At about 6.5 years since my last Xanax and 6.5 years of slow progress, I am also about 85 % healed, and here is what I have learned: 1) In our withdrawal, we are locked in a distant world and are estranged from ourselves and forget what "normal" is, and we fear being caught forever in our current benzo damaged crazy reality. 2) But as symptoms heal and drop off, we start to realize the secret, and that is; there is a familiar pattern to the healing. Even in a bad subsequent wave, we begin to see and understand the healing process and recognize these setbacks for what they are; just the ups and downs of physical and mental waves necessary to the healing process for everyone. Eventually, even though still in a difficult place, our brains are healed enough finally to see the big picture. And WOW, we finally get it; we are really healing, so throw me a couple waves, I can do it, I have this withdrawal process down. I get it. You then gain momentum, and hope and confidence are now your allies, once thought long gone, and you can do the time till you are 100%. And then, the biggest prize of all: You realize that yes, everything you have heard is true; WE ALL WILL HEAL. And that realization is a glorious gift. 3) So struggle through the pain, climb the mountain, see the blue sky above, so to speak. Yes, it's a hell of a journey, but welcome home everyone, finally.
Currently in klonopin withdrawal and it is awful.😢 Only been like 3 days so far, but that's because I ran out early. Should have a refill either tomorrow or the day after. I am not ready to come off completely yet
Recap of my 1-year clean benzo/drug free. This past year has been the toughest thing I have ever done in my life and still healing from it. Some progress I have made in a year's timeframe off benzos include: some improved cognitive, memory slowly coming back, agoraphobia is better, starting to see myself again, understanding I can live without drugs and live a better life, made great new friends in this community and an awesome friend from high school helped/listened to my insanity. I am not out of the woods yet, but my confidence is improving because of the strength to reach 1 year off benzos. Huge milestone for me with emphasis on me. This one is for me, and this process is going to teach, strengthen almost every aspect of myself. This journey is teaching me to put myself first because if I don't, I am not good for anyone. Some lingering worst symptoms include fatigue, muscle soreness and focus/concentration issues. I am still having many ups/downs but overall, I am getting better slowly. Come hell or high water I am going to beat this garbage poison. I have a great life ahead even if I can't see it fully yet and that's alright. The 1-year accomplishment has given me an extra level of confidence, shit if I can get thru that how much worse can it or life get. In my heart I believe I am going to heal because I can feel and see it sometimes even if ever so slightly. I have healed quite a bit in a year, but I still have a way to go and that's alright I was on/off this poison for a long time. You can heal from this Never Give up Bob
One of my biggest fears is learning how to live again without a substance/benzo. It still feels like people can see into my deepest darkest thoughts etc. My goal is to be authentic but healing from benzo withdrawal at the same time is rather difficult. Don't Quit before the Miracle happens. Dan gets it and has been thru it obviously what great timing.
@@donna6165Wanted to say a hello, Donna…and, send you much Love! I’ve missed you and your always inspiring words of compassion and support. I hope you are doing well and finding much peace…as much as you provide for others. Will be back on more when I am a little further along. Much Love, Jaclyn 💕
@@jaclynpeters3892Jaclyn, it is wonderful to see and feel you Here. And on our Mr. Awesome’s birthday yesterday, wow. My face and heart are smiling. I knew it, I felt it and I knew it; the fourth corner of the Foundation that is PF. Your consistent support and encouragement over the past year lifted and held so many, including me. And B. Thank you, Jaclyn. I love you too, my dear Sister. Sounds perfect, J. Take your time. I am Here. ❤
I just want to get healed before my grand children are all grown and married. I have healed. Had bad insomnia twice but it has left. The agoraphobia and food phobia are still with me. It’s been 4 and 1/2 years. I miss my family so much!!!!!!♥️♥️
I realized after coming out of the benzo fog how much I took my family for granted. This process has taught me to try and be much more conscientious about the people in my life that I love and love me.
Unfortunately for some of us the miracle never comes. I am so happy for others healing but also a little jealous. Almost 3 years off for me and I still have terrible hypnic jerks. You can’t heal if you can’t sleep. Good luck everybody. I really hope you find peace and tranquility.
Hi Dan it's Tina and I am happy to see another video from you. Keep up the videos your doing great. I am down to 3mg of Valium as of June 26th 2023. My taper started November 18th 2022 from 10mg. Down to 3mg.... Yes ❤❤❤ 😊
I needed to hear this so bad it is hard to explain. My mind has been playing games with me and trying to make excuses etc. I won't quit because I have already come so far why stop now. Am I a complete basket case right now yes. Am I overly emotional and dysregulated sometimes yes. The key is I can see it this time and if I can't handle it, I reach out for help instead of reaching for a substance/benzo etc. This is so freaking painful yet rewarding at the same time. I am healing...It takes time Are you reading my mind Dan LOL Bob
Dan what is wrong with me? My brain mri was fine. I'm not like this at all normally. I had this same bad brain lock in 2021 fall when they tapered very fast oxazepam and was telling this same over and over again. Then had few normal weeks with valium. And could taper, but it went too fast again. Nothing has helped since then. My mom says she is seeing that I'm in constant witdrwal symptoms, but I was like this even last summer with klonopin try, and I have been told I was just in tolerance witdrawl then. But I'm losing my faith. This is minute by minute torture. I really tried to do yoga for months but can't anymore. I have tapered 52 kg of valium in 9 months. I'm sorry Dan. Why am i not normal person who tries to get off of benzo. Thank you if you can answer and tell me am i really only one with brain not understanding anything. I was very positive, social grateful person in 2021 spring before this all happened.
Dan, I have the worst brainlock. I can't believe this could go away. Two years now. Just those few good weeks without brain lock when I was stabilized with first crossover to valium. I have been telling this brain lock and panic for two years. I haven't been loved, needed for two years. Have you ever heard this bad brain not understanding normal things and normal life? I can't function. I'm out of normal life and world and don't understand anything normal. I'm sorry I'm so desperate.
@@katrinamenzies9398 Katrina, I recall that feeling well. It felt like I was on the Outside, looking In. Watching others come and go while I felt like a prisoner in my own mind and body. It’s an almost indescribable sense. A sense that It’s all…off. It felt unrelenting to me; I just wanted to feel and Be “normal.” All very understandable and very real, K, but it’s not going to be forever. Like Dan says, it takes time. I’m rooting for you 💯. Keep breathing, Sis and try to stay hopeful. ♥️
@@katrinamenzies9398 Do you feel your brain is shut down? I'm going crazy everyday because of this. Constant panic and fight or flight. Much strenght to you.
@@bobbobarino6213 Thank you Bob. I don't want to be negative. I never was before. My brain is totally shut down and I'm homebound because of this. And waking up to most awful terror. I have been up and down doses by doctors for two years. My body and mind can't take this. And now tapered from 60 mg to 8 mg of valium. I fear permanent brain and cns and GABA damage. I had so good chance that one time in late 2021 when all this went away having first crossover to valium 10 mg. After very fast taper of 75 mg of oxazepam. I was totally normal for few weeks and it would have saved my life if I had known that 5 weeks is too fast and said i have to 5 months. Sorry to repeat this. I was very positive, exercised a lot, social, grateful person in 2021 spring. Thank you for caring. All the best.
Im not getting windows im scared all the time. Its 28 months. I lost alot but im left with awful dpdr and head sx and chemical anxiety. If i could just have feelings id be happy. Thznk you😊
So I didn’t wake up in DPDR or anxiety . I just feel like I don’t wanna do anything. I’m not happy . I’m still numb. I’m still kinda on edge . Dan are these things normal after DPDR
I'm so sick I have to go to court ordered classes an I'm so sick I can't go sometimes. Am it sucks cause imma end up going back to jail for a fucking year. This is messed upim about to just accept the fact that im to sick to go an just go back to jail. Im miserable anyways.
Hey Dan did it affect your taste buds I’m 3 months off CT and it was brutal dr didn’t tell me I would go in withdrawal I told her I couldn’t take she wrote another script
Hi there , did you dona slow tapper ??? Or fast . No more that 1mg a month , its a slow process but its worth it in the long run . I wish you all the best on your journey .❤❤
@lisaboyle8138 Extremely dangerous tampering that fast . Took me 2 years to get them blue pills. 8 month done the line . Only just able to get out of bed .
At about 6.5 years since my last Xanax and 6.5 years of slow progress, I am also about 85 % healed, and here is what I have learned: 1) In our withdrawal, we are locked in a distant world and are estranged from ourselves and forget what "normal" is, and we fear being caught forever in our current benzo damaged crazy reality. 2) But as symptoms heal and drop off, we start to realize the secret, and that is; there is a familiar pattern to the healing. Even in a bad subsequent wave, we begin to see and understand the healing process and recognize these setbacks for what they are; just the ups and downs of physical and mental waves necessary to the healing process for everyone. Eventually, even though still in a difficult place, our brains are healed enough finally to see the big picture. And WOW, we finally get it; we are really healing, so throw me a couple waves, I can do it, I have this withdrawal process down. I get it. You then gain momentum, and hope and confidence are now your allies, once thought long gone, and you can do the time till you are 100%. And then, the biggest prize of all: You realize that yes, everything you have heard is true; WE ALL WILL HEAL. And that realization is a glorious gift. 3) So struggle through the pain, climb the mountain, see the blue sky above, so to speak. Yes, it's a hell of a journey, but welcome home everyone, finally.
Awesome!!!
So joyful for you! ♥️
Beautifully said. I got chills reading this 😊
@@paulafisher7124 Sounds like a benzo warrior.
Perfect. Thank you.
Thanks Dan, in every vid it feels like you're talking directly to me.
Hey Oliver- great to hear from you!
Thanks Dan. Peace to y'all, don't quit ✌
Currently in klonopin withdrawal and it is awful.😢 Only been like 3 days so far, but that's because I ran out early. Should have a refill either tomorrow or the day after. I am not ready to come off completely yet
Sending you strength. ♥️
How’re you feeling today?
Recap of my 1-year clean benzo/drug free. This past year has been the toughest thing I have ever done in my life and still healing from it. Some progress I have made in a year's timeframe off benzos include: some improved cognitive, memory slowly coming back, agoraphobia is better, starting to see myself again, understanding I can live without drugs and live a better life, made great new friends in this community and an awesome friend from high school helped/listened to my insanity.
I am not out of the woods yet, but my confidence is improving because of the strength to reach 1 year off benzos. Huge milestone for me with emphasis on me. This one is for me, and this process is going to teach, strengthen almost every aspect of myself. This journey is teaching me to put myself first because if I don't, I am not good for anyone.
Some lingering worst symptoms include fatigue, muscle soreness and focus/concentration issues.
I am still having many ups/downs but overall, I am getting better slowly.
Come hell or high water I am going to beat this garbage poison. I have a great life ahead even if I can't see it fully yet and that's alright. The 1-year accomplishment has given me an extra level of confidence, shit if I can get thru that how much worse can it or life get. In my heart I believe I am going to heal because I can feel and see it sometimes even if ever so slightly.
I have healed quite a bit in a year, but I still have a way to go and that's alright I was on/off this poison for a long time.
You can heal from this
Never Give up
Bob
😌❤Mr. B. Awesome Bob
At my mom’s, yet still…
👁️ 🌊 🐑 .
@@donna6165 Yep I just got back from my mom's as well. What a journey Donna Awesome. Have a great 4th of July!!!
Bob
I’m so proud of ya and how far you’ve truly come. You’re a great example of healing and resilience.
@@philosophicalfishing Wow!!! Tx Dan that means a lot.
@@bobbobarino6213 Mr. B Awesome, hello, Friend! 🤗
It’s worth it. We are. Hang on, Fam. ♥️
One of my biggest fears is learning how to live again without a substance/benzo. It still feels like people can see into my deepest darkest thoughts etc. My goal is to be authentic but healing from benzo withdrawal at the same time is rather difficult.
Don't Quit before the Miracle happens. Dan gets it and has been thru it obviously what great timing.
Awesome Bob❤ One breath, one step, brother.
We are breathing together. 🌬️
@@donna6165Wanted to say a hello, Donna…and, send you much Love! I’ve missed you and your always inspiring words of compassion and support. I hope you are doing well and finding much peace…as much as you provide for others.
Will be back on more when I am a little further along.
Much Love,
Jaclyn
💕
@@jaclynpeters3892Jaclyn, it is wonderful to see and feel you Here. And on our Mr. Awesome’s birthday yesterday, wow. My face and heart are smiling. I knew it, I felt it and I knew it; the fourth corner of the Foundation that is PF. Your consistent support and encouragement over the past year lifted and held so many, including me. And B.
Thank you, Jaclyn.
I love you too, my dear Sister.
Sounds perfect, J. Take your time. I am Here. ❤
Keep praying 🙏, keep loving, keep and increase the faith. GOD IS THE GREATEST HEALER. BLESSINGS OF HEALTH TO YOU ALL.
Thank you, Beatriz, you too. Great advice: Loving and feeling loved does help heal. ♥️
@@donna6165 BLESSINGS!
I just want to get healed before my grand children are all grown and married. I have healed. Had bad insomnia twice but it has left. The agoraphobia and food phobia are still with me. It’s been 4 and 1/2 years. I miss my family so much!!!!!!♥️♥️
What a beautiful Why you have to heal for. Lucky you. ☘️
I realized after coming out of the benzo fog how much I took my family for granted. This process has taught me to try and be much more conscientious about the people in my life that I love and love me.
@@philosophicalfishing825 days off feel low energy sym when it get better my friend
@@rameshlumb4003Namaste, Ramesh, it’s Donna. Sending you love and strength this day. ❤
@@donna6165 how are you what are your remaining symptoms ur dp dr gone or not
Unfortunately for some of us the miracle never comes. I am so happy for others healing but also a little jealous. Almost 3 years off for me and I still have terrible hypnic jerks. You can’t heal if you can’t sleep. Good luck everybody. I really hope you find peace and tranquility.
It's awful.
@@BobbyLennon-jn1bn I average between 20 and 28 hours per week.
Hi Dan it's Tina and I am happy to see another video from you. Keep up the videos your doing great. I am down to 3mg of Valium as of June 26th 2023. My taper started November 18th 2022 from 10mg. Down to 3mg.... Yes ❤❤❤ 😊
That is awesome!!!
Hi, Tina, Down to 3mg, that’s remarkable. Keep going, Sis. We got this. 💪🏻♥️
You’re doing it! Great job. I’m so happy for you.
I needed to hear this too ❤
Always good to hear from you, Katrina. Hope you’re doing well today.
@@philosophicalfishing 💜
I needed to hear this so bad it is hard to explain. My mind has been playing games with me and trying to make excuses etc. I won't quit because I have already come so far why stop now. Am I a complete basket case right now yes. Am I overly emotional and dysregulated sometimes yes. The key is I can see it this time and if I can't handle it, I reach out for help instead of reaching for a substance/benzo etc. This is so freaking painful yet rewarding at the same time. I am healing...It takes time
Are you reading my mind Dan LOL
Bob
He’s reading This, lol 😉
Good morning, my awesome brother. 🌞
We. Are. Healing. Virtual hug! ♥️
@@donna6165
@@bobbobarino6213 🤣👌🏻🤗
I know that feeling and it is soooo worth it, in the long run.
Donna Awesome Checking in on you, Awesome Bob. How was your today, my brother? ❤️
Thank you so much!
✊🏻✌🏻
Thank you Dan. A great encouragement as always. Have a blessed day. ❤😊
Hi, Julie.♥️
Thanks, Julie!
@@philosophicalfishingdo u eat potatoes and tomatoes please answer
@@rameshlumb4003 tomatoes made my benzo belly worse, early on. But I never seemed to have an issue with potatoes.
@@philosophicalfishing thank you friend
Hey, PF Fam, let’s be certain to hit that LIKE button for Dan, yes? 😉
Healing ✨Stevie Vibes✨ to ya’all. ❤
Thanks Donna! It really does help the channel a lot. 🙏🏻
Dan what is wrong with me? My brain mri was fine.
I'm not like this at all normally.
I had this same bad brain lock in 2021 fall when they tapered very fast oxazepam and was telling this same over and over again. Then had few normal weeks with valium.
And could taper, but it went too fast again.
Nothing has helped since then.
My mom says she is seeing that I'm in constant witdrwal symptoms, but I was like this even last summer with klonopin try, and I have been told I was just in tolerance witdrawl then.
But I'm losing my faith.
This is minute by minute torture.
I really tried to do yoga for months but can't anymore.
I have tapered 52 kg of valium in 9 months.
I'm sorry Dan.
Why am i not normal person who tries to get off of benzo. Thank you if you can answer and tell me am i really only one with brain not understanding anything.
I was very positive, social grateful person in 2021 spring before this all happened.
Dan, I have the worst brainlock. I can't believe this could go away. Two years now.
Just those few good weeks without brain lock when I was stabilized with first crossover to valium.
I have been telling this brain lock and panic for two years.
I haven't been loved, needed for two years.
Have you ever heard this bad brain not understanding normal things and normal life? I can't function. I'm out of normal life and world and don't understand anything normal. I'm sorry I'm so desperate.
Sorry you are going through this. I understand what you are going through, and you are not alone.
Much Love
Bob
I have same the world seems alien too me
@@katrinamenzies9398 Katrina, I recall that feeling well. It felt like I was on the Outside, looking In.
Watching others come and go while I felt like a prisoner in my own mind and body. It’s an almost indescribable sense. A sense that It’s all…off.
It felt unrelenting to me; I just wanted to feel and Be “normal.” All very understandable and very real, K, but it’s not going to be forever. Like Dan says, it takes time. I’m rooting for you 💯.
Keep breathing, Sis and try to stay hopeful. ♥️
@@katrinamenzies9398 Do you feel your brain is shut down? I'm going crazy everyday because of this.
Constant panic and fight or flight.
Much strenght to you.
@@bobbobarino6213 Thank you Bob.
I don't want to be negative.
I never was before.
My brain is totally shut down and I'm homebound because of this.
And waking up to most awful terror.
I have been up and down doses by doctors for two years. My body and mind can't take this.
And now tapered from 60 mg to 8 mg of valium.
I fear permanent brain and cns and GABA damage. I had so good chance that one time in late 2021 when all this went away having first crossover to valium 10 mg. After very fast taper of 75 mg of oxazepam. I was totally normal for few weeks and it would have saved my life if I had known that 5 weeks is too fast and said i have to 5 months.
Sorry to repeat this.
I was very positive, exercised a lot, social, grateful person in 2021 spring.
Thank you for caring. All the best.
Thank you !!! Very helpfull
Thanks brother. Do you feel better now since this video?
Im not getting windows im scared all the time. Its 28 months. I lost alot but im left with awful dpdr and head sx and chemical anxiety. If i could just have feelings id be happy. Thznk you😊
Hope you Got better
I love na and aa, i have started going back to meetings while in my ssri taper.
So I didn’t wake up in DPDR or anxiety . I just feel like I don’t wanna do anything. I’m not happy . I’m still numb. I’m still kinda on edge . Dan are these things normal after DPDR
Yeah, completely normal. I had that for weeks. There’s a name for it called anhedonia where you don’t feel anything at all.
I'm so sick I have to go to court ordered classes an I'm so sick I can't go sometimes.
Am it sucks cause imma end up going back to jail for a fucking year. This is messed upim about to just accept the fact that im to sick to go an just go back to jail. Im miserable anyways.
My heart hurts for you reading this. ♥️
@@donna6165 it's ok. I find hope in jesus no matter what happens. Godbless you.
@@dustygatrell-ru7tg Very reassuring to hear. Thank you and you as well, Dusty. ♥️
Sorry to hear this, Dusty. Glad to hear your faith and hope is strong though.
Did you come off any Antidepressants?
Yes, 100mg of pristiq. I was on some form of AD for 17 years
Hey Dan did it affect your taste buds I’m 3 months off CT and it was brutal dr didn’t tell me I would go in withdrawal I told her I couldn’t take she wrote another script
I don’t recall it affecting my taste buds but wouldn’t be surprised if it did for some people.
1 year off and it's still unbearable.
Hi there , did you dona slow tapper ??? Or fast . No more that 1mg a month , its a slow process but its worth it in the long run . I wish you all the best on your journey .❤❤
@@joesweeney8153 I was stupid and only tapered for 2 weeks. The only good thing is my sleep is much better. What a journey...
@lisaboyle8138
Extremely dangerous tampering that fast . Took me 2 years to get them blue pills. 8 month done the line . Only just able to get out of bed .
I was still pretty miserable at a year off too.
Same here.... 15 months off....horrendous symptoms still
5 years off, still waiting? Lol. Are you talking about addiction?