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Tales from the Pit: The Koko Show (Feat. Katy Stoll)

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  • Опубликовано: 12 янв 2018
  • Katy and her pal Michael discuss her planned autobiography, "The Skinniest Kid at Fat Camp." Also life.
    patreon.com/smallbeans
    Artwork by Seth Laster.
    Music by Kevin Clark, Kelsey Hudgins and Abe Epperson.

Комментарии • 73

  • @mattwolfrum7943
    @mattwolfrum7943 6 лет назад +34

    Ok. I'm going sober today. It hasn't gotten completely out of control yet, but it will. Fuck that. Great post. Much love from Texas.

    • @adambooth7755
      @adambooth7755 6 лет назад +7

      Good luck Matt, hope it goes as well as it can.

    • @AngLSTM
      @AngLSTM 6 лет назад +3

      Good luck!

    • @mirmalchik
      @mirmalchik 6 лет назад +6

      You've got this. Even if it's harder than you expect and you backslide, don't beat yourself up or give up. Every effort you make helps you build the good habit of self-control.

    • @KeyvyKeyChannel
      @KeyvyKeyChannel 6 лет назад +2

      I wish you all the best. The fact that you've honestly recognized this is what you need to do is amazing. Even if you relapse, it's OK. It's about striving for the life you want. We're all just little bunnies trying to figure it out. You can do it.

    • @revmpandora
      @revmpandora 6 лет назад +2

      @@mirmalchik
      Always be as forgiving to yourself as you would to someone else.
      This is something that so many people struggle with, which consequently hampers progress in so many other aspects of life

  • @themagictheatre2965
    @themagictheatre2965 6 лет назад +28

    I'm a former drug addict and this hit me hard. Thank you for making it, you're a brave person.

  • @Kidzelda0
    @Kidzelda0 6 лет назад +18

    Tales from the Pit is transcendent, and more people must know. Sharing.

  • @Eris-_
    @Eris-_ 6 лет назад +22

    Thank you both for sharing this. High-functioning addicts often don't for obvious reasons.

  • @JustJohnny
    @JustJohnny 6 лет назад +10

    Been addicted to alcohol for years and gave it up two months ago. Being able to get a good night's sleep has been the best.

  • @rachelfallonauthor
    @rachelfallonauthor 6 лет назад +2

    I apologize for the novel here but...Thank you so much for making this. This is literally my first RUclips comment ever, because I tend to avoid situations where negativity is almost guaranteed, like comment sections on RUclips. But I found your channel when looking for you guys following the cracked debacle😭and this was the first thing I clicked. I struggled with drug addiction for years. I was horrendous as a teenager, culminating in me overdosing and falling into a coma. The doctors even declared me brain dead. But I wasn’t. I was awake inside and fought to make myself wake up. The doctors could only shrug and tell me it was a miracle after telling my parents to start planning for my death or vegetative state. From that point, I knew I was given a second chance and fought my addiction as hard as I could, knowing I would die if I let myself fall back into it. Several times I failed and relapsed, but I fought back every time. Today, almost 10 years from my decision to fight my addiction, I have a great life, but those thoughts and that struggle never really leaves. It haunts the back of your mind, stalks you. The why me questions follow me around. When so many of my old friends died of overdoses, why did I make it? I have PTSD from my overdose and coma, and this compounds it. I can’t even smoke weed to relax because after my coma, my reactions to drugs changed, and weed now makes me freak out and panic and think I’m falling back into a coma or having a seizure, where before that it made me relax and chill. I no longer have addicts of any sort really in my life, except for my father who struggles with alcoholism, but it’s easy to feel alone in it. Knowing these people I watch and use to laugh and make myself feel better, struggle with the same things, is so comforting in a weird way. It reminds me I’m not alone, that behind closed doors more people are struggling than you think. I couldn’t help but comment because this was so important for me. I’ve loved your work for years, both you and Katy are fabulous, and I love you both. Thank you😘

  • @Len124
    @Len124 6 лет назад +7

    Really good stuff. Came to this channel because of what happened to Cracked. Didn't expect to find this podcast. I'm an opiate addict. The epidemic hit where I live pretty hard, and I've watched it take friends' lives through OD or suicide. Every death inspired me to quit, but was also used as an excuse to relapse. Like the cliche says, I had to stop for myself. For my own good, not out of guilt or in tribute for fallen comrades, or some such bullshit. Haven't used since 2014, and I'm on the last year of undergrad before moving on to a grad degree in clinical psych. So what I'm trying to say is this podcast contains my two loves, soul crushing addiction and psych.

    • @MarcelinoSoliz
      @MarcelinoSoliz 6 лет назад +1

      Leonard Affleck opiates seems to have hit everyone. My family was hit hard. We need to make sure that people don’t treat addicts like criminals. They need help.

    • @Len124
      @Len124 6 лет назад +1

      Exactly. All treating addicts like criminals accomplishes is restricting their options for bettering themselves and ensuring they remain trapped in the system. It complicates the process of getting clean, and forces them to use harder street versions of their drug, like heroin, in order to prevent withdrawals.

  • @cameronostrander7140
    @cameronostrander7140 6 лет назад +12

    Going to support you until the end of time, yours or mine. Your thoughts are great, it is tough to find an addicts mind in this day and age. You, give me a connection to something, one of the very few I have, besides the ones who have stuck by my all these years.

  • @mhmnorris
    @mhmnorris 6 лет назад +1

    This was beautiful inspirational! I am an ex coke addict, and other than my weight loss which wasn't actually bad, I just lost all of my chubbiness, there were no outward signs I was an addict. I functioned for years like this, with the only times I was ever suspected was when I DIDN'T have my vice because that was when I would act strange and become someone different. I got off powder the hard way, I got thrown in jail for having it on me while being stopped for driving erratically, no rehab, no family and friends for support, no freedom to do anything to aid myself, just cold concrete, metal bars, and unforgiving guards and staff. Luckily I had a decent enough cellmate who helped me the best he could with what he had. I also smoke copious amounts of pot too and try to do what Katy does and only smoke at night because it does sometimes worsen depression if done midday out of boredom but is just about the only thing that really counters my insomnia in the evening. I have missed you guys since Cracked and thank you for this inspiring discussion.

  • @morosepapaya
    @morosepapaya 11 месяцев назад

    Just now found this podcast and I'm really enjoying them. Michael's intros and genuine attitude with his guests' insights, personal struggles, and anecdotes make for a truly enjoyable content module. It's great to hear from the people who helped shaped my sense of humor on Cracked back in the day. On top of that, these topics are forcing me to be more introspective and make more effort to deal with my own personal traumas and mental issues. You're doing great work out here Michael, much love!

  • @levialexwill
    @levialexwill 6 лет назад

    Thanks for putting this out there and being transparent for the audience to pick apart. Glad to see youre still creating after cracked. Happy the youtube bots put this on my feed

  • @jerwwilliams
    @jerwwilliams 6 лет назад +5

    I never listen to podcasts, as I just don't have the patience or time. But this is a great listen. I don't have a substance abuse problem (unless you consider chocolate), but I have struggled with depression and anger issues for most of my life. I have been a fan of Michael since I saw my first Cracked video starring him. I remember when Katy and Cody first came to the site. It just goes to show that even talented amazing people like Swaim and Stoll have the same doubts and problems as the rest of us.

  • @ElleKelsheimer
    @ElleKelsheimer 6 лет назад

    Wow, thank you for your bravery in sharing this, Katy. Your honesty will help others.

  • @evanj706
    @evanj706 6 лет назад +6

    "That yellow bastard." Christ, I remember that. Tastes awful. Also, an amazing Sin City comic.

  • @shannonlukens1515
    @shannonlukens1515 6 лет назад +2

    Thank you so much for talking about codependency as well, I feel like a lot of people don't know about it and it's relationship with substance abuse and mental illness

  • @Enkinanna
    @Enkinanna 6 лет назад +2

    Holy shit dude. Stellar work, really. This is the kind of honesty, depth, and intimacy that the world is in desperate need of. If this is the kind of work youve been freed to create after the symbolic death of cracked, it was well worth the sacrifice.
    I’ll be honest though when michael said he intentionally pukes multiple times daily i literally had to rip the headphones off to stop the empathy barf effect 😅

  • @nathangomez9481
    @nathangomez9481 6 лет назад +1

    Holy Moly, that monologue was pure comedic insight, and I was NOT expecting to be shaken this much so early in the morning. Shame on you, you beautiful soul!

  • @Sheamu5
    @Sheamu5 6 лет назад +9

    Is it weird I'm excited to listen & contemplate about depression.

  • @MarcelinoSoliz
    @MarcelinoSoliz 6 лет назад

    Shared this. I’ve dealt with depression addiction and the fear that I don’t matter for anything. You guys have made me laugh for years and now you’re making me cry.

  • @alisonnoble1185
    @alisonnoble1185 6 лет назад

    Thank you so much for doing this show. I’m working up the courage to listen to the others, and even though this one hurt to listen to, it was cathartic at the same time and made me feel less alone. I loved you both on Cracked and I’m glad I found you here, Michael! Also, I’m buying what you’re selling for sure! Please keep doing these interviews; I’ll even volunteer! Thanks again!

  • @LithiumThiefMusic
    @LithiumThiefMusic 6 лет назад +9

    Haunting and beautiful, man.

  • @josephpolinger3743
    @josephpolinger3743 6 лет назад

    This is really great. I was bummed when you left crack and so many others whose work I admire were edged out, but this is so meaningful and I applaud the honesty and vulnerability of both you and Katy. I'm glad you've got this new space to keep putting out great work under your own oversight. You got a fan for life here

  • @tj-intercharismaticdwyer6569
    @tj-intercharismaticdwyer6569 6 лет назад

    The way that you talked about hiding your drinking and it not mattering at the end hit my drinking right on the nose. I drank myself to blackout every night alone in my room in high school. I had friends but not ones that drank or knew that I drank. So even though on some level I knew what I was doing was wrong and that was why I was hiding it, I would justify it in my mind saying I don't know for certain that nobody else is doing this, and if they aren't and I were to hurt myself ir die, it would at least serve as a lesson/warning for them all.

  • @residentmusician
    @residentmusician 3 года назад

    Shoutout from 2020, thanks for being here guys

  • @mogo5055
    @mogo5055 6 лет назад +4

    Well now I need a tattoo of a little bunny. Thank you Katy!

  • @rhythmythicles
    @rhythmythicles 6 лет назад

    Second "video" I have watched in this series, and really impressed once again. It is very fulfilling to hear friendly and supportive conversation on these topics that are so impactful. The tone is refreshing in the current charged climate of today. I wish more of the present discourse was as candid and affirming. Thanks Michael (and Katie) for continuing to share your gifts and yourselves with the rest of us!

  • @erikbou3092
    @erikbou3092 6 лет назад +2

    Another insightful and fascinating podcast! I applaud all involved.

  • @EugeneGM1
    @EugeneGM1 6 лет назад

    Holy shit. Thank you for this.

  • @blackrose3857
    @blackrose3857 6 лет назад

    I work as a wardrobe assistant at a theatre and when you guys talked about dressing up I laughed. for me, putting on every silly hat I find always brightens my mood just a bit.

  • @jfedgar
    @jfedgar 6 лет назад

    Please keep making these, Michael. Things are so fractured now and it is so hard to follow all of the people from Cracked that I love, but you are all so important to me.

  • @jmkklk2010
    @jmkklk2010 6 лет назад

    Thank you for this show.
    I really needed to hear this this morning.

  • @neilemery8864
    @neilemery8864 6 лет назад +2

    I think you're hilariously funny, and deserve leading roles.

  • @irishprice5152
    @irishprice5152 6 лет назад

    woohoo! more content! the day it took was killer swaim! This series is helping me ALOT! Thanks for sharing.

  • @alanapotvin741
    @alanapotvin741 6 лет назад

    Thank you for creating this podcast. Also I hope you both understand how lucky you are to have friends who you can discuss your true feelings and struggles with, without judgement. Not everyone has someone to talk to.

  • @tchase4726
    @tchase4726 6 лет назад

    This show is so amazing, man. I'm a retired dope fiend (30 years clean, omg when did THAT happen??!??) and I love you so hard for doing this. You're very gifted & I'm rooting for you.

  • @SantanaOnDaBeat
    @SantanaOnDaBeat 6 лет назад

    This was awesome to listen to. Please continue with more shows like this one. 👍

  • @irishprice
    @irishprice 6 лет назад +3

    Great monologue!

  • @harveyhaines5383
    @harveyhaines5383 5 лет назад

    Thank you.

  • @godslave1990
    @godslave1990 6 лет назад

    I love this so much. This would’ve changed my life a year ago. Thankfully I found my way without it. You guys are going to help so many people.

  • @janicecolumbus4917
    @janicecolumbus4917 6 лет назад

    Thanks for Tales from the Pit.

  • @TTLOSF
    @TTLOSF 6 лет назад +2

    Was skeptical to watch but this was really good great stuff

  • @AngLSTM
    @AngLSTM 6 лет назад +1

    This episode was phenomenally poignant to me. I understand Katys control issues too well. Thank you for everything you share. ❤

  • @bae_ofpigz
    @bae_ofpigz 6 лет назад

    Thanks for making this show

  • @whoanellynelnel3874
    @whoanellynelnel3874 3 года назад

    Katy talking about her brothers and specifically her feelings in the moment helped my bf accept he had an addictive personality and self medicated his anxiety. It brought into perspective how his behaviour came across to his younger sisters

    • @whoanellynelnel3874
      @whoanellynelnel3874 3 года назад

      He still smokes weed occassionally but been clean from meth for four years in May. So thanks for your honesty Katy and Michael

  • @Adam-lc6mk
    @Adam-lc6mk 6 лет назад

    Thank you for doing this!!!

  • @mitchellhorton9382
    @mitchellhorton9382 6 лет назад +1

    Okay, I'm having a rough time right now, no emotional energy to listen to this (that comes when I'm in a calm place)
    But I love you guys.

  • @Zhrink
    @Zhrink 6 лет назад

    I love this. thank you.

  • @Unibomber1225
    @Unibomber1225 6 лет назад +1

    Very lovely

  • @h3lldr0p
    @h3lldr0p 6 лет назад +1

    I love this and I love the topic but it's a little too close to home right now. I promise I will come back and finish listening to this soon.

  • @notmadeofpeople4935
    @notmadeofpeople4935 6 лет назад

    Hey, Swaim, shhhhhhhhh. Quit blowing our cover. Everything is fine. Got it?

  • @MarcelinoSoliz
    @MarcelinoSoliz 6 лет назад

    Katey’s brother’s story breaks my heart. No matter what it’s a disease and we need to help people when they want it. Hopefully before they die.

  • @SOJOA
    @SOJOA 5 лет назад

    NIN, coming soon

  • @RENEEVEE133
    @RENEEVEE133 6 лет назад

    TAlES should be TALES ;)
    This was amazing.

  • @annabareretz
    @annabareretz 6 лет назад

    This series is great. Thank you. Question: Do you think you'll attempt to cover postpartum depression?

  • @TimdeVisser86
    @TimdeVisser86 6 лет назад

    I'm just a little bunny figuring it out.

  • @elmoonfire
    @elmoonfire 6 лет назад

    Micheal, was the play you were in where you carried that guy around called "The Discreet Charm of the Bourgeoisie"?

  • @MrClonazapam
    @MrClonazapam 6 лет назад

    No ads?

  • @revmpandora
    @revmpandora 6 лет назад

    These two could stand to have some accurate info on how consumption of pot can and, more importantly, CAN'T affect a human body.
    Smoking weed to combat nausea, a medically recognized use, and then stopping smoking will not on its own I crease frequency of nor make one more prone to nausea/vomiting etc. That is not opinion, it's widely accepted, medically and scientifically accepted fact. Likewise, Katy said it's 'not good' that she was smoking weed to help deal with anxiety. I don't understand how this can be anything but good. Obviously not having me anxiety at all would be the ideal situation. But certainly and smoking weed is better than any Pharmaceutical medication for anxiety which she seems to agree with as do most reasonable people. So I don't really understand what she wants then. It's not like you can Will yourself out of anxiety or which it away. I know inevitably someone will reply to the saying so if you do yoga so on then she wouldn't need to which is all well and good but realistically for most people that's not going to happen. Meanwhile life goes on anxiety continues and if adopt an attitude of harm reduction instead of a dichotomy of unrealistic idealism and self-hatred for not achieving those unrealistic ideals you'll be a much better off person.

  • @MarcelinoSoliz
    @MarcelinoSoliz 6 лет назад

    I would make a podcast but how long can someone listen to me. It’s been years. I’ve been in recovery for years. It cost lots of money but I keep going cause it’s Better then where I was. But I also know I’m scared to do the hard part.

  • @smac919
    @smac919 6 лет назад

    Katy is so damn gorgeous, her smile would make me never feel depressed lol. I would marry that woman in a heartbeat. Get on that Swaim.

  • @PainCausingSamurai
    @PainCausingSamurai 6 лет назад

    Thank you.

  • @tonycampbell1424
    @tonycampbell1424 6 лет назад

    Thank you.