"And I just got my nails done. And they were so pointy... Do you know that I stabbed my a**hole" - Cardi B I'm so ashamed that this is what came to my mind
no one: me two years ago: *i’m straight, but i’d have no problem marrying a woman, like if i dated a woman i’d be very comfortable but like i’m straight*
I have recently moved from questioning whether I am bi to 'knowing' (honestly I'm more certain, but a part of me still questions, and probably will till I do get into a relationship with a girl) im bi and uhm I literally said this 2 yrs ago
I met alot of LGBT+ folk through Amino when i was 17 in early 2018 so I've been out for 3 years. I've fluctuated through some labels so I identify as queer cause it has some ambiguity to it
"being 10 - 13 years old and having such profound secrets about who you are causes childhood trauma" OOF i have been _called out_ Seriously though, absolutely true. The amount of stress, self-loathing, guilt and shame i dealt with as a child (and still deal with today being closeted with my family) is so taxing on my mental health and i wouldn't wish it upon anyone else
I’m closeted at home but I was pretty out at school for end of 7th (to some people but if someone random asked I be like “no ew nasty”) to 8th. Then I moved schools for highschool and it’s just so mentally taxing. The Christian guilt, internalized homophobia and comp het is eating me up. I had a gf end of freshmen year but we broke up after like four months lmao but I swear that was the best time of my life (during highschool I guess). There was someone there who I knew and I could talk to and we were chill. Turned out I just really wanted a friend but still. Corona has just made it worse tbh. At least at school despite not talking to anyone I could tell if someone was 👩❤️👩 and that was my everything. It’s my second year into highschool and I hate it more than anything just because I can’t express myself to anyone.
My mum is straight and tries to be kind and make me ice coffee... and it literally tastes like nail varnish remover, but I told her I liked ice coffee so she makes me like a whole jug every day and I have to drink it. Pray for me children 😭✨
The progression from “am I gay” Buzzfeed quizzes and then watching all the coming out videos in early high school is a universal experience for the gays 💖
Ok i have a few things to say: 1. Matt is literally my favorite person ever and I have so much respect for him 2. This video made me laugh and cry throughout 3. I am 100% convinced that boys/men have makeup powers because all guys who i see wear makeup are infinitely better at it than most women 4. I love you so much Matt🥺👉👈
I feel a lot of solidarity with your story. My parents are very “we completely love and accept you” but at the same time get visibly angry when they see me with painted nails... I’m currently looking for a job and my Dad keeps telling me interviewers won’t take me seriously if they see my nails painted, and then we’ll get in a big fight.... but at the end of the day he’s not completely wrong, and I’m scared that being a visibly femme gay man will close doors for me. It’s tough to navigate, but your content really helps my confidence. 💖
I recommend when going to the interview not having nail polish on but as soon as you get the job where it when ever you want!!! They literally can’t say shit because that’s discrimination!!
Hi, it's up to you cuz we have all got got loans&bills to pay and we don't all have the privilege to be picky at jobs... but I always wonder if painted nails are a problem in the interview, how is the work environment going to be? my mom says the same thing about my septum ring, luckily im in fashion so its not a huge issue, but at the end of the day I see you, I see your femme-ness and know that it is inherently good and beautiful. xoxo sending love
You can definitely have your nails painted when you get the job. I remember going to a store and we asked a male employee for help with something and he had painted nails and none of the other costumers he helped battered an eyelid (can't remember what colour lol)
I would love a video on internalized homophobia/biphobia, also comp het (which reading into it made me realize a lot of things about myself). I'm 21 and still figuring things out about my own sexuality, idk if I'm bi or just a lesbian (yay comp het!!1!). But it's crazy how much of ourselves we repress without even noticing, specially during our childhood and teenage years.
i hope you know how many people you’ve inspired just by being unapologetically you!! ❤️❤️❤️ def make a video about internalized homophobia and comphet, i love your videos so much!!!!
i smiled so much :)) also, i kinda feel like my coming out story is extremely uninteresting bc I just got home from school and my dad was like "have you ever questioned your sexuality" and I said "yeah I'm bi" and then my parents and my therapist were like "well it's too early to know" (I was 14) and now idk what they think but I'm watching dune at the cinema so
mine was pretty similar I just randomly told my mom "oh I saw my crush with her friends today" and my mom was just 👁👄👁 literally the most uninteresting coming out story lmao
"I like men. Well, I'm attracted to men. Embarrassing, I know." Relatable Ammm, this video was so funny tbh, like I love the little clips you added HAHAHAHAHA. And it was important as well, I'm very happy that you are in a better place now and at the end everything went well. I'm glad to have you on RUclips, like, I just feel I get to know more about you than what we get on IG (love your content so much). So there, you're funny af, so cute and just like a really nice person. You're doing it amazing with this channel, sweetie 💖. Saludos desde Colombia, jajaja. Lol, I just had to say it 🤡. P.S. YAS, we do want that video!
I always love hearing others coming out stories, specifically how people realize that they are gay, mostly because my realization came while watching the Joker with my ~gal pal~
so much respect for you, Matt. ❤️ it’s a gift to hear so much of my story reflected in your story... it helps me live one of the most meaningful ideals to me, “Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.” -Brené Brown
I feel like I was never deep in the closet once I figured out that I’m Pan. Like,, once I got comfortable with myself if someone wanted to open up that closet door they wouldn’t need to look very hard. I’d be sitting on the floor with my feet up on the wall listening to music. Still not out of my parents yet though...
You know how i mention my “stepdad“ on ur last video well im bi and still dont even know if i still like guys and i have never told him just bc hes REALLY homophobic :/ only my mom knows but I’m pretty open about it
Like I'm 18, I accepted myself being gay like last year, haven't had any like boyfriends or anything. But Matt I started following you around the time that quarantine started. I came out to my parents on quarantine thanks to you actually. Your posts and account really helped me come out. Thanks!
The editing is hilarious. Although you don't even really need it, you are so self-mocking by yourself. I like this personality trait in people. P. S. love your stories, it's always so interesting to listen to you
Not only are you one of those gays you're the queen bee ♥️ yes please on the offer for a internalized femme phobia. Love the way you talk, the way you make these videos. There's no yelling, overdramatic anything. Love love love it!
okay, so, i basically came out as bi to my larger friend group today and they were all cool with it except for the fact that they couldn’t get over me having a girlfriend. who is in the friend group. we hang out all the time. we cuddle. we say “i love you”. how much more obvious can we beeeeeee????
Just found your channel today, and I am well on my way to binging every video. Thank you for putting out such honest, genuine, thought out, and supportive content ♥️ also your makeup? Flawless ♥️
hey ,,just wanted 2 let u know that this rly resonates w me as I had a v v similar realization / coming out experience and it's rly nice 2 hear some1 else share such similar experiences ,,esp as I'm in the process of coming at a second time as nonbinary. think u 4 this video king
thank you for sharing your story and I think you are so right about the trauma that hiding your identity causes and how we need to address that more in the community. Also I am living for your make-up! All the best ♥
i relate 1000% to 4:05 like I'm 14, so growing up I knew what being gay was, but i'm bi so I like forced myself to be straight for so long and like was actively denying liking girls, since i knew that i'd liked a guy before and didn't know that I could like girls too until kinda recently
Do you have any tips for a young gay recently out of the closet who wants to experiment more with their femininity, makeup, etc. but doesn’t know where to start?
Okay so I’m not Matt but remember that there is no “wrong” way to start. I’d suggest looking on Instagram or Pinterest for feminine styles, just to get an idea of what you like and what may work for your body type. Also with makeup, RUclips is great and full of tutorials. It can get expensive though, so go to a drugstore at first, that way you can experiment as much as you want without getting hundreds of dollars of products. If there is a style of product you really like there, you can later get a higher quality brand. I may not be the best person for this advice, I am a lesbian lol, but I’ve been experimenting more with masculinity so it’s similar in concept at least. Hope this helps!
Maybe you could start with cute hair accessories if you like them. They're affordable and if you ever feel unsafe expressing your femininity, you could just take them off. (I hope this doesn't happen tho) I also think make up like lipstick, gloss, Blush and highlighters are a great place to start because you can't do a lot wrong with application and they're rather subtle depending on the colour obviously so you can kinda ease into it and become more confident over time with make up. I wish you a lot of fun ❤️
C. A. femme lesbian here! i would recommend simpler things like lip gloss (glossier is my go-to brand) blush and contour. a bunch of blush on the tip of my nose and the apple of my cheeks makes me feel super feminine/girly! eyeliner is also a good start, like winged eyeliner is usually a good style but it depends on your eye type (some looks good, some doesn’t and that’s okay!) mascara is good for making your eyelashes look super long and thick. those are some good starters, let me know if i helped at all :)
i can relate to what you we’re saying about the trama and fear of being at a younger age and keeping your feelings and a huge part of who you are a secret . I’m 17 now but realized i was bi when i was like 12, i still haven’t been able to find the courage or strength to come out. So thank you for making this video it makes me feel less hopeless.
“i like men. well- i’m attracted to men”
Me LITERALLY everyday
HAIDJSIDAJSIS oh i wish i was attracted to women
sometimes men are just so UGH that I wish I wasn't straight
me too matt-
@@xoxosalma6303 same
that intro coming out speech sounds like every gay teen in movies/shows ever
I just, I new I was different.
AJAHSSJFJFJF
I always tried to fit in... But somehow I never felt right.
my mom just said "his nails are scary. i don't like pointy nails. they scare me." i love her.
love that for her ♥️
boooo pointy nails booo
"And I just got my nails done. And they were so pointy... Do you know that I stabbed my a**hole" - Cardi B
I'm so ashamed that this is what came to my mind
"but Lana del Rey is really pretty" SHE WAS MY GAY AWAKENING SJCNSNS
Sariah Walker SAME
SAME AKBHHJDSBKJFCD and also Poppy 😪😫😔🚬
no one:
me two years ago: *i’m straight, but i’d have no problem marrying a woman, like if i dated a woman i’d be very comfortable but like i’m straight*
i felt this in my bones
I have recently moved from questioning whether I am bi to 'knowing' (honestly I'm more certain, but a part of me still questions, and probably will till I do get into a relationship with a girl) im bi and uhm I literally said this 2 yrs ago
um excuse me i’m fairly certain i’ve said those exact words
@@amethystrosalia omg stan
I remember thinking yeah I’m straight but I totally won’t mind if that girl over there just came up to me and started making out with me right there.
"tumblr was a home to all the closeted gays" BLESS i literally found out what lgbt+ identities were through tumblr
literally same lmaooo i didnt even know being bi was an Option until i joined tumblr
well i knew that because if yt and twitter
I met alot of LGBT+ folk through Amino when i was 17 in early 2018 so I've been out for 3 years. I've fluctuated through some labels so I identify as queer cause it has some ambiguity to it
@@devonmunn5728 good for u
That eye shadow?!?!!? S N A T C H E D
I couldn’t stop staring at it!!
*bites nail* “that’s a man, and i want that”
"being 10 - 13 years old and having such profound secrets about who you are causes childhood trauma" OOF i have been _called out_
Seriously though, absolutely true. The amount of stress, self-loathing, guilt and shame i dealt with as a child (and still deal with today being closeted with my family) is so taxing on my mental health and i wouldn't wish it upon anyone else
periodt ugh
YES
calling me tf out right now i--
Mayu G deadass😙
I’m closeted at home but I was pretty out at school for end of 7th (to some people but if someone random asked I be like “no ew nasty”) to 8th. Then I moved schools for highschool and it’s just so mentally taxing. The Christian guilt, internalized homophobia and comp het is eating me up. I had a gf end of freshmen year but we broke up after like four months lmao but I swear that was the best time of my life (during highschool I guess). There was someone there who I knew and I could talk to and we were chill. Turned out I just really wanted a friend but still. Corona has just made it worse tbh. At least at school despite not talking to anyone I could tell if someone was 👩❤️👩 and that was my everything. It’s my second year into highschool and I hate it more than anything just because I can’t express myself to anyone.
as active adult tumblr user, tumblr is still the place for the closeted gays.
u gotta stop talking with your hands so much because your nails are way to pretty for the goblin in my brain to focus on anything else
mood
he’s gay are you kidding we all talk with our hands
My mum is straight and tries to be kind and make me ice coffee... and it literally tastes like nail varnish remover, but I told her I liked ice coffee so she makes me like a whole jug every day and I have to drink it. Pray for me children 😭✨
gwendolyn graziano I don’t want to hurt her feelings😫
Just tell her you appreciate the thought and effort, but that it doesn't taste good to you. It's just coffee- I doubt she'll get too hung up over it
peachesndmangoes I mean that’s good in theory but this has been happening for a year. I am too deep in this lie to escape now. I can’t be saved
Alex Martin tell her that you don’t wanna get addicted or be too unhealthy and she can make like a smoothie or something :)
@@alexmartin543 I can't believe you let that go on for so long 👀
As a gay I can confirm I’m both terrified of and attracted to men 💕
im a straight female and i can agree
PinkShadowQueen men r just scary
omg judah girlll.....
@@myshoesarenowfullofwater lets cry together
PinkShadowQueen yes 💔🤧
tumblr is definitely still the place for closeted gays. (This is coming from a previously closeted gay on Tumblr)
Me as a closeted lesbian in 2014
"I like men- well, I'm attracted to men" WHAT A MOOD
The progression from “am I gay” Buzzfeed quizzes and then watching all the coming out videos in early high school is a universal experience for the gays 💖
its not liking men its being physically attracted to them, we love ittttt
please do talk about internalized homophobia
This is a cinematic masterpiece. The production value is astronomical. The editing *chefs kiss*
Everybody is gay kimberly, it's 90s.
If you're comfortable to- an internalized homophobia vid would be great! Its something ive rlly tried to work on tbh
Ok i have a few things to say:
1. Matt is literally my favorite person ever and I have so much respect for him
2. This video made me laugh and cry throughout
3. I am 100% convinced that boys/men have makeup powers because all guys who i see wear makeup are infinitely better at it than most women
4. I love you so much Matt🥺👉👈
wait... GAY?!?!???!?! omg i never knew😔
bruh fr shit’s crazy
ikr? Like dang i dont even know him anymore
are these sarcasm? :/
@@finnowens3821 Yeah
The edits - I simply cannot 😂😂😂💀💀
ok but your eye makeup is on point😳
i am out and still dealing with internalized homophobia, it's so hard. i would love a video on that
I feel a lot of solidarity with your story. My parents are very “we completely love and accept you” but at the same time get visibly angry when they see me with painted nails... I’m currently looking for a job and my Dad keeps telling me interviewers won’t take me seriously if they see my nails painted, and then we’ll get in a big fight.... but at the end of the day he’s not completely wrong, and I’m scared that being a visibly femme gay man will close doors for me. It’s tough to navigate, but your content really helps my confidence. 💖
I recommend when going to the interview not having nail polish on but as soon as you get the job where it when ever you want!!! They literally can’t say shit because that’s discrimination!!
Hi, it's up to you cuz we have all got got loans&bills to pay and we don't all have the privilege to be picky at jobs... but I always wonder if painted nails are a problem in the interview, how is the work environment going to be? my mom says the same thing about my septum ring, luckily im in fashion so its not a huge issue, but at the end of the day I see you, I see your femme-ness and know that it is inherently good and beautiful. xoxo sending love
You can definitely have your nails painted when you get the job. I remember going to a store and we asked a male employee for help with something and he had painted nails and none of the other costumers he helped battered an eyelid (can't remember what colour lol)
I’m looking for a job too and I also have the same problem with my aunt.
Nobody:
Mattxiv: *flunts around with his nails every 6 seconds*
His beautiful claws 💅
CLICKED FASTER THAN COVID COULD SPREAD
I would love a video on internalized homophobia/biphobia, also comp het (which reading into it made me realize a lot of things about myself). I'm 21 and still figuring things out about my own sexuality, idk if I'm bi or just a lesbian (yay comp het!!1!). But it's crazy how much of ourselves we repress without even noticing, specially during our childhood and teenage years.
lmao the tik toks while your telling your story
i hope you know how many people you’ve inspired just by being unapologetically you!! ❤️❤️❤️ def make a video about internalized homophobia and comphet, i love your videos so much!!!!
Closeted couture what a ✨lewk✨
why did i also come out near a starbucks, crying,
and later questioning if i was bisexual? is this a universal gay experience?
Matt and I have nothing in common except for being into men and ashamed of it
i smiled so much :))
also, i kinda feel like my coming out story is extremely uninteresting bc I just got home from school and my dad was like "have you ever questioned your sexuality" and I said "yeah I'm bi" and then my parents and my therapist were like "well it's too early to know" (I was 14) and now idk what they think but I'm watching dune at the cinema so
mine was pretty similar I just randomly told my mom "oh I saw my crush with her friends today" and my mom was just 👁👄👁 literally the most uninteresting coming out story lmao
instantly just favourite youtuber, so glad you started doing videos
i absolutely love your nails and eyeshadow they go together so well
"I like men. Well, I'm attracted to men. Embarrassing, I know." Relatable
Ammm, this video was so funny tbh, like I love the little clips you added HAHAHAHAHA. And it was important as well, I'm very happy that you are in a better place now and at the end everything went well.
I'm glad to have you on RUclips, like, I just feel I get to know more about you than what we get on IG (love your content so much).
So there, you're funny af, so cute and just like a really nice person. You're doing it amazing with this channel, sweetie 💖.
Saludos desde Colombia, jajaja. Lol, I just had to say it 🤡.
P.S. YAS, we do want that video!
the healing, the self-acceptance, the humor... as a 27 year-old gay, this is the best thing I’ve seen in a minute
proud of you
I always love hearing others coming out stories, specifically how people realize that they are gay, mostly because my realization came while watching the Joker with my ~gal pal~
wow im early 🥺✨❤️ but im so proud of you and thank you for sharing
we do be down here commenting before even watching the vid ✨❤️
i literally watched every single coming out video on youtube
this was soo relatable, i love you.
Yes reusable straw we love an eco friendly queen
i love this, stay gay, stay safe
Matt: i was 10. i was in middle school. i was between freshman and sophomore year. i was 14.
gays really don't math.
math? I dont know her
so much respect for you, Matt. ❤️ it’s a gift to hear so much of my story reflected in your story... it helps me live one of the most meaningful ideals to me, “Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.” -Brené Brown
I feel like I was never deep in the closet once I figured out that I’m Pan. Like,, once I got comfortable with myself if someone wanted to open up that closet door they wouldn’t need to look very hard. I’d be sitting on the floor with my feet up on the wall listening to music. Still not out of my parents yet though...
Lucky 😂
ME AND U THE SAME but I came out a few months ago to my mom and siblings
i like men... well... i’m attracted to men
same
I can't even I want your nails!!! Also really happy you feel you can truly be you.
omg ur gay!? i never knew
crazy
Plot twist of the century
THANK U!!! i am literally in tears of laughter w every video at those memes u add in😭 thank u for being so vulnerable and truthful always💛
You know how i mention my “stepdad“ on ur last video well im bi and still dont even know if i still like guys and i have never told him just bc hes REALLY homophobic :/ only my mom knows but I’m pretty open about it
Thank you for this masterpiece, I enjoyed listening to your story ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🏳️🌈
Like I'm 18, I accepted myself being gay like last year, haven't had any like boyfriends or anything. But Matt I started following you around the time that quarantine started. I came out to my parents on quarantine thanks to you actually. Your posts and account really helped me come out. Thanks!
Yayyy so excited for this video ilysm
Came here after the ig story
First thing that popped up on my feed
Blessed
Also YES for the internalised homophobia video
The editing is hilarious. Although you don't even really need it, you are so self-mocking by yourself. I like this personality trait in people. P. S. love your stories, it's always so interesting to listen to you
6:11 rlly spoke to me man
✨Closeted Couture✨is my new favorite phrase for how I dress everyday. 😂
Can relate to that closeted experience. It’s really not healthy.
imagine being matt.... waking up and being matt... the power
King 👑👑
Not only are you one of those gays you're the queen bee ♥️ yes please on the offer for a internalized femme phobia. Love the way you talk, the way you make these videos. There's no yelling, overdramatic anything. Love love love it!
i love that u shared ur coming out story with us and im so glad u have such a good relationship with ur mom xoxo
I've been waiting matt
Good morning matthew 💕
ok your voice is SO soothing
love you sm and i’m glad you have a channel now ❤️
i love you. thank you for talking about your journey with this 💜💜
i love listening to you talk, im not sure why i love it so much but its VERY soothing
"Closeted couture" i can't...
last time i was this early i thought i was a girl- (sorry i know this joke is v old)
Mood
We all just need to give a hug to our confused teenage selves.
And I would love a video on internalized homophobia :)
The eyeshadow is everything 👁️👄👁️
It’s been a minute since one of these videos has made me cry. Very real and tough. Thank you for sharing. ♥️
i'm mattsreactionfoldersexual. no turning back
the way you talk is so soothing
okay, so, i basically came out as bi to my larger friend group today and they were all cool with it except for the fact that they couldn’t get over me having a girlfriend. who is in the friend group. we hang out all the time. we cuddle. we say “i love you”. how much more obvious can we beeeeeee????
Thanks for sharing your story! Being in the closet is traumatic... it’s just so real. I forget to admit this to myself sometimes. Thanks. 💗
Just found your channel today, and I am well on my way to binging every video. Thank you for putting out such honest, genuine, thought out, and supportive content ♥️ also your makeup? Flawless ♥️
CLOSETED COUTURE 😂😂😂 I'm fucking crying
your skin is flawless. ✨✨
I used to watch those coming out videos religiously omggg you brought back memories man, ily as always Matt
The editing is fucking fantastic. Can't wait until you make more videos you are literally iconic
hey ,,just wanted 2 let u know that this rly resonates w me as I had a v v similar realization / coming out experience and it's rly nice 2 hear some1 else share such similar experiences ,,esp as I'm in the process of coming at a second time as nonbinary. think u 4 this video king
thank you for sharing your story and I think you are so right about the trauma that hiding your identity causes and how we need to address that more in the community.
Also I am living for your make-up! All the best ♥
Thank you for sharing your journey 🤸🏼♂️
i love your personality and sense of humor ughhh!! 😭💗
The eyes😍
this is so engaging and the editing makes is 100x better
*LOOOVE* the editing
i relate 1000% to 4:05 like I'm 14, so growing up I knew what being gay was, but i'm bi so I like forced myself to be straight for so long and like was actively denying liking girls, since i knew that i'd liked a guy before and didn't know that I could like girls too until kinda recently
Your nails and your makeup are beautiful af🤩
im literally so obsessed w ur makeup and nails ur so pretty omg
Do you have any tips for a young gay recently out of the closet who wants to experiment more with their femininity, makeup, etc. but doesn’t know where to start?
Okay so I’m not Matt but remember that there is no “wrong” way to start. I’d suggest looking on Instagram or Pinterest for feminine styles, just to get an idea of what you like and what may work for your body type.
Also with makeup, RUclips is great and full of tutorials. It can get expensive though, so go to a drugstore at first, that way you can experiment as much as you want without getting hundreds of dollars of products. If there is a style of product you really like there, you can later get a higher quality brand.
I may not be the best person for this advice, I am a lesbian lol, but I’ve been experimenting more with masculinity so it’s similar in concept at least. Hope this helps!
Skippy Kay Thank you!
Maybe you could start with cute hair accessories if you like them. They're affordable and if you ever feel unsafe expressing your femininity, you could just take them off. (I hope this doesn't happen tho)
I also think make up like lipstick, gloss, Blush and highlighters are a great place to start because you can't do a lot wrong with application and they're rather subtle depending on the colour obviously so you can kinda ease into it and become more confident over time with make up.
I wish you a lot of fun ❤️
Carla W. Those are good ideas! Thanks!
C. A. femme lesbian here! i would recommend simpler things like lip gloss (glossier is my go-to brand) blush and contour. a bunch of blush on the tip of my nose and the apple of my cheeks makes me feel super feminine/girly! eyeliner is also a good start, like winged eyeliner is usually a good style but it depends on your eye type (some looks good, some doesn’t and that’s okay!) mascara is good for making your eyelashes look super long and thick. those are some good starters, let me know if i helped at all :)
i can relate to what you we’re saying about the trama and fear of being at a younger age and keeping your feelings and a huge part of who you are a secret . I’m 17 now but realized i was bi when i was like 12, i still haven’t been able to find the courage or strength to come out. So thank you for making this video it makes me feel less hopeless.
I did not need to be called about my preteen/early teen fashion closeted couture.