I don't often comment, but this whole video has been so on-point and relatable, it's almost spooky. As someone who literally moved country 9 years ago just to get away from things, and just about every other behaviour you described, I've never met anyone with so much insight and compassion for what drove me to this very point in my life. You made me feel much less alone today. Thank you!
We’re with you Eli. Shit is rough, but we’re sticking by you throughout the bullshit. The nice thing about your ‘audience’ is you speak to those of us who are fighting and earnest through the dark. We pool the candles. And make it through.
I think your idea for talking to other artists about the process and struggles and etc for a podcast is a great idea. I really enjoyed woolie will figure it out for that similar subject matter. I re listen to them often
0:16 That right there is the definition of growing old and has been happening to me a lot more of late. “I like this thing… I mean I used to like it, back when I had time and energy to like things. I think I still like the thing, but I’ll have to dedicate a part of my future schedule to it and get back with confirmation.” and then you spend more time wondering why and how you enjoyed the thing than you do just enjoying it.
that ramble you went on about the Luca Goers is extremely funny to listen to. I go back to it frequently,it's pure comedy gold. You seem like a way different person from when I started listening to you years and years ago (It was Huge Quest). You are the most genuine youtuber I have probably ever followed. Thank you for just being you.
I found this entriely spot on. For what its worth, your contributions to this community are very much appreciated as well as insightful. Sometimes the advice itself isn't necessarily the key, but just knowing that others are locked behind the same door as you is. I appreciate these very much, as I do your work as an artist and a creator. Thanks man, and keep doing you 👍.
I appreciate what you said about cultivating/holding onto friendships. I've almost always had this overbearing feeling in friendships about having such a limited time in life to have shared quality time. I've really been feeling this lately. I'm sorry those "friends" let you down, pretty heartless. Moments like that should never be turned away from. Thats when relationships should be strengthened.
If you did a sporadic schedule podcast like how Woolie does with his Woolie figures it out maybe that would work better? Otherwise I think finding the right co host would make things easier. I also hope you've been able to relocate to somewhere with better internet that doesn't cost an arm and a leg
I actually enjoy this form of video/podcast. It feels like the older brother I lost, giving me useful advice. As a 35yr old who is on the recovery end of suicidal depression, I appreciate everything u said in this video because I'm still going thru some of these things. And in this format, I can listen while I work or unwind from a long day.
So Plague, what got you into Ghoul School in the first place? (I was thinking of saying more with how often my brain thinks it relates to you, but the parasocial relationship is already strong enough.)
Podcast sounds like a nice idea. I actually use your videos to similar effect, listening to them in the background while I work. A sort of "Gripecast" where you talk about media and art sounds like a nice way to make easy content without the downsides of the regular video essay (Toei animation footage claims, the sheer workload/time it takes, art content causing big droughts, anime gripes being highly most viewed content, etc.) To avoid getting ramble-ey, I'd suggest making bullet points you want to touch on for a topic ahead of time so you know what beats you want to hit with the discussions.
I simply love the honest way you speak about heavy topics such as these. Please, never stop. Trust your community: you've done soo much for people that also struggle with mental health by simply speaking. And your art is amazing, so, never stop.
I've been listening to you talk about stuff for more than 10 years now I think your art is very good, but I am not a furry, and I'm not especially into pinup pictures of women, not that I have anything against it it's just not a thing I would normally go seeking out on my own I like listening to you talk because you put a lot of thought into anything you say, regardless of the subject So if you were going to do a podcast I guess what I would like to hear from you are just things that you've put a lot of thought into, as boring as that might be but stuff that you've rolled around in your head enough to have a unique perspective upon I know that's not exactly a theme, unless you just called it like a "neurodivergent info dumping" or something. Your media analysis is also very good, actually I should have just suggested that You should do a podcast about media analysis on esoteric topics
Honestly I'm very pleased with the Art Gripe formula. It scratches a particular itch very well. I like "Plague talks about life and deep stuff + doing X thing." I look forward to them every single time. It's like a special treat that I only get to have a few times a year. I support your needs to survive and do what you want, whether it be change ups or doing the same thing at the same pace you've been doing them. But in case you had any doubts, I at least love the Art Gripes and you being whichever Plague you feel like being that day.
Ngl, I've been following your stuff since your old Dark Souls stuff and I really enjoy the progression you've gone through. Your biting humor was and always is great, but hearing your ideas about how to better yourself as a person, and help share those little victories or the lessons of those little failings has been really heartening over the years.
Your theme can be.....your life. Seriously. Many comics just do a 90 minute routine of "the shit that goes through my head, the stuff I go through in my day" and some podcasts live off that: things I've been doing, thinking and so on. The theme is to be devoid of a theme
Thanks Plague, for being there, making content for us over all these years. I think I might be one of those young people who didn't get they needed, and long rambles have been the difference between a day where I do nothing and a day I try. Im usually a lurker, i wonder how many of us like me are there, quietly listening and creating small failures and successes. But thank you. You've inspired so many people in more than just art/media. Or maybe you do, who knows, I've already overthought it. Thanks Eli
I relate to this so much. When I started taking my channel more seriously it was only after agonizing over what I even wanted to talk about. I thought the reason people get burnt out is that they don't think about how the topics they pick will effect their relationship to them over time. Overthinking it. And when I figured it out I realized that I had no process at all. Things that should take days would take me weeks. And I had to accept the fact that somewhere in my life I had closed myself off from ever accepting help. And I don't mean from people directly. That too. But I couldn't even watch tutorials. Asking questions made me feel stupid. A smart person would just figure it out, right? I know, terrible. Am sure that goes to being a kid in school. It's not that I cured myself of something and fixed all my problems. I just shifted my thinking and things that were hard became easier to approach. Thanks Plague. Not everyone appropriates the introspective side of your channel. But I do, and so do a lot of other people.
Don't forget that different watchers may have to step out of a stream for any number of reasons, not that they're disinterested. Just having them there to begin with is an accomplishment in this world where lots of people are fighting for the time of others. Money's getting tighter these days as well, so don't feel down if you see a drop in contributions. I personally avoid livestreams because the quality will be smoother afterwards, but sometimes, the idea of being in a group chat just feels like too much. Over the years, I think I've been growing more and more avoidant, and I can completely relate to your story of being surrounded by fake people, which is probably why I'm like this now, after being close to people for years and then see them turn on me as if they're someone completely different. It's the most bizarre thing to see people become so alien overnight like they're a soulless robot that's been reprogrammed. Trying to get close to new people now feels so tiresome after I've put so much effort into past relations, and I just can't stomach the stress anymore.
Really loved this video. You hit on a lot of stuff I've been feeling, specifically just this past year. I'm in the second half of my 20s and accepting that the electrochemistry of my brain might be naturally changing as I age and I need to learn how to deal with that (after having convinced myself in my early 20s that everything would be easy from now on since I survived my adolescence) has been difficult. Hearing someone else talk about this kind of stuff really is a great thing
Honestly, I think media analysis would be a good theme for a podcast. Let's you talk all the shit you want about Naruto and DB again without fear of losing revenue since its just you talking with no footage playing. Podcasting comes with it's own hurdles but I think it's something you'd be good at if you can find a good way to schedule around it. Maybe have it once every one or two months so you have time to go through something, get your thoughts together or find a guest. Just be sure to include 3D metallic text and flames in the intro to really sell The Plaguecast.
Great video as always Plague. Always appreciate this kind of video. I personally would love to see more podcast-esque content in the future, but only if it's feasible and practical of course. Regardless of the direction you'll take future content I'll continue to try and support you in whatever way I can. Ultimately I'm here because I appreciate you as a person and the thoughts and insights you share
Exceptional video. Lots to relate on, and its nice to take comfort in someone who recognizes such things, with regards to the anxiety and depression with certain elements around us being subconsciously attributed to it.
I’ve been a fan since around 2013 and discovered you through your long form content on both writing and the story of dark souls, so I think starting a podcast where you discuss writing throughout different media would be incredibly interesting and entertaining. And personally as poultry as it is I want you to know that I and many others appreciate the work you put into the shorts even if they didn’t earn as much as they should have. They just like all your content and commentary went above and beyond the quality I would expect of anything on RUclips just as you have all these years, so simply thank you plague for being yourself all this time.
I've been watching your content here and there over the years. I think it's ultimately good that you're monetizing your work at this point in time. Things have been extremely tough on everyone in economic terms. You are an extremely talented artist and insightful writer, and I hope to see you succeed even more than now. Thanks for all the content you've produced, it's also helped more clearly frame my thinking in terms of writing and plot.
Very glad to see a more personal aspect of you in one of your vids! Shame the anxiety washed over you, while I haven't exactly felt that with work yet (due to not... working yet) I've definetely had a ton of pressure around finishing college but not knowing where to go from there when I do... Nowadays I just try to do simmilar to what you did- keep my mind off it for a lil while to at least recoup and calm the anx down. It's worked so far, and I put my foot down whenever anyone tries to rush or put pressure on me (again). Such pressure always caused my anxiety to spike and then my sleep gets messed up (worse than how much it's messed up in general), my day to day is frustrating and ruined by the smallest inconveniences, even. Wether this is gonna work out or be my doom, I will find out when whichever happens. Hope you can find and maintain enjoyment in what you do! Most I can be sure of, from over the years, is that I do enjoy what you do.
I'll try to make it to the next discord group watch. Honestly I didn't notice they were a thing until I saw you all watchin Venture Bros a couple days ago.
Master Gripes, I stumbled into your channel a couple of months after your second Adventures in IRC video. I've been thinking a lot about moving into later 'echelons' of age myself, lately; this video was well-timed. I really hope things start and continue to go your way much more reliably in the near future. It was very, very good to hear your voice; seriously good timing, had a shit day today. Going to bed now; this was a perfect way to even out. I'll be here for whatever you do next, man. Suspect I ain't the only one. Happy SPOOKS month
@@PlagueOfGripes The description of Ariel and the Prince on the beach with the stick figures absolutely murdered me and that was it; I was hooked Can't wait for what's next. And that voice in your head can cram it with walnuts; you've *always* been doing an incredible job.
Thanks for making these kinds of videos, man. I'm sorry that you've been going through struggles, but it helps me to hear you calmly going over it. I don't comment very much, on videos in general or yours specifically, but you've been a source of happiness and food for thought to me for many years now, and I think what you're doing is meaningful, or at least it is to me.
It pains me greatly when my therapist doesn’t do CBT right /BaDumTss. Jokes aside, it’s weird but I do somehow know what you mean when it comes to hearing about others problems and it somehow helps with your own. One of the reasons I truly enjoy your videos is because of you just talking about your life, experiences and thought process through it. And also it’s cool to hear you not only talk about what’s ailing you but also work through it too. Whether it’s because it might give me a new perspective or the comfort that there are others. It hits me like a breeze on a cloudy autumn day. Sometimes you just need a reminder. Also damn, really called me out there with the “I don’t wanna bother my friends and it’s been awhile so I shouldn’t bother them anymore.” Anyways, sorry for the small essay and I hope you enjoy your trip to the UK and thanks for the beautiful piece of Winnie. Definitely hoping for the romantic route over the murder victim one lol. Take it easy and take care ya “fogy” lol. (Haven’t heard that in forever.)
Space Kings is a fun version of role playing, it is also a flexible way to play a D&D-esque. It can be cinematic, or be dialogue heavy. I would look into it. Plague?: where are you taking me? Winnie: i’m about to change your life! Plague?: oh, then lead the way. I’d be into discord watching, however, i got LTE for internet-and Discord streaming requires 720p, and that data spending is too great for LTE. It’s been that way for over two years, i got dealt a bad hand so to speak. However, I do value the group watch. Like watching a movie on tv, and knowing at least hundred thousands of people are watching it too. At least, in the 90s. As i grow older and colder, i slowly hollow out. But once in a while, i pop an effigy. I used to think i was a “lone wolf”, so once again as i grew older, you realize these things.
The podcasts I have listened to over the years are mostly a group of friends hanging out. Chewing the fat over what interesting things happened to them or the world that week. If there's a guest, getting to know them. Cooptional podcast and trash taste, and sometimes ltt. All the members were/are likeable, and could/can hold multi our conversations weekly without burning out.
Sad to hear about the shorts not doing much financially. I liked them and I figured with RUclips promoting short form that they would have helped. That's unfortunate.
Just an out loud thought, try a podcast, call it Artists anonymous as a play off alcoholic anonymous. Chat with other artists. Artists being whoever/whatever you decide. Small time music makers, fellow artists, animators, hell even the "content creator" that RUclips so loves. Their favorite piece they've worked on, the most hated one, what an average day looks like for them, etc etc
You seem like a genuine person with a dedication to be who you feel you want and need to be. That leads to a very different path of personal growth in life than what, say, someone prioritizing pettier things over their authenticity would experience. You’re already walking an ultimately more meaningful and rewarding path in this regard. When thinking about your stories, comparing them to my own journey, one thing kept becoming apparent to me. I believe you need to go easier on yourself. Because you are inclined to aspire to ideals, you naturally hold high expectations for yourself. These expectations can subconsciously build within the psyche and their weight can eventually become crippling, manifesting as various anxieties and fears that prevent one from experiencing the freedom of self actualizing. One can become their own taskmaster. This ultimately stifles the potential beauty one could manifest if they were more forgiving and supporting of themselves. You were regretful your Winnie might be subpar in some regards while from my perspective the talent needed to draw what you just did is beyond my comprehension. For a time you denied yourself ad revenue out of protest for RUclips’s disregard for artists. This is a form of martyrdom: sacrificing oneself for an ideal. Yet you yourself are an artist who deserves compensation. Why not have that come out of RUclips’s pocket? Any viewer that knows and enjoys your content isn’t going to be easily turned away by an ad or two. I can see a reflection of myself in you in various ways. Learning to go easier on myself, to be my own supporter rather than my own critic, is something I’ve found great relief and strength in. There’s a freedom and ease that comes with it that lifts the soul. From that elevated state, my personality flows towards a fuller version of myself. That version of me is little bothered by the negative opinions or lack of interest of others, because he is already content with himself. Life lays before each of us a puzzle. You are an introspective and mindful person, so I know you will find the solutions to what you face eventually.
I too, can count the number of times I've cried on one hand. Of course it's much lower than the number of times I've cried on both hands, or into my pillow, or etc.
I value your opinions on life Plague, as someone that’s always struggling between what they wanna do and what they should do to make a living, I really respect how far you’ve come even though it’s not been easy. I hope to make strides toward following my dreams one day, and I hope you carry on following yours!
I do always enjoy your more insightful, introspective videos....not that the art doesn't help though! Your talking about isolation and the spiral you can get into hits pretty close to home for me. Now that I'm in my 30s I'm starting to see just how few close connections I have, and I need to start doing more to keep them and build on them. I might be in my little hermit lair and surviving, but I'm not exactly LIVING. I'd be down for a fun podcast if that ever becomes a big thing, and if it doesn't that's OK too. Kinda surprised a certain podcast run by two chucklefucks haven't had you on as a guest yet though, come to think of it...
If you do try streaming or podcasting, I recommend picking something you're interested in, but starting with a project that isn't too big of an investment/commitment. Like if you decide to try D&D, try something intentionally short like a one-shot, or talking about a movie you like etc, something that won't take too much of your time and hopefully, by the end you have a better idea of whether it's something you want to continue to do. If it's short and finishes then there would be less pressure to start a new thing should you decide it's not something you want to get invested in.
Wish other people did more work with the girls even if they were together but keep up the good work also Happy SPOOKY MONTH and hope you are having a wonderful day today.
CBT, for all its memes, is actually a really effective method. I like to think of it as a mental martial art. Will it prepare you for everything? no, but you learn to react to certain pitfalls your mind has a habit of forming. I think it allows you to sort out sources of distress and focus on ones that aren't easily dispelled.
i enjoy listening to your rants and hearing your perspectives. Like a lot of people I found ya through the db gripes...and they are funny as shit. But I actually like these more.
In my own experience, due to the constant neglect and abuse at the hands of my family, I suffered from a severe unhealthy image of myself. In essence, due to my constant involvement in sports with plenty of violence, I tended to be in a concussed state, which resulted in my parents thinking I was special needs, thus a slap to the back of the head at every opportune moment plus the phrase "Stop being stupid" happen with a regular rhythm from 10 to 18. Due to this, I sought out possible methods to break this psychological conditioning that made me belittle myself and all of my efforts at every opportunity, because again, "I am stupid" was drilled into my head. That final break through happen when I went on a, trip, and dug deep into it. My parents never did care about who I am, or what happened to me, as long as they met some arbitrary goal of their own, then they were happy. Often, that meant I needed to act out a role, that I did not know, because again, suffering from a continuous concussion state. Thus they lashed out at me, blaming me for not fitting in with they wanted. It took nearly a decade after my last head bang for the symptoms to stop on the concussion syndrome. It took nearly a decade to break the image my parents enforced on me. It has been over fifteen years since the last meaningful conversation with them. That is, my step mother encouraged me to commit suicide while my father said nothing to stop her, or to walk me back from the edge. So, I do agree with changing the perspective on events, and understanding them better. Just need help from trustworthy men to do so.
I totally get that like, idk, seasonal depression and anxiety, except for me is a certain smell, a smell i can only describe as ''a lost simple happiness'', that smell being a mix of like, certain cleaning products and chemicals, which is probably like, being a happy kid without a worry in the world as your mom is doing cleaning in the morning or whatever right, i think. And I have to avoid mixing certain cleaning products or i'll legit get depressed the rest of the day, and I have no fuckin' idea how to fix that other than avoiding it, but sometimes you'll go to buy stuff at the shop and for some reason your nose picks that smell in the cleaning product isle and bam, day ruined. Now that I write this, my folks having a bad divorce as a kid, maybe that smell does that to me cause it's associated to losing the sense of family and stuff. But yeah, I hope your pieces connects, I've always loved your content and your art inspires me a lot, and i enjoy listening to you while I work on my own bullshit.
honestly a shorter-form solo podcast could work if you didn't have a lot on your plate. i like to put on these art gripes while i go about other tasks. anyways, good vid as always. thanks plague
Plague: You, trying to live on your own inside of a cold dark room talking to people over Discord... Me, living on my own inside of a cold dark room talking to people over Discord: Oh shit
For a moment i though that Winnie was Winnie the pooh, but after watching the end of the video, i was like "aaah oki, it's her from that scooby doo movie x3"
dont worry plague, you've always been old. perpetually fine aged wine. cant ad onto perfection. **sips** "tastes just like I rememeber, earthy, with a hint of salt and finely fermented gripes. outstanding."
I'm a big fan of CBT. Sure, it can be a bit complicated, might take time to learn, and could take all afternoon to perform to completion, but its a robust set of rules that you can do a lot with. We *are* talking about Classic Battletech, right? In addition to being a bit more sociable, some regular exercise can help with the chemical reactions in your brain. Will it fix depression? Nope! Can it get you a subjective "inch" closer? Maybe. Successfully completing a morning workout could give folks the momentum they need for the next thing on the agenda. Take care of yourselves, be excellent to each other, and have a great day.
Interesting topics getting into this video rn but geeze what an absolutely beautiful character and expression, I mean you've seriously manged to get her to exude a really nice tone of maturity here just so fricken tastefully I mean yeah frickin wow yo. Beautiful.👌 Beautiful.👌 Don't think I'd call her serial killer-ish at all here if I do say so myself.
Your life is similar to mine, it's weird that how much we have in common, thank you. You helped me that I'm not the only one who's like this. It's reassuring that there's someone who gets it
Honestly while your animations are lots of fun (and very quotable), my favorite vids of yours are the analytical ones, the vids that break something down and examine it thoroughly, whether it's related to storytelling, anime, video games, or whatever random thing you decided to focus on. Those vids must be pretty hard to put out regularly though. I suppose if I were to make a suggestion, you could try doing shorter less scripted takes on things, like "Oh, I watched this movie and this is what I think of it" or "I just read this book and it made me think of this" and you just go on tangents related to it, and so on. Maybe you have a doodle going on in the background like you did here and with other vids, or maybe it's just a still-frame related to the thing. Either way, I find your insight and opinions on stuff pretty interesting.
47:51, idk if that was a slip of the tongue, but if it wasn't, congrats. I remember in other videos you saying stuff like "I'll probably die alone", or where you go off on bits where you're talking about how people will find your body in the snow 3 months down the line one day.
I don't often comment, but this whole video has been so on-point and relatable, it's almost spooky. As someone who literally moved country 9 years ago just to get away from things, and just about every other behaviour you described, I've never met anyone with so much insight and compassion for what drove me to this very point in my life. You made me feel much less alone today. Thank you!
I'm hoping everything worked out okay! Moving countries must be terrifying.
🙂👍
There's something very melancholic about seeing Winnie year after year from you. I still remember the first time you drew her for /co/'s spooktober.
We’re with you Eli.
Shit is rough, but we’re sticking by you throughout the bullshit.
The nice thing about your ‘audience’ is you speak to those of us who are fighting and earnest through the dark.
We pool the candles. And make it through.
Your Winnie artwork always leaves me wishing that there was a good story written around your version of the character.
I dont know how people couldnt love both the unhinged humor you have and the deep analytical side.
It's like chocolate and peanut butter.
I'd liken the unhinged humor to something sweet and sour, but I guess you were going with sweet and bitter.
I think your idea for talking to other artists about the process and struggles and etc for a podcast is a great idea. I really enjoyed woolie will figure it out for that similar subject matter. I re listen to them often
You mean group therapy? Ye sounds dope.
0:16 That right there is the definition of growing old and has been happening to me a lot more of late. “I like this thing… I mean I used to like it, back when I had time and energy to like things. I think I still like the thing, but I’ll have to dedicate a part of my future schedule to it and get back with confirmation.” and then you spend more time wondering why and how you enjoyed the thing than you do just enjoying it.
that ramble you went on about the Luca Goers is extremely funny to listen to. I go back to it frequently,it's pure comedy gold.
You seem like a way different person from when I started listening to you years and years ago (It was Huge Quest).
You are the most genuine youtuber I have probably ever followed.
Thank you for just being you.
I found this entriely spot on.
For what its worth, your contributions to this community are very much appreciated as well as insightful. Sometimes the advice itself isn't necessarily the key, but just knowing that others are locked behind the same door as you is. I appreciate these very much, as I do your work as an artist and a creator. Thanks man, and keep doing you 👍.
Winnie best girl. Thanks for the continued fanart, Plague. 👍🏻
I appreciate what you said about cultivating/holding onto friendships. I've almost always had this overbearing feeling in friendships about having such a limited time in life to have shared quality time. I've really been feeling this lately. I'm sorry those "friends" let you down, pretty heartless. Moments like that should never be turned away from. Thats when relationships should be strengthened.
I hope serial killer Winnie isn't a thing or you're gonna lose some gripers to the forest. Especially as they might very well welcome a furry end.
@@elvivas :}
If you did a sporadic schedule podcast like how Woolie does with his Woolie figures it out maybe that would work better? Otherwise I think finding the right co host would make things easier. I also hope you've been able to relocate to somewhere with better internet that doesn't cost an arm and a leg
"Why are you depressed?"
"Because I have chronic pain."
"What makes you think that?" Asks the therapist while repeatedly kicking him in the balls.
I actually enjoy this form of video/podcast. It feels like the older brother I lost, giving me useful advice. As a 35yr old who is on the recovery end of suicidal depression, I appreciate everything u said in this video because I'm still going thru some of these things. And in this format, I can listen while I work or unwind from a long day.
i always love your content, it feels like coming home
So Plague, what got you into Ghoul School in the first place?
(I was thinking of saying more with how often my brain thinks it relates to you, but the parasocial relationship is already strong enough.)
Vague memories of watching it mixed with a tradition on 4chan boards of drawing or referencing them around October
@@PlagueOfGripesoh 4chan😂
@@OCMOOO
Everything leads back to 4chan one way or another
@@admiralpepper6933maybe, but the good ones leave, and it’s certainly not the same place it used to be
Podcast sounds like a nice idea. I actually use your videos to similar effect, listening to them in the background while I work. A sort of "Gripecast" where you talk about media and art sounds like a nice way to make easy content without the downsides of the regular video essay (Toei animation footage claims, the sheer workload/time it takes, art content causing big droughts, anime gripes being highly most viewed content, etc.)
To avoid getting ramble-ey, I'd suggest making bullet points you want to touch on for a topic ahead of time so you know what beats you want to hit with the discussions.
Love you, Plague, been following you for years. Happy to see you happy.
I simply love the honest way you speak about heavy topics such as these. Please, never stop. Trust your community: you've done soo much for people that also struggle with mental health by simply speaking. And your art is amazing, so, never stop.
I've been listening to you talk about stuff for more than 10 years now
I think your art is very good, but I am not a furry, and I'm not especially into pinup pictures of women, not that I have anything against it it's just not a thing I would normally go seeking out on my own
I like listening to you talk because you put a lot of thought into anything you say, regardless of the subject
So if you were going to do a podcast I guess what I would like to hear from you are just things that you've put a lot of thought into, as boring as that might be but stuff that you've rolled around in your head enough to have a unique perspective upon
I know that's not exactly a theme, unless you just called it like a "neurodivergent info dumping" or something.
Your media analysis is also very good, actually I should have just suggested that You should do a podcast about media analysis on esoteric topics
Honestly I'm very pleased with the Art Gripe formula. It scratches a particular itch very well. I like "Plague talks about life and deep stuff + doing X thing." I look forward to them every single time. It's like a special treat that I only get to have a few times a year. I support your needs to survive and do what you want, whether it be change ups or doing the same thing at the same pace you've been doing them. But in case you had any doubts, I at least love the Art Gripes and you being whichever Plague you feel like being that day.
my friend, listening to you eases my anxiety a bit.
Ngl, I've been following your stuff since your old Dark Souls stuff and I really enjoy the progression you've gone through. Your biting humor was and always is great, but hearing your ideas about how to better yourself as a person, and help share those little victories or the lessons of those little failings has been really heartening over the years.
I am so grateful that you make your videos, they are so relatable it's scary sometimes.
Your theme can be.....your life. Seriously. Many comics just do a 90 minute routine of "the shit that goes through my head, the stuff I go through in my day" and some podcasts live off that: things I've been doing, thinking and so on. The theme is to be devoid of a theme
Thanks Plague, for being there, making content for us over all these years. I think I might be one of those young people who didn't get they needed, and long rambles have been the difference between a day where I do nothing and a day I try. Im usually a lurker, i wonder how many of us like me are there, quietly listening and creating small failures and successes. But thank you. You've inspired so many people in more than just art/media. Or maybe you do, who knows, I've already overthought it. Thanks Eli
I relate to this so much. When I started taking my channel more seriously it was only after agonizing over what I even wanted to talk about. I thought the reason people get burnt out is that they don't think about how the topics they pick will effect their relationship to them over time. Overthinking it. And when I figured it out I realized that I had no process at all. Things that should take days would take me weeks.
And I had to accept the fact that somewhere in my life I had closed myself off from ever accepting help. And I don't mean from people directly. That too. But I couldn't even watch tutorials. Asking questions made me feel stupid. A smart person would just figure it out, right? I know, terrible. Am sure that goes to being a kid in school. It's not that I cured myself of something and fixed all my problems. I just shifted my thinking and things that were hard became easier to approach. Thanks Plague. Not everyone appropriates the introspective side of your channel. But I do, and so do a lot of other people.
Yet another fun and thought provoking video. Great work as always.
I loved this so much, it spoke to exactly what I've been going through. I wish you all the best ‼️‼️
Bro, I love you man, I hope you're always there for the rest of my life.
Damn
I always appreciate the wise introspection a of uncle plague.
Don't forget that different watchers may have to step out of a stream for any number of reasons, not that they're disinterested. Just having them there to begin with is an accomplishment in this world where lots of people are fighting for the time of others. Money's getting tighter these days as well, so don't feel down if you see a drop in contributions. I personally avoid livestreams because the quality will be smoother afterwards, but sometimes, the idea of being in a group chat just feels like too much. Over the years, I think I've been growing more and more avoidant, and I can completely relate to your story of being surrounded by fake people, which is probably why I'm like this now, after being close to people for years and then see them turn on me as if they're someone completely different. It's the most bizarre thing to see people become so alien overnight like they're a soulless robot that's been reprogrammed. Trying to get close to new people now feels so tiresome after I've put so much effort into past relations, and I just can't stomach the stress anymore.
Always nice to see an October draw with Plague
Got to hear a lot of things from this I didn't know I needed to hear today.
Thanks.
Been following you for over 5 years glad to still see you still putting stuff out great work man
Really loved this video. You hit on a lot of stuff I've been feeling, specifically just this past year. I'm in the second half of my 20s and accepting that the electrochemistry of my brain might be naturally changing as I age and I need to learn how to deal with that (after having convinced myself in my early 20s that everything would be easy from now on since I survived my adolescence) has been difficult. Hearing someone else talk about this kind of stuff really is a great thing
She looks like she wants to take you into the forest ...
TO EAT YOU !
lol
12:00 you gave me a jumpscare since i got an loud ad while listening your calm voice😂 Thank you Plague :D
Honestly, I think media analysis would be a good theme for a podcast. Let's you talk all the shit you want about Naruto and DB again without fear of losing revenue since its just you talking with no footage playing.
Podcasting comes with it's own hurdles but I think it's something you'd be good at if you can find a good way to schedule around it. Maybe have it once every one or two months so you have time to go through something, get your thoughts together or find a guest. Just be sure to include 3D metallic text and flames in the intro to really sell The Plaguecast.
Great video as always Plague. Always appreciate this kind of video. I personally would love to see more podcast-esque content in the future, but only if it's feasible and practical of course. Regardless of the direction you'll take future content I'll continue to try and support you in whatever way I can. Ultimately I'm here because I appreciate you as a person and the thoughts and insights you share
Exceptional video. Lots to relate on, and its nice to take comfort in someone who recognizes such things, with regards to the anxiety and depression with certain elements around us being subconsciously attributed to it.
I’ve been a fan since around 2013 and discovered you through your long form content on both writing and the story of dark souls, so I think starting a podcast where you discuss writing throughout different media would be incredibly interesting and entertaining. And personally as poultry as it is I want you to know that I and many others appreciate the work you put into the shorts even if they didn’t earn as much as they should have. They just like all your content and commentary went above and beyond the quality I would expect of anything on RUclips just as you have all these years, so simply thank you plague for being yourself all this time.
I've been watching your content here and there over the years. I think it's ultimately good that you're monetizing your work at this point in time.
Things have been extremely tough on everyone in economic terms.
You are an extremely talented artist and insightful writer, and I hope to see you succeed even more than now.
Thanks for all the content you've produced, it's also helped more clearly frame my thinking in terms of writing and plot.
Plague you are my favorite human. Please keep recording these authentic and personal videos.
Very glad to see a more personal aspect of you in one of your vids!
Shame the anxiety washed over you, while I haven't exactly felt that with work yet (due to not... working yet) I've definetely had a ton of pressure around finishing college but not knowing where to go from there when I do...
Nowadays I just try to do simmilar to what you did- keep my mind off it for a lil while to at least recoup and calm the anx down.
It's worked so far, and I put my foot down whenever anyone tries to rush or put pressure on me (again).
Such pressure always caused my anxiety to spike and then my sleep gets messed up (worse than how much it's messed up in general), my day to day is frustrating and ruined by the smallest inconveniences, even.
Wether this is gonna work out or be my doom, I will find out when whichever happens.
Hope you can find and maintain enjoyment in what you do!
Most I can be sure of, from over the years, is that I do enjoy what you do.
I'll try to make it to the next discord group watch. Honestly I didn't notice they were a thing until I saw you all watchin Venture Bros a couple days ago.
Master Gripes, I stumbled into your channel a couple of months after your second Adventures in IRC video. I've been thinking a lot about moving into later 'echelons' of age myself, lately; this video was well-timed.
I really hope things start and continue to go your way much more reliably in the near future. It was very, very good to hear your voice; seriously good timing, had a shit day today. Going to bed now; this was a perfect way to even out.
I'll be here for whatever you do next, man. Suspect I ain't the only one.
Happy SPOOKS month
You know, Adventures in IRC is definitely not a video I'd ever expect to be the thing that brought someone in, but glad to have you!
@@PlagueOfGripes
The description of Ariel and the Prince on the beach with the stick figures absolutely murdered me and that was it; I was hooked
Can't wait for what's next. And that voice in your head can cram it with walnuts; you've *always* been doing an incredible job.
From what I understand, Shorts aren't really pushed by RUclips anymore. It sucks that you got burned by them.
Thanks for making these kinds of videos, man. I'm sorry that you've been going through struggles, but it helps me to hear you calmly going over it. I don't comment very much, on videos in general or yours specifically, but you've been a source of happiness and food for thought to me for many years now, and I think what you're doing is meaningful, or at least it is to me.
I've been out of the loop on the plague lore, so when he mentioned his girlfriend I almost choked on my fucking grape juice
Always nice to hear from you.
It pains me greatly when my therapist doesn’t do CBT right /BaDumTss. Jokes aside, it’s weird but I do somehow know what you mean when it comes to hearing about others problems and it somehow helps with your own. One of the reasons I truly enjoy your videos is because of you just talking about your life, experiences and thought process through it. And also it’s cool to hear you not only talk about what’s ailing you but also work through it too. Whether it’s because it might give me a new perspective or the comfort that there are others. It hits me like a breeze on a cloudy autumn day. Sometimes you just need a reminder. Also damn, really called me out there with the “I don’t wanna bother my friends and it’s been awhile so I shouldn’t bother them anymore.”
Anyways, sorry for the small essay and I hope you enjoy your trip to the UK and thanks for the beautiful piece of Winnie. Definitely hoping for the romantic route over the murder victim one lol. Take it easy and take care ya “fogy” lol. (Haven’t heard that in forever.)
thx for whatever this thing is loved to draw beside you and to hear you
The only example of a podcast I have watched that are based around artists is Creative Block.
Space Kings is a fun version of role playing, it is also a flexible way to play a D&D-esque. It can be cinematic, or be dialogue heavy. I would look into it.
Plague?: where are you taking me?
Winnie: i’m about to change your life!
Plague?: oh, then lead the way.
I’d be into discord watching, however, i got LTE for internet-and Discord streaming requires 720p, and that data spending is too great for LTE. It’s been that way for over two years, i got dealt a bad hand so to speak. However, I do value the group watch. Like watching a movie on tv, and knowing at least hundred thousands of people are watching it too. At least, in the 90s.
As i grow older and colder, i slowly hollow out. But once in a while, i pop an effigy.
I used to think i was a “lone wolf”, so once again as i grew older, you realize these things.
When I first read the notification I thought it was gonna be Winnie the Pooh, thankfully I was wrong
The podcasts I have listened to over the years are mostly a group of friends hanging out. Chewing the fat over what interesting things happened to them or the world that week. If there's a guest, getting to know them.
Cooptional podcast and trash taste, and sometimes ltt.
All the members were/are likeable, and could/can hold multi our conversations weekly without burning out.
Sad to hear about the shorts not doing much financially. I liked them and I figured with RUclips promoting short form that they would have helped. That's unfortunate.
Plague actually measures time in Winnies.
The 3rd, secret hello for the video watchers is seen and appreciated
It's nice to hear you be sensible(which you generally are, not saying "for a change")
Good luck
Just an out loud thought, try a podcast, call it Artists anonymous as a play off alcoholic anonymous. Chat with other artists. Artists being whoever/whatever you decide. Small time music makers, fellow artists, animators, hell even the "content creator" that RUclips so loves. Their favorite piece they've worked on, the most hated one, what an average day looks like for them, etc etc
You seem like a genuine person with a dedication to be who you feel you want and need to be. That leads to a very different path of personal growth in life than what, say, someone prioritizing pettier things over their authenticity would experience. You’re already walking an ultimately more meaningful and rewarding path in this regard.
When thinking about your stories, comparing them to my own journey, one thing kept becoming apparent to me. I believe you need to go easier on yourself.
Because you are inclined to aspire to ideals, you naturally hold high expectations for yourself. These expectations can subconsciously build within the psyche and their weight can eventually become crippling, manifesting as various anxieties and fears that prevent one from experiencing the freedom of self actualizing. One can become their own taskmaster. This ultimately stifles the potential beauty one could manifest if they were more forgiving and supporting of themselves.
You were regretful your Winnie might be subpar in some regards while from my perspective the talent needed to draw what you just did is beyond my comprehension.
For a time you denied yourself ad revenue out of protest for RUclips’s disregard for artists. This is a form of martyrdom: sacrificing oneself for an ideal. Yet you yourself are an artist who deserves compensation. Why not have that come out of RUclips’s pocket? Any viewer that knows and enjoys your content isn’t going to be easily turned away by an ad or two.
I can see a reflection of myself in you in various ways. Learning to go easier on myself, to be my own supporter rather than my own critic, is something I’ve found great relief and strength in. There’s a freedom and ease that comes with it that lifts the soul. From that elevated state, my personality flows towards a fuller version of myself. That version of me is little bothered by the negative opinions or lack of interest of others, because he is already content with himself.
Life lays before each of us a puzzle. You are an introspective and mindful person, so I know you will find the solutions to what you face eventually.
06:00 The "Favorite song as ringtone" durring the worst anxiety spell of my life was a major mistake. I tried listening to it after years, it hurts.
I too, can count the number of times I've cried on one hand. Of course it's much lower than the number of times I've cried on both hands, or into my pillow, or etc.
I value your opinions on life Plague, as someone that’s always struggling between what they wanna do and what they should do to make a living, I really respect how far you’ve come even though it’s not been easy. I hope to make strides toward following my dreams one day, and I hope you carry on following yours!
I do always enjoy your more insightful, introspective videos....not that the art doesn't help though! Your talking about isolation and the spiral you can get into hits pretty close to home for me. Now that I'm in my 30s I'm starting to see just how few close connections I have, and I need to start doing more to keep them and build on them. I might be in my little hermit lair and surviving, but I'm not exactly LIVING.
I'd be down for a fun podcast if that ever becomes a big thing, and if it doesn't that's OK too. Kinda surprised a certain podcast run by two chucklefucks haven't had you on as a guest yet though, come to think of it...
If you do try streaming or podcasting, I recommend picking something you're interested in, but starting with a project that isn't too big of an investment/commitment.
Like if you decide to try D&D, try something intentionally short like a one-shot, or talking about a movie you like etc, something that won't take too much of your time
and hopefully, by the end you have a better idea of whether it's something you want to continue to do. If it's short and finishes then there would be less pressure to
start a new thing should you decide it's not something you want to get invested in.
Wish other people did more work with the girls even if they were together but keep up the good work also Happy SPOOKY MONTH and hope you are having a wonderful day today.
CBT, for all its memes, is actually a really effective method. I like to think of it as a mental martial art. Will it prepare you for everything? no, but you learn to react to certain pitfalls your mind has a habit of forming. I think it allows you to sort out sources of distress and focus on ones that aren't easily dispelled.
i enjoy listening to your rants and hearing your perspectives. Like a lot of people I found ya through the db gripes...and they are funny as shit. But I actually like these more.
In my own experience, due to the constant neglect and abuse at the hands of my family, I suffered from a severe unhealthy image of myself. In essence, due to my constant involvement in sports with plenty of violence, I tended to be in a concussed state, which resulted in my parents thinking I was special needs, thus a slap to the back of the head at every opportune moment plus the phrase "Stop being stupid" happen with a regular rhythm from 10 to 18. Due to this, I sought out possible methods to break this psychological conditioning that made me belittle myself and all of my efforts at every opportunity, because again, "I am stupid" was drilled into my head.
That final break through happen when I went on a, trip, and dug deep into it. My parents never did care about who I am, or what happened to me, as long as they met some arbitrary goal of their own, then they were happy. Often, that meant I needed to act out a role, that I did not know, because again, suffering from a continuous concussion state. Thus they lashed out at me, blaming me for not fitting in with they wanted.
It took nearly a decade after my last head bang for the symptoms to stop on the concussion syndrome.
It took nearly a decade to break the image my parents enforced on me.
It has been over fifteen years since the last meaningful conversation with them. That is, my step mother encouraged me to commit suicide while my father said nothing to stop her, or to walk me back from the edge.
So, I do agree with changing the perspective on events, and understanding them better. Just need help from trustworthy men to do so.
I totally get that like, idk, seasonal depression and anxiety, except for me is a certain smell, a smell i can only describe as ''a lost simple happiness'', that smell being a mix of like, certain cleaning products and chemicals, which is probably like, being a happy kid without a worry in the world as your mom is doing cleaning in the morning or whatever right, i think. And I have to avoid mixing certain cleaning products or i'll legit get depressed the rest of the day, and I have no fuckin' idea how to fix that other than avoiding it, but sometimes you'll go to buy stuff at the shop and for some reason your nose picks that smell in the cleaning product isle and bam, day ruined. Now that I write this, my folks having a bad divorce as a kid, maybe that smell does that to me cause it's associated to losing the sense of family and stuff.
But yeah, I hope your pieces connects, I've always loved your content and your art inspires me a lot, and i enjoy listening to you while I work on my own bullshit.
honestly a shorter-form solo podcast could work if you didn't have a lot on your plate. i like to put on these art gripes while i go about other tasks. anyways, good vid as always. thanks plague
Plague: You, trying to live on your own inside of a cold dark room talking to people over Discord...
Me, living on my own inside of a cold dark room talking to people over Discord: Oh shit
Woo! Winnie for my birthday! A great gift!
Happy birthday🎂
Sorry to hear about your dad Eli
For a moment i though that Winnie was Winnie the pooh, but after watching the end of the video, i was like "aaah oki, it's her from that scooby doo movie x3"
13:00 yeah that sounds like it scks. The algorythm really deserves to be buried
Is this Winnie from Scooby Doo or Winnie from Hotel Transylvania
Great video Plague!
New Winnie art gripe yippie!
Hey 1982 bday club, TMBG formed and Cheers first aired ;D
Always love your version of Winnie.❤
Winnie my beloved
dont worry plague, you've always been old. perpetually fine aged wine. cant ad onto perfection.
**sips** "tastes just like I rememeber, earthy, with a hint of salt and finely fermented gripes. outstanding."
I'm a big fan of CBT. Sure, it can be a bit complicated, might take time to learn, and could take all afternoon to perform to completion, but its a robust set of rules that you can do a lot with. We *are* talking about Classic Battletech, right? In addition to being a bit more sociable, some regular exercise can help with the chemical reactions in your brain. Will it fix depression? Nope! Can it get you a subjective "inch" closer? Maybe. Successfully completing a morning workout could give folks the momentum they need for the next thing on the agenda.
Take care of yourselves, be excellent to each other, and have a great day.
If youve been streaming you should upload some of it on your channel and post a streaming schedule
Yeah my dad was like that too. Just poopoo on everything I tried to do.
Faux Podcast is a great name for the Podcast.
Interesting topics getting into this video rn but geeze what an absolutely beautiful character and expression, I mean you've seriously manged to get her to exude a really nice tone of maturity here just so fricken tastefully I mean yeah frickin wow yo. Beautiful.👌 Beautiful.👌
Don't think I'd call her serial killer-ish at all here if I do say so myself.
Your life is similar to mine, it's weird that how much we have in common, thank you. You helped me that I'm not the only one who's like this. It's reassuring that there's someone who gets it
Always enjoy hearing ya chat.
shit are you me plague? I don't know what your goals look like but I hope you get there man.
An excellent podcast.
Honestly while your animations are lots of fun (and very quotable), my favorite vids of yours are the analytical ones, the vids that break something down and examine it thoroughly, whether it's related to storytelling, anime, video games, or whatever random thing you decided to focus on. Those vids must be pretty hard to put out regularly though. I suppose if I were to make a suggestion, you could try doing shorter less scripted takes on things, like "Oh, I watched this movie and this is what I think of it" or "I just read this book and it made me think of this" and you just go on tangents related to it, and so on. Maybe you have a doodle going on in the background like you did here and with other vids, or maybe it's just a still-frame related to the thing. Either way, I find your insight and opinions on stuff pretty interesting.
Need CBT to get better? Oh Eli I thought you’d never ask! Do go on…
47:51, idk if that was a slip of the tongue, but if it wasn't, congrats. I remember in other videos you saying stuff like "I'll probably die alone", or where you go off on bits where you're talking about how people will find your body in the snow 3 months down the line one day.
I need more furry monster poke whatever you have waifu animations
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