Feels good seeing other peoples “depression mess”. I’ve been struggling to get my treatment resistant depression under control for years and it’s hard to keep my house (or myself) clean, and the guilt can get overwhelming. I can’t reliably hold a job because of brain fog so it’s hard to keep up with tasks. It’s hard to talk to people face to face because I just can’t focus on a conversation for long. It’s hard to care about a messy house because most of the time I “can’t” care about anything. Seriously thanks for sharing this, it’s easy to feel alone when you’re going through it and easy to forget that other people are having the same experience you are.
Hey, so sorry to hear about your struggles. But trust me, it always gets better. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs for the last 10 years and suffered with depression, generalized anxiety and social anxiety for most of it. At the height of my social anxiety I also struggled to hold a job, was back living at home, struggling financially, all of it. What helped was working from home. Do you live in CA or AZ? The answering service I worked for was the start of things getting monumentally better. I actually met my husband there and now we have a baby, so truly believe everything happens for a reason 🙏🏼 anyway, if I can help at all. I’d be happy to chat 🫶🏼
One of the many reasons why I love watching your vlogs SO MUCH! You are the REALEST of the REAL! So thankful you feel comfortable enough with us to share such important and real content! Sending lots of hugs your way! ♥ Jenny
and THIS is why we love you!! so raw, real, and inspirational! for someone that suffers severely with mental mental health, I’m also a hairstylist, which as you know, can be very mentally exhausting and some days you just wanna go home, lay straight in bed and watch Netflix and eat comfort food. Thank you for posting this video. I hope you understand how many people you help.💗
Honestly, I have been pretty depressed too. I got laid off in August and have not been able to find a job. I have applied countlessly and been getting a million rejections everyday. It has been soul sucking and there are times where I just feel like giving up. I'm at a point where I have to vacate my apartment and have to live with my parents for a couple months.
Sorry to hear that :( I was in the same position so I def understand. I hope this time living with your parents you’re able to rebuild, refocus and rebrand ! You got this! The year is still young 💕💕💕💕💕. You have purpose here !
I’m currently going through the same. I had to move from Florida to NY. It’s been so hard to find a job. So I’ve been in my word with God. He will help me, you, and anyone else to get through these tough times. So keep your faith first. It will get better 🙏🏽
Praying helped me alot to. This mamas house here on YT helped too. She puts things into perspective with her Bible verses not for everyone but figured I would put it out there
I’m so proud of you! I’m also struggling through this. The things that usually helps is talking/treating myself like a loved one. If someone you loved felt this way you would care ever so gently for them. And we should do the same, gentle words, gentle actions ♥️ proud of you always 😍😍😍😍
The “reasoning” with yourself is so real. I literally sat on my couch rotting last night fighting my brain to let me get in the shower & it never ended up happening. My internal monologue was like “cmon let’s start the process by shaving our legs outside of the shower, then taking the shower will be 10x more easier” nope, sat on the couch & stayed there until bed time. Same with trying to make dinner, I pulled out & defrosted everything in the morning & by dinner I was trying to convince myself to get up and cook it. I ended up having 2 microwaveable bao & a pack of goldfish instead of the salmon, rice, & veggies I intended on. You’re not alone Sam 🫶🏻
Hey this is relatable AF. You are not alone. When I have the shower issue, I sit down in the shower and for dinner, I buy smoked salmon so I don’t have to cook or bake it. Rice cookie is my bestie. I also got a hard boiled egg cooker for like $15 and it’s a great way to get quick protein in. If I’m super lazy in the shower after a long day of work, I do a quick scrub down of my armpits and lady bits. Face gets washed in the shower too so I don’t get the sink all dirty and water doesn’t get everywhere.
I love that you showed the mess at the beginning. I feel like it’s so normal for homes to get that way and that’s ok. So relatable. Winter/New Year depression is a real thing. Be soft on yourself ❤Thanks for sharing
Being almost 30 and still living at home has been eating me up inside . I’m mentally depressed and have been having a hard time . Even though this year I’m doing better with my fitness journey and something else . The part I struggle with right now is my patience and just wanting to move out and everything being so expensive . Thanks for being so open Sam. Appreciate the vulnerability. God be with you and bless you in this new year ❤❤❤❤
I know that feeling so well! Living with your family can be tough. Try to make the most of it and remind yourself that your parents won't be around forever, so at least you're able to spend a lot of time with them now. That helped me stay more patient while I was still living at home.
This video is very relatable. I’ve suffered from major depression for many years. There have been times when I had to stop working because I literally couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t shower, couldn’t brush my teeth, feeling like there was no hope. Btw I’m a hairstylist, so you can imagine having to be on your feet all day at work and engage with clients & coworkers is exhausting. It’s nice to see you’re being more vulnerable and relatable. People don’t like to talk about mental health because they want people to think that their life is all peachy and keen, when it’s not. Thank you for sharing
I'm sorry to hear that, but it's nice to have someone to relate to. Having any client-facing job can be tough, especially when you're not feeling your best mentally. :/
Hey girl! Thank you for sharing your struggles with all of us. I totally felt so much of what you shared. I found myself also struggling more than I have in the past years due to the holidays. I decided to restart therapy. Sending you lots of hugs and let you know a lot of us are right there with you fighting our way out it! ♥️♥️♥️
I appreciate your vulnerability, Sam! I have these episodes as well and it’s super hard to push through. You’re definitely not alone. Moving can be stressful but you’re getting closer to your love in date. Super exciting! 🩷
Sam you are amazing! Thank you for also sharing the reality of depression! I am on medication for it and it’s still a struggle. Thank you for being so honest!! ❤
Very relatable for everyone because its so normal to fall into a depression or a rutt a lull TGFB. Thank God For Benny's and dogs family and friends alike for the best hugs ever❤
I am glad you feel better! Action and exercise are the perfect solution to the Januaries...I think all the sugar we eat over the holidays cause a lot of our depressed days....You did a great job on cleaning--and so quickly!!! BTW love the lavender robe :)
Definitely can relate. I am going through a phase when I don't feel like doing anything, just laying in bed and always feeling very , very tired and no motivation for anything 😔😔😔😔 We just have to keep up and trying to do a little each day and don't forve ourselves. Best of luck 🤞🏻🤞🏻❤❤
Hi Sam. sorry to hear that you had a rough patch. I am glad that it is not a serious depression. I can see that most of the time your depression does not show and that is good. hope everything gets better for you and you are happier in your new apartment where you are closer to friends and places more. take care. see u next video.
I'm Bipolar & I understand. I hate life,but I get through it! I pray alot,& that helps me. I know u believe different, so I'm not going to tell u how to believe. I can't stand it when people try to push their beliefs on people, so I won't be doing that. Watch out for antidepressants though! I was on lithium and it ruined my thyroid, now I'm on thyroid medicine.
Hi Sam I’m so sorry you’ve been going through depression. Thank you for posting this video. Please don’t be embarrassed. We all go through depression.Also, I’ve been watching your videos since you lived in Pennsylvania and I think you’re awesome. I think you’re an awesome cosmetologist. I am a cosmetologist also so I can so much relate to all your videos. I just wanted to tell you I think you’re awesome. You are the only RUclips logger that I watch and I always look forward to your videos.❤
I remember almost 5 years ago there was a time where i didn’t brush my teeth for 2 weeks at a time. Now my shower habits just need to improve. People like to judge all of that and say they would never let it get that far but everyone is different and it legit can happen to anyone. Fully maintaining yourself as a person is a full time job. Last year for at least 6 months i was so insanely unmotivated to do anything like i legit couldn’t get my shit together and clean the house or do chores. The last 2 months all of that changed and i am so motivated, my sleep schedule has improved alot too which helps. Last week i was unmotivated again but the last few days i am getting better again. I also wanna say how proud i am of you for all the work you did while moving while still working your hairdressing job plus RUclips as well!! Don’t underestimate how much you do.
This is why you are so successful on RUclips. You are you, no BS. I wish I didn't identify so much with this lol, but do I ever!!! Thank you for making me not feel so alone.
Thank you so much for sharing. I have been feeling the same way as well lately. Going through some hard times and knowing that I’m getting worse but feeling like I can’t do anything about it yet. There’s a lot of things I can’t control and feel like I’m in limbo. I appreciate this a lot it helps people not feel alone.
I feel like we'd be best friends lol. I also have episodes where I can't even bring myself to shower or keep up with chores bc I've been depressed & feeling so low. I'm proud of you for getting yourself out of it & doing self care ❤ you're not alone!!
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing the reality of depression. This time of year is the hardest after the holidays where you just feel low and exposed. Even going to the post office to drop off returns felt like a big job today.
I'm not appreciating you to do videos like this but this is the sad reality , I would say . I do gone through the same feelings but different problems. but don't feel sad , your will power will handle it over time ,,, best regards !
Hey Sam, whenever you have these dramatic shifts try to find the root cause from the inside out; I.e., your diet and any new meds (including BC), and then explore external factors like social support and job satisfaction
This vlog really helped me to get out of my depressive episode. I needed some motivation. Thankyou for sharing and showing the reality that some of us go through. It helps to feel less alone. ❤
has it always been so? or did depression start at a certain point? i know it’s common to feel unwell around this time of year but did something happen?
I have been too but I think it’s the no sun and cold weather . I can relate to mental health with you though . Sometimes I just get tired and don’t even want to do the littlest things because it feels like such a big chore . Glad you’re doing better ❤
Sam, I've been watching for years and want to thank you for this realistic video. I'm a mom of 3 and recently found myself in a pit of depression. For the last few months it's been the worst ever. My husband's mom recently committed s-icide and it has really affected us. Not only that, but my husband's best friend did the same in 2021. The world is so hard and it's only natural for us to feel that. My home is slowly getting clean again but it's been tough. I've been on a journey following Christ now, and it's been lifting the weights of my shoulders. Have always struggled with faith so it's been a journey for sure. But I feel there is a light at the end of the tunnel now. Stay strong 💓
As a fellow hairstylist, Ive been feeling this way for a few weeks as well. I'm not sure exactly what you're feeling, but for me its been the slowest month I've ever had, and on top of that I just recently started my own business. Im also in PA so its dark and cold which definitely doesnt help. Things are going to get better for us! Just know you're not alone 💞
I can totally relate to that! I'm trying to rebuild my clientele in a new state, so I'm in a similar boat, and I'm all too familiar with the miserable PA winters lol. You're right though, things will get better! We just gotta hang in there. Good luck with the new business!!
Forgive me if it's already been mentioned, but I've been diagnosed with ADHD and I see a lot of my symptoms in your videos. Have you considered that that might be a possibility? It manifests as depression and anxiety and my place looks a lot like yours does when I'm down.
I dont know you in person but I watched this and I literally thought “I’m so proud of you” when you were cleaning- knowing that depression sucks. I also live alone and do hair and I’m 32. And I swear I have seen your videos and I wondered how does she manage? Because you’re so relatable in so many ways but you always seems to be so optimistic and productive and the way you speak is so calm and neutral even when you speak of your difficult clients you’re very careful with your words instead of being so negative. The point is thank you for sharing this and I love your content you inspire me(us)!
I appreciate this video so much. I struggle with depression after having my daughter and have had to take a social media and youtube break because seeing everyones "perfect homes" and "fun and perfect lives" makes me fall into a struggle period
You are not alone, these symptoms are extremely common. Do you ever think of getting professional help. I'm not sure your beliefs but just talking to God about my honest feelings and sadness has helped me tremendously. Praying for you sis, just know you're not alone you have at least 1 person you can trust and share with.
thank you for sharing Sam. You are not alone. it's been hitting me as well. just like you when i get up, i also feel my entire day is gone. the fact that it gets dark so early really F's me up. i have really good days and then really bad days, where i get nothing done. i hate the inconsistency. wishing you the BEST =]
I’ve been here! I hope you start feeling better in a good time for you. Whenever it feels right. And any momentum in the better direction is always so hard but rewarding when you get there. I’m there with ya ❤
thank you so much for being so transparent about it. i always struggle this time of year too i call it my seasonal depression. however as soon as the sun is out im buzzing with energy
I feel like the holidays are so overly happy that it seems natural that right after feels a little sad and bleak. I sort of dont love the holidays as much as im getting older and im leaning into fresh new January.
It's so true! And I think there's so much going on around the holidays, so by the end, you just kinda crash and burn. It makes complete sense to me, and I think is totally normal.
❤️ I love you for this, Sam, thank you. I have it too. I recommend the book How to Keep House while Drowning by KC Davis. Despite the title the book's really about depression. KC Davis also did a very compassionate and fascinating TED talk where she mentions struggles with personal hygiene. "You deserve to be clean."
I don't have depression anymore but I have when I was having a mental breakdown, and I could hardly get out of bed. I think you need to have a full blood panel, to also check for any vitamin deficiencies. Thank you for your transparency and openness to share your truth with us as your viewers.
Sam, thank you for always keeping it real. I’ve def been there and most recently was after my baby was born 4 months ago. Took a minute to get back to feeling myself but thankfully I got there with the help of my husband 🫶🏼 sending you all the love, Sam. Hang in there 🙏🏼
You have sooo much going on in your life, with work, all of your social media, being an amazing dog mom, moving, family ,relationships(personal/friend) cut yourself some slack...your Killin it❤
I've been in the same mindset lately. Even been going to therapy stuck in a slump not finding motivation to do any hobbies or tasks I once had pleasure in doing. It's even been a month since ive made a youtube video. My house gets so out of hand like this sometimes. This video inspired me to wake up early tomorrow and hopefully clean some things ive been putting off doing like laundry and dishes. Thank you for always being so relatable and sharing vulnerable moments like this with us.
I love you so much for this video! I watch your vlogs for comfort, but also motivation. I see how hard you work and it makes me want to do the same! But now I see that you also struggle like how I do… It makes me realize even the people who are put together- ALSO can go into the same depression stage as me! So really, thank you for this video. I know it was you being vulnerable but it was very appreciated 🥺🫶 I hope you’re doing better now!
Sending you lots of love and good vibe my dear ❤. This is why I appreciate makeup for what it is. Sometimes, just putting on a little makeup makes such a huge difference 🥰. I know when my sharkweek are the worst that I choose to doll up. No matter crappy I feel inside. At least I look presentable outside. 😂 I feel like my makeup is my armor, and I'm putting it on to get me pumped up and ready to battle. Know you are not alone. You go, girl! 🎉
Thank you for being so real and sharing this! I’m so proud of you! I use to struggle with depression A LOT and still do occasionally. Have you had your thyroid checked? I have Hashimoto’s and a lot of the way you are feeling is how I felt before I was diagnosed. Couldn’t hurt to look into it ♥️
Thank you :) I had slight thyroid issues when I first got off the birth control pill several years ago, but the last time I had it checked, everything was normal.
thank you for being genuine & real, always. i can 100% relate to this, i’ve been struggling for weeks & it gets so hard to “hide” it from everyone. sending love girl🤍
Same here babe I haven’t cleaned up in months 😢 I lost my children due to drug addiction am sober now and can’t get them back. I am on my antidepressants but still down and out. Love you Sam
Omg I'm so sorry to hear that :( I can't even begin to imagine how hard that must be. I'm sending you so much love and hoping for the best for you and your family
Omg girl thank you so much for this video! Right now my depression has been super bad too. I know you talk about yours all the time but it is nice to see that sometimes when yours gets bad like mine your house looks identical to mine. So much love and respect for putting yourself out there for the rest of us to know we aren’t alone. And if you have any hater going, send them my way. I will take care of them 😂. Looking forward to your new apartment!
Thank you so much for sharing… I don’t have friends and I go through this a lot in my life, weeks where I don’t go out much at all. I work home office, and I will not shower, will not clean… then one day I finally take care of myself. I always wondered if other people also go through this..
I've been watching Sam since I was 17 and now am 24. She is like an older sister in a lot of ways. It's definitely a comfort channel for me. Taught me a ton on how to do my own hair. On top of life advice.
Sam I really think being with your fam and man for the holidays was awesome for you but may be why you now feel sad. You are so brave for the big move you did away from those you love. Never give up! You got this!
This was me recently. Thank you for being so vulnerable because reading the comments I see there are SO many of us who deal with this. It’s so difficult, but being seen and heard makes these episodes easier to deal with
I hope you find strength in yourself (that you do) or anyone during your days that you meet to uplift you from tiredness, depression and burnout altogether. I myself am guilty of being a mess in my room (still am) we are just so tired of putting priorities ahead of us just to get where we are at which explains the mess.
Yes I know. All I want to do is lie on the couch when this happens to me. Taking a shower is the first step. We are all glad you are pulling yourself out because your one of the most honest youtubers out there.
You're not alone! I go through versions of what you're describing periodically - fewer and less severe now that I'm on meds. But the worst one I went through was in 2022 and the taking care of myself part was the first to go.
My therapist suggest going to a tanning bed a couple times a week during this time of year. And doing 5 mins at a time there's not much risk@@styledbysamvay
Girl you don’t even know how much I appreciate you posting this! As someone who also struggles with depression and anxiety I feel seen
truly agree. thank you for being vulnerable! i get bad anxiety and its not the same but its appreciated!! XO
Feels good seeing other peoples “depression mess”. I’ve been struggling to get my treatment resistant depression under control for years and it’s hard to keep my house (or myself) clean, and the guilt can get overwhelming. I can’t reliably hold a job because of brain fog so it’s hard to keep up with tasks. It’s hard to talk to people face to face because I just can’t focus on a conversation for long. It’s hard to care about a messy house because most of the time I “can’t” care about anything.
Seriously thanks for sharing this, it’s easy to feel alone when you’re going through it and easy to forget that other people are having the same experience you are.
So relatable!
Hey, so sorry to hear about your struggles. But trust me, it always gets better. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs for the last 10 years and suffered with depression, generalized anxiety and social anxiety for most of it. At the height of my social anxiety I also struggled to hold a job, was back living at home, struggling financially, all of it. What helped was working from home. Do you live in CA or AZ? The answering service I worked for was the start of things getting monumentally better. I actually met my husband there and now we have a baby, so truly believe everything happens for a reason 🙏🏼 anyway, if I can help at all. I’d be happy to chat 🫶🏼
One of the many reasons why I love watching your vlogs SO MUCH! You are the REALEST of the REAL! So thankful you feel comfortable enough with us to share such important and real content! Sending lots of hugs your way! ♥ Jenny
Thank you!!
and THIS is why we love you!! so raw, real, and inspirational! for someone that suffers severely with mental mental health, I’m also a hairstylist, which as you know, can be very mentally exhausting and some days you just wanna go home, lay straight in bed and watch Netflix and eat comfort food. Thank you for posting this video. I hope you understand how many people you help.💗
Thank you so much! It's true, it's a draining job, especially if you're already struggling with mental health.
Honestly, I have been pretty depressed too. I got laid off in August and have not been able to find a job. I have applied countlessly and been getting a million rejections everyday. It has been soul sucking and there are times where I just feel like giving up. I'm at a point where I have to vacate my apartment and have to live with my parents for a couple months.
Sorry to hear that :( I was in the same position so I def understand. I hope this time living with your parents you’re able to rebuild, refocus and rebrand ! You got this! The year is still young 💕💕💕💕💕. You have purpose here !
I’m currently going through the same. I had to move from Florida to NY. It’s been so hard to find a job. So I’ve been in my word with God. He will help me, you, and anyone else to get through these tough times. So keep your faith first. It will get better 🙏🏽
@@CorneliaS0308 amen!
Praying helped me alot to. This mamas house here on YT helped too. She puts things into perspective with her Bible verses not for everyone but figured I would put it out there
This mamas faith **** on RUclips
I’m so proud of you! I’m also struggling through this. The things that usually helps is talking/treating myself like a loved one. If someone you loved felt this way you would care ever so gently for them. And we should do the same, gentle words, gentle actions ♥️ proud of you always 😍😍😍😍
I love that!! Thank you :)
The “reasoning” with yourself is so real. I literally sat on my couch rotting last night fighting my brain to let me get in the shower & it never ended up happening. My internal monologue was like “cmon let’s start the process by shaving our legs outside of the shower, then taking the shower will be 10x more easier” nope, sat on the couch & stayed there until bed time. Same with trying to make dinner, I pulled out & defrosted everything in the morning & by dinner I was trying to convince myself to get up and cook it. I ended up having 2 microwaveable bao & a pack of goldfish instead of the salmon, rice, & veggies I intended on. You’re not alone Sam 🫶🏻
Hey this is relatable AF. You are not alone. When I have the shower issue, I sit down in the shower and for dinner, I buy smoked salmon so I don’t have to cook or bake it. Rice cookie is my bestie. I also got a hard boiled egg cooker for like $15 and it’s a great way to get quick protein in. If I’m super lazy in the shower after a long day of work, I do a quick scrub down of my armpits and lady bits. Face gets washed in the shower too so I don’t get the sink all dirty and water doesn’t get everywhere.
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Honestly, I love that. Finding solutions to make the hard times easier without the guilt!
I love that you showed the mess at the beginning. I feel like it’s so normal for homes to get that way and that’s ok. So relatable. Winter/New Year depression is a real thing. Be soft on yourself ❤Thanks for sharing
So true. Thank you!
Thank you for being so transparent, I can definitely relate to every part of this. ❤
Being almost 30 and still living at home has been eating me up inside . I’m mentally depressed and have been having a hard time . Even though this year I’m doing better with my fitness journey and something else . The part I struggle with right now is my patience and just wanting to move out and everything being so expensive . Thanks for being so open Sam. Appreciate the vulnerability. God be with you and bless you in this new year ❤❤❤❤
I know that feeling so well! Living with your family can be tough. Try to make the most of it and remind yourself that your parents won't be around forever, so at least you're able to spend a lot of time with them now. That helped me stay more patient while I was still living at home.
Thank you for always being real with us💕
Everything you said hit home with me. Getting in the shower is sometimes so hard. I hope you feel better soon❤❤❤
Thank you
This video is very relatable. I’ve suffered from major depression for many years. There have been times when I had to stop working because I literally couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t shower, couldn’t brush my teeth, feeling like there was no hope. Btw I’m a hairstylist, so you can imagine having to be on your feet all day at work and engage with clients & coworkers is exhausting.
It’s nice to see you’re being more vulnerable and relatable. People don’t like to talk about mental health because they want people to think that their life is all peachy and keen, when it’s not.
Thank you for sharing
I'm sorry to hear that, but it's nice to have someone to relate to. Having any client-facing job can be tough, especially when you're not feeling your best mentally. :/
Hey girl! Thank you for sharing your struggles with all of us. I totally felt so much of what you shared. I found myself also struggling more than I have in the past years due to the holidays. I decided to restart therapy. Sending you lots of hugs and let you know a lot of us are right there with you fighting our way out it! ♥️♥️♥️
Thank you! I'm sorry to hear you were experiencing something similar, but I hope you're starting to feel better! This can be a rough time of year.
BEEN THERE SISTER GIRL! It gets better. Always appreciative of your authenticity ❤
Yes! Thank you!
I appreciate your vulnerability, Sam! I have these episodes as well and it’s super hard to push through. You’re definitely not alone. Moving can be stressful but you’re getting closer to your love in date. Super exciting! 🩷
Yesss! That's definitely giving me the motivation to start fresh :)
Sam you are amazing! Thank you for also sharing the reality of depression! I am on medication for it and it’s still a struggle. Thank you for being so honest!! ❤
Girl, I’m in the same boat. I have a STACK of returns to do too after my depression shopping 😭
This is why you're one of the only youtubers I watch. Thank you for sharing Sam ❤ So relatable and much needed!
Very relatable for everyone because its so normal to fall into a depression or a rutt a lull TGFB. Thank God For Benny's and dogs family and friends alike for the best hugs ever❤
I love your content exactly for the fact that you are REAL and don’t sugarcoat things ✨
I am glad you feel better! Action and exercise are the perfect solution to the Januaries...I think all the sugar we eat over the holidays cause a lot of our depressed days....You did a great job on cleaning--and so quickly!!! BTW love the lavender robe :)
Definitely can relate. I am going through a phase when I don't feel like doing anything, just laying in bed and always feeling very , very tired and no motivation for anything 😔😔😔😔 We just have to keep up and trying to do a little each day and don't forve ourselves. Best of luck 🤞🏻🤞🏻❤❤
Thank you. Taking it one day at a time!
Hi Sam. sorry to hear that you had a rough patch. I am glad that it is not a serious depression.
I can see that most of the time your depression does not show and that is good. hope everything gets better for you and you are
happier in your new apartment where you are closer to friends and places more. take care. see u next video.
Thank you so much
I'm Bipolar & I understand. I hate life,but I get through it! I pray alot,& that helps me. I know u believe different, so I'm not going to tell u how to believe. I can't stand it when people try to push their beliefs on people, so I won't be doing that. Watch out for antidepressants though! I was on lithium and it ruined my thyroid, now I'm on thyroid medicine.
Hi Sam I’m so sorry you’ve been going through depression. Thank you for posting this video. Please don’t be embarrassed. We all go through depression.Also, I’ve been watching your videos since you lived in Pennsylvania and I think you’re awesome. I think you’re an awesome cosmetologist. I am a cosmetologist also so I can so much relate to all your videos. I just wanted to tell you I think you’re awesome. You are the only RUclips logger that I watch and I always look forward to your videos.❤
That's so nice to hear :) Thank you!
I remember almost 5 years ago there was a time where i didn’t brush my teeth for 2 weeks at a time. Now my shower habits just need to improve. People like to judge all of that and say they would never let it get that far but everyone is different and it legit can happen to anyone. Fully maintaining yourself as a person is a full time job. Last year for at least 6 months i was so insanely unmotivated to do anything like i legit couldn’t get my shit together and clean the house or do chores. The last 2 months all of that changed and i am so motivated, my sleep schedule has improved alot too which helps. Last week i was unmotivated again but the last few days i am getting better again. I also wanna say how proud i am of you for all the work you did while moving while still working your hairdressing job plus RUclips as well!! Don’t underestimate how much you do.
It can be a rollercoaster, for sure. I'm so glad you're feeling better right now.
This is why you are so successful on RUclips. You are you, no BS. I wish I didn't identify so much with this lol, but do I ever!!! Thank you for making me not feel so alone.
I appreciate you!
Thank you so much for sharing. I have been feeling the same way as well lately. Going through some hard times and knowing that I’m getting worse but feeling like I can’t do anything about it yet. There’s a lot of things I can’t control and feel like I’m in limbo. I appreciate this a lot it helps people not feel alone.
I'm sorry to hear that, but I hope you start to feel better soon.
I feel like we'd be best friends lol. I also have episodes where I can't even bring myself to shower or keep up with chores bc I've been depressed & feeling so low. I'm proud of you for getting yourself out of it & doing self care ❤ you're not alone!!
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing the reality of depression. This time of year is the hardest after the holidays where you just feel low and exposed. Even going to the post office to drop off returns felt like a big job today.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability! Seasonal depression is REAL!
I feel you 1000%! I also struggle with depression and have had similar episodes many times. Lots of love to you! 🤍
Wow I give you so much credit for this. This is my exact struggle, your videos are SO HEALING and motivating to me. Thank you ❤
I'm not appreciating you to do videos like this but this is the sad reality , I would say . I do gone through the same feelings but different problems. but don't feel sad , your will power will handle it over time ,,, best regards !
Thank you so much. Within the first 2 minutes I was crying. I needed this video today. Than you Sam.
Hey Sam, whenever you have these dramatic shifts try to find the root cause from the inside out; I.e., your diet and any new meds (including BC), and then explore external factors like social support and job satisfaction
Thank you, Sam. This is exactly what I didn’t know I needed right now.
I just made a TikTok talking about my anxiety too ❤ we got this girl,
This vlog really helped me to get out of my depressive episode. I needed some motivation. Thankyou for sharing and showing the reality that some of us go through. It helps to feel less alone. ❤
I wish more people would be real like you have been…we are all out here just trying to live life…the good the bad and the ugly! Great video!
has it always been so? or did depression start at a certain point? i know it’s common to feel unwell around this time of year but did something happen?
Thank you for your vulnerability, Sam!
Theres no better feeling than getting your whole house clean and then sitting down to relax and enjoy it.
Thank you for showing the ebbs and flows, highs and lows…
Glad you feeling better Sam 💕
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I know winter depression is awful.
I have been too but I think it’s the no sun and cold weather . I can relate to mental health with you though . Sometimes I just get tired and don’t even want to do the littlest things because it feels like such a big chore . Glad you’re doing better ❤
Thank you! Yeah, the winter months can be hard :/
I have depression and aniexty
Literally me. Love how real you are! ❤
Sam, I've been watching for years and want to thank you for this realistic video. I'm a mom of 3 and recently found myself in a pit of depression. For the last few months it's been the worst ever. My husband's mom recently committed s-icide and it has really affected us. Not only that, but my husband's best friend did the same in 2021. The world is so hard and it's only natural for us to feel that. My home is slowly getting clean again but it's been tough.
I've been on a journey following Christ now, and it's been lifting the weights of my shoulders. Have always struggled with faith so it's been a journey for sure. But I feel there is a light at the end of the tunnel now. Stay strong 💓
I'm so sorry to hear about everything you've dealt with recently. That's heavy stuff :( Sending you so much love!
As a fellow hairstylist, Ive been feeling this way for a few weeks as well. I'm not sure exactly what you're feeling, but for me its been the slowest month I've ever had, and on top of that I just recently started my own business. Im also in PA so its dark and cold which definitely doesnt help. Things are going to get better for us! Just know you're not alone 💞
I can totally relate to that! I'm trying to rebuild my clientele in a new state, so I'm in a similar boat, and I'm all too familiar with the miserable PA winters lol. You're right though, things will get better! We just gotta hang in there. Good luck with the new business!!
Forgive me if it's already been mentioned, but I've been diagnosed with ADHD and I see a lot of my symptoms in your videos. Have you considered that that might be a possibility? It manifests as depression and anxiety and my place looks a lot like yours does when I'm down.
Could be! Other people have suggested that before and I feel like I can definitely relate to some of the symptoms.
I dont know you in person but I watched this and I literally thought “I’m so proud of you” when you were cleaning- knowing that depression sucks. I also live alone and do hair and I’m 32. And I swear I have seen your videos and I wondered how does she manage? Because you’re so relatable in so many ways but you always seems to be so optimistic and productive and the way you speak is so calm and neutral even when you speak of your difficult clients you’re very careful with your words instead of being so negative.
The point is thank you for sharing this and I love your content you inspire me(us)!
Wow, thank you so much! I don't see myself that way at all lol, so it's really nice to hear that. :)
I appreciate this video so much. I struggle with depression after having my daughter and have had to take a social media and youtube break because seeing everyones "perfect homes" and "fun and perfect lives" makes me fall into a struggle period
So understandable. That's why I feel like we need some more realness on social media!
You are not alone, these symptoms are extremely common. Do you ever think of getting professional help. I'm not sure your beliefs but just talking to God about my honest feelings and sadness has helped me tremendously. Praying for you sis, just know you're not alone you have at least 1 person you can trust and share with.
Thank you!
thank you for sharing Sam. You are not alone. it's been hitting me as well. just like you when i get up, i also feel my entire day is gone. the fact that it gets dark so early really F's me up. i have really good days and then really bad days, where i get nothing done. i hate the inconsistency. wishing you the BEST =]
Thank you! Wishing you the best as well!!
God bless you Sam ❤ thank you for being honest, depression can hit so many of us, thank you for sharing, and I hope you feel better.
Thank you!
As a future psychologist, I’m sending so much love and many hugs. ❤
Thank you :)
I’ve been here! I hope you start feeling better in a good time for you. Whenever it feels right. And any momentum in the better direction is always so hard but rewarding when you get there. I’m there with ya ❤
Thank you!!
Yay Sam! Get out of that funk!
thank you so much for being so transparent about it. i always struggle this time of year too i call it my seasonal depression. however as soon as the sun is out im buzzing with energy
Same! I think that's very common and makes sense.
I feel like the holidays are so overly happy that it seems natural that right after feels a little sad and bleak. I sort of dont love the holidays as much as im getting older and im leaning into fresh new January.
It's so true! And I think there's so much going on around the holidays, so by the end, you just kinda crash and burn. It makes complete sense to me, and I think is totally normal.
My husband passed away in November and I don’t want to get out of bed let alone shower or clean. I feel you, Sam. Sending love.
I'm so sorry! :( I can't even imagine what that's like. Sending you so much love too!
love you Sam. Sending you encouragement at this time ❤
Thank you so much
Keep your head up, girly 🩷 we’re all rooting for you
Thank you
Im very glad that you are okay ❤ you are the most kindest person i know ❤
So sweet. Thank you :)
Your going to be so much happier in your new place so happy for you congratulations 🎊 again. 😊
I think so too! Thank you :)
Sam you are ALWAYS relatable . happy .. sad.. whatever ! xo 💚💚🌸Thanks for always being real
❤️ I love you for this, Sam, thank you. I have it too. I recommend the book How to Keep House while Drowning by KC Davis. Despite the title the book's really about depression. KC Davis also did a very compassionate and fascinating TED talk where she mentions struggles with personal hygiene. "You deserve to be clean."
I don't have depression anymore but I have when I was having a mental breakdown, and I could hardly get out of bed. I think you need to have a full blood panel, to also check for any vitamin deficiencies. Thank you for your transparency and openness to share your truth with us as your viewers.
Sam, thank you for always keeping it real. I’ve def been there and most recently was after my baby was born 4 months ago. Took a minute to get back to feeling myself but thankfully I got there with the help of my husband 🫶🏼 sending you all the love, Sam. Hang in there 🙏🏼
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Omg yesss Sam's moving blogs are the greatest❤
Sending you love ❤❤❤❤
Thank you!
I’m gonna try that Nivea trick.
Thank you for sharing, you are not alone!
Love you
Understand and empathize with you
Been there before...many times
And you're seen and making us feel seen ❤
Thank you
You have sooo much going on in your life, with work, all of your social media, being an amazing dog mom, moving, family ,relationships(personal/friend) cut yourself some slack...your Killin it❤
Thank you :)
I've been in the same mindset lately. Even been going to therapy stuck in a slump not finding motivation to do any hobbies or tasks I once had pleasure in doing. It's even been a month since ive made a youtube video. My house gets so out of hand like this sometimes. This video inspired me to wake up early tomorrow and hopefully clean some things ive been putting off doing like laundry and dishes. Thank you for always being so relatable and sharing vulnerable moments like this with us.
Good luck! I hope you start feeling like yourself again soon :)
I love you so much for this video! I watch your vlogs for comfort, but also motivation. I see how hard you work and it makes me want to do the same! But now I see that you also struggle like how I do… It makes me realize even the people who are put together- ALSO can go into the same depression stage as me!
So really, thank you for this video. I know it was you being vulnerable but it was very appreciated 🥺🫶 I hope you’re doing better now!
Thank you :)
Thank you for this video ❤
you dont know me but it feels like were Best friends lol thank you so much for being REAL!!!!!
Aw, thank you :)
Sending you lots of love and good vibe my dear ❤. This is why I appreciate makeup for what it is. Sometimes, just putting on a little makeup makes such a huge difference 🥰. I know when my sharkweek are the worst that I choose to doll up. No matter crappy I feel inside. At least I look presentable outside. 😂 I feel like my makeup is my armor, and I'm putting it on to get me pumped up and ready to battle. Know you are not alone. You go, girl! 🎉
It's so true! It can make such a huge difference. Thank you :)
Thank you for being so real and sharing this! I’m so proud of you! I use to struggle with depression A LOT and still do occasionally. Have you had your thyroid checked? I have Hashimoto’s and a lot of the way you are feeling is how I felt before I was diagnosed. Couldn’t hurt to look into it ♥️
Thank you :) I had slight thyroid issues when I first got off the birth control pill several years ago, but the last time I had it checked, everything was normal.
thank you for being genuine & real, always. i can 100% relate to this, i’ve been struggling for weeks & it gets so hard to “hide” it from everyone. sending love girl🤍
Sending you so much love!
The struggle is so real. Thank you for sharing. ❤
Thank you for posting this. I've been in a similar episode the last little while, this week has been anxiety driven. Love your videos.
Thank you! Sorry to hear that :/ I hope your week starts to get better soon!
Same here babe I haven’t cleaned up in months 😢 I lost my children due to drug addiction am sober now and can’t get them back. I am on my antidepressants but still down and out. Love you Sam
Omg I'm so sorry to hear that :( I can't even begin to imagine how hard that must be. I'm sending you so much love and hoping for the best for you and your family
Omg girl thank you so much for this video! Right now my depression has been super bad too. I know you talk about yours all the time but it is nice to see that sometimes when yours gets bad like mine your house looks identical to mine. So much love and respect for putting yourself out there for the rest of us to know we aren’t alone. And if you have any hater going, send them my way. I will take care of them 😂. Looking forward to your new apartment!
Thank you :)
Thank you so much for sharing… I don’t have friends and I go through this a lot in my life, weeks where I don’t go out much at all. I work home office, and I will not shower, will not clean… then one day I finally take care of myself. I always wondered if other people also go through this..
Totally normal! I think a lot more people experience this than we realize, but it can feel very isolating in the moment.
I've been watching Sam since I was 17 and now am 24. She is like an older sister in a lot of ways. It's definitely a comfort channel for me. Taught me a ton on how to do my own hair. On top of life advice.
Aw, I love that. Thank you :)
Sam I really think being with your fam and man for the holidays was awesome for you but may be why you now feel sad. You are so brave for the big move you did away from those you love. Never give up! You got this!
Thank you!
This was me recently. Thank you for being so vulnerable because reading the comments I see there are SO many of us who deal with this. It’s so difficult, but being seen and heard makes these episodes easier to deal with
Yes, it's nice to know others can relate and we're not alone!
I appreciate you and what you are doing- remember you are not alone so keep your head up beautiful!! I feel your pain and understand the struggle!!
Thank you so much!
I hope you find strength in yourself (that you do) or anyone during your days that you meet to uplift you from tiredness, depression and burnout altogether. I myself am guilty of being a mess in my room (still am) we are just so tired of putting priorities ahead of us just to get where we are at which explains the mess.
Very true. Thank you.
Yes I know. All I want to do is lie on the couch when this happens to me. Taking a shower is the first step. We are all glad you are pulling yourself out because your one of the most honest youtubers out there.
I appreciate that. Thank you!
You're not alone! I go through versions of what you're describing periodically - fewer and less severe now that I'm on meds. But the worst one I went through was in 2022 and the taking care of myself part was the first to go.
It can be tough :( The cold weather doesn't seem to help either.
My therapist suggest going to a tanning bed a couple times a week during this time of year. And doing 5 mins at a time there's not much risk@@styledbysamvay
I've been feeling the same way, it feels like a cycle but i think doing at least one thing you're proud of can you get going
Yes, I agree! Taking it one task at a time and one day at a time