The narcissist's BAD ENERGY
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You wouldn't get it unless you've been through it. You wouldn't believe it unless it happened to you.
Yes, so many people who've never been abused by narcissists will say it's your fault or you're being ungrateful. They've no clue what we've been through.
Dude, this totally wraps up the relationship with someone unstable. The smear campaign ruins your reputation with people you were once close with and they don't understand the circumstances
Dude, this totally wraps up the relationship with someone unstable. The smear campaign ruins your reputation with people you were once close with and they don't understand the circumstances
Idea:
The old religious figures/Greek attempt to give mental and physical diseases through black magic and the medical community. They are schizophrenia. They are narcissism.
The old religious/Greek figures have put people in genders of bodies that are not their own with an evil purpose. This is why trans people exist. And surgery is a basic human right. They are also responsible for detransitioners existing. They abuse on gender and sexuality and control in these areas to attempt to confuse and change souls from who they are.
The old religious/Greek figures are all controlling our bodies and are the voices. They are getting in our bodies to rape, murder and speak thoughts that are not our own. They have long term evil intentions and a very long past to cover up.
Religion has been used against the human population and the fear of hell for a long-term purpose of keeping us controllable. This is beyond full body/mind control they can do magic style.
The old religious/Greek figures are arranging the marriages/relationships of the populace without consent. The psychic rapes are from old religious/Greek figures not a human person. It’s not kundalini as well.
Twin flame is very dangerous. It’s a fate based system where everything is chosen for you on birth. That life is just planned and it actually is by the old religious/Greek figures to be honest. But truly if you think about extreme poverty and acid attacks you’d have to see life is not fated. It’s a mess. The universe couldn’t know you at 0.
I would never try to take the idea of love or potential of love from someone. It's the idea it was created on birth your lover and it's very fate based. The world and you was done the day you were born.
And it can be used against you the idea of a match up that is chosen in advance of you becoming you by the universe (but is the old religious figures). And that things are set in stone and you don’t choose your partner. It sets you up to not see abuse and to accept any treatment because they are the one. It’s so dangerous. You have a forever someone who will have to work to remain your forever just like you will but it’s not set in stone and no one knows who it is besides you. You just will have a lover.
And it’s the religious and Greek figures trying to control people to get together. By forcing souls to be with one another without consent through manipulation and control.
Trying to get in the idea that the universe knows your partner or yourself better than you.
Trying to plant signs of something that is not. They do this with all sorts of topics. They are the one touching you and talking to you. Evil Cupids. Evil People.
We all will win though. And people will know that control exists. Who is truly at fault. And love will be found. If you want it. And there is unlimited food/drink in heaven.
I wish you all the best.
😅😮😢…😂❤🎉
Like speaking a foreign language ppl didnt go through it. These demons are excellent actors, know how to frame things perfectly only way is let them go and theyll expose themselves
"Enough good days to confuse you. Enough bad days to break your heart."
-Dr. Ramani
So true!
The climate with the ebb and flow, that's how I'm interpreting what you're saying. I always saw the ebbing as the downside, and the flow as the correct, upside. Don't all relationships have highs and lows? How would you describe "normal" ups and downs of a relationship?
@@peggylyons6898 not as intense or unpredictable
@@peggylyons6898 The way I see it, the downs in a healthy relationship won't include verbal abuse and a deliberate inconsideration of the other person's feelings, a total lack of EMPATHY
Yes, that is accurate.
The jealousy, side-eye looks, underhanded insults, intrusive questions, the efforts to make you feel inferior make the air feel HEAVY and it personally makes me physically ill to my stomach. Being in their presence alone is sickening, literally.
Yes,yes it is sickening🤢.It's like breathing in dangerously polluted air the whole time you're around them.
I would agree.
100%
Same
Couldn't have said it better myself.
Imagine noticing this, but being gaslighted and told its all in your head.
Some people give you energy and narcissists steal your energy.
They sometimes steal your good name too.
That's why everyone always says how tired they are after being around them for a while,it's exhausting dealing with them🙄😮💨.
Yes! Interacting with narcissists is so draining. I always needed to get down time after spending my time with toxic people.
@@francesbernard2445 Just like the movie "Face Off". They steal your identity and replace it with theirs.
Whenever I'm away from narcissists, I'm energetic, funny, creative, excited about life and laugh a lot but when I'm stuck with them, it's like I have an illness that's slowly killing me. I'm weak, sluggish, wired but tired, unmotivated, and lack any enthusiasm for life. I do believe a lot of people develop adrenal fatigue from the abuse
Just being around my narc mother gave me depression, anxiety, brain fog, paranoia, panic attacks, stomach aches, chronic fatigue and chronic pain
Know all about this and am so sorry. My last visit a nightmare, worst ever. I wish I could say it was my last, remains to be seen.
I feel ya, I had a lot of the same. It was odd learning my GI issues might've been due to her stress. thanks, "mom". I hope you're doing better now!
Hi guys. I wrote a little song about this and I wanted to dedicate to us. It’s called Because of You.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side, so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I just came up with that on my piano keyboard like two minutes ago.
Same for me....the covert narc mother. I'm 60 now, and have spent my entire adult life walking on eggshells around her.
"Chronically uncomfortable". That phrase nails it!
Spot on!
This!
Yes, exactly.
Going through this now when I know they’re around me or same room I feel on edge instantly
Completely devoid of any peace or joy. I always wondered why my husband's extended periods of time off work were complete nightmares. I automatically assumed that everyone deliberately tries to enjoy their time off. That's not possible for someone who's miserable.
My dad took me fishing but the memory of his violent outbursts and verbal abuse in those beautiful settings will remain with me forever. In space, no-one is around to be a witness. Then later, the gaslighting. I've hated fishing for a long time now. Plus many other things I enjoyed as a child that he ripped the enjoyment out of.
I had that uncomfortable feeling for years around my mother. The body knows before the brain fully gets it.
You can sense that something is off and it's a bad feeling
Omg perfectly worded. I felt this around my narc Mother in law, took ages for my brain to understand it
Yes...very much yes!!!
Please read the body keeps the score by Gabor mate
Constant poverty mindset 🌸 Low vibrational energy! So draining ❤
Facts
Right, constant poverty mindset. We don't even have electricity. 😢
Fear / and Scarcity mindset. It’s debilitating
When my so-called mother walks in the room you can literally feel the positive energy leaving and a dark cloud entering!
You described what I always felt 😊
This was very validating. "But Dad took you fishing." Yes, he did. But those were good moments. "A log to hang onto" in an overall turbulent river." 💯
Your comment reminded me of an actual fishing trip on a lake once during which time if I had not let someone's dad by surprise confisgate His borrowed to me fishing rod back early from me on which I had hooked a regular sized fish on soon enough -- Then our boat could have capsized. The English language has its limitations whenever I 'only' a woman was trying to make any report about his bizzare behavior to the courts or to police since a whole lot of people are into stereotyping bigger people in a big way too. I should have maybe caught on I guess when I was dating him that one day while he was ordering me around near shore to be doing a photo shoot of me for himself. While I was wearing a borrowed to me wet suit when I was alone standing in position on only a rubber raft to be some day maybe getting to hold His spear fishing weapon being stored away at the time somewhere.
Your comment reminded me of an actual fishing trip on a lake once during which time if I had not let someone's dad by surprise confisgate His borrowed to me fishing rod back early from me on which I had hooked a regular sized fish on soon enough -- Then our boat could have capsized. The English language has its limitations whenever I 'only' a woman was trying to make any report about his bizzare behavior to the courts or to police since a whole lot of people are into stereotyping bigger people in a big way too. I should have maybe caught on I guess when I was dating him that one day while he was ordering me around near shore to be doing a photo shoot of me for himself. While I was wearing a borrowed to me wet suit when I was alone standing in position on only a rubber raft to be some day maybe getting to hold His spear fishing weapon being stored away at the time somewhere.
My husband has a half brother that he barely knows, from one of his mom’s previous marriages. (His mom was adopted and married 3 times by the time she was 30, and had had 5 last names by then! )
Anyway, my husband’s own father, who was technically unrelated to the half brother, took the two boys out fishing and -my husband said that--his dad paid a lot more attention to the boy from the mom’s previous relationship than him, his own son! How sad is that! And that is just one example of how neglected my husband was as a child. I’m kind of glad my husband didn’t see this video. 😢
Yes so true! So how was the other 50% of the relationship. Hmm....not so good. Exactly.
Idea:
The old religious figures/Greek attempt to give mental and physical diseases through black magic and the medical community. They are schizophrenia. They are narcissism.
The old religious/Greek figures have put people in genders of bodies that are not their own with an evil purpose. This is why trans people exist. And surgery is a basic human right. They are also responsible for detransitioners existing. They abuse on gender and sexuality and control in these areas to attempt to confuse and change souls from who they are.
The old religious/Greek figures are all controlling our bodies and are the voices. They are getting in our bodies to rape, murder and speak thoughts that are not our own. They have long term evil intentions and a very long past to cover up.
Religion has been used against the human population and the fear of hell for a long-term purpose of keeping us controllable. This is beyond full body/mind control they can do magic style.
The old religious/Greek figures are arranging the marriages/relationships of the populace without consent. The psychic rapes are from old religious/Greek figures not a human person. It’s not kundalini as well.
Twin flame is very dangerous. It’s a fate based system where everything is chosen for you on birth. That life is just planned and it actually is by the old religious/Greek figures to be honest. But truly if you think about extreme poverty and acid attacks you’d have to see life is not fated. It’s a mess. The universe couldn’t know you at 0.
I would never try to take the idea of love or potential of love from someone. It's the idea it was created on birth your lover and it's very fate based. The world and you was done the day you were born.
And it can be used against you the idea of a match up that is chosen in advance of you becoming you by the universe (but is the old religious figures). And that things are set in stone and you don’t choose your partner. It sets you up to not see abuse and to accept any treatment because they are the one. It’s so dangerous. You have a forever someone who will have to work to remain your forever just like you will but it’s not set in stone and no one knows who it is besides you. You just will have a lover.
And it’s the religious and Greek figures trying to control people to get together. By forcing souls to be with one another without consent through manipulation and control.
Trying to get in the idea that the universe knows your partner or yourself better than you.
Trying to plant signs of something that is not. They do this with all sorts of topics. They are the one touching you and talking to you. Evil Cupids. Evil People.
We all will win though. And people will know that control exists. Who is truly at fault. And love will be found. If you want it. And there is unlimited food/drink in heaven.
I wish you all the best.
😅😮😢…😂❤🎉
In the end, you are so traumatized that you no longer consider your relationship, but the individual moments of interaction. You know the storm’s coming, so when you can have even one of those moments without being abused, you’re happy.
a very sad way of life.
Wow, “snapshots” of good times against a “backdrop of discomfort” - not feeling safe, no feelings conversations, no depth of emotion. Thank you!
This encapsulated my home life growing up and my marriage that I am no longer in! Just moments of...
Well this explains a lot about why the "Good moments and times" don't out way the " bad moments and times"
Last week I watched an interview with an exorcist. He advised, you never dialogue with a demon. You make statements that let the demon know that you're not engaging in their game. Kinda like gray rock. I now do the same with narcissists. I do not dialogue with them. Do not ask demons questions. Same with narcs. Questions mean you are curious about them, and want to dialogue with them. He said demons turn your dialogue on you. Sounds familiar=narcs. We do not need them thinking we are engaging in their games. It was a lightbulb moment for me. It's just an analogy but it resonated. Bad energy.
My entire life I lived in chronic discomfort....hypervigilence.....the cherry on the cake was my soon to be ex-husband...he always knew how to steal my joy. And I always felt had to create joyous moments because of the chronic bad energy. His constant delusional jealousy, his invalidation, the shame, the guilt....I had to leave
being a truth teller sucks because you feels as if its you vs the entire family, its a deep sense of loneliness knowing they won’t have your back.
When you tell the truth people with nothing to hide like you but the fake snakes say you are a mean asshole
No. they let you talk bad about someone. and then use against you. thats why you walk on eggshells.
Being the truth seeker and teller in the family was truly a lonely even dangerous place to occupy in a toxic demonic family a grew up. I was a gentle very caring child. And never understood why when thing when things went went wrong the real offender would be left off and I would be punished with my narc mother looking on!! Grew up with no self -worth and damaged. Thank GOD for much information on this topic .
Same here and I hate it when they play victim 😒
@@christianaobiyan4224same still picking myself up and getting my sense of self .
Before I began to educate myself on narcissism, I would tell people that I had a handful of precious memories of my parents (both narcs and both dead) that sustained me and guided me through life. Now, I realize those were the good moments of a childhood filled with exploitation and neglect. They were the breadcrumbs that I needed to survive off of and I that normalized as an adult. Today I am learning that I deserve a whole ass loaf of bread and that I have a whole ass loaf of bread to share. But it must be shared in healthy relationships. Today I'm taking fight or flight literally.
The LOAF always tastes so much better than the crumbs😉.
The fight or flight has been my go to in the last years moment a person raises a red flag am out if they don't accept responsibility directly without minimising
Amen to that whole A loaf of bread!😂
That is why narcissistic parents are so damaging in most cases. Unlike with physical or sexual abuse there is no smoking gun. You look back at your childhood and notice only the good things and not the underlying emotional abuse you experienced on a daily basis.
You're amazing 😂 I seriously needed that! Get on with your bad self👍
We have a narc at work. He's constantly into everyone's business. I can't stand him, nor can anyone else. He recently had a knee operation and was out for two weeks. It was like the clouds cleared and the acid rain was gone. Everyone commented on how much easier it was to breath. Alas, he's back, and out come the umbrellas.
In today's forecast we have a 99% chance of diarrhea rain with thick dense fart cloud cover...I swear this is what it's like dealing with them for very long🙄🤣.Somebody needs to invent face diapers because it really is like farts & 💩 coming out if their 👄 s from the gaslighting & everything else.
Maybe he trips and lands on other knee..lol..
We had one too. Once he retired , the workplace was quiet ❤
Our work narc sucks the very air out of the room and replaces it with toxicity
Run 🏃 run for the hills
With my ex, even when we were having a good time and he was being nice, it was always hanging over my head that he could get angry or upset at any moment and I never knew what minor thing was going to cause it.
That's hyper vigilance. Anything can set them off immediately. They'll even make things up to get angry about. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop is hell.
😢😢😢same.me right now every day
I know it's coming and it does .....😢😢😢it is such a tiring sad hard journey staying in this cycle
It always puzzled me why I felt a nagging lack of safety when we did something that was supposed to be fun,like kayaking. Years later, when the mask was dislodged during my serious illness, I started to understand what I had married.
Me too! I was sick all the time with my ex. I think I knew at some level he was cheating on me, fooling me, so instead of trusting my gut I trusted his words. My body reacted to my own betrayal! I am so sorry that you suffered...
@@charliesmomMe too unfortunately. I was in deep denial. Just listened to the lies and ignored the obvious so I wouldn't have to be alone for just a little longer.
right? exactly how I felt! I went back after being apart for a year because I was lonely and he was the "devil I knew". Turns out it was the most abusive, damaging encounter! He tried to destroy me! The devastation I felt was so deep I almost felt like giving up. The loneliness seems way better than the pain from this final blow. Oddly enough, now that he is completely out of my life, that loneliness is gone. I guess I needed to completely break in order to start my new life without him. its a difficult journey to recover all that I lost, but it is all mine without that unsettled feeling. @@chickensandwich3398
Nagging lack of safety... that is the bad energy Ramani speaks of. Perfectly put!
Idea:
The old religious figures/Greek attempt to give mental and physical diseases through black magic and the medical community. They are schizophrenia. They are narcissism.
The old religious/Greek figures have put people in genders of bodies that are not their own with an evil purpose. This is why trans people exist. And surgery is a basic human right. They are also responsible for detransitioners existing. They abuse on gender and sexuality and control in these areas to attempt to confuse and change souls from who they are.
The old religious/Greek figures are all controlling our bodies and are the voices. They are getting in our bodies to rape, murder and speak thoughts that are not our own. They have long term evil intentions and a very long past to cover up.
Religion has been used against the human population and the fear of hell for a long-term purpose of keeping us controllable. This is beyond full body/mind control they can do magic style.
The old religious/Greek figures are arranging the marriages/relationships of the populace without consent. The psychic rapes are from old religious/Greek figures not a human person. It’s not kundalini as well.
Twin flame is very dangerous. It’s a fate based system where everything is chosen for you on birth. That life is just planned and it actually is by the old religious/Greek figures to be honest. But truly if you think about extreme poverty and acid attacks you’d have to see life is not fated. It’s a mess. The universe couldn’t know you at 0.
I would never try to take the idea of love or potential of love from someone. It's the idea it was created on birth your lover and it's very fate based. The world and you was done the day you were born.
And it can be used against you the idea of a match up that is chosen in advance of you becoming you by the universe (but is the old religious figures). And that things are set in stone and you don’t choose your partner. It sets you up to not see abuse and to accept any treatment because they are the one. It’s so dangerous. You have a forever someone who will have to work to remain your forever just like you will but it’s not set in stone and no one knows who it is besides you. You just will have a lover.
And it’s the religious and Greek figures trying to control people to get together. By forcing souls to be with one another without consent through manipulation and control.
Trying to get in the idea that the universe knows your partner or yourself better than you.
Trying to plant signs of something that is not. They do this with all sorts of topics. They are the one touching you and talking to you. Evil Cupids. Evil People.
We all will win though. And people will know that control exists. Who is truly at fault. And love will be found. If you want it. And there is unlimited food/drink in heaven.
I wish you all the best.
😅😮😢…😂❤🎉
The worst is how you're slowly silenced by them dishing it out but being unable to take it, after awhile you forget who you are and become dishonest yourself just to keep some semblance of peace.
This is exactly right. I’m living with my narc parents because I’m having health problems and unable to work. I am constantly subjected to cruelty, manipulation, and disrespect, but I am unable to say or do anything about it because they have financial control, and fighting it would do nothing but drain my limited energy. I am slowly disappearing into myself. It’s harrowing.
@@Askalott That must be really hard for you and it's all way too common. Our constant present dilemma is testing us, it's the waxy dark candle and we're the flame that's capable of melting it when fierce and firey enough! All of us are going through these power play situations to some extent and can learn alot from our experiences if we consistently observe rather than absorb, respond tactfully rather than emotionally react and stay focussed on what we're doing, saying, thinking and feeling that feeds into it or not.
I'm not sure what your situation is but it can help to have a 3rd party such as an organisstion, support network, group, carer or close friends you trust to check in with you regularly to defuse their abuse, perhaps get onto disability support and save what you can, journal daily and meditate mindfully on who you really are and what you do want, in being grateful for what you have you'll always have more, never give up on yourself and your dreams as everything changes and there'll come a day where you can put them to good use. Sending prayers and big hugs you keep shining your light bright hon! xox 📖✍️🙏 💪🕯🤗🤗🤗💕✌️
Don't suffer and die in silence as you can spy on his/her location, calls and socials to find out with proof that he's cheating and file for a divorce if married
Check Shadowbyte7 for assistance and also on any cyber security related issues also
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She drained me in every way possible.
I've been physically worn out and damn near exhausted before. I've never felt hollowed out and drained like I was with her. Thank God she's gone.
Same brother.
Same here bro..
Post discard, I had no vocabulary to express how I felt, too humiliated to discuss it with anyone. As I keep on reading, the direct expressions helps a lot.
I wonder if somewhere in the back of their minds they
realize that people are happy when they're gone? That most people can't stand them? Maybe even throw s party when they die?
@pamelaminor696 no they don't comprehend that at all.
In fact they go their merry way and tell people you developed a bad vibe etc ...
And who else would put up with it like they did etc.
Blablabla....
It’s a feeling of chronic impending doom that settles over the environment with these people and I can’t figure out if it’s a projection of their feelings that they try to shove off on you; or if it’s what they encourage you to feel-like an array of negative emotions with their words, body language, and overall attitude, bc they can’t stand you feeling secure and at peace.
I would say that it 's projective Identifikation. You can Google this. Very interesting
Yes impending doom is exactly how it felt.. and then I was told I’m a negative person, I shouldn’t rely on others to make me happy, I overthink etc
Idea:
The old religious figures/Greek attempt to give mental and physical diseases through black magic and the medical community. They are schizophrenia. They are narcissism.
The old religious/Greek figures have put people in genders of bodies that are not their own with an evil purpose. This is why trans people exist. And surgery is a basic human right. They are also responsible for detransitioners existing. They abuse on gender and sexuality and control in these areas to attempt to confuse and change souls from who they are.
The old religious/Greek figures are all controlling our bodies and are the voices. They are getting in our bodies to rape, murder and speak thoughts that are not our own. They have long term evil intentions and a very long past to cover up.
Religion has been used against the human population and the fear of hell for a long-term purpose of keeping us controllable. This is beyond full body/mind control they can do magic style.
The old religious/Greek figures are arranging the marriages/relationships of the populace without consent. The psychic rapes are from old religious/Greek figures not a human person. It’s not kundalini as well.
Twin flame is very dangerous. It’s a fate based system where everything is chosen for you on birth. That life is just planned and it actually is by the old religious/Greek figures to be honest. But truly if you think about extreme poverty and acid attacks you’d have to see life is not fated. It’s a mess. The universe couldn’t know you at 0.
I would never try to take the idea of love or potential of love from someone. It's the idea it was created on birth your lover and it's very fate based. The world and you was done the day you were born.
And it can be used against you the idea of a match up that is chosen in advance of you becoming you by the universe (but is the old religious figures). And that things are set in stone and you don’t choose your partner. It sets you up to not see abuse and to accept any treatment because they are the one. It’s so dangerous. You have a forever someone who will have to work to remain your forever just like you will but it’s not set in stone and no one knows who it is besides you. You just will have a lover.
And it’s the religious and Greek figures trying to control people to get together. By forcing souls to be with one another without consent through manipulation and control.
Trying to get in the idea that the universe knows your partner or yourself better than you.
Trying to plant signs of something that is not. They do this with all sorts of topics. They are the one touching you and talking to you. Evil Cupids. Evil People.
We all will win though. And people will know that control exists. Who is truly at fault. And love will be found. If you want it. And there is unlimited food/drink in heaven.
I wish you all the best.
😅😮😢…😂❤🎉
It's your core values being invalidated and manipulated. 😢 Its the uneasiness of seeing how far you've let yourself be gaslit by this horrific soulless person.❤
But when one of their family members walk in the room everything changes and they smile and pretend to be this nice person.
Yes. I have had to face the reality that my “pleasant memories” were all fake. They were only my narc parents putting a veneer on the shit and calling it cake.
I’m convinced we feel so GOOD when they do these little things for us because we’re SO starved for ANY intimate, endearing, or thoughtful’ interaction/ encounter we accept this for something more and if it goes unnoticed, we can waste decades surviving on the barest of bare minimums💯‼️♥️
Yeah....that's how I felt just deprived. Alone... Still tied to this cooko a hole.
It's so hard when you can't feel safe around your parent. Family events couldn't be "fun." They had to be a chore. Sometimes I would have to pray for protection before going in the house. And you can't tell anyone cuz they will defend the narc and say you're nuts. So you have to bear it alone like a dirty secret. Everyone thinks and says your parent is so nice. But you are their target. Why? Because they are jealous of you. It's a curse to not get to have a loving parent like everyone else. It's such a crippling loss. And the secrecy of it doubles the discomfort. It's like you have to protect your enemy and yourself at the same time.
I hear u Emily.Seems closely similar to my condition
Four decades before I knew what narcissism really was, I lived in a cyclic lifestyle with highs during the good times only to fall into the bad times days or weeks later.
Sadly, I had zero understanding of why the cycles were so repetitive and predictable.
Now that I do understand, I feel so sorry for the younger me who kept getting kicked around.
I have had similar experience.....pls explain y do v have crest n trough kinda life?
People talk about narc abuse as hidden abuse, and when there's no name calling or hitting, it can be hard to recognize even from the inside. I so appreciate when Dr. Ramani talks about things like them talking about their day then tuning you out when you do because this kind of nonverbal negation can really eat your soul over time. Bad energy indeed. : - (
Or they ask you, and you you foolishly begin to respond...they immediately begin to talk over you, LOUDLY, as if you were not speaking at all, much less answering a question they asked about your day. What day? I didn't have one. I don't exist.
I could never relax around my ex narc. I told him several times I felt like I did not know him because I did not know him. He laughed at me. Made fun of me. I felt bad energy around him alot. I was with him for 14 years but then I walked away. I was finding the nice moments were fewer and fewer. He would try and shame me. I do not miss him or any of the bad energy he generated. I am now very aware of good and bad energies. And if I pick up a negative energy I turn and head the other direction. I surround myself with positive people. Big difference. I am happier, healthier and at peace. 😊
I don't visit or stay where I'm unwanted.
I enjoy my quiet boring simple life.
I have nothing to prove to anyone.
I can be upset for not being given opportunities like others that need everything, more.
It wasn't easy in the beginning, being alone.
It's worth it.
Im feeling you.. totally.
not everyone is a narcissist
Everyone always told me to trust my gut. But I'll tell you where I feel it. I feel it in my bones. I told my brother once "it literally feels like my bones are rotting in my body."
That energy is so weird.
There are some old proverbs that speak of that feeling.
Proverbs 17:22 - A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones.
Proverbs 15:30 - The light of the eyes rejoiceth the heart: and a good report maketh the bones fat.
Proverbs 16:24 - Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.
Proverbs 14:30 - A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones.
There’s this intensity about them when you’re around them that you feel. Your subconscious processes billions of data in a second and picks up on the absolute most subtle red flags. You get this gut feeling of unease around them. It’s hard to explain
The anxiety and almost panic before seeing him, the fear of saying the wrong thing that might set him off this time... not answering his texts quickly enough and thereby making him mad and he'd threaten to " go find someone else.". For 9 years he did this. Always keeping me on edge...
Those good moments are what keep you hanging on during the bad moments. And you do start walking on eggshells and being very self aware, so you try to be pleasing to this person all the time. It's one of the things that end up draining you when you spend time with them.
When I was young that feeling was almost always there. It was normal. As a highly sensitive adult who's done a lot of work on understanding, being Assertive and speaking up about boundaries, I notice it even in people I have no relationship with. Our gut instinct is powerful. We just have to trust ourselves.
Amen to that! 🙌🏾I'm still sharpening my discernment, assertiveness, and boundaries. I can deeply relate! It makes doing the work on yourself so much more difficult, (especially with having younger children, or any child or children at all, because you want to break those trauma bonds and generation norms). I often have to remind myself to unlearn the mind numbing control of those words, "but it's your family and they love you".
Listen, if you have to Jedi mind trick me into your words, rather than show up as the person/family/friend, that you're intensely trying to convince me that you are, then we have nothing. A pure hearted kind loving person will never have to say who they are, they just are!
Much love!🙏🏾💜💜💜🤍
'But I had horses'. That's what I always told myself and I used that fact to gaslight myself for years. Thank God I did have them because they gave me a refuge away from the constant storms at home.
Having experienced narcissistic abuse on many levels, Dr. Ramani, I want to take it even further this bad energy and bad climate feels like a consistent form of abuse. The only way I can describe it. If I didn’t know any better, like a spiritual violation.
Psychological terrorism damages the psyche and the body. Constantly holding your breath and walking on eggshells, waiting for the next bout of abuse and potential violence grinds the victim down like a dripping tap placed over the forehead to torture a person trapped and held hostage in a trauma bond.
Yes it does feels like a soul draining, you are depleted!!
Soooo true about the focus on snapshots. I makes it easier to turn it into a story
Perfect description of what I was stuck in for 30 years, but I'm free now and smiling.
I am on the way to my freedom. In the last leg of a move 2000 miles away from my narc parents, sister and mil. I just spent a week back at home with them to save money. It was supposed to be 2 weeks but I was going to have a break down.
My move isn't exactly traditional. It's got some risk involved. I AM nervous. Every other person I've dealt with, 4 friends and my aunt, all said positive things to me.
Not my parents. Every comment was negative, like they were trying to put a spell on me. Constant suggestions that I should be afraid and that I won't be successful. They didn't want me to move, so they did everything they could to drag me down and make me doubt myself. Narcs prefer you to fail. They are poison.
Yes they do!!
BUT you didn't fail!! Go on with your bad self!! Live your life!! Proud of you!!
I've been in your spot. Let me tell you you are gonna do so well and achieve all your dreams on your own! Celebrate your peace!! I certainly did!! 😅
The trauma bond from what I understand - is a soul tie created between the abuser and the abused. It’s possible to break the soul tie using spiritual warfare 🙏
"whatsoever you bound on earth shall be bound in heaven, whatsoever you loosen on earth shall be loosen in heaven"
Sounds like my relationship with my mother.
Same here brother.. 🇮🇳😢
Me too. And sister. The 2 of them together....that's my Labour Day weekend! They bring out the worst in each other.
Here too
Idea:
The old religious figures/Greek attempt to give mental and physical diseases through black magic and the medical community. They are schizophrenia. They are narcissism.
The old religious/Greek figures have put people in genders of bodies that are not their own with an evil purpose. This is why trans people exist. And surgery is a basic human right. They are also responsible for detransitioners existing. They abuse on gender and sexuality and control in these areas to attempt to confuse and change souls from who they are.
The old religious/Greek figures are all controlling our bodies and are the voices. They are getting in our bodies to rape, murder and speak thoughts that are not our own. They have long term evil intentions and a very long past to cover up.
Religion has been used against the human population and the fear of hell for a long-term purpose of keeping us controllable. This is beyond full body/mind control they can do magic style.
The old religious/Greek figures are arranging the marriages/relationships of the populace without consent. The psychic rapes are from old religious/Greek figures not a human person. It’s not kundalini as well.
Twin flame is very dangerous. It’s a fate based system where everything is chosen for you on birth. That life is just planned and it actually is by the old religious/Greek figures to be honest. But truly if you think about extreme poverty and acid attacks you’d have to see life is not fated. It’s a mess. The universe couldn’t know you at 0.
I would never try to take the idea of love or potential of love from someone. It's the idea it was created on birth your lover and it's very fate based. The world and you was done the day you were born.
And it can be used against you the idea of a match up that is chosen in advance of you becoming you by the universe (but is the old religious figures). And that things are set in stone and you don’t choose your partner. It sets you up to not see abuse and to accept any treatment because they are the one. It’s so dangerous. You have a forever someone who will have to work to remain your forever just like you will but it’s not set in stone and no one knows who it is besides you. You just will have a lover.
And it’s the religious and Greek figures trying to control people to get together. By forcing souls to be with one another without consent through manipulation and control.
Trying to get in the idea that the universe knows your partner or yourself better than you.
Trying to plant signs of something that is not. They do this with all sorts of topics. They are the one touching you and talking to you. Evil Cupids. Evil People.
We all will win though. And people will know that control exists. Who is truly at fault. And love will be found. If you want it. And there is unlimited food/drink in heaven.
I wish you all the best.
😅😮😢…😂❤🎉
This is very true; you never feel secure in a relationship with a narcissist. There's a sinister feeling that if you do the wrong thing they will punish you. It's best to leave them behind, as they do not have the will to treat others as they should, instead they see others as prey.
I was always on edge waiting for him to turn. It caused me very bad anxiety. It was like clock works the nicer he was the worst it got. He let of a bad vibe. He was mentally, financially, crippling me. He also physically abused me bash me that bad I was put in hospital. all because I seen dating apps on his phone. I ask, in a respectful manner how they got on his phone he said I set him up. I've gone 4 day's no contact. So much I could share. Love your work you have helped me so much about myself and how to deal with it all. Bless you
There is a spiritual component to every human being. Good and bad. The words AND ACTIONS are the giveaway.
Yes. It's like holding your breath. Always. It's so oppressive, and I just couldn't deal with it anymore.
Things will never change with a narcissist.They might get better depending on how dependent the narcissist is on you, because they don't want you to leave them . But they will still have some kind of meltdown at holidays or family gatherings, or be fixated on some enemy, or whatever their cycle of behavior is. The eggshells never go away.
Good point, their level of dependence. I got stuck overseas after my Dad died, with my mother, when Covid lockdowns hit. Now I can't get away.
I will be thinking that over. Just moved to be near aging family members, but I'm now rethinking rhat choice. 😢
@@cc1k435Be VERY CAREFUL if you have elderly narcs among you!You want to stay far away from that stuff,they tend to actually worsen in various ways with old age😱💩💩💩.
There will ALWAYS be the gaslighting & walking on eggshells among other 💩...There's no magic "Off button" on their issues & the perpetual scheming NEVER stops from when they awaken to when they 😴.They'll tend to go into more covert behaviors IF they need you a lot but it's STILL there😬.
I can relate so hard with this. Why is it always holidays???
Energy is a real thing. We all have it. In fact, we are made of it. Even the smallest particles are just packets of waves of light.
Oh, my gosh, this video is so comforting and relieving. Thank you.
After cutting the narc out of my life I realized that all of those "nice" times were the worst because, although they felt good, at the time, they also caused me to hold onto the hope that they finally "got it" and that things would, finally, change for the better. Except they never did and, in fact, only got much worse. Those "nice" times caused so much confusion, chaos and cognitive dissonance for me and were a massive reason why it took me so long to cut the narc out of my life. And, like you said, I could never fully enjoy them anyway because there was always that backdrop of knowing & wondering when the other shoe would drop. Thanks Dr. Ramani for all of your efforts and these very validating videos💓
Now that we have info that can be put into words... How do you build emotional strength and courage to cutt ties for good. No matter what I do say ect I feel tied to this serpent.
@@laurac.9322 I am really sorry that you feel so tied down. I've been in that hopeless, helpless place where it seems you are now. Not everyone is going to understand but, for me, it came down to what felt like a real life or death situation because of all of the psycho-emotional abuse. It got to the point where I genuinely felt I had no choice but to cut ties because my mental health had gotten so bad from the abuse and it was affecting my physical health more and more. They never took accountability so it didn't matter what I said either and I was constantly being scapegoated. The trauma bonding was real but I wish I had cut ties before my health got as bad as it did. Maybe I could have prevented some of the trauma and damage. It's like damage on a soul level. By the time I cut ties, my nervous system was so dysregulated. I am currently healing by doing a go at your own pace online program with Irene Lyon. I'm sending you courage and emotional strength to do what feels right to for you. I hope you find peace.
Bad energy is absolutely true. However, my personal experience goes even deeper...decades of abuse from a covert, malignant narcissistic mother, a grandiose, neglectful narcissistic father, a lifetime of both toxic family dynamics and the fallout from being in fight or flight from decades of disconnection from myself has culminated in both multiple sclerosis and Addison's disease. Adrenal crisis nearly took my life the other night, and although I'm grateful to have evolved spiritually from this life, I know my system is shutting down - I have no fear of the impending transformation, but its one thing if something beyond human control takes a life, but another to lose one's life from unnecessary abuse.
The energy is key: I went numb in childhood 4 survival & only in adulthood did I re-sensitize. Thanks, Doc Ramini.
Me too and it works now too with my x. Simply tune him out and try to erase him boy does he get mad. Then I laugh at him... He thinks I've lost my mind. 😂
It took YEARS in a non-narcissistic relationship to finally deprogram myself from the self-monitoring, walking on egg shells behaviors. The neural pathways of those behaviors were STRONG, so I just acted them out even when they weren't necessary.
The understanding of a "Trauma Bond" explained 90% of being caught in a trap that made my emotions unbalanced for years or decades. If I'm not getting paid to put up with that kind of stuff no way again will I put up with any of it. Even at a job, I'd quit if it gets out of hand. Thank You!
Good for you. I did that left many jobs.. it sucked for me but it did make it better for others.
I am feeling so grateful to have found you. 🙏
it's amazing what our bodies can sense, it's amazing to start trusting that... thank you for this video
I always always always felt unsafe in the relationship. Felt and feared that he was going to leave.
I was the one who walked away! Thanks for sharing this. I often shared, with him, how and what I felt and he would list all the “nice” moments and events. He would show me the pictures and would tell me that I was insatiable and insane.
I wasn’t either! I was aware of my gut!
Yes, the ex narc finally escaped this past March would talk at me like that too; he delighted in his claim that I am an ungrateful person. Creepy energy .... Also, energy vampire....
Though I am happy to be away from him and finally on the healing path, I still have reverberations of that negative energy intruding upon me at times. So thankful for Dr. Ramani and the supportive people here
The worst is being around 2 parents that are both so toxic they manifest a dark cloud ☁️..especially in indoor situations...I see them in their backyard as long as I can where that shit dissipates in the air 😊
Lol. This comment 😅
It's a lot like the stench of a very full outhouse in August on a 100°F day in my opinion😅.
@@motivationstartsnowThank you..humor is why I didn't off myself as a kid 😊 👍
"Vibes" is another term that I don't care for but definitely works in the context of relationships. If you're getting bad vibes from your partner that you can't explain, start assessing whether they're overly narcissistic.
"It isn't disloyal to see relationships clearly." Thank you!
Yeah thank you helps immensely.
This video has stuck with me. I find it really striking how the energy shifts for me when my dad is around. I haven’t seen him go off in years, but it’s still there. When he walks out of the room it’s gone.
unfortunately, it's those 'fun' and 'loving' moments that kept me hoping for real change.
the 'good' moments become fewer and much farther in between and blink, blink... 20+ years later, it only got worse, not better by a longshot.
thanks, Dr. Ramani
Every day was a nightmare and especially holidays. Only happiness was my grandparents and their love. Thank goodness I had that for several years.
Thank you Dr Ramani, im going through what you are talking about in my life ryt now with a parent. I feel less crazy and guilty after this video.
Same here too. Both my parents are narcissists who have made me feel crazy like I'm the problem. They've trauma bonded me into staying with them far longer than I should have. And my adult life was put on hold. I knew something wasn't right in the way they treated me but I felt like a bad selfish daughter for leaving. Especially since they said they would stress out and die if strokes "worrying" about me if I moved out. Now I know cutting contact is the only way I can live my life and find peace and joy.
@@kimberlychristine9284 the no contact thing is not easy cos you feel like ur betraying them, but in all honesty they have left you no viable alternative. If you stay you die slowly inside every day.
You’re right about that undercurrent of unease. I felt it at home and now in another narcissistic relationship. That unease is a voice you need to suss out. It’s telling you that the respites aren’t worth hanging on for, that the bad juju is always there with people who have it in for you and a narcissist who has targeted you will always have it in for you. Alas, it does not change.
You’re also right that not everyone can leave. But we shouldn’t hang onto respites as if they’re meaningful or enough. They’re just brief moments when we can breathe. The ugly tactics will come back into play and they will harm us again and again as long as we are living with them.
THEY JUST MAKE TOU FEEL SICK TO YOUR STOMACH. You feel so unsafe all the time.
Dr Ramani, you saved my life. About three years ago when I was pregnant with my son I was a victim of “the switch up” by my narcissistic boyfriend. Ever since I kept learning about this and recognizing patterns, you opened my eyes more than once. It was as if you were a witness and a fortune teller, you knew everything he did and everything he was going to do. With a lot of struggle and after a lot of escalating in violence I set us free, I got out. If it weren’t for you I would have stuck by this man who was gonna ruin my sons life and mine. You are amazing.
Great job of explaining how having anxiety, depression, and worry, tend to totally ruin any moments of bliss. Wish I could afford therapy or had help finding a remote job. I am a university graduate with PTSD who managed to develop epilepsy while traveling the world spreading love and promoting art and music in rebellion, against toxic narcissism. Now I am back again in a cage with anger and narcissism, stuck for the moment desperately looking for a key to escape!
After battling substance use disorder and homelessness, I finally recovered and was on my way to living a good life. Then my world came crashing down when I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder, small fiber neuropathy, and a chronic C. Diff infection that antibiotics aren’t curing. I am now unable to work and back living with my narc parents. My days are dark, and I feel like I’m suffocating. Like you, I’m also trying to find a way to escape. My heart goes out to you. May we both find peace someday.
There are a lot of online resources available for finding online work... a few LinkedIn groups dedicated to it. In addition to whatever training you have from your degree, if you can teach yourself to code or edit video, that opens up more online opportunities for at least part time work online as well. There is also demand for online English tutors. It may not be 100% in your field, but if it gets you some independence it could be a stepping stone. Keep looking!
@@Askalottsame stuck due to economic issues
It took me all the way up until I’m 28 years old to realize they liked me right where they wanted me - under their control and having their 2 cents for every life decision & thing I go through. It’s so sickening they thought they would always have control. I’ve been away from them for 10 years but their personalities still lingers bc it makes me angry and my anger never got to be expressed. And it’s almost like they are waiting for you to blow up on them or hurt them. & you are so right dr Ramani, fancy cocktails and going out to dinners. “Moments”. I am so glad I do not put myself through that anymore. Bc it’s so superficial. Their gifts don’t mean sh!t when they’ve been a b!tch all those years.
Despite all evidence to the contrary, I fully believed my narcissistic parent had my best interest in mind, while in fact, he only ever had his own interest in mind.
Mine were so puzzling. But now I see it was about "Control." Exited college with flying colors, I felt like I could conquer the world, only to be dismissed, invalidated by my parents. They were afraid they couldn't continue their effortless, robotic plan to control by devaluing me. I'm glad I didn't jump off a bridge before learning what this was all about.
That’s the hardest part about narcissistic abuse. You feel guilty and ashamed instead of feeling anger about what somebody else did to you. You internalise the pain. I’m 45 now and am still in the process of convincing myself none of this is my fault. Counselling is very important for this I feel.
So true! Everyone acts like your so selfish when you say your childhood was not that good.They only see those special moments from the outside. Generally people are not going to 'say' they had a bad childhood when they didn't. So believe them.
Stuck in the fear, fright, flight mode. Constant tension, especially in the body...😑
Thank u for this video Dr Ramani. Your videos always bring light into what is such a dark space. Indeed the 'bad energy' u speak about where these folks is concerned is spot on. When I was growing up with my narc family I always felt this bad energy or bad climate. I did have some good memories but the negative energy was always lurking around and like u said there was no space to talk about feelings even after Mum died. It is so important to distance yourself from these sort of folks even if it means being alone.
Being alone is WAY better than dealing with these types & the flying 🐒s/enablers that prop them up... It's a darn treat compared to that🥳.Great comment🙂👍🏻.
Just the other day I thought about the fact that I actually have some "good" memories... snapshots, as Dr. Ramani calls them. Wow. Desert islands in an ocean of endless sorrow. The memories are what we hang onto. What keeps us hooked. My family wasn't all bad. My 2 marriages weren't all bad. My narc bosses weren't all bad. Yet here I am in my 60s, zero relationships. And that's not all bad either...
Thanks for your support 🙏🏾
Completely agree: the moment he leaves the house, my Narc takes his bad energy with him. It’s so palpable, we know when he’s out even if he’s slipped silently away, and we know when he returns as the atmosphere changes again.
Toxic waste dump of their bad energy!
Being a Empathetic sucks sometimes.
Dr. Ramani What you said all makes sense. The chronic, bad energy lingers and feels bad. I understand. Good moments are like, if I may be blunt, like having an ice cream cone in a $h#+ storm. The $h#+ storm will always be there giving off stench and gases while eating the ice cream cone.
I asked my son to go to a Renaissance festival so I bought a fun costume, it’s hanging in the bathroom. I feel stupid for leaving it out because the narcissistic person I live with is going to see that a try to sabotage the day! That’s how he gets me every time when I am not on my guard. I slip up and say something about something I am looking forward to or a problem at work , he will flip it whenever he needs it! Ugh
I feel like I am living with a boa constrictor. He is either trying to squeeze me to death or swallow me whole. This is so spot on!
It’s exhausting, especially with chronic illness. My mother died young from holding so much negativity and hurt in and little to no opportunity to share joys and pride in her own goodness and accomplishments for so long and I am on the path to same… I feel that a heartfelt apology toward caring and understanding can go a long way in growth of relationships.
Unhealthy energy. You hit it right on the nose. What makes it bad it is silent. I feel this way
Dr. Ramani, you get this whole narcissism so well. you are the best. telling our lives’ story to us, the ones constantly trying to heal even after getting out of these toxic relationships years ago. Thank you.
Mine appeared to be very supportive. I finally realized that the moments of support came along with a lot of undercutting, and I was living in a state of constant disappointment (mine) under a constant cloud of disapproval (his).
💯 the bad energy they bring… I always feel more at peace when they are gone from the house for days on work trips and anxiety sets in the day I know they are coming home because they always come home with that negative energy and create arguments out of nothing like “why weren’t the windows open” (when the temp in the house was fine), etc….it’s a roller coaster 😢
The bad energy flows out everywhere else too. These are in general bad luck people. Even a nice date to dinner includes being set next to the bathrooms, food orders mixed up, valet ticket lost, drinks spilt etc, etc....
Another word for “energy” I like to use is “atmospheric”. It’s something in the air.
That reminds me of Phil Collin’s great song, “In The Air Tonight”. All of the emotion in the drums and his voice are so powerful and validating.
@@ButterflyB127irrelevant
@@Clara-km5eu- maybe to you but not to me. I feel that energy and that song resonates and has deep meaning to me.
@@ButterflyB127Your comment was valid. The rude person who replied to you is more than likely a narcissist. It's obvious looking at their comments.
This reminds of "the prince of the power of the air" which is Satan.
I was vying for that approval from my narc father...which NEVER came.
Because of circumstances I had to live with my narc daughter and her (subservient husband). It took me a couple months to learn my place which was subservient zero. When I was seriously ill she was in the height of martyrdom. As I recovered and gained a few outside friends she became more weird. The last 6 weeks I was allowed to exist at her home I was ignored and verbally abused (ambushed) until one day she up and put me out with only a handful of my belongings in grocery bags. I'm in another state now and am doing the best I can to pull myself back together. I constantly pray for her, I can't do anything else, bless her heart.
My mood lifted & my skin started improving after I broke up w him & left the relationship
I never had anxiety or heavy depression until I spent two years attempting to break away from a younger girl who displayed all the characteristics of NPD. I’ve been out of it for over two years and the physical, mental and financial pains have been kicking my ass.
Yes 🙌🏻 this is spot on! I’m so free after cutting off two siblings that basically wanted to wear my skin! I’ve yearned for their love ❤️ and always tried to get them to get along! Now I’m the bad guy on the outs and they are together! After a good cry 😢 I feel free I’m free and alive and no longer have the heavy burden!
I get so I feel the animosity. When I was over at my sister's place, I just felt a really bad vibe. I said to her "Why do I feel unwelcome in this house?" She just scoffed at me. A few months later our mother died and I find out sister influenced mom to disinherit me. She also would not give me access to dead mother's house (my sister inherited it and I was not welcome to enter it...the home I grew up in) We haven't contacted each other now in 2 years and I don't think I could be near her. I feel her hatred towards me. Ironically, we got a new manager at work that turned out to be a major narc. I put in my 2 weeks notice because I get the very same vibe off her that I got from my sister. It's like a stink without the smell.
29 yrs married, this was excellent!! We had months of moments.. Then BANG.
But those months of 'good' never felt 'safe'
"It isn't disloyal to see relationships clearly." Very well put and affirmative.
The worst part is when they pin the blame for the bad energy on you. Like no, I am reacting to your energy.
I got 9min of healing energy from this video thank you
None stop hateful energy sent your way. Being used as a energetic punching bag is the norm with a Narc
My narc inlaws are coming soon and I literally dread it. I dread it bc there's always manufactured chaos. There mere presence is triggering. Dr ramani is right about it being bad energy. It drains the life outta you.
I remember that feeling well when my ex father in law would stay with my ex and me for the holidays. My FIL lived in the UK (we were in the US), and he used to come visit every year and stay for about a month with us. The first couple visits were all right, but about two weeks in was the limit before his father became moody and insufferable and started wreaking havoc on everything. It was a cycle, every single time. Two weeks and his dad would get mopey and start causing fights because he couldn't regulate his emotions.
His dad was very similar to my mother with her histrionics and temper problems, and of course I would get triggered. I tried talking to my ex about it, saying this wasn't right and wasn't fair that we felt like hostages in our own home to his father, but I had to suck it up because his old man was helping us buy groceries or some such. Trying to talk to his father about it ended up with him getting angry and sulking for days on end, which should have been peaceful that he was keeping to himself. Instead, we felt that bad energy and felt bad because toxic parents had broken us both and dominated our lives. We were both accustomed to trying to make THEM feel better while disregarding how they made US feel.
Whew. I get you. It's exhausting. I'm glad that crap is over. I hope you are doing better and can get through this visit with your head held high and your wits about you.
@spacegirl226 reading your experience made me go " yup" bc I get everything you said. The tantrums. Feeling like a prisoner in your own home. My husband understands his parents are narcissistics but he's too trauma bonded to let go. He never makes excuses for the bad behavior but for cultural reasons he won't disown them. I was at my breaking point with them so I'm officially low contact. I've blocked them and when they visit I grayrock. I'm afraid of my young children falling under their spell. Ugh when will this shit end?
Also they no longer stay in our house and the maximum stay is 3 days. They used to stay for at least 2 weeks and bc I'm a stay at home mom i had to spent the most time wirh them. Unbearable. The longer they stay the more comfortable they get and the masks slips off.
@@cassien7585 I am so sorry you have to go through that. It's even harder with the children having to witness it and not being able to tell them what's going on or why you are uncomfortable.
At some point your husband is going to have to realize that "cultural reasons" are destroying your family and come to terms with your family being more important than his "cultural reasons." His parents aren't going to change -- we know that! In my estimation (and I am extremely cynical because of my own upbringing) this narc stuff isn't going to end until the parents pass away because your husband doesn't seem to want to step up and set those much needed boundaries. It's a crummy situation to be in, and I hope your family can come up with a solution that benefits the group rather than two nasty, domineering narcissists.
@@spacegirl226 thank you for understanding
Yes, It's heartbreaking to see a loved one going through the insanity at the hands of a narcissist. I pray every day that they find their way back to us. That's all I can do.
Hi Ramani! Logical super empath here. I just want to say thank you for all your video help over the years. You have genuinely helped me become an enlightened super empath! Yes, I certainly have the ability to destroy any narcissist in my path, but I choose to focus on helping others that are lost and to spread love. I think what people need to understand about super empaths, is that in order to destroy the narcissist, we have to stay in that narcissist relationship and act like them. This is not good. It is better to leave and focus our energy on healing, not reciprocal hate. Thank you, Doc! Love your work! You made a difference in MY LIFE. NAMASTE ♥️