Citizen Soldier - Anyone But Me (Official Lyric Video)

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  • @NyctoNel
    @NyctoNel Год назад +918

    I love how you incorporated the saying "mirror mirror on the wall" but still converted into your own thing. The whole premise of seeing yourself makes your skin crawl is definitely something a lot of people are gonna relate to, but what a great way to put it. 🧡

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +110

      So true! Thank you! 🧡

    • @nicholasstoter6871
      @nicholasstoter6871 Год назад +12

      its actually magic mirror on the wall.

    • @williambarret-mead9773
      @williambarret-mead9773 Год назад +21

      No dude its "mirror mirror on the wall whose the fairest of them all" I know cause its my dads favourite disney princess movie

    • @NyctoNel
      @NyctoNel Год назад +11

      @@williambarret-mead9773 I can't tell if these comments besides CS's comment is a troll or not...

    • @williambarret-mead9773
      @williambarret-mead9773 Год назад +7

      @@NyctoNel I was just correcting nicholas and carrying on your one

  • @undeadkhalifa8271
    @undeadkhalifa8271 Год назад +305

    There's a legend that says: Citizen Soldiers are who will always fight for whom is in need

    • @jessieb7290
      @jessieb7290 Год назад +8

      They should do a movie about it. Sounds great.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад +1

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘

    • @Nikky-io6yv
      @Nikky-io6yv 10 месяцев назад +2

      It's total bs I hate being this way...just wtf is wrong with me

    • @alexdonthavelastname2182
      @alexdonthavelastname2182 8 месяцев назад +2

      ​@Nikky-io6yv there's nothing wrong with you for feeling sad, down, or angry. You have a lot of emotions repressed. You need to let them go to feel just that little bit better. I'm sure if you do the things you wanted to but are afraid, because of failure or something else, that you should just go for it. It will be hard, and it may feel impossible. But even little steps to your goal or dreams and you'll get ther eventually! ♡ I hope you've been feeling better nowadays, you deserve it

  • @KataHime
    @KataHime Год назад +282

    As someone who struggled a lot with my body image - and still do to an extent - this one makes me feel seen. Thank you 🧡🧡

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +39

      Thank you! We see you 🧡

    • @jessieb7290
      @jessieb7290 Год назад +5

      Likewise. Dealing with mine with mindfulness, it’s really helped me to notice my eating habits. No longer suicidal but was for a long time in my teens.
      I like how they cover a lot of diverse issues and it’s something people can relate to.

    • @demoncore3421
      @demoncore3421 Год назад +2

      I literally would say this in my head: I wish I was skinny.

  • @xenotriver
    @xenotriver Год назад +201

    Body image is not a problem for me but I still have some things that make me want to wake up in a different body so this is definitely going to be my new anthem!!
    Stay strong everyone, you deserve to be loved, even if you sometimes think otherwise.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +22

      Great message Xenotriver! We think so too!

    • @jessieb7290
      @jessieb7290 Год назад +2

      That’s very true ♥️

  • @melodys_cat
    @melodys_cat Год назад +94

    “Stuck in skin, I can’t take off-so obsessed on what I’m not..” “Written in each bruise and cut” the whole facts right there❤️‍🩹 😔

    • @kdtrilogybackup5735
      @kdtrilogybackup5735 10 месяцев назад +4

      That phrase hits home hard🥺❤️‍🔥❤️‍🩹

  • @lillianastorm6985
    @lillianastorm6985 Год назад +366

    "If I were skinny I'd be loved"
    I'd be lying if I said this kind of thinking had never crossed my mind. It's horrible how much pressure beauty standards place on people. I thankfully don't have to live with these disorders, but I am so grateful that you are bringing attention to it. I've known people that have lost that battle, and I'm so glad that this song exists to help those like them.
    Keep up the good work guys, this song slaps. Thank you so much for your amazing music 🧡🧡🧡

    • @jessieb7290
      @jessieb7290 Год назад +3

      I used to think that as a teenager. I think back in the day it was more pressurised for women although it’s an everyone thing now. It took me a long time to realise that it doesn’t matter my weight, as long as I try and be a good person. The weight thing is a struggle, but if I can do this you can too.

    • @ForgettableS
      @ForgettableS Год назад +6

      I am underweight, and handsomely skinny. I'm kind of at the perfect wait ratio.its terrible. I don't get more friends because of it. I'm handsome, and because of that everyone just feels jealous and thinks I have tons of friends. Also, as I'm so skinny I get cold really easily, and the slightest wind whips right through me and so I always have to wear multiple layers and just csnt bear the cold. I eat alot more than most people my age and size, and yet cant put on weight

    • @brightclaw7187
      @brightclaw7187 Год назад +1

      I agree, sometimes I look at myself and get angry at how I’m just not skinny like how I feel I should be. It angers me like hell and my father agrees that I’m still quite big.

    • @vickym1664
      @vickym1664 Год назад +1

      I'm skinny now, but no one started to love me more, nothing changed:(( I just fuwcked up my health and feel terrible not only mentally, but also physically

    • @David92031
      @David92031 Год назад

      Being skinny might be even worse in some cases, i've been thru that xd many people will think you are underfed or something like that (might just be slim complexion + lack of exercise, but good nutrition like my case and many others), and some even will make fun of it just like they do on fat ppl.
      And i think it might be worse because i felt like when u are skinny (at least as a man or boy i mean), aggressive ppl are more likely to get in conflict with you for whatever reason since you will be most likely weaker than them, and just physically weak in general, so they feel superior and see you as an easy target.

  • @BlueTextingStories
    @BlueTextingStories Год назад +100

    The amount of messages inside this song, just like EVERY OTHER Citizen has done, is just superb.

  • @noone-ob3ur
    @noone-ob3ur Год назад +25

    I think I've never heard a song about eating disorder. You are first and I just really appreciate it.

  • @theunknownone_
    @theunknownone_ Год назад +110

    0:24 - 1:06 This section explains perfectly how my mind has been for as long as I can remember. My autism making things so much more difficult for me than others always brings about the thoughts of how things would be if I was someone else.
    Another Citizen Soldier song that hits home. 🤘

    • @Epicgamer-dc5sh
      @Epicgamer-dc5sh Год назад

      Oh! another person with autism! hope you doing better now. (me and my friend have autism too)

    • @jessieb7290
      @jessieb7290 Год назад +1

      But if you were someone else, you wouldn’t be the wonderful person you are. It’s sometimes good to think about what we like and dislike about ourselves to realise the bad stuff isn’t so bad. Plus we all learn, understand, love at different levels. So your never really behind anyone else. Your just on your own personal journey and it’s an amazing one. There will be highs and lows, but your strong and you can make it through any pain or discomfort.

    • @demonwolf1255
      @demonwolf1255 Год назад +5

      I understand you on your ASD , I have it too some days I wish I was someone els who could be better for my family but if I wasn’t me then my mom wouldn’t have her son who loves wolves and his family, so when your feeling down thing of the good times you’ve had with being your self around others and how being your self brings a positive impact on them an they wouldn’t have your spark if you where not you

    • @Epicgamer-dc5sh
      @Epicgamer-dc5sh Год назад +1

      Also, if I am correct, several famous people have had autism (famous, not infamous) however I may be wrong (I doubt I am wrong)

    • @SuperNerdyBoy
      @SuperNerdyBoy Год назад +1

      I know the pain I have autism as well and I feel the same way

  • @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939
    @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 Год назад +96

    I love how the music video changes throughout the entire song, as opposed to having a consistent theme in the choruses. It really fits with the theme of the song, which I think was an amazing and well thought out detail.
    I absolutely love this song, and I’m super excited to see what’s next. I have a feeling it’s either Still Frame or Madhouse.

    • @artistrankings6794
      @artistrankings6794 Год назад +1

      my guess is still frame or deathbed. I’m like 90% confident Still Frame is coming out as a single because we know Tattoos is being released with the album. I doubt they’d release two slower acoustic ballads side by side

    • @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939
      @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 Год назад

      @@artistrankings6794 I’m really looking forward to Scarecrow, Madhouse, Still Frame, and Tattoos. I have that weird feeling that I’m hyped up for them a LOT without any reason.

    • @artistrankings6794
      @artistrankings6794 Год назад +2

      @@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 im expecting madhouse to be similar to pandora’s box. the most strangely progressive rock song on the album

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘

  • @lunablue4543
    @lunablue4543 Год назад +30

    A friend recommended that I listen to Citizen Soldier a while ago, and I really enjoyed their first four albums because they helped me with mental health in a general way. But shittttttt, this song sounds like it came directly out of my brain. I've never heard a song with more potent, straight to the point lyrics about what it feels like to struggle like this. I hope other people feel as seen as I do. Keep fighting, y'all. 💞

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘

  • @grizzly4769
    @grizzly4769 Год назад +51

    I’ve recently got on anti-depressants and there’s been a massive change in my mental health ever since. That doesn’t change that this band was a massive part of what carried me through my darkest and hardest moments. Whenever I was in a bad place this band was my go to music. It truly helped me and I will listen to this band for my life. For anyone going through any mental health struggle whatsoever just remember you are amazing, you are loved, you are cared for and you are not alone

  • @kryswilson2743
    @kryswilson2743 Год назад +58

    This song is amazing and absolutely incredible

  • @arcadia8936
    @arcadia8936 Год назад +46

    Body image used to be a massive problem for me. It’s still can be sometimes, but I’ve gotten a lot more confident in my appearance in recent years. Thank you for writing a song that addresses this kind of struggle. The lyrics are incredible as always 💚

  • @jakehefner
    @jakehefner Год назад +27

    As someone who's always been a bigger guy, this song really hit me. This sums up a ton of feelings I had growing up from elementary all the way to high school. Sometimes even still today...
    Thank you for this song, fellas

    • @haileym.8015
      @haileym.8015 4 месяца назад +1

      Hey, I know I'm late to respond but I hope you still to this day remember, that you're beautiful the way you are. And I relate to that so well.
      I hope things are better for you now.
      Take care. :)

  • @MairredSleepyBoyAizawa
    @MairredSleepyBoyAizawa Год назад +27

    I always love how accurate you are at capturing mental illness and representing people who need it. This is why you are my favorite band 🖤

  • @mikjallarnzs392
    @mikjallarnzs392 Год назад +29

    My favorite song of the album until now. And easily top five of your whole discography. YOU ARE AWESOME!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +6

      Whoa! Thanks Mikjall

    • @artistrankings6794
      @artistrankings6794 Год назад +1

      this is a banger yeah, this one comes it at #11 for me out of their discography

  • @alessiapegurri2252
    @alessiapegurri2252 Год назад +3

    Oh shit... This hurt very hard... "If I died at least I couldn't fell this alone"
    Why all of your song make me cry and feel like they're my story...

  • @Serenity_93
    @Serenity_93 Год назад +28

    I'm in love with this song! 💙 I've struggled with my body image for so many years 🥺

    • @shadowhawk4164
      @shadowhawk4164 Год назад +3

      Im sorry you have to go through that, it’s never fun feeling trapped in your own skin, disgusted by the shaping of limbs, I hope someone helps you love yourself again, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if I offended you

    • @Serenity_93
      @Serenity_93 Год назад +3

      @@shadowhawk4164 thank you 💙 it's totally okay, that made sense and no you didn't offend me at all! Yay it really sucks, especially if I like go to the beach and I just instantly want to cover up my body because i see it as fat.. or having people just look up and down at me too is the worst! A friend does that to me all time which makes me feel so self conscious

    • @shadowhawk4164
      @shadowhawk4164 Год назад +2

      @@Serenity_93 yeah, I would just run back inside and never come out, i can’t even shower with the lights on i can’t handle seeing my body, I have to wear a thick sweater and my vest every-time I go out, I even wear the vest around my family in fear of what they will see if I don’t, even in hot weather, honestly I just wish my mom could see what her words are doing to me, one day I’d just like to come down and she won’t point out all my physical flaws, I hope that friend sees how that’s affecting you and helps you instead, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if I offended you, my brain is not awake enough to form words

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +3

      Thanks Heather!

  • @NeverlandSystemAngel
    @NeverlandSystemAngel Год назад +5

    This is amazing... absolutely breathtaking... I'm part of a DID (multiple personality) system... our host's mother nearly died from anorexia, starving herself to death really badly one year- THREE TIMES she nearly died, in a 12 month span.
    We have trauma from that year... and this nails everything she described feeling soooo damn well.

  • @ahrivastaya9392
    @ahrivastaya9392 Год назад +6

    I shared this with my boyfriend. His body is amazing, but it can't stand up to the sheer amount of pressure his mind puts on it. He often tells me how he feels disappointing for not being faster and stronger than he currently is. He's 5' 10", but weighs a little under 50 kgs. He can lifts 80 kgs and run at about 28 km/s, but he still apologizes for not being good enough for me. This song really made me think of him, and how his mental mirror constantly makes him feel like shit. I'm really grateful to you for wording and expressing perfectly how pressure by others and yourself about how you look can ruin a person. Thank you.

  • @casjadyn1733
    @casjadyn1733 Год назад +7

    From a pre T trans masc with several eating disorders that struggles with self harm, this song perfectly explains the shame and disgust I live with every day. It hurts so bad knowing there's so many people who can relate; nobody should have to suffer like this. And yet, I'm glad I'm not alone. I just wish none of us suffered like this

  • @Rhys_is_pog1764
    @Rhys_is_pog1764 Год назад +28

    I love this I was recently having issues eating and this makes me feel so much better thank you

  • @bastet8016
    @bastet8016 Год назад +1

    "If I was skinny I'd be loved" perfect description of modern standards of perfect body

  • @_mnem0syne
    @_mnem0syne Год назад +22

    as a person who suffered a lot from eating disorders and hating myself, i relate to this song so much. thank you for putting a light on this issue. glad to have you and your songs.

  • @mikaelagonzalez9531
    @mikaelagonzalez9531 Год назад +8

    The tears are real. It makes me feel less alone in the war with myself to know im not the only one who feels this way 🖤

  • @fictionalutopia
    @fictionalutopia Год назад +2

    A depressed person from Bangladesh🇧🇩 and Then I discovered you while listening random depressed song and now I'm Obessed...
    How your each song each line can be so relatable!
    Feels like These songs are meant to be for me..
    I'm sure every person fighting/struggling with Depression will feel same...
    It’s Like You are the Voice I don't Have but hoped anyone would listen!

  • @flickeringtorch
    @flickeringtorch 5 месяцев назад +3

    So many girls worry about being too fat... weak and skinny is the last thing I want to be, but here I am. Almost all of this resonates so strongly it hurts. I've dreamed of being healthy enough to run and climb like a kid again, and the thought of it being possible is like a dangling carrot that keeps me going. That's all...

  • @Gilded_Wolf
    @Gilded_Wolf Год назад +17

    YES YES YES!! Been hyped for this!! Gonna have it on repeat at work today 🧡

  • @LegenGirl40
    @LegenGirl40 Год назад +21

    I suffer from anorexia and I'm always struggling with my weight. This song hits me hard.. thank you for this amazing piece of art.

  • @frettchen201
    @frettchen201 Год назад +23

    Your music is truly a blessing. Whenever I feel bad i can just listen to it and feel somewhat understood and not alone. Keep up the great work ❤️

  • @TheKomodo__Gaming
    @TheKomodo__Gaming Год назад +2

    As someone with Dissociative Identity Disorder (also known as Multiple Personality Disorder; the other side of the coin from Split Personality Disorder) this spoke volumes. Immediately teared up before the song even got to 1 minute. Truly amazing work with every song you make. Old or New alike.

  • @henryhyde8939
    @henryhyde8939 Год назад +120

    I've been suffering with gender dysphoria for so many years now and the only thing anyone has to say when I open up about it is to get over it and love my body. Like no, I can't love a body that doesn't belong to me, and even though this song is about Dysmorphia, it captures perfectly how it feels. Both feel like they're tattooed to your forehead for all to see. It's been especially bad lately, so thank you so much for this. It means more than I could ever express.
    Edit: I'm officially adopting all of you as my new family Holy crud you guys are so freaking sweet and kind

    • @hopeowl
      @hopeowl Год назад +11

      As someone who also deals with gender dysphoria: Well said! For me there's some overlap between it and disordered eating for the sole reason that fat = curves = female (in my and a lot of other people's mind) so my goal was always to be as skinny as possibly to deal with how other people perceive my gender.

    • @ANGH3LL1C420
      @ANGH3LL1C420 Год назад +15

      Gender dysphoria is such a huge problem for people who identify as something other than their birth gender, but they can't transition because of financial reasons/unsupportive family etc. It really truly sucks.

    • @henryhyde8939
      @henryhyde8939 Год назад +2

      @@hopeowl Dysphoria buddies! :'D
      For me it's kind of the opposite though, because I feel like I can fill in the curves in somehow, even when I know anatomy doesn't work that way. It's comforting to know we're not all alone in the struggle, though 😊

    • @Captainval28
      @Captainval28 Год назад +3

      @@ANGH3LL1C420 it really does I also have gender dysphoria I knew this song would’ve helped trans indaviduals

    • @jessieb7290
      @jessieb7290 Год назад +5

      Inside doesn’t always match outside. You can always be free at another stage in life. Give yourself time and remember sometimes the people who we surround ourselves with are more toxic than our own thoughts.
      You are seen, you are valued, you are appreciated.
      You also had the strength to write about it in the comment section. Thank you for your honesty ♥️

  • @hero-kun2314
    @hero-kun2314 Год назад +4

    This song basically says...I hate myself, I wish I was someone else. Everyone changes they're personality cuz of the pain and the feeling of self deprivation, so they decide to be someone else. To the people who feel this way...if you wanna change it doesn't mean you have to forget who you are, all you need to do is improve....not change. Knowing others is strength but knowing your self is power.

  • @Errorvirus404
    @Errorvirus404 Год назад +6

    Another song that hits home. I hate myself sometimes and feel like I'm a disappointment.

  • @AlwaysMrKong
    @AlwaysMrKong Год назад +23

    As expected, another banger from the best band alive 😌 you never disappoint nor have inaccurate lyrics to my life 😁

  • @ashiefilms17
    @ashiefilms17 Год назад +5

    Always a masterpiece with CS, no disappointments whatsoever

  • @saffronjin9500
    @saffronjin9500 Год назад +9

    this gives me nostalgia to my early 2000s depression days when i was really struggling. I still fight ED everyday but no longer being a bed ridden skeleton I get to look at myself today and be proud of the progress I've done and the meat on my bones i worked so hard for. Young teen me really would have vibed and cried to this song. I hope others like me can find comfort in it and be able to someday listen to it like I am now from a point in recovery

  • @marjanehbarajas8363
    @marjanehbarajas8363 Год назад +7

    "So obsessed with what I'm not, hit myself for every flaw, I can't take it" I had felt identified with those feelings before the moment I could finally understand that the visual culture of beauty it's a creation that often leads to bad health and self destruction. This songs it's beautiful, and it's nice that you guys have decided to represent self image issues that a lot of people struggle with, thank you for this masterpiece, keep doing music like this💛

  • @erinquinn9712
    @erinquinn9712 Год назад +2

    citizen soldier is a true poet for our time

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘

  • @kenburwood
    @kenburwood Год назад +6

    I've never had this particular battle, but I'm so glad that you make songs addressing a wide range of internal conflicts that we each face! Underneath, many are similar battles but with different twists.

  • @ambrissakaminari6926
    @ambrissakaminari6926 Год назад +12

    I feel this.. while I don't have it everyday I can't help but relate even if it's just a little bit. Thank you for another masterpiece 🧡

  • @eline_van_dijk
    @eline_van_dijk Год назад

    All my life I've been called fat and ugly. It got to the point where I became afraid to look into the mirror, knowing I would hate what I saw. Luckily for me I found someone who knew and understood the way I felt. She became my friend and we helped each other pull through. I still have those days where I can't stand looking at myself, but with her help I've done a lot of healing over the past few years. Reminding myself that even though I might not be perfect, I'm worth loving, it's okay to love me. It is difficult to always believe in that, but whenever I feel bad I come here. I listen to your music and read through the comments. Your music and the people here inspire me to keep looking into the mirror and say "I love you. I love me.". Thank you for everything you've done and to everyone reading this: you ARE beautiful! Not DESPITE your flaws, but BECAUSE of them. I am sure there are people who see the parts you find ugly about yourself and they will love them. They're a part of you and one day you will find that they are worth loving. It's a struggle and a long fight, but it will be worth it because YOU ARE WORTH IT! If I can learn to love me, I am sure that you will find the strength to learn and love you. ❤️🙏

  • @chelseahodge6085
    @chelseahodge6085 Год назад +1

    I remember being bullied in grade school for my size and I hated myself for it but over time I learned that what others say dosen't matter, even now I'm still overweight but I'm working towards fixing that not for what others think but for me, because I know that it will make me healthier and happier. No matter what others say about your size don't let it get to you be yourself and work towards making yourself happy 💙

  • @mystiangel96
    @mystiangel96 Год назад +7

    The first time I remember wanting to be lose weight/be skinny was when I was 7. I'm 26 now and have battled multiple mental health issues my entire life. This album has been therapeutic to listen to as each song comes out. Much love! ❤️

  • @5N1P3R5H0T
    @5N1P3R5H0T Год назад +7

    “If I was skinny, I’d be loved”
    The first time I heard those lyrics, it hit me hard. I’ve struggled with my weight, even stopped eating to lose weight due to depression. Gained almost all of it back. Just haven’t found the motivation to lose it again

    • @konikiispoka800
      @konikiispoka800 10 месяцев назад

      Its the same with me, im trying to lise weight but i can't, even if I lose some, I'm getting all (or sometimes more) back and its awful, cause im really trying, im doing my Best and it isn't helping

  • @jonathanpaulenka9429
    @jonathanpaulenka9429 Год назад +1

    "hit myself for every flaw" DAMN that hit hard.

  • @RebekahSlick
    @RebekahSlick Год назад

    To anyone hurting, you are not alone. You are beautiful, and Jesus loves you. I pray that He brings wonderful people into your life and that you will have love and peace. 💗

  • @Luv200
    @Luv200 Год назад +8

    Another AMAZING song I get to add to my Favourites playlist 🥰🥰
    Citizen Soldier deserves ALL the love and support in existence 🧡

  • @CitizenSoldier
    @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +96

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    • @heatherdawnpipke1902
      @heatherdawnpipke1902 Год назад +1

      Yes there is someone with you all the time as far as I can see
      We really are ....not ALONE

    • @quashadbackus1666
      @quashadbackus1666 Год назад +1

      Body image isn't everything, just remember, that there's more to life than being overweight, skinny, or overall not perfect. You will be loved just the way you are.♥️♥️♥️

    • @kingphoenixflameswarrior508
      @kingphoenixflameswarrior508 Год назад +3

      Please do one for people with bad ocd that lil things can drive them so crazy they wanna rip there hair out or end the suffering locked behind a fake smile like everyday there in their own little hell

  • @glace.athenarose
    @glace.athenarose Год назад +1

    When he said "some nights I lie awake and I just dream that I am someone else, anyone but me," I felt it so bad

  • @donnakirkman399
    @donnakirkman399 Год назад

    If you weren’t depressed to begin with….you will be when you listen to this song…🥺🥺🥺

  • @xdean.o
    @xdean.o Год назад +8

    I’ve always struggled with my body image, so this song hits especially hard! Another song that will go straight to my playlist!

  • @jordanreynolds7698
    @jordanreynolds7698 Год назад +3

    When I realised this song was finished I rush for my headphones. This song means so much to me. I am a big person and in the last year was diagnosed with a binge eating disorder. I can't look in a mirror anymore without crying and my niece is being diagnosed with anorexia. I will be showing her this song so that way she understands she isn't alone and we can get through it together. Thank you ❤

  • @JC-bq3vd
    @JC-bq3vd Год назад +2

    Yea this is going on repeat for the next 5 years. "Hit myself for every flaw, I can't take it, I can't take it." It's a person silently suffering, stuck in a body they hate and can't change hating themselves for every word they heard. something they can't fix or wasn't there fault it doesn't matter we just want to be someone else anyone but us

  • @WOLFDEMONJORDYN
    @WOLFDEMONJORDYN Год назад +2

    I dont expect you to see his bit i hope you do.
    Back when I was a teen a was skinny but I never though I was skinny enough or pretty enough. I quit eating and use to SH. If only you had been releasing music back that. For years I struggles with my body image. I hated the way I looked and acted. I hate how my hair was, how my smile was, how I walked,talked and laughed. But a few years ago I stumbled on your music and it helped me to see that I'm perfect the way I am. Flaws and all. It helped show me that someone loves me for who I am no matter what. But depression is slowly creeping in no matter how much i push back. I'm losing my battle with depression and it feels like no one cares. I feel like I'm drowning and I can't get out. Every day I barely want to get out of bed most days I don't eat. I sleep so much and barely talk to anyone anymore. I don't enjoy doing what I use to. I have no energy to keep fighting. Im slowly losing my mind and I can't seem to get it back. If it's not anxiety or depression it's PTSD and flashbacks. I feel like a freak. Im, not the same person I want and I don't like who I'm becoming. I feel so fucked(sorry for the language) up. It feels like I'm trying to enjoy a pool party when I am drowning in the pool and all I can hear is people having a great time and laughing while completely unaware of the way my body keeps submerging into the water getting heavier by the second water filling my lung so much I can't breathe. Some days I feel so numb that I just lay in bed staring at the wall. Others I can't stop crying. Sometimes I forget days at a time.

  • @resetexe.018
    @resetexe.018 Год назад +4

    This song brought back memories of the past. I remember back then, I wasn't so insecure with my own body. It didn't matter to me what they think, as long as I stay healthy. At least, until I got addicted to the feeling of hunger. When I was using it as my way of hurting myself internally because it feels more real and I feel alive. It was my punishment. And that was so hard to break off, but I'm proud that I managed to get out of it of course!
    However, this song really just made me imagine or well I felt like I'm seeing myself from a third person perspective.
    Like this is exactly how I feel on some days. When others point out how skinny I am or any weight loss or gain, it's always pointed out. And it's just so hard not to feel so ashamed and my smile faltering. Knowing that every time they point it out.
    Part of me apologizes.
    "I did this to myself, I'm sorry. I wasn't strong enough."
    Old habits die hard even because sometimes I unconsciously skip meals. I remember there would even be days, no matter how brightly I smile. I will suddenly be so hyper aware of my skin. Like my entire being is just a scar.
    It's so frustrating to be misunderstood that it's not the cause of models that I'm insecure about. Or how someone has a better body than me. But it's what I did to myself.
    Ahhhh XD
    I feel like a damn idiot for just wanting to cry while also smiling. Gods, this song really just hits close to the old home that's so precious to me.

  • @thedragonlord2341
    @thedragonlord2341 Год назад +19

    This song is absolutely stunning!!
    The lyrics, the instrumental part, EVERYTHING in here is in the right place!!!
    I absolutely love the part that starts from 2:10 , I just love how the music/voice change, it gives me goosebumps every time I listen to it!! Well done , Citizen Soldier, another song, another masterpiece 🔥
    To anyone struggling out there, I know it's a very hard battle, but I promise that you are going to be ok, all you need is to be for a little bit stronger, it's totally worth it, you can do this !!💪
    Sending big hugs to everyone!

  • @brecolborn4046
    @brecolborn4046 9 месяцев назад

    "Skipping meals is not enough...if I was skinny I'd be loved." Something I struggle with constantly

  • @shittuspostus754
    @shittuspostus754 Год назад +1

    I'm insecure about my height, I'm insecure about the color of my skin, im insecure about the shape of my nose, eyes, ears, and the way my hair is shaped, I hate it all, I just wish I was a different person overall, I wish I was not ugly, this song really gave me a space to breathe, when everyone else looks so handsome and pretty and so confident at it, I'm glad to know someone out there understands what I'm going through, I wish for all of us to eventually glow up one day.

  • @JT_Lich
    @JT_Lich Год назад +7

    I think this is the most relatable one for me out of all of the Scarecrow tracks so far. It is hell when your reflection doesn't match the inside. Great song as always, you guys rock

  • @haileylackey4792
    @haileylackey4792 Год назад +7

    This is a very spot on song…hits home…thank y’all for the songs y’all make. Hugs 🤗

  • @caitrinabbott4006
    @caitrinabbott4006 Год назад +1

    I have BPD and body dysmorphia along with PTSD from DV..... I was 12 when I "lost" my appetite. I can't have a full length mirror in my house. I'm only okay with pictures and videos with just my face. So this song says everything that I couldn't for years!

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘

  • @Daniel14550
    @Daniel14550 Год назад

    I'm glad that EDs are being recognized here. This song speaks to me.

  • @Hand-Me-Down
    @Hand-Me-Down Год назад +6

    Jeez, i was looking for copper but found a freaking bunch of diamonds. I can't even properly express how much i love about 90% of your songs. Your music resonate with my soul so bad, that i have been listening for it for weeks. Pure perfection. (I'm sorry for my bad English)

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘

  • @NearLover15
    @NearLover15 Год назад +3

    I’ve been listening to the on repeat for the last half hour, I have been just trying to put words. This song is how I feel every single day, I’m writing this still in tears, I’ve never identified with a song more than I do now, thank you, thank you so much

  • @lbdjthethird1240
    @lbdjthethird1240 Год назад +1

    Boy did I ever stumble upon your music on exactly the right day. I do not even have to explain the why because you have already heard my cry.

  • @Jenmt23
    @Jenmt23 Год назад +4

    Another powerful song, and as someone that suffered many years from an eating disorder it described the hell that someone suffering with an eating disorder goes through on a daily basis and it is such a lonely walk.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +1

      Sorry you're dealing with this. Stay strong Eva! 🧡

  • @laurenseong9527
    @laurenseong9527 Год назад +3

    Omg you released this song at the perfect timing for me.
    I just finished explaining to my best friend how much I've been struggling with my body image recently. Over the last two weeks, I relapsed with my eating disorder, and today was a particular bad day. My friend told me "so many people would kill to have your body shape." But how am I supposed to believe that when I feel ugly and fat?
    I needed this song so much today - the lyrics just resound with me so much. Now I feel like I'm not the only one struggling with this. Thank you so much for the amazing song as always ❤️

  • @nexusashwood5576
    @nexusashwood5576 Год назад +1

    Came from Tiktok! This is my new favorite song! This is such a good band!!

  • @roaashamallakh1480
    @roaashamallakh1480 Год назад

    This song is so relatable as someone struggle with eating disorder, depressed, and body image.

  • @Rebelicious68
    @Rebelicious68 Год назад +3

    A daily battle for me is my weight demon 😈 Thank you again Citizen Soldier for always making music and words of art that help many of us feel you understand and your music is my therapy 🧡 Much Love from North Carolina 💙

  • @katherinegarridonavarrete199
    @katherinegarridonavarrete199 Год назад +4

    Mirror, mirror on the wall
    I see you and my skin crawls
    This line right here hits hard, right from the beginning you have me hooked. I’ve not looked at mirror in years and I’m in my early twenties. This song is something I’ve been wanting and waiting for because there isn’t enough out there that help or can be used to describe what I’m feeling. It’s why I love your music, when my brain stalls and I can’t physically talk about why I’m breaking your music speaks for me.

  • @thatguy3
    @thatguy3 Год назад

    No matter the song, no matter the reason behind it citizen soilder hits them feels. Outstanding song.

  • @constantinodecosta5767
    @constantinodecosta5767 Год назад

    So honored and proud of citizen soldier, words cannot express enough the man you are we need more men in this world like you you don’t hold back you’re not afraid of what people have to say you are who you are it’s like take me as I am or you know what that’s your loss and if the world was actually open their minds and open their hearts , and honestly start underlining the real issues of this world we would all start to heal, but thank God there are people like you because other people know that they’re not alone they know that there’s other people out there just like them they go through the same things every day the same struggles people out there that know that they are not crazy because I don’t even like that word unless I’m defining myself lol , but it was a pleasure being introduced to you you are a true man of honor, thank you Jake, You saved my family

  • @AshiDeino
    @AshiDeino Год назад +3

    listening to this song, this band, it makes me realize how hard ive hit myself over the years for everything wrong ive done, even if it was just my autism. things like "if i was skinny id be loved" hits the most because i am way overweight and it makes me realize just how badly ive hated it, and yet it also makes me realize how little effort i have to get myself to change it because whats the point, no one stays long enough to love me, no one even reaches out much anymore, and by now i want to cry but i cry so much i just dont have the tears to shed anymore, sometimes i want to just end it all but i dont even have the strength to do that, im stuck in a hole that i want to get out of but cant get myself to get out of. this is just a neverending cycle of me hating myself and everyone i thought i could trust leaving me

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘

  • @mirandalamberth1837
    @mirandalamberth1837 Год назад +5

    I first heard this on RUclips shorts and couldn't wait for it to come out thank you for makeing relatable music💜💜

  • @kaptyniak8836
    @kaptyniak8836 Месяц назад +1

    Your voice and what you can do with it gives me chills and my head is going crazy, You are an amazing singer Greetings from Poland 💪🔥🔥❤❤❤

  • @Fenrirwargod223
    @Fenrirwargod223 Год назад +1

    This guy is a life saver I hope he knows that

  • @victoriavaughan6496
    @victoriavaughan6496 Год назад +8

    'if I died at least then I couldn't feel this along' that struck too close to home. Thank you for your music 💜

  • @th3pugm4st3r9
    @th3pugm4st3r9 Год назад +3

    I’ve grown up being genuinely pretty lucky, besides a few physical and mental issues like scoliosis and autism, I generally grew up with a good family, school, friends etc. sometimes when I was feeling down I’d always think that many people have it worse then me. Your music has helped me tell myself that my mental health is important regardless of how I grew up. Keep it up we all love your music!

  • @m.o.d.01
    @m.o.d.01 Год назад

    Soldiers don’t give up! Remember when you started? GOD loves you more than you love yourself! Isn’t that enough?🤗❤️‍🔥🙏

  • @caslynn9531
    @caslynn9531 Год назад

    I struggle a lot w body image. Body dysphoria is so weird to go through. "Even in my own skin feels like I'm never home". Exactly. Looking in a mirror and seeing someone who cannot possibly be me. Truly, your songs always resonate w me but this one hits close. I've never had a song that so closely pinpoints the thoughts and feelings of body dysphoria and struggles of eating

  • @peytonodom0414
    @peytonodom0414 Год назад +4

    I love you guys never disappoint, my pain and sadness too great I was lost for a long-time but your songs heal my pain and my soul find my way back into the light and when i hear this song it so true so thank you for save me 😢❤

  • @E.Nobody
    @E.Nobody Год назад +6

    This is the first time I've heard this one.
    Haven't been on youtube much, have a lot of your songs to catch up on.
    You've once again made a beautiful, moving song💙
    Struggled with gender, self hate and my size and just the way I look in general, since I was very young, so this one definitely hit deep for me.
    I'm really sorry you fight these feelings too😞 you are amazing.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘

  • @rynl2076
    @rynl2076 Год назад +1

    Hnn yeah, 'anyone but me'.
    Thanks for the music 🖤

  • @koffeeyka5089
    @koffeeyka5089 Год назад

    Damn, that ragged scream is tearing right into my soul and I just can't get enough of it 🥺

  • @turtlemun
    @turtlemun Год назад +7

    I know it's about EDs, but as a pre-t trans man, this song really speaks to me

  • @Edgeof666
    @Edgeof666 Год назад +5

    This describes exactly how I've been feeling lately, and I am always terrified to reach out for help for fear of rejection.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “”The Wave” or “Glory” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘🪖 🤘🤘🤘

  • @briannataylor2571
    @briannataylor2571 Год назад +1

    I really needed this. I've struggled with anorexia since I was like 12 from ptsd, but nobody knows nor cares. And its an awful battle.

  • @atomicr4y472
    @atomicr4y472 Год назад

    I know people that suffer from confidence issues and eating disorders. It really fucks with someone and can derail their entire lives. Glad to see a song that really puts into perspective what it's like.

  • @oligoweee
    @oligoweee Год назад +5

    I've been listening to this on Spotify on repeat, this is probably my new favorite Scarecrow song so far. you guys always do such a great job with your songs :] 🧡

  • @NagaYamiyo
    @NagaYamiyo Год назад +3

    This song is amazing! While I don't exactly love what I see when I look in the mirror, it has never affected me to the level it does for others.

  • @lowpolysunrise
    @lowpolysunrise 8 месяцев назад

    I heard this for the first time and my world basically shattered. It's everything I ever kept inside and away from the world all right in front of me.

  • @constantinodecosta5767
    @constantinodecosta5767 Год назад

    So honored and proud of says and soldier, words cannot express enough the man you are we need more men in this world like you you don’t hold back you’re not afraid of what people have to say you are who you are it’s like take me as I am or you know what that’s your loss and if the world was actually open their minds and open their hearts , and honestly start underlining the real issues of this world we would all start to heal, but thank God there are people like you because other people know that they’re not alone they know that there’s other people out there just like them they go through the same things every day the same struggles people out there that know that they are not crazy because I don’t even like that word unless I’m defining myself lol , but it was a pleasure being introduced to you you are a true man of honor, thank you Jake, You saved my family

  • @_crimsonwxnter
    @_crimsonwxnter Год назад +3

    I really love this song. This lyric video is way different than normal.

  • @BubbleTea002
    @BubbleTea002 Год назад +3

    This might just become my new favourite song of you. Can relate to every line, great work

  • @abysswalkergray550
    @abysswalkergray550 Год назад +1

    Before I got gastric sleeve, I couldn't stand myself at all. My appearance was and still is one of the strongest demons I fight on the daily. When I went into surgery, I remember praying something would go wrong... I didn't even go through with it for me... I did it cause I wanted someone to love me... To be accepted by society... I was 425lbs before. Now it's been 2 years since then and I'm 165 but the hatred is still there despite all the kind words I get from strangers and family. In my eyes, I'm still just as disgusting now with saggy skin and on top of that, I carry the shame of wanting to die on the table that day... But now that I've got a grip on myself, I try with everything I have to never give up. It's tattooed on my arm after all with y'all's logo and a semi colon in the middle 💙💜 This song has already helped so many people and I'll never stop thanking you guys for it. Love you guys -Chase

  • @emery5280
    @emery5280 Год назад +2

    Amazing and i always love listening to ur music and playing my guitar along to it in my own home and im doing music in a-level and i cant wait for ur future songs as ik they will always be relatable and something i can always listen to no matter my mood

  • @adamhouck5849
    @adamhouck5849 Год назад +3

    This was another amazing song! You guys are truly hitting home with so many people. I hope that those people who are told they are not perfect or they need to change, don’t believe them! God made you perfect remember that. I hope that those people look into that mirror I pray you see the amazing and beautiful person you are. Thank you for taking the time again you guys have honestly saved my life.. I don’t mean that hypothetically. Your music and lyrics are so heart felt and genuine. You have helped me become more than my past, and that my story is not ending soon and I have the power to write those pages.