10 years using. Quit. Went back to college. Got my bachelor’s in biology. Got certified as Medical Laboratory Scientist. It is possible to change your life if you want it bad enough. Don’t give up on yourself
You know. I'm 48 years old. I use Heroin since I was 14. Used Speedball consistenyly (means in massive quantities) for 4 years from 2002 to 2007. Now I use Heroin 4 times a day. I tried meth and had the wonderful idea of using it for 9 months when I had to face a couple of very tragic "losses" in my life. That 9 months of shitty meth did more harm to me, my health and my mind than 30 years of plain old heroin. Meth it's really the shittiest drug on the planet. No other explanations.
@@guitarjoy2050 yup and trying to get off suboxone has been a real blast too. It all sucks! Just keep plugging away, that's all we can do! Best of luck to u!
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to meth for over 7 years. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm really happy for you that your friend decided to help you...I hear about alot of family members or so called friends shutting an addict out of their life, which since most addicts do it to mask emotions to me is the worse thing someone can do to an addict.
@JanetRichardson-mq5esYes, I can tell you how I helped myself!! Pursue Trauma Recovery work. Until we figure out what we are hiding from, trying to survive through that's inside ourselves, we will continue reaching for things outside of us to shut that pain up inside. And it will it not work. Willpower is not the answer. Healing IS! (God helps, but that is a personal choice, of course. I pray you choose to take Him up on the relief He offers every day for free. Seek the Healer, not the healing.) Best of Luck to everyone here❤ You CAN DO THIS
Keep going...I loved an addict a eventually I had to leave...I even tried meth with him in hopes we could stay together. How sick is that? And even sicker, he shared his meth with me...thank God I didn't not like meth and quickly quit...
@@DerrickMarkleymusic cocky? Definitely not. I'm very humble. I just know it's possible now is all, there was a time I thought I'd always be a junkie. And though life's been rough trying to get back up on our feet, we are slowly doing it so I am proud of our accomplishments, I'm not bragging or anything, just cheering others on, I honestly believe it can be done as long as you want it bad enough & have the right resources & support.
@@brittanyferera5177The only resource and support you need is God and your own determination. There are lots of helpers out on YT. That's how I got Happy...no looking back...
Both my niece and nephew are in and out of prison and jail. BOTH meth addicts…and YES absolutely as a GRATEFUL recovering alcoholic, I did everything I know to help them. I’ve only done a few things RIGHT in life…never picking up meth was one of them. Nothing but respect to EVERY single person staying sober one day at a time.
5 yrs here. Booze was my bag. 11 years, hard, marathon drinking. A good friend n member of this group, perished from heroin. I'm very fortunate I never got hooked on smack.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Really good documentary, thanks to all of the people who participated for allowing their stories to be shared, please stay in recovery & be examples for those who search for the strength to do the same .😊🌻
The only way I could be delivered was by the power of Jesus . Thanks to his mercy today is 1756 free and happy . Call on him if your serious he will answer I’m living proof .
I’m so grateful to be done with meth and heroin. It’s been about five years and I quit alcohol over three years ago. I have an amazing life. I had to learn to love myself in order to stop hurting myself.
Meth killed my husband, he was off for almost 20 years, then went back to it and was dead 6 months later. I could do nothing. Found him dead on the floor on April 9th 2020. I miss him so much!
Even though my addiction journey was with rx opiates/benzos, I am very sympathetic to these folks because that addiction works the same. I had that same drive to acquire more and more and it became more important that anything else in my life. 11 years free....
Me, too! (It was mainly opiates for me; benzos are a special hell.) I quit by making up my mind to never use again. You? However you did it, congrats! 💚 [Edited to correct typo]
word … good for you keep it up 👍🏽…. scary as shittt but ya i’m maybe lil past 10 years …….. i feel your words ….don’t drink too much kids i have now a days lol 😆…..
Ya bro,17 yrs on opiates that ended with street fentanyl in my last year..On methadone for 2 yrs was at 54mg of methadone..Now down to 10mg & just about off it..Hard to believe the day could ever come that I/we could live without that garbage!!Personally,I have my head straight, career back & life is back in the correct lane..I hope you keep your sobriety & enjoy a happy,peaceful life!!
@@Randyman4126I actually came off with Suboxone and it was a lot easier to come off. For me personally methadone was just as addicting. It actually got me just as high if not higher. I never got high of Suboxone so it was way easier to wean off. Plus I'm not sure how it is where you are but here you have to go downtown every morning for your daily dose of methadone. Suboxone is very easy to get prescribed now. But if it works for you then Great! Continue on the right path.
It's crazy how it starts out in Missoula, MT. I'm from a small town within Missoula County and tried meth at the age of 16. It didn't have the same hold on me that it did on a lot of my friends but I still used it off and on for a few years, which is horrible. I made the decision to stop and that's exactly what I did. I want nothing to do with it ever again. I've seen it tear families apart, friendships apart.
The first thing that comes to mind is how far we have slid from when this documentary was made in 2007 . 16 years later , fentanyl and trank and other flesh eating drugs are rotting away flesh and souls . No one is addressing addiction as a symptom of a very sick society that's on a downward trajectory we are as a nation are being taken down , this is war . We lack morals and a spiritual link to God . This is a spiritual battle where demons enter through drugs bottomline . Eph. 6. [12] For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
You speak in vain. Your channel is Complete Perversion. You do not love Truth. You simply gather information from false religions and from God's Holy Word. You speak of Ephesians... But, you are a mirror image of the people of Ephesus in Paul's day. ... God Bless You In All Truth and Repentance. - In Christ, Christina
Sounds like we lack common sense and strength more than anything. People go down this path for a wide variety of reasons, though. The struggle is real AF.
I can relate to the guy who said, " First time IV'ing I was hooked." Man, I can relate. I had a drug buddy I partied with who slammed. He would go into the bathroom and do it. After months and months of begging him to shoot me up, he finally relented. He told me, " This will change everything." I thought he was being over dramatic, but he was absolutely 💯 right. I lost everything for the next rush of a shot. I'm happy to report today that I'm almost 6 years clean and sober. My heart goes out to those addicts who are still suffering. You can quit. If you relapse, get back up and dust yourself off again. KEEP TRYING. DON'T EVER EVER GIVE UP. I almost forgot, if you're serious about sobriety, you have to change your friends. You can not have anything to do with ANYONE who uses drugs. Remember, we are who we surround ourselves with.
If you relapse on the 3rd go of being clean u can't back I've seen many friends do it and strip their minds and lost friendships cutting ties is the best thing you can do for your life it's easy to make new friends if your a musician
Same story as everyone else but I was taking this sh*t for a few years. Almost lost everything. I lost a lot and still trying to get it back. Thank the good lord above for sending me the angel he did. This drug takes everything from your senses to your morals.
Bingo... I shared it to Facebook and Twitter saying the same thing.. no soft presentations either... Show them the true horrors this drug can and WILL bring about
20 years meth free for me. I love and thank myself every day for rising above my addiction. I adore my functioning and clean thinking brain. Good health is a good life. Xxxxx
If you know of any of his childhood friends who are successfully in recovery see if one or more of them will reach out to him and take him to NA meetings. With those of us in recovery part of the program is service to others. Inside nobody wants to be an addict and if someone reach's out and keeps reaching out to him maybe he will have a chance for a normal life again. many of us if not most of us it took many attempts before it worked and we got our life back.
@@garrettaffeldt6999 all his friends have given up on him which really hurts me because he was always there for them when needed. I keep trying and keep talking to him. He actually started Friday looking for an inpatient rehab. I pray one of them calls him back before he changes his mind. I have told him we will get him there no matter how far we have to go
A great way to get over a drug addiction is to stop playing the victim. I noticed a lot of people play the victim in order to continue using drugs. It sucks it happened to you but the sooner you get over it you will be able to quit drugs and get on with the rest of your life.
It’s so repetitive man, I never knew I was addicted or realized I would play the victim later trying to become sober. Where I am now I don’t know if I would of figured things out for real unless I had taken the path I did. You’re right though it’s a fine balance between having another excuse like I’m a victim and just making peace with myself and the ones around me
Dope sickness is no joke. They are simply terrified of that. Hence they MUST USE. It’s not as easy as just quitting. They have to make a choice to subject the body to unimaginable agony for weeks. The Fetty and Tranq are not helped by the usual treatments. It’s a freaking horror show.
13 years stuck on meth in hawaii with no hope. Got busted did my time and went to teen challenge and got saved! Found Hope and a new life in Christ 😊 10 years later and thanking God for his divine intervention 🙏👍🤙
I am a walking miracle today. I was a daily meth user, injector, for 18 years. My faith in Christ got me clean, and I now have two years off pot and meth. I got my teeth fixed, got into a good church, {not in that order}, have new friends, and peace within. It's like night and day, I have been homeless, you name it. Seen a lot of friends waste away and die from suicide, I am so grateful that God had His hand on me! I pray for this young family, my heart goes out to that poor mom, who has been through unimaginable pain. And I thank God for good grandparents, who raised me in church, my home life growing up was pretty chaotic, with an alcoholic addicted father...I went to jail many times, for possesion, and now they are legalizing and releasing people right back onto the streets, so sad.
@@scottwhitley2242 I used to smoke meth for a few years and it messed my life up but God stepped in a saved me and my teeth thank you Jesus, I can't believe I did not go to the dentist for so long because I was high and did not want them to know.
This came out in 2007. I think we can say the problem has gotten much worse in most places. I've been clean since late 2016. Best decision I ever made.
So thats why those parents r so well spoken while they appear to be high. It was a different drug in 07 than it is today. Person high on today's stuff can put a lot of sounds together but it won't make much sense
@@Garbagefly true yea it a better formula in that way if there is such a thing. In 2002 word on the streets in Tulsa was the cops and former local football players were the ones doing all of the cooking and trafficking. Ice with the light blue tint that one line would keep up for 2 days was everywhere. Everybody called it blue 42
Meth took over a dear friend of mine and she went from a very successful life to dying from associated health complications in 4 years. I miss her terribly.
I really feel for Holly and James. You can tell they, especially James wants to be a better father to his children. Breaks my heart. My heart also breaks for Holly and her childhood. Mostly my heart breaks for those babies. They deserve so much more and what they need is for their parents to get it together and raise them in a healthy loving environment. This is a hard, exhausting lifestyle to live, I know first hand and I really pray they turn things around
Naw. It’s all BS. They feel very sorry for themselves and are making every excuse in 5he book for themselves. They’re just low life beggars with kids they can’t afford and are regally screwing up.
My prayers are with them too 🙏. I've been battling some things , for 10, almost 11 years now, and I can barely take care of myself as a single man, I cannot imagine how people do it with children around. I couldn't do it....
Its heartbreaking... I'm raising a grandchild because of this drug... I've seen how it affects the children first hand.. I pray these two one day get clean... I absolutely hate this damn drug
1:07:30 and 1:08....the Sweetest sound ever heard....the starting up of a truck, and then that wave goodbye farewell so full of determined hope and dedication. Inspiring and here is hoping they are living lives best joy now! Huge warm Mama Karma hugs from The Weald, Garden of England 🤗💕 💖😎💞
Whilst it might seem disturbing, the chemical reactions involved in making it mean those ingredients don't remain the same chemically. Methamphetamine is not just all those things mixed together, but certain chemical components of them recombined to create a different chemical. At the end of the process, methamphetamine is simply a particular combination of carbon, hydrogen and nitrogen.
I'd have tried a before and after "I was bored, so I tried meth..." but follow it up with an equal campaign of "I was bored... so I volunteered at a food pantry" or "I was bored so I got the kids in the neighborhood together to put on play" There's a million things to do beside meth, but it seems the grown ups don't have any more imagination than the kids. My parents gave me pot and LSD by the time i was 12. I stopped going to school and dropped out. By 18 I was shooting heroin and coke. By 23 I lost interest. People around me were dying. They're still dying of the same things, so it seems you can't ever really get away from it. On the upside by the time I was 28 I decided to go to university, and that was good. That changed everything.
The thing that really bothers me about this fascinating horrifying heartbreaking film is it seems to be 16 years old. I know this doesn’t in any way lessen it’s power or message, but far from ending on a note of slight hope I’ve the real fear things have got much much worse.
I wish that I could talk to Holly. She seems like an intelligent person who got caught up in so much trauma and pain. I wish that everyone could get the help they need. I hate how this documentary doesn't address the infrastructural issues that lead to drug addiction. Lack of access to mental health services, no resources, no support systems, and a general consensus that nobody cares about addicts. If these people were shown love, compassion, and understanding, would their lives had changed? How would their children be living? When that little baby, with a full diaper and matted hair, had to go into the fridge to get milk, my heart broke. It is horrific what these kiddos have to go through.
Had I been loved by a mother or father (the father my mother fought so hard to keep out of my life because she was ashamed on who it was and whom thrown him in jail for her own crimes), I can assure you things would have been extremely different. She continues to destroy my life any chance she gets. It all stemmed from the hatred of my father which got passed to me upon birth 😢
Sadly, it’s always the little children that suffer. God bless these littles that deserve the best life possible. Families need to be whole and healthy. My hope is there is healing for our babies.
Holly's story shows that it is one big circle. The use causes issues for kids, and later when they are adults, it is a reference point, if it didn't come into play *AS* kids. Then they get all jacked up, have kids of their own, and the process repeats. The story leading up to it had me following closely... the "my grandmother understood everything I went thru", combined with the sudden tear show, sealed that one up tight. Good money bets all up and down the tree you find more or less all of the same exact activities that she described. The chemistry may vary somewhat, alcohol vs meth, etc but it will all be there somewhere and somehow. All of it. The drugs. The abuse. The shattered lives. *Really* good odds. Her kids and subsequently their kids have great odds to find themselves in the exact same predicaments. Thankfully there's an under mentioned force that tends to be in play within families, a "pendulum effect" that will make *some* escape the madness and find their way, leaving the family behind. This would be the "I'm not going to be like my parent(s)" thing we all experience. It tends to drive us all the way in one direction or the other within a given context. This usually alternates generations but can also happen "off to the side", as in the case of a single sibling vowing (and keeping) total sobriety in a family otherwise completely full of hard users, for example. This effect isn't limited to just families either, it is visible in countless places within the whole of society as oscillations in everything from fashion to politics. This makes for a noisy field when trying to separate the two from one another, as individually, *none* of us ever represent "the whole". As such, not only is determining exactly what brings any given scenario to be very difficult, this makes forecasting what will come of "now" all but impossible, save for some general concepts ("it ain't gonna be good for these kids, but the human species is robust and will continue on") 🤷♂️
One of the most fascinating things about this documentary is how aged the relatively young methamphetamine users appear. Starting @12:06 there's clips of interviews with these people in their 20s, early 30s, they all look to be late 30s, 40s. Another thing is that no sane person would ever consume the individual ingredients (especially from the shake 'n' bake method). Yet, when they're all distilled into a clean looking crystalline powder, it seems to be easier to ignore what it's made of. I imagine too, if the user has tried it before and experienced the high, the brain may unconsciously ignore any cautionary information in pursuit of euphoria.
I would never consume the ingredients of many things .., if you look at .... in a lot of what we eat we should redefine the word 'food' as meaning something that doesnt cause instantaneous death. I think there are good messages that help folks address their behaviour ...what goes into drugs might be interesting, but I doubt it will change the addicts outlook one bit
You wouldnt inhale chlorine gas or attempt to eat sodium metal, yet apply electric current and 1000 degrees and you have salt a necessary nutrient. What something is made of means NOTHING if chemical processes are involved in the production of said molecule. People that stigmatize meth this way make me think "damn you know less about chemistry than a 10th grade dropout who thought heroin addiction would be fun....."
Thing is, what it's "made of" and what it is, are 2 different things. Gasoline is carbon and hydrogen.. That's it. I defy you to put a bunch of raw hydrogen and carbon into your tank and try to go somewhere.
I was on the Night Train for years and years, and I am finally free... I was amazed at the amount of times I backslid, so to speak, in the process of overcoming addiction to this shit.... I am very new to the path of freedom, but I intend on never going back.
Great doc. Val Kilmer lived with my FIL’s buddy Kenny for 3mths when he lived in USA, so he could learn his Scottish accent for a movie. 25+ years ago lol. His house was full of photos of him with musicians
My mother has been on meth for over 30 years. She had 7 years sobriety at one point but is now back on it. She has no teeth and can't really wear her dentures because of the rotting gums underneath and her legs have huge holes in them. She has been treated for skin cancer, gone through radiation and chemo but the only time her legs healed up was when she got sick and ended up in the hospital for 3 months. Her legs COMPLETLY healed. I don't understand why her docs don't understand that the meth is causing her legs to never heal. They are literally rotting off. She is also a drinker and a chain smoker. Its heartbreaking. She makes "friends" and says how great they are and then inevitably they rob her. Several cars have been stolen. She is ALWAYS broke.
Wow this is similar to my mom. She shot up once and had a heart attack. Some years later my grandma took her to mayo in Minnesota for heart surgery. My mom was so high they had to give her more than what it would take to kill a horse to make her go under. Yet she talked the entire time she had her chest wide open. My mom always has "friends" but she's the one who steals from them. She's almost 60 and wears oxygen. Yet chain smokes and does meth. She was genius level smart but threw her whole life away.
@@KBeth35 It's so hard to understand why they make the decisions that they do. I stopped trying to figure it out. Still I know someday she will end up homeless. She keeps asking me if I will take her in when she can't care for herself anymore. My response is no, you never cared for me when I was helpless. It's odd how she thinks she is entitled to be by biggest concern. She left me and had my two other sibs taken from her. I owe her nothing. People might think that I am cold but she has been a nightmare my entire life and has never ever once sacrificed one thing for me or my family. Ever
@@Cat-gl9cmAre you aware that you have suffered from Narcissistic Abuse and Neglect at the hands of your Narc mommy?? She's a mess because of the trauma she sustained in her childhood...and on it goes. Trauma almost took me out, too. I'm not sure why I was allowed to find the real cause and the real solution but I know what it is really all about now and most people are dead off base.
The woman at 1:33 pisses me off. She’s whining about how drugs are the only thing that make her feel wanted or special, while IGNORING her child trying to play with her. Speaks volumes.
these interviews are highly edited. she’s probably responding to a question by the documentarian like “why do you feel compelled to use this drug despite all the consequences.” It takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there and be honest like that. i hope both she and the child are both alive and doing well, as this footage looks old/dated, and Faces of Meth was around 2005ish
Smfh...literally just not even a min glimpse into the life of a complete stranger and instead of compassion or empathy along with a minimal amount of research or mabey watching the entirety of the contents and seeing this extraction from the whole interaction in which she does indeed engage with him and trade "I love you's" while mildly horseplaying and even hearing the kid say "your the best mommy " ...but we will just ignore all that because your petty personal knee-jerk opinion and biased rhetoric is paramount to the actual look into what is ironicly happens when society does nothing constructive but speak ill of someone's no doubt traumatic existence in which led to the current situation
Oh shit. I'm so sorry my bad @Cod3Thr33 ...yeesh. comment emotional response then receives criticism for it and THEN also responds to said criticism with the literal most self contradictory statement possible, its been a long time but I still recognize the childlike "na na boo bear ,I don't really care" tactic. So you are just a wee prepubescent thing or you are grown and just the unfortunate product of sibling parents. Either way I apologize for my candor I'm not usually the type to go picking on people who have yet to gain mature mental fortitude to engage in banter o---...er , damn. I'm doing it again. I'm sorry . What I meant was: Ooh man yah definitely done went and ruined my day and also made me look/feel dumb while simultaneously showing everyone how cool and awesome you are by being somehow dramatically pissed off but then also not caring. And btw that whole "bridge-princess" line was fire bruh. No cap . ..or wtfever the moms basement dwelling caprisun gulping keyboard wanna be hood still tryna grow a stash mfs are saying now
My heart is so sad for that young couple with the with the four children I just pray that they turned to their hearts and know that God loves them she is wrong that nobody cares for her she has four beautiful children what a blessing that is
This is a heart-breaking and compelling account of the reflected meth crisis which, has afflicted the States (and a number of other countries, worldwide)😔 It really is so sad to see the damage and destruction caused by this drug, especially, within such a rich and prosperous country that, from my experience of visiting it (I adore the Mid-Western States of America) offers very little help or rehabilitative support to those suffering addiction... And seems to be gradually allowing it's cities and towns to rot from the inside and out! I too, have experienced addiction (I was addicted to heroin and amphetamines for a period of 7 years, in my youth) but have been clean for 15 years now and I truly wish for all the participants in this film, that, they too may overcome their addiction and be able to recover themselves (and their families) so they can live healthier, happier lives and prevent the cycle of this addiction from continuing in proceeding generations. It can be a long road to recovery but I am living proof it can be done🕊💞🕊
@@wallysmith6344 I know, it's so sad, they are even lacing weed with it... I hope things turn around with regards the opioid crisis in the State's at some stage but I don't hold out much hope with the way our world is atm😔
I never knew it's injectable. I thank my mom for talking to me about drugs before I started high school, alot of my friends got into drugs but I never did.
When you shoot I up I makes you feel like your breathing fire the first couple seconds it's so addictove I'm so happy I got clean July 252018 from I fentanyl heroin meth cocaine pills ....
I wish i grew up with a mom who cared like yours my mom did 10 yrs ago from accidental overdose to morphine that's that's I went crazy and followed her steps until I broke the generational curses and now my kids won't have to deal with it for their young years .
Sadly any drugs that can be crushed & dissolved in water is injectable. In my years of active addiction I injected many oral meds & street drugs. Including temazepam capsules (emptying the liquid in to a syringe barrel) or crushing ecstasy & adding water, filtering it & injecting it. Desperation is a hard task master.
Thank you for this documentary! It's so sad to see how people are being killed and lives ruined from drugs...and I noticed that most of them had deep pain..and that's why drug use..to numb it.😢😢😢
Trucker urine that they don't even know if that trucker was on meth or not!!! I drove a truck from coast to coast for years and I've seen them collect bottles of urine that truckers would throw out the window and they would assume that all truckers were on meth and the fact is most aren't nowadays.
My old neighbor was on meth, she was a homeowner and mother, but addicted to meth . One time her son knocked on my door asking to spend the night cuz he couldn't sleep because his mom was vacuming the yard outside his windoq. Yes vacuuming the yard . I took him in and was the adult his life who was there for him . He was around 13 then, now he is in his 20s and in his own. She has moved on and is in a homeless tent city somewhere last we heard . I still see him regularly 😊
I'm in my mid 50s now, so I grew up in a different era; we didn't have meth then (or if we did, I didn't know about it). But I was a teen in the 80s. There was no war on drugs then. Even in high school everyone had their own personal dealer. We mostly did cocaine, angel dust, mescaline, acid, smoked pot. Then there were all the different pills. The only drug I never tried was heroin; and honestly, that was because of something my father told me when I was young that scared me enough that I refused to try it. I wish he had done that with the other drugs. I am writing this comment because what he told me was just like these commercials, "I'm not gonna be like this guy". My parents were friends with a couple, Rita and John. Rita's brother was a heroin addict; the only one we had heard of, because this was around 1975. He died of an overdose. It was a shocking thing because back then drugs hadn't really hit the suburbs yet. This is what he told me: "Do not try heroin even one time. You can use it only one time and become addicted." I asked him how that could even be possible. He said, "Your body is constantly doing things that you have learned to tune out and ignore, like the feeling of your blood passing through your veins. However, when you do heroin, all of those background sensations in your body disappear and every cell in your body feels wonderful. Indescribably wonderful. However, when it wears off and all of those sensations your body is used to ignoring come back, the pain and discomfort of every cell in your body will be enough to drive you mad. It will be so intolerable that you will literally do anything at all to get more heroin to make the feeling go away. And if you can't make the feeling go away, there is a very real possibility that you will commit suicide because the feeling of the discomfort of every cell in your body is so terrible that you'd rather die than live". This worked and kept me off heroin. Maybe describing it like this to younger people will keep them from trying meth.
Yeah that actually worked And most people honestly feel that way about crack and coke but the lessons might have skipped a generation because people just don't care... I don't know if they put it in vapes.. or what? It's not like people don't know why their scratching madly at their skin
The problem with that method of abstinence is that with Heroin/Opiates its true, with Meth its not, and if someone told he that Id call them a liar because Im currently a meth user/opiate addict and I know exactly what this stuff does and doesnt do.
I grew up in the 80s and 90s witnessing the anti heroin campaign on TV in the UK. I used heroin at the end of amphetamine binges sometimes for three days. The "use it once and your addicted" theory did not apply and I was able to stop with no cravings. Whilst everyone may have different susceptibilities to various addictive substances it is in my experience not applicable. Young people who experiment with heroin no doubt realise they have been misinformed about its addictiveness and continue to use.Addiction then follows. Unless we have honest communication regarding drugs; their different affects and potential dangers, young people will continue to suffer.
I was an addict for 24yrs and I was brought up around heroin and cracked for the age of 4yrs old I'm now 39 n I've been clean for 3yrs well 6 really including my prison time to be addict is horrible u don't even want to take drugs it just takes u who u don't want to go I praise my lord Jesus christ if I can u can overcome overcome
After being hooked on opiates for years, I finally just quit: I made up my mind to stop, talked to my doctor…and now I’ve been “un-addicted” for over a decade. You DON’T have to “hit rock bottom”, and you don’t have to stay squeaky clean (unless you want to-that’s the best, but not mandatory). You just have to make up your mind never to use again no matter what and STICK TO IT. 💚
@@garrettaffeldt6999 I consider myself an “inactive opiate addict”. I don’t abuse anything else (another myth; I do know some people abuse whatever is available, but just as many don’t.). Thank Heaven for bupe! I may not think so when I finally taper off, but while I may be dependent, I’m NOT addicted…and that’s good enough for me! 💚
Ive used for 35 odd years got on the bupe 2weeks ago, all good atm but I know it's a daily struggle & today I choi e not to use. That's the best I can do.
@recynd77 it saved me and now there is Subutex. It's an injection that works throughout a year so you don't withdraw from Bupe. Ask your doctor about it my friend
My ex had recovered, gotten pregnant with my child after 2 years sobriety and one friend came around, she was back in it and killed my child in the womb.. nobody in my family even knew she was using again, she went downhill fast..
You killed your own child by inseminating a woman whom you know was a “recovered” addict. Rats are not responsible for the experiments being fone onto them and niether is your ex or you for the death of the child.
I will remember to pray for this sweet little family. I will start by asking God to bring them back to Himself. Not to a church necessarily but to receive healing and conviction to stay off and away from meth. With God , all things are possible.
That cop will arrest as many people as he can, label them as drug addicts to get more federal money. Arresting is not the answer, put that money into therapist, psych programs, rehab centers.
I watched this 5 or so years ago and watched again today. Nothing has changed except it is now in big and little cities and everything in between. I wonder where these folks are.
Clean since june 2012! Key was learning how to ask strangers for help and resources and not being afraid to be sober while stay in shelters.I had to choose me, and fight for myself.
Missoula is ful of homeless people. Many of them are using hard drugs. Some of them work. Rental properties are difficult to find, and extremely expensive. So a lot of people live in shelter, and on streets.
They want to show the cash and the luxury lifestyle the top dealers live in at the expense of those unfortunate people,and maybe they may wake up to what their misery is paying for,its all to easy to have a cold approach to this but addiction can happen to anyone.
Maybe but in my experience no dealer holds a gun to a persona head and forces them to take it. It's your own personal choice if you want it it's available if you don't want it they aren't hassling you to take it. 85 percent of dealers usually have a much larger habit than the customer's (hence why they are selling) and don't really pocket much money at all, but the wholesale distributors and cooks, these folks aren't great people.
once you start your journey to stopping ,just remember you will mess up from time to time ,you keep going and one day you will never want it again ,but you must keep going you will stumble
Incorrect, adderall is 4 different amphetamines in one pill. It use to have actual methamphetamine in it with amphetamine. However it was reformulated in early 2000 or late 90s before it got huge.
@brianfitch5469 That's not true. Adderall is two different amphetamines - amphetamine and dextroamphetamine. Amphetamine is made up of two stereoisomers, a "left-hand" isomer called levoamphetamine, and a "right-hand" isomer called dextroamphetamine. It's the exact same molecule, except the atoms are arranged in a perfect mirror formation, kind of like holding your hand up to a mirror - they're both your hand, but one shows the back of your hand and the other shows your palm. Since "amphetamine" contains both levo- and dextro- isomers, mixing it with dextroamphetamine just ensures that the mix of left/right isomer is more concentrated with the right isomer than the left isomer. Why? Because the right isomer is what is responsible for the classic "amphetamine" feeling of being amped, experiencing euphoria, and generally having a greater effect on the central nervous system. Conversely, the left isomer, levoamphetamine has a greater effect on your peripheral nervous system and is responsible for effects that are similar to that of pseudoephedrine e.g. bronchial dilation, clearing of nasal passages, etc. Dextroamphetamine happens to be more effective in the treatment of ADHD symptoms, but it's also more highly associated with addiction, paranoia, and hallucinations, so it's formulated to include levoamphetamine as a hedge against the more serious side effects. As for methamphetamine, meth has NEVER been an ingredient in Adderall. HOWEVER, meth IS the active ingredient in the pharmaceutical drug Desoxyn, which is very rarely prescribed for severe ADHD, severe obesity, or treatment resistant narcolepsy. Methamphetamine has both levo- and dextro- isomers as well, but Desoxyn has them in equal parts - what's known as "racemic" methamphetamine. Therefore, amphetamine is technically racemic amphetamine. As for methamphetamine and amphetamine being "one molecule" away, they're technically one methyl group away from each other. Methamphetamine is amphetamine with a methyl group attached to its amino group - one extra carbon and three extra hydrogens. Chemically speaking, the difference is almost negligible. Pharmacologically speaking, the difference is immense, as amphetamine works peripherally and does not cross the blood brain barrier. Methamphetamine, on the other hand DOES cross the blood brain barrier, which means it works on the central nervous system in addition to the peripheral nervous system. This makes it both stronger and more intense, with a more immediate high, and a far greater potential for abuse and addiction. It's disingenuous to suggest meth and amphetamine are one in the same. While they're very closely related, amphetamine is like sipping a Bud Light, while meth is like chugging Everclear.
Friggin Trump snorts the stuff daily as do SO MANY in ALL stratus of society. I was prescribed as much Adderall as I wanted for diagnosed Bipolar. The diagnosis was wrong. The prescription made me psychotic and it was awful. It wasn't hard to stop THAT at ALL. What WAS hard was figuring out what was really going on inside me. Come to find out my problem was having been horribly emotionally abused and neglected by Narcissistic parents. CPTSD IS REAL AND FIXABLE!! ASK ME ABOUT IT!!! ( That's not my whole story. Just a relevant chunk💜)
I lived this for 20 years.....only by the grace of God am I still here to celebrate 20 years off..... What I could have done with those years.......or should I say 40 because it's always a demon in the corner...........
So thankful for my mom. She was a Christian. She never so much as smoked a cigarette. I was very fortunate. She took good care of us. We had a dad as well.
My woman and I did meth almost up to the day our kid was born. He is so smart, I can't believe how it changed our lives having a kid. . We have not done meth since he was born. No health issues for our child, he is so smart. I think it might have made him have an advance brain.
10.30.2023 @@ozoneswiftak Honestly, you both may want to consider getting on your knees to thank God, our creator for giving you both a healthy baby/child & delivering you both from that devil's drug. 👑
Is it disgusting when a woman takes adder? All while pregnant for AD HD? Is that disgusting or is that just normal? And that's acceptable? I don't get it same drug, same chemical compound and I'm not saying they should be using method pregnancy. But I am saying that it's pretty hypocritical. Just a lot of people that can't afford Health Insurance and doctors and. S*** like that. They don't get the admiral that they need the stimulant that they need for their brain to function, Don't blame them blame the government for demonizing it and forcing it to be made in the bath Is tub withdrino. If you want to take away the kids of those Matthews. I think you should take away the kids of the Admiral user. I think we should take away the kids of the corrupt cops. Too put in people away for no reason. That's just my opinion. I hope my free speech is respectful, Not an attack on anybody and not an advocate for the drugs. Honestly it's more About the government making a problem worse and worse , Likely on purpose as they do in a lot of situations this is just another. But respectfully I disagree with you. I think that treatment or honestly I think aderal should be offered if that's what they need to get off of it because the eternal does work, most methodics would love an added or obverse option to use not abuse, but to use, just like the millions that get it for AD HD allegedly the same f****** thing. Everyone needs a stimulant don't they . ❤ If you're a low class and I put that in parenthesis if I knew how. But yeah low class gets math and they get jail, Straight aves and promotions for the upper class when they're taking their maxtos of adderall and having the same effects
It’s so easy to judge, if you don’t know really anything about addiction. Judging just shows ingnorance. Addiction isn’t really a choice or moral failure, it’s an illness and should be treated as one.
I’ve been struggling for 20 years with on and off sobriety I was sober for 4 years relapsed and got arrested the same day. I’m back on the wagon it never worked and will never work. Sober living is life worth living
I have a massive Quavers problem. Really cheeses me off. Problem with addiction - it's not the drug that causes it in 80% of cases, it's the underlying reasons people seek out altered states to an unhealthy degree (i.e. mental health/social care). That's what needs addressing. The other 20% requires education and harm reduction. Yes, yes, I accept that 57.43% of statistics are made up but you get the point.
Addressing the real issues, as you rather eloquently described here, does not allow room for a ton of repeat, revolving door, ongoing profit, treatment, medical care, and the like. Everything has become a matter of profits before people. Corruption and evil greedy controllers are at the root of all problems imo.
That's true. Most of the dental problems come from lack of attention to personal hygiene, the other physical problems from lack of sleep ect. Not to encourage use, but
@@dylanfitch2997 me and my sister have been smoking meth together for 25 years and when we finished we go shower and clean are teeth . If you have rules you can have a normal life with meth
The most prescribed drug in the USA for those under 18 yrs old is a remedy for constipation. Though very close to the " METH" amphetamine it is amphetamines prescribed for the attention deficit disorders. ....and yes may,can, will and are just as destructive being an easy respite from more healthy treatments of yesteryear. Offered in addition to your comment , not in disagreement
True having lived the Crack epidemic there was absolutely no way I would allow them to put my kids on meth knowing that at 18 no more Dr go to the streets! B. S
Me myself have never touched any drugs and watching these docs and seeing the damage it does I never will. Just watched this in 2024 and live in California and meth along with many new drugs since 2006 is still taking over people who look for a way to escape their problems instead of having coping skills. Documentaries such as these should be a part of the educational system as of middle school in my opinion!
Used every day for 39 years , got all my teeth no major health problems ,same job for 26 years wife for 28 years kids all grown and gone and I enjoy it every single morning with my coffee and never felt like it's a problem
I can get to that very easily. Drugs do us when we use them to hide. We do the drug when we use them to enhance, which is totally possible. Weak and traumatized minds who believe the solution exists outside ourselves will never find peace. Heal THYSELVES ..said who?? ❤
Fucking awesome bro! 45 years old, been smoking it for 22 years, have no health issues (other than balding), have all of my real teeth, have a 22 year old son, and a 20 year old son. Both are normal and happy and were raised by me and the same woman I married 28 years ago, I go to work every day (only had 3 different jobs in those 28 years), haven't been in trouble since I was 19, and smoke almost every day! Just glad to see I'm not the only one who proves you can do whatever you want to do and still be a normal, functioning, productive member of society and not be a fucking junkie tweaker! Much love brother
To all the kids that have never taken drugs, it isn't cool, it isn't smart, and it definitely isn't cheap and you deteriorate very fast. Find good friends and learn all that you can. Become and stay humble. Thank you from your future, clean, self.
I never saw an overdose. I never saw 20 or 30 year users die. Unless they fall asleep while driving and total their vehicle and be killed that way. I knew needle users blow their veins out. Then they just had to smoke it.
Everyone thinks these drugs are only in big cities .The drugs have hit the small towns even worse .When they arrive it takes the majority out very fast .My hometown is in Pa and it’s infested .It’s so sad .God help these lost ppl .Amen.
a rope's remorse the rope is slipping i can not let go-- a hemp rope is tough and strong when dry-- the rope is slipping i can not let go-- when swollen with water hemp rope is twice as strong as dry--i grip the rope tighter but it slips and tears at decades old callouses and rips the fingertips away i can not let go-- i feel the rope's strength in its slipping as it brushes the bones why can i not let go: you are at the rope's other end--you are looking up--the rope slips-- there is hope in your eyes I lost my youngest to drugs. As a father watching his son's ever escalating downward spiral, I felt and still do feel the above. It was excruciating to discover that nothing I did could change the course and results of his choices. He was always going to stop tomorrow.
A tragedy for everyone involved. Family, kids, the community. Its not nice to see anyone suffer. Instead of the army being sent abroad to fight pointless wars it should be used to hoover these people up of every street corner and slum. Stick them into camps, clean up and educate them, and look after the kids. Teach them to build sustainable houses and communities. They deserve to live a good and happy life and we have the power to interdict their downward spiral and help.
You speak my thoughts on this too. We must treat this situation like the crisis it is. Simple math tells me that when 2 individuals who have NO business having children at all (can't adequately look after their own selves with food, housing, education, running water etc), mate carelessly and now result in 4 babies who will (9 times out of 10) grow up to be unstable adults. It could have been only 2 people who are screwed up and requiring lots of expensive help and resources.....but now it's 6 humans needing and needing and needing. And in 16-17 yrs, the kids will be spewing out unwanted, uncared for babies themselves, so now we have around 12-20 more to cope with. I would love to see a law where if you give birth and are found to be using meth, heroin or some such drug, you are automatically sterilized with a reversible procedure (husband/boyfriend too). Addicts can not care for children, they are way too busy committing suicide with their drug of choice. When and if they can get their lives together, they can reverse the sterilization . We must start acting like we believe children are valuable, instead of lip service.
yeah just hoover these people you detest up as you'd "vacuum up dirt" under the pretense of "for the good of society" haul the undesirables off to prison camps... oh sorry "rehabilitation centers" where they will be reformed to YOUR liking.... for THEIR own good! Historically such "community cleanses" have typically played out in rather horrific fashion... 👿🚷👨⚖⚖📜🕵♂👮🙍♂🪧💂♀⛓🧱☣👨🔬💉👫🧟♀☠🧱⛓...🪦 Which begs the question.... why are you so comfortable speaking so recklessly on what is clearly a slippery slope?
I don't know if Abbott still makes it, but in the 70's they produced Desoxyn in 3 strengths, the yellow pill being the strongest. That was the premier speed if you could get it.
Desoxyn was the purest, soak those plastic pills till they look loke piss...fortunately, i never had enough to kill myself..all my drugstore robbing friends died or went to jail, i turned to the worst poison of all of them, whiskey...been clean and free since the first day of summer, 1986
I've never done meth myself, went through hell trying to get my older brother clean off of it before he passed though, so I really hate it and always try to help people get away from it when I can.
Know a, Now in his 40ties, Guy. He got into dealing meth in his teens and we would see him fromtime to time, now and again...looking really strange. We knew his Dad, he was a prominant Doctor in our town and knew he had lost his wife, this kid's Mom. He came back to visit us, after thirty years, and he told us, that despite all the money, even living in high rise penthouse apts in Vegas..it was not anything really and he never found happiness. We noticed it had changed him forever, something permantly broke in his brain that made him dark and scarey..just dont know when he might suddenly turn and get really angry, to the point of threatening violence, think it all started because they had him on ritalin as a kid 😢
Its worst today with the more addicting and harmful drugs from China/Mexico. Thankful that I myself never liked the drugs scene and for the most part, stayed away and today, no drinking, smoking or any drugs. Very Thank Full! The family in the film tore me up.😢
@@researcher707 God bless you!! I hope you are still well, and making it! You are an inspiration to me. I am 62 years old, have been an addict for 23 years, since my daughter graduated high school and moved out. Opiates and meth. I had a stroke in Dec. I became an addict at 39 years old. Have been in jail more times than I can recall, been raped, have lost mostly everything. The stroke somehow was the last straw. I quit everything, cigarettes too!!! I lost my mom, brother, sister, best friend. I am so grateful I have my daughter and a couple of dear friends. I can walk again, though awkwardly. I just want to make up for all the time and money I threw away, somehow. Want to be forgiven. Want to help others and stop whipping myself with guilt. God help us all......
And we have an epidemic of teen mental illnesses 👉330+ million Americans & 220 million prescriptions were written for SSRI’s last year👉adults & children are prescribed this everyday & I believe it’s going to be a bad ride the next 10 years 😢wonder what the difference In feeling is bt Ritalin & meth?
As of 2021 On March 1, officers with the Rutherford County Sheriff’s Office Narcotics Unit and Forest City Police Department seized about 451.2 grams of methamphetamine, 5.2 grams of marijuana, drug paraphernalia and a pistol from a home. Wilson has been charged with trafficking methamphetamine, possession of a firearm by a felon and conspire to trafficking methamphetamine. He was booked into the Rutherford County Detention Center on a $400,000 secured bond, according to the sheriff’s office. Holly Alexis Edmonds has been charged with trafficking methamphetamine, possession of a firearm by a felon, conspire to trafficking methamphetamine and maintaining vehicle. She was booked into the Rutherford County Detention Center on a $330,000
Scare tactics don't always work. The janitor (who was also a neighbor) at my kids elementary school used meth. He was young, 20yrs old. He had a good job. Initially it wasn't obvious he was using meth. It didn't take long for it to become obvious he was on meth. He was unkept, very skinny and had sores on his face. At times you couldn't understand what he was talking about. My kids saw the transformation. We talked to our kids openly and frequently about meth and the affects it has, they SAW IT. And yet- my daughter is an addict. My daughter is currently using. I am not sure meth is her drug of choice, sounds more like she uses meth to counteract the sleepy affect of heroin or fentynal. I don't know that for sure, just what it sounds like to me. She was using needles. I have seen the sores, her hair has gotten really thin. I worry everyday about her. She says she wanting to get clean, she said she started going to the methadone clinic.
I'm so sorry for the pain you have over your daughter. And for her, as well. I am currently recovering from a stroke, which I had 5 months ago, due to my sky high BP and meth use. I can walk again, but I'll never be the same. But I am so grateful to be alive, to have recovered this much!! After 23 years of being an addict of meth, opiates, pills. I am now completely clean, quit smoking cigarettes too!!! I thank God!! Please don't ever try this drug!!! You'll regret it......
And wow... to be on both thats a bit of money thats not even physically possible.. like rock stars or whatever do one or both with alcohol for example and usually choke vomit type story.. there's no happy ending on that combination one will make your respiration fail and the other will be like a electric paddle to the heart there is no way you physically could do that more than once IF that
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10 years using. Quit. Went back to college. Got my bachelor’s in biology. Got certified as Medical Laboratory Scientist. It is possible to change your life if you want it bad enough. Don’t give up on yourself
Well done Jan...no easy task for sure..
@@SaoirsenahÉireann1 Thank you. Your comment means a lot to me
@@janwisz4070 you've done extraordinary well.for yourself...
See had you not used meth you probably never had done any of that
Well done lovely 😍😍🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧
Addiction is giving up everything for one thing.
Recovery is giving up one thing for everything!
Well said
That’s really, really good❕❗️ I’m going to remember and use that-thx‼️😢
Love this. Will be using this quote. ❤🙏
I lost every possession money that would of bought a house 23 years heroin , gave it up for peace in life
I love that!
62 yr old survivor. Battled it twice. Clean for the first time. My heart goes out to anyone who has been touched by this shit.❤
You know. I'm 48 years old. I use Heroin since I was 14. Used Speedball consistenyly (means in massive quantities) for 4 years from 2002 to 2007. Now I use Heroin 4 times a day. I tried meth and had the wonderful idea of using it for 9 months when I had to face a couple of very tragic "losses" in my life. That 9 months of shitty meth did more harm to me, my health and my mind than 30 years of plain old heroin. Meth it's really the shittiest drug on the planet. No other explanations.
@@guitarjoy2050 yup and trying to get off suboxone has been a real blast too. It all sucks! Just keep plugging away, that's all we can do! Best of luck to u!
@@guitarjoy2050yep!!!
Not so sure you get “touched” by this garbage. More like whooped
The shit is the devil. I want to quit but I always fuckkk up
I was on meth for a few years, and let me tell you it's the devils drug. I been sober for 8 years.
I'm so proud of you!
Great job man, keep up the good work
I'm very happy to hear you are doing so well! Keep it up!
Congrats!!!’ Stay clean and live your best life.
Been there myself. I’m proud of you
I started doing drugs since my teenage. Got addicted to meth for over 7 years. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I'm really happy for you that your friend decided to help you...I hear about alot of family members or so called friends shutting an addict out of their life, which since most addicts do it to mask emotions to me is the worse thing someone can do to an addict.
Does he make delivery across the country? Am here in Italy 🇮🇹
@JanetRichardson-mq5esYes, I can tell you how I helped myself!!
Pursue Trauma Recovery work. Until we figure out what we are hiding from, trying to survive through that's inside ourselves, we will continue reaching for things outside of us to shut that pain up inside. And it will it not work.
Willpower is not the answer.
Healing IS!
(God helps, but that is a personal choice, of course. I pray you choose to take Him up on the relief He offers every day for free. Seek the Healer, not the healing.)
Best of Luck to everyone here❤ You CAN DO THIS
If you still count how long it's been, you ain't over it
Im 31, a little over 7 years sober from heroin & meth, no relapses. Never give up! We can recover!
Good job Brit!
@@parson7260 Thank you so much!
Keep going...I loved an addict a eventually I had to leave...I even tried meth with him in hopes we could stay together. How sick is that? And even sicker, he shared his meth with me...thank God I didn't not like meth and quickly quit...
@@DerrickMarkleymusic cocky? Definitely not. I'm very humble. I just know it's possible now is all, there was a time I thought I'd always be a junkie. And though life's been rough trying to get back up on our feet, we are slowly doing it so I am proud of our accomplishments, I'm not bragging or anything, just cheering others on, I honestly believe it can be done as long as you want it bad enough & have the right resources & support.
@@brittanyferera5177The only resource and support you need is God and your own determination.
There are lots of helpers out on YT. That's how I got Happy...no looking back...
Both my niece and nephew are in and out of prison and jail.
BOTH meth addicts…and YES absolutely as a GRATEFUL recovering alcoholic, I did everything I know to help them.
I’ve only done a few things RIGHT in life…never picking up meth was one of them.
Nothing but respect to EVERY single person staying sober one day at a time.
Jesus is the real reason we live... Not Bill Wilson's weird cult that he for from a Ouija board. .. Glad you are sober tho
5 yrs here. Booze was my bag. 11 years, hard, marathon drinking. A good friend n member of this group, perished from heroin. I'm very fortunate I never got hooked on smack.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporesss
Really good documentary, thanks to all of the people who participated for allowing their stories to be shared, please stay in recovery & be examples for those who search for the strength to do the same .😊🌻
One day sober.Meth is the devil. Day one.just for today i dont want dope.I choose recovery.please keep me in your prayers.God has me!
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How are you doing now?
The only way I could be delivered was by the power of Jesus . Thanks to his mercy today is 1756 free and happy . Call on him if your serious he will answer I’m living proof .
Seek and you find ...
Hare Krishna
@@tulayamalavenapi4028Jesus Christ is King
I'm 18 years clean now. I bought my house and got married. I'm a manager at a big retail store. Don't give up. You can do it
Slave life!
Same here manage a golf course it's great
Getting your life back can seem impossible but if you can make a step it feels great and makes the next one a little easier.
I’m so grateful to be done with meth and heroin. It’s been about five years and I quit alcohol over three years ago. I have an amazing life. I had to learn to love myself in order to stop hurting myself.
Congratulations ❤
@@Kelly-d1l Thank you!
Congratulations!🎉
So happy for you.....❤❤❤❤❤
Meth killed my husband, he was off for almost 20 years, then went back to it and was dead 6 months later. I could do nothing. Found him dead on the floor on April 9th 2020. I miss him so much!
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So sad and very sorry to hear the loss of your husband 😢
Sorry about your loss
I’m so sorry 😢
@@Dayzthoseweres thank you
Even though my addiction journey was with rx opiates/benzos, I am very sympathetic to these folks because that addiction works the same. I had that same drive to acquire more and more and it became more important that anything else in my life. 11 years free....
Me, too! (It was mainly opiates for me; benzos are a special hell.)
I quit by making up my mind to never use again. You? However you did it, congrats! 💚
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word … good for you keep it up 👍🏽…. scary as shittt but ya i’m maybe lil past 10 years …….. i feel your words ….don’t drink too much kids i have now a days lol 😆…..
I feel you congratulations my mom was on benzos for 13 years of he'll she's clean now ❤
Ya bro,17 yrs on opiates that ended with street fentanyl in my last year..On methadone for 2 yrs was at 54mg of methadone..Now down to 10mg & just about off it..Hard to believe the day could ever come that I/we could live without that garbage!!Personally,I have my head straight, career back & life is back in the correct lane..I hope you keep your sobriety & enjoy a happy,peaceful life!!
@@Randyman4126I actually came off with Suboxone and it was a lot easier to come off. For me personally methadone was just as addicting. It actually got me just as high if not higher. I never got high of Suboxone so it was way easier to wean off. Plus I'm not sure how it is where you are but here you have to go downtown every morning for your daily dose of methadone. Suboxone is very easy to get prescribed now. But if it works for you then Great! Continue on the right path.
It's crazy how it starts out in Missoula, MT. I'm from a small town within Missoula County and tried meth at the age of 16. It didn't have the same hold on me that it did on a lot of my friends but I still used it off and on for a few years, which is horrible. I made the decision to stop and that's exactly what I did. I want nothing to do with it ever again. I've seen it tear families apart, friendships apart.
Congrats FAM! 🎉🎉🎉 Proud of u for choosing u! ❤
We live by zoo town also crazy how bad an dangerous it’s gotten
I grew up in Missoula and this garbage wasn’t around thank God or I might have been caught up in it too. Never go back to that shit.
My brother is on it he’s a mess 😢
She said generation of kids being raised by grandparents. Boomers raising zoomers... What could go wrong?
The first thing that comes to mind is how far we have slid from when this documentary was made in 2007 . 16 years later , fentanyl and trank and other flesh eating drugs are rotting away flesh and souls . No one is addressing addiction as a symptom of a very sick society that's on a downward trajectory we are as a nation are being taken down , this is war . We lack morals and a spiritual link to God . This is a spiritual battle where demons enter through drugs bottomline . Eph. 6. [12] For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
You speak in vain. Your channel is Complete Perversion. You do not love Truth. You simply gather information from false religions and from God's Holy Word. You speak of Ephesians... But, you are a mirror image of the people of Ephesus in Paul's day. ... God Bless You In All Truth and Repentance. - In Christ, Christina
Cartel now over it in the south and midwest
Very well said
HI FROM THE UK 🇬🇧
Sounds like we lack common sense and strength more than anything. People go down this path for a wide variety of reasons, though. The struggle is real AF.
I can relate to the guy who said, " First time IV'ing I was hooked." Man, I can relate. I had a drug buddy I partied with who slammed. He would go into the bathroom and do it. After months and months of begging him to shoot me up, he finally relented. He told me, " This will change everything." I thought he was being over dramatic, but he was absolutely 💯 right. I lost everything for the next rush of a shot.
I'm happy to report today that I'm almost 6 years clean and sober. My heart goes out to those addicts who are still suffering. You can quit. If you relapse, get back up and dust yourself off again. KEEP TRYING. DON'T EVER EVER GIVE UP. I almost forgot, if you're serious about sobriety, you have to change your friends. You can not have anything to do with ANYONE who uses drugs. Remember, we are who we surround ourselves with.
Preeeeeeeech baby!!!! Those drug buddies have to goooooo!!! Love them from a distance.
8 yrs clean and got back in to the music scene and found new friends music saved my soul
If you relapse on the 3rd go of being clean u can't back I've seen many friends do it and strip their minds and lost friendships cutting ties is the best thing you can do for your life it's easy to make new friends if your a musician
Thank you so much all first responders,and all hospitals staff,true hero's.Thank you❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Absolutely
To all those who judge, may it not be YOUR babies struggling with that struggle……. Prayers
🙏 amen❤
Same story as everyone else but I was taking this sh*t for a few years. Almost lost everything. I lost a lot and still trying to get it back. Thank the good lord above for sending me the angel he did. This drug takes everything from your senses to your morals.
This documentary should be shown in every school in the world,, at a young age.....
They’re too busy with their gender reassignment education and brainwashing.
Educate yourself about who controls the education system and their agenda.
@@paul66990Yep. But people don't want to admit that
Right after drag story hour? Schools are corrupt.
Bingo... I shared it to Facebook and Twitter saying the same thing.. no soft presentations either... Show them the true horrors this drug can and WILL bring about
20 years meth free for me. I love and thank myself every day for rising above my addiction. I adore my functioning and clean thinking brain. Good health is a good life. Xxxxx
My son is a user and it hurts me every day. He was a genius but when he went to college it all changed. Now he is someone I don’t even know anymore 😢
I am so sorry and i hope that he comes around.
@@Cat-gl9cm thank you 💕
If you know of any of his childhood friends who are successfully in recovery see if one or more of them will reach out to him and take him to NA meetings. With those of us in recovery part of the program is service to others. Inside nobody wants to be an addict and if someone reach's out and keeps reaching out to him maybe he will have a chance for a normal life again. many of us if not most of us it took many attempts before it worked and we got our life back.
@@garrettaffeldt6999 all his friends have given up on him which really hurts me because he was always there for them when needed. I keep trying and keep talking to him. He actually started Friday looking for an inpatient rehab. I pray one of them calls him back before he changes his mind. I have told him we will get him there no matter how far we have to go
Don’t give up on him, please. Love him regardless.
A great way to get over a drug addiction is to stop playing the victim. I noticed a lot of people play the victim in order to continue using drugs. It sucks it happened to you but the sooner you get over it you will be able to quit drugs and get on with the rest of your life.
It’s so repetitive man, I never knew I was addicted or realized I would play the victim later trying to become sober. Where I am now I don’t know if I would of figured things out for real unless I had taken the path I did. You’re right though it’s a fine balance between having another excuse like I’m a victim and just making peace with myself and the ones around me
AMEN!!!
Exactly, addicts always feel sorry for themselves. They want to justify ruining their lives.
Dope sickness is no joke. They are simply terrified of that. Hence they MUST USE. It’s not as easy as just quitting. They have to make a choice to subject the body to unimaginable agony for weeks. The Fetty and Tranq are not helped by the usual treatments. It’s a freaking horror show.
Yep playing the victim and the entitlement they have gets very old. Dealing w/ someone in a meth psychosis is exhausting as well
13 years stuck on meth in hawaii with no hope. Got busted did my time and went to teen challenge and got saved! Found Hope and a new life in Christ 😊 10 years later and thanking God for his divine intervention 🙏👍🤙
Thank yourself. God had nothing to do with it
I graduated commonwealth challenge class 15 virginia Beach camp pendelton
I am a walking miracle today. I was a daily meth user, injector, for 18 years. My faith in Christ got me clean, and I now have two years off pot and meth. I got my teeth fixed, got into a good church, {not in that order}, have new friends, and peace within. It's like night and day, I have been homeless, you name it. Seen a lot of friends waste away and die from suicide, I am so grateful that God had His hand on me! I pray for this young family, my heart goes out to that poor mom, who has been through unimaginable pain. And I thank God for good grandparents, who raised me in church, my home life growing up was pretty chaotic, with an alcoholic addicted father...I went to jail many times, for possesion, and now they are legalizing and releasing people right back onto the streets, so sad.
We have similar stories. Congrats and Praise God for your story my friend. God has blessed us both. Praise His holy Name!!
@@scottwhitley2242 amen 🕊💙😊
HalleluYah 🕊💙
Praise the Lord
@@scottwhitley2242 I used to smoke meth for a few years and it messed my life up but God stepped in a saved me and my teeth thank you Jesus, I can't believe I did not go to the dentist for so long because I was high and did not want them to know.
This came out in 2007. I think we can say the problem has gotten much worse in most places. I've been clean since late 2016. Best decision I ever made.
1000000000% I shutter to think what we'll see in 17 years if we are still here .
So thats why those parents r so well spoken while they appear to be high. It was a different drug in 07 than it is today. Person high on today's stuff can put a lot of sounds together but it won't make much sense
@@Garbagefly true yea it a better formula in that way if there is such a thing. In 2002 word on the streets in Tulsa was the cops and former local football players were the ones doing all of the cooking and trafficking. Ice with the light blue tint that one line would keep up for 2 days was everywhere. Everybody called it blue 42
Meth took over a dear friend of mine and she went from a very successful life to dying from associated health complications in 4 years. I miss her terribly.
Praying for you and the one you miss terribly
Val Kilmer sounds so good…keep it going my guy…
#bimbohays
#jaywebb
#williamlelandtailorjust4
I really feel for Holly and James. You can tell they, especially James wants to be a better father to his children. Breaks my heart. My heart also breaks for Holly and her childhood. Mostly my heart breaks for those babies. They deserve so much more and what they need is for their parents to get it together and raise them in a healthy loving environment. This is a hard, exhausting lifestyle to live, I know first hand and I really pray they turn things around
Naw. It’s all BS. They feel very sorry for themselves and are making every excuse in 5he book for themselves. They’re just low life beggars with kids they can’t afford and are regally screwing up.
My prayers are with them too 🙏. I've been battling some things , for 10, almost 11 years now, and I can barely take care of myself as a single man, I cannot imagine how people do it with children around. I couldn't do it....
I don't believe she has cancer!! He wants the film 🎥 crew to give him money 💸.Tipical dopehead thinking . Always about the next high ..period ..!!!!!!
Its heartbreaking... I'm raising a grandchild because of this drug... I've seen how it affects the children first hand.. I pray these two one day get clean... I absolutely hate this damn drug
1:07:30 and 1:08....the Sweetest sound ever heard....the starting up of a truck, and then that wave goodbye farewell so full of determined hope and dedication. Inspiring and here is hoping they are living lives best joy now! Huge warm Mama Karma hugs from The Weald, Garden of England 🤗💕 💖😎💞
Seeing what they use to make it just freaks me out
Whilst it might seem disturbing, the chemical reactions involved in making it mean those ingredients don't remain the same chemically. Methamphetamine is not just all those things mixed together, but certain chemical components of them recombined to create a different chemical. At the end of the process, methamphetamine is simply a particular combination of carbon, hydrogen and nitrogen.
That guy was just cleaning out his garage and listing what he found
I'd have tried a before and after "I was bored, so I tried meth..." but follow it up with an equal campaign of "I was bored... so I volunteered at a food pantry" or "I was bored so I got the kids in the neighborhood together to put on play" There's a million things to do beside meth, but it seems the grown ups don't have any more imagination than the kids.
My parents gave me pot and LSD by the time i was 12. I stopped going to school and dropped out. By 18 I was shooting heroin and coke. By 23 I lost interest. People around me were dying. They're still dying of the same things, so it seems you can't ever really get away from it. On the upside by the time I was 28 I decided to go to university, and that was good. That changed everything.
The thing that really bothers me about this fascinating horrifying heartbreaking film is it seems to be 16 years old. I know this doesn’t in any way lessen it’s power or message, but far from ending on a note of slight hope I’ve the real fear things have got much much worse.
Now it’s fentanyl that’s tearing people apart. Meth is bad but it wasn’t killing people like the plague.
Truth.
Yes now there’s fentanyl😢 danger dange
All of you. It Is worse but by design.
@@dead2802You are one of the few who are awake at all in this comment section. 😊
I wish that I could talk to Holly. She seems like an intelligent person who got caught up in so much trauma and pain. I wish that everyone could get the help they need.
I hate how this documentary doesn't address the infrastructural issues that lead to drug addiction. Lack of access to mental health services, no resources, no support systems, and a general consensus that nobody cares about addicts. If these people were shown love, compassion, and understanding, would their lives had changed? How would their children be living? When that little baby, with a full diaper and matted hair, had to go into the fridge to get milk, my heart broke. It is horrific what these kiddos have to go through.
Theres critical periods in childhood and through early adulthood. That's when you prevent adduction
@@jessicasisler6004 yeah, thats what makes it frustrating
@muhgie
"I hate how this documentary doesn't address the infrastructural
issues that lead to drug addiction. " - @muhgie
👍🙏✌️
Had I been loved by a mother or father (the father my mother fought so hard to keep out of my life because she was ashamed on who it was and whom thrown him in jail for her own crimes), I can assure you things would have been extremely different. She continues to destroy my life any chance she gets. It all stemmed from the hatred of my father which got passed to me upon birth 😢
I tried to show compassion etc but some people do not want recovery!
I bet the cameraman snuck off and called his parents and told them how much he loves them.
Sadly, it’s always the little children that suffer. God bless these littles that deserve the best life possible. Families need to be whole and healthy. My hope is there is healing for our babies.
The condition of that trailer and those little ones is just heartbreaking.
Holly's story shows that it is one big circle. The use causes issues for kids, and later when they are adults, it is a reference point, if it didn't come into play *AS* kids. Then they get all jacked up, have kids of their own, and the process repeats.
The story leading up to it had me following closely... the "my grandmother understood everything I went thru", combined with the sudden tear show, sealed that one up tight.
Good money bets all up and down the tree you find more or less all of the same exact activities that she described. The chemistry may vary somewhat, alcohol vs meth, etc but it will all be there somewhere and somehow. All of it. The drugs. The abuse. The shattered lives. *Really* good odds.
Her kids and subsequently their kids have great odds to find themselves in the exact same predicaments.
Thankfully there's an under mentioned force that tends to be in play within families, a "pendulum effect" that will make *some* escape the madness and find their way, leaving the family behind. This would be the "I'm not going to be like my parent(s)" thing we all experience. It tends to drive us all the way in one direction or the other within a given context. This usually alternates generations but can also happen "off to the side", as in the case of a single sibling vowing (and keeping) total sobriety in a family otherwise completely full of hard users, for example.
This effect isn't limited to just families either, it is visible in countless places within the whole of society as oscillations in everything from fashion to politics. This makes for a noisy field when trying to separate the two from one another, as individually, *none* of us ever represent "the whole".
As such, not only is determining exactly what brings any given scenario to be very difficult, this makes forecasting what will come of "now" all but impossible, save for some general concepts ("it ain't gonna be good for these kids, but the human species is robust and will continue on")
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@@MadScientist267Unhealed Trauma is the beginning of the cycle...way back when. Healing can begin any time, anywhere...
@@sunnyadams5842 Thanks for missing my entire point.
*It won't* on its own.
One of the most fascinating things about this documentary is how aged the relatively young methamphetamine users appear. Starting @12:06 there's clips of interviews with these people in their 20s, early 30s, they all look to be late 30s, 40s. Another thing is that no sane person would ever consume the individual ingredients (especially from the shake 'n' bake method). Yet, when they're all distilled into a clean looking crystalline powder, it seems to be easier to ignore what it's made of. I imagine too, if the user has tried it before and experienced the high, the brain may unconsciously ignore any cautionary information in pursuit of euphoria.
I would never consume the ingredients of many things .., if you look at .... in a lot of what we eat we should redefine the word 'food' as meaning something that doesnt cause instantaneous death.
I think there are good messages that help folks address their behaviour ...what goes into drugs might be interesting, but I doubt it will change the addicts outlook one bit
Bro addicts will smoke shit to get high😂
You wouldnt inhale chlorine gas or attempt to eat sodium metal, yet apply electric current and 1000 degrees and you have salt a necessary nutrient. What something is made of means NOTHING if chemical processes are involved in the production of said molecule. People that stigmatize meth this way make me think "damn you know less about chemistry than a 10th grade dropout who thought heroin addiction would be fun....."
Thing is, what it's "made of" and what it is, are 2 different things.
Gasoline is carbon and hydrogen.. That's it. I defy you to put a bunch of raw hydrogen and carbon into your tank and try to go somewhere.
I was on the Night Train for years and years, and I am finally free... I was amazed at the amount of times I backslid, so to speak, in the process of overcoming addiction to this shit....
I am very new to the path of freedom, but I intend on never going back.
The KLF
Glad you got off, friend.
Great doc. Val Kilmer lived with my FIL’s buddy Kenny for 3mths when he lived in USA, so he could learn his Scottish accent for a movie. 25+ years ago lol. His house was full of photos of him with musicians
She*
That's a woman. Female to male....
@@swervsplatt9672 that’s what I’ve always thought too. Sick of this upside down place with all these sickos that run the show
My mother has been on meth for over 30 years. She had 7 years sobriety at one point but is now back on it. She has no teeth and can't really wear her dentures because of the rotting gums underneath and her legs have huge holes in them. She has been treated for skin cancer, gone through radiation and chemo but the only time her legs healed up was when she got sick and ended up in the hospital for 3 months. Her legs COMPLETLY healed. I don't understand why her docs don't understand that the meth is causing her legs to never heal. They are literally rotting off. She is also a drinker and a chain smoker. Its heartbreaking. She makes "friends" and says how great they are and then inevitably they rob her. Several cars have been stolen. She is ALWAYS broke.
😢
Wow this is similar to my mom. She shot up once and had a heart attack. Some years later my grandma took her to mayo in Minnesota for heart surgery. My mom was so high they had to give her more than what it would take to kill a horse to make her go under. Yet she talked the entire time she had her chest wide open. My mom always has "friends" but she's the one who steals from them. She's almost 60 and wears oxygen. Yet chain smokes and does meth. She was genius level smart but threw her whole life away.
@@KBeth35 It's so hard to understand why they make the decisions that they do. I stopped trying to figure it out. Still I know someday she will end up homeless. She keeps asking me if I will take her in when she can't care for herself anymore. My response is no, you never cared for me when I was helpless. It's odd how she thinks she is entitled to be by biggest concern. She left me and had my two other sibs taken from her. I owe her nothing. People might think that I am cold but she has been a nightmare my entire life and has never ever once sacrificed one thing for me or my family. Ever
Je suis de tout coeur avec vous, I am with you with all my heart, don't try to help this woman, she is not your real mother at all.@@Cat-gl9cm
@@Cat-gl9cmAre you aware that you have suffered from Narcissistic Abuse and Neglect at the hands of your Narc mommy?? She's a mess because of the trauma she sustained in her childhood...and on it goes.
Trauma almost took me out, too. I'm not sure why I was allowed to find the real cause and the real solution but I know what it is really all about now and most people are dead off base.
The woman at 1:33 pisses me off. She’s whining about how drugs are the only thing that make her feel wanted or special, while IGNORING her child trying to play with her. Speaks volumes.
these interviews are highly edited. she’s probably responding to a question by the documentarian like “why do you feel compelled to use this drug despite all the consequences.”
It takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there and be honest like that.
i hope both she and the child are both alive and doing well, as this footage looks old/dated, and Faces of Meth was around 2005ish
Smfh...literally just not even a min glimpse into the life of a complete stranger and instead of compassion or empathy along with a minimal amount of research or mabey watching the entirety of the contents and seeing this extraction from the whole interaction in which she does indeed engage with him and trade "I love you's" while mildly horseplaying and even hearing the kid say "your the best mommy " ...but we will just ignore all that because your petty personal knee-jerk opinion and biased rhetoric is paramount to the actual look into what is ironicly happens when society does nothing constructive but speak ill of someone's no doubt traumatic existence in which led to the current situation
@@sagebiddi , I saw what I saw; I wrote what I wrote; I meant what I wrote. Build a bridge and get over it, princess. Or don’t. I don’t care.
Oh shit. I'm so sorry my bad @Cod3Thr33 ...yeesh. comment emotional response then receives criticism for it and THEN also responds to said criticism with the literal most self contradictory statement possible, its been a long time but I still recognize the childlike "na na boo bear ,I don't really care" tactic. So you are just a wee prepubescent thing or you are grown and just the unfortunate product of sibling parents. Either way I apologize for my candor I'm not usually the type to go picking on people who have yet to gain mature mental fortitude to engage in banter o---...er , damn. I'm doing it again. I'm sorry . What I meant was: Ooh man yah definitely done went and ruined my day and also made me look/feel dumb while simultaneously showing everyone how cool and awesome you are by being somehow dramatically pissed off but then also not caring. And btw that whole "bridge-princess" line was fire bruh. No cap . ..or wtfever the moms basement dwelling caprisun gulping keyboard wanna be hood still tryna grow a stash mfs are saying now
@@sagebiddi , do you talk this much in person too? Holy shit, I bet your coworkers hate to see you coming!
My heart is so sad for that young couple with the with the four children I just pray that they turned to their hearts and know that God loves them she is wrong that nobody cares for her she has four beautiful children what a blessing that is
Going to be working on my Peer Support Certification for Addiction Recovery and Mental Health❤❤❤❤❤
Going to be? Have you got a start date in mind?
This is a heart-breaking and compelling account of the reflected meth crisis which, has afflicted the States (and a number of other countries, worldwide)😔 It really is so sad to see the damage and destruction caused by this drug, especially, within such a rich and prosperous country that, from my experience of visiting it (I adore the Mid-Western States of America) offers very little help or rehabilitative support to those suffering addiction... And seems to be gradually allowing it's cities and towns to rot from the inside and out! I too, have experienced addiction (I was addicted to heroin and amphetamines for a period of 7 years, in my youth) but have been clean for 15 years now and I truly wish for all the participants in this film, that, they too may overcome their addiction and be able to recover themselves (and their families) so they can live healthier, happier lives and prevent the cycle of this addiction from continuing in proceeding generations. It can be a long road to recovery but I am living proof it can be done🕊💞🕊
Fentanyl too it’s all coming from New Hampshire number one in opioids in the U.S.
@@wallysmith6344 I know, it's so sad, they are even lacing weed with it... I hope things turn around with regards the opioid crisis in the State's at some stage but I don't hold out much hope with the way our world is atm😔
Thank you for your positive message of hope.
No treatment protocol for meth. Go to AA good and beats NA
Prayers for that family,I KNOW the struggle BUT know the bounce back! Kids are resilient I promise and families can heal
GOD BLESS those struggling to come back to life!!!
I never knew it's injectable. I thank my mom for talking to me about drugs before I started high school, alot of my friends got into drugs but I never did.
When you shoot I up I makes you feel like your breathing fire the first couple seconds it's so addictove I'm so happy I got clean July 252018 from I fentanyl heroin meth cocaine pills ....
I wish i grew up with a mom who cared like yours my mom did 10 yrs ago from accidental overdose to morphine that's that's I went crazy and followed her steps until I broke the generational curses and now my kids won't have to deal with it for their young years .
@@Aj-sp thanks for your words, and I am glad that you and your kids are having a clean and better life. All the best.
@@Aj-sp glad you got clean, all the best.
Sadly any drugs that can be crushed & dissolved in water is injectable. In my years of active addiction I injected many oral meds & street drugs. Including temazepam capsules (emptying the liquid in to a syringe barrel) or crushing ecstasy & adding water, filtering it & injecting it. Desperation is a hard task master.
Thank you for this documentary! It's so sad to see how people are being killed and lives ruined from drugs...and I noticed that most of them had deep pain..and that's why drug use..to numb it.😢😢😢
That is right.
My prayers are with Holly and her family. Please, please, PLEASE fight for your lives!
It's NOT TOO LATE!!
I adopted a baby boy from a meth mom. She is clean now and knows her birth son..
I’m glad they know each other. That’s gracious of you to facilitate that. How’s your son now?
The part where they are Recycling trucker urine for the drug is absolutely essential to include/show the desperate measures one would go for it
Explain more? I missed it
Trucker urine that they don't even know if that trucker was on meth or not!!! I drove a truck from coast to coast for years and I've seen them collect bottles of urine that truckers would throw out the window and they would assume that all truckers were on meth and the fact is most aren't nowadays.
My old neighbor was on meth, she was a homeowner and mother, but addicted to meth . One time her son knocked on my door asking to spend the night cuz he couldn't sleep because his mom was vacuming the yard outside his windoq. Yes vacuuming the yard . I took him in and was the adult his life who was there for him . He was around 13 then, now he is in his 20s and in his own. She has moved on and is in a homeless tent city somewhere last we heard . I still see him regularly 😊
OMG😢😢!!! You were his angel🩷🩷🫶🏼🫶🏼!!!
I agree educate the young helps. Love Val Kilmer voice.
I'm in my mid 50s now, so I grew up in a different era; we didn't have meth then (or if we did, I didn't know about it). But I was a teen in the 80s. There was no war on drugs then. Even in high school everyone had their own personal dealer. We mostly did cocaine, angel dust, mescaline, acid, smoked pot. Then there were all the different pills.
The only drug I never tried was heroin; and honestly, that was because of something my father told me when I was young that scared me enough that I refused to try it. I wish he had done that with the other drugs.
I am writing this comment because what he told me was just like these commercials, "I'm not gonna be like this guy". My parents were friends with a couple, Rita and John. Rita's brother was a heroin addict; the only one we had heard of, because this was around 1975. He died of an overdose. It was a shocking thing because back then drugs hadn't really hit the suburbs yet. This is what he told me:
"Do not try heroin even one time. You can use it only one time and become addicted." I asked him how that could even be possible. He said, "Your body is constantly doing things that you have learned to tune out and ignore, like the feeling of your blood passing through your veins. However, when you do heroin, all of those background sensations in your body disappear and every cell in your body feels wonderful. Indescribably wonderful. However, when it wears off and all of those sensations your body is used to ignoring come back, the pain and discomfort of every cell in your body will be enough to drive you mad. It will be so intolerable that you will literally do anything at all to get more heroin to make the feeling go away. And if you can't make the feeling go away, there is a very real possibility that you will commit suicide because the feeling of the discomfort of every cell in your body is so terrible that you'd rather die than live".
This worked and kept me off heroin. Maybe describing it like this to younger people will keep them from trying meth.
Yeah that actually worked
And most people honestly feel that way about crack and coke but the lessons might have skipped a generation because people just don't care... I don't know if they put it in vapes.. or what? It's not like people don't know why their scratching madly at their skin
The problem with that method of abstinence is that with Heroin/Opiates its true, with Meth its not, and if someone told he that Id call them a liar because Im currently a meth user/opiate addict and I know exactly what this stuff does and doesnt do.
@@OGFrontLine Everyone is different. ... Ex meth addict, 20yrs clean.
I grew up in the 80s and 90s witnessing the anti heroin campaign on TV in the UK.
I used heroin at the end of amphetamine binges sometimes for three days.
The "use it once and your addicted" theory did not apply and I was able to stop with no cravings.
Whilst everyone may have different susceptibilities to various addictive substances it is in my experience not applicable.
Young people who experiment with heroin no doubt realise they have been misinformed about its addictiveness and continue to use.Addiction then follows.
Unless we have honest communication regarding drugs; their different affects and potential dangers, young people will continue to suffer.
What a crock, that’s not what it does
I was an addict for 24yrs and I was brought up around heroin and cracked for the age of 4yrs old I'm now 39 n I've been clean for 3yrs well 6 really including my prison time to be addict is horrible u don't even want to take drugs it just takes u who u don't want to go I praise my lord Jesus christ if I can u can overcome overcome
Blessings of Praise Brother
After being hooked on opiates for years, I finally just quit: I made up my mind to stop, talked to my doctor…and now I’ve been “un-addicted” for over a decade.
You DON’T have to “hit rock bottom”, and you don’t have to stay squeaky clean (unless you want to-that’s the best, but not mandatory). You just have to make up your mind never to use again no matter what and STICK TO IT. 💚
yes I agree. Life is'nt black and white. I'm where you are and I attend AA and NA meeting's regularly and take Suboxone and I've taken my life back.
@@garrettaffeldt6999 I consider myself an “inactive opiate addict”. I don’t abuse anything else (another myth; I do know some people abuse whatever is available, but just as many don’t.).
Thank Heaven for bupe! I may not think so when I finally taper off, but while I may be dependent, I’m NOT addicted…and that’s good enough for me! 💚
Ive used for 35 odd years got on the bupe 2weeks ago, all good atm but I know it's a daily struggle & today I choi e not to use. That's the best I can do.
@recynd77 it saved me and now there is Subutex. It's an injection that works throughout a year so you don't withdraw from Bupe. Ask your doctor about it my friend
@@65priceyGood for you! Take day by day.
Thank you, Val, the Montana project, all the participants, and sponsors of this important film. 💪🙏🇺🇸
My ex had recovered, gotten pregnant with my child after 2 years sobriety and one friend came around, she was back in it and killed my child in the womb.. nobody in my family even knew she was using again, she went downhill fast..
You killed your own child by inseminating a woman whom you know was a “recovered” addict. Rats are not responsible for the experiments being fone onto them and niether is your ex or you for the death of the child.
I will remember to pray for this sweet little family.
I will start by asking God to bring them back to Himself. Not to a church necessarily but to receive healing and conviction to stay off and away from meth.
With God , all things are possible.
That cop will arrest as many people as he can, label them as drug addicts to get more federal money. Arresting is not the answer, put that money into therapist, psych programs, rehab centers.
I watched this 5 or so years ago and watched again today. Nothing has changed except it is now in big and little cities and everything in between. I wonder where these folks are.
Yeah and the people in this movie seem almost normal compared to what I see walking the city street daily
So nice to hear Val's voice...🥹
Thank you for this.
Clean since june 2012! Key was learning how to ask strangers for help and resources and not being afraid to be sober while stay in shelters.I had to choose me, and fight for myself.
This is from 2007, Montana. Let's see how it is today, can't even compare, brutal.
Missoula is ful of homeless people. Many of them are using hard drugs. Some of them work. Rental properties are difficult to find, and extremely expensive. So a lot of people live in shelter, and on streets.
Arguing in circles, it's never stops.
They want to show the cash and the luxury lifestyle the top dealers live in at the expense of those unfortunate people,and maybe they may wake up to what their misery is paying for,its all to easy to have a cold approach to this but addiction can happen to anyone.
Maybe but in my experience no dealer holds a gun to a persona head and forces them to take it. It's your own personal choice if you want it it's available if you don't want it they aren't hassling you to take it. 85 percent of dealers usually have a much larger habit than the customer's (hence why they are selling) and don't really pocket much money at all, but the wholesale distributors and cooks, these folks aren't great people.
Do not last forever very few get away w no arrrsted but most will go in n out jail
@Arizona_lilly it's always short term. Nothing good becomes of meth long term!!! Hell nothing good comes of meth short term either
When I think of meth luxury doesn't really come to mind no...
Tweakers at the wall mart more likely
Or the treatment centers they run .in the small state of N.H
I love some of these msgs spoken like a True Warrior. ♥️
Addiction in almost every person will experience a loss of some form or another . Gambling is just as bad . I pray for all to heal .
once you start your journey to stopping ,just remember you will mess up from time to time ,you keep going and one day you will never want it again ,but you must keep going you will stumble
Man, this is really sad. Those kids must be in their 20's now. I hope life has been more kind to them than their beginnings.
That cop that teaches kids and he made the photographs is a absolute hero, we need more people like him. So much respect.
And yet Adderall is just one molecule away from methamphetamine, and we prescribe it like candy
Incorrect, adderall is 4 different amphetamines in one pill.
It use to have actual methamphetamine in it with amphetamine. However it was reformulated in early 2000 or late 90s before it got huge.
@brianfitch5469 That's not true. Adderall is two different amphetamines - amphetamine and dextroamphetamine. Amphetamine is made up of two stereoisomers, a "left-hand" isomer called levoamphetamine, and a "right-hand" isomer called dextroamphetamine. It's the exact same molecule, except the atoms are arranged in a perfect mirror formation, kind of like holding your hand up to a mirror - they're both your hand, but one shows the back of your hand and the other shows your palm. Since "amphetamine" contains both levo- and dextro- isomers, mixing it with dextroamphetamine just ensures that the mix of left/right isomer is more concentrated with the right isomer than the left isomer. Why? Because the right isomer is what is responsible for the classic "amphetamine" feeling of being amped, experiencing euphoria, and generally having a greater effect on the central nervous system. Conversely, the left isomer, levoamphetamine has a greater effect on your peripheral nervous system and is responsible for effects that are similar to that of pseudoephedrine e.g. bronchial dilation, clearing of nasal passages, etc. Dextroamphetamine happens to be more effective in the treatment of ADHD symptoms, but it's also more highly associated with addiction, paranoia, and hallucinations, so it's formulated to include levoamphetamine as a hedge against the more serious side effects.
As for methamphetamine, meth has NEVER been an ingredient in Adderall. HOWEVER, meth IS the active ingredient in the pharmaceutical drug Desoxyn, which is very rarely prescribed for severe ADHD, severe obesity, or treatment resistant narcolepsy.
Methamphetamine has both levo- and dextro- isomers as well, but Desoxyn has them in equal parts - what's known as "racemic" methamphetamine. Therefore, amphetamine is technically racemic amphetamine.
As for methamphetamine and amphetamine being "one molecule" away, they're technically one methyl group away from each other. Methamphetamine is amphetamine with a methyl group attached to its amino group - one extra carbon and three extra hydrogens. Chemically speaking, the difference is almost negligible. Pharmacologically speaking, the difference is immense, as amphetamine works peripherally and does not cross the blood brain barrier. Methamphetamine, on the other hand DOES cross the blood brain barrier, which means it works on the central nervous system in addition to the peripheral nervous system. This makes it both stronger and more intense, with a more immediate high, and a far greater potential for abuse and addiction.
It's disingenuous to suggest meth and amphetamine are one in the same. While they're very closely related, amphetamine is like sipping a Bud Light, while meth is like chugging Everclear.
If you actually have ADHD Adderall isn't addictive and doesn't get you "high" it just makes you "normal"
Friggin Trump snorts the stuff daily as do SO MANY in ALL stratus of society.
I was prescribed as much Adderall as I wanted for diagnosed Bipolar. The diagnosis was wrong.
The prescription made me psychotic and it was awful. It wasn't hard to stop THAT at ALL.
What WAS hard was figuring out what was really going on inside me.
Come to find out my problem was having been horribly emotionally abused and neglected by Narcissistic parents. CPTSD IS REAL AND FIXABLE!! ASK ME ABOUT IT!!!
( That's not my whole story. Just a relevant chunk💜)
@@tinyiko2311That's correct!! Don't let my experience dissuade you from utilizing any available tool to help you live more productively with ADHD!
I lived this for 20 years.....only by the grace of God am I still here to celebrate 20 years off..... What I could have done with those years.......or should I say 40 because it's always a demon in the corner...........
The fact that Holly is willing to say that the only thing that needs her is her drugs, that alone and the way they act around their children. 😮
Prayers for the young lady with the little children. I feel so bad for her ,traumatized when she was young,her mother failed her. May she get help.🙏💜
So thankful for my mom. She was a Christian. She never so much as smoked a cigarette. I was very fortunate. She took good care of us. We had a dad as well.
Way to brag.. @@sharoncrawford7192
It's disgusting to hear these women who are pregnant while using. Their children should be taken away immediately
My woman and I did meth almost up to the day our kid was born. He is so smart, I can't believe how it changed our lives having a kid. . We have not done meth since he was born. No health issues for our child, he is so smart. I think it might have made him have an advance brain.
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@@ozoneswiftak
Honestly, you both may want to consider getting on your knees to thank God, our creator for giving you both a healthy baby/child & delivering you both from that devil's drug. 👑
Is it disgusting when a woman takes adder? All while pregnant for AD HD? Is that disgusting or is that just normal? And that's acceptable? I don't get it same drug, same chemical compound and I'm not saying they should be using method pregnancy. But I am saying that it's pretty hypocritical. Just a lot of people that can't afford Health Insurance and doctors and. S*** like that. They don't get the admiral that they need the stimulant that they need for their brain to function, Don't blame them blame the government for demonizing it and forcing it to be made in the bath Is tub withdrino. If you want to take away the kids of those Matthews. I think you should take away the kids of the Admiral user. I think we should take away the kids of the corrupt cops. Too put in people away for no reason. That's just my opinion. I hope my free speech is respectful, Not an attack on anybody and not an advocate for the drugs. Honestly it's more About the government making a problem worse and worse , Likely on purpose as they do in a lot of situations this is just another.
But respectfully I disagree with you. I think that treatment or honestly I think aderal should be offered if that's what they need to get off of it because the eternal does work, most methodics would love an added or obverse option to use not abuse, but to use, just like the millions that get it for AD HD allegedly the same f****** thing. Everyone needs a stimulant don't they .
❤ If you're a low class and I put that in parenthesis if I knew how. But yeah low class gets math and they get jail, Straight aves and promotions for the upper class when they're taking their maxtos of adderall and having the same effects
It’s so easy to judge, if you don’t know really anything about addiction. Judging just shows ingnorance. Addiction isn’t really a choice or moral failure, it’s an illness and should be treated as one.
I’ve been struggling for 20 years with on and off sobriety I was sober for 4 years relapsed and got arrested the same day. I’m back on the wagon it never worked and will never work. Sober living is life worth living
I have a massive Quavers problem. Really cheeses me off.
Problem with addiction - it's not the drug that causes it in 80% of cases, it's the underlying reasons people seek out altered states to an unhealthy degree (i.e. mental health/social care). That's what needs addressing. The other 20% requires education and harm reduction.
Yes, yes, I accept that 57.43% of statistics are made up but you get the point.
Addressing the real issues, as you rather eloquently described here, does not allow room for a ton of repeat, revolving door, ongoing profit, treatment, medical care, and the like. Everything has become a matter of profits before people. Corruption and evil greedy controllers are at the root of all problems imo.
That's true. Most of the dental problems come from lack of attention to personal hygiene, the other physical problems from lack of sleep ect. Not to encourage use, but
@@dylanfitch2997 me and my sister have been smoking meth together for 25 years and when we finished we go shower and clean are teeth . If you have rules you can have a normal life with meth
What are Quavers?
Farmington, is Haliburton Oil and others...Meth equals high production till it implodes and employee is hence replaced for cycle to repeat.
If you want to help . Stop the stereotyping. Meth is the most prescribed drug for children under 12 years
True.
The most prescribed drug in the USA for those under 18 yrs old is a remedy for constipation. Though very close to the " METH" amphetamine it is amphetamines prescribed for the attention deficit disorders. ....and yes may,can, will and are just as destructive being an easy respite from more healthy treatments of yesteryear. Offered in addition to your comment , not in disagreement
True having lived the Crack epidemic there was absolutely no way I would allow them to put my kids on meth knowing that at 18 no more Dr go to the streets! B. S
Fentanyl is used in hospitals and dentist offices.
Walked away from a meth addiction 20 years ago. I hated ME on meth. I guess I hated myself so much that I was able to quit. Now, the alcohol.
Instagram adressed
5 years ago this may 2-4 Weekend i went to rehab. Im 3 years sober
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Me myself have never touched any drugs and watching these docs and seeing the damage it does I never will. Just watched this in 2024 and live in California and meth along with many new drugs since 2006 is still taking over people who look for a way to escape their problems instead of having coping skills.
Documentaries such as these should be a part of the educational system as of middle school in my opinion!
Used every day for 39 years , got all my teeth no major health problems ,same job for 26 years wife for 28 years kids all grown and gone and I enjoy it every single morning with my coffee and never felt like it's a problem
Fuck me that's crazy bro ,I get the worst anxiety off it hey , I'm a heroin addict but
I can get to that very easily. Drugs do us when we use them to hide. We do the drug when we use them to enhance, which is totally possible. Weak and traumatized minds who believe the solution exists outside ourselves will never find peace. Heal THYSELVES
..said who?? ❤
Fucking awesome bro! 45 years old, been smoking it for 22 years, have no health issues (other than balding), have all of my real teeth, have a 22 year old son, and a 20 year old son. Both are normal and happy and were raised by me and the same woman I married 28 years ago, I go to work every day (only had 3 different jobs in those 28 years), haven't been in trouble since I was 19, and smoke almost every day! Just glad to see I'm not the only one who proves you can do whatever you want to do and still be a normal, functioning, productive member of society and not be a fucking junkie tweaker! Much love brother
@@josephcox2438 do U fuck around with heroin.are you from America
Drugs are the worst thing than can ever happen to an individual and/or their family.
To all the kids that have never taken drugs, it isn't cool, it isn't smart, and it definitely isn't cheap and you deteriorate very fast. Find good friends and learn all that you can. Become and stay humble. Thank you from your future, clean, self.
Kids aren’t on here reading comments
I never saw an overdose. I never saw 20 or 30 year users die. Unless they fall asleep while driving and total their vehicle and be killed that way. I knew needle users blow their veins out. Then they just had to smoke it.
Everyone thinks these drugs are only in big cities .The drugs have hit the small towns even worse .When they arrive it takes the majority out very fast .My hometown is in Pa and it’s infested .It’s so sad .God help these lost ppl .Amen.
a rope's remorse
the rope is slipping
i can not let go--
a hemp rope is tough
and strong when dry--
the rope is slipping
i can not let go--
when swollen with water
hemp rope is twice
as strong as dry--i grip
the rope tighter but it
slips and tears at
decades old callouses
and rips the fingertips
away i can not let go--
i feel the rope's strength
in its slipping as it
brushes the bones
why can i not let go:
you are at the rope's
other end--you are looking
up--the rope slips--
there is hope in your eyes
I lost my youngest to drugs. As a father watching his son's ever escalating downward spiral, I felt and still do feel the above. It was excruciating to discover that nothing I did could change the course and results of his choices. He was always going to stop tomorrow.
@Keyjack Thank you.
A tragedy for everyone involved. Family, kids, the community. Its not nice to see anyone suffer. Instead of the army being sent abroad to fight pointless wars it should be used to hoover these people up of every street corner and slum. Stick them into camps, clean up and educate them, and look after the kids. Teach them to build sustainable houses and communities. They deserve to live a good and happy life and we have the power to interdict their downward spiral and help.
You speak my thoughts on this too. We must treat this situation like the crisis it is. Simple math tells me that when 2 individuals who have NO business having children at all (can't adequately look after their own selves with food, housing, education, running water etc), mate carelessly and now result in 4 babies who will (9 times out of 10) grow up to be unstable adults. It could have been only 2 people who are screwed up and requiring lots of expensive help and resources.....but now it's 6 humans needing and needing and needing. And in 16-17 yrs, the kids will be spewing out unwanted, uncared for babies themselves, so now we have around 12-20 more to cope with. I would love to see a law where if you give birth and are found to be using meth, heroin or some such drug, you are automatically sterilized with a reversible procedure (husband/boyfriend too). Addicts can not care for children, they are way too busy committing suicide with their drug of choice. When and if they can get their lives together, they can reverse the sterilization . We must start acting like we believe children are valuable, instead of lip service.
Although your comment probably took less than 60 seconds to craft, it still sounds superbly better than current policies.
@@beckythornton6470 woah. Simmer down with the selective breeding stuff.
yeah just hoover these people you detest up as you'd "vacuum up dirt" under the pretense of "for the good of society" haul the undesirables off to prison camps... oh sorry "rehabilitation centers" where they will be reformed to YOUR liking.... for THEIR own good!
Historically such "community cleanses" have typically played out in rather horrific fashion... 👿🚷👨⚖⚖📜🕵♂👮🙍♂🪧💂♀⛓🧱☣👨🔬💉👫🧟♀☠🧱⛓...🪦
Which begs the question.... why are you so comfortable speaking so recklessly on what is clearly a slippery slope?
I don't know if Abbott still makes it, but in the 70's they produced Desoxyn in 3 strengths, the yellow pill being the strongest. That was the premier speed if you could get it.
I remember that and a couple more.
Desoxyn was the purest, soak those plastic pills till they look loke piss...fortunately, i never had enough to kill myself..all my drugstore robbing friends died or went to jail, i turned to the worst poison of all of them, whiskey...been clean and free since the first day of summer, 1986
I've never done meth myself, went through hell trying to get my older brother clean off of it before he passed though, so I really hate it and always try to help people get away from it when I can.
Damn I feel bad for all those that picked up my piss bottles along the road and highway thinking they got a bottle of juice and it’s not
Know a, Now in his 40ties, Guy. He got into dealing meth in his teens and we would see him fromtime to time, now and again...looking really strange. We knew his Dad, he was a prominant Doctor in our town and knew he had lost his wife, this kid's Mom. He came back to visit us, after thirty years, and he told us, that despite all the money, even living in high rise penthouse apts in Vegas..it was not anything really and he never found happiness. We noticed it had changed him forever, something permantly broke in his brain that made him dark and scarey..just dont know when he might suddenly turn and get really angry, to the point of threatening violence, think it all started because they had him on ritalin as a kid 😢
Its worst today with the more addicting and harmful drugs from China/Mexico. Thankful that I myself never liked the drugs scene and for the most part, stayed away and today, no drinking, smoking or any drugs. Very Thank Full! The family in the film tore me up.😢
@@researcher707 God bless you!! I hope you are still well, and making it! You are an inspiration to me. I am 62 years old, have been an addict for 23 years, since my daughter graduated high school and moved out. Opiates and meth. I had a stroke in Dec. I became an addict at 39 years old. Have been in jail more times than I can recall, been raped, have lost mostly everything. The stroke somehow was the last straw. I quit everything, cigarettes too!!! I lost my mom, brother, sister, best friend. I am so grateful I have my daughter and a couple of dear friends. I can walk again, though awkwardly. I just want to make up for all the time and money I threw away, somehow. Want to be forgiven. Want to help others and stop whipping myself with guilt. God help us all......
And we have an epidemic of teen mental illnesses 👉330+ million Americans & 220 million prescriptions were written for SSRI’s last year👉adults & children are prescribed this everyday & I believe it’s going to be a bad ride the next 10 years 😢wonder what the difference In feeling is bt Ritalin & meth?
Why hasn’t CPS taken the kids from this Meth Addicted couple at 58:26? Especially since the kids are eating, “Food” out of the trash.😢
As of 2021
On March 1, officers with the Rutherford County Sheriff’s Office Narcotics Unit and Forest City Police Department seized about 451.2 grams of methamphetamine, 5.2 grams of marijuana, drug paraphernalia and a pistol from a home.
Wilson has been charged with trafficking methamphetamine, possession of a firearm by a felon and conspire to trafficking methamphetamine. He was booked into the Rutherford County Detention Center on a $400,000 secured bond, according to the sheriff’s office.
Holly Alexis Edmonds has been charged with trafficking methamphetamine, possession of a firearm by a felon, conspire to trafficking methamphetamine and maintaining vehicle. She was booked into the Rutherford County Detention Center on a $330,000
@@jessicasisler6004 google the names they look like a train wreck
Scare tactics don't always work. The janitor (who was also a neighbor) at my kids elementary school used meth.
He was young, 20yrs old. He had a good job. Initially it wasn't obvious he was using meth. It didn't take long for it to become obvious he was on meth. He was unkept, very skinny and had sores on his face. At times you couldn't understand what he was talking about. My kids saw the transformation. We talked to our kids openly and frequently about meth and the affects it has, they SAW IT.
And yet- my daughter is an addict.
My daughter is currently using.
I am not sure meth is her drug of choice, sounds more like she uses meth to counteract the sleepy affect of heroin or fentynal. I don't know that for sure, just what it sounds like to me. She was using needles.
I have seen the sores, her hair has gotten really thin.
I worry everyday about her.
She says she wanting to get clean, she said she started going to the methadone clinic.
I'm so sorry for the pain you have over your daughter. And for her, as well. I am currently recovering from a stroke, which I had 5 months ago, due to my sky high BP and meth use. I can walk again, but I'll never be the same. But I am so grateful to be alive, to have recovered this much!! After 23 years of being an addict of meth, opiates, pills. I am now completely clean, quit smoking cigarettes too!!! I thank God!! Please don't ever try this drug!!! You'll regret it......
@@cathylindeboo.9598 I am glad you have been able to change your life around.
I wish you all the best ❣️
I think you got your facts a little wrong...
Methadone is a wean off drug for heroin addicts it has nothing to do with crystal methamphetamine
And wow... to be on both thats a bit of money thats not even physically possible.. like rock stars or whatever do one or both with alcohol for example and usually choke vomit type story.. there's no happy ending on that combination one will make your respiration fail and the other will be like a electric paddle to the heart there is no way you physically could do that more than once IF that
@@nolesy34 if you say so. I don't watch what she does. It's not uncommon to use like that.
Her letting her kid throw that cigarette says it all
The only thing that it says is that your a petty judgmental weirdo.
Smoking is gross.