At the tail end of my STEM degree, doing the most complex classes, a little stressful but still manageable. Using this as study music. Just sat back from all the typing and just let this take me back to my childhood for a moment. It's amazing how much this ambience feels like home for people. I can't even think of a game post 2013 that stimulates the same relaxed feeling. This is very well edited and put together, thank you for these.
@@aprettyfunnyperson4516 It's going well, but not without it's worries. I'm a cybersecurity student a little over a month away from graduation. I handle the coursework fine, and I tackle anything computer related comfortably, but I feel I have to fight my professors often for their incompetence. Most of them don't seemingly know how to use a computer, so my classes are broken half the time and I have to fix it for them. My final three classes share the same professor, but while I have no issues with him in a direct sense, he doesn't grade anything and will do it all in a chunk at the end of the course. So I don't know if I'm doing any of these assignments right, for all I know, I've been doing it wrong, and will fail at the end because I had no way of knowing until it was over. I also worry about what I will do afterwards. I am a creature of routine and stability, sudden change is not something I enjoy. I need to figure out work, taxes, experience, and alot of other things very suddenly. I may not even be able to jump straight into my chosen field, if there aren't any entry level positions that are actually entry level to find. Possibly, I will have to start in generic IT and work my way up, but I am unsure how to find these jobs. Google Jobs and Indeed don't show anything in my area, but I also don't know what I'm supposed to be looking for, my career advisor promises that students are helped with this upon graduation, but future solutions doesn't soothe a mind used to solving things now. I've been told that HR people are incompetent in hiring, and do not know enough about anything IT related to hire appropriately for it, hence the "need 8 years experience in this program that hasn't even existed that long" memes. I've been advised to just email the heads of IT teams directly, but to do that I need to suddenly know every major corporation or governmental company to do that, and I'm unsure where to look. I'll have to decide between private and public work, because I'm an "anti hacker" that works to secure servers and networks, I need to look for jobs in large organizations, namely either a corporation or the government. Hell, I was paid to go to college by the government because they need them so badly in the workforce. Corporations, private, make more money, but job security is lesser and it's higher stress. The government, public, however, is basically unfirable, and has good benefits, but makes less money, that said, aside from certifications, I could get secret clearances (Like being "top secret") which will net me jobs that pay more because of the exclusivity, but I'd have to find a company that would sponsor me to get it. I would think that I could start in public which makes less but is harder to be fired so I could build up experience before jumping straight into corporate. I live near one of the largest cities in the country, so that means I'll probably be looking there. I've only ever had a summer job or two, I mostly take care of my father and the house while I study, so I'll have to figure out interviews, working, taxes and all that out too. Certifications must also be considered, they are much more important than any degree, my degree comes with some, but they aren't the industry standard CompTIA ones the industry runs on. That said, mine come from a child company of CompTIA, it's the exact same test, except mine are cheaper and don't expire, the standard ones are expensive to test for, and must be retaken every so many years. I don't have the money to throw at those yet, and the degree gets me ready to take them when I do. I am a great test taker, but still, the unknowns of being supervised during it and having to memorize it all in a short period of time scares me a bit. I psych myself out on things that I know will be an issue but I can't immediately fix or do. In the moment I'm always emotionless and fine, but it's like a child waiting for a shot, stressing out over everything. My mental health is also not helping my studies. I am not a very social creature and am touch starved. Being a touch-love-languaged person who never really touches anyone takes it's toll, and I'm never in a mood or state that feels particularly healthy to stew in. I find myself binging assignments for 12+ hours at a time just to keep my thoughts from wandering, as if I stay busy, I don't have time to think about it. All in all, there are alot of unknowns, and I cannot stand unknowns, so I can't help but think about it all the time, but until it's time to do it, I'm just spinning wheels. One of the best ways to torture me is to give me a puzzle or problem I can't solve right now. It'll never leave my mind and I can't move on from it entirely. Any time I'm not busy it gnaws at me, and it's all been wearing me down for years. I'm waiting and working, coursework, housework, gym, on cycle, getting through every month by hoping the next one will make it worth it, and I've been lying to myself for over a decade with it now, I'm not sure how many times I'll have the spirit left to keep saying it. It's like being a machine running on fumes and desperately trying to make what's left last until it can be refueled, but it's been running thousands of times longer than it should have between maintenance. I cannot do this forever. It must be worth it, it has to be worth it. I feel like I'm missing something in this life, but if I've made it this long with this loneliness without finding anyone decent enough to spend time with, at this point I'll either survive alone as I always have or it'll kill me. *But* I have dogs to take care of, and family to assist, and all of this work will have been for nothing. So here I remain, studying, starting at harsh white screens at 3 am, forgetting to eat as often as I should be, coming out of social interactions with a bad taste in my mouth, looking forward to the occassional hug from the family I visit that actually likes them, but also not wanting to desensitize my emotions enough, because after awhile without warmth I just feel nothing and can go back to being a working, functional computer. Analyzing, collating, archiving information and spitting it back out like consistent curated fun facts like a glorified organic search engine. Perhaps I will find a reason that will make this all worth it, but I am six or seven years beyond being optimistic or naïve. How are your courses going? I apologize if that was not as wholesome or as uplifting as it should have been.
@@aprettyfunnyperson4516 I typed out a very long and detailed reply and when I hit post it disappeared. Long story short, I'm doing everything I can right, but I'm still stressed and the loneliness might kill me one of these days, but not today. The work will have been worth it, it must be. I'm close to graduating, around a month. So many unknowns, but I'm so desensitized to my own emotions as a way to handle the "hunger pangs" of loneliness that builds over seven years that I kind of just keep doing tasks and staying busy so I don't have time to think about anything else. I am so very tired, but I work to improve myself all the time. Studying, helping family, gym, taking care of dogs. It doesn't help me mentally or emotionally, I'm a touch-love-language person surrounded by not touchy feely people. I am so not used to warmth or affection like that at this point if I received the things I was starving for I wouldn't know how to handle it and might just shut down immediately. But I will keep working and improving. All I have is to hope I stumble into a reason for all of this to have been worth it. I am not optimistic, but the blind hope is all I have at this point keeping me going. How are your classes?
@ Man, I feel like you’d be really welcome at my church. The people there are always some of the friendliest, most touch-feely folk out there. I was pretty surprised by it since I am the opposite way, but it’s not a bad thing. What brought me to that church was even crazier though. I don’t know if you’ll believe this, but I’ve been through some crazy stuff. I first tried to live like a Christian last year. I was just laying alone in bed when I felt true forgiveness, and such love was otherworldly. It overcame my entire body and felt as if I were lifted out of it slightly. If love-touch-feely is what you want, I can’t imagine anything better than that. As for my classes…yeah I’m not optimistic either. They always take forever for me to finish and the requirements for graduation feel beyond my means. My family keeps moving too which makes the requirements change with each college too. Otherwise I have to deal with a ridiculous out of state fee.
I love your Skyrim and Morrowind videos. Feels really good when listening/watching. And I feel specialy good with Tundra. I don't know why but this song is so special, for me at least. Thanks for those experiences. 😊
These videos really help my anxiety, I just wanted to say thank you. It has been really hard lately and these just help me ground myself when I'm spiraling. Low stimulus but just enough and comes from my favorite game, in one if not my favorite area. The Sea of Ghosts and the College of Winterhold.
Babe wake up new skyrim ambience just dropped
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This was always one of my favorite spots to just hang out in the game.
Hello freind thanks you so much for Skyrim 😊❤
Thank you for watching!!
Thank you Lost Music Co you've helped me so much after losing my mam xxxx
wishing you peace and love and happy days ahead. i lost my dad 5 months ago. this music really does help
At the tail end of my STEM degree, doing the most complex classes, a little stressful but still manageable. Using this as study music. Just sat back from all the typing and just let this take me back to my childhood for a moment. It's amazing how much this ambience feels like home for people. I can't even think of a game post 2013 that stimulates the same relaxed feeling. This is very well edited and put together, thank you for these.
Literally nobody cares about your stem decree, or If u do complex classes
I care about it. How are your classes coming along? Mine are killing me!
@@aprettyfunnyperson4516 It's going well, but not without it's worries. I'm a cybersecurity student a little over a month away from graduation. I handle the coursework fine, and I tackle anything computer related comfortably, but I feel I have to fight my professors often for their incompetence. Most of them don't seemingly know how to use a computer, so my classes are broken half the time and I have to fix it for them.
My final three classes share the same professor, but while I have no issues with him in a direct sense, he doesn't grade anything and will do it all in a chunk at the end of the course. So I don't know if I'm doing any of these assignments right, for all I know, I've been doing it wrong, and will fail at the end because I had no way of knowing until it was over.
I also worry about what I will do afterwards. I am a creature of routine and stability, sudden change is not something I enjoy. I need to figure out work, taxes, experience, and alot of other things very suddenly. I may not even be able to jump straight into my chosen field, if there aren't any entry level positions that are actually entry level to find. Possibly, I will have to start in generic IT and work my way up, but I am unsure how to find these jobs. Google Jobs and Indeed don't show anything in my area, but I also don't know what I'm supposed to be looking for, my career advisor promises that students are helped with this upon graduation, but future solutions doesn't soothe a mind used to solving things now. I've been told that HR people are incompetent in hiring, and do not know enough about anything IT related to hire appropriately for it, hence the "need 8 years experience in this program that hasn't even existed that long" memes. I've been advised to just email the heads of IT teams directly, but to do that I need to suddenly know every major corporation or governmental company to do that, and I'm unsure where to look.
I'll have to decide between private and public work, because I'm an "anti hacker" that works to secure servers and networks, I need to look for jobs in large organizations, namely either a corporation or the government. Hell, I was paid to go to college by the government because they need them so badly in the workforce. Corporations, private, make more money, but job security is lesser and it's higher stress. The government, public, however, is basically unfirable, and has good benefits, but makes less money, that said, aside from certifications, I could get secret clearances (Like being "top secret") which will net me jobs that pay more because of the exclusivity, but I'd have to find a company that would sponsor me to get it. I would think that I could start in public which makes less but is harder to be fired so I could build up experience before jumping straight into corporate. I live near one of the largest cities in the country, so that means I'll probably be looking there.
I've only ever had a summer job or two, I mostly take care of my father and the house while I study, so I'll have to figure out interviews, working, taxes and all that out too.
Certifications must also be considered, they are much more important than any degree, my degree comes with some, but they aren't the industry standard CompTIA ones the industry runs on. That said, mine come from a child company of CompTIA, it's the exact same test, except mine are cheaper and don't expire, the standard ones are expensive to test for, and must be retaken every so many years. I don't have the money to throw at those yet, and the degree gets me ready to take them when I do. I am a great test taker, but still, the unknowns of being supervised during it and having to memorize it all in a short period of time scares me a bit. I psych myself out on things that I know will be an issue but I can't immediately fix or do. In the moment I'm always emotionless and fine, but it's like a child waiting for a shot, stressing out over everything.
My mental health is also not helping my studies. I am not a very social creature and am touch starved. Being a touch-love-languaged person who never really touches anyone takes it's toll, and I'm never in a mood or state that feels particularly healthy to stew in. I find myself binging assignments for 12+ hours at a time just to keep my thoughts from wandering, as if I stay busy, I don't have time to think about it.
All in all, there are alot of unknowns, and I cannot stand unknowns, so I can't help but think about it all the time, but until it's time to do it, I'm just spinning wheels. One of the best ways to torture me is to give me a puzzle or problem I can't solve right now. It'll never leave my mind and I can't move on from it entirely. Any time I'm not busy it gnaws at me, and it's all been wearing me down for years. I'm waiting and working, coursework, housework, gym, on cycle, getting through every month by hoping the next one will make it worth it, and I've been lying to myself for over a decade with it now, I'm not sure how many times I'll have the spirit left to keep saying it. It's like being a machine running on fumes and desperately trying to make what's left last until it can be refueled, but it's been running thousands of times longer than it should have between maintenance. I cannot do this forever. It must be worth it, it has to be worth it. I feel like I'm missing something in this life, but if I've made it this long with this loneliness without finding anyone decent enough to spend time with, at this point I'll either survive alone as I always have or it'll kill me.
*But* I have dogs to take care of, and family to assist, and all of this work will have been for nothing. So here I remain, studying, starting at harsh white screens at 3 am, forgetting to eat as often as I should be, coming out of social interactions with a bad taste in my mouth, looking forward to the occassional hug from the family I visit that actually likes them, but also not wanting to desensitize my emotions enough, because after awhile without warmth I just feel nothing and can go back to being a working, functional computer. Analyzing, collating, archiving information and spitting it back out like consistent curated fun facts like a glorified organic search engine. Perhaps I will find a reason that will make this all worth it, but I am six or seven years beyond being optimistic or naïve.
How are your courses going? I apologize if that was not as wholesome or as uplifting as it should have been.
@@aprettyfunnyperson4516 I typed out a very long and detailed reply and when I hit post it disappeared. Long story short, I'm doing everything I can right, but I'm still stressed and the loneliness might kill me one of these days, but not today. The work will have been worth it, it must be. I'm close to graduating, around a month. So many unknowns, but I'm so desensitized to my own emotions as a way to handle the "hunger pangs" of loneliness that builds over seven years that I kind of just keep doing tasks and staying busy so I don't have time to think about anything else.
I am so very tired, but I work to improve myself all the time. Studying, helping family, gym, taking care of dogs. It doesn't help me mentally or emotionally, I'm a touch-love-language person surrounded by not touchy feely people. I am so not used to warmth or affection like that at this point if I received the things I was starving for I wouldn't know how to handle it and might just shut down immediately. But I will keep working and improving. All I have is to hope I stumble into a reason for all of this to have been worth it. I am not optimistic, but the blind hope is all I have at this point keeping me going.
How are your classes?
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Man, I feel like you’d be really welcome at my church. The people there are always some of the friendliest, most touch-feely folk out there. I was pretty surprised by it since I am the opposite way, but it’s not a bad thing.
What brought me to that church was even crazier though. I don’t know if you’ll believe this, but I’ve been through some crazy stuff. I first tried to live like a Christian last year.
I was just laying alone in bed when I felt true forgiveness, and such love was otherworldly. It overcame my entire body and felt as if I were lifted out of it slightly. If love-touch-feely is what you want, I can’t imagine anything better than that.
As for my classes…yeah I’m not optimistic either. They always take forever for me to finish and the requirements for graduation feel beyond my means. My family keeps moving too which makes the requirements change with each college too.
Otherwise I have to deal with a ridiculous out of state fee.
Such peace and contentment in a fiercely chill environment.....
I really love your videos. They are always in the background when I read, or clean, or study, or just relax. Thank you!❤
Thank you so much for watching!!
You have become a big help with my sleep routine. Thank you for everything!
Oh my god this is so good. Thank you for uploading all of this. I listen to it all the time. Skyrim Soundtrack is one of the best.
Catching up on what I missed. Lovely stuff.
Thank you for sharing such wonderful videos. This is what I need to get relaxed or study.
Just what I needed today! You rock! Tysm for all your hard work! 💚💚💚
I love your Skyrim and Morrowind videos. Feels really good when listening/watching. And I feel specialy good with Tundra. I don't know why but this song is so special, for me at least. Thanks for those experiences. 😊
I love Tundra as well, probably my favorite track from the entire game!!
Oh, man. I really love this one!
Wow this is really relaxing
These videos really help my anxiety, I just wanted to say thank you. It has been really hard lately and these just help me ground myself when I'm spiraling. Low stimulus but just enough and comes from my favorite game, in one if not my favorite area. The Sea of Ghosts and the College of Winterhold.
I am so glad these have been helpful!! I really hope your anxiety gets better friend 🩶
@lostmusicco ❤ one day I hope you're in Spotify or something. Either way, I'll be here enjoying it.
Hey you your finally awake a new skyrim ambience video has dropped
0:38 О, эти божественные лю-лю лю-лю 😁👍
So many people suffering from issues innlife finding solace in a game that never cared about them back
Good one
You can almost see Atmora from here
I wanna live in that shack
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Great ❤
Ice ice baby.
Yes😊
Valeu!
Thank you so much!! I really appreciate it!!
A certain yellow smiley app sent me here.
it is always skyrim.
I love you
Brrr.