I'm not alone because I hide my feelings or deny them, I'm alone because I am unable to identify with a superficial, often fake and absurd world in which I am trying to find purpose and truth.
@@eCouchPotatoe For most of the time, I find myself dissapointed at how people think, and do not particularly enjoy social interection at the level my generation does it. I don't really find it interesting or fun, so I don't do it and mostly observe. Rare are the days in which I am able to have a good conversation. I don't like talking to more people at once, due to the fact that I am concerned that in the group meetings not enough time is given to all the topics being discussed. Topics are treated superficially and trivially, and people move from one topic to another easily. Because of the lightness with which the topics are treated they are not really worth considering, because they do not make detailed arguments and it does not seem that much is learned from that discussion. It seems to be more of an activity than a matter of learning, randomly, episodically reviewing certain topics. I don't know if I can call myself a deep person, but my opinion is that the purpose of a conversation should be to exchange information. If this is the case with social small talk-I have no idea. For me having friends does not change anything in the long term, and I am unable to understand the purpose of such relations. And one more thing I wanted to say. I chose to always say what I think, in the sense that I am sincere. I was never able to lie and be convincing. Lying is one of the things that I can't understand as a concept, and your ability to do so when engaging in conversations with me, it scares me. For example, I always tell people what I think, and that is even when they annoy me. People seem to find it strange that I don't talk much to them, or that I speak in a certain specific language most of the time. The fact that I have a strange philosphy makes me hard to understand. (One of the main quotes of this one roughly translates to "to be able to tell the truth, without conseqences existing, means to be free") I do often question the existence of laws, concepts, norms, morlaity, but NOT as in anarchism where you are all free from them and chaos takes hold,(rather in the way that this world was not my choice, and causes suffering only through it's material imperfections, like resources being limited, having to have a body in the first place) but I find it cruel that your species creates concepts that then are deemed natural in order to controll through fear, to such an extent that some of you die for ideas to be imposed. You do all of this to force yourself to coexist, quelling each other when someone does break your norms. Your way of being is so strange to me. I often feel like a complete outsider, and I am so used with it, to the point of often contemplating on my consciousness being the only one that I can know to exist 100%, this changes the meaning of my actions, and gives a certain horror to the fact of being, and not being able to know truely how the universe functions, and why am I here to see from a persective that was created in such a way that it is not possible to prove you I am, but you can't prove me that you are. Often you don't look into things, and you do something just because the other ones around you are doing it. You have vices and do all sorts of wretched things that no other being has ever done on this planet. You destroy so much, in your wars and battles often fought due to your concepts. Most of the ones that I've talked to don't have any idea what I'm talking to. And I know this world is evil, I've seen myself what you are able to do to keep in pain. If I had a choice, I would have never lived in such a damned place, where I am seen as one of you, but on the inside I think in a different way that you are, due to your nature, unable to understand. If you are all playing a game, and don't bother asking yourself "how and why does it work that way?" I am that guy who looks into every detail of the game's code, to find answers. I am complex, and find fun in complex things, like complicated games over simple ones, or creating things and knowing more about matters that interest me, or are needed in everyday life. I go as far as training a certain ability every day, and speaking to you in such a way that I am able to understand what you say to me, but you'll never have any idea I know what you are saying. I speak in a language that you'll never understand, and it allowes me to understand your kind in a closer way, and see how an average human thinks about some specific concepts. And it is clear to me how little do you try. You had many chances, and each time you let me down, every single time, I was having a bad time, you made it worse. At this point I've lost my trust in your kind, and prefer to solve problems and plan things out by my own criteria, not delaing with any of you in the process. You made me fear, suffer for so long, and I know you did it because you are a cruel species, unable to sense consciousness. I've seen what you are. I don't need you in my life, so just let me be alone.
Sometimes my solution is just to be extremely kind because everyone's going through something. Once they get that kindness, they often open up and actually get vulnerable
I’m so glad you discussed this! I feel like not enough guys talk about this. It’s easy to shut in our emotions but it heals us to express ourselves, though it is difficult. Great video as always :))
Man I just wanna say amazing video at the right time too. As a guy I've never rly hid how Ive felt from others like I am a very emotional person and not afraid to say it but sometimes I do realize I try to hide my emotions especially when I am nervous etc. I realize that because I talk about my emotions and my life so much my some of my "friends" think I am weird because they are not used to expressing their emotions. Those people I shouldn't be friends with if they dont accept me. I thought I was the problem.
Wise words. There’s an imbalance in how much the average person discards their own emotions and how important they are. You just hope more people wake up to that
I've been coming back to this video thinking about it because I have a psychology presentation on tuesday we've had a couple weeks to do and I think my topic should be lonliness. I think you've really put into words what I've been feeling and it's something I myself need to expand upon internally and for the sake of my psych grade this semester. The scenario you describe kind of reminds me of the final scene from 500 days of summer where thomas realizes that nothing is going to fall into your lap and he asks out the girl sitting across from him. It feels like that stoicism you are talking about is a reliance on fate, in modern day. I find myself reminding myself just to be patient, going throughout my days with little expressed emotion, and maybe it is the idea of fate that I need to overcome. Maybe nothing happens for a reason and, like you said, we need to be more vulnerable and face that fact of reality. That we need to take risk in order to live and not just dully exist; otherwise, what sets us apart from the atoms that make up the keyboard I'm typing on? We need to live outside of comfort because at the end of it what are we really living for? The way you put this really inspired me to consider the psychological aspects of it, like really you're a life saver cus I would have just admitted defeat on tuesday if I didn't see this video. best,
Thanks for the video, think i needed that message today. Regarding the journaling, i can confirm the healthy effect it has to simply write down what you're thinking about. I'm using my planning book as a journal for that reason, though i mentally connected the act a bit more to a snapshot of our life's story over a compass. That said, both are true. We highlight what we value to ourselves now, and in the future we can look back at where we've been in life and where we've been moving towards. It can show how we've weathered rough storms before, or the little things we objectively achieved or improved in, countering our subjective doubts about ourselves or our loved ones. Recently I also delegated the book's original purpose (planning) to my phone, simply to give my daily thoughts enough space.
Yeah absolutely being vulnerable is really the key which is easier said than done because it can be scary truthfully. Opening yourself up around others is scary but it’s healthy. I agree with the tapping into you emotions thing you have to become really honest with yourself. I try to sit down 5 min per night before I go to bed and just meditate and it really does help. When your more connected and honest with yourself with where you are in life or what you are feeling and where you want to go/direction/ it makes it makes a lot easier to connect with others because you are connected to yourself and your needs. Great video man keep up the work 💪. There’s definitely a lot more to that but that but that’s what I’ve begun to notice over the past year now as far as connecting to others because it is a big problem with this generation
The thing that bothers me about meditation is identifying emotions, because I can never do it with any level of confidence. Anything I think or write feels... off. Like it feels forced, even though it sounds logical -- which might hint that my brain is still stuck in the 'no-emotions rational analysis' mode. Does anyone else feel completely fogged up when it comes to emotions? Like you just feel... wrong... but you can't for the life of you understand what you're feeling or why?
@@DyNamic_N_ That too. If you don't know what's within you, you can't express it in a controlled manner. Just knowing what the hell is going on inside is half the battle.
I'm not alone because I hide my feelings or deny them, I'm alone because I am unable to identify with a superficial, often fake and absurd world in which I am trying to find purpose and truth.
You can always try being friendly.
@@eCouchPotatoe For most of the time, I find myself dissapointed at how people think, and do not particularly enjoy social interection at the level my generation does it. I don't really find it interesting or fun, so I don't do it and mostly observe. Rare are the days in which I am able to have a good conversation. I don't like talking to more people at once, due to the fact that I am concerned that in the group meetings not enough time is given to all the topics being discussed. Topics are treated superficially and trivially, and people move from one topic to another easily. Because of the lightness with which the topics are treated they are not really worth considering, because they do not make detailed arguments and it does not seem that much is learned from that discussion. It seems to be more of an activity than a matter of learning, randomly, episodically reviewing certain topics. I don't know if I can call myself a deep person, but my opinion is that the purpose of a conversation should be to exchange information. If this is the case with social small talk-I have no idea. For me having friends does not change anything in the long term, and I am unable to understand the purpose of such relations. And one more thing I wanted to say. I chose to always say what I think, in the sense that I am sincere. I was never able to lie and be convincing. Lying is one of the things that I can't understand as a concept, and your ability to do so when engaging in conversations with me, it scares me. For example, I always tell people what I think, and that is even when they annoy me. People seem to find it strange that I don't talk much to them, or that I speak in a certain specific language most of the time. The fact that I have a strange philosphy makes me hard to understand. (One of the main quotes of this one roughly translates to "to be able to tell the truth, without conseqences existing, means to be free") I do often question the existence of laws, concepts, norms, morlaity, but NOT as in anarchism where you are all free from them and chaos takes hold,(rather in the way that this world was not my choice, and causes suffering only through it's material imperfections, like resources being limited, having to have a body in the first place) but I find it cruel that your species creates concepts that then are deemed natural in order to controll through fear, to such an extent that some of you die for ideas to be imposed. You do all of this to force yourself to coexist, quelling each other when someone does break your norms. Your way of being is so strange to me. I often feel like a complete outsider, and I am so used with it, to the point of often contemplating on my consciousness being the only one that I can know to exist 100%, this changes the meaning of my actions, and gives a certain horror to the fact of being, and not being able to know truely how the universe functions, and why am I here to see from a persective that was created in such a way that it is not possible to prove you I am, but you can't prove me that you are.
Often you don't look into things, and you do something just because the other ones around you are doing it. You have vices and do all sorts of wretched things that no other being has ever done on this planet. You destroy so much, in your wars and battles often fought due to your concepts. Most of the ones that I've talked to don't have any idea what I'm talking to. And I know this world is evil, I've seen myself what you are able to do to keep in pain. If I had a choice, I would have never lived in such a damned place, where I am seen as one of you, but on the inside I think in a different way that you are, due to your nature, unable to understand. If you are all playing a game, and don't bother asking yourself "how and why does it work that way?" I am that guy who looks into every detail of the game's code, to find answers. I am complex, and find fun in complex things, like complicated games over simple ones, or creating things and knowing more about matters that interest me, or are needed in everyday life. I go as far as training a certain ability every day, and speaking to you in such a way that I am able to understand what you say to me, but you'll never have any idea I know what you are saying. I speak in a language that you'll never understand, and it allowes me to understand your kind in a closer way, and see how an average human thinks about some specific concepts. And it is clear to me how little do you try. You had many chances, and each time you let me down, every single time, I was having a bad time, you made it worse. At this point I've lost my trust in your kind, and prefer to solve problems and plan things out by my own criteria, not delaing with any of you in the process.
You made me fear, suffer for so long, and I know you did it because you are a cruel species, unable to sense consciousness. I've seen what you are. I don't need you in my life, so just let me be alone.
Sometimes my solution is just to be extremely kind because everyone's going through something. Once they get that kindness, they often open up and actually get vulnerable
Read The Myth of Sisyphus by Albert Camus, I think you might find some comfort
came for minecraft
stayed for minecraft
I’m so glad you discussed this! I feel like not enough guys talk about this. It’s easy to shut in our emotions but it heals us to express ourselves, though it is difficult. Great video as always :))
Man I just wanna say amazing video at the right time too. As a guy I've never rly hid how Ive felt from others like I am a very emotional person and not afraid to say it but sometimes I do realize I try to hide my emotions especially when I am nervous etc. I realize that because I talk about my emotions and my life so much my some of my "friends" think I am weird because they are not used to expressing their emotions. Those people I shouldn't be friends with if they dont accept me. I thought I was the problem.
Thanks for watching!
The fact you are playing classic Minecraft in the background is so wholesome
glad you like it!
Feels like it's directly talking to me damn
That's the goal, glad you liked the video!
Wise words. There’s an imbalance in how much the average person discards their own emotions and how important they are. You just hope more people wake up to that
I've been coming back to this video thinking about it because I have a psychology presentation on tuesday we've had a couple weeks to do and I think my topic should be lonliness. I think you've really put into words what I've been feeling and it's something I myself need to expand upon internally and for the sake of my psych grade this semester. The scenario you describe kind of reminds me of the final scene from 500 days of summer where thomas realizes that nothing is going to fall into your lap and he asks out the girl sitting across from him. It feels like that stoicism you are talking about is a reliance on fate, in modern day. I find myself reminding myself just to be patient, going throughout my days with little expressed emotion, and maybe it is the idea of fate that I need to overcome. Maybe nothing happens for a reason and, like you said, we need to be more vulnerable and face that fact of reality. That we need to take risk in order to live and not just dully exist; otherwise, what sets us apart from the atoms that make up the keyboard I'm typing on? We need to live outside of comfort because at the end of it what are we really living for? The way you put this really inspired me to consider the psychological aspects of it, like really you're a life saver cus I would have just admitted defeat on tuesday if I didn't see this video. best,
thanks for watching and thanks for the detailed comment!
Thanks for the video, think i needed that message today.
Regarding the journaling, i can confirm the healthy effect it has to simply write down what you're thinking about. I'm using my planning book as a journal for that reason, though i mentally connected the act a bit more to a snapshot of our life's story over a compass. That said, both are true. We highlight what we value to ourselves now, and in the future we can look back at where we've been in life and where we've been moving towards. It can show how we've weathered rough storms before, or the little things we objectively achieved or improved in, countering our subjective doubts about ourselves or our loved ones. Recently I also delegated the book's original purpose (planning) to my phone, simply to give my daily thoughts enough space.
Yeah absolutely being vulnerable is really the key which is easier said than done because it can be scary truthfully. Opening yourself up around others is scary but it’s healthy. I agree with the tapping into you emotions thing you have to become really honest with yourself. I try to sit down 5 min per night before I go to bed and just meditate and it really does help. When your more connected and honest with yourself with where you are in life or what you are feeling and where you want to go/direction/ it makes it makes a lot easier to connect with others because you are connected to yourself and your needs. Great video man keep up the work 💪.
There’s definitely a lot more to that but that but that’s what I’ve begun to notice over the past year now as far as connecting to others because it is a big problem with this generation
These videos are amazing
Thank you!
This is just niko bruh
this is so true
you missed picking up some clay at 2:40 to the left
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The thing that bothers me about meditation is identifying emotions, because I can never do it with any level of confidence. Anything I think or write feels... off. Like it feels forced, even though it sounds logical -- which might hint that my brain is still stuck in the 'no-emotions rational analysis' mode. Does anyone else feel completely fogged up when it comes to emotions? Like you just feel... wrong... but you can't for the life of you understand what you're feeling or why?
Kind of, but for me it’s knowing how to show them more
@@DyNamic_N_ That too. If you don't know what's within you, you can't express it in a controlled manner. Just knowing what the hell is going on inside is half the battle.
Hey I’m sorry to ask but what version are you playing on it makes me feel nostalgic but I don’t remember what version that your playing on
1.0!
@@solacespeaks thank you 🙏
I dont feel lonely but...
Society isn’t telling you this. The manosphere is
why didnt you put it in the title that this is just for men...?
W yter even not a minecraft fan
can this you shut it, like im just trynna watch minecraft video in peace, leave me alone with all this yapping, thanks a bunch! ;)