just who I am I guess and I have learned to love the feelings that come up and embrace them as they themselves are new for that moment. I live in Washington too. Some days can be naturally gloomy for sure, but honestly, I kind of like these days, too. I hope you too can embrace the feelings, they make you, you❤ Love your channel.
Today was a 're-set' day for me. Time to take down, clean up and start all over. Not quite a 'stuck' day but a starting all over day. And that's OK. Annie, thank you for sharing your honesty and yes, it's OK to have days when we feel 'stuck' or feel we are not getting anywhere. Because, just like plants, growth isn't always what we see above the ground. Days when we feel 'stuck' are often the days of our deepest growth, so deep we can't see it. Annie, I deeply appreciate your videos.
I feel you so much.
Being stuck can feel so painful. The ever aching pain reminds you of everything you used to have. Of who you used to be.
Who are you, now? What are your passions, wants, and needs at THIS moment in your life? It's okay if they're different than they used to be - it's okay if you don't know yet. Your old self might not fit in to your new life experience. There's a new version of you waiting to be heard.
What strength you have. I’m in awe of your vulnerability as we witness your courage to face that which haunts you. May all your brothers and sister’s loving light illuminate your heart in this moment of need. Rise and free this anchor, set sail to that home which calls you by your name, Annie. Unfold your heart and let it guide you. Peace be with you my brave sister.
I feel a bit stuck myself. But if you think about it, you’ve actually come a long way by reflecting so much. You are able to process the past, truly. And in that you are capable of moving forward without deep seeded wounds rising up, you can approach the future with a clear heart and a nurtured mind🤎
I feel you have a true nomadic spirit. A wanderers' heart and a aura that craves adventure, with new energies in the air. I hope you're able to find your true place of peace in the future. ❤
Thank you for being so honest about your feelings in these videos. This is something I am personally trying to work on and you give me such inspiration. Sending healing your way. 💖💖
Thank you so much for sharing this. All too often we are presented with people sharing their perfect lives and rarely do they allow themselves to be vulnerable. So many of us identify with your words and hopefully together we can offer support.
I was a runner until I had children, but face it now before you even consider motherhood. I’ve done a lot of healing but my children did not have the best of me, sometimes. Prayers. Life isn’t easy but worth it.
Thank you for acknowledging this truth and sharing it with us. We can never escape ourselves, and there is a peace that dawns when we can embrace who and how we are in the moment without trying to change it or fix it. Being in full presence with it. I find it helps me when I can approach myself and my life this way. I don't always remember to do it, but when I do, it makes the world of a difference 💛 love and peace to you all
Absolutely beautifuly said.
I teared up watching this, it resonated something in me that I didn't know was there and needed to be addressed. Thank you so much for sharing and for your vulnerability, you are not alone 💚🤎🤍
I have noticed in your last few videos that you seem lost. Even though you tell us you are fine and have so many things planned. Yet the enthusiasm just isn’t in your voice. I truly do not feel that you have found your home yet. That you hear a voice calling you but you don’t know where it’s from. Listen to it. Keep searching. Don’t get bogged down in what you think others want. Do what Annie wants. Even if it means moving to England or Ireland or Scotland. You are young. Search your heart for what you want and then go do it. Do not accept this as where you are and you just have to deal with. I wish you much luck and pray you find yourself.
Your vulnerability and beauty in this helped me recognize my very own.
I’m so proud of you Annabel! You bring so much joy to so many people. Use your magical tools you make every day to uplift your spirit and like you said, it’s ok to not be ok all the time. This too shall pass. You inspired someone today💜🌻🌸🌼
Hi Annie, it's hard at times to know the road to follow, at times like this you must listen to your hart, no one can give the answer I'm afraid but you will find that road , you have to dig deep within yourself, a total change of direction may help, take a few deep breaths and look inside yourself, I wish you good luck and good fortune, sending warm blessings and love from my English wood land❤xx
I love your honesty here, and vulnerability. I think your plant medicine has much to offer - we often feel "stuck" but maybe we are simply still, with oil covering us, extracting the medicine for later? Wishing you comfort and wisdom during your time of stillness - you are your own medicine and you are beautiful!
I can relate a lot, maybe the below helps. Almost two decades ago I moved away from everyone I knew and started my life. Alone in a city. And I really detest cities, but thats what you get when you only have a few hours to secure a place to lay down your head. It was an intense journey. I got stuck too. A few times actually. Work consumed my every waking hour and it took an embarrassingly long time for me to figure out I was wasting my life and to steel myself completely to force the changes to dig out of the rut.
I hope the issue is in the things you can change type, and not things one must accept. The latter is much harder, but to me more rewarding. I lost out on a dream of mine because I got injured the first time. I was young, had it all figured out till the Fates laughed and said nope. It wasnt fair, it really sucked and I drifted like a dead boat because I had no objective, hell I was in some form of death it crushed me so hard. That is until the universe put a foot up my rear when I got hurt again. Seems if you arent on the path the Fates have for you, they will nudge or kick you until you fix that. Best I can tell must accept types of problems are like running with sandbags, it really sucks, but if you keep at it you get far stronger than you could without the burden. I figure the universe needed me to toughen up mentally and physically for what they had in store. In hindsight that might have been the healthiest way to process what was happening to me.
Seems like you are realizing the issue and are somewhere between figuring out what your true desire is and doing the work to get there.
Maybe a working to help find or set your intention on a desired path out of the rut. I didnt pick up the craft till later, but now days I'd obtain a well used compass or other direction finding tool of navigation. Spend enough time bonding with it while meditating on what purpose you want in your life that results in your happiness. The tool has already been helping people find their way, I'm sure you can work out the rest of the working.
Place the tool in a place where you will see it and be reminded of your working, or preferably, just take it with you everywhere. Work with it every day. Before going to bed ask yourself have you done just one step towards advancing to your objective, if you havent its not bed time yet. Its a grind, hard work, and many days you will be frustrated, but life changes in an instant. Your one baby step a day will add up, it will reveal and open hidden doors and it will create momentum that will make things easier.
You are not alone, and I promise you have the stuff inside to achieve great things. You already have a few good sized platforms already right? You arent starting from nothing. I suspect you are on the cusp of something amazing.
Peace to you. I have been there somedays. Hang in there. ❤
In Christianity sometimes we say that there is a feeling of being homesick... of knowing we aren't "of" the world and being able to feel it in our bones. I relate to your beautiful words through my faith for sure. He has really been the only thing that has given me lasting comfort or a "peace that surpasses all understanding". The human experience has so many similarities, yet different lenses.
I also started pouring myself into community when I feel this way. Inviting people over, serving them in some way, being around people a lot, even when I feel/felt tired or like that wasn't the problem. When you observe people who live in community - that novelty I crave seems to come from hearing their experiences, being a part of their lives, interacting consistently and regularly within a circle of storybook characters.
We seem to have lost this skill and priority in American culture especially, though you still see it being practiced (and the fruits of it) with people like the Amish.
Anyway - this is a girl from Kentucky sending so much love your way. What an honest video.
It's very easy to become stuck but realizing it and acting on it is a lot harder.
Wishing you wel.
Sometimes when the feeling of "stuck" is there we need to create movement from that point but with it, not away from it, in other words we may be overlooking we are where we need to be we are just not learning, working, doing or using that place for what we need. You keep returning because you need too, stuck/remaining it's all in what you do with it. You're the only one who will figure it out and sometimes reflexing too much on the past brings about "stuck" and less about just remaining settled and moving forward. Just my thought, you will have your's and that's what it's all about, everyones own journey.
You always make me calm, I wish you all the best❤
Coming to the point of understanding that your problems travel with you and don’t automatically clear up when you’re in a different place is growth. You can’t outrun problems. What do you mean by “stuck” and “rut”? Do you mean you are feeling unmotivated? Like you have no energy to create? To me, summer is actually a one of the resting seasons (the other is winter). Summer is a time to reflect. The planting is done yet we await the harvest. Perhaps the work we do in summer is reflect on what doesn’t give us joy so we can begin weeding it out or fine tuning our goals, waiting until fall to let parts of our lives die, come the harvest. I find summer to be a slower time for me as well in terms of creating and giving of myself. Please also know that it’s not sustainable to make and create all the time. This is unbalanced. You can’t give if you don’t first allow the energy to come to you. How are you doing with receiving the abundance around you? Are you sure you’re receiving what is offered? It sounds like you need some wonder in your life. Like, your blocked there with the receiving, do you know that you are worthy simply because you exist? Take up space. What sparks joy? Find something in nature that brings you joy and just sit with it, admire it and receive unconditionally the joy it’s giving you. Try to see how awesome and wonderfully it is that it’s here in this universe and that you get to sit with it. Simply repay it with gratitude. I also find gratitude practices helpful for these moments. Sometimes we get too stuck in our own heads and stop seeing the big picture of how connected everything is-then we feel cut off from abundance and joy.
I just want to give you a big hug
Without change something within us sleeps. Brightest blessings to you kind & thoughtful shining light ✨ 💛 🙏
I feel the same way, always chasing the dopamine high of something new, a new place to explore, a new business to start, I am learning I am neurodiverse and this is part of me, I am learning a different way to be, it’s weird because I haven’t realised it before and getting comfortable with just being in this place and time feels alien to me, thank you for sharing your thoughts and all the people commenting because it is so helpful
Maybe instead of desperately searching for a way out, explore the rut, and what you don't like about it. Maybe try and make that what you experience as the rut a new path to challenge yourself. I personally believe in the Old Germanic Gods, and they often set me challenges to work through. You yourself said throughout the last years you experienced this rut you find yourself in, maybe yor Gods too want you to work this out, rather than finding temporary, but brief solutions, and then finding yourself back in the same position.
I hope you can work your issues out, you have my spiritual support. In Frith.
This resonates with me - you’ve explained how I’ve felt at so many points and it was emotional to have someone put it into words - thankyou
I am 62 and just embarking on this journey- I’m confused all the time and have been stuck my whole life lol-trying to figure out what I wanted, maybe my purpose- I dont know. I too think about what I want to do or where I want to be instead of enjoying what is- and I also don’t know why. Maybe what you said is correct. We are here and should live this moment in joy. Everything that happens holds a lesson we are meant to learn. And maybe the lesson for those like us is to learn to love the now- whatever that may be. I hope we all find what we’re looking for! ❤
To put it plainly, picking up over, and over while trying to fill the void doesn't resolve the issue. What that is, to be honest only you know Annie. But when we become constructive with something we are passionate about. That is when yes things can become revealed, and the revelation can become at times both a gift, and a truth.
Lots of times we try to run from which we do not want to face. Either because it is too frightening, or too strenuous on us. But once we have faced it, then do we truly begin the healing process from all of this.
What Id give to have ur age n life now at 53...I am now starting to come out of SURVIVAL mode ive been in all my life....positive changes are brewing for me and a new life awaits me next Spring and I cant wait but in the mean time I am making the most of what im living with now and with gratitude n positivity I am getting through my days in peace...ANNIE you are in the moment to observe and feel what YOU want not what others want for you, and then go after it with no time frame....just plan it out and give yourself the time, space and gentleness you need to get there and also to trust & enjoy the process and leave room for any oops ❤
I think when we truly accept and surrender and feel it’s ok to be where we are right now and embrace the moment good or bad - that’s when a break through happens. That’s when miracles occur. Thank you for sharing I can so relate.
this really struck a chord for my internal world. i feel so chaotic yet stagnant, stuck. and that is ok. change is our only constant so it's wise to allow ourselves to embrace the feeling of being stuck, i see that now. to truly float along the stream of life. thank you for the openness