I have real and diagnosed PTSD (an anxiety disorder based in deep lifelong trauma), I don't like to talk about it often because so many people lie about having it or treat it like a punchline to explain their holy-assed quirkiness. But the part about Kurt's walk-in closet is very reminiscent of my own anxiety in PTSD. Living in my empty house alone while I've waited 4 months for my roommates to move-in is a special kind of hell. I don't own anything so it's very loud with any noise and the empty space feels like a looming threat that no one loves me. I walk across the city for work and I'm doing everything I can to keep pushing forward. Never had addictions or anything wild like that, but I still ended up homeless from my lack of loving family and the shitty hand I was dealt almost 30 long years ago. None of you are safe from the world or yourselves, all it takes is 1 life event to push you down this rabbit hole of destitution in suffering (maybe 2-3 if you're lucky.) I've been attending therapy for over 3 years weekly now and I don't think I'd have survived without it, much less if I was famous. Bless the hearts of the faceless and anonymous, they're the only people really living.
As I to have experiences with mental health I am touched by your post. Over time my mantra has become, KEEP ON KEEPING ON! Sending good vibes. Saying you seek therapy is self help!
From 1st hand accounts, Kurt more than likely suffered from ciliac, a condition all but unheard of during the 70s-90s. Before being diagnosed, I knew someone that was prescribed fentanyl patches for the pain he was feeling. If doctors knew more about the disease when he was suffering, Kurt would probably be with us today.
Aw shit. Celiac compression? I cannot tell you how many physicians dont think its a thing because its so fkn hard to diagnose, and it doesnt help that people who suffer from it get labeled as “crazy” or “touched in the head”. Anyone would go crazy when the one system responsible for extracting nutrients, dumping toxins and waste, and supporting your immune system is the one not getting sufficient blood supply.
I can so easily empathize with Kurt's mental illnesses and struggles. He was so much more real than any other rockstar. I wish we would've had more people being as supportive over mental health issues then as we do now. Probably wouldn't have stopped the inevitable, but nothing ventured nothing gained.
He was destined for greatness and he knew it, it’s sad he never got a chance to live his life fully but atleast we’ll always have his music to remember him for generations to come
I miss Kurt so much. Nirvana is my favorite band of all time. His music has got me through so much. He did not deserve what he went through. Rest in peace Kurt
I’ve been watching your content for a while now and I am such a die hard Nirvana fan, hell I even have Kurt as my RUclips pfp. But I would like to say thank you for making this a series, there is too many people out there that thinks addiction was his only demon but that is definitely not the case. The biggest battle he had to face besides addiction was his own mind since he was a young child. Highlighting his poor mental health and habits will help destroy the stigma around suicide, and will hopefully make people that think he was murdered understand just how troubled he was. Rest in peace Kurt, we miss you.
@@ellisduneganthe riiiiver of deceeeeeiiiiiit comes down damn dude I love both these bands so much. I still love music but being young and hearing nirvana and Alice In Chains growing up in the 90’s was just so so different.
At 17 i had bad anxiety that turned into physical chest pain that went on for years till it got so bad & turned to panic attacks till i decided to get medicated, felt like i couldn't breathe & suffered for years, hydroxyzine anxiety meds saved my life & cleared my mind up, within days felt relief in my chest i couldn't believe my mental health was to blame for the pain
Out of curiosity, do you suffer from the body disforia thing? I was telling my buddy about it just last night. It felt like being claustrophobic in my own body. Comes with crazy anxiety. All I wanted as a child and young adult was to be free of my body. I guess I'm not sure if this is what Kurt had. I've never met anyone who has gone through this, and I'm just really curious to hear someone else talk about it. How are you doing with your issues? Mine got much easier to deal with as I got older and found the techniques of dealing with it. I'm crying just thinking about it. Wishing you the best
What I have read of Kurt’s stomach pains sounds like he may have had Celiac disease. I have Celiac myself and for years I lived with excruciating stomach pain until I was properly diagnosed.
@@The_Real_Shrimp that doesn’t surprise me. It took me at least 10 years to get properly diagnosed with celiac. I heard every excuse in the book. “You just have a slow colon”, “it’s all in your head”, “we really don’t know what’s wrong with you”.
@@Coffee4commonsense Oh woah, I'm sorry to hear that. Although it's nice you have a proper diagnosis to treat it. Kurt wasn't around long enough to figure it out, although later in a different interview he stated that it was gone, he had no more stomach pain. A theory I like to believe is from how rough he sang and it not only did damage to his vocal chords but caused stomach pains. I get the same way whenever I sing really hard and strain
Not only was he unaware of how famous he was because of his fears, but he literally defined and created a new genre and style of music of the 90s that broke away from the influence of the 80s music industry.
Kurt was quoted in an interview saying that a big contribution to his stomach issues were due to him singing from his stomach in an unhealthy way. Metal singers regularly practice technique so similar stuff doesn’t happen. So when he sings, his giving absolutely everything he’s got.
Wow…. Watching this really put me in my place… All I’ve ever wanted is a small frame…. Thanks to him, I’m definitely going to think more positively about my frame…
That is so heartbreaking :( I to suffer from adhd and IBS and depression and anxiety so I know exactly how he must have felt other than rich part and music thing and all but yeah R.I.P
No he was wearing three pairs of pants because he was battling an opioid addiction and body temperature regulation and the inability to do so is one of the main symptoms of withdrawal
Also, he didn't own a mansion in L.A. he owned a large home in Seattle, WA. A home he only purchased because Courtney Love wanted to live a very flashy lifestyle. He preferred something less ostentatious and was embarrassed by the size of the home. In addition to withdrawal symptoms, having just run away from rehab a few days earlier, he was also malnourished from not eating and was in a cold and rainy climate. So that would also explain his multiple layers of clothing.
Man up?! Really?! You are exactly why people don't feel comfortable talking about or seeking help for their problems. There is no such thing as "man up". GTFO of here.
It was probably Crohn's Disease. I grew up with it and also had bronchitis a lot as a kid. Immune system disorders are painful as hell especially stomach pain..
What made everything even worse for him was the constant abuse from Courtney Love. She cheated on him constantly (including with the lead singer of Smashing Pumpkins, Billy Corgan). She even once humiliated him in front of his uncle by spreading her legs and showing her private parts to him. In his wallet, Kurt had an index card that read "I'm sick of being married to a money-siphoning whore of a wife..". They argued about the will constantly according to friends.. That, and there's a lot of evidence that she killed him. Watch the documentary "Escaping Exodus".
The problem with getting help is . When you want or need it I promise no one is going to help you . I know for a fact. No matter what addiction at early signs no one is going to help you unless you have insurance.
It's the industry they want to become musicians but don't realize the cost of Fame and everybody pays the price if you want to be famous there's a big price and sacrifices you will make to stay famous, and blood sacrifice you will make. all the celebritie that we know that are rich and famous have done some type of blood sacrifice.😢😢😢 so I salute the one hit so-called wonders❤❤
Kurt comes to help me sometimes. I live close to his home.... i visit often. I also have Bipolar and ADHD. I turned to alcohol and weed but am california sober lol. I will cleanse the bench by his home with sage and palo santo because ive noticed some people dont respect the space.
Wow. I was never a big Nirvana fan, I thought they were really crappy to their fans, but hearing this, I guess I have a lot more in common with who he was than I thought... 90s kids problems, amirite???
Hey, man Kurt, share half the same diagnosis. Depression, anxiety, and ADHD are me. Oh, and body dismorphia. I feel so connected to him. Plus I was a drug-addicted to the percocets. Never tried heroin though. Don't think I ever will.
Out of curiosity, do you suffer from the body disforia thing? I was telling my buddy about it just last night. It felt like being claustrophobic in my own body. Comes with crazy anxiety. All I wanted as a child and young adult was to be free of my body. I guess I'm not sure if this is what Kurt had. I've never met anyone who has gone through this, and I'm just really curious to hear someone else talk about it. How are you doing with your issues? Mine got much easier to deal with as I got older and found the techniques of dealing with it. I'm crying just thinking about it. Wishing you the best
@@falkorornothing261the body dismorphia. I seen it comment and was gonna comment on that but then seen this again. I actually feel u brother. I'm told how handsome I am and I look like young John Stamos but have always hated myself and never look in mirror and when I do, can't believe that that is mr
That is not an allegation that's actually what happened. And I can actually point to a couple different items of interest that can prove that. 1. He had enough H in him to kill at least 3 people ( I don't use the stuff so i'm not exactly sure about the three people estimate but he had enough in him to kill multiple people) 2. He had enough in his system so that he would have been rendered unable to raise the shotgun to the place where the bullet entered his body.Also the trajectory of the bullet was consistent with somebody standing over him and shooting down. 3. After the medical examiner had already determined the time of death his credit card or debit card was used after that point in time leading to the fact that there was another person using his card. 4. His handwritten "suicide" note was presumed to be a retirement letter to his fans HOWEVER there was a passage at the end, that was written in a hand that was not his and this was later confirmed by forensic document analysts, That passage just basically said goodbye to Francis & Courtney & had said that "he" loved them, nothing else. Awful damn suspicious if you ask me. Hell for all I know that could be the smoking gun right there.
Most people overlook his severe stomach pains when talking about him. You would think with all that money he could have Drs at least help him with that. His other conditions didn't have that great of treatments in the early 90s like we have today. He suffered alot.
Celiac disease was more than likely the eating problem. Courtney Love was probably his biggest issue. Toxic Friends, and toxic music industry has claimed many young stars lives. One more person to chalk down and use as an example to not do drugs.
This history of new music podcast w Alan cross does a great job with this story . Give it a listen . He doesn’t think it was Courtney and he’s done extensive research spoke to the PI COURTNEY HIRED even
He was going through crippling anxiety so towards end thats hell. Eventually goes away it.took me a a few years to get over it. Didnt know he had adhd and crippling anxiety 😳 id same the fame brought on the anxiety 😢
In 2019 I was doing postmates in La and got a ping to pick prescriptions for “Kirk Love” dropped it off at this dope axx vintage mansion in the Hollywood hills. Guess who opens the door…. An elderly lady (housekeeper)😄 she signed off on the delivery but while signing that a woman walks up to the door to grab the bag and it was Courtney Love. THEE Courtney Love. I was completely shocked, she said “thanx love” and walked away 😮😮😮 The housekeeper looked at me while closing the door, smiling. I whispered “was that Courtney Love? She said “Si” 😄Never forget that. ☺️
His family history is riddled with suicide, mental health issues, and addiction. Genetically speaking, he was in the hole right out of the gate. I’ve always felt the worst for Krist Novoselic. He’s never been the same since Kurt’s death. You can see it in his eyes when he speaks about Kurt even 30 years after his passing.
if i could say anything to him i’d say that he resonated with a 12 year old kid who was lost and hopeless and gave him something to hold onto Kurt you helped millions and millions and i wish i could just give you a hug and tell you that.
Why would you buy a mansion if big spaces make you anxious? Why declare that you're going to become a famous rock star, then strive to become said rock star and then become depressed because you achieved your goal? I don't doubt that he suffered from depression, it was actually pretty evident but to say that it stemmed from his success is just odd.
He wanted to become a Rockstar and he probably did have moments where he loved the fame. Once he got there he probably realized that fame isnt what he expected or wanted. Addiction is likely the main reason he ended up the way he did. He already had mental health issues which the drugs only made worse because once you start shooting up it kinda makes addicts become reclusive due to the stigma. I know it made me feel worthless and suicidal.
No way this guy killed himself, it was someone with malicious intentions that did. God sees it all and soon it will all come out. I noticed how so many people who never even knew him, including myself, feel for the guy, like he was a friend that we never knew but still his presence is somehow felt. If he was murdered, I hope who ever did it rots in jail. I'm not saying that he was perfect, but he didn't deserve dying.
Dude really needed help, wish we could’ve gotten him help. Glad more emphasis is being put on men’s mental health
Yes. Men's mental and physical health. They go hand in hand.
A lot of people tried to help him. He wouldn’t accept any help. He didn’t want to be Kurt cobain anymore and there is no way to really escape that.
@@matthewhellmers225**Waits for someone to tell you he isn't dead and lives in another country** 😆
100% 😢
No, men's mental health is absolutely not being taken seriously lol. See how few people care abt the men's loneliness crisis
Sometimes addiction comes from mental health problems. But sometimes, mental health problems come from addiction.
And frequently, they go hand in hand.
As do physical problems. Chronic pain can cause mental health problems and self medicating.
actually i think almost every time addiction occurs it’s BECAUSE of mental health issues
@@_ofthenight_ I would agree with that, but ive had recovering addicts swear they just tried it and liked it?
He always had mental health problems. Can see him writing about it as a young kid.
He was a sweet guy. I wish he had a better life 😢
@user-oy7hd6cq4c No but I know because I learned a lot about him from like documentaries and stuff.
I have real and diagnosed PTSD (an anxiety disorder based in deep lifelong trauma), I don't like to talk about it often because so many people lie about having it or treat it like a punchline to explain their holy-assed quirkiness. But the part about Kurt's walk-in closet is very reminiscent of my own anxiety in PTSD. Living in my empty house alone while I've waited 4 months for my roommates to move-in is a special kind of hell. I don't own anything so it's very loud with any noise and the empty space feels like a looming threat that no one loves me. I walk across the city for work and I'm doing everything I can to keep pushing forward. Never had addictions or anything wild like that, but I still ended up homeless from my lack of loving family and the shitty hand I was dealt almost 30 long years ago. None of you are safe from the world or yourselves, all it takes is 1 life event to push you down this rabbit hole of destitution in suffering (maybe 2-3 if you're lucky.) I've been attending therapy for over 3 years weekly now and I don't think I'd have survived without it, much less if I was famous. Bless the hearts of the faceless and anonymous, they're the only people really living.
As I to have experiences with mental health I am touched by your post. Over time my mantra has become,
KEEP ON KEEPING ON!
Sending good vibes. Saying you seek therapy is self help!
@@lorindagood6825 Amen, brother
❤❤❤
🖤💜🖤💜
Your comment hits some hard truths. If you ever read this, I hope you are doing well. Xoxo
From 1st hand accounts, Kurt more than likely suffered from ciliac, a condition all but unheard of during the 70s-90s. Before being diagnosed, I knew someone that was prescribed fentanyl patches for the pain he was feeling. If doctors knew more about the disease when he was suffering, Kurt would probably be with us today.
Aw shit. Celiac compression? I cannot tell you how many physicians dont think its a thing because its so fkn hard to diagnose, and it doesnt help that people who suffer from it get labeled as “crazy” or “touched in the head”. Anyone would go crazy when the one system responsible for extracting nutrients, dumping toxins and waste, and supporting your immune system is the one not getting sufficient blood supply.
Reports say he had Crohn's
@@mightymidas2021 celiac causes chron's and they have overlapping symptoms
@@mightymidas2021 similar but just as debilitating. Either way, the dude was living with severe pain every day just by living and eating.
@@johnmarr2695 I know what Crohn's does I have lost most of my bowel and am fed by a line in my chest due to Crohn's
Such a talented and beautiful man bro. Life is crazy
He was ok. Not the most talented by a stretch.
@@AnAdorableWombat1 sure bro wtv u say. He wrote classics his music still inspires ppl
@@AnAdorableWombat1 You are so envious it’s almost funny if it wasn’t sad.
@@AnAdorableWombat1 Never said he was the most talented
I can so easily empathize with Kurt's mental illnesses and struggles. He was so much more real than any other rockstar. I wish we would've had more people being as supportive over mental health issues then as we do now. Probably wouldn't have stopped the inevitable, but nothing ventured nothing gained.
Poor Kurt 😢 I hope he knew how much he meant to so many.
He was destined for greatness and he knew it, it’s sad he never got a chance to live his life fully but atleast we’ll always have his music to remember him for generations to come
People who don't go through it will never understand how horrific anxiety can be.
Bro was a absolute legend I hope he finds some peace in the after life
I miss Kurt so much. Nirvana is my favorite band of all time. His music has got me through so much. He did not deserve what he went through.
Rest in peace Kurt
I’ve been watching your content for a while now and I am such a die hard Nirvana fan, hell I even have Kurt as my RUclips pfp. But I would like to say thank you for making this a series, there is too many people out there that thinks addiction was his only demon but that is definitely not the case. The biggest battle he had to face besides addiction was his own mind since he was a young child. Highlighting his poor mental health and habits will help destroy the stigma around suicide, and will hopefully make people that think he was murdered understand just how troubled he was. Rest in peace Kurt, we miss you.
Poor kurt, man
Do Layne Staley next please.
I was just listening to River of Deceit. Creepy coincidence.
@@ellisduneganthe riiiiver of deceeeeeiiiiiit comes down damn dude I love both these bands so much. I still love music but being young and hearing nirvana and Alice In Chains growing up in the 90’s was just so so different.
He just made one with Layne!
@@danw9946 THANK YOU!!!!!
@@ellisdunegan Love River of Deceit
Such a heartbreaking story
At 17 i had bad anxiety that turned into physical chest pain that went on for years till it got so bad & turned to panic attacks till i decided to get medicated, felt like i couldn't breathe & suffered for years, hydroxyzine anxiety meds saved my life & cleared my mind up, within days felt relief in my chest i couldn't believe my mental health was to blame for the pain
God bless you, so glad you found something to be able to keep your head above water
He was such a torched soul......I feel his pain
If your job, whatever it is, if it makes you uncomfortable, LEAVE IT! No job is worth it, especially one that really isn't a career!
I can relate and identify with many problems that Kurt suffered from
Out of curiosity, do you suffer from the body disforia thing? I was telling my buddy about it just last night. It felt like being claustrophobic in my own body. Comes with crazy anxiety. All I wanted as a child and young adult was to be free of my body.
I guess I'm not sure if this is what Kurt had. I've never met anyone who has gone through this, and I'm just really curious to hear someone else talk about it.
How are you doing with your issues? Mine got much easier to deal with as I got older and found the techniques of dealing with it.
I'm crying just thinking about it.
Wishing you the best
I'm sorry darling...I pray God for the healing of your heart, mind and soul❤
Same
And the bish in the house with him was no help at all🤷🏽♂️
You think millennials see Courtney love like gen Z see amber heard?
What I have read of Kurt’s stomach pains sounds like he may have had Celiac disease. I have Celiac myself and for years I lived with excruciating stomach pain until I was properly diagnosed.
It was said he had Crohn's
Same here
He stated in an interview that whenever he asked doctors they just diagnosed him with IBS, because they couldn't figure out what was wrong with him
@@The_Real_Shrimp that doesn’t surprise me. It took me at least 10 years to get properly diagnosed with celiac. I heard every excuse in the book. “You just have a slow colon”, “it’s all in your head”, “we really don’t know what’s wrong with you”.
@@Coffee4commonsense Oh woah, I'm sorry to hear that. Although it's nice you have a proper diagnosis to treat it. Kurt wasn't around long enough to figure it out, although later in a different interview he stated that it was gone, he had no more stomach pain. A theory I like to believe is from how rough he sang and it not only did damage to his vocal chords but caused stomach pains. I get the same way whenever I sing really hard and strain
Let us not all forget when Kurt was a small child he told one of his classmates he was gonna be famous but he would kill himself as well
I too have depression,ADHD, crippling anxiety and bipolar disorder. 😭
Yeah, same. Even down to the body dysmorphia.
They was also my only symptoms of heroin addiction. Stomach pains and issues so take that how u will
He had the stomach issues prior to using heroin. He dealt with stomach pain his entire life which is why he started using the heroin.
🙄
@@jeanlarge4050 The drugs probably messed with bro’s reading comprehension
Hey man, nice shot! Nice shot, man!
Not only was he unaware of how famous he was because of his fears, but he literally defined and created a new genre and style of music of the 90s that broke away from the influence of the 80s music industry.
Defined, sure. Created, arguable
Kurt was quoted in an interview saying that a big contribution to his stomach issues were due to him singing from his stomach in an unhealthy way. Metal singers regularly practice technique so similar stuff doesn’t happen. So when he sings, his giving absolutely everything he’s got.
Rest in peace brother
i wish i could give the poor dude a hug.
Wow…. Watching this really put me in my place… All I’ve ever wanted is a small frame….
Thanks to him, I’m definitely going to think more positively about my frame…
RIP Kurt, we love you.
Nah
@@johnwayne6112 tf you mean nah
@@DillDoe-j5e we dont live this doomb junkie
That is so heartbreaking :( I to suffer from adhd and IBS and depression and anxiety so I know exactly how he must have felt other than rich part and music thing and all but yeah R.I.P
No he was wearing three pairs of pants because he was battling an opioid addiction and body temperature regulation and the inability to do so is one of the main symptoms of withdrawal
Yeah, I remember that symptom. Not doing that ever again
He was doing lots of heroin up until the week he died, he wore multiple layers of clothing throughout his entire career.
Also, he didn't own a mansion in L.A. he owned a large home in Seattle, WA. A home he only purchased because Courtney Love wanted to live a very flashy lifestyle. He preferred something less ostentatious and was embarrassed by the size of the home. In addition to withdrawal symptoms, having just run away from rehab a few days earlier, he was also malnourished from not eating and was in a cold and rainy climate. So that would also explain his multiple layers of clothing.
Sometimes it's more important just a man up everybody has issues and problems❤
Man up?! Really?! You are exactly why people don't feel comfortable talking about or seeking help for their problems. There is no such thing as "man up". GTFO of here.
It was probably Crohn's Disease. I grew up with it and also had bronchitis a lot as a kid. Immune system disorders are painful as hell especially stomach pain..
So sad!! So handsome.!! He always looked sad, and depressed. R.I.P
One thing I will never have is empathy for celebrities.
He didn't want to be a celebrity I don't think
im willing to make an exception for cobain he was a celebrity unwillingly
I knew it was bad but not this bad. He’s been my obsession since a teenager. I even did an acrylic painting of him because he was so beautiful to me.
The whole world could love you but it don’t mean anything unless you love yourself.
What made everything even worse for him was the constant abuse from Courtney Love. She cheated on him constantly (including with the lead singer of Smashing Pumpkins, Billy Corgan). She even once humiliated him in front of his uncle by spreading her legs and showing her private parts to him. In his wallet, Kurt had an index card that read "I'm sick of being married to a money-siphoning whore of a wife..". They argued about the will constantly according to friends.. That, and there's a lot of evidence that she killed him. Watch the documentary "Escaping Exodus".
was he raped by the uncle?
The problem with getting help is . When you want or need it I promise no one is going to help you . I know for a fact. No matter what addiction at early signs no one is going to help you unless you have insurance.
Although my mental health is improving, it's really hard to leave my apartment since I live alone and I always check my closet and bathroom...
Gone too soon rest in peace legend 🙏❤❤
It's the industry they want to become musicians but don't realize the cost of Fame and everybody pays the price if you want to be famous there's a big price and sacrifices you will make to stay famous, and blood sacrifice you will make. all the celebritie that we know that are rich and famous have done some type of blood sacrifice.😢😢😢 so I salute the one hit so-called wonders❤❤
This hurt my heart so badly to hear someone suffer like that.
Didn't know how much I have in common with Kurt Cobain it's actually weird
Poor thing. I wish he could have lived a better life. 😢
Chronic bronchitis
Ain’t nobody got time for dat
I needed that chuckle on such a sad topic. 😂
Poor tortured Soul......I pray for his beautiful Soul.🥲
This is the most tragic story I’ve ever heard
Sometimes you’re depressed and sometimes you’re evil wife has you murdered
You hear all of his mental health issues and you still come to the conclusion he was murdered? Right.
That’s kind of a sick thing to say
he offed himself. get over it
He looks so sad, and dirty. It breaks my heart that some people feel suicide it's the only solution to their pain. R.I.P. KURT
My idol. Love you big dawg.
Being married to a real ball breaker didn’t help either.
They were bad for each other
And being involved with Courtney Love didn't help.
I wonder if his stomach pain was crohns disease , im 25 and suffer immense pain and suffering at most times !
I relate alot with kurt! He would be my best friend if we knew each other! Seems like a cool guy!! He should have gotten away from her!!
The stomach pain was diagnosed in 92 it was a trapped nerve in his spine it's really rare but it was sorted by 92
He seemed like such a good person, just going through a lot of stuff. Too bad every hint ended the way it did.
Damm He had the saddest life ever😔
Kurt comes to help me sometimes. I live close to his home.... i visit often. I also have Bipolar and ADHD. I turned to alcohol and weed but am california sober lol. I will cleanse the bench by his home with sage and palo santo because ive noticed some people dont respect the space.
Rest in Peace beautiful brother, hug from a far
Wow. I was never a big Nirvana fan, I thought they were really crappy to their fans, but hearing this, I guess I have a lot more in common with who he was than I thought... 90s kids problems, amirite???
Hey, man Kurt, share half the same diagnosis. Depression, anxiety, and ADHD are me. Oh, and body dismorphia. I feel so connected to him. Plus I was a drug-addicted to the percocets. Never tried heroin though. Don't think I ever will.
Out of curiosity, do you suffer from the body disforia thing? I was telling my buddy about it just last night. It felt like being claustrophobic in my own body. Comes with crazy anxiety. All I wanted as a child and young adult was to be free of my body.
I guess I'm not sure if this is what Kurt had. I've never met anyone who has gone through this, and I'm just really curious to hear someone else talk about it.
How are you doing with your issues? Mine got much easier to deal with as I got older and found the techniques of dealing with it.
I'm crying just thinking about it.
Wishing you the best
And heroin sucks
I had dropped my first comment in another post. And copy pasted. So ignore the body disforia question. But please tell me how it felt.
@@falkorornothing261the body dismorphia. I seen it comment and was gonna comment on that but then seen this again.
I actually feel u brother.
I'm told how handsome I am and I look like young John Stamos but have always hated myself and never look in mirror and when I do, can't believe that that is mr
@@falkorornothing261me
Awe, this breaks my heart soooo much. I pray he’s in Heaven so I can hug him when I get there.
Pretty sure Love killed him (allegedly)
That is not an allegation that's actually what happened. And I can actually point to a couple different items of interest that can prove that.
1. He had enough H in him to kill at least 3 people ( I don't use the stuff so i'm not exactly sure about the three people estimate but he had enough in him to kill multiple people)
2. He had enough in his system so that he would have been rendered unable to raise the shotgun to the place where the bullet entered his body.Also the trajectory of the bullet was consistent with somebody standing over him and shooting down.
3. After the medical examiner had already determined the time of death his credit card or debit card was used after that point in time leading to the fact that there was another person using his card.
4. His handwritten "suicide" note was presumed to be a retirement letter to his fans HOWEVER there was a passage at the end, that was written in a hand that was not his and this was later confirmed by forensic document analysts, That passage just basically said goodbye to Francis & Courtney & had said that "he" loved them, nothing else. Awful damn suspicious if you ask me. Hell for all I know that could be the smoking gun right there.
@@wtconroe879 I love you
DEFINITELY
Totally believe this. She did it to further her own career.
Some of this sounds like regurgitated rumors from news media
Are you not talking about all the mental abuse that Courtney put him through that helped push him to committing suicide.
Most people overlook his severe stomach pains when talking about him. You would think with all that money he could have Drs at least help him with that. His other conditions didn't have that great of treatments in the early 90s like we have today. He suffered alot.
I wish he had gotten help. He was a very sweet and genuine person. I hope he is atleast in peace
It really upsets me that some people really think Kurt was just a selfish pretentious prick when he never was that.
Probably had helio bacta virus back then they used to misdiagnos it as a stomach ulcer
I can't listen to his music without thinking of how he suffered through all of his fame
Fame goes not always=success
Where did you get that he had bi polar from?! Read alot about Kurt and never come across this.
Celiac disease was more than likely the eating problem.
Courtney Love was probably his biggest issue.
Toxic Friends, and toxic music industry has claimed many young stars lives.
One more person to chalk down and use as an example to not do drugs.
This history of new music podcast w Alan cross does a great job with this story . Give it a listen . He doesn’t think it was Courtney and he’s done extensive research spoke to the PI COURTNEY HIRED even
He was going through crippling anxiety so towards end thats hell. Eventually goes away it.took me a a few years to get over it.
Didnt know he had adhd and crippling anxiety 😳 id same the fame brought on the anxiety 😢
I heard of Kurbain OD but didnt know he had so many health and mental issues ..RIP 🙏
It is only those that get labeled and slammed by such descriptions because of refusing to conform to the "system".
Sounds like me…without the fame, money and talent.
Mmm. I relate too much for my own comfort.
Ironically he bought a Volvo because he was afraid of being in a car crash!
Wow.... I think I'm Kurt Cobain!
Poor you... take care when you're 27...
You are not Kurt Cobain. Grow up be yourself.
The stomach pain came from anxiety
My heart goes out to him.😞
i want to hug him so bad :(
Dealing with a chronic health condition while the whole world is watching must be hell
I heard of him OD which was the cause of dearh, but i never knew he had so many heallth and mental issues .RIp
In 2019 I was doing postmates in La and got a ping to pick prescriptions for “Kirk Love” dropped it off at this dope axx vintage mansion in the Hollywood hills. Guess who opens the door…. An elderly lady (housekeeper)😄 she signed off on the delivery but while signing that a woman walks up to the door to grab the bag and it was Courtney Love. THEE Courtney Love. I was completely shocked, she said “thanx love” and walked away 😮😮😮
The housekeeper looked at me while closing the door, smiling. I whispered “was that Courtney Love? She said “Si” 😄Never forget that. ☺️
if that were me id be in the police station getting charged for assault and battery
Look in his eyes🫂
His family history is riddled with suicide, mental health issues, and addiction. Genetically speaking, he was in the hole right out of the gate.
I’ve always felt the worst for Krist Novoselic. He’s never been the same since Kurt’s death. You can see it in his eyes when he speaks about Kurt even 30 years after his passing.
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Courtney ruined him 😔
😢people need to understand mental health illness is no joke
if i could say anything to him i’d say that he resonated with a 12 year old kid who was lost and hopeless and gave him something to hold onto
Kurt you helped millions and millions and i wish i could just give you a hug and tell you that.
He did not like the mansions Courtney forced the luxury life on him, he wanted a simple little life
Why would you buy a mansion if big spaces make you anxious? Why declare that you're going to become a famous rock star, then strive to become said rock star and then become depressed because you achieved your goal? I don't doubt that he suffered from depression, it was actually pretty evident but to say that it stemmed from his success is just odd.
Dude, if you knew who he married, you would know the answer to that.
He wanted to become a Rockstar and he probably did have moments where he loved the fame. Once he got there he probably realized that fame isnt what he expected or wanted. Addiction is likely the main reason he ended up the way he did. He already had mental health issues which the drugs only made worse because once you start shooting up it kinda makes addicts become reclusive due to the stigma. I know it made me feel worthless and suicidal.
Don't think he killed himself. Too short to pull the trigger. He also had his shoes on so he didn't use his big toe to pull the trigger.
No way this guy killed himself, it was someone with malicious intentions that did. God sees it all and soon it will all come out. I noticed how so many people who never even knew him, including myself, feel for the guy, like he was a friend that we never knew but still his presence is somehow felt. If he was murdered, I hope who ever did it rots in jail. I'm not saying that he was perfect, but he didn't deserve dying.