That story about having one of your schoolbooks stolen as a kid, and being punished for it and no one apologizing to you and all that... sounds like my childhood too. May not mean much coming from a nobody like me, but I feel ya brother.
The algorithm doesn't always bring your work forward, but I check up every now and then. Having been in the Army, I can vouch for asshole kids growing up into asshole adults in positions of power. There are always... opportunities for them to change. Hopefully, we can all learn to be a little kinder. You're a good egg, chief. Take care of yourself.
You are an inspiration to me, Plague! Once I saw your art, it furthered my own venture into it and wanted to have great artwork like you and others. I do enjoy everything you do, whether it be videos, art or animations! You are not forgotten by those who enjoy your work immensely!
12:36 "I was discussing this with the mrs the other day" Honestly...as much as youre worried about whether youre over the hill or not...i remember for years you made self deprecating remarks about how youd always be alone and never find someone love you because youre an artist and artists dont actually find people who can love them because their art comes first. The fact that you have a partner, a wife at that...thats honestly touching. Life may not be going how you want. I know it isnt for me. But...i'm happy you have someone to share your life with, Plague.
Plague the best is yet to come. You have exceptional talent and have novel takes on comedy, philosophy, storytelling and more. I would only ask for more. Anything you enjoy or want to do. I’m always excited when I catch a new video from you. I’m in for the long haul.
I finished AT a few months back and I have to agree. After everything in the past few years, it was nice to just see a show about two best friends having fun. You've been one of my favorite animators since I found you, because it's clear how much thought and effort you put into your work. Getting to see what you're actually like through these gripes definitely solidified that too. I think a lot of people are feeling a bit lost right now, so try not to feel too beat up about it.
I came across your content some years ago and it was a major part in my development. I'm almost 18 now but I say I was like maybe 12 or so, or within that range but I cannot say. Even if you say some questionable stuff, albeit rare, I always enjoy seeing the stories and insight you have to share that I think about,and watching you has also helped me improve as an artist as well.
I really look forward to your art vids. You have such relatable and encouraging topics for artists. I wish I can hang out with you but this is the next best thing
between you speaking here and the Owl House Series Finale and a few other random aspects of daily life I'm really feeling validated and seeing people I can truly reflect with and understand, with the faint spark of hope that maybe more people can understand me and each other.
I'm glad I started watching these little art videos. I wasn't even awake of the DBD video and stopped this one to go watch it right away! Absolutely loved it, it's not much but for sure going to share it to a few people I know would like it too.
A wise older gentleman with a bald head who draws semi lewd art once said that art is about experimentation. Don't give up man. Try something new. You were the one that got me into drawing again. I kept telling myself that someday I'd come back to drawing and get good at it but then I heard you say something in your videos. You said something like "If you're not drawing now, you never will." It just clicked and I realized you were right, and I wanted to prove you wrong. So I got back into drawing. I'm still not "great" but I'm better than I was. Thank you for giving me the motivation to put in the work. You can do this man, don't sell yourself short.
I wonder if there are feasibly any jobs you can get that could alleviate the financial strains while still allowing enough free time for an art career without overworking. Getting a night shift at a hotel is one of the most freeing jobs I've ever experienced, and it leaves me with the time for game dev hobbies. But it's certainly situational
Plague thank you for still putting out content, you’ve been the colossal impact in my life, when I think of happy moments in my life it’s always your content for many many years now, love you man. You’ll always be #1
Once again Plague, you are absolutely brilliant in all aspects of your execution. Both the colored commentary and your literal drawing style. Your words are wisdom, even if you don't think so yourself. I'm sure you have heard/read this a thousand times but, don't be so hard on yourself. From one to another, perfection is the enemy of good, and you are doing more good than harm. I'm glad that I have grown to appreciate your mature tone, ever since your first Dark Souls videos, and it has made me a better person because of your teachings. It's anecdotal, and probably a bit cliche, but you change the world more than you know. Thank you for your time.
I totally can't speak for anyone else, but I think you should start covering anime more. Anime is really popular, and people seem to like listening to people's opinion's or critiques of anime. I LOVED your breakdown of Naruto, and I'm not the only one. That video got over three million views. =D
Coof was never the problem, it was the world cabal testing you in how good people will do what they say no matter how ridiculous and most of you did what you were told. Next time they will say you must go to the camp and most of you WILL go to the gulags because they said so 🤡
@@Horatio787 I kinda wish it didn't stop. Namely because it suddenly feels like everyone else re-incented themselves totally in that time. But....I didnt. I should have.
Honestly it been a while getting the stupid stuff out of the way my account got banned and stuff but in it all my life been going okay been working for a good year but now I’m sick and tired of working inward and outward, actually been a while since I actually looked at your videos and I get the same factor of time passing by I’ve been feeling like nothing is actually worth my time and effort when I’m either working or drawing basically not having any lack of motivation in my time, it’s always good to see you still making videos even if it’s little bit and so on. Hope everyone is alright during this time the year of 2023 and onward
I can never put into words how much your words and idiologies helped me out when I found your channel around when I just had become an adult. You helped me become someone I am more happy being than who I was as a kid. I might not be able to keep checking in on everything you do, but I am greatly thankful for you making such a positive impact on my life. So, thank you for being you, Gripe. :)
honestly i appreciate these kinds of videos more than the animations. my favorite video of yours is probably the one about nox from wakfu and i never even watched wakfu. learned helplessness really is a bitch. i do think though it's not so much the idea that is so deeply entrenched in most people but that it's simply comfortable to believe you're helpless. it's the raw truth that you just have to struggle if you wanna get better, that you have to expend effort. now that... that sucks.
Holy damn your story is hitting very uncomfortably close to home, hearing about your stories is like looking into my future, I hope you are at least not unhappy right now, sometimes feeling nothing feels pretty good
Been keeping tabs on your work and thinking about you longer than my memory loss will allow me to. Through it, I still wonder how you're faring. Hope life is treating you well!
I'm sorry to hear about your falling out with a friend. I had a similar falling out a few years ago that took months to get over. I cried for weeks about it. But with enough time around the right group of people, you can come to a better place.
thanks for this plague. no matter where my life is when i watch one of your videos they always seem to speak to me. first found you back in 2015 when i was still in high school, and i wouldn't be the person i am without you. i hope you can reach more people. also i think a podcast is a good idea - i often have your vids on in the background as it is, lol
Just discovered your channel with Select your partner, and that alone made me subscribe. Your art is amazing, and I am hoping to see more. Times have been weird, but coming here, i know I'll be entertained.
I actually really appreciate the perspective that everyone is working through the baggage they built up as a kid. I've said for years that adults are just big kids, but your perspective adds more nuance. Me for instance I have a superiority complex that I developed as a coping mechanism due to being systematically bullied by a whole school for 13 years. For me the only thing that kept myself sane was putting myself on a pedestal and viewing everyone else as below me. In my adult life this has manifested in me having to keep myself in check when it comes to authority figures, essentially if you haven't earned my respect and try to use authority around me I have to do deep breathing exercises to not tear down your entire character. However I have noticed that when bosses do earn my respect that there isn't much I won't do due to that respect. My current boss for instance works right next to me everyday in the same 140° heat and they work 7 days a week 10 hours a day and work 30 hours a week at another job. So they work 100 hours a week and always take the hardest jobs. For me I have a deep respect for that because it feels like a general that leads their army from the front lines. I will always respect that kind of person 1000x more than someone that sits in an office all day. But said baggage from earlier can also manifest in positive ways. Because I was used to being considered trash and everything I said being used against me I learned to 1. Become confident in myself despite what others say 2. Always let others speak first because nothing hurts more than feeling like people don't care about what you have to say. Edit: I find that learned helplessness an interesting perspective because I'm the opposite. I'm always filled with ambition and I refuse to rest until I have manifested my passions. Similar school situations for instance I would always fight like a lawyer, I wouldn't go down without a fight, which is how I ended up suspended almost every year of schooling. I'd get in shouting matches with teachers, I'd always fight back when someone was bullying me, fighting back just is apart of my life story. This is the reason I've been in combat sports most of my life too, because of the superiority complex I have, I have to be the strongest in the room. Every person I meet I think about every way I could take them down if they became violent. That however is also a manifestation of my PTSD. So it's a blend of a superiority complex and PTSD. The thing that caused that particular forever problem was the fact that when I was 13 my next door neighbors broke into my house and tried to stab me with kitchen knifes, I had to fight them off. Because of this I'm pretty much always in fight mode, just thinking about it made my body start shaking, made me wanna go back in time with the strength I have now and crush the bastards skulls. Most of the bad parts like insomnia and rampant drug use to numb the side effects have passed finally but I still can't look at a knife without my heart rate increasing. Everytime someone walks by with a knife at work my skin feels like it's on fire and I simultaneously want to lash out on the person and hide somewhere no-one can reach me. Aight I'm done thinking about that now, otherwise I'm gonna be here all day in a recount loop. Point is for me fighting back is the only option, learned helplessness is the direct opposite.
I always check back on your content because I enjoy the long form content. If you're struggling then trying to discover yourself is the right course of action, philosophy and psychology are great for that; I find Allan Watts and Carl Jung to be inspirational.
21:50 My favorite is when they parrot something from Joseph Murphy or Napoleon Hill, while otherwise not being able to relate to whatever/whoever they're talking about. Because, simply thinking more positively solves all problems, but I digress. Just about all of my favorite channels are ones that have been around for a while, and a lot of them seem to be having similar issues. Not to make light of what you're saying, but you're definitely not alone.
Definitely feel that latter half. Our living situation meant food was scarce and money was hard to come by so it was always bad for us. Not so much parents causing the problem until they got hooked on stuff because of other relatives but still feel the problem where I have panic attacks over food, money and the like. I've also learned and this has been reinforced that the system won't help, and that I'll just be betrayed and lied to, and the fact it's kind of never been wrong I can't think of a good memory in my life any more... I'm also uncertain about my future.
I feel like i shoud say this before i forget, but i love longplays and i think podcast. I feel it is something that helps me relax and pass time. It also helps the clarity of your voice, and i guess the consistency of it? Anyways, what i trying to say is i like listening to you. Also, i feel like i should add that you seem like a pretty level and wise personal.
About your work. I used to view you as another creator called Alfabusa. Making content every month or few. It’s great watching ya’ll put your hearts into your works. Unlike him though I grew up with your content. Thank you for your hard work. I hope you still find joy in your creations.
continued relevance comes from seeing oneself as being no different from the audience...many creators have gated themselves off, ceased interacting, or allowed unrelated purity tests to drive a subconscious wedge in between there
When it comes to the "bullies to friends" trope, I can speak on that quite a bit from my own experience in my childhood. I was a bit of a loner and a weird kid, so several times it would happen that I was bullied, but when I fought back (physically or socially depending on the kind of bullying) and stood up for myself, they would come to respect me (even if I didn't always 'win' against older kids) and want me to be a part of their group, which I of course would decline. I even experienced it from a secondary perspective from both sides, once when I intervened in a situation to stop someone else being bullied, telling them literally that "they'd have to go through me" (it's funny how cliche that is, but half of my personality is just quoting phrases from things I like). I was incredibly principled at that time (far more than I am now) and would get in fights with people because they tortured or crushed insects for fun. I'd never really interacted with the aggressor before, but every time I interacted with him after, he was incredibly nice to me. The victim meanwhile is the only one from school clingy enough to still be friends with me all these years later despite my asocial demeanor. Then from the other side, there was the time someone was literally sent to fight me by a ringleader. The ringleader was just an asshole, who once again wanted me to join him after the fact, but the guy who came to fight me was actually an alright person, just a bit dim and easily influenced, wanting to impress the ringleader. I actually was friends with him for a while, and as far as I know today he's doing well in a physical labour job and doesn't have any malicious tendencies. On that matter, I haven't seen much correlation between someone being a bully in school and their personality later; some of the people I've met later seem very different, whereas some have stayed the same, meanwhile others who never bullied now do... though perhaps I'm just a poor judge of character. Nor have I noted a correlation to their academic intelligence, as there were bullies in every 'set' (a year or two into high school we were separated into different classes for each subject dependent on our proficiency in that subject, I don't know how it works in other schooling systems), though I can say there tended to be less bullies in the very top and very bottom end. Whether the bullying was mostly physical or mostly emotional depended more on social intelligence. I may be biased from my particular experiences, but I believe a propensity for bullying is almost never anything deep about a person's character, but more a function of establishing and maintaining a social hierarchy. Humans are naturally tribal, they form groups to feel safer, not because they have an internal self confidence issue stemming from past trauma, but because their nature tells them to do it because their ancestors who didn't were killed by wild animals. Then they take the path of least resistance to the highest point they can get in the social ladder. By successfully bullying people weaker than them physically or socially, or people who are passive in the hopes that they will be spared, they establish their power above them, and their followers get to avoid similar treatment themselves by accepting that as true, making them feel stronger as a group (despite the fact that most of them are actually cowards or weaklings who wouldn't help the other when things get serious). It's all a bizarre game of posturing and (usually subconscious) manipulation, and what role a person ends up in seems to be largely chance based on circles that form early on, rather than their character beforehand. Of course it has an influence, but I think it's actually more of the case that social standing ends up determining personality more than the reverse, especially at a young age. The only way individuals avoided this is by rejecting the hierarchy outright. For people operating in a hierarchy, the only thing they respect or respond to is strength, as the entire reason that hierarchy exists is to survive longer together, and people want those with strong wills or strong bodies on their side. And so it is possible for someone to stop being a bully, by removing them from the hierarchy as with the easily influenced person I mentioned earlier, however doing so may be quite difficult.
I wish for more off this honestly in some similar dark times myself especially as an adult it seems like unless you provide something to someone at all times nobody really cares
I know its not really in the context that you mean in your video. I know you mean popularity wise, or like relevancy wise you're "importance" has kind of dwindled. I get the meaning but I cant help but find myself wanting to reach out. I'm not a very good artist. Its not self-deprecating when I say that. I just need to keep working and practicing and have not as much as I need to. But your art has really been one constant thing I come back to, to remind myself why I wanna draw and get better. I fall off the horse a lot. Sadly for years at a time even. But I come back here and remember why I like drawing. When I compare myself to other artists it knee caps me confidence wise, but your stuff is different. Its gorgeous and I love everything about the styles, and the subject matter. I love sitting down and listening to these talks while I try and get better and try new things. Im fairly young in the grand scheme of things, but Im 27 and I feel 30 coming, but the things you talk about remind me that, if I wanna draw I can. Even if I mess up, even if I start late. You're a very real person, who has inspired me to do alot. You were a big part of my teen years even with your animations, my friends and I all would gather around and re watch your darksouls animations over and over. I guess the point of this wall of text is just that, you're content is important to me, and I feel like maybe a lot of other people. Its why we come to hear you talk and watch you draw. Even if time passes by, I think some of us pass with you. We don't wanna move to whats "trendy" we want to have these videos and listen to you for our own reasons. Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read this if you do, and keep making awesome stuff man. It means alot to some of us.
I'm sorry to hear your career is having such a hard time. I'm always so happy to see your content and I'd love to see more animations from you. Good luch out there man.
You deserve so much more QnQ. You're literally one of the best. I guess maybe ramp up the craziness of the videos in terms of tickling the border of RUclips's rules. Particularly the thumbnails and titles to be even more catchy. I think the most immediately helpful thing would be making shorts. Pump out a flurry of cute silly lewd disturbing videos. To beat the over saturated market, you have to just be more saturated than that. It's a pain, and you can't do much story stuff, but it could get your name out a bit more so they look at your longer stuff. You could try don't animation commissions. Furries will spend insane money lol. Adventure time is great. I really loved the deeper lore with the signs of old world civilisation, and when they got into Simon's history, and the pitty you have for the weird lonely shell he became, and then that amazing moment where he briefly regained his senses as the ice king and Marcelleen got all emotional from so so many years of repressed feelings. I love stuff like that. I also love lewd furry stuff. One day I'm gonna combine these things into a video game and it's gonna be awesome, even thigh it won't have a huge audience from reading a book by its cover which is why my true passion project will come later after i make more widely appreciated stuff, so their success can sustain my crazy dreams One day i can see us working together to make some amazing things. Until then, we have to remember we can't depend on people's charity to live. The only thing that matters in life is achieving your dreams with the people you truly deeply love and who start by your side through everything. I wanted to make free to play games, with no in game purchases, only making money from ads and donations. I know that won't work. And i hate rich people. They're the most evil people in all history. So I'm going to happily screw them to support my dreams. I've seen it. I know they're stupid enough to spend over 100 dollars on mundane small in game stuff. Fuck them. I have dreams to fix the world they broke, so I'm going to break them to fix it. It's only fair. I have a huge deep lore you could add to your pokemon partner series that would blow everyone's minds, but I'm sure you already got your own plans and wouldn't agree with my ideas anyway cuz you seem to hate the story and being stuck in it. I had actually typed it all out but then this stupid glitchy app deleted the edit and I don't feel like writing that book again cuz I was literally on the last sentence. But if you're interested in expanding that professor pokemon love story into some deep stuff far bigger than that initial premise and aren't confident in your own directing being successful, let me know cuz I'll gladly help you out. I fucking love good stories. It might even help you like the story you feel trapped in with someone else helping direct it.
When you mention how to reach people, have you thought of maybe a webcomic? You can even do a reading of them on your channel with different voices. Comics can be a great way to touch people and tell your message.
Even if your more popular content doesn't deliver the actual lessons you want to share, it can lead to people discovering your more serious content. I started watching your content for the anime rants & came to value Art Gripes the most.
I won't act like I know your situation, and I do believe you when you say you are in a very delicate position at the moment, but don't lose faith in whatever you can become in the future. I have enjoyed your art for years, and I have used your art pieces from NG and RUclips as references and wallpapers ever since is started drawing. You are an amazing artist, and as far as me and most of your audience can tell, an amazing person as well. I'm not saying this because I know you, I don't, but I do know this persona you use to speak to your audience with. And even if you don't speak to other people in the same way, this is enough prove to me that, at the very least, you *can* be as approachable and open to people in real life as you are on the internet. I had a complicated childhood at times (my parents didn't tell me I wasn't going to amount to much, but they did constantly shut down my ideas and forced me to do things I never enjoyed, which has led me to feel like I'm wasting my time when working on personal projects) so at least know I can't just ask you to "ignore the past and simply try to overcome it". But you can always learn to recognize your accomplishments, and by doing so, prove to yourself you are capable of improving and doing things tomorrow that you couldn't do yesterday. I guess what I'm trying to say that you have managed to do a lot, even if the numbers don't show it right now, and I'm sure you can make things better in the future. Or at the very least, you can always know there's going to be a bunch of random guys on the internet that'll be happy to listen to your stories and thoughts while you draw those sweet sweet furry ladies of yours. P.S: Gonna send some cash your way as soon as I get my first paycheck. Can't promise it won't be much, but you'll see an extra subscription on your patreon next month ;)
i've been following your work for years now. I still always find time to stop and check out what you got going on. I appreciate your work and I am glad you are okay.
Be careful about accepting false blame. The problem with trying to be honest and accurate, is that other people often aren't. Some of the people I thought were the kindest people in my life went full 180 on me (one of them had BPD), and I realized, sometimes I'm not the one that's wrong. Sometimes other people are wrong, and I draw the line at when they want me to apologize for things they concocted in their head. I will sever a relationship before I make an insincere apology. There can be no friendship without honesty. There can't even be a society without it. We may see that be proven in our lifetime.
This sort of popped up seemingly at the perfect time. Not yo get too deep into it but I've been struggling to make positive change in my life i.e. being more responsible, active and healthy amoung a list of other things and at every turn it feels like I'm getting kicked in the head. I try and organize and lose important shit. I try and be proactive and am forced to wait or am hamstrung at every fucking turn and currently I'm In such a severe depressive spiral that being able to leave my apartment to go to work feels herculean. It hurts just to be alive right now and hearing that you're struggling with some of the same shit feels kinda nice just to know I'm not alone. Thanks plauge.
Some of it is chemical. You can just be sitting there and feel fine, then feel terrible, then feel amazing for no reason other than your brain isn't regulating well because of some recent trauma. But knowing you have agency and a direction goes a long way. It's when things feel totally out of your control and beyond your ability that it hurts the most. Failing showcases what's in and out of control, thankfully. It's different for everyone, but still within your ability. Definitely not exclusive to just us either.
@PlagueOfGripes That's the great thing, ain't it. The logical part of my brain knows it's just a set of chemicals that are to blame for this. But my emotional side keeps asking, "Why if I'm trying to do the right thing, do I still feel like this?" It's going to pass it always does, but goddam does it feel like it never will. To touch on something you said in the video, though, on your upbringing and mine are (sorry if this is assuming too much) are sort of similar. I got a lot of "stop acting stupid." "You're being a fucking retard." "Suck it up, no one cares about your feelings." And " Deal with it and stop being a bitch." That sort of sentiment. And who would have thought I spent most of my life projecting that fear, anger and ignorance on those around me cause it turns out being called a fucking overly sensitive idiot might have some kind of lasting side effects. I said all that to say this. I'm sorry you had to deal with that shit man. I get it (as much as a complete stranger can, that is). And to be clear, if you read this far, I also would like to say your long-form stuff is my absolute favorite stuff from you. I've listened to your video on villains god knows how many times and I personally would love to hear more stuff like that. Anyway I appreciate you taking the time to answer a random commenter and I hope you have a good one, your salty old farmer.
30:50 yuuuup, everything from here on is also my learned experience. Including a stolen book incident I was blamed for and yanked out of the bus by the Principle so he could search my bag, in front of the entire school, at the end of the day. I was of course, innocent and the student who made the report revealed it was a false report, for fun. I then got transferred schools by my parents.
I've always just wanted to sit in a discord call and talk to you and try and laugh at the traumatic shit in our lives. I remember being very young a teacher insisting I did something wrong when I knew I didn't do it but still getting punished for a long time because the adult insisted they were right and I was wrong.
14:23 it's interesting that you say all the characters are kinda shitty because that's what kept me from enjoying the show while it was running. One example I can think of is the episode where Finn and Lady Rainicorn were becoming good friends and Jake got jealous so he got his friend Tiffany to play viola with him to make Lady jealous, to which Finn didn't care, but as soon as Tiffany is revealed to actually be a boy Finn goes on a violent frenzy on this guy whose only flaw shown this far was being overenthusiastic about rubbing it in how he was a better friend to Jake.
Gosh these videos always make me question certain aspects of myself and the world that I never would have considered. The part about Learned Helplessness really hit home and when your brought up the Hall of Egress, an episode I watched as a kid and hated because I didn't completely understand it and that made me feel upset, really opened my eyes. You talked at the end on how you want to make videos that help people grow and I think that is an incredibly noble goal; I can't speak for everyone but can I just say that by watching your videos you have helped me (or at least have inspired me) to grow myself, so thank you.
i have a weird way of using youtube. i don't pay attention to the algorithm or recommended videos almost ever. instead i build up a stable of folks i like and subscribe to them. i don't hit everything instantly, but i swing by every now and then. you're on my list.
2020 was a test run. Lol But it and every year since has been a nightmare one cannot wake from. Love your work and keep positive plaugeofgripes. You talking about your father got to me. I went through the same but it as with my mother,and what's worst is she wasn't like that when I was little...it was went I started 8th grade she had a complete personality change and started being hateful towards me and my dad and telling me daily I was a failure and loser and worthless. It was my dad who stuck up for me. But still man it fucking suck and the best was after all these years of being hateful...she got cancer and my dad died a couple years afterwards in his sleep and I took care of her to honor my dad's last request she didn't even apologize either during the 10 years i spent taking care of her for how she treated us but I cowboy up and walked it off hahahahaha though my poor wife has to put up with me being emotionally distant and cold sometimes and grumpy on occasion. But I do my best to make up for it to her. I wish you had a subscribestar account I refuse to use patreon. I'll have to log back into my twitch ans start watching your streams. That's the best I can do maybe donate through there.
I feel you, but if you have bread, you can rebuild if that is what you want. Take care of yourself. You just need to keep yourself mentally ready. Remember emplemon’s channel died and it was reborn in the way he wants it. You’re doing well in things maybe you don’t value. Editing this after hearing your piece about valuing honesty: I’m afraid to know what you think about this, but I still am interested to know what you think about the cane madden case in Kentucky
You're definitely not alone, dude. I also grew up with zero positive reinforcement or opportunities to do something better with my life. Now I'm at a point where all I can really do is stabilize. That doesn't mean we can't strive to improve ourselves, though, and you're always trying to improve at something regardless of life's bullshit. It's why I continue to respect and support you. Anyway, I don't really have anybody to talk to about this sort of stuff irl. Just wanted to let you know that these kinds of videos are appreciated and your words are reaching some people.
I would like to say I have noticed I don't see you as much, definitely not in my recommendations I just happened to see this video in my notification it's sucks you not as popular as you used too, but like you said yourself it's kind of how things goes and regarding your old content like I'm not gonna lie I found you because of that Pokémon video, I have looked at some other stuff you have made some stuff even older but that was what made me interested in you because it was so good💞 it was funny, good voice acting, nice designs for all the Pokémon in the video but stuff like that require so much work and one person cannot just do that on a whim and another thing I do like to listen to podcast or streams because I prefer to play a game and then just listen to people talking and that's the type of content I prefer recently because if I need to look at this video then yes it needs to be short otherwise I need to be heavily invested
First of all, I’m sorry for the things that have made life harder for you and thank you for opening up to the community in such a transparent and eloquent manner. It is rare I think that content creators have the true introspection to identify and address the person struggles you have and even rarer to have the courage to expose them to this degree. I don’t want to pile on empty words of encouragement or fragile words of support. That genuinely annoys me and blind positivity is no less poisonous than baseless negativity. Also I would like to treat you in the way you said you value in honesty and empathy. I get the struggle with emotional baggage both for me and my wife. I grew up a completely oblivious and selfish weirdo who possessed enough natural wit to be barraged with unearned praise and I faked my way into never truly growing up until far later in life. My wife has borderline personality disorder and was raised in a life of utter abandonment by an emotionally abusive narcissist. Needless to say, I learned a lot about understanding others and dealing with the scars from the past by being with her. Even more so when I destroyed our lives and betrayed her complete trust in me. Since then I have been unmade and rebuilt into someone that both she and I can say is the best man I can be but always try to improve and carry the weight of our oblivion to remember what we endured. I don’t mean to tell my life’s story but I think it should be illuminated some as an attempt at credibility when speaking about understanding a lot of what you have said here. I can’t say I have serious answers to your career problems because you make a living in a world that I don’t and only can take in through the world of creators sharing the inner workings of that world. That being said, I want to assure you that if you keep making what you actually want to make, I believe it’s 1/3 the recipe complete. The other 2 parts being things you probably don’t love and will not enjoy. Consistency is all I have ever heard in content conversations and subject repetition is key. Woolie made a whole separate channel because he understands this and while he hates the idea of playing the game, he knows he must to continue doing this. I feel like doing what you love but compromising on time and passion will help get people to pay attention and stay. It doesn’t need to be algorithm friendly as you can see with Tim Rogers. The man finally made a career after toiling for almost 2 decades in obscurity but makes content that hooked people in a way that I believe you could in your own way. The last third is the most draining I think as it requires you to socialize even through the internet. My wife is a true introvert so I understand how draining it will be but co-opting a fraction of someone else audience is how most of us even found you. Your TBFP content was what brought me here but I have stayed and enjoyed your content because of YOU. This all to say that interacting with others more often and with more than Pat and Paige will help you I feel. That is the point I want to end cap this entirely too long comment with. YOU are why any of us tune in. There are people who come and go with the flashes in the pan but everyone who has been here even as just a YT fan for all these years stayed because we appreciate you. Not in a “woohoo you’re so amazing” type of way but because you are broken and have a fucked up sense of humor and really have an unfortunately bleak outlook on a lot of things and are hypercritical but never really unfair when talking about something. All the scars, broken pieces, and malformed adaptations you have is what is great about the work you do. We all have them and it is the thing I most learned to love and understand about my wife no matter how bad it got. Your commentary on the human experience is some of the most impactful and insightful content I have ever seen on this platform and while potentially not sustainable long term, the personality behind it is what makes it so. I think you just have to figure out what frame to put that engine into to more smoothly and steadily navigate the tempest of uncertainty and play the game just a little more even if it sucks. Sorry for how long this was but I felt compelled to write. Also I’m sorry if I am speaking out of turn on your career and that you probably have thought of most of this.
I always look forward to your videos, and your words have helped me get over a few hurdles in my life. I enjoy your third party perspective on things like self-acceptance and taking the time to evaluate your circumstances. i also enjoy the random moments where you talk about farm life. it reminds me of my father in a way. Thank you.
Damn.. i felt this. I seek to have a ambition in putting my artwork out there whether its creating stories or just creating more artwork, but my ambition def beat my ass by falling for job scams (being a gullible ass bitch) and investing in something in a financially irresponsible way. (did that this year and my mom was like are you dumb?) So yeah.. my ambitions in chasing my dreams does leave me to being vulnerable like no other..... it makes me sick to my stomach when i think about it. 🙃
@@SillyLilDawg not by the end of series. Plus rainacorns age mega fast. Like it takes them like a week to become an adult. Like Kim Kil Wang ( her father) is technically less than a year old, but he already has a wife and kid.
the algorithm is realyl fucking you over, man. I didnt even know you had new content i always have to think "what is Plague up to?" and check in on you.
Short form content is addictive and repetitive, especially memes and meme compilations and stuff. I think that implying that people "want" to view that kind of stuff is a stretch, since you could easily get distracted if you happen to glance at RUclips recommendations while searching for a tutorial. I've been noticing that RUclips is having a trend of having videos that are close to or nearly over an hour a lot lately, specifically in the form of documentaries. If you keep making the videos you're making, the people that know you will remember your name, despite what the numbers say, meanwhile the people with millions of views are hardly even remembered, because in order to get those kinds of views, you have to follow trends and sometimes even copy people word for word. Without a Patreon, you can't make money doing what you're doing because most people use ad-block and you have to think of the mass and not the individual.
I'm catching up on made in abyss with company, and the conversations we've had about the themes, characters, and author, reminded me of your video where you drew one of the characters. I like listening to your thoughts and interpretations. I want to re listen to that video. The way you talk about things, that I haven't even seen, is entertaining and interesting. I know almost nothing about star wars but I popped into a stream of yours and got caught up listening to you making fun of it, making me laugh. ❤
Your thing about the star wars animation is kinda the same situation im in with my mewtwo and meowth animation. Been working on that for about a year but burn out fucked me up and now im currently struggling with actually getting any Animation out let alone even start any. Shits a pain but i hope it's not forever cuz i want to be able to create something.
Not sure what to say, but I found myself agreeing and relating to a great deal of what you brought up, Plague. The art is nice, and you certainly have skill/talent. I agree though that your real strength (and what keeps my interest) is your analytical ability and your earnestness, in the form of these long podcast type videos. As children we think of adults (or at least I did) as almost completely different from us. They're bigger, they're older, they can do things we can't, they're in charge, so they must know everything and have it all figured out. And only now as an adult, do I realize that I still don't have even a tenth of it figured out, and I'm immediately suspicious of anyone who claims otherwise. Were all still children, just dealing (or not) with our baggage and tasked with the responsibility of caring for ourselves (and/or others) while hoping not to blow ourselves up in the process and maybe, just maybe find a way to leave something behind so we're remembered after we're gone.
I'm on about the 6.5 minute mark, and I gotta say that one really good option is the 3P Podcast (Pat, Peach and Plague). I think you all balance eachother really well and would make for a fantastic option! Itd help earn income and be a regular content production. Pat jas already expressed interest with Paige, and Paige is keen but needs encouragement
That story about having one of your schoolbooks stolen as a kid, and being punished for it and no one apologizing to you and all that... sounds like my childhood too. May not mean much coming from a nobody like me, but I feel ya brother.
The algorithm doesn't always bring your work forward, but I check up every now and then. Having been in the Army, I can vouch for asshole kids growing up into asshole adults in positions of power. There are always... opportunities for them to change. Hopefully, we can all learn to be a little kinder. You're a good egg, chief. Take care of yourself.
The plague is the Master Chief
just look at German kids...they turned their whole personality into being kinder...they are a huge inspiration for us all
@@kalinmir Is that a pun? Because "kinder" and kinder... you know what, I'll see myself out.
You are an inspiration to me, Plague! Once I saw your art, it furthered my own venture into it and wanted to have great artwork like you and others. I do enjoy everything you do, whether it be videos, art or animations! You are not forgotten by those who enjoy your work immensely!
This is his 664th furry image
666 Coming SOON!
@@cryfasytighega5074 succubus incoming
Why are you counting?
@@mildlyinfuriatedbird2557 because funny number.
also 666 was Lt. Vixen
Goddamn it plague
12:36
"I was discussing this with the mrs the other day"
Honestly...as much as youre worried about whether youre over the hill or not...i remember for years you made self deprecating remarks about how youd always be alone and never find someone love you because youre an artist and artists dont actually find people who can love them because their art comes first.
The fact that you have a partner, a wife at that...thats honestly touching.
Life may not be going how you want. I know it isnt for me. But...i'm happy you have someone to share your life with, Plague.
😊
For what it's worth, I usually find your work at a time when it helps calm me down and inspire me a little.
Plague the best is yet to come. You have exceptional talent and have novel takes on comedy, philosophy, storytelling and more. I would only ask for more. Anything you enjoy or want to do. I’m always excited when I catch a new video from you. I’m in for the long haul.
Didn't think your art gripes could get anymore grounded or calm. The music is a good touch.
Living off online entertainment is hard, the current algorithm is weird. I really appreciate your work and the fun it gave me
I finished AT a few months back and I have to agree. After everything in the past few years, it was nice to just see a show about two best friends having fun. You've been one of my favorite animators since I found you, because it's clear how much thought and effort you put into your work. Getting to see what you're actually like through these gripes definitely solidified that too. I think a lot of people are feeling a bit lost right now, so try not to feel too beat up about it.
I came across your content some years ago and it was a major part in my development. I'm almost 18 now but I say I was like maybe 12 or so, or within that range but I cannot say. Even if you say some questionable stuff, albeit rare, I always enjoy seeing the stories and insight you have to share that I think about,and watching you has also helped me improve as an artist as well.
I'll be honest, I got no notification that you had even released a new animation. I'm glad to hear that you are doing moderately well
I really look forward to your art vids. You have such relatable and encouraging topics for artists. I wish I can hang out with you but this is the next best thing
woahh PARASOCIALLLLL
between you speaking here and the Owl House Series Finale and a few other random aspects of daily life I'm really feeling validated and seeing people I can truly reflect with and understand, with the faint spark of hope that maybe more people can understand me and each other.
I'm glad I started watching these little art videos. I wasn't even awake of the DBD video and stopped this one to go watch it right away! Absolutely loved it, it's not much but for sure going to share it to a few people I know would like it too.
A wise older gentleman with a bald head who draws semi lewd art once said that art is about experimentation. Don't give up man. Try something new.
You were the one that got me into drawing again. I kept telling myself that someday I'd come back to drawing and get good at it but then I heard you say something in your videos. You said something like "If you're not drawing now, you never will." It just clicked and I realized you were right, and I wanted to prove you wrong. So I got back into drawing.
I'm still not "great" but I'm better than I was. Thank you for giving me the motivation to put in the work. You can do this man, don't sell yourself short.
Listening to you explane things was of great help to me. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us.
For what it's worth, I've found art gripes like this helpful from time to time.
Your art is amazing !
I wonder if there are feasibly any jobs you can get that could alleviate the financial strains while still allowing enough free time for an art career without overworking. Getting a night shift at a hotel is one of the most freeing jobs I've ever experienced, and it leaves me with the time for game dev hobbies. But it's certainly situational
Plague thank you for still putting out content, you’ve been the colossal impact in my life, when I think of happy moments in my life it’s always your content for many many years now, love you man. You’ll always be #1
I really appreciate these kinds of videos. Very calming and thought provoking.
Once again Plague, you are absolutely brilliant in all aspects of your execution. Both the colored commentary and your literal drawing style. Your words are wisdom, even if you don't think so yourself. I'm sure you have heard/read this a thousand times but, don't be so hard on yourself. From one to another, perfection is the enemy of good, and you are doing more good than harm. I'm glad that I have grown to appreciate your mature tone, ever since your first Dark Souls videos, and it has made me a better person because of your teachings. It's anecdotal, and probably a bit cliche, but you change the world more than you know. Thank you for your time.
I totally can't speak for anyone else, but I think you should start covering anime more. Anime is really popular, and people seem to like listening to people's opinion's or critiques of anime. I LOVED your breakdown of Naruto, and I'm not the only one. That video got over three million views. =D
that'd be pog but those videos must take a while he probs doesn't have the time
@@orbboom6119Plague's roast on Naruto is GOATED.
I don't feel like he likes talking about anime too much.
"covid happened, a lot of shit went wrong" honestly 2020 feels like a fever dream, one of the weirdest years to witness
@@buttsbrown2442 *What is trauma based mind control*
Coof was never the problem, it was the world cabal testing you in how good people will do what they say no matter how ridiculous and most of you did what you were told. Next time they will say you must go to the camp and most of you WILL go to the gulags because they said so 🤡
I like how Vinny Vinesauce describes it as the longest 2 years in our lives that also somehow went by in a flash.
@@Horatio787 I kinda wish it didn't stop. Namely because it suddenly feels like everyone else re-incented themselves totally in that time. But....I didnt. I should have.
@@Sorrowdusk I haven't held a steady job in 15 years man. Love yourself and that you're still here first.
Honestly it been a while getting the stupid stuff out of the way my account got banned and stuff but in it all my life been going okay been working for a good year but now I’m sick and tired of working inward and outward, actually been a while since I actually looked at your videos and I get the same factor of time passing by I’ve been feeling like nothing is actually worth my time and effort when I’m either working or drawing basically not having any lack of motivation in my time, it’s always good to see you still making videos even if it’s little bit and so on. Hope everyone is alright during this time the year of 2023 and onward
spot on about B-MO. Also, adventure time was so peak. I miss it sometimes but such is life.
I can never put into words how much your words and idiologies helped me out when I found your channel around when I just had become an adult.
You helped me become someone I am more happy being than who I was as a kid.
I might not be able to keep checking in on everything you do, but I am greatly thankful for you making such a positive impact on my life. So, thank you for being you, Gripe. :)
honestly i appreciate these kinds of videos more than the animations. my favorite video of yours is probably the one about nox from wakfu and i never even watched wakfu.
learned helplessness really is a bitch. i do think though it's not so much the idea that is so deeply entrenched in most people but that it's simply comfortable to believe you're helpless. it's the raw truth that you just have to struggle if you wanna get better, that you have to expend effort. now that... that sucks.
Holy damn your story is hitting very uncomfortably close to home, hearing about your stories is like looking into my future, I hope you are at least not unhappy right now, sometimes feeling nothing feels pretty good
Been keeping tabs on your work and thinking about you longer than my memory loss will allow me to. Through it, I still wonder how you're faring. Hope life is treating you well!
I'm sorry to hear about your falling out with a friend. I had a similar falling out a few years ago that took months to get over. I cried for weeks about it. But with enough time around the right group of people, you can come to a better place.
thanks for this plague. no matter where my life is when i watch one of your videos they always seem to speak to me. first found you back in 2015 when i was still in high school, and i wouldn't be the person i am without you. i hope you can reach more people. also i think a podcast is a good idea - i often have your vids on in the background as it is, lol
Just discovered your channel with Select your partner, and that alone made me subscribe. Your art is amazing, and I am hoping to see more. Times have been weird, but coming here, i know I'll be entertained.
I actually really appreciate the perspective that everyone is working through the baggage they built up as a kid. I've said for years that adults are just big kids, but your perspective adds more nuance.
Me for instance I have a superiority complex that I developed as a coping mechanism due to being systematically bullied by a whole school for 13 years. For me the only thing that kept myself sane was putting myself on a pedestal and viewing everyone else as below me. In my adult life this has manifested in me having to keep myself in check when it comes to authority figures, essentially if you haven't earned my respect and try to use authority around me I have to do deep breathing exercises to not tear down your entire character.
However I have noticed that when bosses do earn my respect that there isn't much I won't do due to that respect. My current boss for instance works right next to me everyday in the same 140° heat and they work 7 days a week 10 hours a day and work 30 hours a week at another job. So they work 100 hours a week and always take the hardest jobs. For me I have a deep respect for that because it feels like a general that leads their army from the front lines. I will always respect that kind of person 1000x more than someone that sits in an office all day.
But said baggage from earlier can also manifest in positive ways. Because I was used to being considered trash and everything I said being used against me I learned to 1. Become confident in myself despite what others say 2. Always let others speak first because nothing hurts more than feeling like people don't care about what you have to say.
Edit: I find that learned helplessness an interesting perspective because I'm the opposite. I'm always filled with ambition and I refuse to rest until I have manifested my passions. Similar school situations for instance I would always fight like a lawyer, I wouldn't go down without a fight, which is how I ended up suspended almost every year of schooling. I'd get in shouting matches with teachers, I'd always fight back when someone was bullying me, fighting back just is apart of my life story. This is the reason I've been in combat sports most of my life too, because of the superiority complex I have, I have to be the strongest in the room. Every person I meet I think about every way I could take them down if they became violent. That however is also a manifestation of my PTSD. So it's a blend of a superiority complex and PTSD. The thing that caused that particular forever problem was the fact that when I was 13 my next door neighbors broke into my house and tried to stab me with kitchen knifes, I had to fight them off. Because of this I'm pretty much always in fight mode, just thinking about it made my body start shaking, made me wanna go back in time with the strength I have now and crush the bastards skulls. Most of the bad parts like insomnia and rampant drug use to numb the side effects have passed finally but I still can't look at a knife without my heart rate increasing. Everytime someone walks by with a knife at work my skin feels like it's on fire and I simultaneously want to lash out on the person and hide somewhere no-one can reach me.
Aight I'm done thinking about that now, otherwise I'm gonna be here all day in a recount loop. Point is for me fighting back is the only option, learned helplessness is the direct opposite.
Your talks always put me in a point of introspection. Awesome video.
I always check back on your content because I enjoy the long form content. If you're struggling then trying to discover yourself is the right course of action, philosophy and psychology are great for that; I find Allan Watts and Carl Jung to be inspirational.
21:50 My favorite is when they parrot something from Joseph Murphy or Napoleon Hill, while otherwise not being able to relate to whatever/whoever they're talking about. Because, simply thinking more positively solves all problems, but I digress.
Just about all of my favorite channels are ones that have been around for a while, and a lot of them seem to be having similar issues. Not to make light of what you're saying, but you're definitely not alone.
It's like therapy but there's scantily clad furrybait at the end 11/11
Definitely feel that latter half. Our living situation meant food was scarce and money was hard to come by so it was always bad for us. Not so much parents causing the problem until they got hooked on stuff because of other relatives but still feel the problem where I have panic attacks over food, money and the like. I've also learned and this has been reinforced that the system won't help, and that I'll just be betrayed and lied to, and the fact it's kind of never been wrong I can't think of a good memory in my life any more... I'm also uncertain about my future.
32:00 you put what I’ve been feeling into words man truly felt
7:14 -- "A thousand sounds like a lot" For anyone who thinks this, that's like $6.25 an hour if you work a 40 hour week.
I feel like i shoud say this before i forget, but i love longplays and i think podcast.
I feel it is something that helps me relax and pass time. It also helps the clarity of your voice, and i guess the consistency of it?
Anyways, what i trying to say is i like listening to you.
Also, i feel like i should add that you seem like a pretty level and wise personal.
About your work. I used to view you as another creator called Alfabusa. Making content every month or few. It’s great watching ya’ll put your hearts into your works. Unlike him though I grew up with your content. Thank you for your hard work. I hope you still find joy in your creations.
BIG D!!!
I honestly forgot you existed, I went through my subscription list to clean it up and found you again, and now you're in my feed again
I'm really for you mate. Im glad to hear you wont go down without a fight
continued relevance comes from seeing oneself as being no different from the audience...many creators have gated themselves off, ceased interacting, or allowed unrelated purity tests to drive a subconscious wedge in between there
idk if my bland words help but art gripes are my favorite kind of videos
When it comes to the "bullies to friends" trope, I can speak on that quite a bit from my own experience in my childhood. I was a bit of a loner and a weird kid, so several times it would happen that I was bullied, but when I fought back (physically or socially depending on the kind of bullying) and stood up for myself, they would come to respect me (even if I didn't always 'win' against older kids) and want me to be a part of their group, which I of course would decline.
I even experienced it from a secondary perspective from both sides, once when I intervened in a situation to stop someone else being bullied, telling them literally that "they'd have to go through me" (it's funny how cliche that is, but half of my personality is just quoting phrases from things I like). I was incredibly principled at that time (far more than I am now) and would get in fights with people because they tortured or crushed insects for fun. I'd never really interacted with the aggressor before, but every time I interacted with him after, he was incredibly nice to me. The victim meanwhile is the only one from school clingy enough to still be friends with me all these years later despite my asocial demeanor.
Then from the other side, there was the time someone was literally sent to fight me by a ringleader. The ringleader was just an asshole, who once again wanted me to join him after the fact, but the guy who came to fight me was actually an alright person, just a bit dim and easily influenced, wanting to impress the ringleader. I actually was friends with him for a while, and as far as I know today he's doing well in a physical labour job and doesn't have any malicious tendencies.
On that matter, I haven't seen much correlation between someone being a bully in school and their personality later; some of the people I've met later seem very different, whereas some have stayed the same, meanwhile others who never bullied now do... though perhaps I'm just a poor judge of character.
Nor have I noted a correlation to their academic intelligence, as there were bullies in every 'set' (a year or two into high school we were separated into different classes for each subject dependent on our proficiency in that subject, I don't know how it works in other schooling systems), though I can say there tended to be less bullies in the very top and very bottom end. Whether the bullying was mostly physical or mostly emotional depended more on social intelligence.
I may be biased from my particular experiences, but I believe a propensity for bullying is almost never anything deep about a person's character, but more a function of establishing and maintaining a social hierarchy. Humans are naturally tribal, they form groups to feel safer, not because they have an internal self confidence issue stemming from past trauma, but because their nature tells them to do it because their ancestors who didn't were killed by wild animals. Then they take the path of least resistance to the highest point they can get in the social ladder. By successfully bullying people weaker than them physically or socially, or people who are passive in the hopes that they will be spared, they establish their power above them, and their followers get to avoid similar treatment themselves by accepting that as true, making them feel stronger as a group (despite the fact that most of them are actually cowards or weaklings who wouldn't help the other when things get serious).
It's all a bizarre game of posturing and (usually subconscious) manipulation, and what role a person ends up in seems to be largely chance based on circles that form early on, rather than their character beforehand. Of course it has an influence, but I think it's actually more of the case that social standing ends up determining personality more than the reverse, especially at a young age.
The only way individuals avoided this is by rejecting the hierarchy outright. For people operating in a hierarchy, the only thing they respect or respond to is strength, as the entire reason that hierarchy exists is to survive longer together, and people want those with strong wills or strong bodies on their side.
And so it is possible for someone to stop being a bully, by removing them from the hierarchy as with the easily influenced person I mentioned earlier, however doing so may be quite difficult.
I wish for more off this honestly in some similar dark times myself especially as an adult it seems like unless you provide something to someone at all times nobody really cares
You could make 1 video a month analyzing a character/story. Your Gohan video is really good and I often watch it over because of how great it is.
You're one of my all-time favorite creators.
I know its not really in the context that you mean in your video. I know you mean popularity wise, or like relevancy wise you're "importance" has kind of dwindled. I get the meaning but I cant help but find myself wanting to reach out. I'm not a very good artist. Its not self-deprecating when I say that. I just need to keep working and practicing and have not as much as I need to. But your art has really been one constant thing I come back to, to remind myself why I wanna draw and get better. I fall off the horse a lot. Sadly for years at a time even. But I come back here and remember why I like drawing. When I compare myself to other artists it knee caps me confidence wise, but your stuff is different. Its gorgeous and I love everything about the styles, and the subject matter. I love sitting down and listening to these talks while I try and get better and try new things. Im fairly young in the grand scheme of things, but Im 27 and I feel 30 coming, but the things you talk about remind me that, if I wanna draw I can. Even if I mess up, even if I start late. You're a very real person, who has inspired me to do alot. You were a big part of my teen years even with your animations, my friends and I all would gather around and re watch your darksouls animations over and over. I guess the point of this wall of text is just that, you're content is important to me, and I feel like maybe a lot of other people. Its why we come to hear you talk and watch you draw. Even if time passes by, I think some of us pass with you. We don't wanna move to whats "trendy" we want to have these videos and listen to you for our own reasons. Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read this if you do, and keep making awesome stuff man. It means alot to some of us.
I think I could listen to ramble on about philosophical/life experience bullshit all day. I find it relaxing for some reason.
I'm sorry to hear your career is having such a hard time. I'm always so happy to see your content and I'd love to see more animations from you. Good luch out there man.
You deserve so much more QnQ. You're literally one of the best. I guess maybe ramp up the craziness of the videos in terms of tickling the border of RUclips's rules. Particularly the thumbnails and titles to be even more catchy. I think the most immediately helpful thing would be making shorts. Pump out a flurry of cute silly lewd disturbing videos. To beat the over saturated market, you have to just be more saturated than that. It's a pain, and you can't do much story stuff, but it could get your name out a bit more so they look at your longer stuff. You could try don't animation commissions. Furries will spend insane money lol.
Adventure time is great. I really loved the deeper lore with the signs of old world civilisation, and when they got into Simon's history, and the pitty you have for the weird lonely shell he became, and then that amazing moment where he briefly regained his senses as the ice king and Marcelleen got all emotional from so so many years of repressed feelings. I love stuff like that.
I also love lewd furry stuff. One day I'm gonna combine these things into a video game and it's gonna be awesome, even thigh it won't have a huge audience from reading a book by its cover which is why my true passion project will come later after i make more widely appreciated stuff, so their success can sustain my crazy dreams
One day i can see us working together to make some amazing things. Until then, we have to remember we can't depend on people's charity to live. The only thing that matters in life is achieving your dreams with the people you truly deeply love and who start by your side through everything. I wanted to make free to play games, with no in game purchases, only making money from ads and donations. I know that won't work. And i hate rich people. They're the most evil people in all history. So I'm going to happily screw them to support my dreams. I've seen it. I know they're stupid enough to spend over 100 dollars on mundane small in game stuff. Fuck them. I have dreams to fix the world they broke, so I'm going to break them to fix it. It's only fair.
I have a huge deep lore you could add to your pokemon partner series that would blow everyone's minds, but I'm sure you already got your own plans and wouldn't agree with my ideas anyway cuz you seem to hate the story and being stuck in it. I had actually typed it all out but then this stupid glitchy app deleted the edit and I don't feel like writing that book again cuz I was literally on the last sentence. But if you're interested in expanding that professor pokemon love story into some deep stuff far bigger than that initial premise and aren't confident in your own directing being successful, let me know cuz I'll gladly help you out. I fucking love good stories. It might even help you like the story you feel trapped in with someone else helping direct it.
When you mention how to reach people, have you thought of maybe a webcomic? You can even do a reading of them on your channel with different voices. Comics can be a great way to touch people and tell your message.
Even if your more popular content doesn't deliver the actual lessons you want to share, it can lead to people discovering your more serious content. I started watching your content for the anime rants & came to value Art Gripes the most.
I didn't know there was a missus, congrats! Also good talk.
I won't act like I know your situation, and I do believe you when you say you are in a very delicate position at the moment, but don't lose faith in whatever you can become in the future. I have enjoyed your art for years, and I have used your art pieces from NG and RUclips as references and wallpapers ever since is started drawing.
You are an amazing artist, and as far as me and most of your audience can tell, an amazing person as well. I'm not saying this because I know you, I don't, but I do know this persona you use to speak to your audience with. And even if you don't speak to other people in the same way, this is enough prove to me that, at the very least, you *can* be as approachable and open to people in real life as you are on the internet.
I had a complicated childhood at times (my parents didn't tell me I wasn't going to amount to much, but they did constantly shut down my ideas and forced me to do things I never enjoyed, which has led me to feel like I'm wasting my time when working on personal projects) so at least know I can't just ask you to "ignore the past and simply try to overcome it". But you can always learn to recognize your accomplishments, and by doing so, prove to yourself you are capable of improving and doing things tomorrow that you couldn't do yesterday. I guess what I'm trying to say that you have managed to do a lot, even if the numbers don't show it right now, and I'm sure you can make things better in the future.
Or at the very least, you can always know there's going to be a bunch of random guys on the internet that'll be happy to listen to your stories and thoughts while you draw those sweet sweet furry ladies of yours.
P.S: Gonna send some cash your way as soon as I get my first paycheck. Can't promise it won't be much, but you'll see an extra subscription on your patreon next month ;)
i've been following your work for years now. I still always find time to stop and check out what you got going on. I appreciate your work and I am glad you are okay.
Damn dude I've never wanted to hug someone so bad in my life. I wish I could buy you a coffee and just talk with you
Huh. Never heard anyone put it into words before. I've never had ambition and made it my life goal to live a simple life where I never stand out.
Hearing Plagues "hello, hello" at the start is always nice to hear.
Be careful about accepting false blame. The problem with trying to be honest and accurate, is that other people often aren't. Some of the people I thought were the kindest people in my life went full 180 on me (one of them had BPD), and I realized, sometimes I'm not the one that's wrong. Sometimes other people are wrong, and I draw the line at when they want me to apologize for things they concocted in their head. I will sever a relationship before I make an insincere apology. There can be no friendship without honesty. There can't even be a society without it. We may see that be proven in our lifetime.
i tend to watch all your new uploads even if it can take me a while to get around to them, take care buddy.
Always liked your videos man.
Thanks for making em :)
This sort of popped up seemingly at the perfect time. Not yo get too deep into it but I've been struggling to make positive change in my life i.e. being more responsible, active and healthy amoung a list of other things and at every turn it feels like I'm getting kicked in the head.
I try and organize and lose important shit.
I try and be proactive and am forced to wait or am hamstrung at every fucking turn and currently I'm In such a severe depressive spiral that being able to leave my apartment to go to work feels herculean. It hurts just to be alive right now and hearing that you're struggling with some of the same shit feels kinda nice just to know I'm not alone.
Thanks plauge.
Some of it is chemical. You can just be sitting there and feel fine, then feel terrible, then feel amazing for no reason other than your brain isn't regulating well because of some recent trauma. But knowing you have agency and a direction goes a long way. It's when things feel totally out of your control and beyond your ability that it hurts the most. Failing showcases what's in and out of control, thankfully. It's different for everyone, but still within your ability. Definitely not exclusive to just us either.
@PlagueOfGripes That's the great thing, ain't it. The logical part of my brain knows it's just a set of chemicals that are to blame for this. But my emotional side keeps asking, "Why if I'm trying to do the right thing, do I still feel like this?"
It's going to pass it always does, but goddam does it feel like it never will.
To touch on something you said in the video, though, on your upbringing and mine are (sorry if this is assuming too much) are sort of similar. I got a lot of "stop acting stupid." "You're being a fucking retard." "Suck it up, no one cares about your feelings." And " Deal with it and stop being a bitch." That sort of sentiment.
And who would have thought I spent most of my life projecting that fear, anger and ignorance on those around me cause it turns out being called a fucking overly sensitive idiot might have some kind of lasting side effects. I said all that to say this. I'm sorry you had to deal with that shit man. I get it (as much as a complete stranger can, that is).
And to be clear, if you read this far, I also would like to say your long-form stuff is my absolute favorite stuff from you. I've listened to your video on villains god knows how many times and I personally would love to hear more stuff like that.
Anyway I appreciate you taking the time to answer a random commenter and I hope you have a good one, your salty old farmer.
30:50 yuuuup, everything from here on is also my learned experience. Including a stolen book incident I was blamed for and yanked out of the bus by the Principle so he could search my bag, in front of the entire school, at the end of the day. I was of course, innocent and the student who made the report revealed it was a false report, for fun. I then got transferred schools by my parents.
I've always just wanted to sit in a discord call and talk to you and try and laugh at the traumatic shit in our lives. I remember being very young a teacher insisting I did something wrong when I knew I didn't do it but still getting punished for a long time because the adult insisted they were right and I was wrong.
Ambition is rewarded, not many ppl have it
14:23 it's interesting that you say all the characters are kinda shitty because that's what kept me from enjoying the show while it was running. One example I can think of is the episode where Finn and Lady Rainicorn were becoming good friends and Jake got jealous so he got his friend Tiffany to play viola with him to make Lady jealous, to which Finn didn't care, but as soon as Tiffany is revealed to actually be a boy Finn goes on a violent frenzy on this guy whose only flaw shown this far was being overenthusiastic about rubbing it in how he was a better friend to Jake.
Gosh these videos always make me question certain aspects of myself and the world that I never would have considered. The part about Learned Helplessness really hit home and when your brought up the Hall of Egress, an episode I watched as a kid and hated because I didn't completely understand it and that made me feel upset, really opened my eyes.
You talked at the end on how you want to make videos that help people grow and I think that is an incredibly noble goal; I can't speak for everyone but can I just say that by watching your videos you have helped me (or at least have inspired me) to grow myself, so thank you.
i have a weird way of using youtube. i don't pay attention to the algorithm or recommended videos almost ever. instead i build up a stable of folks i like and subscribe to them. i don't hit everything instantly, but i swing by every now and then. you're on my list.
2020 was a test run. Lol
But it and every year since has been a nightmare one cannot wake from.
Love your work and keep positive plaugeofgripes. You talking about your father got to me. I went through the same but it as with my mother,and what's worst is she wasn't like that when I was little...it was went I started 8th grade she had a complete personality change and started being hateful towards me and my dad and telling me daily I was a failure and loser and worthless. It was my dad who stuck up for me. But still man it fucking suck and the best was after all these years of being hateful...she got cancer and my dad died a couple years afterwards in his sleep and I took care of her to honor my dad's last request she didn't even apologize either during the 10 years i spent taking care of her for how she treated us but I cowboy up and walked it off hahahahaha though my poor wife has to put up with me being emotionally distant and cold sometimes and grumpy on occasion. But I do my best to make up for it to her. I wish you had a subscribestar account I refuse to use patreon. I'll have to log back into my twitch ans start watching your streams. That's the best I can do maybe donate through there.
I feel you, but if you have bread, you can rebuild if that is what you want. Take care of yourself. You just need to keep yourself mentally ready. Remember emplemon’s channel died and it was reborn in the way he wants it.
You’re doing well in things maybe you don’t value.
Editing this after hearing your piece about valuing honesty: I’m afraid to know what you think about this, but I still am interested to know what you think about the cane madden case in Kentucky
You're definitely not alone, dude. I also grew up with zero positive reinforcement or opportunities to do something better with my life. Now I'm at a point where all I can really do is stabilize. That doesn't mean we can't strive to improve ourselves, though, and you're always trying to improve at something regardless of life's bullshit. It's why I continue to respect and support you.
Anyway, I don't really have anybody to talk to about this sort of stuff irl. Just wanted to let you know that these kinds of videos are appreciated and your words are reaching some people.
I would like to say I have noticed I don't see you as much, definitely not in my recommendations I just happened to see this video in my notification
it's sucks you not as popular as you used too, but like you said yourself it's kind of how things goes
and regarding your old content like I'm not gonna lie I found you because of that Pokémon video, I have looked at some other stuff you have made some stuff even older but that was what made me interested in you because it was so good💞 it was funny, good voice acting, nice designs for all the Pokémon in the video
but stuff like that require so much work and one person cannot just do that on a whim
and another thing I do like to listen to podcast or streams because I prefer to play a game and then just listen to people talking and that's the type of content I prefer recently
because if I need to look at this video then yes it needs to be short otherwise I need to be heavily invested
First of all, I’m sorry for the things that have made life harder for you and thank you for opening up to the community in such a transparent and eloquent manner. It is rare I think that content creators have the true introspection to identify and address the person struggles you have and even rarer to have the courage to expose them to this degree.
I don’t want to pile on empty words of encouragement or fragile words of support. That genuinely annoys me and blind positivity is no less poisonous than baseless negativity. Also I would like to treat you in the way you said you value in honesty and empathy.
I get the struggle with emotional baggage both for me and my wife. I grew up a completely oblivious and selfish weirdo who possessed enough natural wit to be barraged with unearned praise and I faked my way into never truly growing up until far later in life. My wife has borderline personality disorder and was raised in a life of utter abandonment by an emotionally abusive narcissist. Needless to say, I learned a lot about understanding others and dealing with the scars from the past by being with her. Even more so when I destroyed our lives and betrayed her complete trust in me. Since then I have been unmade and rebuilt into someone that both she and I can say is the best man I can be but always try to improve and carry the weight of our oblivion to remember what we endured. I don’t mean to tell my life’s story but I think it should be illuminated some as an attempt at credibility when speaking about understanding a lot of what you have said here.
I can’t say I have serious answers to your career problems because you make a living in a world that I don’t and only can take in through the world of creators sharing the inner workings of that world. That being said, I want to assure you that if you keep making what you actually want to make, I believe it’s 1/3 the recipe complete. The other 2 parts being things you probably don’t love and will not enjoy. Consistency is all I have ever heard in content conversations and subject repetition is key. Woolie made a whole separate channel because he understands this and while he hates the idea of playing the game, he knows he must to continue doing this. I feel like doing what you love but compromising on time and passion will help get people to pay attention and stay. It doesn’t need to be algorithm friendly as you can see with Tim Rogers. The man finally made a career after toiling for almost 2 decades in obscurity but makes content that hooked people in a way that I believe you could in your own way. The last third is the most draining I think as it requires you to socialize even through the internet. My wife is a true introvert so I understand how draining it will be but co-opting a fraction of someone else audience is how most of us even found you. Your TBFP content was what brought me here but I have stayed and enjoyed your content because of YOU. This all to say that interacting with others more often and with more than Pat and Paige will help you I feel.
That is the point I want to end cap this entirely too long comment with. YOU are why any of us tune in. There are people who come and go with the flashes in the pan but everyone who has been here even as just a YT fan for all these years stayed because we appreciate you. Not in a “woohoo you’re so amazing” type of way but because you are broken and have a fucked up sense of humor and really have an unfortunately bleak outlook on a lot of things and are hypercritical but never really unfair when talking about something. All the scars, broken pieces, and malformed adaptations you have is what is great about the work you do. We all have them and it is the thing I most learned to love and understand about my wife no matter how bad it got.
Your commentary on the human experience is some of the most impactful and insightful content I have ever seen on this platform and while potentially not sustainable long term, the personality behind it is what makes it so. I think you just have to figure out what frame to put that engine into to more smoothly and steadily navigate the tempest of uncertainty and play the game just a little more even if it sucks.
Sorry for how long this was but I felt compelled to write. Also I’m sorry if I am speaking out of turn on your career and that you probably have thought of most of this.
"the nasty professor man" I think he's not nasty enough >=)
I always look forward to your videos, and your words have helped me get over a few hurdles in my life. I enjoy your third party perspective on things like self-acceptance and taking the time to evaluate your circumstances. i also enjoy the random moments where you talk about farm life. it reminds me of my father in a way.
Thank you.
Damn.. i felt this. I seek to have a ambition in putting my artwork out there whether its creating stories or just creating more artwork, but my ambition def beat my ass by falling for job scams (being a gullible ass bitch) and investing in something in a financially irresponsible way. (did that this year and my mom was like are you dumb?) So yeah.. my ambitions in chasing my dreams does leave me to being vulnerable like no other..... it makes me sick to my stomach when i think about it. 🙃
I have found that introspection is the key to happiness when you have a decent grasp on the Inner workings of your mind it gets easier to move forward
Bronwyn is indeed the most smashable Jake kin.
You say that and yet Jake is right there.
NAH TV is the hottest in all of Ooo
@@orbboom6119 Yeah the sexiest shape the "ORB"
she’s also a minor💀
@@SillyLilDawg not by the end of series. Plus rainacorns age mega fast. Like it takes them like a week to become an adult. Like Kim Kil Wang ( her father) is technically less than a year old, but he already has a wife and kid.
the algorithm is realyl fucking you over, man. I didnt even know you had new content i always have to think "what is Plague up to?" and check in on you.
Incredibly relatable. As always.
Short form content is addictive and repetitive, especially memes and meme compilations and stuff.
I think that implying that people "want" to view that kind of stuff is a stretch, since you could easily get distracted if you happen to glance at RUclips recommendations while searching for a tutorial. I've been noticing that RUclips is having a trend of having videos that are close to or nearly over an hour a lot lately, specifically in the form of documentaries. If you keep making the videos you're making, the people that know you will remember your name, despite what the numbers say, meanwhile the people with millions of views are hardly even remembered, because in order to get those kinds of views, you have to follow trends and sometimes even copy people word for word. Without a Patreon, you can't make money doing what you're doing because most people use ad-block and you have to think of the mass and not the individual.
gripes you should make one more of dark souls animation but elden ring :) ❤ like simple funny souls animation
We love you plague
I'm catching up on made in abyss with company, and the conversations we've had about the themes, characters, and author, reminded me of your video where you drew one of the characters. I like listening to your thoughts and interpretations. I want to re listen to that video.
The way you talk about things, that I haven't even seen, is entertaining and interesting. I know almost nothing about star wars but I popped into a stream of yours and got caught up listening to you making fun of it, making me laugh.
❤
Your thing about the star wars animation is kinda the same situation im in with my mewtwo and meowth animation. Been working on that for about a year but burn out fucked me up and now im currently struggling with actually getting any Animation out let alone even start any. Shits a pain but i hope it's not forever cuz i want to be able to create something.
Praying for your success chief.
I liked the first eye type too
Not sure what to say, but I found myself agreeing and relating to a great deal of what you brought up, Plague. The art is nice, and you certainly have skill/talent. I agree though that your real strength (and what keeps my interest) is your analytical ability and your earnestness, in the form of these long podcast type videos.
As children we think of adults (or at least I did) as almost completely different from us. They're bigger, they're older, they can do things we can't, they're in charge, so they must know everything and have it all figured out. And only now as an adult, do I realize that I still don't have even a tenth of it figured out, and I'm immediately suspicious of anyone who claims otherwise.
Were all still children, just dealing (or not) with our baggage and tasked with the responsibility of caring for ourselves (and/or others) while hoping not to blow ourselves up in the process and maybe, just maybe find a way to leave something behind so we're remembered after we're gone.
i'm but drops on a hot plate but you'll have my support always.
I'm on about the 6.5 minute mark, and I gotta say that one really good option is the 3P Podcast (Pat, Peach and Plague). I think you all balance eachother really well and would make for a fantastic option! Itd help earn income and be a regular content production. Pat jas already expressed interest with Paige, and Paige is keen but needs encouragement
I'd be interested in a Plaguecast too. Maybe once a month with whatever guests he wants on
Me: "Oh, that animation came out? Oh yeah... 10 days ago. Thaaanks RUclips."
And you started a fire
Fun fact there is fan comic series called
Adult time
And ..... hehehehe let’s just say Finn gets the happy ending he deserves
the pokemon video was how i found your chanel