My dear girl, you are a role model for so many. Always remember that. ❤ You are here for a great purpose. A purpose and impact you may never be aware of until the day you stand before God.❤
You are a wise woman and your openness to healing is so admirable. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful young daughter. Please stay open to your healing journey which I imagine takes huge mental, emotional and physical energy. You and your daughter are loved. You and your daughter are honoured. Continue to heal for yourself and in honour of your beautiful daughter's memory and spirit. Bless you.
I so so cherish your story…….all of it, I am almost 60…….and I hadn’t realized I had recovered, but not healed ……until this video…….you are so right……I need to share this with so many…….thank you Rachel, I will be listening for more……..
Dear Rachael, it is so moving to listen to you, thank you for sharing your life with us. By telling others your story you are also helping yourself. Please know that we feel for you and that the healing journey you are on is the right one. Best wishes from Germany!❤🙏
I feel like your telling my story im 59 and my ex took my onlys sons life at 23 in 2016. and i had a bad childhood and made some horrible decisions and im sitting here c rying because i lost my only sister in april 25,2024 and im truly feeling even more alone and no purpose and i have had therapy and i still blame myself. Thank you for telling your story and continue healing .
I'm truly sorry Linda for all the tragic losses and pain you are suffering. Please make a positive decision that you will find healing and begin a new life. 🎉🎉🎉
You are doing so well in your healing process , embracing and working through the pain. During meditation for years whenever something painful arose I would think ' let it go, let it go '. Very recently I heard the Buddhist concept of 'let it stay ' instead. I'm amazed at how this change has had such a calming effect on my healing Love and Light to You XO 🧡
Thank you for being so open and transparent about your life. I hope it was a healing experience for you. You are such a beautiful woman. I pray you find happiness and purpose in your life. I'm sure you know that God wants you to be happy, and find that happiness. Your story touched me, and I think you really understood why/how you got to that place in your life, that it was because of your surroundings as a child. As baby's and young children we are so vulnerable to our surroundings, what we hear, and what we see. It all goes to our brain and forms our personality. Everything around us, all of our senses form our personality. It makes sense to me anyway.
I could relate to a lot of what you’ve been through and listening to this helped me understand myself better. You have had a HARD life. I wish you nothing but happiness coming your way for the rest of your life. You deserve peace. You do not deserve any of what you’ve been through. Not any of it. It’s not fair, but it is NOT your fault. None of it. Keep loving and looking after yourself. Don’t give up. Keep moving as you are towards the place you deserve to be in. It bothers me deeply that you weren’t honoured in your pregnancy. What you did in creating a baby was phenomenal. I am in awe of you. I know you question why life has been so hard for you but I promise you are very special and worthy. You always deserved happiness and deserve it now more than ever ❤️
You should feel so proud of yourself for continually striving to heal and move up and move forward. Being so vulnerable is the most difficult thing any of us can do. Thank you for your strength and your sharing. Much love to you from us, “the Universe”. We are out here and we are cheering you on and lifting you up. Love from Texas. ❤
Thank you, Rose for sharing this leg of your journey. You have most definitely watered my garden. I, too have suffered a great loss of my family, even though not through death, it’s a great loss, none the less. I feel like I’ve known you for a long while. I can’t explain it. It’s so good to see you smile. The progress in your healing is showing. Looking forward to the continuation of your journey. Godspeed ❤
I recall your previous video whiçh broke my heart. I am so happy to see you healing and smiling and now sharing the story of who you are which should help many others. Thank you from Canada ❤
You are so authentic and sweet. So glad I found your channel. You are very inspiring to me. Looking forward to your videos. Keep taking care of yourself, beautiful❤
You are so sweet and lovely!! I did watch your other videos and it's just heartbreaking. What I absolutely love is that you are a believer. I went through the darkest time of my life in 2020 and the only thing that helped is staying in His word and staying on my knees. That has been four years ago and I still have that same hunger for Him. I do not have any desires for things I use to do like smoking, drinking, potty mouth etc. The Holy Spirit has weeded those things out along the way. I truly believe He is coming back soon. I am truly thankful that you know HIM. Without a doubt if you do, you will see your babygirl again. God bless you Rachael.
Sweet, sweet girl! You are a warrior! You have no idea the hope you bring to others. Don’t short yourself on your ability to make others stop and ponder their own life, their own choices, their own peace, and their own self worth! I am so glad God gave you me. I wish I could take your pain away and bring back your baby girl Oria. Just know you are appreciated, loved, thought of and prayed for. Hugs! 💜
I have really been captivated by your story, thanks for sharing more about you from your past. It would be interesting to find out more about the relationship you had at 19, and your relationship with Ashley, if you choose to ever share.
Thank you so much for your story, in my life i wanted several times selfexit myself and hear from another human being the same is like a hug, i don’t feel so alone in this life ❤ love my friend
You are incredible! Ur such an inspiration. So brave and courageous, my God! I could go on and on. You've endured so much in ur life. To look at you now and listen to ur videos you have become such a strong and motivating person. I can imagine things can be difficult for you at times, I think in time they will get easier. Ur little angel, I can't imagine the pain that you feel. I am so sorry. I see you working so hard to get better. You will get there. I have faith in you.
You break my heart and give me so much hope- all at the same time. Oria is so proud of her mama (i am positive) for sharing yourself with us... You are quite an amazing woman xo
I am a female who would have received a diagnosis of Aspergers had the understanding been better when I was younger. The knowledge of neurodivergence and the impact it has on a person's mental health and coping skills just was not there. I felt like I was failing at life. It was so damaging to my self confidence. I wish I knew then what I know now. Sorry for talking about myself so much but thank you so much for sharing your experience. Neurodivergent young people need honesty, understanding and openness from those of us who have been there . I believe it saves lives. Some of the thoughts you express about your experience in pregnancy are also very close to the bone. You are not alone, my dear girl. You are so insightful, magnanimous and honest. You remain this way despite the grief and devastation which you are enduring.Sending you love, comfort and empathy xx
Good morning 😊 You are very strong. God never gives us more than we can handle. Thank you for sharing your beautiful baby girl with us❤ Thank you for sharing your trauma as well. Always keep your head up. You are so blessed in so many ways. Always remember to find the good in everything ✨️ I keep you in my prayers always. Have a very Blessed day 🙏🏼 ✨️ ❤Know as well that you are beautiful and very much loved, valued, and appreciated. ❤❤❤
Sending you all my love from Canada, I resonate with so much of your story❤. I am your fellow "one on one" girlfriend, also never had a tribe. Bullied since my Mom died when I was 11. Ostracized because I was different, just like you. I really feel your pain, you have suffered so much, thank you for sharing your story ❤
I randomly came across this channel and I have to say, wow you are so inspiring. All the pain you went through and all the challenges you faced and yet you didnt give up. Life can be cruel sometimes and it can hit even the nicest people with the worst things. I dont know how much it helps or doesnt help to read this from a stranger over the internet but I really really hope you can enjoy life normally again one day. There is so much darkness in our world and even though we cant change the past we can all try our best to shape a better future. Even if its just a very small impact, it still counts. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Every experience in your life thus far has brought you to this point of being absolutely beautiful inside and out. That is what makes you such an amazing role model for anyone who's faced some or all of your experiences. Your precious daughter will be with you throughout your life and strengthen you as well in whatever awaits you in the future. I believe wholeheartedly that abundant blessings await you. Thank you for your honesty and strength in sharing your story. I look forward to hearing more from you.
Thank you so much for sharing. You are strong, and your story is similar to mine. I've never told anyone. My sister found out I was throwing up. She kicked down my bathroom door. It was humiliating. Sleeping at friends' houses was impossible. Im now trying hard to be a better person and a loving mother to my 25 year old daughter. Listening to you, i know you will make a great life for you. I see myself in you, and you are brave. Im now in therapy trying to make sense of my like. You are in my prayers. Thank you for sharing .it's opened my eyes. Take care of yourself. This, too, shall pass. Sending you my love. Candace❤
Oh wow I had a chair throwing incident at school once too... Totally out of character for me I just had a bad day. Thanks for sharing your stories. You're a lovely lady 🌸🌷🌸
Rachael my lovely, u r such a sweet soul. I love listening to u talk, such a calming voice. I know u have been through the absolute worse thing anyone could go through....but u r stronger than u know and u prove that everyday. Sending all my love to u ❤
Bless you darling 🫂🙏🏻💚 Sending lots of love, light & prayers from Spring Hope, North Carolina USA 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹💚🌹🫂 I wish I could have known you in school. I was super shy too, but really good at math & science, I would have been a friend & helped with your studies too, gladly. You would have fit in wonderfully in Wake Forest, back in the day... I'm so sorry you had to deal with bullying. Thankfully where I grew up, in the 80s, in wake forest, we didn't really have any bullies. Or course there were cliques but we all had respect for each other & were nice. I know I was blessed, figured it out when I had to switch schools the middle of my senior/12th grade year. The place I ended up was NOTHING like the town I grew up in, not even 20 minutes away. The football players & popular kids were awful to the regular everyday kids. Thank God I only had to deal with It for half a day & only from Dec - May. They didn't offer the AP college classes I was taking at my old school, the highest math there was algebra 3/trig which I had already taken 2 yrs prior; so since I only needed 2 credits to graduate (took sciences for my electives, Marine biology, environmental science ect which helped my credits) so I only had to stay for the first 2 classes of the day, & I could leave before or after lunch... I can't imagine going all through kindergarten, all the way through 12th in such a toxic bullying environment. You never should have endured that 🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂I really wish I could have been a friend back then, to show you love & make sure you knew how much you matter!! so much you have had to deal with, yet you continue on, with hope & faith, along with a beautiful authenticity & gorgeous soul 💚💚💞 I'm so proud of you! You are a true inspiration 💫 Stay strong beautiful 💚🙏🏻
Also, my nephew (who lives with me, since my sister passed away at 42yrs old) has Asperger's, so I only have a limited outside looking in perspective. But I understand the cancer part. My Dad was found to have stage 4 squamous cell carcinoma when I was about 12yrs old, it was a terrible battle, with the majority of housework & cooking thrown on me & my sister out of nowhere. So I can definitely understand the pain, hardships & heartaches cancer can cause. I hate the word hate, but I hate cancer; & bullying... Always here if you want to talk or just vent. My email is in my about section 🫂💚 You are NEVER alone!!!
Rachael, you have such a beautiful calming voice and especially beautiful soul. Thank you for opening up. Those crazy British magazines should be all charged with having caused so much demage to generations of women...
Love listening to you, you tell youre story so beautifully.. like listening to a beautiful song even though somethings are painfull.. You tell it with so much grace & no ugliness atall🫶🏼 You seem such a lovely person with so much to give.. you feel like an old friend that I always need in my life & look forward to seeing & hearing❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing your life experience with us it’s great that you are able to open up and let it all out….you are a beautiful soul inside and out and it’s not been easy for you, however this will all somehow make sense in the end and you will be so strong’ ! You understand people and just by doing this vlog you are helping others who may have or is going through the same kind of experience 🙏🏻sending positive thoughts 💖x
Bless you Rachel , you are a very Beautiful Lady , mental Health can be such Torture. I still on my Journey . I certainly would have bin totally lost without JESUS ❤
Thank you for the courage you have! Being so transparent takes such courage. Just as our healing from trauma takes courage! CANNOT WAIT FOR YOUR NEXT VIDEO!!!!!❤ Edit: I sent you some emails. I do hope you get a chance to read them. I understand if you can’t respond. 💚💕
Wait i totally remember your voice from a few years back!?!? Didn't you have a beautiful little girl and your ex did the unthinkable??? I cried for days over the video and was heartbroken and so saddd!! ORRR am i totally confusing you with someone else ughhh!???💔❣️💔❣️💔❣️💔❣️💔
Yes, it's her. This channel is all about that and her journey through grief. I think this video is for the folks that only know her from here and only know that about her. It's about who she is and what she did before the terrible tragedy. ❤
Oh Rachel our lives are very similar 😭 I'd bulimia for 10 yrs my mum had breast cancer unfortunately we lost her in 2008 I was pregnant with my daughter Nicole 😭 like you I stopped doing the damage to myself to protect her but unfortunately my mother's death hit me after I had my daughter in may 2009 & I relapsed down the line it took 8 more yrs when I developed gastritis that I just was so tired & drained I stopped I'd minor set backs through the yrs but I'd say I'm healed, like you I wanted my baby to be a girl at that time I needed that I'd already had my son, my mum when I showed her the scan in the hospice looked at it & said she's beautiful & I said she?? & she said yes it's a girl, I called her Nicole (Dolores) (my mum) I lost my granny a month before my mum also who was my everything my daughter Nicole also chose Elizabeth by herself then told me & I cried I said that was your great grannies name 😭 I've had too many things in my life that are without question miraculous that's what gets me through life, my now partner who supports me you need that in life, I'm near the end of your video I'd to stop I cried so much going to watch the rest x God bless you Rachel you've a gentle soul & if I must say a great gentle voice youud be great with meditations or narrating, I hope one day you will find peace & comfort in your life so many of us out there are broken wounded souls that keep it in the dark & if I must say they're the most beautiful people I've ever met x
Ur such a beautiful soul ❤ u and i would be amazing friends 😊 here i am all the way in Timmins Ontario Canada lol but honestly hun ur storms i have lived as well and it would be so very beautiful to have a friend . ❤ stay strong and humble . Sending love ur way and know someone is thinking of u somewhere in the world 😊
Your life sounds similar to mine, I even had a Cocker Spaniel named Harry-loved that dog!! I did not suffer from anorexia or bulimia though but I had other stuff. I was dreadfully shy as well. I am much older than you, but Jesus showed me something that changed my life; I am not here on this earth to be loved (bcs you probably wont be- not as scripture describes Love) but Im here to love. To love like He loves. He said He chose a peculiar people. We don’t fit in this world but in the Kingdom of Heaven. We are here for a purpose as I know you know. ❤ Also why not go back to college 📸?
Thanks for sharing your story ❤! You are absolutely beautiful and gorgeous! My prayers to you so you can heal and meet the most amazing, wonderful and great man ever: Jesus Christ 🙏🏼. He is everything and He can heal you from all the hurt you have been suffering. Talk to Him and ask Him to show you His marvelous blessings ❤. A big hug from me to you. Amen
Hi beaut x I have been following your story. My darling you are so brave. Your residence shines through. Rachel, I wanted to put myself forward and hopefully help you see situations from a different protective. I would love to have a direct chat with you as I want to show you a spiritual understanding of soul ties and soul contracts. You are so beautiful inside and out I can literally see your beautiful aura. I may be a stranger, the one that may stand out as weird but I would love to talk with you. I have not lost a child however I had a very very toxic marriage however we chose our paths before we pop down to earth. I don't want to say too much. Sorry if I come across annoying. Please feel free to message me to have a chin wag. I've learned so much on my spiritual path otherwisei wouldn't be here now. Woman to woman, I'd be happy to speak more ❤xx
if you don't have it anymore than it never was aspergers, more adhd maybe, ...lot of things don't finish, aspergers have specific things, minimal things over and over again and don't become bored
Sorry but you really seem to like to look at things from a negative angle....you had friends....you are not satisfied....quite searching for things to moan about...sorry...can be an obsession too
Your a beautiful strong woman and i wish you love and strength, on life's path. myself and im sure many others see your strength and draw from it to help ourselfs on our own journey. much love and happyness will come your way.may blue skies and sunshine fill your darkest days May rainy days wash away your pain. May the storms of life be the power which drives you forward. Much respect to you .kev
@ Rachelroseporter I felt this and it resonated so deeply in how I felt as a young girl/teenager I had severe acne and felt like thee ugliest girl in the world and always felt like everything I did and touched I fkd up and that I didn’t and still struggle with feeling like I deserve anything … also my parents argued a lot and a 1 of 4 children the house was always chaotic and I lived with anxiety from being a little girl … I don’t and wouldn’t want to feel your pain as with oria and Ashley god bless you I know that you are going to go on and become better and help a lot of people the world over with your RUclips and educate people who also connect and resonate with your childhood and adulthood struggles snd to give them the courage to also confront the darkness and the past and heal to move forward in life make changes to be better and hopefully like myself to 1 day live peacefully in accepting and loving ourselves just AS we are .. warts and all ❤❤❤ wishing you all the love and happiness in the universe you are a beautiful angel here on this earth with another little one always beside you ❤ lots of love sent your way
My dear girl, you are a role model for so many. Always remember that. ❤ You are here for a great purpose. A purpose and impact you may never be aware of until the day you stand before God.❤
You are a wise woman and your openness to healing is so admirable. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful young daughter. Please stay open to your healing journey which I imagine takes huge mental, emotional and physical energy.
You and your daughter are loved. You and your daughter are honoured. Continue to heal for yourself and in honour of your beautiful daughter's memory and spirit.
Bless you.
Rooting for you Rachael Rose on your healing journey. 🙏
I absolutely love this video… you’re a beautiful soul & an inspiration for all ❤️
I so so cherish your story…….all of it, I am almost 60…….and I hadn’t realized I had recovered, but not healed ……until this video…….you are so right……I need to share this with so many…….thank you Rachel, I will be listening for more……..
Dear Rachael, it is so moving to listen to you, thank you for sharing your life with us. By telling others your story you are also helping yourself. Please know that we feel for you and that the healing journey you are on is the right one. Best wishes from Germany!❤🙏
I feel like your telling my story im 59 and my ex took my onlys sons life at 23 in 2016. and i had a bad childhood and made some horrible decisions and im sitting here c rying because i lost my only sister in april 25,2024 and im truly feeling even more alone and no purpose and i have had therapy and i still blame myself. Thank you for telling your story and continue healing .
My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry for all of the heartache you are going through. I pray that you find peace and healing. God bless you. 🙏
I'm truly sorry Linda for all the tragic losses and pain you are suffering. Please make a positive decision that you will find healing and begin a new life. 🎉🎉🎉
God bless you❤
You are doing so well in your healing process , embracing and working through the pain. During meditation for years whenever something painful arose I would think ' let it go, let it go '. Very recently I heard the Buddhist concept of 'let it stay ' instead. I'm amazed at how this change has had such a calming effect on my healing Love and Light to You XO 🧡
Thank you for being so open and transparent about your life. I hope it was a healing experience for you. You are such a beautiful woman. I pray you find happiness and purpose in your life. I'm sure you know that God wants you to be happy, and find that happiness. Your story touched me, and I think you really understood why/how you got to that place in your life, that it was because of your surroundings as a child. As baby's and young children we are so vulnerable to our surroundings, what we hear, and what we see. It all goes to our brain and forms our personality. Everything around us, all of our senses form our personality. It makes sense to me anyway.
I could relate to a lot of what you’ve been through and listening to this helped me understand myself better. You have had a HARD life. I wish you nothing but happiness coming your way for the rest of your life. You deserve peace. You do not deserve any of what you’ve been through. Not any of it. It’s not fair, but it is NOT your fault. None of it. Keep loving and looking after yourself. Don’t give up. Keep moving as you are towards the place you deserve to be in. It bothers me deeply that you weren’t honoured in your pregnancy. What you did in creating a baby was phenomenal. I am in awe of you. I know you question why life has been so hard for you but I promise you are very special and worthy. You always deserved happiness and deserve it now more than ever ❤️
Be strong, sweetie!!! You're not alone!!! You are LOVED!!!!!
I want to add Rachel you are a child of the 1 true King and He loves you and He sees you✝️=💜
I don't know if you have ever been told that you have a lovely heartwarming smile and a very soothing calming voice.
You should feel so proud of yourself for continually striving to heal and move up and move forward. Being so vulnerable is the most difficult thing any of us can do. Thank you for your strength and your sharing. Much love to you from us, “the Universe”. We are out here and we are cheering you on and lifting you up. Love from Texas. ❤
Sending immense love and heartfelt hugs from Melbourne Australia. 💚
Thank you, Rose for sharing this leg of your journey. You have most definitely watered my garden. I, too have suffered a great loss of my family, even though not through death, it’s a great loss, none the less. I feel like I’ve known you for a long while. I can’t explain it. It’s so good to see you smile. The progress in your healing is showing. Looking forward to the continuation of your journey. Godspeed ❤
I recall your previous video whiçh broke my heart. I am so happy to see you healing and smiling and now sharing the story of who you are which should help many others. Thank you from Canada ❤
You are so authentic and sweet. So glad I found your channel. You are very inspiring to me. Looking forward to your videos. Keep taking care of yourself, beautiful❤
I agree! She's an absolute inspiration 💯
You are so sweet and lovely!! I did watch your other videos and it's just heartbreaking. What I absolutely love is that you are a believer. I went through the darkest time of my life in 2020 and the only thing that helped is staying in His word and staying on my knees. That has been four years ago and I still have that same hunger for Him. I do not have any desires for things I use to do like smoking, drinking, potty mouth etc. The Holy Spirit has weeded those things out along the way. I truly believe He is coming back soon. I am truly thankful that you know HIM. Without a doubt if you do, you will see your babygirl again. God bless you Rachael.
Sweet, sweet girl! You are a warrior! You have no idea the hope you bring to others. Don’t short yourself on your ability to make others stop and ponder their own life, their own choices, their own peace, and their own self worth! I am so glad God gave you me. I wish I could take your pain away and bring back your baby girl Oria. Just know you are appreciated, loved, thought of and prayed for. Hugs! 💜
Its incredible how you are navigating your healing path after all the tragedy and devastation you have suffered. Much much Love to you. Xxxxx🎉
I have really been captivated by your story, thanks for sharing more about you from your past. It would be interesting to find out more about the relationship you had at 19, and your relationship with Ashley, if you choose to ever share.
You have a way of keeping me listening, even though we've never met.
Thank you so much for your story, in my life i wanted several times selfexit myself and hear from another human being the same is like a hug, i don’t feel so alone in this life ❤ love my friend
You are a beautiful person , I am so sorry you have suffered such pain ❤
You are incredible! Ur such an inspiration. So brave and courageous, my God! I could go on and on. You've endured so much in ur life. To look at you now and listen to ur videos you have become such a strong and motivating person. I can imagine things can be difficult for you at times, I think in time they will get easier. Ur little angel, I can't imagine the pain that you feel. I am so sorry. I see you working so hard to get better. You will get there. I have faith in you.
You break my heart and give me so much hope- all at the same time. Oria is so proud of her mama (i am positive) for sharing yourself with us... You are quite an amazing woman xo
ps i am one of those souls that chose to work on a lot in this life and so my "challenges" water the gardens of earth as well.
I am a female who would have received a diagnosis of Aspergers had the understanding been better when I was younger. The knowledge of neurodivergence and the impact it has on a person's mental health and coping skills just was not there.
I felt like I was failing at life. It was so damaging to my self confidence. I wish I knew then what I know now.
Sorry for talking about myself so much but thank you so much for sharing your experience. Neurodivergent young people need honesty, understanding and openness from those of us who have been there . I believe it saves lives.
Some of the thoughts you express about your experience in pregnancy are also very close to the bone. You are not alone, my dear girl.
You are so insightful, magnanimous and honest. You remain this way despite the grief and devastation which you are enduring.Sending you love, comfort and empathy xx
Love and light to you 🙏💖
Wow - such growth out of such pain- i really like recovery is different from healing- such wisdom that we all need
so do the thing with the photography!!!🎉🎉🎉
I just watched all your videos. I am praying for your healing x
Thank you for your honesty Rachael. You have come a very long way & I commend you.
Good morning 😊 You are very strong. God never gives us more than we can handle. Thank you for sharing your beautiful baby girl with us❤ Thank you for sharing your trauma as well. Always keep your head up. You are so blessed in so many ways. Always remember to find the good in everything ✨️ I keep you in my prayers always. Have a very Blessed day 🙏🏼 ✨️ ❤Know as well that you are beautiful and very much loved, valued, and appreciated. ❤❤❤
I disagree with the statement that God doesn't give us more than we can handle. If that was true, people wouldn't be committing suicide.
Sending you all my love from Canada, I resonate with so much of your story❤. I am your fellow "one on one" girlfriend, also never had a tribe. Bullied since my Mom died when I was 11. Ostracized because I was different, just like you. I really feel your pain, you have suffered so much, thank you for sharing your story ❤
I resonate with so much of your story... You're a beautiful soul!
I randomly came across this channel and I have to say, wow you are so inspiring. All the pain you went through and all the challenges you faced and yet you didnt give up. Life can be cruel sometimes and it can hit even the nicest people with the worst things. I dont know how much it helps or doesnt help to read this from a stranger over the internet but I really really hope you can enjoy life normally again one day. There is so much darkness in our world and even though we cant change the past we can all try our best to shape a better future. Even if its just a very small impact, it still counts. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Hi Racheal it’s so nice to get to know you as you 😊
Many Blessings Rachel ❤😊❤ you've got this 🤗
Every experience in your life thus far has brought you to this point of being absolutely beautiful inside and out. That is what makes you such an amazing role model for anyone who's faced some or all of your experiences. Your precious daughter will be with you throughout your life and strengthen you as well in whatever awaits you in the future. I believe wholeheartedly that abundant blessings await you. Thank you for your honesty and strength in sharing your story. I look forward to hearing more from you.
Thank you so much for sharing. You are strong, and your story is similar to mine. I've never told anyone. My sister found out I was throwing up. She kicked down my bathroom door. It was humiliating. Sleeping at friends' houses was impossible. Im now trying hard to be a better person and a loving mother to my 25 year old daughter. Listening to you, i know you will make a great life for you. I see myself in you, and you are brave. Im now in therapy trying to make sense of my like. You are in my prayers. Thank you for sharing .it's opened my eyes. Take care of yourself. This, too, shall pass. Sending you my love. Candace❤
Realmente eres muy fuerte, me pongo de pie ante ti. Te abrazo con el ❤
Sending you the biggest hug I can give you ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story, Rachel. You are so strong and such an amazing woman.Sending you all my love and hugs from Essex❤❤❤
Oh wow I had a chair throwing incident at school once too... Totally out of character for me I just had a bad day. Thanks for sharing your stories. You're a lovely lady 🌸🌷🌸
Rachael my lovely, u r such a sweet soul. I love listening to u talk, such a calming voice. I know u have been through the absolute worse thing anyone could go through....but u r stronger than u know and u prove that everyday. Sending all my love to u ❤
Bless you darling 🫂🙏🏻💚
Sending lots of love, light & prayers from Spring Hope, North Carolina USA 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹💚🌹🫂
I wish I could have known you in school. I was super shy too, but really good at math & science, I would have been a friend & helped with your studies too, gladly. You would have fit in wonderfully in Wake Forest, back in the day... I'm so sorry you had to deal with bullying. Thankfully where I grew up, in the 80s, in wake forest, we didn't really have any bullies. Or course there were cliques but we all had respect for each other & were nice. I know I was blessed, figured it out when I had to switch schools the middle of my senior/12th grade year. The place I ended up was NOTHING like the town I grew up in, not even 20 minutes away. The football players & popular kids were awful to the regular everyday kids. Thank God I only had to deal with It for half a day & only from Dec - May. They didn't offer the AP college classes I was taking at my old school, the highest math there was algebra 3/trig which I had already taken 2 yrs prior; so since I only needed 2 credits to graduate (took sciences for my electives, Marine biology, environmental science ect which helped my credits) so I only had to stay for the first 2 classes of the day, & I could leave before or after lunch... I can't imagine going all through kindergarten, all the way through 12th in such a toxic bullying environment. You never should have endured that 🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂I really wish I could have been a friend back then, to show you love & make sure you knew how much you matter!!
so much you have had to deal with, yet you continue on, with hope & faith, along with a beautiful authenticity & gorgeous soul 💚💚💞 I'm so proud of you! You are a true inspiration 💫 Stay strong beautiful 💚🙏🏻
Also, my nephew (who lives with me, since my sister passed away at 42yrs old) has Asperger's, so I only have a limited outside looking in perspective. But I understand the cancer part. My Dad was found to have stage 4 squamous cell carcinoma when I was about 12yrs old, it was a terrible battle, with the majority of housework & cooking thrown on me & my sister out of nowhere. So I can definitely understand the pain, hardships & heartaches cancer can cause. I hate the word hate, but I hate cancer; & bullying...
Always here if you want to talk or just vent. My email is in my about section 🫂💚 You are NEVER alone!!!
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing you with us.
I’m listening, and learning thank you ❤
Rachael, you have such a beautiful calming voice and especially beautiful soul. Thank you for opening up. Those crazy British magazines should be all charged with having caused so much demage to generations of women...
Love listening to you, you tell youre story so beautifully.. like listening to a beautiful song even though somethings are painfull..
You tell it with so much grace & no ugliness atall🫶🏼
You seem such a lovely person with so much to give.. you feel like an old friend that I always need in my life & look forward to seeing & hearing❤️❤️
Bless you sweet girl 💜
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for all you went through. Big hugz from Stafford, TX
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You are so brave, I am really proud of you. ❤❤
Wow, you’ve had a tough life so far. But you are so young and vibrant and better days are ahead. ❤
You are so a beautiful soul! God Bless you!
You were such a beautiful, beautiful human being, inside and out
You are looking better than before. Take things one day at a time.
Ahhhh, as a little one you looked so much like your daughter! Same eyes. ❤
Being young is very hard . life is better older and wiser
Thank you for your transparency
What a beautiful , strong woman.
Hope u have a great day… nice to get to know you❤ much love from Karen in Edinburgh ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your life experience with us it’s great that you are able to open up and let it all out….you are a beautiful soul inside and out and it’s not been easy for you, however this will all somehow make sense in the end and you will be so strong’ ! You understand people and just by doing this vlog you are helping others who may have or is going through the same kind of experience 🙏🏻sending positive thoughts 💖x
Bless you Rachel , you are a very Beautiful Lady , mental Health can be such Torture. I still on my Journey . I certainly would have bin totally lost without JESUS ❤
May God bless you and keep you.
Very good to see you smile in this video. It looks good on you 🙏 i dont know you, you don't know me. But i want you to heal and be happy.
Will watch later over a cup of tea 🫖 You are so pretty. Are you still in Thailand?x
Your a child of the 1 true King and He loves you more than you can understand. It's the only true love we will ever know✝️=💜
Thank you for the courage you have! Being so transparent takes such courage. Just as our healing from trauma takes courage! CANNOT WAIT FOR YOUR NEXT VIDEO!!!!!❤
Edit: I sent you some emails. I do hope you get a chance to read them. I understand if you can’t respond. 💚💕
Wait i totally remember your voice from a few years back!?!? Didn't you have a beautiful little girl and your ex did the unthinkable??? I cried for days over the video and was heartbroken and so saddd!! ORRR am i totally confusing you with someone else ughhh!???💔❣️💔❣️💔❣️💔❣️💔
Yes, it's her. This channel is all about that and her journey through grief. I think this video is for the folks that only know her from here and only know that about her. It's about who she is and what she did before the terrible tragedy. ❤
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Oh Rachel our lives are very similar 😭 I'd bulimia for 10 yrs my mum had breast cancer unfortunately we lost her in 2008 I was pregnant with my daughter Nicole 😭 like you I stopped doing the damage to myself to protect her but unfortunately my mother's death hit me after I had my daughter in may 2009 & I relapsed down the line it took 8 more yrs when I developed gastritis that I just was so tired & drained I stopped I'd minor set backs through the yrs but I'd say I'm healed, like you I wanted my baby to be a girl at that time I needed that I'd already had my son, my mum when I showed her the scan in the hospice looked at it & said she's beautiful & I said she?? & she said yes it's a girl, I called her Nicole (Dolores) (my mum) I lost my granny a month before my mum also who was my everything my daughter Nicole also chose Elizabeth by herself then told me & I cried I said that was your great grannies name 😭 I've had too many things in my life that are without question miraculous that's what gets me through life, my now partner who supports me you need that in life, I'm near the end of your video I'd to stop I cried so much going to watch the rest x God bless you Rachel you've a gentle soul & if I must say a great gentle voice youud be great with meditations or narrating, I hope one day you will find peace & comfort in your life so many of us out there are broken wounded souls that keep it in the dark & if I must say they're the most beautiful people I've ever met x
Ur such a beautiful soul ❤ u and i would be amazing friends 😊 here i am all the way in Timmins Ontario Canada lol but honestly hun ur storms i have lived as well and it would be so very beautiful to have a friend . ❤ stay strong and humble . Sending love ur way and know someone is thinking of u somewhere in the world 😊
wow... just wow. I'll let the hundreds of other (positive,useful and truthful ) comments speak for themselves.
Thanks!
What a lovely girl.
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I live in the USA. Our gardens have vegetables or flowers. Is your backyard called a garden?
Your life sounds similar to mine, I even had a Cocker Spaniel named Harry-loved that dog!! I did not suffer from anorexia or bulimia though but I had other stuff. I was dreadfully shy as well. I am much older than you, but Jesus showed me something that changed my life; I am not here on this earth to be loved (bcs you probably wont be- not as scripture describes Love) but Im here to love. To love like He loves. He said He chose a peculiar people. We don’t fit in this world but in the Kingdom of Heaven. We are here for a purpose as I know you know. ❤
Also why not go back to college 📸?
Racheal,there a great artist called ren,he has a great song about eating disorders called Dominoes,it an thought provoking song❤
Thanks for sharing your story ❤! You are absolutely beautiful and gorgeous! My prayers to you so you can heal and meet the most amazing, wonderful and great man ever: Jesus Christ 🙏🏼. He is everything and He can heal you from all the hurt you have been suffering. Talk to Him and ask Him to show you His marvelous blessings ❤. A big hug from me to you. Amen
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♥️🥰God Bless you in Jesus name 🙏 and thank you so for cheering ♥️♥️🙏🙏😇❣️❣️Kathrine from Norway 🇳🇴
Omg,Rachel you said you were born in 1990,you made me feel old.l was born in 1972,l still want to be young.❤❤❤
Try being born in '54 and graduating high school in '72. 😂
Sorry about that.i’m sure you’re young at heart❤
@@marchawkesford9184 You made me smile! Yes, I'm young at heart and fortunately my health is great but I don't like being old one little bit!!! 🤣
Fique em paz❤
Hi beaut x I have been following your story. My darling you are so brave. Your residence shines through. Rachel, I wanted to put myself forward and hopefully help you see situations from a different protective. I would love to have a direct chat with you as I want to show you a spiritual understanding of soul ties and soul contracts. You are so beautiful inside and out I can literally see your beautiful aura. I may be a stranger, the one that may stand out as weird but I would love to talk with you. I have not lost a child however I had a very very toxic marriage however we chose our paths before we pop down to earth. I don't want to say too much. Sorry if I come across annoying. Please feel free to message me to have a chin wag. I've learned so much on my spiritual path otherwisei wouldn't be here now. Woman to woman, I'd be happy to speak more ❤xx
Through everything you have such a beautiful soul. Stay strong. You are amazing. xxx
if you don't have it anymore than it never was aspergers, more adhd maybe, ...lot of things don't finish, aspergers have specific things, minimal things over and over again and don't become bored
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Sorry but you really seem to like to look at things from a negative angle....you had friends....you are not satisfied....quite searching for things to moan about...sorry...can be an obsession too
Your a beautiful strong woman and i wish you love and strength, on life's path. myself and im sure many others see your strength and draw from it to help ourselfs on our own journey. much love and happyness will come your way.may blue skies and sunshine fill your darkest days
May rainy days wash away your pain.
May the storms of life be the power which drives you forward.
Much respect to you .kev
@ Rachelroseporter I felt this and it resonated so deeply in how I felt as a young girl/teenager I had severe acne and felt like thee ugliest girl in the world and always felt like everything I did and touched I fkd up and that I didn’t and still struggle with feeling like I deserve anything … also my parents argued a lot and a 1 of 4 children the house was always chaotic and I lived with anxiety from being a little girl … I don’t and wouldn’t want to feel your pain as with oria and Ashley god bless you I know that you are going to go on and become better and help a lot of people the world over with your RUclips and educate people who also connect and resonate with your childhood and adulthood struggles snd to give them the courage to also confront the darkness and the past and heal to move forward in life make changes to be better and hopefully like myself to 1 day live peacefully in accepting and loving ourselves just AS we are .. warts and all ❤❤❤ wishing you all the love and happiness in the universe you are a beautiful angel here on this earth with another little one always beside you ❤ lots of love sent your way
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