Hey Bethany, Thanks for posting. They think I’ve got schizoaffective (depressive type). It seems to me with all of the leg work I’ve done, they’re probably right. There was nothing I’ve ever experienced like my depressive episode, during my hospital stay. It was a pain that lead me into a realm beyond words. My paranoia is non-bizarre, which makes it more difficult to accept as not being real. I don’t get voices, but I get visual hallucinations of my entire visual field distorting/slithering (which is manageable). It’s the paranoia and delusions that affect my behaviour and overall well-being. Anyways, I just thought I’d try to reach out to a few people in hopes to connect and discuss this stuff. Take care. P.S. I’ve noticed very profoundly that my depression is the worse when getting onto the antipsychotics after not being on them for a period of time. It’s happened twice, for a few days it feels like I’m moving through Molasses. Likely, I’ll stay on the meds now. Peace Bethany.
I understand. I have had depressive phases before and since the age of 7 I've dealt with psychotic symptoms, emotional problems, accumulated trauma, paranoia and somatization, but I only had hallucinations once because I mostly have delusions. Really hate taking meds. I have insomnia as well, and ADHD. I can't believe some people have to take so many meds. I only have 2 sorts but I take 4 a day. I'm woke and really hate those greedy cunts the system is.
It's horrible i know, i hope you have faith in God, because God has helped me so much, your on too many meds in my opinion, try excersising or walking and keep praying, good luck, it breaks my heart when i see young people with it! I know, i was 24, i am soon 50, with time it does get easier , trust me, keep praying , God bless you.
It's been as year since this video. I hope she's still around, because she's very inspirational for people who share the same diagnosis.
Prayers 🙏🏻
Hey Bethany, Thanks for posting. They think I’ve got schizoaffective (depressive type). It seems to me with all of the leg work I’ve done, they’re probably right. There was nothing I’ve ever experienced like my depressive episode, during my hospital stay. It was a pain that lead me into a realm beyond words. My paranoia is non-bizarre, which makes it more difficult to accept as not being real. I don’t get voices, but I get visual hallucinations of my entire visual field distorting/slithering (which is manageable). It’s the paranoia and delusions that affect my behaviour and overall well-being. Anyways, I just thought I’d try to reach out to a few people in hopes to connect and discuss this stuff. Take care.
P.S. I’ve noticed very profoundly that my depression is the worse when getting onto the antipsychotics after not being on them for a period of time. It’s happened twice, for a few days it feels like I’m moving through Molasses. Likely, I’ll stay on the meds now.
Peace Bethany.
You’re very clear and coherent. What treatments are you on?
Good video. Going to take a shower was hard for me in the beginning too. As for the voices, I'm sorry that you have to go through that.
Thank you for the comment Mannie! I’m glad you are doing better :)
I understand. I have had depressive phases before and since the age of 7 I've dealt with psychotic symptoms, emotional problems, accumulated trauma, paranoia and somatization, but I only had hallucinations once because I mostly have delusions. Really hate taking meds. I have insomnia as well, and ADHD. I can't believe some people have to take so many meds. I only have 2 sorts but I take 4 a day. I'm woke and really hate those greedy cunts the system is.
Hey, how are you doing now???
It's horrible i know, i hope you have faith in God, because God has helped me so much, your on too many meds in my opinion, try excersising or walking and keep praying, good luck, it breaks my heart when i see young people with it! I know, i was 24, i am soon 50, with time it does get easier , trust me, keep praying , God bless you.
What are the medications you are on? am schizoaffective to
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