5 misunderstandings about Bipolar Disorder
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I love that she says “we” and “us” because it helps people suffering with these issues not feel isolated or like they are insane. That we all deal with shit and we’re in it together
I was very sick in and out of hospitals 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
Roman Wernsing you are still alone in the darkness. It’s a misconception that we are not alone. We don’t go shopping toggeter.
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I was thinking same thing
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The worst part about having Bipolar Disorder for me, is that I'm scared of myself. I don't know when I will get an episode, or how I will respond to it. I had a full year where I was in a deep depression. I tried committing suicide twice. This last year my medication has been working, and I generally feel okay. I can handle pretty much all of the effects, because I have been down before, but the daily fear of not knowing when it will come back is what scares me.
I understand how you feel. I've been feeling the same way but what I realised (after many many years and episodes of exploding, feeling guilty, being depressed and crying uncontrolably) is that I can't be afraid of the sunshine because I know how it feels when it rains. I am learning to create 'escape routes' for when my episodes get a bit much and experiencing life events as they arrive trying to remember that this is who I am but it is not who I have to be. I am choosing to react differently to myself because, mental illness or not, I am the only one incharge of me.
I completely understand what you mean. I feel that way dang near daily. I stopped making plans because I never know which version of me will wake up that day.
I relate to this. Mine came all of the sudden...ever since I keep trying to hurt myself...I keep getting myself into painful situations, and Im absolutely terrified that the disorder will take over
Peter Bonde same... I hate the uncertainty of it. It keeps me anxious in a way... whether I’m manic, depressed, mixed, or stable I’m constantly questioning WHAT I am... how am I doing alright... do I have any symptoms? If I do, am I managing it well? Do I even want to, to be honest?? It’s constant questioning and self analyzing and feeling like no matter how self aware I try to be, that I’ll still miss something... I’ll still succumb to my thoughts and lose all rationality. It’s freaking terrifying. I hate that I can barely reassure myself let alone reassure others and yet I have to, and have to fight every day to stay optimistic and believe that I can manage life; that I’ll keep getting better; that I’m okay how I am and will make it through whatever comes-including future episodes. Other people don’t like it but it’s a realistic expectation, likely to happen so the best I can do now is prepare. Literally the only thing that helps is trying to live in the moment cuz we don’t know what tomorrow brings, and we can’t change the past so worrying about it is just a waste of time, and will hinder me more... I think it’s cool you commented and are watching this. I find the more we share and learn the more control we gain over it. 🙏🏼
Yes! ..sometimes there's no way to prevent it..with me sudden stress is a trigger and bang that's it I'm in it.If I see stress coming I can pretty much now prevent it..I exercise ,eat often,good sleep routine and no idiots in my life..I also take my meds there a must also.I just think I've got to take good care of me.
it's so hard to deal with this I'm either super hyper, acting silly, and laughing at random things but then something so small hits me. I end up over thinking and cry myself to sleep, but that doesn't stop me from pursuing what I want. it's hard at times but I can control it so that's good
I know what this is like!
They told me i was bipolar put me in hospitals now heales since 15 y 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
Same.
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Thats me
i wish you would bring up about anger and aggression for people with bipolar disorder. all i hear is depression and mania. also hallucinating.
Yes! I really battle sometimes with extreme anger and rage. One time I tore apart my whole living room because of a small thing a roommate did. I was already in a really unhealthy mental state so the slightest thing triggered me into full on destructive mode.
When I was manic litterally anything would set me into a full blown rage I would punch walls cut my arm hit myself destroy the house it was fucking horrible
I agree. I get so aggravated and aggressive sometimes over the smallest things
oh god, my hallucinations always have me on edge, i'm always seeing shadows in the corner of my eye and i just feel like I'm being followed and watched. so unsettling
+1 on rage. I was misdiagnosed as unipolar depression from age 7 to 20 Rage was so prevalent and even the slightest thing would set it off. It took trying 5 antipsychotics to find one that worked. I haven't had rage in almost 3 years. Now appropriate anger... That's another story.
As a bipolar being, I've actually gone out and am enjoying myself then all of a sudden become deeply disturbed my mood changes and I end up leaving quickly and getting g home ASAP.
Everybody can experience different things , no I’m not an expert but know that you’re feelings are valid❤️
My whole life I thought my mania was just something special. In a way, I like it. I am very productive. Unfortunately, I feel like I can unify all of nature and when I down, I crash.
+Figaro Fog I am the same way.
Sara Kjeldsen it gives me a new perspective for people with mental disorders. I' m sure what is abnormal to others just feels like reality to people who have a disorder. Good thing is I can now recognize it and hopeful use it as a positive tool.
Figaro Fog when I was in mania I could stay up for 84 hours straight.
Nakasasama that's rough. i just get an intense urge to learn that is really inefficient but somewhat productive-- jumping from book to book
It was long ago for me, I am now 40+ with an MBA. :-) Bipolar is horrid
in the depressed state. :-( I have a picture of myself christmas of 1988
when the depression was in full swing.
Also, the most challenging part for me lately, while manic, is upsetting those people closest to me. Talking too much, interrupting others on accident, etc. Some of my close friends and family can deal with it easily and others get super upset/triggered by my intense amount of energy, etc.
I totally understand the Type 2 disorder part. I was finally diagnosed with it last year and it helped greatly. I was able to get onto medication to help the symptoms I was having, which weren't mania, but they were completely abnormal for me and my normal "depressive" behavior. My anger was very explosive, my irritability was becoming excessively worse, and I was having what the doctors now call rapid cycling. I had been having these symptoms for years yet no one would say I had bipolar because I wasn't having true mania, therefore I was constantly being told it was either behavioral problems on my part or the medication I was taking wasn't helping. Now, with the correct diagnosis and correct medication combination, my mood has evened out greatly. I never knew I could be so stable with my emotions.
I was diagnosed treated since 15y healed i made researxh 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
That sounds a lot like me my mood usually changes in minutes or hours everyday never am I happy 1 whole day or depressed 1 whole day I flip flop every couple of minutes to every couple of hours and I get really angry or sad easily
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This is very encouraging!
The fifth part made me teary because I enrolled at college at 2012 and here I am at 2018 still a freshman. I feel so old at 22 when my classmates are 18-20. There were so much mental instability in my part that made halt going to school many times.
21minute hang in there. It's easier said than done for sure I'm 33. Diagnosed at 17.
Just wanted to say, that today in Psychology class (high school), a classmate got up in front of everyone to share a project and mentioned that he had bipolar disorder. I thought it was pretty brave of him and i think its good that he's so open about it. (I knew about it before because he told me about it last year though) Point being, don't be ashamed of who you are :) no one said anything disrespectful to him or reacted negatively as far as i know. he didn't act like it was a big deal, so they didn't either.
I am lost. Not living. In bed all the time. BP 2 lifer. 60 yoa. You are good to watch but I am not treatable. Great thing you are doing. Paul
Please don't try uppers. I am so sorry for what you are go in through. Have you seen a doctor?
I agree Sabrina Hllis Bench. That is known as self medicating and is dangerous. A licensed pyschiatrist can help get the correct meds, but may take while to " tweak " them. I am glad I did because self medicating almost cost me my life.
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I was very sick and many hospitals i researxhed and been healed 15 y 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
You ok now ?
I think the comment about mood changability during the day is a little misleading. I suffer from ultradian rapid cycling and that can cause severe ups and downs within hours or even minutes. Some people do suffer with subclinical mood swings, but just because they don't have a diagnosis doesn't make their feelings any less real either.
hows is it like to feellike ultradian cyciling ?? i get get depressed or anxious for a mins or hours and happy for some period
I was in hospitals and many meds 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
@@adpeascos1900 im an ultradian cycler too and its like, you woke up manic then like a summer storm you become depressed from nothing , you feel the strange feeling inside you and oh shit ohh shit oh shit,... then after a few hour you feel normal then manic again , its really hard to manage, and the ppl around you just dont know what the fuck is happened with you when you were full with happynes and power and after a minute you feel like shit you become slower and you just want to hide somewhere
The worst thing for my bi polar is the hatred i have for myself and the anger i have for myself and everyone around me i sometimes get so excited before i go to sleep in the hope i never wake up
Yeah, I hear VERY often from people ,, I'm bipolar to, my mood swings every day" and ,,you're bipolar, you're not reliable" (especially at my work and university), so thank you for debunking those awful myths 😁
My wife has bipolar disorder. So many people need to hear this.
There is hope since 15 years i am torally healed 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
I’m crying, i never thought i’d find so many people who understand what i’ve been feeling i’ve always felt so alone in dealing with this. all of your guys’ stories that i’m reading are similar to my own and as sad as it is that other people go through this pain it’s also comforting
Kati, I love ur videos, just listening to ur voice makes me feel so much better. thank you!
Hey Kati, just thought I'd let you know that you were featured in Glamour magazine here in the UK this month. :) It was in the Life & Happiness section, and you're called 'The Straight Talker'.
"A gem of a youtube channel: Kati Morton is a marriage and family therapist who specialises in helping people affected by eating disorders. Her goal is for us all to have a frank, open discussions about mental health: she approaches topics that others might shy away from in a sympathetic but no-nonsense matter."
"Best for: mental health info delivered by someone whos more like your mate."
"We love: that you can ask her something in the comments section and she will answer is in her next video"
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As someone with BP2 I thank you for clearing the air on some of these topics.
Thanks for the video. Hardest part for me is depression and short term memory loss /fog. Sometimes I forget conversations I had with people, book appointments with customers I never talked too.. Weird stuff like that. Im always writing as many things, checklists as possible. I was diagnosed last summer of 2021 and seeing a therapist and taking proper medicine like a religion. I still have a long way to go.
Great video Kati! Understanding the myths on mental illness is so important in order to help reduce stigma! Keep up the great work!
I just recently got diagnosed with bipolar disorder 2 and I kind of had a hard time accepting the diagnosis. I didn't know that there were great people who live with this illness and still did great things for the world!!! Thank you katie.
Was recently diagnosed with bipolar 2. I always thought it was just ADHD whenever I had too much energy I couldnt burn off, but then I got to a point where I was angry at all the wrong things while at the same time being depressed. One hospital trip later, and I get diagnosed. So I'm still learning
Hi....I am Laura Book. I am a brain tumor survivor. I was diagnosed with Bipolar in 2000. I think the biggest tragedy that this diagnosis has brought me, and a mixed blessing of sorts, was feeling doomed to be evil, unable, and unloved....Its a mixed blessing, because once I understood the importance of staying on meds....and going to therapy...I realized that anything is possible...I am getting a Master's degree in Counseling, I am an aspiring model, author, possible singer....and my life is filled with love. I have so many many things I thought were only dreams coming true, and the purpose that drives me is advocacy. I am so Thankful that I have bipolar, and that I really understand how it manifests, in me...I know sometimes I will have mania for a week, and it actually has helped me get school work deadlines met...and it has helped me push past anxiety....but I also know that the most amazing thing about loving myself ,even in the hidden recesses of my mind, is to accept that, this is part...not all, but part.....of who I am....I am not perfect, but I am perfectly me...I dont skip meds, drink excessively, deny myself too much rest.....at this leg of the race, for me...its hydration I am still learning to appreciate.....my meds make me excessivly thirsty, and I experience physical fatigue and emotional fatigue, jittery sensations, pain and swelling...all when I skip water...I am not perfect, as I said before...but I feel like I am definitely ok with being a person, with bipolar.
Thank you! This is one of the best bipolar videos I have seen! Not everyone experiences it the same. I have Bipolar 2 with mixed episodes. I am mostly stable now on medication. Thanks for all you do
Great info. Clear and easy to follow. You are providing a service that is valuable Thank You
I'm Type1 with mostly mixed episodes and I can truly say: Well done. I really like and respect you and your approach (my first time watching one of your videos).
This makes so much sense! I was diagnosed with BP1 a couple of years ago, and I always wondered why sometimes my mind would be completely, 'you got this!', while my body was sore and in a 'depressive episode.
Ginger Tea Time! Do you ever feel like you question your diagnoses? Like...“oh surely I don’t have BPD1. I’m just being dramatic or saying incorrect trigger words to cause my dr to think I am”. I feel that way and am constantly questioning my diagnosis.
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Always. I always concider being on meds but then I change my mind because I think I’m overthinking or it’s not true. That I can overcome it. 🙄. Trust. You’re not alone.
#katiFAQ journal topic suggestion.: I found this quote of Gandhi. It says:
"We may stumble and fall but shall rise again; it should be enough if we did not run away from the battle"
I really like it because it showes that it's okay to not feel okay sometimes and that things will get better again. It's enough to just hang in there and keep strong. Because it's worth it.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 about a month ago. I didn’t learn a lot about my diagnosis from my doctor so I’m doing my research now and I’ve watched all your videos covering bipolar disorder and this one really touched me! Especially the last myth, that was one of my biggest worries that I wouldn’t be a reliable person again or that people would think that I’m unreliable or unstable but the reassurance from you was really helpful. I wish you were my therapist. I really like how you explain things and how kind you are. I just subscribed (: please keep putting the word out there that us bipolar people aren’t nuts!! 😂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder, and honestly it's been a very scary time for me. It's been really hard to accept the diagnosis. Thank you so much for your informative and educational videos!
In my humble opinion there is a normal state between depression and (hypo)mania, I try to achieve this state and cling on to it as long as i can.
Wiekert Blaak agreed
you rock kati morton (and I know this video is from 2014 but highly relevant still)
hi from Australia!
myth buster #5 is the most valuable from my perspective
surviving bipolar I (borderline unipolar/mania) here
I watched your videos online years ago when I wasn't getting the right help (along with 3 or 4 other 'tubers) and you helped me a lot - with your knowledge and your delivery (knowledgable, up-vibe, and challenging-in-a-good-way attitude - and the 'non-fakeable' genuine desire to make a differance and help
you should be proud of yourself
Thanks Kati - keep up the good work [hugz]
I was sick they said healed 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
Bipolar sucks
Thank`s for a great video! Most of this stuff was unknown to me and as a guy wanting to be a psychologist in one day i find this fascinating. Keep up a good work :)
can you make a video about different ways mania or hypomania may present? I've heard people say their mania/hypomania comes out in the form of anger or extreme irritation, so not just the grand thoughts. I recently diagnosed with bipolar 2, j can't afford therapy. but I'm really trying to better understand what's happening with me and what hypomania looks like.
have you had grand ideas? I would like to hear them.
21tmitch
21tmitch : just curious, are you on meds, without therapy? How are you managing your symptoms? What prompted the diagnosis?
bxcinderella you can see a physician and they can diagnose you and give u meds u don't HAVE TO see a therapist to be diagnosed with mental illness.
I tend to look at meds, therapy, sleep and excercise as all being meds, or forms of medication.
Your explanation of mixed episodes is much more accurate in this video than in your "What Are Mixed Episodes?" video. Thank you,
i have bioplar and was ''lucky'' enough to be diagnosed early in life, which makes me today, at 25 being able to live a life i never thought was possible when i was younger, but let me tell u this video had me in tears cause i've never heard anyone speak so much true on how it is, not even my doctors.
I appreciate the hope in this video.
Great video! Thank you for providing this information.
Thank you so much for this, you are super empowering.
My husband of 20 years has Bipolar type 1. Even with medication his Manic episodes always last between 4 to 8 months. The mixed episodes are terrifying. I feel so bad watching him suffer but he has taught me a lot about survival.
I was sick they said and i researxhed and i am healed since 15 years 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
Thank you ") I really appreciate your kindness and well matter to explain such a difficult subject that most don't even have a clue what having bipolar 2 is like
I Love your energy and insight :) Your videos always help me...Thank you so much!!! -Ralph
Thank you for this information.
We are also trying to share information about mental illness.
It's amazing what people don't know, and you don't know what you don't know.
Thanks, a lot ..its a great help in my masters studies. God bless you.
Thank you so much for making this video
Kati, do you have Bipolar too? I’m also an LMFT and was first diagnosed at 19 years old. Had a long period of balance and thought I was “recovered” and recently moved to a new state and am in a semi manic or hypomanic episode. I’ve been labeling myself as cyclothymic but now am clear that I have Bipolar 1 thanks to your videos! I really appreciate the support 🙏💕😌
Love Your eyes in Your videos :) its like Your sending out love And care thru Your eyes ❤️
I`m bipolar 1 with HTC .....yep my life has more ups and downs than a roller coaster!
Thank you for making these video's. I'm bipolar. I don't feel so alone. Love, everyone battling bipolar or any mental illness. 💚
Thank you this! I suffer from Bipolar 2 and many people thing its less than because it's not Bipolar 1. I have suffered from bulimia for 20 yrs and it over showed the bipolar.After 8 hospital stays anywhere from 3 months to 4 days, I was finally diagnosed. I am still learning about this myself. Thank you for sharing.
My dad is bipolar and my mom and I have seen his manic and depressive episodes and his manic episodes had a huge impact on the family and because he didn't get help for a Long time the family was dysfunctional for quite a Long time and it has impacted me a lot.
I've been struggling for my feelings for quite some time (I don't know, maybe a year or two) and recently I've just given up on trying to cope with my feelings (I get really hyper and energetic sometimes and then I become depressed after that) and I'm getting help soon. I can finally get better and figure my feelings out!
I'm glad u r brother
i spend most of my time in depressive episodes and despising myself for things i did during hypomanic episodes. it's awful always feeling like you cant allow yourself to be happy or at peace. anxiety makes it worse too. this video helped me because i didnt really understand how i have been depressed for so long without mania. when i try to tell people about it they usually tune out or dont really believe me because they have this idea that you need to be a danger or 'crazy' to be bipolar, but actually we can fit in pretty well and seem 'normal' without being a danger to anyone. i just feel as though mental illness has taken to many things from me in my life. i felt really alone for a long time but videos like this and people in the comments make me feel like there are others out there who understand
This is awesome thank you for sharing! You explain very well
Nice vídeo. Thank you! Congratulations!
Thanks for posting this! I'm going to have to be meds for life…but so many people don't really understand my bipolar II…I think I may show this to people to help people understand. Thanks for sharing your story! Take care! :)
Thank you for this video
Very interesting and accurate.
I have been diagnosed by Bipolar I for over 15 years. I have been hospitalized about 20 times, my last hospitalization was last January triggered by sudden death of My brother, way too much stress and change. My twin is Bipolar II.
I hold a full time job and live alone and am completely self sufficient.
Help and support at all costs IS key.
I was recently diagnosed with Bi Polar 1, this video is very helpful insight tool to overcome the myths of bipolar. I'm learning more and becoming active with my diagnosis. thanks
everything you are saying about bipolar 2 is so true. I am suffering of it. Greetings from Austria
HAPPY TO MEET YOU no ummm laugh we do have fun but just do not tell anyone that are having fun well crying
I am almost 52, I suffered all those years. I am so sorry for being so blind.
I would have go to school without so much anxiety.
I would have talk to the girl.
I would have been a bether father/grand father/step father/brother/friend/worker/husband etc...
I would have follow my dreams.
I am scared of the next high or down.
I wished I was dead so many times.
This recent (two days ago) revelation is a big event to me and I find it hard.
I live almost constantly in depression and isolation. Bipolar Type 2 for 18 years with some periods of eutimia in between . Thank u for your video!
My brother has bipolar disorder and what I have got to say is that it's really difficult for all of us to deal with him. Three days he goes fine and after that he goes hyper and destructive. Nearly everyday there is a fight. No matter how much we try to care he thinks all of us are wrong and he is only right. Worst of all is that he doesn't take any medication neither agrees to visit hospital.
thank you so much for doing this video kati i have bipolar and i feel like most people who make comments don't understand the disorder so i will be sharing this video! I have mentioned on my channel i have bipolar disorder and i get a lot of messages from young girls especially on tumblr saying they've diagnosed themselves and this worries me. Would you be able to make a video in the future about the danger of self diagnosis? thank you xxx
I was rold i m bipolar i fpund out it is not a siclness i researched healed since 15 years 1 day i researxhed i have been healed since 15 years no more meds i read dr abram hoffer 2 masks of madness 3 psychiatry industry of death 4 life regenerator 5 dr gliddeb 6 dr schulze 7 dr andrew saul
Thanks for this Kati part of my diagnosis is Bi Polar II and I have had mixed episodes before yet I've heard others say only Bi Polar I's get mixed episodes. I knew that couldn't be correct because I am Not Bi Polar I and absolutely have had mixed episodes. I've seen Bi Polar I Mania and I will never EVER FORGET it. It broke my heart to see this guy through this and it scared me as well.
Hi, I really love ur video about Bipolar issues. I was diagnosed bipolar type 2 on this January 2020, and I'am struggling from this symtomps for 5 years and late. And you're right with ur statement that "people with bplr dsrdr are not hindered". Eventhough I'am living with bplr dsordr, I still can working as an english teacher (with my ups and downs phase). Now I'am on my medication, hopefully I can get better than before
Thanks so much Katie!!! This helped and I have bipolar 2 and saw a lot of this stuff to be true for me
This is very good.
I love your videos so much! I wish I had a therapist like you. I have bpd(and some others) and it’s so hard for me to function. My emotions are super high(feeling good or bad) almost every day at it is so tiring. Plus having some sort relationship is difficult too
I love this..it helps alot..im bi polar type 2 and its not easy..i was diagnosed at 13 im 39 and still learning about my illness..its not simple
I have Bipolar 2 and a lot of people feel that it isn't "proper" bipolar, thank you for this video.
This is a great video that I shared on my wall because people are always questioning my bipolar, even though I have had it for well over 20 years. Would love see videos with mixed illnesses like bipolar and ocd or bpd and bipolar to understand this better.
I started therapy. 9 months of like being in a bluh, like in very humid dark cocoon; harmed myself at the end of it all (which I think was "the straw that broke the camel's back", then just isolated myself entirely, and I got scared [IDK, I just went inward and "got the guns out" on anyone that wanted to help]. like I was a starship craft; things got very bad on the ship, and then I just raised defense shields, got into battle ready status, turned-off coms and went on guns blazing on all friendlies; and the fleet command is like "what the hell got into him; try and re-establish communications, they are friendly, be vigilant, something might've got into them". My parents got very upset and super worried, everyone around me including professors were kind of sensing something is a bit off. Then my parents came and visited me; I was in a mess. I wouldn't call it a "depressive state"; rather something smothered by something of depressive-like futures. Anyhow. My school performance took a nose dive with force, I went from As, Bs, Cs at worst to groupings of Fs (30 percentile on tests considered to be very easy), even university student affairs are like "the hell happened, if you were not capable of a student; we can get it, but you'r past level of performance shows that you are capable. These Fs look more intentional". It's like I was closed-in uptight, responding to things to not appear as "mute" or uninterested, although my brain was like on a "commercial break" on a TV show. My brain was just blank. I then went that evening; got a very large cup of coffee, drank it, drank another latte (Me going like "common you piece of shit, work wake up dam it" and I remember driving at night going home, and colors got were vivid; they were there before, but now they like "pop-out" not in a strong way; but in a lively kind of way. And then I started to have a realization moment of what the hell was going on; like something very "working again inside my head"... I went home that day with tears, like being in a locked-in syndrome kind of thing, and ME is trying get out into the world. Like pushing on a door that's slammed shut by heavy winds, you try and push on it to get out; but you can't out-strength the wind. Then I was able to nudge it a tiny tiny bit and "see the lights" and the "vividness" of the outside world; as If I could be here, present, and be able to look people in the eyes and speak with them.
I was so excited, and when I went to the therapist she asked "how are you feeling today" I said "good", "how was it with the mentor today "very good actually" (after 2 weeks of being of starting therapy, after 9+3 months of being in "low state"; wanting to switch majors at the end of it; not having the will to do it anymore, with just a dark look on things) "Things are starting to be more clear; like when I'm driving at night I could see more details in things (i.e. store lights...etc); and I could somehow focus on that for a bit (my brain was just [bloop, here you go, like a radar fixating on something, effortlessly]) ; plus I can speak, I can see things in a clearer way (whilst having a being elated)". She asked me "when did this start", "It started gradually 3 days ago". She then asked "do you smoke?...(no) this is confidential, do you smoke or are you taking any drugs?, honestly (no)", She then paused for a minute... and started asking about what I think of the same things I used to think of at the start of the therapy... to nearly all I said that there was a somewhat decrease in it all; and that now I'm having some sense of direction (an internal thing) I had a plan made for me before by my mentor (I have final exams I need to pass, but I just couldn't do it; the plan was sitting on the desk. Then she paused. At the end of all that she said "I'm going to give you my personal contact number, and the email, I'm here tomorrow, and next week.... etc". The pauses, psychologist gage, probe-like questions, and the slight change of tone made me sense that she might be thinking of something; I can't know what it is, but If I were to guess I would guess "something starting with a B, respresning the number 2 (bipolarity of some sorts). Because after those questions, especially the "are you taking any drugs " I was like "Hold on, it sure looks like I took something"; because I was like "this is great, WOW, I CAN SEE, THINGS ARE CLEAR; OMG" XD.
IDK why I felt happy after that therapy session. Regardless, I don't care what this is, this is great, I hope I get more of this, and I hope for the best (and If this is bipolar, I surely just want to be as far as possible from that "depression-like" state as possible).
Thanks for reading :D
Great channel would love to have you on the anxiety guy podcast one day. Inspirational stuff.
Wow Kati ive learnt a lot. I don't know anyone with Biopolar and had a couple of these misconceptions passed down from other people! Thanks for enlightening me :-) I'll be sure to enlighten others
You are awesome!
could you talk some about rapid cycling and ultradian bipolar disorder?
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I hv bipolar bpd ptsd and GAD! Thank you 4 helping me understand these diagnosis better and the reason DBT therapy has been recommended 4 me by my psych Dr
Number 5 is the biggest misconception of my life
Love you. Your channel is God sent Tfs 😘
What about patients with rapid cycling? Who don't stay in an episode for 1-2 weeks?
Kaylee Wheeler i wanted to ask the same because of my case
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@Sophie Waring
That doesn't sound like cyclothymia because the mood swings in it aren't as severe as in bipolar disorder and people with it can function in society if untreated, with difficulty yes, but they can.
The depression wouldn't leave you paralysed and the highs wouldn't keep you awake for days..
Rapid cycling isn't cyclothymia.
They're separate.
You can have a rapid cycling bipolar I or II.
Sounds like you have full blown bipolar, sadly.
@Sophie Waring
No problem, love Xx
hopefully your doctor is a psychiatrist.
I've legit went to my family doctor for some recommendation letters and she couldn't even comprehend the idea of me being outside stressing me out to the point of severe headaches.
Always best to visit a specialist when we are dealing with something.
Good luck!
Back in January I had a hypomanic episode towards the end of the month(22-27), I then had a brief dip into a mild depression until February 6, and that’s when the present Mania began.....
this is why I would never tell people about my illness as they would just assume that I will be up and down all the time. I hate stigma
I never got help because I have had this for as long as I can remember. I wasn't gonna get help for feeling like I always have. to anyone out there if you feel like shit, always down and are waiting for that one day out of the month where you feel like how you wished you feel everyday, go get help.. meds are a game changer, everyday will feel like a good day.
Hey, you forgot remission as a possible mood state. Even though very rarely, I've had episodes in which I felt normal as a patient with bipolar type II disorder.
Thank you
Thank you so much for doing this! I've had SO many friends who've had bipolar 1 and WAY too many people automatically think they're dangerous. I even had an ex boyfriend who was bipolar and my family actually tried to make me break up with him! We did end up breaking up later but not because of my family. Robin Williams had bipolar 1. I remember reading an article about it in high school. Catherine Zeta Jones has bipolar 2 and Demi Lovato has bipolar1. So don't let anyone tell you you can't accomplish things.
I like that you added new intro music.
I think you are brilliant and brave X
I hate trying to explain to people who want to know what it's like. My sister insists that suicide is a selfish act and depressed people should get over it. I had a co-worker who always said you know you can pull yourself up by your boot straps and stop feeling for your self. I wish I could. Thank you for doing these videos, I hope the people who don't understand this disorder would watch them, but I am not holding my breath.
Amen. I have so many patients that were diagnosed with bipolar disorder just because they told a psychiatrist that they were Moody. That's it. No hypomania/mania. I have changed so many patient diagnoses. It's unreal. Or the criteria were misunderstood by the patients when the provider asked pertinent questions and it turns out that the answer that they gave to fit the criteria is wrong. Like insomnia is mistaken for decreased need for sleep as you would find in a manic/ hypomanic episode. Or maxed credit cards for shopping sprees in a manic/ hypomanic episode.
I love this video so much omg
Thank you so much for this video. I am going to post on facebook as I am always trying to educate others about my bipolar (and many have come forward to tell me of their own struggles, either themselves or with a family member with bipolar)
thank you so much for this awesomely ha bisky vid i love learning so much you are amazing
"We can overcome. If we get the help and the support that we need, we can do whatever we want. Just because we're diagnosed with bipolar disorder doesn't mean we can't achieve great things." "...Don't think that having a diagnosis makes you think that you can't do whatever you want. I just encourage each of you to reach out and get the support and help that you need in order to function in your life and do whatever it is you dream to do. *Because we can all do what we dream.*" This is making me cry. I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder after having a very dangerous manic episode, and my life feels like a series of shambles. This is before I've gotten therapy, and despite people telling me it'll all be great and lovely and wonderful to get the help I need (which is really what I need in this time) I've been struggling to get through this period of guilt and a strange feeling I've been fighting an invisible enemy my whole life without knowing what it was. People tell me I'm a fantastic writer, but I've always dreamed of being an actor, of living out the worlds I imagine. I hope this time I will get the help that I need and learn a new way of life. I hope to contribute to the acting world in some way, some day! Thanks again!
Hell yeah to number #5. Been diagnosed almost 6 years, and I mean it when I say I'm proud to be bipolar.
my biggest fear (which is unlikely) is that i’m going to be put into a situation where i make a decision for myself, like transitioning, getting married, or even a legal situation someone’s going to find out i’m bipolar and say that i can’t make decisions for myself and i’m just manic. it’s just a fear i have that certain choices will be taken from me
i think your vids are fantastic!!!!
I'm in the UK and I have a diagnosis of bipolar II but I mainly get mixed states...I hate them. Imagine pacing up and down for 6 hours in a row all through the night, being unable to read or write (going too fast to make my writing coherent and my words get all mixed up, including when I speak) and having so many impulses and needs to talk/clean/travel that I scare myself. I get so so angry and I have no clue at all why - I tell people I love to please leave me alone so I won't hurt them.. I isolate myself. The last mixed state lasted around 4-5 months, my hypos are 2-3 months and my depressive episodes have been up to 10 months (i think and always include suicidal thoughts and plans).....Thanks for saying bipolar II is not milder...it really is hell for me these past few years since I entered my 20s (I've had it from age 11 we think looking back). Great video x