Crack Addict interview-Victoria
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- Опубликовано: 7 дек 2019
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Victoria, a crack addict on Skid Row who shares her life story. Photographed on October 28, 2019.
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I heard that Victoria recently committed suicide in her tent on Skid Row. Every time I’d see Victoria she’d smile at me but it was always one of those smiles that made me sad. So tragic.
That poor soul...I hope she finally has found some kind of peace after so much pain and suffering.
So sad. May Victoria's soul finally rest in peace.
Soft White Underbelly so heartbreaking! Bless her tortured soul. 🙏
RIP Victoria. Thank you for giving her a chance to tell her story.
Oh man!! May her soul rip 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
Child molestation is destructive to the soul. 😥
It's a demonic act.
Some men are just SICK and deserve to be punished. For each of the videos in which the person was obviously a child when being beaten, molested and/or raped, I wish they could go back and have criminal charges filed. The trauma from abuse of any kind, can last for years. People DO NOT understand how this pain, can transform lives into horror stories. Individuals use severe methods to cope, i.e. drinking, self medicating with drug use, committing crimes, and having sex. Again, I pray for each and every individual who has the courage to share their story and pain; in order to make awareness, start the healing process or as a cry for help.
Dee Fulton amen to that,, I just read she committed suicide, I hope God has mercy on her soul,, People that rape children, beat, molest, all of that stuff deserves hell, and that is why hell exists! Hate to hear these stories so bad, I pray for each and every one 🙏
One can apply this to "Thy shall not commit murder."
that's why child molestors should be castrated and sent to psych ward for life
You would think "Hell" is a place you get to go to after death...but it's someone else's life..."Hell" is right here...people are literally living it
Nkem you are correct
I agree.
Life on earth is a panic compared to hell
@delores walmack Yes, that’s why I’m so glad to see this comment, and the original comment, rather than all the people who are usually on here talking s*it about people with addictions, women being revictimized on the streets, and calling folks liars. They have NO idea how lucky they are.
That's so deep
As a child of a heroin addict who died, I can truly tell you this woman is a perfect example of why we should never judge people we see on drugs or on the streets. You never know what they are carrying. 🙏🏻❤️
Djgj69 Fukit thank you, I’m sorry for your loss too 🙏🏻
The Tarot Tea.
I can just about let you off because you’re young and had a very poor childhood, but the actual fact that you thought to write “never judge a book by its cover” is disturbing enough, that means you’ve contemplated doing that before you reminded yourself not to. Also don’t ever think everybody is the same as you, there are millions of people who wouldn’t “judge”, who wouldn’t even use that despicable word, so just because you’re thinking that - don’t assume everybody else is, that’s a rudeness I would never ordinarily put up with.
@@karendegenerous8044, did I miss something??? "You can just about let her off" for what??? Seriously, what are you even talking about?!?! The Tarot Tea didn't write ANYTHING whatsoever out of line, nor was she insulting, judgy or rude to anybody! She was merely sharing some insight from her personal experience in conjunction with hearing this poor woman's story. Sorry man, but you're the rude one with a dash of arrogant and a little crazy on top! How about GET OVER YOURSELF!!!!
Jeez, what a whack job!
I'm sorry for your loss @The Terot Tea and for yours as well @Djgj69 Fukit
@@karendegenerous8044 wtf!? You sound like a complete Asshole!!! How dare you come at a woman, let alone anyone in that manner. Talk to a man that way. I'm sure you abuse women. Yes, I'm "judging" you at this point because of your bs comment to that girl. Fuck you!
Met this lady in Downtown Los Angeles. I was working as a security guard and she helped me get an angry trespasser off property by talking to him nice. She is one of the nicest women I have ever met. It is a shame what happened to her. I used to talk not her and encourage her. I have not seen her in about 3 years. Let me know how she is doing. Or at least treat her kind and encourage her to get clean..
I found this channel and have been binge watching these interviews. This is absolutely the saddest thing I've ever heard in my life. My heart actually hurts for this woman. My God.
Melissa W me too and there are more sadder stories that mark uploaded. Keep watching 😢
I know!!! Her story and "Cassie's" story if you look it up here...( if you can handle listening to another,?) 😪....HEARTBREAKING
We never no people's story.i never judge people. I tell myself I wonder what their story is..that they are in that situation..
Sometimes, I find myself wishing I could help save many of these people that are interviewed in these videos? I wouldn't even know where to begin? I realize that many need to not only get help with their addictions, but seek mental health care treatment.
I CAN NOT STOP WATCHING THESE IVE BEEN BINGE WATCHING ALL DAY, THE STORIES THESE PPL TELL MY GOD MY GOD ALL OF THIS PAIN AND MISERY, HOW EVIL MEN ARE WALKING AROUND ON THIS EARTH SOME OF THESE STORIES AND WHAT THEY BEEN THROUGH ITS LIKE CAN YOU BLAME THEM FOR GETTING HIGH??!! GOD FATHER WATCH OVER US PLEASE!🙏😭😭
I'm with you! I'm fascinated and cant turn it off lol!
Weird One I’ve just about watched all of them
I’m doing the same thing! I can stop watching them either!
Shan B. Me too....I am so looking at how blessed I am but feeling this unbelievable pain of these people who were once children!
Can’t believe some of this stuff is even real!
My heart aches for these lost souls. I wish I could save them all
“I thank god every day I have cancer” wow that has the be the saddest and most powerful thing Iv ever heard I am broken for her what an awful life she’s been put through 😢
@ Jordan Faye, Yes it's so very sad! But I do understand her saying that. The sexual abuse of childhood, I know her pain🙍
I totally understand her.
Being suicidal with cancer makes you glad for it. I would know..
@@OutOfTheAether
Yes, me too.
Same 😭
Some women follow men into hell....stuck in one moment at 7 years old. Will always behave as that 7 year old until healed.... she needs to mentally hug and love that wounded 7 year old.
Therapy, EMDR, would be good for her. And @victora Dylan says, heal that 7 year old child.
What steps can help her today she has Cancer and she’s a Victim of abuse ???
Human kindness was void in young life !
She doesn't need pious platitudes. She needs a safe place to live, medical care, and someone to love her. There is a lot more to healing from trauma than your advice implies. Nothing is that simple.
Just like drug addicts who remain at the age they were when their addiction started, they do not grow mentally. I have a sister who's abused pills for 35 years and she has the mentality and mindset of someone in their 20's even though she's 62.
The price of childhood trauma is simply immeasurable, lack of self esteem, and self worth....the cost is soooo
life lasting. so very sad indeed
We as a country have to do more about sexual predators and their victims!! It’s one of the worst things you can do, maybe mandatory life sentences bc they can’t change and there is no cure for a pediphile !
YOU ARE SO RIGHT - WHY CANT PARENTING BE TAUGHT IN SCHOOL LIKE READING AND WRITING AND OTHER SUBJECTS ARE? We all need a test to get a drivers license that we have to study for... we all need to learn and prepare for exams to graduate 🎓 school don’t we? SO SHOULDN’T CREATING A BRAND NEW HUMAN BEING AND RAISING HIM/ HER BE THE MOST IMPORTANT LESSONS OF ALL THAT WE NEED TO LEARN? And laws against child abuse and sexual molestation are not upheld like tax evasion laws are and pursued - we humans are a FUCKED SPECIES - we destroy ourselves and each other and every other species and our precious planet 🌎 - THE SIXTH MASS EXTINCTION IS UNDER WAY AND WE HAVE TO GO THE WAY OF THE DINOSAURS 🦖🦕🦖 PLANET EARTH WILL BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT HOMO SAPIENS!!!
@@lindsayp9691 intense mental therapy and remove there weapons so they can’t hurt another child
@@angeliquemarquis I wish I could disagree with you. I believe the human species will unfortunately do themselves in . Money and power will be the death of us. Teaching people how to be good humans won’t make any money for anyone .
@@nativejuicevapors that would require tons of government funding . And we will never be able to take away guns in America bc of groups like the NRA. In the state I live in , anyone can buy a gun from a gun show no question asked. It’s really sad .
I'm a 43yo man, and I had tears rolling down my face as I listened to this at work. We all whinge and moan about stuff sometimes, but when you hear a story like this, it really puts it into perspective just how bad some people have it. A broken soul and Spirit. No one should endure what she went through. To the people who abused her, I hope you burn in Hell.
Victoria you have had a profound effect on a lot of people after seeing this video. There are A lot of people who loved you, we just didn't get a chance to tell you😪😪😪
RIP precious Victoria💕
I'm not religious, but God look after this lady🙏
She is gone now?
@@memyselfi2005 Yes .. read very first comment from SWU under video.
@@pjrichards3974 seen, thanks for letting me know. She already lived hell on earth, I’m glad she isn’t in any more pain. Rest In Peace Victoria. 🌹 🌹 🌹
@@memyselfi2005 so you read it, hard not to cry.
@@memyselfi2005 There are so many others that he has interviewed that have past away. I just found out Cassandra overdosed in April. Such a beautiful lady too.
Love you Victoria. I've got two years clean off iv heroin use. I was once in a tent, homeless, and hopeless. I just wanna let you know that your mother isn't the last one that cared about you. When you're ready, step into a recovery meeting, get a hug, we'll love and accept you just as you are. I pray that you find the gift of desperation and find what I have and many others before me have. I find love in meetings, I find family, I find acceptance and I want you to find the same Victoria. You're beautiful just as you are now, in this moment and you are deserving of love. I hope that you find it ❤
jake johnson you’re so right. I’ve got enough of drugs with the support of meetings, as well! Thanks for spreading a message of hope.
jake johnson congratulations- hope you’re doing well ❤️
Good for you!
♥️♥️
@jake johnson, very well said and a big congrats on your 2yrs sobriety...That's a SUPER achievement! "IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT" ...So keep it up!!!!🍀🙌🎉💪
Why do so many of the interviews uncover child abuse within the foster care system? It seems to be a huge problem. I hope Victoria finds some love and peace in the afterlife.
Anna Palmer most addiction is built on childhood abuse. It’s so very sad.
...and in this life
Unfortunately, It's not just the foster system. Many are abused sexually by their own father's. I will never forget the story of the woman who said her father was her first lover...she was in love with him...and had his children!
Child abuse is rampant everywhere, not just the foster care system. It comes from people wanting to feel powerful over someone who is vulnerable. It’s the ugly side of humanity.
It's a big issue
Her tender heart was so broken! The empathy she felt for the little boy that got the black eye.
God please have mercy on her soul!
Is it only me but I get upset with Mark, he helps young pretty con artists and didn't offer a helping hand to this older woman who is legitimately sick. It makes me upset. I need to let it go but I cant help but think 🤔 what if Mark helped her for a couple months!!! Oh well what is done is done.
@@Dpurple28 why don't you help her?
@@Dpurple28 hes a perv and a pedo
I don't even have the words... this is such a heartbreaking story.
Isnt it ? She got no breaks . Not a single one her whole life .
Right?!? It’s not often that I’m left speechless.... but this interview has left me with my jaw dropped and totally 😶🤭😔💔💔💔
My goodness this is one of the most horrible life stories I’ve heard. I’m not super religious but God have mercy on her soul.
I couldn’t even watch it...so heartbreaking. And infuriating. This poor woman. God help her.
@Bellalunarsoulz your blaming God when it was because Adam sinned. The Bible says that the sins of the father's will be visited upon the third and fourth generation. When people turn from God, Satan steps in to destroy God's children.
nunnya biznez PREACH
@@nunnyabiznez3177 oh please, please, please shut the f*** right up.
@@mydnytmover lack of faith in Christ is evil's greatest tool. Sadly without Christ all is permitted. this was the problem here. These people had no faith in Christ's teachings and so took advantage and harmed this innocent soul. I pray one day she feels peace
Not everyone should be Foster parents.
Yeh and "........not everybody should be parents.........
@Velvet Pillows “Not everyone” vs “nobody”...big difference.
@@cristymurphy6884 thank you
Amen to that!!!
JK Keenan many are doing it for the money, the child’s welfare is far down on the to do list
The end was so abrupt after such a gut wrenching journey of her suffering. I hope you had a kind word for her before she left. RIP Victoria 🙏
I absolutely agree. 😒 I've watched a beautiful escort go on for an hour and a half about glorifying prostitution but this lady was GENUINELY screaming for help and in the middle of her speaking he just abruptly thanks her for sharing. I've been obsessed with this channel since I found it but this episode has really shone a light on something I hadn't noticed before. Very ugly, but as they say, "If its too good to be true" 🤷🏻♀️ I'm glad she's at peace now, but I hate it had to come in such a form. R.I.P. Victoria
Also thank you for letting her share her whole story. I'm sure it was therapeutic on some level for her. As for me it reminded me that shit could always be worse. Ty
This is definitely cathartic
I'm so sorry for your childhood......
I cant help but think that these interviews are so incredibly therapeutic for these girls.
Sometimes, though, when you pour your heart out, you can actually feel worse for putting the words to the air for all to hear.
Mrs Biggles I agree, nobody asks they about them .. and they need to talk about it
Sure is
Unfortunately for a lot of people who suppress stuff like this.. when they leave they end up diving back into drugs. I wouldn't be surprised if she left and attempted suicide again. Or binged drugs. This was likely very hard for her and caused a hard relapse
They can’t show this side on the streets, they just can’t, so I believe it gives them a moment to be vulnerable and maybe by talking it gives them strength.
This lady needed to purge her story.. Not sure if she will ever "recover" but at least she relieved some pressure. Wish her well & better days to come
I believe this is probably one of the best therapies. I will bet you the camera man is crying his eyes out.
@@ross_ulbright7779 He sounded choked up at the end
Unfortunately & Sadly, She took her own life. Mark posted the update in his pinned comment on this video. The poor woman has gone through so much agony and I am sure she didn't want to end her life but end her agony only. Hopefully she's resting in peace now which is something she only ever desired but never got any. 💔
@@edwardalmanzar01 Omg😒😢 Thank you for the update but sad to know. God Bless her.
My heart hurts for her. I want to give her a genuine hug..
This poor woman has gone through so much abuse. Plz Lord take her soul and bring her peace that she truly deserves. May God keep you Victoria. You've been a fighter all of your life, It's time to rest.
I'm in years over this video. So overwhelmed with sadness. She's in heaven now I saw she passed.
My God how much can person endure! I wish she could see her true self, the intelligent, kind, independent Beautiful fighter that she is! It's so unfortunate that these parasites pray on people's weakness! As a child she never stood a chance! We need stricter laws for the monsters that harm children and something better in place so that families can stay together! May God Bless her! If you see her can you please tell her I said I admire her courage and strength, and that God loves her sincerely and unconditionally!
She has had 100 lifetimes worth of suffering. Such a nice woman.
@@ross_ulbright7779 right?? I am so sorry for her life
@Healing andHappy She’s a Warrior, for Sure!!!💖
I feel so terribly sorry for her. The more videos I watch, the greater my eyes are opened and I’ve started helping in my area, because of all these videos on Utube. I was inspired to do it by other channels, but this channel is going to have me working in the streets with the homeless even more. I now know what my purpose in life is.
@@CMoore8539 Wow, what a testament to @softwhiteunderbelly! That is so crazy to think that you found your purpose on RUclips!! Amazing what exposure can do! I'm sure many will be blessed by the work you're currently doing and plan to do in the future! My best friend started with pills and moved into heroin recently. It's been a heartbreaking experience seeing her 3 kids and family suffer along side of her. Initially I started out looking for answers, tactics on how to get her to rehab, but honestly all I've found has been pain in others stories. I commend you for being selfless and caring enough to help strangers! I still have a little too much judgementalness in me to be able to fully empathize and not jump to conclusions. I pray that God can help me work through that, I hate that about myself. Anyhow sorry for the novel, from someone who has been in a few tough situations myself it means the world when someone can see past your exterior and your current situation, most of us want to change some don't have the know how and some of us don't have the strength! And by "us" I mean anyone who doesn't have a support system or didn't have one as a child or has experienced any type of trauma that has prevented them from moving forward in a positive productive manner! 💜
How can so many people fail one person?
I don't wanna sound all hokey, but there's something about energy, which a lot of people like to call "luck" because they can't really explain how you can keep attracting the same type of situations. It's energy, once you have that "victimized" energy on you, other predators will sniff you out, and that energy will repel decent people who don't wanna deal with drama or just aren't predators. What this poor woman should have done (and most of these interviewees need) is get herself some therapy, and stayed there, and at least shifted her mindset before ever hooking up with anyone, let alone having any kids. Same thing happens with money, love, and other "good" luck as well.
✌😎@@mariselissa well said🌸yes🌸🌸
@@mariselissa evil is diabolical, I don't play the funnies w/ those negative energies I have 2pray constantly, it's a sickening cycle, may she receive the peace she seek...this can happen 2 anyone. Don't play wit the devil, he'll never play fair.
@@mariselissa therapy is so expensive, it's not an option for most who desperately need it.
@@rondaduse-anthony6755 Yes, you are right, and I am not discounting that. However, there are several different forms of therapy (gardening, journaling, etc.), to tide you over in the meantime, as well as cheaper options, such as student therapists. I found me a student therapist this year, and he has been invaluable to me. He only charges me $15 an hour, and I see him once a week. Since we've built a relationship prior to him become fully licensed, he promised he will grandfather my rate in. There are several options out there, it just takes a little bit of work.
Mark, you didn’t ask her many questions. Is that a vibe you get from them? Sometimes they just need to talk? Her story is heartbreaking. Sending her so much love & healing.
She killed herself
I wonder the same thing. Why for some he will say little to nthn as opposed to others
@@S0_L0 I think Mark knows when there's nothing he ca do to help.
Some people are capable of telling their own story. Some are so disillusioned that they need his guidance to get it out.
Things that make ya go 🤔 hmmmm. I wonder ALOT about this interview. I've also NEVER seen him INTERRUPT one in the middle of speaking to Thank them for sharing forcing them to Stop sharing. VERY strange and enlightening into true intentions.
This was a life of hardship. Rest In Peace Victoria.
I couldn’t even listen all the way through I just feel wretched by the trashed and abuse. People are cruel and unjust. My heart is broken.
" I cry for myself and for what I could do" if only this woman had found someone to love her unconditionally she may have stood a chance.
No animal can do the evil human species is capable of...
Ghoth mode
I gave up on humans and put all my love and energy in animals, best love and loyalty
@@nllove7937 I agree. When I stand and look at myself in the mirror, I see a man with a small willy and is also very shy.
@@nllove7937 yep - I love my little babies xx
especially when we castrate cattle, your right
This woman really needs some peace.💖
This woman's story in particular broke my heart. The pain I see break through when she's trying to remain positive is heart wrenching.
As a mother, I could not IMAGINE losing my babies...all of these women tell stories of losing thier children and you can feel the pain...i feel so bad for those children and these women....everyone loses...tragic stories
Well, if you’re a mother, don’t put your kids into a situation where they see drug abuse, where they’re neglected and where strange men are instructed by their mom to abuse them.
I’m assuming you’re a better mom than that.
Mark Laita~ such a striking eye. A thoughful way to show the dignity, and beauty in all of us, no matter what.
This one… wow. So many mixed feelings because after reading she’s passed- I feel this sense of relief for her. I’m grateful she is freed from all the trauma that has happened to her. But, of course, I am sad for all that she could’ve been. I’m sad for how she was treated by those that raised her and the men she was with. Sad that she lost her children- who were likely the only ones that ever loved her like she deserved to be loved. I just felt so many things- mostly this deep sadness because of her melancholy laugh and her disbelief that she couldn’t even kill herself in previous attempts. Most of all, I just wanted to hug her and tell her to cry in my arms so I could just hold her tight, as a mom. Hearing her say “all I wanted to be was loved” cracked my heart, because she didn’t even need to say it. Her story reflected that. Sweet, sweet Victoria- you were a beautiful person and I’m so sorry for how life played out for you. I’m thankful you are free now and that no one can ever hurt you again ❤
I have watched so many of these, THIS one made me cry.... this woman is in real pain, she has done so well given the life she had, success, homes, articulate, resourceful, but her pain comes through the screen. I wish her nothing but the best. I love her, as I imagine so does everyone who has heard her story and seen her for her. My soul goes out to her. THIS one got me.
She committed suicide
"Why did he save me?" To educate the world, Victoria.
But the world has known. Where's her true redemption? Peace? Even something to live for beyond reminding us all of what we are aware of...I can't make sense enough of this to accredit that to a positive
So much pain and suffering in Victoria’s soul...it genuinely breaks my heart. I know how it is to be abused by those you love, and to lose trust in people entirely because of your past. If you have an addictive personality, you will find whatever you can to numb your pain, and latch onto it like it’s your only lifeline.
Victoria, if you ever see this, I have so much love for you. I know that your pain is immense. I know you feel as though you lost everything. But you are still you. You are full of such beauty, such radiance, such passion. You are intelligent and eloquent, and more determined than most people I’ve ever met. You deserve to be clean and happy. You are not what‘s been done to you.
I hope we meet one day. I hope I can hug you and cry with you, and share stories with you. I don’t want you to die. I want you to live and thrive. I wish I could tell you how special and needed you are in the world. I have so much love and empathy for you.
Please, do not give up on yourself.
dani - sadly, she committed suicide!!! See mark’s posted pin above.
What this woman has been through is absolutely horrendous.
Victoria, I so hope you're at peace, finally. Your story just clobbered me with so much emotion for you. Much praise for your strong spirit.
She’s passed. Thank god. She went through enough. No more pain.
WELL DONE LADY FOR LASTING THIS LONG AND STILL HAVING SOME OF YOUR HUMANITY...GIVEN WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH AS A 7 yrs old ......you did choose the wrong track in life and you will be alright no matter what happens....I love you.
the part that's scary about that is when she mentioned that look on his face
if i was a female?
just that alone, would make me too scared to have sex with guys
Child Protective Services GET IT TOGETHER not only are these kids falling through the cracks But you place them in these homes where there’s nothing but evil!! Do your job and protect these innocent souls 💔
I am glad you are able to shed tears Victoria. It shows you are still alive and real and willing to touch down and heal some of your grief. Thanks for being authentic.
People that dont cry arent necessarily heartless either...i use to cry at the drop of a hat..after my ex attempted to murder me its like my tears ran out...im numb now but I still empathise x
I'd like to know how everybody thinks her name is Victoria
because she said she has multiple personalities
and Victoria was just 1 of the 3
Tragically, these women who were so abused since childhood, are usually attracted or attract abusive men because, they have low self esteem and feel worthless, so they stay in the same cycle of abuse. It's astounding how this poor, sad soul, is still alive, after she's been busted up so many times. She seriously needs help and to be within a sincere, loving environment, because killing the pain with drug addiction, is an invitation to more abuse. She needs to know and believe, she's worth a whole lot more, and get serious help, anyway possible. I pray she finds peace and love. She's definitely worth it. God bless this broken, sad woman and give her peace. 😥🙏🙏🙏
Please parents put your kids first protect them love them 😢🥺
My father didn't believe in whooping me but my mother beat tf out of me before she got clean 32 yrs ago off of crack. All abuse is traumatic but my mother made sure I was never sexually abused. She would drop me off to my father or grandparents when she ran off to get high. Im so grateful I've never been molested/raped/ sexually abused. Most of these people had horrible parents who mom's pimped them out, let their boyfriends rape their kids, raped by their own fathers or sickos in foster homes😥🙏 My heart goes out to these people. They are victims of circumstances. So sad💔
This woman married a sadist...they don’t know what love or even self love really is.
Good catch. I did the same. I thought my ability to take abuse was my biggest asset. It kept me alive at home & on the streets. It still does, but I no longer think it’s love or empowerment. Men flatter us with these ideas, as well as promise security for being a “good girl.” I fully understand it.
My heart breaks for this woman. This is one of the saddest stories I've ever heard. Constantly abused never loved. I can't imagine the pain she's in.
I'm in tears...this is the rawest interview i've seen, personally. I'm so sorry Victoria....my heart breaks for you.
This woman’s story was heart wrenching. I pray her soul is finally at peace .
I wish she could spend the time she has left with a person who really loves her and cares about her. Not like these terrible guys she’s been abused by. So sad for this woman.
I am sad to say that Mark (Soft White Underbelly) reported two weeks ago that Victoria committed suicide. It is so tragic.
God bless you RJ
God, I been binge watching these. Common denominator: molestation!!!
For the guys it seems no dad no mom..
Man, I wil never judge those ppl living in the street again. In fact there's a bunch of tents down the street frm me.. gonna bring them food!!! They aren't on drugs..Victoria you have strength girl. I see a future for you. My GOD. I love how u take no shit from men..today!!!!
I wish I could help all these ppl..😫💔💔🧡
That is awesome you changed your views !!! (I changed my views as well).
That is thoughtful of you to bring them food!
Raw and Uncut - This story brought my heart so much agony . Her day- to- day turmoil (Unfathomable ). There is not enough tears to wash away the pain ,I'm sure, Victoria feels...both physically and mentally. I cried for you because I don't want you to suffer anymore * Hug* May God bless you and grant you some kind of peace.
My god. I've seen alot of your videos but this one really hurt my heart. Her pain is palpable.
To then see the comment of her passing absolutely heart breaking. R.I.P darlin, I hope you found the peace you so deserve 🌈
One of the saddest stories I've listened to ever. God rest her soul 🙏🙏❤️❤️
So so deplorable. She is such a beautiful human being and deserves a better life.
I just watched this one while trying to get ready for work. I could not get ready save from crying every time she did. This is one of the interviews that is soooo real I wanted to see if ANY help was actually given. She ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY was screaming for help. I've seen Mark help ones who's story seemed so scripted it was disgusting. This woman is what real pain and tragedy looks like. I see the pinned comment that she committed suicide. Did you give her 28,000 dollars like the young prostitute, or set her up with Lima like Amanda? I TRULY hope you did more than ABRUPTLY interject you thankfulness for her sharing. She wasn't even done talking but we watched Frenchie for an hour and a half go on about literally 1 subject. I love all of these journeys. I've lived a tragic one myself so my heart breaks with and for every single person hurting you've captured. I just really hope that you are genuinely concerned and HELP them ALL. She absolutely needed it. R.I.P. Victoria, I pray you have the peace you've longed for.💔💞💔💞
I agree , I think when he's attracted to them he goes on for much longer..she was still needing to vent. I know it was hard to hear but damn, she was a true victim from birth.
This poor woman and her unhealed heart and mental state breaks my heart. If she had been given honest love as a child, she may have had more of the self esteem she needed to leave the men, who mistreated her, sooner. And she may have had the self esteem to strive for more, to strive for better partners than those she was drawn to. I am in no way saying she went into these relationships knowing how awful those men would be towards her. I do recognize that in most new relationships, both participants try to only show our best qualities until we can't hide our bad traits anymore...and by that time, both parties are usually emotionally invested, and stick it out, trying to see passed the flaws. It's clear to me that she never felt worthy of more than what she had growing up. Being loved unconditionally is something that can carry us through our lows, as well as our life highs. When one doesn't receive that unconditional love and protection a child needs and yearns for, it more often than not, sets him/her on a path of self destruction, caused by that inner turmoil that was never addressed and healed. I feel for this woman. She has lived a hard life.
She made me cry, she was a hurt little girl. I’m so sorry. She just needed loving parents.
I find these videos really fascinating but I am also finding that the abrupt way he ends the interviews is a little bit disturbing. It almost feels like the end of a transaction… her face and the way she grabbed her bag… Her body language said everything. I would almost rather he just left the interview trail off
I agree. I was also thinking of what i was taught in an addiction/mental health trauma course is that it is so important to ensure victims leave feeling safe by methods such as grounding. I know the interviewer probably does not have extensive counselling skills but it is so important after full disclosures such as these where chances are they have never received professional help and maybe the 1st time ever sharing their story. Just a thought.
@@Lulumelon333 At 29:27 Victoria states she has schizoaffective disorder which is the standard diagnosis when there is also another major disorder, often bi-polar, affecting the person. I would wonder if Victoria is on or has looked into SSI for her mental health issues. If so, she would be able to qualify for Medicaid / Medical which would allow her to access proper care to get he either on, or back on, the right medications which could help balance her moods and thinking, at least to a significant degree, if she stayed on them.
Also, with access to Medicaid / Medical, she could seek treatment for the cancer she says she has.
It's obvious this lady is in deep distress, emotional pain and truly needs help from professionals to help her stabilize and get off the streets into a better living situation.
Also, as I watch some of these videos I agree, that there are many people who have had some heartbreaking situations in their lives as very young children. Situations they cannot control but suffer from.
However I am also aware that when one is dealing with individuals who have significant mental impairment -- either from an organic disorder, brain trauma or traumatic events / circumstances; they can have problems discerning what actually happened and the reality they've created within their mind. This does not mean what they claim did not happen, only that sometimes events and situations can be altered to make them appear always the victim.
I wish that the site creator would do some outreach to people or groups in social services / mental health outreach, because it would be beneficial to the men and women he interviews. To have the option of having someone to contact who could try to help them access services they need. Often the biggest issue beyond lack of sufficient access to community mental health, is the daunting maze of paperwork and beauracracy .
On the other hand u can hear Mark's tone, he was disturb by this interview big time as most people im sure. I'm sure the interviewer will find away to help alot these people, its a natural course of action. Peace
Mark is working with several local organizations that assist individuals like Victoria.
@@Lulumelon333 He pays them - in a way it is a transaction - what should he do - take them home?? what do you do??
Why soo many dislikes? This is her truth, have some compassion people plz....
I'm currently watching this. Trauma after trauma after trauma. I was thinking about how intelligent she was, the strength. I looked to the comments to see that she committed suicide. Good Lord Victoria. 'All I ever wanted was love & peace in my life.' I felt that to my core. RIP. 😭
everytime she laughs i know its because she is hiding pain, i feel so sorry for her this story was honestly the saddest i heard to date so far, im sorry she took her life but i believe she is at peace and smiling down and she is DEFINETLY her sons guardian angel no doubt about it many blessing to her soul.
Mark, Thank you for partnering with these brave souls to raise AWARENESS!!!
Rejection is a powerful evil. This breaks my heart.
This interview really got me. I believe everything she says. I pray (and hope others join me) that she finds Jesus Christ in her life particularly now that she has cancer.
Absolutely heart wrenching....if she has passed away, I hope she is truly at peace and feels warmth and love. I am incredibly appalled and saddened by the life she was born into . Poor thing. 💟🕊️
This broke my heart in a way I cant explain. So much pain behind her eyes. To the people who failed this woman,including the fucked up system. God will meet you when it's your turn to go...and he will want answers. I'm sorry Victoria. No more pain. Rest easy
What damn judge takes a child away from a mother, over condoms, especially when your already separated.
A lot of judges do. Women lose custody a lot nowadays. I know from experience
A southern judge who's following laws put on the books by religious right wing bigots.
why in the hell would they think that she was cheating just because she had that in her bag?
that doesn't mean that she was cheating
because maybe she was getting ready to get her freak on sexually, by herself
i thought that part was bullshit
i think she mighta got seriously screwed, over that crap
Jessica Daniel I know from experience as well.. sending you hugs
@@jefffuehr366 ,★
Victoria needs a guinine warm long hug. She needs to go to a good church and get into a rehab. Lord please watch over this woman and surround her with all your Angels. Please have her feel loved but most of all herself.
Amen
Valencia Queen amen 🙏
Amen
My soul aches for this woman. I can't fathom the amount of pain she has had to endure. She has such a beautiful humble heart. ♥️
I pray she finds peace.
May she feel a sense of peace one day, sadly it won't be while she's here on this earth
CJR 😔
I do not agree with that statement. I have been through living hell and I am a recovering heroin addict and cocaine addict and everything addict and suffered with severe depression and anxiety disorder as well as every possible roadblock One can be faced with. I was so low there were times I thought I would never smile again, however, WEDOrecover and that is what people don't understand. Human beings are a lot more resilient than they purport us to be. haven't you ever watched a documentary or a Special Report where a particular individual has been through tumultuous and horrific situations and Lifestyles, however, the day that they are telling their story to the journalist oh, they appear as a completely different person than the reflective photo they keep flashing at the beginning of the special. The reason for this being is we are capable of overcoming most traumatic and horrific mental spiritual emotional and physical abuse. A good example of this would be the three girls who were kidnapped and held as prisoners for over a decade by Ariel Castro and I'm sure that they have their moments and they are Marge by there memories of these horrific atrocities but they survived. Not only did they survive but they went on to have children and families and I are leaving leading normal lives. Obviously you believe in God and believe in his ability to ability to pull humans through unspeakable transgressions so 2 assume that she will never have a feeling of peace well she's alive is totally disregarding hope and everything that gods teaches us to be like so that we are able to actually grow and mature because in times of extreme duress or trauma most people stop developing and are not even close to being mature enough for the age in years however, once they pick up where they left off and where the trauma started and were then set free in their minds and their spirits and regained hope and maybe a little bit of trust now lead reasonably happy and healthy lives With the exception of life just as it is, nobody is happy all the time. The bottom line is do not disregard or give up hope because once you're stripped of everything internally and externally the only things you have are hope and whatever you managed to save of your dignity--the 2 things people cannot take away from you unless you give it to them freely. I also hope she finds peace as well and I feel that if she straightened out the drug situation she will , I did and I'm not always happy but nobody is.
@@incantationsbykaryn Glad your story has a happy ending .. She has stage 4 cancer don't think she will b giving up drugs any time soon she said she needs them 4 pain also 🙁 .. After all she went thru then she got cancer it's just not rite.... ❤
You believe in heaven? Or some afterlife?
@@incantationsbykaryn LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. I WISH I HAD YOU IN MY LIFE.
I have no words. Your story was so powerful and you are so brave. Hard to look for a silver lining in your harrowing story, but you are obviously here for a reason. I will never forget your story... it makes me aspire to do more for our youth. I’m so sorry the system failed you so horribly. Please know that my thoughts are forever with you from now on.
“Anyone who’s been abused makes a good abuser” -Victoria. 😔🙏🏾
What a kind soul ❤ thank you for telling your story. No one deserves the hand you've been dealt ❤ those men, your foster brother, ex's, all of them- deserve the worst for what they've done to you. You're worthy of love ❤
Victoria, you have been such a hardworking and loyal person and I am so sorry you have had to endure these horrors. I wish you good luck and hope that life treats you more kindly in future.
People can be so damn cruel it's unbelievable!
Things that was done to this lady right from her early childhood on, nobody should have to ever go through!
It destroys the soul forever 😢 It's just heartbreaking!
She's such a strong woman, she deserves a good life of recovery.
28:00 "I cry for myself..." Beautifully said.
May Victoria finally rest in peace, may she now know purest love &what it means to be home& safe -with her Father Our Heavenly Father .To the evil creature that took her innocence &started all of this ,one of the most heart wrenching horrifically sad lives, her blood is on your hands. Rip Victoria I'm so sorry for what people did to u&all of your suffering .
I believe everything this woman says. how horrible. Praying for a real recovery for her. She deserves a better life.
I had yet to see an interview that made me shed tears and this one was it I pray her soul is with god and she’s at peace 😔
When she said ‘All I’ve ever wanted was love’ 💔
I can feel her pain. My heart goes out to her. I know in some way our prayers will reach this woman. God IS with you Victoria and he loves you. I'm so sorry for all that you've had to endure on this planet. This is Satan's playground. But after this you will be with our father in heaven.Your pain will all be gone. When he's ready for you. I pray you find some peace here before go also. 🙏 take care of yourself Victoria ❤
@Cara Ferdinands How do you know this?
@Cara Ferdinands When you search for nothing and have no faith your bound to come up empty handed. You my friend are the one that's blind. Let him lift the veil. Talk to him. What do you have to lose? He wants you. He loves you. He's calling you.
Thank you so much for sharing Victoria, I hope you find peace soon x
This is the saddest story of all. Breaks my heart. Hell on earth is what her life has been.
Thanks for interviewing these people. Amazing stories.
RIP Victoria - I'm so sorry for the way you were treated...❣
Victoria if you see this know you are loved....deserve love ...and radiate strength...thinking and praying for you from this moment forward 💗💛💜
I know people need to watch the videos, but, watching them will crush your soul. God Bless all the people that are hurting, suffering, + need Love + Hope+++
Victoria- you didn’t deserve any of that harm. Thank you for being honest and open with your story. Rest In Peace.
I am praying for you with everything i have. I am a recovering heroin, crack...everything addict, been homeless, raped, beat, robbed and i wrote a book that I am almost finished with that outlines this horror of a life i have led in GREAT DETAIL. I would love for u to read it as it may help you find comfort and hope again. I don't know you but I do and I love you.
Great interviews SWU.Did you ever consider interviewing combat veterans? Seems like they have great lessons and experiences that can be carried forward.
Michael Deluca Yes, that’s on my list. I’m sure I’ll be working on this for a very long time. I kind of regret posting so many addiction interviews but I keep meeting so many interesting people to talk to down there that I’m afraid if I stop I’ll lose many of my contacts. SWU is definitely not about drug addiction even though it sure looks that way so far. That’ll change over time. Vets will be so interesting to talk to. Thanks, ML
Soft White Underbelly please don’t stop❤️
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly please continue to give addicts a voice...we need you
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly Hi Mark - I don't know if you're aware but in psychoanalysis this is known as "the empty chair" form of psychoanalysis.
Yes
Mark, this is the saddest and most harrowing interview of yours i’ve watched yet. May poor Victoria have found peace and release from her painful life on this earth 💔🙏
Cutting her off so coldly as she was saying that she doesn’t want to be here was awful. Poor soul. 😔
Jesus. Ahe has been through hell and back!
She is the STRONGEST woman I've ever seen.
Things have got to get better for her. She is here for a reason. A survivor.
Sending her love!!!
People are doing horrible things to other people. The cycle needs to stop. Thanks @softwhiteunderbelly for showing this to the world.
I have been binge watching these interviews for weeks. There has been several that have changed my life and my views immensely. I am a recovering addict and I am living proof that you can heal and learn to live in a positive way. I live in HBG PA and every chance I get I go buy as many things as I can and walk the streets in my city talking to addicts and homeless people and it is one of the most remarkable things I have done or may ever do in my lifetime. Please if you ever see this woman again tell her from me I love her from the bottom of my heart stranger or not you are loved. I will pray for her and these people everyday of my life for as long as god allows me to.
Heartbreaking, prayers for you.
God give her peace.