My mom did IVF 3 or 4 times... Didn't work. Then, one day, she started to feel kinda dizzy and weird, and she noticed her period was like 2 months late, but thought it was just some problems with her ovaries since she has always suffered with that ... Turns out she got naturally pregnant :) and I was already growing inside her womb. You really don't know what's going to happen, life is a surprise. I hope life also gives you both a nice surprise soon 💖💕✨
This is generally the case! I know a few different couples who had the exact same experience, ended up giving up, and then naturally became pregnant. It's usually the stress of trying that mitigates the pregnancy during IVF. Once you give up and accept it's not going to happen that stress is removed. Glad to have you on board in this journey of life
Your baby is out there and patiently waitibg for the right time to enter this world in your family. It will happen and you're going to be the best parents ever. Your make up looks beautiful! Just like Dory says: just keep swimming, just keep swimming. Sending you guys so much love!
Even early miscarriages deserve to be validated as miscarriages. I miscarried at 6-8 weeks in 2019. I didn’t intend to get pregnant & it still hurt so deeply. I can’t imagine how painful that must have been for both of you. My heart goes out to you both ♥️
This was exactly what I wanted to comment. My heart broke and ached for you Taylor. Every miscarriage is a miscarriage. Even if it hadn't progressed for long, you still had all these hopes and dreams for this baby, and then it's suddenly snatched away. Sending all love to anyone going through the process of TryingToConcieve. It is a tough process that can be very isolating.
Early miscarriage and chemical pregnancies are different. Chemical pregnancies are usually under 4 weeks and most don’t get clinically diagnosed. Early miscarriage is anything past 5 weeks. None the less a loss is still a loss and will be grieved at whatever stage.
@@Lolee56 For real? In my country, miscarriage are any loss before 22 weeks or less than 500 grams. After that period it is called a fetal obitum. In any case, as a medical doctor I could say that these things happens, and are more normal than any woman believes, many of us go through miscarriage without even knowing about it, and then we can have babys like nothing happened. Sometimes is not the right moment, was not meant to be at that time, just make sure that this it doesn't define you as a women or wife, it doesn't mean the we are incomplete. We are perfect just as we are.
I was going to say this same thing. An early miscarriage is a miscarriage 💕 I had a missed miscarriage and what people would call a “chemical pregnancy” and both were totally heartbreaking. After all the pain I finally have my rainbow baby and he’s perfect.
I can't remember where I have read the following: "The fear of losing your child starts two minutes after your positive pregnancy test and never ends." As a mom of a toddler I can confirm this to be true. It doesn't matter "how early" you lose your child, your child is your child whether it's inside or out of your womb. You and Tom lost someone precious and that is painful. Society makes up all those names and stages but in the end, you love your growing child right away. You have every right to grieve!
I think you can consider it a miscarriage. You're allowed to grieve as much as a mother who lost her baby at a later point, because it's loved from the first second.
Yes! I have had 7 chemical pregnancies, 1 early MC, 1 Missed MC. All of them are considered miscarriages, it doesn't matter how far you are, you lost a baby, your feelings are valid.
When you announced you guys want to become pregnant back in late 2018 or early 2019 I was so happy for you. I am thinking of you all the time and also had your fortune teller video in mind. Everything happens for a reason 🤗 Happy that you are feeling better now ☺️
I have been so curious about the IVF process but I would never ask someone that because it's intrusive and rude. Thank you for sharing when you feel ready! And to those asking her about it: stop it please. She will say when/if she feels ready.
Me too! I also have been curious about that. But yeah I would never ask her about it. We never know how much people have asked her about that and probably to some point she will get sad about it. 🥺 She is a cool person inside and out. Behind camera, we never know right? 🤧
yeah when she said people were asking I got so pissed off.... That's such an intrusive thing to ask, regardless of if the person shared their journey so far. Asking during treatment can trigger really negative emotions, especially when the treatment didn't work.
Oh, honey. If you tested positive and lost your child it was a miscarriage. Never belittle your experience based on others' experiences. I know this feeling. Of not feeling worthy of your sorrow or feeling unjustified for your pain. It's a lie. If you are sad for your loss that is okay, no matter it's age.
My friend tried 6 IVF over the years, they gave up , took a pause and suddenly she was pregnant. That kid is now 18 and I feel old. I remember the joy when she came.
@@lSuesuEl The most important thing is that you have a happy and healthy relationship, kids are just a bonus. We have woman here who tried 20+ times with IVF, no kids, so she left her then husband and started dating another man, I should say his sperm not him. Got the kid of her dreams and realised kids are not like over romanticized dreams and they are hard work.
100% a miscarriage. An early loss yes, but a loss all the same. I had multiple before having our beautiful Rainbow Baby, who is about to turn 1. We were never able to find a reason for why our little ones just wouldn't "stick", but one finally did and he is the most amazing thing to ever happen to us. As soon as you get that positive test, you start to imagine your life with that tiny little Human. It is still a loss, even that early and it is absolutely heart breaking. You are allowed to grieve for that loss. Thinking of you and Tom. This journey thankfully brought my Husband and I closer together and we are now stronger than we have ever been. Sending all my love ❤❤.
My mom and dad tried for 10 years to have kids. Finally the decided on adoption. When they officially signed the papers to adopt my brother, a month later they found they were pregnant with me. I am in IVF baby through multiple attempts. Don't give up :)
My friend was told by multiple doctors that she'd never have her own children due to polycystic ovararian syndrome. She has two biological children of her own that she carried to term!
I just found your channel, I don’t think it’s a coincidence because we are starting IVF soon. I have no Fallopian tubes so we know IVF is our only option. I’m so nervous about the process and my body and my emotions around it all. We tried for 2 years then discovered I had tubal factors and I had my tubes removed in July of this year. It’s been a long emotional journey for me already so I’m so nervous about IVF and more than IVF I’m so scared of IVF failing. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You are strong and beautiful and your happy ending is coming.
I am a chemist, and last year I performed a research about improving embryo selection in IVF. I only wanna say to you that although it might be sometimes exhausting and difficult, the treatment is worth it... I don't know if it will work sooner or later to you, but don't give up. I've seen lots of couples in your position and they ended up having a safe and sound baby :) You can do it girl!
Bawled my eyes out watching this. I miscarried twice in the last 12 months and it fking sucks! It’s more common than most people think and I am so glad you shared! I believe there are many others right now seeking for comfort for their pain and are watching this feeling a little weight off their shoulder x
It took my parents 3 years to have me through IVF. It really was a long and hard journey for them but I’m the oldest out of 3 children for my parents. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope you know that you are a lot stronger than you think. Sending lots of positivity and love throughout this journey 💗
“See, even when you have a blueprint, sometimes something comes along that throws you right off”. Perfect articulation of the beauty and unpredictable nature of life.
I'm so sorry for what you've been through Taylor. I miscarried my first pregnancy at 11 weeks and it was the worst thing I've ever experienced, so I can truly sympathize. We girls need to be able to talk about this stuff and share our experiences without fear. Lots of love to you and your family.
Taylor, I’m sending you all my love and positive energy. I am a registered nurse and I used to work in Obstetrics. This isn’t a easy journey, at all. You are amazing to still create content, push through these dark times. As a random viewer, I am here for you and am sending my love to you.
A fertility expert I worked with once told me the best way to cope with anything that life throws your way, is to embrace it, but dive yourself into something you love and are passionate about, because the passion will reignite the positive energy in your life in the aspects you may be lacking in. It also gives you purpose. 2021 is going to be an amazing restart for you I’m sure :)
I feel like anything went how i expected to be, I’m almost 27 and nowhere near to what I wanted. I’m loosing all hope for the future but for people like you to talk about bad things that happens in life and how our life is not all under our control helps me a lot, thank you 🙏🏻! Lot of love for you and Tom ❤️
I’m so sorry about this experience but you have to trust the process, “I play in the unpredictability like a playground”. You will successfully carry a child full term Taylor, best of luck and thank you so much for sharing your this with us
This only means your body CAN get pregnant, you can get pregnant, is just this time was not the one but it does not mean it won't happen again, I am sure it will because your body just showed you it is capable of doing it C: I feel happy to at least know that your body has everything it needs to get pregnant and that now we're a step up in this journey, I feel so sorry for your loss and I am glad you feel better, I've been following you since so long already I can not remember, I've always wished you the best and I am happy you've found your place in life... Always loving you ♡
Hang in there Taylor!! The first time I got a positive pregnancy test, it was so exciting, the dates were so significant and it all seemed “perfect” and “meant to be” but then at Christmas I started bleeding and the pregnancy was lost. Seemed like a cruel joke. But now we’re expecting our first child at the end of this month. Life doesn’t happen on your own timing. God is in control. 💕
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Taylor, I’m so sorry to hear about the loss, I had an early miscarriage as well and please know that your feelings are valid and you are allowed to grieve! Please take care of yourself. Wishing you and Tom the best ❤️
So sorry for your loss... I remember when you announced you wanted to become pregnant and were so frustrated shortly after trying and everyone told you to not stress yourself so much about it but you were still determined on becoming pregnant very fast. i'm glad that you are now changing your mindset.. you can't plan life, you can just live life. And us women are wired differently, stress has a huge influence on us. I know of women who got pregnant right after they quit their jobs. Once you get major stressors out of your life and feel safe content secure and overall relaxed and at ease things might fall into place. And wanting a baby so badly for you and Tom might be one of your big sources of stress too, so letting go of that and being more content with how things are now might already help a lot. I'm sure it will work out for you and you will have a beautiful family in the future!
My mom has PCOS and had me and my little sister with the help of IVF, when I was 11 I also got diagnosed with PCOS (ever since then I’ve been taking estrogen medication), I’m 13 right now so even though I’m not planning on getting kids any time soon I’m aware I might need some extra help getting pregnant, I aspire to be as strong as you and my mom ❤️
@Hazel Rose I'm 23 and just found out I have pcos 3 years ago. I was on birth control for awhile to regulate my period but I stopped cause I didn't like the idea of what it does. I started exercising and eating healthier to combat it. Sorry to ask you this but I won't be able to see my obgyn for 4 more months. What exactly are estrogen pills and what do they do. I'm just wondering. I plan to have one kid biologically if possible and adopt the rest in the future. (If not I'm not opposed to just adopting all my kids. Only problem is finding a husband who wants to adopt cause apparently that's a huge issue)
I read Tom's Instagram post when he posted it... So sorry to hear you were both having such a hard time, but thank you for sharing your struggles with us. It sounds promising that you are healthy and in a good shape, I hope next year will be your year!! 💕
My mom had me through IVF, she tried for 3 years and miscarried twice, I know it was very hard on her and I'm sorry you went through that as well, your experience and grief is just as valid as anyone who lost a baby later in their pregnancy. Sending you positive vibes for a successful round of IVF whenever you feel ready again.
Miscarriages are so much more common than what most people believe and it's definitely not anyone's fault that they happen! They just sometimes... happen, unfortunately. I wish you the best in the future with IVF!
The estimated figure is that miscarriage happens in around 1 in 4 recognised pregnancies, with 85% of those happening in the first trimester Don't plan, just do
My cousin (girl) is having a baby soon, and she's the result of NINTH IVF. And my aunt had two girls at young age but wanted a third baby and it never worked. Then she was in her 40s, 20 years later, and got pregnant with baby boy, no one expected it. NEVER LOSE A FAITH!
Don't mind me whilst I nearly begin to cry after 10:34 before 10:57 where I was full on sobbing because you can see how much Taylor loves Tom to the moon and back. It's not fair that the best people who would make the perfect parents and give their children so much love and affection through nurturing have to go through this struggle. Never give up Taylor!!! xoxox
1. You look absolutely stunning in red and with the darker hair. 2. I love these type of sit down/update videos. 3. I wish you and your husband the very best for the future and I hope for you that you’ll have healthy beautiful children someday❤️
What you're saying has really hit me. It's been my whole mindset lately. Try to let go of control and expect that things will only be good and you're only happy once you reach that goal in your life... Working with what we've got. Trust the process. I don't want to be that person who just says "when the time is right, it will happen" because I feel like it's a very annoying comment for the heartbreak and both physical and mental drain this process must be for you _until then..._ but hey, taylor, through hardships we stand... we are young. heartache to heartache we stand. Love is a battlefield. - I do believe you are a strong woman who will eventually become a great mother and we will be very thrilled to be virtual aunties and uncles. Be strong. You got this.
IVF really does feel like you’re failing at something that other people find so easy. I love that you found a way to cope with the disappointment in your way. It’s a very personal experience I have found and while it’s been great for me to get info from other ivf ladies I found my own way to deal with it. I really enjoyed researching about the fertility process which helped me realize how crazy lucky circumstances have to be for an embryo to even happen and then implant! Crazy! Again I’m so glad you’re finding your own way through this. Good luck!
As a fellow woman in her 30s, I get you so much. Please take care Taylor, you are so loved. Don't be hard on yourself because you already do so much and so many people appreciate you. You and your husband make a beautiful, happy couple and I wish you both happiness and good things in the future!
You’re so right sometimes is best to ignore the social standards not everyone’s life is the same. I’m so glad that you’re healthy and that you’re in a positive head space to continue with the pregnancy journey. Things do happen for a reason and it will happen to you at the right time. Lots of love to you Tay!
My mom had many miscarriages before she finally had me! My parents tried for five years and had given up when she found out she was pregnant with me. She only found out because she was in massage therapy for a car wreck she had been in and the therapist asked if she was pregnant. My mom didn't believe that could be true but the therapist insisted so she went to the at risk clinic and she was pregnant! The therapist caught it so early that they were able to stabilize me and make sure my mom had the right hormones. Now they have me and my sister who came five years later 😊 everybody's body is different and everybody's plan is different. Stay strong and I promise you will have the family you want one way or another. For now you have the love of your life and you two can stay strong together until you get your happy ending ❤️❤️ sending love and support your way ❤️❤️
"Certainty will make you drive yourself crazy trying to achieve it"... so its good to have a plan but never forget things might change... this video is a great reminder
This got me really emotional. Jeez. Talking about how you felt this affected Tom, that really got me crying. I hope you two are doing better and are getting through this together. I hope Tom has been able to work through his feelings as well. That’s a really heavy load on your hearts, it hurt mine just to hear it
I’ve been following your life journey with you since 2016. In that time I’ve also moved twice, gotten new jobs, gotten married, almost in the same time as you. I know how important being a mom is to you, so when I saw you post something about staying positive in dark times around a month after your IVB I just knew and I was heartbroken for you. I didn’t want to comment then, because I respect you talking about your life on your time. I could see the hurt in your eyes these last few months and I want you to know I see you, but I know that one day you’ll be an amazing mom. Whether through IVB, surprise natural, adoption, or heck I’d be your surrogate if I wasn’t on the other side of the world. But I pray for that day you’re holding your baby and look back and think how it was all worth it and you wouldn’t picture it any other way. Sending my ❤️!!!
Any loss you felt is worthy of its feeling! Many happy couples and families behind doors have their struggles and tears that’s what makes life interesting and worthwhile. When you look back years later to this you will be grateful for the experience and effort to get to your destination (whatever that maybe even if it changes). It spices up the journey making it flavourful (bitter and sweet are all noteworthy)! Tay tay sending u lots of hugs and love from YYZ (i can relate the feeling you felt, once there and now so much more grateful when the baby arrived)
What a wise and positive spirit you are. The world needs you! I'm sorry for your loss. I, also, have had a miscarriage - which is what you experienced. I hope you and Tom receive the news you want soon.
My mym and dad tired for kids for a few years - and finally tried IVF. The first time failed, and so they tried a second time. They put 3 embryos in hopes that one would stick and .... now I'm here with my two brothers. I can't imagine what you are going through, but we are here for you. Thank you for being who you are, and I hope you get that happy surprise you deserve
Regardless of how early, a miscarriage is as valid as all the emotions one goes through when it's happening and after. I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor, lots of love to you both!
No matter how early....a miscarriage is the loss of a pregnancy. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's wonderful you can share this because no one talks about it, majority of women miscarry in early pregnancy...we have been made to think it's rare, shameful but it's actually really common. It's still really difficult to deal with. Sending positive thoughts and happy wishes. If you have time check out @socaleatery on Instagram, her IVF journey and creating a wonderful community of women helping each other has been so inspirational.
Really? Is that how it is in america? In Germany we are told that there s a very high possibility of miscarriage during the first 3 months and that's why you normally wait with telling friends and colleagues about your pregnancy, so you don't have to tell everyone about the miscarriage ...
@@FiveOClockTea I'm in South Africa, in truth I can't speak for Americans. Here the miscarriage rate is 30 % in the first three months. Unfortunately no one really talks about it. There is alot of negative traditional views on miscarriage, but also it's so personal.
FiveOClockTea it doesn’t matter if there is a high probability. It still hurts and is extremely painful for women who want a child so badly. Death happens everyday, does that mean we cannot mourn family when they die? Because it’s “expected”? Wrong.
@@sarahmarie3317 of course it's still painful and I know from personal experience. People should grieve in their own way. All I'm saying is that I commend Taylor's decision to talk about it, it helps to know we aren't alone. I wish her and any woman in her position nothing but healing and positive things.
@@sarahmarie3317 that's never what I said or even implied. Don't put words into my mouth. I'm just saying, that in Germany it's not a taboo topic and people know that there's a higher probability of miscarriage in the earlier months and that's why people wait with telling everyone about being pregnant.
Taylor, I’m so sorry that you had to go through that on top of everything that’s going on in the world right now. The best thing to do is to take care of your mental health. Thanks for sharing your story with us. Sending lots of love from Japan! ❤️
Don't feel bad! I can't imagine what you're going through, but don't lose hope. My cousin had to do about 5-6 cycles of IVF before it was successful. They have a beautiful baby girl right now. We're all supporting you!
I love how open you are about this topic, takes a whole lot of courage to talk about this. My husband and I tried for two years in the "normal" way and just now in July decided to get treatment. It's hard to accept that your own body doesn't do the things you always expected it to do. I'm 32 and married, people always ask why we don't have kids. It hasn't even been a long journey, yet the question still hits me right in gut every time. I wish Tom and you all the best for whatever you are planning in the future, stay strong!
My twin was 5 months pregnant when she had to deliver her baby because its heart stopped suddenly this year. A loss is a loss , I'm so sorry you had to go through that. There have been SO many losses of babies this year and it breaks my heart. I wish you nothing but the best and keep having faith, beautiful 💗
The thing you said about not being certain and letting that make space for new opportunities in life is something that has resonated a lot with me lately. I'm really sorry to hear the struggles you both have been going through but thank you for letting us know and always being so transparent and open
Praying for Tom and you. I have a cousin who tried IVF for years. She had several miscarriages and hard times. She never gave up and her beautiful baby boy was born two years ago. I believe you had an early miscarriage and it is ok to grieve. I believe in you both and you both will come back stronger than ever!
Thank you for being so open and honest. People need to share the realities of their struggles more, there’s too much focus on perfection. Nothing ever goes 100% to plan
Oh Taylor this made me cry! I'm going through something very similar. Me and my partner have been trying to conceive naturally for nearly 3 years with no luck. IVF is not a route for me at the minute as it's so expensive where I'm from. But every month it hits you harder and harder and you try your best but at times I feel like a complete failure that I can't complete this task of pregnancy. Watching you being so positive has made me feel more positive and to take care of my mental health and not blame everything on myself. I hope bothour journey's have a happy ending and we both get our rainbow 🌈 ❤
Taylor I just want to send you the biggest hug! Even if I don't know you personally, I know you are a strong person, keep trying, just never give up on anything!
I’m so glad you & Tom felt the joy of conceiving. It’s good news as it confirms you can & you’re very right that the fact that there were no clear causes for this loss is also good news. As we can detect chemical pregnancies so early on nowadays, it seems more common than ever before to lose a pregnancy, but it’s likely not. People just weren’t as aware before. Awful as it is to go from such a high to such a low after so much physical & emotional effort & expense & during such uncertain political & pandemic times, it’s important not to minimize your loss. The promise of a baby, no matter how early on, isn’t like losing hang nail. This is a real loss; a hit in your hope stores. Dreams like this, that you’ve put so much of yourselves into is a very taxing thing, even when they come to fruition. When they don’t at the moment, that’s a lot of weight on you both & your relationship. It’s wonderful how you two work together & I wish so much for you both to see your fit together embodied in a child by whatever means make sense to you. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us - take care ❤️
Thank you for always being your authentic self and opening up with your vulnerabilities. It takes a lot of courage to share the hard times in your life, but I bet there are thousands of women out there who appreciate it and can relate. I hope both you and Tom are happy and healthy xx
Im so sorry Taylor, I can't imagine what you must be feeling. Thank you for being so open and honest in your videos, I can't imagine how many people you are helping by sharing your struggles with everyone. 💜
You have bought joy to so many people over the years with your content. I truly hope 2021 will be a great year. Your advice on milestone idea really resonated. Ever since we were babies, our whole lives have geared towards reaching milestones. As an adult, society pushes you to progress in your career, get that promotion, increase your income, have a successful relationship, marriage and the house etc. Life would be so much more exciting if we all created different paths.
Bless you Taylor. 38 and infertile here, many loses, failed IVF. I’ve reached the point where I decided maybe being a parent isn’t my journey. Stay strong, push on, just going through IVF makes you super strong as it is. I have a feeling you will succeed 🙂. Having a partner who supports you is the bit that will get you through and you totally have that. It’s really s*** when people say ‘just adopt’ when it doesn’t address the issue of becoming a mother yourself however family comes in many forms xx
I really got a lot out of this video. Not just makeup tips but life tips that really clicked with me. Thanks Tay. Wishing you the best on your baby journey x
I've been a fan for so long. I remember the wedding, I remember the fortune teller, and I've truly loved every second of being invited into yours and Tom's life journey. All the love for you guys. Speaking it into existence, you will carry to full term and have a happy, healthy baby! You two will be amazing parents! Thank you for sharing something so personal. Even in the pits of your hardest moments you are so inspiring Taylor!
My mom was told she couldn't have kids, the cells just refused to form anything but lumps after a year of hormone treatments, never even starting being fetuses. Another pregnancy and my parents pretty much just went to Drs... confirm lump and start birth control again. And there was a tiny, wildly flailing shrimp, me. And then two years later, my brother.
Wishing you and your husband nothing but the best. Thank you so much for being so strong, genuine, and honest with all of us. It’s crazy to think that I started following you when I was in high school and now I’m in my second year of college. You’ve grown so much and I can’t wait to see what else you do. Keep your chin up girly!!!
In all honesty this was the life advice I needed.. why should have to wait for something to else in order to do the thing you really wanted. I've been waiting for three years and you what I'm done with that. I'm just got to start from where I am and hope for the best. Thank you so much Taylor! You are incredible and an inspiration💕
Taylor, I watched your RUclips channel for years now. Your creativity and enthusiasm kept me company while moving countries and jobs. Really feeling like somehow you are someone I know. Coincidentally I started my pregnancy journey 2 years ago, after getting married and also tried unsuccessfully treatments, now considering IVF. Really feel for you and am happy to learn you are now in such a good space. Wishing you and your husband nothing but health and love in the future. And I honestly believe even with all the uncertainty we’re now experiencing, things will be all right! 🖤
A loss is a loss Taylor and your feelings are valid. Sending a virtual hug 💛I honestly think when your body is ready it will happen. But you can’t put pressure/stress on yourself. Natural or not stress is no good for your body or a little one. I got pregnant naturally, but had so much stress from lack of support and understanding during and after I had my son. I developed really bad preeclampsia and was hospitalized for a month then had to be induced a month early because it was getting to be life threatening. Never been so weak and scared in my life. My best friend has also been trying for the last year or so, but has been so stressed out it’s not happening. Be happy, eat more, love more and create content you love. It will happen. And I agree, marriage is difficult and sometimes heartbreaking, but worth it if you find the right partner. Here’s to a better 2021 and thank you for opening up to us!
No matter the weeks you were, it is still a miscarriage. Allow yourself to grieve and to come to terms with it, and feel free to speak about it. I lost my first baby in March, on my mother's birthday and it's not easy, but it gets better with time and if you talk about it when you feel the need to. Don't close, don't keep to yourself. I also believe that everything happens for a reason, and if it didn't work it's because it wasn't meant to be, which doesn't make it any easier. Keep fighting, keep trying when you feel ready, and it will eventually work out! You are beautiful, gorgeous and worth it! 🥰❤️
Praying HARD for you, sister. The struggle is real and I completely empathize. We've been trying since we got married (three years ago, this December. We too had a very small wedding so we could buy our house). I had an IUI in January, and after finding out it worked, was waiting a few weeks until Valentine's Day to tell my husband. I had a huge thing planned; video compilation I made of our two year pregnancy journey and a multi-layered valentine's themed gift package. At around 4am that morning though, I woke up with excruciating cramps and started bleeding. My husband couldn't understand why I was crying so hard and that's when I had to tell him. Then he began crying too. The emergency room confirmed that there was no longer a heartbeat and I just had to wait it out for the miscarriage to finish. I regret not telling him sooner because he never got to experience any joy at all. Since then, we've had three unsuccessful half-rounds of IVF (I can't seem to make it to the implantation phase - all of our tested embryos have been abnormal so far). We have savings for just one more round before calling it quits. I turn 41 next month. Never in a million bajillion years did I think it would be this difficult. I don't think the stress of everything going on, covid, jobs and workloads, etc have been helping. I LOVE your mentality. Stay strong. This stuff will pass. Whatever is meant to happen will happen, so just be open. Sometimes the best outcomes come from unforseen and detoured plans. 💕
i have never been this early before WOO thank you for being so strong Taylor, you're one of my favorite RUclipsr and role model!! life has been shitty for all of us this year but i'm sure you'll have your happy ending eventually, thank you for sharing this with us please take care of both your physical and mental health too!!!
I just want to say thank you for being so open about the difficulties, challenges, and heartbreak. You gave some really wonderful advice for life in general, and especially for defining what marriage is for yourself individually. You've grown so much over the last several years I've been watching your videos and I just really appreciate the honesty with your entire experience. You're a really great youtuber, and I can't express how appreciative I am to have an influencer be open about their struggles and talk about how real life can be.
Sending you lots of strength and mental well-being! I am also going through the infertility / IVF process and completely understand the mental pain and anguish you are going through. While it’s so great to have the support of others, I think can be isolating at the same time because infertility and IVF are such unique experiences. Watching your video makes me want to pick up the phone to talk and commiserate ♥️ xo
thank you for sharing something so personal and so vulnerable, thank you for being you, thank you for always trying to find the positive and the life lessons in the face of adversity. you are amazing and things will turn around, just you wait!
I'm sorry, Taylor & Tom. But good to acknowledge your feelings. My Niece went through IVF for awhile & now she has the most beautiful little baby Girl. I know it will work for you when the timing is right. The way you blended the lesson of make-up along with your journey is poetry & truth. Blessings for your Future! ❤
I feel this entire video, Taylor. We've been trying to have a baby for only a year now. We haven't gotten as close as you, but I know what you mean by feeling helpless.. my husband has been in a low place mentally with work, Covid, college, etc. He's always been my rock and now it's time for me to be as well. Just know that you are not alone with all these feelings❤ I'm so sorry for all you guys have gone through!
It’s crazy how many people get really stressed out and frustrated with IVF then when they stop they end up getting pregnant naturally (a friend actually ended up adopting and adores her daughter then 3 months after the adoption was finalised she got pregnant with her son and is adamant that it was letting go of wanting a biological child so badly coupled with being so content and in love with her daughter it took the pressure off her body and it happened naturally 🥰 you will be blessed so very soon whatever route to motherhood is for you
I really had a lump in my throat listening to you and what’s going on at yours during the past month. But what really shook me was what you said about milestones in life, because you’re so right! I kinda knew that but hearing it from someone else who went through a lot and got that reflection through that really got me. I think you’re right that we pressure ourselves way too much, especially when it comes to relationships. I’m still in my early twenties but I also sometimes just ‘dreamed’ about marriage and so on completely forgetting the person that would be involved - just because I pictured it as something important. But what you said about working and growing together is just so true. Taylor, thank you for your honest and reflective words. I think I speak for many when I say that we wish you the best!! You deserve it! Feel hugged ❤️
I'm praying for you and elbow san! I'm sure this is going to work and let's just say I'm really excited about your Halloween and xmas vlogs because you made the best ! Also gorgeous make up 💕💕
I’m sorry to hear this Taylor. A loss is a loss so you shouldn’t feel like you don’t deserve to grieve and feel sadness because you were not that far along. If you were pregnant and then you weren’t the feeling of loss is still very valid. I think any one would feel the same.
My mom did IVF 3 or 4 times... Didn't work. Then, one day, she started to feel kinda dizzy and weird, and she noticed her period was like 2 months late, but thought it was just some problems with her ovaries since she has always suffered with that ... Turns out she got naturally pregnant :) and I was already growing inside her womb. You really don't know what's going to happen, life is a surprise. I hope life also gives you both a nice surprise soon 💖💕✨
The female body is incredible!
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This is generally the case! I know a few different couples who had the exact same experience, ended up giving up, and then naturally became pregnant. It's usually the stress of trying that mitigates the pregnancy during IVF. Once you give up and accept it's not going to happen that stress is removed. Glad to have you on board in this journey of life
Same with my mum.
Your baby is out there and patiently waitibg for the right time to enter this world in your family. It will happen and you're going to be the best parents ever. Your make up looks beautiful! Just like Dory says: just keep swimming, just keep swimming. Sending you guys so much love!
This comment brought tears to my eyes. I wish her and her husband all the best!
Same! I wish them all the best! They are going to have their baby at the right time and be great parents, I believe in the perfect timing!
this comment aged like fine wine :')
Even early miscarriages deserve to be validated as miscarriages. I miscarried at 6-8 weeks in 2019. I didn’t intend to get pregnant & it still hurt so deeply. I can’t imagine how painful that must have been for both of you. My heart goes out to you both ♥️
100%
This was exactly what I wanted to comment. My heart broke and ached for you Taylor. Every miscarriage is a miscarriage. Even if it hadn't progressed for long, you still had all these hopes and dreams for this baby, and then it's suddenly snatched away. Sending all love to anyone going through the process of TryingToConcieve. It is a tough process that can be very isolating.
Early miscarriage and chemical pregnancies are different. Chemical pregnancies are usually under 4 weeks and most don’t get clinically diagnosed. Early miscarriage is anything past 5 weeks. None the less a loss is still a loss and will be grieved at whatever stage.
@@Lolee56 For real? In my country, miscarriage are any loss before 22 weeks or less than 500 grams. After that period it is called a fetal obitum. In any case, as a medical doctor I could say that these things happens, and are more normal than any woman believes, many of us go through miscarriage without even knowing about it, and then we can have babys like nothing happened.
Sometimes is not the right moment, was not meant to be at that time, just make sure that this it doesn't define you as a women or wife, it doesn't mean the we are incomplete. We are perfect just as we are.
I was going to say this same thing. An early miscarriage is a miscarriage 💕 I had a missed miscarriage and what people would call a “chemical pregnancy” and both were totally heartbreaking. After all the pain I finally have my rainbow baby and he’s perfect.
I can't remember where I have read the following: "The fear of losing your child starts two minutes after your positive pregnancy test and never ends." As a mom of a toddler I can confirm this to be true.
It doesn't matter "how early" you lose your child, your child is your child whether it's inside or out of your womb. You and Tom lost someone precious and that is painful. Society makes up all those names and stages but in the end, you love your growing child right away. You have every right to grieve!
Scary thought
As a mom who’s children are either grown or almost grown I can confirm this is true. That fear never goes away.
I think you can consider it a miscarriage. You're allowed to grieve as much as a mother who lost her baby at a later point, because it's loved from the first second.
Yes! I have had 7 chemical pregnancies, 1 early MC, 1 Missed MC. All of them are considered miscarriages, it doesn't matter how far you are, you lost a baby, your feelings are valid.
When you announced you guys want to become pregnant back in late 2018 or early 2019 I was so happy for you. I am thinking of you all the time and also had your fortune teller video in mind. Everything happens for a reason 🤗 Happy that you are feeling better now ☺️
Hazel
Oh hazel du schaust auch Taylor, ich liebe Taylor und schaue ihre Videos seit Jahren 😅❤️❤️
Judy Neptune ja seit 2016! Habe die auch schon mal getroffen in Japan 🥰
Woah, ihr kennt euch :o
Voll cool!
Pocket Hazel woah Eifersucht is coming 😂
I have been so curious about the IVF process but I would never ask someone that because it's intrusive and rude. Thank you for sharing when you feel ready! And to those asking her about it: stop it please. She will say when/if she feels ready.
1000% this. While I really appreciate knowing, I'm not entitled to know and neither is anyone else following this channel.
There are other channels that show the process like rachelle and justin just letting you know but yes I agree!!
Me too! I also have been curious about that. But yeah I would never ask her about it. We never know how much people have asked her about that and probably to some point she will get sad about it. 🥺 She is a cool person inside and out. Behind camera, we never know right? 🤧
yeah when she said people were asking I got so pissed off.... That's such an intrusive thing to ask, regardless of if the person shared their journey so far. Asking during treatment can trigger really negative emotions, especially when the treatment didn't work.
Oh, honey. If you tested positive and lost your child it was a miscarriage. Never belittle your experience based on others' experiences. I know this feeling. Of not feeling worthy of your sorrow or feeling unjustified for your pain. It's a lie. If you are sad for your loss that is okay, no matter it's age.
I was just about to comment this. Now matter how early it happens, it is still a miscarriage and so so sad.
My friend tried 6 IVF over the years, they gave up , took a pause and suddenly she was pregnant. That kid is now 18 and I feel old. I remember the joy when she came.
I went through it 4 times and all were not positive. 9 years later , still no kids. But we are still happy 😊
@@lSuesuEl The most important thing is that you have a happy and healthy relationship, kids are just a bonus. We have woman here who tried 20+ times with IVF, no kids, so she left her then husband and started dating another man, I should say his sperm not him. Got the kid of her dreams and realised kids are not like over romanticized dreams and they are hard work.
That fortune coming to life and being true 🥲🥹 how beautiful
100% a miscarriage. An early loss yes, but a loss all the same. I had multiple before having our beautiful Rainbow Baby, who is about to turn 1. We were never able to find a reason for why our little ones just wouldn't "stick", but one finally did and he is the most amazing thing to ever happen to us.
As soon as you get that positive test, you start to imagine your life with that tiny little Human. It is still a loss, even that early and it is absolutely heart breaking. You are allowed to grieve for that loss.
Thinking of you and Tom. This journey thankfully brought my Husband and I closer together and we are now stronger than we have ever been.
Sending all my love ❤❤.
So happy for you! ♥️
So true... for some of us it takes soo long to get pregnant. 😔
My mom and dad tried for 10 years to have kids. Finally the decided on adoption. When they officially signed the papers to adopt my brother, a month later they found they were pregnant with me. I am in IVF baby through multiple attempts. Don't give up :)
Omg exact same story❤
My friend was told by multiple doctors that she'd never have her own children due to polycystic ovararian syndrome. She has two biological children of her own that she carried to term!
You are still a mother, Taylor. It wasn’t your fault or anybody’s. We’re here for you ✨
I just found your channel, I don’t think it’s a coincidence because we are starting IVF soon. I have no Fallopian tubes so we know IVF is our only option. I’m so nervous about the process and my body and my emotions around it all. We tried for 2 years then discovered I had tubal factors and I had my tubes removed in July of this year. It’s been a long emotional journey for me already so I’m so nervous about IVF and more than IVF I’m so scared of IVF failing. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You are strong and beautiful and your happy ending is coming.
I am a chemist, and last year I performed a research about improving embryo selection in IVF. I only wanna say to you that although it might be sometimes exhausting and difficult, the treatment is worth it... I don't know if it will work sooner or later to you, but don't give up. I've seen lots of couples in your position and they ended up having a safe and sound baby :) You can do it girl!
Bawled my eyes out watching this. I miscarried twice in the last 12 months and it fking sucks! It’s more common than most people think and I am so glad you shared!
I believe there are many others right now seeking for comfort for their pain and are watching this feeling a little weight off their shoulder x
It took my parents 3 years to have me through IVF. It really was a long and hard journey for them but I’m the oldest out of 3 children for my parents. I’m so sorry for your loss and I hope you know that you are a lot stronger than you think. Sending lots of positivity and love throughout this journey 💗
Almost a year later and youve started releasing footage of you fertility journey. I truly hope this is your happy ending!
I'm so sorry this happened to you and Tom. I really hope the next try will be successful, you both deserve it.
Im sorry you are going through this. I hope whatever the future holds, you and your husband will find happiness.
Thanks for running it
“See, even when you have a blueprint, sometimes something comes along that throws you right off”. Perfect articulation of the beauty and unpredictable nature of life.
I'm so sorry for what you've been through Taylor. I miscarried my first pregnancy at 11 weeks and it was the worst thing I've ever experienced, so I can truly sympathize. We girls need to be able to talk about this stuff and share our experiences without fear. Lots of love to you and your family.
i love how the makeup look became a symbol of your life right now
Messy, but sort of looks put together. Bold but soft ❤️😉
Taylor, I’m sending you all my love and positive energy. I am a registered nurse and I used to work in Obstetrics. This isn’t a easy journey, at all. You are amazing to still create content, push through these dark times. As a random viewer, I am here for you and am sending my love to you.
It actually helped me a lot to focus on content, so thank you for giving me a place to distract my mind when I needed it most ❤️
A fertility expert I worked with once told me the best way to cope with anything that life throws your way, is to embrace it, but dive yourself into something you love and are passionate about, because the passion will reignite the positive energy in your life in the aspects you may be lacking in. It also gives you purpose. 2021 is going to be an amazing restart for you I’m sure :)
Taylor es tan bella y tan fuerte, te admiro y te quiero mucho Taylor, tú puedes, espero que the next time it works.🌹🌹🌹
Sending you love.
I feel like anything went how i expected to be, I’m almost 27 and nowhere near to what I wanted. I’m loosing all hope for the future but for people like you to talk about bad things that happens in life and how our life is not all under our control helps me a lot, thank you 🙏🏻! Lot of love for you and Tom ❤️
I’m so sorry about this experience but you have to trust the process, “I play in the unpredictability like a playground”. You will successfully carry a child full term Taylor, best of luck and thank you so much for sharing your this with us
This only means your body CAN get pregnant, you can get pregnant, is just this time was not the one but it does not mean it won't happen again, I am sure it will because your body just showed you it is capable of doing it C: I feel happy to at least know that your body has everything it needs to get pregnant and that now we're a step up in this journey, I feel so sorry for your loss and I am glad you feel better, I've been following you since so long already I can not remember, I've always wished you the best and I am happy you've found your place in life... Always loving you ♡
Hang in there Taylor!! The first time I got a positive pregnancy test, it was so exciting, the dates were so significant and it all seemed “perfect” and “meant to be” but then at Christmas I started bleeding and the pregnancy was lost. Seemed like a cruel joke. But now we’re expecting our first child at the end of this month.
Life doesn’t happen on your own timing. God is in control. 💕
wow thanks for sharing your story... wishing u all the best with your soon to be born baby
Amen and amen
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Taylor, I’m so sorry to hear about the loss, I had an early miscarriage as well and please know that your feelings are valid and you are allowed to grieve! Please take care of yourself. Wishing you and Tom the best ❤️
Big hug. I couldn't even imagine how a miscarriage feels like.
So sorry for your loss... I remember when you announced you wanted to become pregnant and were so frustrated shortly after trying and everyone told you to not stress yourself so much about it but you were still determined on becoming pregnant very fast. i'm glad that you are now changing your mindset.. you can't plan life, you can just live life. And us women are wired differently, stress has a huge influence on us. I know of women who got pregnant right after they quit their jobs. Once you get major stressors out of your life and feel safe content secure and overall relaxed and at ease things might fall into place. And wanting a baby so badly for you and Tom might be one of your big sources of stress too, so letting go of that and being more content with how things are now might already help a lot. I'm sure it will work out for you and you will have a beautiful family in the future!
My mom has PCOS and had me and my little sister with the help of IVF, when I was 11 I also got diagnosed with PCOS (ever since then I’ve been taking estrogen medication), I’m 13 right now so even though I’m not planning on getting kids any time soon I’m aware I might need some extra help getting pregnant, I aspire to be as strong as you and my mom ❤️
@Hazel Rose I'm 23 and just found out I have pcos 3 years ago. I was on birth control for awhile to regulate my period but I stopped cause I didn't like the idea of what it does. I started exercising and eating healthier to combat it. Sorry to ask you this but I won't be able to see my obgyn for 4 more months. What exactly are estrogen pills and what do they do. I'm just wondering. I plan to have one kid biologically if possible and adopt the rest in the future. (If not I'm not opposed to just adopting all my kids. Only problem is finding a husband who wants to adopt cause apparently that's a huge issue)
Yes it was a miscarriage, no matter how far along you were. I am sorry. Stay strong. Hopefully it will happen soon.
I read Tom's Instagram post when he posted it... So sorry to hear you were both having such a hard time, but thank you for sharing your struggles with us. It sounds promising that you are healthy and in a good shape, I hope next year will be your year!! 💕
Yes! Next year will be our year!! 😄❤️
My mom had me through IVF, she tried for 3 years and miscarried twice, I know it was very hard on her and I'm sorry you went through that as well, your experience and grief is just as valid as anyone who lost a baby later in their pregnancy. Sending you positive vibes for a successful round of IVF whenever you feel ready again.
Big hug for you and Tom. The world is a better place because of you, just as you are at this moment. 💕🙏🏻
Taylor finding life metaphors in makeup! Such a lovely person she is!
Miscarriages are so much more common than what most people believe and it's definitely not anyone's fault that they happen! They just sometimes... happen, unfortunately. I wish you the best in the future with IVF!
I love Taylor, because she doesn't ask for any pity. She doesn't need it, she's strong enough.
What, four tries is normal!? That must be so painful D: Wish you the best and hope it goes well the next time
Taylor tries 4 times IVF? tell me pls
@@cherrybaddie8669 no. they tried only once yet and they are taking a break now. :)
Taylor, you are so strong to be so transparent and raw. With this, you must keep manifesting your dreams, and all will work out. You can do it!
The estimated figure is that miscarriage happens in around 1 in 4 recognised pregnancies, with 85% of those happening in the first trimester
Don't plan, just do
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My cousin (girl) is having a baby soon, and she's the result of NINTH IVF. And my aunt had two girls at young age but wanted a third baby and it never worked. Then she was in her 40s, 20 years later, and got pregnant with baby boy, no one expected it. NEVER LOSE A FAITH!
Don't mind me whilst I nearly begin to cry after 10:34 before 10:57 where I was full on sobbing because you can see how much Taylor loves Tom to the moon and back. It's not fair that the best people who would make the perfect parents and give their children so much love and affection through nurturing have to go through this struggle. Never give up Taylor!!! xoxox
1. You look absolutely stunning in red and with the darker hair.
2. I love these type of sit down/update videos.
3. I wish you and your husband the very best for the future and I hope for you that you’ll have healthy beautiful children someday❤️
What you're saying has really hit me. It's been my whole mindset lately. Try to let go of control and expect that things will only be good and you're only happy once you reach that goal in your life... Working with what we've got. Trust the process.
I don't want to be that person who just says "when the time is right, it will happen" because I feel like it's a very annoying comment for the heartbreak and both physical and mental drain this process must be for you _until then..._ but hey, taylor, through hardships we stand... we are young. heartache to heartache we stand.
Love is a battlefield.
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I do believe you are a strong woman who will eventually become a great mother and we will be very thrilled to be virtual aunties and uncles. Be strong. You got this.
IVF really does feel like you’re failing at something that other people find so easy. I love that you found a way to cope with the disappointment in your way. It’s a very personal experience I have found and while it’s been great for me to get info from other ivf ladies I found my own way to deal with it. I really enjoyed researching about the fertility process which helped me realize how crazy lucky circumstances have to be for an embryo to even happen and then implant! Crazy! Again I’m so glad you’re finding your own way through this. Good luck!
I’m so sorry about your lost Taylor. I know that must be difficult. Praying your pregnancy journey turns out well.
As a fellow woman in her 30s, I get you so much. Please take care Taylor, you are so loved. Don't be hard on yourself because you already do so much and so many people appreciate you. You and your husband make a beautiful, happy couple and I wish you both happiness and good things in the future!
You’re so right sometimes is best to ignore the social standards not everyone’s life is the same. I’m so glad that you’re healthy and that you’re in a positive head space to continue with the pregnancy journey. Things do happen for a reason and it will happen to you at the right time. Lots of love to you Tay!
Oh Taylor, I've been watching you for years.
Been so emotional when you announced you guys want a baby
Hey Taylor, i hope your doing ok. Just know that everyone here loves you so very much and we all hope the best for you ❤
So sorry for your loss. I will send you prayers for healing. You are beautiful inside and out Taylor. Stay strong, and blessed be.
My mom had many miscarriages before she finally had me! My parents tried for five years and had given up when she found out she was pregnant with me. She only found out because she was in massage therapy for a car wreck she had been in and the therapist asked if she was pregnant. My mom didn't believe that could be true but the therapist insisted so she went to the at risk clinic and she was pregnant! The therapist caught it so early that they were able to stabilize me and make sure my mom had the right hormones. Now they have me and my sister who came five years later 😊 everybody's body is different and everybody's plan is different. Stay strong and I promise you will have the family you want one way or another. For now you have the love of your life and you two can stay strong together until you get your happy ending ❤️❤️ sending love and support your way ❤️❤️
"Certainty will make you drive yourself crazy trying to achieve it"... so its good to have a plan but never forget things might change... this video is a great reminder
This got me really emotional. Jeez. Talking about how you felt this affected Tom, that really got me crying. I hope you two are doing better and are getting through this together. I hope Tom has been able to work through his feelings as well. That’s a really heavy load on your hearts, it hurt mine just to hear it
I’ve been following your life journey with you since 2016. In that time I’ve also moved twice, gotten new jobs, gotten married, almost in the same time as you. I know how important being a mom is to you, so when I saw you post something about staying positive in dark times around a month after your IVB I just knew and I was heartbroken for you. I didn’t want to comment then, because I respect you talking about your life on your time. I could see the hurt in your eyes these last few months and I want you to know I see you, but I know that one day you’ll be an amazing mom. Whether through IVB, surprise natural, adoption, or heck I’d be your surrogate if I wasn’t on the other side of the world. But I pray for that day you’re holding your baby and look back and think how it was all worth it and you wouldn’t picture it any other way. Sending my ❤️!!!
YOU LOOK SO GOOD IN RED
Any loss you felt is worthy of its feeling! Many happy couples and families behind doors have their struggles and tears that’s what makes life interesting and worthwhile. When you look back years later to this you will be grateful for the experience and effort to get to your destination (whatever that maybe even if it changes). It spices up the journey making it flavourful (bitter and sweet are all noteworthy)! Tay tay sending u lots of hugs and love from YYZ (i can relate the feeling you felt, once there and now so much more grateful when the baby arrived)
What a wise and positive spirit you are. The world needs you! I'm sorry for your loss. I, also, have had a miscarriage - which is what you experienced. I hope you and Tom receive the news you want soon.
My mym and dad tired for kids for a few years - and finally tried IVF. The first time failed, and so they tried a second time. They put 3 embryos in hopes that one would stick and .... now I'm here with my two brothers. I can't imagine what you are going through, but we are here for you. Thank you for being who you are, and I hope you get that happy surprise you deserve
Regardless of how early, a miscarriage is as valid as all the emotions one goes through when it's happening and after.
I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor, lots of love to you both!
Thanks for sharing, Tay. You will get your happy ending!! 💗💗💗
No matter how early....a miscarriage is the loss of a pregnancy. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's wonderful you can share this because no one talks about it, majority of women miscarry in early pregnancy...we have been made to think it's rare, shameful but it's actually really common. It's still really difficult to deal with. Sending positive thoughts and happy wishes. If you have time check out @socaleatery on Instagram, her IVF journey and creating a wonderful community of women helping each other has been so inspirational.
Really? Is that how it is in america?
In Germany we are told that there s a very high possibility of miscarriage during the first 3 months and that's why you normally wait with telling friends and colleagues about your pregnancy, so you don't have to tell everyone about the miscarriage ...
@@FiveOClockTea I'm in South Africa, in truth I can't speak for Americans. Here the miscarriage rate is 30 % in the first three months. Unfortunately no one really talks about it. There is alot of negative traditional views on miscarriage, but also it's so personal.
FiveOClockTea it doesn’t matter if there is a high probability. It still hurts and is extremely painful for women who want a child so badly. Death happens everyday, does that mean we cannot mourn family when they die? Because it’s “expected”? Wrong.
@@sarahmarie3317 of course it's still painful and I know from personal experience. People should grieve in their own way. All I'm saying is that I commend Taylor's decision to talk about it, it helps to know we aren't alone. I wish her and any woman in her position nothing but healing and positive things.
@@sarahmarie3317 that's never what I said or even implied. Don't put words into my mouth. I'm just saying, that in Germany it's not a taboo topic and people know that there's a higher probability of miscarriage in the earlier months and that's why people wait with telling everyone about being pregnant.
Taylor, I’m so sorry that you had to go through that on top of everything that’s going on in the world right now. The best thing to do is to take care of your mental health. Thanks for sharing your story with us. Sending lots of love from Japan! ❤️
Don't feel bad! I can't imagine what you're going through, but don't lose hope. My cousin had to do about 5-6 cycles of IVF before it was successful. They have a beautiful baby girl right now. We're all supporting you!
I love how open you are about this topic, takes a whole lot of courage to talk about this. My husband and I tried for two years in the "normal" way and just now in July decided to get treatment. It's hard to accept that your own body doesn't do the things you always expected it to do. I'm 32 and married, people always ask why we don't have kids. It hasn't even been a long journey, yet the question still hits me right in gut every time. I wish Tom and you all the best for whatever you are planning in the future, stay strong!
My twin was 5 months pregnant when she had to deliver her baby because its heart stopped suddenly this year. A loss is a loss , I'm so sorry you had to go through that. There have been SO many losses of babies this year and it breaks my heart. I wish you nothing but the best and keep having faith, beautiful 💗
The thing you said about not being certain and letting that make space for new opportunities in life is something that has resonated a lot with me lately. I'm really sorry to hear the struggles you both have been going through but thank you for letting us know and always being so transparent and open
Praying for Tom and you. I have a cousin who tried IVF for years. She had several miscarriages and hard times. She never gave up and her beautiful baby boy was born two years ago. I believe you had an early miscarriage and it is ok to grieve. I believe in you both and you both will come back stronger than ever!
Thank you for being so open and honest. People need to share the realities of their struggles more, there’s too much focus on perfection. Nothing ever goes 100% to plan
Oh Taylor this made me cry! I'm going through something very similar. Me and my partner have been trying to conceive naturally for nearly 3 years with no luck. IVF is not a route for me at the minute as it's so expensive where I'm from. But every month it hits you harder and harder and you try your best but at times I feel like a complete failure that I can't complete this task of pregnancy. Watching you being so positive has made me feel more positive and to take care of my mental health and not blame everything on myself. I hope bothour journey's have a happy ending and we both get our rainbow 🌈 ❤
Taylor I just want to send you the biggest hug! Even if I don't know you personally, I know you are a strong person, keep trying, just never give up on anything!
I’m so glad you & Tom felt the joy of conceiving. It’s good news as it confirms you can & you’re very right that the fact that there were no clear causes for this loss is also good news. As we can detect chemical pregnancies so early on nowadays, it seems more common than ever before to lose a pregnancy, but it’s likely not. People just weren’t as aware before.
Awful as it is to go from such a high to such a low after so much physical & emotional effort & expense & during such uncertain political & pandemic times, it’s important not to minimize your loss. The promise of a baby, no matter how early on, isn’t like losing hang nail. This is a real loss; a hit in your hope stores. Dreams like this, that you’ve put so much of yourselves into is a very taxing thing, even when they come to fruition. When they don’t at the moment, that’s a lot of weight on you both & your relationship. It’s wonderful how you two work together & I wish so much for you both to see your fit together embodied in a child by whatever means make sense to you.
Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us - take care ❤️
Thank you for always being your authentic self and opening up with your vulnerabilities. It takes a lot of courage to share the hard times in your life, but I bet there are thousands of women out there who appreciate it and can relate. I hope both you and Tom are happy and healthy xx
Im so sorry Taylor, I can't imagine what you must be feeling. Thank you for being so open and honest in your videos, I can't imagine how many people you are helping by sharing your struggles with everyone. 💜
Fellow Canadian here. Condolences to you. You are a strong woman. I wish you well
You have bought joy to so many people over the years with your content. I truly hope 2021 will be a great year.
Your advice on milestone idea really resonated. Ever since we were babies, our whole lives have geared towards reaching milestones. As an adult, society pushes you to progress in your career, get that promotion, increase your income, have a successful relationship, marriage and the house etc. Life would be so much more exciting if we all created different paths.
Bless you Taylor. 38 and infertile here, many loses, failed IVF. I’ve reached the point where I decided maybe being a parent isn’t my journey. Stay strong, push on, just going through IVF makes you super strong as it is. I have a feeling you will succeed 🙂. Having a partner who supports you is the bit that will get you through and you totally have that. It’s really s*** when people say ‘just adopt’ when it doesn’t address the issue of becoming a mother yourself however family comes in many forms xx
I really got a lot out of this video. Not just makeup tips but life tips that really clicked with me. Thanks Tay. Wishing you the best on your baby journey x
I've been a fan for so long. I remember the wedding, I remember the fortune teller, and I've truly loved every second of being invited into yours and Tom's life journey. All the love for you guys. Speaking it into existence, you will carry to full term and have a happy, healthy baby! You two will be amazing parents!
Thank you for sharing something so personal. Even in the pits of your hardest moments you are so inspiring Taylor!
My mom was told she couldn't have kids, the cells just refused to form anything but lumps after a year of hormone treatments, never even starting being fetuses.
Another pregnancy and my parents pretty much just went to Drs... confirm lump and start birth control again.
And there was a tiny, wildly flailing shrimp, me.
And then two years later, my brother.
Wishing you and your husband nothing but the best. Thank you so much for being so strong, genuine, and honest with all of us. It’s crazy to think that I started following you when I was in high school and now I’m in my second year of college. You’ve grown so much and I can’t wait to see what else you do. Keep your chin up girly!!!
In all honesty this was the life advice I needed.. why should have to wait for something to else in order to do the thing you really wanted. I've been waiting for three years and you what I'm done with that. I'm just got to start from where I am and hope for the best.
Thank you so much Taylor! You are incredible and an inspiration💕
Taylor, I watched your RUclips channel for years now. Your creativity and enthusiasm kept me company while moving countries and jobs. Really feeling like somehow you are someone I know. Coincidentally I started my pregnancy journey 2 years ago, after getting married and also tried unsuccessfully treatments, now considering IVF. Really feel for you and am happy to learn you are now in such a good space. Wishing you and your husband nothing but health and love in the future. And I honestly believe even with all the uncertainty we’re now experiencing, things will be all right! 🖤
I did a few embryo transfers over 3 years before it was successful. Hang in there! I know it’s hard but will be worth it
A loss is a loss Taylor and your feelings are valid. Sending a virtual hug 💛I honestly think when your body is ready it will happen. But you can’t put pressure/stress on yourself. Natural or not stress is no good for your body or a little one. I got pregnant naturally, but had so much stress from lack of support and understanding during and after I had my son. I developed really bad preeclampsia and was hospitalized for a month then had to be induced a month early because it was getting to be life threatening. Never been so weak and scared in my life. My best friend has also been trying for the last year or so, but has been so stressed out it’s not happening. Be happy, eat more, love more and create content you love. It will happen. And I agree, marriage is difficult and sometimes heartbreaking, but worth it if you find the right partner. Here’s to a better 2021 and thank you for opening up to us!
No matter the weeks you were, it is still a miscarriage. Allow yourself to grieve and to come to terms with it, and feel free to speak about it.
I lost my first baby in March, on my mother's birthday and it's not easy, but it gets better with time and if you talk about it when you feel the need to. Don't close, don't keep to yourself.
I also believe that everything happens for a reason, and if it didn't work it's because it wasn't meant to be, which doesn't make it any easier.
Keep fighting, keep trying when you feel ready, and it will eventually work out!
You are beautiful, gorgeous and worth it! 🥰❤️
Praying HARD for you, sister. The struggle is real and I completely empathize. We've been trying since we got married (three years ago, this December. We too had a very small wedding so we could buy our house). I had an IUI in January, and after finding out it worked, was waiting a few weeks until Valentine's Day to tell my husband. I had a huge thing planned; video compilation I made of our two year pregnancy journey and a multi-layered valentine's themed gift package. At around 4am that morning though, I woke up with excruciating cramps and started bleeding. My husband couldn't understand why I was crying so hard and that's when I had to tell him. Then he began crying too. The emergency room confirmed that there was no longer a heartbeat and I just had to wait it out for the miscarriage to finish. I regret not telling him sooner because he never got to experience any joy at all. Since then, we've had three unsuccessful half-rounds of IVF (I can't seem to make it to the implantation phase - all of our tested embryos have been abnormal so far). We have savings for just one more round before calling it quits. I turn 41 next month. Never in a million bajillion years did I think it would be this difficult. I don't think the stress of everything going on, covid, jobs and workloads, etc have been helping. I LOVE your mentality. Stay strong. This stuff will pass. Whatever is meant to happen will happen, so just be open. Sometimes the best outcomes come from unforseen and detoured plans. 💕
i have never been this early before WOO
thank you for being so strong Taylor, you're one of my favorite RUclipsr and role model!!
life has been shitty for all of us this year but i'm sure you'll have your happy ending eventually, thank you for sharing this with us please take care of both your physical and mental health too!!!
I just want to say thank you for being so open about the difficulties, challenges, and heartbreak. You gave some really wonderful advice for life in general, and especially for defining what marriage is for yourself individually. You've grown so much over the last several years I've been watching your videos and I just really appreciate the honesty with your entire experience. You're a really great youtuber, and I can't express how appreciative I am to have an influencer be open about their struggles and talk about how real life can be.
Sending you lots of strength and mental well-being! I am also going through the infertility / IVF process and completely understand the mental pain and anguish you are going through. While it’s so great to have the support of others, I think can be isolating at the same time because infertility and IVF are such unique experiences. Watching your video makes me want to pick up the phone to talk and commiserate ♥️ xo
thank you for sharing something so personal and so vulnerable, thank you for being you, thank you for always trying to find the positive and the life lessons in the face of adversity. you are amazing and things will turn around, just you wait!
Not only I learned a new makeup style and new makeup techniques, but I also learned a life lesson. Thanks for sharing your journey with us Tay ❤️
I'm sorry, Taylor & Tom. But good to acknowledge your feelings.
My Niece went through IVF for awhile & now she has the most beautiful little baby Girl.
I know it will work for you when the timing is right. The way you blended the lesson of make-up along with your journey is poetry & truth. Blessings for your Future! ❤
I feel this entire video, Taylor. We've been trying to have a baby for only a year now. We haven't gotten as close as you, but I know what you mean by feeling helpless.. my husband has been in a low place mentally with work, Covid, college, etc. He's always been my rock and now it's time for me to be as well. Just know that you are not alone with all these feelings❤ I'm so sorry for all you guys have gone through!
You are such a hero and role model to be so open with your life. Your strength is inspirational!
It’s crazy how many people get really stressed out and frustrated with IVF then when they stop they end up getting pregnant naturally (a friend actually ended up adopting and adores her daughter then 3 months after the adoption was finalised she got pregnant with her son and is adamant that it was letting go of wanting a biological child so badly coupled with being so content and in love with her daughter it took the pressure off her body and it happened naturally 🥰 you will be blessed so very soon whatever route to motherhood is for you
I really had a lump in my throat listening to you and what’s going on at yours during the past month. But what really shook me was what you said about milestones in life, because you’re so right! I kinda knew that but hearing it from someone else who went through a lot and got that reflection through that really got me. I think you’re right that we pressure ourselves way too much, especially when it comes to relationships. I’m still in my early twenties but I also sometimes just ‘dreamed’ about marriage and so on completely forgetting the person that would be involved - just because I pictured it as something important. But what you said about working and growing together is just so true. Taylor, thank you for your honest and reflective words. I think I speak for many when I say that we wish you the best!! You deserve it! Feel hugged ❤️
I'm praying for you and elbow san! I'm sure this is going to work and let's just say I'm really excited about your Halloween and xmas vlogs because you made the best ! Also gorgeous make up 💕💕
I’m sorry to hear this Taylor. A loss is a loss so you shouldn’t feel like you don’t deserve to grieve and feel sadness because you were not that far along. If you were pregnant and then you weren’t the feeling of loss is still very valid. I think any one would feel the same.