It's funny to think about the extremes I used to go to to make sure no one found my RUclips channel. I hope you enjoyed this chatty video and me trying oil pastels for the first time since middle school!
It’s crazy to think about it too, because I followed you since 2016/2017 and it’s amazing how much you’ve grown! I think sharing your school and your thesis was a big step for you!!
I’ve never really understood how to use oil pastels, so I stayed away from that medium. It was really interesting watching you work with them and I’m curious about what type of pencils you used with them. I actually felt the opposite of how you did, where I was more comfortable sharing artwork with friends and family, but hesitant to share with the public. You’re doing great, try not to worry about what others think. You are happy with what you do and that is what matters. :)
It's so fascinating how quickly my brain wants to tell you there is no need to be so insecure while I don't even have that confidence in myself. But it's also inspirational in that sense, it's okay for me to take my art seriously.
I totally understand where you coming from, I always wanted to become an artist but as I grew up, people started asking me if I was sure that is what I wanted to do-will that be enough, etc. so I ended up getting a engineering degree but now I’m slowly started to let go of that fear and accept the artist in me and starter painting again! Thanks for sharing this! 🥰
I definitely understand where you are coming from. I get embarrassed when people ask to see my art because I’m always worried they will be judge mental. I have a whole separate instagram for my art that I haven’t told anyone about because I don’t want the people that I am close to judge what I make, I need to get more confident in myself, I’m glad you shared this video, it helps to know that I’m not the only one who struggles.
As a recent grad, people often ask me where I want to go with my career. I find myself fine-tuning my word choice to sound more down-to-earth. I say things like "self-employed illustrator" as opposed to "artist" or "independent artist."
You are an artist, plain and simple. I have always felt that artists, by nature, are self employed. As soon as you do something at someone else’s behest, you are illustrating their artistic vision rather than your own, in which case I would refer to that as being an illustrator. Be an artist as long as you can make it work. Though clients can motivate and inspire you to try new things, they can also really take the joy out of creating. It may seem hard to believe now, but there may be a time when RUclips is no more or they may just change the algorithm and kill your income. So diversifying is a very wise decision. Love your channel and have for a long time.
I totally get you! It's pretty hard explaining what I work with, I never know what to call myself, am I an artist, an artisan, a small business owner? But when I think about it I am really proud to say that I work for myself, it's so satisfying to know that I can do this on my own and not have to depend on other people's business to be succesfull you know? Makes me happy
When I was younger, my mom was very supportive of my art and always loved to talk to people about how artistic her daughter was. But the older I got the more my mom seemed to be… embarrassed/impatient with how passionate I was about art. I ended up hearing a lot of “ok but what are you ACTUALLY going to do with your life?” And I feel like that really affected the confidence I have in myself and my art. I’ve only recently been able to get over it and move on with my art journey
You've shown me that anyone, with practice and determination can do this sort of job, and I cannot express how much of a relief that is! I want to have a RUclips channel and Store and Patreon too, I've just procrastinated due to my own insecurities honestly. So hearing you talk about your insecurities reminds me I'm not alone in feeling insecure, and even you (my idol) have many of the same feelings. Thank you so much for opening up to us Jel!
I don’t know why you kept it hidden because it is COOL and you art is beautiful, I just went through all your videos and you must be proud of it SO proud in fact. Amazing work 👍💖🥰 By the way I am teacher and students want to be RUclipsrs when they grow up hehe !
Not really the same scale, but when i was a teen around 2012 i made an animated video for a justin bieber song lmao, i was really proud of making it but boy did i not want anyone to see it haha. I gave it a really complicated name so noone could find it and luckily noone did. I'm still pretty proud of it considering it was made with paint and moviemaker but i totally understand your desire of keeping such a personal thing as your art safe. I'd hate to hear others criticize the things i make.
When I was in high school and told my family I wanted to be a full time artist they got so disappointed and said things like:" you will starve, artists are poor, you won't have a successful career" (when literally nobody in my family is). They insisted so long for me to stop chasing my dreams that I gave up. I still attended my high school art classes but no longer said "I'm an artist and I want to do it as a career". The only person that always believed on me was my boyfriend, he's super supportive. Still to this day I'm afraid of telling people that I like and do art, and when I do I rush to say:" it's just a hobby". Don't let people break you and your dreams like I did
You can always rebuild your dreams :) I studied architecture because my family didn't realise I could actually make money from doing what I loved - and yet at 27 here I am, quitting my job to make picture books! Dreams regrow and regrow into something more beautiful than they were to start, so don't worry hun :) xx
@@didi7074 yes do! It took me 4 years of slowly building up my art career and reducing my hours at work before I finally took the plunge :) thank you I wish all the best hun xx
Honestly, the fact that you are processing all these feelings now at such a young age is endearing to me. I didn't realize until I was almost in my 30s how mean and unsupportive my family and a handful of friends where/are. People outside of my inner circle clued me in but I thought "that's just life. I can't change that." It took a major life event to wake me up to this fact and that I could create a different life, a life I wanted. Having support from family and friends is really everything. You can do almost anything with a good support system.
Damn this hits close to home, I've been making art videos as a hobby for the past year and love it so much, brings me so much joy. But the moment I talk to someone and they ask what all my filming materials are for, I get soooo self conscious and am scared that they think I'm crazy for trying so hard to do something that doesn't "pay off" or something like that :,)
Imposter syndrome (thinking you aren't good enough to be doing the thing you do) is a real thing that lots of people have. Once you internalize that most people feel the same way, it helps you feel better...though not sure the feelings ever go away completely. (I've been in my profession for 20+ years and still feel it at times)
Love how the pastels over the paint went! I'm going to try getting back into traditional art properly this year (I do way too much in Procreate now) so I will give this technique go at the weekend :)
I've only recently started my channel and the feelings you're talking about is definitely what I'm feeling. I feel super embarrassed that I started a channel and I don't know where it's come from. Luckily I have a very supportive friend and brother who push me to keep going :D
It is so strange... your word seems spoken by myself. I've got a Matrioska of social, all of them with Nickname, and no one friend related. I've got the same issue, with one difference: I never made the step forward. So, my humble compliment for being so strong.
What you talked about in the video was so good to hear, it's something I needed to hear as as fresh-out-of-school illustrator. And like the good thing is, after school I did find jobs, bigger ones and smaller ones (I'm still so surprised about it haha) but in my mind I'm still "looking for a real job" cause my parents or other adults can't understand the concept of being independent/freelancer. And I'm here applying to 9/5 graphic design studios even if it's not what I studied, just because that would be a "normal" job in the eyes of society... ugh, ok rant over. Thank you thank you thank you for making this videos and all the others too :) much love
Thanks for the candid vid - very interesting and relatable. I am embarrased of my voice (because I was bullied for it at school) and I could never get over that hang up even though I really wanted to pursue YT. I am so glad you gained confidence and overcame the self-doubt you had.
To me, you're a content creator and illustrator! But I totally understand the identity crisis/imposter syndrome. I think it persists in every field no matter what. You shouldn't feel like people deserve an adequate response - you are successful and happy and that is all that matters.
Also, I love the addition of the pastels. I didn't know how it would go but I think they elevate your style and make your illustrations have more movement and personality.
Oh man, same with my voice, I’ve tried recording videos and then I play part back to see how it looks and I’m like 😣 oh my god, nobody will want to hear my voice it’s so terrible 😅 maybe we can just put background music instead of talking
As soon as I saw this title I had to click on it because I totally get it. When I started RUclips and Instagram (also back in grade 9) I didn’t want all my classmates to know. I told my friends here and there, but the rest of the people I went to high school with I still don’t want them to know about it. I just didn’t want it to affect how I post, I wanted it to be a worry free zone. I do think if I ever got decently big that maybe I would share it more in my personal life because I am proud of it and my art.
It's satisfying to watch and listen to you like it's always been👌 Your vid making me rethink the whole RUclips channel thing, I've always wanted to make one for many years now art related, just for fun and all but feeling uncomfortable about who'd watch and some other points you've mentioned are what prevented me from taking the first step.
this is exactly where I am with my youtube channel! my parents knew right from the start and have always been very supportive about my art and I couldn't be more grateful for that (some other family members know as well). I only recently told one of my friends and she was lovely about it, but none of my other friends know. I feel embarrassed with my channel but I'm also proud because why else would I be uploading? so it's a weird blend. I think it's also because I come from a small country where youtube isn't that big. there are only like two “big” youtubers here and they focus on vlogs and lifestyle content. I don't plan on making this my career, but I think the reason why people question your career is just pure ignorance; not knowing how it works, that it can provide good income, and perhaps some may think it's unstable. either way, I'm proud of how far you've come and I think it's very admirable
keep up the great WORK you do! you're always an inspiration. yes pastels are messy which is why i don't use them, but the results can be pretty stunning.
Congrats on overcoming so much of that fear and shame! I can relate in a lot of ways (I used to run a food blog) and when I had to explain that to people it was so hard. I hope you find a way to own it and feel good about it 100% - what you do is a real job and you're doing great!
I relate to this so much! I always hate explaining what I do. And people always seem to think it's a little strange, and sometimes will even suggest things I should do instead... "oh, you should try THIS, you'd be good at it!" etc. I'm sure they don't mean it in a bad way, but I'm never confident enough to say, "No, I'm actually doing what I really love, and I hope it can become a full-time gig at some point!" I have a long way to go with my channel, and just art in general. But I'm able to do what I love, and I'm happy with that! :D Really enjoyed this video...both your thoughts, and the art you created. Really love your style! Thanks for sharing, and keep doing what you're doing!
You actually are one of my inspirations and its interesting to hear the way you try to explain that you are an Artist. I think its just the way you phrase it which will tell them that you’re an artist that will help sell that your confident, know what you’re doing, and that you are earning a living from it. Its a bit hard to phrase it via typing since you can’t hear how I would phrase it. Normally my “elevator pitch” to answer that question is confidently saying something like: “I AM an Illustrator and Animator who normally takes Commissioned Work and do My Own Projects.” Then if they have any further questions continue with the same confident tone to answer them and get a bit technical and personal with them after that. Sadly I fib since I rarely get commissioned work, but other people who don’t know me need to know that. I will still fake it until I make it come true. As you really never know who might hire you for their next project and the way you project yourself might be the selling point between getting hired or not. But this also comes from a person who has always wanted to be an artist and grew up in a family who although financially supported me, has never really believed that I will ever really make it.
This video is so relatable 🥲 I graduated two years ago, I don't have the following you do but I'm trying to still make this my career because every time I work in retail I get really depressed and physically in pain. My least favourite question to get since graduating is when people ask me what I'm doing, what job I have etc. I can NEVER explain myself and even when I try and they ask MORE questions and I can't deal with it. It makes me so anxious and depressed and feel like I'm being judged. I've also always struggled with being consistent on my RUclips channel out of embarrassment. I hope someday I can reach the place you are at 🥲I've been following you for some time and you are one of my favourite artists online, I'm so happy things have worked out for you and I'm sure you'll continue to grow and pave the way for the rest of us! 💖
very well spoken! sounds like a lot of stress and anxiety and it's so impressive how you handled all of it and have such an amazing, long standing channel. and amazing foxes wow i would hang those foxes up very poggy
I am currently going through what old Jel Arts goes through. I can only hope that my art journey ends as well and great as Jel's! Thank you, Jel for sharing your experience and thoughts, it really helped me get more perspective on this and also to know that I am not alone in thinking this way. Love you and your art!! The foxes are so floofy omg 💞💞💞
I relate to this so much! I remember being so scared to start my art Instagram, and when I did I NEVER mentioned it to my friends. Even now with my RUclips channel, I haven't told anyone in real life about it except my boyfriend😬
Omg I thought I was the only one! I felt shame over posting art online for so long (and still kinda do tbh). Like in high school I would make sure to have my personal insta logged in instead of my art account, and I would only check my art account if I was in the restroom or something. I also wouldn’t even want my family or would only let other artist friends know, I just felt ashamed of most things I liked really. Hearing you become more secure in having people know is helping me be less ashamed😊
Thank you so much for making this video! I relate to/struggle with many things you talked about here - im currently exploring the creative entrepreneur space. Its been difficult trying to find people in my local community that get it, so i often avoid talking about what i do and how i would like to grow as an self sustaining artist. This was really inspiring!
Hi Jei! don't worry about with your insecures, all people have this.. but remember one thing, if you think it's a good choice to hide things like theses, think more about it, think it's a good idea to hide something that make u inside totally break or confusing, you talking about your insecures, makes me remenber about me.. just trying to have a ''perfect'' art or a good project. No. i can't do, you can't do a BIG PERFECT ART ALL THE WORLD, but you do a great jog, u always working in this greats arts. i glad you opening to us,(i love these lines in the fox, makes me fell better and creative >w
Not wanting people you know to know, but wanting a bunch of strangers to watch your videos is so relatable 😂 most of my friends know I make RUclips videos, but I kind of hide all things RUclips from my family. Especially making voice-overs…I am so freaked out my family is gonna hear me recording and make fun, so I’ll turn the TV on downstairs so they can’t hear me. I’m a whole adult, but it still makes me nervous 😂 I also haven’t promoted my channel on my personal accounts either. I’m not scared to show my art at all, but the thought of family members or random people I went to high school with watching my art rambles freaks me out lol. Maybe one day I’ll be more confident about it 😅
Correct me if I’m wrong, but basically it sounds like the main fear you have currently is people thinking that what you do is not a real job. My advice here would be to focus on overcoming that fear. I’m not sure exactly how you should go about it, as everyone’s journeys are different, but I’m thinking that you would probably need to isolate that into two categories: - To not be held captive by the opinions of others - Accepting *who you are* and what you do and the progress you are making. You could possibly go about this by journaling, praying (I know not everyone does, but it sure works for me), thinking, or however else you may process things. As always, thanks for sharing your journey and I hope you get some really awesome breakthrough with this.
I loved this video. You're like my favorite artist and a huge inspiration to me. Your content feels so personal and relatable. I'm always excited for a new video. :)
May be sometimes we need to shift focus from 'me' to other. like not all people know abt art field so when they ask if u work for design firm that's generally what they know so they just ask .but you don't have to feel insecure about it necessarily when you just tell them confidently that you are freelancer and have an online shop and youtube and they will ask about it more. Think from their point of view so u will understand why they ask it and will not have chance to think abt your insecurity 😅this happens to me too. And i realized most of the time people just ask what u do nd all to keep on the conversation it's not necessarily that they care so we don't have to think that much abt what they think bcoz they ask nd they forget too (as ofc they have their life and problems so )
For me it's also very weird when someone from my workspace (because I am not a full time artist) talk with me about my art and my RUclips channel. 😅🙈 So weird. I am like : what would they say at work about me because I make RUclips videos 🤣
First part of the video is so true to my life.. i've been sharing my art with another people on the internet for about a year already and only now two of my friends, who are also my classmates, discovered my blog. And they told me something like "oh I found a strange blog yesterday and you know what, there was your art there!". I was like "oh.. okay" but inside i wanted to scream and cry because finding my blog is literally the worst thing my classmates can do.. and i actually don't know why. I've never been laughed at and probably if someone found my art in social media they wouldn't care, but still I'm really afraid of it. Hah, some days ago my classmate was just like "hey guys, I've made a ticktock account and I've already got 1500 subscribers!!" and everyone was like "wow cool". I thought "how can you talk about it so freely..". Still don't understand:D
I feel you 😅 I think only 4-5 people that I know in person know about my RUclips channel and my second instagram account and I really like it that way at the moment because I know that these few people won't judge me. It's kind of a safe place for me to share my art. I don't think I'd deny that it's my channel if someone found it and asked me about it but I don't plan on sharing it with any other people I know in the near future either 🤷🏼♀
Great artwork as always :)! Also, thanks for sharing your story. I could relate to a lot of those situations and insecurities as an artist. It's so difficult when others don't understand that art can be a job. To me having a 9-5 (which I've had for a while) is living an unhappy zombi like life and living for the weekend. A lot of people I worked with felt like that and took every moment they could to leave early and motivated each other that it's almost a weekend. This is no life, specially for artists. I don't care how much a person gets paid by the end of the day, if they're measurable for life. Anyways, keep growing as an artist and good luck with your business! You are so talented I know you'll make it! :)
Omg, I always wait for the weekend, I'm only really happy then.. But I always think it's too late for me, I'm 35 and not that good at art, I just really love it. 🤔🙃
@@madeleinehindorf2692 I'm near your age, and if you're passionate enough about something and it makes you happy, pursue it. It's never too late! Otherwise, you will always feel like you're wasting your life or are missing something. You've only got one life so make it count :).
I think the way people ask that question, like, “Is that what you’re doing now, do you want to work at a firm?” I think that comes from the way people typically look at work, culturally. Most people work -for- somebody. They’ve got a boss and an office they go to, so being self-employed in a way that isn’t typical for things outside of a creative field, that just doesn’t occur to them at first thought and it might take some explaining to give them perspective on the whole thing.
also, wow. the fox from the front was really beautiful. I watched every stroke and it really seemed like you were making every right decision and being so confident
I always enjoy how personable your videos are, but this one especially. Imposter syndrome is something Im very familiar with ;-; it's so weird how your mind will trick you into negative thought processes or presumptions. And now having to fight the stigmas of not only being a self employed artist, but a content creator as well :O I can totally empathize with you. At the risk of sounding mushy or cliche, I'm so glad you decided to pursue this and continue to put in so much work to grow it. It's been so cool to follow you along on this art journey. I wonder if it was weird at first to have so many strangers around the world who love and support your content?? Especially while really feeling that imposter syndrome? Also, the foxes came out great! It was fun to see how you would incorporate a new a supply into your usual work ^-^ Excuse my novel, this video really spoke to me :b keep up the great work Jel
I'll just say it. As someone in there mid 20s, seeing someone confident enough to put their art and videos of their art on youtube is incredible. I may be ageing myself but I never felt confident enough to put myself on social media. Period. I was so unconfident that I was ashamed to displayed my work at all. It took me till my mid 20s to be displayed in a non-juried art shows. I've limited myself so much that now I realize I have to play catch up. I found it really funny, when you mention people didn't understand your career path and asked if you were a graphic designer. That is so foreign to my experience! I have family and family friends who do not understand what that even is and think it's a made up job that I chose instead of saying I'm an artist. I'm self taught and did certifications to become a self-employed/employed entry level graphic designer. It literally took 3 years for them to identify that the certifications and job was real. So It is my humble opinion the route you took really took a lot of personal confidence in your own ability; more so than you could have probably have realized at the time.
I have similar fears for putting my art out there, but I don't think I'll ever get to the point of it being a job. I think I could handle other people looking at my art irl as long as I don't deem it bad enough to be embarrassing lol, but no way will I be able to handle that with voiceover! On a sidenote the fox(es) are so cute and vibrant
Id start with, "I'm very fortunate, I've been able to develop and ptomote my art online. Being self employed as an artist has been such a creative adventue, I honestly don't think I could work for someone else after depending on my own business skills for so long... " Id practice some stock phrases like that to politely make it clear from the start that you're doing very well and you're delighted with the situation. I can understand why you feel so uncomfortable though, it would make me feel really awkard too!
I was nodding my head throughout this whole video! I felt like this when I was making music years ago. Confidence and security in your art definitely comes with age. 😊 I think our current 'rat race' culture means a lot of people have a hard time equating 'job' with something creative and enjoyable, or that the creative enjoyable thing also pays bils, which is a shame.
I do do client work and even though saying I'm a freelance illustrator is a much simpler response than trying to explain the content creation thing it's STILL extremely frustrating talking to non artists about my job. A lot of the times I just get a patronizing "oh!.... wow!" with no follow up, though I want to believe they aren't intentionally patronizing it's just that the average person is so far removed from the world of professional creativity that they really have no starting point for a conversation ar any understanding at all. This can be kind of lonely with my partners family (who are almost all doctors) because I rarely get to talk about my work. Of course, not everything is about work, but my career aspirations are the main thing in my life and it does sting to not be acknowledged or taken seriously. Since they almost never ask, I assume they think I'm just sitting around doodling all day and not working, or essentially being a housewife. Then the family members who only know my art based on like my Instagram and haven't seen me in a while always manage to bring it up in away that sounds dismissive even if it's not intended. The worst was at the beginning when I was first looking for clients because even though I KNEW it was possible to make a living as a freelance illustrator and it would just take some time to get there, but I didn't have anything to show for it yet. Now that it's been a few years, I have the satisfaction of name dropping clients and mentioning my literary agent, and that helps a little ;)
Hm, oil pastel tip: use a brush and some odorless turpentine and 'oil paint' with it like water on colored pencils. You were just shy with RUclips, I still am too and I'm 39. As far as sharing your job with others, most people work for someone else and not for themself but I know plenty of artists who only make 1 art piece, sell it on ebay for $5,000-$6,000/month and that's more than I make & they get to do what they love so who cares if no one else understands. I'm glad you can live off of it, don't stop unless you want to.
ah I honestly wish we could do away with it being the standard to ask people "so what do you DO?" like i know it's just an ice breaker and networking type thing but i always feel pressured on how I respond, especially as a creative. I feel like I have to say something that's so profound and amazing otherwise people will just think i'm not really doing anything that matters, and I know self-worth doesn't rely on what other people think of you, but I'd just appreciate it if that one response didn't sum up how people look at you >.< there's more important things in life than how people try to accumulate money to live
you did right, tbh, you were a child and this was basically dangerous, better to hide your identity till the adulthood. in my country people are extremely toxic, i will never tell people, that hate bloggers that i want to make a RUclips channel.
I know these feelings all too well and dont think I'll ever get over them... Before I got the bigest artist block of my life (still ongoing) I started making top-down recordings of my drawings with the intention of uploading them to youtube and theyre still sitting in a folder... I hate my art, Im embarrased of it, embarrased of my voice so i will never VO, embarrased of my appearance so I will definitely never go on camera for fear of trolls and bullies, embarrased for people to see my hand drawing because my fingers are stumpy and I bite my nails, I have zero confidence and I know there are so many miliions of artists out there better than me so why would anyone bother clicking on my videos, especially as I barely get ny likes or comments on photos of my work. I would love to make money of youtube but I know I'm a failure so I hold myself back. Im scared that people will insult me and my work and drop my confidence even more :/ Your work is so beautiful so I'm glad you overcame your fears
honestly feel that, I want to grow my instagram art and youtube online but only to strangers hahah, I feel VERY embarrassed when someone irl follows me on my art account and I'm always scared they'll be seeing the posts, I even block most of irl people from my stories out ot embarrassment, hopefully I'll overcome that one day. Also I do horror and weird art content that tends to freak out some people, I wish I didn't care about what they think tho
Wait, why not just say you're an artist? I'm surprised they don't just assume you sell the art. Most people have some romantic idea of what an artist is, let them have it lol. I quit my day job in 2019 thinking I would find another, but then 2020 happened. So now, I make a tiny pittance doing gig work part time, and then do art part time, and I'm terrified that ppl judge me behind the scenes, but everyone's been nicer than I feel I deserve, honestly. They all just assume I'm selling art successfully and never pry, when the truth is, I make almost no money at all thru art😅
I watched a video that talked about explaining what you do. I feel like the way you should describe yourself is RUclipsr Artist. When I find that video I can share if that will help.
i think as a possibility, if you felt this was a good explaination/suggestion, you could say that you are a self employed artist and that you have your own business. you have a online store and then if they want to know more they can ask more. (todays the day i learned i cant spell explaination -_-) your art is really good. i also think that You tube as a way to make income is kind of a new thing, and that there are people that don't know that its possible to make a income off you tube. i look forward to your videos, the topic is always interesting. : ) p.s. what is the yellow thing you use at the end (the big chunky one)? is that a crayon of some kind ? if so what brand? I love this channel. i always learn about new art supplies like col erase pencils.
OMG, i have this type like i don't wanna people know i write a story and upload my draw in instagram. But, all the sudden, my dad add me and i just freak out. I block him because terrified
i feel the desire to hide so much. I want to make an instagram account to post about my hobby and am currently thinking about how to find a name that noone can possibly relate to me haha
I don't post voiceovers in my videos anymore because my family sees when I upload and if I talk about anything personal or deep meaning they will know immediately. I don't go live on youtube anymore because my family immediately jumps on and embarrasses me live. So now I just post speedpaints and shorts with no commentary.
What you can tell people when they ask is, "I'm an entrepreneur and an artist. I make money from different streams, avenues. And if you don't wanna answer a question just say, "I'm not comfortable answering that" or change the subject by asking them a question instead. Lol
I don't do what you do but I think you can sum it up as "I use my art skills and work very hard to generate multiple streams of income." And if anyone says art isn't work, tell them to go a month without music, no movies, no tv shows, no books, take down all their home decor, no podcasts, no make up, no jewelry. Dare them to go completely utilitarian and see how long they can last.
Feeding comment bot again: I am also embarrassed about everything!! Been making art videos for about the same length of time, but they never took off! I don't know what makes one channel successful over another, but if we did, everyone would do it, right? :D For some reason, I'm always worried an estranged acquaintence will find my channel and then call me out publicly for daring to think anyone could care about my stuff, for being a conceited narcissist or something, I dont know. That's the thing about irrational fears, it's irrational!
Why don't you just say that you are an artist? And if they ask what kind, just say "online artist". Content creator is understood as a job for people who create content for others. You are an online artist
I'm srillcnot confortable with people knowing I have INSTAGRAM. I always lie about it. I'm like you, but 4x worse xD And I'm even dreaming of making a youtube art channel one day
Just say you run your own small illustration business. It sounds respectable, and then they understand there is a business attached to it. That can help you get past that awkward “glorified hobby” imposter feeling.
It's funny to think about the extremes I used to go to to make sure no one found my RUclips channel. I hope you enjoyed this chatty video and me trying oil pastels for the first time since middle school!
It’s crazy to think about it too, because I followed you since 2016/2017 and it’s amazing how much you’ve grown! I think sharing your school and your thesis was a big step for you!!
I feel now I want to try them too! I own some but haven't used them for years. It's soooo satisfying
I’ve never really understood how to use oil pastels, so I stayed away from that medium. It was really interesting watching you work with them and I’m curious about what type of pencils you used with them. I actually felt the opposite of how you did, where I was more comfortable sharing artwork with friends and family, but hesitant to share with the public. You’re doing great, try not to worry about what others think. You are happy with what you do and that is what matters. :)
Hi bro why I hided and lost subs? how this is possible? I had 500 and now 0
It's so fascinating how quickly my brain wants to tell you there is no need to be so insecure while I don't even have that confidence in myself. But it's also inspirational in that sense, it's okay for me to take my art seriously.
I totally understand where you coming from, I always wanted to become an artist but as I grew up, people started asking me if I was sure that is what I wanted to do-will that be enough, etc. so I ended up getting a engineering degree but now I’m slowly started to let go of that fear and accept the artist in me and starter painting again! Thanks for sharing this! 🥰
Same going with me 🥺🥺
It takes a lot of guts to build your confidence, especially in the beginning when no one else believes in your art but you.
I definitely understand where you are coming from. I get embarrassed when people ask to see my art because I’m always worried they will be judge mental. I have a whole separate instagram for my art that I haven’t told anyone about because I don’t want the people that I am close to judge what I make, I need to get more confident in myself, I’m glad you shared this video, it helps to know that I’m not the only one who struggles.
You are right 🥺
As a recent grad, people often ask me where I want to go with my career. I find myself fine-tuning my word choice to sound more down-to-earth. I say things like "self-employed illustrator" as opposed to "artist" or "independent artist."
You were a real life Hanna Montana! Jess IRL, Jel the artist!
That show brings back memories haha
You are an artist, plain and simple. I have always felt that artists, by nature, are self employed. As soon as you do something at someone else’s behest, you are illustrating their artistic vision rather than your own, in which case I would refer to that as being an illustrator. Be an artist as long as you can make it work. Though clients can motivate and inspire you to try new things, they can also really take the joy out of creating. It may seem hard to believe now, but there may be a time when RUclips is no more or they may just change the algorithm and kill your income. So diversifying is a very wise decision. Love your channel and have for a long time.
I totally get you! It's pretty hard explaining what I work with, I never know what to call myself, am I an artist, an artisan, a small business owner? But when I think about it I am really proud to say that I work for myself, it's so satisfying to know that I can do this on my own and not have to depend on other people's business to be succesfull you know? Makes me happy
When I was younger, my mom was very supportive of my art and always loved to talk to people about how artistic her daughter was. But the older I got the more my mom seemed to be… embarrassed/impatient with how passionate I was about art. I ended up hearing a lot of “ok but what are you ACTUALLY going to do with your life?” And I feel like that really affected the confidence I have in myself and my art. I’ve only recently been able to get over it and move on with my art journey
I am planning to start my own art channel and thanks to your video it makes me more confident and committed to doing a RUclips channel
Thank you 😊💓
You've shown me that anyone, with practice and determination can do this sort of job, and I cannot express how much of a relief that is! I want to have a RUclips channel and Store and Patreon too, I've just procrastinated due to my own insecurities honestly. So hearing you talk about your insecurities reminds me I'm not alone in feeling insecure, and even you (my idol) have many of the same feelings. Thank you so much for opening up to us Jel!
Thank you so much! The thing that helped me grow the most was consistency - choose a day and always upload on that day!
I don’t know why you kept it hidden because it is COOL and you art is beautiful, I just went through all your videos and you must be proud of it SO proud in fact. Amazing work 👍💖🥰
By the way I am teacher and students want to be RUclipsrs when they grow up hehe !
Not really the same scale, but when i was a teen around 2012 i made an animated video for a justin bieber song lmao, i was really proud of making it but boy did i not want anyone to see it haha. I gave it a really complicated name so noone could find it and luckily noone did. I'm still pretty proud of it considering it was made with paint and moviemaker but i totally understand your desire of keeping such a personal thing as your art safe. I'd hate to hear others criticize the things i make.
When I was in high school and told my family I wanted to be a full time artist they got so disappointed and said things like:" you will starve, artists are poor, you won't have a successful career" (when literally nobody in my family is). They insisted so long for me to stop chasing my dreams that I gave up. I still attended my high school art classes but no longer said "I'm an artist and I want to do it as a career". The only person that always believed on me was my boyfriend, he's super supportive. Still to this day I'm afraid of telling people that I like and do art, and when I do I rush to say:" it's just a hobby". Don't let people break you and your dreams like I did
You can always rebuild your dreams :) I studied architecture because my family didn't realise I could actually make money from doing what I loved - and yet at 27 here I am, quitting my job to make picture books! Dreams regrow and regrow into something more beautiful than they were to start, so don't worry hun :) xx
@@salomeydraws I still want to have art as my full time job but I will let it slowly grow before quitting my job. Good luck with your new job! :)
@@didi7074 yes do! It took me 4 years of slowly building up my art career and reducing my hours at work before I finally took the plunge :) thank you I wish all the best hun xx
Honestly, the fact that you are processing all these feelings now at such a young age is endearing to me. I didn't realize until I was almost in my 30s how mean and unsupportive my family and a handful of friends where/are. People outside of my inner circle clued me in but I thought "that's just life. I can't change that." It took a major life event to wake me up to this fact and that I could create a different life, a life I wanted. Having support from family and friends is really everything. You can do almost anything with a good support system.
Damn this hits close to home, I've been making art videos as a hobby for the past year and love it so much, brings me so much joy. But the moment I talk to someone and they ask what all my filming materials are for, I get soooo self conscious and am scared that they think I'm crazy for trying so hard to do something that doesn't "pay off" or something like that :,)
Imposter syndrome (thinking you aren't good enough to be doing the thing you do) is a real thing that lots of people have. Once you internalize that most people feel the same way, it helps you feel better...though not sure the feelings ever go away completely. (I've been in my profession for 20+ years and still feel it at times)
Imposter syndrome is so real and its definitely reassuring to see all these people who can relate!
So relatable in so many levels. I am very glad you overcame the fear and anxiety. I am working on it.
Love how the pastels over the paint went! I'm going to try getting back into traditional art properly this year (I do way too much in Procreate now) so I will give this technique go at the weekend :)
I've only recently started my channel and the feelings you're talking about is definitely what I'm feeling. I feel super embarrassed that I started a channel and I don't know where it's come from. Luckily I have a very supportive friend and brother who push me to keep going :D
"I'm a youtuber with almost half a million subscribers. I'm my own boss and am doing great." The end.
These are some good thoughts to go over and I REALLY enjoyed this video... Thank you
Thanks so much, glad you enjoyed!
It is so strange... your word seems spoken by myself. I've got a Matrioska of social, all of them with Nickname, and no one friend related. I've got the same issue, with one difference: I never made the step forward. So, my humble compliment for being so strong.
What you talked about in the video was so good to hear, it's something I needed to hear as as fresh-out-of-school illustrator. And like the good thing is, after school I did find jobs, bigger ones and smaller ones (I'm still so surprised about it haha) but in my mind I'm still "looking for a real job" cause my parents or other adults can't understand the concept of being independent/freelancer. And I'm here applying to 9/5 graphic design studios even if it's not what I studied, just because that would be a "normal" job in the eyes of society... ugh, ok rant over. Thank you thank you thank you for making this videos and all the others too :) much love
Sooo relatable. I have the same issue right now. Thank you for this video!
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Thanks for the candid vid - very interesting and relatable. I am embarrased of my voice (because I was bullied for it at school) and I could never get over that hang up even though I really wanted to pursue YT. I am so glad you gained confidence and overcame the self-doubt you had.
To me, you're a content creator and illustrator! But I totally understand the identity crisis/imposter syndrome. I think it persists in every field no matter what. You shouldn't feel like people deserve an adequate response - you are successful and happy and that is all that matters.
Also, I love the addition of the pastels. I didn't know how it would go but I think they elevate your style and make your illustrations have more movement and personality.
Oh man, same with my voice, I’ve tried recording videos and then I play part back to see how it looks and I’m like 😣 oh my god, nobody will want to hear my voice it’s so terrible 😅 maybe we can just put background music instead of talking
As soon as I saw this title I had to click on it because I totally get it. When I started RUclips and Instagram (also back in grade 9) I didn’t want all my classmates to know. I told my friends here and there, but the rest of the people I went to high school with I still don’t want them to know about it. I just didn’t want it to affect how I post, I wanted it to be a worry free zone. I do think if I ever got decently big that maybe I would share it more in my personal life because I am proud of it and my art.
It's satisfying to watch and listen to you like it's always been👌
Your vid making me rethink the whole RUclips channel thing, I've always wanted to make one for many years now art related, just for fun and all but feeling uncomfortable about who'd watch and some other points you've mentioned are what prevented me from taking the first step.
this is exactly where I am with my youtube channel! my parents knew right from the start and have always been very supportive about my art and I couldn't be more grateful for that (some other family members know as well). I only recently told one of my friends and she was lovely about it, but none of my other friends know. I feel embarrassed with my channel but I'm also proud because why else would I be uploading? so it's a weird blend. I think it's also because I come from a small country where youtube isn't that big. there are only like two “big” youtubers here and they focus on vlogs and lifestyle content. I don't plan on making this my career, but I think the reason why people question your career is just pure ignorance; not knowing how it works, that it can provide good income, and perhaps some may think it's unstable. either way, I'm proud of how far you've come and I think it's very admirable
keep up the great WORK you do! you're always an inspiration.
yes pastels are messy which is why i don't use them, but the results can be pretty stunning.
Congrats on overcoming so much of that fear and shame! I can relate in a lot of ways (I used to run a food blog) and when I had to explain that to people it was so hard. I hope you find a way to own it and feel good about it 100% - what you do is a real job and you're doing great!
I want you to know with all my heart how much your channel, you, your art and the videos you share have blessed my life as a person and as an artist!
That's so sweet, thank you so much!!
I relate to this so much! I always hate explaining what I do. And people always seem to think it's a little strange, and sometimes will even suggest things I should do instead... "oh, you should try THIS, you'd be good at it!" etc. I'm sure they don't mean it in a bad way, but I'm never confident enough to say, "No, I'm actually doing what I really love, and I hope it can become a full-time gig at some point!"
I have a long way to go with my channel, and just art in general. But I'm able to do what I love, and I'm happy with that! :D
Really enjoyed this video...both your thoughts, and the art you created. Really love your style! Thanks for sharing, and keep doing what you're doing!
You actually are one of my inspirations and its interesting to hear the way you try to explain that you are an Artist. I think its just the way you phrase it which will tell them that you’re an artist that will help sell that your confident, know what you’re doing, and that you are earning a living from it. Its a bit hard to phrase it via typing since you can’t hear how I would phrase it. Normally my “elevator pitch” to answer that question is confidently saying something like: “I AM an Illustrator and Animator who normally takes Commissioned Work and do My Own Projects.” Then if they have any further questions continue with the same confident tone to answer them and get a bit technical and personal with them after that. Sadly I fib since I rarely get commissioned work, but other people who don’t know me need to know that. I will still fake it until I make it come true. As you really never know who might hire you for their next project and the way you project yourself might be the selling point between getting hired or not. But this also comes from a person who has always wanted to be an artist and grew up in a family who although financially supported me, has never really believed that I will ever really make it.
This video is so relatable 🥲 I graduated two years ago, I don't have the following you do but I'm trying to still make this my career because every time I work in retail I get really depressed and physically in pain. My least favourite question to get since graduating is when people ask me what I'm doing, what job I have etc. I can NEVER explain myself and even when I try and they ask MORE questions and I can't deal with it. It makes me so anxious and depressed and feel like I'm being judged. I've also always struggled with being consistent on my RUclips channel out of embarrassment. I hope someday I can reach the place you are at 🥲I've been following you for some time and you are one of my favourite artists online, I'm so happy things have worked out for you and I'm sure you'll continue to grow and pave the way for the rest of us! 💖
very well spoken! sounds like a lot of stress and anxiety and it's so impressive how you handled all of it and have such an amazing, long standing channel. and amazing foxes wow i would hang those foxes up very poggy
That drawing oh the fox on the cover is SOOOO cute! 😍
It's really interesting to listen to your experience and struggles, ty for sharing with us!
I am currently going through what old Jel Arts goes through. I can only hope that my art journey ends as well and great as Jel's! Thank you, Jel for sharing your experience and thoughts, it really helped me get more perspective on this and also to know that I am not alone in thinking this way. Love you and your art!! The foxes are so floofy omg 💞💞💞
You articulated this fear so well! I'm trying to get over it right now. Thank you for this video:)
I relate to this so much! I remember being so scared to start my art Instagram, and when I did I NEVER mentioned it to my friends. Even now with my RUclips channel, I haven't told anyone in real life about it except my boyfriend😬
Omg I thought I was the only one! I felt shame over posting art online for so long (and still kinda do tbh). Like in high school I would make sure to have my personal insta logged in instead of my art account, and I would only check my art account if I was in the restroom or something. I also wouldn’t even want my family or would only let other artist friends know, I just felt ashamed of most things I liked really. Hearing you become more secure in having people know is helping me be less ashamed😊
Thank you so much for making this video! I relate to/struggle with many things you talked about here - im currently exploring the creative entrepreneur space. Its been difficult trying to find people in my local community that get it, so i often avoid talking about what i do and how i would like to grow as an self sustaining artist. This was really inspiring!
I love your storytelling videos! It's both funny and so relatable at the same time xD
Hi Jei!
don't worry about with your insecures, all people have this.. but remember one thing, if you think it's a good choice to hide things
like theses, think more about it, think it's a good idea to hide something that make u inside totally break or confusing, you talking about your insecures, makes me remenber about me.. just trying to have a ''perfect'' art or a good project. No. i can't do, you can't do a BIG PERFECT ART ALL THE WORLD, but you do a great jog, u always working in this greats arts. i glad you opening to us,(i love these lines in the fox, makes me fell better and creative >w
I hate being kinds shy, but I play to reconstruct my you tube channel. Thanks for the uplifting share.
Not wanting people you know to know, but wanting a bunch of strangers to watch your videos is so relatable 😂 most of my friends know I make RUclips videos, but I kind of hide all things RUclips from my family. Especially making voice-overs…I am so freaked out my family is gonna hear me recording and make fun, so I’ll turn the TV on downstairs so they can’t hear me. I’m a whole adult, but it still makes me nervous 😂 I also haven’t promoted my channel on my personal accounts either. I’m not scared to show my art at all, but the thought of family members or random people I went to high school with watching my art rambles freaks me out lol. Maybe one day I’ll be more confident about it 😅
Correct me if I’m wrong, but basically it sounds like the main fear you have currently is people thinking that what you do is not a real job. My advice here would be to focus on overcoming that fear. I’m not sure exactly how you should go about it, as everyone’s journeys are different, but I’m thinking that you would probably need to isolate that into two categories:
- To not be held captive by the opinions of others
- Accepting *who you are* and what you do and the progress you are making.
You could possibly go about this by journaling, praying (I know not everyone does, but it sure works for me), thinking, or however else you may process things.
As always, thanks for sharing your journey and I hope you get some really awesome breakthrough with this.
I loved this video. You're like my favorite artist and a huge inspiration to me. Your content feels so personal and relatable. I'm always excited for a new video. :)
May be sometimes we need to shift focus from 'me' to other. like not all people know abt art field so when they ask if u work for design firm that's generally what they know so they just ask .but you don't have to feel insecure about it necessarily when you just tell them confidently that you are freelancer and have an online shop and youtube and they will ask about it more.
Think from their point of view so u will understand why they ask it and will not have chance to think abt your insecurity 😅this happens to me too.
And i realized most of the time people just ask what u do nd all to keep on the conversation it's not necessarily that they care so we don't have to think that much abt what they think bcoz they ask nd they forget too (as ofc they have their life and problems so )
Thank your for everything, may you always find the peace of mind💛
For me it's also very weird when someone from my workspace (because I am not a full time artist) talk with me about my art and my RUclips channel. 😅🙈 So weird. I am like : what would they say at work about me because I make RUclips videos 🤣
First part of the video is so true to my life.. i've been sharing my art with another people on the internet for about a year already and only now two of my friends, who are also my classmates, discovered my blog. And they told me something like "oh I found a strange blog yesterday and you know what, there was your art there!". I was like "oh.. okay" but inside i wanted to scream and cry because finding my blog is literally the worst thing my classmates can do.. and i actually don't know why. I've never been laughed at and probably if someone found my art in social media they wouldn't care, but still I'm really afraid of it. Hah, some days ago my classmate was just like "hey guys, I've made a ticktock account and I've already got 1500 subscribers!!" and everyone was like "wow cool". I thought "how can you talk about it so freely..". Still don't understand:D
I feel you 😅 I think only 4-5 people that I know in person know about my RUclips channel and my second instagram account and I really like it that way at the moment because I know that these few people won't judge me. It's kind of a safe place for me to share my art. I don't think I'd deny that it's my channel if someone found it and asked me about it but I don't plan on sharing it with any other people I know in the near future either 🤷🏼♀
Great artwork as always :)! Also, thanks for sharing your story. I could relate to a lot of those situations and insecurities as an artist. It's so difficult when others don't understand that art can be a job. To me having a 9-5 (which I've had for a while) is living an unhappy zombi like life and living for the weekend. A lot of people I worked with felt like that and took every moment they could to leave early and motivated each other that it's almost a weekend. This is no life, specially for artists. I don't care how much a person gets paid by the end of the day, if they're measurable for life. Anyways, keep growing as an artist and good luck with your business! You are so talented I know you'll make it! :)
Omg, I always wait for the weekend, I'm only really happy then.. But I always think it's too late for me, I'm 35 and not that good at art, I just really love it. 🤔🙃
@@madeleinehindorf2692 I'm near your age, and if you're passionate enough about something and it makes you happy, pursue it. It's never too late! Otherwise, you will always feel like you're wasting your life or are missing something. You've only got one life so make it count :).
I think the way people ask that question, like, “Is that what you’re doing now, do you want to work at a firm?” I think that comes from the way people typically look at work, culturally. Most people work -for- somebody. They’ve got a boss and an office they go to, so being self-employed in a way that isn’t typical for things outside of a creative field, that just doesn’t occur to them at first thought and it might take some explaining to give them perspective on the whole thing.
Your art is absolutely stunning by the way
also, wow. the fox from the front was really beautiful. I watched every stroke and it really seemed like you were making every right decision and being so confident
I totally understand what you mean explaining your job , like I do animation and it’s really weird to explain . And I always get weird looks .
I always enjoy how personable your videos are, but this one especially. Imposter syndrome is something Im very familiar with ;-; it's so weird how your mind will trick you into negative thought processes or presumptions. And now having to fight the stigmas of not only being a self employed artist, but a content creator as well :O I can totally empathize with you. At the risk of sounding mushy or cliche, I'm so glad you decided to pursue this and continue to put in so much work to grow it. It's been so cool to follow you along on this art journey.
I wonder if it was weird at first to have so many strangers around the world who love and support your content?? Especially while really feeling that imposter syndrome?
Also, the foxes came out great! It was fun to see how you would incorporate a new a supply into your usual work ^-^
Excuse my novel, this video really spoke to me :b keep up the great work Jel
I'll just say it. As someone in there mid 20s, seeing someone confident enough to put their art and videos of their art on youtube is incredible. I may be ageing myself but I never felt confident enough to put myself on social media. Period. I was so unconfident that I was ashamed to displayed my work at all. It took me till my mid 20s to be displayed in a non-juried art shows. I've limited myself so much that now I realize I have to play catch up.
I found it really funny, when you mention people didn't understand your career path and asked if you were a graphic designer. That is so foreign to my experience!
I have family and family friends who do not understand what that even is and think it's a made up job that I chose instead of saying I'm an artist.
I'm self taught and did certifications to become a self-employed/employed entry level graphic designer. It literally took 3 years for them to identify that the certifications and job was real.
So It is my humble opinion the route you took really took a lot of personal confidence in your own ability; more so than you could have probably have realized at the time.
I have similar fears for putting my art out there, but I don't think I'll ever get to the point of it being a job. I think I could handle other people looking at my art irl as long as I don't deem it bad enough to be embarrassing lol, but no way will I be able to handle that with voiceover! On a sidenote the fox(es) are so cute and vibrant
wake up babe new jel video just dropped
Id start with, "I'm very fortunate, I've been able to develop and ptomote my art online. Being self employed as an artist has been such a creative adventue, I honestly don't think I could work for someone else after depending on my own business skills for so long... " Id practice some stock phrases like that to politely make it clear from the start that you're doing very well and you're delighted with the situation. I can understand why you feel so uncomfortable though, it would make me feel really awkard too!
I was nodding my head throughout this whole video! I felt like this when I was making music years ago. Confidence and security in your art definitely comes with age. 😊
I think our current 'rat race' culture means a lot of people have a hard time equating 'job' with something creative and enjoyable, or that the creative enjoyable thing also pays bils, which is a shame.
I think what you do broken down is you show, teach and sell your art online (which is really , really cool) 😊
I do do client work and even though saying I'm a freelance illustrator is a much simpler response than trying to explain the content creation thing it's STILL extremely frustrating talking to non artists about my job. A lot of the times I just get a patronizing "oh!.... wow!" with no follow up, though I want to believe they aren't intentionally patronizing it's just that the average person is so far removed from the world of professional creativity that they really have no starting point for a conversation ar any understanding at all. This can be kind of lonely with my partners family (who are almost all doctors) because I rarely get to talk about my work. Of course, not everything is about work, but my career aspirations are the main thing in my life and it does sting to not be acknowledged or taken seriously. Since they almost never ask, I assume they think I'm just sitting around doodling all day and not working, or essentially being a housewife. Then the family members who only know my art based on like my Instagram and haven't seen me in a while always manage to bring it up in away that sounds dismissive even if it's not intended. The worst was at the beginning when I was first looking for clients because even though I KNEW it was possible to make a living as a freelance illustrator and it would just take some time to get there, but I didn't have anything to show for it yet. Now that it's been a few years, I have the satisfaction of name dropping clients and mentioning my literary agent, and that helps a little ;)
Wow I didn’t know other people felt the same way as me I :,D I’ve always tried hiding my drawings and drawing account from people irl
Hm, oil pastel tip: use a brush and some odorless turpentine and 'oil paint' with it like water on colored pencils.
You were just shy with RUclips, I still am too and I'm 39.
As far as sharing your job with others, most people work for someone else and not for themself but I know plenty of artists who only make 1 art piece, sell it on ebay for $5,000-$6,000/month and that's more than I make & they get to do what they love so who cares if no one else understands. I'm glad you can live off of it, don't stop unless you want to.
ah I honestly wish we could do away with it being the standard to ask people "so what do you DO?" like i know it's just an ice breaker and networking type thing but i always feel pressured on how I respond, especially as a creative. I feel like I have to say something that's so profound and amazing otherwise people will just think i'm not really doing anything that matters, and I know self-worth doesn't rely on what other people think of you, but I'd just appreciate it if that one response didn't sum up how people look at you >.< there's more important things in life than how people try to accumulate money to live
you did right, tbh, you were a child and this was basically dangerous, better to hide your identity till the adulthood. in my country people are extremely toxic, i will never tell people, that hate bloggers that i want to make a RUclips channel.
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Dude I knew it was your art on the walls when I was at Sheridan omg 😱😱😱but I didn’t know what you looked like so it’s no like I could come to you 😭
I know these feelings all too well and dont think I'll ever get over them... Before I got the bigest artist block of my life (still ongoing) I started making top-down recordings of my drawings with the intention of uploading them to youtube and theyre still sitting in a folder... I hate my art, Im embarrased of it, embarrased of my voice so i will never VO, embarrased of my appearance so I will definitely never go on camera for fear of trolls and bullies, embarrased for people to see my hand drawing because my fingers are stumpy and I bite my nails, I have zero confidence and I know there are so many miliions of artists out there better than me so why would anyone bother clicking on my videos, especially as I barely get ny likes or comments on photos of my work. I would love to make money of youtube but I know I'm a failure so I hold myself back. Im scared that people will insult me and my work and drop my confidence even more :/
Your work is so beautiful so I'm glad you overcame your fears
honestly feel that, I want to grow my instagram art and youtube online but only to strangers hahah, I feel VERY embarrassed when someone irl follows me on my art account and I'm always scared they'll be seeing the posts, I even block most of irl people from my stories out ot embarrassment, hopefully I'll overcome that one day. Also I do horror and weird art content that tends to freak out some people, I wish I didn't care about what they think tho
Wait, why not just say you're an artist? I'm surprised they don't just assume you sell the art. Most people have some romantic idea of what an artist is, let them have it lol. I quit my day job in 2019 thinking I would find another, but then 2020 happened. So now, I make a tiny pittance doing gig work part time, and then do art part time, and I'm terrified that ppl judge me behind the scenes, but everyone's been nicer than I feel I deserve, honestly. They all just assume I'm selling art successfully and never pry, when the truth is, I make almost no money at all thru art😅
I watched a video that talked about explaining what you do. I feel like the way you should describe yourself is RUclipsr Artist. When I find that video I can share if that will help.
i think as a possibility, if you felt this was a good explaination/suggestion, you could say that you are a self employed artist and that you have your own business. you have a online store and then if they want to know more they can ask more. (todays the day i learned i cant spell explaination -_-) your art is really good. i also think that You tube as a way to make income is kind of a new thing, and that there are people that don't know that its possible to make a income off you tube. i look forward to your videos, the topic is always interesting. : )
p.s. what is the yellow thing you use at the end (the big chunky one)? is that a crayon of some kind ? if so what brand? I love this channel. i always learn about new art supplies like col erase pencils.
OMG, i have this type like i don't wanna people know i write a story and upload my draw in instagram. But, all the sudden, my dad add me and i just freak out. I block him because terrified
To me, messy sketches and art win🙏😂
i feel the desire to hide so much. I want to make an instagram account to post about my hobby and am currently thinking about how to find a name that noone can possibly relate to me haha
I'm in the top 10 firsts!
Wow!
I don't post voiceovers in my videos anymore because my family sees when I upload and if I talk about anything personal or deep meaning they will know immediately. I don't go live on youtube anymore because my family immediately jumps on and embarrasses me live. So now I just post speedpaints and shorts with no commentary.
What you can tell people when they ask is, "I'm an entrepreneur and an artist. I make money from different streams, avenues. And if you don't wanna answer a question just say, "I'm not comfortable answering that" or change the subject by asking them a question instead. Lol
Omg this was so me when I first started my RUclips channel. I still can't have people watch my videos in front of me tho.
I don't do what you do but I think you can sum it up as "I use my art skills and work very hard to generate multiple streams of income." And if anyone says art isn't work, tell them to go a month without music, no movies, no tv shows, no books, take down all their home decor, no podcasts, no make up, no jewelry. Dare them to go completely utilitarian and see how long they can last.
I hide my channel from my family and everyone so I feel yeah
Feeding comment bot again: I am also embarrassed about everything!! Been making art videos for about the same length of time, but they never took off! I don't know what makes one channel successful over another, but if we did, everyone would do it, right? :D
For some reason, I'm always worried an estranged acquaintence will find my channel and then call me out publicly for daring to think anyone could care about my stuff, for being a conceited narcissist or something, I dont know. That's the thing about irrational fears, it's irrational!
Why don't you just say that you are an artist? And if they ask what kind, just say "online artist". Content creator is understood as a job for people who create content for others. You are an online artist
I'm srillcnot confortable with people knowing I have INSTAGRAM. I always lie about it. I'm like you, but 4x worse xD And I'm even dreaming of making a youtube art channel one day
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Love hun
Hi jel
Just say you run your own small illustration business. It sounds respectable, and then they understand there is a business attached to it. That can help you get past that awkward “glorified hobby” imposter feeling.
graphic design and illustration get mixed up so much, no they are way different (similarities of course but the basics are different)
Hello!
Just say, "I'm self employed."
I think I usually start with that, now that I think about it!
I really like foxes and I like your pictures