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My sister committed suicide 6 months after she was diagnosed with schizophrenia. This happened 9-19-2001. I still mourn her. God bless you for your courage ❤️❤️❤️
Sending you hugs. This illness can be horrendous but its good to see success stories and read other peoples experiences. I think that hopefully there is more understanding now than in 2001.
Apart from the fact that she was able to study and stay focused throughout the whole thing which is a red flag! Her concentration level would have been at zero and would have become more and more withdrawn and unfortunately with these disorders it's not a case of being able to push through as it's not like having something like depression or anxiety in which you CAN push through, you can't push through anything Schizophrenic that's a disorder for life unfortunately.
Schizophrenia is a spiritual illness. The soul is lost in diferent portals. The body is here, so it needs a lot of fasting and prayers and you can recuperate
My wife is checked in right now involuntary for the first time. You have most definitely helped me understand what's going on. Psychosis is a very scary thing to witness the first time. Thank you for helping me understand.
My brother is currently checked in for a having a psychosis brake down 😓 I'm stil waiting for results to find out if he's schizophrenic or is just severe depression
Same, my 24 y/o son is currently going through this. I’ve never felt more scared, confused, and lonely. We’re trying our best to be as supportive as possible but it’s pretty tiring and drains you mentally/emotionally. We’re staying hopeful for better days.
Never give up hope. I was diagnosed age 18 in 1976, and today, now aged sixty, and despite it not being an easy path, I feel I have had a successful life. I have been with my husband for thirty six years. I have three grown up children and two grandchildren. I have a career as a screenwriter and a Masters Degree. I first began hearing voices aged seventeen. But with hindsight I now recognise that I first began to experience symptoms of schizophrenia aged nine. After a traumatic event. You can make it. And be fulfilled and productive.
Hello Andrea what did you do to keep pursuing school and not being labeled mentally deranged? I have had anxiety and schizophrenia and my negative self talk isn’t helping and probably hypersexuality seem to be a noticeable cause.
Hi, I am a psychologist and I can tell you that a woman at my university was diagnosed with schizophrenia but after years of therapy , hospitalization and medication she is now a psychologist herself, has written many books and is vice president for the Norwegian Psychological Association. Keep the faith , you seem so nice, insightful and intelligent. Never loose hope that things will work out. Seems to me like you already have done so much and come so far. Remember that even a relapse will not mean that there is not hope, just keep moving, look for the positive signs and set goals. A meaningful life is not necessarily a life without struggle, but what we can learn after overcoming our struggles and then passing the knowledge on to someone who needs it. Like you do.
I personally do not think this is a mental illness. You as a psychologist could shed some light into that as well. Studies and research in Cross Cultural psychology has shown that these are all standards created by Eurocentric standards and western ideologies and by some very "interesting folks". Anyone can be a psychologist and anyone can rank health by the said modules yll have created..you DSMs and what not.
@@oluwaaluah7853 "I personally do not think this is a mental illness." *Interesting. If you personally do no think it is a mental illness, then what do you personally think it is?*
@@ShadowWalker1971 It is something to do with the brain and the way it processes certain chemicals. But to blanket just say it is "mental illness- routines of psychosis" shows high levels of ignorance and laziness in understanding what mental illness even is. It has to do with disorder relating to signals entering the brain's logic gates and neurons. It can also be reordered via various treatments. But the label or stigma of mental illness, to me is a fallacy. You choose whatever language suits you and run with it. I have lived in different societies besides the west and this is not what you geniuses consider it to be.
@@oluwaaluah7853 You are 100% right. Psychology is largely a theoretical science, hence nothing has been proven. The DSM has multiple disorders that have been added, removed or replaced over the years that it has become unreliable at the least. As you have noted, some societies have very different views on mental illness, and any western psychologist or psychiatrist worth their salt would be the first to tell you this. There are multiple different treatments ALL with various degrees of success, whether you are on medication and have a successful life, or you have been in the hospital all your life and have been on every medication without success, have taken the holistic path (natural medicine + positive environmental changes) without ever taking medication and succeeded, or have taken the religious approach(Exorcism or belief of demon possession), among many, many others. Some religious communities have a whole different view on this issue, which differs widely between different religions! This topic is better left alone really, as humans have not been given enough knowledge to fully understand what goes on in the brain.
@@oluwaaluah7853 Okay, how do they fix it then? How is it reordered? Yeah, I understand that a lot of "geniuses" as you call them, don't know as much as they think, but please don't include me in that, because I am open minded about things and will listen to what people have to say, and I don't think I know it all like I get the feeling you think is their problem.
Oh sweetie you took me back to my own journey with schizoaffective disorder....! I wasn't diagnosed until age 48. I suffered for years in my own silence hiding everything that was happening to me, dealing by myself... life was so hard! I was married, worked in an offices atmosphere, had 3 girls, ran an auction business part time, started my own business while working doing massage therapy and participated in my girls schools. My life was so busy and maybe that's what kept those awful thoughts at bay. But my girls went to college, moved out, got married and I was alone with husband who traveled for work. Long story short...I couldn't keep doing what I'd been doing. I got very ill & was finally diagnosed. I'm 64 now and living quietly enjoying time with grandchildren and hubby. God has been a rock for me. God bless you!
Thank you for sharing. I am a father of a girl who experienced illusions. She managed to get. A degree in engineering and now is able to. Support her self with a good job. She still struggles but in the last 2 years she is constantly improving and is experiencing happiness more often. I am so proud of her! And you and her are both my heroes for being so brave.
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So its the Endinger ganglion and gamma motor neurons that are reacting to acetyl chloride hormones in the dopamine nicotine receptor this is due to joule produced from radio communications that are absorbed by a transition metal called aluminum from Al+2 O +2 carcinogenic this is what causes anxiety in the cns people who dont smoke Cigs are not dispersing heat from the aluminum that is naturally pulled towards the surface of the skin like a heat spreader also depends on weins equation the relativity of size fro mass density and volume and thermal physics of the wavelength of signal associated to it ramen spectroscopy which house the ultrasound that causes this when it reacts to sodium in the pancreas
So its the Endinger ganglion and gamma motor neurons that are reacting to acetyl chloride hormones in the dopamine nicotine receptor this is due to joule produced from radio communications that are absorbed by a transition metal called aluminum from Al+2 O +2 carcinogenic this is what causes anxiety in the cns people who dont smoke Cigs are not dispersing heat from the aluminum that is naturally pulled towards the surface of the skin like a heat spreader also depends on weins equation the relativity of size fro mass density and volume and thermal physics of the wavelength of signal associated to it ramen spectroscopy which house the ultrasound that causes this when it reacts to sodium in the pancreas
We seem to think of mental illness as it coming only from an emotional place, and that we need to work on emotions in order to heal. But in fact the the brain is a physical part of the body as the liver, kidneys, heart, etc., and in the same way these organs can get damaged by lack of nutrients/wrong nutrients, toxins, impact injury etc., so can the brain. And recent science also have found a very strong connection between the gut and the brain, where the gut bacteria communicate with the brain constantly, affecting how we think and feel, which makes a strong and healthy micro biome essential for good mental health. And you can only imagine how detrimental antibiotics (prescription and in our food), and the modern diet is to our mental and physical well being. We have to eat vegetable fiber in order to maintain a strong and healthy micro biome and those should be pesticide free, because pesticides are created to kill bacteria.. And that is another big part of the problem and maybe the biggest one, the environmental toxins we are surrounded by. From pesticides like glycophosphate (Round Up) to microplastic/BPA to lead and mercury that is truly neurotoxic and making people very sick. Lead is found in old paint, some dishes/appliances, especially common the ones with red paint, maybe your water, and mercury is found in fish (more in the big ones like tuna, shark), amalgam fillings (if you ever remove them if must be done safely by an IAOMT dentist or you could get severely ill), some vaccines, CFL light bulbs and maybe your water. It is worth checking if you are getting exposed to these metals and removing them. There are a lot of very ill people, both mentally and physically, who have gotten well from getting rid of these toxic metals and then chelating SAFELY. You can read some of the success stories by googling «andy cutler success stories». But I have to emphasize that you have to do this safely, there is a lot of very dangerous «natural detox» protocols out there that have made people very very sick, like taking cilantro or chlorella, you can read some peoples experiences with these by googling «andy cutler what not to do». I can’t stress enough how important it is to do this safely and I would encourage anyone who wants to look into this to read about the Andrew Cutler protocol and understand why it is safe, and join the Andy Cutler Facebook group to to get accurate information, see other peoples experiences and get support. So, what I am saying is that it is a physical aspect to mental illness that involves toxins and lack of/wrong nutrients which causes inflammation in the brain, and it can be reversed. But I’m not saying that talking about problems and working on emotions in a way that works for you isn’t helpful, cause it absolutely can be, but it might not be the root cause.
As a mom, I have bip1 with severe ptsd I’m a mama of a little boy, 17 months. I hope one day he says this about me,this gives me hope 🌈💕🙏🏽 bless you and your mom.
just a heads up, people are starting to steer away from calling someone "schizophrenic" because it doesn't differentiate people from their disorder. It is more proper to call someone suffering from "schizophrenia". Cheers~
Hi, I also have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia since 2004. I've been in therapy for 17 years, which has really helped a lot. I was actively schizophrenic for two years from 2004-2006. I have gotten better, and in 2016 I graduated from SFSU with a M.S. degree in computer science. I am amazed at your strength and resilience to get as much done with your life while you were schizoaffective. I basically stayed in a room for many years alone. But, I've been working over the last 5 years, and at my best I was contracting in IT at Google in SF, CA. My psychiatrists and psychologists always tell me that I am a success story, and I think you are a success story, too. Without family support, medication, education, and therapy, I would either be homeless, in jail, or dead. But, now I'm working and pursuing my dream of being a video game developer. Stay strong and praise God for your wonderful testimony! It was a blessing to me to hear it.
I can't imagine going through something like this. What makes it even worse is, she's _aware_ of it, but powerless to stop it. It breaks my heart. God bless you, sweetheart.
I had lifelong suicidal depression, which eventually evolved into mass homicidal and suicidal depression. I prayed to Jesus to heal me, and he did, and now no more depression. All glory to Jesus. Seek him.
My dad is a paranoid schizophrenic, who smokes weed and is an alcoholic. He doesnt take his meds or take care of himself. He is 43, and I wonder how he is still alive from all the alchohol he intakes. His auditory hallucinations really curse him. He also feels unexplained pain (doctors cant find what's wrong), but my dad screams in pain. I'm 20. And I have never really had a childhood, bc of my mother leaving when i was almost 12 months. But yeah. Ty to those who have read this.
I am so sorry that you had and have to go through something like this. I know this seems like a silly thing to say, but things really do get better in time, don't lose hope. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you. I wish you and your dad all the best!!
Hi derek 42 Ireland I'm an alcoholic and a Junkie and I have schizophrenia I don't drink or take drugs anymore I'm taking 10 mg of olanzapine for schizophrenia and I'm ok now and happy so ur better off taking ur meds and stopping the drugs and drinking
The alcohol and the cigarettes are poisons, nicotine is more toxic than snake venom. Your father is suffering from two problems. One, the poison creates very dark images in the brain. Second, the poison also keeps your father from eating well, so he is also suffering from internal starvation, which is why he hallucinates etc. If you can convince him to stop all poisons, alcohol, smokes, weed, all drugs even coffee because even though coffee is not a poison its an alkaloid and you don’t want stimulants in the system when your trying to rid the system from poison. Then get him to eat hamburgers with the lot and milk every day. Foods like that, pies, t.bones, pork chops, heavy foods. These are rebuilding foods. He will put on weight but it doesn’t matter, he has to re-nourish his mind. It will take 3 years judging by what you have said to get him out. I feel for you because your father would be impossible to convince. The poisons are speaking for him 24/7. You do need a miracle and l pray God Walks With You! Oh! The extreme level of poisons are responsible for destroying his life and it always brings him bad luck, nothing ever goes right.
I’m a 19 year old kid with schizoaffective disorder and it’s really reassuring to know that I’m not alone, thanks for sharing your story and it really inspires me to do the same. One of my biggest weakness’s is being misunderstood, and this video just took the words right out of my brain. Ty
My son was diagnosed at age 11. He has been coping with schizophrenia for 15 years now. He's also Autistic (Aspergers). I'm thankful to you for putting these videos on RUclips, the world needs to be educated about other mental illnesses as well as depression. God Bless and stay strong
I have to admit I watched this video out of curiosity, but I was overwhelmed by sympathy, and I so wanted you to have a good outcome. I could hear the terrible sad undertone in your voice, even when you were trying to remain neutral and upbeat. Thank you for being so courageous.
I too speak with a sad undertone when talking about myself with the near same condition. It's not so much sadness but almost embarrassment for not being, shall I say, normal and for fear of being judged. In my case it can also be part of my BiPolar II since I spend most of my time in a depressed state while trying to keep a happy face. This could very well be her state of mind as well.
You are one of the most articulate people I have ever heard speak. I hope you write a book. I wish you continued personal, professional, and academic success. Never underestimate or lose sight of your accomplishments. They will carry and sustain you.
My blessings to you and your family . You are the bravest person I've ever listened to. Thank you for sharing, this has helped me understand my own family's mental disabilities. I can also recognize my own hidden problems. Stay strong and continue your journey. You have helped me a great deal. God bless. Larry in Southern California.
I have schizoaffective with bipolar, PTSD, anxiety, adhd, ocd, REM narcolepsy, and I had eating disorders from age 5 to 37. I get this story. I understand you. I'm glad you are taking a stand for mental health. 👏 great story.
Thank you for sharing. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type when I was 15. I am 27 now. I’ve always had a hard time keeping jobs. So I’m happy to say I’m 11 months in to my first full time job as a teacher. I’ve been married for 6 years to my best friend. I’m doing things I never thought possible. This past week I had a psychotic break and have felt very discouraged, hopeless, and stressed. Hearing your story has really helped me. I feel so encouraged. Thank you! 🙏
Kandace Clarkson - As teachers, we have amazing benefits that come with our job. Take the time when you need it and don't let guilt sway your decision. Remember... you need to help yourself before you can help others.
For doing the impossible! With anything Schizophrenic she wouldn't have been able to stay in education as her concentration would have been zero. Sounds like she was just depressed if anything! Can't do this with Schizophrenic disorders unfortunately. There's no success stories with schizophrenia as it's not something you can work on and push through its a disorder for life.
My mother was effected with schizo-effect disorder as well as my sister. I have been hospitalized with major clinical depression myself so I totally get it. I have been on antidepressant meds since I was 23 years old. I am now 67 years old. I hate the fact that I have to take medicine for it but I have had no major depressive symptoms in 37 years. I live a normal life and worked for 40 years. I am now retired and living a very nice life. Thank you for sharing your story.👍🏻
I am sending this to my daughter who is currently hospitalized this. Your story is so similar to hers. Shes 17 and I'm trying to set her up for a fulfilling life. Thank you for being so candid and adding hope to this situation that feels pretty hopeless sometimes. I wish you well on this journey called life Lauren💫
My son needs to watch this but not really as he knows what it's like...I need videos like this to understand my son as he's not open about it and he doesn't like me to push the subject..he was hospitalized for 3 months in 2019 . Of course as his mother I studied everything about his condition I could find but unless you experience it...its hard to grasp. Especially with my quiet son . So when I watch your videos and others.. I say oh that's why he does this or that.. it took all of his joy the first few years and seeing him suffer is my suffering for him...its terriblely difficult to see that in your child. But together slowly with time and the right meds..hes better...he smiles now.. he jokes sometimes..hes on a three month interval shot...which he just started last month...he is never going to be 100% clear of delusions. But they are reduced so much that he can live his life..he handles them he says...they don't handle him. I see a day in his future where he will have a normal life...really what is a normal life...so I thank you for your articulate video it helps me and therefore him
@@lsr2511 Hi Lisa! My son was diagnosed three months ago and I am looking for someone I can talk to who had the same journey. I am a mothr also and I feel how you feel. Im so proud of your son for being able to handle his life so well.
You’re a strong person. My ex girlfriend had schizoaffective disorder. I know she really struggled with it. Extreme highs and lows.hallucinations. She is extremely intelligent and a master of visual arts. It went from one day I love you ,I’ll see you tomorrow,to never speaking again. I’ve seen glimpses of her on social media and she doesn’t seem happy. I think about her a lot. I feel her condition and my problems made it impossible to be together. I really miss her.she was the love my life.i just wish so badly I could tell her how sorry I am for not understanding what she was dealing with. I hope she finds peace
I’m so sorry, it’s such a difficult situation to be in and schizophrenia/schizoaffective makes maintaining any relationship unbelievably challenging, you said you wish you could tell her how you feel - you still can, it might help you both heal. Sending love xxx
I read an article: People with schizophrenia or mental illness sometimes might ended up being the most affectionate people ...because they feel every emotion soo intense..
My younger brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 18 , he’s now 29 and it has really been a struggle for him. He’s such a good person I just love him so much and worry about him a lot . He’s never had a job and rarely leaves my parents house where he’s lived his whole life. People that live with schizophrenia are such tough people, and I tell him that all the time whenever he gets down on himself. It breaks my heart to think of the hell he goes threw most days , he’s been in and out the hospital so many times. I feel like there’s nothing I can do I just cry sometimes thinking about him.. this life is so unfair . God bless you all
Nick, I’m in the same exact situation with my little brother. He is almost 30 now. I don’t know how to help him. Every day is such a rollercoaster around him. My parents are drained and getting older. It’s so hard not knowing how to navigate this aspect of life. I can’t seem to make him happy and he is constantly demanding and his intensity levels are of the charts. Much love to you and your brother.
nico tester wow man I know how you feel, definitely the same situation. My mother and father are getting older and are so drained. My mother’s in her 70s and my dads in his late 60s.. there not getting any younger so lately ive just been thinking about my brothers future, my mother and I have been talking about a group home for the future where he can learn to be more self sufficient and socialize with people a little more.. I know that’s the last thing he wants to do but at same point there’s gonna have to be some tough decisions to be made. Much love to you and yours. Be strong
I was diagnosed at 18 and turned 30 last may. My life is total hell lately; I'm constantly moving in and out of homes or hotels or renting rooms, friends and family think I'm lazy cus I get my disability and medicare but my anxiety, delusions, hallucinations, and paranoia are so bad that I can't usually keep a job longer than like 6 months. I always sabotage myself with my paranoia causing me to think everyone is talking shit at the restaurant or conspiring to fire me and I would randomly quit on the spot. I also have major physical health problems, but I did finally get off pain pills after going to the pain doctor for 12 years and I love my wife and am trying to start living for Jesus more and less for myself and thinking of my problems. It's been very hard on my mother, though, and my dad killed himself cus of mental illness, but she has stayed so strong and always researched and new homeopathic and natural treatments and sends me supplements. 🙂
Thank you so much, this week was in family therapy and Dr. told us she has made a determination that my son is suffering from...has..living with..still not sure how to talk about it...schizophrenia. My heart is broken...he is a genius, so handsome, used to be gentle, calm but has changed so much. I love him soooo much but can't touch or connect with him. Your video has helped me to understand his pain and struggle. Bought him his favorite banana cream pie tonight.
Dear Lauren, I'm currently pursuing my Masters in Clinical Mental Health Counseling and I found your videos because I was looking for the human context of schizoaffective disorder. It's one thing to look at words on the pages of the diagnostic manuals, but it's another thing entirely to see it in person. It's the latter that matters as my clients are people, not words on a page or checkboxes to tick. Thank you for being brave enough to share your story with the billions of strangers on the Internet. My heart goes out to you - I could see your pain as you recounted your darkest days and your faith and strength you have in your ability to overcome. As someone who also struggles with mental illness (and medication), I empathize greatly. Stigma sucks, especially when we've internalized it. If you are a hugger, please accept a warm Internet hug and a giant high five from a sister in struggle; if not, then know that I am thinking of you with all the warmth and positivity within me. I'm looking forward to any future videos you may decide to create. You are not alone.
This is a very common saying all over North America, maybe other places too. People keep saying this to other people, telling them that they are not alone, even when they are alone.Please "know" that you're not alone. What does that accomplish? Lying to people does not magically insert them into the midst of a group of nice people. Telling or asking another person to "know" something doesnt make them know what you want them to know.
@@JoshuaChaves16 Karma doesn't attack directly, it attacks everything and everyone you love, which leaves you helpless watching them either fall or turn against you. I've been a person I regret and received karma. Don't try to hurt people for your amusement or you may watch your children suffer a terrible fate in return. Possibly even ironic, like severe mental health issues after trying to hurt people with mental problems for nothing but amusement. I'm not wishing anything on you, I honestly do believe in karma based on my life and am warning you against it in regards to your comment which is literally evil. Something as small as that could be the last straw for someone in a weakened state of mind, can you imagine walking in on your child's suicide to see the last thing he read was something you've typed before? It's now possible and karma knows it, might wanna try to be a decent human being.
❤ My niece was recently diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder two weeks before she graduated from College. Thank you for the raw honesty & vulnerability. The discussions & feedback are informative & greatly appreciated. Thank you ! ❤❤❤❤
Despite your diagnosis, you are more together than the average person, myself included. Thank you for providing a positive example for the rest of us 👍
I´ve known 3 people ,with schiophrenia,my aunt,my uncle and my neighbour.My neighbour ,at age 50,a month ago.Her psychiatrist prescribed her way too much medication and her heart couldn´t handle it no more.She had tryed to kill herself four times,during her lifetime.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 20 years ago, I'm forty now, and I refused to take medications,I had found my salvation through Jesus Christ, He is my Lord and my Savior .I was doing great all these past years
I've been struggling with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I cried every day when I was a child, to the point where my teachers made charts and pasted stickers on them when I didn't cry. I always felt like an outsider. It got worse when I was 13 and had my first break up. I was suicidal and ran into traffic. I googled my feelings and thought I had depression and anxiety. I had periods of happiness and then horrible sadness. I thought my depression just came and went. When I was about 16 I started having manic episodes. I wouldn't sleep for days, wouldn't eat as much. I would get very involved and creative. I started taking medication when I was 16 for anxiety, and it did help me, but the antidepressants just made me feel worse, I felt crazy on them. From 16 to 19 I was in an abusive relationship, and from about 18 to 19 I took seroquel as I was diagnosed bipolar 1. I stopped taking it for 8 months, and was diagnosed as bipolar 1 with psychotic features because I became very paranoid and delusional and would see dark figures and people when there wasn't anyone around. Without medication I rapidly cycle through moods daily and have mixed episodes. In October I was finally put on medication again. This put me over the edge. I'm not sure if it was the meds or not but my vision was so blurry I thought I was going blind. This made me intensely paranoid as I thought I was losing my sight. I felt like a corpse when I looked in the mirror. I felt like I was already dead -- days prior I was sexually assaulted. I was hospitalized for about a week and returned to college back on seroquel. My diagnosis was then changed to scizoaffective bipolar type. If I miss one dose of meds I hear voices, see halos and shapes, and become very delusional. My thoughts are incredibly disordered, I'm easily angry. I'm in college on the path to be a doctor. I'm so scared that I won't make it. I'm trying not to give up. Thank you for this. Your story hit home. Thanks for reading. Update: I'm about to apply for graduation. I'm finally pretty "stable" on my combination of medication. Thank you for all of the support. 🖤
Please seek God, God and his son Jesus Christ loves you son so much!, Jesus Christ died on the cross for you, and every sickness and disease, he wants the best for you. God says in his word if you confess with your mouth That Jesus is lord and believe in your heart, that god has raised him from the dead, that you will be saved. (Romans 10:9-10) please invite him in your life, god will never leave nor forsake you! 💕
And yet the way you just explained yourself in the most clearest way possible tells me is that you are completely normal and whole person, with a touch of mental illness. I wish that you reach all of your goals.
I am one of probably thousands of people who wanted to give you a hug in the middle of this video. You are a very remarkable young woman and incredibly brave. I’ve suffered from depression for a few decades but nothing like what you’ve gone through. I really wish you the best. Thank you so much for sharing your story!
These are the types of mental illness stories we need to hear! You're so strong for going through all of this and especially coming out and talking about it to the world! You're truly an inspiration!
Bless your counsellor with the sixth sense who sent the wellness check :( I'm so glad you've made it through these harrowing experiences and I wish you only the best.
We seem to think of mental illness as it coming only from an emotional place, and that we need to work on emotions in order to heal. But in fact the the brain is a physical part of the body as the liver, kidneys, heart, etc., and in the same way these organs can get damaged by lack of nutrients/wrong nutrients, toxins, impact injury etc., so can the brain. And recent science also have found a very strong connection between the gut and the brain, where the gut bacteria communicate with the brain constantly, affecting how we think and feel, which makes a strong and healthy micro biome essential for good mental health. And you can only imagine how detrimental antibiotics (prescription and in our food), and the modern diet is to our mental and physical well being. We have to eat vegetable fiber in order to maintain a strong and healthy micro biome and those should be pesticide free, because pesticides are created to kill bacteria.. And that is another big part of the problem and maybe the biggest one, the environmental toxins we are surrounded by. From pesticides like glycophosphate (Round Up) to microplastic/BPA to lead and mercury that is truly neurotoxic and making people very sick. Lead is found in old paint, some dishes/appliances, especially common the ones with red paint, maybe your water, and mercury is found in fish (more in the big ones like tuna, shark), amalgam fillings (if you ever remove them if must be done safely by an IAOMT dentist or you could get severely ill), some vaccines, CFL light bulbs and maybe your water. It is worth checking if you are getting exposed to these metals and removing them. There are a lot of very ill people, both mentally and physically, who have gotten well from getting rid of these toxic metals and then chelating SAFELY. You can read some of the success stories by googling «andy cutler success stories». But I have to emphasize that you have to do this safely, there is a lot of very dangerous «natural detox» protocols out there that have made people very very sick, like taking cilantro or chlorella, you can read some peoples experiences with these by googling «andy cutler what not to do». I can’t stress enough how important it is to do this safely and I would encourage anyone who wants to look into this to read about the Andrew Cutler protocol and understand why it is safe, and join the Andy Cutler Facebook group to to get accurate information, see other peoples experiences and get support. So, what I am saying is that it is a physical aspect to mental illness that involves toxins and lack of/wrong nutrients which causes inflammation in the brain, and it can be reversed. But I’m not saying that talking about problems and working on emotions in a way that works for you isn’t helpful, cause it absolutely can be, but it might not be the root cause.
@@siriolsen7805 There is a TED talk by a woman who started to take a birth control pill and it had such a bad influence on her that she started to have hallucinations and the doctors thought that she had schizophrenia and when she decided to stop with the medicens all her symptoms went away.. so yes, sometimes the things that we put in our body can have a very strong impact on us I can't find the TED talk so if someone who is reading this is familiar with it - please attach a link
Hi and thank you for sharing. I have a 26 year old son who was diagnosed with SCHITZOAFFECTIVE DISORDER with bi-polar 2. My question is this. How were you convinced that the delusions and voices and such werent real. I'm sorry if I'm wording this wrong. I know they are real to you. Even with his diagnosis, my son still thinks I'm poisoning him, that the gov't is trying to kill him and a lot more. He's been in and out of mental hospitals and he does well on meds but he thinks everyone is lying. How do we convince him? Thank you. Dee
@@deestroy123 ok so disclaimer I have not been diagnosed but I have suffered schizophrenic delusions, like the government is out to get me and that everyone around me knows and is just watching for entertainment waiting for the day I die. I have not received any treatment and my paranoia only lasted a few months but what I had to keep repeating to myself to get out of that way of thinking was 'why am I so special that the world is just focusing on me?' Why is the government trying to kill just me?' I debated with myself constantly. I had nobody that knew my beliefs to argue them and to be honest if I did I think it may of made me more delusional, because of course your going to say that it's not true right?!? You're against me? I still get flashes of paranoia where I have to convince myself of reality and so I understand his reality is very real and the world built up around him, medicating him, trying to convince him is only confirming his beliefs. So give up convincing him, tell him to feed himself if he doesn't trust you, ask him questions that open up different possibilities like 'do you know anyone else the government is after?' This might seem like it's playing to his delusions but you already are so you need to let him find ways of thinking differently instead of ruminating on the same beliefs. Don't call him sick, or make illness the problem, let him know there are many people like him. Maybe encourage him to join some kind of group or community to share his experience or hear others and how they have managed. I often think of mental illnesses as living in two worlds, your inner one and the collective outer one; the goal is recognizing this and striving to align more with the collective but without shaming your inner. Once you manage that, the inner world is not so paranoid and defensive.
My sister was diagnosed with paranoid Schizophrenia in her 30's. She is in her 60's now. Her son was diagnosed with it in his 20's and is in his 40's now. They are the nicest, kindest people I know and I am thankful to have them in my life. Hang in there and never give up. ❤️
its all demonic thats why its passed down, the term for a mental illness is a disguise for the real truth, DEMONIC POSSESSION and only Yahusha can cure you
Zechariah Smart Peddeling your fantasy cure is of no help. We live in reality, not in a fantasy world, please leave your unhelpful religious garbage out of this.
I don’t wanna be disrespectful here, but you’re sister is an example of why mental illness is growing. Knowing the high risks of mental illness being genetic, why reproduce? I mean I myself suffer from anxiety and depression and knowing that there could be a risk that it could be passed down to my children I wouldn’t think of having any. I can’t imagine putting my children’s lives in such suffering. So imagine it with Schizophrenia which is much much worse than anxiety and depression I believe.
Hi Lauren. I'm glad you got the correct diagnosis at last. I now know I started having bipolar 2 symptoms at age 16, but I wasn't diagnosed till an attempted suicide at 40.and I was never so happy to be labelled in my lifetime ! I'm now 53, and have never not taken my meds, even though I'm now fat and unmotivated and not creative like I used to be. My son was diagnosed ADHD at 3.5 years old, Asperger's at 7.5 years, bipolar 2 at 16, and possibly mildly schizoaffective at 17. He's now 28. He doesn't always take his meds but things are far better than as a child. My 25 year old daughter has a different father from my son, and she doesn't seem to have any of the family cocktail of labels.I'm enjoying your videos because they are so real, not a lecture from someone that has studied the illness. Never feel stigmatised or thought of badly, you are not schizophrenia, you have schizophrenia, you didn't cause it through taking drugs or any other stupid self inflicted behaviour, even though to control it you need to take drugs. There is a whole 99% more of you, and that shows through in your videos. Thank you for taking the time, and using your amazing strength, to make them for all of us who will never meet you, but will always admire you . Allison in Australia.
Our son lives with schizophrenia and so unimaginably difficult for him and for us. I am so very thankful at your brutal honesty because he is very quiet and so it gives us at least some insight on what he may be going trough. I hope you will continue sharing because I believe it can help many, both families and those living with this terrible illness. Thank you!
Maybe you might find this interesting, I also have Schizophrenia. My mom asks what I hear all the time. I NEVER tell her. It's literally too horrible to even utter. I would rather die than ever tell a single soul what I hear. Its not hard to keep it a secret either. I tell my mom i hear horror. Thats the only thing she needs to know. The only thing i could possibly tell your son to remotely make things better. DONT EVER LISTEN TO YOUR VOICES. They are garbage. They are never real. It's your own brain making crap up. It will literally say anything and knows everything about you. Its your own brain and it knows your every thought. He will never stop freaking out over the stuff he hears but he can at least ignore. Ignore every command. Dont ever listen. It is truly a waste of time to listen.
@Jon Iwanyszyn I actually have a crap ton of demons on me. God specifically told me to rebuke them. They are legit no joke. They are very good at what they do, and their job is torture. They are all going to die horrible scary deaths though. I'm really truly sorry about the stuff that you have heard. My Schizophrenia takes the form of mainly voices and nothing else. It tends to say the utter worst of the worst. I'm not going to tell you what I hear though. Just to let you know, I view what you heard as one of the worst things you can hear. Dont EVER take it lightly. The day you stop caring is the day you die. May Jesus Bless you and save you. Get baptized if not already.
@Jon Iwanyszyn i do all that but it's more my frontal lobe lesions. Like if you have a tumor there. You say exactly what you think with no regard to anyone else. I would hate to hear voices saying "don't take the meds that are helping you"...i used to be like that as a kid but not now lol
Jon Iwanyszyn can I tell you something? I had the same thing for years but once I finally realize what it was I told them to F off and that they had no power over me. Practice identifying them right when they are happening and say “nice try”. They stop once they realize they have no control over you anymore. I know this sounds nuts but it worked for me and I live a normal happy productive life :)
I'm deeply impressed with your strength of character in dealing with the very difficult challenges you face, and your emotional honesty in relating them.
That's just not true - the ongoing conscious decision to continue forging ahead with the huge successes in her life, overcoming obstacles as they arise, in the best way possible is absolutely "strength of character." It would be very easy to submerge yourself in the false beliefs of society and give up. This lady is amazing and very strong for deciding to help others with her story.
Dom Trussardi professional help is incredible and does so much, but without her strength of character to actually seek and accept that help, she would be dead. Help can only do so much if you won’t accept it.
My mother lived the same repeated cycles of getting off her medication and landing in the hospital. Thank you for verbalizing your experiences so well. I wish you the best. Stay awesome!
Your story is both heartbreaking and hopeful because my 29 year old daughter is schizoaffective and has battled mental illness since she was 17. Thankfully she doesn't have a long history of suicide attempts. She is currently in a center for mental illness, a good place, but I despair of her ever being able to live on her own again because she cannot get through an entire year without a relapse, becoming paranoid and delusional. And even though she is just 40 miles from me I have not seen her in a year due to the pandemic.
I was diagnosed with schizoeffective disorder some years ago. I am trying to go to school, but it’s hard for me at 50. I was diagnosed with anxiety first, then bipolar with psychotic disorder , then schizoeffective disorder. I struggle with hygiene and being social . I really worry about my future.
I had lifelong suicidal depression, which eventually evolved into mass homicidal and suicidal depression. I prayed to Jesus to heal me, and he did, and now no more depression. All glory to Jesus. Seek him.
my brother was diagnosed a few months ago with schizoaffective disorder and this is the first time I've felt closer to understanding him. thank you for sharing your story.
Yes u must be very sympathetic they suffer sooo much u have NO idea. Voices, manic &So much Depression. Please do more res search and seek Group/meetings to better understand it. I have a sister with and Now we just found out my 19year old Nephew is suffering symptoms as well. Stay Strong.
Isadora Guimarães good on u for doing the research and making the effort to understand what he’s going through, reaching out is hard for men especially
Your story moved me. My mom was diagnosed schizophrenic when I was in my teens. She was a beautiful, upbeat, kind person, very creative, very positive and giving. When the illness started, she would have very extreme mood swings. One moment, she would be happy and singing songs and engaging...the next moment, she would be very angry, violent even, and the slightest thing triggers her anger. She had hallucinations too...would have shouting matches with invisible people..very vulgar language...very paranoid with everyone around her except us, the immediate family. She was convinced people have something against our family, and would be in a perpetual ‘war-prep mode’ with everyone. It was a very hard time for us, and looking back I really admired my dad for his strength and resolve and for sticking around. As she aged though, she mellowed down. I sometimes wonder if it had to do with hormones, as it did start on or around her menopausal years, and mellowed when she was in her 70s. She would still have occasional fits, but it really became much better towards her later years. This would sound un-scientific and I wont blame you if I lose you when I say what made things a bit better was finding spirituality for her. She passed away about a year after someone ministered to her on faith, and she became actively prayerful about a month before passing. That was the time she became really radiant, happy again, peaceful and opened up to others. She passed away very peacefully, a mere 15 mins after ‘socializing’ with her friends...in a way saying her goodbyes. The good thing that emerged from this whole trauma was, my brother deciding to study mental health. He finished a PhD on cognitive science and is now working towards researching mental health issues.
God bless your mother, My Father was diagnosed with schizophrenia during Vietnam and the past few months began experiencing EPS from his medication. He had to go to the hospital and was taken off his medications. It was terrifying to see the man who raised me become psychotic. It was the hardest moment where I had to stay with him during his episodes because my dad wasnt mentally capable to coordinate with the doctors. Due to a ton of medical complications he had to be discharged to a nursing home and is finally taking an antipsychotic that is working with little to no side effects. It sucks seeing him in a nursing home but is great to finally see him coming back to his old self. I spend as much time as I can with my father now; visiting him everyday. hopefully one day he'll come home.
I've had to deal with this illness I my own family and with close friends who had it and they can get pretty abusive and unpleasant to be around when ill. I just tune out emotionally when they get ill, to avoid being personally impacted on by their behaviour, which can be pretty distressing if you are on the receiving end of it and it's no use trying to convince them that what they fear during a delusional state is not real because that only infuriates them more. To them it is very real. I just copied with these states in others by simply being calm and understanding and playing along with it. For instance, if my sick brother rang me at 3am in a state of panic because he believed some evil men were coming to harm me and he'd order me to pack up everything and quickly disappear somewhere secret and dark to survive, although I'd be fuming at being woken up for no reason, I would take a deep breath, put on a calm voice, thank him for warning me these evil men I his mind were coming to harm his precious only sibling and then reassure him I had packed everything up, ready to flee to a secret safe place where these evil men could not find me to harm me. That would settle him a bit, but I had to undertake to call him at regular intervals, so he could know I was safe. Now, O am a very independent female and such protective male behaviour aggravated me no end, as I am Bipolar, a pretty bad combination for a quiet, placid schizophrenic type. But I simply played along with his delusions. It made life a lot easier. My schizophrenic female friends thought I was some shining star, female God like figure. They adored me, thought I was perfect as a female, which felt great, until they would suddenly turn nasty and abusive for no reason and top into me, other women they loved eg their poor good mum's, who also copped earfuls of nasty abusive language. It was pretty hurtful but we knew it was their illness talking, not our good friends, on such occasions and so we just tuned out. Occasionally one of us would ask them why they thought we were such bitches etc, hoping for some sort of vaguely intelligible reply but we never got any explanation out of them. Just another abuse tirade and told we just were the nasty things they said. So, we simply tuned out to this and then tuned back in when they were back to their normal sweet selves. One such abusive schizo friend suicides. I never thought I could miss her so much. I can still see her admiring face, at a local ball here, dressed in her acqua blue gown, admiring me as I made my entrance, waving and smiling, even though she had nobody to dance with her. It really shattered me to hear she had suicided. Had people known how to help her, she might have stayed alive, as she was able to hold a job and care for herself in all other respects, except her mental illness that we all tolerated, thinking it was just one of those things we simply accepted and tried to tolerate as good family, friends etc. But, what she really needed was some effective medication which schizo people simply must have, to fix some chemical imbalance in their brain tissues. Once that is balanced out, they can be OK, even nice people, often creative. I have known a few artistic and musically talented Schizos and had no need to fear entering their cave like fens some of them keep, to be creative in. In fact, I felt very priveleged to be invited in there because they were very reclusive, secretive people who were loners by nature. We had great fun doing music and checking out their paintings, sculptures etc. But, I must admit that, though I am pretty imaginative myself, their unusual ways of thinking often lost me. Because I am not as imaginative as many of these Schizos are. Just because we cannot tune into their thinking does not entitled us to label them stupid, mad, senseless etc, as some do. They are merely different from us, not necessarily inferior, just because they have a mental illness that causes many to fear them. When, in fact, though sometimes a bit abusive and unpleasant, like even most so called normal people can be, most of the time they are perfectly harmless and often very gentle people. I notice that every schizo I have known seems to love warm furry, vulnerable looking fluffy animals eg kittens. I often wondered if this is because they themselves feel as scared and vulnerable as such animals, hence they connect with them emotionally.
Mellowman468: Am sorry to hear that. Mental illness is not an easy thing to deal with. We had to put my mom in a nursing home as well, because her in-house caregivers were neglecting her to the point of starvation and stealing from her. That aggravated her paranoia, seeing evidence that others are really out to get her. The day my brother and I took her to the nursing home, on the pretext of just taking her out for sightseeing and a dinner night out, she was semi-lucid, and it hurt when she said: ‘God blessed me with 2 children..but I may as well have been childless had I known they would just leave me in my old age like this”. My mom was a pretty creative, easy going, charming lady in her normal self...when the episodes start, she would be violent, unkempt, vulgar...would even stop eating certain foods because the voices told her not to, obsessed with time ( she can only perform tasks at a certain time, because the voices will punish her otherwise). I got really angry at God at one point because other than her mental illness, she also battled cancer, and it was too much to see both diseases ravage her body and mind.
I was diagnosed as bipolar with psychosis at age 20. When most people find out you have this type of illness their demeanor totally changes towards you, especially family. And it's a shame. We are people with feelings just like everyone else, we're just wired differently. Your life is worth living no matter what your diagnosed as
That's a very smart thing to say Chris. You sound super intelligent. An old friend of mine was diagnosed with it. She was a sweet person who loved animals and cried at sad movies. You're probably a better person than most people who don't have it. I wish you all the best. Have fun and enjoy life. Peace!
It puzzles me how some people cant understand how the world works even now that the internet has brought us all of different cultures, beliefs and preferences so close. Just so you get a better understanding, no matter how amazingly good something might be, not everyone is going to like it. Why? For many reasons. Some people woke up at the wrong side of their bed that morning, some are naturally negative and always find something to nag about or there could be a lot of different reasons, it really doesnt matter why people dislike something that is considered good by the majority. The important thing is that you don't focus on the negative side of things, which is what you're doing when you give your attention to a small, negative minority.
It's because what she's saying she has doesn't match up to what she's done. If she had these problems her concentration level would have been non existent so there's no way she would have been studying and doing well lol it's not something you can control and push through so sounds as if she's saying this for attention.
I have family members with schizophrenia and it always hurts to see how its portrayed in the media. Thank you for shedding light on this and sharing your experience!
If staying out of the hospital means that one is doing well, then great! But there is also no shame in seeking treatment over and over again if need be (and also as a preventative measure for exmple). Hve a great day!
You are helping so many people who’s scared of mental illnesses and their stigma. I wish mental illnesses are seen by people like a missing limb, or like any other disease with physical manifestations. You’re very lucky to have a strong support system. Thank you for being courageous and yay for being who you are!
Thankyou for sharing this! You are so brave! I wish you and everyone who's going through something similar lots of strength and light! It must be so hard. ❤️
I wish I had found you channel earlier but I know is never to late. My daughter was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and watching your video gives me a far better understanding of what she goes through. Is has being a painful process she is a amazing human being she is only 14 and has tried to take her life twice. We are so grateful to had being able to stop it and want to help her but knowing what she lives inside her head is not always easy to understand. Thanks for sharing your experience.
This hits very close to home. I have Bipolar Type II and Borderline Personality Disorder and have been in treatment since age 13. I have managed to live on my own, get a BA in Marketing and I will start a Master’s degree in Marketing in May of 2020. I have had multiple suicide attempts and multiple hospitalizations, have struggled a lot, but here we are. We are warriors, every day is a struggle, but we survive and thrive!
I can relate to this and have similar diagnoses. I'm 36 and was diagnosed at age 28. I absolutely struggle with an intense fear of the dark and not wanting to take my meds.
fiona kirk you’re stronger than you think! :) Try sticking to the meds (I’ve dropped them a few times and it’s a big no-no) they really help. I personally struggle with social anxiety and agoraphobia, so you’re definitely not alone, try taking solace in that. Sending you a hug!
Thank you for this story, really puts things into perspective for someone on the outside looking in. My roommate was recently diagnosed with Scizophrenia. This time last year, i would have never thought that. He started displaying really bizarre behaviors before summer, was getting late on rent, becoming distant and incoherent, disappearing for days at a time and not responding to anyone's calls. He finally came out and told me there was something wrong, so I contacted his family and we took action. They thought it best for him to move back home, so we are no longer roommates, but he is still a good friend.
I never really understood what Schizophrenia was and what it’s effects are on a person. I watched your video to educate myself and to understand what you went through. Thank you so much for sharing what must have been really difficult for you to discuss. I am proud of the woman you have become, and I wish you all the best in your continued fight against this dreadful condition. Keep fighting, we are all on your side. Love from Scotland.
@bill2526 bill2526 in the quran demons are mentioned they are made from smokeless fire They are shape shifters and the quran proves Einstein theory correct
Thank you so much for being public with your story! My beloved son took his own life at 29 and his last 5 years struggling with schizoaffective disorder was the worst suffering I can imagine. Your sharing this is proof positive that always having hope that he could get his life back was not unrealistic on my part, regardless of what I was told. Learning to live with this has certainly taken much courage and resilience. No one should ever have to worry about stigma or shame on top of that. Your going public will go a long way to helping people understand the illness, and that this is indeed an illness like any other, that can strike through no bidding or fault of your own. It only deserves our greatest compassion. Thank you!
I'm 18 and experiencing symptoms exactly like this, but still very lightly. Finding your videos has been a lifesaver. I'm crying as I write this because I'm really scared to be diagnosed, but listening to you describe your later teen years and early 20s really hits home, and makes me think early diagnosis and not continuing on like this will be much better for my future. After this, I can no longer pretend that I am okay, that it is my imagination, and that I am just moody. I KNOW there is something deeper wrong with my behavior and psyche; I can feel it deep down whether or not I can continue to hide it enough to still be "normal". Thank you for taking your time to share, this has been far more helpful than all of the research I've done online.
Hey my friend, It's a blessing that the Internet opens up the possibility to inform ourselfs without leaving Home or moving into other cities, therefore we should be happy, that not everyone has to take the long way to the well deserved life we should be able to live. Having a mental illness is nothing you did wrong! There is no shame in being diagnosed. Ofcourse there always gonna be people who dont know how to handle the information, but as soon as you talk each other out, the barrier is always gone! I have 2 friends with schizophrenia and they are really cool guys. Mostly introverted i found them having alot of similar interests, based on movies/books/games/whatever, so i can connect to them. Please see a Doctor, even if its just for the sake of "trying it out", maybe its something else too There is no "normal", everyone has its flaws. And (mostly) everyone wants other people to be happy, to feel love and joy. I have no mental illness, but i have lots of people who dont like me, and whom i dont like, so dont worry about not being accepted, it happens to all of us!=) If you need someone to talk, i am here for you(:
Get rid of your wifi and smart meter. It's totally possible that it's electromagnetic frequencies and NOT AT ALL a disorder. Also, stop putting your cell phone up to your head. And don't listen to these people who are ingratiating themselves to you by trying to seem like they're "there for you." They're not there for you, because they're digital people who exist on the internet.
@@_-_-_-_ What is exactly your problem? Psychic problems are "electromagnetic frequencies", the WiFi and Phone makes you ill, and no help for anyone, because internet and solidarity is a lie? Justin, my mom from 1990 is here and wants her arguments back.
@@_-_-_-_ People had schizophrenia centuries before internet came around, I don't know what you're on about. Maybe you're suffering from delusions? Maybe you need to take your antipsychotics to be a bit clearer in your head? Meds can do wonder by lifting weird beliefs.
Hi, I'm a psychology student and I'm always fascinated to learn from people rather than just textbooks. I'm grateful to you that you are now in a position to share your story. I can only imagine how terrifying it is to experience what could be describe as a horrible vivid dream in real life. I am also inspired by your achievements. Thank you so much.
My sister was diagnosed with Schizophrenia a few years ago and just this past year was rediagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder. She refuses to take her meds and as of recently chooses to be homeless. My family is heartbroken that we can't help her, but watching this video is encouraging. We will never give up on her.
This video hurts me a ton. I can relate to so much being told. I just want a normal life I want a job I want to move foward. Im too afraid to die but I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder Ive been hospitalized in the pysch section of the hospital 3 times. Im normally stable these days but I just wanna give u a big hug because Im currently crying because I kno the pain I can see it in ur expression. It hurts so much. I know this depression its so strong but just be strong pls...Im dealing with it too its scary just day by day (:
There are more of us out here living and struggling with this everyday then anyone really knows. That's probably because it has such a negative connotation and stereotype in society that people are afraid to let anyone know they have schizophrenia. 45 this yr. Diagnosed at 25-26 Original onset of symptoms at 20. 1st full blown Delusional episode at 21, with 15 more and 4 suicide attempts before diagnosis. It's nice that there are channels like this. Brings a little hope to the hopeless.
God loves you pretty lady!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜 this too shall pass. He will not lead you astray. Seek Him in every moment of your life, in Jesus name you will be healed. Never lose sight of Him, please. You will overcome this. There is always a way. Keep your head up and your spirits higher.
@@Lonelybones97 I know, and appreciate, that you are trying to help. Taking the time to write a comment which you thinks might help the person. But the last thing they need is religion. Remember that they already have trouble deciding what is real and what is not because of their hallucinations and delusional thought. And now you’re throwing another delusional subject onto them. Please don’t do that.
Hay Lauren, I also live with a disorder, mine is called higher functioning autism/aspergers, and thus I am very empathetic to other people like you that also have a mental disorder. The one big plus side of what I have is that it has made me more creative then most people around me, and one way I am creative is I write stories, and one story involves schizophrenia in a positive way. I have created my own super hero called Phreniac and he has schizophrenia, which is the source of his power. He got electroshock therapy which unlocked his power in his mind. The way his power works is if a person holds a gun to him, he can hallucinate the gun full of lead so it can't fire, the hallucination becomes real and the gun can't fire. Of course all the bad symptoms of the disorder are his kryptonite and thus he finds saving people hard sometimes but can manage most times. I wrote Phreniac because no super hero or even villain has a major mental illness like that and I thought to create one and have the illness his power and thus be a positive attribute.
It sounds very creative, I just wonder if it actually works. I don't like when people turn illnesses into positive characteristics, because an illness is a negative thing that interfers with your way of feeling, thinking and function in your everyday life. It's one thing to say I don't want to have been without the experiences my mental illness have given me, but being without the symptoms is something most of us are desperately trying to attchieve. I'm bipolar and definitely couldn't be a super hero, I'm so low functioning I can't even shower when I need it...
I do think there's a huge differences between neuropsychatric conditions and actual illnesses, since you can live a perfectly happy life with autism/ADHD/ADD etc. as long as you and the environment take it into consideration. But someone with depression can NEVER live a perfectly happy life, and I don't think someone being in active psychosis can be very happy either. When I've had psychotic symptoms I've been incredibly terrified and as far from a superhero as I can. Real-life hallucinations and superheros don't really match. I think it's a very sensitive subject. Bipolar mania might work better, because you almost get superpower when your brain works that fast! But if you make the schizophrenia fantasy-like I guess it could work. I'm glad you're writing, so am I! Escaping life's problem and run away into your world full of characters is a life line for me, I honestly couldn't have survived without it. I'm never alone, I always have my characters with me!
@@SamirCCat Actually, you have a good point, now that I think about it. I have anxiety and I can't even conceive of how you would translate that into a superpower. Anxiety makes me feel terribly weak, completely the opposite of strong and capable. However, the act of writing might help someone to see the hidden strengths their mental illness brings them, or just to conceptualize it differently. Who knows; good food for thought anyway.
There's a ted talk "What hallucination reveals about our minds | Oliver Sacks" The talks about people with hallucinations seemingly appearing because of their lack of sight, hearing or other senses. Might be worth taking a look at.. Charles Bonnet Syndrome
seek Jesus and you'll find Him. You can't claim something doesn't exist just because you haven't experienced it. Guess what i was atheist also and blasphemer but when i saw with my own eyes demons at night terrorizing me only name Jesus would make them instantly flee. People have been experienced spritual for thousands of years, from all parts of earth. Spiritual is more real than physical because it's immortal, just because we can't see something doesn't mean it doesn't exist. God promised whoever seek out Him with honest heart will find Him. Look on youtube countless testimonies of demons or angels, it's truly amazing. Don't let the devil device you and wins your soul for eternity to torture, his biggest lie is that he doesn't exist because when people fall for this they won't stand chance to get saved because they won't belive in devil or God. Please for your own good seek Jesus, just look around how everything is complex and intelligent in nature yet so perfect in order. From solar system to our dna which is literally data base consisting all infomations about ourselves to our blood, bones, organs, our mind, memory, emotions, thoughts,... Then all the animal and plant species, all amazing scenaries in nature, circle of life,... Know that behinf all of that is Creator and He created you, shaped you and loves you so much that He died for you so that by His sacrifice our sins are payed and washed away by His blood. Price of eternity is too high to play, you have been warned. Choice of your eternal destination is up to you
I was diagnosed Schizoaffective with Manic tendencies in my early twenties. I also had an addiction to hard drugs that only made my symptoms worse. I am 40 now and have been sober for 12 years but I still have auditory and visual hallucinations but much more mild than in my younger years. I appreciate that you have the courage to put yourself out there and show people that just because people have mental illnesses doesn’t mean that they are violent people. Most of us internalize the illness and sometimes deal with it for years without most others knowing the suffering that we endure on a daily basis. You are a sweet person and just always remember you are not alone. 💖
You are amazing! I have schizophrenia and have done for 8 years. Sometimes I feel so helpless. You have made me realise I shouldn't give up. Thankyou so much
Youre my hero! My sis was just diagnosed and you have given us hope that she can live a real life and contribute to the world around her. Thank You!!!!!
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this is nerve racking,,
What a story. May you be blessed with a wonderful life. You've come a long way❤
That was the bravest and most honest communication I’ve ever seen from a human being.
Brian Cook ❤️
Perfect comment !!!!!
Same ❤️
Yes, thank you so much! I’ve been researching for my daughter. Sounds very familiar- but she won’t seek help. Thanks again!
I have a sibling who is a medical doctor diagnosed who is refusing help cz of her tonne of knowledge.
My sister committed suicide 6 months after she was diagnosed with schizophrenia. This happened 9-19-2001. I still mourn her. God bless you for your courage ❤️❤️❤️
Sending you hugs. This illness can be horrendous but its good to see success stories and read other peoples experiences. I think that hopefully there is more understanding now than in 2001.
I am sorry
I’m so sorry. She is healthy now having a blast in heaven.
Sorry for your lost ❤️❤️
My Condolences
This was the most articular, sharp story about mental illness I've ever heard. It has helped me with my struggles more than you'll ever know.
You okay bro?
Apart from the fact that she was able to study and stay focused throughout the whole thing which is a red flag! Her concentration level would have been at zero and would have become more and more withdrawn and unfortunately with these disorders it's not a case of being able to push through as it's not like having something like depression or anxiety in which you CAN push through, you can't push through anything Schizophrenic that's a disorder for life unfortunately.
@@stefanhatcher6486 Is this true,sczophernia can kill their parents or children?
Schizophrenia is a spiritual illness. The soul is lost in diferent portals. The body is here, so it needs a lot of fasting and prayers and you can recuperate
They are drived by evil entities. They need spiritual help. Not yoga but fasting and prayers
My wife is checked in right now involuntary for the first time. You have most definitely helped me understand what's going on. Psychosis is a very scary thing to witness the first time. Thank you for helping me understand.
Good day, Dwayne! My son is checked in also right now involuntary. I am looking for some families that's going through the same journey.
Coping ya on a invol?
That does. no good.
My brother is currently checked in for a having a psychosis brake down 😓 I'm stil waiting for results to find out if he's schizophrenic or is just severe depression
Same, my 24 y/o son is currently going through this. I’ve never felt more scared, confused, and lonely. We’re trying our best to be as supportive as possible but it’s pretty tiring and drains you mentally/emotionally. We’re staying hopeful for better days.
You should give her more time:( please make sure she can see her children and hopefully one day regain her ability to share custody. There is hope
Never give up hope. I was diagnosed age 18 in 1976, and today, now aged sixty, and despite it not being an easy path, I feel I have had a successful life.
I have been with my husband for thirty six years. I have three grown up children and two grandchildren.
I have a career as a screenwriter and a Masters Degree.
I first began hearing voices aged seventeen. But with hindsight I now recognise that I first began to experience symptoms of schizophrenia aged nine. After a traumatic event.
You can make it. And be fulfilled and productive.
Be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ and repent of all your sins to have a successful life.
@@RyanREAX ruclips.net/video/mSfa56tjBQo/видео.html it's ok to be gay..I mean, who can help themselves
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Andrea Clyndes’s how great to read about something like that!
Hello Andrea what did you do to keep pursuing school and not being labeled mentally deranged? I have had anxiety and schizophrenia and my negative self talk isn’t helping and probably hypersexuality seem to be a noticeable cause.
Hi, I am a psychologist and I can tell you that a woman at my university was diagnosed with schizophrenia but after years of therapy , hospitalization and medication she is now a psychologist herself, has written many books and is vice president for the Norwegian Psychological Association. Keep the faith , you seem so nice, insightful and intelligent. Never loose hope that things will work out. Seems to me like you already have done so much and come so far. Remember that even a relapse will not mean that there is not hope, just keep moving, look for the positive signs and set goals. A meaningful life is not necessarily a life without struggle, but what we can learn after overcoming our struggles and then passing the knowledge on to someone who needs it. Like you do.
I personally do not think this is a mental illness. You as a psychologist could shed some light into that as well. Studies and research in Cross Cultural psychology has shown that these are all standards created by Eurocentric standards and western ideologies and by some very "interesting folks". Anyone can be a psychologist and anyone can rank health by the said modules yll have created..you DSMs and what not.
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"I personally do not think this is a mental illness."
*Interesting. If you personally do no think it is a mental illness, then what do you personally think it is?*
@@ShadowWalker1971 It is something to do with the brain and the way it processes certain chemicals. But to blanket just say it is "mental illness- routines of psychosis" shows high levels of ignorance and laziness in understanding what mental illness even is. It has to do with disorder relating to signals entering the brain's logic gates and neurons. It can also be reordered via various treatments. But the label or stigma of mental illness, to me is a fallacy. You choose whatever language suits you and run with it. I have lived in different societies besides the west and this is not what you geniuses consider it to be.
@@oluwaaluah7853 You are 100% right. Psychology is largely a theoretical science, hence nothing has been proven. The DSM has multiple disorders that have been added, removed or replaced over the years that it has become unreliable at the least. As you have noted, some societies have very different views on mental illness, and any western psychologist or psychiatrist worth their salt would be the first to tell you this.
There are multiple different treatments ALL with various degrees of success, whether you are on medication and have a successful life, or you have been in the hospital all your life and have been on every medication without success, have taken the holistic path (natural medicine + positive environmental changes) without ever taking medication and succeeded, or have taken the religious approach(Exorcism or belief of demon possession), among many, many others.
Some religious communities have a whole different view on this issue, which differs widely between different religions! This topic is better left alone really, as humans have not been given enough knowledge to fully understand what goes on in the brain.
@@oluwaaluah7853 Okay, how do they fix it then? How is it reordered? Yeah, I understand that a lot of "geniuses" as you call them, don't know as much as they think, but please don't include me in that, because I am open minded about things and will listen to what people have to say, and I don't think I know it all like I get the feeling you think is their problem.
Oh sweetie you took me back to my own journey with schizoaffective disorder....! I wasn't diagnosed until age 48. I suffered for years in my own silence hiding everything that was happening to me, dealing by myself... life was so hard! I was married, worked in an offices atmosphere, had 3 girls, ran an auction business part time, started my own business while working doing massage therapy and participated in my girls schools. My life was so busy and maybe that's what kept those awful thoughts at bay. But my girls went to college, moved out, got married and I was alone with husband who traveled for work. Long story short...I couldn't keep doing what I'd been doing. I got very ill & was finally diagnosed. I'm 64 now and living quietly enjoying time with grandchildren and hubby. God has been a rock for me. God bless you!
Thank you for sharing. I am a father of a girl who experienced illusions. She managed to get. A degree in engineering and now is able to. Support her self with a good job. She still struggles but in the last 2 years she is constantly improving and is experiencing happiness more often. I am so proud of her! And you and her are both my heroes for being so brave.
Awwww ur daughter sounds amazing and you 2 👏
This makes me so happy 😭❤️
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So its the Endinger ganglion and gamma motor neurons that are reacting to acetyl chloride hormones in the dopamine nicotine receptor this is due to joule produced from radio communications that are absorbed by a transition metal called aluminum from Al+2 O +2 carcinogenic this is what causes anxiety in the cns people who dont smoke Cigs are not dispersing heat from the aluminum that is naturally pulled towards the surface of the skin like a heat spreader also depends on weins equation the relativity of size fro mass density and volume and thermal physics of the wavelength of signal associated to it ramen spectroscopy which house the ultrasound that causes this when it reacts to sodium in the pancreas
So its the Endinger ganglion and gamma motor neurons that are reacting to acetyl chloride hormones in the dopamine nicotine receptor this is due to joule produced from radio communications that are absorbed by a transition metal called aluminum from Al+2 O +2 carcinogenic this is what causes anxiety in the cns people who dont smoke Cigs are not dispersing heat from the aluminum that is naturally pulled towards the surface of the skin like a heat spreader also depends on weins equation the relativity of size fro mass density and volume and thermal physics of the wavelength of signal associated to it ramen spectroscopy which house the ultrasound that causes this when it reacts to sodium in the pancreas
Very touching story. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 15, will have my bachelor's in social work in 2020.
DarkCarbunkle fuck up dude
Early congrats on your degree!!
Congratulations 💕
We seem to think of mental illness as it coming only from an emotional place, and that we need to work on emotions in order to heal. But in fact the the brain is a physical part of the body as the liver, kidneys, heart, etc., and in the same way these organs can get damaged by lack of nutrients/wrong nutrients, toxins, impact injury etc., so can the brain. And recent science also have found a very strong connection between the gut and the brain, where the gut bacteria communicate with the brain constantly, affecting how we think and feel, which makes a strong and healthy micro biome essential for good mental health. And you can only imagine how detrimental antibiotics (prescription and in our food), and the modern diet is to our mental and physical well being. We have to eat vegetable fiber in order to maintain a strong and healthy micro biome and those should be pesticide free, because pesticides are created to kill bacteria.. And that is another big part of the problem and maybe the biggest one, the environmental toxins we are surrounded by. From pesticides like glycophosphate (Round Up) to microplastic/BPA to lead and mercury that is truly neurotoxic and making people very sick. Lead is found in old paint, some dishes/appliances, especially common the ones with red paint, maybe your water, and mercury is found in fish (more in the big ones like tuna, shark), amalgam fillings (if you ever remove them if must be done safely by an IAOMT dentist or you could get severely ill), some vaccines, CFL light bulbs and maybe your water. It is worth checking if you are getting exposed to these metals and removing them. There are a lot of very ill people, both mentally and physically, who have gotten well from getting rid of these toxic metals and then chelating SAFELY. You can read some of the success stories by googling «andy cutler success stories». But I have to emphasize that you have to do this safely, there is a lot of very dangerous «natural detox» protocols out there that have made people very very sick, like taking cilantro or chlorella, you can read some peoples experiences with these by googling «andy cutler what not to do». I can’t stress enough how important it is to do this safely and I would encourage anyone who wants to look into this to read about the Andrew Cutler protocol and understand why it is safe, and join the Andy Cutler Facebook group to to get accurate information, see other peoples experiences and get support. So, what I am saying is that it is a physical aspect to mental illness that involves toxins and lack of/wrong nutrients which causes inflammation in the brain, and it can be reversed. But I’m not saying that talking about problems and working on emotions in a way that works for you isn’t helpful, cause it absolutely can be, but it might not be the root cause.
Lia Bias, I wish you the very best!
My mom is schizophrenic and she is the best mom ever. I love her so much. She takes her meds and is doing great for years
As a mom, I have bip1 with severe ptsd I’m a mama of a little boy, 17 months. I hope one day he says this about me,this gives me hope 🌈💕🙏🏽 bless you and your mom.
just a heads up, people are starting to steer away from calling someone "schizophrenic" because it doesn't differentiate people from their disorder. It is more proper to call someone suffering from "schizophrenia". Cheers~
Solunox totally-I was thinking of that because I am a disabled person with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. I never say “I’m Ehlers-Danlostic”
Solunox but we say diabetic... interesting premise though. I think you are right.
Please read “A Mind of Your Own” by Kelly Brogan. It will change your life. Trust me.
Hi, I also have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia since 2004. I've been in therapy for 17 years, which has really helped a lot. I was actively schizophrenic for two years from 2004-2006. I have gotten better, and in 2016 I graduated from SFSU with a M.S. degree in computer science. I am amazed at your strength and resilience to get as much done with your life while you were schizoaffective. I basically stayed in a room for many years alone. But, I've been working over the last 5 years, and at my best I was contracting in IT at Google in SF, CA. My psychiatrists and psychologists always tell me that I am a success story, and I think you are a success story, too. Without family support, medication, education, and therapy, I would either be homeless, in jail, or dead. But, now I'm working and pursuing my dream of being a video game developer. Stay strong and praise God for your wonderful testimony! It was a blessing to me to hear it.
I can't imagine going through something like this. What makes it even worse is, she's _aware_ of it, but powerless to stop it. It breaks my heart. God bless you, sweetheart.
She was on the verge of tears ..she's brave tho
I had lifelong suicidal depression, which eventually evolved into mass homicidal and suicidal depression. I prayed to Jesus to heal me, and he did, and now no more depression. All glory to Jesus. Seek him.
My dad is a paranoid schizophrenic, who smokes weed and is an alcoholic. He doesnt take his meds or take care of himself. He is 43, and I wonder how he is still alive from all the alchohol he intakes. His auditory hallucinations really curse him. He also feels unexplained pain (doctors cant find what's wrong), but my dad screams in pain. I'm 20. And I have never really had a childhood, bc of my mother leaving when i was almost 12 months. But yeah. Ty to those who have read this.
I am so sorry that you had and have to go through something like this. I know this seems like a silly thing to say, but things really do get better in time, don't lose hope. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you. I wish you and your dad all the best!!
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Hi derek 42 Ireland I'm an alcoholic and a Junkie and I have schizophrenia I don't drink or take drugs anymore I'm taking 10 mg of olanzapine for schizophrenia and I'm ok now and happy so ur better off taking ur meds and stopping the drugs and drinking
I hope things get better for you.
The alcohol and the cigarettes are poisons, nicotine is more toxic than snake venom. Your father is suffering from two problems. One, the poison creates very dark images in the brain. Second, the poison also keeps your father from eating well, so he is also suffering from internal starvation, which is why he hallucinates etc. If you can convince him to stop all poisons, alcohol, smokes, weed, all drugs even coffee because even though coffee is not a poison its an alkaloid and you don’t want stimulants in the system when your trying to rid the system from poison. Then get him to eat hamburgers with the lot and milk every day. Foods like that, pies, t.bones, pork chops, heavy foods. These are rebuilding foods. He will put on weight but it doesn’t matter, he has to re-nourish his mind. It will take 3 years judging by what you have said to get him out. I feel for you because your father would be impossible to convince. The poisons are speaking for him 24/7. You do need a miracle and l pray God Walks With You! Oh! The extreme level of poisons are responsible for destroying his life and it always brings him bad luck, nothing ever goes right.
I am blown away by your courage, honesty and self-awareness. Inspiring.
AGREE. She is phenomenal.
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me too! she is so strong. Lauren you are an amazing person. hope you are doing well.
I’m a 19 year old kid with schizoaffective disorder and it’s really reassuring to know that I’m not alone, thanks for sharing your story and it really inspires me to do the same. One of my biggest weakness’s is being misunderstood, and this video just took the words right out of my brain. Ty
My son was diagnosed at age 11. He has been coping with schizophrenia for 15 years now. He's also Autistic (Aspergers). I'm thankful to you for putting these videos on RUclips, the world needs to be educated about other mental illnesses as well as depression. God Bless and stay strong
I have to admit I watched this video out of curiosity, but I was overwhelmed by sympathy, and I so wanted you to have a good outcome. I could hear the terrible sad undertone in your voice, even when you were trying to remain neutral and upbeat. Thank you for being so courageous.
Ed Smiley same.
99.999% of videos are clicked on out of curiosity. Schizophrenia is intriguing no shame is wanting to see how chemical imbalances can affect a person.
I too speak with a sad undertone when talking about myself with the near same condition. It's not so much sadness but almost embarrassment for not being, shall I say, normal and for fear of being judged. In my case it can also be part of my BiPolar II since I spend most of my time in a depressed state while trying to keep a happy face. This could very well be her state of mind as well.
@@10MinutestoRouletteFortune i have the exact same thing brother!
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You are one of the most articulate people I have ever heard speak. I hope you write a book. I wish you continued personal, professional, and academic success. Never underestimate or lose sight of your accomplishments. They will carry and sustain you.
My blessings to you and your family . You are the bravest person I've ever listened to. Thank you for sharing, this has helped me understand my own family's mental disabilities. I can also recognize my own hidden problems. Stay strong and continue your journey. You have helped me a great deal. God bless. Larry in Southern California.
I have schizoaffective with bipolar, PTSD, anxiety, adhd, ocd, REM narcolepsy, and I had eating disorders from age 5 to 37. I get this story. I understand you. I'm glad you are taking a stand for mental health. 👏 great story.
Hi. Be strong. I have a son going thru the same
@@jaimep.7022 , thanks. Same to your son. It's tough
As someone who loves someone with schizophrenia and has watched them struggle with psychotic thought.
Both them and you are amazing souls ❤️
Thank you for sharing. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type when I was 15. I am 27 now. I’ve always had a hard time keeping jobs. So I’m happy to say I’m 11 months in to my first full time job as a teacher. I’ve been married for 6 years to my best friend. I’m doing things I never thought possible. This past week I had a psychotic break and have felt very discouraged, hopeless, and stressed. Hearing your story has really helped me. I feel so encouraged. Thank you! 🙏
I'm so proud of you kandace😭♥️ seriously you're such an inspiration.
Kandace Clarkson - As teachers, we have amazing benefits that come with our job. Take the time when you need it and don't let guilt sway your decision. Remember... you need to help yourself before you can help others.
Keep fighting girl, you've got this!
Kandace Clarkson Please read “A Mind of Your Own” by Kelly Brogan. It will change your life. Trust me.
My jaw just dropped. You deserve a standing ovation.
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For doing the impossible! With anything Schizophrenic she wouldn't have been able to stay in education as her concentration would have been zero.
Sounds like she was just depressed if anything! Can't do this with Schizophrenic disorders unfortunately. There's no success stories with schizophrenia as it's not something you can work on and push through its a disorder for life.
Side effects of schizopheria will go away or not by time?
She is Amazing 👏 ♥️
My mother was effected with schizo-effect disorder as well as my sister. I have been hospitalized with major clinical depression myself so I totally get it. I have been on antidepressant meds since I was 23 years old. I am now 67 years old. I hate the fact that I have to take medicine for it but I have had no major depressive symptoms in 37 years. I live a normal life and worked for 40 years. I am now retired and living a very nice life. Thank you for sharing your story.👍🏻
I am sending this to my daughter who is currently hospitalized this. Your story is so similar to hers. Shes 17 and I'm trying to set her up for a fulfilling life. Thank you for being so candid and adding hope to this situation that feels pretty hopeless sometimes. I wish you well on this journey called life Lauren💫
I wish your daughter well and ur whole family.. 🙏
My son needs to watch this but not really as he knows what it's like...I need videos like this to understand my son as he's not open about it and he doesn't like me to push the subject..he was hospitalized for 3 months in 2019 . Of course as his mother I studied everything about his condition I could find but unless you experience it...its hard to grasp. Especially with my quiet son . So when I watch your videos and others.. I say oh that's why he does this or that.. it took all of his joy the first few years and seeing him suffer is my suffering for him...its terriblely difficult to see that in your child. But together slowly with time and the right meds..hes better...he smiles now.. he jokes sometimes..hes on a three month interval shot...which he just started last month...he is never going to be 100% clear of delusions. But they are reduced so much that he can live his life..he handles them he says...they don't handle him. I see a day in his future where he will have a normal life...really what is a normal life...so I thank you for your articulate video it helps me and therefore him
@@lsr2511 Hi Lisa! My son was diagnosed three months ago and I am looking for someone I can talk to who had the same journey. I am a mothr also and I feel how you feel. Im so proud of your son for being able to handle his life so well.
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You’re a strong person. My ex girlfriend had schizoaffective disorder. I know she really struggled with it. Extreme highs and lows.hallucinations. She is extremely intelligent and a master of visual arts. It went from one day I love you ,I’ll see you tomorrow,to never speaking again. I’ve seen glimpses of her on social media and she doesn’t seem happy. I think about her a lot. I feel her condition and my problems made it impossible to be together. I really miss her.she was the love my life.i just wish so badly I could tell her how sorry I am for not understanding what she was dealing with. I hope she finds peace
I’m so sorry, it’s such a difficult situation to be in and schizophrenia/schizoaffective makes maintaining any relationship unbelievably challenging, you said you wish you could tell her how you feel - you still can, it might help you both heal. Sending love xxx
I read an article: People with schizophrenia or mental illness sometimes might ended up being the most affectionate people ...because they feel every emotion soo intense..
My younger brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 18 , he’s now 29 and it has really been a struggle for him. He’s such a good person I just love him so much and worry about him a lot . He’s never had a job and rarely leaves my parents house where he’s lived his whole life. People that live with schizophrenia are such tough people, and I tell him that all the time whenever he gets down on himself. It breaks my heart to think of the hell he goes threw most days , he’s been in and out the hospital so many times. I feel like there’s nothing I can do I just cry sometimes thinking about him.. this life is so unfair . God bless you all
It is, but at least he’s safe with his fam, as we know a lot of people end up on the streets or worse, stay up
Bro am sorry God bless you I know u is hard
Nick, I’m in the same exact situation with my little brother. He is almost 30 now. I don’t know how to help him. Every day is such a rollercoaster around him. My parents are drained and getting older. It’s so hard not knowing how to navigate this aspect of life. I can’t seem to make him happy and he is constantly demanding and his intensity levels are of the charts. Much love to you and your brother.
nico tester wow man I know how you feel, definitely the same situation. My mother and father are getting older and are so drained. My mother’s in her 70s and my dads in his late 60s.. there not getting any younger so lately ive just been thinking about my brothers future, my mother and I have been talking about a group home for the future where he can learn to be more self sufficient and socialize with people a little more.. I know that’s the last thing he wants to do but at same point there’s gonna have to be some tough decisions to be made. Much love to you and yours. Be strong
I was diagnosed at 18 and turned 30 last may. My life is total hell lately; I'm constantly moving in and out of homes or hotels or renting rooms, friends and family think I'm lazy cus I get my disability and medicare but my anxiety, delusions, hallucinations, and paranoia are so bad that I can't usually keep a job longer than like 6 months. I always sabotage myself with my paranoia causing me to think everyone is talking shit at the restaurant or conspiring to fire me and I would randomly quit on the spot. I also have major physical health problems, but I did finally get off pain pills after going to the pain doctor for 12 years and I love my wife and am trying to start living for Jesus more and less for myself and thinking of my problems.
It's been very hard on my mother, though, and my dad killed himself cus of mental illness, but she has stayed so strong and always researched and new homeopathic and natural treatments and sends me supplements. 🙂
i feel so so proud of this wonderful woman and her resilience to power through her low points. such an inspiring video, thank you for sharing
Thank you so much, this week was in family therapy and Dr. told us she has made a determination that my son is suffering from...has..living with..still not sure how to talk about it...schizophrenia. My heart is broken...he is a genius, so handsome, used to be gentle, calm but has changed so much. I love him soooo much but can't touch or connect with him. Your video has helped me to understand his pain and struggle. Bought him his favorite banana cream pie tonight.
Dear Lauren,
I'm currently pursuing my Masters in Clinical Mental Health Counseling and I found your videos because I was looking for the human context of schizoaffective disorder. It's one thing to look at words on the pages of the diagnostic manuals, but it's another thing entirely to see it in person. It's the latter that matters as my clients are people, not words on a page or checkboxes to tick.
Thank you for being brave enough to share your story with the billions of strangers on the Internet. My heart goes out to you - I could see your pain as you recounted your darkest days and your faith and strength you have in your ability to overcome. As someone who also struggles with mental illness (and medication), I empathize greatly. Stigma sucks, especially when we've internalized it. If you are a hugger, please accept a warm Internet hug and a giant high five from a sister in struggle; if not, then know that I am thinking of you with all the warmth and positivity within me. I'm looking forward to any future videos you may decide to create.
You are not alone.
Thank you so much for your kind words! I really appreciate it. Sending a warm internet hug right back.
Praying for you to be healed. Im glad you are sharing so people can understand what your going through.
@adam b wishing you the best adam b continue to seek help it's out there
@no name every one will have different treatments there is no one answer peace
@adam b you are not alone
If you are reading this, know you are NOT alone ❤️
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I'm reading this while knowing I'm alone.
Yeah, that's what the voices in my head also told me.
This is a very common saying all over North America, maybe other places too. People keep saying this to other people, telling them that they are not alone, even when they are alone.Please "know" that you're not alone. What does that accomplish? Lying to people does not magically insert them into the midst of a group of nice people. Telling or asking another person to "know" something doesnt make them know what you want them to know.
@@JoshuaChaves16 Karma doesn't attack directly, it attacks everything and everyone you love, which leaves you helpless watching them either fall or turn against you. I've been a person I regret and received karma. Don't try to hurt people for your amusement or you may watch your children suffer a terrible fate in return. Possibly even ironic, like severe mental health issues after trying to hurt people with mental problems for nothing but amusement. I'm not wishing anything on you, I honestly do believe in karma based on my life and am warning you against it in regards to your comment which is literally evil. Something as small as that could be the last straw for someone in a weakened state of mind, can you imagine walking in on your child's suicide to see the last thing he read was something you've typed before? It's now possible and karma knows it, might wanna try to be a decent human being.
❤ My niece was recently diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder two weeks before she graduated from College.
Thank you for the raw honesty & vulnerability. The discussions & feedback are informative & greatly appreciated.
Thank you ! ❤❤❤❤
Thank You for helping this Momma understand what her 28 yr old daughter has been going through the last 6 years❤️
Despite your diagnosis, you are more together than the average person, myself included. Thank you for providing a positive example for the rest of us 👍
Same here. Best to you, beautiful and brave creature.
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I´ve known 3 people ,with schiophrenia,my aunt,my uncle and my neighbour.My neighbour ,at age 50,a month ago.Her psychiatrist prescribed her way too much medication and her heart couldn´t handle it no more.She had tryed to kill herself four times,during her lifetime.
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I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 20 years ago, I'm forty now, and I refused to take medications,I had found my salvation through Jesus Christ, He is my Lord and my Savior .I was doing great all these past years
I've been struggling with mental illness for as long as I can remember. I cried every day when I was a child, to the point where my teachers made charts and pasted stickers on them when I didn't cry. I always felt like an outsider.
It got worse when I was 13 and had my first break up. I was suicidal and ran into traffic. I googled my feelings and thought I had depression and anxiety. I had periods of happiness and then horrible sadness. I thought my depression just came and went.
When I was about 16 I started having manic episodes. I wouldn't sleep for days, wouldn't eat as much. I would get very involved and creative.
I started taking medication when I was 16 for anxiety, and it did help me, but the antidepressants just made me feel worse, I felt crazy on them.
From 16 to 19 I was in an abusive relationship, and from about 18 to 19 I took seroquel as I was diagnosed bipolar 1. I stopped taking it for 8 months, and was diagnosed as bipolar 1 with psychotic features because I became very paranoid and delusional and would see dark figures and people when there wasn't anyone around. Without medication I rapidly cycle through moods daily and have mixed episodes.
In October I was finally put on medication again. This put me over the edge. I'm not sure if it was the meds or not but my vision was so blurry I thought I was going blind. This made me intensely paranoid as I thought I was losing my sight. I felt like a corpse when I looked in the mirror. I felt like I was already dead -- days prior I was sexually assaulted. I was hospitalized for about a week and returned to college back on seroquel.
My diagnosis was then changed to scizoaffective bipolar type. If I miss one dose of meds I hear voices, see halos and shapes, and become very delusional. My thoughts are incredibly disordered, I'm easily angry.
I'm in college on the path to be a doctor. I'm so scared that I won't make it. I'm trying not to give up. Thank you for this. Your story hit home.
Thanks for reading.
Update:
I'm about to apply for graduation. I'm finally pretty "stable" on my combination of medication. Thank you for all of the support. 🖤
Please seek God, God and his son Jesus Christ loves you son so much!, Jesus Christ died on the cross for you, and every sickness and disease, he wants the best for you. God says in his word if you confess with your mouth That Jesus is lord and believe in your heart, that god has raised him from the dead, that you will be saved. (Romans 10:9-10) please invite him in your life, god will never leave nor forsake you! 💕
@@gummybear5452 u mean Allah wouldn't forsake you .Islam is the absolute truth.
And yet the way you just explained yourself in the most clearest way possible tells me is that you are completely normal and whole person, with a touch of mental illness. I wish that you reach all of your goals.
hey I just wanted to say that you are stronger than you may think and that you are loved. you deserve to live a happy life, please never forget this
You can do this! I believe in you. School together
I am one of probably thousands of people who wanted to give you a hug in the middle of this video. You are a very remarkable young woman and incredibly brave. I’ve suffered from depression for a few decades but nothing like what you’ve gone through. I really wish you the best. Thank you so much for sharing your story!
These are the types of mental illness stories we need to hear! You're so strong for going through all of this and especially coming out and talking about it to the world! You're truly an inspiration!
Bless your counsellor with the sixth sense who sent the wellness check :( I'm so glad you've made it through these harrowing experiences and I wish you only the best.
We seem to think of mental illness as it coming only from an emotional place, and that we need to work on emotions in order to heal. But in fact the the brain is a physical part of the body as the liver, kidneys, heart, etc., and in the same way these organs can get damaged by lack of nutrients/wrong nutrients, toxins, impact injury etc., so can the brain. And recent science also have found a very strong connection between the gut and the brain, where the gut bacteria communicate with the brain constantly, affecting how we think and feel, which makes a strong and healthy micro biome essential for good mental health. And you can only imagine how detrimental antibiotics (prescription and in our food), and the modern diet is to our mental and physical well being. We have to eat vegetable fiber in order to maintain a strong and healthy micro biome and those should be pesticide free, because pesticides are created to kill bacteria.. And that is another big part of the problem and maybe the biggest one, the environmental toxins we are surrounded by. From pesticides like glycophosphate (Round Up) to microplastic/BPA to lead and mercury that is truly neurotoxic and making people very sick. Lead is found in old paint, some dishes/appliances, especially common the ones with red paint, maybe your water, and mercury is found in fish (more in the big ones like tuna, shark), amalgam fillings (if you ever remove them if must be done safely by an IAOMT dentist or you could get severely ill), some vaccines, CFL light bulbs and maybe your water. It is worth checking if you are getting exposed to these metals and removing them. There are a lot of very ill people, both mentally and physically, who have gotten well from getting rid of these toxic metals and then chelating SAFELY. You can read some of the success stories by googling «andy cutler success stories». But I have to emphasize that you have to do this safely, there is a lot of very dangerous «natural detox» protocols out there that have made people very very sick, like taking cilantro or chlorella, you can read some peoples experiences with these by googling «andy cutler what not to do». I can’t stress enough how important it is to do this safely and I would encourage anyone who wants to look into this to read about the Andrew Cutler protocol and understand why it is safe, and join the Andy Cutler Facebook group to to get accurate information, see other peoples experiences and get support. So, what I am saying is that it is a physical aspect to mental illness that involves toxins and lack of/wrong nutrients which causes inflammation in the brain, and it can be reversed. But I’m not saying that talking about problems and working on emotions in a way that works for you isn’t helpful, cause it absolutely can be, but it might not be the root cause.
@@siriolsen7805 There is a TED talk by a woman who started to take a birth control pill and it had such a bad influence on her that she started to have hallucinations and the doctors thought that she had schizophrenia and when she decided to stop with the medicens all her symptoms went away.. so yes, sometimes the things that we put in our body can have a very strong impact on us
I can't find the TED talk so if someone who is reading this is familiar with it - please attach a link
Hi and thank you for sharing. I have a 26 year old son who was diagnosed with SCHITZOAFFECTIVE DISORDER with bi-polar 2. My question is this. How were you convinced that the delusions and voices and such werent real. I'm sorry if I'm wording this wrong. I know they are real to you. Even with his diagnosis, my son still thinks I'm poisoning him, that the gov't is trying to kill him and a lot more. He's been in and out of mental hospitals and he does well on meds but he thinks everyone is lying. How do we convince him? Thank you.
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@@deestroy123 ok so disclaimer I have not been diagnosed but I have suffered schizophrenic delusions, like the government is out to get me and that everyone around me knows and is just watching for entertainment waiting for the day I die. I have not received any treatment and my paranoia only lasted a few months but what I had to keep repeating to myself to get out of that way of thinking was 'why am I so special that the world is just focusing on me?' Why is the government trying to kill just me?' I debated with myself constantly. I had nobody that knew my beliefs to argue them and to be honest if I did I think it may of made me more delusional, because of course your going to say that it's not true right?!? You're against me?
I still get flashes of paranoia where I have to convince myself of reality and so I understand his reality is very real and the world built up around him, medicating him, trying to convince him is only confirming his beliefs. So give up convincing him, tell him to feed himself if he doesn't trust you, ask him questions that open up different possibilities like 'do you know anyone else the government is after?' This might seem like it's playing to his delusions but you already are so you need to let him find ways of thinking differently instead of ruminating on the same beliefs. Don't call him sick, or make illness the problem, let him know there are many people like him. Maybe encourage him to join some kind of group or community to share his experience or hear others and how they have managed. I often think of mental illnesses as living in two worlds, your inner one and the collective outer one; the goal is recognizing this and striving to align more with the collective but without shaming your inner. Once you manage that, the inner world is not so paranoid and defensive.
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My sister was diagnosed with paranoid Schizophrenia in her 30's. She is in her 60's now. Her son was diagnosed with it in his 20's and is in his 40's now. They are the nicest, kindest people I know and I am thankful to have them in my life. Hang in there and never give up. ❤️
Jill DeCamillis Please read “A Mind of Your Own” by Kelly Brogan. It will change your life. Trust me.
its all demonic thats why its passed down, the term for a mental illness is a disguise for the real truth, DEMONIC POSSESSION and only Yahusha can cure you
Zechariah Smart Peddeling your fantasy cure is of no help. We live in reality, not in a fantasy world, please leave your unhelpful religious garbage out of this.
I don’t wanna be disrespectful here, but you’re sister is an example of why mental illness is growing. Knowing the high risks of mental illness being genetic, why reproduce? I mean I myself suffer from anxiety and depression and knowing that there could be a risk that it could be passed down to my children I wouldn’t think of having any. I can’t imagine putting my children’s lives in such suffering. So imagine it with Schizophrenia which is much much worse than anxiety and depression I believe.
K M That’s extremely disrespectful. The deed is done. So why bother pushing your resentment onto others? Not everyone inherits a disorder.
You're a FIGHTER. My most sincere RESPECT.
Hi Lauren. I'm glad you got the correct diagnosis at last. I now know I started having bipolar 2 symptoms at age 16, but I wasn't diagnosed till an attempted suicide at 40.and I was never so happy to be labelled in my lifetime ! I'm now 53, and have never not taken my meds, even though I'm now fat and unmotivated and not creative like I used to be. My son was diagnosed ADHD at 3.5 years old, Asperger's at 7.5 years, bipolar 2 at 16, and possibly mildly schizoaffective at 17. He's now 28. He doesn't always take his meds but things are far better than as a child. My 25 year old daughter has a different father from my son, and she doesn't seem to have any of the family cocktail of labels.I'm enjoying your videos because they are so real, not a lecture from someone that has studied the illness. Never feel stigmatised or thought of badly, you are not schizophrenia, you have schizophrenia, you didn't cause it through taking drugs or any other stupid self inflicted behaviour, even though to control it you need to take drugs. There is a whole 99% more of you, and that shows through in your videos. Thank you for taking the time, and using your amazing strength, to make them for all of us who will never meet you, but will always admire you . Allison in Australia.
Our son lives with schizophrenia and so unimaginably difficult for him and for us. I am so very thankful at your brutal honesty because he is very quiet and so it gives us at least some insight on what he may be going trough. I hope you will continue sharing because I believe it can help many, both families and those living with this terrible illness. Thank you!
Ducky Darkstar I’m very sorry
Maybe you might find this interesting, I also have Schizophrenia. My mom asks what I hear all the time. I NEVER tell her. It's literally too horrible to even utter. I would rather die than ever tell a single soul what I hear. Its not hard to keep it a secret either. I tell my mom i hear horror. Thats the only thing she needs to know. The only thing i could possibly tell your son to remotely make things better. DONT EVER LISTEN TO YOUR VOICES. They are garbage. They are never real. It's your own brain making crap up. It will literally say anything and knows everything about you. Its your own brain and it knows your every thought. He will never stop freaking out over the stuff he hears but he can at least ignore. Ignore every command. Dont ever listen. It is truly a waste of time to listen.
@Jon Iwanyszyn I actually have a crap ton of demons on me. God specifically told me to rebuke them. They are legit no joke. They are very good at what they do, and their job is torture. They are all going to die horrible scary deaths though. I'm really truly sorry about the stuff that you have heard. My Schizophrenia takes the form of mainly voices and nothing else. It tends to say the utter worst of the worst. I'm not going to tell you what I hear though. Just to let you know, I view what you heard as one of the worst things you can hear. Dont EVER take it lightly. The day you stop caring is the day you die. May Jesus Bless you and save you. Get baptized if not already.
@Jon Iwanyszyn i do all that but it's more my frontal lobe lesions. Like if you have a tumor there. You say exactly what you think with no regard to anyone else. I would hate to hear voices saying "don't take the meds that are helping you"...i used to be like that as a kid but not now lol
Jon Iwanyszyn can I tell you something? I had the same thing for years but once I finally realize what it was I told them to F off and that they had no power over me. Practice identifying them right when they are happening and say “nice try”. They stop once they realize they have no control over you anymore. I know this sounds nuts but it worked for me and I live a normal happy productive life :)
I'm deeply impressed with your strength of character in dealing with the very difficult challenges you face, and your emotional honesty in relating them.
That's just not true - the ongoing conscious decision to continue forging ahead with the huge successes in her life, overcoming obstacles as they arise, in the best way possible is absolutely "strength of character." It would be very easy to submerge yourself in the false beliefs of society and give up. This lady is amazing and very strong for deciding to help others with her story.
Dom Trussardi professional help is incredible and does so much, but without her strength of character to actually seek and accept that help, she would be dead. Help can only do so much if you won’t accept it.
@Dom Trussardi agreed Brother
My mother lived the same repeated cycles of getting off her medication and landing in the hospital. Thank you for verbalizing your experiences so well. I wish you the best. Stay awesome!
You are an amazing young woman. I can’t even imagine how many people you have helped to get help, and fight to stay well, by posting this.
Obviously, you are a fighter. A very resiliant character who managed to survive a lifetime of pain in just 25 years. Take pride in yourself.
Thank you for your bravery and sharing your story.
Christina Walker Yes. Thanks 🙏
Your story is both heartbreaking and hopeful because my 29 year old daughter is schizoaffective and has battled mental illness since she was 17. Thankfully she doesn't have a long history of suicide attempts. She is currently in a center for mental illness, a good place, but I despair of her ever being able to live on her own again because she cannot get through an entire year without a relapse, becoming paranoid and delusional. And even though she is just 40 miles from me I have not seen her in a year due to the pandemic.
I was diagnosed with schizoeffective disorder some years ago. I am trying to go to school, but it’s hard for me at 50.
I was diagnosed with anxiety first, then bipolar with psychotic disorder , then schizoeffective disorder. I struggle with hygiene and being social . I really worry about my future.
Has anything improved?
Did u start school..keep it up girl..it must be so hard but I wish u well
Donot lose spirit and have faith in yourself.Get well soon
I had lifelong suicidal depression, which eventually evolved into mass homicidal and suicidal depression. I prayed to Jesus to heal me, and he did, and now no more depression. All glory to Jesus. Seek him.
They only diagnosis you with schizoaffective if they hate you
my brother was diagnosed a few months ago with schizoaffective disorder and this is the first time I've felt closer to understanding him. thank you for sharing your story.
Same thing is happening to me
Yes u must be very sympathetic they suffer sooo much u have NO idea. Voices, manic &So much Depression. Please do more res search and seek Group/meetings to better understand it.
I have a sister with and Now we just found out my 19year old Nephew is suffering symptoms as well.
Stay Strong.
Isadora Guimarães good on u for doing the research and making the effort to understand what he’s going through, reaching out is hard for men especially
Your story moved me. My mom was diagnosed schizophrenic when I was in my teens. She was a beautiful, upbeat, kind person, very creative, very positive and giving. When the illness started, she would have very extreme mood swings. One moment, she would be happy and singing songs and engaging...the next moment, she would be very angry, violent even, and the slightest thing triggers her anger. She had hallucinations too...would have shouting matches with invisible people..very vulgar language...very paranoid with everyone around her except us, the immediate family. She was convinced people have something against our family, and would be in a perpetual ‘war-prep mode’ with everyone. It was a very hard time for us, and looking back I really admired my dad for his strength and resolve and for sticking around. As she aged though, she mellowed down. I sometimes wonder if it had to do with hormones, as it did start on or around her menopausal years, and mellowed when she was in her 70s. She would still have occasional fits, but it really became much better towards her later years. This would sound un-scientific and I wont blame you if I lose you when I say what made things a bit better was finding spirituality for her. She passed away about a year after someone ministered to her on faith, and she became actively prayerful about a month before passing. That was the time she became really radiant, happy again, peaceful and opened up to others. She passed away very peacefully, a mere 15 mins after ‘socializing’ with her friends...in a way saying her goodbyes. The good thing that emerged from this whole trauma was, my brother deciding to study mental health. He finished a PhD on cognitive science and is now working towards researching mental health issues.
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God bless your mother, My Father was diagnosed with schizophrenia during Vietnam and the past few months began experiencing EPS from his medication. He had to go to the hospital and was taken off his medications. It was terrifying to see the man who raised me become psychotic. It was the hardest moment where I had to stay with him during his episodes because my dad wasnt mentally capable to coordinate with the doctors. Due to a ton of medical complications he had to be discharged to a nursing home and is finally taking an antipsychotic that is working with little to no side effects. It sucks seeing him in a nursing home but is great to finally see him coming back to his old self. I spend as much time as I can with my father now; visiting him everyday. hopefully one day he'll come home.
I've had to deal with this illness I my own family and with close friends who had it and they can get pretty abusive and unpleasant to be around when ill. I just tune out emotionally when they get ill, to avoid being personally impacted on by their behaviour, which can be pretty distressing if you are on the receiving end of it and it's no use trying to convince them that what they fear during a delusional state is not real because that only infuriates them more. To them it is very real. I just copied with these states in others by simply being calm and understanding and playing along with it. For instance, if my sick brother rang me at 3am in a state of panic because he believed some evil men were coming to harm me and he'd order me to pack up everything and quickly disappear somewhere secret and dark to survive, although I'd be fuming at being woken up for no reason, I would take a deep breath, put on a calm voice, thank him for warning me these evil men I his mind were coming to harm his precious only sibling and then reassure him I had packed everything up, ready to flee to a secret safe place where these evil men could not find me to harm me. That would settle him a bit, but I had to undertake to call him at regular intervals, so he could know I was safe. Now, O am a very independent female and such protective male behaviour aggravated me no end, as I am Bipolar, a pretty bad combination for a quiet, placid schizophrenic type. But I simply played along with his delusions. It made life a lot easier. My schizophrenic female friends thought I was some shining star, female God like figure. They adored me, thought I was perfect as a female, which felt great, until they would suddenly turn nasty and abusive for no reason and top into me, other women they loved eg their poor good mum's, who also copped earfuls of nasty abusive language. It was pretty hurtful but we knew it was their illness talking, not our good friends, on such occasions and so we just tuned out. Occasionally one of us would ask them why they thought we were such bitches etc, hoping for some sort of vaguely intelligible reply but we never got any explanation out of them. Just another abuse tirade and told we just were the nasty things they said. So, we simply tuned out to this and then tuned back in when they were back to their normal sweet selves. One such abusive schizo friend suicides. I never thought I could miss her so much. I can still see her admiring face, at a local ball here, dressed in her acqua blue gown, admiring me as I made my entrance, waving and smiling, even though she had nobody to dance with her. It really shattered me to hear she had suicided. Had people known how to help her, she might have stayed alive, as she was able to hold a job and care for herself in all other respects, except her mental illness that we all tolerated, thinking it was just one of those things we simply accepted and tried to tolerate as good family, friends etc. But, what she really needed was some effective medication which schizo people simply must have, to fix some chemical imbalance in their brain tissues. Once that is balanced out, they can be OK, even nice people, often creative. I have known a few artistic and musically talented Schizos and had no need to fear entering their cave like fens some of them keep, to be creative in. In fact, I felt very priveleged to be invited in there because they were very reclusive, secretive people who were loners by nature. We had great fun doing music and checking out their paintings, sculptures etc. But, I must admit that, though I am pretty imaginative myself, their unusual ways of thinking often lost me. Because I am not as imaginative as many of these Schizos are. Just because we cannot tune into their thinking does not entitled us to label them stupid, mad, senseless etc, as some do. They are merely different from us, not necessarily inferior, just because they have a mental illness that causes many to fear them. When, in fact, though sometimes a bit abusive and unpleasant, like even most so called
normal people can be, most of the time they are perfectly harmless and often very gentle people. I notice that every schizo I have known seems to love warm furry, vulnerable looking fluffy animals eg kittens. I often wondered if this is because they themselves feel as scared and vulnerable as such animals, hence they connect with them emotionally.
Mellowman468: Am sorry to hear that. Mental illness is not an easy thing to deal with. We had to put my mom in a nursing home as well, because her in-house caregivers were neglecting her to the point of starvation and stealing from her. That aggravated her paranoia, seeing evidence that others are really out to get her. The day my brother and I took her to the nursing home, on the pretext of just taking her out for sightseeing and a dinner night out, she was semi-lucid, and it hurt when she said: ‘God blessed me with 2 children..but I may as well have been childless had I known they would just leave me in my old age like this”. My mom was a pretty creative, easy going, charming lady in her normal self...when the episodes start, she would be violent, unkempt, vulgar...would even stop eating certain foods because the voices told her not to, obsessed with time ( she can only perform tasks at a certain time, because the voices will punish her otherwise). I got really angry at God at one point because other than her mental illness, she also battled cancer, and it was too much to see both diseases ravage her body and mind.
This reminded me of my mom she was diagnosed when I was a kid. Very sad 😢
I was recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder myself and i can relate to your journey. Thank you so much.
You’re SO strong. Thank you for filming this
People with mental illness are just so strong. I have severe anxiety disorders myself and the effort it takes to keep trying is tremendous ❤️
I was diagnosed as bipolar with psychosis at age 20. When most people find out you have this type of illness their demeanor totally changes towards you, especially family. And it's a shame. We are people with feelings just like everyone else, we're just wired differently. Your life is worth living no matter what your diagnosed as
I have it at 14yo
That's a very smart thing to say Chris. You sound super intelligent. An old friend of mine was diagnosed with it. She was a sweet person who loved animals and cried at sad movies. You're probably a better person than most people who don't have it. I wish you all the best. Have fun and enjoy life. Peace!
chris : all the best to you .
@@will4207 I wish all the best to you young man/lady. Be brave and stay positive for the rest of your years. Godspeed ❤
@@deadguysuperstar thank so much man appeciate it! You too! Appreciate your life
Your story is so amazing and successful, it makes me cry.
Its beautiful to see how far you have come❤ stay strong!
Who are the people giving this thumbs down? I don't understand why. It takes a lot of courage to front up and admit a diagnosis.
People can be so cruel. I was wondering the same thing.
It puzzles me how some people cant understand how the world works even now that the internet has brought us all of different cultures, beliefs and preferences so close. Just so you get a better understanding, no matter how amazingly good something might be, not everyone is going to like it. Why? For many reasons. Some people woke up at the wrong side of their bed that morning, some are naturally negative and always find something to nag about or there could be a lot of different reasons, it really doesnt matter why people dislike something that is considered good by the majority. The important thing is that you don't focus on the negative side of things, which is what you're doing when you give your attention to a small, negative minority.
I assume there might be some disagreements against electro therapy and heavy medication in well over a million views.
It's because what she's saying she has doesn't match up to what she's done. If she had these problems her concentration level would have been non existent so there's no way she would have been studying and doing well lol it's not something you can control and push through so sounds as if she's saying this for attention.
@@stefanhatcher6486 you're so cruel. I think she was very real and she did not hide the fact that she was struggling.
I have family members with schizophrenia and it always hurts to see how its portrayed in the media. Thank you for shedding light on this and sharing your experience!
What kind of dog do you have?? It is SO cute
This story was AMAZINGLY INSIGHTFUL! Thank you so much!
I’m so glad I ended up here and heard your story. I’m so happy that you’re finding stability and I’m rooting for you
It always amazes me what people can go through and not appear on the outside like anything is wrong.
Kudos to your perserverence.
Staying out of the hospital for two years is so major! I don't really know you but I am proud of you!! Stay strong!
If staying out of the hospital means that one is doing well, then great! But there is also no shame in seeking treatment over and over again if need be (and also as a preventative measure for exmple). Hve a great day!
So proud of you! Thanks for sharing your experience with us. I wish you an amazing life
You rock Lauren, thanks so much for sharing your story!!
You are helping so many people who’s scared of mental illnesses and their stigma. I wish mental illnesses are seen by people like a missing limb, or like any other disease with physical manifestations. You’re very lucky to have a strong support system. Thank you for being courageous and yay for being who you are!
She really chilled me out. Proper voice hug that was.
I know. I could listen to her read me a book all day
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Thankyou for sharing this! You are so brave! I wish you and everyone who's going through something similar lots of strength and light! It must be so hard. ❤️
I wish I had found you channel earlier but I know is never to late. My daughter was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and watching your video gives me a far better understanding of what she goes through. Is has being a painful process she is a amazing human being she is only 14 and has tried to take her life twice. We are so grateful to had being able to stop it and want to help her but knowing what she lives inside her head is not always easy to understand. Thanks for sharing your experience.
This hits very close to home. I have Bipolar Type II and Borderline Personality Disorder and have been in treatment since age 13. I have managed to live on my own, get a BA in Marketing and I will start a Master’s degree in Marketing in May of 2020. I have had multiple suicide attempts and multiple hospitalizations, have struggled a lot, but here we are. We are warriors, every day is a struggle, but we survive and thrive!
you're amazing Adriana!
Anna Sarkissova thank you for the positive comment :) hope you have a good day!
I can relate to this and have similar diagnoses. I'm 36 and was diagnosed at age 28. I absolutely struggle with an intense fear of the dark and not wanting to take my meds.
fiona kirk you’re stronger than you think! :) Try sticking to the meds (I’ve dropped them a few times and it’s a big no-no) they really help.
I personally struggle with social anxiety and agoraphobia, so you’re definitely not alone, try taking solace in that.
Sending you a hug!
Thank you so much for replying, that means so much to me x
Thank you for this story, really puts things into perspective for someone on the outside looking in. My roommate was recently diagnosed with Scizophrenia. This time last year, i would have never thought that. He started displaying really bizarre behaviors before summer, was getting late on rent, becoming distant and incoherent, disappearing for days at a time and not responding to anyone's calls. He finally came out and told me there was something wrong, so I contacted his family and we took action. They thought it best for him to move back home, so we are no longer roommates, but he is still a good friend.
Thank you for being so vulnerable... you are a beautiful person
I think this is very awesome that you’re sharing your story and helping others who might suffer from this too.
Even after suffering so much, u still have a positive attitude
Do you have schizofrenia? I got my diagnosis months ago and it Is hard
@@meryjes.9828 hope things get better
@@meryjes.9828 schizoaffective
I never really understood what Schizophrenia was and what it’s effects are on a person. I watched your video to educate myself and to understand what you went through. Thank you so much for sharing what must have been really difficult for you to discuss. I am proud of the woman you have become, and I wish you all the best in your continued fight against this dreadful condition. Keep fighting, we are all on your side. Love from Scotland.
@bill2526 bill2526 exactly it is
In Islam we call it jinns
bill2526 bill2526 yeah it is demons. I feel sorry for the people that get told they are crazy
bill2526 bill2526 exactly. Lots of people who experience sleep paralysis call on Jesus and the demon scatters
@bill2526 bill2526 same to u
@bill2526 bill2526 in the quran demons are mentioned they are made from smokeless fire
They are shape shifters and the quran proves Einstein theory correct
Thank you so much for posting your story. I relate closely with your experiences and it has really helped me come to terms with my diagnosis.
Thank you so much for your courage and for sharing your story!
Thank you so much for being public with your story! My beloved son took his own life at 29 and his last 5 years struggling with schizoaffective disorder was the worst suffering I can imagine. Your sharing this is proof positive that always having hope that he could get his life back was not unrealistic on my part, regardless of what I was told. Learning to live with this has certainly taken much courage and resilience. No one should ever have to worry about stigma or shame on top of that. Your going public will go a long way to helping people understand the illness, and that this is indeed an illness like any other, that can strike through no bidding or fault of your own. It only deserves our greatest compassion. Thank you!
There is incredible beauty in watching someone bare their soul. I wish you the best of luck along the path you are traveling.
I have never heard my story told by another person until this moment. Thank you for sharing this.
So brave of you to speak about your experience and struggles
every time you swallow with emotions I cry, I feel you. bless you dear
me too. cuz me too.
I'm 18 and experiencing symptoms exactly like this, but still very lightly. Finding your videos has been a lifesaver. I'm crying as I write this because I'm really scared to be diagnosed, but listening to you describe your later teen years and early 20s really hits home, and makes me think early diagnosis and not continuing on like this will be much better for my future. After this, I can no longer pretend that I am okay, that it is my imagination, and that I am just moody. I KNOW there is something deeper wrong with my behavior and psyche; I can feel it deep down whether or not I can continue to hide it enough to still be "normal". Thank you for taking your time to share, this has been far more helpful than all of the research I've done online.
Hey my friend,
It's a blessing that the Internet opens up the possibility to inform ourselfs without leaving Home or moving into other cities, therefore we should be happy, that not everyone has to take the long way to the well deserved life we should be able to live.
Having a mental illness is nothing you did wrong! There is no shame in being diagnosed. Ofcourse there always gonna be people who dont know how to handle the information, but as soon as you talk each other out, the barrier is always gone! I have 2 friends with schizophrenia and they are really cool guys. Mostly introverted i found them having alot of similar interests, based on movies/books/games/whatever, so i can connect to them.
Please see a Doctor, even if its just for the sake of "trying it out", maybe its something else too
There is no "normal", everyone has its flaws. And (mostly) everyone wants other people to be happy, to feel love and joy.
I have no mental illness, but i have lots of people who dont like me, and whom i dont like, so dont worry about not being accepted, it happens to all of us!=)
If you need someone to talk, i am here for you(:
There is help to get
Get rid of your wifi and smart meter. It's totally possible that it's electromagnetic frequencies and NOT AT ALL a disorder. Also, stop putting your cell phone up to your head. And don't listen to these people who are ingratiating themselves to you by trying to seem like they're "there for you." They're not there for you, because they're digital people who exist on the internet.
@@_-_-_-_ What is exactly your problem? Psychic problems are "electromagnetic frequencies", the WiFi and Phone makes you ill, and no help for anyone, because internet and solidarity is a lie? Justin, my mom from 1990 is here and wants her arguments back.
@@_-_-_-_ People had schizophrenia centuries before internet came around, I don't know what you're on about. Maybe you're suffering from delusions? Maybe you need to take your antipsychotics to be a bit clearer in your head? Meds can do wonder by lifting weird beliefs.
Wow!! This brings a lot of clarity. Thank you for sharing your story, it will help many!!
I'm sorry for everything that you have been through, I hope things work out for the best. There are people out there who love and care about you
Hi, I'm a psychology student and I'm always fascinated to learn from people rather than just textbooks. I'm grateful to you that you are now in a position to share your story. I can only imagine how terrifying it is to experience what could be describe as a horrible vivid dream in real life. I am also inspired by your achievements. Thank you so much.
My sister was diagnosed with Schizophrenia a few years ago and just this past year was rediagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder. She refuses to take her meds and as of recently chooses to be homeless. My family is heartbroken that we can't help her, but watching this video is encouraging. We will never give up on her.
Your story deeply moved me. Wishing you all the best.
Thank you for this channel and for all your time helping others living with schizophrenia! 💕
This video hurts me a ton. I can relate to so much being told. I just want a normal life I want a job I want to move foward. Im too afraid to die but I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder Ive been hospitalized in the pysch section of the hospital 3 times. Im normally stable these days but I just wanna give u a big hug because Im currently crying because I kno the pain I can see it in ur expression. It hurts so much. I know this depression its so strong but just be strong pls...Im dealing with it too its scary just day by day (:
You are so strong and I hope things will get better
There are more of us out here living and struggling with this everyday then anyone really knows. That's probably because it has such a negative connotation and stereotype in society that people are afraid to let anyone know they have schizophrenia. 45 this yr. Diagnosed at 25-26 Original onset of symptoms at 20. 1st full blown Delusional episode at 21, with 15 more and 4 suicide attempts before diagnosis.
It's nice that there are channels like this. Brings a little hope to the hopeless.
God loves you pretty lady!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜 this too shall pass. He will not lead you astray. Seek Him in every moment of your life, in Jesus name you will be healed. Never lose sight of Him, please. You will overcome this. There is always a way. Keep your head up and your spirits higher.
@@Lonelybones97 I know, and appreciate, that you are trying to help. Taking the time to write a comment which you thinks might help the person. But the last thing they need is religion. Remember that they already have trouble deciding what is real and what is not because of their hallucinations and delusional thought. And now you’re throwing another delusional subject onto them.
Please don’t do that.
@@GinoNL actually Jesus heals ppl of mental illness...He can truly heal
Hay Lauren, I also live with a disorder, mine is called higher functioning autism/aspergers, and thus I am very empathetic to other people like you that also have a mental disorder. The one big plus side of what I have is that it has made me more creative then most people around me, and one way I am creative is I write stories, and one story involves schizophrenia in a positive way. I have created my own super hero called Phreniac and he has schizophrenia, which is the source of his power. He got electroshock therapy which unlocked his power in his mind. The way his power works is if a person holds a gun to him, he can hallucinate the gun full of lead so it can't fire, the hallucination becomes real and the gun can't fire. Of course all the bad symptoms of the disorder are his kryptonite and thus he finds saving people hard sometimes but can manage most times. I wrote Phreniac because no super hero or even villain has a major mental illness like that and I thought to create one and have the illness his power and thus be a positive attribute.
That sounds really cool and imaginative ... i hope you get your story published!
Wow! That is super cool and creative! I'd love to read that story!
It sounds very creative, I just wonder if it actually works. I don't like when people turn illnesses into positive characteristics, because an illness is a negative thing that interfers with your way of feeling, thinking and function in your everyday life. It's one thing to say I don't want to have been without the experiences my mental illness have given me, but being without the symptoms is something most of us are desperately trying to attchieve. I'm bipolar and definitely couldn't be a super hero, I'm so low functioning I can't even shower when I need it...
I do think there's a huge differences between neuropsychatric conditions and actual illnesses, since you can live a perfectly happy life with autism/ADHD/ADD etc. as long as you and the environment take it into consideration. But someone with depression can NEVER live a perfectly happy life, and I don't think someone being in active psychosis can be very happy either. When I've had psychotic symptoms I've been incredibly terrified and as far from a superhero as I can. Real-life hallucinations and superheros don't really match. I think it's a very sensitive subject. Bipolar mania might work better, because you almost get superpower when your brain works that fast! But if you make the schizophrenia fantasy-like I guess it could work.
I'm glad you're writing, so am I! Escaping life's problem and run away into your world full of characters is a life line for me, I honestly couldn't have survived without it. I'm never alone, I always have my characters with me!
@@SamirCCat Actually, you have a good point, now that I think about it. I have anxiety and I can't even conceive of how you would translate that into a superpower. Anxiety makes me feel terribly weak, completely the opposite of strong and capable. However, the act of writing might help someone to see the hidden strengths their mental illness brings them, or just to conceptualize it differently. Who knows; good food for thought anyway.
Your bravery is amazing and inspiring; thanks for sharing your story!
thank you for your honesty. incredibly healing to hear your story.
You did such an important thing sharing this!
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My uncle is completely deaf and he has schizophrenia.. so sad to see him in the state he’s in
BmW the voices are in his head so that’s how he could hear them, just like you can hear your own thoughts I’m guessing
There's a ted talk "What hallucination reveals about our minds | Oliver Sacks"
The talks about people with hallucinations seemingly appearing because of their lack of sight, hearing or other senses. Might be worth taking a look at..
Charles Bonnet Syndrome
seek Jesus and you'll find Him. You can't claim something doesn't exist just because you haven't experienced it. Guess what i was atheist also and blasphemer but when i saw with my own eyes demons at night terrorizing me only name Jesus would make them instantly flee. People have been experienced spritual for thousands of years, from all parts of earth. Spiritual is more real than physical because it's immortal, just because we can't see something doesn't mean it doesn't exist. God promised whoever seek out Him with honest heart will find Him. Look on youtube countless testimonies of demons or angels, it's truly amazing. Don't let the devil device you and wins your soul for eternity to torture, his biggest lie is that he doesn't exist because when people fall for this they won't stand chance to get saved because they won't belive in devil or God. Please for your own good seek Jesus, just look around how everything is complex and intelligent in nature yet so perfect in order. From solar system to our dna which is literally data base consisting all infomations about ourselves to our blood, bones, organs, our mind, memory, emotions, thoughts,... Then all the animal and plant species, all amazing scenaries in nature, circle of life,... Know that behinf all of that is Creator and He created you, shaped you and loves you so much that He died for you so that by His sacrifice our sins are payed and washed away by His blood. Price of eternity is too high to play, you have been warned. Choice of your eternal destination is up to you
You are so well spoken. I hope this truly helps someone.
It looks like you’ve gone through quite the journey and it’s great you’ve been able to acclimate and achieve your goals 🙌👏🙌
I was diagnosed Schizoaffective with Manic tendencies in my early twenties. I also had an addiction to hard drugs that only made my symptoms worse. I am 40 now and have been sober for 12 years but I still have auditory and visual hallucinations but much more mild than in my younger years. I appreciate that you have the courage to put yourself out there and show people that just because people have mental illnesses doesn’t mean that they are violent people. Most of us internalize the illness and sometimes deal with it for years without most others knowing the suffering that we endure on a daily basis. You are a sweet person and just always remember you are not alone. 💖
You are amazing! I have schizophrenia and have done for 8 years. Sometimes I feel so helpless. You have made me realise I shouldn't give up. Thankyou so much
N a d j a Please read “A Mind of Your Own” by Kelly Brogan. It will change your life. Trust me.
Youre my hero! My sis was just diagnosed and you have given us hope that she can live a real life and contribute to the world around her. Thank You!!!!!