I appreciate your differentiation of "semantic" (verbal facts) memory from visualization. I was surprised to discover that many (most?) people actually visualize the scenes in a story they are reading (very vividly!) like scenes from a movie. I might occasionally have a dim fleeting flash of an image, but mainly, I just experience the story as a series of abstract facts that I connect as I'm reading. Reading a good story is still enjoyable for me, but I just don't have accompanying "visuals" to go along with the facts.
I also have aphantasia. I always thought whenever someone would say "now picture this...." that it was just a saying. I had no idea until the last year or so that people could really picture something in their head.
One thing I have learned about in my short 26 years on this planet is, the old saying "you dont know what you have until its gone" only has meaning if it wasnt gone to begin with. People can take on problems, whether health, physical or mental related during thier life time. A severe bump on the head can cause severe issues depending on the person, such as memory issues, loss of brain functionality, loss of control of one's body, or other impairments such as loss of sight or in some rare cases, colourblindness. Other things include, mobility issues or loss of ability to do things due an illness or event such as a car crash. But people ignore those born with such conditions. People born that way will never really see a life without it. Someone who was born colourblind will NEVER see a colour the way you see it, such as red appearing beige because their receptors that pick up the colour red are shot, and you cant just simply show them something red as they wont see it the way you see it. Other things include blindness or deafness. If you are born blind, you will never properly get to experience the beautiful sight of a red rose. If you are deaf, you will never get to properly understand the beauty of music, or the sights and sounds we come to enjoy. So it makes it all the more interesting to hear people talk about things you take for granted. The old reverse psychology thing of "quick, dont think of a pink elephant" will never not fail because I will instantly get an image of a pink elephant in my brain. Its yet another example of something could never fathom a life without. I love to dream. I lay in bed and let my brain wonder, thinking of ideas for stuff and even visualising scenarios for stuff in my brain. My main worry is what would I do if I lost the ability to remember or the ability paint images in my mind, I never fathom how I would be without it to begin with. It's why I find people who do experience things like blindness, deafness, colourblindness, SDAM or aphantasia all the more intriguing. Its interesting to think both types of people see eachother as remarkable in some way.
Aphantasia fascinates me, because there are always boundary exceptions. One of them, in your case is the vivid dream flash you describe. Finding ways to sneak up on this an other possible exceptions around the boundaries of your aphantasia would make for some very interesting experiments, I think. I'm not qualified in any way for this task, but I see this as just a way that any unknown, complex mechanism can be explored. And minds are as complex as mechanisms come. Perhaps, someday I will meet someone interested in such experiments, and I will find out if my ideas around this subject are useful, or not. Because of your videos, I have already put considerable effort into thinking about this. Thank you.
Thank you for autocorrecting your pronunciation of hypervigilant :) 53 year old with self diagnosed Total Aphantasia, SDAM, and AuDHD. LOL on the sketch artist description b/c I'm in awe of all artists for being original! I really enjoy asking Copilot to create pictures since I can't do it. I actually like watching movies before reading the books so I can have reference material on what the characters and background look likes but the book gives more depth into internal dialogue and feelings. What kind of mic are you using? It works really well! Does it have a good battery life?
You inspired me to do a review video on my mic for my other channel. It's a Hollyland Lark M2 and yes, great battery life! ruclips.net/video/SDvIhx7Fa8Q/видео.html
I seem to have the opposite problem with autobiography. I cant forget things I experienced. I get lectured sometimes by people who tell me "that happened long ago, cant you just let it go?". My brain will shove old memories into my brain from any reminders. Very distracting. I cant recall faces at all whatsoever (I'm face blind).
I wonder if hypokalemia and hypocalcemia and similar deficiencies have impact on SDAM. (The former is a lack of potassium (potatoes), the second is a lack of calcium (bone broth, collard greens, dairy.) Good luck with your health journey!
I seriously doubt it. For one I recently had an extensive blood panel and the only nutrient I was lacking was iron. Which is fairly new, I've done iron panels before and was fine. I'm now on an iron supplement.
I'm sure I have SDAM too, I don't have memories of my life and I've always been that way, since I was little. Do you know the saying "people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but they will never forget how you made them feel" ? That's how I feel about people in my life. I don't remember what has happened between us, I may have forgotten the words they said or what they dis to me, but I do feel that something bad happened so I don't feel confortable around them so I try to avoid them. And the opposite too, obviously, when I feel that some people have always been nice to me so I feel this kind of love and good sensations about them. Does this happen to you too?
Hello Amanda, On Friday I was on my neurofeedback assesment. I saw at my EEG that my memory was affected as I suspected and it's something we are supposed to be able to ameliorate with neurofeedback. Maybe it could help you.
What is the connection between histrionic or borderline or narcissistic personality type disorders and self diagnosis or attention seeking behavior? As a student intern with a particular patient have been trying to sort this out better in my understanding. Thanks
I'm not a medical expert, but I think people who are "attention seeking behavior" are asking for help in the only way they know how. I believe self diagnosis is a valid first step in a diagnostic process and some people don't need to go further because self accomodations are all they need. But in today's current medical system where it takes on average for an AFAB person 7 years from when they first suspect they have a developmental or personality disorder to getting a diagnosis, self diagnosis is important to self advocate. Too many AFAB, BIPOC or other marganilized groups get told it's attention seeking or just anxiety for years.
@i.am.mindblind Thanks for your reply. Staff have told me not to "encourage" the behavior but clearly there's issues bc it's a locked psych unit. I do a lot of extra reading to learn more but there's so much that "head knowledge" just doesn't cover imo. Unless we've walked in the shoes of some of our patients and experienced loss, depression, anxiety, etc I don't think caregivers are best equipped to meet the patients where they're at. Thanks again
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I appreciate your differentiation of "semantic" (verbal facts) memory from visualization. I was surprised to discover that many (most?) people actually visualize the scenes in a story they are reading (very vividly!) like scenes from a movie. I might occasionally have a dim fleeting flash of an image, but mainly, I just experience the story as a series of abstract facts that I connect as I'm reading. Reading a good story is still enjoyable for me, but I just don't have accompanying "visuals" to go along with the facts.
I also have aphantasia. I always thought whenever someone would say "now picture this...." that it was just a saying. I had no idea until the last year or so that people could really picture something in their head.
It's always so wild how we've gone so long without realizing most people are actually vidualsing!
One thing I have learned about in my short 26 years on this planet is, the old saying "you dont know what you have until its gone" only has meaning if it wasnt gone to begin with. People can take on problems, whether health, physical or mental related during thier life time. A severe bump on the head can cause severe issues depending on the person, such as memory issues, loss of brain functionality, loss of control of one's body, or other impairments such as loss of sight or in some rare cases, colourblindness. Other things include, mobility issues or loss of ability to do things due an illness or event such as a car crash. But people ignore those born with such conditions. People born that way will never really see a life without it. Someone who was born colourblind will NEVER see a colour the way you see it, such as red appearing beige because their receptors that pick up the colour red are shot, and you cant just simply show them something red as they wont see it the way you see it. Other things include blindness or deafness. If you are born blind, you will never properly get to experience the beautiful sight of a red rose. If you are deaf, you will never get to properly understand the beauty of music, or the sights and sounds we come to enjoy.
So it makes it all the more interesting to hear people talk about things you take for granted. The old reverse psychology thing of "quick, dont think of a pink elephant" will never not fail because I will instantly get an image of a pink elephant in my brain. Its yet another example of something could never fathom a life without. I love to dream. I lay in bed and let my brain wonder, thinking of ideas for stuff and even visualising scenarios for stuff in my brain. My main worry is what would I do if I lost the ability to remember or the ability paint images in my mind, I never fathom how I would be without it to begin with. It's why I find people who do experience things like blindness, deafness, colourblindness, SDAM or aphantasia all the more intriguing. Its interesting to think both types of people see eachother as remarkable in some way.
Thanks, that was interesting again.
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Aphantasia fascinates me, because there are always boundary exceptions. One of them, in your case is the vivid dream flash you describe. Finding ways to sneak up on this an other possible exceptions around the boundaries of your aphantasia would make for some very interesting experiments, I think. I'm not qualified in any way for this task, but I see this as just a way that any unknown, complex mechanism can be explored. And minds are as complex as mechanisms come. Perhaps, someday I will meet someone interested in such experiments, and I will find out if my ideas around this subject are useful, or not. Because of your videos, I have already put considerable effort into thinking about this. Thank you.
Yeah, dreams are a different part of the brain.
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Thank you for autocorrecting your pronunciation of hypervigilant :) 53 year old with self diagnosed Total Aphantasia, SDAM, and AuDHD. LOL on the sketch artist description b/c I'm in awe of all artists for being original! I really enjoy asking Copilot to create pictures since I can't do it. I actually like watching movies before reading the books so I can have reference material on what the characters and background look likes but the book gives more depth into internal dialogue and feelings.
What kind of mic are you using? It works really well! Does it have a good battery life?
You inspired me to do a review video on my mic for my other channel. It's a Hollyland Lark M2 and yes, great battery life!
ruclips.net/video/SDvIhx7Fa8Q/видео.html
I seem to have the opposite problem with autobiography. I cant forget things I experienced. I get lectured sometimes by people who tell me "that happened long ago, cant you just let it go?". My brain will shove old memories into my brain from any reminders. Very distracting. I cant recall faces at all whatsoever (I'm face blind).
You do have a much better memory! I can understand that can be it's own problems though.
I wonder if hypokalemia and hypocalcemia and similar deficiencies have impact on SDAM. (The former is a lack of potassium (potatoes), the second is a lack of calcium (bone broth, collard greens, dairy.) Good luck with your health journey!
I seriously doubt it. For one I recently had an extensive blood panel and the only nutrient I was lacking was iron. Which is fairly new, I've done iron panels before and was fine. I'm now on an iron supplement.
I'm sure I have SDAM too, I don't have memories of my life and I've always been that way, since I was little. Do you know the saying "people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but they will never forget how you made them feel" ? That's how I feel about people in my life. I don't remember what has happened between us, I may have forgotten the words they said or what they dis to me, but I do feel that something bad happened so I don't feel confortable around them so I try to avoid them. And the opposite too, obviously, when I feel that some people have always been nice to me so I feel this kind of love and good sensations about them. Does this happen to you too?
Yes! This is such a good analogy. I definitely get this way around people
Hello Amanda,
On Friday I was on my neurofeedback assesment. I saw at my EEG that my memory was affected as I suspected and it's something we are supposed to be able to ameliorate with neurofeedback. Maybe it could help you.
What is the connection between histrionic or borderline or narcissistic personality type disorders and self diagnosis or attention seeking behavior? As a student intern with a particular patient have been trying to sort this out better in my understanding. Thanks
I'm not a medical expert, but I think people who are "attention seeking behavior" are asking for help in the only way they know how. I believe self diagnosis is a valid first step in a diagnostic process and some people don't need to go further because self accomodations are all they need. But in today's current medical system where it takes on average for an AFAB person 7 years from when they first suspect they have a developmental or personality disorder to getting a diagnosis, self diagnosis is important to self advocate. Too many AFAB, BIPOC or other marganilized groups get told it's attention seeking or just anxiety for years.
@i.am.mindblind Thanks for your reply. Staff have told me not to "encourage" the behavior but clearly there's issues bc it's a locked psych unit. I do a lot of extra reading to learn more but there's so much that "head knowledge" just doesn't cover imo. Unless we've walked in the shoes of some of our patients and experienced loss, depression, anxiety, etc I don't think caregivers are best equipped to meet the patients where they're at. Thanks again
The police know that most people have bad memories.