American Pleasure Club’s (formerly known as Teen Suicide) new album ‘A Whole Fucking Lifetime of This’ is out 2/16, listen to “this is heaven & id die for it” right here: ruclips.net/video/MtHifoG2kgM/видео.html
haven’t been able to listen to this song since i was a teenager. the feeling this song brought still lies in my bones. things are better but i am still me.
same man, everything nowdays is so pointless for me, i cant get out of this mental fucking prison and shit feels like its on repeat.. im not depressed nor suicidal but life feels so boring and pointless though it shouldnt. i have a loving family and everything i could want but i feel like im missing something and im just fucked atm...
Dog O. Johnson that's what makes this band so great, not only do they not limit themselves to one type of sound but all of their songs are able to convey all the emotions that they were feeling when they were writing/recording their music wether we can relate to it or not, it's sad but yet addictive to listen to for being so beautiful
my brother gave me his playlist and this song was on it. he came back from the hospital a couple days ago and i cried so hard it hurt to walk. we all love you
I used to listen to this song a lot when I was 14 (17 now) and I miss the emotions I left back then, I drink too much now and I feel like a shell but I hope everyone finds themselves and heals
im kinda with you, i dont drink n im not gonna tell u what to do or what not to do cuz its not my business, pot is my vice but i still have the same emotions (at least similar) connections to this song as you do. its a comforting feeling knowing im not the only one going through the same stuff.
lyrics : i have dreamt about what it's like to die and i saw myself becoming shadows again just like i did when i was a kid i saw my bones crack open and all the things i've been hiding from you spill out all the secrets that i never thought i'd tell anyone about i am warm and i am bored and i am drifting through this place it's no better or worse than anything else that's ever happened to me, but i wish that i'd never met a lot of the people that i've met not because i don't like them but because i only let them down and when you disappoint everyone all the time it's hard not to want to die constantly i feel this weird and shameful feeling like im being watched by a thousand glowing, vengeful eyes, behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms and in metro cars and everywhere i go i know i'm not welcome
It used to be my favourite part of my dreams but now it's my worst nightmare, it's been 5 years and my subconscious cannot move on, I don't even want to:'see' him anymore and his torturous presence.
This is the best song to kiss someone for the first time. I just see a couple talking about all their experiences and then eventually going in for that first kiss. I love this song. Thank you.
I used to listen to this when I was 17 thinking I was depressed but I just turned 20 and now everything feels so numb I sometimes crave to feel those emotions I used to feel in the past just so I can know everything will be okay
I used to play this song on repeat when I was living at my grandparents house and developed addictions to harder drugs, I did heroin for the first time with my drug dealer in a public metro park bathroom by my house. At the time I felt deeply ashamed and was lying and hiding a lot of things from a lot of different people in my life, most of those people don’t speak to me, and I wouldn’t speak to them even if they wanted to speak to me. I hurt a lot of people and I’ve come to realize the only way to fix it is to leave them alone. I’m in a comfortable insulated position in my life with everything around me that makes me happy, but I question if it makes me feel actually alive, a comfortable routine that’s repeated over and over again.
I wish I had never met many of the people I have met, not because I don't like them but because I just let them down and when you let everyone down all the time it's hard not wanting to die. Omfg, this is my favorite song.☺️💕
When Sam Ray said "go easy on me seth"(I think is his bandmate guitarist or drummer) The fact he said like that makes me think that he 1 take this recording but still feels authentic in a way and yeah this song feels chilling and nostalgic vibes. Still a great song to hear on a chillin night
It's the 7th of June, I'm still scared of going outside and seeing others. I shouldn't be like this.. I just wanna feel happy again, I'm so tired and sick of myself. I constantly feel guilty and regret. But I can get through it right?.. Right..
Yes! You're brave. You can be proud of every single day, every hour, minute (...) you manage. And of every little thing you do. Even if you don't feel like it! Maybe at some point you can forgive yourself for the things that make you feel sick about yourself. We can always bear so so so much more than we'd ever expect.
I’ve been sick for so long and every day I drift further from who I was, and I miss her so much, I can’t live like this for much longer, I’m so tired and I can only rest when I’m dead
This song brought nostalgia of my childhood I never felt wanted black sheep of my family…. They never knew how bad they made feel of myself how they treated me after I loss my mom when I was 11 it just felt so cold the world what was home I never it wasn’t in my heart till well now I’m 23 still trying to figure things out but I know my I’m healing ❤️🩹 and I’m thankful for …… life
привет, я пишу это потому что мне некому выговориться. мой лучший друг умирает, он планирует суецид и я об этом знаю и не могу ничем помочь. я не знаю что мне делать. я потерялась в своих мыслях и потеряла себя, все кажется настолько обычным, даже те вещи которые раньше меня вдохновляли теперь не приносят удовольствия. я переживаю из за друга потому что роднее него у меня никого нет, мне страшно.
I want the pure instrumental of this, I mean I love it but I badly need it- If you guys find the instrumental of this somewhere please reply to my comment, thanks!! Any year would do!!
American Pleasure Club’s (formerly known as Teen Suicide) new album ‘A Whole Fucking Lifetime of This’ is out 2/16, listen to “this is heaven & id die for it” right here: ruclips.net/video/MtHifoG2kgM/видео.html
haven’t been able to listen to this song since i was a teenager. the feeling this song brought still lies in my bones. things are better but i am still me.
9 months later and my dad passed. i am full of love with nowhere to put it. i am still me.
@@drella1775may his soul rest in peace. i love u
@@rael6 much love to you as well, friend. 🫂
The title is too real . I try to take as many naps as possible to stop overthinking so much but now even in my sleeps those thoughts still occur
U good?
same man, everything nowdays is so pointless for me, i cant get out of this mental fucking prison and shit feels like its on repeat.. im not depressed nor suicidal but life feels so boring and pointless though it shouldnt. i have a loving family and everything i could want but i feel like im missing something and im just fucked atm...
Same. The same nightmares, just different characters and settings
how do you feel 3 years later
I just put my IEM on and hugged a pillow. Just like you do. Napping to stop thinking about life.
This song and a lot of songs by this artist relates very closely to my life and although it's nice to know i'm not alone it still kinda hurts my heart
Dog O. Johnson that's what makes this band so great, not only do they not limit themselves to one type of sound but all of their songs are able to convey all the emotions that they were feeling when they were writing/recording their music wether we can relate to it or not, it's sad but yet addictive to listen to for being so beautiful
very very true
my brother gave me his playlist and this song was on it. he came back from the hospital a couple days ago and i cried so hard it hurt to walk. we all love you
I used to listen to this song a lot when I was 14 (17 now) and I miss the emotions I left back then, I drink too much now and I feel like a shell but I hope everyone finds themselves and heals
Stop drinking. I assure you don't need that.
i agree with nombre u should stop drinking, atleast try to
Fr substances aren’t the way it’s a temporary escape to a long term problem
Cheers to feeling like an empty shell. That’s usually what I say to describe myself. The former me is gone and I miss me
im kinda with you, i dont drink n im not gonna tell u what to do or what not to do cuz its not my business, pot is my vice but i still have the same emotions (at least similar) connections to this song as you do. its a comforting feeling knowing im not the only one going through the same stuff.
lyrics :
i have dreamt about what it's like to die
and i saw myself becoming shadows again
just like i did when i was a kid
i saw my bones crack open and all the things i've been hiding from you spill out
all the secrets that i never thought i'd tell anyone about
i am warm and i am bored and i am drifting through this place
it's no better or worse than anything else that's ever happened to me,
but i wish that i'd never met a lot of the people that i've met
not because i don't like them but because i only let them down
and when you disappoint everyone all the time it's hard not to want to die
constantly i feel this weird and shameful feeling like im being watched by a thousand glowing, vengeful eyes, behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms and in metro cars
and everywhere i go i know i'm not welcome
idleheartpoems ive had that same dream befor! i don't remember the end
The lyrics are in the desc. -_-
you forgot the reversed: "Spill the blood of the innocent"
we were back together, everything was fixed, there was only beauty & perfection
then i woke up
Sir Raw
well that was strangely unnecessary:)
This happens to me all the time. )):
Yes
It used to be my favourite part of my dreams but now it's my worst nightmare, it's been 5 years and my subconscious cannot move on, I don't even want to:'see' him anymore and his torturous presence.
This is the best song to kiss someone for the first time. I just see a couple talking about all their experiences and then eventually going in for that first kiss. I love this song. Thank you.
holy fuck, this song keeps on reminding me of the first kiss i've ever had (earlier this year, i'm only 17). now it just makes me miss them even more.
same^
this song reminds me of a first kiss i never had, with a girl i waited too long to tell i loved her.
@@fleshyspeakersso real
@@zoowemama888 real, still
not because i don't like them, but because i only let them down
it fucking hurts, damn.
i know right...
okay that hit a little too close to home
I'm so tired and sleep can't fix it
Meditation.
this song makes me feel stuff
then it worked
That’s deep
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA 3 YEARS AGO
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA2017
@@sebababas777 ???
@@sebababas777 my FLCL pfp brother, you aight?
I used to listen to this when I was 17 thinking I was depressed but I just turned 20 and now everything feels so numb I sometimes crave to feel those emotions I used to feel in the past just so I can know everything will be okay
I used to play this song on repeat when I was living at my grandparents house and developed addictions to harder drugs, I did heroin for the first time with my drug dealer in a public metro park bathroom by my house.
At the time I felt deeply ashamed and was lying and hiding a lot of things from a lot of different people in my life, most of those people don’t speak to me, and I wouldn’t speak to them even if they wanted to speak to me. I hurt a lot of people and I’ve come to realize the only way to fix it is to leave them alone.
I’m in a comfortable insulated position in my life with everything around me that makes me happy, but I question if it makes me feel actually alive, a comfortable routine that’s repeated over and over again.
My life feels like everything is on fire but I won't melt I just feel the burn
same
Just means your meeting point is high bromie, don’t even sweat it.
i wish he could understand what he'll always mean to me so i can play this and sit with him under the stars he can't see
hello person who sorted by new :) hope u enjoy this magical song cheers!😄
Thanks!
this has been one of my favorite songs of all time, didn't listen to it for a few months and now here I am crying my eyes out
music IS feelings
i’ll be vibing most days, then there’s days where i just feel like this
reminds me of that time when
Me when the
yeah dude same
Us when the
🍔Hamburger🍔
I was changing the most
always loved this song
I wish I had never met many of the people I have met, not because I don't like them but because I just let them down and when you let everyone down all the time it's hard not wanting to die.
Omfg, this is my favorite song.☺️💕
💕💕
❤️
That's your mind... Don't let IT consume you, You didn't fail.
thank you for this masterpiece of an album. never heard something so relatable and close to heart.
true
you have no idea how much your band has helped me thank you so much your music is like a friend whos always there
"when you disappoint everyone all the time it's hard not to want to die" damn I related to this so much
It's been almost 8 years and I still think bout our breakup.
Nooo :(
love laying in bed completely exhausted to this song
the part in the beggining is "spill the blood of the innocent" in reverse
anthony it sounds a lot like willie hutch brother's gonna work it out the beginning part
@@hounskull. my mom will never find out
You fell for the lie. It's Sam saying somebody lower my voice.
Innocent the of blood the spill
@@CausticSpacebullshit
So glad i search up local bands and the showed up and this is so amazing im I love
ive listened to TS for like 2 years but this will always be my fav song by them
So glad I found them on Bandcamp yesterday
The ending blows me away every time SHEESH
When Sam Ray said "go easy on me seth"(I think is his bandmate guitarist or drummer)
The fact he said like that makes me think that he 1 take this recording but still feels authentic in a way and yeah this song feels chilling and nostalgic vibes. Still a great song to hear on a chillin night
That's right mother you show you cry I keep listening to this song and I keep crying
This such a great some how does this only have 72 comments and 12k likes what the hell
It's the 7th of June, I'm still scared of going outside and seeing others. I shouldn't be like this.. I just wanna feel happy again, I'm so tired and sick of myself. I constantly feel guilty and regret. But I can get through it right?.. Right..
Yes! You're brave. You can be proud of every single day, every hour, minute (...) you manage. And of every little thing you do. Even if you don't feel like it! Maybe at some point you can forgive yourself for the things that make you feel sick about yourself. We can always bear so so so much more than we'd ever expect.
Hope you're doing better
Hey, I hope youre doing better nowadays!!
it hurts to listen to but it’s so beautiful
I’ve been sick for so long and every day I drift further from who I was, and I miss her so much, I can’t live like this for much longer, I’m so tired and I can only rest when I’m dead
i cry so hard to this song
“why are you so sad all the time”
everything hurts.
whewww..i love this. the title is also very relatable.
This song is so real rn
Depression put into a song
i love this!!! >
They have captured the moment...
🍷🍷🍷🍷🍷🍷
its been a year. crazy how much has happened since i first commented here. i love you all.
it feels like my body doesn't belong to me
This is amazing
i love this song because it makes me think of my girlfriend
ex girl**
GNARLY :((
ouch me too
thats why i cant listen to it
same but with "no, the moon"
What would you call the way he played the guitar in the very beginning of the song? I really liked it and want to find more songs with that.
Listen to math rock lol
palace plays a lot like that too
TTNG is good
This song brought nostalgia of my childhood I never felt wanted black sheep of my family…. They never knew how bad they made feel of myself how they treated me after I loss my mom when I was 11 it just felt so cold the world what was home I never it wasn’t in my heart till well now I’m 23 still trying to figure things out but I know my I’m healing ❤️🩹 and I’m thankful for …… life
When you're soo drunk that you can even pronounce words anymore, but you ask your friends for another beer:
0:00 "Foozibulekbjalf boys".
All these comments break me, I hope you guys are okay
i wanna do more than just exist
underrated comment
@@Human1136 thank u fr
love these but they gon fucking blow my speakers
i love that also
god why does this happen to me everytime
I have yet to listen to this while high.
Its Okay
i don't hurt the way i did when I first heard this song
miss u 2015
I'm sorry
привет, я пишу это потому что мне некому выговориться. мой лучший друг умирает, он планирует суецид и я об этом знаю и не могу ничем помочь. я не знаю что мне делать. я потерялась в своих мыслях и потеряла себя, все кажется настолько обычным, даже те вещи которые раньше меня вдохновляли теперь не приносят удовольствия. я переживаю из за друга потому что роднее него у меня никого нет, мне страшно.
teen суецид
2022 april 2nd
Cuando me suicide pondré este tema de fondo...
Sososososo good
Huge
i listened to this wheni was 17 and depressed af
I have dreamt about...what it’s like..to die
The same things happening to me all the Time, even un muy dreams
🖤🖤
temazo de temazos
I want the pure instrumental of this, I mean I love it but I badly need it- If you guys find the instrumental of this somewhere please reply to my comment, thanks!! Any year would do!!
Oh :(
I keep failing
u good?
Bre no he’s failing
Does anyone know the chords?
Rolando Rack yes
@@lynchburgva8118 make with the chords then
♥
2:30
Anyone know what tuning this is?
standard
diganme que hay fans de teen suicide argentinos
aiiiiiii que nice al fin
somos muy pocos
la verdad que si:(
la verdad que si:(
de chile xfa
This shit carried me
my
LONG LIVE JAHSEH
tf does x gotta do wit this
@@dx_arrow9550 reason we even here
@@dx_arrow9550 X sampled one of their songs called "no the moon"... which he called "Teeth"
@@Human1136 i know i’m a fan of both im just saying what does this song have to do with it
@@3Nautti whos we
"There's a Devilll in my boot!" rlly brain?
ha
had a cream dream last night
oh
SvckWrld
helii gesenc helj cadahgvi vg baij yoom
vnn heregteee shaldaa buij bna
i am not meant for the life i have
Me nither