DO NOT GIVE UP! Two years ago my daughter finally recovered from psychotic depression. I sat with her for 12 years of absolute hell - suicide attempts, epileptic seizures, the works. I gave my life to her because I believed in her strength. She is married now and I have a beautiful grandson. You can do this. I've watched quite a few of your vlogs and I believe in you. I'm now 70 years old and finally I have happiness. You too will find your space in this world. I'm watching.
James, bro, it takes BALLS to do what you just did in this video! Putting yourself in front of all of us and being totally honest and transparent! That takes some guts, my friend! I am so stoked that you are taking this condition serious and are in therapy. I guarantee you that there are a lot of people watching your videos every day, because they are dealing with similar issues. Those people don't necessarily comment or subscribe or give it a like. They are watching because they are too afraid of doing what you are doing. They watch because they can relate to you and your videos gives them a sense of well-being because they realize that it is not just THEM! You are showing us that we are not alone! Great job, James! Continue to update us. We all love you, bro! We're all in your corner and pulling for you! You will get past this 'season' in your life, I promise! Good things are coming your way!
Yes, James, we're all sending mad love and healing vibes in your direction! I wish more people were brave enough to talk about mental health. It's so important to talk to someone about how we're feeling and how we're doing in life and so many people are scared to because of the stigma. I found my brother, who took his life in 2007, please don't do that to your family. I'm still in therapy for depression and PTSD, from what I experienced that day. Just know that your being on this earth is important, to so many of us! Actually, to anyone who made it this far in my comment, you're loved as well. 🤟 If anyone ever needs someone to talk to about anything, I'm the most non-judgmental person there is. I'm also a member of the alphabet mafia. I know some members of the LGBTQ community feel more comfortable talking to someone who can relate, which is why I mentioned that. PEACE, LOVE, UNITY and RESPECT to you all. 🕊❤👬👫👭
Cheers James, you took the first step in recognizing you have a problem, and realizing you can and will do better in taking good care of yourself, stay close to your love ones that I am sure you have plenty around you. Good luck and continue with your therapy, think positive remember you are very valuable specially to your parents. Big hugs kiddo.
I couldn't do any better than all than second timb's superb comment ! Please please hang in there!! I am much older than you , 59, but the last two or 3 years have been pretty much constant varying levels of depression. Bless you for having the guts to post your vlogs!
The cycle can be overwhelming. I almost unalived myself 11 years ago. It would have been a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Change is difficult. I struggle some days still, but my life is of value. You never know what future you will achieve. A few days after this past Christmas I was driving home after shopping and saw a house on fire. Long story - short: I saved a mans life. I matter. You have so much to offer the world. You have no idea how much good you're bringing others just by your posts here. You matter. Sending positive vibes your way.
Holy cow man, not what I was expecting out of that story. You matter. That’s really amazing that you did that. My mom was saying that yesterday about the “permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’m sorry to hear that you still struggle sometimes, and I hope both of us can overcome this
@@Jwool.mp3 I'm glad those of us that are challenged by our emotions, can connect like this and support one another. Your video content inspires me. Thank you for being you.
I know I’m just a random person on the internet, but it’s gonna be ok. I know you’re not religious, but god is real and theres so much proof. He loves you. There is a god, and he cares. Draw near to him, and he will draw near to you. You’re loved by so many people, and you are worth more than you know. Yes you are just one person, but each and every person has their own story, own way of thinking, and each and every human being could heal someone one day, and in the process, heal themselves🫶🏻
My 24 year old nephew unalived himself 2 weeks ago. My heart breaks for the pain he was in BUT he didn't talk to anyone about how bad it was. The pain he was feeling has been magnified and spread to everyone who loved him and even to those that just knew him. Losing him is agony for the family. Keep talking. Do everything you can to make sure you stay here. It will get better. I promise. It will never get better for my nephew and his mother will be in pain until the day she dies. Crying now.
@@guadalupelemus2100look im a christain too. If you want to spread the gospel thats amazing! But spreading it the way you are isnt how you should. First you should explain our fallen state and the origin of it. Then you should explain how sin is the reason jesus was sent to die on the cross for us.
I genuinely hope it gets better. What you're going through seems terrifying and I'm so sorry you have to go through this in the first place. We're all here. Mental health issues are fucked up, so, please remind yourself that you're doing the best you can.
Ay thank you man. Yes I just gotta try my best. Even when I’m struggling and my best isn’t what I want it to be, I’m still trying my best and that’s what matters
Suicide is a permanent decision to temporary problems. That is what my grandma told me and ever since I’ve been reflecting on things and I am so happy to be alive. And you will feel that way too someday. I am so happy you are alive and many people are too. You are loved, stay strong bro ❤
Self care - exercise, especially aerobics. Get plenty of sleep. Eat right. Don't beat yourself up. Pat yourself on the back for all the good that you've done. Focus on your success. I sincerely hope you find joy soon. Life is great and you have a whole world waiting for you.
Please don't make any drastic permanent decisions You'll be surprised at how better it gets onwards I really love your channel and i don't want anything bad to happen to you :(
Thank you, I hope it’ll get better soon, and I know that I can get better. I won’t do anything permanent and right now I’m just trying to take care of myself
@@Jwool.mp3Take care of yourself focus on what you like and some stuff you want to achieve you are in a stage when you are lost but you are just a young men a smart one
You should really try to get very social with a lot of people, it is very much healing, you deserve the best and most content people around you! If I could I would want to help you right now!! Take caree
@@MyrtheJenniskens Not everytime i'm sorry, i think he should focus on himself and what he like and don't like, then he wiĺl have the best skills to choose who he wants to hang out, sometimes friends are your best ennemies
I am no expert, but being an EMT on a very busy Rescue Squad for over 30 years, I have responded to many medical calls, trauma related incidents, and other very difficult events. Brotha, you dont want all that extra challenge in your life, or for those who love you. So, believe me when I say, take it one hour at a time, then when that feels comfortable take it one day at a time, etc... From what I can tell from your video comments, you have a very caring & loving family and quite the competent therapist. Listen to her, trust her, and also feel brave enough [like you did in this video] to speak freely to your mom/dad, don't feel the need to hide your feelings whether they are negative or positive thoughts. You note that you want to live a long life, which is awesome, but to do so you must work at it even as hard as it can get. Your support systems are there, sooo take advantage of them, don't neglect them or yourself. You have a very important purpose on this Earth, it may not be 100% clear quite yet, but at the right time it will be!! Be patient. But, look closely at what you have done to date; you have brought together so many people of various backgrounds, ages, experiences to teach them how to cope, find help, and try so very hard at things that are very difficult. You are an example to others, please know this!! I know you don't know me from Adam, or possible care to even listen to me, but I rarely comment on most folks' RUclips videos, but you have encouraged me to send this note tonight. That says something about you to encourage this old medical tired responder to sit down and say "good on you" and that you are worthy of a happy life. Yes, it is tough, but nothing in life as important as this is easy youngman. Make your mark, own it, and continue sharing your life & experiences with your RUclips family. We are here to hear you, encourage you, praise you, and just listen to you. Thank you for being you; and never ever forget your worth to yourself, those around you, and us your virtual friends. Write anytime you feel you need to be heard, I am always here to hear you out!!! Be present always...😊🎉
The way you freely share your journey says so much about the kind of person you are, and how hard you’re trying. I think a lot of people on the verge of giving up can learn from you. You’re gonna do great things, keep going.
I cannot offer you advice. But I want to make an observation. I LOVE your level of self awareness and self honesty. And I love that you acknowledge how much you are valued by your parents and your therapist. I am not a religious person, but I am taking time out of my day today and for the next several days to think of your bravery and try to motivate myself by your example.
I agree somewhat. It’s definitely a last resort, and there is one “good” one that my therapist recommends. I don’t think it’s a punishment, although it is very scary to think about. At the end of the day, everyone just wants what’s best for me
My friends and I have been to almost a point of being in a mental hospital, but I’ve gotten people back up on their feet and they’ve and I’m so glad I didn’t have to go to a mental hospital and I hope that you don’t either brother
Don't go to a mental hospital. Especially in america it doesnt work. You need good anit depressants. Dont give up until you find the ones that work for you. It can take 2 weeks for them to start working.@@Jwool.mp3
Lost two I know to suicide. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You were created. You are a good idea. Realize it and move forward with your arms wide open and embrace others and allow them to embrace you.
You just showered up in my recommendations, I don't fit into your age group, but there must be a reason. Perhaps RUclips wants more eyes on your channel. Unfortunately, I can't help you with your struggles, but I will definitely say you have extreme value as a wonderful person, and I hope you are able to find the value of yourself. I know your family loves you, and your viewers care about you. Take care, friend.
You hang in there man. You’re not alone. Any honest person knows they’ve experienced similar spells in their life. Your openness and honesty dude is likely helping countless other people with these vids you’re producing. You are making a huge difference and matter in the world. Routing for you. So what you need to do and have a great week!
Extremely proud of ya young lad! It’s the worst and getting worser(world),, ( Want Truth always ! ) Be The Strong Lion! Can we be both be Frank! I’m Almost 40, ( your 20 amount of emotional, physical, sexual, spiritual, etc abuse .. keep strong dear lad! ( your in a bag mix) only encourage more of what you do to keep strong! Hope it’s ok, involve others in your life! I did anything I could too counter change the abuse, too helping others, ( would it be, helping out ( volunteering with younger kids, sports etc) helping your elders,,, when your alone and Totally frustrated! I pick up garbage off the street,, and seeing the difference afterwards, made me cry with happiness.. the more I thought less of myself, and put my energy into All of us.. it definitely helped me one day at a time! Trying to throw my bad things into beautiful things, also like poetry,, or finding a harmonica and or sing,, .. trust me! Be strong! Truth can hurt! Love can hurt! But seriously; in the end like Simba( the lion King) strong almighty and they will see you, ! And will want to pay it forward like you in tuff times! Hope I’ve been any stray string lion agape of help! Your already strong than you think!, Show them,, I rarely even have to do Truman show,, You have to start with your small area! Actions, talk is amazing, and we’ll building,, but you have to start very small.. your already there! .. I’m a A.D.H.D, words are hopefully meaning ,, .. Hope you take a slice, of my retarded mind. Many continue 98%,! Unfortunately being a loser, One day you’ll hopefully realise! (Chicken dinner 21).. Much love to strong message, ( both of Us! ) Lions Sorry. People will take my stupid words and not understand,, .. wish I wasn’t a retardant.. And FUK cancer again.. grow a bloody sunflower
Reading this I realise that there are people like me who have experienced the same but still willing to pass on their real experience. It really is life affirming just knowing good people are here❤
I've been to some very dark places but i was too stupid to talk to anyone about it. Smart move to tell your parents and get their support. Hoping this will go away soo for you.
Sitting in your room without a phone seems like a path to more depression. You need to distract yourself until you are able let go of what is bothering you. Everything seems really important when you are a teen, even things that aren't.
man, i can relate to this a lot. i used to feel this way and honestly i can only say that it WILL stop. what i learned is that it will stop eventually, and i think thats the most bittersweet thing to experience. knowing that youre going to feel better some day, just not when. but the important thing is the fact that its gonna happen, and not the uncertainty. i can tell you that i feel a lot better nowadays, and its only been 1-2 years. dark points or dead ends in life, do still happen, and they will always happen, and its hard to keep a positive mindset throughout. all i can say is - you dont have to always have a happy mindset, especially not in these extremely low points. but thats okay. its okay, because youre not supposed to be perfect, youre your own person. you ecperience good things, and bad things, and you will feel happy - and sad. thats life. what helps me keep an uplifting mindset now is the thought: "man, im so glad i didnt unalive myself back then". "im so glad i didnt do it", whenever i have a good moment. it doesnt have to be something crazy. just waking up on a sunny summer day, being greeted by my purring cat and eating my favorite food. man, im so so proud of myself for never going through with it. take it easy on yourself. you dont have to force yourself to be happy, or ask yourself: "shit, why does everyone seem to be able to cope with this but me?". just do what brings you happiness, or peace. watch sunsets, if you like them. go to mcdonalds, take yourself out for some dinner or a soda. and in these moments, remember that its your strenght and your braveness that brought you there. you can be grateful for yourself because nobody else but you made it possible that youre able to enjoy this nice moment for yourself. this isnt supposed to be crazy good advice, i just hope that i can share what helps me enjoy life, instead of fearing it. cause ive been there. and i promise, youll get out of it. hoping and wishing the best for you man. i usually dont write comments and i hope this doesnt come off as corny or anything. just wanted to share what maybe wouldve helped 13-18 year old me.
Hey, bro I found your channel the other day and can relate quite a bit. It used to be way worse for me and things still aren't great, however I realized we all go through it, some worse than others absolutely! Personally I started to understand I must accept the things I can't change and to figure out what I can then just focus on that. Your journal may very well be a great thing to start with. The fact you're even seeking help is great too. I also came across this quote one day that says "Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it to the ones you love and remains." I won't sit here and sound too cliche bc I sure know how much I hate that. I did want to leave a comment for what it's worth though and I hope you stay strong and don't give up yet.
Wow.. it takes a lot of guts to share such experiences. Truly inspirational. You are lucky to be surrounded by people that love and care about you. Jesus loves you. He is watching you closely. You got a new chance of life after the selfharm.. You are a blessing. Proud of you 👏👏👏
I really needed to see this dude. I’ve been struggling with depression and “stuff” for a very long time. I’ve isolated myself from my friends, locked myself in my room, stopped talking to my family and just disconnecting from everyone and everything around me for the most part. I’ve tried to get better and kind of have but there’ll be times where I’ll fall into depression and try to make things better again and it just sort of repeats over and over again, kind of like the cycle you mentioned. I’m not exactly sure how I’m going to truly get better, but I know that I’m going to try my hardest, especially because of this video, so thank you for that.
Please don't give up man, i went through depression and it was totally hell, i was having panic attacks, i was isolating, and i had very bad like self harm and self hatred. please don't give up i never gave up and now im doing better in life. You got this man.
I've been there, like a month ago. Depression is a vicious ducking batch. [autocorrect] I'm seeing seeing a therapist too, and I'm on Zoloft. The Zoloft has helped tremendously, but you may not be in a hood age range for it. People's reactions to antidepressants vary widely, so it's up to your physician or psychiatrist. I think trying to connect maybe even be friends with your roommate could be a great idea. My best friend has also truly been through it, so we can support each other really well. And I'm sure your parents love you so much and their support is important. The plan sounds like a good one. Please stay. The world needs you and believe me, your life will get brighter. [fierce bear hugs] It will get better.
I stumbled upon this channel 20 minutes ago. I hope you're doing okay man, I'm sorry you're going through all this, and I wish there were things I could say to help, beyond simple "it gets better", because I know how infuriating those words can be. The only thing i can say is to Never isolate yourself. The only thing worse than hell is a lonely hell. Doing that brought me to my lowest point, i've been blessed(and cursed, jokingly) With family members and friends who will pull me out of bed by the hair if I start sleeping through the days, and those people probably saved me more than a few times. I want to stress My lowest points may not be anywhere near what you're experiencing, but I wanted to post something that might help... Maybe remind yourself to not isolate with sticky notes. I'm subscribed, and I'll do my best to accompany you through what i can... I think you've got a lot of people who will.
This channel was recommended to me and I have been watching. I don’t know what is happening but if it helps I am cheering you on and hope you know that I am wishing you good thoughts and positive vibes your way. Always remember you are loved by your girlfriend and by your parents since they were readily available when they got called. I even will be happy to do whatever I can to help as well because you are an awesome young man and someone who is going to do awesome things in the future!! Stay strong and be blessed my friend.
I’m broken. Watching this makes me realize I’m not the only one that is going through things, including suicidal or depression. This video meant a lot to me and really helped me realize a lot of things.
Yo dude, just got this vid recommended to me. I've struggled with mental health my entire life, and I can relate to a lot of what you're saying here. I just wanted to say, keep pushing man. No matter what, just keep pushing. I'm not going to sugarcoat things and say "Oh life will become fantastic and you will never feel this way again!" or tell you any fantasies, but I will say that your darkest moments will pass with time. I always view my struggles as being stuck at the bottom of a well. When you're at the deepest part of the well, it's completely dark, and it genuinely feels like you're never going to see the light again. But somehow, time after time, by just pushing through life, you end up climbing to a point in that well where you can see the light again. You might not be completely out of the well, but just seeing that light, that hope, is enough to keep going. I just keep pushing out of spite at this point. There's so much in life that upsets me, or triggers my mental health, that just me continuing to live each day is my way of saying "Fuck you" to the things that trouble me. That thought also helps me. Maybe some of this can help you, maybe you can relate to some of it. Just want to let you know you're not alone, and I know things will get better for you man! Just keep pushing through it, I believe in you! P.S.: Oh also, keep at the journaling! Writing my thoughts down helps me tremendously. If you have time as well, look into meditation! It's a very hard skill to master, but it has really helped me maintain my mental health. There are lots of guided meditations on RUclips and that's what I use!
Hi there. I just recently came across your channel the first video of you that I saw was when you said you told your parents about how you are suicidal or think about it and seeing this video makes me want to sort of cry I would’ve been your friend if I known you. But I don’t and stranger danger. But all I got to say is that it will get better. I’m sorry to hear you struggle so much. You aren’t alone in these Mental illness or mental challenges. It takes GUTS and such Bravery and Courage to share how you feel online like you did I also saw your video that said crying doesn’t make a man weak and I Agree! If you need me, reply to this comment. All of these people saw this video and saw you struggling and want to help, Your feelings and thoughts matter and your Mind too!!
I'm so pleased for you that you're working on getting your power back, choosing your behaviors. It's actually a big deal to be getting control of your life. I understand about symptoms showing back up, but it's about the progress, not getting it perfect. I hope you can remember that you deserve to live well, and you're learning, just like everybody else. Keep going and don't worry. Aim at your goals, but don't give yourself a hard time for not being perfect. I've had a lot of experience with this crap. I'm a 77 year old grandmother who is a recovering alcoholic. I'm happy to be someone who can help have your back. If we can circle around you and help you get back from the edge, I can't think of anything happier. Good luck, dear boy!
You can do this!!! I’m 19, also thinking starting college is scary asf thinking abt it- I rarely went to school due to Covid in first years, and being in treatment in later years, so school just scares me- I don’t have the confidence, but I’m working on it in therapy. I told myself, and my close friends that I wanted to live, but dude is still hard asf fighting it, but I know I can do it. it has gotten so much better, like I feel more alive now- I’m more self aware of my feelings, and that self awareness you have right now will keep you alive. Knowing what ur feeling, and that you truly need the help means improvement. If you end up in the psychiatric unit that doesn’t take away what you have done to get better, so never beat yourself up if that happens; sometimes life just gets tough, and you’re gonna need the extra help.
Hang in there man, you are doing the best you can. The lead up to graduation/post-grad is a really tough time you feel like you have no clue wtf youre going to do with the next 40 years or so of your life, I've been out of school for 4 years and I'm deciding what to do. Just keep on pushing👍
Hey man, I don't usually comment on RUclips videos but your video reminds me how I was at the beginning of this year, and still fight with this sometimes, but around February I hit my rock bottom, was extremely depressed, and had unmedicated OCD, which is a anxiety disorder, around the end of February I told my parents on how I was feeling, and after, one of the things they told me was do you need to be sent to a mental hospital, and honestly man, at the time I probably did need to but I told them no because I wanted that to be a last resort, so I took the time that I had to recover, Going to the gym is a good start, just keep working at it and building consistency but what I recommend is walking, listing to music outside, getting your thoughts straight, and just have that time by yourself while not being in your room, I hope this helps and take one day at a time, be patient with this process, and I wish you the best of luck man.
Hey, I found your post by accident, or maybe it wasn't an accident. I have lost two very close friends to ending their lives. Please remember how much pain survivors will go through. Be strong and lean on close friends, family, and strangers who care about you.
i want you here, your parents want you here, do not leave them. My friend had severe self harm and depression for most of her life and then one day it went away. Nobody ever thought the depression would go away and it did. Weather the storm you got this!! I am so so proud of you take it day by day, moment by moment
I just want you to know that you have truly helped me and that you were brought to this world for a purpose. I watched this movie Rocky during my 8th grade year and there was one quote that truly stuck with me and that is: It’s not about how hard you hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit, and still continue to move forward. I feel like with roots, petals grow and there is some freedom in abrocken heart or any sad feelings. Just take it one day at a time. God bless.
I hate how therapist go off and tell parents/guardians any time you have any sort of negative ideation *that is self destructive* (ive been hospitalized 4 times sent to one 6 times) and with sh try to avoid that.. getting clean is so hard (i've been clean for two weeks so far.) things will work out for you... You seem like a good person
I really appreciate how honest you are about how you feel, it will help other people open up and talk to others as well. You've taken such a HUGE step in recovery and its going to be difficult, nobody said its easy, but you're making so much progress just by reaching out for help. I go through similar struggles myself, I do engage in SH and that peaked last year in 2023 where I almost took my life, but I'm still here! We all matter and we all have so much to give. If I had taken my life last year I wouldn't have been able to see the person I have become today, and I am going to be forever cheering for you in the background for you to experience that too! Keep fighting forward! :)
I’ve just found you. I’m 58 and have been dealing with mental health issues and weight issues for a very long time. Please keep engaging and communicating with your parents/friends/counselor. I wish that i could have. ☮️🍀❤️ it will get better
This is the second video I've seen about your journey but I'm already insanely impressed by how open you're being both in your personal life and online. I'm so sorry that you have to go through all of this but I'm so proud of how you are coping. You got this, we believe in you
I applaud your courage and grit dearest young man. My granddaughter's friend unalived the day before the last day of school. You may also be super sensitive to the entire condition of humanity's condition - which effects those of us who battle with depression and other forms of states of being that require vigilant self observation, mindfulness and care. As a grandmother, I'm SO PROUD OF YOU and I'm rooting for you totally. Your brave video update here is saving lives that you'll never meet - but know that. You're amazing. I embrace you with great love dear soul.
Others have said it and I’ll say it again; ESPECIALLY when it doesn’t feel like it, the pain you feel is temporary. You’re never alone man. Sending so much love 💙
I just wanna give this man a hug. I’m 12 and I normally have struggle with showing affection with people or showing that I care, but I do. I do fear going to a mental hospital, they scare me and I’m just scared to tell my parents about my issues. I’m glad your opening up to us because I don’t want you to keep bottled up. give this man a hug…please.
i reallly reallly reallly hope you feel better soon. Im so sorry. my heart goes out to you - it breaks my heart to see someone so low. i hope you feel better istg this breaks my heart
Gday from Australia mate! I was in the same place when i was in my twenties.....dark thoughts, therapy....meds..... I thought I was never going to be okay......until I went to a comic/cosplay convention...on my own...to break the routine of life.....one thing I always loved...Ghostbusters. Move forward to today......I drive a ghostbusters car which I use to do charity work with kids and show at conventions, I cosplay ghostbusters......but over the years, Im now 50, Ive met so many incredible and talented people and a lot of them have become life long friends....I found myself so happy by the time I was 30 I had actually forgotten I had depression...never needed meds or therapy again. The take away from my life for you I hope is this......dont dwell on how things are with you just now......do what you are doing now, take it easy, chill, be kind to yourself, dont be harsh on yourself....keep going the gym, keep going out and being with those you like.....and yes your personal hygiene routine is just as important to a healthy mind and body....another thing....if you look good...youll feel good.....get some new Nikes, Asics, Addidas trainers, splurge a little on some cool threads! Remember to put a little away as well...that will make you feel good as well. Remember a few good, close friends are better than a lot you dont really connect with. Simply go and do anything that makes you feel alive and happy....and anything that gets the heart rate up and the adrenaline glowing.....hit a theme park now and then, go for walks outdoors, the beach is also a great place....think of lifes possibilities! Most of all, your young....plenty of time to let things sort themselves out...and they will. Lastly, remember...you are your own best friend as well! Hang in there, you will be just fine😊
ty for posting these videos. it makes me feel less alone and i relate so much with having no one my age to talk to. u can get through this. life is tough but you are tougher. good luck with everything and you are here for a reason and u are loved by so many people :)
Oh Buddy, don't focus on the angst of your youth. When I was 19 the best friend I ever had killed himself and a few years before another best friend did the same. I was totally alone after that and tried to kill myself passively several times. I struggled like HELL to get past that and today I am 59 and a survivor who has spent the majority of my life trying to help young men to see that there is a future and happiness is not an illusion. In North Carolina where I live I have worked with many counties mental health systems to help. I have a degree in Psychology. I just constantly think what would by best friends lives have been like had they not committed suicide. It even makes me sad to this day to even think about. No matter what, no matter how sad you get never forget the ones who love you. I love you and pray for you since I found this page. Be strong!!
Being in a mental hospital is tough, but if it really is necessary, its a good thing. You meet a lot of really great people there (in my experience, at least). If its something you need, it’s always better to just do it and get it over with to continue healing. Stay safe mannn
Hey man honestly what has been helping me is to take my anger and sadness out on working out. It improves your health even though you feel angry you can improve yourself
Hey dude, I just wanna say I've been in a similar situation and to sum it up life sucked. Yea it absolutely sucked, but I'm not gonna get into that rn. My point is I was able to start to feel joy again and I didn't think it was possible, I genuinely didn't think I'd ever feel happy again (tbh back then I didn't even care if I did.) From that experience, I realized that challenges don't last forever, pain is temporary, and I know it seems like you'll feel this way forever. I struggled with depression since I was 12, and now I'm almost 17. I still struggle with it but I am doing significantly better. So I know that you're beyond exhausted, like that doesn't even go to describe the feeling. You feel broken beyond broken, and wonder "like how is it even possible to sink so low?" But please for your sake and your families and even mine, just keep doing what you're doing. You are moving in the right direction, and you can do this, you are strong enough to face any challenge (even if you don't feel like you are.) I'm proud of you, okay?
I'm glad you said something, and realize you need help.. That says you really don't want to harm yourself when you actually think about it. Remember that and think about it when those thoughts enter your head!!! Hit the pause button and think about it!!!! As you said, it's only temporary.. But you got this.. keep reaching out to people and if the thoughts get bad, don't allow yourself to be alone. !!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!!!
James, I’m a few years older than you and have battled depression all my life. Meds help sometimes. Don’t ever thing of self-termination, I lost my little sister and middle sister to suicide and within 3 months of each other. You don’t want to leave that pain with anyone. I feel you my friend. College will be a change for you and you’ll meet many folks. College It’s tough, study a little everyday, worked for me. What are you studying?
I know this is probably what you have been hearing for months now through your comments but you are not alone, even when it feels like it. I have been struggling with these same feelings, they can be hard to put into words especially when there isn’t a main cause to it. For example something I would always think is, I am so lucky to have this life and nothing is going wrong why am I so sad? My thoughts used to be way worse than how they are today, but it is a constant battle just know it will and does get better and the thoughts might still revisit you here and there but you just have to stay strong. Life is so so special and you make it so special for many people. I wish I could reach through the screen and just hug you right now. Thank you for being brave enough to document your journey, it has helped me and I know many others who are going through this difficult and exhausting time. 💙
I completely understand your cycle brother. I have been through it too. You are strong and you WILL get through this. Those who love you are counting on you to stay strong ❤️. Love you brother
I'm happy to see you getting so much support and encouragement through this channel. I'm adding my own to the mix--sending good vibes and support. We admire and appreciate your vulnerability and willingness to reach out, and the courage that that requires. You are loved and cared for. Hope that you are able to find more new friends your age.
hey I know you may feel like you’re alone but your not! i haven’t fully been through this but I know what it’s like and I really really hope for the best for you because you seem like the nicest person, don’t give up, you can do this. ❤
Hope is very tricky. On one hand, hope can act as a torturous tether that binds us to expectations, to better days ahead that will never come. Hope does not just prolong suffering, it offers the illusion of comfort while keeping us in perpetual longing and when our dreams shatter, Hope plunges us into Despair. The solution lies in shifting our relationship with hope, viewing it not as a passive wish, but as an active force that pushes us towards action, growth, and transformation. It is about embracing Hope as a catalyst for change, encouraging us to strive for better, regardless of the outcomes. Rather than being attached to a specific future, we can see hope as a tool for shaping the present and creating a positive impact.
It will get better bro. I was the same way for 2 years and now I’m finally genuinely happy! You matter and we all believe in you to keep pushing forward.
Hey buddy. Don't give up- you are going thru this, you're not staying in it! You have a lot to look forward to in college, the biggest thing there is the new friends you'll make and the satisfaction you'll find in being the best friend to others, the fun times and the binding times! Already you've made me grateful for every one in my life- including you here on youtube! So, relax and look for ways to beca blessing to others! And, I'll be gossiping to God about you- He'll listen because He knows all about it anyways! Keep on posting here... and thanks!
I fought for 10 years to keep my best friend from unaliving himself and he finally did it last summer. Life hasn’t been the same since. Please know that you are loved and no matter how bleak the world may seem, your absence will leave a hole in so many lives ❤❤
I don't think I have depression but I'm feeling quite empty and lost this year, maybe it's just because of stress but anyway I found your channel these past days and you're a very comforting person. I really like to listen to you. Thank you for being here and I'm not the best at emphatising but I just wanted to let you know that you are important in this world and please don't die
Hello, I just found your channel! I am a 21yo guy who definitely can relate to you looking back. I will say, about the mental hospital thing, I have spoken to professionals about that very topic, and unless you admit to having a plan that you are actively trying to commit, they will not send you to the mental hospital; that is generally considered a last resort. No one WANTS to send you to a mental hospital. I wish you all of the best and hope that you can find solace in this crazy world.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please stay strong. I know it is extremely tough. Life will get better. Please stay strong, you are a amazing person❤❤❤❤
YOU ARE SO STRONG and I’m so proud of you for all the work you’re doing on yourself, for your motivation, for talking about it. Keep doing all those positive things you’re doing, take care of yourself, you’re an amazing person, so so proud of you❤️❤️
You absolutely are helping other people simply by speaking about this as openly and honestly as you are doing. So many other people your age or younger can look to you as a source for understanding when they're at their lowest and loneliest. Thank you for being as brave as you are, and I literally mean that, as brave as you are for sharing like this. My personal stuff started out around 17 and I'm a lot older than that now and I can honestly say that looking back, I am so glad that I didn't actually go through with something. Please, please, please stay here with us. We all need you. Believe me, we need each other, and we need you.
Hey, I’m sorry that this is happening. As someone who has many mental health issues, I completely understand what is happening. I’ve been to 2 hospitals already and they have been helpful. I’m not saying that to force you to go, but they really are helpful if you need it. Each time I’ve been there I’ve gotten more answers as to what is going on in my head. The psychiatrists and people at the hospital can be really helpful if you open up to them about what is going on. I’ll be thinking of you and I hope you take the steps that are necessary for your mental health. If you feel depressed or like you want to unalive yourself, please call 988 or tell your parents to take you to the emergency room. Again, I’m sorry that this is happening and I hope we can all come together to support you in whatever way we can.
Random recommendations i hardly get stuff like this but im taking it as a sign for your experience to be seen and noticed 🙏🏽 As a 20 year old who has dealt with depression from 9 to 18 I can’t tell u how proud of u i am gang for being able to voice ur thoughts n feelings on here. complete stranger here but im rooting for u bro 🙏🏽 ur not alone.
James, you are strong as someone who has gone through it and still going through it is hard no matter the situation but you will get through it, it will take time but I believe in you! I’ve had suicidal thoughts for about year and a half, and hurt myself but I promise you will get through this even if it takes time! you so strong James.
You are genuinely one of the bravest dudes ever man. Please don't give up! I know it's hard but you are so strong for getting this far. Keep on going man, you've got this. We love you
as a 13 year old girl, I’ve been sent to the mental hospital twice. i have to do all this shit, keep my door open and unlocked, they check my room regularly and looking thru my phone and diary. i can safely say that sh and suicide does not help. it made me feel worse and I didn’t even know. keep yourself safe ok? Have a great day dude.
as a 14 y/o, i don't know if i could give you the right advice that you need or if anything will really hit but i want you to know that i admire the fact that you actually talked about it to ur therapist and your parents, i go to counciling and i still dont talk abt my feelings or them really to anyone, and im so glad that someone else has the strength to do something i've been too scared or worried to do, i hope you continue to get better as this goes on. I have aswell suffer w suicidal thoughts and sh, but the first step to get better is to talk abt it and even if progress looks slow to you (if u feel that way ofc) Js know you're atleast not giving up on yourself and that is a good thing, stay motivated to get better.
I am so sorry you're feeling worse please get all the help you need and there is no shame if you do need more help and need to go to a mental Hospital i had a short stay in one after my suicide attempt a few years back and it really helped me personally.
Very brave to you too make this video Having a social network is important. Every thing you have listed is on the rail to recovery. Keep moving forward, the clouds will clear eventually. I’m a survivor of suicide and depression. I hear you loud and clear.
It takes a lot of courage and strength to share what you're going thru mate.thank you for sharing... Hopefully you will get better over time. It's rough...I've been suffering from anxiety and depression for 40 years...untreated and finaly broke about 2 years ago. Hopefully you find the right course of meds that work. You're definitely not alone in this. I guess the worse part of life is being numb. Good looking out mate and you got this 💪
hi! maybe you'll see this or maybe you won't but i go to highschool, and struggle with depression and self harm, but only got diagnosed and put on medication like a year and a bit ago, but i knew that i was probably struggling with depression symptoms long before i told my parents. i feel like i relate to you and hopefully you can feel consolation that i know everyones mental health struggle is vastly different, but you are definitely not alone. the biggest thing that helps me to this day is to just take it one at a time. i'm not fully recovered and the sad part is, this shit is chronic, but i hope that this will help in some way and that i get u completely
Man, I’m 20, but if I’ve learned something while here is that in life all you need is the ones that are by your side when things get harder, and that’s the best thing to have, the others are simply not worthy of your company (once a friend, a friend always, or so I believe). And, by the way, even if I barely know you, I really appreciate your openness to all of this. You are a fighter and you as a person made me wish I could help you in that fight; I hope this words bright your day at the very least (even if they come as far away as from Portugal). Really looking forward to seeing you get better, thank you for sharing!
Hey, idk if ur gonna see this but i really really hope you get through this. I know its hard and there are days you feel like absolute shit and just want to completely give up. My dad found out about me self harming in february and immediately took me to a psychiatrist. Its been shit the last few months and i've thought about ending it too. But there are still so many things i want to experience. Its frustrating, really. I got diagnosed with anxiety and mild depression; honestly it feels like my dad is ashamed of all this. I know there are so many people who care about me but i cant help but feel so alone. Im trying to do better every single day. And i'm proud of you too, for making it this far. I'm rooting for you dude, dont give up :)
As a young man I was filled with fear and very lonely. I put on a brave face every day because I wanted to be seen from the outside rather than the inside. It wasn't until I got older and learned that everyone is that way to some degree. It's why fashion, flashy cars and big homes exist. To make people look better from the outside than they feel on the inside. Having gone through that in my formative years I gradually learned that those people (and what they think) doesn't really matter to me. As a result I became wealthy and successful. I'm in charge of my surroundings and have hobbies, like racing my cars, that are rewarding to me. Don't fall into the trap of using your channel for validation. Validation is within you. Find it and be proud of yourself. Everyone else can kiss your ass.....lol.
Hi Jwool, It is a skill that not everyone has, looking into a camera and making a mature "broadcast"; making sense to a wide variety of people, expressing complex emotions and issues and **communicating** ideas that matter. Thousands and thousands of people cannot do what you are doing. With this gift you are going to go far. I don't always finish listening to RUclips messages. I listened intently to yours all the way through. So, you have an important gift. Make the most of it. Change the world! (Big hug), Steve.
I have just recently found your channel and your videos have helped me alot. I have been self harming for a long time and it has been geting bad lately, and your videos have helped me. Thank you❤
I just did my freshman year at college and it was life changing for my mental health in a positive way. Hang in you will be surprised how much your life will change. Also give it at least a month no one loves the first few weeks
Dude, from what I've seen in your video, you are doing the right thing with coping mechanisms. I've been going through a rough time dealing with layoffs and am doing some of the same things you are doing: exercise, journaling, hanging with friends, etc. It is great you are willing to be open about your struggles, as it destigmatizes mental health treatment and you can help so many guys be less fearful about seeing a therapist. Stay strong through the trials and tribulations. I found your channel a few days ago and love your content! Liked and subscribed!
Hey thank you man I really appreciate it. It’s good to know you’re doing those things too, sometimes it feels like it’s just “going thru the motions” but they really do help
🙏 I've done self harm and I hope you do well. I moved to Japan a year ago and I can't have friends. :/ It feels like Japanese people don't care about you. When I was in America, my friends would try making me feel better but in Japan, my "friends" don't do anything. One year of living here has made me think of killing myself and made me do self harm but no matter what frickin' happens, I shall live, and you shall also live, happily.
Man, I'm so sorry you are having these issues. I, just want you to know that me and the other subscribers we care about you and we really do, i know this sucks but you will get through it. Hang in there bro!
brother I'm thinking about you, hoping you're doing well. sending you love bro 🫂 So sorry to hear that you're struggling. Hopefully, Psychiatrist will help get you on the right meds. glad you have your parents and gf as support. I'm not just typing words when I tell you this, I love you brother and am here for you
Hey Man I really appreciate that. I hope so too, I have a virtual appointment tomorrow because that’s what was available, and I really do appreciate all the support. Myself as well as everyone in this community who struggles is gonna make it out I know it
What’s up bro, hope your doing well right now! I admire you more than you could imagine dude. Sharing stuff like this is SO HARD for most people, but so necessary. Don’t underestimate the value you are playing in the lives of other people. Love u brodie and keep goinnnn!❤️💯
Stay strong dude! 🫶 it’s completely okay to not feel okay. I’ve had my fair share of shitty mental health and it sucks. Sometimes it would cause me to fear for my sanity and feel anxiety 24/7. I’ve found peace in the simplicity of nature and media I like. Like you said, it’s okay to take things light and easy. Hope you feel better!
DO NOT GIVE UP!
Two years ago my daughter finally recovered from psychotic depression.
I sat with her for 12 years of absolute hell - suicide attempts, epileptic seizures, the works.
I gave my life to her because I believed in her strength.
She is married now and I have a beautiful grandson.
You can do this. I've watched quite a few of your vlogs and I believe in you.
I'm now 70 years old and finally I have happiness.
You too will find your space in this world.
I'm watching.
That's precious. Thank you for being there for her.
WOW mad respect I hope you're doing well
you sound like a great dad. makes me happy to know you stuck with her.
You're an angel.
I struggle with psychotic depression. I take it month by month. It's better now--or coming back, I don't know. But I'm here.
James, bro, it takes BALLS to do what you just did in this video! Putting yourself in front of all of us and being totally honest and transparent! That takes some guts, my friend! I am so stoked that you are taking this condition serious and are in therapy. I guarantee you that there are a lot of people watching your videos every day, because they are dealing with similar issues. Those people don't necessarily comment or subscribe or give it a like. They are watching because they are too afraid of doing what you are doing. They watch because they can relate to you and your videos gives them a sense of well-being because they realize that it is not just THEM! You are showing us that we are not alone! Great job, James! Continue to update us. We all love you, bro! We're all in your corner and pulling for you! You will get past this 'season' in your life, I promise! Good things are coming your way!
I really like how you expressed your viewpoint on this. Yes, James was indeed courageous to share his experiences. Thank you for supporting James.
Yes, James, we're all sending mad love and healing vibes in your direction! I wish more people were brave enough to talk about mental health. It's so important to talk to someone about how we're feeling and how we're doing in life and so many people are scared to because of the stigma. I found my brother, who took his life in 2007, please don't do that to your family. I'm still in therapy for depression and PTSD, from what I experienced that day. Just know that your being on this earth is important, to so many of us! Actually, to anyone who made it this far in my comment, you're loved as well. 🤟 If anyone ever needs someone to talk to about anything, I'm the most non-judgmental person there is. I'm also a member of the alphabet mafia. I know some members of the LGBTQ community feel more comfortable talking to someone who can relate, which is why I mentioned that. PEACE, LOVE, UNITY and RESPECT to you all. 🕊❤👬👫👭
Cheers James, you took the first step in recognizing you have a problem, and realizing you can and will do better in taking good care of yourself, stay close to your love ones that I am sure you have plenty around you. Good luck and continue with your therapy, think positive remember you are very valuable specially to your parents. Big hugs kiddo.
Such beautiful encouragement ❤
I couldn't do any better than all than second timb's superb comment ! Please please hang in there!!
I am much older than you , 59, but the last two or 3 years have been pretty much constant varying levels of depression.
Bless you for having the guts to post your vlogs!
The cycle can be overwhelming. I almost unalived myself 11 years ago. It would have been a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Change is difficult. I struggle some days still, but my life is of value. You never know what future you will achieve. A few days after this past Christmas I was driving home after shopping and saw a house on fire. Long story - short: I saved a mans life. I matter.
You have so much to offer the world. You have no idea how much good you're bringing others just by your posts here. You matter.
Sending positive vibes your way.
Holy cow man, not what I was expecting out of that story. You matter. That’s really amazing that you did that. My mom was saying that yesterday about the “permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’m sorry to hear that you still struggle sometimes, and I hope both of us can overcome this
@@Jwool.mp3 do you want to meet up with me and Lainey Wilson tomorrow
Wow dude that's very amazing and inspiring
@@Jwool.mp3 I'm glad those of us that are challenged by our emotions, can connect like this and support one another. Your video content inspires me. Thank you for being you.
I know I’m just a random person on the internet, but it’s gonna be ok. I know you’re not religious, but god is real and theres so much proof. He loves you. There is a god, and he cares. Draw near to him, and he will draw near to you. You’re loved by so many people, and you are worth more than you know. Yes you are just one person, but each and every person has their own story, own way of thinking, and each and every human being could heal someone one day, and in the process, heal themselves🫶🏻
My 24 year old nephew unalived himself 2 weeks ago. My heart breaks for the pain he was in BUT he didn't talk to anyone about how bad it was. The pain he was feeling has been magnified and spread to everyone who loved him and even to those that just knew him. Losing him is agony for the family. Keep talking. Do everything you can to make sure you stay here. It will get better. I promise. It will never get better for my nephew and his mother will be in pain until the day she dies. Crying now.
Sorry to hear this. And yes you're right, you must talk about your troubles.
People will celebrate when I’m gone.
Remember guy, you are not alone.
GOS BLESS PLEASE TURN FROM YOUR SINS AND BELIEVE IN THE GOSPEL AND BELIEVE THAT JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS FOR ALL OF ARE SINS HE LOVES YOU ❤️🙏✝️❤️
Bots on this type of video is so crazy and disrespectfull@@guadalupelemus2100
@@guadalupelemus2100look im a christain too. If you want to spread the gospel thats amazing! But spreading it the way you are isnt how you should. First you should explain our fallen state and the origin of it. Then you should explain how sin is the reason jesus was sent to die on the cross for us.
I genuinely hope it gets better. What you're going through seems terrifying and I'm so sorry you have to go through this in the first place. We're all here. Mental health issues are fucked up, so, please remind yourself that you're doing the best you can.
Ay thank you man. Yes I just gotta try my best. Even when I’m struggling and my best isn’t what I want it to be, I’m still trying my best and that’s what matters
That's a great message man
@@Jwool.mp3that's right 👍
Suicide is a permanent decision to temporary problems. That is what my grandma told me and ever since I’ve been reflecting on things and I am so happy to be alive. And you will feel that way too someday. I am so happy you are alive and many people are too. You are loved, stay strong bro ❤
....Grama was right ...
That doesn’t work for everyone and is said a lot, that never helped me and also when you’re suicidal you can’t see the perspective
it is NOT always a temporary problem.
@@Jason-fx6pbNot as permanent as death.
“Permanent decision to temporary problems” is trite and unhelpful. Perhaps you should read up on what not to say in situations such as this.
Self care - exercise, especially aerobics. Get plenty of sleep. Eat right.
Don't beat yourself up. Pat yourself on the back for all the good that you've done. Focus on your success.
I sincerely hope you find joy soon. Life is great and you have a whole world waiting for you.
Please don't make any drastic permanent decisions
You'll be surprised at how better it gets onwards
I really love your channel and i don't want anything bad to happen to you :(
Thank you, I hope it’ll get better soon, and I know that I can get better. I won’t do anything permanent and right now I’m just trying to take care of myself
@@Jwool.mp3Take care of yourself focus on what you like and some stuff you want to achieve you are in a stage when you are lost but you are just a young men a smart one
You should really try to get very social with a lot of people, it is very much healing, you deserve the best and most content people around you! If I could I would want to help you right now!! Take caree
@@MyrtheJenniskens Not everytime i'm sorry, i think he should focus on himself and what he like and don't like, then he wiĺl have the best skills to choose who he wants to hang out, sometimes friends are your best ennemies
I am no expert, but being an EMT on a very busy Rescue Squad for over 30 years, I have responded to many medical calls, trauma related incidents, and other very difficult events. Brotha, you dont want all that extra challenge in your life, or for those who love you.
So, believe me when I say, take it one hour at a time, then when that feels comfortable take it one day at a time, etc... From what I can tell from your video comments, you have a very caring & loving family and quite the competent therapist. Listen to her, trust her, and also feel brave enough [like you did in this video] to speak freely to your mom/dad, don't feel the need to hide your feelings whether they are negative or positive thoughts. You note that you want to live a long life, which is awesome, but to do so you must work at it even as hard as it can get. Your support systems are there, sooo take advantage of them, don't neglect them or yourself.
You have a very important purpose on this Earth, it may not be 100% clear quite yet, but at the right time it will be!! Be patient. But, look closely at what you have done to date; you have brought together so many people of various backgrounds, ages, experiences to teach them how to cope, find help, and try so very hard at things that are very difficult. You are an example to others, please know this!!
I know you don't know me from Adam, or possible care to even listen to me, but I rarely comment on most folks' RUclips videos, but you have encouraged me to send this note tonight. That says something about you to encourage this old medical tired responder to sit down and say "good on you" and that you are worthy of a happy life. Yes, it is tough, but nothing in life as important as this is easy youngman.
Make your mark, own it, and continue sharing your life & experiences with your RUclips family. We are here to hear you, encourage you, praise you, and just listen to you.
Thank you for being you; and never ever forget your worth to yourself, those around you, and us your virtual friends.
Write anytime you feel you need to be heard, I am always here to hear you out!!! Be present always...😊🎉
Brilliantly said ❤
@@Mercury88-b7k thank you, but maybe not to James. 🤷🏻♂️
I wish all us depressed people could get together and be friends
Preach
I know, same!
The way you freely share your journey says so much about the kind of person you are, and how hard you’re trying. I think a lot of people on the verge of giving up can learn from you. You’re gonna do great things, keep going.
I cannot offer you advice. But I want to make an observation. I LOVE your level of self awareness and self honesty. And I love that you acknowledge how much you are valued by your parents and your therapist.
I am not a religious person, but I am taking time out of my day today and for the next several days to think of your bravery and try to motivate myself by your example.
For me, being sent to a mental hospital kinda feels like a punishment bc in their eyes you're not "normal" and need to be fixed
Glad I'm not the only one that feels that way
I agree somewhat. It’s definitely a last resort, and there is one “good” one that my therapist recommends. I don’t think it’s a punishment, although it is very scary to think about. At the end of the day, everyone just wants what’s best for me
@@Jwool.mp3I hope you feel better soon !stay strong 💪 I’ve been through something similar
My friends and I have been to almost a point of being in a mental hospital, but I’ve gotten people back up on their feet and they’ve and I’m so glad I didn’t have to go to a mental hospital and I hope that you don’t either brother
Don't go to a mental hospital. Especially in america it doesnt work. You need good anit depressants. Dont give up until you find the ones that work for you. It can take 2 weeks for them to start working.@@Jwool.mp3
Lost two I know to suicide. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You were created. You are a good idea. Realize it and move forward with your arms wide open and embrace others and allow them to embrace you.
Wounderful words . Very true buddy.
You just showered up in my recommendations, I don't fit into your age group, but there must be a reason. Perhaps RUclips wants more eyes on your channel.
Unfortunately, I can't help you with your struggles, but I will definitely say you have extreme value as a wonderful person, and I hope you are able to find the value of yourself. I know your family loves you, and your viewers care about you. Take care, friend.
You hang in there man. You’re not alone. Any honest person knows they’ve experienced similar spells in their life. Your openness and honesty dude is likely helping countless other people with these vids you’re producing. You are making a huge difference and matter in the world. Routing for you. So what you need to do and have a great week!
Extremely proud of ya young lad! It’s the worst and getting worser(world),, ( Want Truth always ! ) Be The Strong Lion! Can we be both be Frank! I’m Almost 40, ( your 20 amount of emotional, physical, sexual, spiritual, etc abuse .. keep strong dear lad! ( your in a bag mix) only encourage more of what you do to keep strong!
Hope it’s ok, involve others in your life! I did anything I could too counter change the abuse, too helping others, ( would it be, helping out ( volunteering with younger kids, sports etc) helping your elders,,, when your alone and Totally frustrated! I pick up garbage off the street,, and seeing the difference afterwards, made me cry with happiness.. the more I thought less of myself, and put my energy into All of us.. it definitely helped me one day at a time!
Trying to throw my bad things into beautiful things, also like poetry,, or finding a harmonica and or sing,, .. trust me! Be strong! Truth can hurt! Love can hurt! But seriously; in the end like Simba( the lion King) strong almighty and they will see you, ! And will want to pay it forward like you in tuff times! Hope I’ve been any stray string lion agape of help!
Your already strong than you think!, Show them,, I rarely even have to do Truman show,, You have to start with your small area!
Actions, talk is amazing, and we’ll building,, but you have to start very small..
your already there! ..
I’m a A.D.H.D, words are hopefully meaning ,, .. Hope you take a slice, of my retarded mind.
Many continue 98%,! Unfortunately being a loser, One day you’ll hopefully realise! (Chicken dinner 21)..
Much love to strong message, ( both of Us! ) Lions
Sorry. People will take my stupid words and not understand,, .. wish I wasn’t a retardant..
And FUK cancer again.. grow a bloody sunflower
Reading this I realise that there are people like me who have experienced the same but still willing to pass on their real experience. It really is life affirming just knowing good people are here❤
I've been to some very dark places but i was too stupid to talk to anyone about it. Smart move to tell your parents and get their support. Hoping this will go away soo for you.
Sitting in your room without a phone seems like a path to more depression. You need to distract yourself until you are able let go of what is bothering you. Everything seems really important when you are a teen, even things that aren't.
man, i can relate to this a lot. i used to feel this way and honestly i can only say that it WILL stop. what i learned is that it will stop eventually, and i think thats the most bittersweet thing to experience. knowing that youre going to feel better some day, just not when. but the important thing is the fact that its gonna happen, and not the uncertainty.
i can tell you that i feel a lot better nowadays, and its only been 1-2 years. dark points or dead ends in life, do still happen, and they will always happen, and its hard to keep a positive mindset throughout. all i can say is - you dont have to always have a happy mindset, especially not in these extremely low points. but thats okay. its okay, because youre not supposed to be perfect, youre your own person. you ecperience good things, and bad things, and you will feel happy - and sad. thats life.
what helps me keep an uplifting mindset now is the thought: "man, im so glad i didnt unalive myself back then". "im so glad i didnt do it", whenever i have a good moment. it doesnt have to be something crazy. just waking up on a sunny summer day, being greeted by my purring cat and eating my favorite food. man, im so so proud of myself for never going through with it.
take it easy on yourself. you dont have to force yourself to be happy, or ask yourself: "shit, why does everyone seem to be able to cope with this but me?". just do what brings you happiness, or peace. watch sunsets, if you like them. go to mcdonalds, take yourself out for some dinner or a soda. and in these moments, remember that its your strenght and your braveness that brought you there. you can be grateful for yourself because nobody else but you made it possible that youre able to enjoy this nice moment for yourself.
this isnt supposed to be crazy good advice, i just hope that i can share what helps me enjoy life, instead of fearing it. cause ive been there. and i promise, youll get out of it.
hoping and wishing the best for you man. i usually dont write comments and i hope this doesnt come off as corny or anything. just wanted to share what maybe wouldve helped 13-18 year old me.
Hey, bro I found your channel the other day and can relate quite a bit. It used to be way worse for me and things still aren't great, however I realized we all go through it, some worse than others absolutely! Personally I started to understand I must accept the things I can't change and to figure out what I can then just focus on that. Your journal may very well be a great thing to start with. The fact you're even seeking help is great too. I also came across this quote one day that says "Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it to the ones you love and remains." I won't sit here and sound too cliche bc I sure know how much I hate that. I did want to leave a comment for what it's worth though and I hope you stay strong and don't give up yet.
your videos have helped me so much and I’m sure it’s helped so many other people show that they are not alone, stay strong man 💪🏼 you got this
Wow.. it takes a lot of guts to share such experiences. Truly inspirational. You are lucky to be surrounded by people that love and care about you. Jesus loves you. He is watching you closely. You got a new chance of life after the selfharm.. You are a blessing. Proud of you 👏👏👏
I really needed to see this dude. I’ve been struggling with depression and “stuff” for a very long time. I’ve isolated myself from my friends, locked myself in my room, stopped talking to my family and just disconnecting from everyone and everything around me for the most part. I’ve tried to get better and kind of have but there’ll be times where I’ll fall into depression and try to make things better again and it just sort of repeats over and over again, kind of like the cycle you mentioned. I’m not exactly sure how I’m going to truly get better, but I know that I’m going to try my hardest, especially because of this video, so thank you for that.
Please don't give up man, i went through depression and it was totally hell, i was having panic attacks, i was isolating, and i had very bad like self harm and self hatred. please don't give up i never gave up and now im doing better in life. You got this man.
I've been there, like a month ago. Depression is a vicious ducking batch. [autocorrect] I'm seeing seeing a therapist too, and I'm on Zoloft. The Zoloft has helped tremendously, but you may not be in a hood age range for it. People's reactions to antidepressants vary widely, so it's up to your physician or psychiatrist. I think trying to connect maybe even be friends with your roommate could be a great idea. My best friend has also truly been through it, so we can support each other really well. And I'm sure your parents love you so much and their support is important. The plan sounds like a good one. Please stay. The world needs you and believe me, your life will get brighter. [fierce bear hugs] It will get better.
I stumbled upon this channel 20 minutes ago. I hope you're doing okay man, I'm sorry you're going through all this, and I wish there were things I could say to help, beyond simple "it gets better", because I know how infuriating those words can be. The only thing i can say is to Never isolate yourself. The only thing worse than hell is a lonely hell. Doing that brought me to my lowest point, i've been blessed(and cursed, jokingly) With family members and friends who will pull me out of bed by the hair if I start sleeping through the days, and those people probably saved me more than a few times. I want to stress My lowest points may not be anywhere near what you're experiencing, but I wanted to post something that might help... Maybe remind yourself to not isolate with sticky notes. I'm subscribed, and I'll do my best to accompany you through what i can... I think you've got a lot of people who will.
This channel was recommended to me and I have been watching.
I don’t know what is happening but if it helps I am cheering you on and hope you know that I am wishing you good thoughts and positive vibes your way. Always remember you are loved by your girlfriend and by your parents since they were readily available when they got called. I even will be happy to do whatever I can to help as well because you are an awesome young man and someone who is going to do awesome things in the future!! Stay strong and be blessed my friend.
I’m broken. Watching this makes me realize I’m not the only one that is going through things, including suicidal or depression. This video meant a lot to me and really helped me realize a lot of things.
Yo dude, just got this vid recommended to me. I've struggled with mental health my entire life, and I can relate to a lot of what you're saying here.
I just wanted to say, keep pushing man. No matter what, just keep pushing. I'm not going to sugarcoat things and say "Oh life will become fantastic and you will never feel this way again!" or tell you any fantasies, but I will say that your darkest moments will pass with time.
I always view my struggles as being stuck at the bottom of a well. When you're at the deepest part of the well, it's completely dark, and it genuinely feels like you're never going to see the light again. But somehow, time after time, by just pushing through life, you end up climbing to a point in that well where you can see the light again. You might not be completely out of the well, but just seeing that light, that hope, is enough to keep going.
I just keep pushing out of spite at this point. There's so much in life that upsets me, or triggers my mental health, that just me continuing to live each day is my way of saying "Fuck you" to the things that trouble me. That thought also helps me.
Maybe some of this can help you, maybe you can relate to some of it. Just want to let you know you're not alone, and I know things will get better for you man! Just keep pushing through it, I believe in you!
P.S.: Oh also, keep at the journaling! Writing my thoughts down helps me tremendously. If you have time as well, look into meditation! It's a very hard skill to master, but it has really helped me maintain my mental health. There are lots of guided meditations on RUclips and that's what I use!
Hi there. I just recently came across your channel the first video of you that I saw was when you said you told your parents about how you are suicidal or think about it and seeing this video makes me want to sort of cry I would’ve been your friend if I known you. But I don’t and stranger danger. But all I got to say is that it will get better. I’m sorry to hear you struggle so much. You aren’t alone in these Mental illness or mental challenges. It takes GUTS and such Bravery and Courage to share how you feel online like you did I also saw your video that said crying doesn’t make a man weak and I Agree! If you need me, reply to this comment. All of these people saw this video and saw you struggling and want to help, Your feelings and thoughts matter and your Mind too!!
I'm so pleased for you that you're working on getting your power back, choosing your behaviors. It's actually a big deal to be getting control of your life. I understand about symptoms showing back up, but it's about the progress, not getting it perfect. I hope you can remember that you deserve to live well, and you're learning, just like everybody else. Keep going and don't worry. Aim at your goals, but don't give yourself a hard time for not being perfect. I've had a lot of experience with this crap. I'm a 77 year old grandmother who is a recovering alcoholic. I'm happy to be someone who can help have your back. If we can circle around you and help you get back from the edge, I can't think of anything happier. Good luck, dear boy!
Awwww my guy! Hang in there and take it one day at a time. I'm always here and I love you my man!
You can do this!!! I’m 19, also thinking starting college is scary asf thinking abt it- I rarely went to school due to Covid in first years, and being in treatment in later years, so school just scares me- I don’t have the confidence, but I’m working on it in therapy. I told myself, and my close friends that I wanted to live, but dude is still hard asf fighting it, but I know I can do it. it has gotten so much better, like I feel more alive now- I’m more self aware of my feelings, and that self awareness you have right now will keep you alive. Knowing what ur feeling, and that you truly need the help means improvement. If you end up in the psychiatric unit that doesn’t take away what you have done to get better, so never beat yourself up if that happens; sometimes life just gets tough, and you’re gonna need the extra help.
I’ve worked with youth for a long time with these issues. So proud of you. You’re amazing and worth it. You got this young man
Hang in there man, you are doing the best you can. The lead up to graduation/post-grad is a really tough time you feel like you have no clue wtf youre going to do with the next 40 years or so of your life, I've been out of school for 4 years and I'm deciding what to do. Just keep on pushing👍
Hey man, I don't usually comment on RUclips videos but your video reminds me how I was at the beginning of this year, and still fight with this sometimes, but around February I hit my rock bottom, was extremely depressed, and had unmedicated OCD, which is a anxiety disorder, around the end of February I told my parents on how I was feeling, and after, one of the things they told me was do you need to be sent to a mental hospital, and honestly man, at the time I probably did need to but I told them no because I wanted that to be a last resort, so I took the time that I had to recover, Going to the gym is a good start, just keep working at it and building consistency but what I recommend is walking, listing to music outside, getting your thoughts straight, and just have that time by yourself while not being in your room, I hope this helps and take one day at a time, be patient with this process, and I wish you the best of luck man.
Hey, I found your post by accident, or maybe it wasn't an accident. I have lost two very close friends to ending their lives. Please remember how much pain survivors will go through. Be strong and lean on close friends, family, and strangers who care about you.
i want you here, your parents want you here, do not leave them. My friend had severe self harm and depression for most of her life and then one day it went away. Nobody ever thought the depression would go away and it did. Weather the storm you got this!! I am so so proud of you take it day by day, moment by moment
I just want you to know that you have truly helped me and that you were brought to this world for a purpose. I watched this movie Rocky during my 8th grade year and there was one quote that truly stuck with me and that is: It’s not about how hard you hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit, and still continue to move forward. I feel like with roots, petals grow and there is some freedom in abrocken heart or any sad feelings. Just take it one day at a time. God bless.
I hate how therapist go off and tell parents/guardians any time you have any sort of negative ideation *that is self destructive* (ive been hospitalized 4 times sent to one 6 times) and with sh try to avoid that.. getting clean is so hard (i've been clean for two weeks so far.) things will work out for you... You seem like a good person
I really appreciate how honest you are about how you feel, it will help other people open up and talk to others as well. You've taken such a HUGE step in recovery and its going to be difficult, nobody said its easy, but you're making so much progress just by reaching out for help. I go through similar struggles myself, I do engage in SH and that peaked last year in 2023 where I almost took my life, but I'm still here! We all matter and we all have so much to give. If I had taken my life last year I wouldn't have been able to see the person I have become today, and I am going to be forever cheering for you in the background for you to experience that too! Keep fighting forward! :)
I’ve just found you. I’m 58 and have been dealing with mental health issues and weight issues for a very long time. Please keep engaging and communicating with your parents/friends/counselor. I wish that i could have. ☮️🍀❤️ it will get better
This is the second video I've seen about your journey but I'm already insanely impressed by how open you're being both in your personal life and online. I'm so sorry that you have to go through all of this but I'm so proud of how you are coping. You got this, we believe in you
I applaud your courage and grit dearest young man. My granddaughter's friend unalived the day before the last day of school. You may also be super sensitive to the entire condition of humanity's condition - which effects those of us who battle with depression and other forms of states of being that require vigilant self observation, mindfulness and care. As a grandmother, I'm SO PROUD OF YOU and I'm rooting for you totally. Your brave video update here is saving lives that you'll never meet - but know that. You're amazing. I embrace you with great love dear soul.
Others have said it and I’ll say it again; ESPECIALLY when it doesn’t feel like it, the pain you feel is temporary.
You’re never alone man. Sending so much love 💙
I just wanna give this man a hug. I’m 12 and I normally have struggle with showing affection with people or showing that I care, but I do. I do fear going to a mental hospital, they scare me and I’m just scared to tell my parents about my issues. I’m glad your opening up to us because I don’t want you to keep bottled up. give this man a hug…please.
i reallly reallly reallly hope you feel better soon. Im so sorry. my heart goes out to you - it breaks my heart to see someone so low. i hope you feel better istg this breaks my heart
Gday from Australia mate!
I was in the same place when i was in my twenties.....dark thoughts, therapy....meds.....
I thought I was never going to be okay......until I went to a comic/cosplay convention...on my own...to break the routine of life.....one thing I always loved...Ghostbusters.
Move forward to today......I drive a ghostbusters car which I use to do charity work with kids and show at conventions, I cosplay ghostbusters......but over the years, Im now 50, Ive met so many incredible and talented people and a lot of them have become life long friends....I found myself so happy by the time I was 30 I had actually forgotten I had depression...never needed meds or therapy again.
The take away from my life for you I hope is this......dont dwell on how things are with you just now......do what you are doing now, take it easy, chill, be kind to yourself, dont be harsh on yourself....keep going the gym, keep going out and being with those you like.....and yes your personal hygiene routine is just as important to a healthy mind and body....another thing....if you look good...youll feel good.....get some new Nikes, Asics, Addidas trainers, splurge a little on some cool threads! Remember to put a little away as well...that will make you feel good as well.
Remember a few good, close friends are better than a lot you dont really connect with.
Simply go and do anything that makes you feel alive and happy....and anything that gets the heart rate up and the adrenaline glowing.....hit a theme park now and then, go for walks outdoors, the beach is also a great place....think of lifes possibilities!
Most of all, your young....plenty of time to let things sort themselves out...and they will.
Lastly, remember...you are your own best friend as well!
Hang in there, you will be just fine😊
ty for posting these videos. it makes me feel less alone and i relate so much with having no one my age to talk to. u can get through this. life is tough but you are tougher. good luck with everything and you are here for a reason and u are loved by so many people :)
Hey man, I'm in almost the same situation same age and everything it's nice to see that neither of us are alone going through it
Oh Buddy, don't focus on the angst of your youth. When I was 19 the best friend I ever had killed himself and a few years before another best friend did the same. I was totally alone after that and tried to kill myself passively several times. I struggled like HELL to get past that and today I am 59 and a survivor who has spent the majority of my life trying to help young men to see that there is a future and happiness is not an illusion. In North Carolina where I live I have worked with many counties mental health systems to help. I have a degree in Psychology. I just constantly think what would by best friends lives have been like had they not committed suicide. It even makes me sad to this day to even think about. No matter what, no matter how sad you get never forget the ones who love you. I love you and pray for you since I found this page. Be strong!!
You're amazing, it takes real inner strength to be open about this stuff, I truly do hope you realize how wonderful of a person you are
I’m also going through the exact same thing right now, so I’ll be praying for you to find relief from your suffering.
Being in a mental hospital is tough, but if it really is necessary, its a good thing. You meet a lot of really great people there (in my experience, at least). If its something you need, it’s always better to just do it and get it over with to continue healing. Stay safe mannn
Hey man honestly what has been helping me is to take my anger and sadness out on working out. It improves your health even though you feel angry you can improve yourself
Hey dude, I just wanna say I've been in a similar situation and to sum it up life sucked. Yea it absolutely sucked, but I'm not gonna get into that rn. My point is I was able to start to feel joy again and I didn't think it was possible, I genuinely didn't think I'd ever feel happy again (tbh back then I didn't even care if I did.) From that experience, I realized that challenges don't last forever, pain is temporary, and I know it seems like you'll feel this way forever. I struggled with depression since I was 12, and now I'm almost 17. I still struggle with it but I am doing significantly better. So I know that you're beyond exhausted, like that doesn't even go to describe the feeling. You feel broken beyond broken, and wonder "like how is it even possible to sink so low?" But please for your sake and your families and even mine, just keep doing what you're doing. You are moving in the right direction, and you can do this, you are strong enough to face any challenge (even if you don't feel like you are.) I'm proud of you, okay?
I'm glad you said something, and realize you need help.. That says you really don't want to harm yourself when you actually think about it. Remember that and think about it when those thoughts enter your head!!! Hit the pause button and think about it!!!! As you said, it's only temporary.. But you got this.. keep reaching out to people and if the thoughts get bad, don't allow yourself to be alone. !!!!
YOU GOT THIS!!!!!
Yes I won’t allow myself to be isolated. I truly do want to live a long and healthy life yk? It’s very hard but I know we can make it
James, I’m a few years older than you and have battled depression all my life. Meds help sometimes. Don’t ever thing of self-termination, I lost my little sister and middle sister to suicide and within 3 months of each other. You don’t want to leave that pain with anyone. I feel you my friend. College will be a change for you and you’ll meet many folks. College It’s tough, study a little everyday, worked for me. What are you studying?
Don't forget, everything gets better...Gotta believe it bro!🙏🌞
Not always... it can be about management. Be realistic, not idealistic about it. Learn strategies, find support, take what you need to...
I know this is probably what you have been hearing for months now through your comments but you are not alone, even when it feels like it. I have been struggling with these same feelings, they can be hard to put into words especially when there isn’t a main cause to it. For example something I would always think is, I am so lucky to have this life and nothing is going wrong why am I so sad? My thoughts used to be way worse than how they are today, but it is a constant battle just know it will and does get better and the thoughts might still revisit you here and there but you just have to stay strong. Life is so so special and you make it so special for many people. I wish I could reach through the screen and just hug you right now. Thank you for being brave enough to document your journey, it has helped me and I know many others who are going through this difficult and exhausting time. 💙
I completely understand your cycle brother. I have been through it too. You are strong and you WILL get through this. Those who love you are counting on you to stay strong ❤️. Love you brother
Praying for you. The fact that you can share this with us takes courage and strength!
I'm happy to see you getting so much support and encouragement through this channel. I'm adding my own to the mix--sending good vibes and support. We admire and appreciate your vulnerability and willingness to reach out, and the courage that that requires. You are loved and cared for. Hope that you are able to find more new friends your age.
hey I know you may feel like you’re alone but your not! i haven’t fully been through this but I know what it’s like and I really really hope for the best for you because you seem like the nicest person, don’t give up, you can do this. ❤
Hope is very tricky. On one hand, hope can act as a torturous tether that binds us to expectations, to better days ahead that will never come. Hope does not just prolong suffering, it offers the illusion of comfort while keeping us in perpetual longing and when our dreams shatter, Hope plunges us into Despair.
The solution lies in shifting our relationship with hope, viewing it not as a passive wish, but as an active force that pushes us towards action, growth, and transformation. It is about embracing Hope as a catalyst for change, encouraging us to strive for better, regardless of the outcomes. Rather than being attached to a specific future, we can see hope as a tool for shaping the present and creating a positive impact.
It will get better bro. I was the same way for 2 years and now I’m finally genuinely happy! You matter and we all believe in you to keep pushing forward.
Hey buddy. Don't give up- you are going thru this, you're not staying in it! You have a lot to look forward to in college, the biggest thing there is the new friends you'll make and the satisfaction you'll find in being the best friend to others, the fun times and the binding times!
Already you've made me grateful for every one in my life- including you here on youtube!
So, relax and look for ways to beca blessing to others!
And, I'll be gossiping to God about you- He'll listen because He knows all about it anyways!
Keep on posting here... and thanks!
I fought for 10 years to keep my best friend from unaliving himself and he finally did it last summer. Life hasn’t been the same since. Please know that you are loved and no matter how bleak the world may seem, your absence will leave a hole in so many lives ❤❤
I don't think I have depression but I'm feeling quite empty and lost this year, maybe it's just because of stress but anyway I found your channel these past days and you're a very comforting person. I really like to listen to you. Thank you for being here and I'm not the best at emphatising but I just wanted to let you know that you are important in this world and please don't die
Hello, I just found your channel! I am a 21yo guy who definitely can relate to you looking back. I will say, about the mental hospital thing, I have spoken to professionals about that very topic, and unless you admit to having a plan that you are actively trying to commit, they will not send you to the mental hospital; that is generally considered a last resort. No one WANTS to send you to a mental hospital. I wish you all of the best and hope that you can find solace in this crazy world.
props to you for continuing to try and be better even when it’s hard. proud of you.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please stay strong. I know it is extremely tough. Life will get better. Please stay strong, you are a amazing person❤❤❤❤
YOU ARE SO STRONG and I’m so proud of you for all the work you’re doing on yourself, for your motivation, for talking about it. Keep doing all those positive things you’re doing, take care of yourself, you’re an amazing person, so so proud of you❤️❤️
You absolutely are helping other people simply by speaking about this as openly and honestly as you are doing. So many other people your age or younger can look to you as a source for understanding when they're at their lowest and loneliest. Thank you for being as brave as you are, and I literally mean that, as brave as you are for sharing like this.
My personal stuff started out around 17 and I'm a lot older than that now and I can honestly say that looking back, I am so glad that I didn't actually go through with something. Please, please, please stay here with us. We all need you. Believe me, we need each other, and we need you.
Hey, I’m sorry that this is happening. As someone who has many mental health issues, I completely understand what is happening. I’ve been to 2 hospitals already and they have been helpful. I’m not saying that to force you to go, but they really are helpful if you need it. Each time I’ve been there I’ve gotten more answers as to what is going on in my head. The psychiatrists and people at the hospital can be really helpful if you open up to them about what is going on. I’ll be thinking of you and I hope you take the steps that are necessary for your mental health. If you feel depressed or like you want to unalive yourself, please call 988 or tell your parents to take you to the emergency room. Again, I’m sorry that this is happening and I hope we can all come together to support you in whatever way we can.
Random recommendations i hardly get stuff like this but im taking it as a sign for your experience to be seen and noticed 🙏🏽 As a 20 year old who has dealt with depression from 9 to 18 I can’t tell u how proud of u i am gang for being able to voice ur thoughts n feelings on here. complete stranger here but im rooting for u bro 🙏🏽 ur not alone.
James, you are strong as someone who has gone through it and still going through it is hard no matter the situation but you will get through it, it will take time but I believe in you! I’ve had suicidal thoughts for about year and a half, and hurt myself but I promise you will get through this even if it takes time! you so strong James.
You are genuinely one of the bravest dudes ever man. Please don't give up! I know it's hard but you are so strong for getting this far. Keep on going man, you've got this. We love you
as a 13 year old girl, I’ve been sent to the mental hospital twice. i have to do all this shit, keep my door open and unlocked, they check my room regularly and looking thru my phone and diary. i can safely say that sh and suicide does not help. it made me feel worse and I didn’t even know. keep yourself safe ok? Have a great day dude.
as a 14 y/o, i don't know if i could give you the right advice that you need or if anything will really hit but i want you to know that i admire the fact that you actually talked about it to ur therapist and your parents, i go to counciling and i still dont talk abt my feelings or them really to anyone, and im so glad that someone else has the strength to do something i've been too scared or worried to do, i hope you continue to get better as this goes on. I have aswell suffer w suicidal thoughts and sh, but the first step to get better is to talk abt it and even if progress looks slow to you (if u feel that way ofc) Js know you're atleast not giving up on yourself and that is a good thing, stay motivated to get better.
I am so sorry you're feeling worse please get all the help you need and there is no shame if you do need more help and need to go to a mental Hospital i had a short stay in one after my suicide attempt a few years back and it really helped me personally.
Very brave to you too make this video Having a social network is important. Every thing you have listed is on the rail to recovery. Keep moving forward, the clouds will clear eventually. I’m a survivor of suicide and depression. I hear you loud and clear.
It takes a lot of courage and strength to share what you're going thru mate.thank you for sharing... Hopefully you will get better over time. It's rough...I've been suffering from anxiety and depression for 40 years...untreated and finaly broke about 2 years ago. Hopefully you find the right course of meds that work. You're definitely not alone in this. I guess the worse part of life is being numb. Good looking out mate and you got this 💪
hi! maybe you'll see this or maybe you won't but i go to highschool, and struggle with depression and self harm, but only got diagnosed and put on medication like a year and a bit ago, but i knew that i was probably struggling with depression symptoms long before i told my parents. i feel like i relate to you and hopefully you can feel consolation that i know everyones mental health struggle is vastly different, but you are definitely not alone. the biggest thing that helps me to this day is to just take it one at a time. i'm not fully recovered and the sad part is, this shit is chronic, but i hope that this will help in some way and that i get u completely
Man, I’m 20, but if I’ve learned something while here is that in life all you need is the ones that are by your side when things get harder, and that’s the best thing to have, the others are simply not worthy of your company (once a friend, a friend always, or so I believe). And, by the way, even if I barely know you, I really appreciate your openness to all of this. You are a fighter and you as a person made me wish I could help you in that fight; I hope this words bright your day at the very least (even if they come as far away as from Portugal). Really looking forward to seeing you get better, thank you for sharing!
Hey, idk if ur gonna see this but i really really hope you get through this. I know its hard and there are days you feel like absolute shit and just want to completely give up. My dad found out about me self harming in february and immediately took me to a psychiatrist. Its been shit the last few months and i've thought about ending it too. But there are still so many things i want to experience. Its frustrating, really. I got diagnosed with anxiety and mild depression; honestly it feels like my dad is ashamed of all this. I know there are so many people who care about me but i cant help but feel so alone. Im trying to do better every single day. And i'm proud of you too, for making it this far. I'm rooting for you dude, dont give up :)
As a young man I was filled with fear and very lonely. I put on a brave face every day because I wanted to be seen from the outside rather than the inside. It wasn't until I got older and learned that everyone is that way to some degree. It's why fashion, flashy cars and big homes exist. To make people look better from the outside than they feel on the inside. Having gone through that in my formative years I gradually learned that those people (and what they think) doesn't really matter to me. As a result I became wealthy and successful. I'm in charge of my surroundings and have hobbies, like racing my cars, that are rewarding to me. Don't fall into the trap of using your channel for validation. Validation is within you. Find it and be proud of yourself. Everyone else can kiss your ass.....lol.
Glad to hear you found yourself. Stories like these make me optimistic. I'm in my twenties and am trying to figure sht out myself.
Hi Jwool,
It is a skill that not everyone has, looking into a camera and making a mature "broadcast"; making sense to a wide variety of people, expressing complex emotions and issues and **communicating** ideas that matter. Thousands and thousands of people cannot do what you are doing. With this gift you are going to go far.
I don't always finish listening to RUclips messages. I listened intently to yours all the way through. So, you have an important gift. Make the most of it. Change the world!
(Big hug), Steve.
I have just recently found your channel and your videos have helped me alot. I have been self harming for a long time and it has been geting bad lately, and your videos have helped me. Thank you❤
I just did my freshman year at college and it was life changing for my mental health in a positive way. Hang in you will be surprised how much your life will change. Also give it at least a month no one loves the first few weeks
Dude, from what I've seen in your video, you are doing the right thing with coping mechanisms. I've been going through a rough time dealing with layoffs and am doing some of the same things you are doing: exercise, journaling, hanging with friends, etc.
It is great you are willing to be open about your struggles, as it destigmatizes mental health treatment and you can help so many guys be less fearful about seeing a therapist. Stay strong through the trials and tribulations.
I found your channel a few days ago and love your content! Liked and subscribed!
Hey thank you man I really appreciate it. It’s good to know you’re doing those things too, sometimes it feels like it’s just “going thru the motions” but they really do help
I’m sorry to hear about your situation and I hope it gets better :)
@@Jwool.mp3 Thanks bro
🙏 I've done self harm and I hope you do well. I moved to Japan a year ago and I can't have friends. :/ It feels like Japanese people don't care about you. When I was in America, my friends would try making me feel better but in Japan, my "friends" don't do anything. One year of living here has made me think of killing myself and made me do self harm but no matter what frickin' happens, I shall live, and you shall also live, happily.
these videos are truly helpful and comforting for me.Its like im seeing myself in a mirror.I hope we get through this together.
Man, I'm so sorry you are having these issues. I, just want you to know that me and the other subscribers we care about you and we really do, i know this sucks but you will get through it. Hang in there bro!
brother I'm thinking about you, hoping you're doing well. sending you love bro 🫂 So sorry to hear that you're struggling. Hopefully, Psychiatrist will help get you on the right meds. glad you have your parents and gf as support. I'm not just typing words when I tell you this, I love you brother and am here for you
Hey Man I really appreciate that. I hope so too, I have a virtual appointment tomorrow because that’s what was available, and I really do appreciate all the support. Myself as well as everyone in this community who struggles is gonna make it out I know it
What’s up bro, hope your doing well right now! I admire you more than you could imagine dude. Sharing stuff like this is SO HARD for most people, but so necessary. Don’t underestimate the value you are playing in the lives of other people. Love u brodie and keep goinnnn!❤️💯
We'll get through these struggles together man ❤
Stay strong dude! 🫶 it’s completely okay to not feel okay. I’ve had my fair share of shitty mental health and it sucks. Sometimes it would cause me to fear for my sanity and feel anxiety 24/7. I’ve found peace in the simplicity of nature and media I like. Like you said, it’s okay to take things light and easy. Hope you feel better!