its ok we all make mistakes. I have been battling GAD with OCD and I get it. like 5000% get it. Im so sorry you have to deal with this too but i love that you see this channel as a motivation. Ive been watching for over a year and love the content, no matter what it is. you are you and thats what we love- watching the honest you
I’ve had Aspergers, anxiety, and social anxiety since I was eight years old (adult now). I’ve also had depression for seven years (it comes and goes now, thank You Jesus for progress). I had bulimia for two years, two years ago. It’s by the grace of God that I’ve gotten better because tbh, I would not be here if it wasn’t for Him. I thank the Lord for you Kayli, honestly. Every time I see a video of you uploaded on RUclips, it genuinely makes me smile and feel happy. Take your time and put God first in your life. Once He’s first in your life, everything else comes together. Honestly. 💕 💜 💕 *John chapter 14* is one of my favorite pieces of Scripture that I love to go to. Jesus is talking to His disciples (and us as well) during the Passover, right before He gets betrayed, arrested, beaten, bruised, mocked, whipped, spat on, and hung on the cross of Calvary for our sins, about Him going to the Father (God) in Heaven. Jesus tells us to not be afraid, that by His grace, we have peace because God’s Holy Spirit dwells within us to discern, learn, have knowledge, peace, contentment, and etc. while we’re still here on this earth (our temporary “home,” real home is in Heaven). Jesus is “the way and the truth and the life” (verse six). Without Him, there’s no way ANYONE can get through not just this life, but what happens after we pass way without Him. Jesus was raised to life from the dead so that we can have reconciliation (returned friendship) with God again. That what God has always wanted with us, a relationship with Him through Jesus Christ His begotten Son. Seeking First God’s righteousness (Matthew 6:33) by praying (talking, having a conversation) to God in Jesus’ name and personally, voluntarily involving Him in every aspect of our lives (He already knows everything we’re going through, He just wants us to talk to Him directly about it (just like you would a friend or family member, but with God, He won’t condemn nor shame you). Unfortunately, a lot of people assume that God doesn’t care for us. If He did, why does He let bad things happen right? God gave human beings free-will. With that freedom, we have the option of doling right or wrong, and majority of the time, humans choose wrong. God also gave us free-will so that we can make the personal decision to choose Him instead of the things of this world that’s here one moment, gone the next. The Almighty God loves you Kayli so much that He sent His Son to die on the cross for your sins, my sins, and all the sins of the world. However, He didn’t just die, he rose from the dead on the third day defeating both sin and death. At the end of the day, I do t have to be typing all of this. On the contrary, I believe God is using me as a vessel to let you know Kayli, that you have to surrender all of your worries, cares, and anxieties to Him. It’s not going to be easy. You might have to do it multiple times a day (because while we’re on this earth in these mortal bodies, we don’t have the full self-control, on our own doing, to not give into our emotions). That why, instead of trying to do things on our own, we have to LEAN ON JESUS for strength, for help, for unfailing love that He pours out on all His children. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight,” (Christian Standard Bible). Lean on Jesus Kayli. He has His hands reaching out to you. Hold on to Him and don’t let Him go because God won’t let you go. “. . . He will never leave you, or forsake you,” (Deuteronomy 31:6 ESV). The Lord loves you Kayli, do you love Him? I’m leaving a link to my favorite Christian lofi hip/hop music compilation just cause: ruclips.net/video/OIE7rIxwGnA/видео.html
i’m doing my school exams rn, it’s so difficult for me to even walk into the school, i just start to feel so closed off from everything but at the same time so exposed and vulnerable. you talking about your anxiety in videos is so helpful, i feel safe and normal. thank you :)
i’m sorry you’ve had a tough couple weeks lately , mental health sucks sometimes and i relate to this so much. i had the same exact thing with meds happen to me. i felt “numb” as you described it. things didn’t feel the same and i felt like shit and just worthless almost. And you are not alone as you probably know!!! also restaurants are also such a weird trigger for me 🙏 i just hate eating around people and loud environments are so overwhelming for me. anyways ty for everything you do, you’re really such an inspiration for young people going through this. you got this
I did lexapro for the first time ever on meds etc, and felt the same. I had two grandparents pass away and felt NOTHING. Tell your doctor. I was open and honest and they did change my prescription. They changed to Prozac. It HAS helped my anxiety and ambition. You’re doing the best you can. Sometimes all you can do is shower or move from the bed to the couch. That’s alright. 🥰🖤 baby steps hun
i’ve never related to something more. so sorry you’ve been feeling this way lately, i know exactly how it feels and it sucks so much to have all these things you want to do but also feel like you just can’t. thanks for posting stuff like this, it was honestly inspiring to hear you say you were feeling a lot better at the end of the week. hope it keeps going up from here!💖💖
It makes so much sense. I was literally diagnosed with depression and anxiety this week and yes before I didn’t know exactly what was wrong but now looking back my anxiety was often triggered and I didn’t/still don’t know how to cope with that so it depressed me and in those days they get really tough and dark and that’s where I am now. I appreciate you doing these videos it’s actually one of the reasons I sought out help.
when I tell you I love this video so much, obviously not happy you’re feeling this way or anyone else idk it’s like I feel you guys are such genuine people so I’m wishing nothing but the best for you guys. It’s the little things in life when people just share that it’s okay to not be okay and to pick up and continue life even when it’s hard, ugh omg words cannot express the comfort I feel ugh love you all.
My anxiety is largely due to emetophobia also! Sorry I’m so late to this video but it always makes me feel warm and fuzzy when I find someone that makes me feel less alone. I’m 30 and it’s gotten much better in the last couple of years. The right meds and therapy make a world of difference.
when i hear people going through the exact same things i go through, it makes me feel so... normal. in the best way. i hope everything works out for you soon, i'm right here with you in this boat.
Medication is always extremely hard to adapt to! When I first started my antidepressants I was all over the place, and felt so numb. I was also on acne meds that made me nauseous 24/7 :( but you’re doing so good, and you have such good self motivation. It’s so hard to get out of a funk, but you’re so real about it ❤️
i admire you so much Kayli, you’re so strong and I will always love how real you are 💗 thx for having the courage to show how real-life issues affect us
i just found your account on tiktok recently and i love how much you’ve taught me abt haircare!! but i also love how real you are. it’s seriously so refreshing to see a youtuber posting their content but still being so open and real at the same time. Thank u sm i love you and I hope you have a great 2023
I have anxiety stemming from emetophobia too. I got put on lexapro and I am feeling the exact same way with my boyfriend even though I know I love him very much and it scares me but I’m scared to get off of them. I haven’t had a panic attack in about a year but I have been having trouble still with restaurants and shopping and things I used to be able to do. You are very much not alone! I hope you find something that works for you and you start to feel better 💕
thanks for posting this kayli :) you’ve inspired me to start my channel and start posting videos and i love that you’re so open about your struggles. you’re helping so many people
I'm living the same thing right now!!! Literally totally understand you and wish you all the best, this makes me feel so much better because I feel less alone thank you
as someone who is also on medication (i take buspirone) it definitely can be an up and down experience! thank you for being willing to share your personal experiences w mental health
i’m glad people like you post this stuff on the internet because as a teenager with anxiety i don’t know what to do about it but you definitely let me know i’m not alone
Love you hun. Humans are strange beings. We all need some help sometimes. Always pause and take a second when you need. Speak to that voice in your head and talk yourself through things. Be forgiving, especially to yourself. Hope all is better a little bit for you. 💖 I feel like this a lot sometimes. Sometimes I confuse myself cause I’m like yes let’s go out!!! Then when I get out I have anxiety the whole time because of the 1283 things I’m thinking could go wrong. I’m 22 and dont drive because I just feel like I’m jumping of a cliff. I go to work and come home and don’t really talk to anyone but my boyfriend, and I wish I had the friends I use to but at the same time it’s soooo much for me to handle. It’s hard for me to handle myself. I feel like I’d be a flaky mess that’s a negative Nancy to people when it’s really just my anxiety. So in my head I’m automatically a bad friend/ I don’t care/ I’m selfish. I don’t know. I started tearing up during your intro cause resonate with that so much. I have the want, but I don’t have the want. Thank you for sharing this, I feel a lot less alone with how I feel. I distance myself from everyone and everything for no reason but my own thoughts. Appreciate you✨ I keep editing this, but never feel like you have to share a ton girlie, even a little can really help even one person. Your boyfriend was funny when he was filming for you💗 I’m glad you have him when in need of comfort. Always reach out to your support system. People LOVE you. People want the BEST for you. Always. Always always.
I really really felt when you said “I wanna go out but I dont have the want”. By nature I’m pretty extraverted, but at the same time when exams come my anxiety just hits the roof… and I feel the same way. I wanna meet my friends, I wanna spend time with my bf, and I wanna practice my hobbies but… I can feel that something’s just not right. In my case it’s linked to the fact that I mostly cover up the signs of anxiety, but when I reach a point I just feel like I could cry anytime or anywhere 😅 and that’s kind of the source of my fear (especially bc I’m a psych student, and some people in my family think that crying is a sign for being weak) I think you worded it perfectly, thank you for talking about it 🖤 Love your videos, whishing you the best!
I understand the feelings come and go, there is no control over it. Other people can't help people like us to get out of the funk. I wish it were that easy. I've been having the same issues for years, I quit therapy because of money. I quit medication because it made me feel like the walking dead. So, just know you're not alone. Alot of us have this.
Kayli, I totally understand what you are going through. I also have a panic disorder and crippling anxiety to the point where I used to not even be able to go to the store without passing out. About a year ago I went on anxiety meds and at first it was really hard and I was dealing with a lot of side affects but I am so glad I stuck it out. Having anxiety makes even the simplest of tasks feel like the end of the world but now I feel like I can actually live like a normal person. I really hope you start to feel better and take the time you need for yourself. Love u!!
When I was on SSRIs I felt EXACTLY the way you were describing with numbness and not lovey in my relationship about 1 year into taking it, I changed my medicine and I’m feeling much better now. Good luck on your journey 💕
you are amazing and your energy is umatched. thank you for sharing these personal moments with us and I hope you know how important you are and that you're doing great♥
0:49 Kayli you have no idea how happy I was to hear that. I've had anxiety and emetophobia my whole life as well. I'm so proud of you. You are strong and amazing. This gives me motivation to pick up my act (I've been struggling a lot recently) and take care of myself. God bless you.
I am so sorry you’re going through that, myself and both of my children have gone through that for years I hope you feel better you are such a sweetheart.
I'm so happy you are open and share this stuff on your channel. it's normal and human to go through ups and downs, and I think a lot of people here would say you can always be open with your subscribers. We love you and are wishing you nothing but the best ❤
kayli, i'll say this over and over again, but THANK YOU for just being you!!! i cannot tell you how much i appreciate you being so transparent with us and the things that you are going through. of course we never want you to feel like you have to, but when you do, i myself and i'm sure sooo many others appreciate it and it makes us not feel alone in these battles that seem like they'll never end. I've been watching RUclips since I was 10 and am now 21 and it's so fresh seeing creators like you have a platform. i'm sorry you're going through such a rough patch and they truly are confusing. being in a funk is so confusing and really frustrating a lot of the time. but you'll get through this. we love you so much kayli, feel better soon! 🤍💚
Bruh… the way I relate to you is insane. Thank you for sharing with us. I’ve just watched all your vids discussing your experiences with depressives ruts and stuff. In one now and this is so helpful, I’m legit making a list of your tips and just things I know I need to work on to help care for myself atm. ❤ TY Kayli
You are so strong, you brighten my day everytime I watch your videos. You are my favorite youtube, I pretty much only watch youtube for your videos. Even though you are going through hard time you radiate such a genuine sweet persona. Keep going and stay strong❤️
Before you even started crying I was tearing up because I feel you. Our early 20's are such a hard time, our bodies are changing, we are learning new things about the world, our idea of how things should be, and our expectations just get shattered and we have to adapt to this new life. Panic attacks SUCK. I am grateful I haven't had one since my mid-twenties. I think the surrealness of everything about life kind of hits us like a ton of bricks. Okay, back to the video.. It was good to see that you are feeling a little better. You are such a sweetheart and all of us KayBee's love you so so much! I am happy you have your dream job and every time you go through these hardships you learn new ways to help yourself deal with the fear and anxiety I AM SO proud of you! Also, I really enjoyed the week vlog a ton! Please give yourself a huge hug and get Tyler to give you a big hug from all of us! You 2 are SOOO cute btw! Love seeing you 2 together living life. Also, you inspired me. I think I am going to try meditation this morning before door dashing.
I recently found your videos and I’ve been enjoying them lots, but this helped me realized I’m not so alone. I too suffer from anxiety and panic attacks which are after caused by emetophobia. I’ve always had people look at me weird when I say that but it’s empowering to hear other stories similar to mine and know that I am not alone. It makes it so hard to go out and do things.
I love you kayli , this video really helped me understand life behind the cameras, I have panic disorder as well, I understand exactly what you mean. Stay strong girl, you’re amazing. ❤
I'm so happy to hear this from you cause I relate so much. I've been on 3 different meds this year and they've all made me sick which just makes my mood so much worse. Finding the right medicine is so freaking hard. ily Kayli thanks for sharing
I relate to you so much, like I’m fine for months then I just do thing that would make me go back into a hole on purpose for no reason. Your the first person to understand that. This is why I love your videos
I was on Zoloft for a few months. The only thing I noticed was the negative affects, too. It was so hard because you hope and want it to work because psych meds can be terrifying. But the decreased libido part can really take a toll on your relationship. Just wanted to let you know that healing isn’t linear, it’s a constant up and down cycle. Just remember, that the person you were this time last year would be SO PROUD of you because hey, you made it through. I know it’s hard to see it this way but every day is a new day that you woke up and opened your eyes, and that’s a gift. Love ya, gf. You have a whole army behind you ❤️
Thank you so so much for making this video kayli ❤️ Your day to day looks much like mine at the moment and watching this video makes me feel like we’re not doing this alone - so many of us out there building ourselves back up. And we’ll be there soon! Sending love ❤️❤️❤️
I relate to a lot of what you said, the medication, the side effects, the WANT to do things but not being able to move out of bed, just started getting my acne back too. Diagnosed with anxiety & depression but seemingly “high functioning”. no one realizes how much goes into doing the smallest task, you are fighting with yourself mentally to the point of exhaustion. It’s so frustrating bc it just comes off as being lazy when you are actually trying so hard.
I’m really sorry about what you’re going through. I’m 38 and I’ve had depression/anxiety my entire adult life. I have never been able to control either until recently I finally got on a regimen of meds(hated to be on any meds whatsoever) after agreeing to finally do so. It’s well worth it. I’ve been able to finally get things done whereas before I I wanted to sleep all day and all night hated to be around anyone and didn’t even want to be with my husband in the bed. Now I can wake up early 7 days a week and it feels great! I’m happy as ever. Don’t be afraid. Don’t stop doing the extra things to help yourself. Meds will never do it alone. Sometimes the meds stop working or just don’t work well with you. It’s definitely trial and error. Try new regimens. Talk to your doctor. There is always a light at the end babygirl. Never ever give up. It will get better!🤘🏼💕💋🌸
I FEEL YOU GIRL! I started having anxiety and panic in 7th grade and didn't know what it was. It got so bad my junior year of high School that I wasn't going to school for months. I was diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder and agoraphobia, as I had a lot of trouble leaving the house. My psychiatrist prescribed Zoloft and honestly it was great at first but then it went downhill. I also stopped taking medicine for personal reasons. I'ts been 4 years and I'm finally starting to try to go out more. I can't even count the amount of times I've gone to or stayed in the car because of my anxiety and panic. But, trust me it will get better. Recovering from anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia is a slow and difficult process, but the more you try to be less afraid of it and start cognitive behavioral therapy, it becomes a lot easier to handle. You got this, and if you ever need an online friend to talk about it with, don't hesitate to ask
i have been taking antidepressants for 6 months and ever since I started I have had that same feeling towards my boyfriend that you just described. It is perfectly normal, unfortunately this kind of medicines have often this collateral effect for many people. It has been hard (for me but for him too of course), but I keep telling myself that this is what I need, and the medicine is working. That is what matters the most. Now after 6 months my doctor thinks I am ready to reduce the dosage as I am feeling much better, I am almost fully healed, and I almost feel the same person as before and I am so happy! We must put our mental health first to be able to enjoy other things in our life. Hang in there, it will get better for you too! xx ♡
Hey i take medicine too and i had the numb fase. The advice that i will give you is to speak to the person who is following you (like your psychiatrist). They will tell you if it’s normal and you should just wait, that’s what they told me and they were right, or if you should change medicine. Don’t stop taking them with out telling no one. Love you, we just got to stay strong❤️
As someone with anxiety, depression, adhd, and I’m bipolar I completely understand everything you’re talking about. Take some time and get back to u. Try different meds. Take care of yourself. You’ll get there ❤️
I really like how honest you are about your mental health. I know how hard some days can be, But you’re amazing! Also shoutout to all the girls that have been to the ER for vagina problems, been there too 🙃 not fun
ot made me cry! I mean first of all we all appreciate the strong you got to talk it out ! second of all thank you bc that was relatable you're doing so well keep going
Hey girl! Just wanted to say i can relate and if you do decide going off the medicine is best just ween yourself off. Don't just quit taking it altogether at one time bc from my experience that makes things 10x worse!!❤hope everything gets better soon!*had to add this, you are not alone & i appreciate you sharing this sooo much. I'm all the way on the east coast in NC and you are reaching people everywhere. You are so brave for sharing this! ❤
Late to the party but I recently have been binging all your stuff and just wanted to say THANK YOU for being SO real and authentic. As someone who struggles with anxiety too, this was so so relatable and real and I appreciate this and you so much!! Thank you for your vulnerability and letting the world in. ❤️
Aww Kayli I am so sorry you’re feeling this way. If if is of any comfort I am in the exact same spot and it’s so hard to even go outside or look at people and I wish I could and no one I know in my life seems to understand and thinks I need to just toughen up but it’s really not like that. If you know you know. Sending 💕
I suffer with emetophobia too, so it's really nice to relate to someone abt not eating for days bc you think you'll be sick. i also take lexapro too for my OCD and anxiety and I've hated it since I started. i relate to the not feeling lovey w/ ur boyfriend thing as well, it's so amazing that he doesn't make u feel bad for it. talk to your doc abt switching meds, and when you're ready to come back, we will welcome you warmly! all the love ❤
I hope you get to feeling and doing better ❤️ I love your videos and the notification I get when you post. You're so relatable and real unlike a lot of RUclipsrs on here. I look forward to your videos and I hope you get to feeling better not just because I love watching you 😂 but because I know how you feel. I am terrified of throw up and being sick too and I get so scared when I'm feeling sick and it makes it so much worse. I hate going out in big crowds and loud noises. It makes me have awful panic attacks and my anxiety wasn't this bad until I had covid. Now it's much worse and now when I have a panic attack I get those red rash on my face and neck. I know how you feel girl and I hope you get better ❤️
I really appreciate your honesty so much. This is so brave to put out there bad I wish more people talked so openly about there mental health. I also have the numb feeling towards my husband on medication and it’s something I still am working with my therapist and doc on because I need the medication but I hate some of the effects.
I relate to you so much I have really bad anxiety just like you and I didn’t realize what this feeling was all the time until I went to the doctor and got diagnosed and along with that I have really bad depression and it gets bad when I’m very anxious and that leads to me being scared to leave my house so i totally understand what your going through and I just want you to know you make my life so much better when I watch your videos❤️
kayli i hope you know that you’re not alone. right now i’m going to be 21 in a few months, i don’t go to college and all i really do is go to work and go to the gym. that’s it. i feel so stuck and my mental health has not been good. mental health SUCKS. sending my love to you i hope you feel more like yourself. ❤️
Im on Zoloft and I highly recommend it. I appreciate your openness and vulnerability. Better times ahead but sometimes these rough patches help out the good things into perspective ❤️
you’re the only person i’ve ever seen besides me that has anxiety from emetophobia. it used to be SO bad for me to the point where i just couldn’t eat, and i’ve worked on it (gone to therapy) and it’s a lot better, and now i only freak out when i’m nauseous. I still have bad generalized anxiety though. you haven’t talked about this recently(or i haven’t seen any videos about it), but I really hope you’re doing better!!
Hey, man. From one anxiety driven person to another, I am here for you 150%! I want you to know that everything you said and explained in this video is exactly what I, myself, and so many other people go through. I want you to know that I am in the exact same place you are in. I have tried several medications and none of them worked. I know it is easier said than done; but never feel ashamed that you have to excuse yourself from a situation because of a panic attack. The process of a panic attack feels like you're literally dying; and if everyone could feel what it is like to have a panic attack, they would probably react a lot worse than you lol. You are strong, man. I know you are a hopeful and motivated person. Thank you for posting this content, because you not only made me feel more safe in my skin; but you showed me that we are not alone. It is a real thing that a lot of people cannot see. I hope you're starting to feel better now. I know this sort of thing can last for more than a day, so I am praying for you. You said you read your bible, so I encourage you to keep doing so. Read some good scriptures. Get inspired. Be you, and continue to be the beautiful human being you are and will always be!
I also struggled with anxiety and depression caused by the anxiety. I know how incredibly hard it is but I promise it wont always feel this way. You will feel better keep on looking for different ways to help yourself via therapy or meditation. Take it one day at a time. Love youuuu
im so sorry you are going through this, but at the same time im so grateful other people know what this feels like and that i'm not alone. emetophobia is so awful, and i have the same issues with eating in restaurants. im on the max doses of lexapro and buspirone (as well as a handful of other things) and while they keep me level for the most part, the numb feeling feels super weird.... i love my boyfriend to pieces but at the same time there's nothing lol idk how to explain it other than how you did. i've been in a funk for the last few months wanting to do things but not having the energy to care about doing them, so this video is inspiring me to try to get out of my funk as well. thank you for being so brave and honest about your struggles💗 much love from ohio💕
I understand everything you're going thru Kayli!! 🙏 I used to have such bad anxiety that I could'nt leave the house or even eat dinner with my ex boyfriends family! But after a lot of therapy and medication I got a lot better 🙌 You really have to try and push yourself and ask yourself why you feel the way you feel in the moment and stop and try and focus on breathing and tell yourself that you're fine 🙏 It helped me a lot to be around people that knew about my anxiety that I felt safe with 🙂 I hope your anxiety gets better soon 🙌 Lots of hugs and love 💕
You need to take care of yourself. Mental illness is real and nothing to be ashamed of. Get the help you need and get better. You have a huge life to live. Prayers your way.
Hey as someone that has dealt with anxiety/depression for a great amount of my life just wanted you know you’re not alone. I just started medication for the first time and will see how I take to it in 4 weeks. I know not every medication works the same for everyone, so it’s more about finding the right one for you, although that’s another hurdle as well. I’ve been in a bad place myself and your nail videos have been soothing for me. I hope start to feel better. Also trying to seek an ADHD evaluation.
It hurts me to see you in pain, Kaylee. I can see the turmoil and confusion you're going through right now, and I cannot claim to know what you're going through, but I also have had panic attacks related to going outside my comfort zones. I also was taking lexipro at the time and did not feel terrible anymore because I felt nothing, just like a bland piece of bread, if that makes sense. I just stopped taking my meds and my hair started falling out in chunks, so please do not abruptly stop taking your meds. Ween yourself off them if you're deciding to stop taking them.
i’m just now realizing I put “day 2” twice oopsyyyyy
AND I SPELLED CINEMATIC WRONG YALL IMMA MESS🥹
@@kayliboyle its ok at least your trying, wish you all the best!
its ok we all make mistakes. I have been battling GAD with OCD and I get it. like 5000% get it. Im so sorry you have to deal with this too but i love that you see this channel as a motivation. Ive been watching for over a year and love the content, no matter what it is. you are you and thats what we love- watching the honest you
I’ve had Aspergers, anxiety, and social anxiety since I was eight years old (adult now). I’ve also had depression for seven years (it comes and goes now, thank You Jesus for progress). I had bulimia for two years, two years ago. It’s by the grace of God that I’ve gotten better because tbh, I would not be here if it wasn’t for Him. I thank the Lord for you Kayli, honestly. Every time I see a video of you uploaded on RUclips, it genuinely makes me smile and feel happy. Take your time and put God first in your life. Once He’s first in your life, everything else comes together. Honestly. 💕 💜 💕
*John chapter 14* is one of my favorite pieces of Scripture that I love to go to. Jesus is talking to His disciples (and us as well) during the Passover, right before He gets betrayed, arrested, beaten, bruised, mocked, whipped, spat on, and hung on the cross of Calvary for our sins, about Him going to the Father (God) in Heaven. Jesus tells us to not be afraid, that by His grace, we have peace because God’s Holy Spirit dwells within us to discern, learn, have knowledge, peace, contentment, and etc. while we’re still here on this earth (our temporary “home,” real home is in Heaven).
Jesus is “the way and the truth and the life” (verse six). Without Him, there’s no way ANYONE can get through not just this life, but what happens after we pass way without Him. Jesus was raised to life from the dead so that we can have reconciliation (returned friendship) with God again. That what God has always wanted with us, a relationship with Him through Jesus Christ His begotten Son. Seeking First God’s righteousness (Matthew 6:33) by praying (talking, having a conversation) to God in Jesus’ name and personally, voluntarily involving Him in every aspect of our lives (He already knows everything we’re going through, He just wants us to talk to Him directly about it (just like you would a friend or family member, but with God, He won’t condemn nor shame you).
Unfortunately, a lot of people assume that God doesn’t care for us. If He did, why does He let bad things happen right? God gave human beings free-will. With that freedom, we have the option of doling right or wrong, and majority of the time, humans choose wrong. God also gave us free-will so that we can make the personal decision to choose Him instead of the things of this world that’s here one moment, gone the next. The Almighty God loves you Kayli so much that He sent His Son to die on the cross for your sins, my sins, and all the sins of the world. However, He didn’t just die, he rose from the dead on the third day defeating both sin and death. At the end of the day, I do t have to be typing all of this. On the contrary, I believe God is using me as a vessel to let you know Kayli, that you have to surrender all of your worries, cares, and anxieties to Him. It’s not going to be easy. You might have to do it multiple times a day (because while we’re on this earth in these mortal bodies, we don’t have the full self-control, on our own doing, to not give into our emotions). That why, instead of trying to do things on our own, we have to LEAN ON JESUS for strength, for help, for unfailing love that He pours out on all His children.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight,” (Christian Standard Bible). Lean on Jesus Kayli. He has His hands reaching out to you. Hold on to Him and don’t let Him go because God won’t let you go. “. . . He will never leave you, or forsake you,” (Deuteronomy 31:6 ESV).
The Lord loves you Kayli, do you love Him?
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when you said "i want to go out, i want to do things etc but i don't have the want" made PERFECT sense. i FELT this so much 💔 love you so much girly
i’m doing my school exams rn, it’s so difficult for me to even walk into the school, i just start to feel so closed off from everything but at the same time so exposed and vulnerable. you talking about your anxiety in videos is so helpful, i feel safe and normal. thank you :)
im so sorry to here that love, i really hope you get better
Yes omg I haven’t been able to sleep for days! And today I presented something very rough and I felt terrible about it.
You are the first person who I finally relate to. No one understands in my life. But YOU do!!!
i’m sorry you’ve had a tough couple weeks lately , mental health sucks sometimes and i relate to this so much. i had the same exact thing with meds happen to me. i felt “numb” as you described it. things didn’t feel the same and i felt like shit and just worthless almost. And you are not alone as you probably know!!! also restaurants are also such a weird trigger for me 🙏 i just hate eating around people and loud environments are so overwhelming for me. anyways ty for everything you do, you’re really such an inspiration for young people going through this. you got this
I did lexapro for the first time ever on meds etc, and felt the same. I had two grandparents pass away and felt NOTHING. Tell your doctor. I was open and honest and they did change my prescription. They changed to Prozac. It HAS helped my anxiety and ambition. You’re doing the best you can. Sometimes all you can do is shower or move from the bed to the couch. That’s alright. 🥰🖤 baby steps hun
i’ve never related to something more. so sorry you’ve been feeling this way lately, i know exactly how it feels and it sucks so much to have all these things you want to do but also feel like you just can’t. thanks for posting stuff like this, it was honestly inspiring to hear you say you were feeling a lot better at the end of the week. hope it keeps going up from here!💖💖
I totally understand what you’re going through. You were making total sense to me. Sending hugs to you ❤️
I’m here if you want to talk.
It makes so much sense. I was literally diagnosed with depression and anxiety this week and yes before I didn’t know exactly what was wrong but now looking back my anxiety was often triggered and I didn’t/still don’t know how to cope with that so it depressed me and in those days they get really tough and dark and that’s where I am now. I appreciate you doing these videos it’s actually one of the reasons I sought out help.
when I tell you I love this video so much, obviously not happy you’re feeling this way or anyone else idk it’s like I feel you guys are such genuine people so I’m wishing nothing but the best for you guys. It’s the little things in life when people just share that it’s okay to not be okay and to pick up and continue life even when it’s hard, ugh omg words cannot express the comfort I feel ugh love you all.
My anxiety is largely due to emetophobia also! Sorry I’m so late to this video but it always makes me feel warm and fuzzy when I find someone that makes me feel less alone. I’m 30 and it’s gotten much better in the last couple of years. The right meds and therapy make a world of difference.
I loved how vulnerable and real this video was! Hope things stay on the right track for you! You’re beautiful
when i hear people going through the exact same things i go through, it makes me feel so... normal. in the best way. i hope everything works out for you soon, i'm right here with you in this boat.
Medication is always extremely hard to adapt to! When I first started my antidepressants I was all over the place, and felt so numb. I was also on acne meds that made me nauseous 24/7 :( but you’re doing so good, and you have such good self motivation. It’s so hard to get out of a funk, but you’re so real about it ❤️
i admire you so much Kayli, you’re so strong and I will always love how real you are 💗 thx for having the courage to show how real-life issues affect us
i just found your account on tiktok recently and i love how much you’ve taught me abt haircare!! but i also love how real you are. it’s seriously so refreshing to see a youtuber posting their content but still being so open and real at the same time. Thank u sm i love you and I hope you have a great 2023
I have anxiety stemming from emetophobia too. I got put on lexapro and I am feeling the exact same way with my boyfriend even though I know I love him very much and it scares me but I’m scared to get off of them. I haven’t had a panic attack in about a year but I have been having trouble still with restaurants and shopping and things I used to be able to do. You are very much not alone! I hope you find something that works for you and you start to feel better 💕
thanks for posting this kayli :) you’ve inspired me to start my channel and start posting videos and i love that you’re so open about your struggles. you’re helping so many people
Your videos help me go through everything I watch you every day and whenever I’m upset and having a breakdown your videos just help so much
I'm living the same thing right now!!! Literally totally understand you and wish you all the best, this makes me feel so much better because I feel less alone thank you
as someone who is also on medication (i take buspirone) it definitely can be an up and down experience! thank you for being willing to share your personal experiences w mental health
discovered you just a few hours ago and i'm totally in love with your channel and everything you do
i’m glad people like you post this stuff on the internet because as a teenager with anxiety i don’t know what to do about it but you definitely let me know i’m not alone
Love you hun. Humans are strange beings. We all need some help sometimes. Always pause and take a second when you need. Speak to that voice in your head and talk yourself through things. Be forgiving, especially to yourself. Hope all is better a little bit for you. 💖
I feel like this a lot sometimes. Sometimes I confuse myself cause I’m like yes let’s go out!!! Then when I get out I have anxiety the whole time because of the 1283 things I’m thinking could go wrong. I’m 22 and dont drive because I just feel like I’m jumping of a cliff. I go to work and come home and don’t really talk to anyone but my boyfriend, and I wish I had the friends I use to but at the same time it’s soooo much for me to handle. It’s hard for me to handle myself. I feel like I’d be a flaky mess that’s a negative Nancy to people when it’s really just my anxiety. So in my head I’m automatically a bad friend/ I don’t care/ I’m selfish.
I don’t know. I started tearing up during your intro cause resonate with that so much. I have the want, but I don’t have the want.
Thank you for sharing this, I feel a lot less alone with how I feel. I distance myself from everyone and everything for no reason but my own thoughts.
Appreciate you✨
I keep editing this, but never feel like you have to share a ton girlie, even a little can really help even one person. Your boyfriend was funny when he was filming for you💗 I’m glad you have him when in need of comfort. Always reach out to your support system. People LOVE you. People want the BEST for you. Always. Always always.
im so sorry ur going through it rn. We love you and we are sending u lots of good wishes
I really really felt when you said “I wanna go out but I dont have the want”. By nature I’m pretty extraverted, but at the same time when exams come my anxiety just hits the roof… and I feel the same way. I wanna meet my friends, I wanna spend time with my bf, and I wanna practice my hobbies but… I can feel that something’s just not right. In my case it’s linked to the fact that I mostly cover up the signs of anxiety, but when I reach a point I just feel like I could cry anytime or anywhere 😅 and that’s kind of the source of my fear (especially bc I’m a psych student, and some people in my family think that crying is a sign for being weak)
I think you worded it perfectly, thank you for talking about it 🖤 Love your videos, whishing you the best!
I understand the feelings come and go, there is no control over it. Other people can't help people like us to get out of the funk. I wish it were that easy. I've been having the same issues for years, I quit therapy because of money. I quit medication because it made me feel like the walking dead. So, just know you're not alone. Alot of us have this.
Once I started my anti depressants my skin has been the worst ever in my life, so it could be connected!! Take care of yourself sister 💚
yea my skin started breaking out when I got on meds sadly😩
When I started 20 mg of lexapro my skin got so nasty. Bumpy, large pores and comodones everywhere.
@@kayliboyle bae thats not your fault at all. at ALL. you're beautiful whether you have acne or not
Kayli, I totally understand what you are going through. I also have a panic disorder and crippling anxiety to the point where I used to not even be able to go to the store without passing out. About a year ago I went on anxiety meds and at first it was really hard and I was dealing with a lot of side affects but I am so glad I stuck it out. Having anxiety makes even the simplest of tasks feel like the end of the world but now I feel like I can actually live like a normal person. I really hope you start to feel better and take the time you need for yourself. Love u!!
When I was on SSRIs I felt EXACTLY the way you were describing with numbness and not lovey in my relationship about 1 year into taking it, I changed my medicine and I’m feeling much better now. Good luck on your journey 💕
I’ve had emetophobia my whole life so I feel you! You’re not alone! 🖤
you are amazing and your energy is umatched. thank you for sharing these personal moments with us and I hope you know how important you are and that you're doing great♥
0:49 Kayli you have no idea how happy I was to hear that. I've had anxiety and emetophobia my whole life as well. I'm so proud of you. You are strong and amazing. This gives me motivation to pick up my act (I've been struggling a lot recently) and take care of myself. God bless you.
I am so sorry you’re going through that, myself and both of my children have gone through that for years I hope you feel better you are such a sweetheart.
I love you! Don’t give up! You’re literally the best❤️
I'm so happy you are open and share this stuff on your channel. it's normal and human to go through ups and downs, and I think a lot of people here would say you can always be open with your subscribers. We love you and are wishing you nothing but the best ❤
kayli, i'll say this over and over again, but THANK YOU for just being you!!! i cannot tell you how much i appreciate you being so transparent with us and the things that you are going through. of course we never want you to feel like you have to, but when you do, i myself and i'm sure sooo many others appreciate it and it makes us not feel alone in these battles that seem like they'll never end. I've been watching RUclips since I was 10 and am now 21 and it's so fresh seeing creators like you have a platform. i'm sorry you're going through such a rough patch and they truly are confusing. being in a funk is so confusing and really frustrating a lot of the time. but you'll get through this. we love you so much kayli, feel better soon! 🤍💚
Bruh… the way I relate to you is insane. Thank you for sharing with us. I’ve just watched all your vids discussing your experiences with depressives ruts and stuff. In one now and this is so helpful, I’m legit making a list of your tips and just things I know I need to work on to help care for myself atm.
❤ TY Kayli
i cant relate to what you go through but i love watching you get out of a funk and cheering you on as if you can hear me through the screen
You are so strong, you brighten my day everytime I watch your videos. You are my favorite youtube, I pretty much only watch youtube for your videos. Even though you are going through hard time you radiate such a genuine sweet persona. Keep going and stay strong❤️
Before you even started crying I was tearing up because I feel you. Our early 20's are such a hard time, our bodies are changing, we are learning new things about the world, our idea of how things should be, and our expectations just get shattered and we have to adapt to this new life. Panic attacks SUCK. I am grateful I haven't had one since my mid-twenties. I think the surrealness of everything about life kind of hits us like a ton of bricks. Okay, back to the video.. It was good to see that you are feeling a little better. You are such a sweetheart and all of us KayBee's love you so so much! I am happy you have your dream job and every time you go through these hardships you learn new ways to help yourself deal with the fear and anxiety I AM SO proud of you! Also, I really enjoyed the week vlog a ton! Please give yourself a huge hug and get Tyler to give you a big hug from all of us! You 2 are SOOO cute btw! Love seeing you 2 together living life. Also, you inspired me. I think I am going to try meditation this morning before door dashing.
I recently found your videos and I’ve been enjoying them lots, but this helped me realized I’m not so alone. I too suffer from anxiety and panic attacks which are after caused by emetophobia. I’ve always had people look at me weird when I say that but it’s empowering to hear other stories similar to mine and know that I am not alone. It makes it so hard to go out and do things.
I love you kayli , this video really helped me understand life behind the cameras, I have panic disorder as well, I understand exactly what you mean. Stay strong girl, you’re amazing. ❤
This is really encouraging for me. Thank you for all your work kayli! Love youuuu
I'm so happy to hear this from you cause I relate so much. I've been on 3 different meds this year and they've all made me sick which just makes my mood so much worse. Finding the right medicine is so freaking hard. ily Kayli thanks for sharing
Wow I feel like at the beginning I was listening to myself talk. I’m so glad you make real raw videos like this
You are so inspiring, your aura shines so bright
Your personality reminds me so much of my own and your videos are so enjoyable and motivating to watch. Thank you for being here, I love you
I relate to you so much, like I’m fine for months then I just do thing that would make me go back into a hole on purpose for no reason. Your the first person to understand that. This is why I love your videos
I was on Zoloft for a few months. The only thing I noticed was the negative affects, too. It was so hard because you hope and want it to work because psych meds can be terrifying. But the decreased libido part can really take a toll on your relationship. Just wanted to let you know that healing isn’t linear, it’s a constant up and down cycle. Just remember, that the person you were this time last year would be SO PROUD of you because hey, you made it through. I know it’s hard to see it this way but every day is a new day that you woke up and opened your eyes, and that’s a gift. Love ya, gf. You have a whole army behind you ❤️
Zoloft is maddening
Thank you so so much for making this video kayli ❤️ Your day to day looks much like mine at the moment and watching this video makes me feel like we’re not doing this alone - so many of us out there building ourselves back up. And we’ll be there soon! Sending love ❤️❤️❤️
this is the most relatable video ever- i have anxiety and am on meds and it’s scary and life is hard. i feel less alone ❤️
I relate to a lot of what you said, the medication, the side effects, the WANT to do things but not being able to move out of bed, just started getting my acne back too. Diagnosed with anxiety & depression but seemingly “high functioning”. no one realizes how much goes into doing the smallest task, you are fighting with yourself mentally to the point of exhaustion. It’s so frustrating bc it just comes off as being lazy when you are actually trying so hard.
I completely understood what you meant. You literally made me cry cause I can't relate to anyone more. I hope you feel better soon❤.
You’re so pretty.thinking of you girl you’ll get through it❤️
I’m really sorry about what you’re going through. I’m 38 and I’ve had depression/anxiety my entire adult life. I have never been able to control either until recently I finally got on a regimen of meds(hated to be on any meds whatsoever) after agreeing to finally do so. It’s well worth it. I’ve been able to finally get things done whereas before I I wanted to sleep all day and all night hated to be around anyone and didn’t even want to be with my husband in the bed. Now I can wake up early 7 days a week and it feels great! I’m happy as ever. Don’t be afraid. Don’t stop doing the extra things to help yourself. Meds will never do it alone. Sometimes the meds stop working or just don’t work well with you. It’s definitely trial and error. Try new regimens. Talk to your doctor. There is always a light at the end babygirl. Never ever give up. It will get better!🤘🏼💕💋🌸
so proud of u this video is going to help so many people
I FEEL YOU GIRL! I started having anxiety and panic in 7th grade and didn't know what it was. It got so bad my junior year of high School that I wasn't going to school for months. I was diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder and agoraphobia, as I had a lot of trouble leaving the house. My psychiatrist prescribed Zoloft and honestly it was great at first but then it went downhill. I also stopped taking medicine for personal reasons. I'ts been 4 years and I'm finally starting to try to go out more. I can't even count the amount of times I've gone to or stayed in the car because of my anxiety and panic. But, trust me it will get better. Recovering from anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia is a slow and difficult process, but the more you try to be less afraid of it and start cognitive behavioral therapy, it becomes a lot easier to handle. You got this, and if you ever need an online friend to talk about it with, don't hesitate to ask
i have been taking antidepressants for 6 months and ever since I started I have had that same feeling towards my boyfriend that you just described. It is perfectly normal, unfortunately this kind of medicines have often this collateral effect for many people. It has been hard (for me but for him too of course), but I keep telling myself that this is what I need, and the medicine is working. That is what matters the most. Now after 6 months my doctor thinks I am ready to reduce the dosage as I am feeling much better, I am almost fully healed, and I almost feel the same person as before and I am so happy! We must put our mental health first to be able to enjoy other things in our life. Hang in there, it will get better for you too! xx ♡
Hey i take medicine too and i had the numb fase. The advice that i will give you is to speak to the person who is following you (like your psychiatrist). They will tell you if it’s normal and you should just wait, that’s what they told me and they were right, or if you should change medicine. Don’t stop taking them with out telling no one. Love you, we just got to stay strong❤️
As someone with anxiety, depression, adhd, and I’m bipolar I completely understand everything you’re talking about. Take some time and get back to u. Try different meds. Take care of yourself. You’ll get there ❤️
get better hun, me too is going through a lot at the moment. i'm sure i will cry for hours next week after this period of time.
rewatching this because i feel the same and you make me feel like a normal person even though i don't
Watching this in July 2024. Kayli, it is amazing how gar you have come mentally! You are my inspiration ❤
God bless you girl! Praying for you💗
I really like how honest you are about your mental health. I know how hard some days can be, But you’re amazing! Also shoutout to all the girls that have been to the ER for vagina problems, been there too 🙃 not fun
ot made me cry! I mean first of all we all appreciate the strong you got to talk it out ! second of all thank you bc that was relatable you're doing so well keep going
I love how real you are!
Hi kayli I just wanted to say thank you so much for posting this video
Hey girl! Just wanted to say i can relate and if you do decide going off the medicine is best just ween yourself off. Don't just quit taking it altogether at one time bc from my experience that makes things 10x worse!!❤hope everything gets better soon!*had to add this, you are not alone & i appreciate you sharing this sooo much. I'm all the way on the east coast in NC and you are reaching people everywhere. You are so brave for sharing this! ❤
Late to the party but I recently have been binging all your stuff and just wanted to say THANK YOU for being SO real and authentic. As someone who struggles with anxiety too, this was so so relatable and real and I appreciate this and you so much!! Thank you for your vulnerability and letting the world in. ❤️
Also DECAF DOES TASTE DIFFERENT AND NO ONE CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE.
Aww Kayli I am so sorry you’re feeling this way. If if is of any comfort I am in the exact same spot and it’s so hard to even go outside or look at people and I wish I could and no one I know in my life seems to understand and thinks I need to just toughen up but it’s really not like that. If you know you know. Sending 💕
You make me feel so motivated. Thank you ♥
I suffer with emetophobia too, so it's really nice to relate to someone abt not eating for days bc you think you'll be sick. i also take lexapro too for my OCD and anxiety and I've hated it since I started. i relate to the not feeling lovey w/ ur boyfriend thing as well, it's so amazing that he doesn't make u feel bad for it. talk to your doc abt switching meds, and when you're ready to come back, we will welcome you warmly! all the love ❤
I hope you get to feeling and doing better ❤️ I love your videos and the notification I get when you post. You're so relatable and real unlike a lot of RUclipsrs on here. I look forward to your videos and I hope you get to feeling better not just because I love watching you 😂 but because I know how you feel. I am terrified of throw up and being sick too and I get so scared when I'm feeling sick and it makes it so much worse. I hate going out in big crowds and loud noises. It makes me have awful panic attacks and my anxiety wasn't this bad until I had covid. Now it's much worse and now when I have a panic attack I get those red rash on my face and neck. I know how you feel girl and I hope you get better ❤️
so sorry you’re going through such a hard time kayli
I really appreciate your honesty so much. This is so brave to put out there bad I wish more people talked so openly about there mental health. I also have the numb feeling towards my husband on medication and it’s something I still am working with my therapist and doc on because I need the medication but I hate some of the effects.
I relate to you so much I have really bad anxiety just like you and I didn’t realize what this feeling was all the time until I went to the doctor and got diagnosed and along with that I have really bad depression and it gets bad when I’m very anxious and that leads to me being scared to leave my house so i totally understand what your going through and I just want you to know you make my life so much better when I watch your videos❤️
This is so relatable, thank you for sharing!
kayli i hope you know that you’re not alone. right now i’m going to be 21 in a few months, i don’t go to college and all i really do is go to work and go to the gym. that’s it. i feel so stuck and my mental health has not been good. mental health SUCKS. sending my love to you i hope you feel more like yourself. ❤️
I’m really sorry you’ve had a tough time I have anxiety too I had it whole life too I hope you get better you are amazing love your Vids
Hey
Im on Zoloft and I highly recommend it. I appreciate your openness and vulnerability. Better times ahead but sometimes these rough patches help out the good things into perspective ❤️
Been waiting for this! Go easy on yourself babygirl ❤
I've been feeling the same way, and I finally messaged my doctor to change my meds and I'm hoping it helps. I hope you feel better soon ♥️
AWWWW... get well soon! Glad that you took all of this out of you.
you’re the only person i’ve ever seen besides me that has anxiety from emetophobia. it used to be SO bad for me to the point where i just couldn’t eat, and i’ve worked on it (gone to therapy) and it’s a lot better, and now i only freak out when i’m nauseous. I still have bad generalized anxiety though. you haven’t talked about this recently(or i haven’t seen any videos about it), but I really hope you’re doing better!!
i’m so glad to know i’m not the only person who’s on the wrong medication that’s making them act differently and not able to control their emotions
Hey, man. From one anxiety driven person to another, I am here for you 150%! I want you to know that everything you said and explained in this video is exactly what I, myself, and so many other people go through. I want you to know that I am in the exact same place you are in. I have tried several medications and none of them worked. I know it is easier said than done; but never feel ashamed that you have to excuse yourself from a situation because of a panic attack. The process of a panic attack feels like you're literally dying; and if everyone could feel what it is like to have a panic attack, they would probably react a lot worse than you lol. You are strong, man. I know you are a hopeful and motivated person. Thank you for posting this content, because you not only made me feel more safe in my skin; but you showed me that we are not alone. It is a real thing that a lot of people cannot see. I hope you're starting to feel better now. I know this sort of thing can last for more than a day, so I am praying for you. You said you read your bible, so I encourage you to keep doing so. Read some good scriptures. Get inspired. Be you, and continue to be the beautiful human being you are and will always be!
Don’t forget it’s okay not to be okay! : )❤️
I relate to this a lot...don't be too hard on yourself. Take care ❤️
I also struggled with anxiety and depression caused by the anxiety. I know how incredibly hard it is but I promise it wont always feel this way. You will feel better keep on looking for different ways to help yourself via therapy or meditation. Take it one day at a time. Love youuuu
I'm really happy you exist ❤
im so sorry you are going through this, but at the same time im so grateful other people know what this feels like and that i'm not alone. emetophobia is so awful, and i have the same issues with eating in restaurants. im on the max doses of lexapro and buspirone (as well as a handful of other things) and while they keep me level for the most part, the numb feeling feels super weird.... i love my boyfriend to pieces but at the same time there's nothing lol idk how to explain it other than how you did. i've been in a funk for the last few months wanting to do things but not having the energy to care about doing them, so this video is inspiring me to try to get out of my funk as well. thank you for being so brave and honest about your struggles💗 much love from ohio💕
Omggg I have this tooo , it’s so hard bc you feel like nobody understands you but girl I am here .💗💗
I understand everything you're going thru Kayli!! 🙏 I used to have such bad anxiety that I could'nt leave the house or even eat dinner with my ex boyfriends family! But after a lot of therapy and medication I got a lot better 🙌 You really have to try and push yourself and ask yourself why you feel the way you feel in the moment and stop and try and focus on breathing and tell yourself that you're fine 🙏 It helped me a lot to be around people that knew about my anxiety that I felt safe with 🙂 I hope your anxiety gets better soon 🙌 Lots of hugs and love 💕
You need to take care of yourself. Mental illness is real and nothing to be ashamed of. Get the help you need and get better. You have a huge life to live. Prayers your way.
Hey as someone that has dealt with anxiety/depression for a great amount of my life just wanted you know you’re not alone. I just started medication for the first time and will see how I take to it in 4 weeks. I know not every medication works the same for everyone, so it’s more about finding the right one for you, although that’s another hurdle as well. I’ve been in a bad place myself and your nail videos have been soothing for me. I hope start to feel better. Also trying to seek an ADHD evaluation.
It hurts me to see you in pain, Kaylee. I can see the turmoil and confusion you're going through right now, and I cannot claim to know what you're going through, but I also have had panic attacks related to going outside my comfort zones. I also was taking lexipro at the time and did not feel terrible anymore because I felt nothing, just like a bland piece of bread, if that makes sense. I just stopped taking my meds and my hair started falling out in chunks, so please do not abruptly stop taking your meds. Ween yourself off them if you're deciding to stop taking them.
you want to want it but you cant motivate yourself to want it... i feel that so deeply.