Lmaooo, first time I listened to it, I sat in pure shock and contemplated the cosmos for a good minute- so I figured I might as well put a warning because, god, this song is *heavy*.
This song is creepier than any horror film I've ever seen. It really puts you in the moment. I feel I'm listening to something my ears were never meant to hear. Ethel Cain is amazing.
As someone who went through nearly two years of daily sexual abuse and assault, this song really speaks to me. I can’t tell if it’s helping or if it’s just dragging me back into this dark hole of revulsion and terror. The scream that she lets out is something I wish I could have done during that time.
I am so sorry you went through that, lovely. I hope you can find peace and a comfort zone where you can be safe from haunting memories. You're strong ❤
Oh yeah, definitely. It’s a song that jarringly rips you open and just… stays with you, it quite literally screams it’s most vulnerable moments. Listening to this song is almost like metaphorically ripping off scabs to the point you bleed, it’s horrifying and stings and yet it’s cathartic, I’d say. If that makes sense lol I definitely recommend checking out some of her other songs as well! She’s definitely a super talented artist who has a way with words.
I'm a lover of metal and heavy music in general, but this is the only song i've listened to that's made me legitimately afraid because s/a is a real life monster. Only time i've ever felt a disclaimer was necessary after listening to it.
Absolutely agree.. first song I've heard that accurately captures the feeling before during and after s/a in a song... it's gross, it's unerving, you just want it to end, but it keeps going and then those feelings linger long after the act itself is done.
As a woman who's had her fair share of toxic and abusive relationships and s/a this song is so cathartic on those days I need a little help coping. And the torment of mental illness, begging your own brain to stop it's mad descent.
My heart goes out to you, I’m glad you can find a bit of comfort in the song. it’s message is a heavy one, but one that needed to be shared; if it could reach just one person, let them know that they’re not alone in their experiences… I sincerely hope that life’s treating you a bit better these days, and that even if you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, there is always someone you can reach out to, always a reason to keep fighting. I hope you have a wonderful day/night!
that spiral of mental illness is fucking brutal, and it's honestly debilitating when it happens. even when you feel you've escaped, it's not over. sometimes you're just forced to relive it all and can't do anything about it. it sucks
This perfectly characterizes the ab*se that I suffered (and still suffer from) at the hands of my father, as he continues to haunt me from the grave. The complex trauma, the hatred towardw him, towards myself. I feel so seen.
I hope life gets better for you. Get out as soon as you can, for your own safety! (Mental well being) Edit: Oh, I didn't read it fully. Well, shoot. Hope you're getting therapy now, ma'am. Get out of this mental hell, you know?
To every person who has been SA'd, my heart goes to you. You're strong. You're brave. You're loved. You didn't deserve what happened to you. I wish every single haunting memory, every feeling and every sense of pain could be taken away from your soul. I hope you find peace, love, a comfort zone. I hope you find somewhere you can call home. You're a warrior. Never forget that ❤
Me and you 🤝 live, laugh, stan Ethel Cain Glad you like the song as much as I do! You should totally go check out some of her other stuff, it won’t disappoint, promise!
Me and you 🤝 live, laugh, stan Ethel Cain Glad you like the song as much as I do! You should totally go check out some of her other stuff, it won’t disappoint, promise!
this song reminds me so much of my last relationship with my ex. plus he was very religious so it makes listening to this song alot harder bc my ex reminds me am of that male voice. i love this song so much it brings me so much comfort
@@ladyvictoria820you can hear it through the disembodied prayer, when someone is saying blessings. Every once in a while through the music, there's a gasp or choke
For my first ever RUclips comment.. I truly wish I didn’t not stumble upon this after suffering several panic attacks. This triggered another one. But god is it fucking hauntingly beautiful. And I never want to hear it again.
getting a "panic attack" from a song you chose to play. Just hit pause and touch some grass, jesus 🙄 it's ppl like you that make others not treat mental illnesses seriously
I found this recently in my spotify playlist and I'm still amazed, thrilling and also scared how this song made me feel but this is a masterpiece and no one can every try to copy such feelings which this song made me feel
It’s made by a trans artist, honestly I feel like this song even extends to trans victims of SA. Or literally anyone. This song is the most relatable song out there about surviving things like this
I followed you in and I was with you there I invited you in twice, I did You love blood too much But not like I do Not like I do Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you Need you, love you, love you, love you Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you You'd do well to say yes to me Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee Promising a big fire, any fire Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire Suffering is nigh, drawing to me Calling me the one, I'm the white light Beautiful, finite Even the iron still fears the rot Hiding from something I cannot stop Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh Buckled on the floor when night comes along Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh You poor thing Sweet, mourning lamb There's nothing you can do It's already been done What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face) Please, don't look at me I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me Tell me, what have you done? Stop, stop, stop, make it stop Stop, make it stop, make it stop I've had enough Stop, stop, stop, stop Stop, stop, stop, stop I am the face Of love's rage I am the face Of love's rage Blessed be the Daughters of Cain Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception Blessed be their whore mothers Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again Blessed be the children Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence Blessed be you, girl Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you I am no good nor evil, simply I am And I have come to take what is mine I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood I am here now, as you run from me still Run then, child You can't hide from me forever
I got saed at the age of 9. Im 14 now, its still there, it never goes away, that feeling, of now being in control of ur own body, the feeling is still there.
The best advice I have for you is to get therapy, or at least a safe support group (people you trust.) Please-please-please stay strong. There is a light at the end of the tunnel: It will get better for you.
Every time I listen to this song I get chills. Ethel Cains voice is so powerful, this song is a work of art that scares me more than any scary movie I’ve ever seen.
I love this song, it gives me a discomforting comfort. Although I am upset at the fact that I found it in a TikTok by someone who has insulted and invalidated male victims of s/a :/
Lol, I know that feeling xD I discovered the song about a week ago and after listening I literally just had to sit and contemplate everything for a good minute afterwards- really makes you think, lol
@@90re__puppy no, but ethel's dead body does get eaten in 'strangers'. in ptolemaea, previous to strangers, she's hallucinating under the effects of some drug(s) while being tortured by isaiah, her lover.
Ok wow 40 seconds in and I had to pause- fuck that warning at the beginning was warranted I'm crying wtf why is this affecting me so much Edit: finished it What a masterpiece I think the dissociation is kicking in though, I no longer feel like I exist
I felt it needed a warning because the song alludes to cannibalism, manipulation and sexual assault and can be triggering for people going into the song blind, better safe than sorry. This song can be harder for one person to sit through and not really affect another, but at least giving a heads up that this song has the *potential* to trigger bad feelings is better than not doing so. Though I know this song has brought a lot of survivors comfort in its own way, it’s also caused harm to people in bad mindsets and made it worse because they didn’t know what to expect. By giving a warning, I hope to at least make people give pause and think about if they’re in a good enough headspace to hear the song.
I've never felt closter to God than when men have punished me for being a woman. If god exists, I've never worshipped him. And if I'm wrong, he'll be the one begging for my forgiveness when I die. I'll prefer Hell to his false love
I followed you in and I was with you there I invited you in twice, I did You love blood too much But not like I do Not like I do Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you Need you, love you, love you, love you Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you Love you, love you, love you, love you You'd do well to say yes to me Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee Promising a big fire, any fire Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire Suffering is nigh, drawing to me Calling me the one, I'm the white light Beautiful, finite Even the iron still fears the rot Hiding from something I cannot stop Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh Buckled on the floor when night comes along Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh You poor thing Sweet, mourning lamb There's nothing you can do It's already been done What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face) Please, don't look at me I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me Tell me, what have you done? Stop, stop, stop, make it stop Stop, make it stop, make it stop I've had enough Stop, stop, stop, stop Stop, stop, stop, stop I am the face Of love's rage I am the face Of love's rage Blessed be the Daughters of Cain Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception Blessed be their whore mothers Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again Blessed be the children Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence Blessed be you, girl Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you I am no good nor evil, simply I am And I have come to take what is mine I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood I am here now, as you run from me still Run then, child You can't hide from me forever
you know the song slaps when there is a warning at the beginning
Lmaooo, first time I listened to it, I sat in pure shock and contemplated the cosmos for a good minute- so I figured I might as well put a warning because, god, this song is *heavy*.
real
... Unless it's JoJo Siwas 👀
Slaps? Unfortunately I read your message.
The fact that is seriously sounds like a swarm of flies in parts of the song is weirdly terrifying, and perfect.
My heart goes out to S/A survivors like me. Especially if it was your own family or someone you trusted before it happened.
it’s beautiful when a song can gather a community to heal like this. sending you so much love ❤️🩹
My father💔💔
This song is creepier than any horror film I've ever seen. It really puts you in the moment. I feel I'm listening to something my ears were never meant to hear. Ethel Cain is amazing.
As someone who went through nearly two years of daily sexual abuse and assault, this song really speaks to me. I can’t tell if it’s helping or if it’s just dragging me back into this dark hole of revulsion and terror. The scream that she lets out is something I wish I could have done during that time.
I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I hope you're in a better environment now.
I am so sorry you went through that, lovely. I hope you can find peace and a comfort zone where you can be safe from haunting memories. You're strong ❤
I feel the exact same. I went through the same for 4 years. I wish I could scream.
This song is so terrifying. Creepy. Ethereal. You can just feel it. Idk how to put it into words.
Oh yeah, definitely. It’s a song that jarringly rips you open and just… stays with you, it quite literally screams it’s most vulnerable moments.
Listening to this song is almost like metaphorically ripping off scabs to the point you bleed, it’s horrifying and stings and yet it’s cathartic, I’d say.
If that makes sense lol
I definitely recommend checking out some of her other songs as well! She’s definitely a super talented artist who has a way with words.
I have to say that this is the most powerful realistic example of what pure agony is to suffer from and not ever escape from!!
Absolutely!
This sounds exactly what it would be like to get kidnapped tortured and murdered by a serial killer.
weirdly comforting
I'm a lover of metal and heavy music in general, but this is the only song i've listened to that's made me legitimately afraid because s/a is a real life monster. Only time i've ever felt a disclaimer was necessary after listening to it.
Absolutely agree.. first song I've heard that accurately captures the feeling before during and after s/a in a song... it's gross, it's unerving, you just want it to end, but it keeps going and then those feelings linger long after the act itself is done.
As an sa victim this song matches the feeling perfectly
I think I just found my new therapy
The scream is the catharsis I can never experience
Ptolemaea cuts into your soul.
For reaall though. It wedges into your very being and Does Not Leave. It’s so insane but not necessary in a bad way.
As a woman who's had her fair share of toxic and abusive relationships and s/a this song is so cathartic on those days I need a little help coping.
And the torment of mental illness, begging your own brain to stop it's mad descent.
My heart goes out to you, I’m glad you can find a bit of comfort in the song. it’s message is a heavy one, but one that needed to be shared; if it could reach just one person, let them know that they’re not alone in their experiences…
I sincerely hope that life’s treating you a bit better these days, and that even if you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, there is always someone you can reach out to, always a reason to keep fighting.
I hope you have a wonderful day/night!
that spiral of mental illness is fucking brutal, and it's honestly debilitating when it happens. even when you feel you've escaped, it's not over. sometimes you're just forced to relive it all and can't do anything about it. it sucks
I was wondering how someone would show emphasis on the 'stop' scream, and i think you did it well. Even reading it, it builds dread. Good job
I spent some nights crying over this song.. mother cain is good, and her voice is beautiful.
I was trying to look up some old Egyptian history and I couldn’t spell it so this popped up. Holy crap dude this song is just EARRY AS SHEET.
“i am the face of love’s rage” 💔
This perfectly characterizes the ab*se that I suffered (and still suffer from) at the hands of my father, as he continues to haunt me from the grave. The complex trauma, the hatred towardw him, towards myself. I feel so seen.
I hope life gets better for you. Get out as soon as you can, for your own safety! (Mental well being)
Edit: Oh, I didn't read it fully. Well, shoot. Hope you're getting therapy now, ma'am. Get out of this mental hell, you know?
The stay safe part actually creeped me out a bit because what’s going to happen
The background noise from the beginning reminds me of flies swarming around a rotting corpse.
I think it’s supposed to be.
there's just something so eerily enchanting about this
This is quite honestly one of the best songs ever written, ever.
To every person who has been SA'd, my heart goes to you. You're strong. You're brave. You're loved. You didn't deserve what happened to you. I wish every single haunting memory, every feeling and every sense of pain could be taken away from your soul. I hope you find peace, love, a comfort zone. I hope you find somewhere you can call home. You're a warrior. Never forget that ❤
Wonderful message, thank you for your comforting words! I hope you have a safe and happy life, safe travels, stranger :>
This is so creepy so unsettling I LOVE IT. I'M LITERALLY OBSESSED
Me and you 🤝 live, laugh, stan Ethel Cain
Glad you like the song as much as I do! You should totally go check out some of her other stuff, it won’t disappoint, promise!
Me and you 🤝 live, laugh, stan Ethel Cain
Glad you like the song as much as I do! You should totally go check out some of her other stuff, it won’t disappoint, promise!
Whats the saying. Art should disturb the comforted by comfort the disturbed?
You nailed it right on the head!
easily the best song on the album this is actually INSANE
this song reminds me so much of my last relationship with my ex. plus he was very religious so it makes listening to this song alot harder bc my ex reminds me am of that male voice. i love this song so much it brings me so much comfort
the choking sounds at end omfg
When?
@@ladyvictoria820at the end
@@ladyvictoria820you can hear it through the disembodied prayer, when someone is saying blessings. Every once in a while through the music, there's a gasp or choke
@@Acquaintance6336 ...Ah. 🥴
shivers at the screams oh my god
For my first ever RUclips comment.. I truly wish I didn’t not stumble upon this after suffering several panic attacks. This triggered another one. But god is it fucking hauntingly beautiful. And I never want to hear it again.
getting a "panic attack" from a song you chose to play. Just hit pause and touch some grass, jesus 🙄 it's ppl like you that make others not treat mental illnesses seriously
I'm so sorry you went through this. I pray that things get better for you and you'll never have to suffer from this kind of pain ever again❤
This song is so good I cry. This is comfort. This comforts me and I don’t know why when it’s creepy but the meaning is the reason why it’s comfort.
I found this recently in my spotify playlist and I'm still amazed, thrilling and also scared how this song made me feel but this is a masterpiece and no one can every try to copy such feelings which this song made me feel
I was listening to this song while I was experiencing anaemia. Haunting and painful yet so so cathartic and beautiful
GOD I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG
Someone put he fear of being stalked by a dangerous person into words and it is surprisingly cathartic!
I'm not a woman (trans guy) but holy crap as someone who has been ab*sed multiple times this is like setting me off but I can't stop listening to it.
It’s made by a trans artist, honestly I feel like this song even extends to trans victims of SA. Or literally anyone. This song is the most relatable song out there about surviving things like this
I followed you in and I was with you there
I invited you in twice, I did
You love blood too much
But not like I do
Not like I do
Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you
Need you, love you, love you, love you
Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
You'd do well to say yes to me
Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee
Promising a big fire, any fire
Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me
I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire
Suffering is nigh, drawing to me
Calling me the one, I'm the white light
Beautiful, finite
Even the iron still fears the rot
Hiding from something I cannot stop
Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh
Buckled on the floor when night comes along
Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh
You poor thing
Sweet, mourning lamb
There's nothing you can do
It's already been done
What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face)
Please, don't look at me
I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me
Tell me, what have you done?
Stop, stop, stop, make it stop
Stop, make it stop, make it stop
I've had enough
Stop, stop, stop, stop
Stop, stop, stop, stop
I am the face
Of love's rage
I am the face
Of love's rage
Blessed be the Daughters of Cain
Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception
Blessed be their whore mothers
Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again
Blessed be the children
Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence
Blessed be you, girl
Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you
I am no good nor evil, simply I am
And I have come to take what is mine
I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood
I am here now, as you run from me still
Run then, child
You can't hide from me forever
Oh this my childhood frr
This song reminds me of why i cry when a girl is born into this world. Im so sorry for all the pain and suffering to come.
I got saed at the age of 9.
Im 14 now, its still there, it never goes away, that feeling, of now being in control of ur own body, the feeling is still there.
i am so sorry that happened to you
The best advice I have for you is to get therapy, or at least a safe support group (people you trust.)
Please-please-please stay strong. There is a light at the end of the tunnel: It will get better for you.
The beginning is ethal disoriented from the drugs isiah gave to her
When she screams stop, thats when he kills her
3:57 best part
I never knew a song could make me cry so much. 3:59
this is terrifyingly beautiful
Me and my csa flashbacks are in debt with this song 😭😭
Terrifying, amazing, and also slightly triggering. Great production though.
3:57 my fav part ❤❤❤
We need more videos like this, this video calms me in a way no other.
Every time I listen to this song I get chills. Ethel Cains voice is so powerful, this song is a work of art that scares me more than any scary movie I’ve ever seen.
I love this song, it gives me a discomforting comfort. Although I am upset at the fact that I found it in a TikTok by someone who has insulted and invalidated male victims of s/a :/
3:55 best part imo
So this is what Trauma sounds like.
INCREDIBLE
AMAZING
3:16
reall💯
yeah me too
She fckin ate with this song
I just found this song and I love it
3:17 3:57
4:21
1:28
5:12
wow..
It's 11pm
I'm scared
Lol, I know that feeling xD I discovered the song about a week ago and after listening I literally just had to sit and contemplate everything for a good minute afterwards- really makes you think, lol
Karaoke night?
Oh that was a lot to take in
beautiful.
stay safe omg😂😂😂😂reminds me of emily autumn for her gothic scary ones
I’m a minute in and I’m about to have a heart attack
how is everyone doing after the 2024 election. i feel empty
I figured id find my people here. Im devastated
@@NullAndVoidTV the mentally right people. hi there.
"you'd do well to say yes to me" .
That's the correct lyrics.
Does it say something that this song speaks to me, as a woman? This sounds like girlhood/womanhood to me.
jesus christ😭
you know the song is a banger when its about a girl eating her assaulter's dead body
this not what ptolemaea is about 😭
@@lorie444 oh awhile ago I saw a bunch of people say it was
@@90re__puppy no, but ethel's dead body does get eaten in 'strangers'.
in ptolemaea, previous to strangers, she's hallucinating under the effects of some drug(s) while being tortured by isaiah, her lover.
2:45
Ok wow
40 seconds in and I had to pause- fuck that warning at the beginning was warranted
I'm crying wtf why is this affecting me so much
Edit: finished it
What a masterpiece
I think the dissociation is kicking in though, I no longer feel like I exist
3:50
When you’re a fictional villain and commit the most iniquitous sins known to man while still getting a good night sleep like it’s all nothing:
I wasn't mentally prepared to face my demons as a man, but I did by LISTENING to this song. God forgive me cuz my soul wont.
god i love women
I always though it was “you’d do well to say yes to me”
As a sa survivor this song really matches the feeling. It was from my ex partner , hated it
im sorry
THIS SONG HAS MY PUNANI EXPLODIDJNTNTNTNTNTGGGGG
For me this song is about God. God is talking to Ethel. Precisely the God of the old testment, the one who is vengeful and blood thirsty.
I don't understand why this has a warning
I felt it needed a warning because the song alludes to cannibalism, manipulation and sexual assault and can be triggering for people going into the song blind, better safe than sorry.
This song can be harder for one person to sit through and not really affect another, but at least giving a heads up that this song has the *potential* to trigger bad feelings is better than not doing so.
Though I know this song has brought a lot of survivors comfort in its own way, it’s also caused harm to people in bad mindsets and made it worse because they didn’t know what to expect.
By giving a warning, I hope to at least make people give pause and think about if they’re in a good enough headspace to hear the song.
I've never felt closter to God than when men have punished me for being a woman. If god exists, I've never worshipped him. And if I'm wrong, he'll be the one begging for my forgiveness when I die. I'll prefer Hell to his false love
Hi
Hi
Hello
Tim drake… nice
the real question is tho are u wearing that sweater in an ethical cain vinyl way or republican way?
Is this song about SA? Or anything
S/A .. sadly
I followed you in and I was with you there
I invited you in twice, I did
You love blood too much
But not like I do
Not like I do
Heard you, saw you, felt you, gave you
Need you, love you, love you, love you
Heard you, saw you, felt you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
Love you, love you, love you, love you
You'd do well to say yes to me
Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee
Promising a big fire, any fire
Saying I'm the one, he's gonna take me
I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire
Suffering is nigh, drawing to me
Calling me the one, I'm the white light
Beautiful, finite
Even the iron still fears the rot
Hiding from something I cannot stop
Walking on shadows, I can't lead him back, uh
Buckled on the floor when night comes along
Daddy's left and momma won't come home, oh, uh
You poor thing
Sweet, mourning lamb
There's nothing you can do
It's already been done
What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (show me your face)
Please, don't look at me
I can see it in your eyes, he keeps looking at me
Tell me, what have you done?
Stop, stop, stop, make it stop
Stop, make it stop, make it stop
I've had enough
Stop, stop, stop, stop
Stop, stop, stop, stop
I am the face
Of love's rage
I am the face
Of love's rage
Blessed be the Daughters of Cain
Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers committed long before their conception
Blessed be their whore mothers
Tired and angry, waiting with bated breath in a ferry that will never move again
Blessed be the children
Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence
Blessed be you, girl
Promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you
I am no good nor evil, simply I am
And I have come to take what is mine
I was there in the dark when you spilled your first blood
I am here now, as you run from me still
Run then, child
You can't hide from me forever
5:12
3:16 1:28
3:57
3:33